Hung Over Tuesday

Howdy again and welcome to the second day in the week.  I wanted to ensure a good nights sleep, so I took two sleeping pills.  I was in bed by 9:30pm and on my way to sleepy town.  They kicked in fast.  I wanted to watch porn but that just wasn’t an option.  For the life of me I can’t wake up this morning.  It’s 11a and I am still yawning, despite being up and out of bed 5 minutes before 6a.  I moved like a knife through hot butter, had breakfast, got a shower, got dressed, packed my lunch, and was out the door.  I even ate Belvita Biscuits to help give me some energy but nothing.  Had my usual Diet Mt. Dew on the way to work as well.  Maybe after I have lunch I will wake up or that might just be enough for the food coma to wipe me out. 

I did get the service call setup so I am stuck waiting her on the tech and can’t leave until he does.  I got a wide window from noon to 4p.  I hope that he’s here by 2p.  I really want to get out of here and back home. 

I checked on Mora and Rudy, they are both on the couch.  Mora is in the pet bed all passed out.  Rudy is passed out on the cushion that I usually sit on.  Glad they aren’t in the bedroom and are getting some sunlight.  Just wish I was. 

Got a few sprinkles on the way in and it was kind of dark out at times, enough that my headlights kicked on.  Had some lovely person on my back bumper that I wanted to break check but just held my speed which was 72 in a 55.  That was on an exit ramp.  He flew by me as soon as we got off the exit ramp.  Guess someone was late. 

The oddest thing happened to me though while I was working away.  My iPhone got stuck on a black screen.  Nothing I did would wake it up.  I looked up a fix online for a soft reset and that did the trick.  Now I am scared the phone is going to stop working on me.  What caused me to notice it was the two factor push I needed to acknowledge to get into a system here at work.  I called from my desk to my cell and just got voice mail.  Very strange.  It’s back to working and hopefully it stays that way.  I’d like a new phone but when I want to get it and not to be forced into it.  The phone isn’t that old. 

I polished off all of the pizza that was left over last night.  Tonight’s dinner is a Chicken Fajita Burrito.  Something the grocery store made  It sounded good so I figured I would give it a try.  I will probably break it down to two meals but won’t know that for certain until I start eating it.  Here’s hoping that I get some zest and energy or a nap and can recharge.  Either is okay so long as the nap part doesn’t happen while I am driving home. 

Have a great day!  Talk with you all again soon. 

 

Status Quo

Momma is status quo.  Everything appears to be normal as best as I can tell.  I know that she is sleeping more.  I don’t know that she feels 100% but I think she is 90% at lest that is based on her appearance to me.  What I see and what is actually going on inside of her are 2 different things.  Cats don’t like to be up front and open with you, that’s just the nature of their make up.  I am keeping on schedule with her medicine and she is eating, not as much as I want her to but she also works me to see what she can get out of me.  Water is still being consumed by her and Marv which is normal since both have thyroid issues.  Gator drinks now and then but the water consumers are Momma and Marv. 

We haven’t had belly rub club in a while.  I did rub her belly this morning but there was something special about having her follow me to my room and roll over in front of me and then letting me rub her belly.  It made me feel good and I know she got some benefit from it as well. 

Gator has been front and center lately to help pick up her mom’s slack as if I don’t notice.  Funny how they work together and think you don’t know it.  I spy on them during the day and most of the time Momma is asleep and the others they are hidden away out of camera view. 

I look forward to spending another night with them and taking in more ER.  I hope the commute home tonight is much better than it was last night.  I left early and got home at normal time.  I’ve been leaving early for a while now and usually am home by 6 but last night it was 6:30 and there wasn’t anyone happy about that.  We have lots going on traffic wise in construction and that doesn’t help the commute to or from work, but it is what it is. 

I am starting to feel more like my normal self.  There is still some lingering crud but hopefully it will flush it’s way out of my body this week.  I’m still using the nose spray I got and I can breathe at night and when I wake up so that is a good thing.  I can’t say that it helps my snoring but I do feel better. 

I’ve got a little less than an hour left and then it will be time to hit the road.  Looking forward to a relaxing and enjoyable evening.  Hope you have the same!

One Month from Today

L&G in one month from today I will be another year older.  Wow, where does the time go?  A year used to be so long and the older I get the shorter the time frame becomes. 

Saturday at work was not much fun at all.  It wasn’t quiet because there was construction and the workers made plenty of noise.  Instead of getting 4 machines we had 6 each.  I decided to start early w/o telling anyone and turns out some of the scripts hadn’t completed running so I had one machine that I had to put on the back burner.  I was out of there by 2:20p which isn’t all that bad but still it was not a fun ride.

I made it to Maggiano’s and had my Lasagna and took in some Spumoni for desert.  Jumped into traffic and made a call to get a hair cut.  They had an appointment for me but it was a couple hours away.  I made it through traffic and stopped by the post office.  Then came home and fed the children and killed time.  I left and got all of my hairs cut.  It helped that I had a $5 coupon.  I really like the place I go to because they cater to guys but they don’t know how to shampoo worth a fuck.  The shampoo is the best part of the entire experience and I don’t want some girly light touch, I am a guy and I can take it.  Give it to me!  The only way I get it is doing the job myself, that isn’t much fun but it does feel good.  The shampoo part is the only thing that I miss about the place that I used to go to. 

Friday night I tried Spinach Soufflé it was one of the most horrible things I have eaten.  I like Spinach and I like eggs but don’t mix them together.  I made an attempt at it but it just didn’t make it.  Wound up eating cookies for supper.  Cookie Monster would have been happy!

I wanted to take in a movie specifically the New Vacation movie but I was just too tired and decided to call it quits.  I came home and spent the night with the children.  Watched Rookie Blue via Hulu.  There litterally is nothing on and it takes me a very long time to find something I am interested in seeing – I have a ton of TV channels, Hulu, Netflix and Amazon, so there is variety but very little appeals to me.  I guess I must be the odd man out.  Nothing new there!  I did get in a very small nap.

Bear has made urine so that little scare is over with.  I am sure it won’t be the last one.  It’s just nice to exhale and not have any problems.  It’s like I don’t know what to do with myself. 

Speaking of problems, I called my mom.  She has been calling me leaving me a message, I call her back and I leave her a message.  She will wait an entire week and then we go through the same routine all over again.  So last night I called and she finally answered.  Nothing new – she is still talking about moving and going to a nursing home.  Telling me how my brother leaves her all alone and won’t give her anytime.  Well your not sucking me into that mess.  It’s drama city and far too much drama for me after the long 2 year and 3 month ride I have been on.  Go away!

Now on to today.  I slept in a little bit went out for breakfast.  Hit up the grocery store.  I got an entire weeks worth of groceries for $8, plus a free case of Water.  Not a bad deal at all.  It was thanks to 2 rebate cards I got.  One was $60 and the other was $20.  I wanted to spent at least part of one of them on porn but decided it would be better to spend it on food and that way I wouldn’t have to keep track of a balance.  It was awesome!  I also managed to get a gift card for one of the cute guys at work that helps me out.  I know he is straight and married but I can’t help it that I find him attractive.  He’s helped me out a lot and I just want to show my appreciation.  I am not looking for anything in return but I know that he will think more of me and it never hurts to have someone like you.  Plus it will help take the sting out of the next favor I ask for.  Hit up the pet food store, went to use the super coupon I had and couldn’t because I didn’t spend enough.  I gave it to the people who were behind me and they gave me a coupon for $1 off – a little here, a little there.  Right now my funds are short because I paid cash for the tires out of my paycheck instead of robbing savings.  So I am really feeling the noose tighten.  I will make it one way or another, I just prefer to do it w/o touching savings if at all possible.  I’ve got this week and next week then I will have another paycheck and should have more money left over. 

I was able to do all of my running, gassed up the car and came home.  Been home full time since 10:30 and it feels great.  I got a nap in and now my allergies are going nuts.  Fighting on what I want for supper.  It’s frozen pizza, so nothing special. 

The children want all of my time and it’s like I have no time to myself.  Gator is chirping at me now, she wants me to go upstairs and turn off the ac because she is cold.  Then I suppose she would love it if I cracked open yet another can of food and we sat and watched TV.  That’s not what I want to do.  She will of course con me into it.  I need to head up to take care of the trash anyway, I hate that task.  I am thinking I will skip vacuuming because I am so wiped out.  Working 6 days a week really wears on a person.   My brother does it and I honestly don’t see how.

So my next adventure will be on-call and that will happen at the end of the month.  I’ve already hit up the friend I’d like to catch up with and am waiting for a response on when or if we will be getting together.  I think that since I have made it very obvious lately on FB that I am gay that might scare him off or at least make him apprehensive.  Then again I didn’t think he would be receptive to the idea in the first place.  Time will tell.

Now is the time where I put a fork in this post, go tend to laundry and give in to Gator because she is tap dancing on my last nerve.  She started up when I wanted to go to sleep.  She was walking all over me and couldn’t get comfortable, then she settled down.  I woke up and got off the couch and went to bed, she followed and kept telling me it was time to get up.  I told her that she was going to get hit with a pillow if she didn’t shut up.  Silence it was like magic.  I drifted off for a little bit then she started up again.  So I got up and gave her what she wanted – lunch.  That little girl is such a huge pain in the ass but I love her so much.  There is always someone here getting on my nerves but I love them all and they know it. 

Happy August, we only have 4 more months and this year will be toast.  See what I mean about time going by faster and faster. 

Monday Traffic

As I anticipated when I was late going to bed last night, 6am came around rather quickly.  Marv didn’t do me any favors last night and I had to eventually chase him into my room.  Both of the boys (Marv & Bear) were really drinking the water last night.  Thirsty fellows.  My fear was that Marvin would either wake me or not wake me and I would find a mess.  Nah, once he slows down and is ready to sleep that is what takes over.  He is a sleeping machine and outside of eating I’d say that is his 2nd favorite activity.  All is well in the cat community at my place. 

I got moving even if it was slower than I anticipated.  I mean it’s Monday how chipper and fast is one supposed to be at 6a?  I was able to leave the house early, not as early as I wanted to but I still was early.  Of course there weren’t any issues going to work.  Looking in the other direction, it looked like a nightmare to try to go home.  Not sure for my plans to return home tonight.  I will go the usual way and if it’s mega backed up then I will ditch and switch to an alternate route.  Hopefully, it’s not horrible.  I need to get home to the babies because they will be starving and then I will get yelled at when I open the door.  Sitting in traffic is not how I want to spend my night. 

Got a surprise this morning.  My Go To My PC Account renewed.  I had a promo price and have been paying the same amount for years.  Well, they had a rate increase and my promo rate went bye bye.  I wish they would have told me in advance.  I called in and got them to lower the amount but it’s no where close to the promo price I had.  Not happy about that but I like their product and the extra security they have built in.  I got the product when I was traveling so I could connect back home, but honestly it works well for me just to get into my machine from work.  It’s a handy thing to have access to another machine, especially in my field of work.  Troubleshooting connectivity to websites, etc. 

Last night I sent out my first ever Snapchat.  Bet you can’t guess who I sent it to.  You were going to say Charlie Puth right?  Well you’d be wrong.  I sent it to SHEP689 – aka Will Sheperd.  Then I sent a second one out to Charlie.  I really anticipated a response from both of them but got nothing.  Kind of disappointed.  Still having fun with Twitter, there are some folks on there that show their appreciation, just wish that it was the people I am a big fan of. 

The watch saga … I decided to set it last night to make sure it was 100% accurate and it hasn’t lost a beat since.  I wore it to work just to see if I could see it lose time and nope, still going like a champ.  I held off on sending my letter but will mail it tomorrow.  I’d love to have this spec thing fixed, it’s annoying despite the fact that it’s not causing any problems. 

Bankruptcy… No news.

Homeowner’s Insurance … Still no payment posted.  The overnight payment should be leaving tonight.  I will be calling tomorrow.  I held off mailing my letter on this just to see how it plays out, if were okay then I will send the letter in a day or so.  If not then I will be able to revise it and then send it.  No matter the situation it’s always helpful to have options.

The Chair … I have officially rejected the staff chair that they said to try first.  Now I have a meeting this afternoon to discuss how we move forward.  They need to get another chair in is how we move forward.  I can’t believe how difficult this process is – they are going to draw it out in the hopes that I will give up or just settle for something else.  NEVER!  I want and need what I want and need, give it to me and give it to me now.  Sounds reasonable right?

This is staff meeting and massage week.  Looking forward to the massage, not so much on the staff meeting.  Today is heavy with calls and problems.  Understandable after the weekend work.  It will be like this for a few more weeks, then we can all relax.  I am sure there will be some kind of a celebration and the most I expect is a box lunch, but you never know.  I might just get a thank you.  No worries, it all pays the same. 

Yesterday I dropped $101 at the grocery store.  I went to the upscale store and I got a lot of good food.  Turkey & Chicken frozen dinners, new from Stouffers.  Looking forward to supper every night this week.  Still have 1/2 of a Lemon cake to polish off as well.  Yesterday was National or World Ice Cream day.  I broke out the Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia.  It had been in the fridge way too long.  It was bad, I still ate some of it and put the rest away.  I don’t plan on throwing it out.  I just got it last week and it should last for more than a week.  Ah well. 

Heard some great car commercials last night.  Dealers want to get rid of the 15’s so they can make room for the 16’s – it’s a decent time to buy.  Lots of the offers come with 0% and I heard 2 offers that said no payments until fall.  Yeah so you drive it for a couple months, then realize you have to pay for it and that’s when your finances go to hell.  I am tempted to move forward but am still holding out.  Not exactly sure when I will move forward.  Need to build up ye old nest egg.  More expenses coming down the pipeline.  Auto Insurance, PO BOX and of course the bill for my tires.  There is always someone or something to take your money – realize that and you will be A okay.  I expect that I will be fine but still would be nice to pocket some money for longer than 1 or 2 months before I have to spend it.  I mean I like free money and that would be interest I am speaking of.  The more I get of that the happier I am. 

I see there is a 2nd season of Don’t Quit Your Gay Job on Here TV!  I saw an episode last night where the guys tried out being Vancouver Police Officers.  Wow very physically challenging job.  Rob Easton is still looking fine, but I hate the fact that he has a mustache.  I also saw the entire series of Cover Guy Montreal Edition.  Very nice men to look at.  It was a contest to be an underwear model – nice very nice!

Well back to the bump and grind for a few more hours and then it will be traffic time again  - eat some supper, relax and rest and repeat again tomorrow.  4 more days until Friday and then I have a full weekend to myself.  Looking forward to it.  It’s nice to be able to kick back and do nothing – not worry about anything just be a big lazy lump of a person taking up space and napping with my cats.  Ah well like I said back to reality.  Take care peeps!

Mario Andretti Rides Again

I sent an e-mail to my Dr. and got the new version of the medicine.  His Nurse want to be a doctor answered it and said it was taken care of.  In looking on-line this morning she increased the dose to twice what it was.  So I did some checking and the lower dose I took is available but rather than fight on trying to get the proper dose, I see on-line where people take it every other day instead of every day.  So I am hoping that is the way it’s been prescribed.  If not that is how I will start on it.  It’s a great drug but the side effect is that it artificially keeps you awake, which is why I only take 1 pill a day instead of 2.  I did two for a long time but found that I had problems.  So I take a different drug in the evening, lower dose and I don’t feel any side effects.  So I think I have resolved another problem. Go me!

Last night when I made my rounds to ensure all of the conference rooms were in order I noticed that traffic was snagged up.  I figured it would work it’s self out.  I was wrong, when I left we had the conga line in the garage.  So I had to wait for someone to give me a break so I could back out.  Then do the inch worm down to the street level.  Instead of going towards the problem, I went away from it and that made all of the difference in the world.  I got home at a reasonable time, which is normal.

I managed to get behind poky people on the way home, finally it opened up and I managed to get those pokies to move out of my way.  I floored it to create some distance and just as I did some ass wipe decides it’s a good idea to change lanes.  I was doing at least 85mph so I couldn’t exactly stop.  I did try and they realized the issue and attempted to swerve back into their lane but at the last second they changed their mind and over they came.  Some how by the grace of God I managed to pass them on the shoulder (we were in the fast lane) and I never made contact with the concrete wall or their car.  It was truly a miracle.  I am the first to tell you that at times when I drive I take risks, when I get the idea I am coming through there is no stopping me.  I was trained by the very best driver to ever walk this earth, in my opinion.  Of course I am speaking of my late partner.  He didn’t take risks like I do, that is something that was bred into me and I was kind of erratic when I was driving the riding mower when I was a child.  Everyone envisioned that I would be a horrible driver and have lots of accidents but that didn’t happen.  I have had my share of accidents and honestly I am over due for one the same goes for a speeding ticket.  However, I don’t want either.  If I would have wrecked last night my car would have likely been totaled, I would have had some serious injuries and I have no idea on how the other person would have faired.  I was doing the higher speed so that is why I am anticipating that my injuries would have been more sever.  After it was all over with I couldn’t believe that I made it through and I was literally and physically shaking in my own car.  It was a huge high but also a slap in the face.  I started thinking about the cats, my bills, etc.  It was as if my life semi flashed before my eyes.  I can’t say that has caused me to slow down but I can tell you that it has caused me to be just a little extra careful.  Phew, it was close!

No sooner than I get home my cell phone is ringing.  My friend who has the spyware infection calls and gets me to talk them through how to potentially get back on the internet.  Lucky for them it was pretty simple just unchecking a box for a proxy server.  Spyware turns that on and then you can’t get on the internet.  Most of the time you turn it off and if your still infected it will switch right back on.  They apparently have killed whatever was on their machine because they could get on the net.  I told them to run another Malwarebytes scan to be sure that everything is gone.  I still think the machine should be rebuilt but if its working I am not going to push it.  That is honestly more work and responsibility that I don’t want to take on.  So it’s better for both of us if it keeps working and there aren’t any problems.  I guess I dodged yet another bullet.

Now on to the land of being on-call.  The phone went bat shit crazy last night but it was all before 11p.  The problem was that it was still going off at 9 and 10 when I was trying to relax and fall asleep.  I got woke up a couple times but then things settled down.  I woke up in the middle of the night and had 4 more hours of sleep to get.  I got a couple of them.  I was wide awake around 5am and just tossed and turned in bed.  I was hot the furnace was on and I anticipated the phone going off.  Sure enough it did.  One of my co-workers was calling in for the day.  No big deal just roll over and go back to sleep.  Then about 15 minutes before I was supposed to get up I got an actual call.  They didn’t say it was urgent but I figured it’s early enough and seemed to be easy I would just take it.  So I did.  Wow I got them fixed but it took me a little extra time.  My brain wasn’t awake and I couldn’t locate their account or their machine because I had their name wrong.  I thought it was someone trying to exploit us but no it was just the fact that I wasn’t fully awake.  I hope this is the last early morning call I get all week long.  I did manage to make it out of the house a couple minutes late but still got to work with plenty of time to spare.  The kids were really confused and they were begging me for breakfast.  I’m no fool take care of the caller first then take care of the kids, otherwise they will expect breakfast twice because I went downstairs and came back up.  I know how they think.  I am stopping for cat food on Friday night because I anticipate that Saturday might be a day where I can’t leave the house and I wouldn’t want the children to starve.  I will be leaving at some point to get the mail and everything will just have to wait.

Life here at work this morning is very slow, which is kind of uncommon.  I wonder if it’s the calm before the storm.  Normally we are bustling.  Hopefully there is no storm.  A nice slow but smooth day would be fine with me.  Even though I am already to go home.  It’s Comedy Wednesday which means TV time with the beggars.  We will each get something out of it.  I get to spend time with them and them with me, that by far is the biggest benefit of all.  Treats and TV those are just extra perks.  The fact that I am on-call but that it doesn’t start until later will give me a chance at a peaceful evening or so I hope. 

If anything else of note happens I will be back with another post.  Otherwise I will talk with you peeps later.  Take care and be well. 

A little of this and whole lot of that

WORK

Well I survived an entire week by myself. I think that is pretty good and it feels good to say. Unfortunately, the honeymoon phase ended abruptly on Friday. One of the attorneys had a tech problem and came to hunt me down. Once he found me he just blew up, screaming and cussing it was not a pretty site. I was told he gets upset but no one warned me that he would blow like a volcano. I took some time away from the situation and tried to figure out his problem, when I returned he was a little calmer but you could still tell he was pissed off. I get it and totally understand why he was angry but he didn’t need to make a scene and put me through all of that. I was actually afraid and I consider his actions verbal abuse. I thought really long and hard about what to do. I decided to e-mail my boss and ask her to call me, I told her it was nothing urgent but provided my cell phone number. I said if you don’t call over the weekend, please call me next week. I am going to make her aware of the situation. I don’t want to make trouble for this guy because well if it’s him versus me, I already know I will lose. He brings major money in the door, so he’s a rainmaker and they pretty much get what they want, within reason. I was resistant to go back to a law firm because of my prior experience and this brought it all back to me. Now I question myself…you are well financially taken care of, outside of this guy you like the job, but is it the right move long term? Is it time to look for another job? Well I would like to but I honestly don’t think so. I feel like I am where I am supposed to be at, so he’s not running me off and besides that it really doesn’t matter who is in my position I believe he would treat everyone the same. I just don’t want to have to deal with this on a regular basis, it will get old really fast and if it’s a frequent thing then I will be engaging HR. The odd thing was he thanked me when I walked away with a proposed solution that I won’t be able to execute until Monday. However, he never apologized and I don’t expect that he will.

I also found out that I am doing such a terrific job next week will be my last free week to sit and cherry pick my work. I will be moving to a regular schedule, which my hours will stay the same. It’s just that my activity is dictated by the schedule. I am free for local work a certain part of the day, I get lunch and of course I get phone duty. It’s spread between morning and afternoon. I was originally told it would be 2 hours but I figured it out and it’s 2 ½ feel like someone broke their promise to me. I kind of anticipated that at some point I would figure out that I was lied to, thankfully this is a minor incident. It’s not like I will be all alone on the phone there will be other people, it’s just that I will be assisting people via Remote Control instead of being physically at their desk. Of course there will be times when I will have to break away for local support that will require hands on assistance. For the most part it will probably even out and it will be 50% phone work and 50% local support work. I hate the phones, but I am calling people now to help with problems, so not a huge difference or a culture shock.

The sad part is that I go live on the phones on my Birthday. It’s going to be a tough day I think. However, the weekend is here and I am trying to enjoy that.

HOME

So Friday night I came home late because the jerk that blew up at me, threw me off schedule and I had to jump to accommodate him. The children didn’t seem to mind that I was late, in fact they were happy that I came home. So they got their food. I got to undress, figure out what frozen dinner I was going to consume and then sit around all night. I called a friend to vent about the day, we talked for a while and then it was time to move on.

When we hung up I felt kind of empty. I really wish that I had someone to come home to and spend time with. I picked up my phone and started surfing Grindr and the other Gay Dating Apps that I have. I struck up a conversation with a guy who I like, he just was looking for friends. We started talking about food. That was kind of a mistake because I couldn’t eat after midnight and the conversation was making me very hungry. I just dropped off, I know it was rude but I was dead tired. I turned my phone off and then went to bed. I was surrounded by cats and fell asleep. It wasn’t comfortable but I managed.

Today I got up around 8:30 and fed the children, went to the hospital for some lady to draw my blood. She played the needle like it was a violin, while it was in my arm. She was very close to being told off. She told me not to watch because it would scare me. I don’t need to witness that your hurting me, I can fucking feel it. Finally she got the vein, she said it’s big but it rolls. Yeah…that is what she said! After that horrible experience it was time to get some food. Where better than Cracker Barrel for Breakfast. The host/waiter I like wasn’t there or at least I didn’t see him. I got my usual Blueberry Pancakes and Diet Dr. Pepper. It was good.

Then I had to run down to the shoe shop to pick up my shoes that were ordered for me last week. Damn I walked in and there was this fine looking College Dude there who was being fit for Orthotics. He said his name was Joel and that he was going back to school. He wasn’t talking to me, but I wished he was. I am telling you he was super fine and had the total package from what I saw. I hate when summer is almost over because the kids go back to school. I see a lot of guys on the dating apps and some are college students who are home and leaving. I live in a college town so it also works to my advantage but there aren’t any hotties on Grindr from the local college. I digress though.

I got my shoes and paid a hell of a lot more for them. The last pair I bought at a place close to him was $130. This place for the same brand but different style of shoe was $164. I asked about their return policy and they said they would work with me, so long as I didn’t wear the shoes outside. Oh okay, so I should carry them in a bag and go barefoot until I am in doors? I am going to wear them outside, in fact I will be wearing them tomorrow. If they don’t cut the mustard, I will clean them up and take them back in a heartbeat. That is a serious amount of cash. My friend that referred me to this place told me they were less expensive than the place I went last time. Maybe on something but not on this shoe, I really didn’t expect to pay that much. However, they told me they will last for 7 or 8 years depending upon wear. Okay perhaps I will find out if that is true, so long as they are comfortable.

After all of that running, I got the mail and came home. I laid down and took a couple hour long nap. My upper back and neck are killing me. I got a massage at work on Thursday. I told the laid to go gentle but she didn’t, it was rough and she used rocks. She found major knots in my shoulders. The funny thing is my feet felt better after the massage but she only worked on my upper back. It took a bit but I felt good all over, that was temporary and as we got closer to nighfall the pain kicked in.

Any who when I woke up I went back out to a local place for Supper. Italian food and it was good. They had so much I brought some home, so I can have it for lunch tomorrow. After rolling out of there I went cat food shopping and then filled up the truck with gas.

I go to Sam’s to get gas because it’s cheap. I was there on Friday night and it was super low – compared to all of the retail prices. Glad I filled up my car on Friday. The truck takes and uses much more gas so unfortunately the price had changed and they kicked it up. While I was there a guy didn’t have his Sam’s card on him so he couldn’t get gas. I said I could use mine. They said okay. So I put the card in and said all you have to is pay for the gas. It felt good to help someone. When I was there on Friday I found someone’s Sam’s card and turned it in, again helping someone.

THERAPY

I got a call from my therapist on Friday afternoon. She is going to see me in a few weeks on a Saturday as I requested. I know she isn’t too happy about it but I am glad that she agreed to it. After the events of Friday I kind of wished I was going to see her now.

I found myself asking myself how long does grief go on? I mean how much longer will I feel semi lousy? The answer is it’s different for everyone. So time will help me but it will also hurt because of holidays, flash backs, etc. Part of the reason why I want a boyfriend to help take my mind off of grieving and feeling lonely. I will tell you that getting a job and walking into a much more positive environment and making more money helped a ton as well. So did the crying I did when I wrote the letter to my late partner. I cried again when I had to read it in therapy. I mean I didn’t have to, I chose to.

As if you can’t tell I am a wordy person. I would love to be able to train myself to stick to the facts, spit them out and then stop talking. People like that much more. However, it’s not who I am.

I am interested in knowing what questions she has from my letter. She said that when I was reading the letter to her she was able to come up with lots of questions. I think hearing them and answering them will be a lot like the massage I got. It will hurt like hell, but then it will start to feel good. The next day I will be a little sore but in the end it will all work out.

I would really like to share my story at work, not to have people feel sorry for me but rather so I could teach them that life is precious. I knew this would happen to me but never expected it so soon. That is the funny thing about death, no one expects it unless you have been diagnosed with a terminal disease. It just shows up like a bad penny and poof, your gone. Makes me kind of wish I knew my expiration date, so that I could go & do everything that I wanted to before the end arrives.

TECHNOLOGY

Tonight all I wanted to do was get on line and surf for pron, check e-mail, etc. Unfortunatley the internet was down for a couple hours. I was able to search for pron but then suddenly it went out again. It’s a major outgage because when you call the cable company all I get is a busy signal. I suspect they are still working the issue and hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

Thankfully my cell phone allows me to turn WIFI off so I can use my cell data, which is unlimited and surf, watch You Tube videos and of course get on Grindr.

Speaking of Grindr the guy I was talking to, just friendly chat and his location was only a few miles frm my place. He just dropped off line. I kind of hate that but he was only 18 and well that is way too young for me. I’d like someone in his late 20’s or early 30’s. Heck even my own age would be okay. However, most people say they are looking for Chat, Dates, Friends, Relationship, and Right Now. Seeing Right Now turns me off. I don’t want a hoe who will sleep with anything that has a pulse. I understand about getting off but you can accomplish that many other ways w/o actually having sex. There are a few guys who are looking for Relationships but just my luck they are like 200 miles or more away from me. I don’t want long distance. That just adds complexity to the situation and then you have to wonder as I am sure they will wonder, has he been faithful to me?

The odd things about this whole dating thing through the computer, I have no idea what to say. Most people start with Hey, Hello, Hi or the classic What’s Up? After you get past that part is when it turns awkward. I really want to experience a date and meet a knight in shining armor, but I have doubts that it’s going to happen or that it will happen in my time table.

I know I don’t want to go to the Bar to meet a guy. I’m looking for the entire package and not a flake, if you catch my drift. I know I have good taste. The problem is I don’t have the good body or good looks that stereotypically are what gay guys are looking for. I do know that someone will eventually like me, I just hope they are beautiful to me both inside and out.

Well that’s all for now. I am going to get ready to hit the sack. Going to see about getting more clothes again tomorrow and then grocery shopping. Yay. Then lounging around the house, doing laundry, cleaning and getting ready for Monday.

Talk with you peeps later.

Sleep with me

So my plans for Friday worked out great. I got my hairs cut, had a mediocre shampoo. The lady just didn’t know how to work her fingers. I came home and we went for pizza. I have 3 slices left over to remind me of the experience! We came home and hours went by, eventually I washed my guys’ hair and put in conditioner. I have never met anyone that had so much trouble getting shampoo out of his hair. He thinks he is rinsing it all out but he isn’t. Plus he needs to use conditioner because the shampoo he is using dries out the scalp; it’s more of a stripper. I’ve got a feeling that I will be washing his hair more often. As long as I am in the mood, it’s no problem. It’s one thing I can do that I know for sure he will enjoy and there won’t be any complaints. Yup, I give great head. You just had to know I was going to say that.

Before retiring for the evening he reminded me that we need to get his vehicle inspected tomorrow. Great, I thought for sure I would over sleep. However, we made it with plenty of time. This was the first time that I have seen a waiting line at the testing station. I also thought for sure he would fail but nope, he passed with flying colors. They go totally off the on-board computer, which is a change from years past.

After the testing, we grabbed breakfast. I ate like a pig but it was good. Then out for a little drive and then home. I crashed for a little bit. Woke up and a friend of mine called. We chatted and then he reminded me that the grocery stores are closed on Easter Sunday. Crap, we had to go to the store today. So after I got off the phone I told my guy and we dashed off to the store.

As we were headed over, he broke the news to me that we were invited to some friends for Easter. Great, not how I wanted to plan my day. Worst of all it’s not until late in the afternoon. That totally screws up everything. Hopefully we won’t stay too long, but honestly I don’t want to go at all.

We came home and I put the groceries away, then we dashed off to get a bite to eat. He wanted to go to Cracker Barrel and I didn’t fight him at all. I was hoping that the cute guy who is a host would be working. Sure enough, he was there. The food was just okay. Service was quick and our glasses were never empty for long.

Once we returned home I started on laundry and research. The research was to find the cute guys last name. I am getting closer but I am also starting to think he might not be on social networking. Right now it’s a challenge for me and if I ever get to solve it, I will feel so good.

I got a phone call from my guy who wanted to know if our Civil Union License was just like a marriage license. I said it affords us some of the rights that straight people have and it’s the closest thing that we can get right now to a marriage license. I guess he got to thinking about our vows and it just struck him that we were “married”. Duh, I’ve been saying it all along. He keeps talking about me leaving him and I always tell him I am not going anywhere, despite how crazy he drives my ass. I want to kill him sometimes but I love him and can’t imagine life without him. He has been with me for half of my life. At this point it would be like losing a limb.

So he is scared and he wants me to sleep with him tonight. He said that he needs me. Yeah, I don’t need to get peed on. I remember those days oh too well and I am glad they are gone. Expounding on that, when I was growing up I had a bed wetting problem. No doubt it was from the physical abuse. It continued until I was about 20 or 21, then magically it just went away. Now if I have to go, I wake up. I don’t always get up but typically if I ignore my bladder the urge just gets worse and eventually I have to get up. If his room wasn’t such a disaster, I would do what my grandmother used to do. Lay down and relax until I was sure he was passed out cold, then get up and go sleep in my own bed. I am worried about getting sick, plus getting no sleep since he likes to sleep with his machine off and snores like a freight train. Sleeping with him right now will be about as much fun as going to that stupid meal tomorrow. I want to relax and not have my life planned out for me by others.

The kids are all happy that I am home. Jumper and I had a pretty good night. He is such a snuggle bug at times. Everyone here wants a piece of me. Shy Girl begged me to pet her. I suspect there will be a full moon soon, either that or she is getting sick. Normally she is like drop the food on the floor fat boy and leave. I will take care of the rest. See that just proves that cats have staff, while dogs have owners. Still I love them all, even though they cost me so much money! As I type, they are wanting their evening snack. It started with a nice reminder from Momma. Then one of her daughters came down. Pretty soon I will see one or two more. They know what they want and when they want it. It’s just a matter of convincing me to give in, which normally is not a huge task at all.

Switching gears, I ordered my annual credit reports. I was shocked that my car loan was listed as a part of my bankruptcy on two reports. I have disputes filed to get that changed. I reaffirmed the debt, which means that I am legally responsible for it, so they should continue reporting to help me build my credit back. Speaking of cars, I got a mailer from the dealer. Go for a test drive and they will give me $20 off of any service I have done. If I buy a car they will give me an extra $500 and they are offering 0% financing for 60 months. Yeah, it’s a great time to buy a car. However, you have to qualify for that 0% and I doubt seriously that I would, given the bankruptcy. I do monitor my credit through Credit Karma and things are looking up for me. I just have to get the two credit cards I have paid off with a 0 balance each month, and then I will be doing really well. Paying them off should be a reality in one to two more months. The sooner, the better.

It’s been an entire week since I shaved, I like the look around Wednesday and Thursday. After that it just starts itching so bad and it’s time to cut it all off. I don’t think I will EVER have a beard because I can’t get past the itchy part. Besides that the hair on your face can hold allergens like dust, mold, etc. Which could explain those days when my nose flairs up. I am just getting lazy and I only do the minimum during the week. My get up and go, got up and went a long time ago.

Speaking of which, it’s probably time that I got up and went. I hope that you all have a very happy Easter and get to enjoy your weekend. Don’t eat too much ham. Be safe and I will talk with you peeps later.

Made it back

So I made it back safe I don’t know about the sound part!  Some of this story is disjointed, sorry if it confuses you.

My travel woes for this trip.  1st the plane I was supposed to board had a flat tire, so that screwed up my connecting flight.  I had to make other arrangements.  I got in and they ran out of Impalas so I had to take a Jeep but they charged me for an upgrade.  I thought the drive to the hotel would be 30 minutes.  It was more like 1 hour and 30 minutes.  I drove in the dark and rain.  I had Taco Bell for supper and didn’t get to the hotel until 10pm.  My room at the 1st place was average.  I lucked out and got a Jacuzzi.  I used it but wish now that I hadn’t.  I had to drain the tub because of the stuff in the water.  When I was sitting in it I kept thinking how unclean it is and cut my time short.  I had problems regulating the climate so I slept with the heat off, which was a bad move.  I got sick because it was cold in the room.  I was able to shake it off for a couple days but by Friday I was really felling it.  It rained everyday but Friday.  I took a shower on Monday, I had problems with the water and getting it to turn off, instead of off I turned it all the way to hot, I managed to knock the shower head off in trying to get away from the scalding water. Finally got it turned off.  I worked through lunch and didn’t have anything to eat until Supper which was very late.  Monday night I was woke up to what sounded like a fire alarm, turns out it was the person upstairs taking a shower and the pipes rattled just like a bell, which I thought might have been there fire alarm.  The first place had more work for me than I had time.  I had to cut my losses and get out of Dodge.  I worked late every night, drove in day light & rain.  Left in darkness and rain.  Went to Shoney’s but the food was horrible – nothing like I remembered.  Had plenty of Taco Bell the first part of the week.  My iPhone charger went out on me so the only way I could charge my phone was in the Jeep.  The 1st hotel served the same damn thing for breakfast every morning.  Biscuits and Gravy along with Scrambled Eggs, which were pellets, not real eggs. 

By mid week I figured out the automatic start button for the Jeep, loved that.  The thing had Satellite Radio so I didn’t have to listen over and over to the mixed CD I burned.  Its cargo space also came in handy when I went to the 2nd facility.  On the way to the 2nd place I got a call from home that Big Boy seemed to be taking a bad turn.  That shook me up, I had to get off the road get something to eat, call back home and talk it out.  Turns out he was fine, it was just a misunderstanding.  Still it was one of my greatest fears when I travel.  Got back on the road and arrived at the 2nd place.  Left when it was dark and raining.  Had problems finding the hotel, but got there.  Checked in and went straight to Cracker Barrel.

I found it rather odd that Cracker Barrel was in close proximity to a strip club and an adult toy shop.  Still I know good food and they had it going on.  So much that I ate there for the remainder of the week. 

Back to my check in at the 2nd place.  They lady told me they would put me in room 330 but they put me in room 320.  The next morning the cleaning person tried to get in but couldn’t because I had her locked out.  Thank God because I just got out of bed and didn’t have any clothes on.  That would have been slightly awkward.  So, I hightailed it to the shower and tried to get out as fast as I could because I knew she would get back.  While I was getting dressed (after my shower) my cell phone rang and it was the hotel.  They went to my room and apparently no one was there so they wanted to know if I was staying there.  I told them yes, I was in my room.  I went about my business and while I am eating breakfast I got another call they wanted to know what room I was staying in.  Jeez, someone is unorganized.  They wrote down 330 but gave me keys to room 330.  The room was nice and very spacious.  You could tell it was a fresh remodel.  When I got back on Thursday night I had an envelope laying on the table, they wanted me to tip the housekeeper.  Really?  Yeah.  For the price the room cost I didn’t think that was appropriate, they were getting a really good amount of money for each night.  I was kind of offended that they would even ask for a tip.  I got myself packed up and ready to go for Friday morning, time to get home.

Made it to the airport in plenty of time.  It was a very small airport and this time I had to walk out to the plane and climb up the steps just like you see in the movies.  Except this was a propeller driven plane and it held like 9 people.  The safety talk was different on this plane, they talked about a fire extinguisher.  I really had my doubts that we were going to make it.  But we did.  No free beverage on this plane.  When we landed I was feeling pretty nauseated.  I stopped at a Pub and had a burger and a Panna Cotta along with a Diet Coke.  That took some of the edge off but I still felt bad.  Got on the 2nd plane and I put my jacket in the seat next to me, I was asked to seat belt it in when we were in the process of taking off.  I said I would just hold it and was told nah, you can put it back.  I thought that was odd.  Got my free beverage on this plane, water.  That was good.  Landed to hear a voice mail someone had spyware on their computer.  I told them I was at the airport and would have to fix it on Monday. 

I left out that I got a panic call on Thursday from the bosses assistant that her files were gone from My Documents.  She was having some problems so she rebooted and once she did, they were gone.  Really?  I think she deleted them on accident, never heard of My Docs being wiped out from a reboot.  Anyway I went to the server and found that they appeared to be backed up.  So I started a restore.  She wanted to get our IT Vendor involved, so I did that.  Really nothing for them do to until the restore completed. I logged on Thursday night and it was still going, very slow.  It was a lot of data.  I didn’t think of it until a couple hours ago.  I went to follow up and got no response, which is odd.  I also didn’t get the usual good job email from my boss, which is really odd.  So I checked the server and the restore was frozen at 7%.  However, it looked like all of her data was back.  So I killed the restore job, applied a Windows Update and rebooted the server.  I reached out to our IT Vendor because they didn’t keep me in the loop, asking for an update and letting them know what I had done.  So we shall see come Monday.

The no response from the lady and not getting the good job e-mail from my boss have me thinking that they are some how going to turn this around to be all my fault and either yell at me or kick me out the door.  Ok, so I was on the road and did as much as I possibly could.  I should have followed up on Friday but it honestly never crossed my mind since I engaged the vendor they had the ball.  I’m a little stressed over it.

I also got a call that there was a little shake up in the office and they have screwed a couple people over.  Of course I got bothered all week long and have plenty more than I can handle scheduled for Monday.  I will work it out somehow. 

Came home to a disaster.  The house smelled like a Tuna Can, litter boxes hadn’t been cleaned and cat crap all over the floor.  So I had to work overtime to get this place back into shape when all I really wanted to do was collapse.  The best part was when I went to get in bed I found out the cats threw up all over it.  Nice!  Plus my partners computer had issues so I had to fix it.  He really needs a new machine but there is this problem called money.

I got my tooth drilled today at the dentist, my teeth are very sensitive now. That always happens after dental work but it’s been so long since I had anything done I forgot about it.  We had a nice supper and a cute waiter.  We also took a short nap together.  I still have plenty of stuff to get done around here but really just want to relax.  It’s coming up on 10pm and I am still adjusting from Eastern to Central time.  I think it’s time to veg a little.

Way too stressful of a week but I accomplished both installations and got super lucky with both of them.  They were done in hours instead of days.  I’m getting smarter as time goes on so I really have this down to a science.  Plus this time I shipped back all of the unused equipment so it will be less to order for the next install.  The number of places that have WIFI is getting less, which means there is less of a reason to have me travel. I kind of like the sound of that.  Traveling is nice in that it gets me out of the office.  However, each time when I return I really just want to go back on the road and kind of live my life at a distance.  Don’t get me wrong I miss home but it’s nice to get a break.

Okay, off to try to veg but not w/o taking care of some laundry.  Sorry for the long update and delay but as you can see I was super busy and very tired.  I will keep you posted on how things go Monday, it may be that I am worked up over nothing.

Sick but not ill

I got a request to terminate access for one of the people I just saw on my trip. They were fired. I am shook up over it and thinking what crappy timing. The folks I work for sure aren't shy about letting people go. It appears as if they have no heart but then again business doesn't have any emotions at all. However we are
all human, couldn't they have waited until after the new year? What makes it worse is yesterday was that persons birthday.

I got an email this morning from them thanking me for my efforts and the next thing I know they were walked out. Just glad I had no prior knowledge and didn't have to witness it.

I am at the airport. The GPS started working again. No problem with returning the rental car. One of the hot guys from the hotel is at the airport, wonder if he will be on my flight. Hmmm.

Just happy to get home. The sooner the better! Talk with you peeps later.