Going down the tubes

I was doing okay when I woke up.  I got a shower and headed out to the post office.  I wanted to get the mail, get cat food and then go see a movie.  As soon as I got the mail my plans changed.  I was denied for Food Stamps because my household makes too much money.  Really?  I’m on unemployment.  Turns out from the on line tool I found out I make $10 too much per week to qualify.

The unemployment people sent me a letter and I have an interrogation with them on Thursday.  They will be calling me to see if I am still eligible to collect unemployment.  I’m thinking this will take the place of the reporting in every 4 weeks, which will actually be nice if that is the case.  I can deal with a phone call. 

I heard back from a recruiter who wants me to send her references, then she will set up a meeting with her boss and they will present me to a client.  As soon as I heard this it was a HUGE turn off.  It spells time waster to me, just based on past experience.

Last night I lit up the place with a black light.  It glowed like you wouldn’t believe.  If I was cleaning up blood instead of cat urine this would have been a crime scene.  The problem appeared to be solved.  Then I woke up this morning and the odor was back.  Big Boy went on a spot in the living room carpet and I was on top of cleaning it up but apparently it left behind some residual odor.  I got out the steam cleaner and I think the problems is solved.  The bladder on the cleaner broke, so I have to see if it’s covered by warranty or figure out how to purchase a replacement. 

I made Hamburger Helper and put in way too much water.  However, it was good.  Then relaxed for a bit and came down to see what jobs I could apply for.  I saw Big Boy on his back, which means he is totally comfortable.  Him and his brother love to fall asleep that way.  Anyway I bent down to touch his belly and that foul odor came back.  Big Boy needed a bath.  Luckily I have some waterless shampoo.  I used that on him and he smells much better, plus he actually enjoyed his bath. 

My therapist called today to say that she still has no news on billing and that I could be on the hook for the visits.  I am going to dig into this from my end.  I suspect I will have to pay a substantial amount, so unless I find out otherwise my plan is to make my next session my last.  Just settle up with her and call it a day. 

I don’t understand how I fall on hard times and I keep getting kicked.  How much is one person to take?  Ask for help and you run into more problems and even told no.  I’m telling you it won’t take too much more before I just check out, the hell with it all. 

Now up to watch Rookie Blue and hope that there is a hot and steamy sex scene with Gregory Smith in it.  While I enjoy a piece of carrot cake and feed the beggars. 

-Ciao

Sleepy

The last two days I have been so sleepy.  It’s like I was drugged.  Friday we slept the day away.  I got up and had breakfast around 1pm and then back to bed.  Both days I got moving in the afternoon.  However, if I found myself idle and watching TV I would start to get sleepy and well that could lead to yet another nap.

I had to force myself to search for a job last night.  That woke me up for a few hours.  I called it quits around 2am hoping that Saturday would be a better day.  I slept in until almost 1pm, had breakfast and then watched some TV.  My partner was getting a shower and once he was finished, I got one too. 

We went out for a bite to eat and then returned home.  It’s been a stormy rainy day here.  At one point we had a Tornado headed for us.  Yeah it’s that time of year again!  The lights flickered once and it’s just light rain now.  Supposed to rain for the next few days.  Ick!

Much to my dismay there have been no phone calls for a job offer.  I anticipated something might come through on Friday.  Perhaps next week. 

I did fax off my application for Welfare & Food Stamps.  Within the next 15 days they will be calling to arrange a meeting.  I hated the idea of faxing because I have no assurance that the application landed in the hands of a person and was processed correctly.  So if I don’t hear something within a reasonable amount of time, I will be calling and/or going there. 

Monday is my next Job Interview and I’m working in a trip to the Unemployment Office to report in.  I’m hoping they some how find a way to extend my claim, but I won’t be holding my breath.

My right foot feels like I am walking on a rock right on the balls of my feet directly in the middle.  I did some internet research and wow it could be a number of things.  The best thing I can do is see a doctor, but this isn’t that urgent and I don’t have the money.  I found out the Doc now gets $140 for a simple office visit.  That’s nothing more than walking in the room, talking with me and doing an exam.  I could do that all day long for $140 per person.  No wonder they have a hot lunch catered in every day for the entire office.  My partner has a foot doctor appointment on Tuesday, so maybe I will ask his Dr. for some quick advice.

I was thinking the other day that I haven’t really put that much Gay stuff on here.  Then again being Gay is just one part of my life and while it defines my sexuality, it does not define my life.  I am always open for questions or for advice.  So if your reading this and have questions about the Gay Life or Sexuality, fire away.

Four weeks sure goes by in a hurry!  I can’t wait until I start back to work, I hope that time moves just as fast.  I guess that will depend a lot on how busy I am and how much I enjoy my work/environment. 

The very first place that called me for an interview when my job search started, is advertising again.  At that point I was honest and told them I got fired, today you won’t hear me say that.  Why?  Because no one will hire someone that they know has been fired.  It’s like wearing the Scarlet Letter.  Anyway, I applied thinking wow if you would have just taken a chance on me, well we would both be happy and you wouldn’t have to run this ad.  It’s a small shop and there is no room for advancement, outside of that it’s laid back and a place that I think I could enjoy.  Would be nice if they called me back, I also wonder if the guy would even remember me after almost but not quite 2 years. 

Right now I’ve got the laundry going.  I don’t think there is much on TV tonight.  I hope that I can find something I am interested in to watch or maybe I will just get really sleepy at an early hour and dose off for the night.

I hope that you are enjoying your weekend and that the weather where you are is all Sunshine!  Take care, be well and I will talk with you peeps later!

Thursday TV Station Interview

The phone interview was scheduled to last for 15 minutes, but took a whopping 9.  It was very quick and basic.  I was told that they are doing phone interviews for the remainder of the week.  They will have a 2nd round and if I am chosen for that I should hear from them in the next two weeks.  Kay I won’t hold my breath!

I do have an interview set up for Monday afternoon, it’s in the same building where I used to work 2 jobs ago.  I am sure to bump into someone that I know.  At least I know the commute would be easy.  I could also call up a couple of friends and do lunch, but that wouldn’t be for a while.

Last night I discovered to my horror that our mail order pharmacy kept my debit card on file and charged me for medicine that was recently sent to my partner.  They also included a bill with the medication so my partner paid them as well.  I know we will have a credit on our account, but I really need every penny that I have right now.  I called them last night and got them to delete the card so that won’t happen again.  Back to writing them a check and sending it by snail mail.  Jeez, I never gave them permission to keep my number on file and keep charging.  Glad I caught this before it caused me a serious problem!  My partner takes a jillion different medicines and they vary widely in cost.  It’s nothing to drop $300 for 90 days worth of medicine for just him.

I discovered tonight that my bank statement said that I have $20 too much from what I said that was in my account on the day I filed Bankruptcy.  That could cause a problem.  I went by the on-line figure the bank displayed on the morning I filed.  While I am not happy about it, there isn’t much I can do about it.  It just makes me look like I am dishonest and trying to hide something, which I am not.  I am sure that my attorney will say something if there is a problem.

So next Wednesday I get my last unemployment payment and that is for this week.  I finally was able to talk with my partner, and we worked out the details on the application for Welfare and Food Stamps.  I’ve got it all filled out and I am going to fax it to them.  There will be an in person interview, which should take place in the next 15 days.  I have no idea how things go from there.  This is unfamiliar territory.

My luck is crazy at times.  I swear as soon as I file this application, the phone will ring tomorrow with a job offer.  Hey, if that is what it takes I am all for it.  I can always withdraw my application and/or explain to them I received an offer of employment.  Then again, nothing could happen so I have to be prepared either way.  The bills won’t stop just because I am not getting any income!

We went to the local hospital today so my partner could get a repeat urine culture ran.  His doctor wants to know if his infection is gone.  So those results should be in tomorrow, who knows when the doc will call.   Now if your Italian, I apologize but that hospital is a Dago hospital.  You go in, sit and wait and when you come out you swear that a day went by.  The waiting area smelled like somebody just dropped off a used baby diaper.  A cute straight couple walked in and by cute I mean the guy.  I kept looking at him and he back at me.  His wife got impatient and drug him out, she didn’t want to wait anymore.  Ah, well it was nice eye candy for me.

Afterwards, we went to my favorite place on earth.  That’s right the Super Market.  Ugh!  We did get in and out for $39, which is unheard of.  There was something in the basket for everyone including the cats.  As we were leaving a cart boy was fetching carts.  He was a little young, but damn I wouldn’t kick him out of bed.  He took my cart from me.  I was telling my partner about him and he liked him too.  Ah, the little things!

That’s it for today.  I’m worried about the future but right now there isn’t a whole lot I can do about it.  Just keep on applying, interviewing and taking phone calls.  Hopefully, something will break soon.

I was remarking to my partner the past two years have not been kind to me.

• Lost a cat
• Had a very sick cat and spent a large amount of money to make him well.  Long and painful road to recovery!  Yup – this is Big Boy
• Cat sickness in the house with a couple of them stopping to eat.
• Lost my job
• Found out I had a rat for a friend giving me references, so I lost out on several good opportunities
• My mom going nuts and having to comfort my brother and visit her in the hospital
• My partner breaking his back in two places and having to visit him in the hospital
• Found out that people you think are your friends and will be there for you in your time of need, were just providing lip service.  People will promise you the world but not deliver.
• Had to file Bankruptcy
• Exhausting my unemployment
• Exhausting my retirement and having to pay a large tax liability, when I can least afford it.
• Having to apply for Welfare & Food Stamps
• Loosing my blogs.

Those events are not in any particular order but DAMN that is more than one person should have to endure.  I have learned a lot but I have also suffered a lot.  I know things can always be worse so I am thankful for everything and everyone I have now.  I just hope there is some roses sprouting in my world soon. 

Again, sorry to be so down but looking at my world and my reality, it t-totally sucks and is very scary!  No wonder I don’t laugh much anymore.  Well before I depress myself and/or you any further, I am going to go.  Talk with you peeps later!