20 August 2017

Last week sucked

I hope you enjoyed the Waze post.  Technology is awesome, but only when it works and provides you entertainment or an advantage.  Otherwise, it sucks. 

This past week was very trying, particularly Friday.  I had several new hires and departures just crop out of the wood work.  How does a person start on Monday but you don’t get around to telling anyone they work here until Friday?  I just don’t get how they would get email much less get around since they have no access card. 

There has been an effort to take some of my duties with new hires and departures away.  They have successfully farmed out two tasks.  They are working on a third.  I just feel as if they are going to pull the entire task away from me but doing it slowly over time.  I have expressed my displeasure but there really isn’t more I can do, unless I want to find a new job.  Which I really don’t I have the security and stability that I have been searching for, why would I want to give that up for a maybe? 

I am also training two people on different parts of this process and one is stone dumb, the other asks so many questions you can hardly keep up.  I really hope and pray that they both learn and pick up what I am putting down. 

On the home front, Big Boy has finally found his appetite and is eating like a horse.  I see he is starting to pack back on some pounds, at least it appears that way to me.  I love him but I don’t want him to get fat again.  He is enjoying his freedom of being thin with jumping up on the couch and the ability to be mobile around the house, he even stands up now to go to the bathroom, like a normal cat  I am so proud of him!  We took a nap together I put him in bed with me and laid down next to him.  It was a good time for both of us. 

Saturday I was in an awful mood.  I didn’t want to do a damn thing.  I got out to do what I had to but the bulk of the day was spent napping and watching TV.  I was just exhausted from all that I have done.  Friday was a very late night and I got home just in time to have to go back to work but from home.  By the time I ate supper it was 8p.  I treated myself to some Wendy’s and it was good.  Got the frosty for desert and was so glad I made that move. 

Not much else happening right now.  I am preparing for Monday.  The eclipse is going to be very prevalent in my neck of the woods.  They are telling people not to go to work and plan on staying home and indoors.  Fuck that I am going to work, it’s just another day.  There are supposed to be millions of people trying to watch the damn thing.  Great, have fun but when it’s time for me to travel get out of the fucking way.  Allegedly I am supposed to not be able to get home.  Right nothing a little rain can’t fix!  They are acting like it’s going to be the end of the world or a massive snow storm.  It’s just another day, it’s special because the sun gets blotted out.  I saw a great post on social media, hey God give us a sign if we should impeach our president.  I don’t know how about blotting out the sun if it’s a good idea!  Way too funny. 

Here’s to a great week ahead and hoping that I survive the eclipse. 


Greetings and thanks for stopping by.  This week I decided to use Waze, the app on my iPhone.  Wow it is so much better than Sirius Real Time Traffic that is built into my car.  If you so choose you can register and report things like police ahead, accidents, hazards, etc.  You can add Facebook and other social media so that you and your friends can see what time you will arrive.  You have an option to send your location to people.  It’s just a really slick and nice app.  It does use cellular data but much to my surprise not a lot.  There is an option to show the speedometer and have it alert you with a chirp when your at or over the limit.  It chirps a lot for me, I have it set to 5 miles over.  I am all about moving when I am on the road, that’s no surprise if you know me. 

I bought a vent magnet phone holder and use it to watch the screen.  My phone came loose on the first day but not since then.  You can use the app vertical or horizontal and even choose your cars avatar.  The down side is if you confuse the app it barks at you telling you to turn left, turn left now. 

I ran a side by side comparison with Sirius and Waze when I was commuting home on Tuesday and it was pouring rain outside.  The entrance to the interstate/freeway that I use was blocked off.  Both re-routed me.  Sirius has a more accurate estimated time of arrival and their maps have much more intricate detail.  Waze isn’t bad for a free app and many people love it. 

Friday I decided to open the app but not tell it where I was going.  I wanted to see if it would give me the same warnings like hazard ahead.  Nope I had to enable a route for that to happen.  I did it with great timing because there were a couple of hazards ahead and I got my notification.  So I am using this going to and from work at least for the time being. 

The only downside is that since it’s using a lot of processing power, your battery is taxed heavily and it will drain it fast.  So either have a battery case or plug your phone in while your using the app.  I wish that I could project or switch the image on my phone to my car display, that would be cool and easier to look at.  Although I don’t pay much attention to the displays I do glance at them while driving.  I am more about the audio prompts and I can listen to my iTunes with no problem.  If your listening to an audio book it will pause the book to provide a prompt and if you don’t like that you can turn off the feature.  I haven’t tried running Pandora with Waze but that will be an interesting test.   

So I am a ‘wazer’ now.  Yahoo!

13 August 2017

Satisfying Sunday

I was a very busy boy today.  Waking up around 7:45a and trying to go back to sleep but decided to get up and get moving.  Fed the children, got dressed and headed to Cracker Barrel for a great breakfast.  I had Momma’s Blueberry Pancake Breakfast with an extra egg scrambled, Colby cheese in the eggs, Sausage, a side of Hash brown Casserole and washed it all down with two Diet Dr. Pepper’s.  Delicious!  Not cheap but good. 

Next stop was the grocery store where I breezed through the store at my usual fast pace.  I am not a shopping kind of guy per se I like to get what I need and get out.  I have better things to do with my time than camp out at a store.  The lady running the register always has computer questions for me, she thinks I am just the smartest thing ever.  She got to talking to me and forgot to ring up 1 of the 3 12 packs of soda I got, then on top of that I had a digital coupon I forgot about (thankfully it was applied automatically as soon as I entered my phone number) that saved me $15.  I was really surprised when I saw the total it was far less than I expected.  I wasn’t going to argue, I paid and we kept on chatting.  Her issue was with Cable Internet.  From as best as I can tell sounds like she needs to have a new drop run, hers has surfaced in her yard and probably has been slightly damaged by the lawn mower.  She had a technician out but he couldn’t find anything wrong.  Sometimes they don’t send the brightest people out or the person they send out isn’t that focused on customer service. 

I came home and unloaded the groceries.  Started the dishes, got laundry started and then worked on cleaning the car.  It’s all nice and shiny now inside and out.  I drove it through the car wash and just figured out that the drivers side window has a leak.  Lord have mercy me and this car are going to be the death of each other.  I just started to appreciate it’s beauty, stylishness and really fall in love.  Then a problem crops up.  It’s nothing major just aggravating. 

Next stop was the hair cut store.  They were allegedly slammed because back to school is Tuesday.  Yeah there was me and one other person in the store for customers.  They were turning walk-ins away and even people who checked in on the mobile app.  I just checked in and showed up, they know better than to fuck with me.  I had a great experience as usual.  They are like family to me and even though it’s a chain, the people there appear to be genuine and care about everyone, which is what keeps on bringing me back.

By now I am home for the day.  No naps were had, but I did some relaxing.  Spent time with the kids.  Big Boy kneaded my arm and hand, he is such a love bug.  I lit two candles knowing full well they would aggravate my allergies, but I enjoy the smell.  Got the bathtub cleaned, cleaned the house, cleaned myself and cleaned all of my clothes.  So were all set for another week of fun, yippie. 

Supper was Thanksgiving … Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, Gravy and Stuffing.  It was Marie Calendar’s and sold as a Meal for Two.  Yes, there was enough for two and I will be having the rest of it tomorrow night along with what is left from the 3 week old chocolate cake that I have eaten.  This was awesome for a TV Dinner.  I thought as I was eating if you threw in some green beans and corn that would be good.  Then make a couple rolls and presto the only thing missing would be the Pumpkin Pie. 

I have discovered some music that I never knew existed.  In Pandora I type in the station Ray Stevens.  He is a well known comedian who is also a singer and writes funny songs.  Well that brought up some other interesting Tunes and there is some standup comedy mixed in.  Things mostly have a Country Flair but it’s really good.

No posts on social media from my crush.  I had a great idea to send him a Starbucks Gift Card but when I looked at the grocery store they only had one denomination and that as $50.  I was thinking $10 or $20 at most.  I mean just in case it didn’t grab his attention or he just said thanks and moved on.  I wouldn’t want to feel like I was out a bunch of money.  So I guess I will admire from a far even though my emotions are telling me to go for it.  That could back fire so better safe than sorry, at least for the moment.

I have Amazoned again.  Big Boy needed some pee pads.  He is still using them even though he is capable of using the litter box, he likes the setup I have for him and well as long as he’s going I won’t complain.  I got some leather wipes for the car and my jacket which I will be breaking out sooner than I want.  Picked up a privacy roller stamp, looks like a good idea and will save my shredder.  Then I got a vent mount magnet to hold my cell phone, thinking of using the Waze Traffic App.  Finally some Mucinex for my allergies.  The money just flew out and I used my reward point from my credit card so that took off a whopping $10. 

Looking forward to hearing Mr. John Oliver tonight, spending some time with my kids, hopefully watching some quality porn and having a good nights sleep.  I’ll be on-call next week plus there is the fact I am training Heckle & Jeckle, let’s just hope I don’t lose any sanity this week. 

I downloaded a couple dating apps again.  1 didn’t work so it got deleted.  The other one I invested time in and knew that a subscription would be required.  I wasn’t prepared to shell out $50 for 1 month.  Fuck that.  It went by the way side as well.  Dating apps and I have a love/hate relationship.  A friend of mine remarked the other day that everyone is looking for someone, but there is absolutely no one to find.  I explained that the hookup or hit it and quit it was the by far most popular thing going on today.  While we all can’t be like Brian Kinney (from Queer As Folk) the thought it very tempting.  Seriously it doesn’t matter if your gay or straight, the number of people that I think want to settle down into a relationship is a very small number which is why I am still ‘on the market’.  Here’s hoping a buyer comes my way very soon!

That’s all I got folks.  Hope your Sunday was enjoyable and that you were able to spend it with those that you care and love.  My next dilemma is figuring out what book I want to listen to next on Audible.  If you have a suggestion, leave it in the comments. 

12 August 2017

Goodbye ?

It is scary to think about what is going on between the US and N. Korea.  It’s even scarier to think that this could be my last post because one decided to show the other and they both pushed “the button”.  I hope that it doesn’t come to that and that this will pass without any ramifications for us the innocent people.  The world has been a scary place for a long time but this just ups the ante.

Now on to my regular themed post.  I finished up Binge the book by Tyler Oakley.  It was really good and he kept me entertained the whole way.  I learned a few things along the way and apparently the boy has had his fair share of dick and wasn’t shy talking about it at all, which was kind of a surprise since you never know who is going to read what you publish.  Then again it’s an awesome feeling to be unapologetically you.

I was able to sleep in a little bit today and I also got in a nap which was nice.  I still don’t feel like I am recharged enough, good thing I will be headed to bed again soon. 

Today’s accomplishments were that I was able to compose and mail a few letters for personal issues, mailed a birthday card to a friend and went out to eat.  I had Peppered Turkey, it was sliced and then a custom made BBQ sauce was put on top.  Served with my choice of two sides and I chose Tatter Tots and Mac & Cheese.  Washed all that down with a Diet Dr. Pepper and it was one of the best meals I have consumed in a long time.  I wish I could eat that good every day of the week and at every meal.  My waiter was super nice and very attentive, it was an all around pleasurable experience.  I fueled up the car, picked up a few cans of cat food and made a run through Target.  I was a little disappointed here I was looking for a cheap on-sale torch floor light and they didn’t have anything that was cheap but they did have torch lights.  I found something more in my price range on Amazon, not a shock to me.  I spent plenty of time with the children and gave them all a fresh large dose of TLC.  That is everyone but Ruth, she was in a foul mood and didn’t want to be touched. 

Last night I watched a movie called Balls Out it was on Epix which is running a preview this weekend for Uverse Customers.  I love that network, they have some awesome movies but it’s $8 a month and I don’t know that I would or could ever get my monies worth.  I’ve got Netflix, Amazon, HBO & Showtime.  It’s not like I need to add anymore to my movie choice line up.  I also started watching George Lopez’s recent addition to HBO called The Wall.  It’s really good, I just wish I knew Spanish because then I am sure it would be extra funny. 

On the work front I found out that I have to train my co-worker who loves to chat and go on tangents on the card key system since he has officially been dubbed my back up.  I am also training the new guy on the Departure process and we will eventually move into card keys.  It’s not going to be a fun ride.  One of our larger offices is set to move in a very short time and no one has bothered to think about the card key system, I brought that up and oh my we are in a frenzy now.  Fuck I have no idea how to build out one of these systems.  This will likely be a real shit show, but it’s not my fault. 

Tomorrow’s agenda includes laundry, grocery shopping, eating breakfast out, probably a nap and spending time with the children.  I will hopefully be able to finish the day by taking in the latest episode of Last Week Tonight with John Oliver.  I always look forward to his review on the weeks events, he is super funny and has really managed to make me laugh a lot. 

Tuesday is Pay Day so I will be paying bills on Monday night, I can’t wait to see how much money I have left over.  This is the check that will have 14 hours of overtime on it and it should be really nice!  I’ve got car insurance coming up and my mortgage will true up so the payment will likely increase.  That along with a vet visit later this month for Big Boy to get his blood checked again.  I will make it but the bigger question is how much will I actually be able to hold on to and save.  I did pay off a credit card and that did wonders for my credit score. 

Speaking of credit cards, I heard back about my annual fee issue and they waived it on the one open account I have.  They wouldn’t re-open the other account, closed means closed forever.  Okay, that seems like a reasonable solution, especially since that card has a $0 balance.  I didn’t get an apology but I did manage to get out of paying an annual fee which was the whole objective.  I didn’t want to have to close my account and maybe I did that out of haste without protesting enough but I added it up and I have more than enough credit extended to me and thankfully I don’t owe much.  I am still able to pay cash for all of my weekend and daily spending, which is very refreshing. 

So there you have it, another exciting post from me.  Now I am headed up stairs to put out my medicine for the week ahead, put the comforter on the bed and then go to bed.  Tomorrow will be here very soon. 

I hope all is well in your world.  Have a great week ahead.  Take care!

10 August 2017


Earlier this week we lost a Country Legend.  I’m of course talking about Glen Campbell.  He was one of my late grandmother’s favorites.  There were a few songs of his that I like.  I watched some YouTube videos of his and also a news source video.  One of his last written songs talks about not missing you, it’s because his memory was going and he would have no recollection.  He wrote it mainly for his wife to express his love. 

Alzheimer’s has taken many of people, one of them being a relative of mine.  It’s sad because the body is fine but the mind turns to liquid shit with time.  We all struggle with memory issues from time to time but Alzheimer’s is obviously way more serious.  My bosses father has it and he is close to the end. 

Thinking about this combined with missing my late grandmother and more recently my late partner.  I am depressed.  All I want to do is cry but I can’t.  It’s just exposure to an old wound that is pretty deep.  More of my focus is on the fact that I am alone and don’t have anyone.  Finding someone is a struggle.  I want to be someone’s focus.

This too shall pass, but it really sucks.  I was telling the kids last night about how I am surprised that I made it through the circumstances that faced me and that I came out winning in the end.  No one thought things would go so well but I got victory more than once.  I am not saying it was luck, it was the result of not giving up and walking away.  I could have lost it all even by moving forward but I had to see it through.  I am just in awe of myself and just can’t believe that phase and fight is done.  I am certainly ready for happier times and I think I deserve and am entitled to them but the world probably disagrees with me. 

Work is kind of depressing because my friend got fired, other people have moved, I found out that one person was pretending to be my friend and that hurt, but I never confronted them.  It’s just easier to walk away.  It’s like I am all alone again.  There are people here that I can still talk with but I can’t open up much and be authentic which kind of sucks. 

I’ve been thinking about the Twinkie that I have a crush on.  I’ve got a new idea on how to get his attention but of course there is risk involved.  I am probably better from admiring from a far but I really don’t want to do that.  I want to be friends but at the end of the day I want him to be mine and I know that in all likelihood it won’t happen.  I am trying very hard not to let my emotions rule me and use a common sense approach but that’s not working out so well.

Right now I feel okay.  I am looking forward to going home being with the kids and chatting with a former co-worker to catch up.  If things don’t play out that way then I will adapt to whatever comes my way.  I have to get the trash out and prepare to come back for one more day.  Looking forward to the weekend.  I have plans to go back to a restaurant where I asked a waiter out, just want to see if maybe he came back.  He said yes to my request, took my number and never called.  I also have a letter to write to continue to do battle over ethics of my former attorney and my car debacle.  Even though I got what I wanted it’s way too convenient that they found the documents after the regulatory agency closed their file.  This smells too much like bullshit so I have to fight it.  I’ve been waiting and sitting still which is difficult but enough time has passed that it’s clear everyone wants to look the other way.  Well not me.  I am not one to be trifled with and so many people learn that lesson the hard way. I may not win but I will give you a good run for your money and I will try my best to win.

That’s all I got, it’s close to quitting time and this is the calmest it’s been in weeks.  I have work to do but it will be there tomorrow and I am going to enjoy the peace and quiet while I make an attempt to regain what sanity I have left.  Serenity now! 

07 August 2017

That time again

Yes, welcome once again to Monday.  Friday it was a million miles away but those miles travel quickly over the course of two days.  It’s been a busy day thus far but things are falling into place and I am actually able to accomplish something and feel as if I am making progress.  It’s a great feeling and I hope that it continues. 

So I learned along with the rest of the world that over the weekend, Aaron Carter came out as BI.  I can relate to the pressure and tension that having secret that your afraid to share with the world.  It is liberating when your able to tell the world who you are.  He’s an attractive guy and I liked him growing up, I’ve got some of his music and listen to it from time to time. His brother Nick was cute as well, even if he is straight. 

I made what I consider to be the mother of all discoveries when browsing a porn news website.  They had footage of what purported to be Charlie Puth’s penis in all of it’s glory.  Now you don’t see his face so who’s to say it’s really him.  Apparently it came out [no pun intended] back in January.  There is also an alleged video that purports one of the men is Charlie and he’s taking it up the rear.  I watched the clip as it is posted on-line.  I think maybe it’s him but it’s quite possible it could be a look alike.  I’d be thrilled if he came out, provided he was actually gay, which I don’t believe is the case.  Nothing changes the fact that he has a great voice and that he looks good.  I was just surprised that anything like that would ever mention his name.  He’s posted ass shots before an wow he’s got a nice one so part of me says why are you so shocked? Good question.

Speaking of cute young guys, I still have my mind focused on the hottie at work.  I just can’t seem to shake it.  He went on a trip to see some friends over the weekend and posted all about it on social media.  It was interesting to watch.  I really want to make another move but there is the thought of getting shot down or dismissed along with the fact that this could open the flood gates at work and I don’t know that I am ready for that. 

I did friend the lady that I used to work with.  She had sent me a request a couple years back and I declined but I explained why I was declining.  Last night I thought the hell with it.  I will just limit what she can see, not that I have anything to hide from her but she is friends with a lot of people that I still work with.  I don’t want them to know my business let alone my sexuality.  So it hit me this morning after she approved my request, I started looking for co-workers and blocking them.  I know there is no way I got everyone but I think I got the majority.  I mean if you figure it out great for you, I just don’t really want to come out at work.  I doubt anyone has the balls to approach me and directly ask me.  I mean why would you?  My sexuality gay, straight, bi or whatever doesn’t change the person that I am, it’s only one tiny part of who I am.  There is so much more to me and to others besides sexuality. 

Feels good to blog at lunch.  I switched up my lunch a little bit and also started buying Okio’s Greek Yogurt.  The Triple 0 is awesome and what I have the most of.  I had Vanilla Toasted Coconut in the regular version and it was awesome.  I am tired of eating the same damn thing so I am switching things up.  This applies to all meals but mostly breakfast and lunch.  I had Apple and Cranberry Oatmeal.  I am not a fan of the Cranberry but I figured it couldn’t hurt me.  Taste is okay, not the worst thing in the world and not the best thing either.  I miss those home cooked meals I used to get and not having to constantly deicide what I want to eat.  Decisions of any kind are annoying to me but it’s decisions about food that really eat at me [no pun intended]. 

My nap yesterday worked against me.  I got hot last night and woke up at 1a.  I was not happy.  I got rid of all of the children in my room which didn’t go over well but they were squirming and making noise, so out you go.  Then I tried to go back to sleep but it was useless.  I turned on the ceiling fan and got the AC fired up, I watched an old Lewis Black stand up act and eventually was able to fall asleep.  It wasn’t the good kind of sleep that I had yesterday morning but it was sleep.  I managed to wake up before the alarm clock sounded [as per usual] and got moving.  It was like nothing was wrong, I felt fine.  Well now that it’s after lunch I am ready for that nap again.  It will be hard to concentrate and stay focused but hopefully this passes soon.  I hate feeling sleepy unless it’s just before bed, then it’s fine.  Here’s hoping I sleep well tonight. 

Time to get back to the fun.  I am working on a dreaded monthly report and I hate every minute of it.  Might as well do as much as I can now.  My goal [self set] is to have it published by the 15th of the month, but it depends and relies on efforts from others to make that happen.  We shall see how it all goes. 

Happy Monday!  Here’s to a good week for all of us.  Take care. 

05 August 2017

The Internet has the Fix

Chances are if you have a problem, there is a solution available on-line.  Of course it depends upon the problem as to whether or not it is practical to seek advice from the internet.  One of my problems is with my glasses.  They just keep slipping no matter how many adjustments I make and even getting a new pair I thought would help but sadly it didn’t.  There were a few fixes and if your female you can get away with using somethings that guys just can’t.  The two solutions I found were #1 buy a product called Nerd Wax.  It was invented by a guy who’s glasses kept slipping.  Kind of an interesting story.  It’s an all natural solution but it requires applying a coating to your glasses each and every day, there is maintenance with removing the old wax.  It just seemed so not what I was looking for simple.  #2 was use shrink wrap.  Now this was simple and what I was looking for.  You can get this stuff at a hardware store.  Thankfully for me I have a toolbox full of it due to my late partner.  You cut it to length and then apply, hit it with a heat gun and presto it shrinks before your eyes.  You just need to cover the part of your glasses that fits behind your ears.  I tried it and it really helps, however it’s not fool proof and my glasses have slipped a little bit.  It has helped and now thanks to this solution I have two pairs of glasses that I can wear.  Kind of nice.  If neither of these sounds appealing to you, there are gadgets sold on Amazon that you can buy that fit on the arms of your glasses to prevent them from slipping, which is my next temptation.

I am absolutely exhausted and all I really want to do is sleep.  I slept in, had breakfast out and did a few chores.  Then I passed out again for a couple hours.  Working for a living is hard, it’s worse as you age and when your juggling multiple tasks that require complete concentration.  It’s the concentration part that is exhausting and what zaps my energy quickly.  So I have 2 days to rest up and then I am back at it again.  What fun.  More bullshit meetings, more problems and of course more work.  Retirement sounds really nice, but considering my age I’ve got many more years of work to endure.  I still like my job but I am growing fonder of a vacation and by that I mean a complete disconnect from work where I worry about me and my world and not what is going on in the office.  Going away to a tropical destination sounds nice, hell going to the mall instead of going to work sounds nice too.

Had dinner out tonight with my friend.  Pretty good meal and I ate way more than I planned on.  I ordered a salad to fill me up so that I wouldn’t order desert but they had an equivalent to peach cobbler and I couldn’t pass it up.  Food and Guys are my week nesses. 

I saw a posting today that said, I am done with dating sites.  I am going after Pizza Delivery Guys because they have a job, they have a car and they have pizza.  Right but usually their cars are crappy because most of them are fresh into the job market.  Some are hot and some are not.  The pizza part well that doesn’t sound half bad.  I bet their cars smell like a slice of heaven. 

I am still watching from social media my cute, hot, gay co-worker that I have a crush on out living his life and having fun.  The next big move will be to friend him on Facebook but I am not sure if I want to go down that path.  I want him to know who I am and I want to be friends with him, hell I have no qualm's about telling him that I have a crush on him.  I’d just like him in my life.  I guess I am way too desperate.  The best advice I have been given is to get out and mingle, I don’t mind doing that but I would rather not do it alone.  Going to gay bars doesn’t appeal to me but it might yield better results than I have encountered thus far. 

Tonight I went in and looked at Crate & Barrel.  My friend wanted new place mats.  I couldn’t believe all of the stuff they had and of course I could take the store home with me but where would I put all of those things.  It’s an expensive place to shop and now I see why a lot of people really like it.  We just looked and neither one of us bought a damn thing. 

Time to climb the stairs, deal with the kids, put out my medicine and watch TV until I pass out.  I have to make a trip to the cat food store tomorrow, since I didn’t get there today.  Plus I have to get human food so it will be a slightly expensive day, glad I am fortunate enough tot have the cash to pay for it.  Speaking of which I did rob my savings account and I paid off a credit card in full, which feels awesome.  I don’t like the lower balance in my savings account but a promotional 0% rate was about to expire and there was no need to put off the inevitable. 

Finally, I finished up Elizabeth Warren’s audio book it was really good.  I have moved on to Binge by Tyler Oakley.  It’s very interesting thus far.  I save it to listen to during lunch while I am at work.  It’s something to look forward to since most of the Vloggers on You Tube have dried up.  I would much rather watch a video, it’s more enjoyable. 

Take care and we’ll talk again soon. 

03 August 2017

No more Mr. Nice Guy

Good Day Ladies & Gentlemen … I hope all is well in your world, the temperatures are at an acceptable level and that the sun is shining brightly.  It’s been a long week and thankfully after today it will all come to a much needed close.  I am so ready for the weekend.  I need sleep and just like money & orgasms I can’t seem to get enough. 

The biggest even thus far of the week is when I some how stupidly decided to go against my own rule and help a motorist.  Looking back now things could have gone all kinds of wrong and hell it’s quite possible I could be dead.  However, nothing happened so quick sigh of relief.  I was motoring to work and I saw on the opposite side of the freeway a motorist who had crashed into the cable barrier.  I didn’t witness an accident I saw the result of what happened.  I sprung into action without a thought and flipped my car around by getting off at the next exit.  I came upon the scene and there was a disheveled woman who had to be in her 30’s looking much like a hooker.  I stopped next to her car and she was walking away from me, she turned around and saw me and we started a conversation.  She asked for a ride and I unwittingly agreed.  She was in my car before I knew what happened.  She tried to get me to take her some place far away but I told her I was on my way to work and that was no where in the direction she was headed.  I said I can take you to the nearest gas station and that’s it.  I told her I was running behind and I was by a couple minutes but if things went quickly I knew it wouldn’t cause a problem.  Were pulling away and I happened to look up and I saw the police had made it to the scene.  I told her and she said you need to keep on going.  Then she said she had warrants and she couldn’t be anywhere near that car.  I responded are you shitting me?  Nope she was straight up for real.  I told her the next stop for you is the gas station and then your out.  She called a friend to come pick her up and had to do some pleading.  When she exited the car she asked if I was going to call the cops.  I told her no I will not call the cops. 

I kept my word to her and didn’t call but I go back to the scene of the accident and talk with them.  Turns out they saw me leaving and they wanted to talk with me.  I explained what happened and rather than thanking me they admonished me for helping her leave the scene of an accident.  Huh?  I told them the only thing that brought me back was the fact she disclosed she had warrants and I didn’t want to be mixed up with that.  I was asked to never do this again and trust me I will not.  New policy no helping anyone unless I know them and even then I will be cautious.  The police said that I committed at least 1 if not 2 felonies.  Yeah okay go pour on the drama to try to scare me.  It worked slightly. 

I thought I was helping someone escape from being hit by a car, I mean walking on the freeway that is a dangerous feat.  You could end up part of the pavement in no time.  So I was in fear of her safety and was doing a favor.  I figured she would make arrangements to deal with what happened once she was safe.  Once she told me she was on the run from the law, that changed my opinion but by then it was too late. 

As if my story would change the police asked me 3 times to describe her and 3 times where I took her.  As if I was going to lie to them.  I understand that people lie to the police all the time.  People lie to me in my job all the time and I am circumspect at best most of the time but I don’t ask people the same question 3 times.  They told me I could go and once I got that, I stopped talking and started moving.  I didn’t want them to change their mind. 

As an after thought I told my story to a couple attorneys and they said that it would have been a bullshit arrest, they could have made my life uncomfortable but there is no way I would have ever been convicted.  Yeah if they chose to make my life uncomfortable I suspect that everything would have spiraled out of control.  Thankfully nothing came of it. 

I still wonder if they got her, I suspect they did but in all fairness I told them she had a ride on the way so they might want to speed up their action.  I wonder what she was wanted for.  I wonder if she was drunk or high and that is what caused this 1 vehicle accident.  I have a lot of questions but I know there is no point on lamenting on this as it will serve no purpose and drive me nuts. 

Speaking of nuts, I have not heard from the cute guy at work and I suspect he won’t bother to take me up on my offer to talk.  I really wish I was closer in proximity to him I think there is at least a good chance we could be friends.  I think of him all the time and of course am still following him on social media.  I love to see his posts, they help make up for the stress of life. 

The vet emailed with Momma’s blood results.  All is well but they did get a wonky reading on her potassium and her blood sugar.  They are offering to retest for free but I really don’t want to take her back, mostly because of fear that they will find something and that will either cost more money or cause me to make a choice.  She is happy and acting her normal goofy self, so why upset the apple cart? 

My friend called last night and wanted to carry on a conversation for hours, I was in no mood and cut things short.  Were getting together for dinner over the weekend.  Why call me now and talk for hours so that when we meet in person we won’t have anything to talk about.  It’s easier to cut to the chase and ask me if I want to get together and we can go from there.  He is a bit on the strange side but I like him and he is special to me.  It’s been a long standing friendship that built from us being co-workers, so it’s something I am quite proud of.

On to work I mean I need to get going so that I can start my day.  It’s crazy busy here.  Now it’s also time to start training the new guy and he is apparently allergic to overtime, because he doesn’t get paid for it.  Which is not my fault.  I really have my doubts about this guy and if he will cut the mustard.  He can’t write an email to save his own life.  He didn’t know what an RDP session was or how to establish one, yet he is supposed to have years of experience from Sprint.  Uh they must let them use coloring books and crayons all day because he clearly doesn’t know how to pour piss out of a boot with instructions on the heel.  I have to work with him, so there is no choice in the matter but I suspect he will either make it or break it soon enough.  I just don’t want to waist my time it’s far too valuable. 

Here’s to a great day ahead.  Talk with you peeps again soon.  Until then, be well.

30 July 2017

Relax, Unwind and get ready for another week

It has been a hell of a week.  Lots of departures to process on Friday.  Thursday we got short handed, as in I was the only one around so I thought.  Issues just cropped up left and right, all of them urgent and all of them requiring immediate attention.  I was on fucking overload and was quite vocal.  Thankfully one of my co-workers was around and helped out after I called him.  It still was quite a mess to deal with.  I had one lady with an infected computer who refused to talk with me on the phone and refused to give me access to her machine.  I fixed her clock, I sent up an urgent request and got her machine yanked from the network 1 2 3.  Then top it all off, she left for the day.  Oh I was pissed.  I had other people calling me asking questions about my action and trying to debate that you can only change your password 1 time per day.  Fucking bullshit.  You can change your password as a user at least twice per day, if you have admin access you can change it as often as you like.  I just hate stupid people!

I worked late on Friday and my eyes were hurting, my thumb was aching from moussing so much and I could have given up at anytime but I wanted to see the task through for personal satisfaction and the fact that come Monday there is other shit to take care of and people will be bothering the piss out of me.  My work gets back logged because I am the only one that can do certain portions and that is nice but at the same time it creates a tremendous amount of pressure.  As if you didn’t pick up on that already.  <wink>

Saturday was a little bit of a morning challenge but I got everything done.  Momma got her blood drawn, she was such a good girl.  I got to pick up my new eye glasses and they look sharp! I finally got to the post office, first time all week long.  I also ordered a foot long hot long with chili and cheese, ate the whole damn thing and it was awesome!  Got served but a straight but cute as fuck young waiter.  Plus there was another hottie working that I had my eye on.  Then I worked in a nap and woke up and went out for pizza.  I wanted the drive more than the pizza.  Pizza honestly wasn’t appealing to me but it was good and I have left overs for supper on Monday & Tuesday. 

I fired off a letter to the top brass at the credit card company that I closed my account at.  I sent proof that I was promises in writing that they would waive the next annual fee but they neglected to do that.  Not sure that it will do any good at all but it sure did go a long way to make me feel good.

Decided to apply for a Discover Card and they surprisingly turned me down.  Not because my credit is bad but because I filed bankruptcy and they were one of my creditors.  AMEX holds the biggest grudge for this.  Hey I got in with Chase by sending a letter asking for an appeal and I am trying the same thing with Discover.  Not sure if the outcome will be the same but nothing ventured, nothing gained.  My credit score is on the rise.  One bureau has it at 690 and the other I am in the 700’s.  Makes me feel good, it’s been a lot of hard work and I honestly never saw myself back here again. 

The other observation I have made is that I am able to pay for more things now with cash, instead of charging them and paying the bill off when it comes.  I would much rather to the cash thing to avoid surprises down the line.  It’s how my grandfather lived, he hated credit but if it was necessary he wasn’t above getting a loan.  Grandma on the other hand used credit like it was going out of style but that’s because she wanted to spoil her grandsons and she really didn’t have the money.  I understand more today that I did when I was growing up.  I had some really awesome grandparents, even though my grandfather and I didn’t see eye to eye, primarily because of my sexuality. 

I stumbled on a porn scene that included one of my favorite starts.  I mean I just see him in action and my whole body melts.  I want him so bad.  I found out that he had a rent men profile and I looked him up.  Then I pressed the button that said call me and got his cell phone number.  A little detective work and I found his real name.  Then I went on a social media hunt for him.  What I really want is into his Twitter but like me he’s restricted his account.  I asked for access but not sure if he will grant it, I get it that it’s his personal life.  He lives in CA and if I wanted to engage him he escorts for $250 per hour.  Fuck that is a lot of money for companionship or sex.  You’d think he was an attorney or a CPA at those hourly rates.  Then again most escorts charge a large amount per hour.  I understand there are high risks in that profession but damn.  I’m glad he is in CA which is far away from me, otherwise there would be some temptation on my part.  Plus I honestly think that before it’s all said and done I will wind up in CA – it just sounds like a utopia to me and being gay is no big deal, which is another reason why it’s appealing to me.  Life just seems like it would be better for me out there.  Then again the grass on the other side always looks greener, that’s because it’s fertilized with bullshit. 

About my crush at work.  Fuck that kid has me really upside down.  I think about him non-stop as if he is an obsession.  Well he is.  I’ve got a huge crush on him.  So I decided to send him an email it was all above board and I was nice mentioning a little know benefit we get that they don’t talk about in orientation.  I worked in if he ever wanted to talk, had a question or if I could help him for him to reach out.  That was my subtle pickup line.  I know there is no chance in hell that we would ever physically meet much less have sex.  But I’d love to be friends with him.  I didn’t even get so much as a thank you back, which was disappointing.  I don’t expect that I will hear from him, but I did elect to go balls out and follow him on twitter.  He will be able to put 2 and 2 together and know it’s me.  There are no meaningful tweets but just in case one day he decided to write something I’ll know.  I am following him on Snapchat and Instagram.  I get a little giddy watching his snaps.  I realize I have to be careful because too much attention here has the ability to cause me major problems.  At the end of the day he’s just another blond hair blue eyed twink that I want.  I’ve seen many of them and he’s not worth adversely impacting my income.  

Sunday ah yes the one more day that everyone wants.  I really don’t want to go back tomorrow and I’ve got plenty of PTO to burn so I could easily take 1 full week off and be fine.  However, shit wouldn’t get done, plus I everything is better when I am working.  I got an email from Walgreens that they are going to switch up their rewards points and that I will loose a bunch of points if I don’t use them soon.  I stopped in today and got me a bottle of Focus Factor.  It’s a fancy multi-vitamin that purports to increase your focus and concentration.  I mean I don’t think anything short of a prescription can do that but hey I wanted to give it a whirl.  Turns out you have to take 4 pills per day.  Are you kidding me?  Nope 4 is the recommended dose for an adult [even though sometimes I act like a child].  90 pills was $40 but it was on sale for $10 off, plus I used points and got it down to $25.  I am going to try it but I don’t expect a miracle and I am only taking 2 pills per day.  I talked with a pharmacist before I checked out and was told either take your vitamin or take this but don’t do both.  The last thing I want is to wind up with vitamin poisoning or some other adverse reaction.   I’ll tell you how it goes, that is if I remember to. 

I put off the dreaded task of trimming claws until today.  Ruth was not happy and she expressed her usual displeasure and tried to kill me.  Her claws were way out of control and if she would have gotten me in the struggle to trim, I would have been seeking medical attention no question.  I mean if she ever gets me there will be medical attention required for me.  She was squirmy and didn’t want to sit still.  I got both front paws done [which is all that I do] and I went to put some flea medicine on her and she got away from me.  I didn’t bother to go after her again as it would only further elevate her anger and blood pressure.  Have you ever seen an animal angry, I mean to the point where they wanted to kill you?  That is where Ruth is when you try to hold her hostage.  Let her roam and give her an escape route, she’s fine she might hiss at you but it’s all good.  Trap her and your in for the fight of your life.  I thank God that my late partner had the welding gloves or I would have been a goner a long time ago.  No matter where she is if she sees me putting on those gloves, she knows what is going to follow and she hides quickly.  I mention it all week long but it never seems to have any effect.  I’ve learned there is a right way and a wrong way to approach her.  The right way is what I follow.  If you try to sneak up on her that will really get the venom flowing and she will be extra hyper.  She’s such a sweet girl I don’t understand why she gets so angry when it comes to trimming her claws.  Get her at the vet and she wants Daddy to protect her, she is a totally different cat.  Plus she will let them do what they need but I always warn them she’s a biter.  Glad I got her vaccinated earlier this year but I don’t plan on repeating the process this coming year.  What a girl.  She is a Marine of a cat.  I guess she thinks she is a lion when she is just a small but fat kitty.  Despite her poor attitude and anger, I still love her and we do have some good times together.  I just have to wait for forgiveness and by tomorrow morning this will all be a distant memory and life will be good again. 

I’ve got to tend to laundry, clean jewelry and get ready for what ever it is I am having for supper.  There is plenty of playing on the PC but my time gets gobbled up pretty quickly.  I did see a good movie last night on Amazon called ‘Do you take this man’  It had Mackenzie Astin in it and he’s one of my teen crushes and it just like something I would enjoy.  By the end it made me appreciate even more what I had with my late partner, I wasn’t crying but I was trying to.  I sure do miss him.  I don’t know if I will ever find someone that I click with like I did with him but I certainly hope so. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great week ahead and that nothing but good will happen this week.  I know it sounds like a fantasy but hey I can dream for no charge!  Take care. 

26 July 2017

Hormonal Dilemma

If you have any advice I am interested in hear from you.  Part of my job entails working with employee photos.  I like to look at them before I post them where they need to go, just to make sure everything matches up.  The other day I discovered this blond bombshell 21 year old guy with blue eyes and he is absolutely all I have thought about off and on since I saw him.  I have followed him on some social media but he doesn’t necessarily know it’s me.  One of the apps is SnapChat.  You’d think since I am tech savvy I would know how to use this app and you would be wrong.  I know how to watch other peoples videos and have no interest in posting one of my own.  Well I discovered Snap Chat has a chat feature.  Chats are deleted but you do have an option to save them.  He is far away from me and the chances we will both be in the same city are slim to none.  Based on my detective work odds are fairly high that he is gay.  I’d like to be friends and let him know that I think he’s fucking gorgeous.  I just can’t seem to let him go and admire from a far.  Plus having a friend, if he will be just that is nice. 

I saw an issue that he logged the other day, I pounced all over the ticket.  We have video phones and I spoke with him very briefly on the phone.  It’s a wonder I didn’t fain or get tonged tied.  We had a normal conversation.  I was just beside myself.  I didn’t need to call him, I could have emailed him but I figured that calling would be better.  It was a challenge of sorts, plus I wanted to hear what he sounded like. 

What I don’t want to happen here is to come out to the wrong person or hit him up for friendship and have him spin this into harassment.  I am not looking to loose my job all because of him.  I am looking at both sides of the picture and thinking before I make a move.  Ah, damn hormones. 

Work is busy as ever and my boss sees how much I am taking on, he’s worried about burnout and that I will jump ship.  Right now there is not a chance in hell that I would jump ship, I am happy from an employment perspective.  I wish I could find the same happiness in my personal life and then I would be complete!  It’s like I told someone the other day, the grass may be greener on the other side but that is because it’s fertilized with bullshit. 

I promised the kids that we would watch Suits together.  They are all a little miffed at me because I didn’t have time for them last night.  Between a personal call and work, damn the evening was swallowed up fast.  It’s hard to comprehend that today is Wednesday.  Time in general seems to be slipping away from me.  I really want to find someone to make memories with.  A friend asked me the other day what are we to do since were single, what is the answer.  My response, masturbation.  Yeah it’s true it helps, it might not be the cure all but it is good to let your feelings out and to have a little pleasure in the process.  I mean you have to take care of yourself in so many different ways, this is just one of them. 

Off to wait for Harvey and Mike to appear on screen.  I really would love it if Mike would show as much skin or even more than Harvey has.  I am very much in to this show because of Mike, who is played by Patrick J. Adams.  He’s one sexy mofo.  On that note, I’m out. 

25 July 2017

Fee no more

Last night I reached out to one of my credit card companies because they charge an annual fee.  I’ve complained about this in the past and they just said call us when the next one shows up and we will waive it.  So I took them up on their offer and the guy on the other end of the phone said, oh I’m sorry there isn’t a way that I can waive that this year.  To which I responded, well if I close the account will that waive it?  Yep sure will.  Okay close the account.  He read me this long disclosure and basically once you say okay close it after that, then you can never re-open it again.  You can always reapply for a new card.  I said if there isn’t any other way you can fulfill my request then proceed.  He closed the account just like that.  Never mind that they have made money off of me, there was no plea of retention or please don’t close your account.  Nope just boom and done.  Fine, I don’t need ya I planned for this and have replacements in hand.  I looked at another account I have at the same place and there is a fee but they haven’t charged one in a long time.  I suppose that this could cause them to change their minds, but we will just repeat the same song and dance. 

That got me looking and thinking.  Discover Card has a pretty good option available for me as does AMEX.  I like Discover much more and am mulling things over in my mind. 

Yesterday was busy and today is just crazy insane.  I can’t wait to go home to my cats where life is simpler and there are far fewer distractions.  Hope it’s a good day for you. 

23 July 2017

Sad Sunday

Today has been the day from hell.  It started with me staying up way too late, going to bed and getting woken up by a Thunderstorm.  I got back to sleep and then the phone started ringing, it was a weather warning.  Duh, I already knew.  The storm was pretty brutal to our area.  The power went off several times, that causes all of the UPS’ in the house to chirp and that wakes me up as well, because the perceived quiet I have is just that perceived.  It’s 100% deafening silence when the power is out.  You can hear a pin drop, it’s that quiet [remember the old MCI commercial's, that was their slogan]. 

As a result of the above I slept in way too late.  I needed to be up early to do patch testing at work.  Of course there was a problem and when I rolled out of bed at 10:30a I got to deal with it.  Whereas if I would have gotten up early that part would have occupied less of my time. 

By now it’s 11a and I am headed out, work problems resolved.  Then on to Cracker Barrel where I encountered a very long wait line.  I didn’t need that either but it is what it is.  When I was almost finished with my breakfast, my phone went off and of course it was work.  New problem someone needed to install iTunes and there was a client waiting.  I had to woof the rest of my food down and then leave as fast as I could. 

I arrived home by now it’s 12:05p, I fought hard to resolve the iTunes install thing, it was our Anti-Virus that was blocking it.  Turns out the computer was in the wrong OU [Organizational Unit] or bucket for simpler terms.  Getting it moved wasn’t working out like it was supposed to.  In Active Directory it’s quick, but for our AV to sync up with AD that is what takes so much time.  I got a message that all was working, so I left home.  I knew in my bones that I should stay and I waited as long as I could before I decided it was safe to leave.  Presto less than a mile from home and the phone is going ape shit.  I kept on going, I needed my groceries.  From the parking lot of the grocery store I was talking with the Help Desk guy on-call and we did a work around to get things back to working order. 

The grocery store parking lot was oddly empty and it just didn’t make sense to me.  I thought well maybe it’s the heat and people are just staying away.  Nope they had no power.  They were open but you could only buy non-perishable items, nothing frozen or freshly prepared.  Fuck!  I had to go to a 2nd grocery store and pay a higher price, but I got everything I needed, except a good dose of sanity. 

Once I was home I had to kick it in to high gear and get the groceries put away and start on house cleaning.  Then finish up laundry, holy fuck it was 3p and I was t-totally exhausted.  Sweating like no tomorrow and thirsty as hell.  I wanted to jump in the shower but took time to get next to naked and cool down.  That caused me to spend time with Big Boy and the family.  Then I got sleepy and by 4p I was out cold.  Woke up 45 minutes later and back into high gear we went. 

I’m happy to report that everything but the claw trimming got done.  I can get the bulk of the family but Ruth will have to wait until next week.  It felt like today was one of those days where everything I touched turned to shit.  I didn’t want to chance it and thought it was best to delay it by 1 week. 

On the MAN front.  Yesterday I saw a hottie waiter, I’m following him on social media.  I’ve never seen him in person.  Oh my he’s all that and a bag of chips.  The cons here are he’s younger like in his early 20’s younger and he’s into drugs, I see that based on social media.  If I didn’t have that inside knowledge I would have asked him out – if nothing else just to be friends.

The cashier at Cracker Barrel was someone I have a crush on but I didn’t have the time to ask him out, he’s also younger but I am not certain how young.  He’s in management but that doesn’t mean anything.

The 2nd grocery store I saw a guy that used to work at the store I normally go to.  I’m following him on social media as well.  He’s straight but he’s all grown up now, got some killer muscles and he’s an accountant.  If it wasn’t for the straight thing I would be all over that, he’s some grade A 100% beef.

At least I have some fresh hot new porn to watch to quell my sexual desires.

Now it’s time to soak my foot.  It’s my right foot that is out of the blue bothering me again.  I had the issue solved by using muscle confusion and wearing different shoes each day.  That worked for quite a while.  I need to hit up the Podiatrist but that will require $ and I am in savings not spending mode.  If it gets too bad, it won’t matter but for now I am trying what I know to deal with the issue.  All of the stress in my life doesn’t help and it actually feels like a muscle cramp in my foot, so it could all be attributed to the extra stress.  Got to make a sandwich for work and get ready for Manic Monday.  It will no doubt be crazy.

Here’s to what I hope is a great week ahead for all of us!  Take care and be well.

22 July 2017

Is it Saturday Yet?

Yes my Brothers & Sisters, we have made it to the weekend once again.  It’s been wickedly hot in my neck of the woods.  There is no relief in sight but this is typical weather for this time of year based on my location.  I am used to it, but that doesn’t mean my body doesn’t rebel.  I am smart enough to stay hydrated and in doors as much as possible. 

I’ve spent a lot of time on the telephone this week, both at work and home.  I called my friend to check on his cat and see how it was doing.  He talked my ear off for a couple hours.  Then yesterday on the way home I got a call from my friend that was fired.  We talked for well over three hours.  She is brining legal action against her former and my present employer.  I am named in some of the evidence and she told me to expect a call from her attorney.  I have no problem with talking with anyone but I won’t do it without the express knowledge of counsel and HR, as it could be detrimental to my job.  I am happy to help any way I can but I am not going to jeopardize my job, there is far too much that depends on my continued employment.  Plus I’m reasonably happy and that is quite uncommon.

Work has been well work.  I have a list of tasks that I am trying to accomplish, I scratch something off and add something, I thought for sure everything would be done by Friday.  Nope, emergencies keep cropping up and I have to push my list aside so as a result I get further behind.  It’s a zoo and I keep getting compliments on what a good job I am doing and how proud my boss is of me.  I feel important and the sense of a little but not much power, that in and of it’s self is quite rewarding.  However, this all adds a considerable amount of pressure to my job, which has no signs of dissipating anytime soon.  I am also on-call as of yesterday through the 31st.  A wicked stretch of time but I’ll get through it like I always do. 

Today I had breakfast at Steak N Shake, no cute blond cook.  I am starting to think the cute guys have all left that place.  Then I stopped by the eye doctor looked at all of the frames that were ordered.  Sadly they all looked good in pictures but not in person.  They had a frame that caught my eye by Kenneth Cole and that is what I went with.  I found out there is a silicone nose pad option so if they start slipping then I am not sunk.  Afterwards I hit up the post office to grab my latest monthly cologne subscription and some junk mail.  Then home to be with the kids.  I just sat with them browsing my phone.  Then after a while I just put the phone down and enjoyed the fact that I was in their company.  There was no one or nothing to disturb us.  I know that we have a limited amount of time together and I want to enjoy as much of that as possible.  Big Boy’s output has improved with the help of some medication.  I had to love on him and tell him how proud I was of him.  There is no question about it, he owns the couch now.  He’s eating pretty darn good so if he puts all of his weight back on I’ll get my couch back but I much prefer that he stays just as he is.  I did warn everyone that this is claw trimming weekend, they all need it.  What fun for me, not!

I have a few items to place in the mail and then need to think about what is for dinner.  I originally planned on staying in but I’ve got the money, so why not go out and enjoy myself.  It’s one of the few pleasures in life that I have.  Treating myself is totally up to me because there is no one else that will spoil me, at least for now.  I need to stop by the Hallmark store one of the cards I got last weekend is defective, I don’t have my receipt so it might be a challenge but for $3.95 you bet it’s worth my time.  I also am once again in need of cat food.  Coming home and starting laundry, playing on the computer and then finding something to watch before calling it a night.  It’s boring but it’s better than nothing.  I did think about going into the office today but quickly took that off the table.  If I put in overtime to accomplish my regular job it will soon become an expectation and the norm.  I don’t want to set a precedence. 

Sunday will be the usual breakfast, grocery shopping, finishing up laundry and now claw trimming.  Plus dealing with anything that may arise on the work front.  As well as staying cool, eating some good food and enjoying what will be my last day of peace before another stretch of 5 full working days kick off. 

I hope that all is well in your world and that your staying cool this summer.  Funny thing is in Australia it’s winter now.  Each day brings us closer to cooler weather.  Hang in there folks, were going to make it through this!  Talk with you peeps later. 

18 July 2017

Only Tuesday

I’ve been so busy that I would have thought today was Friday.  I’ve accomplished a lot because Monday I was left alone and Tuesday I opted out of bullshit meetings.  I did a good job making up for taking 2 days off.  There are still other things lingering and I will get a shot at them tomorrow. 

Worked with our new guy on an issue today.  I remember not so long ago when it was me that was the new guy.  Anyway, I found out he can’t compose an email that is in my opinion world class to convey feedback on an issue.  He wrote something up while I was watching, maybe he was nervous.  Anyway, it got the point across but it didn’t make him seem like he was fairly well educated.  He’s got a degree, I never went to college and I can write letters and emails that show I am intelligent.  I guess that is a skill that only some people have. 

Did some research over the weekend and found out that I can temporarily change themes on my infotainment system, it’s nice but once you turn the car off it knows enough to go back to factory default.  I thought I stumbled on something awesome but turns out if you want to make the change permeant you need an OBDI cable and software on a laptop to make that happen.  If you don’t know what your doing you will royally fuck up your car and that won’t be pretty.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my trip back home from the buffet on Saturday and how enjoyable that was.  That is typical activity that me and my late partner would engage in.  Only he would pick a road we wouldn’t have any idea where it came out and then the fun would start.  I didn’t like that game terribly much and even though only one time we got majorly lost, he still managed to get us back home.  That was without GPS and/or a map.  Pretty impressive.  He would get upset when he got lost because he saw it as a mind game.  Me I use GPS so there is no getting lost unless the GPS is fucked.  That’s happened to me but again I have always made it back home.

Speaking of travel, the car seems to be broken in now.  I am getting excellent fuel economy and it’s more responsive or so it seems.  Maybe it’s just the heat.  The AC works like a dream.  I set it at 62 and just drive, it’s like a freezer and I love every minute of it.  I am weird like that but working in a computer room screwed with my internal thermostat and I am not ever going to recover.   

Blood work came back on Big Boy and now his thyroid is way low.  The minimum is a .8 and he didn’t even register that.  So we have to cut his pills in half, oh joy a new task for me.  Then he goes back in a month and gets blood work done, we shall see what happens from there.  He lost a pound so the vet is concerned about that.  If it’s due to activity that is fine but otherwise something is amiss.  I told her how he climbs up on the couch.  Now if I am home he makes me get him down but when I am gone he can get down on his own, he just choses not to unless it’s an emergency.  Like he has to use the bathroom.  I am so proud of him and I love him so much, he’s been through hell and back.  I hope we have a long life together and that he doesn’t drain my wallet much more in the process. 

Got my blood work results and the doctor said it looks good.  However, I need to loose weight and/or cut back in my carbs.  If that doesn’t happen then he is going to up the medicine.  Yeah ok whatever.  I’ll see you in 3 months and let you make the call on what to do then.  Meanwhile, I am living my life and eating what I want.  I’ll try to make a concerted effort but don’t hold your breath.  The lady at the hospital that was registering me told me that I could get rid of diabetes because I have type II so it’s reversible.  I’d love to but there are way too many sugary things that I enjoy one of which is pasta. 

Well it’s about time to go climb the stairs and spend time with the furry family.  Then off to bed and up and at it again tomorrow.  Wash, Rinse, Repeat … makes you wonder how some people managed to ever get out of the shower.  Think about it. 

14 July 2017

Fired–not me

This week started out to be a rough one.  Monday my only good and true friend at work was fired.  It was an abrupt move by her manager because he thought she was after his job.  She posed a true threat but had no interest in his job.  She is very much in the angry and bitter stage and I have spoken with her most every night and what starts out to be a 30 minute conversation goes on for hours and hours.  Last night she called and we talked up till 11p and that is only because her phone battery was about to go dead. 

Last night I learned some horrible things that affect me.  Apparently the lesbian bitch that I was friends with after our falling out, she cornered my friend and was asking questions about me.  I have every reason to believe that she told everyone my business, from the fact that I was gay, who I had crushes on in the office and other details of my personal life.  One thing that was blown way out of proportion was the one guy that I really like who I think is repressing his sexual feelings and identifies as straight.  Him and I had a falling out too but not over sexuality but over the fact that he didn’t consider me a friend.  Anyway, she talked with him and told him how I wanted to be with him and that I thought he was gay and was covering it up.  I never said I wanted to be with him, I said I’d tap that.  However, he’s straight and a co-worker so even if he told me he was available I wouldn’t touch him.  I am highly embarrassed at the thought of who knows what.  Through all of this I found that another person that I thought was my friend stabbed me in the back.  I am not happy about that at all.  It just reinforces that no one at work is truly your friend, they will use you in order to climb the corporate ladder or to gossip about you behind your back.  Fuck ‘em all right in the ass and I don’t mean that in a good or pleasurable way. 

My boss sent me a gift card to a Chinese place, because I have gone above and beyond.  He knows that I am under a mountain of stress and I am dealing with things pretty well, though I do have my moments.  Problem is I am super picky about my Chinese food due to an allergic reaction I had once.  I won’t be using his gift card but I do appreciate the gesture of kindness.  I have it listed for sale on a gift card website and when it’s all said and done I will get $14 for a $20 card.  Not terrible and it’s not like I need the money but I would rather the card be used by someone who will actually enjoy the food. 

In other news as it relates to the job, I feel so awkward like I forgot to pay a bill.  I have an abundance of left over money and I have paid all the bills.  I checked and double checked.  There is the matter that my pay went up but also I got a bonus and there was 10 hours of overtime on this check, so that explains it all.  I have been able to save $1,000.00 and I still have plenty left over to spend.  I am some what overjoyed by this, but hope that something doesn’t come along and rob me of my money, which seems to happen when I get ahead.  Saving money is something that I was really good at as a child but in adulthood it’s a different story.  Somewhere the line shifted and my brother who was the spender became the saver and I became the spender.  I hope this pattern continues and that I can build up a nice nest egg or emergency fund.  There are things that I want that I could spend the money on, but they aren’t essential to live.  If you guess another writing instrument you would be correct.  There is also an updated Radar Detector to better protect me on the road, but the one I have has done a decent job.  Wants are great but needs are much more important and I’ve learned that the hard way, time and time again. 

Thursday & Friday were my days off.  I was supposed to go to the doctor but he cancelled.  I found myself with an abundance of time on my hands.  I did get in some naps.  However, I had to or chose to stay tuned to my phone and monitor email from work.  There were a couple things that came up and I ended up working a bit yesterday and a bit today.  I had plans to visit the buffet on Thursday but scrapped them to stay close to home.  I have plans to go tomorrow and have gassed up Mr. Car in preparation for our trip.

The first order of business tomorrow will be getting Mr. Bear to the vet for his blood work.  He is not going to be a happy camper about that.  I won’t be either but at least I have the cash to pay for the service now, instead of having to charge it and pay later.  I need to get some cat litter and pick up some greeting cards.  Might throw in a haircut for good measure.  Not that I need it but it feels good to be pampered even if it’s just a bit. 

Got my blood drawn this morning, that was not fun at all.  They were right on top of a vein, they had to pull back and aim the needle a bit higher and then advance.  It fucking hurt.  When that was done I asked the technician if I could practice on her.  She was totally serious and said yes, I will give you a crash course if you want it.  I declined.  I am sure there is nothing to it, just like giving fluids to my cats.  It’s just something about needles that I don’t like.  Headed off to breakfast and induced myself into a sugar coma with Blueberry Pancakes.

This evening, I went out for Mexican food.  It was okay but not what I really wanted.  I had a hard time deciding on what it was that I actually wanted and I couldn’t make up my mind, so I just aimed the car in a general direction and that is how I decided. 

I am thankful for the weekend, because there won’t be any email traffic from work and I am not on-call this weekend.  I switched with my boss and I will be on-call for part of next week and the weekend.  It will be our patch weekend so that means I will be getting up super early next Sunday to do testing.  There is also plenty of work piled up and waiting for me when I return.  I had thoughts of going in tomorrow to get a jump on things, but that would mean no buffet trip.  I can’t let this job be all consuming, I have to get away so I quickly talked myself out of that idea.  It will all get done, just not necessarily when others want it done.  I am only 1 person and doing the work of 2 people, but only collecting 1 paycheck.  No sense in stressing or burning myself out, because in the end I will be the one suffering.  I was surprised that I didn’t get any push back from my boss with the bit of work I had to do on Thursday and Friday.  He was thankful and appreciative.  I also got to keep some of my PTO which is good for me, never know when you will need it. 

Finally, the eye doctor called and they can’t get silicone nose pads for my glasses.  I figured out the problem, they ordered the frame too large, so it’s not tight enough to fit my head and therefore the glasses slip.  So we are into the doctors remake.  I found 6 pairs of frames that I like, they were reluctant to order all of them but most of them are coming.  I found out that they order them and what I don’t like they have to send back and they may or may not get credit for them, some pairs might also be nonreturnable and they will be forced to stock them and try to sell them.  I don’t feel bad, with all of the money I pump into that place, plus waiting my time having to make several return trips, phone calls and time to research new frames, I feel like this is the least they can do for me.  The frames should all be in by next Saturday and then I get to go and try to make a decision.  I suck at that, paralyzed by choice.  I’m sure it will all work out fine.

Next week is going to be hard going back to 5 days when the past two weeks have been 3 day weeks.  Not to fret, I have my next doctors appointment in September just after my birthday so there will be 2 more days waiting for me.  Plus there is a holiday which will be nice.  I am more happier about the thought that it will bring us closer to Thanksgiving. 

While there is stress at work, over all I am doing well and the kids help with that a whole lot.  They also keep me on my toes when I am home with them.  Coming to the basement is about the only relief I can get when I am home.  If I am upstairs someone is clamoring for my attention and usually it’s more than 1 at a time.  I hope that I can find some good TV or a good movie to watch.  Laughter is always enjoyable.

So that’s how things are in my world as of now.  I hope things in your world are going well.  This heat has been exhausting and the gas prices were low for a while then they just went back up out of the blue on Wednesday.  Looking forward to getting some bread pudding and to an enjoyable drive tomorrow.  Take good care of yourself and we shall talk again soon. 

08 July 2017


Ah the week is over and it’s once again the weekend!  That short lived two day break between 5 days of work.  There should be more weekends and holidays, but I think that is every working persons dream.

Today I visited my local Steak N Shake where I am a regular for breakfast on the weekends.  I figured I would get a couple Chicago Hot Dogs, my taste buds were all excited and then I learned they no longer have them.  Nuts.  So I ordered a burger and some chili instead.  I asked one of the waitresses where all of the cute cooks have gone.  The main guy I like is on nights.  There is a new blond twink that I have seen once, turns out he was just off today.  So now I know next Saturday that is where I should go if I am craving seeing a cute guy and when am I not? 

I hit up the eye glass place and they dropped the ball on my nose pads.  I did look at a couple of pairs of glasses.  I did some further inquiring and was given a couple websites to check out.  Since my craving is Blue, they said that Nike & Ray Ban are the best two brands where I would find the best selection.  Yeah okay.  Nike is my favorite and I’ve been with them ever since I was told I had to have glasses.  They are supposed to call me about the nose pads.  I really think that if you could get the damn things to stop slipping that I would be happier.  I do have some alternatives in mind that I would like to see in person before I decide to go with a remake.  It’s a one shot deal so I want to be sure I get it right.  Damn Kennedy (the porn model).  I am thirsty for his glasses and I have driven myself nuts and brought a lot of others along for the journey.  I watched some of his scenes today just to see if I could make out the brand name of his glasses.  The camera is close enough but they are just enough out of focus that you can’t tell.  My guess is by now they are no longer made but it would be nice to have a brand name so that I could look at what they have out today.  I can tell that it’s two words and the second word appears to start with a C or an E.  I looked at brand names on-line and can’t find anything.  I don’t give up and in this case that is working against me.  I will either figure it out or die trying. 

Got my check in the mail for my late partners unclaimed property.  That was a whopping $9 but I spent $2 on postage so was it really worth it?  Hey it’s money that was mine so yeah in my opinion it was worth it.  Might as well lay claim and get what your due.  It won’t buy a meal but it can certainly help in the grand scheme of things. 

I watched You Tube videos of Lilly Tomlin today, kind of fun.  Spent time with Big Boy and his siblings.  Then I got in one of my famous naps.  I read this article yesterday on social media that said it’s better for guys to sleep naked.  All sorts of health benefits.  Yeah, I don’t know about that.  They mostly talked about getting laid as a benefit and how being naked helps you be more comfortable and stay cool at night.  I’ve slept naked ever since I met my late partner.  Once and a while I will wear some underwear to bed but naked is actually very comfortable.  The part that sucks is if in the middle of the night there is some calamity and you have to exit your house or motel room, you will give the world a show.  Thus far I have been blessed and really don’t view it as a problem. 

I met up with my friend that lost his wife for dinner.  We went to our usual place, Maggiano’s Little Italy.  He was ogling all over our waitress and telling me all of the things he wanted to do to her.  I told him you can have her, she does nothing for me.  He smiled.  Then part way in to our meal this large family comes in and they have two twinks, oh my what do we have here?  I was staring at them often and so much I am surprised that I didn’t burn a hole in their clothes.  Very cute but I never said a word.  He has always been pretty verbal when it comes to women and sex.  I think a lot of things but don’t say them out loud, at least usually.  If I am all alone I’ll talk to myself but that about it.  Man or woman for that matter wasn’t meant to be alone, simple as that. 

He was quite the talker tonight and we overstayed our welcome.  Reservations were at 5 and we left at 9.  Yeah that is way longer than I wanted to commit to a meal.  I went into it knowing that he likes to talk and knew what to expect.  Once again he has stopped taking his anti-depressants.  He signed up for therapy.  So maybe that will help him.  I hope he gets a decent therapist.  I’ve suggested one thing that helped me, which was to write a final letter to your mate.  Then wait a couple days and read it out loud, as if your reading it to them.  It will evoke a lot of tears but it is healthy and will help in the healing process. He hasn’t taken my advice but I think this might be something that his therapist has him do.  I got the idea when I was in therapy and it was a tough task but I just remember how it helped bring some closure.  I wouldn’t say I am over his death but I have adjusted to living on my own and the huge amount of responsibilities that I have adapted to. 

When we were chatting my vibrator started going nuts.  Yes, I mean my phone.  Turns out there was an issue at work.  I am not on call so no worries.  However, I am on call starting on Monday so it is of concern to me.  I know there will be the aftermath that we will all have to deal with.  Ah well just another day at the office. 

I started my laundry and Momma is throwing a fit because I am not upstairs where I should be.  It’s way past bed time (on a normal night) and I guess I should go up and comply before she meows me to death.  Big Boy is once again on on the couch.  Everyone else is just waiting for me to climb the stairs. 

I have noticed that I am having issues with the car again.  It’s the clock and/or the infotainment system.  I can’t help but think that this all correlates back to the battery.  I’ve been living with it and just cussing about it.  I can go back to get it fixed but will they actually fix it?  I suspect the answer to that is no.  Otherwise, the car is doing really good.  Gas mileage is up around 39 and I even ventured into the 40 range for a couple days.  Some foolish acceleration took me back to 39 quickly.  I am getting used to the car and it’s quirks.  I just wish there wasn’t the hassle with the infotainment system and/or the clock.  One odd thing is that part of the infotainment system knows my phone is an iPhone and the other part doesn’t know at all.  I tried to invoke Siri and they said my phone wasn’t supported for that.  Really, I use that feature all of the time when I am not in the car.  I can convert to Car Play by Apple but my phone would have to physically be connected each and every time when I get in the car.  No thanks, I like the fact that it picks up Bluetooth on it’s own.  I don’t want to be bothered with having to hook up the phone each time, that is much more hassle than I think anyone should have to go through.  That is the one reason why I am eager to get rid of it.  But I think were staying together for a long time.  I am up to 13 thousand miles and I have kept up with all of the maintenance.  I think the regular car manufacturers should do what the luxury car manufacturers do and that is throw in basic maintenance, so you don’t pay for simple things like oil changes and tire rotations.  I mean ideally that is all you should have to do on a new car for a very long time.

Ah well, tomorrow is another day and then it’s back to the fun but only for 3 days.  My doctor agreed to send me an order for blood work, but it’s not here yet.  I am also waiting on my replacement Drivers License.  I really hate the fact that I am so prompt and conscientious of tasks that I have to do but other people aren’t.  I am very much apart of todays society in that I want things to happen instantly with no waiting or delay.  That is not how all of life is, which is kind of sad.

06 July 2017


At work we were all told to check the on-line portal to make sure that our salary increases were reflected after our reviews.  I logged on yesterday and wow was I surprised.  Someone made a large mistake because my salary looked like I won the lottery.  I was faced with a dilemma, let things play out and let my employer claw back all of the money that wasn’t mine OR report it and save the headache.  I chose to report it and save the headache.  Turns out something went wrong with an upgrade that was done last week and everyone’s salary looked like they hit the lottery.  If not reported, payday would have cost my employer a ton of money.  Is there a reward for doing the right thing?  Nope I got a thank you and that was it.  I didn’t report it expecting anything in return, but it would have been a nice gesture.  Considering what a nightmare I saved them from.  So long as my paycheck is correct when it is issued next week I will be happy.  I would rather not give back money once I receive it, then you have the whole tax thing and it would have been a huge mess for everyone.  I think my actions speak much louder than my words and I have clearly demonstrated integrity.  It’s not the first time and it won’t be the last time. 

Work since were talking about it, is busy.  Trying to figure out how to get everything done is a chore in and of it’s self.  Thankfully some of the BS meetings that were on track for today have been cancelled, so that will make my life a bit easier. 

Yesterday was the first day back after the long holiday break and it was difficult to go to bed early and even more difficult to wake up early.  The cats adjusted just fine but daddy well I am still in recovery mode.  Last night I was really exhausted.  Gator slept with me and of course she was a nudge in the middle of the night so I had to remove her from the room.  I also had a large knot in my back.  This morning things flowed a bit smoother than yesterday.  I imagine by tomorrow I will be fully recovered and then we get 2 days off for the weekend. I love time away especially now that I am working harder and longer days. 

When I came home yesterday I expected to see Big Boy on the couch but nope he was still on the floor.  When I left this morning he was on the couch, I haven’t yet had time to check in on them but it’s on my to do list.  I won’t feed him on the couch any more partially because it makes the couch a mess and partially because it cheats Marv out of his fair share. 

Were all moving right along and things are okay for the most part.  A little frustration here and there but that’s life.  Looking forward to the weekend, sleeping in, taking naps, relaxing and probably looking at new glasses.  Nothing really planned per say, which is how I like to operate.  Keep my weekends open and then I have options.  Plan them and they just fly by faster than you can imagine, or so it seems. 

I hope all is well in your world and that things are going your way.  Talk with you all again soon.