2014 was a year on the emotional rollercoaster. Still I managed to make great strides and accomplish what I set out to, which feels really good.
At one point it looked like the world was against me when I lost my job, my savings was drying up and I really was in a bad place emotionally. I reached out for help and started Counseling, which was free of charge thanks to my awesome insurance.
My job situation in May I lost my job working for the Ogre. I went back to work in late July and am fortunate enough to have a job that I enjoy and I make more money and have better benefits. So I fulfilled my desire to get a new job, which has really changed my outlook on life. Everyone needs a purpose to get out of bed and everyone needs an income.
I applied for and was approved for a home loan in August. We closed in October and the house that had the sky high payments is now mine and costing me considerably less each month. I can see my way clear to the future, which helps. Unfortunately, the Quit Claim Deed had a mistake on it and I am still battling to get that resolved. Hopefully that will come together and I can put the matters of the house to rest in January.
I entered the world of on-line dating and managed to go on my very first ever date around September. It turned out to be a bust but it was an experience that helped me. I am still looking for Mr. Right and not Mr. Right Now. I want to build a future with the right guy and have fun along the way, creating new memories and hopefully getting in some much needed travel for pleasure.
BLU my Siamese Cat developed a fever of unknown origin in October and despite best efforts he made no progress and I had to let him go. That was very difficult because we had a very fresh and strong bond. We got each other and new how to push each others buttons. He was the noise maker since my late partner passed. Now the house is all too quiet. I miss him so much but know that he is no longer suffering.
There are many other little minor things that happened that helped to shape 2014. This will be a year to remember for good and for bad. I am anxious to start 2015 and hope that the future remains bright and that I can set some goals and achieve them. I don’t make resolutions because they don’t work. I find year long goals work best. If I make them great and if I don’t it’s not a huge big deal
The daily post starts here…..
So I figured I would do a 2 in 1 post. Kind of sneaky, I know. Anyway Bear gave me a huge scare last night he was coughing and it looked like he was having serious problems breathing. All of this of course as I was ready to call it a night and get in bed. I sat with him for a few minutes and he started that nervous purr to mask his problems. His breathing changed and he stopped coughing. Then I asked him if he wanted to sleep with me. He said yes, but he didn’t quite know how he would make it to my room. I told him I would carry him and I did. I spent a little more time with him and rubbed to his belly. Marvin was jealous and barking for me to get in bed. I told him to hold his pants I would be right there. I told Bear that if he needed anything to holler out, I would wake up and I might not be happy about it but I was there for him. He never bothered me at all. He was in the same spot this morning that I put him last night. I don’t view that as a good sign but then again he is lazy.
As I laid in bed and was thinking about him and praying for him. It hit me. He started going outside of the litter box to tell me there is a problem. Now his coughing is worse and I can see we are making the progression down the death trail. I know that I will have to part with him, that is inevitable. However, I hope that we can have a couple more years together. From the outward signs I see I would say that won’t happen, but then again I am no doctor. He might need something as simple as a tap or things could be more serious. I have increased his medicine in the hopes that it will help reduce the inflammation and help things calm down. If there is an obvious reason to take him to the vet, I will but I am hoping to avoid it. I don’t want bad news and this really isn’t the best time to part ways, not that there will be a good time. I am thankful that I will be able to hopefully spend some extra time with him over the New Year Holiday.
Outside of that it was a quiet average evening. I am not exactly sure what I am doing tonight, but I can tell you that I will be alone.
In the world of On Line Dating, I saw this younger blond hair blue eyed guy that was really hot. I sent him a message and asked him how he was doing. He sent me back a reply “I would be doing better if I was being raped and tortured by you.” Wow there is a totally unexpected response. While that was nice and I would love to get in bed with him, as I have said before that is not solely what I am looking for. Not sure if he will reply back but I did send him another message. I honestly have little faith in finding someone via an app. Although it might workout with the pet food store guy, provided he actually calls me. Who knows maybe that will be the first progress item of 2015.
In thinking about 2015 right now I would like to build my savings up, get a new roof, fix up the bathrooms and find a man. Not extravagant goals but most of them outside of the finding a man require money. Once I find a man, then I will need money to spend on him, so I suppose they all require money. As long as I don’t make any dumb moves or encounter unforeseen expenses I think most of this is attainable. I would also like to trade both vehicles and get something new as a replacement.
So this is just one big mash up, probably because my brain is all over the place and I have serious concerns about Bear. I am glad that I have the camera so that I can peek in on him, that is provided he comes out of my room. No camera in there. I thought about moving it this morning but opted not to. I am also hoping for an early dismissal today and running home to be with him is top on my list. He loves seeing me as much as I love seeing him. It’s amazing the bond we form with our animals.
I hope that 2015 is a very prosperous year for you and your family. Be safe and Be careful. Let the good times roll! Talk with you all next year.