It’s a mistake

Before I left the house to venture out for supper I took my medicine.  Nothing wrong with that until I realized that instead of taking Monday evenings pills I actually took Tuesday mornings pills.  That’s a double dose of blood pressure medicine, diabetes meds and the list goes on.  I realized that I did this after I swallowed the pills. 

I’ve come close to doing this before but have always caught myself.  Today was the first time this happened.  I am a little concerned about it. 

I went out for BBQ and as I waited for my food I felt kind of ill.  I figured that my blood pressure was going to bottom out and I would pass out.  However, that didn’t happen my food came and I ate.  I felt full really fast which is abnormal.  However, I continued to stuff it down as it was good food.  I just ate a bit slower and took what seemed like forever to finish the meal.  Paid the bill and came home. 

I had planned a trip to Best Buy but figured that if there were going to be side effects from my mistake that I would much rather be at home than out in public.  It’s a little after 8p and thus far nothing has happened.  I did think about calling my doctor, going to an emergency room or stopping by the fire station and talking with a paramedic.  However, I did none of those.  Unless something happens I am just going to ride this out and hope for the best. 

Tomorrow morning I will take my afternoon pills for Monday and hope that my blood pressure and blood sugar remain in control.  Wednesday I will go back to a normal schedule if I don’t manage to mess it up again. 

Filled the Water Softener with salt and managed to get the bag stuck in the tank.  That too has never happened before.  Had to get a box cutter and slice the bag open to get all of the salt out and then I was able to remove the bag.  I added a second bag and it’s decently full now and should last me for several months.  Nothing like softened water, once you experience it you won’t want to go back to hard water ever.  Your skin and your clothes feel better and water to me seems to taste better but perhaps that is just psychological.

Got the laundry upstairs and put away.  Joined another OF site.  I’ve got 3 left and I’m not sure if I am going to binge on them or save them.  One thing for sure about porn is that I always want more and there is always a new hotter guy that enters and I become obsessed with their work.  Kind of sad that this is my sex life.  I do hope that I get to experience the real thing again before I die.  Time is not on my side when it comes to my age as we all have an expiration date.  However, sex is not the end all be all but it is highly important to me. 

I peeked at the weather and rain is no longer in the forecast for tomorrow, so the guy doing the gutter cleaning should be able to get the job done.  I hope he’s good looking but more importantly I hope that he does a good job and doesn’t wind up taking all my money.  The guy that did this last year was a cute muscle twink.  I wanted him so bad but just didn’t have the nerve to ask him out.  Especially since Mora was growling after he got out of the truck and was walking up to the house.  She doesn’t normally do that but then again I don’t get visitors often.  Still I place a lot of faith in my animals judgement and kind of took it as a warning sign.  However, the heart wants what the heart wants. 

I need to get up early tomorrow so I am ready when the gutter man gets here.  Plus I have a webinar to attend regarding a new health benefit.  After that the day is all mine and I can do whatever I want.  Here’s hoping I make some good choices and get to have some fun. 

Have a good night everyone and thanks for stopping by. 

Scrambled Eggs for brains

Happy Friday!  I got all of the project at work done, I made the call late yesterday afternoon to tell my boss.  Thank God that I did have the foresight because the mistake maker wasn’t planning on coming in until next week on Wednesday, which would have been far too late.  I told him to call him back and tell him we don’t need him.  I let loose and vented my frustration but kept in mind that the dummy is still on leave and technically he shouldn’t be working despite him wanting to be apart of this project to “help me out”.  I am glad that I did it all myself because then if there are mistakes I can own them.  There have been a couple but nothing major and they’ve been fixed quickly.  My brain feels like scrambled eggs after all of the work.  It’s really tough to concentrate this morning on any one thing but I have made progress catching up on some things that I let fall by the wayside while I worked on this project. 

Last night I ordered a mount/charger for the car and it arrived this morning.  The magnet in the iPhone SE 3 and the iPhone 16 are vastly different and thus the reason for the change.  I got the same performance I expected with a serious grip from the new mount/charger.  Unfortunately, testing it out I did something stupid and managed to break it and also dropped my iPhone 16.  I was not happy.  However, the phone was in a protective case rated for a 6 foot drop and it only fell about 3 feet.  I was mad that the mount broke and I tried to save it and get it back together but cheap plastic proved that wasn’t happening.  I just boxed it up, got a shipping label from Amazon and it’s ready to go back tomorrow.  Meanwhile I have ordered a replacement and it will be here tomorrow.  Fingers crossed. 

Unless something goes horribly wrong today I plan on making the move later this evening into the new phone.  I am still apprehensive but also curious to try it out.  Just have to make it past the password prompts and get my service activated and then I should be set.  Then it’s time to customize things and adjust settings.  Probably an all night event.  I almost did it last night because I had a nice sense of peace and calm but opted to wait and listen to that little voice that said one more day won’t kill you. 

Watched part of a hot scene last night with Aiden Ward, Bryce Jax and James Cassidy.  It was just what I needed!  I plan to try to finish it up tonight.  There is another scene that was just released yesterday on Colby Knox called Beach Vibe with Colby and a new guy Dave Mitchell.  I got that as well and look forward to watching.  It’s times like this when I see good hot porn that I wish I long for the real thing.  Yeah I know someday but I still have my doubts that day will ever roll around.

That’s about it just watched some old Alice on YouTube and played on my phone while the cats napped.  Of course I had to have a cuddle session with Mora before treat time but once they both have treats they pass out cold.  Rudy came over when he woke up and made some biscuits and gave me a kiss.  We cuddled for a bit.  Then he wanted to play and I gave in.  He was really in the mood and he played more than he has in a while.  Nothing like seeing a happy cat to bring me joy.  I need more joy in my life. 

Just have to make it through the afternoon and then the work day is done.  Next week I am back on-call so more hell awaits.  However, two days of rest sounds really nice.  Here’s hoping I can get some good food.  I know that it’s Mother’s Day and places around here tend to fill up all weekend long because of that.  I won’t go hungry but might have a wait on my hands before I get to eat. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great weekend for all of us.  Take care and thanks for stopping by. 

Porn on the brain

Morning … Another day closer to the weekend!  It’s another rainy day here.  The grass crew usually shows up today.  I do hope they skip me today and cut when things dry out a bit.  They have cut when the grass has been wet before and it just doesn’t do the lawn justice, no matter how sharp their blades are. 

Speaking of blades my shoulder blades have knots in them and I am looking forward to a massage on Friday.  It’s 90 minutes and if she works those two spots I will probably melt like butter and just want to be lazy all day on Saturday.  I long for the knots leaving my body.  It would be nice for me if they never came back. 

Had some strange dreams last night but one of them was a restaurant that I went with someone, I think it was my grandma but I can’t be sure of that now.  Anyway it was three rooms of nothing but food and people.  I left stuffed and looked forward to a return visit in the future.  Then I was going through some stuff and found checks made out to me that hadn’t been cashed, they were at least a year old.  That would never happen in reality.  I deposit the few checks I get per year right away. I woke up and there was some strange lighting on the hallway, it took me a minute to realize where I was.  I was about to freak out when I realized I was at home. 

Today is going to be a little bit of a busy day.  I got a jump on things and all was going well.  I was setting up a new person and he almost got the name of a porn star instead of his real name.  That would have been embarrassing for me but luckily I caught my mistake just after I made it.  This isn’t the first time that I have tried to set someone up as a porn star.  Porn wasn’t even on my mind it was just a subconscious Freudian Slip.  Perhaps that’s more of a sign that I need some action. Celibate life isn’t that grand and it’s a wonder that I haven’t lost my mind yet.  Need some Vitamin D in the worst way!

Browsed a dating site that let you peek at available people in your area without signing up.  Something I stumbled on in a web search.  Looking at the profiles made me realize why I hate on line dating.  There were some okay guys but they were all looking for someone their own age and not an old man like me.  One guy was just looking for sex he was creative with his user name that it was implied that is what he was looking for.  I just want a honest – good looking – younger guy.  He needs to be a great companion and we need to get to know each other.  Then we can jump in bed.  Sounds quite simple but I still think I will die single and alone.  As long as I go out on a full stomach from a great meal that would be nice. 

All of this dreary weather and rain makes me want to go climb back in bed and sleep.  The cats would really enjoy that.  We had a nice napping session yesterday.  Mora curled up under my arm and snuggled in, she was purring and snoring away in no time.  Glad that I can bring that level of comfort and calm to an animal.  She did the same for me I wasn’t purring but I was out pretty quick.  Rudy was curled up between my legs.  I was anchored down by cats but I was comfortable.  That is until the phone went off and woke me up.  That’s the way it always goes. 

Had left over pizza for supper last night.  I have two pieces left and plan on eating them at lunch time.  Probably BBQ for super but I do have some pasta that I picked up so I could eat that instead.  It sounds better at the moment. 

Well guess I should get back to work at least for a little while.  Hope you have an awesome day!   

Sextortion

I commented on a blog a short time ago giving some advice regarding Sextortion.  I am posting an edited version of my comment here in the hopes the advice will be of help and/or can maybe prevent someone from falling into this trap. 

1. It’s best not to pay any ransom and to involve law enforcement. There is no real assurance or guarantee the threat actor won’t publish your information, presuming they have it. 

2. Block the person’s screen name in the app your using and if you have exchange phone numbers, block their phone number so you aren’t continued to be bothered. If your using an app to communicate, report the person on the app.  If they did this to you, chances are good they did it to someone else as well. 

3. If you want to cruise/date I would suggest getting a second phone number just for that purpose and not to ever give out your real phone number and perhaps withholding his last name. Similarly I’d get a second email account for cruising/dating purposes.  There are still a lot of good and honest people in the world, the problem is it's really challenging to find them.

One rule of thumb I have is not to take nudes ever. Because once it's out there it lives forever and you never know when that might come back to bite you. I realize the thrill of sending nudes but if your going to send them at least wait to get to know the person and be certain that you can trust them.  You might not care about it but if you think about it that nude can be weaponized and used against you, that’s why no matter what I just don’t take them.  It’s your body and totally up to you, just keep in mind that it can come back to haunt you.  

It's really sad when some folks fall into this "trap" especially teenagers.  Some teenagers have not seen a way out and sadly have wound up taking their own life.  Parents are people and some like others are more understanding.  Only you know your situation best.  I think that if it comes down to your personal safety versus coming out/being exposed.  Better that you tell your loved ones that your gay than take your own life.  It’s not worth that and so many parents wished that their child / family member would have just told them.  That said, I realize that some folks don't accept gay people but at the end of the day you have to live your life for you!  After all it's your life and you deserve to be happy and your authentic self.  It’s all about being comfortable in the skin your in.  Once you are, it’s the best feeling in the world! 

Best tip ever … if your gut is telling you something isn’t right, listen to that and do not ignore it!!  Better safe than sorry.  Also, always operate with caution in mind.  I realize hormones get carried away and you want to drop your guard or forget about common sense.  I’ve been there and know first hand it’s not as easy as it sounds.  

A huge tip off that something is wrong is often Threat actors (aka that person you’ve been communicating with) will start on an app but then put on pressure to move off the app for "convenience sake" or provide some other excuse. This is so the app has no knowledge of what they are doing and when/if you choose to report them they have either moved on to a different screen name or there is very little data that shows any kind of violation of the TOS (Terms Of Service) of the app. Always stay on the app for safety sake. 

An additional step you can take is to use a service to get your personal information off the web.  Data brokers post your personal information to the web and it's next to impossible to combat this alone. It's like a game of whack-a-mole as soon as you get your information deleted from one site, it pops up on another. There are several services that will scour the web for you and do this on your behalf. You of course have to pay them for this service. Personally, I use several companies as I find that one just isn't enough unless you go for top tier service plans but the cost that I have seen is typically thousands of dollars.  Yearly or monthly affordable options are offered by most companies and some suggestions on services are... Delete Me, Incogni, Aura, Optery and Easy Opt Out.

A recent development, Google will also help for free by removing some search results, check out this link for more info…https://support.google.com/websearch/answer/12719076?hl=en
Understand that while the search result won’t appear in Google it can appear in other search engines and/or it’s still available on the web just not readily linked for easy access. 

Disclaimer … This is just personal advice that I have come across over the years.  None of the companies mentioned are sponsors.  I am not an expert in this field but have had one bad experience that I could see was going south quicker than anything.  Another tip off is if you get long emails that drone on and on.  It’s probably a scam and the person will eventually wind up asking you for money.  Believe it or not there are kits the threat actors buy that have those emails scripted out, so they just copy and paste. 

The Weekend

Made it to the breakfast buffet.  It was truly a bust and I was disappointed, especially after driving a little over an hour to get there and looking so forward to it all week long.  The eggs were ice cold, the sausage links they had tasted odd but I ate them.  They had decent French Toast Sticks but no other flavor of syrup than maple so I ate them plain.  Hash Browns in a wedge kind of like you’d get from McDonald’s but way bigger.  Blueberry Muffins dusted with powered sugar.  There were a couple of egg casseroles I tried one of them and it was greasy, I saw sausage and thought it would be pretty good.  Turns out it was a locally made sausage cured in beer and it tasted God awful.  I wondered what I put in my mouth so I asked the waitress and she told me that everyone raves over it.  I told her that it was disgusting and she was surprised at my reaction.  Dropped $19.01 that included a tip and then headed home. 

Well not straight home, I went to my friends shop in hopes that they would know the crazy lady from the gas station but no luck.  Tried Cheeseburger Flavored Doritos and they were really good. 

While I was at the breakfast buffet my Thanksgiving friends reached out via text and I’ve arranged to meet them tonight for supper.  I came home from my friends shop and had the best intentions of taking a nap but called to setup dinner for tonight and wound up in a two hour phone conversation where we talked about everything from current happenings to my late spouse and his health.  It was a walk down memory lane and damn I really miss him!

I ventured out to Ruby Tuesday’s which is where I originally wanted to go on Friday.  They had a Garlic Lover’s Burger it sounded good but turns out it was Charbroiled and it tasted gross but I ate it.  At least I got some decent Tater Tots, haven’t had those in forever.  It was time to pay my bill and I heard the bar tender explaining a bill to a customer at the bar.  She went over and over saying the same thing.  Then she roped in my waitress and after a few times of hearing the same story I totally understood his bill way better than he did. He ordered a couple drinks and shots and wasn’t prepared for the cost, he thought he was being over charged.  He also got food.  The manager was involved and that’s when I asked the bar tender how much his bill was she said $80 and then corrected herself to say $60.  I told her I was going to offer to pay it just to shut him up but damn that was a little steep plus it involved liquor and I’m just not a fan of paying for someone’s habit.  I walked out and thought wow I probably dodged a bullet.  I love to help people and that is what seems to attract the crazy factor, at least in the last couple days. 

This morning I went out for breakfast as per usual.  I walked in and noticed it was oddly quiet and then I heard we have no power it will be two hours before it’s back on.  Damn I was really looking forward to breakfast.  I walked out and thought everything happens for a reason.  For the first time in over a year I went back to Cracker Barrel.  I not only saw the waiter I had a crush on and asked out, he was my waiter.  He remembered me and my drink order.  The menu has seriously changed but I knew what I wanted and ordered it.  He told me that he’s been traveling to California and he just bought a house.  Then he told me where he lived, general area and asked me again to refresh his memory where I lived.  He touched my shoulder and said it’s really good to see you again.  Fuck he looked as hot as ever.  I really want him not only sexually but as a friend.  However, I’ve done my recon work and not only is he in his early 20’s but he’s got a criminal record that’s pretty long and he has this habit of driving without a license and getting caught constantly.  He’s got a case pending now.  If it wasn’t for his criminal record I would continue to pursue him until he either told me to get lost or gave in and went out on a date with me.  I am sure that there is probably more to his criminal story that what I see on-line but it is truly a disappointment.  I was really counting on him going out with me some three years ago when I initially approached him but he told me he had school but he would for sure call me.  He plaid games and strung me along.  Yeah he broke my heart but that’s also why I haven’t been there in over a year.  I can’t shove my feelings aside for wanting him I just know that having it actually come to fruition is not only dangerous it’s probably just not happening.  I’m sure he’s still got my number and I have his, unless he’s changed it.  If he wants to make a move I’m willing to at least go on a date with him.  I’ve let him know many, many times that I am very interested, I think to the point where my desperation showed.  I just don’t get why he would tell me that he was interested and exchange numbers with me but not follow through, kind of wish that he would have just said no, that would have hurt but I’d be over it by now.  I’ve been thinking about him ever since I left Cracker Barrel and I know he’s going to be in my thoughts for a while.  Everything happens for a reason and I think I have dogged a pretty big bullet here but yet I keep putting myself in the line of fire over and over.  Guys and there good looks – I’m just a sucker and desperate at that.  Not desperate enough to just do a hookup though.  That’s why I’ve got such a porn addiction.  It’s been a little over a decade since I got laid and to say I’ve got the itch to fuck is quite the understatement.  It’s only getting worse the longer this goes on.  If I didn’t engage in self pleasure I would be in serious dire straights. 

Looking forward to seeing my friends and catching up as well as getting some advice from them.  I think I am going to talk with HR and let them know about the crazy lady not only for my own protection but for the sake of the business.  My telling them can only help both of us and if they opt to interview and hire her well then that’s on them.  I do want to preserve and protection my reputation.  I think that is the right thing to do and I will certainly think twice before I ever hand my business card to a complete stranger ever again. 

Thanks for stopping by and reading my yapping.  I hope your doing well and life is treating you well.  It’s back to work for me tomorrow and I don’t look forward to it at all but it’s a necessary evil to continue to keep on keeping on.  Cheers!

Sleep Issues

Hello and thanks for stopping by. I’ve been having some sleep issues. I will pass out at a decent hour but then after a few hours I am awake. Be it a call to the bathroom or the temperature in my room (I get hot at times under the covers and have a heat intolerance). To fix it I typically have to stay up for an hour and then I am drowsy and can go back to bed. Problem is that whatever time is left to sleep goes by way too fast. Usually if I am worried about something I run into trouble like this. I have had a few worries and a couple of long-time co-workers that just vanished was quite a shock to my system. I often worry or am bothered by things that are out of my control, yet I still worry as if that’s going to help things.

I thought that since we made it to the weekend that I could at least get a decent night’s sleep Friday night into Saturday. However, I woke up to use the bathroom and now suddenly I can’t go back to sleep, despite trying. What to do? Watch tv is my usual go to. Silly me I picked a movie out. Carry On from Netflix. It’s an action movie. Once I started that movie I couldn’t stop. It was a damn good movie and I was interacting with the TV as if my voice was somehow going to change the story line of the movie. I bothered the cats a little bit but they fell back to sleep like nothing ever happened. I should have stuck with a YouTube video or something mild. Normally I like to hear a podcast some talking will usually lull me back to a drowsy status.

I made an agenda for today last night and am proud to say that I accomplished everything. I got up early thanks to Rudy who wanted breakfast. Then I got a shower, put on some fresh clothes, threw on my hat & coat and headed out. First stop was fast food breakfast. Then to the post office and finally to get my haircut. It was cold out and pouring rain. Once I was done with all of that I came back home. Opened the mail and watched TV with the cats to pass the morning into early afternoon by. Then I left and headed into the office. Turns out this was my first time there in a month. I didn’t think it had been that long but the last time I was there was late October, according to the calendar in my office. I hung up a new calendar. Changed the day at a glance calendar that my employer provides. Passed out a couple of cards. Grabbed my water bottle and headed out. On to food, BBQ more specifically. I knew I had reward points and it saved me $6 so not a bad deal. Then last stop before returning back home was the pet food store.

I changed clothes and headed down to work on laundry and of course I had to pay some attention to Mora and give her a belly rub as I tried to work/play on the computer. Finances are taken care of. Caught up on email. Thinking about what to eat for breakfast.

Tomorrow is just the usual run morning errands of breakfast, grocery store and gas station. Then maybe out for a meal later in the day. After that I will be “trapped” here since I will be on-call next week. Working at home has its perks but I have zero social interaction and I wouldn’t have much if I went in. Driving in today in heavy rain made me appreciate the luxury that I have. I do feel better when I make it in though. I do think if I wasn’t on-call next week that I’d be in the office. However, unless something goes seriously wrong, I won’t set foot in the office until January 2025.

On a different front I found a hot guy on YouTube. He’s hot to me but might not appeal to you. He goes by the name Chariotz (@xxchariotz). He has some hot sex stories that are censored for YouTube. Turns out he’s got an Only Fans account. Last night I went exploring and found his profile on X (F/K/A Twitter). Damn he’s packing some wood and I am seriously thinking of paying the $5 for one month just to see his content. I haven’t pulled the trigger on that just yet. It’s tempting and I know that I will want to subscribe to more than just his channel. Kind of like opening the refrigerator when you’re hungry you grab a soda and a snack, next thing you know you’ve emptied out an entire shelf because it’s just so good. As you might imagine X is more explicit than YouTube and it’s honestly why I have an account there just for the porn clips and to keep up with some of my favorite porn stars. I need a man badly not only for companionship but for sex as well, that would certainly help keep my porn habit more under control. Chariotz is my type of guy, younger than me and sexy AF. While I am sure that if given a chance, we could have some chemistry in bed I don’t know that we would be compatible otherwise. That’s kind of the downfall of being into younger guys (late 20’s to 30’s). Not to mention his sexual history, his body count sounds like it’s way higher than mine, that is scary to me. However, I think if I was given a chance to repeat my youth again and my life went in a different direction my body count would probably be higher but I’m not ashamed of having a low body count.

On a different note, I just started listening to the audio book of Matt Rife’s called “Your Mom’s Gonna Love Me”. It’s pretty good thus far I am in Chapter 6 I believe. That is just from the running I did today. Might listen to more of that if I can’t find something of interest on TV. Audio books are so cool.

Well now it’s time to climb the stairs and go do my next least favorite activity of unloading and reloading the dishwasher. Then to search for something to watch on TV or perhaps look at what is on the DVR and play catch up as well as freeing up some disk space. Poor thing has tons of content. I just finished with the Thanksgiving Parade from last year, have yet to watch this years. Also have some Independence Day celebrations that I need to watch. Something about seeing fireworks in the winter sounds appealing to me. Watching a Thanksgiving Parade in the middle of July makes me feel good. I know it’s strange I never used to be like that but here I am.

Enough yapping I’m publishing this and then heading up. Hope all is well in your world. Stay warm and take care.

Sunday

I’ve managed to keep to my routine and have everything I need to completed.  The parking lot at the place I stopped for breakfast this morning was very icy and no one had done anything to it.  They have a lot of older people that flock to this place.  Hopefully, no one was injured.  I had a close call as I was getting back into my vehicle.  The roads are perfectly clear, just a matter of keeping an eye out for ice. 

I am currently sitting with Rudy on my lap as I type away.  He’s sleepy.  His sister just woke up and she wants attention.  I am ready to leave to grab some dinner out but these two are kind of holding me hostage.  No worries I can break free anytime I want, it just won’t go over that well with them. 

It was a low 27 degrees this morning and I was thankful for heated seats as well as a working heater.  I know it’s warmed up a little bit but we haven’t seen any sun today so I know I won’t be stepping out into tropical weather.  I’d like to get going and get home before dark but don’t know that is going to happen.  I could encounter some deer and prefer to travel in daylight when it’s much easier to see them.  Perhaps I will take an alternate route out of an abundance of caution. 

There’s no good porn available today.  Last night after a shower, I watched Drake Von get topped by Joey Mills.  That was hot, especially because there roles were reversed.  This was advertised as Drakes first bottom scene but I am pretty sure I have something in my archives that says different.  I watched a bit of Aiden Ward top Jake Matthews.  That was all it took and the show was over.  Then I went to YouTube content and managed to fall asleep in my chair.  Woke up, climbed in bed and it wasn’t long before I was in dreamland.  Hoping to repeat those activities tonight of course watching different content. 

I know that tomorrow is going to suck just going back to work.  However, as per usual I don’t have much going on a Monday.  I know of some tasks that I need to take care of so I will be busy for as long as I want to be or until I knock those tasks out.  Since I’ll be trapped down here pretty much all day tomorrow I am a bit eager to get back out. 

I’ve got my Cologuard kit and will have the fun task of filling it and then getting that shipped out.  Thankfully there is a UPS store around the corner.  I hope to get this knocked out this week but of course I am stressing about it and all worried about the results, just because.  That’s how I was the last time and I actually delayed sending it in.  Since I know after a while they start to pester you I want to get this shipped back asap, preferably the same day the sample drops.  Honestly I have no real reason to worry but that is one of the things I do best, until I hear otherwise.  

Hope that you are having or had a great day, depending on when you read this.  Stay warm and well as the countdown to Christmas begins and we get closer to the start of Winter on the 21st.  Take care!

SNOW

Welcome back, glad that you stopped in. I really had a bit of a fight on my hands with my Office 2021 install. The place I purchased it from told me to download the ISO and then install from that. Well, my machine just wasn’t having that and I rebooted a couple times. I’d get to 3% and then it would just stall out. I thought perhaps something was blocked so I checked my DNS logs and thought I found something but turned out to be nothing. The more this thing ran me in circles the more determined it made me to see it through to a resolution. I found through some searching that you can login to your Microsoft account (setup.office.com) and put in your software key. That site will build an install for you and embed your key. It was a sinch to get it to install and then I was prompted about an online activation and viola all done. I got a great price and opted to buy another copy for my laptop just so both of my machines run the same version.

It was around 11p when I called it quits and went up to go to bed. I was exhausted just from being in front of the screen and the fighting I did with the machine. I had to fend off the cats a couple times. Mora was quite insistent that I go upstairs but I finally got her to settle down. Well, don’t you know when I wanted them to come upstairs it was a whole different ball game. It took a bit of time but they came up. I took my pills, did a little bit of flossing and rinsed with some mouthwash. I skipped brushing, just one night and it’s only something I do on very rare occasions. As I was walking into my bedroom, I realized that I forgot to do the dishes but I figured that is a tomorrow task.

I was sleeping fairly quickly after I relaxed a little bit. Sadly, I woke up at 2a. It was hot in here I had raised the temperature by one degree because it was cold. I readjusted the thermostat back down one degree. Then it was time to sit and watch TV until I got sleepy. That took a couple hours and around 4a I went back to bed. The trash man came at 6a and started the banging of the cans (as I call it) which means emptying of the trash. Rudy started up at 7a and that’s when I just gave in and got up. I cracked open a can of food for the cats. Then worked on some Cinnamon Cream of Wheat for me to enjoy. Along with a Lemon Blueberry Muffin and a glass of milk. Then I nibbled on some Christmas cookies. My phone started going crazy and I had something from work to take care of. It was nonsense but I got it out of the way. Then on to the dishes, unloading and loading the dishwasher. Hit the bathroom so I could take my morning meds and threw on some clothes. I grabbed my coat and hat and told the cats I’d be right back. Went out to retrieve the trash barrel before the snow started falling. Turns out it was spitting tiny flakes that were only visible once I was outside. I looked over at my neighbors’ house, apparently, they missed trash day and their cans are overflowing. Seeing that made me smile.

Walked back in the house and Mora looked at me like well so your back, now what. We sat in the living room for a while and watched TV. The snow moved in and Rudy was quite fascinated by it. He was staring out the back door and kept looking up at the sky and turning his head a bit like he was confused. I said his name and he snapped back to reality and came over to curl up with me.

I knew that today was going to be one of those days where I mostly stay inside and I’m okay with it. I did get out to grab the cat food and pick up my medicine which was waiting for me at the post office. Then trudged back home.

I don’t know about you but I’ve been mixed up a bit on what day of the week it actually is. That hit me yesterday and again today. I know that after tomorrow the fun is over and it will be back to work for 5 days but the upside is that I won’t be on-call. I am planning on going in on Wednesday. Oddly that is the day it will be the warmest and hopefully the majority of the snow will have melted by then.

It’s still coming down but it’s not sticking to the driveway because it’s just too warm. However, the temperatures will drop overnight and there for sure will be ice waiting for me tomorrow. I dislike that stuff only because I fell on it back when I was in high school.

I’ve knocked out all of the tasks I had for the computer. I still have some house cleaning tasks that between today and tomorrow I will finish up. I plan on grabbing the laundry and putting it away as well as making the bed. Then swapping some of my short sleeves for long sleeves because it’s apparent that I’m not going to be able to wear short sleeves if I am going out. Then relaxing a bit and taking a shower before bed.

Tomorrow’s docket has me getting breakfast, going to the grocery store and stopping to gas up the automobile. If conditions are favorable enough, I plan to travel to Red Lobster. I’ve polished off all of the Pasta and want a break from Thanksgiving food for a day. Fish would be a nice change of pace and I’m hungry for it.

I got a lot of good Black Friday deals on software some I bought because that was an option but the majority of it that I got is all subscription based. I hate subscriptions but that is what damn near everything has turned into. The thought process is that you have so many subscriptions that you can’t possibly manage them. That’s why I made a spreadsheet that lists out all of the annual stuff that I have to pay for. The majority of what I sign up for I keep. I added to that list by getting a subscription for Simple Login, it’s an email alias service that is run by Proton Mail. Not a bad deal, I want to use alias email addresses to help hide my real email, much like I am able to hide my real credit card number by using a virtual card. I tried the service for a few days and then signed up while they had a sale going on. I like try before you buy, I’d like to know what I am getting works and how it works before I go all in.

Shifting gears to porn, Corbin Fisher & Sean Cody had a holiday collab (aka orgy) with a select few models. They released this as two parts. Part 1 was on Thanksgiving and Part 2 was on Friday. I’ve seen online reviews and articles about it along with some photos. I’ve got both episodes but haven’t watched them. They have some models that I like in each of the episodes, so I am sure it will bring me pleasure and be something I file away into the archives for nostalgia. One thing is for sure when I finally exit the earth whomever closes out my life will know that I was horny, that might take some by surprise.

Speaking of which I did look for a Black Friday sale on dating but the app I wanted to use made me go through all of the sign-up process and then showed me the prices and that’s when I found out there was no sale. That’s when I jumped off the app. One of my hopes is that I don’t go another full year without meeting someone. I am well aware that it’s not going to magically happen because if that was the case there has been plenty of time so it would have happened by now. I am just looking for a companion for the most part. I’m not looking exclusively for a sexual relationship but don’t misunderstand I want sex as well; however, my ultimate goal is a companion. That will make life more enjoyable and having someone I can rely on and who knows maybe even travel with. Lord knows I need a damn good vacation. Shame people don’t come with warning labels so you know in advance what you could be stepping into. Lots of people want to play games and I don’t have time for that. I’m too old and too tired. I want someone younger than me but realistically that most likely will not happen. My mind is still quite open and if I see a guy I like and think that I could have a chance I will ask. The worst is I get punched in the nose or told no. It’s a case of you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.

I do have great concerns over the politics of what the next President will do to our country, more specifically to gay people, porn as well as the economy in general. It all sounds scary but right now it’s just words. While I don’t doubt that some of the things that are being said now will come to pass, my hope is that it will not actually be nearly as bad as it actually sounds. Only time will tell.

Rudy is resting in my lap and using my left arm to rest on. He is pounding his tale against my desk and keeps readjusting himself. I hate to disturb him but think that it’s probably time to grab all of my things and head up. Plus, I am interested in what progress the snow has made since the sun went down and the temperatures have continued to fall. It’s still got a few more hours before the snow stops. Seeing that white powder has made me so happy despite the fact that I am not super eager to travel in it. I won’t let it stop me, if I need to get out then out, I shall go.

Hope your enjoying the weekend and it’s relaxing as well as fun. One more day left and then none of us will want to go back to five days of working. However, the bright side is that after 3 full weeks Christmas will be here and some of us get a brief break, while others like myself will get a bit longer of a break. I love time off and getting to be lazy. However, my life runs best when I am on a daily routine. I’m sure I could develop my own daily routine if I didn’t have a job and the flow of money was infinite. No charge for dreaming.

Take care, stay warm & well.

Addiction

It’s been said that everyone has their vice(s).  It’s no secret that one of mine is porn.  Ever since I was a teenager and saw my first porn movie (which happened to be straight porn) I was mesmerized  I had the normal physical reaction of a typical teenage boy and had some fun.  I was exposed to something that I shouldn’t have been at such a young age.  My mom was at fault for this because I was with her and we were at one of her friends houses, there was a party in the basement..  I am fairly certain they had drugs and that’s why I wasn’t permitted in the basement.  I was upstairs with some of the adults who were watching porn. 

I’m not exactly sure if this next part happened before or after the porn incident.  My mom used to subscribe to Playgirl and she didn’t hide it.  I managed to sneak out a few pages with naked guys that I used to get off to.  It was my secret and I remember that it felt really good.  The only problem is that I lived at home with my mom’s mother.  I don’t remember how exactly it came about but my grandmother found that material and she chewed my ass.  I got off light but she took the pages away.  She really lit into my mom and then my mom lit into me.  I was so sneaky I went into the trash and pulled those pages out and still have them to this day. 

I had what I would consider a normal sex life as I matured and am proud that I can still count on one hand the number of guys that I have been with.  I know that most people brag about high body counts and that seems to be a social norm.  Perhaps I might not be addicted to porn if I had a higher body count, but then again I don’t know that we will ever truly know that for certain. 

I said all of that to say that yesterday I was quite horny.  I got a brainy idea and subscribed to a video downloader, then went and joined an Only Fans and a Just For Fans page.  The guy’s page that I joined on Only Fans turned out to be a prick tease.  He advertised a specific collaboration project with him and a couple other guys  indicating that if you subscribed you would get to see that video.  However, that video isn’t on his page at all and I am pissed but then again I only spent $5.  He has no other content that I really want to see.  The Just For Fans page however is different and there is plenty of content there that I want.  I was more pissed when I found out that JFF implemented DRM (Digital Rights Management) and you can no longer scrape/download videos.  I thought I had “the mother load” but what I had turned out to be static. 

I am sure that you are familiar with the saying … Where there is a will there is away.  I am certain that there is a solution to this problem, it’s just a matter of finding it. However, it resonated with me how truly addicted that I am and that parting with money was top of mind but as I got into it I was willing to part with money and it was an after thought.  I get how when you have a habit you can just toss money out like it’s candy and find yourself deep in debt with nothing to show for it. 

I understand the platform is trying to protect their client aka the creator.  However, I feel that if I pay I should be able to download content and keep it for my own personal private use.  I know that other people download it and upload it in the wild so that anyone can download it without having to pay for it.  Which is a really good way to get malware and viruses on your machine.  I pay for the content that I have and believe in supporting the creators as well as studios.  I think that is only fair.  Kind of like walking into a store and getting a soda and a candy bar, it’s not free you have to pay for it. 

I remember when back in the day I threw money away like it was candy and bought porn in VHS format for $50 and $60 a pop.  I’ve got a hell of a collection but the VCR is out of date.  I moved to the DVD model and have quite the collection there.  I remember hearing a porn producer say once we came more into the digital age that streaming was the future.  There wouldn’t be whole movies released but rather individual scenes.  That is pretty well the case but you can still find movies in digital format.  Some of the big name gay studios will permit you to download photos and videos, while others will only permit you to stream content.  Sometimes you can pay less for a streaming only option. 

Why am I addicted?  Well it is my sex life as it is.  I really want the real thing but I am not a hit it and quit it type of guy.  Otherwise I would be on Grindr and other apps just looking for a hookup.  I’ve thought about doing that but I am way too scared not only that I would meet the wrong guy or that my five minutes of pleasure would have serious side effects that could be lifelong.  I would much rather meet a guy, make sure that we click and take things from there.  I am not in a hurry to jump into bed. 

One thing that I will say is that I have learned a lot from porn as to fetishes and other types of sex from mild to wild.  Somethings are gross and other things are a turn on.  However, if I had it to do all over again I would much rather be less dependent on porn and would like to have the real thing.  As the song goes there ain’t nothing like the real thing baby. 

I hope that you took something away from my blathering.  As usual I am glad that you stopped by.

The Big Electric O

Woke up a little early, Rudy tried to capitalize on that but I wouldn’t give in.  I laid in bed for a bit longer.  I could feel that it was chilly.  He was in the mood for food!  When I did get out of bed I felt the chill and the reminder that much colder days are on the way.  Got Rudy and his sister their food.  Then started getting ready for my usual Sunday morning errands.  Grabbed my late spouses leather jacket, I love wearing it.  It makes me feel close to him plus its really comfy.  I won’t let any cat near it. 

Breakfast was good, I ordered my scrambled eggs with cheese and they were on point.  The best part of the whole meal.  Next stop Grocery store.  All of the Bananas were green.  Yuk, I picked the best bunch and know that they will turn yellow as they sit on my kitchen table at home.  Made a couple impulse buys, forgot to get cheap bleach.  Perhaps I’ll remember next week.  I spent most of my time looking for Lotrimin AF.  I think the rash on the side of my neck might be fungal and if so this stuff should wipe it out.  I finally found it right at the pharmacy counter, the last place one would ever look when there are a couple isles dedicated to medical care items.  Last stop was the gas station.  I was only about 1/2 empty but like to keep the tank full, especially when I am going to the office.  You never know what can occur in traffic and I go by the motto better safe than sorry. 

Back home, unloaded it all.  I was getting hot and it was starting to warm up a bit outside.  Got the jacket off and put everything away.  No real idea of what I wanted for supper.  Lounged in my room with both cats and we all wound up back in my bed and took a nap. 

When I woke up it was time to pass out lunch for the cats.  I ate some junk food to get the sugar to get me some energy.  Then put out my medicine.  Boring I know.  Then I went downstairs and threw in another load of laundry and hopped on the computer.  Logged my expenses and paid a bill.  Got caught up on email and then began surfing for porn. 

The cats were starting to nag me to go back upstairs but I ignored them and they eventually settled down.  After a couple hours, Rudy came over and told me that it was time to get moving. 

Upstairs to start the cleaning process.  Had to clean the air filtration system out, then vacuumed the house and worked on getting the trash out.  We rested on the couch after all of that.  I surfed social media and then started to watch a little TV.  After a couple more hours it was time for supper. 

I opted to heat up the rest of the left over sub sandwich.  I ate it with a knife and fork.  It was pretty good but the bread was toasted and reheating that make it tough to cut through but I was able to munch on it with ease and it all tasted very good. 

Decided to come back down and surf for more porn because I just can’t ever get enough.  I’m getting my monies worth out of the 2 sites that I joined for a month.  The idea is to gather as much content as possible.  I know no matter what I download they got their money and I know they are hoping I will stick around for another month which will lead eventually to a long term subscription.  However, cancellations are already in place and when my time is up, then I am gone. 

Now to the good part.  All of this porn had me quite horned up about a week ago.  I watched several scenes and edged a bit.  I don’t know how guys ride the edge terribly long.  I can do it for a little bit but then I just have to reach climax.  Well I did climax and felt a jolt of electricity in my body, so much so that my neck snapped backwards.  Damn it was an intense climax and I wish that all of them could be as good as this one.  I figured the next day my neck was going to hurt like crazy.  Nope.  Just when I thought the coast was clear the pain started up a couple days later.  It isn’t anything major but it is bothering me a little bit.  I notice it most when I lay down or after a long day on the computer.  I’m sure it will clear on its own in a few more days.  Meanwhile, I keep trying to replicate the intense climax that I had but haven’t gotten anywhere close yet.  Who says you can’t have fun by yourself!  I sure do, but still wishing & hoping that I won’t be alone forever.  It is more fun with an actual person aka the real thing. 

Hope your Sunday went well.  I’ve got about an hour left and then I will need to start my shutdown.  Got to play with the cats, pass out catnip.  Then shave & shower.  More fun alone, watch some TV and then eventually it will be lights out.  Here’s hoping for a great nights sleep. 

Take care & thanks for stopping by.  Hope that you found my blathering entertaining. 

Leather Guys

I came across the photo on a group I am part of on social media.  The photo looks real but with the advent of AI it can be tough for me to discern real from artificial. 

There are some guys in leather that just push all of the right buttons for me.  These guys together, damn yeah they pushed all of my buttons and got all of my juices flowing.  I just love the look of leather.  I’ve never worn leather as my main outfit but have a couple of leather jackets when the weather turns cold.

I’ve wanted to share this photo for a bit and since I am currently looking to occupy sometime I figured what better time than now.  I hope that you enjoy the photo and that perhaps I made your day. 

Take care!

Catchup Time - Two & Half Days

Friday … This day for sure didn’t start the way I wanted it to, with the news about Riley Strain’s body being discovered. I was really absorbed and invested into this case as I know a lot of people were. I wanted to help in someway but thought that if I made the trip that they would be looking for 2 people instead of 1. I saw the press conference with his parents and the United Cajun Navy. I also saw the vigil they held at 7pm. Looks like Green was his favorite color as his family was wearing this at the press conference. That’s a nice tribute. They have a long road ahead of them. Parents aren’t supposed to bury their children.

The Chief of Police indicated early in the morning when the news was announced that they may have a preliminary result from the autopsy towards the end of the day on Friday, but that didn’t happen. I know that the Medical Examiner has to complete this before the body is released to the family. That could be a couple days but I do suspect given what has transpired there is some pressure to fast track this. Toxicology results could take up to two months before they are available. The parents deserve answers in order to have some sense of closure and allow their wounds to heal. While I and others expected the outcome would be what it was, I had hope against hope that it wouldn’t end the way it did. So many unanswered questions.

Speculation has already begun about potential lawsuits from this. I have doubts if Riley’s family will bring any litigation on this. I do understand that when you lose a loved one that it is natural to want to blame someone. I’d say they are well within their rights if they want to bring something but it means having to go back to TN and my best guess says that they will probably want to avoid that state now at all costs, given what has occurred. This is just my opinion and I’m not an attorney.

Since I’m giving an opinion, I would be remiss if I didn’t voice that I think the PIO (Public Information Officer) for Nashville Metro Police is a complete dick. To his credit though he gets right to the point and there is no beating around the bush. I just dislike how he cuts things off quickly and doesn’t seem to have a personality.

On the work front it was a semi quiet day. My boss signed me up to get a Windows 11 machine to test out. Were converting to that I believe late this year or early next year. They are using it with no overlay so it’s truly Windows 11, which is drastically different than Windows 10. Come October 14^, 2025 that’s the official end of life date for Windows 10. There are some options available to continue support and the experts right now say don’t worry or focus on that date. Personally, I am not right now. I am beyond pleased with Windows 10 and wish that it would stick around. When I got my personal laptop after Gator passed it had W11 on it and it was neat to look at and play with but to use, I found it cumbersome. There are also functions/features that I am used to in W10 that simply aren’t in W11. I’ve played with it again on Friday and there is a learning curve on my part for sure. Were also apparently moving to Office 365 and I am not a fan of that version of Outlook, that is way different. There look to be some neat features but some of the toolbars that I am used to aren’t there. There may or may not be a way to get those back, I didn’t play with it much. I am one of many beta testers and will play with it as I am able to since I know it’s going to be the norm. There is going to be a lot of work to do making folks feel comfortable with it. Personally, once I am forced to convert my personal machines at home I plan to look into and purchase an overlay or program that makes it feel and behave much more like W10. I’ve seen some demonstrated on YouTube. At least this is my plan at the moment, that could change. Ah, technology. It just doesn’t stand still and sometimes the more it seems to improve the more difficult certain tasks become. As long as I can do or figure out how to do what I need to in order to keep things humming along professionally and personally I will adapt like the rest of the world.

Speaking of technology, I really would like a new phone. However, I don’t want to give up my home button and am not a huge fan of facial recognition. The few people I’ve spoken with tell me that I will adapt as many of other people have. I’m kind of hanging on to see if Apple will release another SE iPhone that maintains the home button. I’m not a fan of paying $1k for a phone but that seems to be the new trend. I might make an impulse purchase and just rip off the band-aid but I am trying to maintain my patience. What I have is the perfect size and functionality for me. Although at times a slightly larger screen could be advantageous.

Saturday … I got to bed early but didn’t sleep like I did on Thursday night. I thought it might have been the fact that I didn’t have any soda on Thursday but as I went to take my evening pills, I see that for some reason I skipped Thursday. My insomnia kicked in at 3am and I wanted to be up at 6:30a. To occupy my mind, I watched the latest episode of Chicago PD, which was a huge mistake at 3am. The current case they are working involves a gay young guy who was found damn near close to death, he had his eyes stapled open. Turns out the killer likes to do his deed in pairs so he wants them to watch each other die. He stabs them multiple times but it’s done in a manner that they each bleed out slowly and suffer. The young man they saved, managed to make contact with the killer who was posing as his dead boyfriend, the young man knew his boyfriend was dead but the killer got in his head and convinced him that he made it out alive. The young man went back to meet up and it was the killer, now he’s dead along with another young man. Just not the entire story/plot that I needed to see that time of early morning. Bad choice on my part. Although admittedly if I watched it at a more normal time the story/plot is still a bit disturbing.

Rudy kept me on pace and made biscuits at 6:30a. I got up and passed out breakfast for them. Got a shower for me and headed out to breakfast. Had my Blueberry pancakes. I had to rush to get to the restaurant and then when I got there, they were packed and moving slow. I got my food in a reasonable amount of time but wolfed it down because I was convinced that I would never, ever make it to the haircut appointment I had set. Turns out I had 5 minutes to spare which cut it close but I still showed up early.

I managed to muster up the courage to ask about the young man who used to be the receptionist and found out that he got fired. That sucks because he was cute and I was going to ask him out. Looks like I don’t have to worry about that now. He’s been gone for a couple months. Here is hoping that they find another male receptionist that is just as cute as he was.

After my haircut I went to visit my friends but one of them had already left for vacation. I got to talk with the other one for a few hours it was nice to catchup. I’ll go back to see my other friend when I know that he’s back from vacation. I’ll also be due for an oil change soon, trying to put it off until May if I can but I am mindful of the oil life indicator and mileage, I’ve never run it to 0% and always changed it either at or way before the 10% mark. My usual range is 20 to 25%. I am at 49% now. My oil was changed last year late fall. That proves I really don’t do much driving. Although the automobile really had some pep today and I pushed it. I will pay for that tomorrow when it’s time to gas up, ouch.

Came home, watched some TV, took a nap. Woke up and watched a little bit more TV. Rudy was tap-dancing for his supper but it was way early. I went out for Mexican food, which was good. The salsa was the only thing I didn’t like. Drove through the manual car wash to see if they had an option for taking credit/debit cards and it is still quarters only. At least now I know. I think that is the way to get my car the cleanest but I’ve not done a manual wash on an automobile in easily 10 years. This vehicle has never been manually washed by me.

I’m working on laundry, bills and had a couple things to do for work. It’s way past Mora’s time for treats and very close to the more normal time I pass them out. Rudy has already started campaigning and letting me know it’s about that time. I really don’t want to go up but I will. Not to say that I won’t come back down because I probably will.

Looks like Nashville Police have indicated to the media that the preliminary results of the autopsy on Riley Strain have been completed and it appears that this was an accident and there is no foul play. The toxicology results will also speak volumes to this finding and that’s something that a lot of people are waiting to hear. I do hope that they make the results public.

I watched the latest Disruptive Films scene with Scott Finn and Greyson Lange. Scott is one of my all-time favs. In real life he announced last year that he was getting married and said that she knew of his porn career. My fear is that he will retire but thus far not the case or so it seems. Greyson Lange started at Helix and really didn’t do much for me when he started. Today is a different story he’s pretty hot and I’m glad that he’s still around.

Sunday … Woke up early as planned but managed to sleep in a half hour. Rudy made sure that I didn’t oversleep as I had multiple wake up calls that started at 5a. That’s both good and bad. He’s good about taking no for an answer for a couple times but he has his limit.

Once I got up, I was quick to feed Rudy and his sister. Then I threw on my clothes and headed downstairs, knocked out my work task. Then headed up, took my morning meds and grabbed a coat. Headed out for breakfast. I got a double burger with an egg on it and fries. The burger size must have increased because I couldn’t fit it all in my mouth. It was slightly greasy which I dislike but it was an okay meal. Headed to the grocery store from there. Saw the sign on the front door that they will be closed next Sunday to observe Easter. From there it was to the gas station where I paid the price for some fast driving. My tank wasn’t empty but this fill up was anything but cheap, especially since the price of gas just jumped in the last two weeks. From there back to home, put the groceries away and then to watch TV and be free for a while. Got in about an hour nap and some quality time with the cats.

One of the things I got from the grocery store was Spiced Coca-Cola Zero. It’s got Raspberry in it and I’ve heard good things about the drink from someone who doesn’t drink diet drinks. I am anxious to try it. Right now, I’ve got all 12 cans chilling in the fridge. Probably won’t pop one open until tomorrow.

I knocked out the laundry yesterday, so I am biding my time until I get to leave for Red Lobster. I still have to tend to the trash and vacuum but those are tasks that I can do after I come back. Granted I might not want to but we shall see.

Since I fired my exterminator, I signed up for a service called Do My Own Pest Box. You give them the measurements of your home and then choose a program that fits your needs. My exterminator would come every other month, so I got a similar program setup with them. They send you the right amount of chemicals for your home, you mix them in a sprayer with some water and viola, start spraying the perimeter of your home. It is way cheaper than hiring an exterminator mostly because you’re doing the labor of mixing and spraying. My hope is that I get the same results from this as I had with the exterminator. Most of the professional stuff that you spray outdoors is good for one to two months. The occasional little creepy crawly bugs have all gone by the wayside since my exterminator started and that’s what I want to maintain. They solved my rodent problem. If they come back, I know how to setup bait stations outdoors. I still have traps set inside the house that the exterminator put in place but failed to retrieve.

Back from Red Lobster and wouldn’t you know that it was just my luck the one dish that I crave periodically and what is my go-to of Crab Linguini Alfredo has been removed from the menu and not available for sale. That was my sole reason for the trip. Add to that poor service and this made for a less than perfect dining experience. Thankfully months ago, I came across the Flounder Dinner and ordered that. I could have tried harder to finish the whole thing. I was satisfied and just wanted to get back home so I got a box for what was left, paid the bill and headed home.

It's a nice day so I cracked the windows in the vehicle and vented the sun roof. It felt good with the breeze blowing. However, it’s allergy season and I was quickly miserable, having to blow my nose and sneezing my head off. Finally, after having enough of that I rolled up the windows and closed up the sun roof. Magically my problem went away. I was slightly uncomfortable but managed to make do.

Now were home until Tuesday, when it’s time to make the trek back to the office. I’m playing on the computer a bit and then will head up to watch TV for the rest of the evening. Despite being on-call the weekend has been enjoyable. I will savor in the fact my turn of on-call will be done come tomorrow morning and that will remove some pressure and for sure allow for more freedom, which I always enjoy.

Here’s hoping that it’s a great week ahead!  Thanks for stopping by, take care. 

Sick but better, so I think

 

  Morning everyone! Yesterday on the way into the office I kept my usual routine and drank a Mountain Dew. It’s something I do year-round. Nothing like a cold soda on the way to work. I enjoy it but it’s really the best in the winter when it’s freezing outside, I’m inside a nice warm vehicle. The cool liquid in my mouth and then flowing down my throat, it just feels good. I’m weird I know it but hey it’s what I like. Normally I drink diet or sugar free but having just bought sugar Code Red Mountain Dew I had that instead. It was nice. I was about at work and the can was still full, I had to chug it and made decent progress. Got in the garage and then swallowed the last bit. Yeah, it sounds filthy dirty and sexual but it’s what I did, I took it all. Got out and headed into the office.

I’ve got this nervous habit that I like to shake my leg. At this point I had been sitting at my desk for an hour. I began to shake and thought nothing of it. After about a ½ hour my stomach got queasy. I figured it was from shaking my leg, like I was getting sea sick or something. It got bad and I thought for sure I was going to hurl but that never happened. I kept working away but at a very slow pace.

Finally, I had to get up and walk around. That seemed to help me feel a little bit better and I wasn’t shaking my leg. I was on my feet and away from my desk for about an hour. Stopped to chat with a friend. Then my phone started going crazy (as per usual – it knows when I take a break). I had to head back. Got to my desk and that sick feeling washed over me again. I felt it the entire time I was putting yesterdays post together.

Then it was lunch time, maybe some food would make me feel a bit better. I had a Diet Soda for lunch – Strawberry Dr. Pepper. That made it worse, I think. I ate slowly consuming a hard-boiled egg and ½ of the sandwich I brought. The sandwich was fantastic – Roast Beef, Lettuce, Pizza Cheese on some multi grain bread with some special seasoning I had no idea what it was. I was a bit better but didn’t want to push my luck. Well, I should have because, just before I was leaving the office my sugar dropped. I hadn’t eaten enough. I downed some potato chips (salt & vinegar) they were really good and it helped. I drank all of the water I had and used the rest room. Packed up and left. Just as I got on the elevator, I felt like I was about to pass out. I didn’t. I slowly walked to my car and the humidity smacked me in the face, as expected it was way worse than the morning. That helped to shake the sick feeling.

I got in the car, set the GPS’s and navigated home. I felt so sick but what I failed to mention is I took an anti-acid pill just before I left. That was starting to take effect and I felt better. I kept the AC on full blast and it was a bit much so I turned the fan down. Then I had some moron riding my ass (not in a good way) he gave me the impression he wasn’t above playing bumper cars. I can’t go faster than the car in front of me, any moron knows that. I had limits and I was respecting them for my safety. Finally, traffic in front of me opened up and I was well over the posted limit doing 75 in a 55. The fool passed me on the right, just missing a car as he changed lanes. That was almost a deadly move for all of us. Then he jumped on another car’s ass, they slowed down a bit, knowing full well what they were doing. He just got closer to the point where if the car in front would have braked checked him, he would have wrecked for sure. Dangerous. I had a chance and I took it, passing him up. I got up to 85 to put some distance between us and I finally got away from him.

Driving to and from the office is always an adventure and it really depends on the pulse of traffic how eventful it’s going to be as well as the mood of the other drivers. I was glad to be home, safe from crazy fools on the road.

Mora & Rudy were waiting for me and I had to get some food for Rudy he was hungry. Got him calmed down and then Mora and I went to the bedroom where I got more comfortable. Then returned to the kitchen to put away the left overs from lunch. I sat on the couch, wanting to go back to writing but still not feeling the best. I watched some TV. The more I watched the more an exhausted feeling came over me. I couldn’t stop yawning. I was watching some Family Feud Clip and boom I was out like a light. Rudy was on my lap and Mora was next to him. They were both passed out long before me. I woke up to Rudy licking my hand. Damn I was tired but that felt kind of good. I saw the time and opted to try to eat.

I skipped the left-over pizza and went for some frozen pasta a Chicken Bacon Ranch bowl. I felt way better but was cautious. The first time I had this I really liked it. Every time since it’s tasted like crap. It had been at least 6 months since I had it last and gave it another try. I bought it fresh when I was at the store on Sunday. Nope still tasted horrible. I ate ½ and pitched the other ½. Then I opted to go back to writing. I camped out at the table so the cats wouldn’t be climbing all over me. Rudy was behind me looking out the door and Mora curled up next to my chair. They just love being around me and I really like that. They love me and it shows. I think it’s just because I’m the guy who passes out the food.

Anyway, a couple hours went by and I opted to move back to the couch. Both cats followed me. Mora wanted attention and I gave her some. Then she went to her cat tree, Rudy was in the bed next to me. Back to writing. Before I knew it the time to stop and get ready for bed had passed. Mora knew this and she started getting in my face. I said a few more minutes, please. I wrapped up my story to a stopping point. Then concentrated on my normal before bed tasks. Without fail when I got to brushing my teeth, they both started begging for cat nip. What a sucker I am. I gave in because they had accommodated me and been through being alone all day and were good – so I think.

I started to watch a little TV and it wasn’t long before I was exhausted. My brain turned off. I still had the desire to write but I focused on the TV and then got up and climbed in bed. My room was cat free until I did that and then like magic, they both appeared and joined me. I said goodnight to them as I turned the TV off. That’s the last thing I remember until I woke up at 2a from a bad dream. Used the bathroom and then back to bed. Rudy started in early and I had a ½ hour to go. I rolled over and he stayed on top of me. He fell asleep on me and I passed right back out too. I woke up to the alarm clock and I was really out of it but I felt oddly refreshed. That was the best sleep I had in a while. Horrible dreams but a great night’s rest.

Got started with the morning, started work. I can’t get enough water this morning. Very thirsty. My sugar is probably out of whack. If it continues to lunch, I will do a spot check. I’m also tired. I am done with my morning tasks. Done with my normal web surfing. Tested out a couple pens. Ready to go back to the paper.

This isn’t sponsored but if you’re really looking for a smooth writing experience and you’d like to try or like fountain pens. I highly recommend the Zebra Disposable Fountain Pens. A photo is below and you can pick them up on Amazon. I bought them as a test and 1 out of my pack was defective (the green one) but all of the others appear to be working. It’s the pen that I write with the most when I am crafting a story. They are super comfortable, the pen glides across the paper effortless, no skipping and I feel like I am writing with velvet. No writing instrument I’ve used to date compares to this.  It’s truly a unique experience that is most enjoyable for me.

I’m kind of proud of myself that I was able to get to and stick with a stopping point last night. My brain disengaged and I had plans to watch porn but honestly, I was too tired so nothing happened. Sleep was the most important thing. That’s how I know I am getting older when sleep sounds more appealing than sex. I am itching to get back to writing. Last night was unique I took extra time to set up my story, drawing out the plot longer and longer. I am to the point where the story is getting sexual and that is the part that I love to write the most. I also managed to think of a couple of additional guys to write about so my list of subjects increased and it will be a little longer until I run out of guys. Here’s hoping that I can continue to control my brain, switching it off to allow for sleep. Evening is the best writing time, I put my phone in do not disturb, avoid all contact with it but still keep it close in case someone should call. It’s great to just escape from reality and get into my own world.

I’ve got a meeting in about an hour. Then an organization I am a member of is having a meeting this afternoon and I’m really interested in what that is about so I plan to join. Unless something else comes up my day is wide open. It truly is the calm before the storm. Friday is going to be absolute bedlam; we have a mass exit and I am going to be running with my hair on fire.

Booked a haircut for Saturday and pondering my options for dining out. I am also considering jumping back on a dating app again. That thought has been rolling around in my brain for a couple weeks now and I like everything else, I just keep putting it off. I think maybe since I am a bit more upbeat my profile will reflect that and maybe I will be more appealing. I am not jumping on this today but maybe by the weekend.

Stay cool, hydrated and be well. I’ll talk with you all again soon.

Man Candy Photos in this post from Falcon Studios – Model :Dean Young – Scene : Dean Young rides Mr. Deep Voice.  Movie: Endless Summer

Patience Pays Off

Morning … Amazon delivered my package at 3:30p yesterday afternoon.  That little voice that told me to wait, clearly knew it would pay off.  Turns out they shipped me 2 sets and both were keyed alike.  That means I had 4 keys.  I got them installed but it took a little bit.  I remember the last time I went through this it was frustrating but with a little bit of try and re-try I got it done. 

It was cold out and that didn’t help things.  Then again the last time I did this it was cold outside.  Rudy became curious and tried to help me but he was more curious about what was on the other side of each of the doors.  While I was thinking about the cold I had a brilliant idea.  It’s a great time for chili. 

Once I got everything completed and got fully dressed I ventured out to the Home Improvement Store.  I figured there wouldn’t be anyone by the key machine but I was wrong.  The guy took care of me and the robot machine did all of the work.  It’s so simple that customers who can read and speak English could actually do it themselves.  The machine not only makes keys but clones certain key fobs and access cards.  That’s kind of scary but then again it’s the Digital Age. 

While I was waiting on the keys I saw this tall drink of water who was cute walking with a customer who was ah, okay looking.  I moved out of the way for them and watched them as they walked down the isle.  Man the tall drink of water could be a lot of fun.  I thought about asking him out.  He has enough jewelry and piercings that he appeared to be gay to me, but that alone isn’t a guarantee and I was stereotyping.  Safe bet was to say nothing and that is what I did. 

Then on to self-checkout the only place I like to use this is at Sam’s.  I scanned the keys, was a little taken back by the total but paid and left.  Then on to Wendy’s where a good looking curly haired guy handed me my order with a smile.  I could have eaten him instead of the food I ordered.  Damn. 

Finally back home, swapped out the keys in the lock boxes.  Then on to my key rings and I have all of the spare keys on one ring.  I am putting it in my safe with a label.  I am thinking of just asking my friend for the spare key he has back.  He has an alarm code and I’ve got a lockbox on the outside of the house.  If he needed access I could provide it in a pinch.  He used it when I started my job and had to travel for training.  Unless I get a new job and travel or decide to take a vacation and not bored the cats, he really wouldn’t need access. 

I put up the lockbox mainly for first responders in case I fell or was otherwise incapacitated I could easily tell them the code and they could gain entry.  It was forward thinking considering the things my late spouse went through.  If I wasn’t home he would have been in trouble.  I mounted one in the garage because I thought what if I was naked or wearing nothing but underwear and locked myself out while taking out the trash.  I wouldn’t want to have to access the box on the outside of the house and risk my neighbors seeing me.  It’s one thing to walk around naked in my home and someone see me through a window.  It’s another thing to be outside and be a streaker.   

I know that most every lock that exists can be defeated.  There are a couple locks that are seriously difficult or possibly impossible but those probably cost high dollars and well I’m not exactly protecting a million dollars and my home isn’t Fort Knox.  However, between the cameras, alarm system and new locks I am reasonably comfortable with my home security.  Adding more cameras will further aid to that comfort feeling. 

The only thing that I am not happy about is that the locks I ordered and installed do not have a brass finish to match the rest of the door knobs throughout the house.  They are stainless steel and grey/silver.  Color aside they do the job and that’s really all I care about at the end of the day. 

I used my Black Wolf Sonic Scrubber last night.  I thought it would be great for shampooing and honestly no it did nothing for me.  My hands work the best on my scalp and I know my hands give good head.  However, on the face & body the Sonic Scrubber felt good and seemed to do a decent job.  I expected something a little more aggressive but it was really made for the back and it did a wonderful job there.  Now I just hope the battery lasts a long time between charges, only time will tell.  I don’t shower every day like I used to when I went to the office every day of the week.  My rule is every other day or if I am going out that day.  I do get lazy sometimes when I am home and can go 3 days but that is my limit unless I am sick and then it depends on how I feel. 

I was truly wiped out last night.  Working on the doors and being on my feet for a couple hours just drained the life out of me.  My back hurt, my feet hurt and I was just void of energy.  After supper I just loafed on the couch and scrolled through social media.  The cats came up and wanted attention, which I provided.  Then they settled into a slumber and I knew the day was done. 

I took a Benadryl and sleeping pill just before hopping into the shower.  By the time I was done with that I really didn’t want to brush my teeth but I did.  Sat for a little bit with Rudy curled up in my lap and watched TV.  Then after about 45 minutes of that I had to go to bed.  I was wide awake from moving but I watched more TV and then Rudy came back to join me and before I knew it I was out.  I woke up at 1a to find that the cats were both in bed with me, snoring away and hogging the covers.  I woke up at 6a and almost got up until my brain kicked in and said you have 1 more hour.  I remember looking at the clock at 6:30a and then passing back out.  Today was one day where it paid to have a physical alarm clock.  If it wouldn’t have gone off who knows when I would have gotten out of bed.  Rudy was sleeping on the job and hey it’s all good.  It’s Monday no one really is really that excited around here about Monday.  However, once I started moving Rudy had to have his breakfast.  Morea was smart and waited on the bed until she heard the can crack and then she came in. 

I was running a little bit late to get in front of the computer but no one notices that.  Tomorrow will for sure be difficult because I need and want to go in.  That means a 6a wake up and Rudy will be oh so happy about that.  Him and his sister won’t be excited about me leaving but they will be really happy to see me when I get home and hey I will be happy to see them as well. 

The lawn people showed up a day early.  I got a couple alerts from the cameras someone was here and then I heard their trimmer and just paused the alerts.  The only other person I am expecting today is an Amazon driver.  Dropping off my monthly Subscribe & Save items, which is all medicine.  How exciting. 

Learned last night that May is Masturbation Month, so there will be plenty of Twitter content to look forward to.  Plus who knows how many times I will celebrate.  It still feels a bit like Winter outside but since were in May temperatures should normalize a bit more here in a couple weeks and it won’t be long the AC will be on.  Right now the heat is still on and it does feel good in here.  The only thing that could possibly make it better is to have a man and my Gator back. 

Speaking of men, the dating app keeps showing me men who either don’t list their sexuality or list their sexuality as straight.  Then I also seem to get flooded with Women.  I’m close to giving up on it but then again I think you get what you pay for and well I am not paying for this.  I had intentions of subscribing but why buy the cow if you can get the milk for free.  It might be sour or spoiled but it’s still free.  Dating apps in general suck and I am anxious to have a reason to stop using them forever.  Grinder is fun to look at but that is for sure a hook up app and I am not looking for a hookup.  Here’s hoping that my Prince Charming will soon surface to bring me happiness. 

Social media showed me an apartment at random last night that is about 40 miles from my present home and was just built.  Rent is $700 per month.  It’s small but looks nice.  I think the offer was one of those where it was designed to get you in the door and then after the first few months or possibly year they would lower the boom and rent would go up.  However it included water, sewer and trash.  It was reasonable and far less than what I am paying for my home plus no taxes or homeowners insurance.  If I was to move I would get renters insurance for sure.  However it would mean learning a whole new area plus I would double my commute to the office one way.  That would for sure suck more than it does now.  Periodically, I do the Zillow thing where I look around.  A lot of people do that.  A YouTuber turned me on to that idea but he looks at million dollar homes in California and other places.  They all look wonderful but damn there is no way I could afford that on the income I have now.  I still have a desire to move but the longer I stay here the more I think I am pretty well staying put. 

That’s enough babble for a Monday.  I need to take a break.  I’ve got one meeting late this afternoon and honestly I could skip it if I want.  I am also no longer on-call so that feels good.  However, just a few short weeks away and it will be my turn again.  I am waiting on some information and then I will have a little bit of work to take care of.  Busy season is also just mere weeks away and then I will be swimming in chaos and stress.  So, for sure I am enjoying the slow roll now.  I will wish for it when the boom gets lowered and I am busy. 

Take care and have a great week ahead.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Another crazy day

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