Yeah, Yeah it’s Monday

I wasn’t terribly happy about getting out of bed this morning, but knew it had to be done.  Ugh time to face another Monday.  I noticed that Momma isn’t eating.  I hope that this is very temporary, because she was eating last night.  She always lets the children eat first, I even opened a special can of food for her and she turned her nose up at it.  Perhaps there is a fur ball brewing.  So long as she eats supper I will be a happy camper.  Cats and not eating doesn’t mix well at all.

Traffic was a little better this morning.  Progress on the construction so hopefully they stay on schedule and we can go back to normal quickly.  I am interested to see how the ride home is tonight. 

My mom called me over the weekend and left what sounded like a frantic message.  I called her back multiple times and got voice mail, so I left a message.  No call back.  I got an email this morning that she had lab results waiting, so I logged on and picked them up so that I could mail them to her.  Nothing to be concerned about.  I still don’t know what the crisis was and with her memory being the way it is, perhaps she forgot. 

Today has been busy like any other Monday.  I will be so happy when this little transition project is over with.  Hard to believe it but today is my 1 year anniversary here at work.  Last year at this time I was on the road headed out for training.  I ate some really good food and had a blast.  Glad I am not going backwards but this was one event that changed my life in a very positive way.  It’s like my boss told me we each did the other a huge favor.  That is so true. 

I am so hungry, I gulped down my breakfast and didn’t really take time to enjoy my food.  I am on some new vitamins.  They are the GNC Diabetic formula.  They are supposed to help regulate blood sugar.  They have a B complex among other things in them and they are time released.  They smell horrible.  This is my 2nd day on them and so far no complaints.  They will probably take time to build up in my system, which is fine.  I just hope they help me out.  I realize that I can’t down a pint of ice cream or a cake and expect a vitamin to help me out.  My expectations are real and I am not looking for or expecting any miracle, just slightly better sugar results. 

That’s really it from here, nothing special.  I am still living a little bit on Cloud 9 from the victory over Bankruptcy, but that is starting to wear off.  It is a small reminder that he is gone.  I know that he would be proud of me and how I am carrying on and with the progress that I have made.  The next two big hurdles to cross are getting rid of the stuff that I will never use and finding a boyfriend.  Anything is possible I just can’t tell you how much time it will take to accomplish both of those goals.  Parting with the stuff will be bitter sweet but also easy.  The boyfriend thing well I still have questions if that will work out, will I be able to let myself love again.  There is no time frame I am up against but my age is working against me and I know I really don’t want to be alone for the rest of my life.  In a way if that is what is going to happen, I’d kind of like to know now so that I can prepare myself.  However, that isn’t the way the world works. 

Okay so time to move on and get ready for lunch and for a fast moving afternoon.  Password hell coming this afternoon – hopefully there won’t be too many calls but I wouldn’t bed on it.  Take care and I will talk with you all again soon.

IT IS OVER!!! - - I WON

IT IS SO ORDERED:

The debtor is granted a discharge under section 1328(b of title 11, United States Code, (the Bankruptcy Code). 

Life has been really busy for me.  As such I haven’t had but 1 opportunity per day to check on my late partners bankruptcy case.  Friday morning I checked and didn’t see anything.  I moved on with the day.  When I was at home and printing out my letter to send off to the mortgage company, I decided to check on the case.  Sure enough the Court made a ruling and my late partner was granted a Hardship Discharge, which means no one can ever come back and try to recover any monies that he owed.  If they do then that violates the order of the court and as such I would be able to sue and recover damages.  When I saw the Discharge Order I am very thankful that I was at home, I started screaming and it scared all of the furry people – they ran for the hills.  I was just so happy.  It changed my plans for the evening.  I got on the phone and delivered the good news to my friends.  So thankful that this 2 year and 3 month legal battle is done!

The good news just keeps on coming.  I met with the jeweler today and he fixed my watch.  It took less than 5 minutes.  I am happy but I will probably not go back to his store in my lifetime.  Once bitten twice shy. 

As if things couldn’t be any better, I went to the post office and I won yet another victory.  The credit union I financed my car through took a $5 membership fee to make me a member, so I could have the loan.  The loan is paid off.  I have asked for my $5 back and they kept refusing.  I filed a complaint with the State Regulatory Agency that governs them.  Today I got a check in the mail for $5, imagine that!

Tomorrow I will be buying a lottery ticket – just in case my luck decides to follow me. 

I treated myself to breakfast this morning at Cracker Barrel.  Had some really good food and a lot of it.  I got the Double Meat Breakfast with a side of Hash brown Casserole.  Very filling and very good!!

I came home and was all set to watch TV and nap.  Then the phone rang.  It was a friend that I really didn’t want to talk with.  I answered the phone anyway.  After we were done, I was able to take a nap.  I had one hand on Bear and was just lightly sleeping.  I desired a deeper sleep so I retreated to my bed.  I had some very psychotic dreams and Gator finally got me up.  I fed them their late lunch.  I had a Snapple Raspberry Tea and then I watched a movie on Netflix.  It was about a young man who figured out that he was gay and attracted to older people so he took a job in a Nursing Home.  He fell in love with one of the residents.  He helped him elope (escape) and they went on a road trip together.  The old guy died while they were on the road.  End of movie.  It was different and slightly of interest to me.  I could never picture myself doing anything like that.  I want a younger guy or at least someone around my age – it will just work better. 

Yesterday I gave the AC to my co-worker and she had it installed within a couple hours of getting home and was telling me how it was doing an amazing job.  See far better for her to put it to use than for it to sit in my garage.  She hugged me after I put it in her car.  I started itching from head to toe.  I couldn’t wait to get home and take a shower.  I think it was psychosomatic – I thought I had fleas because she had a flea problem.  I was around her a lot yesterday and was itching long before she hugged me that is what the final move was and I came straight home and jumped in the shower, well that is after taking my clothes off. 

I had some Chicken, Potatoes and Broccoli dish last night.  Tonight I had Stouffer’s Meat Lovers Lasagna.  It was good but not nearly as good as the classic Lasagna they make.  I had plans to visit Red Lobster but I decided to be a homebody.  Life requires you to run around and I am just exhausted.  So a couple days of taking it easy will probably be of great benefit to me.

So thus far a productive and good news filled weekend.  I could use more of these.  This was a very long time coming and words can’t express what a huge relief this is.

Makes me think of a song that Charlie Puth sings called Titanium.  Video is below, give it a listen, you might like it.  Thanks for your visit - - have an awesome weekend!

Day 2 of 2– Vacation

Today was a little less expensive than yesterday, but I still managed to spend money.

The truck got it’s service.  The upsell was the Fuel Filter.  $100.42 total with the oil change.  Not terrible but a little more than I wanted to spend.  Funny thing is it’s been 3 years since it’s been in for service.  They said back then he had a massive oil leak and they needed to remove the engine in order to replace some seals.  Today they told me everything was fine, nothing major found.  Now all I did was take it to an Instant Oil Change place a few times.  I think what they saw back then was the Power Steering which had a massive leak and they fixed and I paid for.  This was while he was still alive.  So all set in the vehicle department.

I realized that my extended warranty probably covered that belt tensioner part.  Turns out I was right.  I got to call in and now have $93 coming back to me.  Better than nothing. 

Made it to therapy.  It was a little bit of an emotional session.  My therapist is encouraging me to let my fears go and step outside my comfort zone and go looking for a man.  At the very least go to pride over the weekend.

Picked up momma’s prescription.  Fetched the mail.  Got my ears lowered and my shirt soaked (no extra charge for the shirt soaking).  Came home took a nap.  Woke up a few hours later.  Did my battle with AT&T, waiting for results.  I had to file a complaint with the Office of the President.  Then I went to the local place I hit up last weekend.  Bacon Wrapped Meatloaf was calling my name.  Got a much larger portion of meatloaf.  Less potatoes.  Had Chocolate Crème Brule for desert.  Left once again feeling like a beached whale, but at least I was able to smile about it. 

On to pick up pussy cat food and hit up Lowe’s for Water Softener Salt.  It’s been 2 years since I last filled up the softener.  Normally with the 2 of us it would be about every 6 months.  Salt is cheap.  2 40 pound bags for $8.48.

I’ve accomplished most everything that I wanted to do, with the exception of having fun.  It would be so much better to have fun with someone, rather than having fun alone.  By fun I don’t mean sex.  I mean going to the movies, going shopping or simply getting away.  I could jump in the car and head to a motel and treat myself to a Jacuzzi and a night away from home, while it sounds nice it would be a complete waste of money for me.  Then I could stop in and have some Pie for breakfast.  I do want to get away and will probably hit up the buffet tomorrow, at least it’s in my plans. 

Oh best news for last.  I checked on the Bankruptcy case before I started this post.  The Trustee has entered a motion and they do not oppose the hardship discharge.  That means that I am much more likely to get it.  The Court looks more favorable at the recommendation of the Trustee.  I don’t know yet if creditors will file any objections but I am certainly more optimistic now than I was yesterday.  Had I known this information yesterday I very may well have purchased a new car.

I am sure that unless you were hiding under a rock that you know that SOCTUS has ruled in Marriage Equality and same sex marriage is legal in all 50 States.  That’s very good news, now all I have to do is find a man to marry. 

Cheers to the weekend!  2 more days of resting to prepare myself to go back to work on Monday.  Not looking forward to that but it seems like it’s a million miles away right now.  I know it will be here pretty fast.  Enjoy your weekend and I am sure there will be at least one if not two more updates before Monday.  Talk with you all again soon!

Busy Day

I am once again dealing with a bunch of things and have a very busy day.  I have a meeting to attend and that will chop off an hour of my afternoon but will put me on the phones afterwards.  I’ve got a new hire that starts on 7/1 and I am racing against the clock to try to get everything in place.  She is in a remote office and it looks like I am going to have to make a visit out there.  I am trying not to but I don’t know that I can put it off. 

So last night for supper I had 1 frozen Steak N Shake Frisco Melt.  They have a strange package.  You put the whole thing in the microwave, no venting.  It self vents and cooks the burger.  The bread is like eating shoe leather and they lather on the Frisco Sauce.  It’s close to fresh made but I prefer the real thing.  Then I had Mostokioli which was okay.  They went great together. 

Tonight is going to be Mexican food.  The Season Premier of Suits is on so you have to know I will be watching that.  I really love that show and Patrick J. Adams who plays Mike is the main reason why I watch the show.  Sexy is the quickest way to convey why.

Speaking of Sexy.  There is this guy in the office and I’ve noticed him more and more.  He is just uber smoking hot.  Of course he is married and plays for the opposite team.  However, I get vibes from him that he might be into messing around.  Perhaps it’s all in my head or just wishful thinking but man.  When my brother called on Monday I didn’t have any time for self pleasure.  I woke up Tuesday morning and this guy was all I could think about.  My sex drive is tame compared to what it was when I was younger.  Desperation is starting to creep in a little bit and I’d love to tempt fate and throw caution to the wind but this could ruin my job or at the very least make it uncomfortable.  I normally wouldn’t chase after a married guy but there is just something about him that says please F me now.  I heard that his wife is pretty controlling and she doesn’t allow him to have friends.  I think he may just be desperate to make a friend and maybe there isn’t anything sexual there.  I’d love to ask him to lunch but I don’t know if I could behave myself and/or what we would talk about.  Our interaction is usually all business but when we get even mildly personal in conversation there are awkward long pauses and he smiles a lot.  He has an excellent smile.  I wish I could find a guy that had his physical attributes.  It just feels good to tell you my story.

So my friend’s son will graduate and become a state trooper on Friday.  I had scheduled Thursday & Friday off in the hopes of going but of course that got nixed because of the lie.  Well she sent me a text message on Sunday to say happy father’s day.  I haven’t heard from her by phone since we spoke on Monday.  While it’s not that uncommon I would have thought she would have called me by now.  I am starting to doubt if our friendship is still in tact.  I suppose the real test will be on Friday if she calls or sends photos.  I looked ahead to view my PTO and after this week I will have 3.3 hours.  It has to build back up because I am taking 2 days next month to see Charlie Puth.  I’ve still got my 2 floating holidays but I like to keep those in reserve just in case of an emergency.  My understanding here is that if you take time and don’t have it, that is when it’s a huge problem.  So long as you have time, no one cares how you take it.  I believe I am running out of time, but I could be wrong. 

On the cat front, Marvin still thinks that my fingers are chew toys.  He has hurt me but still no breaking the skin.  I am wondering if he needs a bone to chew on.  I know he’s a cat but it’s like he is teething.  Bear has decided to start using the litter box for pee.  He goes to his bed and does #2 there.  I still have pads out but he hasn’t used them for a couple days.  I will need to wash his bed and that won’t be fun because it’s loaded with fur.  Everyone lays in it at some point.  Thankfully everyone is doing well and making it okay. 

Yesterday on the way home I noticed a crack in my windshield.  It’s in the strangest place.  At the top of the window.  I remember last week a rock or something flew through the freeway and it hit the top of my car.  I kept looking for body damage but there isn’t any.  Just glass damage.  The crack is small enough that I can fix it myself.  I ordered a kit from Amazon last night because I am lazy like that.  It will be in on Thursday so I can spend Friday fixing the windshield.  Fun!  The dealer looks for damage to the windshield, so I am kind of interested to see if they find it tomorrow.  My guess is they won’t.  The light has to hit the car just right and you have to be looking at the top of the window – otherwise you will never see it.  Yesterday was just one of a couple days of sunshine.  I never saw it in the gloomy rainy weather. 

I saw a video on FB last night of a woman who was handcuffed and hobbled (legs attached to the handcuffs) steal a police car, crash it and try to get the cops rifle out.  They had to break the windshield with a baton and tase her before she was successful.  The car she stole I would say is a total loss.  She was in the back seat and this occurred in AR on Saturday.  Just when you think the prisoner is secure they break out.

Last night I watched The Cobbler with Adam Sandler via Netflix.  Wow great movie.  I didn’t want to go to sleep afterwards but I had to.  It wasn’t slapstick funny but it had some laughs in it.  There were more serious undertones. 

Finally in checking the Bankruptcy case, all appears well at the moment.  No objections filed as of today.  The deadline for objections is set for 07-23 and my deadline for dismissal for non payment is 07-27.  So it will be very close.  Let’s hope there isn’t any objections and that we don’t incur any judicial delay so it’s discharged days before it would otherwise be dismissed.  Either way no matter what happens were done as of next month.  I would rather walk away knowing that no one is coming after me for certain rather than taking a chance and having a fight on my hands.  I am so tired of fighting that I need to rest and then have a very long vacation.  Hopefully paradise will be mine soon!

Speaking of fighting when the bankruptcy lawyer called the other day his message was 2 minutes long and then he just faded away.  I found out that AT&T sets a time limit for UVERSE customers of 2 minutes.  I’ve spoken with Customer Service.  They claim they can’t extend it.  However UVERSE voice mail is the same thing as Unified Messaging, it’s just you have a smaller mailbox and have less control.  I’d pay to switch back to unified messaging.  I will be investigating if that is possible on Friday.  Sounds like I just found my next fight.  I’m sure this will end with me writing a letter because communicating with first level people who are programmed to just get rid of you is such a challenge.  Nothing ventured, nothing gained. 

Now it’s time to setup for the meeting and see how much I can get done in a half hour before the meeting starts.  Joy!  Have a great day.

The Beat Goes On

Last night in the mail I received a note from the Trustee’s Office in regards to my late partners Bankruptcy.  They want a copy of his Income Tax Return for 2014 and also any refund that he received above $750.00 goes to them.  If I don’t comply within 30 days they will dismiss the case.  I chuckled when I read this.  The level of incompetence that I am dealing with both on the part of the Attorney and the Trustee is unbelievable.  Hello he’s dead and there won’t be any tax return forthcoming.  When there is no income then there is no reason to file a tax return.  I realize that it was a form letter and it was sent by a minion in his office but still it’s kind of important to know if the debtor is dead or alive.  Doh!

So I just checked the status of the case and the Court has notified all interested parties about the application for a hardship discharge.  It’s giving them each one month to respond and then a ruling will be forthcoming.  However, the timing of this will be critical.  The objection date is 07-23 and The date the Trustee’s office said they would submit a motion to the court for non payment is 07-25 (I am not certain and won’t know until I get home).  My hope is that the court makes their ruling BEFORE the Trustee can file his motion for dismissal.  If a Discharge is granted then it’s for sure I am 100% protected, if not then it will be a wait and see approach.  So I am prepared for the BIG decision and will be anxiously awaiting to see how this turns out.  It will be a very good thing when I can put this behind me and be able to move on with life. 

Last night I got a call from my brother, which was a total surprise.  Turns out my mom didn’t make up the whole deal about a creditor says she owes them money.  So I explained to him that what is needed is the source of the information or in simple terms where is the bank getting this from.  Her credit reports are clean.  Then what type of debt is it mortgage debt, credit card debt, personal loan debt.  If it’s credit card debt then she can sue the creditor for violation of the courts discharge order and collect money.  I told him that it’s probably a good idea to check with the County to make sure there aren’t liens filed against the property, if it’s a creditor that was discharged then that too would be a clear violation of the courts order. 

Then we moved on to the part where he started asking me for relationship advice.  So he is caught in the middle between having to care for our mom and trying to maintain a relationship with his girlfriend.  He told me that his girlfriend told him to ask me for advice.  I think the conversation had a different twist on it.  I think she wants me to start taking care of mom so she can have my brother.  Sorry but that isn’t going to happen.  I told him that he needs to sit down with his girlfriend and have a frank conversation.  He needs to find out if she is okay with things as they are now with the possibility of exploring new options when her lease is up.  Meaning they could find a house and move in together.  If she is willing to work with him then I told him it showed promise but if she was close minded then no matter how much he loved her it wouldn’t work.  He is afraid of losing her because he really loves her.  I explained to him that a relationship is all about give and take – compromise.  Sometimes you get to give and other times you get to take, but you have to be willing and able to do both or it just won’t work.  I am no love doctor or expert by any means.  I know based off of the long term relationship that I was in that there is a lot of compromise.  It sounds like he is going to have his heart broken, she seems to me like the controlling type and if it can’t be her way then oops she can’t be bothered.  I am not now nor was I ever a fan of her’s.  If he chooses to be in a relationship with her that is perfectly fine.  I told him that as for mom he has the option to tell the court that he wishes to withdraw as her guardian and then the court would put someone from the State in charge of her and I have no idea where she would live or how her expenses would be managed.  From what I have learned her expenses far exceed her income.  My brother is covering all of the excess, which is not a good thing.  However, he lives in the same house and it makes sense that he contributes.  I kind of feel this is payback for all of the times when we were growing up that Grandpa charged me rent but he was the golden child and didn’t have to pay a dime.  It’s totally unfair but who ever said life would be fair?  

Work is hopping so I need to get back to it.  I hope all is well in your world.  One more day for me and then I go on vacation for 4 days.  I am thinking 4 days with no email and no phone ringing and no work.  Yeah that is something to look forward to.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well and stay cool & dry!

Progress

I heard from the Bankruptcy Attorney, he is pissed at me because I stopped making payments.  He said that is not my decision to make and that I shouldn’t arbitrarily make those decisions as it will impact the case.  My answer is its my fucking money and I will spend it as I see fit.  He finally got up off his lazy ass and filed the motion for Hardship Discharge.  Now because there isn’t actually enough money paid in this could be rejected. He said that the trustee objected originally but has since had a change of heart and will not oppose the motion.  If all of that is true then there should be nothing to worry about.  Because the case will be discharged.  So they don’t need any more money.  He spelled out in the motion that the debtor is dead, that the court was notified about it and that the probate estate has run out of funds.  The probate estate never existed but now he claims to represent the probate estate in his motion when he is a Bankruptcy attorney and not a Probate attorney.  I think he is a fucking asshole and I can’t wait to get away from him. 

I obtained a copy of the motion and viewed it with my own eyes so I know for a fact that it was filed.  This is what I have been waiting on since March it’s June.  Just think if he would have followed through and done his job back in March then this wouldn’t be such a huge issue.  He said that the creditors haven’t been paid enough money.  Yeah well I see it differently they have been paid far too much money because it was all my money.  It came directly out of my pocket and therefore I feel as if he should have filed this motion 2 years ago instead of waiting, but that is my opinion.  The law doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to us common folk.  All I know is I want this motion granted and then my troubles with this Bankruptcy business are over with and there will be no worry.  If the motion isn’t granted then the case will be dismissed for non-payment, unless I suddenly feel the need to throw away more money.  Either way this is coming to an end it’s just a matter of how it will end.

It’s just been a crazy day over all.  I had a Spinach & Mushroom pizza last night and will be finishing it off tonight.  Found frozen Frisco Melts from Steak N Shake in the grocery store yesterday. So I guess you could say good things are happening.

The kids rang in another birthday and while I am sure they didn’t understand what I meant when I wished each of the a happy birthday, I did it to keep up the tradition.  The day is winding down, time to run because were just a little swamped

Audio Books

I managed to tear through Connor Franta’s book.  With the rainy and slow drive home it gave me extra listening time.  I learned a little bit more about this You tuber.  The overall thought that I took away was be yourself and don’t be afraid to try new things.  If your not happy then your not living.  Lots of familiar sounding themes that I have heard previously.  I will admit that I am not the general demographic that this book is targeted to, so with that I will say the advice is on point and should help a lot of younger adults. 

This morning I moved on to Joey Graceffa’s book.  Thus far I find it interesting.  We have more in common than I thought.  Joey’s book is much longer so needless to say it’s going to take longer to get through.  I am looking forward to lunch so that I can get more listening time in. 

In the mail yesterday was the green card that showed my letter was delivered to the Bankruptcy attorney.  He signed for it himself.  When you call you get voice mail.  So it sounds like he is winding up his practice to me.  He apparently no longer has support staff or if he does they are truly hidden from the general public.  What I don’t understand in all of this is that he kept spewing the same thing pay in x amount and we can then petition the court for a hardship discharge.  Now that amount has been paid in, he suddenly doesn’t want to do the job he was hired to do and represent his client to the best of his abilities.  I don’t understand why you would tell someone something have them follow your advice and then when it’s time for you to step up to the plate, your not there to do your part.  So I am mad and hurt by his inactions.  I am waiting to see if I get any response.  If I do I will be surprised.  If nothing comes through shortly I will start calling on a daily basis like a bill collector trying to evoke a response.  Finally I will send him one last letter that will simply ask why have you failed your client.  Why am I after him when I found out yesterday that all should be okay?  Well it’s the fact that he promised to do something and now he’s not doing it.  If he followed through on his part and things went the way I think they would, then there wouldn’t be a worry in the world.  Granted what I was told yesterday does bring some comfort but I am just not one to take that advice and be calm about it.  I like absolutes (not the vodka) and right now I am dealing with variables which causes me to worry.  There is one year left in the Bankruptcy case before it would normally conclude but I see no reason to continue throwing my money away.  It would be different if I was dealing with Estate money but there is no estate – I am it.  He left nothing behind but debt and worldly possessions.  Which I suspect is very common when people depart this world.

I watched a movie last night and enjoyed what little time I had at home.  The weather here is wet – more rain than one place on earth needs at one time.  That is what is in the foreseeable future.  People being dumb driving into flooded roads getting killed and stranded.  Like other severe weather people seem to loose their mind like they never saw water before.  I just keep an extra eye out and drive slower than normal.  The roads I take are fine, just wet.  Nothing like driving in the rain it’s like world’s largest inchworm moving at a speed slower than a turtle. 

Well back to the old bump and grind.  Happy hump day.  Talk with you all again soon.

Good News

So I talked with the attorney that I was referred to and he told me that I should just let the Bankruptcy case be dismissed, I wasted my money and was given bad advice.  My late partners debts expired upon his death.  As for being sued after the fact well that was a scare tactic that was used.  Once the case is dismissed, it’s done – no one will sue me.  The case is done. 

Now I think that is good news but I really find it hard to believe.  I am going to take the advice but if things go south I know who’s door to knock on and ask for help.  I just hope this all plays out well.  For giggles I still check to see if there have been any motions filed in the case and thus far nothing. 

I spoke with the Estate Attorney that I hired and he told me, you need to find yourself another Bankruptcy Attorney.  Yeah not really.  He hasn’t answered my specific questions regarding the Estate.  Bottom line is I think I got scammed and these two were playing off of each other.  Why is it always when your down people kick you or take advantage of you?  I just don’t understand it.  Seems like they would want to help you, rather than hurt you – especially since none of that money went to them.

I am of course very interested to see how this plays out and pray that I am on the right path. Time will of course tell.

Work has been a real bitch today, trying to play catch up for being out a day isn’t fun.  Next week I will be out for two days and hate to see what I will be coming back to.  All I know is that I will have my work email disabled on my phone and won’t be worrying about it while I am off.  I need to make calls to schedule appointments for the vehicles and see about getting an appointment with the foot doctor, be it this month or next. 

I joined Audible again to get Connor Franta’s book.  It’s really good and I have listened to it on the way to work this morning as well as at lunch time.  More on the way home too.  Then I will be moving on to Joey Graceffa’s book next.  Then I am done with Audible for now.  I know that I left a credit behind when I cancelled my membership last time, but apparently credits expire when your membership does.  Would have been nice to know that.  I am not much of a reader and will admit audio books are much more entertaining.  Plus there is just something about hearing certain peoples voices.  Neil Patrick Harris, Connor Franta are both two of my favorites.  Joey well he tends to get a bit femy and that is kind of a turn off for me. 

So here I sit biding my time and waiting to depart the office and jump into rush hour traffic and rain.  A stop to get the mail and then to go home.  Mexican food tonight.  Then a short rest – some sleep mixed in and it will be time to do it all over again tomorrow.  Feels like yesterday was a holiday so my brain thinks today is Monday.  Happy Tuesday, talk with you on Wednesday.

From Bad to Worse

I was able to accomplish all of the tasks I set out to do.  That is a little glimmer of positivity in what is going to turn out to be a negative post.

Saturday’s mail brought me the dread 45 day letter.  Letting me know that the Bankruptcy payments are behind and that I need to get current with in the next 45 days or the case will be dismissed.  This is exactly what I was trying to avoid, but at least I have 45 days.  I think my letter that was sent to the Bankruptcy attorney is on point and timed even more perfectly, because he too will get a copy of the letter that I got, letting him know that payments aren’t being made.  Perhaps that will cajole him into action, but I am not holding my breath.

I was able to find my therapist new place without any problems and there was no rain.  The place is amazing and the building still smells new, which is a good thing.  In this session she kept on with her persisting theme of trying to get me to see another therapist because she feels that I am in need of weekly therapy.  This is a conversation that we have had for the last several months and it’s getting old.  I am to the point where I am debating terminating our relationship.  I have the letter written, I am just debating on what to do because once I move forward I won’t be able to back track.  I am an adult and fully capable of making arrangements and asking for more help if I feel I need it.  Right now I am scheduled to go back in a couple weeks.  She did provide me with some names of other therapists to check out if I wanted to.  One of them was a man who is closer and deals with LGBT issues.  My reason for not wanting to change is because I have to rehash the past and I feel like that will hinder progress – it will take at least one if not two sessions to catch someone else up to speed.  I view that as a waste of time.

So I had those two things on my mind.  Last night I got curious about my friend’s son’s graduation as a State Trooper.  I pay taxes in that state and feel that it is my right to attend the ceremony if I so chose.  Well turns out I found out that it is open to the public.  I confronted my friend about it and she admitted to lying to me.  She said that her son didn’t want anyone but immediate family because this was his special day.  She thought originally that I would figure things out and think that I was disinvited because I am gay.  I told her that never entered my mind.  I figured that I wasn’t wanted but couldn’t put my finger on it.  Now that I have the truth I have half a mind to show up and boo his ass off the stage at the risk of being arrested.  Will I do that?  Nope.  I may attend just to spite them but when I think about it, I would have to stay over one night or get up super early to travel the next day.  It would wipe me out and really it’s not worth it.  Now I am debating on what to do with my friend.  Lying is like a pet peeve of mine – get caught and were pretty much done.  There are other mitigating factors here and I am not quite sure what to do.  I don’t have that many friends.  The biggest factor is that if I chose to terminate a friendship that will have a serious negative impact on her health.  I don’t want that to be the action that sends her to her grave or even gets her closer to the grave.  Trust me when I say it won’t take much and she will just fall right in. 

If I move forward and toss my therapist as well as my friend aside then I will be down to 2 guy friends – both of which are married and straight.  1 of which has chosen to place some distance between us and the other who is unemployed.  So it doesn’t exactly put the odds in my favor, so I am very hesitant to act.  Once I make up my mind my decision will be final and there won’t be any changing it. 

In the world of dating my therapist found an organization that she thought I might have an interest in.  It’s for gay and bi men who want to socialize.  It’s a secret club like the Masons.  So if your out they will publish your name, address, phone number and email address on the membership list – that is circulated to other members who are out.  However, if you aren’t out then you won’t get listed but you also won’t get a copy of the membership list.  There is a cost of $10 per year to join, which isn’t bad but they also expect you to volunteer for something.  They publish a monthly newsletter and distribution takes place electronically if you want it mailed you have to pay extra for that.  If you chose the electronic method then you will get the super secret password they protect their documents with and can view it.  I tried to hack the password of the current months newsletter but it’s encrypted so it would take literally years upon years to figure it out.

My mom phoned and told me that she found a dating site for homosexual men and they are all catholic.  Yippee just what I want a catholic guy.  Religion plays a very small part it’s more about the person and less about what their beliefs are.  I told her that I would check it out.  It doesn’t look that appealing from the quick glance I gave it.  I am going to take a closer look as soon as I am done here.

Then I find out that my mom is the one who threw the monkey wrench into this home loan thing.  She told the bank well I think I might owe xyz bank but I am not sure.  All of the work I did on her Bankruptcy and pulling those documents last week was not not.  I ran up a huge bill for nothing.  Now she has to produce documentation saying there isn’t a lean against her property and called me to ask for the number to the bank.  I told her liens are handled by the county and you will need to call them.  Oh she said will they mail me something saying there is not lien?  I said nope you will have to request that in person and they charge for that, it’s not free.  I told her she should have kept her damn mouth shut and that would have made life so much easier for everyone.  I knew there was more to the story than I was getting.  The only way a financial institution knows that you owe money to another bank is if it’s listed on your credit report.  Liens on the property are another matter and she would have been served if there was in fact a lien.  Then she begged me to pick her up so we could go out to eat because she is lonely.  She asked me how I combat the loneliness and I told her I have a job that keeps me pretty well occupied, provided I am moving I don’t have time to think too much about what I don’t have or what I lost. 

So between the Bankruptcy, My therapist, My lying friend and my mother I am at my wits end.  I know not what is the right move because I am overwhelmed.  Now moving on to continuing to relax, watch TV and maybe even nap.  Sunday is 1/2 over with and it seems like forever before it will end. 

I sure hope that you had a much nicer weekend that I did.  Here’s to better times ahead.  Oh I wore my rainbow shirt out and not one comment.  I guess people either don’t know what to say or are afraid of offending me.  Kind of nice to be able to make a statement without any rebuttal. 

Scarlet Letter

Here we are on Traffic Thursday, should be interesting when I leave the building.  I was able to back in as I wanted to and did a really good job, which was kind of impressing if only to me.  My backup skills are better than I give myself credit for.  My parallel parking skills are shit and I know it.  Hopefully my next vehicle will have a button to press so the car does it for you.  I will just be glad when I am able to get on the freeway and we can call it a day.  Then life returns to normal tomorrow.

Well I was like a kid in a candy store last night with all of the packages.  The children just watched me as if to say, what’s for me.  My new headset is might lighter than the old one and works just as good.  I had some hearing problems on the old one at times.  There weren’t too many calls this morning but I did have a few and everyone sounded okay.  I had to turn the volume up for one of them.  Only time will tell if my hearing is better with the new headset.  The replacement headset that I got a refund for that showed up at my door last night as well.  I am keeping it in the box just in case Amazon asks for it back, otherwise I will just store it away as a spare.  I got my Tenga eggs and from what I can tell they all appear to be the same design.  I took one for a test drive last night and it was awesome.  I hope that will help in getting rid of knots from my back so the massage lady doesn’t find anything to torture me with.

My Furnace Filters are at the post office, ready for pick up.  I won’t be able to get them until Saturday.  Man I will have to dance.  I have to go to the DMV to renew my plates, to the post office to get those filters and then on to therapy.  Wish me luck because I will need every bit of it.  Holy cow I will be in rush mode.  Plus I will be going to a new office so navigating will be interesting.  Thank God for my iPhone or I would be lost.   My pride shirt is being delivered today, so I will be able to wash and wear it on Saturday.  I am interested to see if I get any reaction at all.  I won’t be too many places but I won’t be hiding either. 

Speaking of massage today is the day for that.  As per usual I am looking forward to it.  I’m going to ask to spend much more time face down, because that is the part that I enjoy the most.  The problem is that you can’t see how much time you have left, so it’s a guess.  I know were at the end when I hear the towel being rung out.  She goes over your back with a hot towel at the end to get rid of all of the left over lotion, which is something that no one has done before.  Nice service and the price is decent as well.

On the Bankruptcy front, I feel like I am wearing a scarlet letter or something.  I don’t know if it’s the gay factor or what but everyone that I have reached out to has yet to answer me.  The guy I spoke with last week that I thought for sure would talk with me on Monday never called back.  I reached out to him this morning.  Now he was kind enough to provide me his cell and home phone numbers but I feel like calling those unless specifically told to, is a violation of privacy.  I have to tread lightly with him because he has connections to my employer.  I am not looking to pester or anger anyone, I just need some solid advice that is 100% accurate so I know what to do when push turns to shove, as I know it will.  I am in what I consider to be a very odd position and I am not even certain if anyone has been in a similar position before.  All of the attorneys I have spoken with except for my late partners Bankruptcy attorney have all said, it’s baffling how you got a mortgage in your name while there was an active Bankruptcy.  That statement repeated several times over is cause for serious concern.  I am tired and feel that I have more than paid my dues.  I want to move on with life and put all of this mess behind me.  It’s bad enough that I lost the one I love, that in and of it’s self I think should be payment enough, but just because that is my opinion doesn’t make it so.  My hope is that I will get some answers soon before I am stuck in making a decision that could have irrevocable and serious consequences.  Let’s just pray that someone comes through very quickly, so that I can form a game plan and get on with it. 

I am not sure why but I often think of some of the people who suddenly abandoned me that I thought were my friends.  In particular I think about the convict.  I traveled all over the state to see him, wrote letters to him and generally was giving of my time.  I answered computer questions and helped out once he got out of prison.  Then my partner who he considered to be his uncle dies and presto chango we are no longer friends.  I don’t know if it’s his wife’s decision or if it was his but he should be willing to reach out and say hey what’s up.  His wife really wanted in our house and offered numerous times to clean it.  I think she is nosy and just wanted to know how many dildos she would find or perhaps she thought we were rich and she could rob us.  All I do know is that she was deeply offended when we kept saying no.  It wasn’t him it was me.  I don’t want some stranger coming into my home cleaning, if I did I would call a licensed/bonded maid service.  I don’t know why we couldn’t keep a friendship alive, but clearly this wasn’t my choice it was his or theirs.  I could reach out to him but I feel that would be awkward and he has already proven to me that were not friends, so why bother.  Then there is my former classmate who I remember telling me at his wedding that our friendship would never, ever change.  Yeah, that wasn’t the case and I knew it.  I was in his wedding and I was so depressed but he kind of cheered me up, plus I thought maybe someday he would come to my wedding.  In any case he had a kid, got divorced and hasn’t really spoken with me since.  My supposition with this is that he figured out that I was gay.  He was raised that gay people were bad and so he is going off of what he was taught.  All thought I can assure you I won’t be the only gay person that he interacts with in his lifetime.  I gave up on him a long time ago because it was just futile.  I sent him a letter and told him that if he ever changed his mind, reach out.  I however won’t be holding my breath.

Ah, nothing like blog therapy to help get rid of toxins.  Now that is out of my system, I can move on.  Tomorrow I am wearing my hot pink polo to work.  That should be interesting on the reactions and/or comments I get.  All thought I have shown up in florescent orange and it doesn’t seem to bother anyone.  Bright colors are easy to spot so why not be loud, it sets you apart from the rest of the crowd.  Let’s face it I am different, so might as well play the part.  I’ve heard gossip around that this one is gay or that one might be.  Yeah, okay whatever.  I don’t care.  I am at work and all I want to do is the job I was hired for.  I am not here to win friends or influence people.  I just want a paycheck, nothing more and nothing less.  If I happen to make a true friend along the way, great.  Most of the people that claim to be your friend at work won’t be there for you when you need them.  They won’t come to your funeral, to your wedding or even see your family.  They are friends when it benefits them.  It sucks but that is true for most of the people you think are your friends at work.  Now there are a few that are really true blue friends but you have to be able to weed them out and nothing better than a little crisis and that usually does the trick.  Those that are there for you really care about you.

Okay time to wrap things up and get this posted.  Massage time is about 15 minutes away.  Take care.

Incommunicado

I still didn’t hear anything from the ‘other’ lawyer.  I thought about things and remembered that I had to hire an Estate Attorney upon the death of my partner.  That case is still open, so I figured why not bounce things off of that guy as well.  This way if I get back two opinions that say the same thing, well then I will just feel that more confident.  I told the Estate Attorney a little more than I should have but the email was clearly marked as confidential – attorney/client privileged information.  Fearing that he would want to reach out to the Bankruptcy guy, I told him not to unless he clears it with me first.  I explained that our relationship has been rocky and that I didn’t want to go poking a sleeping rabid dog.  You got to love that rabid dog as a euphemism for an attorney.  I got a receipt this morning that the message was read.  No response as of yet.  I am expecting to hear a, you will have to come in for this.  Yeah, ain’t nobody got time to come in, I work for a living. 

As per usual I arrived home last night and Bear has made his Monday mess.  I think it’s the Rutin that is doing it to him.  So I am experimenting with not giving him his evening dose, things seem to happen more often and they are solid so far.  If that works then we will stick with it.  I hate playing with his medicine because if something happens then I will blame myself.  Truth be told no matter how much I prepare myself I will never be ready to part with Bear or any of the others.  Knowing that day is coming a little sooner rather than later with Bear makes no difference.  I do make it a point to single him out before I leave and give him some extra attention, because I realize that could be the last time I see him. 

I also found out that we had a power outage.  The microwave won’t let you cook a damn thing until you enter in the time and the date.  There is no skipping or bypassing that.  So I had to make sure that all of the clocks were okay.  I was thankful that I turned off all of my printers (except the cheap laser) the night before.  They use ink when they power cycle and things were stormy on Sunday night thought for sure we would lose power, but it never happened.  With the power outage also came some TV trouble.  My wireless TV Receiver lost it’s link so I had to go back through setup again twice in order for it to finally link up.  My back was killing me at this point and then of all times, the phone rings.  All I wanted to do was relax and watch TV.  It was a friend calling so we talked for an hour and then I called it a night.  No Marvin last night, just Bear.  I was kind of lonely.  Hopefully things will go back to normal tonight. 

My property tax bill has been paid, I got confirmation yesterday and an e-mail today.  I found out that the bank automatically gets the notices so I was just told file it away and they will take it from there.  Kind of nice to know.  Plus I took a second look at my Escrow account and found that there is plenty of money in there to cover taxes and insurance so there isn’t a problem like I had first thought.  It makes a difference when you look at the current balance vs the balance last month. 

Yesterday afternoon I spoke with Amazon about my headset order and turns out the package is now considered lost.  Yeah well you only printed a label, you never actually had a package.  In any event they gave me my money back and cancelled the order.  I could re order and get the items for the same price and they would also credit shipping if I wanted.  I purchased a different item and shipping was covered under Prime.  Being the Amazon Whore that I am I also managed to order myself a new Rollerball Pen.  I know I didn’t need it but I have had my eye on it for a while so I figured why not.  No one is going to treat me to anything, so might as well treat myself.  I think I am done for now with Amazon.  Funny didn’t I just say that like a day or two ago. 

Think I might have mentioned this yesterday but we were all notified that traffic would be a message getting out of work.  Well last night was simple as pie.  I hope that the remaining nights are the same.  However, due to road closures on Thursday I know that will be a bitch of a traffic day.  So I plan to back in that day to make it easier to leave.  Actually I’d love to either go home early to avoid it or call in – but it’s a little traffic.  This too shall pass.

Tuesday is going okay so far.  We are getting closer to lunch and I always look forward to food, even if it’s the same old sandwich.  I got some cheese cubes to help change it up a bit.  Plus I am finishing off some Tapioca pudding that I got last week in a moment of weakness.  It’s really good.  Then there is this mountain of grapes that I need to chew on.  That will take me a couple days and then I can start on Nectarines that I got this week. 

Supper last night was a frozen Italian dinner.  Not bad, but not what I had in mind.  Tonight will be a toss up as well.  I am not fixed on any one thing in particular, so it will be whatever strikes my fancy.  My volcano candle has been delivered so I look forward to picking that up and seeing what all of the rage was about.  Hopefully it doesn’t make me sneeze.  I’ve spied on Bear today and saw that he left me a present.  He was laying in front of the basement steps and was wagging his tail.  He normally doesn’t wag so I am not sure what that was all about.  Just so long as he is okay I am happy. 

I really could use the massage therapist today.  My upper back is killing me from all of the work last night with the TV.  I took some ibuprofen but that has only taken a little of the pain away.  I think some rubbing would do me wonders.  Thankfully she comes on Thursday so I have that to look forward to.  I just need to remember to stop and get money either tonight or tomorrow night for sure. 

There you have it another completed post.  I am washing my hands and getting ready to dive into my lunchbox.  Then the food coma will set in and I will want a nap.  Then before you know my afternoon phone shift will be here and then it will be time to go home, where I will yawn the entire way home.  Rinse, repeat.  I hope all is well in your world and that your managing to stay cool with the hot weather.  It’s supposed to be in the 90’s today here.  That will give the AC a work out along with my wallet.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Whirlwind Day

Things have been hectic today here at the funny farm (aka work).  I have spent a lot of the afternoon obtaining advice regarding my late partners Bankruptcy case.  I really strongly feel that his attorney isn’t going to move forward with filing the motion.  I want to know what kind of liability that subjects me to.  I have been referred to an outside attorney which I have spoken with.  He is going to review the case on Monday and will get back with me.  I am not sure what kind of bill if any this will subject me to, but spend a little money now in order to protect myself from paying a lot of money or worse later – has to be worth every penny.  The case has perplexed many attorneys and most are astounded that I have continued to pay for a dead mans debts.  That just sounds like money that has been thrown away and can’t be recovered.  Knowing that now makes me less likely to resume payment.  I hope to know more next week and hope that there isn’t any risk of liability on my part.  I can’t afford to be sued but I also can’t afford to be homeless either. 

I would call today not a good day but not a bad day either.  My Bluetooth headset broke, which kind of bummed me out.  I can glue it back together.  To be on the safe side since glue doesn’t always work I ordered another one and it will be delivered tomorrow.  That way come Monday I will be in business either way. 

Last night I got two of my new shirts, which look great and the other set of shampoo/conditioner that I ordered.  Tonight I should get the last shirt and the underwear that I ordered.  Then pick up my headset tomorrow and I am done with Amazon for now.  There will of course be another order.

Looking forward to getting my new specs tomorrow and maybe hitting up Sam’s club and quite possibly the buffet.  I haven’t decided just yet.  Right now I just want to be on my way home, looking forward to being able to relax.  I did get my Monitor project out of the way.  That was a little bit of a Cluster.  I almost returned a monitor that wasn’t on the list to be shipped back.  I am going to pull it before I leave for the day and make sure it’s no longer in the return pile. 

I am little more than frazzled with trying to wrap up this last but seemingly overly complicated piece of my late partners life.  I will certainly be much happier once I know that the Bankruptcy deal is done regardless of the disposition of the case.  I just want to know that I am protected and that no one will try to be able to prove otherwise.  Everything is above board I mean I am not trying to hide and I am not hiding the house.  This is a mixture of Bankruptcy and Estate Law.  For which you really need an attorney that knows both ends of the spectrum.  Thankfully the guy I got referred to does know both ends. 

Yesterday a couple of my co-workers chipped in and got me a wooden cross that was engraved with LB’s name.  It was a very kind gesture and it caught me very much by surprise.  It made me start missing him all over.  I am still very thankful for the gift and thankful that I was blessed with knowing, loving and caring for LB.  He was a very special boy.

Okay gang, that it’s.  I have to prep to wrap things up and take what few calls roll in between now and 5pm.  Have a nice weekend and we will talk again soon.

Friday Update

 

BEAR

He made it to the vet, he smelled pretty bad and I had cleaned him up earlier but I could only get so far.  He really needs to get into the bathtub and get some soap & water but that would seriously stress him out. 

No blood work or diagnostic testing.  The vet said that if they would find that he is diabetic (which is a concern) that he wouldn’t be able to take the pred. which would put us up a creek w/o a paddle.  His weight is the same 38 pounds – feels more like 50. 

He cried the whole way there, all of the time in the waiting room and it wasn’t until he got into the scale that he finally shut up.  One noisy guy!  At least we know he still has some lung function. 

He has another bad tooth and the vet said that removing it is the only thing to do, but he isn’t a great candidate for going under.  So we are leaving well enough alone.  Treating the problem could cause a bigger issue and in the long run as long as he is eating then were okay. 

I got more pred. and he is good for another year.  We will go back next year, unless something warrants returning.  I’m glad that he passed again, not exactly with flying colors but he passed. 

RUTH

She ate this morning but promptly threw it all up.  I started her on baby food and she loves it.  It seems to agree with her.  I got her eating regular food this evening and thus far it’s stayed down.  I hope that continues. 

I still have to trim her claws and I don’t want to upset her anymore than I have to.  The stress could cause her to vomit.  I mentioned her issue to the vet and she told me that I should stick with baby food for a few days then gradually introduce her to regular food. 

If a cat misses 3 meals straight then it’s time to get them to the vet, that is what my vet goes by.  I think of it in terms of days and not meals.  Especially since these gals & guys are over fed as it is. 

THE A/C

I got a different tech, he wasn’t hot or hunky or even handsome.  He took what was supposed to be a 20 minute visit and stretched it for 3 hours.  He did a great sales pitch on trying to get me to commit to installing a germicidal bulb, cleaning the furnace to improve air flow and telling me how my system really needed to be replaced. 

Clearly he didn’t pay attention at the start of the visit when we met.  I told him that money was a concern and that I wouldn’t be buying a new system.  He didn’t try to sell me a new system but rather tried to sell me on better maintaining what I had. 

Then I ask him since it was getting late and he didn’t have all of the parts on his truck.  What if I went full bore and decided to do the cleaning.  He said that he could have it done tomorrow.  That really irked me because I was already told they don’t work on Saturday.  WTF!

So he did exactly what I wanted him to do, which was get the outside compressor going again.  That was $271 but it’s running again.  I don’t have a copy of the receipt because they are paperless and it hasn’t come through yet.  He was trying to sell me on some monthly program for $20 that would cover service calls and make me a preferred customer.  Which I declined. 

While his work and evaluation were through, he wasted precious time that I really wanted to devote to other things – like shopping, seeing a movie and getting something to eat.  I thought he was never going to leave but thankfully he did!

If I don’t get a receipt over the weekend, I will be calling on Monday and asking for a copy to be sent.  I know what he charged because my credit card company alerts me every time a purchase or authorization is made, so there are no unexpected surprises and it keeps the risk of fraud to a minimum.

BANKRUPTCY

I had to leave another voice mail but I actually got a call back form the attorney.  He is going to talk with the Trustee on Tuesday and presuming they aren’t opposed to it, then the motion will be filed and it’s about a 30 day process. 

I was told that this isn’t an entitlement process, meaning that just because I paid the money in it’s not automatic.  Yeah I already knew that.  I can’t imagine that the Trustees office (even though they are Jack Asses) would oppose a hardship discharge because the debtor is deceased and his probate estate (aka ME) is making the payments.  I think I will be okay and if I am not, then I will have to weight the pros and cons before I arrive at a decision. 

TAKING CARE OF ME

After the AC guy left, I headed out and saw Furious 7 in IMAX for a whopping $15 that was just the cost of the ticket, no food or drink.  It was pure enjoyment but not worth $15.

When we got to the end and I heard Charlie’s tune start playing I just knew I was going to lose it – and I did for a brief moment.  It was sad, knowing that Paul isn’t walking the earth.  He was so young and full of life.  However, in the short time he had here he made some quality movies and had a profound impact on many peoples lives. 

I’ve heard some rumbling that there might be an 8th movie but I think those are just rumors.  This was a fitting end to the series and the theme in the movie was One Last Ride.  I think that is on point. 

WORK

I made it to the guys house last night.  I mentioned it to my boss and she wasn’t pleased.  She asked me to have him call her.  She told me that in the future I shouldn’t engage in this type of work and that I should refer folks to her.  Good luck getting approval from her.  However, my employer can not control what I do or do not do on my time.  I understand they don’t want to set a precedent that we work on personal machines. 

The guy tried to pay me, offer me baseball tickets but I declined.  I was there for 2 hours and thought it would never end.

What it boiled down to was they have an Apple.  She chose a poor password and her e-mail account was hacked.  We changed her password to another poorly chosen password and turned on the firewall on her Apple.  Then I had to play with the various devices – iPad and iPhone that she had to sync up passwords and mail. 

I told her to operate with a trust no one mentality.  This all happened coincidentally after they upgraded iPhones earlier in the week.  I think the guy at the Apple store got them or it was a coincidence on the timing.

She asked me should I trust you?  I told her no.  Trust no one.  I mean I am not going to do anything but still I told her she should change her password again after I leave to be safe.  I know she won’t because she needed me to change her password. 

The thing that was truly amazing to me is they live in a 700 thousand dollar house.  It’s beautiful.  The computer area looks like a tornado went through it.  I was asked if I have seen worse?  I said yes, there is one guy at work who refuses to part with any file and consequently his office is a huge mess.  Files are everywhere and if you walk in that office, you are taking your life in your own hands.  Want to be brave?  Just move something and yell out JENGA.  Something bad is going to happen.

I provided an update to my boss last night and haven’t heard anything more from her on it.  The guy reached out to me and told me that he talked me up and said that I deserved a commendation.  That was kind but if he would have paid me, I doubt he would have said such nice words.  I could have made something off of it but I considered it charity work.  Do good and it will come back to you.

 

So there you have it.  One expensive day off work.  The expense hasn’t ended.  I still have to get my haircut, shop for cat food, pick up stuff for the house at Sam’s and eat.  It is nice having an extra day even if it all goes by terribly fast.  To top it all off I have a therapy appointment tomorrow.  No sleeping in for me. 

Have a nice weekend and I will talk with you all again soon.

Looking for a goodbye

I just read on Facebook that Jonathan Groff announced that Looking has been cancelled by HBO.  They promise to make a movie to wrap things up so we (those of us that watch the show) aren’t left hanging.  I am not at all happy about this.  I love me some Jonathan Groff and the show in my opinion was perfect.  It took a bit to get into but of course once I did they pulled the plug.  Ah well, hopefully he will get another gig soon.

I happily discovered last night that I am done with Bankruptcy.  I figured out that with the payment they took a couple days ago that it puts me about $100 over the target number that I needed to reach.  I am waiting for the government to update a website that reflect the actual amount paid in, then I can get a letter sent to the attorney and hope that the hardship discharge is approved.  Meanwhile after I send the letter I will be stopping payment on the automatic debting service.  I see no reason to make any further payments until the court decides how we should proceed.  If things move slow then in 2 months I will get a letter informing me that there hasn’t been a payment made and that I will need to make a payment in order to keep the case active, otherwise they will seek to dismiss the case.  I’ve come so far that I don’t want to get the case dismissed because that gives his creditors the right to come back after the house, despite the fact that the house is in my name.  They have a ‘look back perioid’ which I think is pure BS but there isn’t anything that I can about it.  I was very happy last night because I figured that I had one more month to go.  So things are looking up .. first the house is in my name and the payment is lower, now the bankruptcy is hopefully toast.  I have pretty well resolved every outstanding matter.  Now I have to wait for a piece of paper saying the debt has been forever discharged by the court then I am free.  The only thing left is to close his/our bank account which I have drug my feet on purpose to do.  Right now I use that account to pay the mortgage, I have enough money deposited in so that I don’t have to fuss with saving money – I know that it’s already done.  So when it’s mortgage payment time I just point and click and it’s done. 

Moving on and having these hurdles out of the way helps.  However, it’s also a reminder that he is gone.  The pain of the loss and the pain of moving on are still there.  It’s getting better with time but what isn’t getting better is the loneliness.  Grindr and the other dating apps haven’t exactly helped me.  However, I find them addictive to the point where I feel the need to constantly check to see if a guy is interested or has sent me a real message.  I know that I had to push really hard but when I first jumped in head first I was able to get a date.  So I know that is possible.  The problem is finding someone who is genuinely interested and wants to get to know me vs just having sex.  The longer this goes on the more desperate I get and desperate people do in fact do desperate things.  Things that they normally wouldn’t do.  Thus far I have fought off and resisted all temptation but that is becoming more difficult to do as the days go on.  I mean we all need, want and desire human companionship and affection.  It’s a basic human desire/need.  It doesn’t matter if your short, tall the color of your skin or which team you play for.  At the end of the day you need to know someone loves and cares for you, plus you need a hug or an embrace once and a while.  Sex is also a very good things as well, I suppose with age you might eventually get past the sex part but the rest of it is a requirement and need that will not pass.

In other news Marvin has decided to mimic his mother and we play soccer now.  I kick a ball to him with my feet and tell him to kick it back and he does.  I had him trained at one point to play fetch but since I didn’t stick with it, that has faded away.  I will gladly take the soccer activity. It is kind of fun and I enjoy seeing his face.  He is very lazy if the ball doesn’t come right to him he meows or stares at it as if to say well kick it over to me.  Funny guy.  Life is normal in the cat house. 

We have another team meeting today and I just found out they hired a consultant to interview us they claim it’s to help improve a workflow process but who knows if that is the truth.  I just hope there isn’t more changes or drama that come from our meetings.  I think they are highly unproductive and it’s just a way to pass time and get paid for working through lunch.  I am not opposed to the overtime but I would much rather eat in peace and not have to worry about being on the phone. 

It’s been another busy day here in paradise.  I have to go pick up some equipment from someone’s office that left yesterday.  Next week we have someone new starting in a different position.  It’s all about keeping it moving regardless if it’s a new hire or someone leaving.  While I will be slightly busier than I want to be this weekend I am ready for it.  I’ve got a therapy appointment on Saturday and I am eager to get there and talk.  Perhaps I will find some answers or a coping mechanism. 

Here’s hoping that the sun is shining in your neck of the woods and that life is treating you well.  2 more days left in this week and they can’t go by fast enough for me.  I hope there are some laughs in all of our futures.  Talk with you peeps later.

Giddy like a school girl

I found out today as I had suspected my boss will be going overseas for a little bit.  Not exactly sure when he is leaving but it sounds like it might be as early as this week.  He picked up a sweet laptop called an HP Envy.  It’s an Ultra book, which is super thin and boasts great battery life.  You are supposed to be able to get about 7 hours depending upon how your using the machine.  The only draw back is there is no optical drive.  I purchased LoJack for Laptops for him w/o his knowledge.  This way I figure I am covering my ass if he should loose the thing or if it gets stolen.  Plus you can log in and the software will tell you where the machine was last used at, and give you the IP.  Pretty neat what technology can do, when it works!

Work has gotten a little easier.  I am still under pressure but I have been making progress with the equipment that is taking up way too much room in my office.  I got rid of 1 PC today and a printer.  Of course more equipment will be arriving tomorrow to take it’s place.  I am so far behind that I honestly lost track of who I am supposed to build a computer for.  It’s kind of boring going through the same process over and over but it’s what I am paid to do.  I wish we had Ghost or CloneZilla anything that would replicate a drive.  That would make this whole process go 10x faster.

I have kind of formed the impression that my boss really likes me and that I am going to be there a while.  I am still not letting my guard down and keeping an eye out for what’s out on the market.  However, it doesn’t sound like I will be kicked to the curb, at least not today anyway.  I really wish I could relax and get comfortable here. 

I told you in a past post about my Renters Insurance going up.  Well thanks to USAA & Liberty Mutual I will be able to leave my present company and get a better policy for a little less money.  It’s a savings of $9 but it’s more coverage.  So it’s one of those deals that I just can’t pass up.

USAA is for the Military and their family members.  I called up and explained that my father was in the Army and that my Grandfather was too.  I don’t know my father but I had all of the information on my Grandfather.  The person I spoke with felt sorry for me and transferred me to get an insurance quote.  While I don’t qualify for a traditional membership I can use them for things like Checking, Savings and Credit Cards.  I’m not interested in that, I just want good insurance at a cheap price.  If your in the US and have a family member in the military I would suggest checking into membership, you just might be able to save yourself some money.

I have been shopping for Auto Insurance and the quotes that I have gotten start at $600 and go up into $1,200 for six months.  Granted, I have more insurance than I will ever need from an Auto stand point but I was in that business and I saw people loose everything because they took out a Mercedes, Audi and hurt a couple people in the process.  The way cars are priced today is ridiculous!  However, I am hoping that my present insurer keeps my rates low or at least there is not a significant increase in my premium.  I keep checking everyday for a renewal offer but they like to make me wait.  Plus it probably doesn’t help that I complained to the company about raising my rates on my Renters Policy.  Until I know something for sure I just keep crossing my fingers.  The policy renews in early September so they should be presenting me with an offer soon.

So I am giddy like a school girl because I friended a porn star on a social media site.  He not only added me but wrote me a message.  It was short and sweet.  However, it was enough to make my day and I have been thinking about him all day long.  It’s just amazing how an act of kindness can make your day.

Well, I promised myself and the kids that we would have extra TV time tonight, so I need to get going.  Oh, my old school mate confirmed lunch on Saturday.  I am not thrilled about meeting him but I will just because.  I am starting to think he will try to get me into Amway or sell me something.  Totally not interested in any of that.  I’ve got bills to pay!

Take care and I will talk with you peeps later!

Prepare for take off

I am super tired.  Got up at 8 am this morning, went to breakfast and all I want to do is sleep.  However, nothing will get done if I lay down, so I am keeping myself moving.  Granted I am not going as fast as I want to, but I am still awake, which is a plus.

I had to beg for my travel arrangements and finally got them late in the day on Friday.  I have to get up at 4am Monday morning to make my flight.  It’s a connecting flight.  Normally there is a small lay over but I’ve got 2 hours.  Monday is pretty much shot.  By the time I arrive, get my car, check in at the hotel, eat lunch and drive to the facility it will be well after noon.  However, I will do my best.  I mean that is all anyone can ask.

I got the rental car reservation modified so that it includes GPS.  Normally they have plenty of these units but I don’t want to take a chance, I mean I can’t afford to get lost.  Even though I am sure I will get into at least one fight with the damn thing.

My flight home on Friday gets in very late.  I am not thrilled about that and think that was done on purpose.  They are supposed to be looking for an earlier flight but we shall see.  I honestly think it’s lip service and I am stuck with it.  So be it.  I looked on line myself and I can get plenty of earlier flights but I can’t book anything myself or I would get in trouble.

I already know it’s going to be one hell of a week.  Plenty of chaos and maybe even some fun mixed in.  Over all I will be tired and very exhausted.  I am not excited about leaving like I normally am.  I really wish I could put this off a week but might as well get it over with.  I will be glad when this trip is done.  Sad part is I will have to book a return trip, well that is provided I get to keep my job.  I so don’t trust these people.

On the home front my partner and I went to see my mom and brother yesterday.  It was nice but a trip that lasted way too long.  Not much is new.  I did get to see the new refrigerator and it looks nice.  A special compartment in the freezer for Frozen Pizza.  What will they think of next?  That was totally awesome!

I got a heck of a surprise in the mail yesterday.  My renters insurance came.  They raised my rates by $48 because I filed Bankruptcy.  I started shopping and found a little more coverage and saved about $2 per year.  Not sure if I want to make the switch, but probably will.  I got curious and started shopping auto insurance rates.  Damn it’s like I am 18 again .. they want $600 + for 6 months of coverage.  While I haven’t received my auto policy renewal, I wanted to help prime myself for what might be ahead.  If my premium jumps that much I will not be happy.  I would have to look into carrying less coverage, which is something that I don’t want to do.  Right now as it is my rates are around $260 for 6 months and that is not bad at all.  I can afford a slight rate increase but nothing significant.  I’ve already reached out to the company I am with and voiced my opinion.  It’s legalized discrimination.  I fail to see the relationship between my credit and the amount of money I pay for any type of insurance.  It’s just crazy.  However, there isn’t much that I can do about it. 

If you ever file and have an auto loan, the bank your vehicle is financed with will stop reporting your payment history.  It’s just part of the process.  I have managed to get my bank to go back an put in past payment history as well as agree to file future payment history, since I signed a reaffirmation agreement.  The agreement says that I am legally responsible for the debt and that I agree to repay them under our original agreement.  Not all places will give in to the demand to report payment history.  However, I’d like to get on the fast track to getting my credit score up, so that the price of insurance comes down.  My score was in the 700’s before I filed and now it’s 590.  With the car payment information I hope that will increase things to closer to 620.  Every point helps.

I found out that Lawn Boy is getting married next month.  That’s great news.  I hear with the drought we have experienced, he is hurting for money.  Hey, times are tough all over.  He didn’t think anything of hitting me up for $90 worth of service last year that I didn’t authorize so I really don’t feel bad for him.  It will all work out in the end.  However, he hasn’t been here since the early part of the month.  From the looks of things I’d say he is done here for the year but never say never.

Well I still have to clean the house, finish laundry, pack, get food for the kids and my partner, as well as fill up his truck with gas.  So I should get myself in gear but I really have no motivation.  All I want to do is sleep.  Wish me luck because I will need it.  I don’t know that I will have any time to blog, but if I do, I will.  Otherwise there will be an update next weekend.

Take care, be well, stay cool & hydrated.  I will talk with you peeps later!

Good Job–Really

It’s been one hell of a week!  I am glad we are at the weekend and I really wish it was still Friday night, so I would have another day to play besides Sunday that is around the corner. 

So on the job front….. Wednesday I was called to the bosses office.  He asked me to talk about all of the items that I had “pending” mean the ones where he said we will talk but never bothered to follow up.  Yeah, those pending items.  So I went down the list.  I never mentioned WIFI and I also never mentioned the Office.  I got what I needed and planned on getting out.  However, he had other plans.  We talked about WIFI and he wanted an alternative solution by the end of the week.  Thankfully I was already working on something so this wasn’t a surprise to me.  Then I caught him off guard and asked him what he thought of my performance.  He said well it’s been a rough couple of months.  I thought you son of a bitch, you’re the whole reason it’s been rough.  Anyway, his sticking point with me was the whole WIFI issue.  So I asked him to set that aside and then tell me how he thought I was doing.  He said he was very happy.  But reminded me that I’m still on probation.  Then he told me he wanted me to recount the entire conversation we just had in an e-mail to him so we both would have a record of it.  Do you think he had an ulterior motive?  I sure do!  But I did it and I’ve got a copy of it here at home.  I set him up in the e-mail and I don’t think he realizes it.  So fire me, go ahead, I imagine he will say something like I wasn’t happy with his performance.  Really, then I whip out the e-mail that he responded to that confirmed the details of our conversation.  Bingo got him dead center. 

Thursday was a complete disaster, everything that could go wrong did and it was only the 12th!  I hated to see what Friday the 13th would be like.

Turns out it was the best Friday the 13th I have had in a very long time.  I submitted my idea for WIFI and got him significant cost savings but it means I have to do all of the labor and installation work myself.  It means something that should take me a couple days with contractors involved will take much longer.  One site alone will be an entire week.  Plus I just found out they don’t have AC.  Awesome!  Anyway, he wrote back and told me to order the stuff I needed, he was pleased and even said good job.  Holy crap, I printed that out because it’s going in a frame (not really).  I figure that is the only time where I will see those words from him.  I sent some additional e-mails to him later in the day and he responded right away.  His ass-is-tant is also pleased now and suddenly seems to be treating me a little better. 

I feel like the WIFI thing saved my job.  I felt so good.  However, I am not delusional enough to think that we won’t continue to have problems and that I can stay in this job long term.  No way, no how, no chance.  I am still looking for a job some place where I can be happy, get better benefits and be treated a whole hell of a lot better.  For now I will ride this job and take every damn dime they want to send my way.

This whole situation is such a shame and so avoidable if the fucker I have for a boss would just leave me alone and not screw with me.  I don’t know why he is a son of a bitch but he is.

In talking with a friend I found out that the business isn’t as rosy as they make it to be.  They are extended in credit far beyond their ability to repay.  They are constantly being sued.  A group of former employees banded together and formed a class action suit against them.  They have cause and their case is pretty much in the bag, they will take them for a very large sum of money.  If things like this keep happening it’s only a matter of time before they go out of business or file for bankruptcy protection.  Plus each state where there is a facility is after them for violations and they often come in for surprise inspections, which they never seem to pass.  The place is more crooked than Washington DC.  Maybe that explains why my boss treats most people like they are shit.  I don't know but I do know none of us have ever done anything to deserve the treatment we are getting.  You know it’s time to leave when you Google the place you work for and nothing but bad PR and lawsuits come up.

So I will be much happier when I get to leave.  If he leaves first then I might consider staying but I have a feeling that a job offer will present its self long before he leaves the organization.  Blogging all of my thoughts is kind of dangerous but fuck I have to let it out.  I just cant stand that miserable.  Okay I will stop.

Moving on today was a goose chase over a refill for my fake Mont Blanc pen.  Turns out I found something in my own backyard that will work.  I had to add a spring from another pen to it before it would work, but damn I got refills – 4 of them for $1.12.  Now after all of the shit I have been though to find these fuckers I am so happy.  Now it’s my favorite pen to use.  That won’t last long but at least I am happy for the moment.

My left hand has been hurting.  Before you think I’ve been whacking my meat that isn’t it at all.  Besides that I am right handed! :) I twisted in some odd position when I was working in the office and it’s been bothering me since last week.  So I gave in and called for a massage.  I figured it would be a good way to cap off the week from hell.  I got 1 hour for $61 and she did it my way!  Total back, shoulders and neck for 1 hour.  It felt good but I am so damn sore and I know the morning will really suck.  I am going to take 1/2 of a muscle relaxer before bed and maybe even a hot shower.  Sounds good huh?

I think it was Thursday when I got home my partner told me not to yell at him.  He said that a cute guy would be coming back around 8pm to talk to me about pest control.  It’s with a new company.  The guy had some Latino in him but he was so damn fine and sweet, he just made you want to sign your life away if only you could have him.  Well, while he treated me well and I was enamored by his looks just before it was time to sign the contract and he was done with his sales pitch he said do you have any questions.  I said yeah, my job is presently posted on the internet, I could loose my job tomorrow and you want me to make a 1 year commitment to your company when I have no idea if I will have a job tomorrow.  Tell me how long is your sweet offer good for?  That’s when he said you can call me anytime and I will honor the price I am telling you.  Then he just gave me the contract, unsigned.  He said if you want to do it call me.  That was sweet but I would rather do him.  He left and my partner said what did I tell you, he was hot, right.  I said yeah he was but I can’t commit to something that I don’t know if I will be able to fulfill.  It is not like I would be able to file bankruptcy again, so it’s better not to sign.  Besides that we can go to Home Depot and get what we need and take care of the bugs ourselves.

The next day just before I got into the shower I notice a very large ant.  I killed it.  Then later that night our shy girl was bitten by something.  We have gone through this for the last couple years.  She has a welt on her ear.  Her neck and part of her back is all bit up.  She let me scratch her for a minute but that is it.  She isn’t really too bothered by it, like she has been in the past.  However, I know she needs a shot of prednisone and that will clear it up.  That costs money though and since she appears to be doing okay, I am saving my money.  That way it’s there for when I need it be it for her or something else.  It’s like it was a bad thing to say no to this guy but I just couldn’t enter into a contract, I hate them to start with.

Now if was an employment contract then I would probably be loving it. There would be some form of protection.

Well make it a good week and I will try to do the same.  Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you peeps later!