One Crisis after another

This morning started off fine until I got informed there was a problem at the office and I had to rush in. It was pouring rain and a little difficult driving, but I made it. Got the problem fixed and wished that I had brought my glasses with me. My eyes were on fire, and I only had to stare at a computer screen for a few minutes. I packed up and came back home.

I had to cancel my meeting with the Firewall vendor; we’re now meeting tomorrow. Not what I had in mind, but it worked out. Made it back home and got logged in. Had plenty of email to clean up. Then it was time for a meeting. Once that was over with, I grabbed a quick lunch. Then the next crisis sprung up and I leaped into action. Got a little bit of rest, took the trash out and came back just in time for another meeting. Then the next crisis broke out. I’m exhausted. It’s just been one of those days where it’s one thing after another. The only good thing about that is it makes the day go by a little faster.

It’s humid here and still in the 80’s but the cool down is coming, so they say. I had Tuna Noodle Casserole for supper last night. Tonight, will likely be Broccoli Cheddar Soup.

My gum around one tooth is sore. I noticed it when I was flossing on Sunday night and it caught me by surprise. It was rather odd to me because I am a serious flosser. I figured something was stuck. It persisted on Monday and that’s when I got more aggressive to try to work whatever was stuck out but all I did was irritate the tissue even more and now it really hurts. Been swishing around salt water and that seemed to help. There is some minor swelling around the gum. I’m toughing it out for now in hopes it will heal on its own. However, if that doesn’t happen, I will call the dentist. Not the call I want to make but if it’s necessary then so be it.

Rudy has been lapping up the attention and trying to work some extra food out of me, but I don’t give in easy and he doesn’t stop easily either. It’s a battle of the wits to see if I will give in or he will give up. Looks like he gave up so I won this one. Good thing, his next meal arrives in about a half hour.

Really looking forward to tomorrow being Friday. There are more meetings to go to but at least when the day is over, so the week will be as well, and I can rest a bit. Hope all is well in your world.

Take care.

WEEKEND UPDATE

Saturday … Enjoyed rotting, sleeping and napping. Cuddle time with the cats. Watching some TV. Got out of bed around 1p and passed out lunch for the cats. Watched TV and powered up my phone to see what was going on in the world. Had a soda and eventually wandered into the shower. Got clean and dressed. I left for the office and was depressed on the drive over. Talked myself out of stopping for Italian Food. Almost didn’t make the trip. Got to the office and found that I had new monitors, so I had to log on and configure them. They are borderless 27-inch monitors by Dell. The tech that takes care of our office never told me that he put them in. I was only 3 years overdue as they were promised to me around that time but the tech that made that promise changed offices and never bothered to follow through. I didn’t complain or say anything to anyone figuring that they would catch up with me eventually and wow it finally happened after 3 years. I forgot to do something while I was there, but I can always make another trip.

Each time I travel into the office I think about how much I really don’t miss the daily travel and grind. However, I am starting to think that perhaps even going back one day per week might be beneficial to me from a mental health perspective. I’ve had that thought for a long time. It might also improve my outlook on the overall job but I kind of doubt that. Sitting in a broom closet all day long with no cats, no tv and no bed and mostly nothing to do for the bulk of the day doesn’t exactly sound appealing to me. That’s kind of why I stopped going in plus that broom closet gets cold all year long, so I must turn on my space heater (which is illegal to have).

Anyway, after I left the office, I headed for home and managed to talk myself into BBQ, so I didn’t go straight home. On the commute back I saw and heard a tire explode on a semi. Damn it sounded like a gun went off. He was doing average speed and minding his own business when pop went the tire. Took him a bit to realize what happened before he pulled over. Tire debris went flying all over the place. I was unscathed by it and managed to keep going, I was lagging and two lanes over. Yet another reason to give a semi a wide birth.

Once I was getting close to the BBQ place, I saw a vehicle stopped on the side of the road. There was a lady a little bit way up from it and she was walking on the side of the road. I can only surmise that she ran out of gas. I had the thought to stop but that’s not something that I do terribly often only because many years ago I had a very close call. Her vehicle was still there on the way back, but I didn’t see her. I told myself that if I saw the lady walking, I’d stop. Kind of glad that I didn’t see her. Just because you never exactly know if doing a kind deed is going to backfire on you.

I felt a bit better after getting some food in my belly. Stopped at the post office before coming home and sure enough my refund check was there waiting for me. They took long enough to finally get around to mailing it to me. So much for 7 to 10 days, it’s been a month.

Cats were happy to see me and Mora hasn’t been leaving me alone a whole lot. She craves her attention but part of me thinks that she is just trying to cheer me up.

Sunday … Started off as a typical morning. My body waking me up and me trying to hide the fact that I was awake from Rudy. Once he figured that out, he started his morning biscuit making and kissed me on the nose, which was a nice extra touch. I served breakfast for him and his sister. Then I got ready to dash out the door for my breakfast. A little chilly this morning but as the sun came up it didn’t last. I made it for groceries and then came home.

Rudy was relaxing in bed and didn’t bother to greet me at the door, but Mora was waiting for me. I got the groceries put away and then went back to my room to get undressed and relax. Mora and I sat in my recliner for a while until I got sleepy. Then I had to kick her out so I could get in bed. Of course, she was lying in the middle of the bed, and I had to move her over. I tried to cuddle up with Rudy, but he wanted no part of that, he headed for the recliner, and Mora just made herself comfy by my feet. I watched a little bit more TV before I dosed off for about a half hour. When I woke up, I didn’t want to get out of bed and Rudy came and curled up next to me letting my arm cradle him. That made me feel like the luckiest guy in the world. He isn’t a cuddler that often, but when he is in the mood, he does it well and looks so damn cute. He eventually passed out for a little bit and that’s when I knew he was quite comfortable. It’s tough to be still when you know you must, but I did a great job. Eventually he woke up and decided to switch arms but that was short lived he was ready for lunch.

I was telling Rudy as I got his lunch out that it would be a great day to see a hot guy outside, but I said that probably won’t happen. As I set his lunch down, I peeked out the back door and saw my neighbors’ kid, shirtless. He had finished up, power washing the house. I couldn’t help but let my sexual creative thoughts start to run wild. He has a nice ass and a great body. I don’t think he’s quite legal yet, but I could be wrong about that. I’m a poor judge of age but there is no harm done by letting my imagination run wild for a moment and it was a very much unexpected treat. 

I got my medicine set out for the week and ate some sugar free candy that I picked up. Much to my surprise it was pretty good. Then I sat around watching TV and playing with my laptop. Found out that I had a button that disables the camera on the keyboard, but it never stood out to me. That was some welcome news, and I did some testing with a couple quick logins to work. It works like a charm.

Eventually got up and cleaned the house. Both cats were napping soaking up the sun in the window laying in their cat tree. When I powered up the vacuum they both sprang to life and watched me with great caution, but they never moved, which is highly unusual. I got the vacuuming done and they went back to sleep as if I had never woken them.

I nervously ate and played with my phone a little bit to catch up on social media, since I skipped it last night. Turns out I didn’t miss anything. Saw a couple of hot guy photos but that’s about it. Eventually it got late enough in the afternoon I opted to put my clothes on and head out. Stopped at the car wash. Hot super skinny blond kid was working there; he was nice to look at. I went to Red Lobster for supper. I wasn’t really that hungry and wound up bringing the bulk of my meal home, which will be supper tomorrow night.

Came home and served supper for the cats, they both were waiting for me this time at the door. I took care of them even though my bladder was about to burst. Saw a couple of the younger neighbor kids playing outside. Quite uncommon for the 11^th of October but it’s 84 outside now. We’re not going to have this nice warmer weather forever so might as well enjoy it while it’s around. My AC has already kicked on three times this afternoon.

Waiting on a load of laundry to dry and then I will be headed up for the evening to be with the cats, watch more TV before eventually bedtime rolls around and I get to wake up and get logged in for work. This is my last rest week before I am on call again. I hope for a great week and the possibility that my mood will change towards my job. However, I’m not holding my breath. Also decided to take the entire first week of November off, I had booked 3 days, we are closed on Election Day, and I see no sense in going to work for just that Monday so tomorrow I will be requesting that off. It will be less time that I have left to burn and might as well take it while I can.

Hope all is well in your world and that you had a great weekend. Take care!

Another Day

Welcome!

I had the Italian Wedding Soup last night. Rudy thought for sure I was passing food out for him since it came out of a can, we had to do that little dance that I hate. The soup smelled like canned soup when I was putting it in the bowl, and I hoped that it would taste good. Sadly, once it was heated and I took a couple of bites it wasn’t good. It looked delicious so they need to get rid of the canned taste, especially since this is made with “high quality” ingredients and they charge more for that. I hoped for better but hey at least I know. I wound up throwing most of it out. I’ve got one more can of a different flavor and perhaps it will be better, but I won’t hold my breath.

It was super cool this morning down to a low 45 degrees outside. Didn’t feel that way inside but my body didn’t feel that great when I woke up. One side of my face was sore and as soon as I sat up, I felt the drainage starting to propagate. I feel fine now but if I was a betting man I would have told you that I was sick just based on how I felt when I woke up. I think some infection might be trying to set up shop. I will try my best to keep that from happening, but weather change always seems to get me.

I was very tired last night and that was no surprise because my energy level overall was down during the day. I went to sleep quickly but was up at 1a and then again at 5a. I didn’t bother to turn the TV on I just rolled over and waited it out until my body eventually fell back to sleep. That seems to be one way that I don’t feel sleep deprived the next day if I am not awake terribly long. I also purposefully don’t watch the clock, so I am not cognizant of how long it is taking to get back to sleep.

Meeting time rolled around and I was filled with anger and had a few things to get off my chest. The more I thought about it as the meeting went on, I figured nothing was going to be done about it so let everything go. I let everything but one item go and sure enough that got forgotten and dismissed quickly. Sometimes it is just better to keep your mouth shut. Meanwhile I am looking for a different job and if the right opportunity presents itself, I will leap at it.

Last month, I spoke about a job that I really wanted but it was lower pay. I applied for it but haven’t heard anything. I’m not holding my breath. It’s probably better that I stay put considering the huge pay cut that I would be taking. However, if they call, I will entertain an interview and see what happens.

I am not doing a whole lot at work, just what I am directly asked to do. You might call that quiet quitting but that is not my intention. I’m frustrated and lack drive or in general terms unhappy. I see no point in going above and beyond. I do enough so that my team, including my boss, knows that I am alive and doing something but there are large gaps in my day and yeah, it makes for a long workday.

I passed out supper for the cats a few minutes ago and Mora alerted me that we had a visitor. Another dreaded stink bug. It was on the living room ceiling (I’ve got a cathedral ceiling) and I waited until it moved just right, then broke out the vacuum and stood on my tippy toes until I sucked it up. I got it! That was a lot of work for one little bug. Scared the cats by turning on the vacuum in the middle of the day but they are back out and all is well.

Pulling something out of the freezer tonight for supper, looking for something easy and quick. It’s humid here and the AC is on. It’s in the 80’s outside. Feels funny saying that in October. Probably won’t be able to say that next month but then again, it’s the weather we’re talking about.

My Peacock subscription renewed last night and sure enough I’ve got like 3 more episodes, and I will be done with Too Close For Comfort. I will go in search of something else to hurry up and watch while I wait until the 5^th of next month to cancel my subscription.

Another day in the books and 2 more to go until the weekend. Have a pleasant evening!

Tuesday

Hope all is well for you. Today started off chilly here, feeling that chill in the air is nice but it makes my body want to hibernate. Thanks to the cats I am unable to do that, and they require me to get up and pass out breakfast. If it wasn’t for them, I would be comfortable rotting in bed.

My morning was okay; I got caught up on a couple of quick tasks at work then I was free. I laid down and watched TV. Napped a little bit but as per usual, you know what I’m going to say… yep, the phone woke me up. Not like I had to get up but I realized that I should get out of bed despite not wanting to. To aid in waking me up I had a Diet Coke. The chill was still very much in the living room, and I turned the TV on as I poked around on my laptop for work. A short time later I had a quick burst of work. Then I was back to killing time before I had to login to a meeting.

The boss was extra talkative today after being off yesterday. He droned on and on. I asked a question that made perfect sense to me and what I wanted to do was the right thing, but he started talking in double management talk and dismissed my idea. Then he wonders why more of us don’t speak up. It’s because you never take our ideas, you dismiss them. There is no real motivation to speak up or come to the table with an idea.

Rudy started asking for lunch as my boss continued to drone on. I told him as soon as Foghorn Leghorn was done talking, I’d pass out lunch. He laid down and went back to sleep as if he knew it was going to be a while. Yeah, it was another 30 minutes. The whole meeting went an hour but was supposed to be 30 minutes, so much for “valuing” our time.

I got lunch passed out and started to nibble on something when my phone went off. I finished eating and decided that I wasn’t going to peek. Good thing I am a fast eater because there was a small crisis that needed my attention. I got it taken care of quickly and no one ever knew I was away from my keyboard.

After lunch it was time once again to pass time until the next meeting, which also went long because someone needed to talk with our team after the meeting because they had questions which could have easily been an email. Just hung up with that and now my afternoon is free until something comes along to clog it up.

Two more meetings are in the books for the rest of the week, one tomorrow and one on Friday. Then were done. I hope that no more is added since I am not a fan of meetings. They just suck up time and nothing productive ever comes of them. I’d sooner do almost anything else than have a meeting.

On a different note, since the year is slowly winding down, I peeked today on Amazon for naked men calendars for 2027. I wasn’t surprised by what I saw. Now just need to decide on what I want to buy and when to place that order. It’s not like they will sell out. Today is prime day and I know it’s temptation to buy and I have looked but there isn’t anything that I really need.

Listening to Mora snore as I type this out. The sun is shining through the living room window, and both cats are basking in it and are fast asleep. They both love their sunshine! Haven’t met a cat yet that hates sunlight.

Still watching Too Close For Comfort on Peacock, I think I am on the tail end, but I don’t think that I will finish before my subscription renews for another month.

Had White Cheddar Mac & Cheese with Bacon last night for supper. It was good. Dessert was a Snickers Ice Cream Bar, and I still wanted to continue to eat after that but managed to resist going to dig for something else. Got my shave and shower, felt pretty good. Then it was time for bed.

Mora, with her lightning senses, pointed out another Stink Bug that had gotten in. Well in killing it I managed to set off the burglar alarm. There was a glass break sensor that not only listens for the sound of glass breaking but detects vibration. I hit the bug with a fly swatter, and this glass break is super sensitive, which is a good thing. There was a high pitch beep that scared Mora and she went and hid as I went to disarm the alarm. Glad I got there before the siren went off because I heard that back when the system was installed and it’s super loud. I got it disarmed in time and no one called me and the police were not sent. At least now I kind of know what to expect. I cleaned up the dead bug and Mora came out of hiding but she was looking all over like there was another bug lurking, they normally arrive in pairs but thankfully we just had the one last night which was one too many for me. Didn’t think killing a bug would ever cause an adrenaline spike.

Even though the weather is in the process of warming up for the day once the sun sets things cool off quickly around here. I am planning on having Italian Wedding Soup for supper. I saw a display with some new soups from Campbell’s at the grocery store and picked up a couple cans. I really have high hopes that this tastes good. Italian Wedding Soup is one of my all-time favorites, and the can is large like Chunky Soup. Fingers crossed and hope is set too high!

Hoping for a pleasant evening with something decent that I can manage to stumble on for entertainment to view and pass time. My neck is killing me I think it’s too much computer time. I really miss my massages, I can feel the knots building in my back and it would be nice to get rid of them. Sometimes the cure (the massage) is worse than just suffering through the inconvenience. I have a foam roller, which sounds pleasurable, but I assure you it’s not, it’s quite rigid. Rolling on that can help me. I remember during the pandemic I pulled it out and rolled on it as my back just popped like it was a bowl of Rice Krispies. It felt wonderful afterwards. I hope for the same experience each time I use it but have yet to replicate that experience.

Thanks for stopping by. Wishing you a pleasant evening!

Yuk it’s Monday

Howdy!

I initially woke up with the thought to call in, it would be the perfect day. Nothing on my calendar, the boss is out and I just wanted to go back to bed. However, for some silly reason I pushed myself.

It’s a good thing that I did show up because little did, I know that plenty of people would be reaching out to me. I had one person that presented a challenge that I was able to figure out but it took some time and a little bit of patience on my part. I always like a puzzle type problem that I can solve. Fun fact I hate putting puzzles together, but they are great to look at when they are done.

After the big morning rush, I came upstairs, and Rudy was waiting for me at the door, it was lunchtime and he wanted his food. Sadly, I passed out something that he didn’t like, and he avoided it and tried his salesman approach to wiggle something else out of me, but it hasn’t worked. Now he has turned into my shadow. I laid down for a bit at lunch and he stayed with me. I think he is not feeling well. I making him wait until supper time and then I am sure he will probably wolf down whatever I put in front of him, or so I hope. I really have my eye on him and am thinking that we are probably going to wind up seeing the vet, which I’d like to avoid.

I did get to brush both cats yesterday and this time I think I got more fur off skinny Rudy than I did Mora. I brushed and brushed. Eventually he wound up falling asleep in my lap, guess it felt that good.

Enjoyed my pasta last night, service could have been better. I asked for no onions on my salad and got them, anyway, guess it’s a good thing I am not allergic to them. I really wanted to order some Spumoni, haven’t had that in a long time but I was way too full. I came home and an hour later I had a Snickers ice cream bar, it was good, but it was no Spumoni.

Had a couple hot dogs and a sweet pickle slice for lunch. It was easy and quick. Just the hot dog, no bun or bread. Put a little ketchup on them and they were quite tasty.

Thinking about supper tonight not sure if I want to go the pasta route again or if I want to have some soup. Kind of feels like I am getting sick, but it could just be allergies.

I was pleased to see this morning in my email notifications that it appears the refund I have been waiting for from my car insurance has finally arrived. I want to go grab it so I can deposit it but honestly waiting a couple more days won’t kill me. I used to fetch mail daily but now I go once a week. Although I have been known to get anxious and go grab mail because I knew there was something I wanted waiting for me, like in this case the check. However, you can’t always trust the email notification, sometimes mail shows up there, but it takes another day or two before it arrives. On average the notifications are mostly spot on but there have been occasions when they are incorrect.

Really looking forward to shaving tonight, my face itches like crazy and scratching does not help. Outside of that there is not a whole lot going on here. I hope that your Monday wasn’t bad and that the surprise Man Candy I shared put a little sparkle in your day.

Weekend Update

Saturday …. As per usual my insomnia kicked in early in the morning. I sat up and looked for something to watch. Sadly, I found something on Peacock an old tv show called Too Close for Comfort. Looks like I’m keeping Peacock, at least for now. Eventually I was able to fall back asleep and Rudy let me sleep in until 7a. That was awfully nice of him. I got up and got the cats and myself breakfast. Then off to the shower. I was partially dressed and sat down to watch TV; I had a little bit of time to kill before my haircut appointment. That time passed by quickly and I finished getting dressed. I was early for my haircut as usual and had to wait on my barber to finish up with their current client. I had some plans for today but feeling tired all I wanted to do was go home, get undressed and crawl back into bed. So that is exactly what I did. The cats didn’t seem to mind.

I rotted in bed and my room for the bulk of the day from sleeping and watching TV. I passed out lunch for the cats, only because Rudy was insistent about it. I grabbed a soda and some chocolate and enjoyed more of the TV show. Eventually I opted to turn the TV off and start on laundry. I had some finance work to catch up on and then veered off into the world of porn. Before I knew it I needed to leave for supper.

Backup stairs threw on my clothes and headed out. I went for BBQ only because I was supposed to have a reward since it’s my birthday month. Turns out that reward wasn’t on my account. Last year the place moved my birthday month to October. I said something to the manager, and he was supposed to have corrected it but apparently that did not happen. I wasn’t pleased about that, and my dippy waitress didn’t offer to get the manager or fix it. I wanted to get going because a charter bus had just pulled up and the people were piling in. It took me forever to work my way past all the people coming in. I held the door and when I got a chance moved to the second door and eventually, I was free and in the parking lot. My next stop was to get the mail. Then came home.

For the longest time I would pass by those speed trailers that our town has and never get alerted by my radar detector. Those days are over, they use photo radar and my radar detector supports it. The town my doctor is in has photo radar setup at each intersection so if you blow a light, they snap your license plate and mail you a ticket. The alert is super loud and obnoxious, but I know the sound. Well, I passed by one of those speed trailers and had an alert way in advance, so when I passed by it thanked me for driving safely. I saw on a YouTube video some cities have mounted Flock cameras in those trailers so they can capture your license plate.

Since I arrived back home, I have been working more on the laundry. Also, the computer. Got it all tuned up and it is working better. All week long I would open a spreadsheet at work and when I would have to type in numbers it would cause Excel to crash. Not exactly sure what the number pad was sending but I didn’t have any issues on my laptop, so I knew my desktop had to be rebooted. Hopefully, when I log in on Monday things are back to normal.

Rudy has been super clingy and sleeping in my lap off and on while I have been browsing sites and playing. As I typed this up, he woke up and looked at me, as if to say come on it’s time for bed. The look he gave me was dirty and I know he was trying to make me feel guilty. Yeah, it sort of worked because I am saving this and heading up.

Not exactly a productive day as I would have hoped but it was enjoyable. Hopefully tomorrow will also be enjoyable once I get my morning errands out of the way.

Sunday … Had some insomnia but managed to get back to sleep without having to watch TV. Both cats helped me with that. So thoughtful of them, just makes the bed crowded. Woke up on time. Fed the cats. I got ready & dressed, headed out for breakfast and then hit up the grocery store. This was Target weekend, but I opted to skip it and just picked up a container of cat treats at the grocery store. Debated on topping off my tank the gas gage said that I can travel 320 miles, and it’s just used a little fuel from the last fill up. I decided on coming home. Got the groceries put away, then unloaded the dish washer and put the cats fountain in. I went and got undressed and watched TV before my food coma kicked in. Eventually I passed out for a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I heard a lawn mower running and Rudy wanted his lunch, so that got me out of bed. I fed Rudy and peeked out the back door. Saw the neighbors’ kid on the lawn mower. He was riding around a little like I used to when I drove one as a kid. I was totally reckless, but this kid was much more controlled. It took me back in time watching him and wishing that it was me instead. Got my medicine put out for the week. Then put the cats’ fountain back together. The motor needed to be cleaned as well and that’s where the bulk of the crud was. I got it flushed out and super clean. Both cats watched with anticipation as I put the fountain back in service. They had a dish of water while it was in for maintenance, and they both drank a little out of it. Once the fountain was back up and running, Mora dove in and drank like I’ve not seen her drink before. Fresh clean purified water from a jug. I drink from the tap. The cats get superior treatment!

I cleaned the house and then decided to run some cleaner through the dishwasher. I grabbed my next load of laundry and headed down. I was alone for a while. Got my inbox cleaned out finally. Nothing like a zero inbox, I like it tidy. Just started surfing for porn and Rudy came back down. He is in my arms sleeping again as I work to type this. I kind of had other plans but there is nothing like cuddle time with him. He doesn’t do this that often, but when he does it’s so cute and I savor it. He beats his tail against me or the desk until he falls asleep then he is perfectly still. Last night he fell asleep twice. Right now, he’s working on it but just not quite there yet.

Thinking about supper I am headed back to my hometown not sure if I am getting Mexican or Pizza, both are in roughly the same location. The pizza place is where they used to have hot younger guys for waiters but that has pretty much dried up and you might find a guy there but it’s mostly girls. The pizza is good and honestly, I haven’t had it in a while, so I am seriously considering it. However, in my mind I really want to stay local either hit up a local Mexican place or go to the pizza place that has not so good pizza and get my favorite pasta dish that comes with a small salad and garlic bread. I always leave there full and happy.

Not like I have anything going on for the day, need to run some cleaner through the washing machine as my laundry dries. There is some outside work that I need to do but just not in the mood. That’s about it. Well looks like Rudy can’t get comfy so he just left me. I am thinking of heading up for a bit anyway. The new neighbors sure have a crowd of cars, not sure if that is going to be the norm but based on the cars it looks like two families living there. The driveway and the street are full.

Hope that it’s a good day for you! Back to my normal routine tomorrow. Take care!

Lonely

I’ve been thinking about the college guy yesterday and how I wished that I would have made a move. That’s even though I believe he’s straight. Hell, I might have at least been able to make a friend if nothing else. Every time I look out at the column that he painted I think of him. It’s like a reminder and it’s painful. He did a great job and I’m proud that the project is behind me, it’s going to be a while before I can look at the column and not think of him. I had a thought of trying to reach out to him via social media, but I know that is less likely to have the favorable outcome that I want. I’m not a weird person, just lonely sprinkled with a hint of desperation. While I’m not a fan of his boss I kind of want to call him and plan another job just to get the guy back here so I can ask him out. That’s not going to happen, but the thought crossed my mind.

I made it out for breakfast and I was very hungry. I had a delicious breakfast and then headed off to the grocery store. Then off to the gas pump. The prices per gallon are insane but since I usually don’t go below a ½ tank and that’s right where I was, my bill wasn’t horribly high but still I know that it could have been cheaper.

Came home and unloaded the groceries. I curled up with the cats. I got sleepy but I had problems falling asleep. While it was a pain, I think it will work to my advantage tonight or so I hope, because I need a good night’s sleep.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, it involved my favorite cashier at the grocery store. She’s an older lady and I don’t see her like I used to because she doesn’t work Sunday mornings. I was shaken when I woke up at 6a but was thankful that it was only a dream. I got up to use the restroom, and Rudy joined me when I returned to bed. He was hopeful that I would steer towards the direction of the kitchen instead of the bedroom. We had a nice cuddle session, and I tried to go back to sleep but that was pointless. The light in the living room turned on at 6:30a & that was my cue to get moving. I took my sweet time but made it out of bed and Rudy got his breakfast.

The loneliness pain is the absolute worst. I think that because of the fact I am gay, my age doesn’t help. I want the pain to stop and this problem solved. The negative way comes to mind of just dropping out of life in general. That would solve the problem but then I’d never get to know what the future had in store for me. Conversely the pain would stop. However, the only thing I am sticking around for is the cats. If it wasn’t for them, I think I would have checked out a long time ago. It’s been going on for long enough and yeah, I know that it’s all up to me, not like some hot guy is just going to magically come walking up to my doorstep but sure would be nice if that happened. I kind of feel like I get to see all these hot guys and some I ask out and get turned down; others play games. I’m not up for rejection but I know it comes with the territory and it’s something you must get used to, suck it up and move on there will always be another hot guy. However, the rejection can harden you and eventually you get to the point where you don’t want to take a chance because it’s probably going to wind up being the same no, sorry I’m straight. Humor but what ever happened to trying something new? My end game is sexually motivated but I’m NOT looking to jump in bed, I want to get to know a guy and make sure that were a match and we both want the same thing, then we can go hop in bed. I think that if I do ever actually get to have sex with another guy that I might have feelings of guilt, but I know my spouse is dead and gone, he would want me to move on. Just as if the shoe had landed on the other foot, I would want the same for him.

Still, I decided it was time to look at dating apps again. I got on something new with the intent on subscribing for a month, but they wanted $50. I didn’t really like what I saw and deleted my account. I downloaded another app to look around and try. I had no idea it wasn’t open to everyone that wanted to subscribe. I built my profile and am waiting to get approved. There are no options at this stage to delete my account, which is kind of what I want to do since it’s not open. I don’t have a comfort feeling about it.

I went out for Mexican food at my favorite place. The flavor I was looking for was there. It was nice to be out of the house. I really didn’t want to come home but I’ve had laundry to finish up, and the cats needed their supper so here I am.

Life – it’s full of emotions and experiences. Wish I would have enjoyed and appreciated my youth while I had it. I have lots of memories to reflect on, some good and some bad. I’m proud of the accomplishments that I have made over the last 13 years, and I know my late spouse would be proud of me as well. Never thought I’d make it to this point but here I am. Only thing left is to find a guy to share the rest of my life with. Would be nice to win the lottery and quit my job. If that doesn’t happen then some how either find a new job or find a way to be content where I am. If all these pieces fell into place, I tell myself the same lie repeatedly, I’d be happy. Truth is I’d be happier, but I don’t know for certain that I would truly be happy. I’ve had plenty of time to experience being sad, lonely and depressed. I’d like a chance to flip those emotions and experience years of happiness and positive things. I kind of think I have paid my dues but then again, I am biased.

Hoping for a great week ahead for all of us. Sincerely, thank you for stopping by it makes my day that you are here. Take care!

Sounds like a gun

Last night I was working away sitting in the living room. It was dusk and getting dark rapidly. My neighbor showed up to mow his lawn on the house that is for sale. I heard the mower and saw it was him and then went back to work. Out of the blue there was a random bang and the mower stopped. It sounded like a gun went off. I heard the mower start back up; he engaged the blade and went back to mowing. The mower died and then he started it again. I figured maybe he ran over the for-sale sign. He finished up and left. This morning my curiosity got the best of me, and I went out to take a look. I have no idea what he hit. It is a mystery. Just glad that there was no damage to my house/property.

Shortly after my nosy trip outside, he came back and picked up some stuff and hauled it away. He’s still got at least one more trip to make. I’m guessing that they are close to closing. I just hope I get some decent neighbors.

My insomnia flared up last night or should I say early this morning. I stayed up for an hour, then was able to go back to bed for 3 more hours before it was time to get up.

No word from the contractor I hired to replace the column on my porch. I expected them to show up today but nope. Not sure if they are going to make it tomorrow. Part of me wants to reach out and ask for an update and the other part of me wants to just let it play out and see what happens. I’ve got the money ready for them and would really like to get this chore off my to-do list. God help me if this doesn’t work out and I must go back to the drawing board because I have run out of people and patience. I just want it done and over with. You wouldn’t think that something so simple would be so complicated.

I’ve made it all day with no nap and am honestly tired. My hope is that I sleep well tonight and all night long at that with no interruptions. My body needs it and so does my sanity.

I saw something last night on social media that helped put my job issues in perspective. Just get through the moment and move to the next. Don’t think beyond that. Still, I felt stressed this morning with some project work. We were micromanaged a bit and it was in front of people via video conferencing. I am not a fan of the project but it’s not like I have been asked for my input. It’s just one of those things I don’t have control over.

Were back in a heat wave which is kind of crazy for this time in September. Normally it’s warm and not hot like summer. I know that a change is coming and things will cool off. I just long for the time where it’s comfortable everywhere and no AC or Heat is required to regulate the climate.

I had a Chicken Bacon Ranch pasta dish for supper last night; it was okay, nothing that good. I have really been wanting a Chicken Pot Pie and picked one up but that feels like something that would hit better on a cooler day. The other thing that sounds good to me is Chili with Cornbread. I have that as well and might eat that tonight. Chili for sure is better on a cooler day to keep warm and eat comfort food.

Just hoping for an enjoyable evening and that it cools off once the sun sets for the day. I’m not a fan of it getting dark so early. It would be nice if we could get a resolution if Day Light Savings time is going away or sticking around. I know that a lot of people want it to go away and I’m with them. It seems crazy to have to adjust the clock twice per year. Although I always like getting that so called extra hour of sleep.

Hope all is well in your world.

Change Of Plans

Today started out way too early in the morning when my insomnia kicked in. I made it back to bed to get a few more hours of sleep. Rudy woke me at 7a and wanted his breakfast. I got up and fed him and his sister. I went back and watched TV with the intention of returning to bed, but my body wouldn’t let me. I headed to the kitchen and cracked open a fresh box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. It was the “Large Box” and before I knew what happened I had consumed ½ of the box. I love that stuff! Factor in my sugar addiction, I know it’s not good for me, but that doesn’t stop it from being so delicious!

I got my morning medicine taken and then returned to watch TV. Eventually returning to bed which was my end game. Mora snuggled up with me, and we had a nice nap time. Rudy passed out in my recliner, which seems to be his new “go-to” spot when it’s time for bed. At night they both stay with me for a while before they leave and head to the living room. Then usually closer to wake-up time one or both will return. Typically, it’s just Rudy and he climbs in bed with me and waits to do his biscuit making dance!

I got out of bed and took a shower early in the afternoon. I got dressed after with the full intentions of leaving for a bite to eat.

I threw the laundry in and then thought about how I had some left over Lasagna Soup and opted to stay home and eat that. Then I dove into that Chocolate Cake for a few bites. I like to nurse it so that I can make it last for days but not terribly long. It’s so good and is much better with milk than soda.

Rudy bugged me the whole time I was eating my soup, it didn’t come out of a can, but he saw me scraping the container and banging my spoon on the large mug I was putting it in. He automatically thought that I was making a feast for him, despite the fact I had opened a fresh can of food for him just prior to this. He got under my feet and kept pestering me with the hope that I would give in, but I am strong and no matter what he does I resist because as soon as you give in, they remember and will keep coming back for more.

After I was done with my early supper, I loaded the dishwasher up and watched more TV. I brushed both cats. Hopefully, that will keep them happy, and they won’t leave me any unwanted surprises. Once the dishes were done, I had another load of laundry to do so I got up. I headed to the garage first to charge my vehicle’s battery and check the tire pressure. Pressure was a little low but that is all fixed now. Then returned inside and washed my hands. Grabbed the laundry and headed down.

The contractor I hired to replace the column on the front porch should be here on Tuesday or Wednesday, so I wrote out a check for them to have it on hand. I am waiting for an update before I tell my boss, I’d like to know for sure which day they plan on being here. I really wish they would have surprised me and shown up today.

Had to restart the PC to get a final Windows Update applied. I hate doing that because then I have a slight fight on my hands when I log back in to make sure everything is up and running. I updated a couple programs that were out of date.

Have been pacifying Mora with her craving for attention. She must be in my lap, and I must be petting or scratching her. It lasts for a while then either she leaves on her own or I send her packing. Very much like a boomerang she will return and ask for more. Sometimes it’s within a few minutes and other times an hour can go by. She loves being in the center and I don’t think she likes the computer since that steals my focus but if she is near me, she seems content.

I got a hell of a shock when I peeked on an app at gas prices. Damn they have really jumped high again. I kind of expected it to be just not so soon. I kind of think that the new normal will be $4 to $5 a gallon for gas. Thankfully I don’t need Diesel, I feel super sorry for the folks that do because that stuff is quite a bit more than gas.

Overall, I am happy with the freedom that I had to do what I wanted to. I wish that I would have gotten out, and I know tomorrow that I will have regrets. However, I will also be going out for breakfast and plan on hitting some place up for supper. Mexican, American and BBQ all sound quite appealing to me. I’ve also got to hit up the grocery store in the morning and grab the mail. It’s fun to be lazy but it also can confuse me on what day of the week it is. Bad enough to have a holiday fall on a Monday.

Hope that you had a great day and were able to relax. Time to grab the laundry and head up, fight to make my bed and get ready as another day has turned to night, time to close my eyes and say goodnight!

SOME KIND OF LUCK

I wound up going back to work on Thursday. I was up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep despite trying. By 6am I gave up and said I’m feeding the cats and going back to bed. I got connected to work and saw my inbox continuing to overflow it was close to 800 emails just in my inbox alone, that’s not counting what was filtered to folders. Then my gut kicked in and said you need to go back today; something is going to happen. It was one of those eerie kinds of feelings. I knew that if I went against it I’d probably be sorry. So, I wolfed down breakfast, threw on some clothes, grabbed my water bottle and headed downstairs.

The cats missed me and made some noise; I came up for bathroom breaks and to pass out lunch. I took an abbreviated lunch and returned to the basement in the afternoon. I was down there all day long. I don’t exactly know where or how I was able to motivate myself because I was exhausted from not sleeping much. I got caught up and managed to accomplish way more than I thought I would. It felt good to have an empty inbox. Talked with the mistake maker and we caught up a little bit.

I thought exhaustion would help fuel a great night’s sleep but sadly I was wrong. I woke up at 2a this morning and managed to get back to sleep by 4a. I woke up again exhausted and really wanted to take the day off but pressed on.

While the day is almost done, I am not quite off the hook just yet. My boss dogged me a little bit yesterday because I chimed in to help on something and that just resulted in him dumping more work on me. I should just keep quiet instead of being helpful. He’s been after me to train the new guy on our Firewalls and I have just put it off. Today I got a written request, and he asked me to invite him to the meeting. He wanted it to be set early next week, so I purposely made it towards the end of the week. I really don’t want to do it but suppose that I can’t put it off forever. It’s pointless to teach him because he won’t even have an account to login to them and my boss takes his sweet time before he gives access to the Firewalls you can wait as long as 2 years. I got my access after 6 months, but I had to go through a formal training course. He wanted to send the mistake maker to the same training but never did and finally after 2 years he just gave him access.

In other news last night, I saw that there was a firmware update for my home router, so I applied it. I had no idea that it would take away remote access to the router. That’s better from a security standpoint because you must physically be here and/or connected to one of the machines in the house and have the credentials to log in. It’s kind of a pain because I had an app on my phone that ceased to function after the update. I could monitor signal strength of WIFI devices, see what/who was connected and reboot the router without being logged on to a computer. Plus, the app would send me alerts if there was a problem or loss of connectivity and it didn’t matter if I was home or not. I did some research and found that my model of router wasn’t on the list to have this service deprecated but again from a security perspective it is much more secure and better.

Today was the day to set the trash out. With the Labor Day holiday trash pickup is pushed back one day. At least it was supposed to be. I waited until the afternoon and got it ready and got it set out. It wasn’t but 15 minutes later and a trash truck showed up, emptied the container and kept on moving. I’ve never had that kind of luck. Perhaps it was just good timing on my part or perhaps it is a sign that something good is going to happen. Hey I can hold out hope, there is no charge for that.

Still watching Roseanne on Peacock and peppering in some YouTube Videos to spice things up a little bit. Food wise I finished the pizza last night and am glad that it’s gone. I’ve got Spaghetti to heat up for supper and kind of looking forward to it. Then there is the left-over Chocolate Cake. Part of me wants it tonight for desert and the other part of me wants to have it for breakfast.

My calendar is clear and outside of feeding the cats I can sleep in and be lazy tomorrow if I want. I like having flexibility and not having looming tasks or deadlines. I’ve got laundry to do, some porn surfing to catch up on, need to grab the mail and get a bite to eat in the afternoon. Not sure where I am going to go. I had it all worked out on Monday, but I’ve slept since then and my taste changes. Thinking of Mexican food but not exactly sure where I am going to go for it. That pretty much takes care of Saturday. Sunday is the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping, cleaning the house and grabbing a bite to eat in the afternoon. Cracker Barrel sounds pretty good but I will have to travel a little bit since I won’t visit the one that is closest to me. That’s due to the gay waiter there that was interested in me. He led me on for the longest time. Seeing him would just bring back memories and stir up hope again. I know he’s a lost cause and for that reason I avoid seeing him at all costs. However, I am always on the look out for a hot guy to hit on, my only problem is they all seem to be straight just like Spaghetti before it gets all hot and wet.

Hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by!

424 Emails

Hello,

I made it for pizza yesterday.  Got to see the straight hunk.  He was supposed to be my waiter but I think he asked someone else to cover for him, which is fine.  I still got to look over his body several times.  He’s wearing his hair with the wet look and it makes him look horrible in my opinion.  I still am in love with the rest of his body, especially his nice ass. Pizza was really good had Spinach & Sausage and brought left overs home.  I didn’t go with a large because it’s way too much pizza for just me and I’d grow sick of it quickly. 

Logged in this morning to find 424 emails waiting for me that’s what made it to my inbox and past my filters.  I got way more email than that.  Quickly skimmed things and doesn’t look like I missed much.  I wasn’t feeling the best this morning so I took today off.  So long as I get a decent nights sleep I plan to get back to normal tomorrow.  All though I would rather just quit and walk away from this place.  I really savor and enjoy time away.  I knew going into vacation that I wouldn’t want to come back but I’m addicted to the money so I will go back. 

Spent the day laying around watching Roseanne and a couple YouTube videos.  I managed to nod off several times despite not wanting to.  Had pizza for supper.  Working on getting Windows Updates installed on both of my machines.  They patched a record braking amount of things and better to stay patched than take any chances. 

Hope you had a great day.  Here’s hoping that I make it back to work tomorrow because the emails are only going to keep adding up and waiting for me.  Take care!

Today’s Waxing Adventure

Hi

Today I thought I would see how waxing my nose went.  I bought a kit from Amazon.  It looks simple until you have to heat up the wax.  I got it a little too hot.  It burnt my nose and I didn’t get the job done.  I had to manually peel off what little wax stuck and that just caused me to sneeze uncontrollably for five minutes.  I don’t think I will be waxing my nose anytime soon.  I’ll stick with a trimmer.  I hate nose hair and it only seems to grow faster with age.  Kind of the same thing for ear hair. 

As for down below, that cream I put on my nuts made them feel really smooth and they are more fun to play with and feel.  However, I don’t know that I will do that cream again.  I will stick with a trimmer for that area as well.  I’ve never been able to trim my ass just wanted to see how it felt. 

I suppose there are somethings you shouldn’t explore and waxing appears to be that something for me.  I’m totally fine with that. 

I feel overcome by the heat and was super lazy this morning.  Finished up streaming Night Court for the second time.  Really love that show.  I wound up staying home for breakfast.  Rudy got me all clawed up and he got his breakfast.  My arm and chest both itch like crazy but I am smart enough to know NOT to scratch. 

It was the afternoon before I got up and really got moving.  Put out my medicine.  Made it to Lowes but I only got a couple things and abbreviated my list because it’s simply too hot to work outside.  Hit up the cat food store and there selection wasn’t the best but I found enough food for my little furry monsters to eat for the next 2 weeks. Filled up the tank and yeah $44 later it’s full.  I knew it would hurt but it also feels good to see the needle back on full.   

Came home and much later in the afternoon I had Lasagna soup (I got this at Sam’s) for supper and nibble on some of that chocolate cake I got yesterday.  It was pretty good. 

Did some house cleaning.  Brushed the cats and trimmed their murder mittens.  They both were not happy about the claw trim but loved the brushing.  They have been puking and I felt bad about that because I knew they were overdue for a brushing. 

Subscribed to Peacock so I can stream Roseanne, it’s the only place where the series is available.  I’ve seen it all once before but suddenly I’m craving it again so there went $19.99 and I will likely stay subscribed until I finish the series or until I get tired of paying, whichever comes first.  Who knows though I might find something else of interest and start watching that.  Seriously considering cancelling my Netflix.  I pay a small fortune for entertainment in the way of television and I know I am just throwing money away because you can’t watch everything at once.  It’s impossible. 

Tomorrow for sure is grocery store day and I will hit up the post office.  I haven’t been in a couple days but I don’t expect there will be anything there.  I plan to go for pizza tomorrow.  I don’t expect I will see the straight hunky waiter but want some pizza to eat and to take home to nibble on during the week. 

A little bored and lonely at the moment.  I was hoping that I would have met someone while I was off but it didn’t happen.  I have a strange feeling that soon someone will come along but then again I could be wrong.  I’ve though about hitting up an app.  Having a companion to share life with would put some fun in it and getting laid would be nice as well.  For me though it’s more about companionship than it is sex. 

Still not looking forward to going back to work but I’ve got one extra day thanks to it being Labor Day.  Then the next holiday will be Election Day and that’s not until November which will be here soon.  I see leaves falling already and the grass is dying because of the heat.  The weather was supposed to cool off this coming week but there is no sign of that nor any rain.  The heat and I don’t get along and I can get sick if I am exposed to it for too long.  My stomach hasn’t been the best over the past week but I am hoping that eventually things will settle down and the weather will cool off a bit.  I’m not looking to jump into snow or freezing temperatures. 

Funny thing I think my neighbors house got inspected yesterday.  They left the lights on inside and out.  It is quite bright at night.  He’s due to come cut the grass but who knows if that will happen anytime soon, only time will tell. 

I plan on trying to make the most of this evening and tomorrow because going back to the normal WES (Work Eat Sleep) will suck and not in a good way.  Still looking a little bit for a different job I just really don’t want to take a cut in pay to get away from the nonsense.  I ask myself if that will make me happy and while I think it will short term I don’t know about the long term. 

Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you all again soon!

HOT & WORN OUT

I know it’s been a bit since my last post. I surprised my Thanksgiving Friends on my birthday. I took over fresh bakery from a local place they like. I only planned on staying for a couple hours but wound up spending all day with them. They have a guest staying with them, it’s there would be future daughter-in-law. She was going with one of their sons who died during the Iraq war. Their late son and this gal had plans to marry but obviously that never happened. I met her years ago at Christmas time, it was shortly after I lost my spouse, so around 11 or 12 years ago. Her and I started chatting and it turned into a therapy session for both of us. She has tried to commit suicide twice. She can’t move on since she lost the love of her life. She has had a few boyfriends, but they were all the wrong types of men. She has no money and no job. She doesn’t like computers or technology and will be looking for a job after the Labor Day holiday. I wound up taking her shopping for a few things she needed and filled up her gas tank. This was quite the expensive favor I did but honestly spending the money didn’t phase me one bit. I offered to get her oil changed but she didn’t want to. Turns out her vehicle is overdue. My friends took me out for dinner. We went to a new place for fish, it sucked. I was sick the next day from what I ate, and I won’t be going back to that place.

Wednesday, I had my facial and got free shampoo, which felt awesome. Not spectacular but the gal knew what she was doing. I re-watched Boots on Netflix. Saw 9 to 5 again for the millionth time. I love that movie and have ever since it came out. Shame there wasn’t a sequel.

Had an incident with a pedestrian. I went out for breakfast on Friday and when I was leaving the restaurant this cunt was walking along the sidewalk. She saw my vehicle pulling out and came out of nowhere and called me out for not yielding to her. She saw me and common sense would have told me if I was her to either wait or walk behind the vehicle, but the cunt made an issue out of it. I should have run over her foot. That shook me up and I came back home for a while.

I got out later in the day hit up Sam’s Club. I got everything on my list. It was so difficult to get there this time because of the heat and me just saying I’ll do it tomorrow. Eventually, you run out of tomorrows. I wanted to hit up Lowe’s but never made it. It’s still on my to-do list.

Went out to a new Mexican place in the afternoon. They have this slightly spicy and tangy cheese dip they bring with salsa and chips. It’s awesome stuff and I will for sure go back. It’s in a former chain Mexican place that closed. They dressed the place up and it looks super good inside. The food is average.

After that I hit up the movies and saw Coyte vs Acme. Everyone tells me I don’t look my age. The lady that sold me my ticket gave me the senior discount. It felt good but also, I was appalled at the same time. Movie was awesome and I recommend seeing it, especially if you like cartoons or grew up watching them, you will enjoy it. Lots of surprise characters and a very well-made movie in my opinion.

Today (Saturday) I laid around and napped a bit. Rudy finally had enough of it and told me I needed to get moving. So, I did. I bought some wax strips thinking that I could wax my hole. That was a huge disaster. I had bought some cream made for men wanting to remove hair from their genitals and anal area. I decided to use that. It felt like I put Ben-Gay on my nuts, not pleasant at all. I spent a long time in the shower. There was glue from the wax strip, and I had to use a wipe that was included in the kit to get the glue removed. I returned to the shower and washed again. I’ll never ever repeat this little experiment. Andrew Goes Places says that he uses Nair on his genitals and anal area, it works for him. He looks so smooth. I think all I did was inflict unnecessary pain on myself, not sure that much if any hair came off and I for sure used a hell of a lot of water.

Once I recovered from that, I got dressed and headed to the office. Checked my desk and had no mail, which is a good thing. Walked around making sure there were no obvious problems that would require a return trip next week. Things like misbehaving or break while I am on vacation. I had to check on things for my own peace of mind. Found a couple of large conference rooms where the lights were on, but no one was around. I shut them off. I heard a voice, so I knew I wasn’t alone but never saw anyone.

After that I headed a couple streets over to my favorite Italian place and got to order the dish that I had been wanting to try for a very long time. They told me last time it would be back in September and that was correct. I left with a free piece of chocolate cake for my birthday. Saw a couple of hot guys, so nice eye candy to go with my meal. I was stuffed when I left, the cake was to go no way I could have eaten another bite. Parking was a mess, so I had a little bit of a walk. Full stomach, super-hot outside. I was breathing a little heavy by the time I returned to my vehicle, shame it wasn’t because I had sex.

I opted to return home. I said I would rest up and then head back out hit up the cat food store and Lowe’s but damn I am exhausted. It’s supposed to be cooler tomorrow, so I plan to knock out both of those tasks then. If for some reason I, don’t I still have Monday. After that I will be all out of tomorrows. Because on Tuesday it is back to work and I will be on call. I’ve still not looked at work email and have no plans to do so until Tuesday morning. Whatever is there will be waiting for me, it’s not like it’s going to get up and leave. Fuck I so don’t look forward to going back but glad that I discovered that I will still have 2 weeks accruing to use before the end of the year. I’m thinking perhaps a little bit of cooler weather next month, take another week and get that dumpster and clean this place up like I’ve been wanting to for a while.

In addition to my errands tomorrow I want to travel to the pizza place where the straight guy works that I have a wicked crush on to torture myself and just drool over him while I eat pizza.

Right now, Monday I think will be a stay home day but hey something could change my mind on that and I might get out. Right now, my gas tank is closer to empty than it’s been in a very long time and filling it up tomorrow is going to seriously hurt but I had fun getting it to this point. Vacation is nice but it always involves spending more money than one really wants to, at least in my experience. I didn’t go hog wild and can pay cash for every penny I spent, which makes me feel good.

I almost forgot I hired a contractor finally to replace the column on my front porch. He’s expensive but I have confidence in him. I wanted him to clean my gutters as well but he seems way high on that, despite the detail he quoted me on making sure the downspouts were clean (they are all clean I have strainers in) and he said he would also blow off my roof from any debris, there are a couple sticks up there but a little wind and they will be on the ground in no time.

Time to catch up on porn surfing. I’m working on laundry and will be headed to bed in a while. Need to go to a new place for breakfast because the place I normally go to is closed this month because the owner went on vacation. Wish I could take a month off, gee wonder how long it would take me to catch up on email from that? Things will go back to normal in October so there is something for me to look forward to.

I hope you’re doing well and staying cool. Thanks for stopping by!

ON VACATION

Hi there!

As you can tell by the title, I am on vacation. Only on my second workday off and I am bored. This past Sunday I got together with my Thanksgiving friends we went to a Mexican place I had been to before but didn’t care much for. I had to fight a little bit, but I picked up the bill. I know they can’t afford stuff like that, and it would just go on a credit card that would get minimum monthly payments. No sense in financing a meal.

I skipped the grocery store on Sunday, and it’s been interesting getting by on what is here, but I am making it. Thus far I have just had breakfast at home and went out for my late afternoon meal.

Monday it was White Castle. I have been having a serious craving for the place and while it was enjoyable the original taste I remember just didn’t seem to quite be there. I sat eating my meal looking around the restaurant and remembering the many times me and my late spouse went there. It just made me miss him that much more. It didn’t help that I burped onion ring batter for the rest of the evening, they sure were good though.

Remember that lower paying job I mentioned a short time ago. Well, I applied for it on Monday night. I don’t know if I could make it on the salary they are paying. I’d like to know more about the job and to see if I even get selected for an interview. I think I’d like it a lot and a change of pace I think would be nice. I’ve looked to see what other jobs are out there but nothing else tickled my fancy thus far. I’ll probably wind up staying where I am because I like the money. I just figured out that I’ve still got 2 weeks of vacation to take before the end of the year. It hasn’t accrued yet but once it has, I plan on taking more time off which is something to look forward to. If I want to burn through my reserve carry over, then I would have a total of 4 weeks to take. Just thinking of taking an entire month off from work sounds wonderful, but I think of the mess after a week. I can only imagine what kind of cluster fuck I would come back to. I’ve not checked email and am letting it pile up.

I had a profitable day Monday. I got my money back from the post office for the letter I sent that cost me $20 to send, that was nice. Then I called my Auto Insurance company, and they applied some discounts that I saw were missing and I got an extra discount because I paid in full. That money will come back to me in a few days via a check. I’m looking forward to getting it.

Tonight I went to a pizza place in town. Nothing special and service was just okay. When my bill came back with my card, there was no pen to sign the receipt with. I had to stop someone and ask for a pen. I also didn’t get a pizza box to carry out my left-over pizza in; it was just a Styrofoam container. I was not happy about that.

Went to the dentist today for my 6-month checkup, got good news as usual and was pleased. I don’t go back until April 1^st and that’s no joke.

Rewatched the entire Boots series on Netflix. Shame there won’t be a 2^nd season of that show, at least not on Netflix. I know that I’m not the only person who wants the story line to continue and to see how things play out for the cast. Fingers crossed that they make a 2^nd season.

Trying to have lunch with my other friend but he said he would text me back yesterday and I haven’t heard from him. I think he forgot all about me and really seemed like he wasn’t interested in getting together.

I have made some progress on getting the stupid post on my front porch replaced. The guy I told was hired hasn’t told me the total yet, I’ve only got a ballpark estimate. I’ve got another guy that is cheaper, but he seems like he doesn’t know what he is doing so while he costs less, I think you get what you pay for. I’d just like to get this job done so I can move on.

It doesn’t help that there is construction on the main street in and out of the subdivision. Things are quite a mess and not coming home my usual way takes some adjusting to but I’m making it thus far.

It’s super-hot out and kind of miserable to be out doing anything. I really want to drive but even with AC it’s kind of a bit much. I will have to bite the bullet though if I want to go for a drive.

I put off going to Sam’s club which is just around the corner because I didn’t want to deal with the construction. I had planned to do it when I came home from the dentist, but they ran behind and I sat for far too long. I was only interested in coming home and relaxing. Yeah, I’m kind of lazy but it’s my time to do with as I please. I’d rather be out of the area and on a true vacation, that’s on my someday list. I need a traveling companion to make it fun and worthwhile.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I’ve got nothing going on. I’m telling myself that I need to make it to Sam’s and try to fit in Lowes just to get them out of the way. Then take a 2-hour drive to go eat some fish and see some different surroundings. Time will tell how that plays out.

Right now, my plan is to get to bed so that I am prepared for my early Rudy morning wake up call. Get a shower and head out for breakfast. Then hit up a bakery and surprise my thanksgiving friends with some fresh pastry. That’s been on my list of things to do for a while. I know I won’t want to wake up early and I might wind up eating breakfast at home but I for sure want to hit up that bakery. Doing it early in the morning has two benefits. #1 it’s cooler out early in the morning. #2 better selection the quicker you get there.

Thursday morning, I have my facial booked and that’s pretty much it. I’ve got nothing planned Friday through Monday. I’d like to clean up my deck; it would be nice to admire but doing the actual work yeah not looking forward to that.

In case it doesn’t come glaring through, I’ve got some depression going on and I want to check out of the world but that would leave the cats devastated and I won’t do that to them, were good for each other. Getting older is only part of the depression piece. Missing my late spouse as well as being alone for so long, not having success in the dating world and my boring life – it just feels like I am wasting away. Doesn’t seem like I matter to anyone but my job. Kind of wish I would have gotten the dumpster and cleaned this place up, at least I’d be busy and not have time to dwell on poor old me.

Well, off to climb the steps and settle in for the evening. Hopefully I can get a great night’s sleep and be raring to go with the same energy that Rudy has every morning when he wakes me up. Thanks for stopping by. I do hope all is well with you!

My poor stomach

Good evening,

I heard the weather forecast this morning for next week it’s going to super hot again.  Not exactly good news but nothing much I can do about it either. 

I woke up around 1a used the bathroom and of course couldn’t get back to sleep so I sat up and watched TV.  No cats were in my room and neither of them came in, which was fine.  My stomach hurt and I was tired. 

I was up again around 5a but was able to roll over and go back to sleep.  Rudy had joined me and was laying up against me radiating heat.  That’s nice in the Winter but not the summer.

The little devil woke me up at 6a and I got out of bed around 6:30a.  I was exhausted despite having just woken up.  Today would have been a good day to call in sick, because I was.  My stomach started bothering me.  I fed the cats and ate breakfast. 

I got dressed and then started feeling some body aches but figured that once I got busy with work that would subside.  I was right.  However, my stomach has bothered me all day long.  Plenty of grumbling and gas.  I had a couple of what I’d call close calls that turned out to be nothing. 

I opted to let my boss know that I was limping along but that I was working.  Now I am starting to think this isn’t from a Jelly Donut.  I probably caught something and it’s going to stick with me.

This is a minor inconvenience thus far.  I had supper and had to force myself to keep eating, finally I just gave up.  Food didn’t taste good and stopping seemed like a smart option.  I feel okay but don’t know if there will be more pain and grumbling or if it’s all over. 

I am not a fan of this and hope that it goes away quickly.  I don’t want it to mess up my weekend or my week of vacation. 

I was able to sneak in a light nap this morning but it only lasted 30 minutes.  My phone started lighting up like a Christmas tree which is normal when I am away from my computer.  Sit in front of the computer and nothing happens.  I think there must be a proximity sensor on it.  I got all of the email that was dumped in my inbox taken care of.  No sooner than that happened the boss called about a case that I took.  I found someone trying to install software from a threat actor and it was caught and stopped by our internal defenses.  For some reason attacks and threats are way up this month, like I’ve not seen before.  I think that it’s only going to get worse. 

Just a few minutes ago there was a loud thump on the roof.  I went outside to investigate and didn’t see anything.  I figured a tree branch fell but nothing.  This place makes noises all the time and you think it’s something major but there is nothing to worry about.  One day something is going to happen, I am going to dismiss it and that will be the one noise I should have paid attention to.  That’s the kind of luck I have. 

I didn’t shave or shower last night and I look like a hobo.  Kind of matches how I feel.  I plan on cleaning up tonight provided that my stomach behaves it’s self. 

Not a whole lot on streaming that I am interested in, I do a lot of searching and scrolling but eventually land on something, even if it’s an hour of cartoons.  Sometimes I just want the background noise. 

Rudy has been more like his normal self today but he did ask for food around 3p and I made him wait until 4p.  He is quite persistent and turns on the charm with his biscuits, licking my forehead thinking that he’s making progress and that I will give in.  That doesn’t always work but I do always enjoy it.  Right now he’s curled up on my arm sleeping.  He’s knows that I’m not happy about that but he likes being close to me.  Kind of nice to be wanted even if it’s only by a little kitty cat. 

Just have to make it 3 more days and right now the week is moving pretty slow.  Hopefully, we will gain some traction because I am ready to be done with work.  I need to get away and just not think about the place.  That’s easier said than done but if I have something I am doing I can easily get lost and will forget about work.  I know that I will wonder the whole time I am out what fresh hell is waiting for me when I return but I will find that out when I return.  It’s the fear of the unknown mixed in with a little guilt since I have a secret that I’d like to stay hidden. 

Well on with the evening and back to looking for something to watch.  Hope you had a great day!

What a week

Did you miss me? Well, I’m still here. It’s just been one of those weeks.

My problems began on Wednesday. There was an important meeting that I should have attended in person, which means going into the office. It was filled with Management. I’m sure someone asked where I was and probably got the response, he’s a remote worker or he mostly works from home. Obviously, I wasn’t there. I had planned on going in but my Insomnia and worry kicked in and kept me awake so by the time morning rolled around I was in no shape to do anything. I took the day off, thinking that perhaps by being “out of the office” that would explain why I wasn’t there. I am expecting the worst and that “my dirty little secret” is out and probably has surfaced up to HR. Then again, I could just be a bit paranoid. No one moves very fast around there so it could be a week or more before I hear anything presuming that my dirty little secret did in fact get leaked. While I anticipate if it’s known that I’d probably be terminated there is the chance that I would just be told to get back to the office. Honestly, no one complains about my work, I’m known for speed & accuracy. So, I don’t follow the go into the office 3 days a week bullshit rule. I still work every day and put in more than my share of overtime. I know that loyalty or your dedication and contributions don’t matter if HR looks to discipline or terminate someone. I also know my boss’ boss is the one who would be the one to likely make the final call because my boss is incapable of wiping his own ass without asking his boss for permission first and then making sure he agrees with how he’s wiping. The man has no spine, it’s like he can’t think for himself, or he’s been brow beaten not to think for himself. That’s part of the reason why I dislike them both. I really feel that the company would chop off its nose despite its face.

I only took Wednesday off and “went back” (I still worked from home) Thursday and worked Friday. It was late on Friday when my boss called, I figured here it came. He just had a simple question for me, and I was able to get him an answer even though I was off the clock. So, I’m not sure if that was to throw me off the scent or if even, he doesn’t know yet, presuming that my secret is in fact out. I could just be worked up about nothing. I just don’t trust managers/management.

Presuming that I’m all worked up over nothing and it comes time for my promotion, I think that I am going to be shoved into the role and not asked if I want it. If turns out to be something that if I don’t want, I expect to have to fight. I hope I’m wrong and they play fair and lay everything out on the table so I can make an informed decision. I also think that if I do take the promotion, it would be smart to go back to the office, because that saying the bigger, they are the harder they fall. I’m sure that if I was promoted and considered management and not following the rules that would certainly be curtains for me if that secret got out. I can only worry so much, so I’m just playing along now like everything is okay until I hear it’s not. I’m probably better off that way so I don’t tip anyone off that I’m worried about something, even though the worry is and has been there for a very long time. I’m on call next week and as usual I dread it. Hopefully it won’t be that bad.

In other news, I checked the mail on Friday and no green postcard, which is exactly what I expected. I’m certain that the carrier didn’t get it signed and tear it from the envelope, so I shelled out a bunch of money for nothing. I’m quite disappointed and mad. I’m sending a letter to complain and see what good that does, I did ask for the information that the services I paid for would yield and said if they couldn’t provide that to refund my money. I honestly think they will fold and give me my money back. I did get a blocked/private call on Friday. It could have been the kid trying to reach out but then again probably not. I don’t take calls without caller id and even with caller id you can’t be 100% certain you are going to be talking with the correct person on the other end since caller id can be spoofed. Technology is great but sometimes there are loopholes that fuck it up for everyone in general and spoofing caller id is one of those loopholes in my opinion.

I watched Season 3 of Tires on Netflix. It was pretty good and much longer than I thought it would be. I got through the bulk of it in one evening but then saved the last 4 episodes and wound up watching them on Friday night. I happened to be in the right place at the right time and looked out my back window to see one of the neighbors’ hot teenagers and he bent over. Simple things like that make my mouth water. As the song goes, I need a man to lay me down and give me something to feel or in simpler terms I need to get laid. I crave sex so bad and the longer I must wait the stronger the crave gets. Watching porn and rubbing one out helps but nothing beats the real thing baby! For clarity I like a younger guy but only would have sex with someone of legal age and I am not into hookups. Although I’ve thought about it, it just seems way too much to risk. 5 minutes of pleasure for what could be a lifetime of pain, no thanks.

Tuesday night I was sitting in my room watching TV with the cats and heard a beeping coming from the alarm panel. I figured that it was warning me that I had lost internet. Only I hadn’t lost internet. The cellular signal died and that’s never happened. I had phone and data cell service from the same carrier that the alarm uses. It puzzled me. I rebooted the system but that didn’t help. I finally got it armed again and turned on quiet mode to shut up the beeping. The remote-control app I have on my phone was down as well. I often leave and turn off the entry delay so if you open a door the alarm will go off with no waiting period. Just think if I was out and came home, that would have been a mess. Anyway, it was a couple days later I got a note that told me it was a nationwide thing and it’s fixed now. I had already figured that out. No one has said exactly what went wrong but I’m sure interested. Just think if you were a criminal and could hack an alarm provider like that you could break into many places, and no one would know until after the fact. It’s like a mobster told me when I was a kid, locks are for honest people. I suppose the same thing is true for alarm systems or security in general.

Speaking of home my neighbor’s house has an offer on it. I’m astonished that it went that quickly. I don’t know if there was compromise or if someone just offered asking price. Presuming the deal goes through I will find out soon enough because it’s all public record. I’ve been thinking about whoever moves in that I should tell them about the badly clogged gutters and the water that will pool in the backyard. Then again, I could just keep my mouth shut and let them figure it out on their own even though that doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. I guess it will depend on who it is and if our paths cross. Funny thing is that house was nothing but an empty lot when I moved in here and I watched it be built from the ground up. I’ve seen people come and go. There were a few renters for a while, but it only had like 3 owners total which is good for something that was built in the late 90’s. The listing makes the place shine but that’s the objective. If you want to sell a home you have to polish it up and make it shine, that’s what our realtor told me years after we bought this place.

I hit up the Mexican place by the office yesterday. There was no a/c in the place and they had fans on. It was just circulating humid air, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there. Chips were horrible but salsa was on point and good. Food was okay but my stomach has been churning ever since I left that place. I stopped by the office as I was expecting a package but there was nothing on my desk other than dust. I was quick to leave and head back home.

Finished up laundry, paying a couple big bills one of which was auto insurance. Jeez I can’t imagine how much I’d pay if I was driving a new vehicle. I may well be able to afford the vehicle but not the insurance. Yet another reason to keep driving what I have since it’s not really giving me any trouble. I really want a new vehicle, but it just doesn’t feel like it is the right time, at least today doesn’t. The last thing I want is to jump into car payments and then lose my job. That’s my biggest fear with a large purchase I’ve had it all my life and it does make me hold out longer before I take the risk.

Speaking of vehicles, I watched a police pursuit where a state trooper saw a vehicle speeding, he followed it and clocked it upwards of 100 mph. He fought like crazy to catch up to the guy, he tried to get away hit a bunch of vehicles and wrecked. Then went to flee, he tried to jump over the overpass, but he was high in the air and there was nothing below but solid ground. The trooper told him you don’t want to jump it won’t end well. The guy surrendered and as they were on the way to the hospital the guy said, “Are you taking me to real jail?” That made me laugh. The trooper didn’t hesitate and said yes. The guy said I don’t understand why. Seriously, you’ve got to be damn dumb. Turns out he was driving his girlfriend’s car, totaled it and was worried about how he, her and her kid were going to get around, like it was the trooper’s fault. If you flee a police officer, when they catch you, you will be headed straight to jail. It’s just a given fact. Then to cause an accident and not have insurance on the vehicle, yeah, it’s like you drew the go to jail card from Monopoly.

Today I woke up super early and had problems going back to sleep. I was a little late to get moving but I made it to breakfast. Had the best breakfast of Strawberry Cinnamon French Toast, Country Fried Steak and eggs. It was rather expensive, but I did enjoy it.

Hit up Target, the grocery store and gas station before coming back home. Wound up being lazy. I’ve laid around pretty much all day. It is super-hot out and there are things I could do outside around the house but it’s far too hot for me. Went out for supper to the bad pizza place that has good pasta. Enjoyed my dinner very much. Had some nice eye candy to look at. Thought about asking a couple guys out but decided against opening my mouth.

I’m back home brushed both cats. I’ve gotten scratched up and now they have both passed out asleep. They are in a food/treat coma. I’m watching a podcast as I type this out. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, and I am trying to enjoy what is left of my evening.

I hope all is well in your world and that life is treating you well. Until next time, take care!

Exhausted

Morning!

Not sure what exactly it was but I was exhausted yesterday.  Got in a short nap before my phone went nuts early in the morning.  Wound up getting up and doing some work.  Then passing out lunch because Rudy was hungry.  I got a bite to eat as well figuring that would help put some pep in my step.  It worked short term but within an hour I was back in bed.  I got another nap that was cut short by my phone. 

I figured that if I slept all day I wouldn’t sleep at night, which is true.  I got up and had some protein powered Greek yogurt.  Watched TV and had to do a little bit of work.  Joined a meeting with a vendor who said they would reschedule because they weren’t prepared. 

That was pretty much the day.  Finally the moment I waited all day for was here.  Supper time.  I had left over spaghetti and a slice of pizza.  It was a great meal and I was full.  Despite that I waited about an hour before I had some desert and passed out treats for the cats. 

I went out to update the firmware in my radar detector.  That took way longer than I though it would.  I was roasting the garage.  Came back inside and just called it.  Despite it being early I just wanted to be done.  I sat in my room watching TV until it was time to brush my teeth and take my sleeping pills.  It wasn’t long after that I was in bed and on my way to dream land. 

Think I woke up during the night to use the bathroom but not completely sure about that.  I woke up around 6:30a from a full bladder and a bad dream.  Rudy thought for sure it was time for breakfast.  I used the bathroom and then headed back to bed but there was no going back to sleep.  Rudy pestered me a bit more and I just got up early and decided to start the day.

Took care of business at work and now I am out of things to do.  AC just turned off a short time ago.  It was nice feeling the cold air on me.  Best place to go on a hot day around here is the grocery store.  It’s always freezing cold when you first walk in the door in the summer time.  I could sit on a lawn chair and be quite comfy there but it sure would look odd. 

Heading back up to be with the cats, get logged in and see what else the day has in store for me.  I know there are 2 meetings today.  It’s also Microsoft Patch Tuesday.  Just in case your operating on Windows.  Unfortunate timing for me because it means I will have to get up early next Sunday when I am on-call to do testing at work.  I’ve only got one other time that happens to me this year and it’s not until October, which as I always say will be here before you know it. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great day!

Wipeout Sunday

Morning!

Yesterday I did all of my normal morning running/chores.  Came home, napped.  Got up and got my medicine prepped, cleaned the house.  Wound up cleaning the inside of the car and checking tire pressure.  Then came in and just called it.  I watched TV and mentally checked out, which was enjoyable. 

Left a bit later than I wanted to for pizza.  Got to see the cute straight guy for a bit.  He greeted me when I walked in the door and brought me my drink but that was it.  It was the end of his shift and he couldn’t get out of there fast enough.  I had an enjoyable pizza.  Some additional eye candy walked in the door which was nice to look at. 

Hit up the car wash before coming home.  Neighbors house had a showing in the afternoon.  I found a post on social media where multiple people say it’s over priced.  Glad I’m in touch with reality because that’s exactly how I feel.  He built a new super expensive house in another subdivision, it’s way larger and now he’s trying to recoup the cost by jacking up the price of his former home.  At least that’s my take on it.  I honestly don’t think it will sell fast given the asking price but hey I’ve been wrong before.  Time will tell. 

When I got home from pizza I just wanted to relax and take it easy, so that’s what I did.  Never ventured downstairs all day long and the closest I got to a computer was playing on my phone.  Mora tried to interfere with that as much as possible but it didn’t work. 

Shaved and got a nice cool shower before bed.  Wound up turning in way early.  Woke up around 1a and managed to get back to sleep.  Wound up having a horrible dream and Rudy woke me from it at 6:30a.  I was so happy it was a dream that I just got up and got going. 

It’s another SUPER HOT day here.  We have some rain that is supposed to move in but no chance for a cool off for a few days.  I’m over the super hot weather.  If I wanted that I would have lived in Arizona or Vegas.  I like warm sunshine but not sweltering heat for days on end.  I know enjoy it while it lasts because eventually it will be bitter cold and I will wish for a warm up.  Right, I’m rarely pleased with the weather. 

Here we got with another week.  I’m not on-call this week but it’s my last weekend free as next week it will be my turn on-call.  It’s just that much closer to my vacation which I am anxious for.  I’d like to freeze time where I am always on vacation so my income stream isn’t interrupted but I don’t have to work, that is my dream and I know I’m not alone. 

Hope it’s a better week this week, than last week and nothing but good vibes all the time.  Take care and thanks for stopping by!

Saturday

Hope you’re having a great day and enjoying the weekend. It’s quite hot & humid here, we’re back to it feeling like we’re living on The Devil’s Front Porch!

My insomnia kicked in like clockwork early this morning. It did have a minor impact on my plans for the day and me getting started. My motivation for getting up and going was to get to the post office. I went last night to clean out my box and as expected no green card receipt. I spoke with a supervisor today when he got a hold of the carrier who delivered the envelope from his old post office, so they knew him and he had an inside track. He found out that the green card receipt was in fact mailed back, it’s just taking a bit longer to get to me. I’m supposed to get it early next week, despite no tracking movement. I also learned that instead of delivering to the address I mailed it to, it was delivered to a neighbor’s address. I am not confident that it reached the intended recipient but hey I tried. If the green card receipt comes back and shows that he in fact signed for it great, if I see any other name there, I’m going back to get my money back. Got to love the government approach, hurry up and wait.

Went to my friend’s shop and chatted with him. I was outdoors a lot as we spoke, and it was horrible. I eventually grew tired of the heat & humidity and wound up leaving and coming back home but I spent a few hours in it. It was an enjoyable visit.

Once I was home, I watched a little bit more of My Life with The Walter Boys, season 3. Wound up taking a nap with both cats passed out in my lap. It was heavenly, we were all comfy and cozy. Woke up finished up the series and then watched a few YouTube shorts.

Got started on laundry and decided that I would go back to the Italian place that I love so much. I tried to order the new dish that I wanted and they said they were sold out. I got Spaghetti & Meatballs, wound up bringing a small portion of it home. I could have finished up in the restaurant, but I would have come home miserable and didn’t want to do that to myself. This is the first time that I left the place with no chocolate cake. That was difficult. I found out that the dish I really wanted should be back in September so I will give it another try then.

My neighbor was supposed to have an open house on his home that is for sale. That didn’t happen. I did see one couple stop by as I was leaving to head out to the Italian place for supper. They parked in front of it, not sure if they met the realtor or not. Didn’t look like anyone had been there all day. I hope that whoever buys it gets a home inspection before they sign on the dotted line (you’d be nuts to buy property and not get an inspection) they should be told about the clogged gutters as that is going to lead to future problems. Water intrusion is no joke and something you don’t want regardless of where you live.

Plans for tomorrow are to have breakfast out and travel for pizza where the straight hot waiter works. If he’s there it will be a bonus for me but if not, I’ll still get to enjoy pizza and a drive. Meanwhile I am staying hydrated and cool, enjoying the companionship of the cats.

Take care!