29 March 2017


As it concerns me, the drama at work has been resolved.  Nothing is going in my file, I did nothing wrong and it’s a non-issue.  You’d think that my accuser would render an apology either by being compelled to do so by our employer or just out of sheer guilt.  However, an apology will not be rendered.  The other lady that was also falsely accused is not letting this rest, it has stirred up quite the shit storm and my understanding is that it’s now headed to senior management since the low level people are unable to do their jobs.  What a mess, I am interested to hear how it plays out but I really don’t want to be involved anymore than I already have been.

On the home front, I managed to medicate Ruthie over the weekend with some flea medicine.  It was quite a challenge as per usual.  She crapped out of being nervous and even managed to get it in the air vent.  That was lovely to clean up and the smell was just extra worse, I suppose out of the sheer fear I instilled.  However, she is doing better.  The funny thing was she put up a little bit of a fight.  I brushed her out a bit and then put the medicine on as soon as she felt the wet, she was off like a bull out of a chute.  Thankfully there was only a drop of the medicine left and the majority of it was applied to her.  We are still very much friends.  She really likes my bed, she was in it when I got home from work on Monday night.  When she saw me she took off because she thought I was going to do something but I just said hello and minded my own business.

Bear is being difficult and has my senses up, he is not chowing down like he normally does and he has to have multiple cans of food before he eats.  He still eats his dry food but not as much.  Thankfully he still loves his water.  He went a day without producing urine, which really threw up the red flag for me.  I am worried that he is starting to circle the drain.  It could just be the change in weather.  In any case I am keeping an extra close eye on him.

That is about as exciting as life gets for me.  I am still in search of my Romeo.  No prospects but I still open the apps on a daily basis, it’s like knowing you have no food but yet you open the fridge in hopes that will change but it won’t until you fill it up.  There is some home that things will change for me.  But it’s very much a gamble.  I some how keep seeing guys from far away, part of that is a feature of some of the apps that allow you if you pay to put yourself in other areas and the other part I think is defective on the part of the app.  I am adamant that I want a local guy and not someone who is 500 miles away.  When will the search end?  That is the answer I am looking for.  I did some googling over the weekend and found some new sites that I checked out but quickly abandoned.

Tomorrow is my rub a dub day.  I am looking forward to it, but only if she can work out this one particular knot.  I start off my day doing okay and by the end of the day my shoulder and back are really bothering me.  II go home with the best of intentions of getting out the massager or an ice pack or both and as of late it rarely happens.  I played with a massager last night that belonged to my late partner. I saw it on line with a particular attachment, that didn’t ship with his.  Still it helped a little bit but I like the one I have been using so I’ll stick with that when I do use it.  I am thinking of getting a percussion massager, that is suppose to really do the trick.  What I’d really like is a massage chair, where you sit down, press a button and presto it works on your whole body.  Those are super expensive and likely not to survive in my house because they are usually leather and all of my cats have claws so I know they would rip it to shreds. 

Off to face Wednesday and see what challenges are in store for me today.  I hope that it’s a calm but fast moving day.  I have no idea what’s for supper but I am eager to figure that out.  Got a few meetings today, kind of boring but I know I will survive.  Hope all is well in your world and that the sun is shining brighter than ever.  Looks like I am taking time off for Good Friday, just happened to co-inside with a doctors appointment and I didn’t want to come back for 1 day.  Planning on making that Friday all about me and doing something that I will enjoy hopefully outside of loafing around the house.  It’s time to get moving.  Be well and we will talk again soon.

24 March 2017

More Drama

Thursday morning I was involved in some unfortunate drama myself.  I arrived to the office early, as I usually try to do.  I decided to stop by and talk with a co-worker which is also something that is a common thing that happens.  In the middle of our conversation someone that sits close by stood up and yelled at us that we need to find a different place to gossip because it’s disturbing to her.  I am not the type of person that would let something like that go without a response, but my inner voice said don’t say anything so for once I listened.  That was the best advice ever because if I had opened my mouth the out come would be way different.  This event ruined my day and it also took up a good portion of it with emails, an interview and then at night talking with my co-worker.

The lady that made the accusation was a fool and later recanted her story and said she didn’t know what we were talking about but that we were whispering and that bothered her.  Yeah because the nutty bitch was dying to know what we were talking about.  The real crux of the issue here is that the lady I was talking to and the lady that made the outburst hate each other, I was simply caught in the cross fire.  The lady that I was talking to doesn’t want me to stop coming by because she said then she wins, I said this isn’t a hostage negotiation.  I want to keep my job and don’t want any outlandish inflammatory and wholly inaccurate accusations made about me now or in the future. 

Anyway I heard that my boss would catch wind of this and that something was going to be placed in my personnel file.  That angered me.  The boss part is fine but the putting something in my file, yeah I did nothing wrong and to boot I was on my own time.  So it’s not like I wasn’t doing my job.  I asked for a written apology but I knew that wouldn’t happen.

By the end of the day I asked our office manager for written confirmation that the entire story from start to finish would be placed in my file, including the fact that the accuser recanted their story.  He deflected and referred me to my boss.  Which caused me to reach directly out to HR this morning.  I won’t get any type of a response until Monday because my boss and the HR person are both on vacation.  I did get a call from my boss this morning and we spoke briefly about this and thus far it doesn’t sound like it’s going to be an issue, again I have to wait for Monday for confirmation.

I am exhausted and just want to curl up in my home and be left alone.  Fat chance of that happening when I am on-call.  Hopefully I can get some quality sleep and maybe that will include a nap or two. 

As you can well imagine I was quite knotted up for my massage.  She worked and worked on me.  It hurt but for the most part I feel better.  I do have one residual knot that is driving me nuts.  I will be working on that tonight at home, hopefully I can get it to breakup and then I’ll be okay. 

That is all of the major stuff happening right now.  Excitement is one thing but drama is something that is best when it’s on TV or in the movies.  Looking forward to quitting time that is just 40 minutes away, yay!

Hope you have a pleasant and enjoyable weekend.  Take care and we will talk again soon.

22 March 2017

Dear John

My friend called last night.  I was a little apprehensive to take the call but I did.  He isn’t mad at all, everything seems perfectly fine.  I guess he was just in a bad mood when we had our disagreement.  So not a whole lot knew for him.  He recently went to a Psychic Fair and learned that a close friend is going to die.  Wow he could have told me anything but that.  So I asked him if he called to tell me that I was going to die?  He said no but a close friend could be a pet.  Yeah I think she would have said pet and not close friend if it were a 4 legged being.  Shortly after his encounter he woke up to a text message from his female friend that informed him that she couldn’t see him any longer. So they are done.  I knew that it wouldn’t last but it was something that formed quickly and while they had a lot in common she said it was too soon for her.  I get it, been there done that.  He seems okay with it but I know he didn’t need any more bad news.

Speaking of bad news looks like my car issues are headed to a law suit.  I had contact with my attorney’s office today.  They say my case is strong so I hope for a good outcome.  While I don’t see how this could go south, I know that it is possible.

No word yet from my lawn guy, I hope to have a response from him by Saturday.  We are moving into opening season for lawn cutting and if I need to find someone else then it would be nice to know that as quickly as possible.  My guess is that he will either come back with changes to the contract or just refuse to sign it.  Just because there is no contract doesn’t mean we can’t do business but this was his requirement, not mine.  I’d like to clear this issue off of my plate as well. 

Ye old back is still sore and bothering me.  Last night I got some time with an ice pack but didn’t use the massager.  I felt better this morning.  Now that I have been working all day long I can feel the tension and soreness.  Thankfully tomorrow is Thursday so my massage is hours away. 

Looking forward to spending more time with the kids tonight, catching up on TV and trying to relax.  The relaxing part is up for debate because if it isn’t the phone then it’s the kids and both require something from me.  Hopefully it’s q you get the word I was going to say.  I decided not to say it in case it jinxes me. 

Ruth is not bashful about asking for some scratching.  I tried to play with her and she hissed and me and smacked me with her paw.  Then ran away.  Ten minutes later she was back and asking for more love.  Something has gotten to her, there are scabs all over her neck and I understand it itches.  Whatever it is, is still very much alive and active.  So I get to capture her which she will hate and put on some flea medicine.  I’d do it during a scratching session but she watches like a hawk, if she detects a momentary pause that is enough to send her running out of panic.  I don’t want to half ass give her the medicine or risk it getting on a part of her that it doesn’t belong.  So that is why I am opting to trap her – she will get a brushing and then some flea medicine which should hopefully calm things down and get her on the mend.  If not then I will have to engage the vet and I am not really all about that. 

One more hour to go and then it will be time to hit the dusty trail.  I am looking forward to it.  Plus we are closer to the weekend.  It’s supposed to rain here all weekend.  I need to hit up the vet at the pet food store and see about getting new prescription cards for Bear’s food.  They only issued them for a few months.  Prescriptions in the US are generally good for 1 year, both for people and animals. The exceptions to that rule are for controlled substances.  Like my sleeping medicine, the doctor puts 3 refills but the pharmacy only allows 1 and then you need a new prescription.  They want you to get it and they won’t call the doc for it.  Kind of silly because they will call for everything else. 

Happy middle of the week.  Hope all is well in your world. 

21 March 2017


Ever since my mom phoned over the weekend, I have been thinking about excluding her.  She has no idea why I feel like I do and why I am avoiding her.  I’d love to lay it all out for her, but since I don’t know the status of the matter that is pending I would be a fool to do that now.  So I have to just avoid her.  Last night though I was dead tired I couldn’t turn my brain off.  I kept thinking about a decision that I came to mentally.  I had an odd dream.  However, I have forged ahead with my plan.  As of this morning my mom will no longer be able to call me, I have blocked her numbers so that if she does call all she will get is the standard telco recording that the number has been disconnected.  Thankfully she doesn’t have my cell phone but she may ask my brother for it, if he decides to cough it up I’ve got her blocked on my cell for 30 days, I can renew the block after that.  So if she calls all she will get is a fast busy signal.  It is a little bothersome that I have actually put this in place, but it’s for my own sanity and safety.  I can’t deal with any of her drama and don’t want to risk saying something about a subject I shouldn’t be talking about.  I may get a call from my brother but then again I kind of doubt that.  He hasn’t kept in touch and I last spoke with him around summer of last year.  That was quite sometime ago.

My next part of the plan is to get an Easter card and send it with a note.  Just to acknowledge that she called and say hello, letting her know that I am okay.  I am sure she worries about me, as any mother would worry about their own child.  I am comfortable with my decision but deep down I know it’s going against the grain.  So it feels odd but I’ve essentially been doing this for a while, just never blocked her from calling.  If I get to tell her one day what this is all about great.  If I don’t then she will never know.  That is kind of a fear of mine, I don’t like to leave things unsettled, I like closure.  However, I’ve been put in an odd spot and to a degree I think she is apart of that so I have to do what is best for me.  Regardless of how it feels.

I’d really love nothing more than to have a supportive and understanding family that is normal.  However, from the time I was conceived things haven’t been normal in my life.  I don’t think they are going to ever get there.  I am semi-comfortable being alone, I mean the only person I need in this world is myself.  I proved that time and time again.  However, I don’t want to be alone I’d like more friends and of course a man.  That may happen eventually.  I think if I can get a man that the friend part will follow.  I am still on the apps and looking.  I am very anxious to fall in love, move forward and get on with my life.  Unfortunately, in the game of life things don’t move as fast as you want them to. 

I’ve faced my worst possible fear, I don’t know that many people are able to say that.  I also don’t know those that can say it can say they have survived, but I can.  I am thankful for everything that I have and that things have turned out so well.  My next greatest fear is that my life will fall apart and that I will loose everything.  I work hard to keep that fear at bay, but honestly it’s so close that it’s palpable..  Miss a couple paychecks and my world will start to crumble.  Scary how close it is.

There is stuff going on at work that will either end my job or keep my job.  It’s stuff that I am not supposed to know but with the nature of my job I have come across information.  I can’t and haven’t shared it with anyone.  I’ve asked my boss about it in general terms and he has no idea or he too is playing dumb.  I work with a lot of smart people and lots of people are talking right now.  At the moment and for the foreseeable future I am okay.  I do think that there will be some further staffing cuts, I am told I am safe but really no one is safe, were all replaceable.  I was the last one in so it would make sense that I would be the first one out.  I really enjoy what I do and am quite happy, despite the minor issues that arise.  I’d love to keep this job if not for the rest of my working life, then for a very long time.  We don’t always get what we want but I am very fortunate to be in the position I am, this in many ways is a dream come true. 

Okay so I am jumping off the soap box.  Back to ye old salt mine.  3 more days left.  Still looking forward to my massage on Thursday.  I still hurt and know that the massage will be painful but hopefully it will do the most good.  If I had the money I’d sign up for a couple hours.  There was one lady that used to work here she was seriously overweight and she would sign up for 2 to 3 hours at a time.  You couldn’t get her to come upstairs for any other reason but the minute the massage signup sheet went out she would be on the first elevator up.  Crazy but then again she was rolling in money, took 2 cruises every year.  Wish I could afford to do that.  Heard this morning on the news that people who don’t take vacations are more likely to die of a heart attack or stroke.  I’d love a vacation it sounds good, just not practical, especially since I wouldn’t have anyone to spend it with. 

Hope your having an awesome Tuesday!  Talk with you again soon.  Thanks for stopping by.


20 March 2017

Average Monday

The alarm clock went off far too early for me, I could have used another hour or two of sleep.  Bear was with me the entire night.  He started clawing at the box spring, as if to say hey dummy it’s time to get up.  I heard the alarm but I didn’t want to acknowledge it.  Got moving and the house was a bit chilly this morning.  Nothing like a little cold in the air to put some pep in your step. 

I heard the weather forecast and we are going from Winter to Summer, but only for today.  It’s supposed to be in the 80’s.  Yeah not a typo.  The house will be hot tonight I am sure, really don’t want to fire up the AC but if it is too humid I will turn it on.  Back to more normal temps tomorrow, only into the 50’s which is fine.  I enjoy nice weather and even some warm weather but when you start in the 80’s that is getting a little too hot for me. 

Driving in my car over the weekend I used the sunroof and it reminded me to make sure to put sunscreen on my head.  My old car had a smaller roof and a smaller sunroof, so it wasn’t a worry then.  This big boat of mine now is large in every way.  I am comfortable in it.  Just wish I didn’t have so many problems with it.  This morning on the way in the Bluetooth audio flaked, I had to go to FM and then back to Bluetooth.  That solved one problem.  The display that shows what song is playing was lagging behind, if you skipped a song it may or may not update.  I made it to work with tunes so that is the main thing.  Let’s hope all systems are normal when I fire it up for the ride home.  I will likely get to test out the AC in the car, let’s hope that goes well.

Ran the massager over my back last night, felt good.  I’ve got knots again from today, so I’ll be using it again tonight.  I have scheduled a massage on Thursday for my usual hour.  I hope things calm down well before that. 

Looking forward to a nice evening at home.  Enjoying my left over casserole, more ice cream and time with the kids.  If your looking for a laugh check out NBC’s Trial & Error.  I didn’t think I would like it but it’s just one laugh after another. 

Things at work in the drama department are a little calmer but not by much.  Let’s hope that ship sails soon and she is back to normal.  The last thing we need is another flair up.  I’m telling you she would be so much happier if she had a man to ride her, I mean she is just a big ball of stress.  You have to let that all go or it will eat you alive.  Plus it will kill off your friendships, quicker than Roundup kills weeds. 

Just about a 1/2 hour more and this day will be done.  I am so looking forward to that.  Hope you had a great day and that your night is even better.  Talk with you again soon.

19 March 2017

Another awesome movie

I took a muscle relaxer last night and while I was waiting for it to kick in I rented Pass The Light.  It’s about a high school kid who runs for political office, because he doesn’t like the way the present politicians are running things.  It is from 2015 but it’s got a great message and it’s inspirational.  Worth the $3.99 I paid Amazon to watch it.  There is one tune that I like from the movie, the rest of it is Christian Rock type stuff and not for me.  I’d tell my co-worker to watch it if we were still friends, I know that she would enjoy it.  Funny thing about her she only listens to Christian Rock but she will watch secular movies.  Is that odd or is it just me? 

My back is feeling a little bit better.  I am about to go upstairs and run the massager over it.  I am finishing another movie called Henry’s Crime.  It’s about a guy who is convicted of robbing a bank, but he didn’t know he was committing a crime.  He was driving the get away car but he thought he was taking his pals to a ballgame.  They convinced him to stop at the bank so they could pick up some cash and they went in and robbed the bank.  They get away but he goes to jail because the bank security guard got him.  Now that he is out of jail, he is robbing the bank for real.  The main character is played by Keanu Reaves.  Not quite sure how this slipped passed my radar but it did, glad I found it.  It’s included with Prime so no charge for this one. 

Went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast.  I saw my crush just as I was leaving.  He got a make over.  Totally different haircut and he looks to have shaved, which is nice.  I caught him out of the corner of my eye and I don’t think he saw me at all.  I had a great breakfast.  Grocery shopping was the pits as per usual.  Dropped another $85 for a weeks worth of food. 

Listening to some music and just relaxing when the phone rings.  It’s my mom.  I knew I recognized the number but I couldn’t quite place it.  So I let it go to voice mail.  Glad I made that move.  She wants to talk, said that she misses me.  I think of her often but my life is so much better without her in it.  Drama central of which I do not need.  Yes I sound like Yoda, I know. 

It’s been a few weeks since I heard from my friend.  I re-read the email that I sent him.  I am not sure after he read that if he will actually talk with me again.  I said that I knew he would help me if the tables were turned.  Yeah the tables were turned and he helped by listening.  What I meant by my statement was that if I just lost my wife and was in his shoes and he were in mine.  Now maybe I am surmising too much.  Maybe he will call next week, seems to be that when I am on call I hear from him.  So time will tell. 

I have to get ready for Monday and spend some time with the children before I head off to slumber land.  The evening goes by so very fast.  I had the Chicken, Brocolli, Pasta with cheese dish.  There is some left over for tomorrow night.  I got some Washington Apple Pie Ice Cream again and it paired up really nice.  Got 2 Italian Subs that I chopped up to individual sandwiches to have at lunch time.  That will be different and very good. 

Let’s hope that this week is uneventful and relaxing.  There will be fewer meetings, which means fewer time on the phone and that makes me happy.  At least there is something to look forward to.  Take care and I hope you have a great week ahead!

18 March 2017

Whoa my back!


I got a quick massage on Thursday.  My back was killing me right in between my shoulder blades.  That is usually where is starts and then it radiates either out or up before the pain leaves my body.  I actually felt a knot be pushed out, it was like popping a large pimple but with lots of pain.  The therapist worked and worked and presto there it went.  When she was all done I felt fine.  However, as the hours passed the pain returned.  Today my right shoulder is killing me.  I’ve felt some popping go on and that has felt good but it still really hurts.  I lifted Bear last night not once but twice.  I knew I shouldn’t but he insisted, like I would ever tell him no and actually mean it.  It happens but it’s very rare. 

I had my Saturday all planned out I was going to enjoy the nice day and go for a drive and get some pie.  However, as the day grew older my desire to get on the open road diminished, all I could think about was the pain I was in.  What if it was too uncomfortable and I couldn’t drive anymore, I’d be away from home and that isn’t a situation I want to put myself in.  So I talked myself out of going for a drive.  I started thinking about food close to home. 

Later this afternoon I went out for Chinese food.  I had my usual Crab Rangoon, Egg Roll and order of Special Fried Rice.  Washed it all down with several glasses of Diet Pepsi.  Got an almond cookie for free as desert.  I have the traditional fortune cookie I brought home with me. 

Remembered my coupon and stopped by the cat food store.  Picked up lots of cat food, got some litter and then paid the same bill I paid last week only this week it was slightly less due to the coupon and I got more, so not terrible but I wasn’t pleased. 

Drove to gas up and then on to the car wash.  Ah the car wash where all of the cute boys seem to work.  There was an average looking guy working there, I mean if we were all alone on a deserted island I wouldn’t turn him away but he really didn’t do that much for me. 

I feel like a predator in the dating world.  I hit on a 24 year old guy and he turned me down flat.  He was so cute and his profile indicated that he had been rejected by multiple people.  I figured why not give it a try.  Yeah that is probably a bit too young for me but I can’t help myself I really want a younger guy.  I’m still in the dating pool and just thinking about all of the stories and memories that I can share with my future guy, the waiting part hurts but hopefully in the end the pay off will be worth it. 

There is an Australian Magazine called DNA that I really want.  I’d like the printed version but it’s super expensive to have it mailed from there to the USA.  They offer an on-line or digital subscription but to me it’s not quite the same.  They feature some really hot guys, to my knowledge you might see a backside here and there but for the most part the guys are shirtless but otherwise dressed.  They have some super hunks in there that just make my mouth water.  I added them on social media and get frequent updates which equal temptation for me.  I’ve got the money right now today but I don’t really want to spend it that way. 

Thought that I fixed Marv’s diarrhea by eliminating the ants, but as soon as I bragged about it, I got home and it came right back.  Poor guy I feel sorry for him.  He’s eating and drinking normal.  He plays so I would say he’s mostly normal.  There are a couple of things about him that cause me some concern but I am monitoring him.

Work is still there, we got a break from some of the drama on Friday because my co-worker took a 1/2 day.  To say that she needed it, would be an understatement.  A lot has changed in her world and she is very bitter.  My boss thinks that it will all change come next week, but he’s on vacation and I have to put up with her.  We got hit with the next round of new hires and a surprise departure.  One of the guys I used to work with in my old position.  I spoke with him and he said that he was retiring, he just turned 65.  Holy cow, I would have never guessed that he was that old.  I knew he was older but I figured 50’s.  Guess I am a poor judge of age.  Then again people tell me that I look 30 when I am in my 40’s.

Age is only how old your body is, it’s just a number and in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t mean anything.  Lots of people are in marriages and relationship s that have a slight or a very wide swing in their partners ages, those relationships have been on-going for years.

I saw a really great movie today.  It was on Amazon and cost me $4.99 but it was worth every penny.  It stars Tom Wopat, remember him from the Dukes of Hazard?  I’m talking about the TV show.  It’s also got Gregory Harrison.  He was Dr. Gonzo Gates on the TV show Trapper John M.D.  The movie is called Fair Haven and was released in 2016.  It’s about a gay kid who’s mom passed away, his father shipped him to a pray the gay away Christian camp.  The kid is ‘cured’ of his illness/sickness/disease (meaning being gay) and returns home.  His father fixes him up with a friends daughter and they go on a couple dates,  He runs into his old boyfriend and initially rejects him.  His feelings for this guy resurface and he tries his hardest to push them aside but he fails.  He gives in and winds up sleeping with the guy.  The girl he was seeing caught them and so did his dad.  I will say that it ends well but don’t want to spoil it, on the off chance someone reading this is interested in seeing it.  Below is a trailer for the movie.  In looking for that it appears the movie is available on-line for free but beware that malicious actors often use this as a rouge to lure you in and serve up malware when you get on the site.  Sure you will get to see the movie or part of it, but they will gain access to your machine and may even infect your machine with ransomware.  In the end it’s not worth it, pay to see it you will be glad you did.  

The sad thing is that I can’t talk about this movie or other movies like it at work.  I don’t want the general office population to know about my sexuality, but I am sure they all probably do anyway.  The office I work in is not immune to gossip and back biting, it’s your typical office.  What more can I say?  The only thing that would have made watching this movie more enjoyable is if I had a guy be it a boyfriend or just a friend to watch it with me.  Seeing this movie does cause some regret for me in that I didn’t really come to terms with being gay until I got older, I knew about it in my teenage years but just didn’t acknowledge it.  Today I am comfortable with who I am.  I typically don’t flaunt it and it really has no bearing on my employment.  There are people at work that know, but if I had my druthers I wish I would have kept it a secret.  There are a certain group of people that are dying to know, they pretty much think it but no one will confirm or deny it and they don’t have the balls to ask me, they hope I will slip up.  They try to extract the information from me, but I know when I am being pumped and I shutdown. 

I think by in large society is more accepting today than it was when I was growing up.  I am happy about that but also wish that the same tolerance and acceptance would have been there back in my day.  The most that you will see me flaunt my sexuality is when the summer comes and I wear a couple of rainbow tee shirts.  I saw another one that I’d really like but won’t get.  It says don’t hate me because I am gay, hate me because I stole your man.  I think that is way funny. 

I have recently learned that one of my favorite places on earth now serves brunch.  I am talking about Maggiano’s.  I never in a million years thought I would see that.  I wish my late partner was still here, we would be making the drive for breakfast.  I’ll get there eventually but it’s not a priority for me.  The menu does look tempting though. 

Sunday’s adventure will be treating myself to breakfast, thinking of going back to Cracker Barrel to see if the guy who was crushing on me is still there.  I’d like to ask him if I misinterpreted his signals or if he just changed his mind.  I mean I’d like to know why he was all interested one day and then when he got my number he shutdown quicker than a sweatshop.  I don’t want to be dramatic or start a fight, I just want to be polite and tactful but still ask, so I know.  I mean when I am applying for jobs and I think I have it but I don’t get it, I ask.  Some places will tell you and other places will not.  He may say something or he may clam up.  Anyway, after my meal (regardless of where I go), I will be headed to the grocery store.  Then home to put it all away, clean the house and to prepare for Manic Monday.  I am on-call and we all know that crazy seems to follow me, so it should be an interesting week, especially when I am without a boss.  I mean I know who to go to if I need a manager but I won’t venture down that path unless it’s absolutely necessary. 

Now I am torn about what to do next.  Should I play on the computer or should I go jump into a hot shower.  Perhaps a bit of both.  SNL is supposed to be on and that is always a hoot.  I watch it for Weekend Update, I’ve got a wicked crush on Colin Jost.  He is so cute!

The weather is back to Spring again but that is subject to change.  I saw something funny on-line.  It was a wanted poster that police were looking for Mother Nature.  They said she was a bi-polar bitch.  Kind of funny.

I hope that all is well in your world.  Thanks for stopping by.

16 March 2017

My first contract

Last night I wrote my very first contract and I am pretty proud of it.  My new lawn guy sent me a contract, more like terms and conditions.  I had an attorney review it and provide me some feedback.  I had a plan to move forward but what I wanted to do looked crappy and could have opened me up to further liability.  I decided to chuck his contract in full and start fresh.  It’s a fair contract and I am told not a bad job for an amateur.  I agree to pay when he sends me a bill, he agrees to service my lawn and that if anything goes awry either to one of his workers, property or even a bystander I can’t be held liable.  Plus he agrees to carry insurance and I can ask for a copy of the policy at anytime.  I think he won’t know what hit him and he will not sign the contract.  I suspect that he will say either we part ways or lets just go off of our word of mouth agreement.  I am not a fan of contracts and commitments in general.  Love and marriage is different.  It’s just if I am financially obligated and something goes wrong I am stuck and there is no escape clause, other than filing Bankruptcy.  I don’t think anything will happen, but then again we never know what the future holds.  That is why there is such a thing as insurance.

Strained my back pretty good last night.  All of the computer work aggravated it and then I picked up Bear, not once but twice.  He wanted to sleep with me and he was adamant about it. 

I’ve spent the last two nights hunkered down in the basement on the damn computer.  Tonight I have said things will be different, just like I said that last night.  I have to get the trash out, then I can get out of my clothes, have supper and I plan to relax in front of the TV and get in some quality time with the kids.  I hope nothing or no one detracts me from my plan.  I got a quick 20 minutes massage and my back is still bothering me.  I only imagine how I will feel tomorrow. 

Its been another dramatic day with my c0worker, I am hopeful that she will calm down soon.  At least this time she is not upset with me, but I get all of the venting which is fine.  I just don’t buy in to the negativity and that probably makes her mad but just because she is having a shitty day, it’s no reason for me to ruin mine.

Well almost time to jet.  I hope that you had a great day.  TGIF tomorrow!!

14 March 2017

Not Bad

The moment of truth arrived and I got my pen.  It was well packaged and I didn’t quite know what to expect.  However, at first glance they did a good job copying the original. The one tell tail sign that it’s fake is the pocket clip.  It’s far too wide.  The pen uses original Mont Blanc refills but they do not screw in like the authentic version.  They shipped the pen with black ink and an old style Mont Blanc refill that had a longer stem for the ink.  If you buy a refill for it today and install it, you will easily see that the point barely sticks out.  The cap fits a little too tight.  The other obvious sign is that there is no serial number displayed.  They do have the logo on the cap and the writing around the middle with the Mont Blanc Logo and Meiserstuck wording.  So if you are not a connoisseur of fine writing instruments, I can see how you would be easily fooled.  For what I paid, I am satisfied.  I wish the refills fit better and the cap was smoother going on and coming off.  It really makes me crave the original.  You know the saying, there is nothing like the real thing.  Well that is true on so many levels with so many things.  Pens are no exception. 

I woke up this morning dreading coming in this morning.  I knew there would be more drama to deal with and I was right.  It was another day where I thought I packed my vibrator instead of my phone.  It buzzed most of the way in, although it was not quite as bad as yesterday.  I think things will start to calm down again.  I had a lengthy discussion with the boss and told him how off putting the drama was.  While I am not a fan of working with my co-worker because of our issue last year, I will be a happier person when she is in a better mood. 

Feels like winter outside and I drove in falling snow this morning.  It wasn’t sticking to anything and was kind of refreshing to drive in.  No accidents that I am aware of but the drive in was a little slow and congested in spots.  Still made it with a 1/2 hour to spare.  It pays to have a cushion, as you never know what you could encounter.  I’d rather be way early than way late any day. 

Earlier today the bldg. was messing with the HVAC system.  The blower shut off and it was odd.  It only lasted for a little bit and then it came back on.  Sounded like we were getting ready to get launched to infinity and beyond.  I saw a co-worker in the hallway and said hello and asked how she was doing.  The response I got back was ready for lift off as she was walking away.  My mind being what it is, took one look at her ass and thought that better be a fucking rocket or with an ass that wide your not going anywhere.  I didn’t say it out loud but I sure thought it.  I cracked myself up.  I don’t get how she appears in decent shape until you look at her ass and it’s bigger than a bread basket.  I know I am not slender/slim but dang!

Had fun with Ruth last night and made her mad at me.  I was scratching her up and down, left and right.  She was eating it up.  Then I stopped and she sat down.  I started touching her paws which she doesn’t like.  I acted like I was going to touch her face and I got her to swipe at me.  She only used her paw and the claws of death were not out.  I got the biggest kick out of that.  She didn’t like my reaction and she moved well out of my reach and gave me a death stare.  I could tell she was not happy.  Morning rolls around and she is back to her usual self, like nothing ever happened.  She will be on my bed tonight asking for more scratching.  When I first walked in and was eating supper she got sick, too much grooming.  It was a mess but I can see how she felt much better afterwards.  If she would just let me brush her instead of all of this scratching she would be much better off.  She has a bald spot on one of her hind legs, that’s where the tangle was that she let me pull out. They should invent a vacuum that has great sucking power but that isn’t noisy.  I could hook her up to that and she would be fixed up in no time flat.  Can you imagine time to vacuum the cat, instead of time to brush the cat.  It’s a great idea but I don’t know how to make it come to life. 

Finished up my left over pizza.  Had way too much ice cream and saw the premiers of Young & Hungry (sounds like a porn movie) and Baby Daddy while I was stuffing my face.  Great shows and it was nice to relax a little bit. 

Tonight it’s bill paying time, that will be nice.  Let’s hope that I have something left over when I am done.  I have to stop and grab mail again.  Whatever I eat I am sure it will be frozen.  Let’s hope it’s good as well.  I hope to spend time with the kids tonight.  Morning came around way too fast and while I was not as tired as yesterday, I was still tired. 

Happy Pie Day and Happy Potato Chip Day.  I had neither.  I am thinking of Pie for the weekend, that will depend upon how much $$ I have left over.  Hope you had a great day!  Talk with you again soon.

13 March 2017

Drama Express

The snow finally fell.  Morning commute was a little messy.  I had to take an alternate route because of an accident and thankfully I knew this before I even jumped in the car.  It was like driving in rain, no snow on the roads.  Looks beautiful on the trees and covering my lawn.  Shame it will all be washed away by the rain falling later today. 

On my way in my phone was blowing up.  I thought I packed a vibrator instead of my phone.  Yeah, it was that bad.  So I knew that either I just got spammed or there was something going on at work.  Turns out it was work. 

My co-worker found out that we all got rights taken away from us that we rely on in doing our jobs.  There was no notice given to us, it was just done.  This likely started with targeting my co-worker but someone realized they should widen the scope or it would look suspicious.  Then she found out where she was going to move to, turns out it’s a tiny cube used for a printer.  They are removing the printer and putting her in there in place of the printer.  Both of these things are totally unfair and I can understand why my coworker is upset.  She told me to start looking for a new job because that is what she is going to do.  Yeah, I’m not going to look for a new job just based on this.  It will take much more to drive me to that point.  The continued dramatics are enough to make me want to work some place else but I know which side my bread is buttered on. 

I called and spoke with our boss, turns out she had already beat me to the punch.  He really didn’t want to deal with it.  He cut our conversation short and said that the issues would be addressed, he had a full morning but he would get to it.  I can tell when someone is blowing me off and that is exactly what he was doing.  He doesn’t know how to deal with the drama and he’s permitted it for so long that it’s just out of control.  I don’t know how or if he will be able to reign her in and calm her down.  I get it, it feels personal and it’s humiliating to be shoved in a broom closet.  So hopefully he can make other arrangements for her so that she can have a cube like the rest of the people that work here.  I mean space is not an issue, if you can’t find a cube I am sure there is an empty office she could go in. 

I am wiped out from last night.  I took my extra dose of sleeping medicine but my body didn’t process it as quickly as it otherwise would have.  I didn’t go to bed until 11:30 which is much later than normal.  Marv had me up during the night.  Then morning just came around too early.  I wanted to stay home but forged forward.  I am so ready for a nap. 

The Boys slept with me last night, that is the first time in a while that has happened.  Marv got in his game of soccer before bed.  He walked around with the ball in his mouth crying.  He would drop it at my feet and I would throw it.  He would wonder off and grab it, then walk around and crow at it.  We both had fun.  Bear was resting comfortably on the couch.  I told him it was time for bed and that I had to put him on the floor.  He let out a meow that sounded like a little kid saying no.  I didn’t want to do it but I had to.  Ruth came in my room to get her scratching session with daddy.  When we were done she stretched out in my bed and rolled on her side.  I was behind her in my recliner.  She is slowly starting to be more trusting.  The attitude is still there and that won’t go anywhere, it’s just who she is.  I just wish she wouldn’t get so mad, she’s going to blow a blood vessel. 

Today is the day, my fake mont blanc pen is waiting for me at the post office, all the way from China.  I am excited but also a little nervous that it won’t be what I planned on.  I am headed there as soon as I leave work.  I sure hope the rest of the week is nothing like this morning has been and that I get more energy. 

Happy Monday everyone.  Talk with you all again soon. 

12 March 2017

Running on empty

I feel like I am running on empty.  This whole time change thing has knocked me for a loop.  Normally I blend with it, the first day seems odd but it never really affects me.  Today does seem quite odd but tomorrow will be the real test.  I went to bed at 12 which was the same as going to bed at 1a.  I woke up at 6a and went back to sleep until 9a.  Then I had to force myself out of bed.  Gator was quite the lady in helping me along by crying her usual theme song. 

By 9a it really doesn’t matter where you go for breakfast, your going to have a slight wait on your hands and if it’s a really popular place you may have a long wait on your hands.  Thankfully I had a short wait.  I went to IHOP and got a Cheeseburger Omelet, it’s like a cheeseburger but without bread and adding eggs and hash browns.   They put mustard, ketchup and pickle on the top.  It is truly amazing and the 2nd one that I have had.  I got seated next to this couple and their too fine looking son.  He was in college and was so appealing to me I wanted to ask him out on the spot, but I held it together and just admired from a far.  When they left his dad handed his mom her purse and it looked like a mini backpack.  I am not joking.  I was thinking to myself what in the fuck do you have in that thing?  I mean we all need an item or two but I just don’t understand women who want to carry around the whole house in a bag.  It’s heavy and chances are you won’t even use 1/2 of that shit. 

Paid my bill and ventured on to the grocery store.  I got a good parking spot which I was surprised at.  The store is normally packed by now but I guess a lot of people were sleeping in or just running behind.  Regardless I was able to make it in and out fairly quickly.  Dropped $86 like it was nothing.  Damn grocery's are expensive.

Headed to my el homo.  Unloaded and put away all of the groceries.  I was on fire, moving around with a lot of energy which was kind of a surprise.  I headed downstairs where I worked on updating my checkbook with all of the money I just spent.  Browsed around a bit.  Then I decided to yank my crank and afterwards the sleepies hit like a bomb.  I went upstairs and had a protein bar and a diet soda.  Watched some TV but eventually succumbed to my bodies desire for sleep.  I nodded off for a little bit, Gator helped wake me up.  Then I sprang into gear and cleaned the house.  I saw that our ants were back again.  I was pissed.  I saw a couple in the kids water but they left the dry food alone.  I sprayed and vacuumed, took out the trash and there were a couple more.  Those little annoyances are tough to get rid of.  I think after a second round of spraying I have them under control, or so I hope. 

There was no snow today but now they are saying it is going to start after midnight and keep on until late in the afternoon.  If that is true morning rush will be a pain in the ass.  It’s not ice but if I see a lot of accidents I’ll call it but my plan is to power through it and go about my day as normal.  The afternoon has rain in the forecast and a high in the 40’s.  Goofy ass weather.  We haven’t had much snow at all so outside of it being cold and dark, you would never know it’s winter here. 

I have completed the ever frustrating job of updating all of the clocks.  It’s coming up close to 7:30p and it feels like the day has just evaporated before my very eyes.  Of course there is plenty that I haven’t gotten done but none of it’s essential. 

There is a song that DJ Snake (whoever that is) performs featuring Justin Bieber.  It’s just heart warming to me and kind of an inspiration.  It makes me want to have someone to call my own.  The song is called Let Me Love You.  I’ll link the video in.  Justin no doubt is very good looking.  I wish he didn’t have so much ink and that he would pull his pants up.  He’s a very talented person and no doubt has a ton of money.  I am attracted to him but I hardly think of myself as a fan.  Listen to the song and tell me how it makes you feel.

Have a great week, stay warm and keep your head held high.  I am going to try the same thing.  I hope it’s an awesome and uneventful week for all of us.  Thanks for stopping by.

11 March 2017

Voting on a Saturday

Of all of the things to do on a Saturday, voting probably never crossed anyone's mind.  I requested a ballot to vote by mail earlier this week.  The election I believe is next month.  There is a big school referendum on the ballot and if it passes our property taxes will go up.  I am all about education but as a taxpayer I say fuck that.  Make some cuts if you have to but don’t raise my already high taxes.  I realize I live in a very heavily assessed and taxed area.  That doesn’t mean I am made of money, but everyone always seems to have their hands out asking for my hard earned money.  So I guess you can probably tell how I voted on that.  The next biggest thing is who gets to be mayor.  I don’t care.  I don’t tune into politics that heavily, despite the fact they control a lot of what goes on in society.  It’s all depressing … lying, cheating, etc.  Very little good comes from it, so why bother.  Just my opinion. 

Since we have had some spring like weather, things have started to bloom and apparently some of the insect family has been awakened.  I noticed ants on the table, one here and one there.  That means where you see one, there is another one and many more to follow.  Ants travel in packs.  Kind of interesting things but I don’t want them in my house.  They were in the cats water and in their food as well.  That was a hefty price to pay to throw out all of that food.  Needless to say I wasn’t a happy camper.  Thankfully I believe they are gone.  Let’s hope they don’t come back.  I saw one in my room last night, not terribly happy about that. 

The impossible happened last night.  Ruth rolled over and let me rub her belly, only for a brief moment in time but it happened.  I was shocked and pleased that she trusted me, if only for a moment to do that.  I hope this is the start of her opening up and trusting me more.  Maybe our relationship will grow even deeper than it already is.  I certainly hope so.  I know my late partner would be very surprised and I really want to tell him, it was like a knee jerk reaction last night I started to call him and say guess what.  Reality set in and stopped me. 

Okay so I wasn’t going to say anything because I thought it would jinx things but last week I matched with a very cute guy on one of the dating apps.  His profile says he is 41, which is certainly appropriate.  I want him so bad – not just sexually but to be a companion.  I made the first move.  We started chatting exchanging the usual pleasantries.  Then he just stopped talking to me.  It’s been 4 days now.  I don’t think he is coming back.  I also don’t think it was me or something I said.  I really hate that this happened because my hopes were slightly elevated.  Now I realize something could have happened preventing him from getting on-line but I don’t think that is likely. 

Speaking of dating I heard about a new app called Hater.  You bond with people over things you hate, which sparks conversation and presto before you know it your opening up and starting a dialog which hopefully leads to a relationship.  I got it today and have been on it a bit.  You get barraged with things and have to say if you like or hate them.  Then you get matches based upon your hates.  I have matched with no one yet.  There is plenty of time.  Where oh where for art thou Romeo? 

Drama at work.  Turns out the female that I work with got kicked off of the floor she was on.  They say it’s nothing personal but that she isn’t IT so she has to go.  She had to do something or piss off the wrong person.  Then I am minding my own business when I get an email and found out that I lost rights to administer some software.  They got her too which really fanned the flames.  I got a phone call from my old boss asking me if I was okay with the decision.  To which I said what if I wasn’t?  What are you going to do?  The response was nothing, it’s done and we should move on.  Okay, so why waste your time calling me?  It made no sense.  That right there tells me there is much more to the situation.  I will tell you that my co-worker fought pretty hard against her move but it went all the way to the top and our top dog wouldn’t do shit for her.  She is pretty hurt by it and ready to leave.  Do I think that will happen?  Yes, eventually she will have pissed off enough people that she will have to leave in order to be able to thrive.  That will push a lot more work off on me, I can’t say that I am ready to take it all on but I have to play the hand I am given.  If she does leave I think it won’t happen for a while.  Apparently she thinks that were gearing up for a 2nd round of layoff’s and that this time it could hit our team, more of IT and some executives.  We have way too many executives, if you trim that fat then we can save a lot of money.  She apparently is trusted more than me because she now gets a confidential list of people that are going to be departing.  I am not included but she said that she was going to push to get me added.  My ass, that won’t happen.  She is dumb enough to think that things are ‘normal’ between us and that I am her friend.  Nope, I am her co-worker.  I am not out to get her but were done, she killed our friendship when she pulled her bullshit last year.  I actually got an apology from her this week over that.  She was actively looking for fuel to throw on the already burning inferno that is blazing over her move.  Funny thing is I was going to ask to be moved to an office.  Since she isn’t in one, I really think my chances of getting one are slim to none.  So I never asked.  She sort of saved me some aggravation.  Next week should be fun, since she is drama central.

Tried out my Hans De Fuko Pomade.  They say it’s high shine.  Yeah my ass.  It doesn’t produce any shine – none of their products do.  Most of them say matte finish.  The products work great for hold & style.  I just want shine.  Traditionally Pomade by definition is meant to produce shine, so to say I am disappointed is an understatement.  I did get my hairs cut today. 

My plan was to leave town but then the weather forecast came out and said it would be cold and snow was coming.  Not what I want to drive in.  So I stayed closed to home today.  No snow but it was cold.  The snow is delayed maybe tomorrow or Monday.  Great, so looks like I might be driving in it after all.  Rats!

I spent the bulk of the day parked in front of the TV.  Big Boy was posturing like he was actually going to try to jump on the couch.  That would have been a disaster.  When I saw him I just picked him up.  He’s been by my side for the bulk of the day and that is not enough.  Plus he is continuing with his picky eating making me open multiple cans of food.  I love him but I am not a happy camper right now.  I went to the pet food store today and dropped close to $50, which isn’t bad if the food lasts 2 weeks but to have to run back next week because of him that is nuts.  I picked up a can of Reindeer food, never looked at the price and found out at the register it was $2 a can.  There is another flavor he likes, so I got it and it was the same price – 4 cans there is $8 right there.  Then because I didn’t come downstairs last night it wasn’t until I was at the store that I realized I left my coupon at home.  I was pissed but hey I was there, not like I was going back home.  I’ll just use it next time.  I am putting it in my wallet so it will always be with me.

Took a nap because I woke up early.  Now I am all wired and were going to lose an hour of sleep, so I am not too happy about that.  I’ll spend part of the day updating the clocks tomorrow.  The cats will be so confused for a couple days but they will get used to it eventually.  It will be nice to drive home in daylight.  Of course we will be back to dark for the start of the commute for a bit until things even out.  Something about the sun setting early that bothers me and makes my evening seem like it’s cut super short.  Well it actually is but the sun doesn’t help. 

Last but not least I found out that my knock off pen has finally made it into the US.  If the post office does it’s job and there are no issues, I should have the package next week.  It’s really close.  I am interested but not excited to see it.  If it turns out to be exactly what I want and use genuine refills, then I will be excited.  Only time will tell. 

Okay so I am calling it a night.  Take care and I hope all is well in your world.  Talk with you all again soon. 

08 March 2017

Ice Cream for supper

I had to stay late last night because we upgraded the OS on one of our firewalls.  There are actually two devices. A primary device that is used every day and a backup in case the primary fails.  There were some issues and the upgrade didn’t go quite as smoothly as it could have, but we got it done.  It also didn’t help that we didn’t start on time.

Being late going home I was thinking what am I going to eat?  I had to stop and get the mail then it was homo.  Of course my car’s entertainment system locked up again last night and there was but only 1 way to fix it.  Master reset.  I wanted to keep it broken, drive to the dealer and say fix it.  That would have involved me taking yet another day off work.  It may come to that but right now it’s working again. 

So I digressed, I made it homo and fed the children who were all puzzled as to why I was so late.  They just didn’t know how to react.  No one really wanted to eat but I fed them and the food vanished so either 1 cat got really greedy or they ate.  Bear of course put up a fight and I gave him a different can of food which he liked for the first minute and then it was old news.  I didn’t have time to screw around so I told him eat it or your going to starve. 

I went downstairs to open the mail.  My refund check came along with my very first electric & gas bill ever in my name.  Woop!  Now the check would have paid the bill and then left some for me, but using it for that I guess didn’t seem logical to them.  So I got the check deposited and the bill is scheduled to be paid.  Then I see two post card sized mailers, the outside was marked life lock settlement.  What could this be more money?  Yes it could and was.  I tried to deposit that via my phone as I would a regular check but because of the size it just wouldn’t process.  So I had to drive to the ATM this morning.  Seeing that extra money made my day.  I can’t tell you the amount of money that I sunk into Lifelock for both myself and my late partner. 

No word from my friend, which going this far I would say I am not going to get a response.  I know today is a difficult day for him.  I want to send him a message but think that I am better off not saying anything, who knows what kind of a mood he is in today.

I finally took the time to refresh my memory on the retainer agreement I signed with the Firm that is representing me in the car case.  They told me that there was a clause in there that the client agrees to pay filing fees in the amount of $500.  It was pure bullshit as I thought.  They took the case on a contingency and so long as I do my part I will owe them nothing but we have to go to court and lose OR I would have to take a settlement.  I am doing my part and then some, keeping on them to make sure that they do their job.  There is an estimate of how much cost is anticipated and it’s in line with what they told me the balance was on my account.  I’ve not heard anything further from them.  I pretty much know how to bring a close to this and get $$ at the same time.  Right now I am waiting to see what the next move is. 

This morning I was so glad I turned on the TV, I saw that my usual route to work was closed.  Some lady decided it would be a good idea at 5a to cross the interstate and she was hit and killed.  So after the stop at the bank, I had to take a different route to work.  I made it but with far less time than if I would have taken my normal route.  People on the alternate route are pokey and drive much slower.  I switched to the normal or lower octane gas and my car had points where if you didn’t know any better you would have thought it was having a seizure.  The important part is that I made it to work unscathed and arrived early, which is my goal no matter where I work. 

I am hoping to leave on-time, have a worry free commute and get home at normal time.  Then to be able to spend a night with the kids catching up on TV, which I am behind on.  Last night was pretty much feed them, take care of the mail and then gulp down some ice cream.  Rest for a minute and then get ready for today and go to bed.  It went by way too fast and I do not like those nights.  I don’t want to just come home to sleep and then turn around and go right back to work.  I’d like to be able to unwind and relax, having supper and a more normal pace evening.  There is very little time between when I get home and when I go to bed as it is.  I like to make the most of it, is all I am saying. 

Well lunch is done, time to go back to the grind and start the count down to quitting time.  Can’t believe it’s already Wednesday.  It’s nice weather out today and will be until the weekend. Then were in for some flurries and colder weather.  Time change weekend occurs this weekend as well.  Not looking forward to losing an hour of sleep.  The kids won’t lose anything, they sleep all the time, but they sure will be confused for a couple days.  Take care! 

07 March 2017

Terrific Taco Tuesday

Had a 1/2 way decent Monday night.  Got to do some computing, had my pizza and then spent time with the kids and my phone.  It was an average evening. 

Marv got in his game of soccer and now has started to pick up the ball and run around the house with it in his mouth, while he crows jut like his mother and sister do.  He bats the ball to one of his siblings and they just look at him like, what am I supposed to do with this?  I’m the only one who will play with him and he uses that to his full potential. 

Ruth has really warmed up to me letting me scratch her.  She comes over when I sit on the couch, when I park in my recliner in my office and of course when I am at the table.  Something has bitten her and she has some scabs of which I have most gone.  There are a couple of extra difficult ones but they will give soon enough.  She is happy as a clam so long as my hand is moving.  She purrs while I am doing it and has even let me to start to touch her paws. 

Bears well he is his usual needy self.  We spent time together on the couch, even though I probably shouldn’t have lifted him.  When I was putting him back on the floor he pawed me right in the eye.  That was not fun.  I know he didn’t do it out of spite so it was like it never happened.  He is such a sweet boy.  Order him more pee pads last night.  The box were on is starting to go fast and rather than run out why not be prepared? 

Gator is her usual fun loving attention seeking self.  She competes with Ruth and really clamors for the attention.  It’s tough to try to please all 5 of these creatures.  She loves to sit with me in the recliner and then stretch out.  Her newest trick is getting her back claws into my balls.  That hurts like hell and I keep telling her not to do it but does she listen?  Nope of course not. 

Momma she is my shadow following me to the basement and making sure that I am on time to take care of everyone.  She does a good job of keeping us all in line directly or indirectly.  I know she loves me and I love her.  For without her, there would be no children. 

Today is average thus far a little bit of a bang this morning but it’s been quiet for the most part.  My headset at work broke.  I’m telling you quality doesn’t seem to be an ingredient in anything that is manufactured today.  If this stuff was made back when I was growing up it would be out dated but it would still be going.  I used some gaffer tape and have it functional.  I bought the thing as a refurb.  So it was 1/2 of the price and it’ been good to me over the past year and a half.  However, it should last way beyond that in my opinion.  If it truly breaks or it looks like I can’t fix it, then I will buy a new one, not that I want to.  I already started searching.  If I could trade a couple keyboards for a headset then I’d be in business.  Ah well, I shall wait and see what happens.

Placed an Amazon order last night.  All of my gift card is gone, plus I used up all of my points from my credit card.  I was going to get some brownies but they are super expensive.  I mean it’s just a different type of cake and cake unless your getting married isn’t expensive.  So I picked up a refurbed keyboard for work.  I don’t know why but I make a lot of mistakes with the Wave keyboard.  It’s comfortable to type on but my fingers want what I use at home.  I am not happy about it but it seems that I am now a keyboard collector.  In my search I looked for a tactile wireless keyboard, that would really drive everyone nuts at work.  I love those back in the IBM days, they were the greatest ever to type on.  So all of my goodies will be arriving in a couple days.  I was going to have stuff shipped to work but instead opted to let it come to the house and then I can carry what I need to work.  Plus the keyboard will need time to have the batteries charge.  I got a new tempered glass screen protector, actually there are 2 in the package for $8 and I also grabbed up a Lifeproof case.  Just to have it on hand since I don’t really use my mophie all that much.  I won’t part with my mophie but may switch cases to change things up a bit.  Got a grey blue case.  I wanted all blue but that appears to be not in style.  Phone cases can be cheap or super expensive, all depends upon what you want to pay.  Amazon had some pretty good deals. 

Going to get the mail tonight and drive by the bar that serves taco’s on Tuesdays.  I hope my refund check from the power company is waiting for me, I am eager to get that.  I am sure there will be other things waiting for me like bills, but that is expected.  Not welcomed but expected. 

Gearing up for my next conference call.  Need to take a bit of a walk and then back to the fun.  Hope all is well on your Taco Tuesday. 

06 March 2017


Ah, Happy Monday everyone!  That’s not a normal phrase for me unless it’s following a week that I am on-call.  We had a short team meeting and everyone agreed that I was really busy over the weekend.  The fun continued when I arrived in the office this morning.  Started going through emails and got caught up in different issues.  Thankfully at the moment everything is fine.  Not saying it will last but I like it when it’s this way. 

Last night I looked at the instruction that came with my Zagg Screen Protection for my iPhone.  I wanted to know if you could remove it and reapply it.  Much to my surprise the answer is yes.  I tried a couple times but I got more bubbles than when I first started.  I watched a video today and they have a zero bubble feature.  You lightly set it on your phone, all lined up and then press in the center.  Watch as it adheres to your phone.  Pretty neat except for me I’ve got one large bubble that doesn’t go away and has expanded.  I still have protection but I have to put up with looking at a bubble when the phone is off.  It doesn’t affect my viewing, but it’s aggravating. I paid $40 for something that was fine and now that a month has gone by it looks like shit.  It’s not broken so I don’t believe I can file a claim under the warranty.  The whole tempered glass thing rakes in the money.  I looked on Amazon and they have all different prices from low to high.  You can get a privacy filter so that unless your directly in front of the phone, you won’t be able to see the screen, which I can see being handy.  When I say low price I’m talking from $7.  There are some great claims made, but I wonder if the cheap stuff is just as good as the expensive stuff.  I don’t plan on drop testing my phone to find out. 

Speaking of my phone the Bluetooth Headset that I got has a very annoying issue.  If you don’t use it within 2 days the battery goes dead, so if you want to use it you have to charge it back up.  The case acts as a charger and you only get 3 hours of talk time per charge.  The receipt says it’s a Slivr II but shows a picture of the Hint (Motorola).  I could file a warranty claim but, you have to call to get an RA number.  Then you pay shipping and you have to include your receipt.  I am sure the people at Moto would look at the receipt and that would cause an issue.  It’s not my fault Target sold me a Hint when they thought it was a Slivr II.  I am back on my Slivr and trying to baby it along.  While I allow the Hint to drain of all power both the headset and the charging case.  As soon as I know for sure it’s dead I am going to plug it in and let it sit for 24 hours, then try it again and see what happens.  I will likely windup buying what I wanted in the first place.

The phone it’s self is a winner, I had to ditch that 3D Touch it was annoying.  I’ve get a much better result with surfing and apps responding.  Additionally I enabled WIFI Calling an my phone works great at my desk in the office.  Were in a large lead box or so it seems.  Without WIFI Calling service is very spotty and usually there is an important call I need to take or make and before using my phone was next to impossible but not now.  The other big improvement is the battery life.  Wow, I love my Mophie but hardly have to use it.  I was really taxing my phone yesterday with multiple calls, app usage and had to turn on my Mophie for a recharge.  Still went I went to bed it was at 50%, which given all I was doing was very impressive.  I still charge it each night.  Nothing like starting the day on a full charge.

As I was preparing for bed, Marv had to get in a game of soccer.  He cried out for it.  We started and then he decided to start periodically talking to the ball.  He would also bat it into places that I had to work a bit to get it out of.  I found a second ball and threw him some confusions when I introduced it.  He quickly separated the two and went back to the original ball.  He likes to sit and bat at it, while he makes me run all over the place and bat it back to him.  He’s like a super quick pinball flipper, the ball is in motion and just at the right time he gets it and it goes flying.  He started to stick to the ball with his claws and that is funny when they keep shaking their paws and wonder why the ball won’t come off.  Eventually I had to call it quits and go to bed.  I gave him a slight trim this morning and I am sure he will be ready for our next game. 

Mr. Big Boy was being picky this morning.  He didn’t want to eat his Reindeer he wanted to con me out of another can of food.  It worked and then he started eating both.  The real joy came when I brought him his water bowl.  He loves the water and seeing him drink makes me happy.  Only because I know what goes in must come out, the more he drinks and the more often we flush out his bladder the less likely he is to form crystals/stones. 

Still no word from my friend, I thought about it on the way to work this morning.  Kind of wish that I did the follow up with the email. I’m one of those people who apologizes way too much.  However, our friendship is of value and importance to me which is why I did it.  I’m semi sure that were okay, but an acknowledgement of that would be of comfort to me.  Do I think I will get one?  Let’s just say I am not holding my breath.  As far as I am concerned I made the last move so it’s his turn next.  All I can do is sit back, relax and wait.  My life won’t go on hold, this will mess with it a bit but I’ll get over it and forget about it soon enough.  I think the smart thing for him to do is acknowledge receipt of my email and also come back with an apology of his own.  Ah, well. 

Lunch time is just about over, so I am going to post this and then go see what fine mess I can jump into.  There is plenty waiting for me.  Talk with you all again soon.

05 March 2017

Sleep Edged

Hi how are you today?  I hope your doing very well.  I had the displeasure today of being sleep edged.  In sexual terms edging is when you work close to an orgasm and back off, then repeat.  The idea is that when you allow release it’s supposed to be more intense.  Typically guys do this tied up and someone else is in control.  It’s hot to watch but also a form of torture.  Now that your familiar with what I’m speaking of, here’s my story.  I went to bed very early this morning it was 1:30 or 2 am.  My body has an automatic alarm clock that gets me up around 8 or 9 on weekends.  Somehow my brain knows when the work week is because I wake up much sooner.  Anyway, I did in fact wake up at 8a and got moving.  I did something to my back it really hurts, so I did everything that I had to do.  Came home and on-call was busy again.  I got everything to the all quiet point.  Went up to watch some TV and then decided it would be prudent to catch some sleep, might even help the old back feel better.  So I laid down and that is like sending out a signal, everything is fine.  I just start to dose off and the phone goes off.  I look at it and it’s nothing.  Back to sleep and once again the phone goes off.  Again nothing that can’t wait so back to sleep.  Then the boss calls and wants me to do something.  At that point I had to get up but I wasn’t happy about it.  So that is what I call being sleep edged.  I got just to the point where I was about to dose off and then wide awake again.  I felt robbed!

Saturday was busy as well with on-call.  I did get out for breakfast and grabbed the mail.  Decided to skip cat food because the little furry beasts have plenty of food.  My friend called, I was expecting it because I was on-call and he usually wants to grab a bite to eat.  This time it was just for a chat and it was later in the evening.  He started off asking me a stupid question about one of my cats.  I responded that I had no idea but I could put the cat on the phone.  That kind of pissed him off.  Hey don’t ask me why my cat does anything, I haven’t a clue and can only guess.  So the conversation went on and he took exception with a couple things I said, it was a misunderstanding but boy he really bit my head off.  That bothered me, more than he knows.  We ended the call on good terms as per usual.  I followed up with an email and apologized if I offended him.  Normally I would have a response by now but nothing, it’s all crickets.  That doesn’t make me feel warm and fuzzy.  I know he’s dealing with a lot and his emotions are likely all over the place.  I was really dancing on egg shells in composing the email, I didn’t know what to say and what not to say.  Hopefully I didn’t say anything else that caused concern.  If I did I am sure I will hear about it.  I enjoy talking with him but he’s starting to be clingy and he keeps rubbing the fact that he has a female friend in my face.  I get it he’s depressed and he misses his wife.  I don’t know exactly what I can do to help, I know that I can’t take away his pain and this is something he is going to have to process through on his own.  Wednesday would have been his late wife’s 61st birthday, so he is going out to celebrate with her family. I know that will be a difficult day for him and so will each and every holiday, wedding anniversary, etc.  He is keeping track of time like I did in the beginning but eventually somehow that stops.  Right now things are still very fresh and will be for quite sometime. 

I decided yesterday that I would jump back into the dating pool again.  I know it was a very short break.  Today I had a message from a younger guy, I could tell he was horny and he was just looking for sex.  I flushed that out of him pretty quickly and told him were not compatible.  That’s the end of that.  It was nice that he made the first move but it was for all the wrong reasons.  People just look at your face and maybe your age, they don’t seem to want to read your profile, which I understand at first but if your going to reach out to someone, I think you should take time to read their profile before you start composing a message.  I can’t tell you how many times I thought oh, he’s the one.  Then I start reading the profile and crap there is a gotcha there that is a deal breaker, like he loves to drink and smoke, is in an open relationship, travels frequently for work and isn’t from this area.  Since I have been on very few dates, I still see guys that I dated show up on apps, that’s an automatic block them.  I’m sure they won’t reach out but still better safe than sorry.  In comparing notes with my friend it appears that a lot of the same things happen on straight dating sites, which in a way surprises me. 

Saw a great movie on Amazon called Sundown.  If you like guys, suspense and trance/electronica music this is a great movie.  Twists and turns, it keeps you on the edge of your seat.  I also saw a movie called Daddy.  It’s about a guy who was a sperm donor and is gay.  He has no idea that he has actually fathered 1 child.  Turns out that child is an intern in his office and is also gay.  They wind up sleeping together and it’s not until his child/boyfriend gets hurt that the mystery unravels.  I never saw that coming I thought the child/boyfriend just liked older men and was looking for the Daddy type.  They did make a cute couple but once the truth came out it changed everything.  Also a good movie.  I need to catch up on regular TV watching. 

We have a risk of severe weather in the area.  The same thing happened last week and a tornado touched down in one of the towns where my former employer had a nursing home.  I hadn’t talked to those people in years.  When I heard about the twister, I just had to call and make sure everyone was okay.  The lady I spoke with was thrilled to hear from me and wondered what happened to me.  We commiserated together and both agreed that the owners were shitty people which made for a shitty environment to work in.  Oddly enough the lady I spoke with is a Lesbian and her partner used to work there.  Neither of them had any idea I was gay until I told them about the death of my partner  Small world! 

Ah so I just need to make it through the rest of tonight and early morning, then I will be set and will no longer be on call. I can’t wait.  This has been the most bat shit crazy week and it all started on Thursday and has been going strong ever since.  I am so looking forward to having a break and 2 weeks to myself.  I love my job but I don’t want to live my job 24/7, when I do it makes my personal life uncomfortable and causes me to be out of sorts.  Ah well at least when my pay check arrives that will be the reward!  So it’s a small sacrifice, but I’ll make it.

Got my Mont Blanc ballpoint refills this week along with Mr. Bear’s next box of pee pads.  I swapped out the refills and I’ve been using the ballpoint a lot.  Doesn’t take much to be my favorite pen of the moment.  I even took it to work with me on Friday.  While I really like a lot of different pens Mont Blanc won my heart over years ago.  There is just something so special about them and I guess the fact they cost more than the average person would spend on disposable pens in a lifetime.  What can I say I have expensive taste.  It feels good to own a few nice things.

Well time to move on.  I have other things to take care of and want to get in some time with the kids before it’s time to throw in the towel for the night.  I am taking an extra heavy dose of sleeping pills to ensure that I can recharge and start fresh tomorrow.  Right now I am pretty stressed out and could use a vacation along with a tropical drink or two.  Sail away ….

Take care and stop back by again soon. 

03 March 2017

Marching on

I am glad this week is over with.  Thursday & Friday were supposed to be peaceful days but they turned into anything but peaceful.  I worked solid from the moment I walked in and even had to put in some over time.  It was brutal, I made it through but now I am trying to unwind.

Thursday was an ordinary day for the most part.  I got a 2 new hires snuck in on me.  That sent me scrambling to get these people in the system.  They start on Monday so it’s something that I had to take care of.  I did as much as I could, then left at my normal time.  Got home, saw that my neighbors car had the dome light on.  This is the piece of shit that I refer to that is purposely parked where I can hit it.  Anyway, I went to the neighbors house and was doing a good deed.  I got to walk in the dark and I pushed where the door bell should have been but all I got was a hole to stick my finger into, not the hole I was looking for.  Then these two curtain climbers start looking outside.  I see an adult and hear the famous who is it question.  I wanted to respond it’s the big bad wolf, i’ve come to huff and puff and blow your house down.  I said it’s your neighbor.  They opened the door and I mentioned the car.  Right away the lady got in defense mode, then I told her about the light and she relaxed.  Yeah I should have let the battery run down but I’d want someone to tell me, that is the only reason why I went over.  Time for my next surprise when I walked in the door I fed the children.  Then saw that Marvin had a very busy day making crap, all over the carpet in multiple places.  Poor guy. 

Now you’d probably think this is the point where I said I was able to go to bed and call it a day, nope.  I got an alert from work that I had to respond to.  Got that taken care of, then put my supper in the microwave.  For giggles since I was feeling pretty bad at this point I checked my sugar and it was in the 2 digit number range which is way too low for me.  I know my doctor likes it but my body says fuck you.  I gobbled down my supper and tried to salvage the evening.  I put the mail by the computer, came upstairs and decided to try to get in some TV time, but that didn’t work.  The phone went off again with a fraud alert.  I jumped on that and in going back to the basement I noticed that it smelled slightly like a sewer.  I figured someone did something and it will pass.  I had to run upstairs to get my headset and when I came back down the odor was much worse.  I finished up dealing with work.  Then I started nosing around.  Momma was running around frantic like she was on fire or some one was chasing after her.  I picked her up and gave her a hug, she calmed down.  Then I put two and two together.  I looked at her and said tell me where you did it, I won’t be mad I just need to clean it up.  Then I said we both know I just lied to you, I will be pissed but I still need to clean it up.  Found it, in a corner under a piece of furniture was an old school keyboard the belonged to my late partner.  She dumped all over that thing.  It was in a precarious place and took me forever to get to it.  I cleaned it up, rinsed off the keyboard (which is going to be recycled) and then built a barrier to prevent her or anyone else from getting in there again.  This turned into a 10 hour work day but it was like one crisis after another.  Holy fuck I was glad the day was done. 

I had been thinking about a new porn scene that was released and I figured it would help me greatly if I watched it.  Turns out I couldn’t preform which was frustrating as well.  I was just too tired and too ticked off.  The animals and the stupid people at work – it was all just far too much.  I elected to watch TV, got sleepy pretty quick and kicked everyone out.  I thought Marv stayed with me for a bit but when I woke up this morning he was gone.  Not sure if I let him out or if I was mistaken and he went on his own.  Oh I also had a massage but I told her to be a little gentler and now I hurt worse than if she would have gone full bore on me.  That didn’t help things either. 

Friday ah the best day of the week, except today wasn’t so great for me.  Started out with a call from our monitoring service with a critical alert.  We had an infected machine on the network.  I lost my marbles and forgot what I was supposed to do in order to figure out which machine it was.  Thankfully a call to the boss and he jogged my memory.  Got that taken care of.  Then I had to finish up my new hires from yesterday and make a change to another recent hire.  Plus deal with all of the regular tickets that were coming in.  I also had people walking up to my desk, which was probably my saving grace because it forced me to get away from my desk.  It put me behind but some how in the end with my perseverance it all worked out.  Everything was done, I pray I made no mistakes but I know they will be rubbed in my nose if I did. 

Drove home and almost got side swiped not once but twice.  Treated myself to Wendy’s since it’s been rough.  Spent a little time with the cats and then oh crap I need to pay my auto insurance.  I had one more day but I never cut it this close.  So I came downstairs to deal with that.  Decided to blog a bit, since some of you may have been wondering what happened to me. 

That is the crux of the day.  I am wiped out.  Getting up tomorrow and going to say my well wishes to the waitress at steak n shake that is leaving.  I am going to try to order the cute guy working at the grill that I know is straight but still has an amazing ass.  I don’t think it will work but I told her she needs to help me find a man.  I helped her with finding a job.  Turn about is fair play.  Some how I always come up on the losing end and as they say no good deed goes unpunished. 

Before I pass out at the keyboard I am hauling my body upstairs so that I can enter the sleep zone.  It’s back to winter temps here that is until tomorrow afternoon then it’s back to spring for a few days.  Goofy Weather. 

I am sure I will be posting again over the weekend.  Right now I just hate computers because I have spent so much time with one that all I want to do is get away.  A nice drive, A TV, anything but a computer.  So my bed is pretty appealing to both me and my body.  Hope all is well in your world.  Talk with you peeps again soon.