04 June 2013

Just hit me

Minding my own business, eating lunch and it just hit me like a ton of bricks.  Today my guy has been gone for 2 months.  Holy crap, feels more like 6 months.

I’ve been thinking about past memories both good and bad.  I miss him like crazy!

Last night I did get home early but not as early as I thought.  Someone forgot to tell me that where I was going I would have to seek an alternate route, because the roads were flooded.  I found that out the hard way and I was quite pissed off. 

I scarfed down supper and fed the children.  Sat through an episode of Reba and then decided it was time to get to work.  I did work on the stupid phones and got the light to go out, which is what I was after.  I thought I could bridge our two lines together so that would give me more jacks for my line but it didn’t work out.  I at least accomplished what I set out to do.

I got a call last night from a friend who wasn’t at the dinner.  He was asking about it.  I told him it was okay but I really missed him.  He said that his friendship with my guy was private and he didn’t know all those people plus he just buried his cat.  Why not just tell me you didn’t want to come and leave it at that.  I am not happy about it but I will get over it.  We talked about getting together for a bite to eat.  The ball is in his court and I’m telling you he won’t follow through.  We all were supposed to get together for months and then my guy up and died and he felt like shit for not getting together with us.  He’s one of these people who is hen pecked and does what his wife tells him.  If she doesn’t remind him to wipe he probably doesn’t do it.  I am totally disgusted by that.  Think for yourself, God gave you a brain for a reason. 

After that call I got the trash out.  Then my phone rang and it was my mom, but turned out to be my brother.  He asked me how I was doing and I told him I was in pain. Oh is it because of the death business.  No I responded it’s because my foot is stuck in your ass.  Of course it’s because of the death business.  What a stupid question.  We chatted for a bit then I was forced to talk to my mom.  She went on and on about her problems which are all delusions.  It was a total waste of an hour.  Nice to talk but at the same time I would have rather spent the time watching TV.  My family is useless, which is why me and my guy told each other we are all the other one has.  Kind of scary when you think about it.  I am truly on my own now.

I decided to do something different last night and watch a porn movie in the living room.  That didn’t quite work out the way I wanted to.  So I quickly abandoned that idea and just retreated to my bed room.  Watched TV with the cats and gave them all the attention they wanted.  Never mind I was tired. 

I found a movie on NetFlix with Gregory Smith in it.  Damn he is one hottie.  He played a teenager who made friends with this married couple, then wound up sleeping with the wife.  It was strange but interesting.  He is the sole reason why I watched the movie.  Got some good shirtless views, that’s about it.  At close to 11pm the movie was over with and ended kind of strange.  I called it a night and lights out. 

Today I got asked about all of the hardware in my office and how it’s coming.  So I switched gears and now I am in configuration mode.  I will get back to my security project after the configuration is done.  My latest problem is that the anti-theft software for one machine isn’t calling in, so if it’s stolen I am screwed.  I am working to fix it but waiting on a phone call before that will happen.  It’s time to engage tech support for the product. 

I have to touch about 100 machines individually and there is no image, it’s all manual setup.  Kind of sucks being an Army of one.  If I had a helper I could bounce things off of, we could probably automate this or at the very least we would only have 50 machines each.  Ah well, so be it.  An Army of one has advantages and disadvantages.  If I’m hit by a bus then they will be really screwed here.

That’s about it for now.  Lunch time is over with and it’s almost time to go back to configuration madness.  Supper tonight I think will be frozen lasagna and garlic bread.  There isn’t a whole lot there but hopefully it’s good.  I’ve got Bomb Pops for desert and they are awesome.  No licking or sucking, I just chomp right into them.  Reba will be on the TV and the children will be eating and bothering each other over food.  Then we will all settle down and I will hit up my computer and before you know it today will be done. 

Still having 2nd thoughts about the weekend, I want to sell his stuff but I really don’t want to get up that early to go sit for a “maybe” sale.  I could easily wind up lugging everything back home and that wouldn’t be much fun. 

Well computers here I come.  Talk with you peeps later.

1 comment:

Jude said...

Wow it IS hard to believe it has been 2 months already.... but I bet it feels like a lifetime, AND like it was only yesterday. Both. It's so hard. ((((hugs))))