My Salesman

Hope you are all doing well. Happy Friday eve or better known as Thursday. One more day to go!

Yesterday I was in a meeting and my boss said that his boss was calling so he paused for a moment, by the time he went to answer the phone he had hung up. A few minutes later his boss was calling me. I dropped off the meeting and helped his boss out with what he wanted. He reached back out later in the evening reporting a problem and I worked through that with him via email. I figured all was well because I heard nothing further. We are well into the afternoon. My boss just called and said that his boss was reporting problems and asking for his help. We reviewed what I did, and everything looked good. My boss is going to handle it and get it worked out. I just hate dealing with his boss. That man apparently loves me because he hits me up all the time. It makes my skin crawl to see his name on caller id or in an email. I’m sure if I get a promotion I will be working more with the dummy and that is unsettling to me. I don’t show any fear or hesitation externally but internally I am nervous as hell working with him because he will pick things apart and if there is one thing out of line, you will hear about it. He also loves to set you up; he will ask questions that he already knows the answer to. It’s not like he is a homicide detective trying to solve a murder and hell were all supposed to be on the same team working for the same organization! I don’t know why he does that it’s counterproductive. I’ve always disliked the man and even my late former boss disliked him.

In one of our meetings yesterday I learned that the mistake maker will be taking the last of his time in November through mid-January. That’s going to make it difficult for those of us that are left working but I’ve gotten through him being gone before and since this is the last kid he will ever make, I think I can muster up enough gumption to get through another period without him. The crazy thing he told me was that HR doesn’t ask for any proof that you had a child, other than if they need benefits you have to provide them with an SSN (Social Security Number), otherwise you could say you had a kid and take the time off and no one would be the wiser. Kind of makes me want to tell them that I am adopting a child just to get 12 weeks paid leave. I’m not going to do that but wow it’s so tempting. I could certainly benefit from paid time away.

It’s been a busy Thursday. I had my normal 1^st of the month junk to deal with but normal work came in as well and one person that loves to cry wolf sent an email to a bunch of people reporting a problem. I was able to call them out and tell them they were lying because there are no logs to support what they were reporting. It was fun to reply to everyone and send that email, it made them look stupid. I don’t know why people think they need to send an email including multiple managers just to get action. If you reach out to one person, they will take it and run with it. Ah corporate culture is toxic for sure.

Got the trash set out before the rain moves in. Today it’s extremely hot here in the 90’s, which is highly unusual for this time of year, but it’s happened before. There is a cool down coming with rain today and tomorrow. The weekend is supposed to be in the 70’s and sunny – hopefully that is the case, and I can get motivated to get my outside work done.

This morning woke up to an alert from one of my banks that they thought a fraudulent check was presented for payment. Turns out it was the check for the guy that did the column work. It wasn’t fraud at all. I don’t normally write checks that large, so I am very pleased they reached out. Also, glad that he finally cashed the check. I don’t like the fact that he did a mobile deposit, I can only hope that he shreds the original, but he doesn’t impress me as that type of a guy.

I watched a Kevin Williams scene last night; jeez he was so cute and in great shape as a younger man. He was for sure most gay men’s dream. He had such a great smile to add to his appearance.

Had Tuna Noodle Casserole for supper last night, it was pretty good for being a frozen dish. Stouffers makes some great things and that just happens to be one of them, in my opinion. Tonight I think it’s Baked Potato Soup. I’ve got Chili as well but saving that for Friday!

Rudy appears to be back to normal. He drank a lot of water yesterday and was a little clingy. By bedtime I could tell he was his normal self or so it appeared. He is acting normal today. I never got to brush him yesterday, but I am certainly going to make that happen today. He’s been grooming all day long and that’s how he gets his hairballs. I’ve always been concerned about the amount of time he spends grooming himself, but I guess he wants to look his best! Some cats are particular and he is for sure one of those. Mora does a decent amount of grooming but nothing close to what her brother does. Plus, they work on each other at different times. That’s just a cat thing that they all do. Who wouldn’t want affection? No one that I know of. Plus, they both try to groom me by licking my arm or when Rudy gets in salesman mode, he will wash my forehead and scalp. That’s how I know when he really wants something!

Weekend Update

Saturday …. As per usual my insomnia kicked in early in the morning. I sat up and looked for something to watch. Sadly, I found something on Peacock an old tv show called Too Close for Comfort. Looks like I’m keeping Peacock, at least for now. Eventually I was able to fall back asleep and Rudy let me sleep in until 7a. That was awfully nice of him. I got up and got the cats and myself breakfast. Then off to the shower. I was partially dressed and sat down to watch TV; I had a little bit of time to kill before my haircut appointment. That time passed by quickly and I finished getting dressed. I was early for my haircut as usual and had to wait on my barber to finish up with their current client. I had some plans for today but feeling tired all I wanted to do was go home, get undressed and crawl back into bed. So that is exactly what I did. The cats didn’t seem to mind.

I rotted in bed and my room for the bulk of the day from sleeping and watching TV. I passed out lunch for the cats, only because Rudy was insistent about it. I grabbed a soda and some chocolate and enjoyed more of the TV show. Eventually I opted to turn the TV off and start on laundry. I had some finance work to catch up on and then veered off into the world of porn. Before I knew it I needed to leave for supper.

Backup stairs threw on my clothes and headed out. I went for BBQ only because I was supposed to have a reward since it’s my birthday month. Turns out that reward wasn’t on my account. Last year the place moved my birthday month to October. I said something to the manager, and he was supposed to have corrected it but apparently that did not happen. I wasn’t pleased about that, and my dippy waitress didn’t offer to get the manager or fix it. I wanted to get going because a charter bus had just pulled up and the people were piling in. It took me forever to work my way past all the people coming in. I held the door and when I got a chance moved to the second door and eventually, I was free and in the parking lot. My next stop was to get the mail. Then came home.

For the longest time I would pass by those speed trailers that our town has and never get alerted by my radar detector. Those days are over, they use photo radar and my radar detector supports it. The town my doctor is in has photo radar setup at each intersection so if you blow a light, they snap your license plate and mail you a ticket. The alert is super loud and obnoxious, but I know the sound. Well, I passed by one of those speed trailers and had an alert way in advance, so when I passed by it thanked me for driving safely. I saw on a YouTube video some cities have mounted Flock cameras in those trailers so they can capture your license plate.

Since I arrived back home, I have been working more on the laundry. Also, the computer. Got it all tuned up and it is working better. All week long I would open a spreadsheet at work and when I would have to type in numbers it would cause Excel to crash. Not exactly sure what the number pad was sending but I didn’t have any issues on my laptop, so I knew my desktop had to be rebooted. Hopefully, when I log in on Monday things are back to normal.

Rudy has been super clingy and sleeping in my lap off and on while I have been browsing sites and playing. As I typed this up, he woke up and looked at me, as if to say come on it’s time for bed. The look he gave me was dirty and I know he was trying to make me feel guilty. Yeah, it sort of worked because I am saving this and heading up.

Not exactly a productive day as I would have hoped but it was enjoyable. Hopefully tomorrow will also be enjoyable once I get my morning errands out of the way.

Sunday … Had some insomnia but managed to get back to sleep without having to watch TV. Both cats helped me with that. So thoughtful of them, just makes the bed crowded. Woke up on time. Fed the cats. I got ready & dressed, headed out for breakfast and then hit up the grocery store. This was Target weekend, but I opted to skip it and just picked up a container of cat treats at the grocery store. Debated on topping off my tank the gas gage said that I can travel 320 miles, and it’s just used a little fuel from the last fill up. I decided on coming home. Got the groceries put away, then unloaded the dish washer and put the cats fountain in. I went and got undressed and watched TV before my food coma kicked in. Eventually I passed out for a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I heard a lawn mower running and Rudy wanted his lunch, so that got me out of bed. I fed Rudy and peeked out the back door. Saw the neighbors’ kid on the lawn mower. He was riding around a little like I used to when I drove one as a kid. I was totally reckless, but this kid was much more controlled. It took me back in time watching him and wishing that it was me instead. Got my medicine put out for the week. Then put the cats’ fountain back together. The motor needed to be cleaned as well and that’s where the bulk of the crud was. I got it flushed out and super clean. Both cats watched with anticipation as I put the fountain back in service. They had a dish of water while it was in for maintenance, and they both drank a little out of it. Once the fountain was back up and running, Mora dove in and drank like I’ve not seen her drink before. Fresh clean purified water from a jug. I drink from the tap. The cats get superior treatment!

I cleaned the house and then decided to run some cleaner through the dishwasher. I grabbed my next load of laundry and headed down. I was alone for a while. Got my inbox cleaned out finally. Nothing like a zero inbox, I like it tidy. Just started surfing for porn and Rudy came back down. He is in my arms sleeping again as I work to type this. I kind of had other plans but there is nothing like cuddle time with him. He doesn’t do this that often, but when he does it’s so cute and I savor it. He beats his tail against me or the desk until he falls asleep then he is perfectly still. Last night he fell asleep twice. Right now, he’s working on it but just not quite there yet.

Thinking about supper I am headed back to my hometown not sure if I am getting Mexican or Pizza, both are in roughly the same location. The pizza place is where they used to have hot younger guys for waiters but that has pretty much dried up and you might find a guy there but it’s mostly girls. The pizza is good and honestly, I haven’t had it in a while, so I am seriously considering it. However, in my mind I really want to stay local either hit up a local Mexican place or go to the pizza place that has not so good pizza and get my favorite pasta dish that comes with a small salad and garlic bread. I always leave there full and happy.

Not like I have anything going on for the day, need to run some cleaner through the washing machine as my laundry dries. There is some outside work that I need to do but just not in the mood. That’s about it. Well looks like Rudy can’t get comfy so he just left me. I am thinking of heading up for a bit anyway. The new neighbors sure have a crowd of cars, not sure if that is going to be the norm but based on the cars it looks like two families living there. The driveway and the street are full.

Hope that it’s a good day for you! Back to my normal routine tomorrow. Take care!

BARE MINIMUM FRIDAY

We made it to Friday, yay!

The morning started off early for me, woke up around 6a thanks to my body. Rudy came in and was resting on top of me. He got settled and spun around so he was facing the door, as if there was any threat that is going to enter. If there was, I’m sure he would run and hide. Anyway, I let him sit for a few minutes before I decided to let him know I was awake. That’s when he commenced with his happy dance, aka biscuit making. He nuzzled my face and gave me a love bite on my chin. We got up and started the day.

I still had nothing big going so I logged in upstairs and got comfy on the couch. Noodled around a little bit at work and then sat and waited to see what the day would bring. After a couple hours nothing had come in. I was growing tired and decided to head off to my bedroom to lay down. Both cats were sleeping.

No sooner than I got comfy in my bed with my trusty phone by my side, both came in. Mora snuggled up next to me and Rudy got in between my legs and laid down. We watched a little TV and as I was enjoying and appreciating the experience, that’s when things started up at work. Go figure. I sit and wait in anticipation for hours with nothing but if I step away for a moment that’s when all hell breaks loose.

I wound up getting into it with a manager from another team. He was being stupid and telling me to do something that I told him I had already done. I put him in his place because I’m tired of BS and just don’t want to deal with outright stupidity. I’m sure that wasn’t a career endearing move, but no one called me on it. I’m worrying about it more than I should be.

I saw something on social media two Fridays in a row that said essentially that Friday is the day of the week to do the least just to get by. I decided to adopt that methodology and thus far it seems to be slightly working for me. It would be nice to have our work week changed to 4 days instead of 5 and while that bill is kicked around, I honestly don’t think there is a chance that it will pass. Too many companies and lobbyists will probably make sure of that. Still, I can hope and dream, there is no charge for that.

Then the afternoon rolls around and I wound up joining a meeting a half hour before it even began. I realized my mistake quickly and left. Joined back up when it was time. Had to listen to my boss and see his fat face. He yammered along with the vendor we were meeting with. The meeting was over and then he had us join him in a meeting afterwards to recap what happened in the meeting, we had to listen to him compose an email (which is normal). He likes to have an audience when he is sending emails but it’s annoying to me and a waste of our time. Maybe no one else minds but I sure do. Not like I can do anything about it though.

Fetched the trash barrel early this morning, it felt nice out at 58 degrees. Compared to the hot and humid weather we had last week. My AC has for sure run a lot less this week.

Finished off the Lasagna Soup last night. Surprisingly the cats left me alone, which was nice. I didn’t go to bed hungry, but I really wanted something sweet before I called it a night.

My next food dilemma is do I want Chili for Supper or Chicken Pot Pie. They both sound appealing to me. I am going to look to see what the expiration date is on the Chili and that will make my decision for me. I know I’m going to enjoy whichever one I decide on.

Not sure if it’s my new neighbor or a helper of theirs but someone rode up on a motorcycle yesterday. It was parked on the street all day long. Once it got dark and everyone was settled in there was a loud crack as it started up. Scared me and the cats at the same time. I hope that is not a regular thing that I have to listen to. It’s a quiet neighborhood for the most part. Once and a while we get someone advertising, they have a stereo or a loud car but otherwise it’s quiet. I enjoy that and know that is one of the big draws to our neighborhood. It’s busy at times but still even with normal pedestrian and automobile traffic folks tend to be silent and that’s not a bad thing in my book.

Thinking a little bit of the hot college guy and really wanting some companionship. I don’t feel nearly as low as I did last weekend. I have a sense that feeling might be coming back especially with the weekend approaching and me having nothing but time on my hands. Hopefully it doesn’t return because it is no fun. I am horned up, at least that is something that I can take care of on my own. It is a great way to end the day and drift off to sleep. Hopefully, I have enough strength to make it happen.

Now bring on the weekend or at least Saturday. I enjoy that day the most, especially knowing that I have the next day off. I hope you have a great weekend!

In Between

Hey, we made it to the in between day of the week. Two more days and the weekend will be here. That’s something that I look forward to. Thus far on my Saturday agenda am getting a haircut, and I’ve already got an appointment for that.

My new neighbors are moving in. They came by last night right at dusk and made a couple quick trips. They were noisy and that got the cats curiosity up. I told them that were getting new neighbors and there is nothing to worry about. They came back this morning and have been making trip after trip. I remember what moving in here was like even though it was many years ago. Moving is never fun. Nothing like moving to help you appreciate how much stuff you have and stuff that you kept that you no longer need. The new neighbors appear to be husband and wife. I figure that eventually we will meet; I’m in no huge hurry.

It’s mid afternoon when I am composing this, watching and listening to an auto auction. They have one auctioneer that I really enjoy listening to. Not exactly sure why I am attracted to this but it’s interesting.

Went browsing for jobs. I found a couple that would be a step backward for me, but I am more than qualified for, they are all in person. Saw a couple jobs that would be a step up and put me in Management but honestly, I really don’t want that. I know that is where the real money is and years ago, I was anxious about management. Now that I am older, I really don’t like managing headaches and dealing with corporate BS. Thus far I’m staying where I am at. I’m positive that if I took a step up and went to a new place and was in management that my stay would be short lived. It’s a classic case of the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t.

Speaking of work, I realized this morning when I woke up that I didn’t have a whole lot going on today so I could just work from upstairs. I got logged in and then signed in to a couple systems and headed for my bedroom. I had a nice time relaxing for a couple hours before things heated up. That’s a benefit I don’t think I’d find anywhere else. I was available if there were any issues or work to be done but since there wasn’t I just took a nice long break. After a couple of hours, the day was in full swing, and emails were flying so I had to get up and work. I kind of hope for more days that start like today did. It is refreshing, not as refreshing as time away though.

I have successfully watched all of Roseanne. I looked around on Peacock and didn’t see anything thus far that seemed interesting enough to dive in. I will give it a second look before I cancel my subscription, I have a little bit of time. Speaking of subscriptions, I got a notification today from Pandora that my annual subscription is going up by $12. Unless my memory is off, they haven’t raised rates in a long time. I use Pandora for instrumental music, it’s great for me to concentrate and buckle down and dive into huge piles of work or projects. I can’t listen to music that has words/lyrics while I am working, it gets me hyper and I am unable to concentrate. However, it’s what I prefer to listen to when I am driving and I’m fine then.

Cats are both doing okay. Rudy has his salesman charm turned on extra today. He got lunch a few minutes early and was so happy about that. He is trying to get me to feed him now and it’s far too early for supper. If I gave in, then I’d have to pass out an extra can at supper time and then one or both would wind up getting sick. I’ve calmed him down, not sure how long that will last for, but I am hoping for the best.

Speaking of food, I had Cheesy Bacon Potato side dish for supper last night. It was good and Mora was after me for some of it but I ignored her long enough so that she went away. She waited for me afterwards and got in her cuddle/snuggle time in my lap.

It’s much cooler here today. We were in the 50’s when I woke up and it’s in the upper 60’s now. The AC has been resting for the bulk of the day.  It just kicked on and that surprised me.

As I was preparing for the morning, last night I had to open the dishwasher as I was out of bowls. That’s when I found that the soap pod didn’t fully dissolve so I had to do an emergency load of dishes. That meant no shower for me. I wasn’t pleased but having clean dishes to eat out of is quite important. The shower will happen tonight and am looking forward to it.

Take care.

Sober Reality

I am still thinking about the hot college guy that was here on Saturday for the column work. I unfortunately am head over heels for him. I’m glad that I didn’t send a friend request to the social media profile that I thought I found for him. It’s got some nice/sexy photos of a guy but upon second reflection, I am more “sober” today (not that I’ve ever been drunk). What I mean by that is a little less ruled by infatuation and my dick. Anyway, there’s no way that guy is him. It is some other hot guy that shares the same name. I had it all worked out in my mind that I’d send a friend request and then if he accepted I could make a move and see where things went. I am glad that I woke up and realized it wasn’t him before I did something stupid.

I feel something in my heart about this guy. I am awestruck by his beauty and enjoyed the conversation that we had. They call it hindsight because you reflect on something. It’s always 20/20. I’m telling myself that I should have made a move. I know he said something about wanting to be a doctor, then a wife and family. That leads me to believe he is likely straight.

The only social media profile that I know is his, is the one his college mentioned because he is a popular athlete. It’s set to private and there is only one post. Looks like he has plenty of friends based on the counters. I have a public profile on that platform but there is no content. I am thinking of setting my public profile private, adding some content and sending him a friend request to see if he accepts it. Time is on my side here but the longer I go the less likely he will be to remember me. My heart is a mess because I kind of feel like I let something pass by that I shouldn’t have. Yeah, I tend to fall for a guy quickly based on looks. This guy’s exterior looked tough and had I not talked with him I wouldn’t know otherwise.

While I want to get to know more about him and see if there is something there. Having others around could have prevented him from asking me. It for sure prevented me from asking him. He does appear straight to me and that is likely the case. Since I tend to fall for the straight guys. He knows where I live and could easily hop in his car and drive over and knock on the door. While I am old enough to be his father and that might be intimidating to him, he’s got more muscle than I do.

I should probably just let this go, that way there is no risk of real rejection or anything beyond that happening. I’m sure if I press this that I will probably wind up getting hurt emotionally. It is just that my heart is telling me to press, if you don’t try then you will never know. I’m smart enough that if I ask and get a no that I don’t press the issue. I move on, always have and always will. Emotions can be tricky to deal with, especially when it involves the heart. Still letting this go is something that I will likely do. I mean if there was no romantic interest there, we could just be friends, but I don’t think someone as young as him wants some old man for a friend.

On a different note, the mistake maker apparently has some illness making its way around his house, so he is out today. Says that he will be back tomorrow. Of course it happens during the week he is on call. I’ve been pulling the weight thus far. It’s not been horrible, but we did have a busy flurry this morning. The boss sounds like he is going to take tomorrow off, which sounds great to me, wouldn’t upset me if he was out for longer. He told me that he wants to surprise his son and do something with him spontaneously since the kids on fall break. Fall break, school just started. I never had one of those when I was in school. The most I had to look forward to was a holiday for a couple days at Thanksgiving and then again Christmas/New Years. Outside of that and the occasional Federally observed holiday, school was open way more than I think it is today for most kids. Then again, the world is a very different place today than the world I grew up in.

One or both cats apparently got sick overnight. I unknowingly stepped into something when I went to turn the light on in my room after having breakfast. Rudy didn’t like the first can I put out so I had to open a second can before he would eat. I think he’s the one who got sick. He ate lunch no problem. Both are resting now that lunch is done. Mora knows that I’m hurting so she comes over to cuddle with me, she can read me like a book, and I don’t have to say a word. At least I can lean on her a little bit. I am going to try to brush them to see if that doesn’t help quell this getting sick. I hate cleaning up messes but it’s worse when you step in it never knowing it was there in the first place. Do that in the dark in the middle of the night and wow it’s a hell of an instant wake up call.

Here’s hoping that I decide on the guy and stick with it, regardless if it’s right or wrong. That the week isn’t too bad and meetings are kept to a minimum. Anxious for the weekend as usual. I’m still looking at jobs but there really isn’t anything that appealing that I have found thus far. Tune in again to find out what happens. Thanks for stopping by!

Lonely

I’ve been thinking about the college guy yesterday and how I wished that I would have made a move. That’s even though I believe he’s straight. Hell, I might have at least been able to make a friend if nothing else. Every time I look out at the column that he painted I think of him. It’s like a reminder and it’s painful. He did a great job and I’m proud that the project is behind me, it’s going to be a while before I can look at the column and not think of him. I had a thought of trying to reach out to him via social media, but I know that is less likely to have the favorable outcome that I want. I’m not a weird person, just lonely sprinkled with a hint of desperation. While I’m not a fan of his boss I kind of want to call him and plan another job just to get the guy back here so I can ask him out. That’s not going to happen, but the thought crossed my mind.

I made it out for breakfast and I was very hungry. I had a delicious breakfast and then headed off to the grocery store. Then off to the gas pump. The prices per gallon are insane but since I usually don’t go below a ½ tank and that’s right where I was, my bill wasn’t horribly high but still I know that it could have been cheaper.

Came home and unloaded the groceries. I curled up with the cats. I got sleepy but I had problems falling asleep. While it was a pain, I think it will work to my advantage tonight or so I hope, because I need a good night’s sleep.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, it involved my favorite cashier at the grocery store. She’s an older lady and I don’t see her like I used to because she doesn’t work Sunday mornings. I was shaken when I woke up at 6a but was thankful that it was only a dream. I got up to use the restroom, and Rudy joined me when I returned to bed. He was hopeful that I would steer towards the direction of the kitchen instead of the bedroom. We had a nice cuddle session, and I tried to go back to sleep but that was pointless. The light in the living room turned on at 6:30a & that was my cue to get moving. I took my sweet time but made it out of bed and Rudy got his breakfast.

The loneliness pain is the absolute worst. I think that because of the fact I am gay, my age doesn’t help. I want the pain to stop and this problem solved. The negative way comes to mind of just dropping out of life in general. That would solve the problem but then I’d never get to know what the future had in store for me. Conversely the pain would stop. However, the only thing I am sticking around for is the cats. If it wasn’t for them, I think I would have checked out a long time ago. It’s been going on for long enough and yeah, I know that it’s all up to me, not like some hot guy is just going to magically come walking up to my doorstep but sure would be nice if that happened. I kind of feel like I get to see all these hot guys and some I ask out and get turned down; others play games. I’m not up for rejection but I know it comes with the territory and it’s something you must get used to, suck it up and move on there will always be another hot guy. However, the rejection can harden you and eventually you get to the point where you don’t want to take a chance because it’s probably going to wind up being the same no, sorry I’m straight. Humor but what ever happened to trying something new? My end game is sexually motivated but I’m NOT looking to jump in bed, I want to get to know a guy and make sure that were a match and we both want the same thing, then we can go hop in bed. I think that if I do ever actually get to have sex with another guy that I might have feelings of guilt, but I know my spouse is dead and gone, he would want me to move on. Just as if the shoe had landed on the other foot, I would want the same for him.

Still, I decided it was time to look at dating apps again. I got on something new with the intent on subscribing for a month, but they wanted $50. I didn’t really like what I saw and deleted my account. I downloaded another app to look around and try. I had no idea it wasn’t open to everyone that wanted to subscribe. I built my profile and am waiting to get approved. There are no options at this stage to delete my account, which is kind of what I want to do since it’s not open. I don’t have a comfort feeling about it.

I went out for Mexican food at my favorite place. The flavor I was looking for was there. It was nice to be out of the house. I really didn’t want to come home but I’ve had laundry to finish up, and the cats needed their supper so here I am.

Life – it’s full of emotions and experiences. Wish I would have enjoyed and appreciated my youth while I had it. I have lots of memories to reflect on, some good and some bad. I’m proud of the accomplishments that I have made over the last 13 years, and I know my late spouse would be proud of me as well. Never thought I’d make it to this point but here I am. Only thing left is to find a guy to share the rest of my life with. Would be nice to win the lottery and quit my job. If that doesn’t happen then some how either find a new job or find a way to be content where I am. If all these pieces fell into place, I tell myself the same lie repeatedly, I’d be happy. Truth is I’d be happier, but I don’t know for certain that I would truly be happy. I’ve had plenty of time to experience being sad, lonely and depressed. I’d like a chance to flip those emotions and experience years of happiness and positive things. I kind of think I have paid my dues but then again, I am biased.

Hoping for a great week ahead for all of us. Sincerely, thank you for stopping by it makes my day that you are here. Take care!

Friday & Saturday

FRIDAY

Well today isn’t off to a good start. I woke up to a notification that the internet is out. First estimated restore time was 10a. Then as the morning went on, I got a second notice that the outage had grown larger, but they kept the same restoration time. Now that we are close to 10a the latest update says 3p for restoration. This afternoon I got an updated restoration time that it’s now going to be 6p before it’s fixed. Another update came in later in the afternoon that says now it’s going to be 7p. I saw on social media that AT&T is also having problems. Lots of people in the area are without service, you’d think that would create a sense of urgency, but I guess were just the paying customers and we should expect it. I am very thankful for my hotspot on my phone, once again it saved the day. I’ve got my Roku and Laptop connected to it. No sense in sitting here with no TV that would be very boring. I called the cable company and asked for a credit since I have had no service for the bulk of the day. They are reviewing my request and will let me know about it once service has been restored. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but I think I will get something.

Next update was from the contractor. The column isn’t in and is scheduled for afternoon delivery. They might come out this afternoon or perhaps tomorrow morning. I asked them to keep me updated. I am not getting a comfort vibe about this. Too many more excuses and I will tell them the deal is off. As the afternoon wore on, I sent a text to get an update. They haven’t picked up the column but say that it is in and they will get it in the morning. I had to press about what time they would be here tomorrow. Finally got an answer that they expect to be here between 8a and 9a. I just hope they don’t send me a message tomorrow morning with another excuse as that won’t bode well with me.

Cats were a little perplexed by me staying upstairs, I think they thought I was taking the day off. I kind of wish that I was. It would be so easy to say sorry no internet can’t work, taking the day off. However, I’m plugging away, already knocked out my morning to-do list. I don’t have much going on today and am thankful for that. It will however make for a long day.

Grass guys just showed up, saw a hot blond guy working for them that did the trimming and blowing work. He had long hair and was very in shape. Tempting to step out and make a move but I stayed put. Just admired from afar.

Work was quiet all day long up until the day came to an end and then I had requests coming at me faster than I could deal with. I’ve caught up. While I am not on-call I am staying available to help one person. They can’t follow instructions and it’s frustrating. Hopefully I will be done with them in an hour.

I’ve been watching Landlord Tennant cases all day long with my favorite judge (Judge Simpson) in Michigan. It’s 6p here and he is still going strong. It’s later than that in Michigan. I’m just fascinated by housing court, it’s interesting. Plus, the judge is quite entertaining. He loves levity and he’s very fair to make sure no one gets screwed over.

The internet came back up around 10:30p but my connection was back and working around 8p. Cable company says they are giving me credit for the outage. I’m sure that will be a very small amount since we’re only talking 1 day of service, still something is better than nothing for the inconvenience. 

SATURDAY

The contractor showed up around 9:30a. A crew of 3 people father, son and a worker. The worker looks to be in his mid-20’s to early 30’s. I’m a poor judge of age but damn he’s got a hot smoking body! The crew got the column swapped out. Father and son left, the hot worker is still here, and he is painting the column. Giving it two coats. Mora growled at him and she has only growled at one other worker that showed up, oddly I was sexually attracted to that other worker. That tells me something is off about him. It’s a hot day outside and the first coat of paint should dry in no time. The work looks good from where I am sitting in my living room. I know I am getting raped on the price, but I agreed to it. As time went on the lone worker got bored waiting for the paint to dry. He eventually laid down on my front porch and was coughing. I thought a good excuse to go outside was to offer him an ice-cold bottle of water. He thanked me for it and gladly accepted it. We chatted for a while, and I listened closely as he spoke. He’s straight and wants a wife & family. He’s in school to become a doctor. As he painted, I had his ass right in line with my face. It was so difficult to keep my hands to myself, but I managed. When the other two got back from tending to their other jobs, they were just in time to wrap things up.

The owner made a smart-ass comment in regard to a request I made and we quickly had words. I reminded him that I’m the customer and he’s going to do things my way because I’m the asshole that is paying the bill. That settled that quickly. I will never call him again for anything! The guy hit me up shortly after they arrived in the morning with a slightly lower price for cleaning my gutters but I’m not biting. It was tempting to take advantage of his offer because it’s low, but I’d just as soon hire someone else for that task. If his price for this column wasn’t so high, I probably would have bitten. The column work is done, and it looks fantastic. The job that was supposed to take 2 hours wound up not wrapping up until 1:30p. Glad I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be. I’m also thankful that this took place on a Saturday when I could devote my full attention to it.

Once they were gone, I grabbed a soda. Passed out attention to the cats and then got busy on the computer. I found the smoking hot college guy. He’s got quite the profile with lots of shirtless and sexy photos. None of which are terribly recent. He’s smooth and his chest and arms look as good as the rest of his body. He’s a runner so no wonder he’s in such fine shape. His social media profile doesn’t list anything about him. He’s got some photos of girls on his page. I wondered if I shouldn’t have made a move just because but I’m kind of glad that I didn’t especially since Mora growled at him. He seems nice enough, but something tells me there is a darker side and I’m missing something. I’ve got enough problems and don’t need to add any more to the list.

I didn’t sleep well and tried to work on a morning nap but just like on a working day taking a nap, my phone kept waking me up. Eventually there was no going back to sleep because I was jolted awake and stayed that way.

Rudy wasn’t happy with breakfast and was quick to hit me up for lunch when I came back in.

I had chips for supper last night. Breakfast was a refrigerated breakfast sandwich and a Belvita Banana Bread bar. I am looking forward to my next meal which will be had in a restaurant.

I took a shower and then headed out. Hit up Cracker Barrel and had a nice meal. A lady and a guy sat next to me. He looked like he was her son. Her phone kept ringing and each time she would talk a little bit then ask the person, “Did you call me”? I thought she was out of her mind. The phone rang so of course someone called you, it doesn’t take a genius to figure that out. I was happy to get away from her. Headed to grab the mail and pick up cat food. Then back home.

Working on laundry and making up for yesterday and today in my surfing adventures. I’m sure there is a trove of things waiting for me. I’d call it a productive and quite expensive day.

I hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by, take care!

Sounds like a gun

Last night I was working away sitting in the living room. It was dusk and getting dark rapidly. My neighbor showed up to mow his lawn on the house that is for sale. I heard the mower and saw it was him and then went back to work. Out of the blue there was a random bang and the mower stopped. It sounded like a gun went off. I heard the mower start back up; he engaged the blade and went back to mowing. The mower died and then he started it again. I figured maybe he ran over the for-sale sign. He finished up and left. This morning my curiosity got the best of me, and I went out to take a look. I have no idea what he hit. It is a mystery. Just glad that there was no damage to my house/property.

Shortly after my nosy trip outside, he came back and picked up some stuff and hauled it away. He’s still got at least one more trip to make. I’m guessing that they are close to closing. I just hope I get some decent neighbors.

My insomnia flared up last night or should I say early this morning. I stayed up for an hour, then was able to go back to bed for 3 more hours before it was time to get up.

No word from the contractor I hired to replace the column on my porch. I expected them to show up today but nope. Not sure if they are going to make it tomorrow. Part of me wants to reach out and ask for an update and the other part of me wants to just let it play out and see what happens. I’ve got the money ready for them and would really like to get this chore off my to-do list. God help me if this doesn’t work out and I must go back to the drawing board because I have run out of people and patience. I just want it done and over with. You wouldn’t think that something so simple would be so complicated.

I’ve made it all day with no nap and am honestly tired. My hope is that I sleep well tonight and all night long at that with no interruptions. My body needs it and so does my sanity.

I saw something last night on social media that helped put my job issues in perspective. Just get through the moment and move to the next. Don’t think beyond that. Still, I felt stressed this morning with some project work. We were micromanaged a bit and it was in front of people via video conferencing. I am not a fan of the project but it’s not like I have been asked for my input. It’s just one of those things I don’t have control over.

Were back in a heat wave which is kind of crazy for this time in September. Normally it’s warm and not hot like summer. I know that a change is coming and things will cool off. I just long for the time where it’s comfortable everywhere and no AC or Heat is required to regulate the climate.

I had a Chicken Bacon Ranch pasta dish for supper last night; it was okay, nothing that good. I have really been wanting a Chicken Pot Pie and picked one up but that feels like something that would hit better on a cooler day. The other thing that sounds good to me is Chili with Cornbread. I have that as well and might eat that tonight. Chili for sure is better on a cooler day to keep warm and eat comfort food.

Just hoping for an enjoyable evening and that it cools off once the sun sets for the day. I’m not a fan of it getting dark so early. It would be nice if we could get a resolution if Day Light Savings time is going away or sticking around. I know that a lot of people want it to go away and I’m with them. It seems crazy to have to adjust the clock twice per year. Although I always like getting that so called extra hour of sleep.

Hope all is well in your world.

Monday … Monday

Happy Monday Afternoon,

How’s that for a greeting? I woke up this morning feeling better than I have had in a while. I was up a couple of times last night, but it didn’t seem to affect me. Rudy came to wake me, and I just played like I was asleep because I wanted to stay in bed a bit longer. He went along with it.

It seemed to be one thing after another this morning, and I was late logging on to work but I made it eventually. Things were calm and I was caught up rather quickly on my to-do list. I stuck around for a bit longer as I goofed off on the web, outside of work. Something came in and I was able to jump on it and then after a bit I was able to shift to working upstairs and be with the cats.

I got the vibe last night that Rudy wasn’t feeling well. Perhaps he was just being himself, but it was concerning to me. He appears all normal today, which is a good thing. Cats are the masters of disguise, and you think they are all fine, but they can be hurting or suffering, and we just never know. I think I know my two feline friends rather well, that mixed with my experience of living with 7 cats I think gives me a good edge. I never want to visit the vet but there are times when you simply must.

Today has been dull but there were a couple things that managed to upset me. My boss being in micro manager mode didn’t help but I think I sent a strong back the fuck off vibe. He has left me alone ever since.

Yesterday, shortly after my first post went up my internet came back early. My provider said that the outage was still going on but that my connection was restored. It had the possibility of going down but thankfully, it did not.

I hit up the new Mexican place, and it was a mistake. I was craving that new special sauce they have. It just hits so good, but I forget that there is a spice or fire that is delayed. I kind of over did it a bit. My food was just okay, nothing special. I got charged for another table and had to get that fixed. It’s going to be a while before I go back there. Kind of wish I would have gone with my usual Mexican place the food there is superb.

Had a nice ride and enjoyed getting back out, despite it being hot out. When I got home, I needed to update finances and that caused me to make an eye candy post. I realized it had been a very long time, and I know that more of you like pictures rather than reading my blathering. I like photos too but something about writing is more therapeutic to me.

I did some more job searching today and found a couple of jobs that were semi appealing, but I didn’t have qualifications for the jobs and realized that I would be in over my head. There were some lower paying jobs that I thought about. One of which is working for a new grocery store that is opening in a management position. The more I looked the more I decided that while I am not happy with my present job, it’s better to keep what I have. Kind of a situation the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t. I will keep an eye out, but I don’t have high hopes of finding anything. Of course, if I went up and quit that would give me more motivation to look and I am sure that I would regret quitting. That doesn’t stop me from fantasizing about telling them I am done and leaving. I know initially it would hurt them (the company) more than it would hurt me. However, in the end the job search would drag out, and I would wind up settling for less money and possibly less of a position than I have now. I am well thought of in my present environment and am the go-to person for many things that make me feel good, but it also gets tiresome at times. I just wish that I felt better about my present job. I am surprised that I have made it to the 12-year mark, that’s the longest that I have worked at one place. There are monetary incentives for staying and loyalty is rewarded financially at each 10-year mark. Vacation increases as well with time, but I’ve got around 2 more years before I max out on vacation. I think maybe if my team wasn’t so spread out across the US and we all worked in the same office that might make me feel better. However, there are many times that I am thankful that I am not near any of them as all but 1 guy would have been kicked in the nuts by now.

Well, time to go figure out what is for supper and enjoy the time away from work before morning comes around again and I must do it all over. Tomorrow will be a busier day with plenty of meetings. Thankfully there are rarely meetings on Monday’s. I’ve got at least 1 meeting every day this week until Friday. Right now, Friday looks pretty good to me, but then again, all Friday’s look good to me!

Hope you had an amazing day, feel free to tell me all about it if you wish.

Change Of Plans

Today started out way too early in the morning when my insomnia kicked in. I made it back to bed to get a few more hours of sleep. Rudy woke me at 7a and wanted his breakfast. I got up and fed him and his sister. I went back and watched TV with the intention of returning to bed, but my body wouldn’t let me. I headed to the kitchen and cracked open a fresh box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. It was the “Large Box” and before I knew what happened I had consumed ½ of the box. I love that stuff! Factor in my sugar addiction, I know it’s not good for me, but that doesn’t stop it from being so delicious!

I got my morning medicine taken and then returned to watch TV. Eventually returning to bed which was my end game. Mora snuggled up with me, and we had a nice nap time. Rudy passed out in my recliner, which seems to be his new “go-to” spot when it’s time for bed. At night they both stay with me for a while before they leave and head to the living room. Then usually closer to wake-up time one or both will return. Typically, it’s just Rudy and he climbs in bed with me and waits to do his biscuit making dance!

I got out of bed and took a shower early in the afternoon. I got dressed after with the full intentions of leaving for a bite to eat.

I threw the laundry in and then thought about how I had some left over Lasagna Soup and opted to stay home and eat that. Then I dove into that Chocolate Cake for a few bites. I like to nurse it so that I can make it last for days but not terribly long. It’s so good and is much better with milk than soda.

Rudy bugged me the whole time I was eating my soup, it didn’t come out of a can, but he saw me scraping the container and banging my spoon on the large mug I was putting it in. He automatically thought that I was making a feast for him, despite the fact I had opened a fresh can of food for him just prior to this. He got under my feet and kept pestering me with the hope that I would give in, but I am strong and no matter what he does I resist because as soon as you give in, they remember and will keep coming back for more.

After I was done with my early supper, I loaded the dishwasher up and watched more TV. I brushed both cats. Hopefully, that will keep them happy, and they won’t leave me any unwanted surprises. Once the dishes were done, I had another load of laundry to do so I got up. I headed to the garage first to charge my vehicle’s battery and check the tire pressure. Pressure was a little low but that is all fixed now. Then returned inside and washed my hands. Grabbed the laundry and headed down.

The contractor I hired to replace the column on the front porch should be here on Tuesday or Wednesday, so I wrote out a check for them to have it on hand. I am waiting for an update before I tell my boss, I’d like to know for sure which day they plan on being here. I really wish they would have surprised me and shown up today.

Had to restart the PC to get a final Windows Update applied. I hate doing that because then I have a slight fight on my hands when I log back in to make sure everything is up and running. I updated a couple programs that were out of date.

Have been pacifying Mora with her craving for attention. She must be in my lap, and I must be petting or scratching her. It lasts for a while then either she leaves on her own or I send her packing. Very much like a boomerang she will return and ask for more. Sometimes it’s within a few minutes and other times an hour can go by. She loves being in the center and I don’t think she likes the computer since that steals my focus but if she is near me, she seems content.

I got a hell of a shock when I peeked on an app at gas prices. Damn they have really jumped high again. I kind of expected it to be just not so soon. I kind of think that the new normal will be $4 to $5 a gallon for gas. Thankfully I don’t need Diesel, I feel super sorry for the folks that do because that stuff is quite a bit more than gas.

Overall, I am happy with the freedom that I had to do what I wanted to. I wish that I would have gotten out, and I know tomorrow that I will have regrets. However, I will also be going out for breakfast and plan on hitting some place up for supper. Mexican, American and BBQ all sound quite appealing to me. I’ve also got to hit up the grocery store in the morning and grab the mail. It’s fun to be lazy but it also can confuse me on what day of the week it is. Bad enough to have a holiday fall on a Monday.

Hope that you had a great day and were able to relax. Time to grab the laundry and head up, fight to make my bed and get ready as another day has turned to night, time to close my eyes and say goodnight!

SOME KIND OF LUCK

I wound up going back to work on Thursday. I was up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep despite trying. By 6am I gave up and said I’m feeding the cats and going back to bed. I got connected to work and saw my inbox continuing to overflow it was close to 800 emails just in my inbox alone, that’s not counting what was filtered to folders. Then my gut kicked in and said you need to go back today; something is going to happen. It was one of those eerie kinds of feelings. I knew that if I went against it I’d probably be sorry. So, I wolfed down breakfast, threw on some clothes, grabbed my water bottle and headed downstairs.

The cats missed me and made some noise; I came up for bathroom breaks and to pass out lunch. I took an abbreviated lunch and returned to the basement in the afternoon. I was down there all day long. I don’t exactly know where or how I was able to motivate myself because I was exhausted from not sleeping much. I got caught up and managed to accomplish way more than I thought I would. It felt good to have an empty inbox. Talked with the mistake maker and we caught up a little bit.

I thought exhaustion would help fuel a great night’s sleep but sadly I was wrong. I woke up at 2a this morning and managed to get back to sleep by 4a. I woke up again exhausted and really wanted to take the day off but pressed on.

While the day is almost done, I am not quite off the hook just yet. My boss dogged me a little bit yesterday because I chimed in to help on something and that just resulted in him dumping more work on me. I should just keep quiet instead of being helpful. He’s been after me to train the new guy on our Firewalls and I have just put it off. Today I got a written request, and he asked me to invite him to the meeting. He wanted it to be set early next week, so I purposely made it towards the end of the week. I really don’t want to do it but suppose that I can’t put it off forever. It’s pointless to teach him because he won’t even have an account to login to them and my boss takes his sweet time before he gives access to the Firewalls you can wait as long as 2 years. I got my access after 6 months, but I had to go through a formal training course. He wanted to send the mistake maker to the same training but never did and finally after 2 years he just gave him access.

In other news last night, I saw that there was a firmware update for my home router, so I applied it. I had no idea that it would take away remote access to the router. That’s better from a security standpoint because you must physically be here and/or connected to one of the machines in the house and have the credentials to log in. It’s kind of a pain because I had an app on my phone that ceased to function after the update. I could monitor signal strength of WIFI devices, see what/who was connected and reboot the router without being logged on to a computer. Plus, the app would send me alerts if there was a problem or loss of connectivity and it didn’t matter if I was home or not. I did some research and found that my model of router wasn’t on the list to have this service deprecated but again from a security perspective it is much more secure and better.

Today was the day to set the trash out. With the Labor Day holiday trash pickup is pushed back one day. At least it was supposed to be. I waited until the afternoon and got it ready and got it set out. It wasn’t but 15 minutes later and a trash truck showed up, emptied the container and kept on moving. I’ve never had that kind of luck. Perhaps it was just good timing on my part or perhaps it is a sign that something good is going to happen. Hey I can hold out hope, there is no charge for that.

Still watching Roseanne on Peacock and peppering in some YouTube Videos to spice things up a little bit. Food wise I finished the pizza last night and am glad that it’s gone. I’ve got Spaghetti to heat up for supper and kind of looking forward to it. Then there is the left-over Chocolate Cake. Part of me wants it tonight for desert and the other part of me wants to have it for breakfast.

My calendar is clear and outside of feeding the cats I can sleep in and be lazy tomorrow if I want. I like having flexibility and not having looming tasks or deadlines. I’ve got laundry to do, some porn surfing to catch up on, need to grab the mail and get a bite to eat in the afternoon. Not sure where I am going to go. I had it all worked out on Monday, but I’ve slept since then and my taste changes. Thinking of Mexican food but not exactly sure where I am going to go for it. That pretty much takes care of Saturday. Sunday is the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping, cleaning the house and grabbing a bite to eat in the afternoon. Cracker Barrel sounds pretty good but I will have to travel a little bit since I won’t visit the one that is closest to me. That’s due to the gay waiter there that was interested in me. He led me on for the longest time. Seeing him would just bring back memories and stir up hope again. I know he’s a lost cause and for that reason I avoid seeing him at all costs. However, I am always on the look out for a hot guy to hit on, my only problem is they all seem to be straight just like Spaghetti before it gets all hot and wet.

Hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by!

Today’s Waxing Adventure

Hi

Today I thought I would see how waxing my nose went.  I bought a kit from Amazon.  It looks simple until you have to heat up the wax.  I got it a little too hot.  It burnt my nose and I didn’t get the job done.  I had to manually peel off what little wax stuck and that just caused me to sneeze uncontrollably for five minutes.  I don’t think I will be waxing my nose anytime soon.  I’ll stick with a trimmer.  I hate nose hair and it only seems to grow faster with age.  Kind of the same thing for ear hair. 

As for down below, that cream I put on my nuts made them feel really smooth and they are more fun to play with and feel.  However, I don’t know that I will do that cream again.  I will stick with a trimmer for that area as well.  I’ve never been able to trim my ass just wanted to see how it felt. 

I suppose there are somethings you shouldn’t explore and waxing appears to be that something for me.  I’m totally fine with that. 

I feel overcome by the heat and was super lazy this morning.  Finished up streaming Night Court for the second time.  Really love that show.  I wound up staying home for breakfast.  Rudy got me all clawed up and he got his breakfast.  My arm and chest both itch like crazy but I am smart enough to know NOT to scratch. 

It was the afternoon before I got up and really got moving.  Put out my medicine.  Made it to Lowes but I only got a couple things and abbreviated my list because it’s simply too hot to work outside.  Hit up the cat food store and there selection wasn’t the best but I found enough food for my little furry monsters to eat for the next 2 weeks. Filled up the tank and yeah $44 later it’s full.  I knew it would hurt but it also feels good to see the needle back on full.   

Came home and much later in the afternoon I had Lasagna soup (I got this at Sam’s) for supper and nibble on some of that chocolate cake I got yesterday.  It was pretty good. 

Did some house cleaning.  Brushed the cats and trimmed their murder mittens.  They both were not happy about the claw trim but loved the brushing.  They have been puking and I felt bad about that because I knew they were overdue for a brushing. 

Subscribed to Peacock so I can stream Roseanne, it’s the only place where the series is available.  I’ve seen it all once before but suddenly I’m craving it again so there went $19.99 and I will likely stay subscribed until I finish the series or until I get tired of paying, whichever comes first.  Who knows though I might find something else of interest and start watching that.  Seriously considering cancelling my Netflix.  I pay a small fortune for entertainment in the way of television and I know I am just throwing money away because you can’t watch everything at once.  It’s impossible. 

Tomorrow for sure is grocery store day and I will hit up the post office.  I haven’t been in a couple days but I don’t expect there will be anything there.  I plan to go for pizza tomorrow.  I don’t expect I will see the straight hunky waiter but want some pizza to eat and to take home to nibble on during the week. 

A little bored and lonely at the moment.  I was hoping that I would have met someone while I was off but it didn’t happen.  I have a strange feeling that soon someone will come along but then again I could be wrong.  I’ve though about hitting up an app.  Having a companion to share life with would put some fun in it and getting laid would be nice as well.  For me though it’s more about companionship than it is sex. 

Still not looking forward to going back to work but I’ve got one extra day thanks to it being Labor Day.  Then the next holiday will be Election Day and that’s not until November which will be here soon.  I see leaves falling already and the grass is dying because of the heat.  The weather was supposed to cool off this coming week but there is no sign of that nor any rain.  The heat and I don’t get along and I can get sick if I am exposed to it for too long.  My stomach hasn’t been the best over the past week but I am hoping that eventually things will settle down and the weather will cool off a bit.  I’m not looking to jump into snow or freezing temperatures. 

Funny thing I think my neighbors house got inspected yesterday.  They left the lights on inside and out.  It is quite bright at night.  He’s due to come cut the grass but who knows if that will happen anytime soon, only time will tell. 

I plan on trying to make the most of this evening and tomorrow because going back to the normal WES (Work Eat Sleep) will suck and not in a good way.  Still looking a little bit for a different job I just really don’t want to take a cut in pay to get away from the nonsense.  I ask myself if that will make me happy and while I think it will short term I don’t know about the long term. 

Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you all again soon!

Better, I think

Good afternoon,

I’m feeling pretty good today.  Stomach appears to have settled down and I hope that it stays that way. 

Apparently there is going to be a huge power surge this afternoon, I got an alert on my phone asking me to conserve my energy consumption between 3p and 7p.  Not sure why today of all days we got this.  I’m not doing anything out of the ordinary to use energy today.  Just hope that the power doesn’t go out because it’s quite toasty outside. 

Weatherman said that the AC’s are going to get quite a workout next week.  I think the dumpster task is still stuck on my I’ll get to it someday list. 

Tomorrow morning I will be busy setting up new people at work.  I expect that will occupy a good portion of my morning and I kind of look forward to it.  I could get started today but I am putting it off until tomorrow just because I can. 

Just an average Wednesday here, nothing special going on.  I am just trying to make it through the day.  We are inching closer to the end of the week and that’s good news for me.  I am anxious to get out of the house and roam, even if it’s just local.  As long as my stomach holds up and I feel okay, I am thinking about making a buffet run on Saturday.  Of course if I go it will depend how good the buffet looks if I dive into it or order off of a menu.  I’d rather go for the buffet but it’s got to have some good food there and I hate driving so far to order off a menu.  I can do that around here. 

Rudy seems pretty normal thus far today.  He ate a little breakfast and then walked away.  Mora moved in and had her share.  Then Rudy came back and dug in.  Normally he loads up first and then she moves in and were done.  As long as they are both eating and healthy (happy too) that is all that I am concerned with. 

Hope it’s a good day for you.  Thanks for stopping by!

My poor stomach

Good evening,

I heard the weather forecast this morning for next week it’s going to super hot again.  Not exactly good news but nothing much I can do about it either. 

I woke up around 1a used the bathroom and of course couldn’t get back to sleep so I sat up and watched TV.  No cats were in my room and neither of them came in, which was fine.  My stomach hurt and I was tired. 

I was up again around 5a but was able to roll over and go back to sleep.  Rudy had joined me and was laying up against me radiating heat.  That’s nice in the Winter but not the summer.

The little devil woke me up at 6a and I got out of bed around 6:30a.  I was exhausted despite having just woken up.  Today would have been a good day to call in sick, because I was.  My stomach started bothering me.  I fed the cats and ate breakfast. 

I got dressed and then started feeling some body aches but figured that once I got busy with work that would subside.  I was right.  However, my stomach has bothered me all day long.  Plenty of grumbling and gas.  I had a couple of what I’d call close calls that turned out to be nothing. 

I opted to let my boss know that I was limping along but that I was working.  Now I am starting to think this isn’t from a Jelly Donut.  I probably caught something and it’s going to stick with me.

This is a minor inconvenience thus far.  I had supper and had to force myself to keep eating, finally I just gave up.  Food didn’t taste good and stopping seemed like a smart option.  I feel okay but don’t know if there will be more pain and grumbling or if it’s all over. 

I am not a fan of this and hope that it goes away quickly.  I don’t want it to mess up my weekend or my week of vacation. 

I was able to sneak in a light nap this morning but it only lasted 30 minutes.  My phone started lighting up like a Christmas tree which is normal when I am away from my computer.  Sit in front of the computer and nothing happens.  I think there must be a proximity sensor on it.  I got all of the email that was dumped in my inbox taken care of.  No sooner than that happened the boss called about a case that I took.  I found someone trying to install software from a threat actor and it was caught and stopped by our internal defenses.  For some reason attacks and threats are way up this month, like I’ve not seen before.  I think that it’s only going to get worse. 

Just a few minutes ago there was a loud thump on the roof.  I went outside to investigate and didn’t see anything.  I figured a tree branch fell but nothing.  This place makes noises all the time and you think it’s something major but there is nothing to worry about.  One day something is going to happen, I am going to dismiss it and that will be the one noise I should have paid attention to.  That’s the kind of luck I have. 

I didn’t shave or shower last night and I look like a hobo.  Kind of matches how I feel.  I plan on cleaning up tonight provided that my stomach behaves it’s self. 

Not a whole lot on streaming that I am interested in, I do a lot of searching and scrolling but eventually land on something, even if it’s an hour of cartoons.  Sometimes I just want the background noise. 

Rudy has been more like his normal self today but he did ask for food around 3p and I made him wait until 4p.  He is quite persistent and turns on the charm with his biscuits, licking my forehead thinking that he’s making progress and that I will give in.  That doesn’t always work but I do always enjoy it.  Right now he’s curled up on my arm sleeping.  He’s knows that I’m not happy about that but he likes being close to me.  Kind of nice to be wanted even if it’s only by a little kitty cat. 

Just have to make it 3 more days and right now the week is moving pretty slow.  Hopefully, we will gain some traction because I am ready to be done with work.  I need to get away and just not think about the place.  That’s easier said than done but if I have something I am doing I can easily get lost and will forget about work.  I know that I will wonder the whole time I am out what fresh hell is waiting for me when I return but I will find that out when I return.  It’s the fear of the unknown mixed in with a little guilt since I have a secret that I’d like to stay hidden. 

Well on with the evening and back to looking for something to watch.  Hope you had a great day!

Last week before vacation time

Good evening,

I hope that you had an enjoyable and relaxing weekend.  Mine was okay but like all weekends it went by too quickly. 

Sunday I had to wake up early to get some testing done at work.  I found that my company laptop which is sitting in my office wasn’t responding.  It was working on Friday because I used it.  I dismissed it and said well I will go reboot it when I’m back from vacation.  That kept eating at me all day, so my plans for Sunday changed up a bit. 

I decided to head out to the office to take care of rebooting the computer.  On the way there I saw the largest police presence I had ever seen on the opposite side of the freeway.  A semi was blocking all lanes and on it’s side.  That side of the freeway was closed.  I found out later the driver died.  No one else was involved.  From the looks of things, he had to have had a medical emergency or something like that.  I’m interested but not sure if that will be made public. 

I arrived at the office to find a package on my desk.  It was spare parts to keep on hand for our doors.  Not an inexpensive box.  I got that stuff put away and rebooted my computer. 

Then headed to grab a bite to eat and stop for cat food.  I normally stop on Saturdays but my stomach was doing summer saults so I didn’t leave anything to chance and came home.  Things sorted themselves out by Sunday. 

This morning I woke up and felt sick.  It got super cool here over night and I left my fan on.  That is a sure fire way to get me sick.  I didn’t think I would make it but I pressed on and as I did I felt better.  That is until lunch time.  I decided that I would have a bowl of Chicken Noodle Soup.  Well if it comes out of a can here Rudy thinks it’s for him.  I put food out for him but he still begged me for soup. 

In fact Rudy has been bothering me all day long asking for food.  I gave in and gave him an extra can 2 hours after he had lunch.  I passed out supper and by the time I went to eat he was asking me for more food.  I passed out treats early.  I strongly think he is a Thyroid cat.  Gator used to bother me for extra food.  If it’s not that then he has just discovered how much of a push over I can be and he’s milking it.  This just started in the last couple days so I am waiting to see what happens. 

He got his flea medicine on Saturday.  His scratching has decreased a little bit but ever since then that is when his hunger started. 

My stomach is back to doing summer saults and I think it’s the result of mini Jelly Donuts that I got last weekend.  Normally they are all gone in a matter of days but I made them stick around.  They are in the fridge.  I had one last night as a test to see if it’s what caused my stomach issues and well I think I’ve got my answer.  I’m not eating any more of them.  They will go out with the trash come Thursday. 

Work, today has been a busy day.  We were invited to a meeting that is lasting all week long and has nothing to do with our team.  It was nice to be included but I stuck around for as long as I could stomach it and then finally dropped off because regular work was picking up.  Busy time with a bunch of new people starting in a few weeks and there is mounting pressure that comes with that as well.  Not a fun time but being busy makes the time pass faster! 

Found out that the new guy asked if he could take next Wednesday, Thursday & Friday off.  I’m out, the mistake maker is out so that would leave the boss by himself.  Not sure if this guys time off will get approved but it’s also not my worry. 

Speaking of time off I was thinking about what exactly I had planned for next week.  Nothing more than a dental appointment and a facial.  I am kicking around the idea of getting a roll away dumpster delivered for a couple days and doing some serious house cleaning.  It’s something that I’ve said I would do for years but it always gets put off.  Not exactly something exciting to do.  Dumpster rental isn’t cheap but I could at least make a dent in things.  I’ve not committed to the idea yet.  I’m sure if I do the neighbors will think that I am the next one that will be moving out and nothing could be further from the truth. 

I saw a job that sounded interesting but it pays 1/2 of what I am making now and from that 1/2 there would be union dues to pay.  It’s kind of a dream job for me and I would be out of the house 5 days a week.  The thought of starting over and the pay cut are what kept me from jumping at applying.  I want out of my present job so bad though and yeah I am willing to take a pay cut to make it happen but 1/2 pay is a little too steep, dream job or average job. 

Well nightfall is here.  Time to prep for tomorrow.  Shave and shower.  Then off to bed and up to do it all over again tomorrow.  I just tell myself this time next week who knows what I will be doing.  Work won’t be one of those things. 

Take care! 

Another mistake maker

Good evening,

Wednesday is done.  Not terrible but it had it’s moments.  Like our weekly team meeting that seemed to never end.  The boss really liked how his voice sounded today and thus got quite chatty. 

The morning flew by I had all sorts of puzzles to solve and tasks to work on.  I started at 7:30a and when I looked up it was 10:30a.  I couldn’t believe it, felt like I had just sat down.  I like that kind of busy it makes the day really sail by and I feel productive in the process, so it’s a double win in my book. 

I found several mistakes the new guy is making and called those out to him in the hopes he will do better.  I hate mopping up messes but I’ve mopped up enough of his that I am tired of it.  It’s like you show them, tell them how to do something, the process is documented but they go off and do it their way instead of the right way.  Dummy! I got assigned to show him the firewalls and I really don’t look forward to having that conversation.  I opted to put it off until tomorrow but I might just take my chances and see if he reaches out to me. 

No word on the mistake makers kid but I did find out today that he’s in fact taking the bulk of his paternity leave in November.  I’m not happy about that because again if we were “friends” like he seems to think we are he would have reached out to me ahead of time and told me rather than me finding out it’s a surprise.  Just another example of the fact that people you work with are not your friends.  It’s possible to make a friend that way and I have made a couple but am no longer friends with those people.  One person outright lied to me.  The other one hung up on me and yelled all the damn time, I don’t need that in my life. 

We have a large group of folks joining the organization next month.  I’ve been doing as much prep work as I could.  The mistake maker promised me not once but twice that he would take care of getting their access cards programmed.  Well, another promise broken.  I wound up taking care of the bulk of them today.  In general he’s a fuck up and while I got over my initial long term beef with him, I am mad at him all over again.  I might calm down but I won’t be so chummy with him and allow him to hurt/disappoint me again. 

Funny thing I thought about telling everyone I heard from him and he said to let everyone know that his wife gave birth to a baby girl, Jessabelle, 9 pounds 8 ounces.  Jesus that is hysterical to me but I know better so I won’t but I really want to. 

On a different note, on Monday night I watched the movie Cop Out, it was really enjoyable.  Saw it on Starz.  They have the movie Michael and I want to see that as well.

Last nights supper was Meatloaf but I got hungry and took it out of the microwave a minute early.  The mashed potatoes tasted odd and I got a stomach ache afterwards. 

Tonight I had Spaghetti and a small Jelly Donut.  Not bad. 

Both cats are doing well and napping now that they have had their supper and treats.  They will wake up when I am ready for bed.  Rudy will want to play but if I give in he may or may not engage.  Mora might play.  I tried her last night and she wanted no part of play but Rudy did for a little bit.  Once I settle in for bed, they will both fall asleep in my bed and I have to wake them to make room when I climb in.  Rudy will take off.  Mora will snuggle up with me.  Then I will pass out and that will be the end of the day.  Rudy will start tomorrow off with his famous biscuits wake up call.

Finally I am surprised but I got a call from the Post Office today.  The person told me I need to visit my local post office and complete a form, I can get a refund since they failed to preform the service.  You can apply for a refund for some services on line I tried that but ran into an error, so to the post office for the form.  I will try to make it this weekend but if not then next weekend for sure.

Hoping for a quiet and enjoyable evening.  Friday eve tomorrow, so close but not quite done with the weekend. 

Take care and thanks for stopping by!

More fun, not

Good afternoon,

Today has been a day.  Found out late this morning that the mistake maker’s kid arrived last night.  Now he’s out for 2 weeks.  He gets something like 12 weeks paternity leave so this is just the start of the so called fun.  He claims were friends but I think a friend would have sent a text or called.  I got nothing and the word came down from the boss.  I’m not happy about it but kind of small potatoes in the grand scheme of things.   

The boss has been pelting me all day with work, strange out of the ordinary things that someone else normally takes care of.  I’ve been in meetings off and on all day long the last one was scheduled for a half hour and turned into a 2 hour call.  I mostly listen unless I’m called on and then I can’t seem to unmute fast enough to respond.  I hate that but I like to stay busy if there is something to do. 

Early this afternoon Verizon went hard down in my area.  My alarm and cell phone were both without service.  It only lasted for 15 to 30 minutes before things came back up.  Not sure what it was all about.  However, Verizon and AT&T both have never been hard down for me.  I am starting to wonder about Verizon. 

Did some quick research on my neighbors house and the offer that is pending is for the full asking price, I’m surprised he got it so quickly.  I figured he would have to bargain.  Provided this goes through he is making a hell of a profit.  The dummy just showed up to mow the grass with his fancy new zero turn riding mower.

Cooler weather here today but still hot.  The basement was humid this morning and I couldn’t get upstairs fast enough.  We have rain moving in later tonight and it’s supposed to stick around for a couple days.  I am not looking forward to that. 

Had a double cheese frozen White Castle last night.  I just nuked the hell out of it, it was crunchy but good.  I have been craving the real thing for a while along with some Onion Rings and a Chicken Ring, Cheese Fries.  Ah, it sounds so good.  Ironically I went to bed wanting more to eat but didn’t give in to that.  I hopped on the scale a week ago and was astonished to find that I was down a few pounds. 

Since I broke out a credit card I rarely use to pay a bill, I elected to subscribe to a gay YouTube creators Only Fans.  The fee was $15 which I thought was rather steep but it’s a twink and he did a great job of marketing.  Turns out he is a prick tease.  Not a nude photo on his site, he takes his shirt off but otherwise he’s wearing clothes.  He said to message for a “private menu”.  I did and jeez he wants a small fortune for what I’d call “the good stuff”.  Shame I got curious.  I’ve already cancelled the subscription so I don’t get a rebill.  Other “performers” charge less and you get far more.  I can only suppose he’s trying to keep his stuff private and the more you pay for it the less likely you are to share it.  Eventually someone will probably leak it at least that’s what I hope for because no way am I giving him another penny. 

It’s time to eat again and I’m off to venture to see what I can dig out of the freezer.  Thinking about Stouffers Meat Loaf, that sounds pretty good.  Hoping for a quiet evening.  But I am waiting on a work email so I can complete a task, I hate waiting on people, that is never a fun thing. 

Hope you had a great day.  Take care!

It’s Monday

Welcome in. 

It’s my least favorite day of the week, Monday!  Plus I’m on call.  The day started off with a bang.  I had an issue come up at work that I needed help with and I reached out to the mistake maker.  Only he wasn’t answering his phone.  I called right back and he sent me to voice mail.  That angered me so I just kept calling over and over thinking that eventually he would pick up.  It didn’t work and I gave up.  I took my best shot at the problem, which was a total guess and sounds like I was right on the money.  Of course now that I no longer needed him, the mistake maker called back.  He told me that he was taking the day off due to a few reasons.  He said that the boss was supposed to let everyone know but the boss runs a couple hours behind time zone wise and honestly he’s not the best timely communicator.  He knew yesterday and should have sent the note out then but did he, no.  Turns out I sent the note out once I found out, so were all on the same page. 

I had to go to a stupid meeting that just caused me anxiety.  It’s about a project that we have creeping up on us, that our boss told everyone we would be happy to lead the project.  I want to cut his tongue out for saying that.  Any how turns out I found out that our bosses boss is out today and tomorrow.  So now we have to meet again tomorrow because he literally has nothing to do.  Wonderful not what I wanted the outcome to be. 

The more I thought about things and the pressure I feel I decided to take a spin through remote job listings and honestly prospects are not great.  I just keep telling myself that this to shall pass.  I just hope I don’t wind up losing this job, if in fact my secret is out because the job market trying to get a job making what I make now would be difficult plus my age would work against me.  Yeah, I know employers are not supposed to discriminate but they do. 

A few things have come in this afternoon that I have chosen to put off until tomorrow.  Some tasks are just better handled when I am in front of my desktop with two screens instead of trying to be all over the place with a tiny laptop screen.  So, tomorrow morning is a little booked but not the first time that’s happened and I will get through it.  Just have to hope for calm on the on-call front.  I start early enough that things are usually quiet for at least an hour, sometimes two hours. 

I am hungry for more pasta from the place I ate at last night or some good fried chicken.  However, I will not be having either.  I will be eating from the freezer, most likely something with pasta it’s not the same as when it’s made fresh.  It is late in the afternoon and the business day is almost done. 

Two weeks and then I will be on vacation.  I look forward to it but the mistake maker will be out as well (at least that is the way it’s planned) kind of depends on when his kid decides to pop out of the oven.  When I come back it will be chaos not only from me being off for a week but I will be on-call again and that is about the time that two projects will be kicked off so now is for sure the calm before the storm. 

I don’t know why but my social media is filled with ads for GLP1’s aka weight loss drugs.  I also started seeing a group snail mail pen pals show up. That is tempting there have been a couple good looking guys there that I wouldn’t mind getting to know but none of them are close to me so it would be like building a friendship, not a bad thing.  I need more friends but I’d kind of like a boyfriend first.  Ah algorithms be crazy!

Brought the laundry up, need to put it away.  Deferred my shave and shower for tonight because I was too lazy last night to go down and get the laundry.  Now I really don’t have motivation for anything tonight but I know I will feel better once I accomplish these minor tasks and have them off my plate. 

Hoping for a decent meal despite it being frozen food and a nice evening.  Rudy has already conned an early supper out of me.  That cat is no dummy, he knows how to turn on the charm.  I’ve learned to read his signals and making biscuits is a sure sign he wants food.  Mora has been sacked out next to me and I told her about supper but she decided to sleep.  She just woke up so perhaps she will be venturing to the kitchen.  I’ve got about a half hour or so before I venture there myself. 

Here’s hoping your Monday wasn’t too bad.  4 more damn days and then the weekend will be here again.  Not to mention I will just have to get through one more week and then my vacation will hit.  So looking forward to getting away and while I will want to peek at work it’s better if I just put it in my rearview mirror because it’s all going to be waiting for me when I get back.  Sometimes it’s good not to be missed.  Sadly that is never the case for me when it comes to work, if I am not there I am always missed. 

Take care!

What a week

Did you miss me? Well, I’m still here. It’s just been one of those weeks.

My problems began on Wednesday. There was an important meeting that I should have attended in person, which means going into the office. It was filled with Management. I’m sure someone asked where I was and probably got the response, he’s a remote worker or he mostly works from home. Obviously, I wasn’t there. I had planned on going in but my Insomnia and worry kicked in and kept me awake so by the time morning rolled around I was in no shape to do anything. I took the day off, thinking that perhaps by being “out of the office” that would explain why I wasn’t there. I am expecting the worst and that “my dirty little secret” is out and probably has surfaced up to HR. Then again, I could just be a bit paranoid. No one moves very fast around there so it could be a week or more before I hear anything presuming that my dirty little secret did in fact get leaked. While I anticipate if it’s known that I’d probably be terminated there is the chance that I would just be told to get back to the office. Honestly, no one complains about my work, I’m known for speed & accuracy. So, I don’t follow the go into the office 3 days a week bullshit rule. I still work every day and put in more than my share of overtime. I know that loyalty or your dedication and contributions don’t matter if HR looks to discipline or terminate someone. I also know my boss’ boss is the one who would be the one to likely make the final call because my boss is incapable of wiping his own ass without asking his boss for permission first and then making sure he agrees with how he’s wiping. The man has no spine, it’s like he can’t think for himself, or he’s been brow beaten not to think for himself. That’s part of the reason why I dislike them both. I really feel that the company would chop off its nose despite its face.

I only took Wednesday off and “went back” (I still worked from home) Thursday and worked Friday. It was late on Friday when my boss called, I figured here it came. He just had a simple question for me, and I was able to get him an answer even though I was off the clock. So, I’m not sure if that was to throw me off the scent or if even, he doesn’t know yet, presuming that my secret is in fact out. I could just be worked up about nothing. I just don’t trust managers/management.

Presuming that I’m all worked up over nothing and it comes time for my promotion, I think that I am going to be shoved into the role and not asked if I want it. If turns out to be something that if I don’t want, I expect to have to fight. I hope I’m wrong and they play fair and lay everything out on the table so I can make an informed decision. I also think that if I do take the promotion, it would be smart to go back to the office, because that saying the bigger, they are the harder they fall. I’m sure that if I was promoted and considered management and not following the rules that would certainly be curtains for me if that secret got out. I can only worry so much, so I’m just playing along now like everything is okay until I hear it’s not. I’m probably better off that way so I don’t tip anyone off that I’m worried about something, even though the worry is and has been there for a very long time. I’m on call next week and as usual I dread it. Hopefully it won’t be that bad.

In other news, I checked the mail on Friday and no green postcard, which is exactly what I expected. I’m certain that the carrier didn’t get it signed and tear it from the envelope, so I shelled out a bunch of money for nothing. I’m quite disappointed and mad. I’m sending a letter to complain and see what good that does, I did ask for the information that the services I paid for would yield and said if they couldn’t provide that to refund my money. I honestly think they will fold and give me my money back. I did get a blocked/private call on Friday. It could have been the kid trying to reach out but then again probably not. I don’t take calls without caller id and even with caller id you can’t be 100% certain you are going to be talking with the correct person on the other end since caller id can be spoofed. Technology is great but sometimes there are loopholes that fuck it up for everyone in general and spoofing caller id is one of those loopholes in my opinion.

I watched Season 3 of Tires on Netflix. It was pretty good and much longer than I thought it would be. I got through the bulk of it in one evening but then saved the last 4 episodes and wound up watching them on Friday night. I happened to be in the right place at the right time and looked out my back window to see one of the neighbors’ hot teenagers and he bent over. Simple things like that make my mouth water. As the song goes, I need a man to lay me down and give me something to feel or in simpler terms I need to get laid. I crave sex so bad and the longer I must wait the stronger the crave gets. Watching porn and rubbing one out helps but nothing beats the real thing baby! For clarity I like a younger guy but only would have sex with someone of legal age and I am not into hookups. Although I’ve thought about it, it just seems way too much to risk. 5 minutes of pleasure for what could be a lifetime of pain, no thanks.

Tuesday night I was sitting in my room watching TV with the cats and heard a beeping coming from the alarm panel. I figured that it was warning me that I had lost internet. Only I hadn’t lost internet. The cellular signal died and that’s never happened. I had phone and data cell service from the same carrier that the alarm uses. It puzzled me. I rebooted the system but that didn’t help. I finally got it armed again and turned on quiet mode to shut up the beeping. The remote-control app I have on my phone was down as well. I often leave and turn off the entry delay so if you open a door the alarm will go off with no waiting period. Just think if I was out and came home, that would have been a mess. Anyway, it was a couple days later I got a note that told me it was a nationwide thing and it’s fixed now. I had already figured that out. No one has said exactly what went wrong but I’m sure interested. Just think if you were a criminal and could hack an alarm provider like that you could break into many places, and no one would know until after the fact. It’s like a mobster told me when I was a kid, locks are for honest people. I suppose the same thing is true for alarm systems or security in general.

Speaking of home my neighbor’s house has an offer on it. I’m astonished that it went that quickly. I don’t know if there was compromise or if someone just offered asking price. Presuming the deal goes through I will find out soon enough because it’s all public record. I’ve been thinking about whoever moves in that I should tell them about the badly clogged gutters and the water that will pool in the backyard. Then again, I could just keep my mouth shut and let them figure it out on their own even though that doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. I guess it will depend on who it is and if our paths cross. Funny thing is that house was nothing but an empty lot when I moved in here and I watched it be built from the ground up. I’ve seen people come and go. There were a few renters for a while, but it only had like 3 owners total which is good for something that was built in the late 90’s. The listing makes the place shine but that’s the objective. If you want to sell a home you have to polish it up and make it shine, that’s what our realtor told me years after we bought this place.

I hit up the Mexican place by the office yesterday. There was no a/c in the place and they had fans on. It was just circulating humid air, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there. Chips were horrible but salsa was on point and good. Food was okay but my stomach has been churning ever since I left that place. I stopped by the office as I was expecting a package but there was nothing on my desk other than dust. I was quick to leave and head back home.

Finished up laundry, paying a couple big bills one of which was auto insurance. Jeez I can’t imagine how much I’d pay if I was driving a new vehicle. I may well be able to afford the vehicle but not the insurance. Yet another reason to keep driving what I have since it’s not really giving me any trouble. I really want a new vehicle, but it just doesn’t feel like it is the right time, at least today doesn’t. The last thing I want is to jump into car payments and then lose my job. That’s my biggest fear with a large purchase I’ve had it all my life and it does make me hold out longer before I take the risk.

Speaking of vehicles, I watched a police pursuit where a state trooper saw a vehicle speeding, he followed it and clocked it upwards of 100 mph. He fought like crazy to catch up to the guy, he tried to get away hit a bunch of vehicles and wrecked. Then went to flee, he tried to jump over the overpass, but he was high in the air and there was nothing below but solid ground. The trooper told him you don’t want to jump it won’t end well. The guy surrendered and as they were on the way to the hospital the guy said, “Are you taking me to real jail?” That made me laugh. The trooper didn’t hesitate and said yes. The guy said I don’t understand why. Seriously, you’ve got to be damn dumb. Turns out he was driving his girlfriend’s car, totaled it and was worried about how he, her and her kid were going to get around, like it was the trooper’s fault. If you flee a police officer, when they catch you, you will be headed straight to jail. It’s just a given fact. Then to cause an accident and not have insurance on the vehicle, yeah, it’s like you drew the go to jail card from Monopoly.

Today I woke up super early and had problems going back to sleep. I was a little late to get moving but I made it to breakfast. Had the best breakfast of Strawberry Cinnamon French Toast, Country Fried Steak and eggs. It was rather expensive, but I did enjoy it.

Hit up Target, the grocery store and gas station before coming back home. Wound up being lazy. I’ve laid around pretty much all day. It is super-hot out and there are things I could do outside around the house but it’s far too hot for me. Went out for supper to the bad pizza place that has good pasta. Enjoyed my dinner very much. Had some nice eye candy to look at. Thought about asking a couple guys out but decided against opening my mouth.

I’m back home brushed both cats. I’ve gotten scratched up and now they have both passed out asleep. They are in a food/treat coma. I’m watching a podcast as I type this out. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, and I am trying to enjoy what is left of my evening.

I hope all is well in your world and that life is treating you well. Until next time, take care!