Wake up call

Morning, my day started at 4a when I was woken up by Mora jumping on me.  I was having the best dream.  I was with my late spouse at McDonald’s and we were enjoying breakfast.  I had just taken a job at a place that I used to work at, that was a complete nightmare.  I dream from time to time that I got sucked back in there.  For some reason I was elated about it because I figured I’d be making more money but I would also be doing a job that I really didn’t want to.  Just about the time I was going to bite into my second Sausage McMuffin with Egg is when Mora woke me up. I don’t see my late spouse often enough in dreams and was rather upset that Mora woke me up, I would have loved to at least finish my dream breakfast.  I haven’t had a Sausage McMuffin with Egg in a long time.  

Maybe I was talking in my sleep or maybe she just wanted to cuddle.  At any rate that’s what happened she snuggled up in my arm for a little bit.  Then Rudy came and sat on my chest and pressed on my stomach.  My bladder kicked in and I told them both I had to get up.  I returned to bed after using the restroom and then we all got situated again.  Rudy wound up by my feet and Mora was back snuggling in my arm. 

After a few minutes of trying, I realized there was no getting back to sleep so I turned the TV on and watched an episode of Sanford (this spin off from Sanford & Son).  It was on YouTube and I just wanted something to pass the time until I got groggy again and could go back to sleep.  That couldn’t happen fast enough for me.  After that was over with, I turned the TV off and had to move.  That caused Mora to leave me.  Which was fine because she was nipping at my finger thinking it was a play toy.  It hurts but she hasn’t broken the skin yet.  Her brother does it too from time to time, but he’s a bit gentler than she is. 

It took me a little bit but I managed to get back to sleep for a bit.  Then the trash truck came through and woke me up.  I was able to dose off for a bit before Rudy started his it’s time to wake up routine.  I cuddled with him since he was early and then we all got up to get Friday started. 

As per usual I am done with my morning tasks at work and have the rest of the day wide open just waiting for something to occupy time.  I have gone looking to help out but there isn’t anything pending right now that I can lend a hand with. 

Last night when I took the trash out, I noticed in one of my landscaping beds that there were a bunch of rather tall weeds.  It’s as if the lawn people haven’t been doing their job.  I broke out some Roundup and sprayed.  I will peek at it when I bring the empty barrel in later on today.  The last thing I want is to get in trouble with the city.  I’ve been thinking about buying a weed trimmer for a couple years now.  Every once and a while I find something that they skipped. 

Speaking of the yard since I fired my tree trimmer, I didn’t have any work done last year and managed to skate by just fine.  However, things are to the point now where I need to have work done.  I said I wouldn’t call him back because he charged me for a tool he forgot.  He went to buy one at a local store and magically the price of my bill went up by exactly what he paid for the tool.  Well, his prices are pretty fair and while I really don’t want to call him, I really don’t want to start over with anyone else.  A simple fall clean up that can be done later this year or early next year – it’s no rush. 

Yesterday's post I removed something that I really wanted to put in, it’s the Thirsty part of the post.  I know of one particular porn star that is local to my area (who shall not be named).  I was curious to see if he did escort work and when I went surfing, I didn’t find him but found another Twink porn star.  I actually thought about calling for a split second.  My dick was saying do it, we need this.  My brain however said its trouble steer clear of this.  I’ve never done anything like that before and know that it’s a tricky rope to walk so that you don’t violate the law.  The trick is that you're paying for a person's time and not for a sexual act.  If you pay for a sexual act that’s prostitution and highly illegal.  While I doubt that a porn star would be an undercover cop or wired, they probably approach each person that calls them with some suspicion.  I’m quite lonely and while I don’t want to just jump into bed, I want to form a connection and get to know a person before we go to the bedroom.  Paying for that would get awfully expensive.  That was heart/brain talking.  My dick says pay some money, have some fun – no strings.  However, I don’t know if I could just do casual sex.  I’m sure I’d form some kind of a bond and want more, again it could get awfully expensive.  Part of me felt a little cheap posting about it but another part of me said post it, get it out of your system.  It’s not going to get me laid but somehow it might benefit someone else. 

I am toying with getting back to the dating apps just to see if I can find someone but honestly, I have no hope and don’t think anyone that I’d be interested in (twinks late 20’s to 30’s) would be interested in me.  I suppose every older guy wants someone younger.  I’m not looking to support anyone or to have anyone support me in a financial way.  Spending money on each other is just part of dating and I’m okay with normal expenses in that respect.  Heck I’d even settle for someone in there 40’s.  I’m looking for a one and done, I don’t want to play game or cycle through several guys.  However, something about dating says you have to play games and you will likely go through several guys.  I don’t have the patience or ability to tolerate getting my heart broken.  It’s kind of held together by some crappy super glue as it is and quite fragile.  I’m vulnerable and know it.  I think that I will die alone but I am not expecting to die anytime soon.  Talk about agony and suffering.  However, I know you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take and that I am already alone.  Things are pretty grim in that respect so the only place they can go is up.  I like the single life in that you have no one to report to and there is abundant freedom.  However, I am kind of over being alone.  I guess it all boils down to a catch 22.  If there is a guy for me and he is out there here’s hoping that our paths cross sooner than later. I know that time really isn’t on my side here, as age continues to climb the less appealing I am. However, the heart wants what the heart wants. I'll keep you posted if anything develops.

Speaking of age were getting closer with each passing day to my birthday. That's something I used to look forward to when I was so much younger but ever since my 30's birthdays haven't been that appealing to me. My 35^th birthday was really special and it was all because of a friend I had at work that made things come together. I was so much happier then and just didn't realize it. Nothing yet has compared to the way that birthday was celebrated but I sure do have some great memories to reflect on.

Well, I should stick a fork in this post and call it done. Hope that you all have a great weekend and thanks as always for stopping by. Take care!

Memories & Money

Morning!

Glad that Monday is out of the way.  It was a long day for me.  Today will be a little bit of the same.  Yesterday was so long because I had a lot of idle time and that should prove to be the same today or so I hope.  I enjoy taking a break from the screens, heading upstairs to be with the cats. 

Supper last night was left over Chinese food, which was combination house fried rice.  I added a little bit of hot sauce for some flavor.  As per usual Rudy bothered me and wanted some of it while I was eating.  I looked at him like I always do and say what’s a matter do you smell your cousin?  Unamused he jumped down and stormed off.  Mora didn’t bother to beg.  The answer has been and always will be no.  My food is mine and I don’t share with cats.  I rarely share with people. 

Bossman sent me an invite yesterday for a quick call to talk about my pay raise.  That call just happened and I got a 4% raise which is one of the top raises that you can get.  I’ve gotten a little bit more in years past but I am pleased with this pay increase.  I’m sure that taxes will gobble some of it up.  I am debating about adding some of this to my 401K, perhaps splitting it down the middle and taking a 2% raise for myself to live off of and giving the other 2% to my 401K.  Last year I pushed my entire raise to my 401K.  I could easily do the same as I am not struggling with what I am making but I like to see at least one pay check with the raise on it before I make any changes.  As per usual I was told to keep up the good work and that I am doing a great job. 

I forgot to mention that Sunday night I hauled out my photo collection and browsed through old pictures from trips we took as well as some childhood photos that were mixed in.  I got to see all of my family and it was kind of nice.  I got some laughs and memories came flooding back.  I’ve been wanting to do this for a while but kept putting it off.  Much to my surprise I found a nude of me.  This was back in the day when you had to take your film to a store for them to develop it.  I was just as shocked to find it as I was when it came back.  Normally those photos would not be included.  Looking over all of those photos just makes me want to take a trip but it’s not quite as much fun to travel alone.  I found an old email where my late spouse detailed an itinerary for one of our trips.  I was AOL back then and so was he.  It was a nice find as well, now I see why I hung on to it.  It was printed on a dot matrix printer.  Ah memories.  What a life.  I saw this house when it was in better shape and one of our favorite trees that a lighting strike took out. I could go on and on but time to get back to reality. 

We have a bit of a cool down in the weather still hot but not as humid.  Hopefully the AC will run a little less.  This place felt like a freezer yesterday regardless of where I was at.  The cats seemed to enjoy it and soak up the cool air. 

Well I think I am going to take a break while I can and escape to be with the cats before it’s time to come back to meeting city.  There are a couple later this morning and one this afternoon.  Then all I have to do is survive tomorrow and the boss is on vacation for a bit.  Hip Hip Hooray!

Take care and keep cool.  Talk with you all again soon!

Hot Summer Day

Well, Monday is behind us.  Hope it wasn’t too bad for you.  Mine was actually okay.  It wasn’t a super busy day but there was some work to be done.  By 3:30p I was able to head up and get logged in from my laptop to keep a watch on things at work.  Thankfully, nothing surfaced and my day was done. 

My YouTube feed is a little jacked up but it’s slowly working it’s way back to normal.  Search for one thing and watch one video and the algorithm thinks it found a new interest of yours so it rearranges things.  Anyway I saw a 20/20 Episode that looked appealing so I tuned in.  Not sure if your familiar with the case of Blaze Bernstein, he was murdered in 2018 by a classmate because he was gay (and also Jewish).  The story started off and I was like yeah I remember this.  Then I saw more recent updates for how the case turned out.  His killer was convicted.  Technology helped to solve the case more specifically Snap Chat as well as cell phone tracking.  It was still heartbreaking to hear the details play out and I felt so bad for Blaze and his family.  He died a horrible death and based on what I know from watching a lot of crime drama, his classmate was more than likely in love with him.  Poor kid just entered college and had his whole life ahead of him. 

After that was done I wasn’t sure of what to watch.  Wound up watching a if you grew up in the 70’s video.  They talked about some familiar things like Fruit Stripe Gum, Orange Tupperware, Iron on Patches, and TV Stations signing off for the night among other things.  It was interesting and made me wonder if my brother kept the Tupperware we grew up with or if he threw it out.  That was some good stuff and we ate a bunch of meals served in Tupperware.  Ah to be young again. 

The cats were extra hyper last night.  I fed them supper early and got my supper early as well.  I figured that would calm them down but it only served to rev Mora up.  She goes nuts in the time that lapses between supper and treat time.  She bugs me and does her level best to grate on my last nerve because she knows if she does that I will give in and they get treats early.  Well, it worked and then they both were out like lights but not before having some playtime of their own chasing each other around the house.  They both have a birthday coming up next week and I am already talking to them about it. 

I started feeling a little more lousy as the evening wore on and I was really dreading waking up this morning because I figured that I would be ill.  However, I turned off the ceiling fan, slept pretty good and woke up feeling okay.  I think there is still some bug in me but it’s working it’s way out.  I will be turning the fan off at night, that is normally what gets me.  I slept with it on for a month and no issues which is why I figured that I out grew that but apparently that’s not the case. 

I’ve got 3 days of interaction with my boss and I am not thrilled about that at all.  We have meetings today and tomorrow.  Then our useless check in call on Thursday afternoon, which is a waste of time.  However, I hope that maybe he has information on my pay raise, fingers crossed.  It’s about that time where we get that information.  Although in years past we have had to wait until mid to late July.  I’m only working for the money like most people. 

Grass crew showed up and mowed the lawn.  I haven’t gotten a bill from them in months and when it finally hits it’s gonna be big.  Thankfully I have money set aside automatically each month so I don’t miss it.  I like to settle my bills as quickly as possible I don’t like things lingering.  Don’t get me wrong I hate sending money out the door but I am so thankful that I have it to send.  I remember the rough times where I had to scrimp and hold my breath and barely squeaked by.  I much prefer not having to worry about it. 

Another hot summer day as time marches on.  I just think in a few months how cold it will be outside and we will be wanting it warm again.  Shame we can’t have it just right where it’s comfortable for everyone year round – the power company would hate that.  Just imagine though not having to use heat or ac on a regular basis, sounds like some kind of utopia to me. 

Thanks for stopping by, hope all is well.  Take care!

21 Years ago today

A lot has changed in 21 years.  Momma had her kittens on this hot June day 21 years ago today in the very basement I am in typing this.  It was a glorious day and I experienced a peace like nothing I have experienced since that day.  That day all was calm and right in the world, or so it felt that way. 

I sure do still miss Momma and all of her kids as well as our two strays we took in.  They were my world, my family and I’m very proud to say that.  I changed the course of everyone’s life that day – mine, my late spouses as well as Momma and her kittens. 

Happy heavenly birthday, I hope your all together having fun. 

On a different note, welcome in and thanks for dropping by.  It’s super hot and humid here.  The sun is out and so are the guys.  I saw a bunch of shirtless guys this morning, running.  I very easily could have had a wreck as I was looking at them. 

Made it to my friends shop, chatted a bit.  Scheduled a service appointment for my vehicle in a couple weeks.  I know that I am a bit early on my oil change but for the price they charge me, it’s smart to change the oil often.  Having the tires rotated and balanced as well.  I should be able to parlay that into a free lunch with my friend.  Again, something to look forward to. 

The heat was getting to me so I scooted out of there.  I had plans to stop for the mail and cat food but instead opted to come home and see the cats.  I needed to use the bathroom and wanted to grab a cold soda.  That turned into me getting nearly naked and watching TV.  I managed to fall asleep and felt better once I woke up.  Passed out lunch for the cats and then came back and watched more TV to pass time. 

Early afternoon I got dressed and headed out.  I went back to the country, the place I was the other day.  Damn I struck gold when it came to timing.  I got charged the lunch buffet price but I was there long enough they were changing over to dinner.  I ate very, very good.  The best meal I have had in a long time.  Sloppy Joes, Catfish, Fried Chicken, BBQ Pork, Mashed Potatoes and corn.  I was stuffed but figured since I had gone that far I made a trip back for some Peach Cobbler.  It was so so, could have been better but the main meal it was on the money.  This place is around 60 miles from home and it feels like I will never ever get there but eventually I arrive.  Chatted with the waitress a bit and found out that Sunday is actually the pick day they have more comfort food that day.  However, every day it’s a good spread.  I did look at a menu and they have a few items that look appealing but I can’t not order the buffet. 

When I walked in there was a couple sitting in the spot I normally get.  I kind of felt like Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory and wanted to say your in my spot.  The guy was super hot but he was all tatted up and that is kind of a turn off for me, still I got a good look at him and took it all in for what it was worth. 

Tomorrow is gonna hurt when I go to fill the gas tank.  The fuel gauge said that I could go 90 miles before I needed gas.  It’s been lower before but not that often.  I’m super anal about my fuel level and it was a little uncomfortable to make the trip but I knew for sure I wasn’t going to run out of gas.  Plus there is a fail safe when your down to I think it is 25 or 50 miles left a low fuel light and alarm comes on.  I’ve only seen that once in the 8 years I have owned this vehicle. 

Still never made it for cat food or the post office, those are tomorrow tasks.  I needed to use the restroom so I just came straight home.  I could go back out but damn it’s so hot out I really don’t want to.  Feels nice here in the basement where it’s 70 degrees.  It’s 91 degrees outside.  Besides that it upsets the cats when I leave.  If they had their way I would never ever leave their sides. 

I’m off to peruse the internet and watch more TV.  Perhaps I can trim some cat claws they sure are sharp.  Take care and stay cool.

Shocked

Happy Friday, we made it y’all!  Last night I decided to tune into HBO and watch The Mortician.  It’s a documentary series about some very disturbing things that one family in the mortuary business did, thus far with their son doing most of the disturbing acts.  It starts off bad and it’s one of those landslides where things just keep getting worse and worse and just when you think it can’t possibly be any worse something else bad happens.  There are only 2 episodes out but a new one airs each Sunday.  I’m hooked and will continue to watch. 

One of the things I’ve always wondered about with regards to cremation is how do I know that what I am given as cremains truly belonged to the person or pet that I entrusted to be cremated.  I’ve been reassured many times but hell unless you watch from start to finish you’ll never know and you just have to trust and believe.  I did get an offer to watch a deceased pet go through the process but I declined.  I mean your already upset enough over the loss, there is no way I could watch that process even though it’s just an empty shell of a body.  It’s still my pet and it would seriously adversely affect me to watch something like that.  Talk about having faith.  While I believe that most places are above board you never quite known when your going to deal with someone that is trying to cut corners or turn more of a profit for themselves.  Greed tends to be the motivating factor in every case of deception that I have seen thus far.  The criminal in the series said something to the effect of there is always left over ash and you never truly get back 100% of the cremains.  I don’t know anything about that business but I would think that if you did the job right and cleaned things out properly after each job that there would be no room for error. 

Death is always something I struggled with from childhood onward.  It was really tough to see someone young pass and I had a super hard time with that.  Now old or young it matters not, I still struggle with it.  I know that it’s something were all going to go through eventually. 

I was really taken a back by this show and how thing just kept getting worse and worse.  Seriously illegal and immoral things including murder of a competitor.  I still can’t imagine things getting much worse but I have braced myself because I think there is a lot more to come. 

On a more normal note, things are well here.  Finished off the potato casserole last night, had some more chocolate cake.  Wrote a bit more of my fantasy story which got me quite worked up (horny).  Watched some TV and had an okay nights sleep.  Some bad/odd dreams.  I got the trash out before the rain hit.  I managed to bring the barrel/container back in this morning before we get more rain. 

All in all things are moving along pretty good thus far.  I’m still very excited for tomorrow and am hoping that things go off without a hitch.  I know I haven’t shared details but I will, it’s just checking something off of a bucket list that I have wanted to do for a very long time.  I’ve told no one about it because I don’t want to jinx anything.  In the grand scheme of things, I think you will probably find it underwhelming. 

Claws are sharp on both cats again so I should probably trim nails.  I know that I need to brush them but I hate that task because fur is everywhere and my nose itches like crazy afterwards.  They both enjoy it up to a point and then they are done.  Mora is the super furry girl and I get the bulk off her.  Rudy has a tiny bit but then again he’s a tiny guy. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great weekend for all of us.  Enjoy and be well. 

So so Saturday

Hi and welcome in.  Rudy woke me at 5a he was hungry but I made him wait, he kept begging but I just wasn’t in the mood to get up especially after the week I have had.  However, I gave in at 6a.  I tried to go back to bed but it was pointless.  I got up and watched some TV and then by 7a I was ready to climb back in bed.  I set an Alexa alarm but it never had a chance to sound because I wound up cancelling it despite dosing off a little bit.  I never really fell fully asleep but my phone started chirping and it was the work tone so I had to get up to investigate since I am on-call. 

As I expected it wasn’t good news an alarm for one of our firewalls.  I tried to login and it looked like my internet was down but it was just a minor hiccup and I got connected.  Not the way I wanted to start off the morning.  I got involved in that and it appeared that everything was up and I peeked at the clock.  I had to get moving.  Since everything seemed fine at work that’s what I did. 

I barely had time to down a breakfast sandwich and a soda at a local fast food place.  Then it was off to get my head shaved.  It’s not shaved as in bald but it’s pretty close.  I went with my ultra summer cut a 1 on the sides and back and a 2 on top.  I see my shiny scalp.  I know it’s gonna itch like mad (which has started already).  I am eager to jump in the shower and scrub away.  That will feel good but the itch will return as the hair continues to grow back.  I did this so that I can continue to just get up and go and not have bed head, plus it’s more comfortable in the hotter weather. 

After my haircut I went to the office.  I had a couple things to take care of and did that and bolted back home.  I was getting sleepy.  I stopped to pick up the mother load of mail.  I say that because I had more mail than I normally have in a while.  It was all for me. 

Once I got home I opened the mail and passed out lunch for the cats.  I got out of my clothes and jumped into bed with the hope that I could nap.  It sounded great.  Once again the phone started chirping and it was work.  More alerts which I just deleted.  Multiple people get them and if there was something seriously wrong I would have gotten a phone call but it’s not like I could do anything about it because our firewalls are in different states that I am not close to, so that means a phone call to a colleague so they could go hands on.  Anyway I tried to sleep but it was pointless once again. 

I got up and had some chips and a soda.  Watched TV in the living room and browsed social media.  After a while of that I wound up jumping back in bed and watching TV.  I tried again to sleep but my body just wasn’t having it.  I wound up going out for cat food and had BBQ for supper.  I really didn’t want BBQ but was in a mood that I couldn’t make up my mind.  Hopefully, tomorrow’s dinner will be something I can really enjoy. 

My massage last night was okay.  She really worked my left shoulder that had a giant knot in it.  My back has been popping and cracking all day long.  It still hurts and I am sore from the massage.  I’ve got 3 weeks to heal before I go back and we do it all over again.  I know the knots will come back because I spend the bulk of my time in front of a computer screen.  Wish I had a man to rub my back.  I can give a pretty good massage myself but I think it’s better to receive than give.  It’s a great way to fall asleep if you can totally relax.  Me and my late spouse used to take turns rubbing each others backs and who ever was getting the massage would eventually fall asleep.  Waking up you feel very refreshed. 

I’ve surfed the net, paid bills and the cats are after me to go upstairs.  I need to make the bed and then I am getting that shower and hopefully I will sleep really well tonight. 

Take care and I will talk with you all again soon!

Raw-Dogging It

Morning … Hope that everyone is doing well on this Friday eve.  Yesterday evening I reflected back on what an awesome time I had last Wednesday.  From watching the movie to asking the cute guy out who turned out to be straight.  That was the most thrilled/excited/happy I have been in a while.  Shame I can’t bottle that feeling up so I could have a little bit of it every day.  You’d think that hearing the word no would have gotten me down but nope I was just thrilled that I took a shot and even though I didn’t get the results I was expecting I was quite proud of my accomplishment.  It takes some nerve/guts to ask a complete stranger out.  Normally I’d have butterflies in my stomach but not this time.  I was a tiny bit nervous but more interested in the outcome than anything. 

Anyway here we are a week and a day later and I am back to the old grind.  I got a new Windows 11 machine at work.  I finally had time to configure it and get it the way I wanted it yesterday.  I started using it this morning.  I still miss my Windows 10 machine but this is the way things are going so it’s just a matter of getting used to something different, despite not liking it.  I don’t know why but my machine came to me without any protection.  So I was raw-dogging it until this morning when I gave in and put on Anti-Virus protection.  I thought about just keeping it raw but with the amount of crap that I see everyday it would only be a matter of time before something malicious occurred and then I’d have to get another new machine and go through the configuration steps all over again.  I’m not the normal user as we don’t let just anyone configure their machine.  It’s one of the minor perks and professional courtesy's that I get.  Now I the only thing I have left to worry about it getting my laptop swapped out in the office.  Yes, I have two machines 1 virtual so that I can work from home and 1 laptop.  I should carry the laptop home and make it my primary machine as that is what the rest of my team does but I hate lugging a piece of equipment back and forth, plus the laptop is a small form factor and it’s nice if your moving around the office but to sit at a desk or anywhere and plug away for hours on end from a tiny screen, no thanks.  I’ve got a docking station in my office so that the experience is more like a desktop than a laptop with 2 monitors, it’s kind of nice.  I was supposed to get new monitors over a year ago but that never happened and I could honestly care less.  Especially considering that I spend the bulk of my time at home. 

The rain moved in last night and it poured all night long.  I watched as my neighbors gutter overflowed as I looked at mine, all clean and wide open flowing normally.  I know mine won’t stay that way forever but it’s nice to see while it lasts.  I got the chicken wire guards on but stuff manages to sneak past them.  No matter what kind of gutter guards you have there is some maintenance required, at least that is my understanding.  Guess that is why my mind is always in the gutter.  Yeah I know poor attempt at humor but I liked it!

Finished off the pizza from Sunday yesterday for supper.  Tonight I will be forced to open the freezer and fetch something frozen.  I’ve been eating pretty good for a while but just like going back to work, all good things must come to an end.  At least the weekend is in sight so I can dine out and get some better food (not necessarily healthier or better for me) than frozen.

I wracked my brain yesterday looking over my Google Chrome settings as to why it doesn’t permit me to login to the Adult Content Blogs and if it will permit me to login it won’t permit me to comment.  I really wanted to hit the reset to default button but I’ve got so many adjustments in Chrome that it would take longer to reconfigure.  My work around appears to be to use Duck Duck Go’s Browser, so far nothing but good luck with that.  I hate the Google makes you push so many buttons now to get into an Adult content blog, I understand the need for safety but it’s way more complicated than it needs to be.  However, that old saying you get what you pay for applies – it’s free so I suppose I shouldn’t complain.  But I just did :). 

Thursday’s are usually calmer days so I am hoping that is true today.  Thus far it is but it’s still very early in the day.  I hope that all is well in your world and that life is treating you well.  Not sure about you but I am very much looking forward to the weekend.  Take care!

Good food

I went to the pizza place and had Baked Spaghetti.  I had them use meat sauce and throw in Pepperoni.  This was close to an old dish that I used to get at a restaurant me and my late spouse used to frequent.  It was a very enjoyable meal and the portion size was just right to fill me up and leave satisfied that I had a great meal.  The memories it brought back.  Those were the good old days.  That place we used to go to also had a great pizza.  It was a mom and pop place and they just got tired and wanted to retire.  Retirement got boring and they came back but didn’t last long – things just weren’t the same and they closed up again and are gone for good. 

The drive out and back was nice and enjoyable.  Damn if I didn’t manage to get behind a motorcycle both ways.  On the way there the guy was crazy weaving in and out of traffic and splitting lanes.  I wanted to get away from him because I was pretty sure he was going to wreck.  On the way home that person had brains and rode responsibly.  I am not a fan of motorcycles they look cool but I think of them as death machines.  People don’t see them or give them enough respect on the road.  Just my opinion. 

Had a nice evening watching some TV, playing on my phone.  Finished up a piece of cake that I started on a few days ago.  Finished up writing a story and started on writing a new one.  Rudy snuggled up with me and of course he wanted to help me write but that’s not how that works.  He let me be for a while and he dosed off but he woke up and was just looking at me with those eyes and I stopped. 

Rudy got his brushing then and man he loved that.  I had brushed Mora earlier in the evening.  As per usual hardly anything came off of Rudy but Mora was a furry beast.  I think it has to do with the fact that she is thick and he is thin. 

Sleeping for me was a bit better but I did wake up early at 5a and Rudy thought it was time to get food but I told him we still had a couple hours.  I really didn’t want to roll out of bed when it was time.  I had no wake up call other than my body woke me up.  Both cats were passed out and sprung to life when I said good morning to them. 

We had breakfast and I logged in and accomplished a little bit.  I got bored and headed upstairs.  I laid down and watched TV.  Both cats joined me and of course just as we got comfy my phone decided to go nuts with requests from work.  I had to get up.  That was an invitation to Mora to move and hog the bed.  I told them I’d be right back but they never listen to me.  I came back and sat in the chair.  Mora joined me and my phone continued to chirp.  Thankfully it was all junk mail but work junk mail at that so I had to look.  Finally I was able to get drowsy again and managed to nod off.  Woke up to find out that I was in sleep paralysis, which is never fun.  I was able to snap out of that eventually and got up and came back down to knock out some work that needed my attention. 

Weather is really nice right now but the weather person said that tonight is when the severe weather is going to happen and it will continue in to tomorrow.  Sounds like it might be a sleepless night with interruptions from the weather radio.  I really hope not I’d like to sleep when I am supposed to. 

Feels great today knowing that I am no longer on-call and only have 2 more days to work.  Then I will be free from my phone as I will have work email turned off.  I really hope that I enjoy my time away because I know that when I come back there will be a lot of crap to wade through and I will also be on-call again, which will be no fun but I know I will get through it. 

Hope that Monday is going well for you.  Thanks for stopping by. 

Storms

Friday afternoon we had severe weather.  I went upstairs and it was pitch black outside.  Both cats met me at the top of the stairs.  I flipped on the TV and we weren’t upstairs that long.  I herded both cats to the basement.  None of us were happy about it but better safe than sorry.  I was trying to work as well as calm the cats.  Eventually I had to shift my focus to all work because something urgent came in.  The storm passed by and it was safe to return upstairs, so I sent the cats back upstairs.  I went up with them for a bit and then had to come back down to continue working. 

I had a storm of my own at work and it got pretty busy for me.  My boss was pestering me as well but I was on the phone and instead of leaving a voice mail he started sending me emails.  I like the fast pace of the emergent work but the last thing I wanted was to be dealing with something like that on a Friday afternoon.  What a mess, but just like the storm in real life it too is over. 

Had a nice evening with the cats.  I caught up on Georgie and Mandy’s First Marriage and then moved to Chicago PD.  Next weeks season finale of C PD will be interesting to see.  They always leave you with a cliff hanger with that desire for more. 

I got ready for bed and thought that I would have a great nights sleep but that was not the case.  Horrible dreams, insomnia and Rudy pestering me for food.  I didn’t give in to him.  I did eventually get back to sleep.  I woke up at my normal early time.  That’s when I found out why Rudy was pestering me for food.  His sister got sick in their current favorite bowl of the dry food.  Yeah I wouldn’t eat out of that dish either.  I fixed that and got fresh food (wet & dry) put out for both of them. 

I grabbed a shower and put on fresh clothes.  Then headed out for breakfast.  It was a decent meal and there was a bunch of older folks sitting at a table close by that kept me entertained with their conversations and witty banter. 

Finally made it to my friends shop and we chatted a little bit.  I always learn a little something when I go out to see him.  After a couple hours of which I mostly spent on my feet watching him work, it was time to leave.  I was tired. 

Grabbed the mail and then came home.  Opened up the house to get some fresh air in, the cats enjoyed that.  However, the pollen was killer and I realized after a short while what a bad decision that was.  I did enjoy the cool breeze we had though. 

I wanted something different for dinner but just couldn’t decide on where to go.  I wound up at the Mexican place, ordered the usual and I was really enjoying my meal when some how I managed to bite my tongue and took a small chunk off the tip.  It was bleeding pretty good and that really ruined my meal.  I ate a little bit more but stopped.  I got a Fried Ice Cream to help soothe my tongue.  They didn’t use hardly any honey and I was really looking forward to that.  It was okay.  Paid the bill and left. 

I’ve been thinking about my old childhood home and since I was in the neighborhood I decided to drive by to see how things looked at present.  It was a stroll down memory lane and I was talking to myself like I was giving a tour to a bus full of people.  My how things have changed some good and some bad.  Took the long way home and drove city roads instead of the freeway.  It was really nice.  My poor tongue was throbbing the whole time.

Played on the computer for a few hours.  Rudy got sick so I had to clean that up.  Then it was time for bed.  Again I was looking forward to what I thought would be a great nights sleep but once again horrible dreams and insomnia.  Apparently something is bothering my subconscious but I have no idea what it is, wish I did so I could fix it or try to fix it.  I really love sleeping. 

Felt a little nippy this morning but I made it out for breakfast, groceries and gasoline.  Came home watched TV and eventually napped.  Then got up and cleaned the rugs, put out my medicine and dropped off a package at the UPS Store. 

I forgot that I did manage finally after weeks to get my car washed yesterday.  It looks really good.  Of course we have more severe weather on tap for Monday thru Wednesday.  Thankfully I have no plans to leave the house until Thursday.  That is after I go out for supper tonight.  Going back to that horrible pizza place and having some pasta unless I change my mind and go for the fish.  They have 2 dishes that I want to try so 2 reasons to go back.  I will just never ever order pizza again. 

I hope that your weekend is going well and that it’s all sunshine & rainbows in your world.  Thanks for stopping by!

Have a nice weekend

Welcome … We have once again made it to Friday!  I am hoping that it will be a great weekend and I can accomplish all that I need & want to do over the weekend. 

I had a bad night of sleep where I was awake around 1a and didn’t get back to sleep until 3a.  Then woke up at 5a but managed to go back to sleep and woke up again at 6a.  I tossed and turned as well as fought off Rudy who eventually laid down on top of me patiently waiting for me to wake up.  He was with me all night long cuddling and also asking for food by making his famous biscuits. 

I’ve exhausted the Alice library on YouTube watching all of the compilations that someone took time to put together.  That was a great show for it’s time and I grew up watching it like so many others. I was attracted to Tommy played by Phillip McKeon, he sure was hot but he wasn’t the main reason why I watched the show I enjoyed all of the characters especially Flo played by Polly Holiday.  Kiss My Grits is a great saying and no one can say it quite like she did. 

Supper was lousy some frozen Lasagna.  We had a Thundershower.  It was fun watching a couple people that were out racing home by vigorously walking home.  They were out walking their dogs and this shower just popped up with no warning. 

The cats were hovering over the AC vents and the AC got to run several times yesterday.  Felt great upstairs but downstairs it’s like a meat locker.  Glad I have my space heater or I’d probably be frozen solid. 

Work was light yesterday but I did have a couple waves of work to deal with.  Primarily after business hours ended with some changes that I needed to make.  At lunch time I laid down to watch TV and take a nap.  Mora curled up next to me letting me hold her as she snuggled up underneath my arm.  She fell asleep and was snoring.  I just got to sleep and of course was cursed by my phone going off, never did make it back to a sleepy state.  Mora was sawing logs.  Glad that I can bring her so much comfort and peace.  It’s nice that they both feel safe with me. 

This morning was a little busy and we have sunshine and more hot weather on tap.  However, severe storms moving in with the threat of Hail, Wind and possible Tornado’s later this afternoon.  Not looking forward to that.  However, once that passes things will cool off a bit and it is supposed to be nice weather for the weekend.  More rain on tap for next week.  Lawns, Trees, Plants, etc. are all thriving right now.  You can easily see who keeps up with their grass mowing and who is lagging behind. 

Have a nice weekend and thank you as always for stopping by!

It’s big

Hi  Happy Monday if there is such a thing.  I don’t really have a lot to tell today.  It’s just kind of a hum drum Monday.  Weather is average for this time of year and it’s raining on and off again.  That will be the story tomorrow as well.  However, temps are going to be heating up as the week moves on. 

I had some personal computer issues this morning where my anti-virus suddenly thought a legit program was a virus.  I wound up having to uninstall the program, tell my anti-virus that it was safe by creating an exception or exclusion.  Rebooting (which I hate) and then reinstalling the software before the app would work.  Things like this don’t happen often to me but they happen more often at work.  I checked Virus Total to see if the program showed up for other anti-virus vendors and it came back clean, that’s what I expected and when I reinstalled it. 

I was super tired last night and while I wanted to watch porn and I did I didn’t get any pleasure from it.  I am all horned up today and have been ever since I got out of bed.  I am surprised that I haven’t done something about it but I am letting the urge build for what I hope will be amazing when I finally give in. 

Not sure if any of you followed Will & RJ on You Tube back in the day.  Will was the one who started daily vlogging and watching his videos were a huge part of my day.  I even watched their wedding on live stream it was the first formal gay wedding I went to even thought my attendance was virtual.  I hated when they got divorced.  They sure gave their relationship a great trial run and I figured their marriage was solid but sadly that was not the case.  RJ never really did anything for me but I liked Will.  Anyway, in browsing for porn today I found that RJ has done some only fans videos.  No wonder he has a snake tattooed on his leg.  He’s got a nice snake of his own between his legs.  I was super surprised to see him do videos.  If it wasn’t for the fact he was going by his real name and that tattoo I wouldn’t have known it was him. 

Guess that proves that you never really know what will show up on the internet.  With that it’s about time to wrap things up here in the basement for the day and ascend to the living room to finish out the rest of the work day and be with the cats.  I know they will be pleased to see me. 

Talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

All moved in - iPhone 16

Last night I ate a quick supper and then worked to move into my new iPhone.  Things got off to a good start until I needed to move my cellular service over.  I had some issues with getting the eSIM for my primary line to transfer, it was user error.  Apple wanted me to click the power button twice but I mistook that and thought they meant to tap twice on screen.  Clearly my brain wasn’t firing on all cylinders.  Once I tapped the power button the line transferred with in a few minutes.  AT&T Prepaid only lets you turn off their Account Security Feature once every 48 hours.  If you are a postpaid customer you can turn the feature on and off at will.  Next up was my secondary line with Visible.  They let you turn their Line Lock feature off but it’s tied to a time limit they set.  I had to wait 20 minutes.  I’m guessing it’s a security feature.  Both carriers send a text and a warning email so you are aware both when you turn these security features on and off.  They are designed to thwart SIM Swapping and when turned on they make it impossible for anyone to make changes to your account.  Most of the major cell carriers have this feature but I’m not sure about MVNO’s (Mobile Virtual Network Operator) some examples of these are Mint, Boost, US Cellular, Consumer Cellular, etc.  After 20 minutes I got my secondary line transferred just as easy as the first line.  To my knowledge there was no charge by either carrier for this since all I did was move an existing eSIM from a device to a new device. 

I was amazed at how buttery smooth everything went with the entire setup process.  I already know I am not using my phone to it’s full capacity but it does what I want and need it to do.  I will be watching some YouTube videos to gain more insight.  It also helped greatly to have a fully charged battery and the backup battery case.  The phone is still completing the internal setup process but it’s fully useable.  If I go to check the battery I get a message that tells me that.  My iPhone was made back in February 2025. 

I’m using the Hey Siri feature which I didn’t previously.  I’ve taken some great photos with the new phone and am impressed with image quality.  I can only imagine what Max and Pro Users experience.  Perhaps I will find that out in a few years when it’s time for my next upgrade. 

I was able to configure my phone for work on my own, since that technically falls as part of my job.  It was nice not having to put in any tickets or call anyone.  Just login and take care of it on my own. 

I haven’t wiped the old device just yet but it’s in airplane mode and powered off.  I will probably sell it but I have thought about keeping it.  I am not in any hurry to make a decision on that but I know that I can’t take too long since the value of the device drops with time.  Last time I checked I think I could get $70 for it. 

I was exhausted by the time I was ready for bed.  However, I managed to finish up that scene with Aiden Ward, Bryce Jax and James Cassidy.  Thought I was going to have a heart attack but I put forth the effort to get the reward if that makes sense.  I was huffing and puffing when I was done.  Cleaned up and jumped in bed, wasn’t long and I was in dream land. 

Woke up a couple times overnight with a cat nudging me.  I never looked until early this morning and found that it was Rudy.  He had to get comfy and if I moved he moved.  Eventually he heard me take a breath and he sprung to life at 5a.  I just laid in bed with him and his sister.  Watched TV and tried to go back to sleep but it was no use.  By 6:30a we were out of bed. 

I threw on some underwear and retrieved my new charger/phone holder from the porch that Amazon delivered.  Then passed out food for the cats.  Opened up the package and got it unpacked.  On to the shower and to get dressed.  Then out to the car to install the new phone holder/charger.  It was all in place I put my phone on it and when I went to pull my phone off it broke in the same spot as the other one did.  I was upset.  Back inside to box it up.  Then in front of the computer to print another label and box it up for return. 

Left the house and went to grab the mail.  Had a parcel in a locker the key didn’t want to fit but I got it in eventually then couldn’t turn it all the way.  I tried and tried but no luck.  Damn this day was off to a horrible start. 

On to breakfast and it was good but service was slow.  Back to the post office afterwards to speak to a human and retrieve my parcel.  Then on to Target to get a cell phone holder for the car.  I wanted something durable and found exactly that.  I really wanted to go to Best Buy but getting in there is like a maze and there is a good chance you will get into an accident or have a close call.  I didn’t need that hence why I hit up Target.  $20 for some plastic.  I tried but couldn’t fit the vent mount holder into the ball socket to get it mounted.  Came home to unload and bring my jacket in.  Then grabbed a hammer and a light tap knocked the ball into the socket and I was able to mount the new holder.  It looks great just going to take a little bit of getting used to.  It doesn’t use magnets but rather has plastic arms that snap in place to grab the phone by the sides, it’s snug and does a decent job.  It’s probably going to wear out eventually so I will have to replace it.  First time ever that I haven’t had a Mophie charger in the car.  I killed just enough time for the UPS store to open.  Dropped off both of my boxes and within in a couple hours Amazon issued refunds for both because they were scanned by UPS.  That’s usually how that works.  I hate returning anything for any reason but I will still do it. 

Traveled to the office to get that reading the vendor needed, only to find out they came out yesterday and got it themselves so I really didn’t need to go in but I didn’t know that ahead of time.  My desk was full of mail so I cleaned that off.  Changed the calendar forward by 2 months and if anyone looks they will know I am still alive.  I never ran into anyone but I know that I wasn’t alone.  It was a quick in and out trip.  43 miles one way – I still am amazed that I traveled that each day without question 5 days a week prior to the pandemic.  I do feel some isolation being at home but damn think of all of the time and money I save by staying home, no wonder I am more productive at home. 

Made it home a little after 11:30a and promptly turned on the alarm, got out of my clothes and laid down in bed.  Both cats joined me and we watched some TV and then I took a nap.  Rudy wanted lunch and woke me up.  I came downstairs to start laundry and get a jump on finances as well as do some porn surfing.  Damn if the florescent light in my office didn’t finally give out.  It started acting up 6 months ago and I have babied it along.  Last time the bulbs were changed my spouse was alive, that’s a long life for a light bulb.  Looked on line for a replacement found out where they were kept so I knew exactly where to go.  I hate the home improvement store aka hardware store. 

After a while I went over and found the bulbs.  I got super bright instead of soft white.  Damn what a difference that has made.  It’s like the sun is in my office now.  Anyway after that on to the cat food store and then finally to get some supper for me.  I went to a childhood hangout for Mexican food.  Damn the beef is super spicy and always feels like fire in my belly but it tastes so good.  I don’t go there often but each time I do I think of all of the times I was in there as a kid, plus I hope to run into someone I know but that hasn’t happened yet. 

Back home to finish up laundry and fight to get the light bulbs installed.  Mora is telling me it’s time for bed and she isn’t wrong.  Grabbing the bedding and heading up after I post this.  Then it will be time to wind down.  Perhaps watch some more porn but for sure watch some TV. 

I feel good about today.  The only thing that didn’t happen was me visiting my friends shop.  I really wanted to do that just to say HI and hang out for a bit.  However, I plan to do that next Saturday despite being on-call.  I am hopeful that the weekend will be quiet.  Here is hoping nothing wrecks that plan. 

How was your Saturday?  Were you productive and did you make time for relaxation?  Sunday’s feel the best after I get my morning shopping done coming home and watching TV with the cats for a bit then taking a nap.  That’s when I feel the best but it’s time that is short lived as the day goes by pretty fast and before I know it is back to work. 

Thanks for stopping by!  I still miss the home button on my phone but have adapted pretty quickly to the new way of doing things, don’t necessarily like it but I can function.  Glad I made this purchase it was long overdue. 

Morning

Hope all is well.  Wanted to sneak in a quick post before the day gets away from me.  I can already tell it’s going to be busy and probably a little crazy busy at times.  Here’s hoping that I can hang on to my sanity.  However, if I can make it through the ordeal with AT&T I think I can survive work on a busy ass Monday. 

Last night I bought a new iPhone.  Getting the 16 and making the leap into face id with no home button.  I don’t think I will like it much at first but I will try my best to get used to it.  Not like I have much of a choice.  I am doing this instead of getting the battery replaced in my current iPhone.  Not sure if I will hang on to that phone or if I will sell it for the cash.  I already know that it’s not worth much but outside of the battery needing service it’s really in great shape.  I didn’t buy Apple Care or any insurance because I really think it’s a waste of my money.  I am super careful with my phone, it will be in a case and have a screen protector on it.  Bragging a bit here but I paid cash for the phone so I don’t have any commitment hanging over my head.  It’s a large chunk of money and will affect my savings goal. 

I also placed an Amazon order.  It started with Amazon and since I was getting the case and screen protector I opted to get the phone.  Figured might as well get the jump before prices change due to tariffs. 

Now I will be busy keeping an ear out for the cameras letting me know when the delivery drivers show up.  The only thing better than getting mail is getting packages. 

Had a nice time with the cats.  Rudy played with his banana (toy) in bed.  I loved to see him bite and shake it.  Not sure why all cats do that but it’s always struck me as funny.  His sister did the same thing this morning. 

House is cold because the temps outside dropped into the 50’s.  It’s 70 in here.  I have space heaters running to help take the chill off.  Rudy curled up with me overnight because he was so cold.  Gator would have climbed under a cover somewhere in the house if she was still around.  She hated the cold.  Rudy & Mora aren’t huge fans of the cold but seem to tolerate it.  Which makes me wonder why when the AC is on they will stick their face in front of the vent to get the cold air on it. 

Well I need to return to keep things moving at work.  No meetings today at least thus far so hopefully I can be productive.  Hope you have a great day as well.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Life Changing Day–12 Years Ago Today

Twelve years ago today my life changed forever when I lost the love of my life.  I remember it like it was yesterday and it was truly a nightmare that came to life.  A day that I knew always would happen someday but one that I wasn’t ready for when it did happen.  You prepare mentally for it but when it happens regardless of how much you prepare your just not ready, at least that was my experience. 

My spouse had suffered from a massive stroke and I had to remove life support as meaningful recovery wasn’t possible and it was his worst nightmare to be trapped in a working body.  Oddly enough all of his nightmares and fears were like predictions because sadly they all came true. 

Today it feels like just another day but in years past it has been quite the sensitive day for me.  I still miss him and that I am told will be a life long feeling that just never goes away.  It is true with time memories fade and you don’t recall things as crystal clear as you once did.  I’m glad that I wrote a book about our life, despite the original print being riddled with grammatical errors it still memorializes things and I look back at it from time to time.  I’ve fixed the grammatical errors and thoughts about a second publishing but never quite got around to it.  The book was available for purchase for a very short time but it never sold and honestly I didn’t think it would. 

A lot has changed since that day and I am still confident to say that he would be proud of me for making it.  I never thought I would survive and things would turn out nearly as well as they have.  It was a rough battle and a costly one both emotionally and financially.  Yet, here I am.  A lesson that I learned is that you never know what you will do until your back is pinned against the wall and you have no way out.  Your capable of doing more than you think!  I also learned that there is nothing like a crisis to show you who your true friends really are.  Most of the people that we thought of as friends have faded away, they all offered to call on them for help but when called upon they failed me.  The only true person you can count on in this world is yourself, but it sure does help to have some true friends. 

I am not a fan of the month of April ever since this day unfolded twelve years ago, it’s the one month that I wish I could skip.  However, no such luck.  I also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my late spouse would want me to move on and to find someone to spend the rest of my life with.  It’s not that I haven’t tried but just haven’t found that person yet.  I am still looking not as much as I could but my eyes are open.  While I don’t think I will be successful with this quest I haven’t given up hope.  Time is my enemy here because you never know when it’s your expiration date.  In some respects it would be handy to know but in other respects it’s better that it remains a mystery. 

Looking at my family history my grandfather lived into his 70’s and my grandmother and mom lived into their early 60’s.  Others from both my grandfathers and grandmothers side of the family have lived longer.  This is my mom’s parents.  I’ve got no idea about my dad’s side of the family since he disowned us.  To my knowledge he’s still alive.  My best guess and that’s truly what it is, is that I will probably be around into my 60’s or 70’s.  Hell I might live to be 90.  I just hope that I am in a position to either take care of myself or be surrounded by people who will take care of me and not to be stuck in a nursing home – those places suck and are hell on earth.  That’s just my opinion. 

I say it often and I mean it more than anyone knows.  I really do miss my family.  That’s my late spouse and all of our cats.  I miss the life I had which at the time in looking back was happiness.  We did some traveling, ate really good, enjoyed each others company, went to concerts, sporting events and some dinner parties.  Had some great sex and got each other through some difficult & trying times. 

We met when I was still very much a kid, despite being 18.  We were together for about 25 years and while it seems like a lifetime it’s only been half of my life.  He finished raising me and teaching me what I call street smarts.  Hell I didn’t even have a drivers license when we met and he taught me to drive, something I was deathly afraid of.  I think of that often when I am behind the wheel, that if it wasn’t for him I’d probably be depending on public transportation or taking some ride share.  It’s great to be able to get in a vehicle and just drive to where ever, when ever you want. 

I’m not quite sure how to wrap up this post as I could go on and on.  I am so thankful that we met and for all of the experiences (both good & bad).  I hope that I can find someone who loves me half as much as I loved this man.  I hope that he is resting in peace.  He’s always on my mind and the memories live on within me.  It’s a difficult day but I’ll make it through just as I have for the past twelve years.  One day at a time!

Another 1st

I was so looking forward to my massage last night.  Muscles all tense and just the thought of a hot rock touching my skin as well as a pair of hands sounded so good.  Work bothered me up until I had only a couple minutes to spare.  Thankfully this place is right around the corner and I made it with a minute to spare.  Both of the doors were locked and no way to get a massage if I can get inside.  I called and then the therapist was at the door unlocking it.  She was finishing up with a client and I got to chatting with that person about their vehicle. 

The therapist was coughing a lot but I didn’t think much of it.  It continued into my massage and it got worse to the point where she became nauseated and barfed.  Needless to say this was the first time a massage ended early because the therapist got sick.  She said that she hadn’t eaten and thought that it what was causing it.  I think she was getting sick – at least she had post nasal drip and that is what made her barf.  She said she felt better afterwards but still she wanted to get home. 

She only charged me for an hour which we barely got in.  I get 30 minutes for free next time and we booked another session for next Friday.  It’s only an hour but I think I will probably need it if next week is anything like this week has been. 

I just got comfy on the table and was starting to relax when she got sick.  Since my back didn’t get what I was expecting I am super sore this morning.  She was digging but hadn’t quite worked out the knots just yet. 

At least I ate supper before I went.  Had a Grilled Cheese as I watched the latest episode of The Pitt.  Damn that’s an easy way to burn an hour.  I love that show but some of it is just too damn real. 

This morning when I woke up I was intent on heading out for breakfast but after a shower I felt like my sugar was crashing.  I instead opted to eat a couple pop-tarts and drink a soda.  That was breakfast.  I wasted time watching TV until I had to leave for my haircut appointment.  Got a free neck shave. 

After that I came back home, got out of my clothes and watched TV.  I watched Yanni Live at the Acropolis.  That took me back down memory lane.  My late spouse introduced me to Yanni.  We went to a couple concerts and I’ve got every CD that he put out, plus a couple video tapes.  His music is enjoyable still to this day.  I enjoy the upbeat songs the most.  Loved seeing the drum solo that Charlie Adams put on.  Wow he can play the drums!  He did that same solo at one of the concerts we went to and seeing as well as hearing it live is way more enjoyable.  Gosh, I sure do miss those good times. 

Eventually, I crawled into bed with Rudy and Mora joined us.  She wanted to cuddle and it didn’t matter that her brother was in the way she just plowed through and plopped so she could be next to daddy.  Rudy was all relaxed so it didn’t phase him at all.  I was tired when I got into bed but woke up a bit just laying there listening to the music play.  When the concert was over I tried to go to sleep but only closed my eyes and tossed a bit.  Wound up getting up and passing out lunch for the kids. 

That’s when I too got hungry but nothing here really appealed to me.  I polished off some chips and had another soda.  Then sat in front of my laptop trying to work on my WIN 11 machine at work.  I eventually locked it up and now need someone to reboot it for me, that probably won’t happen until Monday.  I’ve still got a phantom monitor and it’s causing me some issues.  Once I figure that out I am ready to give that machine a spin to see if I can make it working on it for a couple days.  I’d rather test it out than be forced to move to it and find that something I need wasn’t there.  I think I’ve got everything but nothing like a real world test to prove that out. 

Went out for a Large Fish Sandwich to a sports bar.  I had to wait for a table but not long.  I saw a lady leaving saying she was cold.  I felt fine, that is until I got my table.  They had the AC on full blast and it was chilly so I too was cold.  Didn’t have to wait terribly long for the sandwich to arrive.  it was fresh out of the fryer and damn hot but it tasted so good.  Had fries with it and they weren’t bad.  I could have used some celery salt to improve them.  It was an inexpensive supper and I was stuffed. 

I left and getting on to the freeway I saw a truck that had slid off the ramp and into some trees.  The truck was facing me and there was someone inside that didn’t have the best look on their face.  I was in the flow of traffic and couldn’t stop.  I did the next best thing and flew down the freeway, used a U turn that is reserved for the cops and went back to check on the driver.  I normally don’t stop but something called me to this.  I called 9-1-1 just before I pulled up and they told me that the police had already been out.  About that time the driver was at my passenger door and he told me the same thing.  Well, at least everyone was okay.  The guy was waiting on a tow truck to pull him out.  I went on my way and headed home. 

Then I went to process change at work that I had dreaded.  I did all of the work and then realized it was effective on April 1.  I had to undo all of the work I just did and put everything back because Monday is the 31st.  Then come Monday night I have to re-do my changes.  Damn!  While I was in I saw a couple other issues I could lend a hand on and grabbed them up and took care of them.  Logged off and went up to pass out treats for the cats while I took my laundry up. 

I feel like I am loosing my mind from all of the stress this week.  My hope is that tomorrow will be a more normal day.  At least I will start with breakfast out so I have something in my stomach before I go taking on the day.  Gonna do some surfing here and then head up to make the bed and enjoy an evening with the cats trying to take a break from technology.  I feel like my eyes as well as my brain could both use the rest. 

Hope all is well in your world!

The BEST Day

Last night as I was prepping for bed the storms were rolling into the area.  It was windy all day long and it was quite obvious that a storm was brewing.  The weather radio went off and that scared the cats.  It also scared me.  My cell phone went off with an alert and that always scares me.  Instead of watching some new porn I watched the weather and flipped between the local stations as I normally do when there is a weather event like this.  We had a tornado headed in our direction but it passed, just high winds, hail and lots of rain.  The weather sirens were set off.  I felt my sleeping meds starting to kick in and try as I might there was no fighting it.  We were out of danger and I just crawled into bed and gave up.  Turned on the white noise machine and the cats stayed with me. 

I woke up around 3:15a just because and had to use the bathroom.  I looked outside and everything looked normal to me, which I am thankful for.  Used the bathroom and went back to bed.  Then I woke up again around 5a.  I watched some TV and by the time I got back to sleep Rudy was waking me up because it was time for breakfast (7a)

Hauled myself out of bed and passed out breakfast for the cats.  Then I sat up for a bit and watched TV.  It was around 8:30a when I got drowsy and opted to go back to bed.  I woke up again at 10:30a and then got my breakfast. 

Had a Bob Evans Blueberry Pancake, Sausage, Egg and Cheese sandwich.  I poured on some Blueberry syrup and that was delicious.  It was a bit larger sandwich than I had expected.  However, it didn’t fill me up so I ate one left over Cinnamon Roll Pop Tart that was good but I was still hungry.  Finished a left over 1/2 slice of White Chocolate Raspberry cake and then I called it.  I wasn’t stuffed to the gills but I was satisfied. 

Time for morning meds and then back to the chair to take in more TV until the sugar from breakfast wore off and I went back to sleep with the cats.  Had to wake up Rudy and move him so I could climb back into bed.  He wasn’t happy but he moved and got settled again. 

I love days when I can do nothing.  Despite being on-call there has been no bothering thus far from work and I hope that continues for the remainder of the weekend.  Just being lazy and free is great for me and quite relaxing.  I really needed a day like this after the hellish week I have had. 

Got up and moving around 3:30p had a shower and had to pass out early supper for the cats because Rudy was hungry.  I left and headed for my favorite Mexican restaurant.  I tried to think of other places to go but nothing sounded quite as appealing.  Service was horrible kind of like the last time I was there but this time was a bit worse.  I got there around 4:15p just when the crowds were starting to pour in and they just weren’t staffed properly. 

Ate my meal and saw a really good looking guy.  He looked to be with a girlfriend or wife.  He headed for the bathroom and that was one of the times that I wished I had the courage to follow him and hit on him, but I didn’t.  I just let the fantasy play out in my head, that is for sure safer but not quite as hot.  Paid my bill and headed off to grab the mail before coming home. 

I am working on laundry which I should have been doing earlier today but hey it’s okay I’ve got time.  The cats aren’t happy with me but that will be short lived. 

I did brush both of them last night and trim claws.  Mora got mad and snapped but didn’t bite me.  Rudy tried to bite me.  I try to move quickly because I know both of them have a low tolerance for me messing with their nails.  Rudy I think picked up the behavior of snapping and biting from his sister as she has done it a few times.  There are times when Rudy just lets me go and doesn’t do anything.  When I am done most of the time they both just want to get away from me and I am okay with that.  Mora for the first time just hung around me and soaked in all of the attention she could. 

The only issue with sleeping all day is that I know I will probably have trouble sleeping tonight.  For that reason I limited myself to one soda with my meal.  I am drinking cold water now, love that stuff and can’t get enough of it.  Especially after hitting this particular Mexican place because of the high salt content I ingest.  They tried to give me a soda to go but I declined.  The way soda prices are in restaurants today I normally do not decline a soda to go.  Kind of wish I would have asked for an ice water to go, that would have been really good on the way home. 

Need to get up early tomorrow to get my usual errands out of the way.  Then I can come home and lounge for a bit and savor that as well as going back to bed for a bit if I want.  Then it will be time to get up and get moving with cleaning and probably more laundry. 

I already have breakfast planned out.  I am getting a Strawberry Waffle with 3 scrambled eggs.  Been looking forward to this all week long ever since last weekend when I saw the guy behind me eating the same thing.  The waffle looks so good and it reminds me of Huddle House which is a Waffle House knock off.  We used to have them in the area but the one we had closed up years ago.  They had the best Strawberry Waffles and we used to go there all the time – it was good food and cheap.  Probably not the best nutrition but it was some good eating!

Not looking forward to “being on my own” next week with my colleague out on his leave.  However, I am hopeful that it won’t be horrible.  I am planning on trying to actually make it in the office one day but that will depend largely on my attitude. 

Hope your weekend is good thus far and that it continues as we roll into Sunday.  Thanks for stopping by, talk with you all again soon!

The Weekend

Made it to the breakfast buffet.  It was truly a bust and I was disappointed, especially after driving a little over an hour to get there and looking so forward to it all week long.  The eggs were ice cold, the sausage links they had tasted odd but I ate them.  They had decent French Toast Sticks but no other flavor of syrup than maple so I ate them plain.  Hash Browns in a wedge kind of like you’d get from McDonald’s but way bigger.  Blueberry Muffins dusted with powered sugar.  There were a couple of egg casseroles I tried one of them and it was greasy, I saw sausage and thought it would be pretty good.  Turns out it was a locally made sausage cured in beer and it tasted God awful.  I wondered what I put in my mouth so I asked the waitress and she told me that everyone raves over it.  I told her that it was disgusting and she was surprised at my reaction.  Dropped $19.01 that included a tip and then headed home. 

Well not straight home, I went to my friends shop in hopes that they would know the crazy lady from the gas station but no luck.  Tried Cheeseburger Flavored Doritos and they were really good. 

While I was at the breakfast buffet my Thanksgiving friends reached out via text and I’ve arranged to meet them tonight for supper.  I came home from my friends shop and had the best intentions of taking a nap but called to setup dinner for tonight and wound up in a two hour phone conversation where we talked about everything from current happenings to my late spouse and his health.  It was a walk down memory lane and damn I really miss him!

I ventured out to Ruby Tuesday’s which is where I originally wanted to go on Friday.  They had a Garlic Lover’s Burger it sounded good but turns out it was Charbroiled and it tasted gross but I ate it.  At least I got some decent Tater Tots, haven’t had those in forever.  It was time to pay my bill and I heard the bar tender explaining a bill to a customer at the bar.  She went over and over saying the same thing.  Then she roped in my waitress and after a few times of hearing the same story I totally understood his bill way better than he did. He ordered a couple drinks and shots and wasn’t prepared for the cost, he thought he was being over charged.  He also got food.  The manager was involved and that’s when I asked the bar tender how much his bill was she said $80 and then corrected herself to say $60.  I told her I was going to offer to pay it just to shut him up but damn that was a little steep plus it involved liquor and I’m just not a fan of paying for someone’s habit.  I walked out and thought wow I probably dodged a bullet.  I love to help people and that is what seems to attract the crazy factor, at least in the last couple days. 

This morning I went out for breakfast as per usual.  I walked in and noticed it was oddly quiet and then I heard we have no power it will be two hours before it’s back on.  Damn I was really looking forward to breakfast.  I walked out and thought everything happens for a reason.  For the first time in over a year I went back to Cracker Barrel.  I not only saw the waiter I had a crush on and asked out, he was my waiter.  He remembered me and my drink order.  The menu has seriously changed but I knew what I wanted and ordered it.  He told me that he’s been traveling to California and he just bought a house.  Then he told me where he lived, general area and asked me again to refresh his memory where I lived.  He touched my shoulder and said it’s really good to see you again.  Fuck he looked as hot as ever.  I really want him not only sexually but as a friend.  However, I’ve done my recon work and not only is he in his early 20’s but he’s got a criminal record that’s pretty long and he has this habit of driving without a license and getting caught constantly.  He’s got a case pending now.  If it wasn’t for his criminal record I would continue to pursue him until he either told me to get lost or gave in and went out on a date with me.  I am sure that there is probably more to his criminal story that what I see on-line but it is truly a disappointment.  I was really counting on him going out with me some three years ago when I initially approached him but he told me he had school but he would for sure call me.  He plaid games and strung me along.  Yeah he broke my heart but that’s also why I haven’t been there in over a year.  I can’t shove my feelings aside for wanting him I just know that having it actually come to fruition is not only dangerous it’s probably just not happening.  I’m sure he’s still got my number and I have his, unless he’s changed it.  If he wants to make a move I’m willing to at least go on a date with him.  I’ve let him know many, many times that I am very interested, I think to the point where my desperation showed.  I just don’t get why he would tell me that he was interested and exchange numbers with me but not follow through, kind of wish that he would have just said no, that would have hurt but I’d be over it by now.  I’ve been thinking about him ever since I left Cracker Barrel and I know he’s going to be in my thoughts for a while.  Everything happens for a reason and I think I have dogged a pretty big bullet here but yet I keep putting myself in the line of fire over and over.  Guys and there good looks – I’m just a sucker and desperate at that.  Not desperate enough to just do a hookup though.  That’s why I’ve got such a porn addiction.  It’s been a little over a decade since I got laid and to say I’ve got the itch to fuck is quite the understatement.  It’s only getting worse the longer this goes on.  If I didn’t engage in self pleasure I would be in serious dire straights. 

Looking forward to seeing my friends and catching up as well as getting some advice from them.  I think I am going to talk with HR and let them know about the crazy lady not only for my own protection but for the sake of the business.  My telling them can only help both of us and if they opt to interview and hire her well then that’s on them.  I do want to preserve and protection my reputation.  I think that is the right thing to do and I will certainly think twice before I ever hand my business card to a complete stranger ever again. 

Thanks for stopping by and reading my yapping.  I hope your doing well and life is treating you well.  It’s back to work for me tomorrow and I don’t look forward to it at all but it’s a necessary evil to continue to keep on keeping on.  Cheers!

Catching up

Happy Friday!  I hope that you had a great holiday and that the week has been good for you. 

Tuesday all day long my nose was running and bothering me.  I figured it was just out of control allergies.  However, Wednesday I woke up and was sick.  I thought about going to Christmas Dinner but being sick was the perfect out so I stayed home.  I watched TV and napped didn’t really do much of anything. 

Thursday was kind of a repeat of Wednesday.  I wanted to come downstairs and get on the PC but I got comfy on the couch and the cats knew I was sick and were super clingy.  I just stayed upstairs and watched TV. 

I’ve seen a ton of movies.  The one that stands out the most was The Holdovers.  I would go back and forth between streaming services and just scroll and pick.  It was a lot of fun watching movies. 

This morning I woke up and felt even worse, it was all in my head.  My teeth were bothering me and even my jaws hurt.  I just listened to my body and watched more TV and dozed off a little bit.  However, I knew that I had a deadline looming over me to get the trash out.  Besides that all of this laying around was starting to get on my nerves.  I had better plans for my time off. 

I got out of bed to pass out lunch for the cats, then got dressed and enjoyed a Chicken Salad Sandwich from the store.  It was so damn good.  I feel better now and hope that I am on the mend. 

Theories as to what got me sick.  #1 remember that little boy who I saw last weekend that remarked about me being all alone?  He had a sister who coughed in my direction and it was a pretty bad cough.  #2 If that didn’t do it then it’s some donuts that I had shipped in from NYC they have been in the fridge the entire time they have been here (about a week) and I heat them up in the microwave before I eat them.  I paid so much for them I hated to throw 1/2 of them away but that’s exactly what I did.  In fact I got rid of anything that was expired that I might snack on just in case.  What I have doesn’t feel like food poisoning, more like a serious sinus infection. 

While it sucks being sick.  I knew that it was probably raining fire at work.  Yesterday was pretty easy to sift through email and I did that in the evening.  I looked today and damn it if my co-workers wife didn’t go in to labor.  I will be on-call next week for part of the week because of him and I will have a lot of shit to take care of.  My boss will be out on Monday & Tuesday.  Were off on Wednesday.  I took Thursday & Friday off and that’s when my boss is back.  It’s going to suck.  Her due date was the 9th of January and that’s kind of what we had prepared for because he told me to count on it due to advancements in medical science.  He’s supposed to be out for 2 weeks and then coming back but I have no idea if that is still the plan.  I sent an email to my boss and found out that she went into labor and were just figuring that he will be out next week.  My co-workers famous last words were that he wasn’t trying to screw me or leave me with a bunch of work but damn it if he didn’t do that.  I’ll make it and am not worried but I just wasn’t prepared to go back on-call so quickly.  This sucks!

Knowing what was looming for me I got the trash out and then came down.  I joined Chariotz only fans.  It’s $4.99 and honestly there isn’t a whole lot of content but he’s hot and there were a few videos that I was interested in, most of which were short.  I feel his price is fair and it’s nice to hear his stories told without censorship.  I was hoping for some hotter action scenes but again don’t feel bad for spending what I did.  I’m glad that I accomplished this because it was on my list. 

I did have my phone off since Christmas morning when I texted my friends to tell them that I wasn’t going to make it.  It felt nice but odd to not have my phone handy.  I did power it up on Thursday and then once I got caught up on a few things I powered it right back down. 

I’ve been tracking my iPad shipment.  Amazon now tells me I won’t get it until next year.  However, UPS still holds firm with a delivery date on Monday.  I won’t be able to use it or play around with it until later in the evening since work will likely have me busy.  I am relieved that after a couple days I saw scan activity that it’s at least in the same state as me.  I am really hoping that I’ll get it tomorrow but I suppose I am okay with Monday if it has to be that way.  Just as long as it surfaces and is in perfect working order I’ll be happy.  The keyboard and pencil are both charged up and ready to go.  To say I am anxious is a little bit of an understatement. 

This is the first year that I didn’t power up the ceramic Christmas Tree that sits on top of a bookshelf all year long.  That’s really the only tree I can have with cats.  I remember one year I put it on one of the pieces of cat furniture since it was just me and Gator.  She didn’t climb around due to her age but damn if her curiosity didn’t get the best of her and she had to investigate. Thankfully no harm came to her or the tree.  I quickly put it back on the bookshelf. 

I have had some egg nog.  It’s ultra pasteurized and it smells to high heaven but the taste is pretty good.  Still have plenty of cookies to eat.  I will be sure to get rid of it if it’s still hanging around here on Sunday.  I don’t trust dairy to linger like that even though the stamped on date says it’s safe for a couple weeks.  

At least I have the rest of today and the weekend to enjoy before I go back to the hell fire of a mess that is waiting for me.  Part of me is glad that I know ahead of time and part of me kind of wishes I didn’t.  However, my boss never sent anything out saying why my co-worker was out so if it wasn’t for my email exchange today I would have just been confused and wondering. 

Tomorrow I need to make a cat food run, grab the mail.  I’d like to grab breakfast out and something for supper.  As long as I continue to feel better as the hours and days tick by that is the main thing.  Not 100% sure if I will go to my friends New Years Open House not only because I will be on-call but because there will be a crowd of people and I am not a fan of crowds. 

Thanks for your visit, I will talk with you all again soon!

Lazy Monday

Morning … Back to reality aka the normal daily routine.  I got an early morning wake up call from Rudy at 6a but managed to roll over and go back to sleep for a bit.  He came back closer to my normal wake up time of 7a.  He tends to go more by the time the timer kicks the light on in the living room rather than the actual clock.  He is always so excited for morning.  He is every bit as sweet and cute as I am describing.  I am lucky to have him in my life and so thankful for him and his sister.  It is truly a well made match, despite the cold feet I had in the beginning which will be two years ago next month. 

As my post from yesterday mentions I had some trouble getting away to get to supper.  However, I made it despite it being later than I wanted.  I encountered deer on the drive to but there were no close calls and for that I am thankful. 

Red Lobster was packed at least to look at the parking lot but I think most of it was staff.  Because when I got inside the place was mostly a ghost town, not many customers at all.  There was an all female party that entered before me consisting of about 5 people.  I figured there for sure would be a wait but nope I got right in.  The lights were so damn low in the place I could barely read the menu.  I looked for my favorite of Crab Alfredo knowing full well that it wouldn’t be on the menu and it wasn’t.  I stuck with my trusty Flounder Dinner with Mashed Potatoes and Broccoli.  The food was out really fast and it was super hot.  Red Lobster re-did their tartar sauce and it’s got some dill in it now.  I am not a fan of the new stuff.  Much preferred the old stuff that most people disliked.  This was my first time finishing the entire meal in one sitting.  Normally I eat a little bit, feel full and get a box and wind up taking most of it home for a second go round the next day. It did take a few minutes to get waited on but once that happened my waitress was super attentive and provided great service.  She had a couple tables and tended to check on all of us at the same time.  I got that comfort feeling while I was there and really enjoyed this meal.  The music playing was all over the place from holiday tunes, way old music to some new stuff.  I heard Charlie Puth join in a song with a female singer in a song that I hadn’t heard before.

The drive home was via a different route.  I had some slight vision issues but some headlights were so damn bright and other areas were just super dark.  I got to see some holiday lights and thankfully had no flashing lights behind me.  Made it back about thirty minutes before treat time for the cats.  I just passed out food and treats at the same time.  That always confuses them.  They don’t know what to eat first. 

Turned the heat up by a degree and used the space heater for the living room.  I had an idea of what I wanted to do for the rest of the evening but wound up just sitting and watching TV.  Enjoying cuddling with both cats.  They both just talked me out of what I really wanted to do but I was having a good time.  I tend to think along the lines of not having both of them some day and wanting to spend as much time with them as possible.  Especially since I have had so many cats pass and I still miss them.  Next week will mark the two year passing of my sweet Gator.  Between that and the Christmas holiday I feel so alone and sad.  I miss my late spouse and kind of wish that he could see me now. 

The evening passed quickly as most Sunday evenings do and sooner rather than later it was time for bed.  Rudy was sleeping well for a couple hours and when I got up to start brushing my teeth he just knew that play time would be around the corner.  He started bugging me and talking to me.  I got to finish brushing and then went straight to playing with him.  He had fun and I shared the playtime with Mora.  They both look forward to that bit of energy and excitement before I go to bed.  I passed out some cat nip when we were done.  Rudy managed to settle down but Mora was all fired up for a bit. 

I sat in my room watching more TV and waiting for my extra strength dose of sleeping meds to kick in.  Finally around 11p I climbed in bed, not a cat in sight.  I got to relax and enjoy my own bed for a little bit before Rudy came to join me.  It wasn’t long and I turned the TV off, rolled over in the opposite direction and off to dream land I went.  Had a couple of strange dreams last night and woke up for a short bit but managed to quickly get back to sleep. 

The tasks that I had planned to knock out this morning I am opting to save for when I am in the office in a couple days hopefully things will cooperate and I can occupy my time and get the task done.  I don’t have a whole lot going on Wednesday.  I am opting to coast today.  I’ve done what I had to and am on standby for anything else that comes in but it won’t be long and I will be headed up for a bit.  I know the moment I get comfy and relax my phone will see that and the emails will come in but yet I am still going to do it. 

I see a large work volume pending for the person who is on-call today, which thankfully is not me and is my mistake making co-worker.  I almost forgot that on my trip last night I was gone for about 15 minutes when my phone chirped from work.  I peeked at it and dealt with it when I got back home.  I was like you had all damn day to bother me and the moment I step out is when it happens.  Thankfully it wasn’t anything that was super urgent.  I am once again thankful that my week of on-call is done.  One more week of that in two weeks and then I am done for the year.  Sadly it will all start over again next year and I never look forward to it.  I count the total number of weeks, which averages out to be 18 or 19 weeks and just begin counting down.  I don’t get terribly excited about it until closer to the summer and that’s when time seems to start to just fly. 

Well enough yapping for now.  Going to head up and check on the cats and see what I can find on YouTube.  Perhaps court is in session.  I love watching that because you never know when an interesting moment will happen.  People never fail to surprise and astound by acting like a fool. 

Were getting a bit more snow today but it won’t be a whole lot.  Glad I can enjoy it by watching from inside as it falls while I stay warm.  Hope that you are staying warm and well.  Take care!