Morning!
I made it out last night for BBQ, it was delicious. However, I kept thinking the whole time I was eating that it was Saturday. It’s so abnormal for me to eat out during the week. It was fun though and I enjoyed myself.
I had my review yesterday afternoon. I read through it earlier in the afternoon. Only one surprise. The bonus that I got earlier this year when I was out sick, I thought came from my manager. Turns out it came from a different manager and I had no idea. Looks like I picked up yet another fan at work that loves my work and loves to work with me.
The big shock came when my boss told me that he wants to promote me. He wants me to take a Team Lead position. He said that I’d just be doing the same stuff I am doing now but that I would have a title modification and a separate pay increase. I told him that I felt like this was a long time coming and that he had been grooming me in this direction. He said that if I wasn’t interested that is fine but he needs a Team Lead. I know that means that if I don’t take it he would give it to the mistake maker. I wouldn’t want that. I told him that I am interested but wanted to know more of the specific duties and expectations before I made a final decision. He is supposed to be working with HR to find out more and pass it along. I did share with him that I had spoken with a prior Team Lead and a former employee and they had nothing but horror stories to tell me about the position, so I am skeptical.
Now given that I figure if I take this I would be looked at differently for sure. It’s a mini management role. If I keep doing what I am doing that’s great but should I keep doing it all full-time from home or should I start making in office appearances. That old saying the bigger they are, the harder they fall comes to mind. I am pretty sure that if I was a Team Lead and my “secret” of working full-time from home came to light that there would be no hesitation and I would be kicked to the curb. However, the odd thing is that my review is glowing once again and it outlines that I do a full body of work and go above and beyond no matter what. I did feel a bit guilty when my boss told me that he trusts me. I feel that I am betraying his trust by working from home. However, I give more and work longer so the company gets more bang for their buck. I am clearly at a cross road and need not only more information but need to think about what my next move will be.
I am truly fine to keep doing the job I am doing with no change. I am always a bit resistant to a promotion because your going into unchartered waters and it’s more of a fear of the unknown. Plus I am not a huge fan of change. I like things to stay mostly the same, I get in a routine and stick with it.
I just think that if I lost this job that there would be no true recovery. Sure I could probably land another job with a little bit of time but my age would work against me and there is no way I would earn nearly what I earn now.
There is no doubt in my mind that I will work this out and make a decision one way or another. However, I’m open to any advice or suggestions you might have. I have plenty to think about as I wait for details to come forth.
While I have expected the promotion for years I kind of though that it probably wouldn’t come to fruition and that it might all be in my head. It’s times like these that make me realize that I am smarter than I give myself credit for and that I know how to read the room pretty good. Once again it’s a reminder to listen to that little voice inside. Despite this being expected I did walk away from this review with a huge surprise.