Wake up call

Morning, my day started at 4a when I was woken up by Mora jumping on me.  I was having the best dream.  I was with my late spouse at McDonald’s and we were enjoying breakfast.  I had just taken a job at a place that I used to work at, that was a complete nightmare.  I dream from time to time that I got sucked back in there.  For some reason I was elated about it because I figured I’d be making more money but I would also be doing a job that I really didn’t want to.  Just about the time I was going to bite into my second Sausage McMuffin with Egg is when Mora woke me up. I don’t see my late spouse often enough in dreams and was rather upset that Mora woke me up, I would have loved to at least finish my dream breakfast.  I haven’t had a Sausage McMuffin with Egg in a long time.  

Maybe I was talking in my sleep or maybe she just wanted to cuddle.  At any rate that’s what happened she snuggled up in my arm for a little bit.  Then Rudy came and sat on my chest and pressed on my stomach.  My bladder kicked in and I told them both I had to get up.  I returned to bed after using the restroom and then we all got situated again.  Rudy wound up by my feet and Mora was back snuggling in my arm. 

After a few minutes of trying, I realized there was no getting back to sleep so I turned the TV on and watched an episode of Sanford (this spin off from Sanford & Son).  It was on YouTube and I just wanted something to pass the time until I got groggy again and could go back to sleep.  That couldn’t happen fast enough for me.  After that was over with, I turned the TV off and had to move.  That caused Mora to leave me.  Which was fine because she was nipping at my finger thinking it was a play toy.  It hurts but she hasn’t broken the skin yet.  Her brother does it too from time to time, but he’s a bit gentler than she is. 

It took me a little bit but I managed to get back to sleep for a bit.  Then the trash truck came through and woke me up.  I was able to dose off for a bit before Rudy started his it’s time to wake up routine.  I cuddled with him since he was early and then we all got up to get Friday started. 

As per usual I am done with my morning tasks at work and have the rest of the day wide open just waiting for something to occupy time.  I have gone looking to help out but there isn’t anything pending right now that I can lend a hand with. 

Last night when I took the trash out, I noticed in one of my landscaping beds that there were a bunch of rather tall weeds.  It’s as if the lawn people haven’t been doing their job.  I broke out some Roundup and sprayed.  I will peek at it when I bring the empty barrel in later on today.  The last thing I want is to get in trouble with the city.  I’ve been thinking about buying a weed trimmer for a couple years now.  Every once and a while I find something that they skipped. 

Speaking of the yard since I fired my tree trimmer, I didn’t have any work done last year and managed to skate by just fine.  However, things are to the point now where I need to have work done.  I said I wouldn’t call him back because he charged me for a tool he forgot.  He went to buy one at a local store and magically the price of my bill went up by exactly what he paid for the tool.  Well, his prices are pretty fair and while I really don’t want to call him, I really don’t want to start over with anyone else.  A simple fall clean up that can be done later this year or early next year – it’s no rush. 

Yesterday's post I removed something that I really wanted to put in, it’s the Thirsty part of the post.  I know of one particular porn star that is local to my area (who shall not be named).  I was curious to see if he did escort work and when I went surfing, I didn’t find him but found another Twink porn star.  I actually thought about calling for a split second.  My dick was saying do it, we need this.  My brain however said its trouble steer clear of this.  I’ve never done anything like that before and know that it’s a tricky rope to walk so that you don’t violate the law.  The trick is that you're paying for a person's time and not for a sexual act.  If you pay for a sexual act that’s prostitution and highly illegal.  While I doubt that a porn star would be an undercover cop or wired, they probably approach each person that calls them with some suspicion.  I’m quite lonely and while I don’t want to just jump into bed, I want to form a connection and get to know a person before we go to the bedroom.  Paying for that would get awfully expensive.  That was heart/brain talking.  My dick says pay some money, have some fun – no strings.  However, I don’t know if I could just do casual sex.  I’m sure I’d form some kind of a bond and want more, again it could get awfully expensive.  Part of me felt a little cheap posting about it but another part of me said post it, get it out of your system.  It’s not going to get me laid but somehow it might benefit someone else. 

I am toying with getting back to the dating apps just to see if I can find someone but honestly, I have no hope and don’t think anyone that I’d be interested in (twinks late 20’s to 30’s) would be interested in me.  I suppose every older guy wants someone younger.  I’m not looking to support anyone or to have anyone support me in a financial way.  Spending money on each other is just part of dating and I’m okay with normal expenses in that respect.  Heck I’d even settle for someone in there 40’s.  I’m looking for a one and done, I don’t want to play game or cycle through several guys.  However, something about dating says you have to play games and you will likely go through several guys.  I don’t have the patience or ability to tolerate getting my heart broken.  It’s kind of held together by some crappy super glue as it is and quite fragile.  I’m vulnerable and know it.  I think that I will die alone but I am not expecting to die anytime soon.  Talk about agony and suffering.  However, I know you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take and that I am already alone.  Things are pretty grim in that respect so the only place they can go is up.  I like the single life in that you have no one to report to and there is abundant freedom.  However, I am kind of over being alone.  I guess it all boils down to a catch 22.  If there is a guy for me and he is out there here’s hoping that our paths cross sooner than later. I know that time really isn’t on my side here, as age continues to climb the less appealing I am. However, the heart wants what the heart wants. I'll keep you posted if anything develops.

Speaking of age were getting closer with each passing day to my birthday. That's something I used to look forward to when I was so much younger but ever since my 30's birthdays haven't been that appealing to me. My 35^th birthday was really special and it was all because of a friend I had at work that made things come together. I was so much happier then and just didn't realize it. Nothing yet has compared to the way that birthday was celebrated but I sure do have some great memories to reflect on.

Well, I should stick a fork in this post and call it done. Hope that you all have a great weekend and thanks as always for stopping by. Take care!

Connectivity

Hello World!

Yesterday was a little bit of a technology snafu.  My home internet went out around lunch time and didn’t come back up until this morning.  Working from home this obviously presents a challenge.  I need to be able to get on-line at all times.  My phone saved the day as it has many times before.  Visible Plus to the rescue.  I have unlimited data nd unlimited hotspot data.  Your only supposed to connect 1 device but I was able to get away with 2.  1 of which was a computer and the other was my Roku.  When work was done for the day I was down to just my Roku.  I’m not sure what went wrong with my home internet but they have been having issues where we have spot outages for a few hours and then were back up.  Of course my special price just expired so I am paying more now and they don’t give credit for outages.  If you want it you have to call.  I’m getting close to loosing my cool with them and about ready to call to see if I can get the price lower.  There is another fiber company coming to town but they are dragging their feet.  If they were here today I’d make the switch kind of tired of the local cable company.  It wasn’t just internet that was down it was phone and TV as well but I only have them for internet so the rest of my stuff worked.  That’s why you can’t put all of your eggs in one basket, you have to diversify or have backup providers for redundancy.  That can get expensive but Visible has been rock solid for me in every possible way.  I can’t sing their praises loud enough. 

Funny what started out as cell phone service for dating has turned in to my primary service for cell data and has doubled as a work phone.  I’ve become so reliant on it I can’t imagine living without it.  If they just offered to associate your name with your number I’d move my regular cell service over, drop the extra coverage and be able to save a bunch of money.  However, it’s a pre-paid service so caller id only displays as Wireless Caller, which for dating if your making calls is a good thing to help mask your identity. 

I had to fight a little bit to get my desktop and laptop to connect to my phone as a hotspot but got it working and was able to continue with my day.  I only had a meeting that got pushed back to the afternoon and I was able to join it from the comfort of my couch.  Nothing else came about and I was thankful for that. 

This morning is starting off the same as yesterday in that I have nothing to do for several hours and then it’s meeting, meeting, lunch, meeting, meeting.  Unless something else comes in to break up this cycle that’s how my day is looking to shape up. 

Woke up with my back feeling funny the more I started to wake up that funny feeling developed into an itch.  I scratched and it felt a little odd.  I looked in the mirror and I’ve got claw marks on my back.  What in the world happened last night?  Which cat got me?  No one’s talking here cat’s got their tongues.  It’s nothing major and it will heal but damn it’s gonna itch a lot and I hate that. 

Speaking of itches my neck is bothering me a little bit but the peeling has stopped.  I just resist scratching as best as I can.  I’ve got some strong will power if I want to use it but an itch is one of those things that you think will feel better if you scratch it and sometimes that is the case but with this that is NOT the case it only makes things worse. 

Had left over pizza for supper last night.  Broke into my newly found ice cream stash of Haggen Daz.  One more thing I found when I went to work on the freezer.  I’ve got a few pints to go through and it’s so good!

Wanted to really watch porn last night but that internet outage with my home network impacted my ability to stream from my desktop to my TV.  I’ve got an old scene from Corbin Fisher that I am itching to watch.  Not sure if I will make it to tonight but I am gonna try my best. 

Right now it’s time to get away from the computer and go relax, hoping that I am left alone so I can enjoy my down time before meeting season kicks in this afternoon. 

Hope all is well in your world and that your staying cool & hydrated!  Take care.

Fun or Not ?

Welcome in and thank you for stopping by. 

The Saturday experience I planned for myself that I thought would be loads of fun was not.  What did you do?  I went to a comedy club.  I have never been to a club.  I was shocked when I was told there was a 2-drink minimum.  I got a water and the waitress was kind to me by only charging me for the 1 bottle of water.  It was a couple dollars and I just gave her $5 and called it a day.  Going to a club to me is quite similar to going to a bar just that you're all paying to see comedy as the main attraction while some people get hammered.  There were some hot guys there that were straight.  I saw gay guys in pairs but none of them did anything for me.  Of course, comedians trying to get to know their audience asked about gay, straight and single people.  I didn’t respond to any of that.  There was one single loud gay guy behind me and I wish that I was seated someplace else.  I can tell you why he’s single because he’s loud as fuck, he sounds really gay and he felt compelled to tell everyone he does drugs. 

I went to this event to have fun and do something different.  I kind of thought that maybe I’d meet someone but that turned out to be more hope than reality and it’s okay.  I really don’t want a drinker or druggie that is not my scene and those people turn me off.  It’s okay to drink a little bit but to get hammered on a regular basis, no thanks.  In some ways I think that I am better off alone despite the fact that it’s quite lonely. 

I got my haircut earlier in the day, it was time plus I wanted to look good I mean just in case.  Instead of paying the barber to shave my neck I did it myself and wow that went horribly wrong.  I have some serious razer burn and boy does it burn.  I looked at my neck last night before bed and it was bright beet red.  I don’t think I will ever shave my neck again.  It always bothers me regardless of who does it but I like the extra clean look.  However, if I could do it all over again, I’d just leave it like it was to save myself the pain. 

I had the opportunity to eat before I went over.  I used to work in the area years ago.  Wow things have really changed and the area is more vibrant as well as the fact they have installed some roundabouts, which I detest.  I had a restaurant in mind that I was going to visit however I went back and forth and wound up heading over on an empty stomach, thinking that I’d eat after and not before.  The main thing was getting there and getting seated.  Glad that I went with my gut on getting there early because that got me a decent seat.  Other people were packed in like sardines with barely enough room to breathe, while I had a little bit more room.  When the event ended it was late and dark out.  All I wanted to do was get the hell out of there.  I had to walk a lot from where I parked so I got in some exercise. 

On the way home I thought about my options for fast food.  Taco Bell and McDonald’s were the front runners but I really wanted Taco Bell.  I figured it would be cheaper.  Boy was I wrong.  Just a couple burritos and tacos and it was $15.  I brought them home and devoured the entire thing.  Rudy wanted some but I of course didn’t give in.  The cats were alone for 4 hours and they were quite happy to see me.  I told them I’d be coming back but I don’t think they believed me. 

After eating my so-called supper, I sat up for a bit and watched TV.  After about an hour I got ready for bed and took my sleeping pills.  I had to get up early this morning for work to do some testing since this was a patching weekend.  It’s just testing to make sure everything came back up after being rebooted.  Most of the stuff we use runs on the cloud so of course it’s going to be up; it’s not on premise but I test what I am supposed to just to cross the T’s and dot the I’s.  I hate getting up early for this purpose, especially on a Sunday but I slept in because I knew I would be tired. 

My usual breakfast spot was closed and that was depressing.  I wound up at IHOP and service was slow.  I was just about to walk out when I got seated.  Had an omelet and pancakes.  It was just okay nothing fantastic.  Thinking about supper it’s either Seafood or BBQ.  I was leaning for BBQ but Seafood (fish) sounds really good and the drive would be enjoyable, despite the fact that it’s hotter than hell outside. 

I am glad that I twisted my own arm to have the comedy club experience.  I used to walk by that place when I worked in the area and now, I know what it’s all about.  Might go back to the area just to hit up a restaurant or two.  I wish it was a more enjoyable experience.  I’ve got nothing else planned at the moment other than some massages scheduled up until my birthday week that should be a fun week and also expensive. 

Back to normal life and hoping for something exciting to happen.  I hope all is well in your world.  Until next time, take care.

Past and future fun

Hi and welcome in.  I do hope you are doing well.  I have enjoyed my time away from work and kind of wish that I would have taken the week but I already know that there is plenty of work waiting for me so the sooner I get back the better.  I’m telling myself it’s only 3 days and at least your not on call this week, look at the bright side, plus bossman is away. 

Sunday after my post I wound up checking on the card system at work and don’t you know it was down again.  I had to get out in the rain and drive over to reset it.  This time was super easy now that I knew exactly what to do.  I think there must have been another power blip that is the only explanation for why.  I thought about it after the storms moved in at home and I heard on the scanner that some folks had lost power.  At least I avoided a Monday disaster and saved some people from freaking out. 

I got my car washed again.  However, don’t you know after you wash the car it’s gonna rain.  I got caught in rain tonight so now I need to go back again.  I will at least be getting my monies worth out of this car wash membership. 

Monday I got the car serviced and had lunch with my friend.  We chatted but I forgot to ask him several questions I had thought of.  I hate it when my memory fails me. 

Went shopping on Amazon got a new wrist wrest for the computer and a mouse pad with some serious support.  A new cell phone case, cell phone holder for my desk, and cushion for my recliner.  I like all of the items I purchased.  However, my cell phone case is metal and that can interfere with signal quality.  My phone is sealed in the case so it’s fully protected which I like but I don’t want to give up any speed.  I’ve done some testing today and I think I am okay.  WIFI works great when I am at home.  It’s the cell carrier signal when I am out and about that I have concerns with, I want to get the speed I am entitled to and paying for.

Got together with my friends for dinner tonight and we both got caught in a rain storm.  I got the worst of it because I parked so far away from the entrance and then had to drive 30 minutes in wet clothes, not fun but hey I survived.  Had a decent meal as well. 

I’m going to see the new Superman on Saturday.  I am a fan of at least one of the guys in the cast and I think there are hot guys in it or so I hope.  I already purchased my ticket.  I’m going back to the same theater I went to a while back.  I will also hit up the same restaurant after the movie. 

I do plan on returning to the dating app scene but just haven’t committed to it yet. 

Tomorrow will be a busy day so I fully expect that I won’t have any play time and it will be a nothing but work day.  Just a heads up in case I don’t have time to post anything and/or Man Candy. 

Well up to enjoy what’s left of my evening.  Mora is begging me to get up stairs and honestly she is right I will be trapped in front of these two monitors so might as well escape while I can.  Speaking of the cats they still aren’t using their birthday present for anything other than a little scratching post and place to nap.  I’m still giving them a chance.  I have no plan to make it disappear regardless if they use it or not. 

Off to upstairs and to continue with what few hours of vacation time I have left.  I know it’s gonna suck tomorrow having to get up at a specific time.  I’ve been getting up feeding Rudy and going back to bed.  Mora just stays in bed with me, then when I do get up Rudy thinks he’s getting a second breakfast but he’s doesn’t. 

Take care and I will talk with you again when I can. 

Happy Birthday Kids

Morning!  While most of America is celebrating Independence Day I am thankful that today is a dual celebration for me.  Rudy & Mora are one year older, now 6.  That’s still young for a cat and they both jump, run and play just like they did when I brought them home when they were 3.  They have matured a little bit and I have noticed some subtle changes.  Both of them show every sign that they are happy, safe and loved as well as love me.  I am so thankful for them.

Last night just as things were winding down chaos erupted.  Work called they had a power blip and the stupid card system freaked out and wasn’t working.  That meant I had to go in, so no supper for me. 

I was there from 6:30p until 9:20p.  I wracked my brain tried everything I knew.  Threw up my hands and placed a service call to a vendor.  I recapped everything for my team and closed up shop and was about to head out.  I took one last look and I power cycled something that I had done before but not by it’s self.  Turns out that was the secret and damn if everything didn’t come back to life.  I made my rounds to test every door to confirm everything was working and it was.  I was both pissed off and happy at the same time.  I had to log back in, send emails to tell everyone that things were back to normal and cancel the service call.  Then for good measure before I left for good I made one more round to test and everything is still working.  People think that I am some kind of wizard because I can make the system sing.  Perhaps I am smarter than I am giving myself credit for but it all feels like dumb luck to me. 

At least now I can exhale and hopefully enjoy my time off.  I just logged in to confirm things are still working just because I want to be extra sure. 

That was not how I planned on spending my evening and I hated to be away from home for so long but much more driving home in the dark.  As I got close to home I hit something on the freeway, not sure if it was an animal or what.  I looked down for a split second to change songs and when I looked up there was a ball like figure that came flying at my front tire.  Just about the time I sluffed that off I was on the exit ramp and a opossum was rolling around in the lane, it had obviously been hit and was dying but I didn’t want to hit it.  It probably would have been the right thing to do but something about killing an animal just doesn’t sit right with me.  I thought about the poor thing out there suffering as I continued on my drive home.  The image of seeing it is seared in my memory and I wish it would leave. 

Once I arrived home my furry friends greeted me and I passed out their overdue treats.  I had a donut and some milk that was my so called supper.  Watched the news which I never do at night and it was filled with depressing stories so I moved over to YouTube.  Got stuck down a rabbit hole watching video after video and soon it was 11:30p.  I got up took my sleeping meds and brushed my teeth.  I was still very amped up but close to 1a I finally got drowsy and fell asleep. 

I told Rudy that I wouldn’t want to get out of bed come morning.  He took that into consideration and did his best to rouse me at 6a but I resisted and he just camped out on top of me.  My body naturally woke me up closer to 7a and Rudy was right there and he sprung to life.  Making his biscuits, licking my forehead and so happy.  We cuddled a little bit and then I got up.  Gave a little attention to Mora who was at my feet.  Then made my way to the kitchen to get breakfast for them. 

I got a shower and put on a pride flag shirt that I normally wear on the 4th, but I noticed the shirt wasn’t fully clean so I had to scrap it and put on something else.  Not what I wanted to do.  Headed out for breakfast and had what I call Patriotic French Toast.  It was Strawberry, Blueberry with whip cream on top.  Red White and Blue. Pretty good too and I had some eggs to go with it. 

After eating I hit up the post office and then the car wash, saw a hot guy working at the car wash.  Then filled up my tank and came home.  What an expensive holiday morning this has been. 

Looking very forward to seeing my friends this afternoon.  Lord knows I have plenty to yap about. Tomorrow afternoon I plan to return to the buffet for lupper hopefully I will time it just right so that I can enjoy a little lunch and then some supper.  I am mainly interested in their BBQ Pork but the sloppy joes and fried chicken sound really good as well. 

I am so glad that I am done with work for 5 days, just like I knew I wouldn’t want to get out of bed this morning, I know I won’t want to go back but I need the money.  It’s been quite the long week and I hope to enjoy this little break.  Perhaps I will see a hot guy, ask him out and life will just fall into place.  Hey no charge for dreaming!

Thanks for coming along on the ride as I document my life.  I know you’ve probably noticed there was no eye candy this week.  I plan to remedy that soon.  Right now I think it’s time to take off my clothes, bask in the quiet and take a nice morning nap.  Both cats are napping and nothing makes me drowsy quite like watching a cat sleep. 

In case your wondering no neither of them have used their birthday present.  They get in it and once it moves they freak out and jump out.  I do think it was a waste of money.  I could disassemble it and send it back but that is more work than just eating the financial loss.  Besides that maybe just maybe one day they will use it as it was intended.  Once again no charge for dreaming. 

Take care, be safe and stay cool.  I look forward to our next chat. 

Raw-Dogging It

Morning … Hope that everyone is doing well on this Friday eve.  Yesterday evening I reflected back on what an awesome time I had last Wednesday.  From watching the movie to asking the cute guy out who turned out to be straight.  That was the most thrilled/excited/happy I have been in a while.  Shame I can’t bottle that feeling up so I could have a little bit of it every day.  You’d think that hearing the word no would have gotten me down but nope I was just thrilled that I took a shot and even though I didn’t get the results I was expecting I was quite proud of my accomplishment.  It takes some nerve/guts to ask a complete stranger out.  Normally I’d have butterflies in my stomach but not this time.  I was a tiny bit nervous but more interested in the outcome than anything. 

Anyway here we are a week and a day later and I am back to the old grind.  I got a new Windows 11 machine at work.  I finally had time to configure it and get it the way I wanted it yesterday.  I started using it this morning.  I still miss my Windows 10 machine but this is the way things are going so it’s just a matter of getting used to something different, despite not liking it.  I don’t know why but my machine came to me without any protection.  So I was raw-dogging it until this morning when I gave in and put on Anti-Virus protection.  I thought about just keeping it raw but with the amount of crap that I see everyday it would only be a matter of time before something malicious occurred and then I’d have to get another new machine and go through the configuration steps all over again.  I’m not the normal user as we don’t let just anyone configure their machine.  It’s one of the minor perks and professional courtesy's that I get.  Now I the only thing I have left to worry about it getting my laptop swapped out in the office.  Yes, I have two machines 1 virtual so that I can work from home and 1 laptop.  I should carry the laptop home and make it my primary machine as that is what the rest of my team does but I hate lugging a piece of equipment back and forth, plus the laptop is a small form factor and it’s nice if your moving around the office but to sit at a desk or anywhere and plug away for hours on end from a tiny screen, no thanks.  I’ve got a docking station in my office so that the experience is more like a desktop than a laptop with 2 monitors, it’s kind of nice.  I was supposed to get new monitors over a year ago but that never happened and I could honestly care less.  Especially considering that I spend the bulk of my time at home. 

The rain moved in last night and it poured all night long.  I watched as my neighbors gutter overflowed as I looked at mine, all clean and wide open flowing normally.  I know mine won’t stay that way forever but it’s nice to see while it lasts.  I got the chicken wire guards on but stuff manages to sneak past them.  No matter what kind of gutter guards you have there is some maintenance required, at least that is my understanding.  Guess that is why my mind is always in the gutter.  Yeah I know poor attempt at humor but I liked it!

Finished off the pizza from Sunday yesterday for supper.  Tonight I will be forced to open the freezer and fetch something frozen.  I’ve been eating pretty good for a while but just like going back to work, all good things must come to an end.  At least the weekend is in sight so I can dine out and get some better food (not necessarily healthier or better for me) than frozen.

I wracked my brain yesterday looking over my Google Chrome settings as to why it doesn’t permit me to login to the Adult Content Blogs and if it will permit me to login it won’t permit me to comment.  I really wanted to hit the reset to default button but I’ve got so many adjustments in Chrome that it would take longer to reconfigure.  My work around appears to be to use Duck Duck Go’s Browser, so far nothing but good luck with that.  I hate the Google makes you push so many buttons now to get into an Adult content blog, I understand the need for safety but it’s way more complicated than it needs to be.  However, that old saying you get what you pay for applies – it’s free so I suppose I shouldn’t complain.  But I just did :). 

Thursday’s are usually calmer days so I am hoping that is true today.  Thus far it is but it’s still very early in the day.  I hope that all is well in your world and that life is treating you well.  Not sure about you but I am very much looking forward to the weekend.  Take care!

Another hot guy

Woke up super early and fed the cats, came back to bed since I still have that luxury.  I am gonna miss that come next week.  Woke up a couple hours later and got moving. 

House cleaning was my #1 priority and I knocked it out.  I put off taking the trash out until later in the afternoon. 

I was waiting all day for a call from AT&T but it never came.  I believe I am down to 1 issue and once they fix that I should be good.  Just waiting to hear back and that probably won’t happen until next week. 

While I was waiting I dove back into OF and found a Male photographer that caters to porn stars.  Damn he’s really good and he’s worked with a lot of good looking guys.  He’s got plenty of photos and video on his site.  Oddly he came up in my feed because he was having a sale.  I went to get my monies worth. 

Things were moving along nicely and then all of a sudden my monitors shutdown it was as if my machine went to sleep or was in hibernation.  I have both of those features disabled as I want my machine up 24/7 unless I choose to power it off. I had to force power off and then power back up. 

Once I got everything back up I knew I had lost my place on his page so I would have to start over and I had already been on it for a couple hours.  Yeah when I said he’s got a lot of content I am not kidding. 

I went upstairs and got a shower and dressed.  I wanted a good meal and knew I was going to shell out some serious money but this was the last hoorah so might as well go out with a bang. 

I got on the road and made it there just in time for the doors to open.  I was the first customer.  I was hoping for some Italian food to be on the list of special items but nope I settled for my usual Chilean Sea Bass.  It was good but as if someone dumped in a salt shaker with the meal.  Had some Snickers cheesecake for desert and I was quite full when I left. 

There was this hottie working with the normal bar tender.  I found out that he will be working tomorrow night all by himself.  Blond hair, Blue Eyes, a little muscle and of course a nice butt.  My mouth was watering all through dinner and I took every opportunity to stare at him.  I worked up a little bit of a conversation.  I had an opening to ask him out but I chose to forego it.  Just like the last guy I had no idea if he was gay.  However, it came up that he was only going to be there for the next month and then he was leaving.  If he is leaving the area no sense in starting something that would only be temporary.  He might have got a better job up the street but I didn’t inquire and just assumed that he was leaving the area.  I kind of want to go back and ask but considering that for my meal with tip I spent $66 that would be quite the expensive venture for another nights supper.  It’s not that I can’t afford it, it’s that I don’t want to spend it. 

I’m cautiously optimistic that the air is right and that a guy will come along.  He may or may not be the right guy but I am willing to give a chance to someone that I am attracted to if they are willing to give me the same chance.  Fingers crossed that positive change is in the air!

I have not looked at work email but the desire is there.  It’s going to be there on Monday and I have all weekend if I want to peek.  I just don’t look forward at all to Monday.  I’ve also got a Dentist appointment so that will be how I spend my lunch.  I probably won’t hurry back home. 

We are in for some nice weather.  Today was sunny and in the upper 70’s.  I pushed the trash out about an hour ago and it was actually pretty comfortable.  Tomorrow and Sunday are supposed to be in the upper 80’s and all sunshine.  Here comes the heat.  Perhaps I can get out and spray the perimeter of the house for bugs.  I really don’t want the cats to eat any bug even though I know that they can. 

Rudy just jumped up in my lap and he is ready to nod off.  He loves sleeping in my arms but that does make it a little difficult to use the computer.  This will be his second nap in my arms today.  Mora has got in her snuggles, belly rubs and petting.  So neither of them is starving for attention. 

Well time to get back to it.  Hope that you had a great Friday and that your weekend is awesome.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Best Day in a long time

Today was the best day in a long time and the first day in a long time that I haven’t been home for the better part of the day.  It was quite refreshing. 

Not wanting to wait until later in the afternoon to see Mission Impossible The Final Reckoning, I opted to drive to a theater that was further away from my home.  It just happened to be next to the place that I had Nacho’s at yesterday. 

This theater had power leather recliners that you could adjust.  I sat in the row the furthest from the screen and I was up kind of high.  I was the first one in the theater and wow is all I can say.  It was comfy to the point where I got a bit drowsy.  The only thing that could have made the seat better was if it was a massaging recliner. 

Once the movie ended I had a game plan.  I went back to the same place to eat.  I was hoping I’d run into the cute waiter again.  I figured if I did it was fate and I would take a chance.  As soon as I walked in I saw him and I was quite happy.  He wasn’t my waiter but after I placed my order I walked up to him and we struck up a conversation.  He is super friendly and outgoing.  I asked him out and he told me that he had a fiancé.  I told him that he was super cute.  Our conversation ended on a friendly note and I returned to my table waiting for lupper to arrive. 

Next stop of all places was a funeral home.  A friend of mine’s father passed away weeks ago and she got the cutest eagle statue with an American Flag.  I called the funeral home while I was waiting on my food to arrive to see if I could purchase one of the statues.  I am a huge bald eagle fan.  In talking I expected to spend around $50.  When I arrived I was pleasantly surprised they gave me what I wanted for free.  I tried to pay them something but they wouldn’t take a dime.  I thanked them and I was tickled pink.  Thinking maybe just maybe things were turning around. 

Next stop was the dreaded AT&T store.  I figured that speaking to someone in person I could get the last two issues ironed out.  I spent 2 hours in the store and got no further than if I was at home on the phone.  In fact we called tech support and they told me to contact Apple to resolve my problems.  This is very much an AT&T issue and has nothing to do with Apple.  So the beat goes on.  I left disgusted robbed of two more hours of my life that I will never get back and no closer to a resolution than when I went in.  I did see a couple of cute guys while I was there so it wasn’t a complete waste. 

Next stop was the post office to fetch mail for the day and to mail a letter.  Then finally home.  I felt bad for the cats since I left around 10a and wasn’t home until 5:30p.  We were both happy to see each other.  I got some food going for them and here I am back at the keyboard. 

I called AT&T again talked with someone who told me that Tech Support should be able to remedy my issues and if they pass me off to another team insist that they stay on the phone so that the teams can sort things out and that might remedy my issues.  I’m waiting for a call back but honestly I don’t have high hopes.  They are either going to get my issue fixed or I am leaving.  I can’t continue to spend my days with AT&T.  I feel trapped and very helpless.  All I want is service working like it’s designed to with no band-aids. 

Looking forward to lunch tomorrow with my friend.  Here’s hoping I push myself away from the keyboard sooner rather than later tonight so I can relax with some TV and the cats.  I trimmed their claws last night and neither of them were happy about it.  Now I need to brush them both. 

Two work days left plus the weekend and then it’s back to the old bump and grind.  I’m quite proud of myself for asking the guy out, it was bold and felt good despite getting a no.  I kind of figured I would get a no and it’s okay.  I am sure I won’t be the only guy to hit on him he’s that cute.  Life is about taking risks – nothing ventured nothing gained!

I hope all is well.  Take care.

New You Tuber

I recently found a new You Tube channel that I like.  It’s called Closet Convos it’s run by a cute guy named Isaac.  He talks about his life in the closet, coming out and dating.  He’s super cute.  While anyone can watch I think his target audience is younger gay guys. 

Not sure if I have any younger guys that follow my blog but wanted to pass this along.  If you visit I hope that you like it as much as I do. 

 

The Weekend

Made it to the breakfast buffet.  It was truly a bust and I was disappointed, especially after driving a little over an hour to get there and looking so forward to it all week long.  The eggs were ice cold, the sausage links they had tasted odd but I ate them.  They had decent French Toast Sticks but no other flavor of syrup than maple so I ate them plain.  Hash Browns in a wedge kind of like you’d get from McDonald’s but way bigger.  Blueberry Muffins dusted with powered sugar.  There were a couple of egg casseroles I tried one of them and it was greasy, I saw sausage and thought it would be pretty good.  Turns out it was a locally made sausage cured in beer and it tasted God awful.  I wondered what I put in my mouth so I asked the waitress and she told me that everyone raves over it.  I told her that it was disgusting and she was surprised at my reaction.  Dropped $19.01 that included a tip and then headed home. 

Well not straight home, I went to my friends shop in hopes that they would know the crazy lady from the gas station but no luck.  Tried Cheeseburger Flavored Doritos and they were really good. 

While I was at the breakfast buffet my Thanksgiving friends reached out via text and I’ve arranged to meet them tonight for supper.  I came home from my friends shop and had the best intentions of taking a nap but called to setup dinner for tonight and wound up in a two hour phone conversation where we talked about everything from current happenings to my late spouse and his health.  It was a walk down memory lane and damn I really miss him!

I ventured out to Ruby Tuesday’s which is where I originally wanted to go on Friday.  They had a Garlic Lover’s Burger it sounded good but turns out it was Charbroiled and it tasted gross but I ate it.  At least I got some decent Tater Tots, haven’t had those in forever.  It was time to pay my bill and I heard the bar tender explaining a bill to a customer at the bar.  She went over and over saying the same thing.  Then she roped in my waitress and after a few times of hearing the same story I totally understood his bill way better than he did. He ordered a couple drinks and shots and wasn’t prepared for the cost, he thought he was being over charged.  He also got food.  The manager was involved and that’s when I asked the bar tender how much his bill was she said $80 and then corrected herself to say $60.  I told her I was going to offer to pay it just to shut him up but damn that was a little steep plus it involved liquor and I’m just not a fan of paying for someone’s habit.  I walked out and thought wow I probably dodged a bullet.  I love to help people and that is what seems to attract the crazy factor, at least in the last couple days. 

This morning I went out for breakfast as per usual.  I walked in and noticed it was oddly quiet and then I heard we have no power it will be two hours before it’s back on.  Damn I was really looking forward to breakfast.  I walked out and thought everything happens for a reason.  For the first time in over a year I went back to Cracker Barrel.  I not only saw the waiter I had a crush on and asked out, he was my waiter.  He remembered me and my drink order.  The menu has seriously changed but I knew what I wanted and ordered it.  He told me that he’s been traveling to California and he just bought a house.  Then he told me where he lived, general area and asked me again to refresh his memory where I lived.  He touched my shoulder and said it’s really good to see you again.  Fuck he looked as hot as ever.  I really want him not only sexually but as a friend.  However, I’ve done my recon work and not only is he in his early 20’s but he’s got a criminal record that’s pretty long and he has this habit of driving without a license and getting caught constantly.  He’s got a case pending now.  If it wasn’t for his criminal record I would continue to pursue him until he either told me to get lost or gave in and went out on a date with me.  I am sure that there is probably more to his criminal story that what I see on-line but it is truly a disappointment.  I was really counting on him going out with me some three years ago when I initially approached him but he told me he had school but he would for sure call me.  He plaid games and strung me along.  Yeah he broke my heart but that’s also why I haven’t been there in over a year.  I can’t shove my feelings aside for wanting him I just know that having it actually come to fruition is not only dangerous it’s probably just not happening.  I’m sure he’s still got my number and I have his, unless he’s changed it.  If he wants to make a move I’m willing to at least go on a date with him.  I’ve let him know many, many times that I am very interested, I think to the point where my desperation showed.  I just don’t get why he would tell me that he was interested and exchange numbers with me but not follow through, kind of wish that he would have just said no, that would have hurt but I’d be over it by now.  I’ve been thinking about him ever since I left Cracker Barrel and I know he’s going to be in my thoughts for a while.  Everything happens for a reason and I think I have dogged a pretty big bullet here but yet I keep putting myself in the line of fire over and over.  Guys and there good looks – I’m just a sucker and desperate at that.  Not desperate enough to just do a hookup though.  That’s why I’ve got such a porn addiction.  It’s been a little over a decade since I got laid and to say I’ve got the itch to fuck is quite the understatement.  It’s only getting worse the longer this goes on.  If I didn’t engage in self pleasure I would be in serious dire straights. 

Looking forward to seeing my friends and catching up as well as getting some advice from them.  I think I am going to talk with HR and let them know about the crazy lady not only for my own protection but for the sake of the business.  My telling them can only help both of us and if they opt to interview and hire her well then that’s on them.  I do want to preserve and protection my reputation.  I think that is the right thing to do and I will certainly think twice before I ever hand my business card to a complete stranger ever again. 

Thanks for stopping by and reading my yapping.  I hope your doing well and life is treating you well.  It’s back to work for me tomorrow and I don’t look forward to it at all but it’s a necessary evil to continue to keep on keeping on.  Cheers!

Sleep Issues

Hello and thanks for stopping by. I’ve been having some sleep issues. I will pass out at a decent hour but then after a few hours I am awake. Be it a call to the bathroom or the temperature in my room (I get hot at times under the covers and have a heat intolerance). To fix it I typically have to stay up for an hour and then I am drowsy and can go back to bed. Problem is that whatever time is left to sleep goes by way too fast. Usually if I am worried about something I run into trouble like this. I have had a few worries and a couple of long-time co-workers that just vanished was quite a shock to my system. I often worry or am bothered by things that are out of my control, yet I still worry as if that’s going to help things.

I thought that since we made it to the weekend that I could at least get a decent night’s sleep Friday night into Saturday. However, I woke up to use the bathroom and now suddenly I can’t go back to sleep, despite trying. What to do? Watch tv is my usual go to. Silly me I picked a movie out. Carry On from Netflix. It’s an action movie. Once I started that movie I couldn’t stop. It was a damn good movie and I was interacting with the TV as if my voice was somehow going to change the story line of the movie. I bothered the cats a little bit but they fell back to sleep like nothing ever happened. I should have stuck with a YouTube video or something mild. Normally I like to hear a podcast some talking will usually lull me back to a drowsy status.

I made an agenda for today last night and am proud to say that I accomplished everything. I got up early thanks to Rudy who wanted breakfast. Then I got a shower, put on some fresh clothes, threw on my hat & coat and headed out. First stop was fast food breakfast. Then to the post office and finally to get my haircut. It was cold out and pouring rain. Once I was done with all of that I came back home. Opened the mail and watched TV with the cats to pass the morning into early afternoon by. Then I left and headed into the office. Turns out this was my first time there in a month. I didn’t think it had been that long but the last time I was there was late October, according to the calendar in my office. I hung up a new calendar. Changed the day at a glance calendar that my employer provides. Passed out a couple of cards. Grabbed my water bottle and headed out. On to food, BBQ more specifically. I knew I had reward points and it saved me $6 so not a bad deal. Then last stop before returning back home was the pet food store.

I changed clothes and headed down to work on laundry and of course I had to pay some attention to Mora and give her a belly rub as I tried to work/play on the computer. Finances are taken care of. Caught up on email. Thinking about what to eat for breakfast.

Tomorrow is just the usual run morning errands of breakfast, grocery store and gas station. Then maybe out for a meal later in the day. After that I will be “trapped” here since I will be on-call next week. Working at home has its perks but I have zero social interaction and I wouldn’t have much if I went in. Driving in today in heavy rain made me appreciate the luxury that I have. I do feel better when I make it in though. I do think if I wasn’t on-call next week that I’d be in the office. However, unless something goes seriously wrong, I won’t set foot in the office until January 2025.

On a different front I found a hot guy on YouTube. He’s hot to me but might not appeal to you. He goes by the name Chariotz (@xxchariotz). He has some hot sex stories that are censored for YouTube. Turns out he’s got an Only Fans account. Last night I went exploring and found his profile on X (F/K/A Twitter). Damn he’s packing some wood and I am seriously thinking of paying the $5 for one month just to see his content. I haven’t pulled the trigger on that just yet. It’s tempting and I know that I will want to subscribe to more than just his channel. Kind of like opening the refrigerator when you’re hungry you grab a soda and a snack, next thing you know you’ve emptied out an entire shelf because it’s just so good. As you might imagine X is more explicit than YouTube and it’s honestly why I have an account there just for the porn clips and to keep up with some of my favorite porn stars. I need a man badly not only for companionship but for sex as well, that would certainly help keep my porn habit more under control. Chariotz is my type of guy, younger than me and sexy AF. While I am sure that if given a chance, we could have some chemistry in bed I don’t know that we would be compatible otherwise. That’s kind of the downfall of being into younger guys (late 20’s to 30’s). Not to mention his sexual history, his body count sounds like it’s way higher than mine, that is scary to me. However, I think if I was given a chance to repeat my youth again and my life went in a different direction my body count would probably be higher but I’m not ashamed of having a low body count.

On a different note, I just started listening to the audio book of Matt Rife’s called “Your Mom’s Gonna Love Me”. It’s pretty good thus far I am in Chapter 6 I believe. That is just from the running I did today. Might listen to more of that if I can’t find something of interest on TV. Audio books are so cool.

Well now it’s time to climb the stairs and go do my next least favorite activity of unloading and reloading the dishwasher. Then to search for something to watch on TV or perhaps look at what is on the DVR and play catch up as well as freeing up some disk space. Poor thing has tons of content. I just finished with the Thanksgiving Parade from last year, have yet to watch this years. Also have some Independence Day celebrations that I need to watch. Something about seeing fireworks in the winter sounds appealing to me. Watching a Thanksgiving Parade in the middle of July makes me feel good. I know it’s strange I never used to be like that but here I am.

Enough yapping I’m publishing this and then heading up. Hope all is well in your world. Stay warm and take care.

Get it yourself

I had my massage and got beat up pretty good.  I didn’t feel much afterwards but this morning it’s a whole different story.  My neck is what is bothering me.  I told her to only work on upper and mid back.  She worked the whole back and my ass.  I don’t get why people can’t follow directions. 

Afterwards I wanted to go out for a bite to eat but instead decided to grab the mail and come back home.  Thinking both of the left overs and my Amazon delivery. 

We passed the 6p mark and I called Amazon they told me that the package was for sure out for delivery with a driver and that it could be up to 10p before it arrived.  I stayed up until 2a on the couch watching TV and no Amazon driver ever surfaced. 

Don’t you know this morning the app said that my package appears to be lost and that if I didn’t want to wait I could request a refund.  I did request a refund.  I wasn’t happy about it either.  I went to a big box store and picked up a UPS this morning.  I paid way more than what Amazon was charging me but at least I had it physically in hand. 

Got that hooked up and topped off the charge on the battery.  It’s been sitting in a box since February according to the test report that came with it.  This unit has a 3 year warranty.  That makes me think that is their default period and I could pursue a warranty claim on the other unit, even though all it needs is a new battery.  However, there is boxing it up and shipping it.  Not sure if they make you pay for shipping or if it’s covered.  It sounds like a hassle because it is and I’m not bothering with it, which is exactly what they hope for. 

What kept me up until 2a.  Well I went down a rabbit hole on YouTube.  It suggested a video about a kid having a meltdown because his parents took away his World of Warcraft subscription.  It’s like 15 years old and I watched it and then just one after another after another.  I got caught up on these and subscribed to the channel.  Damn that kid needed to have his ass kicked 7 ways to Sunday.  If I would have done any of what he did I would have been smacked around.  It was both sad and fun to watch.  I just couldn’t help myself I had to go to the next one.  The cats cried because they lost out on cat nip and play time but they lived. 

I didn’t want to get up this morning for my haircut but I did.  Just didn’t shower.  I’ve slept for the biggest part of the day, which is no surprise.  I’ve been out for lupper had Mexican food from a place that I grew up with.  Forgot to tell them that I didn’t want any Guac (aka Green Slime) I know a lot of people love the stuff but not me.  By the time I realized that I had my food.  I ate it but it just wasn’t as enjoyable.  I also felt way full long before I normally would.  I kept going though and got all of the meat consumed.  Just as I was leaving someone placed an order for a Chocolate Shake.  Damn that sounded so good, perhaps I’ll try it next time. 

Now that I’m home for the day, working on laundry, finances and of course porn.  Then it will be up to take care of dishes, make the bed and watch TV.  Nothing special planned for tomorrow.  It’s my last free day and then it’s back to the grindstone and on to what I hope will be a calm on-call week.

Hope your weekend is going well. 

Sunday

Went to bed a little bit later than normal time and I really didn’t want to get up this morning. I managed to wake up on my own. No alarm clock and no cat. Slept with Rudy last night he was all snuggled up with me and when our eyes met this morning he perked right up as per usual and started making biscuits. Reluctantly I got out of bed and made my way to the kitchen to crack open a can of food for him and his sister. Heard the alert tone for the back deck camera and peeked outside. It was a squirrel that set it off. I didn’t know what to expect but glad that’s all it was.

Made my way to the bathroom to grab my meds and then to the bedroom to get dressed. I was off on my mission for breakfast. Had a Hamburger with an Egg and some fries. It was okay but not enough to satisfy my longing for McDonald’s. Nothing tastes like MCD except for the real thing. Anyway, I saw a cute guy this morning. He was with a female not sure if it was just a friend or his mom. Seeing him just spoke to me. I thought about using my usual trick to grab breakfast for him and his guest but just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I though about how I could tell him how cute or sexy he looked but also envisioned that possibly not going as well as I hoped it would. He got up to leave and damn the lower half looked just as good as the upper half. I wished I would have made a move but who knows our paths might cross again. He kind of looked familiar like I saw him there before. I know you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take, something held me back lord knows it wasn’t my hormones.

I made my Target run, got everything on my list and of course one of the things I thought I needed I don’t. I suppose it’s better to have extra than to not have at all.

Walked into the grocery store and came across a really fine-looking guy pushing a baby with his wife. He had to be in his late 20’s to early 30’s. We managed to stay in each other’s view for a while. I could follow him all day long and not buy a damn thing. I managed to skip the cookie isle because I was looking for Braunschweiger. I looked last week and no luck. This week I found it on a top shelf all by itself. Just had a craving for it. I got a small log of it, which is way more than I need but I’ll be munching on it during the week.

I felt rushed in the store like I couldn’t get out of their fast enough. There was no urgency in leaving I just managed to hit the high points and get out. Not sure what that was about. Went on a ride afterwards to check on my neighbor’s new house. It’s coming right along. Noticed a large swimming pool in the back yard full of water and it looked so inviting. I am hoping they will be moving out soon but their present house is not for sale yet. They can’t be gone fast enough for me.

Stopped off for gasoline and wow the vehicle was thirsty for gasoline, 9 gallons worth. Then came home and unloaded and put everything away. Both cats wanted to get in my way, which is kind of normal when I come home. Mora hogs the door way and doesn’t want to let me inside but at the same time she’s happy to see me. Felt really good walking into the house as the AC had been running and it was starting to get hot. It’s a heat wave for sure and there are a few people out and about but they are either at it early in the morning or much later in the evening. You don’t see anyone during the day.

I relaxed and watched a podcast with the cats. I felt pretty good but laying down sounded so good. I snuggled up next to Rudy and he just ran his motor on low and loved me giving him attention and being so close. Eventually my arm fell asleep and I had to move. After a while I felt the drowsiness coming on and managed to snap out of it. The podcast ended and that’s when I turned off the TV and rolled over. I was out for about a half hour. Felt really nice and woke up right next to Rudy.

I got out of bed and headed for the kitchen. Time to put out my medicine for the week ahead which is never a fun task. Then I opted to work on house cleaning and taking out the trash. The vacuum caused the cats to scatter and peek out at me like we were playing a game of hide and seek.

That brings me to now. I need to grab my laundry from the dryer and head up to put things away. The rest of the day is absolutely free and wide open. Thinking about supper I am wanting to go to a different Mexican place just because the food tastes better. I get something different at almost every Mexican place I go but when I find the one dish that I like when I am at that place it’s what I order. I feel exhausted and want to make the trip but think about the heat and wonder if I might be better off staying close to home. I’ve got a bit to sort that out, one thing is for sure I will not be going hungry.

Last night I found myself searching for a new Eye Doctor. I’m lucky in that I have two different eye care insurance plans I fall under. There’s the plan that my spouse left me which 100% covers the cost of the exam but they pay next to nothing for glasses. There isn’t a whole lot of providers to choose from. Then there is the plan from work they have a base plan that everyone gets by default for free. They have expanded coverage which is generous for frames, lenses and coatings. The cost of the exam is a co-pay of $15. The plan costs me $9 per month which isn’t bad at all. They have a ton of providers to choose from. I’ve not been happy with my choice for an eye doctor for a while and finding someone who I like seems to be quite the task. I’m not looking for a salesman to push a bunch of supplements, run a bunch of useless tests and try to drain my wallet for nothing more than greed. I’m looking for someone who is good at their profession, has decent people skills, who will help me with the eye issues that I face and carries Nike frames. I don’t think I am unreasonable with my expectations but it seems to be a game of trial and error. The last guy I have seen for two years gives me the choice to have my eyes dilated or to use photos. I go with the photos because we review them together. People skills are lacking and they have no on-line portal which you can see your records but you can make appointments on-line. I’m still in my search but I think I might have found a place. The original guy I had before his staff decided one day arbitrarily that my account was past due and started harassing me uses both the photos and dilation, he had great people skills and worked with me on my eye issues. However, when you tell me that I didn’t pay a bill that I know I paid it messes up our relationship and that’s why I left, despite apology after apology from them. The eyes are the gateway to the soul. They also can reveal so much about health and I’d like to be able to continue to see and know that my eyes are in good shape. Hence the yearly checkup but I am growing tired of searching to find a provider that I can call mine and end this seemingly endless search. Here’s hoping it all comes together. It’s one of the tasks that I’d like to knock out while I am on vacation.

Thanks for stopping by, I hope that you’re enjoying your weekend and that life is treating you well.

Finally

Morning … My hard drive shipped yesterday actually and should be here on Wednesday.  I am happy that it’s on the way as I’d like to get the whole restoring of my files on the road.  It’s not exactly going to be a fun process. 

In my efforts yesterday checking on things I managed to find a lighting deal on bed sheets.  Now I’ve got an additional order that is coming on Wednesday.  Ordered a Black set and a Red set.  They had several interesting colors and patterns.  I’m not much about patterns and more about solid colors. 

Rinsing out my cereal bowl this morning I saw the groundhog sitting on the deck.  I peeked around for his kid but didn’t see anything.  Not sure if the kid left home or if it was just a baby visiting.  Rudy was watching and it didn’t seem to bother him at all.  Mora would have been a bit more upset or so I think. 

I got to the point last night I was bored and tired.  It was about a half hour prior to bed time and I figured why not play with the cats and get that out of the way.  They loved it.  I wore them out and we spent the most time ever in playing with this toy of ribbon on a stick that I got.  They both love the damn thing and I have a backup for when they destroy this one.  I figured it would be good to get this out of their system.  Don’t you know Mr. Rudy came in and started crying while I was brushing my teeth which means that he wanted to play.  He whined and whined about it but I didn’t give in.  Eventually he curled up in bed and settled down.  I explained to him that we already had play time.  I know he wanted more but I was tired. 

Slept pretty good until the early morning around 5a when my bladder wanted me to get up.  I ignored it and pushed it off until I got woke up again at 6a.  This time it was my bladder and Rudy.  I staved them both off until about 10 minutes before 7 and just threw in the towel.  I got my relief first before I passed out breakfast for Rudy to start munching on. 

This is the weekend of my High School Reunion.  Much like they did 5 years ago we are getting a campus tour in the morning.  Part of me wants to go but part of me says what could have changed in 5 years that is that drastic and remarkable that you need to see it.  It’s the only free event that is offered.  There is a pre-reunion on Friday that costs and involves drinking.  The reunion it’s self costs to go but they are including a meal.  I said last time that the next one I’d go but damn I remember how alone I felt not only back in high school but 5 years ago when I went for the campus tour.  I saw a few people I knew and we had a decent group.  Still there was very little interaction with me and I felt like I was a stranger in a large crowd.  I hate that feeling.  I haven’t fully decided about the campus tour but as for the rest of it there is no way I am going.  I know that photos will come out afterwards and that will probably make me wish I did things differently.  It’s not about the money it’s about the fact that most of those people won’t give me the time of day.  High School wasn’t really a great experience for me.  I wish that I could go back in time and do it all over again to get what I hope would be a better experience but it’s a wish and not a reality. 

At least I’ve got Rudy & Mora to keep me company here and we are each others worlds.  Still holding out hope that I will meet a human friend or two and get a companion but the longer that I go single the longer I think that is the way it’s going to stay.  Not that I am not looking or trying I just seem to be attracted to straight guys or guys who aren’t interested. 

Yesterday was a decent day and I hope that today follows suit.  My vacation for next month was approved.  I went to cancel all of the junk that was scheduled for that week and damn if something didn’t go wrong and I wound up wrecking my calendar for this week.  I’ve put it back together as best I can but it wouldn’t surprise me if I miss something.  Here we go with Tuesday.  Hope yours is a good one!

Sunday

Typical Sunday here.  Had a Carmel Apple Pancake for breakfast.  Topped with Pecans and a cream cheese drizzle.  Made my Target run and I was so early there that self checkout was the only option.  I hate self checkout unless I’ve got one or two items.  Which in this case I did not but managed to find all of the barcodes and get them scanned.  Then was off for my grocery store run.  Scored 2 Chicken Cesar Wraps which made me profoundly happy.  I love a good Cesar Salad and getting it in a wrap makes it that much neater and quicker to consume. 

Came home to nosy Mora greeting me at the door.  If it’s not her it’s her brother that always seems to be in the way.  Last night she almost got her tail stepped on when I was passing out treats.  I had boots on and that wouldn’t have been pretty.  I swear that one of these cats is going to be responsible for me falling and possibly breaking a bone.

I digress I managed to haul everything I bought inside and get it put away.  One of the new things I got was a Clorox Toilet Wand starter kit.  Damn this thing works better than a conventional toilet brush and allows you to really get in and do a deep scrub.  For $10 and some change not a bad deal.  It came with 6 pads and a neat holder for the wand and refills.  I found a new way to clean the toilet!

Took my morning nap.  Mora has taken to laying in what used to be Gator’s bed in my room.  She liked it when she first moved in here and managed to hide a toy mouse there.  This is the first time in a long time that she has occupied that bed for several days while I am sleeping.  It’s barely big enough to hold her. 

As you probably guessed I am working on laundry.  Already done with my cleaning.  Lunch was tasty, several chocolate glazed donut holes.  Not the best choice but it’s what I had. 

Tossing around where to go for supper.  I’d like to get a pizza and do some guy watching but honestly I’ve got a craving for a place that I know is super busy on Sunday because they have an all your can eat Fried Chicken Special.  That’s where I am thinking of going.  I’m going to try to eat early in the hopes I will catch them in between the lunch and supper crowd with the thought hat perhaps I can get in and out quickly.  If that fails then I’ll probably just go to the nearby BBQ place, although pizza and guy watching is quite appealing. 

It’s another blistering hot ass day outside with air quality alerts and a heat advisory.  I’m putting off spraying the exterior for pests until next weekend, perhaps it will cool down a little by then.  Watch my luck it will rain all next weekend.  I’ll make sure the job gets done.  Just thankful for AC and a place that is all mine to stay out of the elements. 

Really not looking forward to going back to the grind tomorrow.  I made my adjustments to my retirement account.  I’d really like to have changed up my investment mix but the site is overly complicated and everything seems to be hidden.  It took me five minutes to find the spot where to click to adjust my contribution.  I just despise that website.  I might try the app on my phone and have better luck but probably not.  I suppose some bean counter decided that saving for retirement should be overly complicated, when actually it’s pretty straight forward.  Sure wish that I had a pension to fall back on in addition to what I have saved. 

All’s quiet here both cats are sleeping and I really need to get up to move what is in the washer to the dryer but as soon as I move one or both of them will wake up.  I long for these moments but hate the fact that the least littlest thing will wake them up and then it’s pester daddy time. 

Here’s hoping that I come across some good looking guys to drool over and who knows maybe start a conversation if I am really lucky.  I’ve got a better chance of eating some good food but I still hold out hope.  God please bring me a good looking, stable guy.  I need to get laid and have someone to talk to that will answer me back.  That’s my prayer for the day. 

Take care, stay hydrated and cool.  Thanks for dropping by!

In The Middle Again

Happy middle of the week again!  Two more days to go after today.  Had some amazing pasta from Rao’s last night.  It was more like Mostaccioli but they called it something different and it was made with spicy Italian Sausage.  For a frozen dish this was superb!  I only wish their portions were a bit larger.  I plan to keep buying this brand as they produce good quality.  Having their lasagna tonight and looking forward to it. 

I decided to make some filter adjustments in the dating app and removed that I wanted a LTR.  Wow that changed things for me.  I suddenly had a bunch of guys to choose from.  Thus far still no matches or decent prospects.  I just don’t think I’m going to meet anyone from an app.  It matters not if I give them money or not.  Of course I think that if you don’t pay their are bots or models that target you to try to entice you into paying.  I still think my best shot will happen when I am in public.  It would be awesome if a guy would ask me out but that’s never happened.  I’m always the one asking and getting shot down.  I know woe is me.  I know I’m not the only person in the world this has happened to but it is not any fun. 

More storms pushed into the area.  It all started with high winds.  That drove the cats crazy to hear the wind blowing heavy, their ears perked up more than once and it even woke them from one of their many naps.  As the evening was winding down I was getting into the shower when the rain started falling.  Apparently things got worse overnight but by the looks of things this morning you can’t tell the difference. 

I had some hot sex dream that involved my late spouse.  Kind of crazy considering he’s been gone for many years.  I do dream about him but this was the first sex dream with him in a very long while.  I felt semi-lucid, it was just an odd but hot experience.  Reality always slaps me in the face when I wake up with the truth that I am alone and I hate when that happens.  This dream happened after my insomnia kicked in at 3a and I was up for a while just tossing and turning in bed.  Rudy kept me company but wouldn’t snuggle with me.  He put the tip of his paw on my hand and that’s all I remember before I was back in dream land. 

Needless to say I woke up feeling a bit strange and not wanting to get out of bed.  However, between the sunshine in my eyes and Rudy moving about the bed making biscuits I just had to get up.  I’ve never in my life seen a cat so happy in the morning.  I don’t know if it’s breakfast that he enjoys so much or if it’s just seeing me alive and awake again.  It’s kind of tough to stay in a bad mood in the morning with him around. 

Breakfast was over and Rudy was still all keyed up, he wanted to play.  He got aggressive with me and I gave it right back to him.  He didn’t quite know what to do with that.  I was able to get dressed and down my morning pills.  About that time the Lawn Guys showed up it was just after 7a that’s pretty early to mow.  I’m sure some of my neighbors got the rude wake up call.  I know it wouldn’t make me happy to get woken up that way but I do suppose there are worse wake up calls.  I grabbed my water bottle and shoved off to the basement.  Rudy got in a couple more licks before I finally headed down.  He’s just a ball of energy sometimes. 

I had to go back up after about 15 minutes to use the restroom.  Both cats were waiting for me.  By now the lawn guys were gone and I opened the blinds so the cats can have a free view of the back yard.  I headed back down and resumed working. 

I had made it through my morning tasks and was surfing the web to fill time.  Some works stuff came in and I had just switched back to start on it, when I heard the cats going at it upstairs.  Mora loves to scream when Rudy attacks her.  For some reason he loves to back her into a corner and that’s when the claws come out.  I quickly headed up and Rudy met me at the top of the steps.  His tail was all fluffed out and I picked him up and asked him what he did in a stern voice.  He just looked at me with this evil look on his face.  As if I was going to attack him.  I set him down and then went to check on Mora.  She was fine just pissed.  I got everyone calmed down and told them to behave.  I guess that’s how Rudy got rid of his morning energy.  They go at it a couple times over the course of a week.  I suppose it’s just sibling rivalry.  They can be the best of friends or the worst of enemies.  Most of the time they exist peacefully but it’s never totally dull around here unless they are both sleeping. 

Some work poured in this morning and I was able to delegate it, that felt good.  It’s not like I wanted to work today.  I’ve already got something in the hopper to take care of.  One dumb meeting just before lunch and hopefully it will remain silent or semi-silent, fingers crossed. 

Looking forward to getting through today and hopefully enjoying a nice peaceful evening.  Hope you can do the same.  Take care!

Knowledge is power

Hello one and all, hope that your having a great Saturday.  I got my haircut today and that went okay.  Got the usual lack luster shampoo but the price I paid is why I keep going back, it’s dirt cheap.  I could change from a barber to a stylist and I’d get a better shampoo.  The shampoo is everything to me, in case you hadn’t figured that out.  It’s not about finger nails digging in my scalp it’s about pressure from fingertips, that is what I enjoy and my late grandmother is the one who got me hooked on shampoos, you can’t have anything done to your hair without washing it, it’s the best part.  I’ve done a haircut and shampoo for as long as I can remember being an adult.  Rarely have I skipped on the shampoo, if I did I came home and washed my hair on my own.  Back when I was a teenager and spiked my hair that’s when I was introduced to professional products.  Paul Mitchell and Sebastian are my favorites.  Sebastian used to make some great smelling shampoos.  Today I like their Drench line, it does a good job.  As for Paul Mitchell I like the original Tea Tree, feeling that tingle is nice.  The longer you work it in your scalp the more the tingle.  They also make Tea Tree Bar Soap and that feels amazing and really tingles in your nether regions.  They used to make a Awapuhi in a Bar Soap, that was nice.  Shampoo #1 smells great as well if you like Coconut and want a gentle clean.  The Awapuhi shampoo is good, it’s a rich lathering shampoo that smells amazing and they don’t make a conditioner though.  You can go with their leave in called The Conditioner.  It’s fancy blue lotion and you can put it most places on your face and body in addition to your hair.  I got one of my colleagues hooked on Awapuhi Shampoo, he never knew that professional products make a difference not only in how your hair feels but how it looks.  For clarity this isn’t a sponsored post, it’s just stuff I’ve used and enjoy. 

I went to see my friends.  Today I learned what goes into painting a car.  Damn lots of colors you have to mix to get the final color for the vehicle your are painting, plus there are items to apply before to ensure the paint sticks to the surface.  None of it smells good either.  They do a really good job and have done paint and body work on my vehicles for years when I happen to get into a fender bender.  I’ve learned various things when it comes to vehicles and it’s all interesting stuff.  I’m not really a car buff but it’s interesting to see what goes into the repair side as well as how vehicles run. 

I spent hours on my feet walking back and forth from all of the steps involved.  That aggravated my lower back.  I came home and took a nap which helped me but I am still a little sore.  That’s the problem with getting old, you don’t spring back as quickly as you once did. 

After my nap I grabbed the cats food.  More cat nip and a feather toy.  Wound up with a $80 total but had a coupon that knocked it down to $60 so not a bad deal at all.  They have plenty of food and I could have limped another week if I needed to.  I like to keep a decent supply just in case. 

Mora and her ping pong balls.  The toy that had 3 balls when it was new now has 1 ball.  The pink one is lost.  The yellow one she was forever knocking out and chasing around the house.  For some reason she likes the green one and hasn’t dislodged it yet but give her time I’m sure it will happen eventually.  She was all over the feather toy that I brought home.  It’s got a small bell tied to it and she is a chewer so I’ll be cutting that off so she doesn’t chew it off.  I think given the opportunity she could try to swallow the bell.  Got to keep them out of mischief in order to save my sanity and wallet. 

Had my evening meal at the pizza place.  Tried something new and it was damn good.  Saw the cute guy that I have the crush on.  He’s letting his hair grow long and he looks like a tall shaggy dog, nothing a pair of clippers can’t fix.  It’s nice to look but damn I am long over due for touching. 

Speaking of which I checked out a dating app yesterday called Archer.  It seemed neat from the promo material I saw.  They tout that everyone is verified with a face photo scan.  I hate filling out the profiles, never quite know the right words and it kind of makes me feel a little cheap for trying to sell myself.  I browsed around a little bit.  One hottie that is close by but the majority of the guys were 99 plus miles away.  No thanks, I deleted my account faster than I was able to create it.  I’m probably going back in for a dive on a dating app and that means being comfortable on whatever app I choose then paying for it as one last hoorah just to see if I can find someone.  Yeah I’m horny AF but hence why I have porn or I would have gone out of my mind a long time ago.  I am looking for companionship, someone to enjoy life with and hang out.  Sure I’ll want to sleep with them as well but for me companionship is where it starts, if we can click and are getting along we can build from there.  I’m not the kind of guy who jumps into bed on the first date. 

It’s time again to turn the furnace off and flip on the AC.  The humidity has seriously increased along with the overall temperature.  We had a little rain today but the severe weather that was in the forecast bypassed us.  Now they are saying it may hit tomorrow.  All I want is for the rain to stop, things to dry out and then I am going to climb on a ladder and clean out my back gutters.  There is one at the front of the house that needs some attention as well.  Looks the something built a nest in it.  It’s not a task that I look forward to and have thought about farming it out and paying someone but the searching drives me nuts, getting bids and the whole process.  By the time I do that I can just as easily get my fat ass on a ladder and hopefully not fall.  The back is the easy part the front gutter is the challenge where the true danger lies. 

Well we’ve all been down here in the basement and it’s a cool 72 compared to the 80 degrees it is upstairs.  The cats are tag teaming and ganging up on me.  They want to go upstairs.  I say go I can stay down here for a while longer but they follow me and cling to me like glue.  So they beg and pester until I give in.  I can only imagine how my work day would be if I permitted them down here when I was working, that would be a complete disaster. 

Alas I will give in, switch some laundry around and head up.  Tomorrow I’m having breakfast out, hitting up Target and the grocery store.  Then stopping to fill up the fuel tank and then coming home.  Depending on the weather and what food I buy I may or may not eat out for supper.  I’m leaning towards the Mexican place that is close by, it’s a meal full of flavor and it’s so good, why not is what I say.  It’s the little pleasure that I enjoy although dining out alone is also getting old, I’m quite used to it but it would be more fun to carry on a conversation with someone. 

Thanks for reading my blathering, take care and have a great evening. 

The Weekend

Since Monday is going to be a super busy day for me. I figured I would get a jump and document the weekend so you would have something to read while I am buried in work.

Hope you had a nice relaxing weekend and all is well.

Saturday … Woke up early thanks to Rudy, he was persistent and gave me a couple forehead washes to get me out of bed after biscuits didn’t do the trick. I got up and fed him and his sister. Then back to my room to watch TV. I was wired and going back to bed is what I wanted to do but I knew my body wouldn’t permit me to return to a sleep state. Watched more of The Resident. Had breakfast around 9a and then wound up climbing back into bed around 10:30a. Managed to sleep with both cats next to me. They clamored for who got to be the closest to me and Mora won just because of her size, she sat on her brother and he honestly didn’t seem to mind.

Woke up around 12:30p and had a couple cookies and a soda. Watched more TV. The sun was shining and it was starting to heat up outside but I wanted no part of that. Eventually around 1:30p I got up and showered. Got dressed and left the house.

Hit up the cat food store where I once again spent way too much money. Grabbed the mail. Been dying to see a particular piece of mail that showed up last week in my informed delivery and I reported I didn’t get it. Informed Delivery showed me another photo and that it was supposed to be in my box on Wednesday. Once again it was not there and I’ve already reported it again. Perhaps it will surface next week but I am not holding my breath.

After that I opted to go back to grab a full-size Mexican pizza. The salsa didn’t have the same bite to it as it did last week. However, the pizza was still just as tasty. As I was getting ready to leave, I saw the guy that I have been wanting to see. He still works there. Hopefully, with summer ahead I will see more of him. Got a nice rear end view and that just made me hungry for a man.

Funny thing I downloaded Bumble last night and started to go through the process I said I’d give it one last try but filling out my profile it just all seemed next to impossible, like I knew I was wasting my time. I gave up and deleted my profile. I can always enroll again later. I was set to pay for a subscription but looking at their prices, ouch way more than what I wanted to spend.

The more I watch The Resident and see people die in the show, the more I think that it’s time for me to move on. It feels odd because I’ve never done this before. However, the thought of dying alone is not appealing to me and the longer I wait the less desirable I think I will be. I know what I want from a body and age perspective but I think that I will have to make some compromises. Then again love might just find me instead of me looking for it.

Being alone has its advantages but I’d like to try to occupy my life with a guy. I know it would change my entire world and how I spend my time. However, I would still have some control. I’ve got plenty of pent-up physical needs and while I want to act those out with a guy, I am more interested in companionship and clicking, if that happens, I am confident that everything else will fall into place.

Logged on to Classmates dot com, peeked at a year book the year after I graduated. Also looked at a more recent year book and man I can see the changes. Way more clubs and organizations. A Gay Straight Alliance being one of them, never had that when I was in school. In many ways I think High School is more difficult now than it was back in my day but in other ways I see benefits that kids have now that I didn’t have back then. It was an interesting journey. The site wants money and tries to sell you year books but you can get by for free as long as all you are doing is browsing. I think the charge may apply if you want to interact with others. I’ve got no interest in doing that. In fact, yet another reunion is around the corner later this year. I wished I went to the last one it looked like fun from the photos. I just know how lonely I felt in school as a kid, when I went for a tour of the campus a few years ago with others from my class I felt that same feeling creep back. It’s like I was welcome but I wasn’t part of the in crowd, which caused me to feel all alone. Thinking of that I have no plans to attend any reunion. Lots has changed since High School and I am way smarter now than I was back then. I’m just moving forward.

It’s a sweatbox upstairs and the cats are not happy that we are in the basement. It’s in the 70’s down here and it’s 81 upstairs. If I could get those temps to equal out upstairs then I’d be all set to run back up there. I know I will be headed up eventually. Looking forward to watching more TV and dozing off. Got to take care of the dishes first and I dread that task, even though a machine does all of the hard work.

Sunday … Tried to sleep in but Rudy didn’t permit that for very long. I wound up brushing him off of me and got clawed, which got me out of bed. He got his breakfast. I got dressed and headed out for Chocolate Chip Pancakes. They were not nearly as good as I expected them to be. Very dry and little chocolate sauce on top. I’ll stick to Double Blueberry it is much better. Then on to the grocery store. Had a jar of peaches vacuum sealed from the store that I bought two weeks ago. The date on the outside said best by 08 April. They have never been opened and look perfectly fine. I figured I would just not tempt fate and picked up a fresh jar. When I was checking out, I asked the cashier her thoughts and she stammered and really didn’t give me an answer. She didn’t think I wanted the fresh jar I just picked up and I told her that I wanted it. I never looked at the date on the new jar, just figured it was different. When I got home and was putting everything away, I peeked at the date and damn if it doesn’t say best by 08 April. No wonder she was confused and if I would have paid more attention, I would have never bought that jar. Damn looks like I have to pay closer attention. Now I have two jars and the peaches look fine. I’m going to crack one of them open and gobble some down provided they taste okay, which I expect they will. I am just disappointed the grocery store would sell something with a best by date of 08 April on 14 April.

Had to break out the steam cleaner and fix a cat mess. Carpet looks good as new and it took just a couple minutes since it was a couple spots. The cats looked at me funny. Then I retired to my room where it’s still humid and the ceiling fan is on. Today is going to be another warm day. Watched a You Tube video and then went back to The Resident and after a while I got tired so I went back to bed. In getting up that kind of woke me up but still I laid in bed with the cats. Mora came and I got to give her a big hug, which we both enjoyed. Then she settled at the end of my feet. I watched more TV and eventually opted to try to nap. I think I got 15 or 20 minutes maybe. The phone went off and since I am on-call I wanted to know what came in. It was just a piece of spam, which I suppose is a blessing but also a curse since I was napping. I got up and put out my medicine and cleaned the cats water fountain. They always go looking for water the moment I take it away, never have figured that one out.

Back to the basement to dry the laundry I washed yesterday. It’s about done so I will be headed back up and going to get some trash out and vacuum. Thinking of grabbing dinner at a local Mexican place it just sounds good. It’s either that or pasta and honestly Mexican will just taste better.

I want to go in to the office one day this week. However, I think of the parking situation in the garage with construction and how parking is limited now and that just makes me want to stay at home, despite being free from on-call as of Monday. If I don’t go in that would be three weeks in a row that I have been at home. Tuesday doesn’t look the greatest although I might make it. Wednesday seems to be a lighter day and I think I might be able to make that work better. If both of those days pass by and I haven’t made it in, then there is no chance that I will go in on a Thursday or Friday. It’s not like anyone will miss me since I am still working just not physically in the office.

Okay scheduling this to post on Monday morning. Take care and thanks for stopping by.