Last night I got a scathing e-mail from the Bankruptcy attorney who is obviously not happy with me. He said that my partner had committed fraud by placing the house in a trust. What he fails to realize is that the trust was created years before he knew that one day he would have to file Bankruptcy. Then he went on to tell me how my behavior and actions were hindering the case and that he has thought long and hard about filing a motion to be removed as the attorney of record. He basically said fuck you, fuck off and leave me alone or else I will file a motion and get removed. Without actually saying those words.
That has set me off, I want to write him back and politely tell him to go screw himself that I don’t need him. However, getting another attorney in place would probably prove difficult since my partner has passed away. Bankruptcy caters to the living and not the dead. Meaning that if the Debtor has died it’s difficult to do anything as the executor or personal representative. However, that said I am making a phone call to find out about hiring another attorney and seeing what it would cost. Reason being is that the language he used was a threat and he said I haven’t yet. Which leads me to believe that at some point he will file the motion and then I will be scrambling. I’d love to see him disbarred but I doubt that will happen.
I understand that my questions are a bit annoying but then again I’ve not been through a Chapter 13 Bankrupcy and I have not lost the love of my life before. So this is uncharted territory to me and I might ask the same thing over and over in different ways. Plus he thinks I am complaining that I can’t afford payments to try to skirt the system. I am not a wealthy man, I am living paycheck to paycheck. if a paycheck stops then I am in serious trouble. I have no qualms about paying for the house, other than the payment is a bit steep and I woud like it lowered. I do have issues with paying his Bankruptcy because it’s a debt that is NOT mine.
But for the fact that I am making the payments to the Bankruptcy and to the Mortgage company the vulchers would move in and take everything they could. Is it any wonder why I want to kill myself? This bastard has not taken into consideration the pain and anguish that I am feeling, much less the loneliness and the void in my life.
I need to fire him and find a different attorney, just like I need a new job. It’s all about a fresh start. I am ready for the Good Times to begin because I have been through the bad.
I know that into every life a little rain must fall but it’s like a typhoon that never ends in mine. I honestly can’t take much more before I just throw caution to the wind and resort to trying to end my life. It seems to be the fastest way to releif from the pain in this world, all though I will be in for a lot more in the after life if I follow through.
The word for today is FUCKED without lube, love or care life is just shoving it in deeper and deeper until I scream uncle. Ask for help, you get none. Ask for a break and you get it harder. Why??
As you ponder that I will begin my work day. The only good news I have is at least it’s Friday!