Morning, my day started at 4a when I was woken up by Mora jumping on me. I was having the best dream. I was with my late spouse at McDonald’s and we were enjoying breakfast. I had just taken a job at a place that I used to work at, that was a complete nightmare. I dream from time to time that I got sucked back in there. For some reason I was elated about it because I figured I’d be making more money but I would also be doing a job that I really didn’t want to. Just about the time I was going to bite into my second Sausage McMuffin with Egg is when Mora woke me up. I don’t see my late spouse often enough in dreams and was rather upset that Mora woke me up, I would have loved to at least finish my dream breakfast. I haven’t had a Sausage McMuffin with Egg in a long time.
Maybe I was talking in my sleep or maybe she just wanted to cuddle. At any rate that’s what happened she snuggled up in my arm for a little bit. Then Rudy came and sat on my chest and pressed on my stomach. My bladder kicked in and I told them both I had to get up. I returned to bed after using the restroom and then we all got situated again. Rudy wound up by my feet and Mora was back snuggling in my arm.
After a few minutes of trying, I realized there was no getting back to sleep so I turned the TV on and watched an episode of Sanford (this spin off from Sanford & Son). It was on YouTube and I just wanted something to pass the time until I got groggy again and could go back to sleep. That couldn’t happen fast enough for me. After that was over with, I turned the TV off and had to move. That caused Mora to leave me. Which was fine because she was nipping at my finger thinking it was a play toy. It hurts but she hasn’t broken the skin yet. Her brother does it too from time to time, but he’s a bit gentler than she is.
It took me a little bit but I managed to get back to sleep for a bit. Then the trash truck came through and woke me up. I was able to dose off for a bit before Rudy started his it’s time to wake up routine. I cuddled with him since he was early and then we all got up to get Friday started.
As per usual I am done with my morning tasks at work and have the rest of the day wide open just waiting for something to occupy time. I have gone looking to help out but there isn’t anything pending right now that I can lend a hand with.
Last night when I took the trash out, I noticed in one of my landscaping beds that there were a bunch of rather tall weeds. It’s as if the lawn people haven’t been doing their job. I broke out some Roundup and sprayed. I will peek at it when I bring the empty barrel in later on today. The last thing I want is to get in trouble with the city. I’ve been thinking about buying a weed trimmer for a couple years now. Every once and a while I find something that they skipped.
Speaking of the yard since I fired my tree trimmer, I didn’t have any work done last year and managed to skate by just fine. However, things are to the point now where I need to have work done. I said I wouldn’t call him back because he charged me for a tool he forgot. He went to buy one at a local store and magically the price of my bill went up by exactly what he paid for the tool. Well, his prices are pretty fair and while I really don’t want to call him, I really don’t want to start over with anyone else. A simple fall clean up that can be done later this year or early next year – it’s no rush.
Yesterday's post I removed something that I really wanted to put in, it’s the Thirsty part of the post. I know of one particular porn star that is local to my area (who shall not be named). I was curious to see if he did escort work and when I went surfing, I didn’t find him but found another Twink porn star. I actually thought about calling for a split second. My dick was saying do it, we need this. My brain however said its trouble steer clear of this. I’ve never done anything like that before and know that it’s a tricky rope to walk so that you don’t violate the law. The trick is that you're paying for a person's time and not for a sexual act. If you pay for a sexual act that’s prostitution and highly illegal. While I doubt that a porn star would be an undercover cop or wired, they probably approach each person that calls them with some suspicion. I’m quite lonely and while I don’t want to just jump into bed, I want to form a connection and get to know a person before we go to the bedroom. Paying for that would get awfully expensive. That was heart/brain talking. My dick says pay some money, have some fun – no strings. However, I don’t know if I could just do casual sex. I’m sure I’d form some kind of a bond and want more, again it could get awfully expensive. Part of me felt a little cheap posting about it but another part of me said post it, get it out of your system. It’s not going to get me laid but somehow it might benefit someone else.
I am toying with getting back to the dating apps just to see if I can find someone but honestly, I have no hope and don’t think anyone that I’d be interested in (twinks late 20’s to 30’s) would be interested in me. I suppose every older guy wants someone younger. I’m not looking to support anyone or to have anyone support me in a financial way. Spending money on each other is just part of dating and I’m okay with normal expenses in that respect. Heck I’d even settle for someone in there 40’s. I’m looking for a one and done, I don’t want to play game or cycle through several guys. However, something about dating says you have to play games and you will likely go through several guys. I don’t have the patience or ability to tolerate getting my heart broken. It’s kind of held together by some crappy super glue as it is and quite fragile. I’m vulnerable and know it. I think that I will die alone but I am not expecting to die anytime soon. Talk about agony and suffering. However, I know you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take and that I am already alone. Things are pretty grim in that respect so the only place they can go is up. I like the single life in that you have no one to report to and there is abundant freedom. However, I am kind of over being alone. I guess it all boils down to a catch 22. If there is a guy for me and he is out there here’s hoping that our paths cross sooner than later. I know that time really isn’t on my side here, as age continues to climb the less appealing I am. However, the heart wants what the heart wants. I'll keep you posted if anything develops.
Speaking of age were getting closer with each passing day to my birthday. That's something I used to look forward to when I was so much younger but ever since my 30's birthdays haven't been that appealing to me. My 35th birthday was really special and it was all because of a friend I had at work that made things come together. I was so much happier then and just didn't realize it. Nothing yet has compared to the way that birthday was celebrated but I sure do have some great memories to reflect on.
Well, I should stick a fork in this post and call it done. Hope that you all have a great weekend and thanks as always for stopping by. Take care!
