21 Years ago today

A lot has changed in 21 years.  Momma had her kittens on this hot June day 21 years ago today in the very basement I am in typing this.  It was a glorious day and I experienced a peace like nothing I have experienced since that day.  That day all was calm and right in the world, or so it felt that way. 

I sure do still miss Momma and all of her kids as well as our two strays we took in.  They were my world, my family and I’m very proud to say that.  I changed the course of everyone’s life that day – mine, my late spouses as well as Momma and her kittens. 

Happy heavenly birthday, I hope your all together having fun. 

On a different note, welcome in and thanks for dropping by.  It’s super hot and humid here.  The sun is out and so are the guys.  I saw a bunch of shirtless guys this morning, running.  I very easily could have had a wreck as I was looking at them. 

Made it to my friends shop, chatted a bit.  Scheduled a service appointment for my vehicle in a couple weeks.  I know that I am a bit early on my oil change but for the price they charge me, it’s smart to change the oil often.  Having the tires rotated and balanced as well.  I should be able to parlay that into a free lunch with my friend.  Again, something to look forward to. 

The heat was getting to me so I scooted out of there.  I had plans to stop for the mail and cat food but instead opted to come home and see the cats.  I needed to use the bathroom and wanted to grab a cold soda.  That turned into me getting nearly naked and watching TV.  I managed to fall asleep and felt better once I woke up.  Passed out lunch for the cats and then came back and watched more TV to pass time. 

Early afternoon I got dressed and headed out.  I went back to the country, the place I was the other day.  Damn I struck gold when it came to timing.  I got charged the lunch buffet price but I was there long enough they were changing over to dinner.  I ate very, very good.  The best meal I have had in a long time.  Sloppy Joes, Catfish, Fried Chicken, BBQ Pork, Mashed Potatoes and corn.  I was stuffed but figured since I had gone that far I made a trip back for some Peach Cobbler.  It was so so, could have been better but the main meal it was on the money.  This place is around 60 miles from home and it feels like I will never ever get there but eventually I arrive.  Chatted with the waitress a bit and found out that Sunday is actually the pick day they have more comfort food that day.  However, every day it’s a good spread.  I did look at a menu and they have a few items that look appealing but I can’t not order the buffet. 

When I walked in there was a couple sitting in the spot I normally get.  I kind of felt like Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory and wanted to say your in my spot.  The guy was super hot but he was all tatted up and that is kind of a turn off for me, still I got a good look at him and took it all in for what it was worth. 

Tomorrow is gonna hurt when I go to fill the gas tank.  The fuel gauge said that I could go 90 miles before I needed gas.  It’s been lower before but not that often.  I’m super anal about my fuel level and it was a little uncomfortable to make the trip but I knew for sure I wasn’t going to run out of gas.  Plus there is a fail safe when your down to I think it is 25 or 50 miles left a low fuel light and alarm comes on.  I’ve only seen that once in the 8 years I have owned this vehicle. 

Still never made it for cat food or the post office, those are tomorrow tasks.  I needed to use the restroom so I just came straight home.  I could go back out but damn it’s so hot out I really don’t want to.  Feels nice here in the basement where it’s 70 degrees.  It’s 91 degrees outside.  Besides that it upsets the cats when I leave.  If they had their way I would never ever leave their sides. 

I’m off to peruse the internet and watch more TV.  Perhaps I can trim some cat claws they sure are sharp.  Take care and stay cool.

Very Expensive & Emotional Week

I’ve spent the bulk of the week hanging out at a local business in town and chatting with the owners and their staff. It helped keep me busy and away from home. I talked a bit about Gator. I know that I was a HUGE pain in their ass but I didn’t prevent or hinder their ability to conduct business and there were frequent interruptions. Work always has a way to come calling, regardless of what you do.

It was refreshing for me not to have to think about work and no one has reached out. My initial plan was to take M-W but I figured what the hell, 18 years is a long time and this is quite a profound loss in my life. Might as well take 2 additional days. So, I was out all week plus last Thursday & Friday which were scheduled in advance for me to see the doctor and have a bit of an extended weekend. I’ve still got a week and a couple days left and once the new year starts, I will begin to accrue more time.

When it comes to alcohol, I normally maybe drink 1 or 2 Pina Colada’s per year. This week I have had 2. I would like many more! I’ve spent money eating out for breakfast and dinner. One day I had lunch out but mostly I have skipped lunch all week long. My body would normally rebel and my sugar would seriously drop so I would have to eat something but not this week. I’ve deprived myself from going to the bathroom and just holding it. I really don’t care about anything.

My sexual desire has been greatly diminished for weeks now. I got the desire on back on Wednesday (I think). I watched some porn. Not to brag or gross you out but damn I shot the biggest load of my life. It was like a rocket and I’ve never in my life seen a load like that exit my body. Yeah, it felt good. I figure that things are starting to normalize. I do get pretty horny still, but I right now I don’t always act on those feelings.

I booked a trip for Thursday at a local hotel about an hour away. I had a suite with a jet tub (Jacuzzi but it wasn’t official branding). Prior to leaving town for the trip, I bought a laptop. What I wanted was out of stock and they could order it but that would take a couple extra days. I wanted a computer to take with me and didn’t want to lug along my work laptop. Primarily for security issues, if the damn thing got stolen or lost it wouldn’t be a good look for me. I do NOT like Windows 11 but that is what ships on all new machines. I played with it when I got to the hotel and got it setup. It looked neat but some of the things that I can do in Windows 10 I couldn’t do in Windows 11.

When I woke up, I was horny and normally I don’t wake up with sex on the brain since I have gotten older. It was quite common when I was younger. I used that laptop to remote in to my home computer and I watched some porn from bed and had some fun. Great way to start the day. Again it gave me a sense that things were normalizing.

I haven’t had a massage in a year and figured that the jet tub would help me. Yeah, I actually fell into the tub and landed on my shoulder. It’s sore beyond belief but otherwise I am fine other than being a bit shaken and pissed off. The room in general was okay. The trip overall was nice but I didn’t quite get the escape I had hoped I was going to. It was overpriced but on-sale. I got the room for $249 but normally it’s like $500. I could have stayed 2 nights but after they add on fees and taxes it would have worked out to be ½ of my mortgage payment and I figured might as well come home. I was super disappointed they didn’t have a restaurant on-site so there was no room service. I thought I would order that for the 1^st time in my life but no such luck. I walked to a local Italian place that was recommended, they were super snooty and way overpriced. I’ve been fucked multiple times this week and each time is not enjoyable and there has been no lube. Yes, I am speaking metaphorically but I kind of figured that life would throw me a break, given the circumstances. If it wasn’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all.

I’ve made arrangements through my EAP to see a therapist and my first session was yesterday. The therapist is a bit of a ditz, she doesn’t pay close enough attention and she asks questions that were already answered if she would just listen. Based on our initial meeting I like her somewhat. It sounds like she has some different approaches to dealing with grief than what I have been through before. She tells me that I will get to the angry stage, yeah, I think I’ve kind of already been there. My employer will pay for a few visits so this won’t be something long term because she doesn’t take my insurance. Honestly if I think I still need to talk to someone I can always find a therapist on my own it’s just making time to see them and re-telling my story which does tend to get old after a while.

My dumb brother checked up on me, much to my surprise he was the last person I expected to hear from and don’t know that he will continue to follow up. We had a super short text message exchange. My thanksgiving friends have yet to follow up since I met up for lunch on Monday and I had to push to make that lunch happen, I almost didn’t have a place to land which was frustrating. So far as I know were still on for Christmas.

I’ve got mail all piled up around here and plenty of stuff to take care of, none of which I want to deal with. Today is the first day that I have spent any length of time at home. It’s kind of odd and boy this place is sure super quiet without my noise maker. I keep expecting her to shout out.

It’s been quite the physically and emotionally draining week. My body doesn’t permit me to sleep in much I am usually up by 7 or at the latest 8. Normally in a hotel I sleep like a baby but not in the place I went to. It was noisy and I forgot about that aspect of staying in a hotel. I woke up multiple times.

My shoulder pain got worse so I went to the ER last night. I got to see a helicopter land. I feel really bad for the person and their family that they called it for. You don’t just call for a helicopter unless it’s something uber critical. That’s how my spouse was transferred to a better hospital when he had his 2^nd stroke. I figured I would be in this place for 4 hours. Nope it was only 2. I guess maybe I do have some good luck. Nothing is broken, torn or out of place. I’ve also got the early on set of Arthritis, but that isn’t an emergency. They kicked me out and told me to take OTC pain relivers. My bigger worry is how they will code this so that my insurance pays. I think I may have a fight on my hands. I should have told the hotel that I fell but since it was my fault I didn’t bother.

Tomorrow will be my first day back since all of this unfolded. I am going to try to use today to my benefit and get stuff filed, put away and perhaps take some time to relax. It hit me like a ton of bricks this morning that next weekend is Christmas. I am so not ready. I don’t look forward to playing catchup but at the same time keeping busy might actually help me. My entire life is routine based and if you screw with my routines it messes up my entire day. I’ve got my next therapy session scheduled for Friday so I will get to leave work a bit early (unless I happen to be on-call, which I hope I am not. I was supposed to be on-call last week but that obviously didn’t happen.). Then a 3-day weekend, which I will kind of look forward to. Problem is that I will need to remember to do my grocery shopping on Saturday morning because the stores around here all close in the evening and they won’t be back open until after Christmas.

You may or may not be surprised at this but I went looking at cats yesterday. I managed to run into the Manager of a local Animal Shelter. After hearing my story, she encouraged me to adopt and told me that right now it would only cost me $25 some company is sponsoring adoptions so all of the normal fees are paid for. Yeah, I see the incentive and I kind of would like to bring one of them home but first there are so many of them and being the kind soul, I’d love to take them all home. However, that can’t happen. Secondly, I am still recovering from a loss and know that right now it’s way too soon. I would view a new cat as a replacement instead of a new pet and I just don’t think it would work right now. That’s not fair to the cat or to me. I did have a couple of them standout to me. One of which was a mom who just raised her kittens and they were all adopted out. She is looking for a home and kind of reminds me of My Momma cat. However, she’s not a lap cat and she doesn’t like to be picked up. She will curl up at your feet or sit next to you on the couch and she loves to be petted but other than that it’s kind of hands off. I honestly can’t take burying anyone or anything else right now. It’s just too much to absorb. I may cave and get a cat or possibly two but not right now. I need time for me and to see where I am at when I get through this grief period.

I’ve been with Gator from the moment she was born 18 years and 5 months ago until the day she died. I’d rather go back in time and start to meet her all over again but I know that’s not reality. I can’t just wipe out her memory and get over her passing with the stroke of a pen or a couple days. This is a pretty profound loss, one that I knew eventually would come and it marks the end of an era. She was my last living tie back to the life that I once had, her family and even my spouse. I’m at peace with the decision I made to let her go because it wouldn’t have been fair to her to keep her going just for my benefit. Things would have continued to worsen and I honestly don’t think her appetite would have ever returned so it would have been prolonging the inevitable. I do miss her and I probably will for the rest of my life, but I know that what is so fresh now with time will eventually fade into the background and be minimized. I do believe that I am pretty well done crying over the loss. That got old but I have to let it out, I can’t just hold it all in otherwise that would turn me into a ticking time bomb.

I do plan to eat my feelings this week, I bought all sorts of crap that I know I shouldn’t eat but damn I kind of feel like I earned it. The toughest decision tonight will be what is for dinner. I think I might have an answer but have to double check the fridge. It was nice to eat out all last week but damn that gets expensive really fast. The vet bill is paid for. I just have to pay off my laptop and the trip. The rest of the expenses like food and gas aren’t horrible and I should be able to take care of them without having to tap my savings but it’s still there is if I need it.

Here's hoping it’s a better week for me and a great week for you! Thanks again for your readership, thoughts and comments. It means more to me than you know. Take care!

Halloween

Good Morning and Happy Halloween, if you celebrate. 

Not a whole lot going on this morning and since it’s a Monday that is a very good thing.  I fell into a very deep sleep and it’s a little difficult to be awake right now but I am trying to get used to it.  Today is one of those cold and dark days where I wish I could just go back to bed and not have to worry about work.  It’s like today should be part of the weekend, then again maybe that’s just me talking w/o the sugar in my system this morning. 

Last night I cleaned up the bathroom and moved in my new Tao brush.  Shaved and got a shower.  I had washed the sheets and pillow cases and my rule of thumb is always start off with a clean body sleeping in the sheets.  I get more rest and well last night that really proved true. 

Gator woke me up one time and it was 2 hours before I was scheduled to get up.  She was hungry and pleased with what I gave her.  I let her chow down and I went back to bed.  Had the most strangest dream, I had switched jobs and was working for an Accounting Firm ran by two brothers.  They were fine but my co-workers were a bit strange and the company was operating with outdated technology that used a lot of DOS command lines.  I knew some of them but others required me to think a bit before they would come to me.  Needless to say when I woke up for real it’s no wonder I didn’t want to go to work after just having a strange dream like that. 

I used the bathroom and tried to calm Gator in the process.  Then went to fetch her breakfast.  Not before stopping and checking the litter box  Things are back to normal, which is good.  I made my Oatmeal and sat and ate it along with my Belvita biscuits, and banana.  Then shuffled off to the bathroom to take my pills and then to my room to put on some clothes.  In front of the TV and waited for Gator who showed up eventually.  She ate a little bit and then I just petted her as I started flipping channels because the political ads started.  They are getting stronger and more frequent now that were on the heels of election day.  I will be so glad when they stop it’s.  Then I talked myself to getting the day started. 

There isn’t anything on my schedule until much later in the day.  If it wasn’t for my phone blowing up I could easily call this a day and work from bed or phone it in for the bulk of the day.  We have some left over rain and since the sun wasn’t up when I got up it was very dark outside which was just inviting circumstances to go back to bed. 

Last night I saw several kids dressed up as well as their parents.  They started about dusk time and made there way through the neighborhood.  There were a couple of close calls on my street with vehicle traffic but thankfully nothing happened.  They will all be out again tonight in full force and then were done with this.  I can turn my outside lights back on and resume a normal life.  That is until next weekend when we have the time change and Fall backwards by an hour.  More sleep that is always fun.  Getting used to the time change is always awkward but I will make it through.  

The odd odor has permeated my upstairs.  I got out an odor bag and put it up in my room initially but have since moved it to the living room.  The smell is still bad this morning.  I hate the smell and it’s a horrible thing to wake up to.  I have an air freshener in my room which helps a little bit but not much.  This isn’t the horrible odor that was for sure urine it’s the gasoline like smell and I just want it to stop and never come back.  I figured since I was mouse free the odors would stop but apparently that is not the case.  Hopefully, it won’t last terribly much longer but usually it’s about a week or two.  For all I know another mouse got in and then died.  That is a possibility.  Just kind of odd that is’ not noticeable here in the basement.  My room and the living room/kitchen are the areas where it’s seems the strongest. 

Here’s hoping that I find some motivation to do some work today and that the day doesn’t linger on.  Tomorrow at this time I should be in the office and well I don’t exactly look forward to that since I will be driving in the dark and it will the cold.  Plus I will have less sleep than I have today.  However, there is enough going on tomorrow that I it will actually be a challenge to figure out when I will be able to eat lunch.  Kind of opposite day.  However, if things calm down enough I plan to leave super early like I did last week so I am home before the afternoon rush hour starts.  The week after that Tuesday is actually Election Day and were off, my tentative plans are to travel to the buffet for Mexican Food.  I am looking forward to that more than I am Thanksgiving.  However, time off is time off.  Unfortunately, I will be on-call so that could derail my plans but I sure hope not. 

Well on to scour the web and maybe actually work or go back to bed for a bit.  Hope that you have a great day this last day of October.  2 more months left in this year and then were done.  4 holidays or days off from work plus 2 vacation days I have scheduled in early December.  There is good and bad in that but I hope more good than bad!

Cheers!

Weekend catchup post

SATURDAY

I did sleep in a little bit and was a bit lazy and loafed around watching TV and spent time with Ms. Gator. I eventually got up and had something to eat, showered and got dressed. I tackled the two tasks that I really wanted to accomplish. The first was getting the hose reel in the garage and putting the hose on it. That was super easy. The second was replacing the GFCI outlet. That was difficult and I was quite sweaty but I accomplished it. Not exactly sure who built this place but from the day we moved in to present there has always been some interesting surprises. Not sure who wired this outlet but it looks to me like they did a horrible job. My electrician passed away (referring to my late spouse) so I can’t ask him for sure but from my take it looked sloppy. I was amazed that I actually replaced the outlet, tested and confirmed it worked. It’s still active and the GFCI has yet to trip. The outlet isn’t fully mounted in the wall, that still needs to be done and the cover put back on. I was out of steam and just said I’ll put that on the list of things to do (someday). No one comes in contact with it but me and there isn’t any liquid near by so I feel reasonably safe with my decision.

I had to shut the power off to the whole house because I didn’t know which breaker served the outlet and I am not as brave as my late spouse to work on a live circuit. Gator was highly upset and we got into it. I hit her gently with my shirt and that scared her and also made her quite angry with me. It took hours to get her to calm down and earn my trust. She ran to the basement at one point and that’s where we were able to make up. I carried her up the stairs and feeling that she was about to start squirming with those claws in my bare chest I knew it was best to put her back on the steps. Then I passed out some food and all was forgiven. You’re not supposed to hit a cat and I felt bad but I acted in anger because she wouldn’t shut up. She didn’t want anything but to raise hell with me for being out in the garage for so long and neglecting her, plus all of the UPS (uninterruptable power supplies) beeping along with the alarm panel probably drove her a bit crazy.

I had cooled off and time got away from me. I put on a fresh shirt and headed out to grab a bite to eat. I opted for Red Lobster. I had a car on my ass and got confused and turned a bit early. The quickest way to get to the road I needed to be on is to cut through a local college campus. It’s a mammoth place and if you don’t know where you’re going you can get lost. That marks the second time I got lost on that campus. I had to turn around and enter from the way am used to in order to get going. That added about 15 minutes time to my trip. I started yawning when I was about ½ way there and that’s not something I do typically when I am behind the wheel. When I got there, I was surprised that there was a long waiting line. I checked in and waited a half hour for a table. Everyone was a bit confused as to why it was taking so long because there were plenty of open tables but that is because of COVID and having to space everyone out, plus they were probably short staffed as most places are these days. As I was entering the last 15 minutes of my time in line, a guy named Charlie walked in. He looked like he could be a Good Time Charlie and we could have had some fun, if it wasn’t for the fact that he was with his girlfriend and her parents. He didn’t want to sit next to me but eventually his girlfriend insisted that he sit down. I liked watching him regardless. He was smart and checked in on the app so his wait time was much shorter than mine, plus there was a larger party. My cell phone has lousy reception there and while I got the text message that I was on the waiting list, I didn’t get the text for when my table was ready, which caused the host to start verbally paging me. Then there was confusion because they thought for some strange reason there were two of us when there was just me. It took another 10 minutes for a waitress to take my order. I was a bit scared of ordering alcohol because I know it makes me sleepy and I was tired as it was. However, I threw caution to the wind and placed my normal order. Enjoyed the Pina Colada even though there was no Pineapple garnish. It was quite refreshing. It was lacking in TLC in that you could tell whoever made it rushed through it. Still, it was good just not as good as normal.

When I finished up and settled the check, I returned to my vehicle only to find that it was pouring rain. That wasn’t terribly fun to drive in but I made it. Some people feel the need to drive faster when it rains but I am not one of those people. I don’t drive much slower than normal unless it’s a monsoon, which it was not. Just a steady rain for a few miles. It would stop and then I would run back into it again as I wound my way home.

I walked in the door and there was my Gator greeting me and happy to see me. Of course, she wanted more food, which I happily passed out. I had bigger plans for last night in getting tasks done around the house but I was really exhausted between the heat and the frustration of working on the outlet it just zapped the life out of me. I spent the evening with Gator watching TV.

Bed time approached rather quickly as you would imagine. I gave Gator the benefit of the doubt but knew that she would turn into a pest as soon as I was in slumber land. I was right and had to remove her from the room. Then I fell back asleep.

SUNDAY

I woke up at 7a but managed to get back to sleep for a bit longer. It was a little after 9a when I rolled out of bed and she was right outside the door waiting on me and happy to see me. I knew that she wouldn’t be terribly happy with me eventually because today was vet visit day. I prepared her as much as I could in advance. I brought out the carrier and she is so nosy and curious that she had to go climb into it. Would she do that when it was time to leave, of course not. I had to fight with her to get her loaded up. I almost forgot her stool sample, which was in the fridge of all places. I did wind up forgetting my phone but we were pulling out of the driveway when I realized it and just opted to keep on going.

We got another freezer for an exam room but it wasn’t the same one as last time. There is good and bad. So, she has lost weight, ounces and not pounds. The vet said that she was dehydrated and that could account for the weight loss. I expressed some concern for her kidneys because she has had a couple times where it looked like she had fluids based on her urine output. The pred will make her kidneys work harder and that of course will contribute to a shorter life. That’s the bad and good. Based on the documentation I got for the visit it seems as if the vet is still on the fence to say if this is IBD or if it’s Lymphoma but she didn’t express that concern when she was in the room. I don’t like those little surprises. However, I still feel like my time with Gator is limited and that she may not make it the full 2 years that I am hoping. I am thinking we are down to months but that is based on what my gut is telling me. I don’t have the feeling like I did a couple weeks ago where it would be imminent in losing her that day. I talked with the vet about decreasing the pred and she said we can try a ½ of a pill to see how she tolerates that. I now also have to give her fluids once a week to help her kidneys. I’ve done the fluids routine before and am not afraid of it at all. My wallet wasn’t prepared for the cost but hey it is what it is. A bag of fluids for Momma 2 years ago was $55 and that was just for the bag. Now they sell the same thing for $65 but they include the IV catheter and don’t sell it separately. I tried to talk them out of that but it didn’t work. Needles are $1.65 per needle and the vet wants me to use a new one each time. I’ve had that speech before but I have also been told you can use the same needle more than once since it’s the same cat. Confused, yeah, I know. I have used the same needle two or three times. When fluid won’t flow out of it that is when I changed it. Not certain as to what I will do this time.

We weren’t in and out as fast as I would have liked but it was considerably faster than last time when we camped out for hours on end. This was also much simpler just checking to see how she was progressing rather than trying to chase down a problem. I got her home and she bolted out of the cage. We don’t have to return until 1 month from now. I booked a Saturday appointment and changed vets, just to see if I get a different opinion or vibe.

She is back to not eating all of her food, it’s been that way for a day. She still eats the meat but she still loves the gravy. The pet food store didn’t have a super wide variety so I was limited on flavors I could get her. I am going to pick up some additional cans in different flavors at the store tomorrow. I am a bit concerned that we are slowly on the path to return to the path we were on with rapid food consumption all the time and no ability to satisfy the hunger. However, she is still making solid waste so perhaps it’s just a flavor thing or so I hope. I don’t want to go backwards with her I want to move forward – it’s all about positive progress.

I have given her fluids and she was a bit squirmy with me, which her siblings & mother acted in the same manor. The odd thing about the fluids is you have to pinch the skin to give it time to clot, if you don’t some but not all of the fluid will leak out. I really wish it was an injection instead of an IV drip. One horrible task down. The other one will be her pill, which she still fights me on but is doing a great job of taking.

I took care of the normal house work, dishes are going and so is the laundry. Gator is resting in her new cat bed on the couch and she looks so cute and comfortable in it. I am glad that she likes it.

In typing all of this out I just have this overwhelming sadness about her that I am watching her die a slow death. She is 17 and I keep reminding myself of that all the time. That is old for a cat and I am blessed that she has made it this far and with minimal trips to the vet. Time is not on our side anymore and coming to terms with that isn’t easy. I can’t imagine life without her. Like I mentioned earlier I know that I am most likely going to have to make the call eventually to end her life and that decision seems so wrong to be in my hands. I am qualified to do a lot of things but ending a life isn’t one of them. It has a great psychological and moral effect on me. It just feels so wrong even though in many cases it is the right call to make. I cherish every moment I have with her. I only hope that I can be more adept at interpreting her needs and wants so that I can keep her as comfortable as possible. There is no obvious pain but I do wonder sometimes when she cries if it’s not pain but I am mistaking it for old age and being lost or confused. I can only see life through my eyes and not in hers. In many ways I wish that I was able to see life from her eyes. Animals do not know death; they have no fear and that is not true for humans. As for now we just keep on marching to the beat of the drum with fluids once per week, the lower dose of medicine and hope & pray for the best. I do really wish that I wasn’t alone that is part of what makes this all the more difficult to deal with, but it’s not like I had the thought that death would some how bypass Gator. While I don’t want to live without her, I know that she would be unable to survive long term without me. Therefore, it is my prayer, wish and desire that she go before I do. I am fortunate in that I get to be with her 24/7 and don’t have to leave for work. I like the fact that she is more tolerant now of my being in the basement and that I don’t have to stick to her like glue. I can also take a shower in peace, that is comforting and refreshing. Hopefully, this new combo of treatment will work for her long term and maybe, just maybe I will get the 2 years out of her that I am hoping for.

Moving on from depression city, my plans for tomorrow are to hopefully wake up early get some breakfast out, hit up the grocery store, gas up the vehicle. Maybe step out for a burger or maybe stay home. Try to weed out some junk/spam email at work and get myself psyched up for the hell that is about to hit me on Tuesday when I return for what I am certain of will be a very painful and labor-intensive day if not week. Busy makes the day go by but crazy busy is what I am hoping to avoid. I don’t want to quickly burn out. The break was nice, not long enough nor what I had anticipated. I was fortunate in that I was left alone no one bothered me. I reached out to talk with a co-worker mid-week because I saw someone high profile left. I thought they were fired but found out that they instead resigned, which was sad but a little more comforting. I also will return to working with HR on my accommodation to continue working from home, really not looking forward to that at all. Governmental political bullshit is something I have no tolerance for because it boils down to stupidity and that just frustrates me to no end and I do quickly lose my temper. I am eager for the weekend to get here again but sadly it will only be a two day pause. Kind of nice to have one last day in my time away before returning. Today feels much like a Saturday instead of a Sunday.

I did almost forget to mention that I left and went for a pizza this afternoon. I tried a new super thin crust and hated it because they made it too thin. The cheese, pepperoni & sausage was all good but way too hot and I now have to wait for the skin to regenerate on the roof of my mouth. I burnt it pretty good and more than once. That will teach me to switch things up, back to deep dish it is. Costs more, you get less but it is so good and quite filling! The drive was nice and I only saw one police car that was on the side of the road with a semi-truck. I thought that to be abnormal with this being a holiday weekend. Sometimes I go and there are lots of police but mostly it’s sparse and you see a couple here and there and then there are other times when you don’t encounter any at all. I had a joker pull out in front of me as I was leaving the pizza place, we got on the same route and then I watched them drive even worse, I put some distance between us and they were no longer a problem or threat to me. I didn’t see them wreck but the thought of having another accident even if it wasn’t my fault was frightening. I’ve been through enough with my automobile and certainly don’t want to be in another accident anytime soon.

I do hope that you had a great weekend and that you will enjoy the extra day off. Perhaps get together with family/friends or maybe you’ll just chill at home. Wishing all the best for you! Take care and we shall talk again soon. Thanks for stopping by!

Road Trip

Hi everyone, hope you all are well. I made the trip and no issues. It was refreshing to get out of my own backyard. There also was a surprising amount of construction and no shortage of slow downs in work zones. I had lots of people riding my tail or passing me because I observed the work zone speed limit. I think it’s kind of silly to slow down when there are no actual workers but since some of it was unchartered territory for me, slowing down made complete sense to avoid from crashing because I wasn’t familiar with the road.

As you can imagine I had lots of different thoughts going through my head and as I got closer the anxiety began to build. Finally, I was there, two hours is a hell of a long time to drive and it felt like I was going to the other side of the earth. I went two complete area codes away from my home. It wouldn’t be too much farther to cross a river into a bordering state.

I got out and stretched, then put on my sport coat and kept thinking I sure hope there is a bathroom in this place. I passed up the last rest stop, thinking and hoping there would be another. I walked in and was greeted by an usher who pointed me to a large room. I was met by a lady behind a podium who asked me for my name and she wrote it in a book, then presented me a memorial flyer and told me to social distance and start the line where the posters were. I looked over many photos as my eyes began to start tearing up. I was emotional just walking into the place. The closer I got to actually talking with the family the worse things got. At one point my friend turned and saw me, he said my name and I waved back. I could tell I managed to shock & impress him all at the same time.

Once I got my turn, I got to meet the rest of his family (minus the children, they were no where to be found, which explained why it was so quiet). I was wiping tears from my eyes while trying to make conversation. He told me that I didn’t have to come and I responded with it’s only a two-and-a-half-hour drive, as if it was around the corner. Our conversation was short as I was fearful of actually starting to break down and start crying. I drove all that way and had a 5-minute conversation only to get back on the road and drive back. I would have like to know more about what happened with his mom, if this was a sudden thing as I gathered or if it was expected. However, no one said anything and I wasn’t about to ask. His dad seemed to be keeping it together quite well and he was every bit as polite as I anticipated he would be. I observed some slight bruising on his mom’s hand but that could have been from many different things. I really wish that I could have met her, she sounded like a wonderful lady. Thankfully, I did manage to find the restroom before I left, which was a welcome relief.

I’m not sure why but the drive back didn’t seem quite as long. I did stop in for pizza. I got a spinach and sausage deep dish. It was very good. The waitress told me they used special seasoning on their spinach. Yeah that special seasoning is called salt and if you gave me cooked spinach, I’d put a little on mine. The pizza was damn good and I had plenty to take home.

My gas tank was running low but I opted to take a chance and just drive home without filling up to help empty things out. I’ve got like 15% fuel left which translates to less than 50 miles. The vehicle got a good workout and I think it’s happy about it. The tires were checked prior to leaving and I put in a new air filter. The gas tank was already full. By the time I got home it was dark, the cats were angry at me but also happy to see me and I was tired. It was a very long day and I was quite proud of myself; I know I did a good thing.

I would have made this entry yesterday but the day quickly and abruptly spiraled out of control. I spent the entire day, minus an hour on conference calls and only got a ½ hour for a quick bite to eat. When I decided I was done for the day at 4:30p I went upstairs started watching TV and promptly fell asleep. Marv and Gator woke me up a ½ hour later because they wanted their dinner and I was quite happy they did.

I watched back to back the two nights of The Comey Event on Showtime. Holy cow, what a show. It was eye opening and very scary. I really do hope and pray that there is a positive change in Washington when the results of the election are counted, otherwise were all t-totally fucked and not in a good way at all.

I had a nice XXX rated dream, probably because of my lack of actual sex for so long. I was very happy while I was dreaming but not so happy when I woke up and discovered it was a dream. Ah well, then it was time to start this what I had hoped would be wonderful day.

It’s not a terribly bad day but it’s busy and there are still BS meetings and calls happening at work. Come on weekend!

I didn’t realize until this morning that there is a new TLD (Top Level Domain) available. .GAY, it is for real. Here’s an article if your interested, https://icannwiki.org/.gay In researching that I found there is also a .LGBT and here’s an article on that https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/.lgbt Interesting that our community has a domain presence. I guess we can all wave our virtual pride flags!

I’m going back to the fun which is my sick sense of humor saying back to work. Take care of yourselves and stay safe. I will talk with you peeps again soon!

 

Emotional Week - Brother Trouble

Wednesday was not the greatest day for me.  I called my brother to vent and it took for what felt like forever for him to answer the phone.  He sounded kind of like I woke him up.  I asked him what was new.  He said not much, just got released from the hospital.  I asked what’s going on.  He casually said he had a nervous break down.  I said huh?  He said you know Situational Awareness Depression (SAD).  Then he muttered that the bimbo was with him.  I paused and said I think we have a bad connection, repeat what you just said.  He said the bimbo was with him.  That threw me into an instant rage.  Without thought I screamed into the phone, that’s fine were done and I hung up on him.  Was that the best thing to do?  Probably not, it didn’t help me and I’m sure it did no good for him. 

You have to be fucking kidding me that you called that bitch who you threw out 2 months ago, instead of me because you went to the hospital.  What the fuck is wrong with you?  I was hurt and mad at the same time as well as caught off guard with what was not a pleasant surprise.  He was doing so well and now he’s back to square one again.  Fuck! 

That old saying about leading a horse to water but not being able to make it drink, applies to this situation.  I have been giving him solid advice for months and so have his friends.  He needs to drop her like a hot potato and the same for her family, move on.  It’s not fun, it’s not going to be pain free and yes you will miss her.  But you will regain your sanity and cam move on with your life.  He had what he describes as a drama free zone for 2 months and was making what seemed on the surface as positive progress.  He’s got depression folks, he didn’t have a nervous breakdown that is the cunt’s way of bringing more drama than the situation needs. 

Needless to say I haven’t spoken with my brother since I hung up on him.  Now I desperately want to talk with him since some time has passed.  I sent him a couple emails yesterday, it explains why I reacted the way I did.  However, it’s not an apology.  He’s drug me along for a ride on this nutty bus that is his life, asked for my advice and then threw it all in the shitter.  So he wasted my time.  I’m not talking an hour here or there.  I am talking hours as in 3 to 4 each time we would talk and it was frequent.  I feel that I have a right to be pissed off and disappointed in him.  However, feelings aside at the end of the day were still related and I want to make sure he is okay.  If he is going back with her then we are done and I can’t give him any more advice.  It doesn’t mean we can’t talk but I can’t afford to get involved in the mess that is his life.  I want to call but I kind of think that he may have blocked me, I could be wrong and won’t know until I give it a try.  The longer time passes with no response to my email the more desperate I get.  I’ve decided the breaking point is Saturday.  If I don’t have a response then I will try calling him.  I’d like to move past this sooner rather than later. 

I have a bad feeling about things.  I don’t know that he will bounce back from this.  I mean for 2 months in 46 years was the 1st time he was ever on his own and by himself since birth.  Take that in for a second.  It’s scary and I understand that.  However, it’s not an insurmountable circumstance to overcome.  You lean on family and friends for help, plus you keep yourself busy.  It worked for 2 months and then fell apart.  Funny thing is that over the weekend he told me that the last two weeks he has slept the best in years.  He has the whole insomnia thing as well but it’s way worse than mine.  He goes night after night with no sleep, where as I might have a night or two of interrupted sleep.  We are 2 different people but have a lot in common due to our blood relationship.  It’s also natural for me being his big brother to want to protect him.  However, I can’t protect him from himself. 

This has by far been the biggest issue I have dealt with this week.  If you have any thoughts or advice, I’d love to hear them.  Part of me wants to run away and part of me wants to run to him.  I am conflicted but also still seething with a bit of rage. 

On a different note, I’ve been hearing this noise ever since my tires were rotated.  I did my own research and it sounded more and more like a tire off balance.  I went back to the dealer on Wednesday afternoon.  They held me hostage in a hot box (waiting room with no ac) for a couple hours before I learned anything.  They decided to rotate the tires again back to the way they were.  So the new tires I got last year are now in the front and the OEM bad tires are in the back.  Bottom line is I need 2 new tires due to the wear pattern.  I just turned 30,000 miles this morning folks.  The tires come with a 55 thousand mile warranty.  I think I have a warranty claim.  Wow trying to get that pushed through was difficult.  Finally with some complaining to the manufacturer they will take a warranty claim from my dealer.  I should get some credit so that I don’t have to pay full price for new tires.  Which by the way the whole package for 2 tires is $800.  That is some expensive rubber.  Condoms are way cheaper why can’t I drive on them?  I can pay the money but the point is I shouldn’t have to.  Between the tire manufacturer and the dealer they are both trying to screw me over.  I won’t take it without a fight.  I’ve done nothing wrong and kept up with maintenance, making sure the pressure was right and rotation.  I think I should get a break here.  I don’t mind shouldering part of the cost but the full thing, not without a fight. I have an appointment scheduled for next Thursday morning.  They will hold me hostage for 2 to 3 hours.  As long as I don’t miss my doctors appointment in the afternoon I am fine with waiting.  Not exactly how I want to spend my day off but it’s kind of par for the course.  Doctor & Car, usually they are a day apart and the most frequent reason for me taking my time. 

Then there is my lawn.  So I sent a cease and desist letter and got a signed receipt for delivery.  Then I come home on Wednesday and find that the dummy cut it again.  So I talked with an attorney and was encouraged to engage Law Enforcement.  So I went to the police station and they made a phone call, problem solved.  I shouldn’t hear from him ever again and they will stop cutting.  This was an accident that happened from habit.  The new guy is supposed to show up today and I’ll bet you he will be surprised.  The bushes still need to be trimmed and the sticks are still in the yard and need to be disposed of.  So I saw no point in calling him to forewarn him because like last time he would just put it off for another 2 weeks.  I want the work done and I want to know that I can count on him.  So we shall see. 

Outside of that all is well.  Next week will be a 3 day work week for me.  You know my plans for Thursday.  Friday right now is wide open.  Not sure what I will do but taking a drive for some food sounds rather appealing, especially since I will have new tires.  We shall see how poor I am and that will probably dictate my Friday. 

Looking forward to going home tonight.  Frozen Lasagna for supper and a nice relaxing evening with the kids.  Then up early on Saturday and off to the grocery store.  I will most likely be holed up the entire day on Sunday.  I have to get up early because of server patching but outside of that I’ve got nothing going. 

Happy Friday, thanks for reading my troubles and for your visit.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Fun

This weekend was fun.  I hit up the dentist and got my 6 month check up, all good news.  Bad news is they are booked for the rest of the year on Saturday appointments so I won’t be going back until January 2019.  I think I will be able to manage that.

I visited the buffet, it was good to get away but good gravy the gas it took was the most expensive part.  I paced myself and didn’t leave miserable but I was full.  Food was great as always. 

Came back home and got in a little bit of a nap.  Then grabbed cat food and went to the Hallmark store.  It was tough to find just the right card but I think I got it.  I sat down and wrote a letter to accompany the card.  This of course is all going to my former boss.  It was difficult but I got through it. 

Jumped into the 2nd season of 13 Reason Why.  It’s so compelling, it just sucks you right in.  I still have around 5 episodes left, so 5 hours of viewing pleasure.  I’m going to watch more tonight before bed. 

Hit up the grocery store this morning and once again I was a good boy and only got ice cream for sweets.  My sugar is in check and that should make the doctor happy so long as I keep up the pace.  It’s tough. 

Trimmed Ruth’s claws, she protested a little bit but there wasn’t much of a fight.  This time was pretty close to perfect.  I think were still friends if not we will be when the food comes out.  I love her but those claws wow they were something.  7 weeks and we do it again. 

Had a strange dream that we had kittens, momma was trying to nurse them and Taz was the father.  It was very strange and thankfully only a dream.  I don’t need kittens on my hands right now.  Everyone and their mother is trying to get me to take in another cat and I keep refusing.  I had a lady offer me a dog as well.  No thanks Noah’s Animal Kingdom has no vacancy right now. 

I processed the bulk of the new people that start on Monday.  The dummy I work with did 2 of them and it took me longer to double check his work than it did to setup the actual accounts.  My boss finally saw the light and asked me if I wanted to finish them up on my own and I said yes, please.  It was a huge ball of stress but it was better that way.  Sounds like dummy is closer to being on his way out.  I actually found out what his problem is.  There is a female that is within 6 cubes of his and they just flirt all day long.  If I had a guy to flirt with all day long I could see where that would have a negative impact on my job as well. 

Speaking of negative impact, I am behind schedule and the warden is crowing at me.  I guess I should go because Monday will be here sooner than I want it to.  I got a summer haircut and got rid of my side burns.  It looks a little strange but hey it’s only hair it will grow back. 

Here’s to a great week ahead for all of us.  Take care. 

1 Pending

I received a rejection e-mail from the insurance company I met with last week.  While I am surprised a little I am also kind of thankful because hours of 10am-7pm wouldn’t have been any fun at all. 

I checked with my 2nd reference and he was contacted yesterday as well but couldn’t talk with them until today.  This is of course for the 1st place I went last week.  I saw an ad online tonight for the job through a recruiting firm and they said the company was interviewing now and will be making an offer this week.  Yeah, well if that is true and not hype then I certainly hope they offer me the job. 

Moving forward, I have an interview tomorrow that I finally was able to confirm late this afternoon.  There was some confusion if it would be face to face or via phone.  It is in fact Face to Face.  That is good and I know this place is interested in me because I was submitted at an absurd low rate.  So perhaps if all else fails then maybe this will be the place I will work at.  It should only be an hour so then I can go check in at the unemployment office, that is provided they don’t decide to close early.

I was also a little shocked that there was nothing for me to apply to tonight.  I looked extra hard and browsed to a couple extra company’s websites, still nothing. 

Right now everything is so up in the air.  It sucks to see your future swirling all around you.  While the possibilities are great, it would be nice to have things nailed down and know that I will be able to eat, pay my bills and take care of my family.  Things have been up in the air long enough that it’s time they come down.  After all they say what goes up must come down.

On the cat front, things appear near normal today.  I know Big Boy is eating which is good.  Last night he came into my room for bed and could hardly walk.  It was like he was on stilts.  I checked and sure enough he stepped in wet litter and it was all caked in his rear paws.  I got him clean but that sure was a chore.  He used the small litter box and there is barley room for him.  He needs to use the large box I bought for him a few years ago.  It is the only box that he can truly fit into.  I like having a Big strong cat but I hate the fact that he is so fat that going to the bathroom and cleaning are becoming a chore and that I have to help him.  Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind helping him but I wish I didn’t have to.  How do you put one cat on a diet when you have 6 others in the same house to feed?  That is next to impossible.  Unless of course you confine him and that isn’t something we want to do. 

I thought sure that Lawn Boy would show up today but he didn’t.  Tomorrow is predicted to be the hottest day of the week.  Hot enough for you to take off your shirt, if that happens I certainly hope that I am home to watch.  Seems so silly that I look forward to seeing him but it’s something that helps keep me going.  Besides that nothing wrong with looking at a hot guy!  I know I am not alone, lots of people do it. 

So last night I was looking for credit cards for people who file bankruptcy.  There are many options, most of which are prepaid.  However, the traditional credit cards that don’t require prepayment will only give you a $300 limit.  While that isn’t a whole lot, it does prevent you from getting in too deep.  I didn’t bother to look at interest rates, but I am sure they are not low.  I was thinking if I got the job and it required travel this would be an alternative.  While I would like a credit card, I think living on cash is much better.  I have a greater sense of satisfaction knowing that what I buy is mine, free and clear.  However, that was true with most of my credit purchases when I was working.  The only way to use a credit card is to take a 30 day loan.  You buy something today on credit and pay it off in 30 days when the bill comes.  If you do it any other way it’s a recipe for disaster.

I need to visit my regular reads, trim the old bird claws (fingernails), and then start my nightly chores.  Then it will be time to relax with the kids and watch TV until I fall asleep.  Thankfully my interview is in the afternoon so I don’t have to rush to wake up early but I can’t stay in bed all day either. 

I was thinking tonight as I was eating some cold, horrible left over frozen pizza from last night.  That I am really unhappy with the direction my life is going.  I am ready to build a new future, work for a respectable employer at a job I love and be able to save tons of cash so that I can get the things that I want.  Who knows maybe even be able to take a vacation.  That is one thing about the travel with the job I think I will get.  It will allow me to get away from home and sort of going on a working vacation, so the trip won’t cost me a penny.  It’s not the way I want to get away, but it’s a start.

Speaking of vacation, me and my partner used to travel like crazy before we got all tied down with cats.  Our trip to Nashville is the one that was the most enjoyable.  While we haven’t been out of the country it’s just nice to get away.  However, there is nothing and I mean nothing like sleeping in your own bed.  I used to sleep very well at hotels and really relax but then came age and responsibilities and things changed.  Ah, to be younger again.  Youth has it’s advantages, if you still have it enjoy it while it lasts.

I’m rambling so it’s probably a good idea to stick a fork in this post and call it done.  I will talk with you peeps later!

Sex it Sells

For the past few days I have been working on ways to get more readers.  The simple way to accomplish this is listing your blog with search engines.  I’m talking about separate search engines from Yahoo, Google, etc.  There are some that specialize in Gay Blogs but there are many more that specialize in Gay Adult Blogs and Gay Sex Sites.

I am very happy to have all of the readers I have today, but there is always room for more.  I didn’t realize until tonight how much my other blog had taken off.  The hit counter is already in the 300 range.  That is pretty good.  However my main site (what your reading now) is only in the 70’s. 

I always new that sex was a hot item and it sold quickly.  So by having two blogs I already know that the one about Sex is by far more popular.

Being Human (Gay, Straight, Bi, Lesbian, Transgender, etc.) there is so much more to life than sex.  The odd part is that once you give in to your urges as a teenager or young adult and have sex, then it’s like Oxygen.  Meaning it becomes a requirement for living and to go without it well you can’t imagine it.

I can tell you first hand that you can in fact live without it.  Look at my situation.  I have my moments when I am ready to climb the walls but a little alone time, some porn and life is good again.  Yeah, that is pretty much my sex life.

There is far more than sex on my mind.  Sure I like looking at a hot boy/guy and I appreciate the male body.  However, that won’t pay my bills or pacify my desire for someone to hire me.  I need money.  My main worry right now is that everything is going to fall out from under me and I will have to start everything over.

Huh?  I’m confused.  Yeah, I know join the club.  What I mean is I lost my job some 17 months ago.  I thought a month or two tops and I will be back on my feet.  Now, here we are 17 months later and I’m still looking.  Most of my retirement is gone.  I am in the process of filing Bankruptcy.  I am not sure about what will happen to my unemployment come the end of April if I will just make it to the next Tier in the system, or Qualify for a State Extension or just be told I have exhausted my claim and nothing more is available.  I’m worried about loosing my car.  I mean I still have to make car payments and I have other basic living expenses.

Right now I’m riding high because I’m free from Credit Card Debt.  However, I worry about my future and what is in store for me.

From the age of a young child all the way into adulthood I have been a worrier.  I know most of the stuff I worry about is not in my control and there is damn little I can do about it.  However, when it comes to my future, I should be able to have a say, after all it’s going to affect me.

The trip today away to get pie, was nice and kind of gave me a new lease on life.  However, that is short lived.  I have serious concerns about where things are going.  I am not nor have I ever been a patient person.  I’m ready to get on with it and get back to work.  I just hope and wish I could land a decent job.  I know there has got to be one out there for me, but I don’t understand why it’s taking so long to find it.  Why I have had to go through so many hurdles and lost what I thought was a friend in the process.  To say it’s not fair is an understatement, but then again life it’s self is not nor will it ever be fair. 

Most people dream about winning the lottery, finding their perfect soul mate.  Well I’ve got my soul mate and the perfect little furry family to round it all out.  Now a decent paying job would be nice.  If that isn’t in the cards then I will happily settle for a large lottery win.  Only problem is I don’t play that often.

The other thing that I find so troubling is the way the world has changed from when I was growing up.  Being Gay or being different has been difficult for others to understand and accept.  Violence, Bullying, etc. is far worse now.  Plus you have kids bringing guns into schools and school shootings and stabbings.  Why has Violence become so normal and accepted in todays society?  It’s in video games, it’s on TV, it’s in the news.  Maybe because we are surrounded by it.  Well if that is true then we are also surrounded by people that are different than us, why can’t we accept them for who they are?  Why does growing up have to be so difficult.  Your youth or teenage years help shape who you are and what you will be.  Depending upon what kind of trauma you are exposed to it can take months to years to recover.

So in summary Sex is wildly popular because I think it’s an escape for people to help hide their problems.  Lord knows if you’ve made it this far then you understand the world is a mess.  I’m not just talking my world, I mean the world as a whole.

This post isn’t exactly as I envisioned it but I’m posting it.  I think it conveys my message, despite the fact that I babbled a bit. 

Live today as if there is no tomorrow, because one day that will be true and you won’t have a chance to look back.  Think before you act.  There are consequences to every decision you make, weight those carefully before you make a move.  Tell those people in your life that matter to you, that you love them.  Laugh often because it feels good and is a great way to relieve tension.  Tomorrow isn’t promised to us folks and I think slowly more and more people are coming to understand that.

My brother told me last night that a kid we grew up with just passed away.  He celebrated his 40th birthday last Wednesday and last Saturday he passed away.  Not sure why or how.  I didn’t know him that well but we are the same age and that scares me a bit.  It was a subtle reminder that I could go at any time, then again so could those around me.  When you stop and think about it, it’s terrifying.  When your young you think you will live forever.  If only that were true!

Trip for Pie

I woke up early this morning and wished I could go back to bed.  I took care of providing breakfast for the kids and then I had a bowl of cereal.  Something new Kellogg's Cinnamon & Pecans.  It’s Cinnamon flavored Bran Flakes.  Your suppose to loose weight by eating this but I could have had the whole damn box, it was just that good!

I waited for the time to roll around and bam the first phone interview that actually started on time.  Wow, that was impressive!  We chatted a bit sounds like a decent company.  They will be forwarding my information on and it will be 2 weeks before I hear more.  Probably the local folks will want to talk with me first by phone and then bring me in for an interview.  While I like this company, I honestly hope that I have a job by the time they are ready to get back to me.

So found the house quiet, everyone was sleeping.  So I decided to lay down on the couch and two of the girls curled up with me.  Then just as we got comfy my partner got up.  We chatted a bit and then I took a nap for an hour or so.

I had a phone call while I was sleeping from a recruiter who saw my resume and wanted to talk to me about this super secret opportunity that he had.  Yeah, okay.  So I called him and sent him my current resume.  He said that his client would reach out to me directly if they were interested.  I won’t be holding my breath.

I got a quick shower and told my partner to get dressed.  We jumped in my car and stopped to get the mail.  He got his state income tax refund.  Wow that was just F A S T.  We were headed to a buffet but that was such a long drive it was quicker to go for pie.  So I made the commute to get pie.  Turns out gasoline up there was way cheaper, so I fueled up as well.  On the way back I got 41 Miles Per Gallon, not bad at all. 

On the way back we stopped off at the vet and I picked up a refill for the boys on their medicine.  I know they will be so happy.  NOT!  I had to chase Jumper down last night he didn’t want any part of his medicine.  However, Big Boy just gulped it down with no problem at all.  He is such a sweetie.

My thinking was that if we went away, we might come back to a lawn that was mowed.  No such luck.  So I called Lawn Boy and he said that he was knocking on the door this morning.  Yeah, must have been either after we left or early before I got up.  He is an early riser but the folks in this house are not.  So he is going to bring his hot body and his mower over tomorrow and take care of the lawn.  Now if it was only hotter so I could snap a shirtless photo, my collection would be complete.  Ah, well.  At least I don’t have to buy a mower and get out and fool with manual labor.  Kind of nice.  I just hope that I can afford to keep paying him.

So that’s Wednesday in a nut shell.  I was also hoping secretly that my being gone would attract a call from the charity and they would offer me the job.  Again no such luck.  So I am still playing The Waiting Game.  The worst possible game to play, especially when you are in need of a job.  I need to hurry up and get some patience right now!  

Thanks as always for stopping by.  Talk with you peeps later!