Found the money tree

Here we go again another week ahead of us. I scheduled some vacation this morning, I took 2 intervals of 3 days. The first is after election day and the second is the 3 days before Thanksgiving. So, I have some time off to look forward to. I still have roughly a week to use before the end of the year. Right now, I am saving it as a cushion in case I get sick, but I might just schedule it. I’d like to take a week this month but thus far have talked myself out of it.

I had a great pizza yesterday afternoon. As per usual no hot guy candy to look at. Some kids came in with their parents after a soccer game. The parents announced to the entire restaurant that the kids lost their soccer game by a lot. The kids didn’t seem bothered by it at all. Unfortunately, there were flies in the restaurant and I kept having to shew them away and almost wound up spilling my soda. I was happier when I put the leftovers in a box and headed home. I am not a fan of insects.

Had a relaxing evening with the cats. Found out why Rudy was so clingy. He wasn’t feeling well and produced a hell of a fur ball. I kind of thought that was the case. Both cats got brushed and their nails trimmed earlier in the afternoon, this was pre-fur ball. Mora put up one hell of a fight with her nail trim, but it hasn’t harmed our relationship, which I am thankful for. I love her and her brother so much the last thing I ever want to do is hurt either one of them. I think she knows that. I’m not a fan of having my nails trimmed either and I do that job myself. I don’t know how anyone sits still for a nail trim by a stranger.

I popped an extra sleeping pill last night and had a good night’s sleep, despite a couple of wake-up calls to use the restroom. Once I got back in bed it was lights out and I was in dream land all over again. Really wish that I could sleep like that every night it would make me a much happier person, not to mention that I would feel so much better. Sleeping is a huge requirement for me, and I love it very much. I fell in love with it as a kid and it’s a love that has lasted well into adulthood. The same is true for food and men!

Woke up to a nice cool morning start but it’s going to heat up as the day wears on, and it will feel more like summer today and the next couple of days, which I am okay with. It will be in the 80’s, which isn’t horrible. Might as well enjoy what warmth we have left while it lasts because soon colder will be normal. The best thing about that is that all the bugs will be dead, that is the only good thing about colder weather.

I forgot to mention this in my update yesterday. Often when I get to the checkout at various stores I am asked did you find everything okay or a similar question. I always answer yes, I found everything but the money tree. I’ve been saying that for years upon years. My late spouse said it as well. Yesterday when I was at the grocery store, I passed the floral section and saw they had 8-inch money trees for sale. I paused and just took that in. I never actually knew there was something called a money tree. I told the cashier about it. He didn’t know it as well and once he handed me my receipt, he headed back to see them. The cashier told me that I should run back and get one, it might grow. I told him I was born at night but not last night. It was a nice smile moment.

On the work front it’s not been a horrible Monday but I have had busy spikes here and there. My schedule has a bit more tomorrow and there is no shortage of meetings to attend. I’m hoping that this is a quiet and fast-moving week, I hate being on call. Speaking of which, it’s almost time to put together next year’s on-call schedule. The only thing I need is a list of our company observed holidays which won’t be released until a bit later in the year.

I hope you had a great day!

Weekend Update

Saturday …. As per usual my insomnia kicked in early in the morning. I sat up and looked for something to watch. Sadly, I found something on Peacock an old tv show called Too Close for Comfort. Looks like I’m keeping Peacock, at least for now. Eventually I was able to fall back asleep and Rudy let me sleep in until 7a. That was awfully nice of him. I got up and got the cats and myself breakfast. Then off to the shower. I was partially dressed and sat down to watch TV; I had a little bit of time to kill before my haircut appointment. That time passed by quickly and I finished getting dressed. I was early for my haircut as usual and had to wait on my barber to finish up with their current client. I had some plans for today but feeling tired all I wanted to do was go home, get undressed and crawl back into bed. So that is exactly what I did. The cats didn’t seem to mind.

I rotted in bed and my room for the bulk of the day from sleeping and watching TV. I passed out lunch for the cats, only because Rudy was insistent about it. I grabbed a soda and some chocolate and enjoyed more of the TV show. Eventually I opted to turn the TV off and start on laundry. I had some finance work to catch up on and then veered off into the world of porn. Before I knew it I needed to leave for supper.

Backup stairs threw on my clothes and headed out. I went for BBQ only because I was supposed to have a reward since it’s my birthday month. Turns out that reward wasn’t on my account. Last year the place moved my birthday month to October. I said something to the manager, and he was supposed to have corrected it but apparently that did not happen. I wasn’t pleased about that, and my dippy waitress didn’t offer to get the manager or fix it. I wanted to get going because a charter bus had just pulled up and the people were piling in. It took me forever to work my way past all the people coming in. I held the door and when I got a chance moved to the second door and eventually, I was free and in the parking lot. My next stop was to get the mail. Then came home.

For the longest time I would pass by those speed trailers that our town has and never get alerted by my radar detector. Those days are over, they use photo radar and my radar detector supports it. The town my doctor is in has photo radar setup at each intersection so if you blow a light, they snap your license plate and mail you a ticket. The alert is super loud and obnoxious, but I know the sound. Well, I passed by one of those speed trailers and had an alert way in advance, so when I passed by it thanked me for driving safely. I saw on a YouTube video some cities have mounted Flock cameras in those trailers so they can capture your license plate.

Since I arrived back home, I have been working more on the laundry. Also, the computer. Got it all tuned up and it is working better. All week long I would open a spreadsheet at work and when I would have to type in numbers it would cause Excel to crash. Not exactly sure what the number pad was sending but I didn’t have any issues on my laptop, so I knew my desktop had to be rebooted. Hopefully, when I log in on Monday things are back to normal.

Rudy has been super clingy and sleeping in my lap off and on while I have been browsing sites and playing. As I typed this up, he woke up and looked at me, as if to say come on it’s time for bed. The look he gave me was dirty and I know he was trying to make me feel guilty. Yeah, it sort of worked because I am saving this and heading up.

Not exactly a productive day as I would have hoped but it was enjoyable. Hopefully tomorrow will also be enjoyable once I get my morning errands out of the way.

Sunday … Had some insomnia but managed to get back to sleep without having to watch TV. Both cats helped me with that. So thoughtful of them, just makes the bed crowded. Woke up on time. Fed the cats. I got ready & dressed, headed out for breakfast and then hit up the grocery store. This was Target weekend, but I opted to skip it and just picked up a container of cat treats at the grocery store. Debated on topping off my tank the gas gage said that I can travel 320 miles, and it’s just used a little fuel from the last fill up. I decided on coming home. Got the groceries put away, then unloaded the dish washer and put the cats fountain in. I went and got undressed and watched TV before my food coma kicked in. Eventually I passed out for a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I heard a lawn mower running and Rudy wanted his lunch, so that got me out of bed. I fed Rudy and peeked out the back door. Saw the neighbors’ kid on the lawn mower. He was riding around a little like I used to when I drove one as a kid. I was totally reckless, but this kid was much more controlled. It took me back in time watching him and wishing that it was me instead. Got my medicine put out for the week. Then put the cats’ fountain back together. The motor needed to be cleaned as well and that’s where the bulk of the crud was. I got it flushed out and super clean. Both cats watched with anticipation as I put the fountain back in service. They had a dish of water while it was in for maintenance, and they both drank a little out of it. Once the fountain was back up and running, Mora dove in and drank like I’ve not seen her drink before. Fresh clean purified water from a jug. I drink from the tap. The cats get superior treatment!

I cleaned the house and then decided to run some cleaner through the dishwasher. I grabbed my next load of laundry and headed down. I was alone for a while. Got my inbox cleaned out finally. Nothing like a zero inbox, I like it tidy. Just started surfing for porn and Rudy came back down. He is in my arms sleeping again as I work to type this. I kind of had other plans but there is nothing like cuddle time with him. He doesn’t do this that often, but when he does it’s so cute and I savor it. He beats his tail against me or the desk until he falls asleep then he is perfectly still. Last night he fell asleep twice. Right now, he’s working on it but just not quite there yet.

Thinking about supper I am headed back to my hometown not sure if I am getting Mexican or Pizza, both are in roughly the same location. The pizza place is where they used to have hot younger guys for waiters but that has pretty much dried up and you might find a guy there but it’s mostly girls. The pizza is good and honestly, I haven’t had it in a while, so I am seriously considering it. However, in my mind I really want to stay local either hit up a local Mexican place or go to the pizza place that has not so good pizza and get my favorite pasta dish that comes with a small salad and garlic bread. I always leave there full and happy.

Not like I have anything going on for the day, need to run some cleaner through the washing machine as my laundry dries. There is some outside work that I need to do but just not in the mood. That’s about it. Well looks like Rudy can’t get comfy so he just left me. I am thinking of heading up for a bit anyway. The new neighbors sure have a crowd of cars, not sure if that is going to be the norm but based on the cars it looks like two families living there. The driveway and the street are full.

Hope that it’s a good day for you! Back to my normal routine tomorrow. Take care!

Lonely

I’ve been thinking about the college guy yesterday and how I wished that I would have made a move. That’s even though I believe he’s straight. Hell, I might have at least been able to make a friend if nothing else. Every time I look out at the column that he painted I think of him. It’s like a reminder and it’s painful. He did a great job and I’m proud that the project is behind me, it’s going to be a while before I can look at the column and not think of him. I had a thought of trying to reach out to him via social media, but I know that is less likely to have the favorable outcome that I want. I’m not a weird person, just lonely sprinkled with a hint of desperation. While I’m not a fan of his boss I kind of want to call him and plan another job just to get the guy back here so I can ask him out. That’s not going to happen, but the thought crossed my mind.

I made it out for breakfast and I was very hungry. I had a delicious breakfast and then headed off to the grocery store. Then off to the gas pump. The prices per gallon are insane but since I usually don’t go below a ½ tank and that’s right where I was, my bill wasn’t horribly high but still I know that it could have been cheaper.

Came home and unloaded the groceries. I curled up with the cats. I got sleepy but I had problems falling asleep. While it was a pain, I think it will work to my advantage tonight or so I hope, because I need a good night’s sleep.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, it involved my favorite cashier at the grocery store. She’s an older lady and I don’t see her like I used to because she doesn’t work Sunday mornings. I was shaken when I woke up at 6a but was thankful that it was only a dream. I got up to use the restroom, and Rudy joined me when I returned to bed. He was hopeful that I would steer towards the direction of the kitchen instead of the bedroom. We had a nice cuddle session, and I tried to go back to sleep but that was pointless. The light in the living room turned on at 6:30a & that was my cue to get moving. I took my sweet time but made it out of bed and Rudy got his breakfast.

The loneliness pain is the absolute worst. I think that because of the fact I am gay, my age doesn’t help. I want the pain to stop and this problem solved. The negative way comes to mind of just dropping out of life in general. That would solve the problem but then I’d never get to know what the future had in store for me. Conversely the pain would stop. However, the only thing I am sticking around for is the cats. If it wasn’t for them, I think I would have checked out a long time ago. It’s been going on for long enough and yeah, I know that it’s all up to me, not like some hot guy is just going to magically come walking up to my doorstep but sure would be nice if that happened. I kind of feel like I get to see all these hot guys and some I ask out and get turned down; others play games. I’m not up for rejection but I know it comes with the territory and it’s something you must get used to, suck it up and move on there will always be another hot guy. However, the rejection can harden you and eventually you get to the point where you don’t want to take a chance because it’s probably going to wind up being the same no, sorry I’m straight. Humor but what ever happened to trying something new? My end game is sexually motivated but I’m NOT looking to jump in bed, I want to get to know a guy and make sure that were a match and we both want the same thing, then we can go hop in bed. I think that if I do ever actually get to have sex with another guy that I might have feelings of guilt, but I know my spouse is dead and gone, he would want me to move on. Just as if the shoe had landed on the other foot, I would want the same for him.

Still, I decided it was time to look at dating apps again. I got on something new with the intent on subscribing for a month, but they wanted $50. I didn’t really like what I saw and deleted my account. I downloaded another app to look around and try. I had no idea it wasn’t open to everyone that wanted to subscribe. I built my profile and am waiting to get approved. There are no options at this stage to delete my account, which is kind of what I want to do since it’s not open. I don’t have a comfort feeling about it.

I went out for Mexican food at my favorite place. The flavor I was looking for was there. It was nice to be out of the house. I really didn’t want to come home but I’ve had laundry to finish up, and the cats needed their supper so here I am.

Life – it’s full of emotions and experiences. Wish I would have enjoyed and appreciated my youth while I had it. I have lots of memories to reflect on, some good and some bad. I’m proud of the accomplishments that I have made over the last 13 years, and I know my late spouse would be proud of me as well. Never thought I’d make it to this point but here I am. Only thing left is to find a guy to share the rest of my life with. Would be nice to win the lottery and quit my job. If that doesn’t happen then some how either find a new job or find a way to be content where I am. If all these pieces fell into place, I tell myself the same lie repeatedly, I’d be happy. Truth is I’d be happier, but I don’t know for certain that I would truly be happy. I’ve had plenty of time to experience being sad, lonely and depressed. I’d like a chance to flip those emotions and experience years of happiness and positive things. I kind of think I have paid my dues but then again, I am biased.

Hoping for a great week ahead for all of us. Sincerely, thank you for stopping by it makes my day that you are here. Take care!

Friday & Saturday

FRIDAY

Well today isn’t off to a good start. I woke up to a notification that the internet is out. First estimated restore time was 10a. Then as the morning went on, I got a second notice that the outage had grown larger, but they kept the same restoration time. Now that we are close to 10a the latest update says 3p for restoration. This afternoon I got an updated restoration time that it’s now going to be 6p before it’s fixed. Another update came in later in the afternoon that says now it’s going to be 7p. I saw on social media that AT&T is also having problems. Lots of people in the area are without service, you’d think that would create a sense of urgency, but I guess were just the paying customers and we should expect it. I am very thankful for my hotspot on my phone, once again it saved the day. I’ve got my Roku and Laptop connected to it. No sense in sitting here with no TV that would be very boring. I called the cable company and asked for a credit since I have had no service for the bulk of the day. They are reviewing my request and will let me know about it once service has been restored. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but I think I will get something.

Next update was from the contractor. The column isn’t in and is scheduled for afternoon delivery. They might come out this afternoon or perhaps tomorrow morning. I asked them to keep me updated. I am not getting a comfort vibe about this. Too many more excuses and I will tell them the deal is off. As the afternoon wore on, I sent a text to get an update. They haven’t picked up the column but say that it is in and they will get it in the morning. I had to press about what time they would be here tomorrow. Finally got an answer that they expect to be here between 8a and 9a. I just hope they don’t send me a message tomorrow morning with another excuse as that won’t bode well with me.

Cats were a little perplexed by me staying upstairs, I think they thought I was taking the day off. I kind of wish that I was. It would be so easy to say sorry no internet can’t work, taking the day off. However, I’m plugging away, already knocked out my morning to-do list. I don’t have much going on today and am thankful for that. It will however make for a long day.

Grass guys just showed up, saw a hot blond guy working for them that did the trimming and blowing work. He had long hair and was very in shape. Tempting to step out and make a move but I stayed put. Just admired from afar.

Work was quiet all day long up until the day came to an end and then I had requests coming at me faster than I could deal with. I’ve caught up. While I am not on-call I am staying available to help one person. They can’t follow instructions and it’s frustrating. Hopefully I will be done with them in an hour.

I’ve been watching Landlord Tennant cases all day long with my favorite judge (Judge Simpson) in Michigan. It’s 6p here and he is still going strong. It’s later than that in Michigan. I’m just fascinated by housing court, it’s interesting. Plus, the judge is quite entertaining. He loves levity and he’s very fair to make sure no one gets screwed over.

The internet came back up around 10:30p but my connection was back and working around 8p. Cable company says they are giving me credit for the outage. I’m sure that will be a very small amount since we’re only talking 1 day of service, still something is better than nothing for the inconvenience. 

SATURDAY

The contractor showed up around 9:30a. A crew of 3 people father, son and a worker. The worker looks to be in his mid-20’s to early 30’s. I’m a poor judge of age but damn he’s got a hot smoking body! The crew got the column swapped out. Father and son left, the hot worker is still here, and he is painting the column. Giving it two coats. Mora growled at him and she has only growled at one other worker that showed up, oddly I was sexually attracted to that other worker. That tells me something is off about him. It’s a hot day outside and the first coat of paint should dry in no time. The work looks good from where I am sitting in my living room. I know I am getting raped on the price, but I agreed to it. As time went on the lone worker got bored waiting for the paint to dry. He eventually laid down on my front porch and was coughing. I thought a good excuse to go outside was to offer him an ice-cold bottle of water. He thanked me for it and gladly accepted it. We chatted for a while, and I listened closely as he spoke. He’s straight and wants a wife & family. He’s in school to become a doctor. As he painted, I had his ass right in line with my face. It was so difficult to keep my hands to myself, but I managed. When the other two got back from tending to their other jobs, they were just in time to wrap things up.

The owner made a smart-ass comment in regard to a request I made and we quickly had words. I reminded him that I’m the customer and he’s going to do things my way because I’m the asshole that is paying the bill. That settled that quickly. I will never call him again for anything! The guy hit me up shortly after they arrived in the morning with a slightly lower price for cleaning my gutters but I’m not biting. It was tempting to take advantage of his offer because it’s low, but I’d just as soon hire someone else for that task. If his price for this column wasn’t so high, I probably would have bitten. The column work is done, and it looks fantastic. The job that was supposed to take 2 hours wound up not wrapping up until 1:30p. Glad I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be. I’m also thankful that this took place on a Saturday when I could devote my full attention to it.

Once they were gone, I grabbed a soda. Passed out attention to the cats and then got busy on the computer. I found the smoking hot college guy. He’s got quite the profile with lots of shirtless and sexy photos. None of which are terribly recent. He’s smooth and his chest and arms look as good as the rest of his body. He’s a runner so no wonder he’s in such fine shape. His social media profile doesn’t list anything about him. He’s got some photos of girls on his page. I wondered if I shouldn’t have made a move just because but I’m kind of glad that I didn’t especially since Mora growled at him. He seems nice enough, but something tells me there is a darker side and I’m missing something. I’ve got enough problems and don’t need to add any more to the list.

I didn’t sleep well and tried to work on a morning nap but just like on a working day taking a nap, my phone kept waking me up. Eventually there was no going back to sleep because I was jolted awake and stayed that way.

Rudy wasn’t happy with breakfast and was quick to hit me up for lunch when I came back in.

I had chips for supper last night. Breakfast was a refrigerated breakfast sandwich and a Belvita Banana Bread bar. I am looking forward to my next meal which will be had in a restaurant.

I took a shower and then headed out. Hit up Cracker Barrel and had a nice meal. A lady and a guy sat next to me. He looked like he was her son. Her phone kept ringing and each time she would talk a little bit then ask the person, “Did you call me”? I thought she was out of her mind. The phone rang so of course someone called you, it doesn’t take a genius to figure that out. I was happy to get away from her. Headed to grab the mail and pick up cat food. Then back home.

Working on laundry and making up for yesterday and today in my surfing adventures. I’m sure there is a trove of things waiting for me. I’d call it a productive and quite expensive day.

I hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by, take care!

Monday … Monday

Happy Monday Afternoon,

How’s that for a greeting? I woke up this morning feeling better than I have had in a while. I was up a couple of times last night, but it didn’t seem to affect me. Rudy came to wake me, and I just played like I was asleep because I wanted to stay in bed a bit longer. He went along with it.

It seemed to be one thing after another this morning, and I was late logging on to work but I made it eventually. Things were calm and I was caught up rather quickly on my to-do list. I stuck around for a bit longer as I goofed off on the web, outside of work. Something came in and I was able to jump on it and then after a bit I was able to shift to working upstairs and be with the cats.

I got the vibe last night that Rudy wasn’t feeling well. Perhaps he was just being himself, but it was concerning to me. He appears all normal today, which is a good thing. Cats are the masters of disguise, and you think they are all fine, but they can be hurting or suffering, and we just never know. I think I know my two feline friends rather well, that mixed with my experience of living with 7 cats I think gives me a good edge. I never want to visit the vet but there are times when you simply must.

Today has been dull but there were a couple things that managed to upset me. My boss being in micro manager mode didn’t help but I think I sent a strong back the fuck off vibe. He has left me alone ever since.

Yesterday, shortly after my first post went up my internet came back early. My provider said that the outage was still going on but that my connection was restored. It had the possibility of going down but thankfully, it did not.

I hit up the new Mexican place, and it was a mistake. I was craving that new special sauce they have. It just hits so good, but I forget that there is a spice or fire that is delayed. I kind of over did it a bit. My food was just okay, nothing special. I got charged for another table and had to get that fixed. It’s going to be a while before I go back there. Kind of wish I would have gone with my usual Mexican place the food there is superb.

Had a nice ride and enjoyed getting back out, despite it being hot out. When I got home, I needed to update finances and that caused me to make an eye candy post. I realized it had been a very long time, and I know that more of you like pictures rather than reading my blathering. I like photos too but something about writing is more therapeutic to me.

I did some more job searching today and found a couple of jobs that were semi appealing, but I didn’t have qualifications for the jobs and realized that I would be in over my head. There were some lower paying jobs that I thought about. One of which is working for a new grocery store that is opening in a management position. The more I looked the more I decided that while I am not happy with my present job, it’s better to keep what I have. Kind of a situation the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t. I will keep an eye out, but I don’t have high hopes of finding anything. Of course, if I went up and quit that would give me more motivation to look and I am sure that I would regret quitting. That doesn’t stop me from fantasizing about telling them I am done and leaving. I know initially it would hurt them (the company) more than it would hurt me. However, in the end the job search would drag out, and I would wind up settling for less money and possibly less of a position than I have now. I am well thought of in my present environment and am the go-to person for many things that make me feel good, but it also gets tiresome at times. I just wish that I felt better about my present job. I am surprised that I have made it to the 12-year mark, that’s the longest that I have worked at one place. There are monetary incentives for staying and loyalty is rewarded financially at each 10-year mark. Vacation increases as well with time, but I’ve got around 2 more years before I max out on vacation. I think maybe if my team wasn’t so spread out across the US and we all worked in the same office that might make me feel better. However, there are many times that I am thankful that I am not near any of them as all but 1 guy would have been kicked in the nuts by now.

Well, time to go figure out what is for supper and enjoy the time away from work before morning comes around again and I must do it all over. Tomorrow will be a busier day with plenty of meetings. Thankfully there are rarely meetings on Monday’s. I’ve got at least 1 meeting every day this week until Friday. Right now, Friday looks pretty good to me, but then again, all Friday’s look good to me!

Hope you had an amazing day, feel free to tell me all about it if you wish.

Sunday

I’m not a fan of Sunday’s, only because it means Monday is around the corner. I suppose if you love life and your job then it’s not such a big deal, but at this point in my life I am more a fan of Friday evening and Saturday or throw in any holiday. 

I made it out of the house, yay! Headed to an old place that I used to go for breakfast. Ordered an old favorite. It’s basically a breakfast pizza. It’s nothing more than eggs, cheese, potatoes, and sausage gravy on a slightly thick bread. This dish leaves me satisfied but not full. I always want to order something else and the few times I have I am always sorry because then things catch up and I am stuffed and in pain. So, knowing my limits I opted to pay my bill and leave. 

While I was eating breakfast, I got a notification that my home internet has an internet outage and restoration is expected by 10:30a. I thought that was reasonable considering it was 7a. 10:30am has come and gone, now the eta for restoration is 3:30p and it wouldn’t shock or surprise me if they extended that. Just got the update they are now saying 6:30p. I am not holding my breath; this sounds like something major is wrong and it will take them a while. My security cameras were the next thing to chirp out an alert. Last to alert me when I finally returned home was my burglar alarm, it doesn’t send any notification, it just beeps to make you go to the panel and see what the issue is. That got annoying so I disconnected the system from WIFI temporarily until it’s fixed. 

Next stop was the post office. I was surprised to find something from my homeowners insurance waiting for me. They say that I changed my name or address, but I looked over the documents they sent, and everything is the same and correct, nothing changed. It didn’t affect the policy. I thought it was funny when I saw the list of discounts they are giving me. One of them is a hail resistant roof. You only have that if you get an upgraded architectural shingle or have a metal roof of which I have neither. Guess they will be surprised if I ever file a hail damage claim. I’m banking on being able to file one so that I don’t have to cover the cost of the next roof, but I’ve got a couple more years before it will be necessary. 

Next stop was the grocery store. I was so calm and collected when I walked in the door. It felt good but sadly it was only a temporary feeling. Some new muffin bars caught my eye, and I decided to try them. That’s the only thing that I wouldn’t have normally purchased. 

Final stop was home. Glad to know the internet was out, so I had to turn WIFI off on my phone so I could disarm my alarm before I opened the door. I took the tip from the installer who said to turn off entry delay, no sense in giving a burglar any delay. It’s a good thing but if you forget and open the door you trigger the alarm. Thus far I haven’t set it off, but I know the day is coming when I will. Got my hotspot going on my phone and connected my Roku so I could watch TV before nap time. I started to dose off but the cats had my bed, and I didn’t want to fight them. Rudy must have picked up on my feeling because he got up and walked right over to me. I said Well if you’re giving up the bed I am climbing in. I laid down and couldn’t fall asleep, but I did try. Mora snuggled up with me for a bit. Rudy took the chair and waited for a while before he decided to press his luck and ask for lunch.

Eventually Rudy did his dance, and I got up and passed out lunch. Got my medicine set out. Saw the neighbor’s kid doing trimming work. Kind of lost interest in my normal routine for the day. All though I do still need to take care of the litter and trash. 

Planning on heading back out for supper. Still a toss up between Cracker Barrel and Mexican Food but Mexican Food has the lead now. Thankful for having a hot spot on my phone, otherwise I would be super bored instead of just bored. Then again, it might be a motivator for me to accomplish more instead of sitting around. Looking forward to the internet being restored if not this afternoon, then for sure by the morning. I can connect to work through the hotspot but would much prefer my home internet. 

Hope that you’re having a good day and all is well.

SOME KIND OF LUCK

I wound up going back to work on Thursday. I was up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep despite trying. By 6am I gave up and said I’m feeding the cats and going back to bed. I got connected to work and saw my inbox continuing to overflow it was close to 800 emails just in my inbox alone, that’s not counting what was filtered to folders. Then my gut kicked in and said you need to go back today; something is going to happen. It was one of those eerie kinds of feelings. I knew that if I went against it I’d probably be sorry. So, I wolfed down breakfast, threw on some clothes, grabbed my water bottle and headed downstairs.

The cats missed me and made some noise; I came up for bathroom breaks and to pass out lunch. I took an abbreviated lunch and returned to the basement in the afternoon. I was down there all day long. I don’t exactly know where or how I was able to motivate myself because I was exhausted from not sleeping much. I got caught up and managed to accomplish way more than I thought I would. It felt good to have an empty inbox. Talked with the mistake maker and we caught up a little bit.

I thought exhaustion would help fuel a great night’s sleep but sadly I was wrong. I woke up at 2a this morning and managed to get back to sleep by 4a. I woke up again exhausted and really wanted to take the day off but pressed on.

While the day is almost done, I am not quite off the hook just yet. My boss dogged me a little bit yesterday because I chimed in to help on something and that just resulted in him dumping more work on me. I should just keep quiet instead of being helpful. He’s been after me to train the new guy on our Firewalls and I have just put it off. Today I got a written request, and he asked me to invite him to the meeting. He wanted it to be set early next week, so I purposely made it towards the end of the week. I really don’t want to do it but suppose that I can’t put it off forever. It’s pointless to teach him because he won’t even have an account to login to them and my boss takes his sweet time before he gives access to the Firewalls you can wait as long as 2 years. I got my access after 6 months, but I had to go through a formal training course. He wanted to send the mistake maker to the same training but never did and finally after 2 years he just gave him access.

In other news last night, I saw that there was a firmware update for my home router, so I applied it. I had no idea that it would take away remote access to the router. That’s better from a security standpoint because you must physically be here and/or connected to one of the machines in the house and have the credentials to log in. It’s kind of a pain because I had an app on my phone that ceased to function after the update. I could monitor signal strength of WIFI devices, see what/who was connected and reboot the router without being logged on to a computer. Plus, the app would send me alerts if there was a problem or loss of connectivity and it didn’t matter if I was home or not. I did some research and found that my model of router wasn’t on the list to have this service deprecated but again from a security perspective it is much more secure and better.

Today was the day to set the trash out. With the Labor Day holiday trash pickup is pushed back one day. At least it was supposed to be. I waited until the afternoon and got it ready and got it set out. It wasn’t but 15 minutes later and a trash truck showed up, emptied the container and kept on moving. I’ve never had that kind of luck. Perhaps it was just good timing on my part or perhaps it is a sign that something good is going to happen. Hey I can hold out hope, there is no charge for that.

Still watching Roseanne on Peacock and peppering in some YouTube Videos to spice things up a little bit. Food wise I finished the pizza last night and am glad that it’s gone. I’ve got Spaghetti to heat up for supper and kind of looking forward to it. Then there is the left-over Chocolate Cake. Part of me wants it tonight for desert and the other part of me wants to have it for breakfast.

My calendar is clear and outside of feeding the cats I can sleep in and be lazy tomorrow if I want. I like having flexibility and not having looming tasks or deadlines. I’ve got laundry to do, some porn surfing to catch up on, need to grab the mail and get a bite to eat in the afternoon. Not sure where I am going to go. I had it all worked out on Monday, but I’ve slept since then and my taste changes. Thinking of Mexican food but not exactly sure where I am going to go for it. That pretty much takes care of Saturday. Sunday is the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping, cleaning the house and grabbing a bite to eat in the afternoon. Cracker Barrel sounds pretty good but I will have to travel a little bit since I won’t visit the one that is closest to me. That’s due to the gay waiter there that was interested in me. He led me on for the longest time. Seeing him would just bring back memories and stir up hope again. I know he’s a lost cause and for that reason I avoid seeing him at all costs. However, I am always on the look out for a hot guy to hit on, my only problem is they all seem to be straight just like Spaghetti before it gets all hot and wet.

Hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by!

424 Emails

Hello,

I made it for pizza yesterday.  Got to see the straight hunk.  He was supposed to be my waiter but I think he asked someone else to cover for him, which is fine.  I still got to look over his body several times.  He’s wearing his hair with the wet look and it makes him look horrible in my opinion.  I still am in love with the rest of his body, especially his nice ass. Pizza was really good had Spinach & Sausage and brought left overs home.  I didn’t go with a large because it’s way too much pizza for just me and I’d grow sick of it quickly. 

Logged in this morning to find 424 emails waiting for me that’s what made it to my inbox and past my filters.  I got way more email than that.  Quickly skimmed things and doesn’t look like I missed much.  I wasn’t feeling the best this morning so I took today off.  So long as I get a decent nights sleep I plan to get back to normal tomorrow.  All though I would rather just quit and walk away from this place.  I really savor and enjoy time away.  I knew going into vacation that I wouldn’t want to come back but I’m addicted to the money so I will go back. 

Spent the day laying around watching Roseanne and a couple YouTube videos.  I managed to nod off several times despite not wanting to.  Had pizza for supper.  Working on getting Windows Updates installed on both of my machines.  They patched a record braking amount of things and better to stay patched than take any chances. 

Hope you had a great day.  Here’s hoping that I make it back to work tomorrow because the emails are only going to keep adding up and waiting for me.  Take care!

Today’s Waxing Adventure

Hi

Today I thought I would see how waxing my nose went.  I bought a kit from Amazon.  It looks simple until you have to heat up the wax.  I got it a little too hot.  It burnt my nose and I didn’t get the job done.  I had to manually peel off what little wax stuck and that just caused me to sneeze uncontrollably for five minutes.  I don’t think I will be waxing my nose anytime soon.  I’ll stick with a trimmer.  I hate nose hair and it only seems to grow faster with age.  Kind of the same thing for ear hair. 

As for down below, that cream I put on my nuts made them feel really smooth and they are more fun to play with and feel.  However, I don’t know that I will do that cream again.  I will stick with a trimmer for that area as well.  I’ve never been able to trim my ass just wanted to see how it felt. 

I suppose there are somethings you shouldn’t explore and waxing appears to be that something for me.  I’m totally fine with that. 

I feel overcome by the heat and was super lazy this morning.  Finished up streaming Night Court for the second time.  Really love that show.  I wound up staying home for breakfast.  Rudy got me all clawed up and he got his breakfast.  My arm and chest both itch like crazy but I am smart enough to know NOT to scratch. 

It was the afternoon before I got up and really got moving.  Put out my medicine.  Made it to Lowes but I only got a couple things and abbreviated my list because it’s simply too hot to work outside.  Hit up the cat food store and there selection wasn’t the best but I found enough food for my little furry monsters to eat for the next 2 weeks. Filled up the tank and yeah $44 later it’s full.  I knew it would hurt but it also feels good to see the needle back on full.   

Came home and much later in the afternoon I had Lasagna soup (I got this at Sam’s) for supper and nibble on some of that chocolate cake I got yesterday.  It was pretty good. 

Did some house cleaning.  Brushed the cats and trimmed their murder mittens.  They both were not happy about the claw trim but loved the brushing.  They have been puking and I felt bad about that because I knew they were overdue for a brushing. 

Subscribed to Peacock so I can stream Roseanne, it’s the only place where the series is available.  I’ve seen it all once before but suddenly I’m craving it again so there went $19.99 and I will likely stay subscribed until I finish the series or until I get tired of paying, whichever comes first.  Who knows though I might find something else of interest and start watching that.  Seriously considering cancelling my Netflix.  I pay a small fortune for entertainment in the way of television and I know I am just throwing money away because you can’t watch everything at once.  It’s impossible. 

Tomorrow for sure is grocery store day and I will hit up the post office.  I haven’t been in a couple days but I don’t expect there will be anything there.  I plan to go for pizza tomorrow.  I don’t expect I will see the straight hunky waiter but want some pizza to eat and to take home to nibble on during the week. 

A little bored and lonely at the moment.  I was hoping that I would have met someone while I was off but it didn’t happen.  I have a strange feeling that soon someone will come along but then again I could be wrong.  I’ve though about hitting up an app.  Having a companion to share life with would put some fun in it and getting laid would be nice as well.  For me though it’s more about companionship than it is sex. 

Still not looking forward to going back to work but I’ve got one extra day thanks to it being Labor Day.  Then the next holiday will be Election Day and that’s not until November which will be here soon.  I see leaves falling already and the grass is dying because of the heat.  The weather was supposed to cool off this coming week but there is no sign of that nor any rain.  The heat and I don’t get along and I can get sick if I am exposed to it for too long.  My stomach hasn’t been the best over the past week but I am hoping that eventually things will settle down and the weather will cool off a bit.  I’m not looking to jump into snow or freezing temperatures. 

Funny thing I think my neighbors house got inspected yesterday.  They left the lights on inside and out.  It is quite bright at night.  He’s due to come cut the grass but who knows if that will happen anytime soon, only time will tell. 

I plan on trying to make the most of this evening and tomorrow because going back to the normal WES (Work Eat Sleep) will suck and not in a good way.  Still looking a little bit for a different job I just really don’t want to take a cut in pay to get away from the nonsense.  I ask myself if that will make me happy and while I think it will short term I don’t know about the long term. 

Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you all again soon!

HOT & WORN OUT

I know it’s been a bit since my last post. I surprised my Thanksgiving Friends on my birthday. I took over fresh bakery from a local place they like. I only planned on staying for a couple hours but wound up spending all day with them. They have a guest staying with them, it’s there would be future daughter-in-law. She was going with one of their sons who died during the Iraq war. Their late son and this gal had plans to marry but obviously that never happened. I met her years ago at Christmas time, it was shortly after I lost my spouse, so around 11 or 12 years ago. Her and I started chatting and it turned into a therapy session for both of us. She has tried to commit suicide twice. She can’t move on since she lost the love of her life. She has had a few boyfriends, but they were all the wrong types of men. She has no money and no job. She doesn’t like computers or technology and will be looking for a job after the Labor Day holiday. I wound up taking her shopping for a few things she needed and filled up her gas tank. This was quite the expensive favor I did but honestly spending the money didn’t phase me one bit. I offered to get her oil changed but she didn’t want to. Turns out her vehicle is overdue. My friends took me out for dinner. We went to a new place for fish, it sucked. I was sick the next day from what I ate, and I won’t be going back to that place.

Wednesday, I had my facial and got free shampoo, which felt awesome. Not spectacular but the gal knew what she was doing. I re-watched Boots on Netflix. Saw 9 to 5 again for the millionth time. I love that movie and have ever since it came out. Shame there wasn’t a sequel.

Had an incident with a pedestrian. I went out for breakfast on Friday and when I was leaving the restaurant this cunt was walking along the sidewalk. She saw my vehicle pulling out and came out of nowhere and called me out for not yielding to her. She saw me and common sense would have told me if I was her to either wait or walk behind the vehicle, but the cunt made an issue out of it. I should have run over her foot. That shook me up and I came back home for a while.

I got out later in the day hit up Sam’s Club. I got everything on my list. It was so difficult to get there this time because of the heat and me just saying I’ll do it tomorrow. Eventually, you run out of tomorrows. I wanted to hit up Lowe’s but never made it. It’s still on my to-do list.

Went out to a new Mexican place in the afternoon. They have this slightly spicy and tangy cheese dip they bring with salsa and chips. It’s awesome stuff and I will for sure go back. It’s in a former chain Mexican place that closed. They dressed the place up and it looks super good inside. The food is average.

After that I hit up the movies and saw Coyte vs Acme. Everyone tells me I don’t look my age. The lady that sold me my ticket gave me the senior discount. It felt good but also, I was appalled at the same time. Movie was awesome and I recommend seeing it, especially if you like cartoons or grew up watching them, you will enjoy it. Lots of surprise characters and a very well-made movie in my opinion.

Today (Saturday) I laid around and napped a bit. Rudy finally had enough of it and told me I needed to get moving. So, I did. I bought some wax strips thinking that I could wax my hole. That was a huge disaster. I had bought some cream made for men wanting to remove hair from their genitals and anal area. I decided to use that. It felt like I put Ben-Gay on my nuts, not pleasant at all. I spent a long time in the shower. There was glue from the wax strip, and I had to use a wipe that was included in the kit to get the glue removed. I returned to the shower and washed again. I’ll never ever repeat this little experiment. Andrew Goes Places says that he uses Nair on his genitals and anal area, it works for him. He looks so smooth. I think all I did was inflict unnecessary pain on myself, not sure that much if any hair came off and I for sure used a hell of a lot of water.

Once I recovered from that, I got dressed and headed to the office. Checked my desk and had no mail, which is a good thing. Walked around making sure there were no obvious problems that would require a return trip next week. Things like misbehaving or break while I am on vacation. I had to check on things for my own peace of mind. Found a couple of large conference rooms where the lights were on, but no one was around. I shut them off. I heard a voice, so I knew I wasn’t alone but never saw anyone.

After that I headed a couple streets over to my favorite Italian place and got to order the dish that I had been wanting to try for a very long time. They told me last time it would be back in September and that was correct. I left with a free piece of chocolate cake for my birthday. Saw a couple of hot guys, so nice eye candy to go with my meal. I was stuffed when I left, the cake was to go no way I could have eaten another bite. Parking was a mess, so I had a little bit of a walk. Full stomach, super-hot outside. I was breathing a little heavy by the time I returned to my vehicle, shame it wasn’t because I had sex.

I opted to return home. I said I would rest up and then head back out hit up the cat food store and Lowe’s but damn I am exhausted. It’s supposed to be cooler tomorrow, so I plan to knock out both of those tasks then. If for some reason I, don’t I still have Monday. After that I will be all out of tomorrows. Because on Tuesday it is back to work and I will be on call. I’ve still not looked at work email and have no plans to do so until Tuesday morning. Whatever is there will be waiting for me, it’s not like it’s going to get up and leave. Fuck I so don’t look forward to going back but glad that I discovered that I will still have 2 weeks accruing to use before the end of the year. I’m thinking perhaps a little bit of cooler weather next month, take another week and get that dumpster and clean this place up like I’ve been wanting to for a while.

In addition to my errands tomorrow I want to travel to the pizza place where the straight guy works that I have a wicked crush on to torture myself and just drool over him while I eat pizza.

Right now, Monday I think will be a stay home day but hey something could change my mind on that and I might get out. Right now, my gas tank is closer to empty than it’s been in a very long time and filling it up tomorrow is going to seriously hurt but I had fun getting it to this point. Vacation is nice but it always involves spending more money than one really wants to, at least in my experience. I didn’t go hog wild and can pay cash for every penny I spent, which makes me feel good.

I almost forgot I hired a contractor finally to replace the column on my front porch. He’s expensive but I have confidence in him. I wanted him to clean my gutters as well but he seems way high on that, despite the detail he quoted me on making sure the downspouts were clean (they are all clean I have strainers in) and he said he would also blow off my roof from any debris, there are a couple sticks up there but a little wind and they will be on the ground in no time.

Time to catch up on porn surfing. I’m working on laundry and will be headed to bed in a while. Need to go to a new place for breakfast because the place I normally go to is closed this month because the owner went on vacation. Wish I could take a month off, gee wonder how long it would take me to catch up on email from that? Things will go back to normal in October so there is something for me to look forward to.

I hope you’re doing well and staying cool. Thanks for stopping by!

ON VACATION

Hi there!

As you can tell by the title, I am on vacation. Only on my second workday off and I am bored. This past Sunday I got together with my Thanksgiving friends we went to a Mexican place I had been to before but didn’t care much for. I had to fight a little bit, but I picked up the bill. I know they can’t afford stuff like that, and it would just go on a credit card that would get minimum monthly payments. No sense in financing a meal.

I skipped the grocery store on Sunday, and it’s been interesting getting by on what is here, but I am making it. Thus far I have just had breakfast at home and went out for my late afternoon meal.

Monday it was White Castle. I have been having a serious craving for the place and while it was enjoyable the original taste I remember just didn’t seem to quite be there. I sat eating my meal looking around the restaurant and remembering the many times me and my late spouse went there. It just made me miss him that much more. It didn’t help that I burped onion ring batter for the rest of the evening, they sure were good though.

Remember that lower paying job I mentioned a short time ago. Well, I applied for it on Monday night. I don’t know if I could make it on the salary they are paying. I’d like to know more about the job and to see if I even get selected for an interview. I think I’d like it a lot and a change of pace I think would be nice. I’ve looked to see what other jobs are out there but nothing else tickled my fancy thus far. I’ll probably wind up staying where I am because I like the money. I just figured out that I’ve still got 2 weeks of vacation to take before the end of the year. It hasn’t accrued yet but once it has, I plan on taking more time off which is something to look forward to. If I want to burn through my reserve carry over, then I would have a total of 4 weeks to take. Just thinking of taking an entire month off from work sounds wonderful, but I think of the mess after a week. I can only imagine what kind of cluster fuck I would come back to. I’ve not checked email and am letting it pile up.

I had a profitable day Monday. I got my money back from the post office for the letter I sent that cost me $20 to send, that was nice. Then I called my Auto Insurance company, and they applied some discounts that I saw were missing and I got an extra discount because I paid in full. That money will come back to me in a few days via a check. I’m looking forward to getting it.

Tonight I went to a pizza place in town. Nothing special and service was just okay. When my bill came back with my card, there was no pen to sign the receipt with. I had to stop someone and ask for a pen. I also didn’t get a pizza box to carry out my left-over pizza in; it was just a Styrofoam container. I was not happy about that.

Went to the dentist today for my 6-month checkup, got good news as usual and was pleased. I don’t go back until April 1^st and that’s no joke.

Rewatched the entire Boots series on Netflix. Shame there won’t be a 2^nd season of that show, at least not on Netflix. I know that I’m not the only person who wants the story line to continue and to see how things play out for the cast. Fingers crossed that they make a 2^nd season.

Trying to have lunch with my other friend but he said he would text me back yesterday and I haven’t heard from him. I think he forgot all about me and really seemed like he wasn’t interested in getting together.

I have made some progress on getting the stupid post on my front porch replaced. The guy I told was hired hasn’t told me the total yet, I’ve only got a ballpark estimate. I’ve got another guy that is cheaper, but he seems like he doesn’t know what he is doing so while he costs less, I think you get what you pay for. I’d just like to get this job done so I can move on.

It doesn’t help that there is construction on the main street in and out of the subdivision. Things are quite a mess and not coming home my usual way takes some adjusting to but I’m making it thus far.

It’s super-hot out and kind of miserable to be out doing anything. I really want to drive but even with AC it’s kind of a bit much. I will have to bite the bullet though if I want to go for a drive.

I put off going to Sam’s club which is just around the corner because I didn’t want to deal with the construction. I had planned to do it when I came home from the dentist, but they ran behind and I sat for far too long. I was only interested in coming home and relaxing. Yeah, I’m kind of lazy but it’s my time to do with as I please. I’d rather be out of the area and on a true vacation, that’s on my someday list. I need a traveling companion to make it fun and worthwhile.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I’ve got nothing going on. I’m telling myself that I need to make it to Sam’s and try to fit in Lowes just to get them out of the way. Then take a 2-hour drive to go eat some fish and see some different surroundings. Time will tell how that plays out.

Right now, my plan is to get to bed so that I am prepared for my early Rudy morning wake up call. Get a shower and head out for breakfast. Then hit up a bakery and surprise my thanksgiving friends with some fresh pastry. That’s been on my list of things to do for a while. I know I won’t want to wake up early and I might wind up eating breakfast at home but I for sure want to hit up that bakery. Doing it early in the morning has two benefits. #1 it’s cooler out early in the morning. #2 better selection the quicker you get there.

Thursday morning, I have my facial booked and that’s pretty much it. I’ve got nothing planned Friday through Monday. I’d like to clean up my deck; it would be nice to admire but doing the actual work yeah not looking forward to that.

In case it doesn’t come glaring through, I’ve got some depression going on and I want to check out of the world but that would leave the cats devastated and I won’t do that to them, were good for each other. Getting older is only part of the depression piece. Missing my late spouse as well as being alone for so long, not having success in the dating world and my boring life – it just feels like I am wasting away. Doesn’t seem like I matter to anyone but my job. Kind of wish I would have gotten the dumpster and cleaned this place up, at least I’d be busy and not have time to dwell on poor old me.

Well, off to climb the steps and settle in for the evening. Hopefully I can get a great night’s sleep and be raring to go with the same energy that Rudy has every morning when he wakes me up. Thanks for stopping by. I do hope all is well with you!

Last week before vacation time

Good evening,

I hope that you had an enjoyable and relaxing weekend.  Mine was okay but like all weekends it went by too quickly. 

Sunday I had to wake up early to get some testing done at work.  I found that my company laptop which is sitting in my office wasn’t responding.  It was working on Friday because I used it.  I dismissed it and said well I will go reboot it when I’m back from vacation.  That kept eating at me all day, so my plans for Sunday changed up a bit. 

I decided to head out to the office to take care of rebooting the computer.  On the way there I saw the largest police presence I had ever seen on the opposite side of the freeway.  A semi was blocking all lanes and on it’s side.  That side of the freeway was closed.  I found out later the driver died.  No one else was involved.  From the looks of things, he had to have had a medical emergency or something like that.  I’m interested but not sure if that will be made public. 

I arrived at the office to find a package on my desk.  It was spare parts to keep on hand for our doors.  Not an inexpensive box.  I got that stuff put away and rebooted my computer. 

Then headed to grab a bite to eat and stop for cat food.  I normally stop on Saturdays but my stomach was doing summer saults so I didn’t leave anything to chance and came home.  Things sorted themselves out by Sunday. 

This morning I woke up and felt sick.  It got super cool here over night and I left my fan on.  That is a sure fire way to get me sick.  I didn’t think I would make it but I pressed on and as I did I felt better.  That is until lunch time.  I decided that I would have a bowl of Chicken Noodle Soup.  Well if it comes out of a can here Rudy thinks it’s for him.  I put food out for him but he still begged me for soup. 

In fact Rudy has been bothering me all day long asking for food.  I gave in and gave him an extra can 2 hours after he had lunch.  I passed out supper and by the time I went to eat he was asking me for more food.  I passed out treats early.  I strongly think he is a Thyroid cat.  Gator used to bother me for extra food.  If it’s not that then he has just discovered how much of a push over I can be and he’s milking it.  This just started in the last couple days so I am waiting to see what happens. 

He got his flea medicine on Saturday.  His scratching has decreased a little bit but ever since then that is when his hunger started. 

My stomach is back to doing summer saults and I think it’s the result of mini Jelly Donuts that I got last weekend.  Normally they are all gone in a matter of days but I made them stick around.  They are in the fridge.  I had one last night as a test to see if it’s what caused my stomach issues and well I think I’ve got my answer.  I’m not eating any more of them.  They will go out with the trash come Thursday. 

Work, today has been a busy day.  We were invited to a meeting that is lasting all week long and has nothing to do with our team.  It was nice to be included but I stuck around for as long as I could stomach it and then finally dropped off because regular work was picking up.  Busy time with a bunch of new people starting in a few weeks and there is mounting pressure that comes with that as well.  Not a fun time but being busy makes the time pass faster! 

Found out that the new guy asked if he could take next Wednesday, Thursday & Friday off.  I’m out, the mistake maker is out so that would leave the boss by himself.  Not sure if this guys time off will get approved but it’s also not my worry. 

Speaking of time off I was thinking about what exactly I had planned for next week.  Nothing more than a dental appointment and a facial.  I am kicking around the idea of getting a roll away dumpster delivered for a couple days and doing some serious house cleaning.  It’s something that I’ve said I would do for years but it always gets put off.  Not exactly something exciting to do.  Dumpster rental isn’t cheap but I could at least make a dent in things.  I’ve not committed to the idea yet.  I’m sure if I do the neighbors will think that I am the next one that will be moving out and nothing could be further from the truth. 

I saw a job that sounded interesting but it pays 1/2 of what I am making now and from that 1/2 there would be union dues to pay.  It’s kind of a dream job for me and I would be out of the house 5 days a week.  The thought of starting over and the pay cut are what kept me from jumping at applying.  I want out of my present job so bad though and yeah I am willing to take a pay cut to make it happen but 1/2 pay is a little too steep, dream job or average job. 

Well nightfall is here.  Time to prep for tomorrow.  Shave and shower.  Then off to bed and up to do it all over again tomorrow.  I just tell myself this time next week who knows what I will be doing.  Work won’t be one of those things. 

Take care! 

What a week

Did you miss me? Well, I’m still here. It’s just been one of those weeks.

My problems began on Wednesday. There was an important meeting that I should have attended in person, which means going into the office. It was filled with Management. I’m sure someone asked where I was and probably got the response, he’s a remote worker or he mostly works from home. Obviously, I wasn’t there. I had planned on going in but my Insomnia and worry kicked in and kept me awake so by the time morning rolled around I was in no shape to do anything. I took the day off, thinking that perhaps by being “out of the office” that would explain why I wasn’t there. I am expecting the worst and that “my dirty little secret” is out and probably has surfaced up to HR. Then again, I could just be a bit paranoid. No one moves very fast around there so it could be a week or more before I hear anything presuming that my dirty little secret did in fact get leaked. While I anticipate if it’s known that I’d probably be terminated there is the chance that I would just be told to get back to the office. Honestly, no one complains about my work, I’m known for speed & accuracy. So, I don’t follow the go into the office 3 days a week bullshit rule. I still work every day and put in more than my share of overtime. I know that loyalty or your dedication and contributions don’t matter if HR looks to discipline or terminate someone. I also know my boss’ boss is the one who would be the one to likely make the final call because my boss is incapable of wiping his own ass without asking his boss for permission first and then making sure he agrees with how he’s wiping. The man has no spine, it’s like he can’t think for himself, or he’s been brow beaten not to think for himself. That’s part of the reason why I dislike them both. I really feel that the company would chop off its nose despite its face.

I only took Wednesday off and “went back” (I still worked from home) Thursday and worked Friday. It was late on Friday when my boss called, I figured here it came. He just had a simple question for me, and I was able to get him an answer even though I was off the clock. So, I’m not sure if that was to throw me off the scent or if even, he doesn’t know yet, presuming that my secret is in fact out. I could just be worked up about nothing. I just don’t trust managers/management.

Presuming that I’m all worked up over nothing and it comes time for my promotion, I think that I am going to be shoved into the role and not asked if I want it. If turns out to be something that if I don’t want, I expect to have to fight. I hope I’m wrong and they play fair and lay everything out on the table so I can make an informed decision. I also think that if I do take the promotion, it would be smart to go back to the office, because that saying the bigger, they are the harder they fall. I’m sure that if I was promoted and considered management and not following the rules that would certainly be curtains for me if that secret got out. I can only worry so much, so I’m just playing along now like everything is okay until I hear it’s not. I’m probably better off that way so I don’t tip anyone off that I’m worried about something, even though the worry is and has been there for a very long time. I’m on call next week and as usual I dread it. Hopefully it won’t be that bad.

In other news, I checked the mail on Friday and no green postcard, which is exactly what I expected. I’m certain that the carrier didn’t get it signed and tear it from the envelope, so I shelled out a bunch of money for nothing. I’m quite disappointed and mad. I’m sending a letter to complain and see what good that does, I did ask for the information that the services I paid for would yield and said if they couldn’t provide that to refund my money. I honestly think they will fold and give me my money back. I did get a blocked/private call on Friday. It could have been the kid trying to reach out but then again probably not. I don’t take calls without caller id and even with caller id you can’t be 100% certain you are going to be talking with the correct person on the other end since caller id can be spoofed. Technology is great but sometimes there are loopholes that fuck it up for everyone in general and spoofing caller id is one of those loopholes in my opinion.

I watched Season 3 of Tires on Netflix. It was pretty good and much longer than I thought it would be. I got through the bulk of it in one evening but then saved the last 4 episodes and wound up watching them on Friday night. I happened to be in the right place at the right time and looked out my back window to see one of the neighbors’ hot teenagers and he bent over. Simple things like that make my mouth water. As the song goes, I need a man to lay me down and give me something to feel or in simpler terms I need to get laid. I crave sex so bad and the longer I must wait the stronger the crave gets. Watching porn and rubbing one out helps but nothing beats the real thing baby! For clarity I like a younger guy but only would have sex with someone of legal age and I am not into hookups. Although I’ve thought about it, it just seems way too much to risk. 5 minutes of pleasure for what could be a lifetime of pain, no thanks.

Tuesday night I was sitting in my room watching TV with the cats and heard a beeping coming from the alarm panel. I figured that it was warning me that I had lost internet. Only I hadn’t lost internet. The cellular signal died and that’s never happened. I had phone and data cell service from the same carrier that the alarm uses. It puzzled me. I rebooted the system but that didn’t help. I finally got it armed again and turned on quiet mode to shut up the beeping. The remote-control app I have on my phone was down as well. I often leave and turn off the entry delay so if you open a door the alarm will go off with no waiting period. Just think if I was out and came home, that would have been a mess. Anyway, it was a couple days later I got a note that told me it was a nationwide thing and it’s fixed now. I had already figured that out. No one has said exactly what went wrong but I’m sure interested. Just think if you were a criminal and could hack an alarm provider like that you could break into many places, and no one would know until after the fact. It’s like a mobster told me when I was a kid, locks are for honest people. I suppose the same thing is true for alarm systems or security in general.

Speaking of home my neighbor’s house has an offer on it. I’m astonished that it went that quickly. I don’t know if there was compromise or if someone just offered asking price. Presuming the deal goes through I will find out soon enough because it’s all public record. I’ve been thinking about whoever moves in that I should tell them about the badly clogged gutters and the water that will pool in the backyard. Then again, I could just keep my mouth shut and let them figure it out on their own even though that doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. I guess it will depend on who it is and if our paths cross. Funny thing is that house was nothing but an empty lot when I moved in here and I watched it be built from the ground up. I’ve seen people come and go. There were a few renters for a while, but it only had like 3 owners total which is good for something that was built in the late 90’s. The listing makes the place shine but that’s the objective. If you want to sell a home you have to polish it up and make it shine, that’s what our realtor told me years after we bought this place.

I hit up the Mexican place by the office yesterday. There was no a/c in the place and they had fans on. It was just circulating humid air, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there. Chips were horrible but salsa was on point and good. Food was okay but my stomach has been churning ever since I left that place. I stopped by the office as I was expecting a package but there was nothing on my desk other than dust. I was quick to leave and head back home.

Finished up laundry, paying a couple big bills one of which was auto insurance. Jeez I can’t imagine how much I’d pay if I was driving a new vehicle. I may well be able to afford the vehicle but not the insurance. Yet another reason to keep driving what I have since it’s not really giving me any trouble. I really want a new vehicle, but it just doesn’t feel like it is the right time, at least today doesn’t. The last thing I want is to jump into car payments and then lose my job. That’s my biggest fear with a large purchase I’ve had it all my life and it does make me hold out longer before I take the risk.

Speaking of vehicles, I watched a police pursuit where a state trooper saw a vehicle speeding, he followed it and clocked it upwards of 100 mph. He fought like crazy to catch up to the guy, he tried to get away hit a bunch of vehicles and wrecked. Then went to flee, he tried to jump over the overpass, but he was high in the air and there was nothing below but solid ground. The trooper told him you don’t want to jump it won’t end well. The guy surrendered and as they were on the way to the hospital the guy said, “Are you taking me to real jail?” That made me laugh. The trooper didn’t hesitate and said yes. The guy said I don’t understand why. Seriously, you’ve got to be damn dumb. Turns out he was driving his girlfriend’s car, totaled it and was worried about how he, her and her kid were going to get around, like it was the trooper’s fault. If you flee a police officer, when they catch you, you will be headed straight to jail. It’s just a given fact. Then to cause an accident and not have insurance on the vehicle, yeah, it’s like you drew the go to jail card from Monopoly.

Today I woke up super early and had problems going back to sleep. I was a little late to get moving but I made it to breakfast. Had the best breakfast of Strawberry Cinnamon French Toast, Country Fried Steak and eggs. It was rather expensive, but I did enjoy it.

Hit up Target, the grocery store and gas station before coming back home. Wound up being lazy. I’ve laid around pretty much all day. It is super-hot out and there are things I could do outside around the house but it’s far too hot for me. Went out for supper to the bad pizza place that has good pasta. Enjoyed my dinner very much. Had some nice eye candy to look at. Thought about asking a couple guys out but decided against opening my mouth.

I’m back home brushed both cats. I’ve gotten scratched up and now they have both passed out asleep. They are in a food/treat coma. I’m watching a podcast as I type this out. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, and I am trying to enjoy what is left of my evening.

I hope all is well in your world and that life is treating you well. Until next time, take care!

Wipeout Sunday

Morning!

Yesterday I did all of my normal morning running/chores.  Came home, napped.  Got up and got my medicine prepped, cleaned the house.  Wound up cleaning the inside of the car and checking tire pressure.  Then came in and just called it.  I watched TV and mentally checked out, which was enjoyable. 

Left a bit later than I wanted to for pizza.  Got to see the cute straight guy for a bit.  He greeted me when I walked in the door and brought me my drink but that was it.  It was the end of his shift and he couldn’t get out of there fast enough.  I had an enjoyable pizza.  Some additional eye candy walked in the door which was nice to look at. 

Hit up the car wash before coming home.  Neighbors house had a showing in the afternoon.  I found a post on social media where multiple people say it’s over priced.  Glad I’m in touch with reality because that’s exactly how I feel.  He built a new super expensive house in another subdivision, it’s way larger and now he’s trying to recoup the cost by jacking up the price of his former home.  At least that’s my take on it.  I honestly don’t think it will sell fast given the asking price but hey I’ve been wrong before.  Time will tell. 

When I got home from pizza I just wanted to relax and take it easy, so that’s what I did.  Never ventured downstairs all day long and the closest I got to a computer was playing on my phone.  Mora tried to interfere with that as much as possible but it didn’t work. 

Shaved and got a nice cool shower before bed.  Wound up turning in way early.  Woke up around 1a and managed to get back to sleep.  Wound up having a horrible dream and Rudy woke me from it at 6:30a.  I was so happy it was a dream that I just got up and got going. 

It’s another SUPER HOT day here.  We have some rain that is supposed to move in but no chance for a cool off for a few days.  I’m over the super hot weather.  If I wanted that I would have lived in Arizona or Vegas.  I like warm sunshine but not sweltering heat for days on end.  I know enjoy it while it lasts because eventually it will be bitter cold and I will wish for a warm up.  Right, I’m rarely pleased with the weather. 

Here we got with another week.  I’m not on-call this week but it’s my last weekend free as next week it will be my turn on-call.  It’s just that much closer to my vacation which I am anxious for.  I’d like to freeze time where I am always on vacation so my income stream isn’t interrupted but I don’t have to work, that is my dream and I know I’m not alone. 

Hope it’s a better week this week, than last week and nothing but good vibes all the time.  Take care and thanks for stopping by!

Saturday

Hope you’re having a great day and enjoying the weekend. It’s quite hot & humid here, we’re back to it feeling like we’re living on The Devil’s Front Porch!

My insomnia kicked in like clockwork early this morning. It did have a minor impact on my plans for the day and me getting started. My motivation for getting up and going was to get to the post office. I went last night to clean out my box and as expected no green card receipt. I spoke with a supervisor today when he got a hold of the carrier who delivered the envelope from his old post office, so they knew him and he had an inside track. He found out that the green card receipt was in fact mailed back, it’s just taking a bit longer to get to me. I’m supposed to get it early next week, despite no tracking movement. I also learned that instead of delivering to the address I mailed it to, it was delivered to a neighbor’s address. I am not confident that it reached the intended recipient but hey I tried. If the green card receipt comes back and shows that he in fact signed for it great, if I see any other name there, I’m going back to get my money back. Got to love the government approach, hurry up and wait.

Went to my friend’s shop and chatted with him. I was outdoors a lot as we spoke, and it was horrible. I eventually grew tired of the heat & humidity and wound up leaving and coming back home but I spent a few hours in it. It was an enjoyable visit.

Once I was home, I watched a little bit more of My Life with The Walter Boys, season 3. Wound up taking a nap with both cats passed out in my lap. It was heavenly, we were all comfy and cozy. Woke up finished up the series and then watched a few YouTube shorts.

Got started on laundry and decided that I would go back to the Italian place that I love so much. I tried to order the new dish that I wanted and they said they were sold out. I got Spaghetti & Meatballs, wound up bringing a small portion of it home. I could have finished up in the restaurant, but I would have come home miserable and didn’t want to do that to myself. This is the first time that I left the place with no chocolate cake. That was difficult. I found out that the dish I really wanted should be back in September so I will give it another try then.

My neighbor was supposed to have an open house on his home that is for sale. That didn’t happen. I did see one couple stop by as I was leaving to head out to the Italian place for supper. They parked in front of it, not sure if they met the realtor or not. Didn’t look like anyone had been there all day. I hope that whoever buys it gets a home inspection before they sign on the dotted line (you’d be nuts to buy property and not get an inspection) they should be told about the clogged gutters as that is going to lead to future problems. Water intrusion is no joke and something you don’t want regardless of where you live.

Plans for tomorrow are to have breakfast out and travel for pizza where the straight hot waiter works. If he’s there it will be a bonus for me but if not, I’ll still get to enjoy pizza and a drive. Meanwhile I am staying hydrated and cool, enjoying the companionship of the cats.

Take care!

Weekend

Greetings!

Saturday – It was an overcast and rainy day.  I did wake up early.  Got a shower and headed out for breakfast.  Got my haircut and then grabbed the mail.  I came back home where I just decided to relax and before I knew it I was back in bed napping.  Not a bad way to spend the day. 

By the afternoon I started laundry and got in front of the computer.  I got this great I idea to remove the HP crapware from my system.  It was not an easy task because the stuff was buried and didn’t show up in Add/Remove Programs.  Suffice to say that I spent hours at this and wound up doing a little bit of damage to my machine. 

Took a break to go grab a bite to eat.  Went to Red Lobster.  Had horrible service.  The food was good and I filled up on biscuits so I had to get a box to carry out a couple pieces of fish and I took the biscuits. 

I was by my Thanksgiving friends house and wanted to call them and see if I could stop in.  I was feeling a little lonely.  However, my stomach felt like it was going to burst and the rain started up again so I just took that as a sign to come home.  I think it was the right move.  My stomach didn’t explode and I felt much better by the time I got home. 

Back at the PC and had to fight off Mora.  She was seriously craving attention, which is nothing new.  She pesters the hell out of me when I am in front of the computer.  It’s like I am giving too much attention to the computer.  I get it but this is my reality escape. 

I rebooted the machine and it took what seemed like forever to get started.  Things that used to auto start no longer do.  It’s a mess.  I used an Uninstaller Program and didn’t go deleting a bunch of files.

Got to bed later than I wanted to but hey it’s the weekend and I don’t really have a schedule.  I took some time after waiting 3 or may be 4 days to watch some porn and experience a sweet release. 

Sunday – Woke up early and decided to move up the alarm and rolled over.  Had all sorts of strange dreams that kept me engaged.  Rudy was by myside the whole time and I told him breakfast would be a little late. 

When I did wake up it was because of my body and not because the alarm went off.  I had a bunch of Cinnamon Toast Crunch and decided that I would save some money and eat breakfast at home.  It was good but not the same as going out for a hot and fresh meal.  I got dressed and headed out to the grocery store and gas station.  I spent a small fortune at the grocery store.  Then dropped another small fortune at the gas pump.  I was running on a 1/2 tank and had to top off.  It could have been worse if I would have had to fill up the entire tank. 

Came home, unloaded the groceries and wound up back in bed after a while.  Once my nap was done it was time to get moving with my regular chores.  Once that was done it’s back to the PC. 

I discovered a serious error on my part and wound up paying too little for my mortgage payment, like I didn’t even meet the minimum payment, which is totally unlike me.  At least I discovered it before it became a problem.  I set up a second payment and have more money sent but it will arrive on Tuesday.  It’s going to confuse the bank but at least they have their money, no need to hassle me.  While it was my mistake, I think that perhaps I was side tracked or just not fully dialed in as I typically don’t make errors like that.  Hey, were all human and we all make mistakes but things like this bother me, makes me wonder if I am truly loosing my mind. 

Went out for Mexican food because it’s been two weeks since I have had my favorite meal.  This time the meal came with entertainment from the local Police & Fire Department.  Shortly before my food arrived, the fire alarm went off in the restaurant.  No one was moving quickly so I gathered it was a false alarm.  However, my hometown does things right and sends the cops first because they arrive much quicker than a fire truck.  They let them know that it was false but the fire department still came out and once they got there the alarm was finally silenced.  By the time the fire department left I was done with my meal.  It was good and enjoyable but I scarfed it down, something about the fire alarm made me hurry.  Got my bill paid and back on the road to home.  The police were still there when I left. 

The repairs to the computer have finally completed.  I need to publish this, reboot again (like the 5th time today) and hope that all is well.  I think it will be.  There are still some programs I have to manually start but it’s a minor inconvenience.  I know that I just need to bite the bullet and upgrade to WIN11, that will likely fix everything but I like my WIN10 so I’ll make it work. 

Then I need to grab the laundry and put it away.  Spend some time with both cats and give them a serious brushing, which I promised.  Then it will be time to shave/shower and get ready for bed.  A little relaxing and then I will be in dream land hopefully.  Not looking forward to another week but the best part about Monday is that I will no longer be on-call and that’s freedom at least to me. 

Hope you had a nice weekend!

 

 

End of the week

Greetings

Just like that the week is over with.  I am so happy to see another Friday!  Just need to make it through the day and then hopefully I will have two days of peace and quiet. 

I had a few things to take care of this morning and lucky me, Rudy woke me up super early.  I dismissed him for a little bit but kept eyeing the clock.  Then I had to turn over and there was no turning back from that.  He knew for sure I was up and he just worked those paws of his making biscuits until I opened my eyes.  I never said a word to him but started petting him.  I felt his motor kick on low and I could see his face light up he was so happy.  It’s amazing that I can make an animal that happy. 

Mora is no different but her joy comes after breakfast.  She hops on the bed and once I am dressed I shower her with attention.  Some mornings we play, if she wants.  But most of them just involve belly rubs and me singing her song that I came up with.  It’s corny but she’s grown to like and expect it.  Her motor is running on high every time.  After belly rubs she meets me in the living room and we play ball.  She has a ball in a circle that only I can get out with two hands.  She bats it to me and I make it go fast and fly by her, she stops it and passes it back to me.  Then sometimes I get the ball out and set it in front of her.  She loves that and wants to take it and run with it but I don’t let her because who knows where that would wind up.  I put it back in the circle and she tries with both of her front paws to pull it out but fails every single time.  Then she looks at me as if to say “how in the world did you do that?”  it’s funny. 

I came down to start the work day early and plowed through my work.  I’ve got a report to run but I am giving some time to lapse before I start down that road.  Then at closing time there are a few more tasks to take care of and I will be done.  I just hope that not too much comes my way today so that I can relax as much as possible. 

I did grab the trash barrel because the morning forecast includes rain that is on it’s way towards my house now.  Speaking of which the trash people showed up yesterday and took all of the junk from the neighbors house.  Glad that is gone. 

Still plan on getting up early grabbing a shower, then breakfast and a haircut.  Probably will stop by the post office to check mail.  I don’t think I have anything.  No movement on the letter.  I am so disappointed with the post office.  I know I’m not the only one.  Kind of makes me wish I would have used UPS or FEDEX but they don’t have the Restricted Delivery feature just the ability to require that someone signs for the package and that’s the reason why I stuck with USPS.  I’m anxious how the news is going to be received and what reaction if any that I will get. 

Well on with Friday.  Looking forward to this day ending and the weekend starting.  I’m over working for a living and seriously want to walk away it’s just the money that I would find difficult to live without.  Have a great weekend!

Thursday already

Greetings!

The week is moving fast and I am happy about that.  I want to be rid of being on-call.  Although, thus far this hasn’t been a horrible week.  I know there is still time for that to change but I am hopeful that it will not. 

Looks like the Mistake Maker and I will be out around the same time.  i will be on vacation and he will be on Paternity Leave.  That will leave the new guy all by himself for a week.  It will be good for him and kind of give him some Baptism by fire.  He will have the boss around to back him up so he won’t totally be alone.  It’s about a month away and I am looking forward to getting away. 

Nothing much going on.  Letter still has no tracking updates, which I am highly disappointed about.  Paid all that money I hope they don’t wind up losing it.  Since I don’t fully trust the USPS site I am prepared just in case the phone rings or I get an email, I left my contact information in the letter in case the kid wants to reach out.  Part of me thinks he will be cause family seems to be important to him.  Part of me thinks he won’t because well it’s kind of a messed up situation.  I can speculate until I am blue in the face but that won’t tell me how this turns out.  I am a little anxious.

Cats are doing well, Rudy hung around me last night while I watched TV.  He was in the way for a bit but I tolerated him because he looked too cute to wake up.  It funny to see him all confused when he is woken up, it takes a minute for things to register just like with a human.  He tried to jump start me this morning but it didn’t work.  He wound up cuddling up next to me until I was ready to get out of bed. 

Insomnia hit me again last night but it was super early 12:30a.  I laid in bed and watched TV.  The cats came in to keep me company.  It’s nice but I think I might enjoy it more if I had time alone.  They give that to me on rare occasions but it’s never long enough. 

Trash day is tomorrow and my neighbors yard looks like Fred Sandford stopped by.  Someone came by to pick up the appliances he set out but the furniture is still sitting.  I honestly don’t think it’s going anywhere anytime soon.  However, it’s in the front yard so everyone has to see it, not just me. 

Weekend plans right now are shaping up to look like an early morning shower on Saturday.  Going out for breakfast and a haircut.  Then who knows what.  I’ll probably want to nap but you never know I might turn productive and start doing something. 

Hope it’s a great day for all of us.