Yesterday was a really crazy busy day. It started off slow and then picked up from there. I had an lunch time staff meeting, which always seems to fluster me and get my blood pressure up. Mostly because it’s a meeting that talks about change and improvements, since I am human I am resistant to change and it just freaks me out. However, I am sure all will be okay.
The other day I posted about a co-worker who sent me a FB friend request. I decided to do some research. The guy that I met when I was in training is a FB friend of mine. I thought that I had applied ample security and that he would never, ever be able to figure out that I was gay. Well I looked at my FB page, viewing it as he would see it. Turns out if he were to review my wall he would see posts from me that would indicate yes in fact I am gay. While I am attracted to him, I realize that he is married and lives far, far away from me. Still it never hurts to have friends, even if you want to bang their brains out in bed :). So I thought about it and against my better judgment I came out to the co-worker who sent me the FB request and explained why I didn’t accept the request forthwith. I had plans on accepting after we spoke but things got busy and thank god they did. She reached out to let me know that she is friends with several other people here at work on FB. She asked me to hold off on accepting her request. I did some research last night and sure enough she broadcasts who her friends are and therefore people could rifle through her friend list and pick me and I have no idea what they would see, but rather than taking a chance, I dismissed the request. So the deal is done.
When I told her I was gay she just laughed and said so, as if it was no big deal. She told me that she has had a gay friend before and that it’s no big deal. She said that she totally understood why I kept that in. I explained to her that I wasn’t ashamed of it, but that I felt it really had no bearing on work. If I were open and just broadcast it to the world I don’t suspect that it would cause a problem here at work, given the very nature of our business. Then I went a step further and told her about my partner, she just dismissed that with no reaction at all. That was kind of offensive to me and I was actually shocked that she was rather numb when I told her that. I clarified when I said I lost my partner that I didn’t mean we broke up but that he passed away, I even told her that I had to make ‘the decision’. Still nothing.
Thus far every time in my life when I go against my gut I have remorse and wish that I acted differently. This time is no different. If I would have just went to visit her FB page first, I would see that she was friends with other folks here and I could have easily declined the request and wouldn’t have had to share anything with her. I still consider her a friend but I kind of feel like this may turn out to bite me. If so, there really isn’t much that I can do about it. Like I said earlier I am not ashamed of who I am but I don’t feel that it’s really any ones business, unless of course we are engaged in intercourse. Ah, regret why do you exist?
In other news, I received my replacement remotes last night from AT&T, the guy sent me the remote that I really wanted, even though I didn’t ask for it. So now I have a remote for the kitchen table and a spare. Way cool. I still have some issues with the mobile app in watching shows. It will play for a while then cut off, do this about 3 to 4 times and then I am toast for a bit, until one of the streams drops off. I am still digging into it on my own. The one thing that I will say is that AT&T has called my house in follow up to the 1 call I made over the weekend. They are really aggressive with letting me know that they are working on this and when I should expect the remotes. Nothing on the viewing issues since the dumb dumb I spoke with referred me back to Apple because he felt it was a device issue and not an app issue.
For the first time last night the Raccoon Family showed off one of their kids to me. It was really cute. I suspect there are more babies and they are burrowed further under the deck. I was passing out a snack to the kids when I heard the Raccoons and it sounded like they were digging. The patio underneath the deck is all concrete but the edges are filled in with dirt. There is a huge hole on the side of the deck in the dirt where it keeps sinking. The only real way I know to fix it is to pour concrete in the hole. We have in the past had it filled in with dirt but that lasts a short time, it settles and then we are back to where we are now. LB (aka TAZ) had used the dirt tunnel before when he was an outside guy. The one fear that I have in fixing it is that I will trap a live animal of some sort and then it will eventually die and then comes the horrible smell. It’s not the smell but the fact that I would be trapping something and I can imagine the fear that would instill, which isn’t something that I want to do. I am not fond of all animals but certainly don’t seek to cause any of them intentional harm.
I received a call from Lawn Boy yesterday. He’s got a website that he hired a pro to create for him. Turns out the pro is not responding to his calls for changes or help. He is moving and wants to remove his home number and there is a problem with a particular page. The message he left me said if you work on websites, we could work something out. Of course my mind immediately wanted to construe that as a sexual overture but I knew it wasn’t (shucks). Then he threw the real monkey wrench in it and said that he didn’t know the credentials to login to the site or where to go to log in. Geez, that would be a problem. So I called him back and told him that he would want to start with what I believe is the hosting provider, they should be able to get him all taken care of. I told him that this wouldn’t be an easy request because he is going to have to provide that he is who he says he is, they won’t just take his word over the phone. I know he is going to want to pull his hair out, before it’s all over with but there isn’t an easy way to resolve this. I told him that depending upon how the site was written I may or may not be able to accomplish what he is wanting. If I couldn’t I would happily refer him to someone that I know that could do the work, but he won’t be working out any barter agreement with them – all of the people I know that do this kind of thing for a living want cold hard cash and it’s anything but cheap. Then I threw in a hey when are you going to trim my bushes. Oh shoot I forgot about that, it fell through the cracks. I had to take a break. Sounds like with fatherhood and running his business his energy level has dropped and he is finding that he can’t do it all, at least not as long as he was. So he said that when the weather breaks he would come out and take care of it. I asked him to call to let me know first, I prefer to be home but if it’s during the week chances are he will be on his own.
On the weather front here – we have a cold font that has slipped into the area and the wind has picked up. We are due for snow over the weekend. Since I am on call this weekend and it’s the super bowl, I figure that there shouldn’t be a whole lot of people working, but then again you never know. If we get a snow day out of this next week, you won’t hear any complaints from me. I have a co-worker who works from her home in CT and earlier this week they were buried with 3 feet of snow. Good thing she works from home, otherwise she would have never made it in. That I guess is the downside of working from home, no matter the weather your expected to be there unless of course your sick.
Life is just peaches and cream right now. After hours calls have been kept to a minimum thus far and I am rather happy about that, but they seem to come when I get in bed and that I don’t like. Marvin was crying last night more than once Thankfully I found out about a mobile version of one of the apps we use to track calls and I was able to compute from my bed, without having to go downstairs. I got interrupted like 3 times before I was able to doze off. When I woke up this morning, it felt like I had never been to sleep. Still I got up and got moving. There are times and today is one of them, when I just wonder how I make it and keep managing to put one foot in front of the other.
In the on line realm – I recently got back on Match.com and didn’t remember why I left in the first place. Until today. They tease you by letting you know that someone likes you or x number of guys viewed your profile. You can’t tell who exactly it is unless of course you pay them for a subscription. The longer term you want to sign up for, the cheaper the service. One month is $42.99 – seriously why would I pay that amount of money to see who likes me and pay for the privilege of interacting with them? I would say I am eager and maybe a little bit desperate but I am NOT willing to part with that amount of money for a maybe. If it was a sure fire it’s going to work or your money back, well then I might consider it. I still have my doubts about on-line dating and the apps. I don’t think many relationships at least gay relationships start from those types of services. Now hookups, yeah. Grinder even tells you how many minutes you are away from each person you look up, so you know that you can see Jack, then Joe about 15 minutes later and in a half hour Jimmy will be coming by. Kind of handy if your in the hook up or as I say hump and dump way of operating.
Well work is picking up and I am a little confused about a few things so I need to jump back into the fire and keep this Thursday moving on. Anxious to get home and visit my bed again, I miss it so. Take care and we shall talk again soon