Is it normal?

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Taking a break today from my daily life, nothing spectacular to report. I’ve been wanting to write about this for a bit.

It’s no secret that I have a lot of favorite porn stars. It bothers me when I hear about one of them passing. However, when I do hear that one of them has passed away, I want to watch their work. This has been especially true for Blake Mitchell, Cole Claire, Kyle Ross, Kevin Williams and Scott Finn just to name a few. I also see that their content seems to rise in popularity and it begins to recirculate on the web.

While I know they are porn stars they become a small part of my life, especially when I follow them on social media and get to know the little bits they disclose about their personal lives. It also hurts me a little bit to hear when a favorite of mine has passed away. This is especially true when they are younger. The cause sometimes shakes me, like with Scott Finn who committed suicide. He seemed like such a genuinely happy person, he laughed and joked around all the time. Blake Mitchell was a huge surprise because he died in a motor vehicle accident, he was truly a victim.

Not sure if it’s normal to want to watch their work. Honestly if I had more going in my own life, I wouldn’t have time to form any type of a connection in my mind with a porn star. I know all too often people lose sight of the fact that they are people despite the fact they elected to do porn. There is a person there, good or bad, it’s still a human being.

Life goes on and I realize there will always be another porn star. However, there are some that were truly great at what they did. I know that I can’t be the only person that feels this way. Then again porn is my sex life now and I am closer to that industry than most people.

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Logan Ryder's solo debut @ Corbin Fisher

Hot guy alert!  Logan Ryder was introduced this week as the newest guy on Corbin Fisher's site.  He's pretty hot in my book.  Then again I am a sucker for a Blond.  He has done gay porn, I was able to locate an Only Fans Scene which he bottomed in and did a great job.  Below are a few photos.  If you want to see more of him check out CF's site.  

Corbin Fisher has managed to find several guys that I am really into over the years and I've spent a lot of time watch their work.  Chandler (who's super hung) Jacob, Josh, and Kennedy are a few of my all time favorites.  Thought you would all enjoy this!

Sad News

 

I found out that Kevin Williams [real name Ted Currall] a gay porn star (pictured above) from the 80’s and 90’s passed away on Tuesday.  He was a hot blond in his day; he was a bottom. He is one of the first porn stars that I recall getting off to.  He worked with several big (and hung) stars in porn like Tom Chase, Chad Douglas, and Jeff Palmer.  He had several scenes with Falcon Studios which was the first gay studio porn that I quickly became a fan of.  Kevin also did work for other studios. There has not been a cause of death released but from what I have read one of his friends didn’t call 9-1-1 in time.  Some people just freeze up and are unable to think/act when an emergency like this occurs.  I get that it’s overwhelming but getting help quickly and doing CPR (provided they aren’t breathing and there is no pulse) is their only chance.  He was 60 years old, which is still very young!  I know it’s common to speculate that it was drugs since this was a former porn star, but it might be something that we never know.  He left behind an amazing body of work, no pun intended and I really hated hearing this.   

In other news, I had to go downstairs to start my day.  There was some catchup work that I needed to do and that required 2 screens.  Once I was done that is when I went to doing my personal browsing and found out about Kevin Williams.  Once I came up stairs I was permitted to rest and Mora snuggled up with me.  It was a good time that I really didn’t want to end.  However, work eventually called and I had to get back to it. 

Today is wide open other than a meeting with my boss that I had this afternoon.  It was our usual touch point that we have every month.  I hate these because I think they are a waste of time.  No way I am telling him my true feelings because it would radically change things for me and not for the better.  He asked me if there was anything going on at the office.  I told him not that I am aware of.  He told me that they are still working on my so-called promotion, which is what he has been saying for the longest time.  If that position opens it will be closer to the end of the year and won’t be effective until January 1^st at least that is my anticipation because I know how they do business.  He wanted me to have another training session with the team on the firewalls, I tried to talk him out of it, but he insisted, so I scheduled it.  We established an agenda and it’s short and well within my ability to complete. 

When I watched the morning news, I was so happy that I was working from home because traffic was shutdown on the normal route I would take to get to the office.  There was a fatal accident.  There have been several fatal accidents on this route within the past few months.  People speed like they are driving in a Formula 1 race.  You’d think with the rising cost of gas people would slow down to conserve fuel but that’s not the case.  Hopefully, this doesn’t become a continuing growing trend.  The police presence used to be heavy to deter speeders, but they have eased up way too much and given folks a comfort feeling.  No matter where you’re driving at you must be hyper aware of your surroundings that includes what is around you.  Crashes happen in a split second, and they are all over way too quickly. 

My new neighbors are continuing to move in.  I think they have a small child because there was one that tripped my back door camera, he was taking pictures of my deck.  Not sure why he needed to take photos.  That was disturbing to me because apparently there was an adult watching or perhaps coaching him in the background.  Hopefully, this doesn’t become a regular thing.  I’m not big on folks trespassing but I have tolerated a lot.  These folks are new so giving them the benefit of the doubt.  The old neighbor came back to pick up one last item he had in the back yard.  I saw him and the new neighbor talking and he (the former neighbor) was pointing towards my house.  I think they were talking about the tree that is on the shared property line, but I have no idea.  It wouldn’t hurt my feelings if they chopped down the tree because eventually it will come to that.  The tree is dying a very slow death.  As long as it doesn’t fall on my property, I’m good.  I have been the primary person who has taken care of trimming it, but nothing has been done with it in a couple years.  I took the trash out this afternoon and saw that the For Sale sign was still in the front yard.  That’s kind of odd since the house was sold but there never was a sold sign that went up. 

I plan to finish off the Lasagna Soup tonight; there isn’t a whole lot left but I’ve survived on less.  I’m sure one of the cats will be on my heels thinking that I am eating their food again.  It’s kind of funny but more so aggravating.  I don’t want to have any accidents, which is why it upsets me. 

I’ve scoured Peacock.  They really don’t have anything that I am interested in.  I plan to cancel the subscription over the weekend.  I did see that they had a reboot of Queer As Folk but I watched the trailer and it wasn’t appealing to me.  I saw a couple hot guys, but I doubt that they went to the extent the US version did to show simulated realistic sex scenes.  That along with the overall cast and content is why I believe the US version was so popular.  I remember we (me and my late spouse) waited all week long to see what happened.  It was the one show/series that we both enjoyed.  It was such a good time, and I am thankful that I have that memory. 

Thankful that tomorrow is Friday.  The only thing on my calendar is a meeting in the afternoon with a vendor.  I am planning on working upstairs all day, unless the demand is different and I need 2 screens.  I have high hopes that I will be able to pull this off.  It’s my turn to be on-call next week and as per usual I am not looking forward to it.  Might as well bask in the relaxation while it lasts.   

Not sure what is up with Blogger, but I noticed a couple days ago that my other great blogs section is not updating to reflect current posts on other sites.  I looked at other blogs, and the experience seems to be the same for others.  Hopefully, that will be fixed soon. 

Finally, I’m sure you’re probably wondering about the hot college guy.  He’s not accepted my friend request.  I wish that I would have asked him out when I had the chance, but I still strongly feel that he would have declined because he’s straight.  I’d like to skip past all the dating, games and disappointment and just find my guy.  It is a shame that there really isn’t a way to do that.  It is just something that I must go through. 

Hope that all is well in your world.  Talk with you all again soon.

 

 

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Pre-Holiday

Hey, I will admit I am a bit confused on what day of the week it is.  Took me a bit this morning to realize that it’s Friday.  That’s the problem with a holiday during the week, it always seems to mess up what day of the week it is for me. 

I was up at 6a to feed the cats but I didn’t get out of bed until 630a.  They were happy.  Rudy ate like a pig but I kept telling him to save some for his sister, which eventually he did.  That took a little encouragement from my foot in his face but he got the message.  Mora moved in and ate.  Then when she was done Rudy went back and chowed on what was left.  Then promptly threw up and asked for more food, which I didn’t give him.  That’s what he gets for being a pig!

I gave Mora her medicine and then climbed back into bed to watch TV.  I eventually would go back to sleep for a little bit.  Then got up and had breakfast.  Then back to my room to watch some TV.  Felt horny and watched the newest scene from ASG (Next Door Studios) with Josh Brady.  Wow that did the trick and I was horny no more!  It also helped me eventually get back in bed and sleep a little bit more. 

Much to my surprise I was woken up by the sound of lawn mowers.  Yeah I got my grass mowed twice in the same week.  That’s never happened before.  Lawn looks really nice.  Then look over at my neighbors who moved out, their grass is tall and lawn looks like shit.  I’m sure he will be back to mow the grass in the next few days or at least I would expect it. 

Just before 2p I got out of bed and got moving.  Had a shower, got dressed.  Then headed over to the office again.  Yeah twice in one week.  Turns out that I wound up taking my laptop off line when I went in on Monday.  I made the trip back to get it back on the network, which took a couple minutes.  My battery keyboard was dead, which I am not surprised at all.  Eventually I got logged in, the silly thing was sending the wrong keystroke for the first letter of my password.  I tried enough that it locked me out temporarily but I knew how to get around that, smart I am!

Once I was done, I headed for BBQ.  It was delicious.  There was a nice young man who came in to pickup an order.  Man he had the best looking ass.  I wanted to pick him up but just admired him from a distance for the short amount of time he was there.  That plus the good food made the trip worth while. 

Stopped at the post office to get the mail and then finally home.  Been working on laundry.  Rudy threw up on my new cover earlier in the week.  So I stripped the bed completely.  The mattress pad takes forever to wash and dry which is why I am so late.  Just waiting for the dryer to sound off so I can throw the blanket in and once it’s dry I can head up.  The cats much to my surprise are hanging out upstairs sleeping. 

I’ve put much thought into making contact with my late spouses grandson.  After gathering opinions from several people I’ve elected to try to make contact with him.  I have spent hours in front of the computer crafting a simple letter to him.  The letter is finalized and I printed it out along with his grandfathers obituary and some photos of his father when he was in high school.  The letter says in a nutshell who I am, who his grandfather was and lets him know that if he wants to make contact with me he can, if he chooses not to I totally understand but the final decision is his.  I let him know plainly that unless he reaches out I won’t be bugging him.  I figured out when his birthday is and he will be 18 and in the eyes of the law in the state, he will be an adult.  I researched property tax records to find out where his mother lives, which is where I am sending the letter.  It won’t be mailed until his birthday occurs so he is of age.  I am sending it by certified mail restricted delivery (I want to ensure that he’s the one who gets the letter and no one else).  Hopefully, the post office does their job correctly.  That’s going to cost me some where around $20 when I could easily drive to the house much cheaper, but given the circumstances the mail is the most appropriate.  If this attempt fails and the letter comes back to me then I know where he’s going to college at and will try there in a couple months.  I just want him to get the letter and if he reaches out great we can talk.  If he chooses not to reach out fine, at least he knows the truth.  I know that heritage and family is important to him.  I got the letter, obit and photos printed and prepared for mailing.  Fingers crossed this all works out well.  I think it will be a total and complete surprise to him.  I’m glad that when I had my late spouses obit printed I had the sense of mind to list his grandson as a surviving relative, even if I did spell his name wrong.  I’ll keep you updated as this unfolds.  Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Plans for tomorrow.  Well if it works out like I want it to.  I will get up early and head out to breakfast.  Fill up the gas tank and come back home to rest.  Lupper (that’s lunch & supper) is at 2p @ Olive Garden.  A strange place that I never thought I would be on Independence Day but I’m sure we won’t be the only one’s there.  Once that’s over with come back home and spend the rest of the day with the birthday cats.  Yeah, Rudy & Mora will turn 7 years old tomorrow.  I looked at the photo I have in my office when I was at work.  You can see the youth in there faces and they both look innocent.  Comparing that to where we are now, they have blossomed and both of their personalities have really developed in the 4 years they have been with me.  I say it often because it’s true, I am glad that they are my cats.  It’s going to suck as we both age but at least we will be growing old together, so to speak. 

Off to occupy my time as I wait for laundry to complete.  I know that eventually one of the cats will be down here “barking” at me telling me it’s time for bed, because it is.  However not much I can do with the bedding in the laundry got to have it to make the bed so we can all climb in. 

The AC has been working some serious overtime but damn it feels really nice in here!  I will be glad when the heat wave is done. 

Take care!                       

Windows 11

Happy Saturday!  I had another insomnia attack last night that ruined my intentions for today.  However, I made the best of it.  Watched an old movie called Stir Crazy with Richard Pryor and Gene Wilder.  It was long but kept my interest and when it was done I easily fell back to sleep.  Rudy woke me up around 7:30a, kind of surprised he let me sleep in.  He wanted his breakfast though and I passed it out for him.  Then I came back to bed and waited as I watched more TV to eventually pass out.  I got up around 9a and had breakfast which was nothing more than cereal and a banana.  Then it was back to the bedroom to watch more TV and nap. 

I got moving late in the afternoon and headed to a steak house to order chicken.  It’s a dish similar to what I order at Outback called Alice Springs Chicken.  It was good but they forgot the bacon.  Grabbed the mail and returned home.  That was as much getting out as I needed to do. 

I noticed yesterday when I set the trash out that a Wasp has setup a nest right behind my security camera.  I know that it’s a matter of time before I get a little too close for comfort that the damn thing will attack me.  I am probably going to get some Wasp spray and try to kill it.  I am not a fan of insects much less stinging or biting ones. 

Last night I watched a 2 hour Only Fans that someone called Justasoccerboi filmed with Seth Peterson.  They were in a hotel room and forgot to deadbolt the door so the maid interrupted them trying to come in and clean the room but Seth was getting eaten out and told the lady to come back later.  The room looked nice as did the guys but the whole thing wasn’t edited very well and it’s by far the longest Only Fans clip that I have ever watched.  I just deleted it from my system just because it was so long and quite large.  Seth as you might recall passed away earlier this year from what is believed to be an accidental drug overdose.  

Speaking of OF, I just got a bunch of Blake Mitchell OF clips that were leaked.  Most of which I had before but I never had any of his Live Chats.  It’s nice to hear his voice and quite a shame that he too passed away in a motor vehicle accident late last year.  One clip I want to see is the final one he made with Joey Mills.  While Blake published everything, Joey hides some clips behind a pay wall and thus why I haven’t seen it.  Not paying $25 for one clip, sure I want to see it but not that bad. 

On the dating front I got an ad last night from a service called Mingleo.  It’s a dating service that requires a subscription but they match you with other guys based on your interest and how you both responded to their questionnaires.  I’m going to do some research on them before I just blindly spend money.  They are in most major cities in the US so in case your looking thought I’d share it.  They keep your information private unless you ask them to share it or choose to share it on your own with a guy.  This sounds a lot like It’s Just Lunch but something that is cheaper and targeted to gay men. 

While I was watching TV this afternoon, I fired up my laptop to do some surfing and have noticed that when I shutdown the menu shows up differently and the taskbar looked different, I unlocked it and sure enough I can resize it to make it show more icons in the system tray as well as display the Time, Day of the Week and Date.  This was my major factor for not upgrading other than in general I am not a W11 fan.  However, now that I know that I am so tempted to give in and upgrade to get it over with.  I know that sooner or later were all going to have to as extended support will expire or Microsoft will make it so cost prohibitive that most folks will just give in and upgrade rather than pay.  Part of me wants to upgrade now and the other part of me says wait until you have much more time to deal with things if something goes south. 

Meanwhile I discovered that I threw my laundry in the dryer and walked away, never pressed the start button.  I thought it was taking an unusual amount of time to dry so I went and checked on it.  Sometimes my brain just goes out to lunch without me and I do silly stuff like that but it’s not often enough to be concerning. 

I’ve got a task to take care of at work tomorrow, I will need to login the morning and then again later in the afternoon.  I am planning on going to eat lupper early.  So that I am available when I need to login.  I am not a fan of working weekends but I’m on call.  Thinking of pizza and trying to see the straight hot waiter that I have a mad crush on.  Not sure why I am so attracted to straight guys, wish that my Gaydar worked better. 

Not a horrible Saturday just not the most productive.  However it was good for relaxation.  Shame that the time goes by so quickly.  It was a nice day until I got out for supper then it became overcast and has started to rain a little bit here and there.  Hope it was a good day for you!

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