Weekend Update

Saturday …. As per usual my insomnia kicked in early in the morning. I sat up and looked for something to watch. Sadly, I found something on Peacock an old tv show called Too Close for Comfort. Looks like I’m keeping Peacock, at least for now. Eventually I was able to fall back asleep and Rudy let me sleep in until 7a. That was awfully nice of him. I got up and got the cats and myself breakfast. Then off to the shower. I was partially dressed and sat down to watch TV; I had a little bit of time to kill before my haircut appointment. That time passed by quickly and I finished getting dressed. I was early for my haircut as usual and had to wait on my barber to finish up with their current client. I had some plans for today but feeling tired all I wanted to do was go home, get undressed and crawl back into bed. So that is exactly what I did. The cats didn’t seem to mind.

I rotted in bed and my room for the bulk of the day from sleeping and watching TV. I passed out lunch for the cats, only because Rudy was insistent about it. I grabbed a soda and some chocolate and enjoyed more of the TV show. Eventually I opted to turn the TV off and start on laundry. I had some finance work to catch up on and then veered off into the world of porn. Before I knew it I needed to leave for supper.

Backup stairs threw on my clothes and headed out. I went for BBQ only because I was supposed to have a reward since it’s my birthday month. Turns out that reward wasn’t on my account. Last year the place moved my birthday month to October. I said something to the manager, and he was supposed to have corrected it but apparently that did not happen. I wasn’t pleased about that, and my dippy waitress didn’t offer to get the manager or fix it. I wanted to get going because a charter bus had just pulled up and the people were piling in. It took me forever to work my way past all the people coming in. I held the door and when I got a chance moved to the second door and eventually, I was free and in the parking lot. My next stop was to get the mail. Then came home.

For the longest time I would pass by those speed trailers that our town has and never get alerted by my radar detector. Those days are over, they use photo radar and my radar detector supports it. The town my doctor is in has photo radar setup at each intersection so if you blow a light, they snap your license plate and mail you a ticket. The alert is super loud and obnoxious, but I know the sound. Well, I passed by one of those speed trailers and had an alert way in advance, so when I passed by it thanked me for driving safely. I saw on a YouTube video some cities have mounted Flock cameras in those trailers so they can capture your license plate.

Since I arrived back home, I have been working more on the laundry. Also, the computer. Got it all tuned up and it is working better. All week long I would open a spreadsheet at work and when I would have to type in numbers it would cause Excel to crash. Not exactly sure what the number pad was sending but I didn’t have any issues on my laptop, so I knew my desktop had to be rebooted. Hopefully, when I log in on Monday things are back to normal.

Rudy has been super clingy and sleeping in my lap off and on while I have been browsing sites and playing. As I typed this up, he woke up and looked at me, as if to say come on it’s time for bed. The look he gave me was dirty and I know he was trying to make me feel guilty. Yeah, it sort of worked because I am saving this and heading up.

Not exactly a productive day as I would have hoped but it was enjoyable. Hopefully tomorrow will also be enjoyable once I get my morning errands out of the way.

Sunday … Had some insomnia but managed to get back to sleep without having to watch TV. Both cats helped me with that. So thoughtful of them, just makes the bed crowded. Woke up on time. Fed the cats. I got ready & dressed, headed out for breakfast and then hit up the grocery store. This was Target weekend, but I opted to skip it and just picked up a container of cat treats at the grocery store. Debated on topping off my tank the gas gage said that I can travel 320 miles, and it’s just used a little fuel from the last fill up. I decided on coming home. Got the groceries put away, then unloaded the dish washer and put the cats fountain in. I went and got undressed and watched TV before my food coma kicked in. Eventually I passed out for a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I heard a lawn mower running and Rudy wanted his lunch, so that got me out of bed. I fed Rudy and peeked out the back door. Saw the neighbors’ kid on the lawn mower. He was riding around a little like I used to when I drove one as a kid. I was totally reckless, but this kid was much more controlled. It took me back in time watching him and wishing that it was me instead. Got my medicine put out for the week. Then put the cats’ fountain back together. The motor needed to be cleaned as well and that’s where the bulk of the crud was. I got it flushed out and super clean. Both cats watched with anticipation as I put the fountain back in service. They had a dish of water while it was in for maintenance, and they both drank a little out of it. Once the fountain was back up and running, Mora dove in and drank like I’ve not seen her drink before. Fresh clean purified water from a jug. I drink from the tap. The cats get superior treatment!

I cleaned the house and then decided to run some cleaner through the dishwasher. I grabbed my next load of laundry and headed down. I was alone for a while. Got my inbox cleaned out finally. Nothing like a zero inbox, I like it tidy. Just started surfing for porn and Rudy came back down. He is in my arms sleeping again as I work to type this. I kind of had other plans but there is nothing like cuddle time with him. He doesn’t do this that often, but when he does it’s so cute and I savor it. He beats his tail against me or the desk until he falls asleep then he is perfectly still. Last night he fell asleep twice. Right now, he’s working on it but just not quite there yet.

Thinking about supper I am headed back to my hometown not sure if I am getting Mexican or Pizza, both are in roughly the same location. The pizza place is where they used to have hot younger guys for waiters but that has pretty much dried up and you might find a guy there but it’s mostly girls. The pizza is good and honestly, I haven’t had it in a while, so I am seriously considering it. However, in my mind I really want to stay local either hit up a local Mexican place or go to the pizza place that has not so good pizza and get my favorite pasta dish that comes with a small salad and garlic bread. I always leave there full and happy.

Not like I have anything going on for the day, need to run some cleaner through the washing machine as my laundry dries. There is some outside work that I need to do but just not in the mood. That’s about it. Well looks like Rudy can’t get comfy so he just left me. I am thinking of heading up for a bit anyway. The new neighbors sure have a crowd of cars, not sure if that is going to be the norm but based on the cars it looks like two families living there. The driveway and the street are full.

Hope that it’s a good day for you! Back to my normal routine tomorrow. Take care!

Lonely

I’ve been thinking about the college guy yesterday and how I wished that I would have made a move. That’s even though I believe he’s straight. Hell, I might have at least been able to make a friend if nothing else. Every time I look out at the column that he painted I think of him. It’s like a reminder and it’s painful. He did a great job and I’m proud that the project is behind me, it’s going to be a while before I can look at the column and not think of him. I had a thought of trying to reach out to him via social media, but I know that is less likely to have the favorable outcome that I want. I’m not a weird person, just lonely sprinkled with a hint of desperation. While I’m not a fan of his boss I kind of want to call him and plan another job just to get the guy back here so I can ask him out. That’s not going to happen, but the thought crossed my mind.

I made it out for breakfast and I was very hungry. I had a delicious breakfast and then headed off to the grocery store. Then off to the gas pump. The prices per gallon are insane but since I usually don’t go below a ½ tank and that’s right where I was, my bill wasn’t horribly high but still I know that it could have been cheaper.

Came home and unloaded the groceries. I curled up with the cats. I got sleepy but I had problems falling asleep. While it was a pain, I think it will work to my advantage tonight or so I hope, because I need a good night’s sleep.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, it involved my favorite cashier at the grocery store. She’s an older lady and I don’t see her like I used to because she doesn’t work Sunday mornings. I was shaken when I woke up at 6a but was thankful that it was only a dream. I got up to use the restroom, and Rudy joined me when I returned to bed. He was hopeful that I would steer towards the direction of the kitchen instead of the bedroom. We had a nice cuddle session, and I tried to go back to sleep but that was pointless. The light in the living room turned on at 6:30a & that was my cue to get moving. I took my sweet time but made it out of bed and Rudy got his breakfast.

The loneliness pain is the absolute worst. I think that because of the fact I am gay, my age doesn’t help. I want the pain to stop and this problem solved. The negative way comes to mind of just dropping out of life in general. That would solve the problem but then I’d never get to know what the future had in store for me. Conversely the pain would stop. However, the only thing I am sticking around for is the cats. If it wasn’t for them, I think I would have checked out a long time ago. It’s been going on for long enough and yeah, I know that it’s all up to me, not like some hot guy is just going to magically come walking up to my doorstep but sure would be nice if that happened. I kind of feel like I get to see all these hot guys and some I ask out and get turned down; others play games. I’m not up for rejection but I know it comes with the territory and it’s something you must get used to, suck it up and move on there will always be another hot guy. However, the rejection can harden you and eventually you get to the point where you don’t want to take a chance because it’s probably going to wind up being the same no, sorry I’m straight. Humor but what ever happened to trying something new? My end game is sexually motivated but I’m NOT looking to jump in bed, I want to get to know a guy and make sure that were a match and we both want the same thing, then we can go hop in bed. I think that if I do ever actually get to have sex with another guy that I might have feelings of guilt, but I know my spouse is dead and gone, he would want me to move on. Just as if the shoe had landed on the other foot, I would want the same for him.

Still, I decided it was time to look at dating apps again. I got on something new with the intent on subscribing for a month, but they wanted $50. I didn’t really like what I saw and deleted my account. I downloaded another app to look around and try. I had no idea it wasn’t open to everyone that wanted to subscribe. I built my profile and am waiting to get approved. There are no options at this stage to delete my account, which is kind of what I want to do since it’s not open. I don’t have a comfort feeling about it.

I went out for Mexican food at my favorite place. The flavor I was looking for was there. It was nice to be out of the house. I really didn’t want to come home but I’ve had laundry to finish up, and the cats needed their supper so here I am.

Life – it’s full of emotions and experiences. Wish I would have enjoyed and appreciated my youth while I had it. I have lots of memories to reflect on, some good and some bad. I’m proud of the accomplishments that I have made over the last 13 years, and I know my late spouse would be proud of me as well. Never thought I’d make it to this point but here I am. Only thing left is to find a guy to share the rest of my life with. Would be nice to win the lottery and quit my job. If that doesn’t happen then some how either find a new job or find a way to be content where I am. If all these pieces fell into place, I tell myself the same lie repeatedly, I’d be happy. Truth is I’d be happier, but I don’t know for certain that I would truly be happy. I’ve had plenty of time to experience being sad, lonely and depressed. I’d like a chance to flip those emotions and experience years of happiness and positive things. I kind of think I have paid my dues but then again, I am biased.

Hoping for a great week ahead for all of us. Sincerely, thank you for stopping by it makes my day that you are here. Take care!

Sounds like a gun

Last night I was working away sitting in the living room. It was dusk and getting dark rapidly. My neighbor showed up to mow his lawn on the house that is for sale. I heard the mower and saw it was him and then went back to work. Out of the blue there was a random bang and the mower stopped. It sounded like a gun went off. I heard the mower start back up; he engaged the blade and went back to mowing. The mower died and then he started it again. I figured maybe he ran over the for-sale sign. He finished up and left. This morning my curiosity got the best of me, and I went out to take a look. I have no idea what he hit. It is a mystery. Just glad that there was no damage to my house/property.

Shortly after my nosy trip outside, he came back and picked up some stuff and hauled it away. He’s still got at least one more trip to make. I’m guessing that they are close to closing. I just hope I get some decent neighbors.

My insomnia flared up last night or should I say early this morning. I stayed up for an hour, then was able to go back to bed for 3 more hours before it was time to get up.

No word from the contractor I hired to replace the column on my porch. I expected them to show up today but nope. Not sure if they are going to make it tomorrow. Part of me wants to reach out and ask for an update and the other part of me wants to just let it play out and see what happens. I’ve got the money ready for them and would really like to get this chore off my to-do list. God help me if this doesn’t work out and I must go back to the drawing board because I have run out of people and patience. I just want it done and over with. You wouldn’t think that something so simple would be so complicated.

I’ve made it all day with no nap and am honestly tired. My hope is that I sleep well tonight and all night long at that with no interruptions. My body needs it and so does my sanity.

I saw something last night on social media that helped put my job issues in perspective. Just get through the moment and move to the next. Don’t think beyond that. Still, I felt stressed this morning with some project work. We were micromanaged a bit and it was in front of people via video conferencing. I am not a fan of the project but it’s not like I have been asked for my input. It’s just one of those things I don’t have control over.

Were back in a heat wave which is kind of crazy for this time in September. Normally it’s warm and not hot like summer. I know that a change is coming and things will cool off. I just long for the time where it’s comfortable everywhere and no AC or Heat is required to regulate the climate.

I had a Chicken Bacon Ranch pasta dish for supper last night; it was okay, nothing that good. I have really been wanting a Chicken Pot Pie and picked one up but that feels like something that would hit better on a cooler day. The other thing that sounds good to me is Chili with Cornbread. I have that as well and might eat that tonight. Chili for sure is better on a cooler day to keep warm and eat comfort food.

Just hoping for an enjoyable evening and that it cools off once the sun sets for the day. I’m not a fan of it getting dark so early. It would be nice if we could get a resolution if Day Light Savings time is going away or sticking around. I know that a lot of people want it to go away and I’m with them. It seems crazy to have to adjust the clock twice per year. Although I always like getting that so called extra hour of sleep.

Hope all is well in your world.

Change Of Plans

Today started out way too early in the morning when my insomnia kicked in. I made it back to bed to get a few more hours of sleep. Rudy woke me at 7a and wanted his breakfast. I got up and fed him and his sister. I went back and watched TV with the intention of returning to bed, but my body wouldn’t let me. I headed to the kitchen and cracked open a fresh box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. It was the “Large Box” and before I knew what happened I had consumed ½ of the box. I love that stuff! Factor in my sugar addiction, I know it’s not good for me, but that doesn’t stop it from being so delicious!

I got my morning medicine taken and then returned to watch TV. Eventually returning to bed which was my end game. Mora snuggled up with me, and we had a nice nap time. Rudy passed out in my recliner, which seems to be his new “go-to” spot when it’s time for bed. At night they both stay with me for a while before they leave and head to the living room. Then usually closer to wake-up time one or both will return. Typically, it’s just Rudy and he climbs in bed with me and waits to do his biscuit making dance!

I got out of bed and took a shower early in the afternoon. I got dressed after with the full intentions of leaving for a bite to eat.

I threw the laundry in and then thought about how I had some left over Lasagna Soup and opted to stay home and eat that. Then I dove into that Chocolate Cake for a few bites. I like to nurse it so that I can make it last for days but not terribly long. It’s so good and is much better with milk than soda.

Rudy bugged me the whole time I was eating my soup, it didn’t come out of a can, but he saw me scraping the container and banging my spoon on the large mug I was putting it in. He automatically thought that I was making a feast for him, despite the fact I had opened a fresh can of food for him just prior to this. He got under my feet and kept pestering me with the hope that I would give in, but I am strong and no matter what he does I resist because as soon as you give in, they remember and will keep coming back for more.

After I was done with my early supper, I loaded the dishwasher up and watched more TV. I brushed both cats. Hopefully, that will keep them happy, and they won’t leave me any unwanted surprises. Once the dishes were done, I had another load of laundry to do so I got up. I headed to the garage first to charge my vehicle’s battery and check the tire pressure. Pressure was a little low but that is all fixed now. Then returned inside and washed my hands. Grabbed the laundry and headed down.

The contractor I hired to replace the column on the front porch should be here on Tuesday or Wednesday, so I wrote out a check for them to have it on hand. I am waiting for an update before I tell my boss, I’d like to know for sure which day they plan on being here. I really wish they would have surprised me and shown up today.

Had to restart the PC to get a final Windows Update applied. I hate doing that because then I have a slight fight on my hands when I log back in to make sure everything is up and running. I updated a couple programs that were out of date.

Have been pacifying Mora with her craving for attention. She must be in my lap, and I must be petting or scratching her. It lasts for a while then either she leaves on her own or I send her packing. Very much like a boomerang she will return and ask for more. Sometimes it’s within a few minutes and other times an hour can go by. She loves being in the center and I don’t think she likes the computer since that steals my focus but if she is near me, she seems content.

I got a hell of a shock when I peeked on an app at gas prices. Damn they have really jumped high again. I kind of expected it to be just not so soon. I kind of think that the new normal will be $4 to $5 a gallon for gas. Thankfully I don’t need Diesel, I feel super sorry for the folks that do because that stuff is quite a bit more than gas.

Overall, I am happy with the freedom that I had to do what I wanted to. I wish that I would have gotten out, and I know tomorrow that I will have regrets. However, I will also be going out for breakfast and plan on hitting some place up for supper. Mexican, American and BBQ all sound quite appealing to me. I’ve also got to hit up the grocery store in the morning and grab the mail. It’s fun to be lazy but it also can confuse me on what day of the week it is. Bad enough to have a holiday fall on a Monday.

Hope that you had a great day and were able to relax. Time to grab the laundry and head up, fight to make my bed and get ready as another day has turned to night, time to close my eyes and say goodnight!

SOME KIND OF LUCK

I wound up going back to work on Thursday. I was up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep despite trying. By 6am I gave up and said I’m feeding the cats and going back to bed. I got connected to work and saw my inbox continuing to overflow it was close to 800 emails just in my inbox alone, that’s not counting what was filtered to folders. Then my gut kicked in and said you need to go back today; something is going to happen. It was one of those eerie kinds of feelings. I knew that if I went against it I’d probably be sorry. So, I wolfed down breakfast, threw on some clothes, grabbed my water bottle and headed downstairs.

The cats missed me and made some noise; I came up for bathroom breaks and to pass out lunch. I took an abbreviated lunch and returned to the basement in the afternoon. I was down there all day long. I don’t exactly know where or how I was able to motivate myself because I was exhausted from not sleeping much. I got caught up and managed to accomplish way more than I thought I would. It felt good to have an empty inbox. Talked with the mistake maker and we caught up a little bit.

I thought exhaustion would help fuel a great night’s sleep but sadly I was wrong. I woke up at 2a this morning and managed to get back to sleep by 4a. I woke up again exhausted and really wanted to take the day off but pressed on.

While the day is almost done, I am not quite off the hook just yet. My boss dogged me a little bit yesterday because I chimed in to help on something and that just resulted in him dumping more work on me. I should just keep quiet instead of being helpful. He’s been after me to train the new guy on our Firewalls and I have just put it off. Today I got a written request, and he asked me to invite him to the meeting. He wanted it to be set early next week, so I purposely made it towards the end of the week. I really don’t want to do it but suppose that I can’t put it off forever. It’s pointless to teach him because he won’t even have an account to login to them and my boss takes his sweet time before he gives access to the Firewalls you can wait as long as 2 years. I got my access after 6 months, but I had to go through a formal training course. He wanted to send the mistake maker to the same training but never did and finally after 2 years he just gave him access.

In other news last night, I saw that there was a firmware update for my home router, so I applied it. I had no idea that it would take away remote access to the router. That’s better from a security standpoint because you must physically be here and/or connected to one of the machines in the house and have the credentials to log in. It’s kind of a pain because I had an app on my phone that ceased to function after the update. I could monitor signal strength of WIFI devices, see what/who was connected and reboot the router without being logged on to a computer. Plus, the app would send me alerts if there was a problem or loss of connectivity and it didn’t matter if I was home or not. I did some research and found that my model of router wasn’t on the list to have this service deprecated but again from a security perspective it is much more secure and better.

Today was the day to set the trash out. With the Labor Day holiday trash pickup is pushed back one day. At least it was supposed to be. I waited until the afternoon and got it ready and got it set out. It wasn’t but 15 minutes later and a trash truck showed up, emptied the container and kept on moving. I’ve never had that kind of luck. Perhaps it was just good timing on my part or perhaps it is a sign that something good is going to happen. Hey I can hold out hope, there is no charge for that.

Still watching Roseanne on Peacock and peppering in some YouTube Videos to spice things up a little bit. Food wise I finished the pizza last night and am glad that it’s gone. I’ve got Spaghetti to heat up for supper and kind of looking forward to it. Then there is the left-over Chocolate Cake. Part of me wants it tonight for desert and the other part of me wants to have it for breakfast.

My calendar is clear and outside of feeding the cats I can sleep in and be lazy tomorrow if I want. I like having flexibility and not having looming tasks or deadlines. I’ve got laundry to do, some porn surfing to catch up on, need to grab the mail and get a bite to eat in the afternoon. Not sure where I am going to go. I had it all worked out on Monday, but I’ve slept since then and my taste changes. Thinking of Mexican food but not exactly sure where I am going to go for it. That pretty much takes care of Saturday. Sunday is the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping, cleaning the house and grabbing a bite to eat in the afternoon. Cracker Barrel sounds pretty good but I will have to travel a little bit since I won’t visit the one that is closest to me. That’s due to the gay waiter there that was interested in me. He led me on for the longest time. Seeing him would just bring back memories and stir up hope again. I know he’s a lost cause and for that reason I avoid seeing him at all costs. However, I am always on the look out for a hot guy to hit on, my only problem is they all seem to be straight just like Spaghetti before it gets all hot and wet.

Hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by!

424 Emails

Hello,

I made it for pizza yesterday.  Got to see the straight hunk.  He was supposed to be my waiter but I think he asked someone else to cover for him, which is fine.  I still got to look over his body several times.  He’s wearing his hair with the wet look and it makes him look horrible in my opinion.  I still am in love with the rest of his body, especially his nice ass. Pizza was really good had Spinach & Sausage and brought left overs home.  I didn’t go with a large because it’s way too much pizza for just me and I’d grow sick of it quickly. 

Logged in this morning to find 424 emails waiting for me that’s what made it to my inbox and past my filters.  I got way more email than that.  Quickly skimmed things and doesn’t look like I missed much.  I wasn’t feeling the best this morning so I took today off.  So long as I get a decent nights sleep I plan to get back to normal tomorrow.  All though I would rather just quit and walk away from this place.  I really savor and enjoy time away.  I knew going into vacation that I wouldn’t want to come back but I’m addicted to the money so I will go back. 

Spent the day laying around watching Roseanne and a couple YouTube videos.  I managed to nod off several times despite not wanting to.  Had pizza for supper.  Working on getting Windows Updates installed on both of my machines.  They patched a record braking amount of things and better to stay patched than take any chances. 

Hope you had a great day.  Here’s hoping that I make it back to work tomorrow because the emails are only going to keep adding up and waiting for me.  Take care!

Today’s Waxing Adventure

Hi

Today I thought I would see how waxing my nose went.  I bought a kit from Amazon.  It looks simple until you have to heat up the wax.  I got it a little too hot.  It burnt my nose and I didn’t get the job done.  I had to manually peel off what little wax stuck and that just caused me to sneeze uncontrollably for five minutes.  I don’t think I will be waxing my nose anytime soon.  I’ll stick with a trimmer.  I hate nose hair and it only seems to grow faster with age.  Kind of the same thing for ear hair. 

As for down below, that cream I put on my nuts made them feel really smooth and they are more fun to play with and feel.  However, I don’t know that I will do that cream again.  I will stick with a trimmer for that area as well.  I’ve never been able to trim my ass just wanted to see how it felt. 

I suppose there are somethings you shouldn’t explore and waxing appears to be that something for me.  I’m totally fine with that. 

I feel overcome by the heat and was super lazy this morning.  Finished up streaming Night Court for the second time.  Really love that show.  I wound up staying home for breakfast.  Rudy got me all clawed up and he got his breakfast.  My arm and chest both itch like crazy but I am smart enough to know NOT to scratch. 

It was the afternoon before I got up and really got moving.  Put out my medicine.  Made it to Lowes but I only got a couple things and abbreviated my list because it’s simply too hot to work outside.  Hit up the cat food store and there selection wasn’t the best but I found enough food for my little furry monsters to eat for the next 2 weeks. Filled up the tank and yeah $44 later it’s full.  I knew it would hurt but it also feels good to see the needle back on full.   

Came home and much later in the afternoon I had Lasagna soup (I got this at Sam’s) for supper and nibble on some of that chocolate cake I got yesterday.  It was pretty good. 

Did some house cleaning.  Brushed the cats and trimmed their murder mittens.  They both were not happy about the claw trim but loved the brushing.  They have been puking and I felt bad about that because I knew they were overdue for a brushing. 

Subscribed to Peacock so I can stream Roseanne, it’s the only place where the series is available.  I’ve seen it all once before but suddenly I’m craving it again so there went $19.99 and I will likely stay subscribed until I finish the series or until I get tired of paying, whichever comes first.  Who knows though I might find something else of interest and start watching that.  Seriously considering cancelling my Netflix.  I pay a small fortune for entertainment in the way of television and I know I am just throwing money away because you can’t watch everything at once.  It’s impossible. 

Tomorrow for sure is grocery store day and I will hit up the post office.  I haven’t been in a couple days but I don’t expect there will be anything there.  I plan to go for pizza tomorrow.  I don’t expect I will see the straight hunky waiter but want some pizza to eat and to take home to nibble on during the week. 

A little bored and lonely at the moment.  I was hoping that I would have met someone while I was off but it didn’t happen.  I have a strange feeling that soon someone will come along but then again I could be wrong.  I’ve though about hitting up an app.  Having a companion to share life with would put some fun in it and getting laid would be nice as well.  For me though it’s more about companionship than it is sex. 

Still not looking forward to going back to work but I’ve got one extra day thanks to it being Labor Day.  Then the next holiday will be Election Day and that’s not until November which will be here soon.  I see leaves falling already and the grass is dying because of the heat.  The weather was supposed to cool off this coming week but there is no sign of that nor any rain.  The heat and I don’t get along and I can get sick if I am exposed to it for too long.  My stomach hasn’t been the best over the past week but I am hoping that eventually things will settle down and the weather will cool off a bit.  I’m not looking to jump into snow or freezing temperatures. 

Funny thing I think my neighbors house got inspected yesterday.  They left the lights on inside and out.  It is quite bright at night.  He’s due to come cut the grass but who knows if that will happen anytime soon, only time will tell. 

I plan on trying to make the most of this evening and tomorrow because going back to the normal WES (Work Eat Sleep) will suck and not in a good way.  Still looking a little bit for a different job I just really don’t want to take a cut in pay to get away from the nonsense.  I ask myself if that will make me happy and while I think it will short term I don’t know about the long term. 

Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you all again soon!

HOT & WORN OUT

I know it’s been a bit since my last post. I surprised my Thanksgiving Friends on my birthday. I took over fresh bakery from a local place they like. I only planned on staying for a couple hours but wound up spending all day with them. They have a guest staying with them, it’s there would be future daughter-in-law. She was going with one of their sons who died during the Iraq war. Their late son and this gal had plans to marry but obviously that never happened. I met her years ago at Christmas time, it was shortly after I lost my spouse, so around 11 or 12 years ago. Her and I started chatting and it turned into a therapy session for both of us. She has tried to commit suicide twice. She can’t move on since she lost the love of her life. She has had a few boyfriends, but they were all the wrong types of men. She has no money and no job. She doesn’t like computers or technology and will be looking for a job after the Labor Day holiday. I wound up taking her shopping for a few things she needed and filled up her gas tank. This was quite the expensive favor I did but honestly spending the money didn’t phase me one bit. I offered to get her oil changed but she didn’t want to. Turns out her vehicle is overdue. My friends took me out for dinner. We went to a new place for fish, it sucked. I was sick the next day from what I ate, and I won’t be going back to that place.

Wednesday, I had my facial and got free shampoo, which felt awesome. Not spectacular but the gal knew what she was doing. I re-watched Boots on Netflix. Saw 9 to 5 again for the millionth time. I love that movie and have ever since it came out. Shame there wasn’t a sequel.

Had an incident with a pedestrian. I went out for breakfast on Friday and when I was leaving the restaurant this cunt was walking along the sidewalk. She saw my vehicle pulling out and came out of nowhere and called me out for not yielding to her. She saw me and common sense would have told me if I was her to either wait or walk behind the vehicle, but the cunt made an issue out of it. I should have run over her foot. That shook me up and I came back home for a while.

I got out later in the day hit up Sam’s Club. I got everything on my list. It was so difficult to get there this time because of the heat and me just saying I’ll do it tomorrow. Eventually, you run out of tomorrows. I wanted to hit up Lowe’s but never made it. It’s still on my to-do list.

Went out to a new Mexican place in the afternoon. They have this slightly spicy and tangy cheese dip they bring with salsa and chips. It’s awesome stuff and I will for sure go back. It’s in a former chain Mexican place that closed. They dressed the place up and it looks super good inside. The food is average.

After that I hit up the movies and saw Coyte vs Acme. Everyone tells me I don’t look my age. The lady that sold me my ticket gave me the senior discount. It felt good but also, I was appalled at the same time. Movie was awesome and I recommend seeing it, especially if you like cartoons or grew up watching them, you will enjoy it. Lots of surprise characters and a very well-made movie in my opinion.

Today (Saturday) I laid around and napped a bit. Rudy finally had enough of it and told me I needed to get moving. So, I did. I bought some wax strips thinking that I could wax my hole. That was a huge disaster. I had bought some cream made for men wanting to remove hair from their genitals and anal area. I decided to use that. It felt like I put Ben-Gay on my nuts, not pleasant at all. I spent a long time in the shower. There was glue from the wax strip, and I had to use a wipe that was included in the kit to get the glue removed. I returned to the shower and washed again. I’ll never ever repeat this little experiment. Andrew Goes Places says that he uses Nair on his genitals and anal area, it works for him. He looks so smooth. I think all I did was inflict unnecessary pain on myself, not sure that much if any hair came off and I for sure used a hell of a lot of water.

Once I recovered from that, I got dressed and headed to the office. Checked my desk and had no mail, which is a good thing. Walked around making sure there were no obvious problems that would require a return trip next week. Things like misbehaving or break while I am on vacation. I had to check on things for my own peace of mind. Found a couple of large conference rooms where the lights were on, but no one was around. I shut them off. I heard a voice, so I knew I wasn’t alone but never saw anyone.

After that I headed a couple streets over to my favorite Italian place and got to order the dish that I had been wanting to try for a very long time. They told me last time it would be back in September and that was correct. I left with a free piece of chocolate cake for my birthday. Saw a couple of hot guys, so nice eye candy to go with my meal. I was stuffed when I left, the cake was to go no way I could have eaten another bite. Parking was a mess, so I had a little bit of a walk. Full stomach, super-hot outside. I was breathing a little heavy by the time I returned to my vehicle, shame it wasn’t because I had sex.

I opted to return home. I said I would rest up and then head back out hit up the cat food store and Lowe’s but damn I am exhausted. It’s supposed to be cooler tomorrow, so I plan to knock out both of those tasks then. If for some reason I, don’t I still have Monday. After that I will be all out of tomorrows. Because on Tuesday it is back to work and I will be on call. I’ve still not looked at work email and have no plans to do so until Tuesday morning. Whatever is there will be waiting for me, it’s not like it’s going to get up and leave. Fuck I so don’t look forward to going back but glad that I discovered that I will still have 2 weeks accruing to use before the end of the year. I’m thinking perhaps a little bit of cooler weather next month, take another week and get that dumpster and clean this place up like I’ve been wanting to for a while.

In addition to my errands tomorrow I want to travel to the pizza place where the straight guy works that I have a wicked crush on to torture myself and just drool over him while I eat pizza.

Right now, Monday I think will be a stay home day but hey something could change my mind on that and I might get out. Right now, my gas tank is closer to empty than it’s been in a very long time and filling it up tomorrow is going to seriously hurt but I had fun getting it to this point. Vacation is nice but it always involves spending more money than one really wants to, at least in my experience. I didn’t go hog wild and can pay cash for every penny I spent, which makes me feel good.

I almost forgot I hired a contractor finally to replace the column on my front porch. He’s expensive but I have confidence in him. I wanted him to clean my gutters as well but he seems way high on that, despite the detail he quoted me on making sure the downspouts were clean (they are all clean I have strainers in) and he said he would also blow off my roof from any debris, there are a couple sticks up there but a little wind and they will be on the ground in no time.

Time to catch up on porn surfing. I’m working on laundry and will be headed to bed in a while. Need to go to a new place for breakfast because the place I normally go to is closed this month because the owner went on vacation. Wish I could take a month off, gee wonder how long it would take me to catch up on email from that? Things will go back to normal in October so there is something for me to look forward to.

I hope you’re doing well and staying cool. Thanks for stopping by!

ON VACATION

Hi there!

As you can tell by the title, I am on vacation. Only on my second workday off and I am bored. This past Sunday I got together with my Thanksgiving friends we went to a Mexican place I had been to before but didn’t care much for. I had to fight a little bit, but I picked up the bill. I know they can’t afford stuff like that, and it would just go on a credit card that would get minimum monthly payments. No sense in financing a meal.

I skipped the grocery store on Sunday, and it’s been interesting getting by on what is here, but I am making it. Thus far I have just had breakfast at home and went out for my late afternoon meal.

Monday it was White Castle. I have been having a serious craving for the place and while it was enjoyable the original taste I remember just didn’t seem to quite be there. I sat eating my meal looking around the restaurant and remembering the many times me and my late spouse went there. It just made me miss him that much more. It didn’t help that I burped onion ring batter for the rest of the evening, they sure were good though.

Remember that lower paying job I mentioned a short time ago. Well, I applied for it on Monday night. I don’t know if I could make it on the salary they are paying. I’d like to know more about the job and to see if I even get selected for an interview. I think I’d like it a lot and a change of pace I think would be nice. I’ve looked to see what other jobs are out there but nothing else tickled my fancy thus far. I’ll probably wind up staying where I am because I like the money. I just figured out that I’ve still got 2 weeks of vacation to take before the end of the year. It hasn’t accrued yet but once it has, I plan on taking more time off which is something to look forward to. If I want to burn through my reserve carry over, then I would have a total of 4 weeks to take. Just thinking of taking an entire month off from work sounds wonderful, but I think of the mess after a week. I can only imagine what kind of cluster fuck I would come back to. I’ve not checked email and am letting it pile up.

I had a profitable day Monday. I got my money back from the post office for the letter I sent that cost me $20 to send, that was nice. Then I called my Auto Insurance company, and they applied some discounts that I saw were missing and I got an extra discount because I paid in full. That money will come back to me in a few days via a check. I’m looking forward to getting it.

Tonight I went to a pizza place in town. Nothing special and service was just okay. When my bill came back with my card, there was no pen to sign the receipt with. I had to stop someone and ask for a pen. I also didn’t get a pizza box to carry out my left-over pizza in; it was just a Styrofoam container. I was not happy about that.

Went to the dentist today for my 6-month checkup, got good news as usual and was pleased. I don’t go back until April 1^st and that’s no joke.

Rewatched the entire Boots series on Netflix. Shame there won’t be a 2^nd season of that show, at least not on Netflix. I know that I’m not the only person who wants the story line to continue and to see how things play out for the cast. Fingers crossed that they make a 2^nd season.

Trying to have lunch with my other friend but he said he would text me back yesterday and I haven’t heard from him. I think he forgot all about me and really seemed like he wasn’t interested in getting together.

I have made some progress on getting the stupid post on my front porch replaced. The guy I told was hired hasn’t told me the total yet, I’ve only got a ballpark estimate. I’ve got another guy that is cheaper, but he seems like he doesn’t know what he is doing so while he costs less, I think you get what you pay for. I’d just like to get this job done so I can move on.

It doesn’t help that there is construction on the main street in and out of the subdivision. Things are quite a mess and not coming home my usual way takes some adjusting to but I’m making it thus far.

It’s super-hot out and kind of miserable to be out doing anything. I really want to drive but even with AC it’s kind of a bit much. I will have to bite the bullet though if I want to go for a drive.

I put off going to Sam’s club which is just around the corner because I didn’t want to deal with the construction. I had planned to do it when I came home from the dentist, but they ran behind and I sat for far too long. I was only interested in coming home and relaxing. Yeah, I’m kind of lazy but it’s my time to do with as I please. I’d rather be out of the area and on a true vacation, that’s on my someday list. I need a traveling companion to make it fun and worthwhile.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I’ve got nothing going on. I’m telling myself that I need to make it to Sam’s and try to fit in Lowes just to get them out of the way. Then take a 2-hour drive to go eat some fish and see some different surroundings. Time will tell how that plays out.

Right now, my plan is to get to bed so that I am prepared for my early Rudy morning wake up call. Get a shower and head out for breakfast. Then hit up a bakery and surprise my thanksgiving friends with some fresh pastry. That’s been on my list of things to do for a while. I know I won’t want to wake up early and I might wind up eating breakfast at home but I for sure want to hit up that bakery. Doing it early in the morning has two benefits. #1 it’s cooler out early in the morning. #2 better selection the quicker you get there.

Thursday morning, I have my facial booked and that’s pretty much it. I’ve got nothing planned Friday through Monday. I’d like to clean up my deck; it would be nice to admire but doing the actual work yeah not looking forward to that.

In case it doesn’t come glaring through, I’ve got some depression going on and I want to check out of the world but that would leave the cats devastated and I won’t do that to them, were good for each other. Getting older is only part of the depression piece. Missing my late spouse as well as being alone for so long, not having success in the dating world and my boring life – it just feels like I am wasting away. Doesn’t seem like I matter to anyone but my job. Kind of wish I would have gotten the dumpster and cleaned this place up, at least I’d be busy and not have time to dwell on poor old me.

Well, off to climb the steps and settle in for the evening. Hopefully I can get a great night’s sleep and be raring to go with the same energy that Rudy has every morning when he wakes me up. Thanks for stopping by. I do hope all is well with you!

My poor stomach

Good evening,

I heard the weather forecast this morning for next week it’s going to super hot again.  Not exactly good news but nothing much I can do about it either. 

I woke up around 1a used the bathroom and of course couldn’t get back to sleep so I sat up and watched TV.  No cats were in my room and neither of them came in, which was fine.  My stomach hurt and I was tired. 

I was up again around 5a but was able to roll over and go back to sleep.  Rudy had joined me and was laying up against me radiating heat.  That’s nice in the Winter but not the summer.

The little devil woke me up at 6a and I got out of bed around 6:30a.  I was exhausted despite having just woken up.  Today would have been a good day to call in sick, because I was.  My stomach started bothering me.  I fed the cats and ate breakfast. 

I got dressed and then started feeling some body aches but figured that once I got busy with work that would subside.  I was right.  However, my stomach has bothered me all day long.  Plenty of grumbling and gas.  I had a couple of what I’d call close calls that turned out to be nothing. 

I opted to let my boss know that I was limping along but that I was working.  Now I am starting to think this isn’t from a Jelly Donut.  I probably caught something and it’s going to stick with me.

This is a minor inconvenience thus far.  I had supper and had to force myself to keep eating, finally I just gave up.  Food didn’t taste good and stopping seemed like a smart option.  I feel okay but don’t know if there will be more pain and grumbling or if it’s all over. 

I am not a fan of this and hope that it goes away quickly.  I don’t want it to mess up my weekend or my week of vacation. 

I was able to sneak in a light nap this morning but it only lasted 30 minutes.  My phone started lighting up like a Christmas tree which is normal when I am away from my computer.  Sit in front of the computer and nothing happens.  I think there must be a proximity sensor on it.  I got all of the email that was dumped in my inbox taken care of.  No sooner than that happened the boss called about a case that I took.  I found someone trying to install software from a threat actor and it was caught and stopped by our internal defenses.  For some reason attacks and threats are way up this month, like I’ve not seen before.  I think that it’s only going to get worse. 

Just a few minutes ago there was a loud thump on the roof.  I went outside to investigate and didn’t see anything.  I figured a tree branch fell but nothing.  This place makes noises all the time and you think it’s something major but there is nothing to worry about.  One day something is going to happen, I am going to dismiss it and that will be the one noise I should have paid attention to.  That’s the kind of luck I have. 

I didn’t shave or shower last night and I look like a hobo.  Kind of matches how I feel.  I plan on cleaning up tonight provided that my stomach behaves it’s self. 

Not a whole lot on streaming that I am interested in, I do a lot of searching and scrolling but eventually land on something, even if it’s an hour of cartoons.  Sometimes I just want the background noise. 

Rudy has been more like his normal self today but he did ask for food around 3p and I made him wait until 4p.  He is quite persistent and turns on the charm with his biscuits, licking my forehead thinking that he’s making progress and that I will give in.  That doesn’t always work but I do always enjoy it.  Right now he’s curled up on my arm sleeping.  He’s knows that I’m not happy about that but he likes being close to me.  Kind of nice to be wanted even if it’s only by a little kitty cat. 

Just have to make it 3 more days and right now the week is moving pretty slow.  Hopefully, we will gain some traction because I am ready to be done with work.  I need to get away and just not think about the place.  That’s easier said than done but if I have something I am doing I can easily get lost and will forget about work.  I know that I will wonder the whole time I am out what fresh hell is waiting for me when I return but I will find that out when I return.  It’s the fear of the unknown mixed in with a little guilt since I have a secret that I’d like to stay hidden. 

Well on with the evening and back to looking for something to watch.  Hope you had a great day!

What a week

Did you miss me? Well, I’m still here. It’s just been one of those weeks.

My problems began on Wednesday. There was an important meeting that I should have attended in person, which means going into the office. It was filled with Management. I’m sure someone asked where I was and probably got the response, he’s a remote worker or he mostly works from home. Obviously, I wasn’t there. I had planned on going in but my Insomnia and worry kicked in and kept me awake so by the time morning rolled around I was in no shape to do anything. I took the day off, thinking that perhaps by being “out of the office” that would explain why I wasn’t there. I am expecting the worst and that “my dirty little secret” is out and probably has surfaced up to HR. Then again, I could just be a bit paranoid. No one moves very fast around there so it could be a week or more before I hear anything presuming that my dirty little secret did in fact get leaked. While I anticipate if it’s known that I’d probably be terminated there is the chance that I would just be told to get back to the office. Honestly, no one complains about my work, I’m known for speed & accuracy. So, I don’t follow the go into the office 3 days a week bullshit rule. I still work every day and put in more than my share of overtime. I know that loyalty or your dedication and contributions don’t matter if HR looks to discipline or terminate someone. I also know my boss’ boss is the one who would be the one to likely make the final call because my boss is incapable of wiping his own ass without asking his boss for permission first and then making sure he agrees with how he’s wiping. The man has no spine, it’s like he can’t think for himself, or he’s been brow beaten not to think for himself. That’s part of the reason why I dislike them both. I really feel that the company would chop off its nose despite its face.

I only took Wednesday off and “went back” (I still worked from home) Thursday and worked Friday. It was late on Friday when my boss called, I figured here it came. He just had a simple question for me, and I was able to get him an answer even though I was off the clock. So, I’m not sure if that was to throw me off the scent or if even, he doesn’t know yet, presuming that my secret is in fact out. I could just be worked up about nothing. I just don’t trust managers/management.

Presuming that I’m all worked up over nothing and it comes time for my promotion, I think that I am going to be shoved into the role and not asked if I want it. If turns out to be something that if I don’t want, I expect to have to fight. I hope I’m wrong and they play fair and lay everything out on the table so I can make an informed decision. I also think that if I do take the promotion, it would be smart to go back to the office, because that saying the bigger, they are the harder they fall. I’m sure that if I was promoted and considered management and not following the rules that would certainly be curtains for me if that secret got out. I can only worry so much, so I’m just playing along now like everything is okay until I hear it’s not. I’m probably better off that way so I don’t tip anyone off that I’m worried about something, even though the worry is and has been there for a very long time. I’m on call next week and as usual I dread it. Hopefully it won’t be that bad.

In other news, I checked the mail on Friday and no green postcard, which is exactly what I expected. I’m certain that the carrier didn’t get it signed and tear it from the envelope, so I shelled out a bunch of money for nothing. I’m quite disappointed and mad. I’m sending a letter to complain and see what good that does, I did ask for the information that the services I paid for would yield and said if they couldn’t provide that to refund my money. I honestly think they will fold and give me my money back. I did get a blocked/private call on Friday. It could have been the kid trying to reach out but then again probably not. I don’t take calls without caller id and even with caller id you can’t be 100% certain you are going to be talking with the correct person on the other end since caller id can be spoofed. Technology is great but sometimes there are loopholes that fuck it up for everyone in general and spoofing caller id is one of those loopholes in my opinion.

I watched Season 3 of Tires on Netflix. It was pretty good and much longer than I thought it would be. I got through the bulk of it in one evening but then saved the last 4 episodes and wound up watching them on Friday night. I happened to be in the right place at the right time and looked out my back window to see one of the neighbors’ hot teenagers and he bent over. Simple things like that make my mouth water. As the song goes, I need a man to lay me down and give me something to feel or in simpler terms I need to get laid. I crave sex so bad and the longer I must wait the stronger the crave gets. Watching porn and rubbing one out helps but nothing beats the real thing baby! For clarity I like a younger guy but only would have sex with someone of legal age and I am not into hookups. Although I’ve thought about it, it just seems way too much to risk. 5 minutes of pleasure for what could be a lifetime of pain, no thanks.

Tuesday night I was sitting in my room watching TV with the cats and heard a beeping coming from the alarm panel. I figured that it was warning me that I had lost internet. Only I hadn’t lost internet. The cellular signal died and that’s never happened. I had phone and data cell service from the same carrier that the alarm uses. It puzzled me. I rebooted the system but that didn’t help. I finally got it armed again and turned on quiet mode to shut up the beeping. The remote-control app I have on my phone was down as well. I often leave and turn off the entry delay so if you open a door the alarm will go off with no waiting period. Just think if I was out and came home, that would have been a mess. Anyway, it was a couple days later I got a note that told me it was a nationwide thing and it’s fixed now. I had already figured that out. No one has said exactly what went wrong but I’m sure interested. Just think if you were a criminal and could hack an alarm provider like that you could break into many places, and no one would know until after the fact. It’s like a mobster told me when I was a kid, locks are for honest people. I suppose the same thing is true for alarm systems or security in general.

Speaking of home my neighbor’s house has an offer on it. I’m astonished that it went that quickly. I don’t know if there was compromise or if someone just offered asking price. Presuming the deal goes through I will find out soon enough because it’s all public record. I’ve been thinking about whoever moves in that I should tell them about the badly clogged gutters and the water that will pool in the backyard. Then again, I could just keep my mouth shut and let them figure it out on their own even though that doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. I guess it will depend on who it is and if our paths cross. Funny thing is that house was nothing but an empty lot when I moved in here and I watched it be built from the ground up. I’ve seen people come and go. There were a few renters for a while, but it only had like 3 owners total which is good for something that was built in the late 90’s. The listing makes the place shine but that’s the objective. If you want to sell a home you have to polish it up and make it shine, that’s what our realtor told me years after we bought this place.

I hit up the Mexican place by the office yesterday. There was no a/c in the place and they had fans on. It was just circulating humid air, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there. Chips were horrible but salsa was on point and good. Food was okay but my stomach has been churning ever since I left that place. I stopped by the office as I was expecting a package but there was nothing on my desk other than dust. I was quick to leave and head back home.

Finished up laundry, paying a couple big bills one of which was auto insurance. Jeez I can’t imagine how much I’d pay if I was driving a new vehicle. I may well be able to afford the vehicle but not the insurance. Yet another reason to keep driving what I have since it’s not really giving me any trouble. I really want a new vehicle, but it just doesn’t feel like it is the right time, at least today doesn’t. The last thing I want is to jump into car payments and then lose my job. That’s my biggest fear with a large purchase I’ve had it all my life and it does make me hold out longer before I take the risk.

Speaking of vehicles, I watched a police pursuit where a state trooper saw a vehicle speeding, he followed it and clocked it upwards of 100 mph. He fought like crazy to catch up to the guy, he tried to get away hit a bunch of vehicles and wrecked. Then went to flee, he tried to jump over the overpass, but he was high in the air and there was nothing below but solid ground. The trooper told him you don’t want to jump it won’t end well. The guy surrendered and as they were on the way to the hospital the guy said, “Are you taking me to real jail?” That made me laugh. The trooper didn’t hesitate and said yes. The guy said I don’t understand why. Seriously, you’ve got to be damn dumb. Turns out he was driving his girlfriend’s car, totaled it and was worried about how he, her and her kid were going to get around, like it was the trooper’s fault. If you flee a police officer, when they catch you, you will be headed straight to jail. It’s just a given fact. Then to cause an accident and not have insurance on the vehicle, yeah, it’s like you drew the go to jail card from Monopoly.

Today I woke up super early and had problems going back to sleep. I was a little late to get moving but I made it to breakfast. Had the best breakfast of Strawberry Cinnamon French Toast, Country Fried Steak and eggs. It was rather expensive, but I did enjoy it.

Hit up Target, the grocery store and gas station before coming back home. Wound up being lazy. I’ve laid around pretty much all day. It is super-hot out and there are things I could do outside around the house but it’s far too hot for me. Went out for supper to the bad pizza place that has good pasta. Enjoyed my dinner very much. Had some nice eye candy to look at. Thought about asking a couple guys out but decided against opening my mouth.

I’m back home brushed both cats. I’ve gotten scratched up and now they have both passed out asleep. They are in a food/treat coma. I’m watching a podcast as I type this out. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, and I am trying to enjoy what is left of my evening.

I hope all is well in your world and that life is treating you well. Until next time, take care!

Exhausted

Morning!

Not sure what exactly it was but I was exhausted yesterday.  Got in a short nap before my phone went nuts early in the morning.  Wound up getting up and doing some work.  Then passing out lunch because Rudy was hungry.  I got a bite to eat as well figuring that would help put some pep in my step.  It worked short term but within an hour I was back in bed.  I got another nap that was cut short by my phone. 

I figured that if I slept all day I wouldn’t sleep at night, which is true.  I got up and had some protein powered Greek yogurt.  Watched TV and had to do a little bit of work.  Joined a meeting with a vendor who said they would reschedule because they weren’t prepared. 

That was pretty much the day.  Finally the moment I waited all day for was here.  Supper time.  I had left over spaghetti and a slice of pizza.  It was a great meal and I was full.  Despite that I waited about an hour before I had some desert and passed out treats for the cats. 

I went out to update the firmware in my radar detector.  That took way longer than I though it would.  I was roasting the garage.  Came back inside and just called it.  Despite it being early I just wanted to be done.  I sat in my room watching TV until it was time to brush my teeth and take my sleeping pills.  It wasn’t long after that I was in bed and on my way to dream land. 

Think I woke up during the night to use the bathroom but not completely sure about that.  I woke up around 6:30a from a full bladder and a bad dream.  Rudy thought for sure it was time for breakfast.  I used the bathroom and then headed back to bed but there was no going back to sleep.  Rudy pestered me a bit more and I just got up early and decided to start the day.

Took care of business at work and now I am out of things to do.  AC just turned off a short time ago.  It was nice feeling the cold air on me.  Best place to go on a hot day around here is the grocery store.  It’s always freezing cold when you first walk in the door in the summer time.  I could sit on a lawn chair and be quite comfy there but it sure would look odd. 

Heading back up to be with the cats, get logged in and see what else the day has in store for me.  I know there are 2 meetings today.  It’s also Microsoft Patch Tuesday.  Just in case your operating on Windows.  Unfortunate timing for me because it means I will have to get up early next Sunday when I am on-call to do testing at work.  I’ve only got one other time that happens to me this year and it’s not until October, which as I always say will be here before you know it. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great day!

Wipeout Sunday

Morning!

Yesterday I did all of my normal morning running/chores.  Came home, napped.  Got up and got my medicine prepped, cleaned the house.  Wound up cleaning the inside of the car and checking tire pressure.  Then came in and just called it.  I watched TV and mentally checked out, which was enjoyable. 

Left a bit later than I wanted to for pizza.  Got to see the cute straight guy for a bit.  He greeted me when I walked in the door and brought me my drink but that was it.  It was the end of his shift and he couldn’t get out of there fast enough.  I had an enjoyable pizza.  Some additional eye candy walked in the door which was nice to look at. 

Hit up the car wash before coming home.  Neighbors house had a showing in the afternoon.  I found a post on social media where multiple people say it’s over priced.  Glad I’m in touch with reality because that’s exactly how I feel.  He built a new super expensive house in another subdivision, it’s way larger and now he’s trying to recoup the cost by jacking up the price of his former home.  At least that’s my take on it.  I honestly don’t think it will sell fast given the asking price but hey I’ve been wrong before.  Time will tell. 

When I got home from pizza I just wanted to relax and take it easy, so that’s what I did.  Never ventured downstairs all day long and the closest I got to a computer was playing on my phone.  Mora tried to interfere with that as much as possible but it didn’t work. 

Shaved and got a nice cool shower before bed.  Wound up turning in way early.  Woke up around 1a and managed to get back to sleep.  Wound up having a horrible dream and Rudy woke me from it at 6:30a.  I was so happy it was a dream that I just got up and got going. 

It’s another SUPER HOT day here.  We have some rain that is supposed to move in but no chance for a cool off for a few days.  I’m over the super hot weather.  If I wanted that I would have lived in Arizona or Vegas.  I like warm sunshine but not sweltering heat for days on end.  I know enjoy it while it lasts because eventually it will be bitter cold and I will wish for a warm up.  Right, I’m rarely pleased with the weather. 

Here we got with another week.  I’m not on-call this week but it’s my last weekend free as next week it will be my turn on-call.  It’s just that much closer to my vacation which I am anxious for.  I’d like to freeze time where I am always on vacation so my income stream isn’t interrupted but I don’t have to work, that is my dream and I know I’m not alone. 

Hope it’s a better week this week, than last week and nothing but good vibes all the time.  Take care and thanks for stopping by!

Saturday

Hope you’re having a great day and enjoying the weekend. It’s quite hot & humid here, we’re back to it feeling like we’re living on The Devil’s Front Porch!

My insomnia kicked in like clockwork early this morning. It did have a minor impact on my plans for the day and me getting started. My motivation for getting up and going was to get to the post office. I went last night to clean out my box and as expected no green card receipt. I spoke with a supervisor today when he got a hold of the carrier who delivered the envelope from his old post office, so they knew him and he had an inside track. He found out that the green card receipt was in fact mailed back, it’s just taking a bit longer to get to me. I’m supposed to get it early next week, despite no tracking movement. I also learned that instead of delivering to the address I mailed it to, it was delivered to a neighbor’s address. I am not confident that it reached the intended recipient but hey I tried. If the green card receipt comes back and shows that he in fact signed for it great, if I see any other name there, I’m going back to get my money back. Got to love the government approach, hurry up and wait.

Went to my friend’s shop and chatted with him. I was outdoors a lot as we spoke, and it was horrible. I eventually grew tired of the heat & humidity and wound up leaving and coming back home but I spent a few hours in it. It was an enjoyable visit.

Once I was home, I watched a little bit more of My Life with The Walter Boys, season 3. Wound up taking a nap with both cats passed out in my lap. It was heavenly, we were all comfy and cozy. Woke up finished up the series and then watched a few YouTube shorts.

Got started on laundry and decided that I would go back to the Italian place that I love so much. I tried to order the new dish that I wanted and they said they were sold out. I got Spaghetti & Meatballs, wound up bringing a small portion of it home. I could have finished up in the restaurant, but I would have come home miserable and didn’t want to do that to myself. This is the first time that I left the place with no chocolate cake. That was difficult. I found out that the dish I really wanted should be back in September so I will give it another try then.

My neighbor was supposed to have an open house on his home that is for sale. That didn’t happen. I did see one couple stop by as I was leaving to head out to the Italian place for supper. They parked in front of it, not sure if they met the realtor or not. Didn’t look like anyone had been there all day. I hope that whoever buys it gets a home inspection before they sign on the dotted line (you’d be nuts to buy property and not get an inspection) they should be told about the clogged gutters as that is going to lead to future problems. Water intrusion is no joke and something you don’t want regardless of where you live.

Plans for tomorrow are to have breakfast out and travel for pizza where the straight hot waiter works. If he’s there it will be a bonus for me but if not, I’ll still get to enjoy pizza and a drive. Meanwhile I am staying hydrated and cool, enjoying the companionship of the cats.

Take care!

Weekend

Greetings!

Saturday – It was an overcast and rainy day.  I did wake up early.  Got a shower and headed out for breakfast.  Got my haircut and then grabbed the mail.  I came back home where I just decided to relax and before I knew it I was back in bed napping.  Not a bad way to spend the day. 

By the afternoon I started laundry and got in front of the computer.  I got this great I idea to remove the HP crapware from my system.  It was not an easy task because the stuff was buried and didn’t show up in Add/Remove Programs.  Suffice to say that I spent hours at this and wound up doing a little bit of damage to my machine. 

Took a break to go grab a bite to eat.  Went to Red Lobster.  Had horrible service.  The food was good and I filled up on biscuits so I had to get a box to carry out a couple pieces of fish and I took the biscuits. 

I was by my Thanksgiving friends house and wanted to call them and see if I could stop in.  I was feeling a little lonely.  However, my stomach felt like it was going to burst and the rain started up again so I just took that as a sign to come home.  I think it was the right move.  My stomach didn’t explode and I felt much better by the time I got home. 

Back at the PC and had to fight off Mora.  She was seriously craving attention, which is nothing new.  She pesters the hell out of me when I am in front of the computer.  It’s like I am giving too much attention to the computer.  I get it but this is my reality escape. 

I rebooted the machine and it took what seemed like forever to get started.  Things that used to auto start no longer do.  It’s a mess.  I used an Uninstaller Program and didn’t go deleting a bunch of files.

Got to bed later than I wanted to but hey it’s the weekend and I don’t really have a schedule.  I took some time after waiting 3 or may be 4 days to watch some porn and experience a sweet release. 

Sunday – Woke up early and decided to move up the alarm and rolled over.  Had all sorts of strange dreams that kept me engaged.  Rudy was by myside the whole time and I told him breakfast would be a little late. 

When I did wake up it was because of my body and not because the alarm went off.  I had a bunch of Cinnamon Toast Crunch and decided that I would save some money and eat breakfast at home.  It was good but not the same as going out for a hot and fresh meal.  I got dressed and headed out to the grocery store and gas station.  I spent a small fortune at the grocery store.  Then dropped another small fortune at the gas pump.  I was running on a 1/2 tank and had to top off.  It could have been worse if I would have had to fill up the entire tank. 

Came home, unloaded the groceries and wound up back in bed after a while.  Once my nap was done it was time to get moving with my regular chores.  Once that was done it’s back to the PC. 

I discovered a serious error on my part and wound up paying too little for my mortgage payment, like I didn’t even meet the minimum payment, which is totally unlike me.  At least I discovered it before it became a problem.  I set up a second payment and have more money sent but it will arrive on Tuesday.  It’s going to confuse the bank but at least they have their money, no need to hassle me.  While it was my mistake, I think that perhaps I was side tracked or just not fully dialed in as I typically don’t make errors like that.  Hey, were all human and we all make mistakes but things like this bother me, makes me wonder if I am truly loosing my mind. 

Went out for Mexican food because it’s been two weeks since I have had my favorite meal.  This time the meal came with entertainment from the local Police & Fire Department.  Shortly before my food arrived, the fire alarm went off in the restaurant.  No one was moving quickly so I gathered it was a false alarm.  However, my hometown does things right and sends the cops first because they arrive much quicker than a fire truck.  They let them know that it was false but the fire department still came out and once they got there the alarm was finally silenced.  By the time the fire department left I was done with my meal.  It was good and enjoyable but I scarfed it down, something about the fire alarm made me hurry.  Got my bill paid and back on the road to home.  The police were still there when I left. 

The repairs to the computer have finally completed.  I need to publish this, reboot again (like the 5th time today) and hope that all is well.  I think it will be.  There are still some programs I have to manually start but it’s a minor inconvenience.  I know that I just need to bite the bullet and upgrade to WIN11, that will likely fix everything but I like my WIN10 so I’ll make it work. 

Then I need to grab the laundry and put it away.  Spend some time with both cats and give them a serious brushing, which I promised.  Then it will be time to shave/shower and get ready for bed.  A little relaxing and then I will be in dream land hopefully.  Not looking forward to another week but the best part about Monday is that I will no longer be on-call and that’s freedom at least to me. 

Hope you had a nice weekend!

 

 

Thursday already

Greetings!

The week is moving fast and I am happy about that.  I want to be rid of being on-call.  Although, thus far this hasn’t been a horrible week.  I know there is still time for that to change but I am hopeful that it will not. 

Looks like the Mistake Maker and I will be out around the same time.  i will be on vacation and he will be on Paternity Leave.  That will leave the new guy all by himself for a week.  It will be good for him and kind of give him some Baptism by fire.  He will have the boss around to back him up so he won’t totally be alone.  It’s about a month away and I am looking forward to getting away. 

Nothing much going on.  Letter still has no tracking updates, which I am highly disappointed about.  Paid all that money I hope they don’t wind up losing it.  Since I don’t fully trust the USPS site I am prepared just in case the phone rings or I get an email, I left my contact information in the letter in case the kid wants to reach out.  Part of me thinks he will be cause family seems to be important to him.  Part of me thinks he won’t because well it’s kind of a messed up situation.  I can speculate until I am blue in the face but that won’t tell me how this turns out.  I am a little anxious.

Cats are doing well, Rudy hung around me last night while I watched TV.  He was in the way for a bit but I tolerated him because he looked too cute to wake up.  It funny to see him all confused when he is woken up, it takes a minute for things to register just like with a human.  He tried to jump start me this morning but it didn’t work.  He wound up cuddling up next to me until I was ready to get out of bed. 

Insomnia hit me again last night but it was super early 12:30a.  I laid in bed and watched TV.  The cats came in to keep me company.  It’s nice but I think I might enjoy it more if I had time alone.  They give that to me on rare occasions but it’s never long enough. 

Trash day is tomorrow and my neighbors yard looks like Fred Sandford stopped by.  Someone came by to pick up the appliances he set out but the furniture is still sitting.  I honestly don’t think it’s going anywhere anytime soon.  However, it’s in the front yard so everyone has to see it, not just me. 

Weekend plans right now are shaping up to look like an early morning shower on Saturday.  Going out for breakfast and a haircut.  Then who knows what.  I’ll probably want to nap but you never know I might turn productive and start doing something. 

Hope it’s a great day for all of us. 

Not tracking

Morning

Well I tracked the letter/package and the status updates have stopped.  I see that it made it to the regional facility and today it should be out for delivery but that doesn’t show.  Perhaps the clerk that told me it would be delayed wasn’t kidding around.  I don’t get how the post office charges more for everything now but service isn’t what it used to be.  I am keeping an eye on this and will be until it’s complete, which who knows how long that will be. 

In other news the boss kept trying to schedule a meeting with me as our monthly touch point and I kept declining.  He brought it up in our meeting yesterday and I told me we spoke on Monday, nothing has changed since then.  He said oh I thought you would have something you wanted to talk about.  Nope, not unless you know something I don’t.  That kind of ended it.  I think he is stressed out and has far too much going it’s either that or he’s going senile. 

Speaking of work, one meeting on the books for today.  I don’t see any other meetings on my calendar for the rest of the week and hope that I can keep it that way.  There is plenty of other stuff populated on my calendar and in case your new here, I don’t like meetings.  They happen way too often and aren’t productive and turn into much more of a time suck. 

Insomnia greeted me again last night, watched TV for an hour and then went back to bed.  Rudy jumped on top of me at 5a as if to say wake up sleepy head.  That didn’t get the response he was hoping for.  I just ignored him.  He curled up and waited on me.  Normally he’s stealthy with his moves but not this morning when I could have used the extra sleep. 

The cooler weather has arrived and I can feel the difference inside.  The AC I think will get a break today and it sure needs it.  Poor thing has been running like crazy.  I am sure this is only a lull as were not out of summer yet. 

Well about time to migrate upstairs to be with the cats and relax until something breaks or meeting time rolls around, which ever comes first.  Hope that its a great day for all of us!

 

Unexpected Treat

Hi, hope that your weekend is going well.

Early yesterday evening I heard a noise while I was doom scrolling. I got up to investigate and man I got a nice free show. Turns out it was my neighbor’s son who was doing some trimming. He was shirtless and was wearing black shorts and shoes. He was sweating and showing off his muscles as well as his booty. I watched as he worked away. I was turned on and wished that he was closer so I could smell his musky scent and of course have my way with him. I’m a poor judge of age but if I had to venture a guess, I’d say he was 17 or 18. I know that this neighbor has 3 boys, they look like small, medium and large or young, older and oldest. I think one of them is headed to college or is in college and the other one is close to graduating high school. They are only out in the yard occasionally and usually none of them are shirtless. This was an unexpected treat, and I was glad that I checked out that noise. Just when I had been wishing I saw more cute guys, this happened. That was by far the best thing that happened all day long! At least he didn’t notice that I was watching him, that would have been awkward. However, I was literally just looking out the window. For the record I wouldn’t do anything with any guy who wasn’t of legal age, that’s just a recipe for disaster. However, I like Twinks and can’t help what I like.

I opted last night to forgo the stronger muscle relaxer. I woke up to rain and Rudy kneading his paws (making biscuits) on my chest way too early. It took me a minute to realize that it was Saturday, when I did, I didn’t want to get out of bed. However, I figured might as well get the day started. We all had breakfast. Then I got my pills and we all returned to my room to watch TV. I knew I would get sleepy and return to bed and that’s exactly what happened. It was 8am when I went to bed and 10am when I woke up. Watched more TV and continuing to relax as I powered my phone on to see what I missed in the world and just as I thought, I missed nothing. No one wanted me. That’s okay I got my two furry cats who were more than thrilled that they were close to me. It was a little afternoon when Rudy woke up from his nap and asked for lunch. I got up to feed him. I had a very enjoyable treat that was highly unhealthy, a soda and 3 chocolate squares. I knew that would set me up for another nap. I went back to watching TV. It was about an hour later when I got up, put my phone on Do Not Disturb and crawled back into bed. I wasn’t there but 5 seconds when the phone chirped that I had a text message. It was from my Thanksgiving friend thanking me for the birthday card and saying we will have to get together. Yeah, okay I responded with a sounds good and moved on. With that I was up, took the phone off Do Not Disturb and returned to my chair to continue watching TV.

My bladder was bothering me, and I did my best to ignore it but eventually around 1:30p I told Mora to get up, and I headed for the bathroom. After I emptied my bladder, I got a shower and then dressed. Decided I would head back to the Italian place that I love so much. I wanted to get something new but as my luck goes, they were out of the dish I wanted to order. So, I stuck with Lasagna. No salad this time and I got another giant slice of Chocolate Cake to go. Dropped $50 and headed to the post office, then cat food store and finally back home.

Got my finances up to date and paid a bill. Registered for a benefits webinar to learn about my 2027 Health Benefits. So glad that my health care isn’t tied to my job and that my late spouse left me with great health care that seems to just get better. I know when I eventually turn 65 that’s when I will get the shaft, it seems all older folks get the shaft once they are 65 but that’s 10 years away. I know that will go by in the blink of an eye but still 10 years. Anyway, I’m working on laundry and will be porn surfing after this. Drinking my 40 ounces of water slowly but it’s sure good. I enjoy it almost as much as soda, it just must be cold. I’m sure my kidneys are thankful for the water.

Not a bad Saturday but I had a lot more that I would have liked to accomplish, the rain early morning kind of ruined my plans but it’s okay, I got time with the cats and a nap.

Yesterday in doing some on-line reading, I learned that my hobby of listening to the police scanner is in jeopardy of going away as more agencies are deciding to encrypt their radio traffic. It’s better for officer safety. A couple of police departments that I don’t listen to have already encrypted. I found that my police department has one encrypted channel for investigations that I didn’t know about. I understand why they want to encrypt and how it benefits them. However, I’ve been in this hobby since I was a kid. I really like it. It’s entertainment and company when I am working during the day, so I don’t feel so alone, plus it gives me an insight into what is going on. I’ve invested a small sum of money in two scanners that do Digital Trunking. I was thinking of buying a third but have held off for a couple years. These things aren’t cheap and are only going up in price. I can say I got my monies worth out of my equipment, but I’d hate them to be turned into paper weights because of encryption. I use them every single day and even more so on holidays like Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. I know I’m not alone but honestly there isn’t much that I can do but sit back and watch to see what materializes, hoping for the best and praying the worst doesn’t happen.

Speaking of my scanner, I also learned that my local police department recently signed a contract with Flock Safety for ALPR’s (Automatic License Plate Readers) and some other hardware. The way it’s used here doesn’t bother me a whole lot, still I don’t like the idea of being tracked. I have nothing to hide but I do like my privacy like everyone else. If you visit any Lowes Hardware in the surrounding area you’ve been scanned by a flock camera. They all have them. From what I know Lowes apparently does a great job working with Law Enforcement to prosecute shoplifters. I live in what I would call a good neighborhood. However, we have a Wal-Mart like most American cities and where there is a Wal-Mart it seems to attract shoplifters, drug dealers and other issues. Like people on a hot summer day bringing their dogs with them and locking them in the car. Wal-Mart is the place where the police are at the most out of everywhere around. Lowe’s is close by and I noticed months ago they put up even more flock cameras, appearing to help Wal-Mart and other businesses close by. There is no way in or out of the shopping area to Lowe’s that you’re not going to show up on a Flock Camera. All the advanced monitoring technology is great if it’s used correctly. But I can see where it would be tempting to misuse it to track someone and I can see a hacker wanting to compromise the system and break in just for the thrill of it. Those examples are what concern me and the other law-abiding folks in the area. I don’t think this is going away and I think that if anything it will get more advanced and become part of everyday society. Where eventually America will be like China where your tracked by a facial recognition camera no matter where you go, so if the police aka Government want you, they will know where and how to find you at a moments notice.

That’s all I have for now, talk with you all again soon. Take care, stay cool and be well.

Hot Sunday

Hello!

It’s not the good kind of hot, unless you like oppressively hot & humid weather.  It was 73 this morning when I was up at 6a.  I got moving to get to breakfast, the grocery store and topped off the gas tank before coming home.  I dropped $53 for one bag of groceries, a jug of water for the cats and a jug of milk for me.  I didn’t get a whole lot for my money. 

Picked up a birthday card for one of my Thanksgiving friends.  The price of cards is way up but then again I don’t buy them often.  I thought that was bad until I went to put a stamp on the card to mail it, wow.  Everything is just going way up in price.  Sure wish paychecks went up like that. 

Got my morning nap in.  Been watching waxing gone wrong videos on YouTube.  Now there is some interesting stuff and everyone's reaction is pretty much the same “ouch that hurts”.  I’d like to wax my nose and ears but shaving is much easier and far less painful.  Although I do have one particular ear hair that I love to grab with a pair of tweezers.  It’s quite a challenge to find it but when I do and rip it out, it feels so good. 

In case it’s not apparent, yes I am quite bored.  The cats gave me an unwanted surprise.  One of them threw up by the sliding glass door and the blinds hid it.  That did nothing but serve as food for ants.  I had ants everywhere and didn’t understand why until I peeked behind the blinds.  Jeez I wasn’t happy.  Trying to get rid of ants isn’t exactly a pleasant job but it’s totally doable.  Tackled that and got the house cleaning done. 

I came down to log expenses, get this card ready to mail and briefly surf the web.  I have laundry to pick up and then I am done with the basement until tomorrow. 

Not looking forward to another week of work but thankful that I have a job.  The boss called a meeting to talk about a tool that we just got, but there are changes needed to be made and we need to coordinate with another team for that.  He knows this but yet he wants to chew the fat about the tool.  I think he’s the tool for calling the meeting to waste our time.  Yeah, I’m not a meeting fan.  I like to keep to myself, stay low and stay off the radar.  This is going to be a busy week, particularly Friday when our interns leave.   

Count down until my next vacation and birthday stands at 6 weeks, that includes this week.  So at least there is something to look forward to. 

As for today I plan to get to the Mexican place for supper and stop at a mailbox to get the card I bought mailed.  Then it’s back home.  Rudy just came to join me as I am about ready to wrap up.  He wants to nap in my arms/lap.  He’s so cute and this doesn’t happen often enough.  I kind of feel compelled to stay here just a while longer as he gets comfy.  However, I think I am headed up.  I don’t feel the best and attribute that to the heat/humidity.  Going to hydrate and relax as the day passes me by.  Hope you all have a great Sunday.  Take care!

Saturday

Greetings one and all!

We are in the middle of a heat wave, and my poor AC is running like crazy. It’s doing a great job, and my hope is that it continues. Changed the filter a little bit ago because it was time.

I woke up super early and took my shower. Made it for breakfast. A cute young guy that works there walked in. He looked mighty fine! I asked my waitress if he played for my team. She said she wasn’t sure but that he was the owner’s son. I wanted to ask him on a date, but I passed on the opportunity.

Stopped by and grabbed the mail on the way home. Nothing but bills and junk mail. Then I got out of my clothes and relaxed in my room watching TV. Turned my phone off, that felt so good! Eventually I wound up back in bed and the cats joined me. I fell back asleep for about an hour, and it was needed.

I have such great ideas of things that need to be done around here but when it comes time to do them, I lack energy and motivation. Not sure why that is but the work isn’t going anywhere, it will wait for me.

Something that puzzles me is that within the last couple months I cleaned out the gutter over the deck and put the netting back in place. It’s back to overflowing again. I don’t know how there can be anything in there, but obviously there is. It’s too hot for gutter work today. I am not a fan of water or gutters. I think the gutters for this house are undersized and need to be upgraded to accommodate the rain we get. However, every house in the subdivision is cookie cutter aka tract housing, meaning that there are only so many floor plans. No one has special gutters that I am aware of or even new gutters. I’d just love to get something that is 100% maintenance free and it just works, no fuss, no muss.

Had an afternoon snack and passed out lunch for the cats. I wound up back in my room watching TV again. Mostly old cartoons because there doesn’t seem to be anything on YouTube that is piquing my interest.

I came down to take care of laundry, catch up on porn surfing and getting bills paid. Had to entertain Mora giving her attention and rubbing her belly. She leaves and comes back wanting more. She loves attention and soaks it up like a sponge. I love her but she can make it quite difficult for me to get things done. That’s why I don’t allow either of them down here with me when I am working. Although Rudy will just climb up in my lap and fall asleep, he doesn’t really need much attention and will let me type but he likes to lay against one of my arms or curl up in it. Yeah, they are both really something and I love them so much!

Decided on Pizza for supper. I went back to the place where there used to be lots of twinks working. I figured that going on Saturday would change things up and the guys would be back. Turns out I was wrong. Only saw one hot guy. Pizza could have cooked a little bit more it wasn’t quite done enough for me. I had a couple slices and then boxed the rest and came home.

Very bored and wanting company and entertainment. However, I’m going to have to suck it up and power through it. I’ve done it before, but it has started to be a little more difficult. Being lonely just isn’t any fun. It’s great to live alone and be your own boss so to speak of but outside of that, there are no other perks. I don’t know if I want to live with someone but knowing that I could make a phone call and have company or ask for help would be nice.

Yesterday after work I got so bored I took time to read the owner’s manual for my new alarm. I learned a couple things. One of which is that there is a microphone in the damn thing and when an alarm goes off you can talk to the monitoring station. I’m not hip about that because that can easily be hacked and bypassed so that you can always listen. There is a camera on the panel, but you must be in front of it. However, I’ve got an Alexa and it’s always spying on me too. It’s in my bedroom and I’m sure some Amazon employee has heard all the orgasms I have. Speaking of which earlier this week I had a super good one (not that there is such a thing as a bad orgasm) and I was so loud I scared the cats, they just looked at me as if they wanted to ask if I was okay. I used to scare poor Momma she would come running to check on me if she wasn’t in the room. Yeah, I’m loud in bed. It’s a learned habit from watching porn and honestly it just feels good to scream or moan loudly. I can be quiet if I must but that is not easy at all. I’m still waiting for someone to call the cops to check on me. There is no doubt that if you’re on the street by my house, you can hear me 100%, I’ve got some good lungs. Fortunately, most of the time there is no one out there at night walking when I am busy having fun. That’s probably for the best because it sure would be awkward to explain to the cops that I was beating my meat. Although, I’m sure there are some situations they are involved in that bring laughter to their faces. I mean they are human too, even though some of them would have you think otherwise.

Well, time to get this published and see what else I can accomplish this evening. Tomorrow for supper I am thinking of staying local and going back to a Mexican place I like. It won’t give me the travel that I want but it will get me some good food! Who knows, things might change but pretty much once I make up my mind it’s difficult to change it.

I hope you’re having a great weekend and staying cool.