Done with Tuesday

Hi there!

Last night I took my sleeping meds a bit later than normal. It was a bit cooler overnight. I slept well, not sure if it was one of those things or both. Just wishing that every night’s sleep could be that good. I feel decent this morning. I spent half an hour downstairs this morning before I moved upstairs. That’s got to be a record.

I got a little bit of a break in before things started going crazy and the day got fully started. It’s been a busy one. Plenty of meetings as well, more than I usually have on a Tuesday. The boss called me twice. He shuffled some work my way and that kept me busy for a while, but I plowed right through it. I like to get things done so I can be available. This is especially true when I am on call because you never know what might be coming your way.

Poor Rudy had another hair ball. I brushed him again this afternoon and didn’t get a whole lot of fur off him. For good measure I brushed Mora as well and while I got more fur off her in the grand scheme of things it wasn’t a whole lot. I didn’t break out the Furminator because that brush really gets the fur off both cats. I did that over the weekend. The poor guy (Rudy) bugged me for food early in the afternoon just after making his mess. I knew better than to give in because he would only be asking for food again come supper time. I made him wait and he munched on a little bit of dry food. As soon as it was close enough for supper, I put food out for him and he happily ate.

Supper tonight for me was leftover pizza. I’ve only got one piece left and plan on finishing it for lunch and having it cold. I had a breakfast sandwich for lunch, there really wasn’t a lot of time to eat once we got into the afternoon and the many meetings I needed to attend.

Kind of glad that today is behind me. It’s not Friday yet but were inching our way there.

It was another nice and higher temperature day here. The AC has kicked on a couple of times and I’m sure it will run at least one or two more times before the day is done. My favorite tree in the neighbors yard across from me has started to turn. It goes from green to yellow to red. I try to capture a photo each year when it is all red. Shortly after that all the leaves fall from it. This is a sure sign that not only are we closer to colder weather but the end of the year.

I hope that you had a great day. Take care!

Weekend Update

Saturday …. As per usual my insomnia kicked in early in the morning. I sat up and looked for something to watch. Sadly, I found something on Peacock an old tv show called Too Close for Comfort. Looks like I’m keeping Peacock, at least for now. Eventually I was able to fall back asleep and Rudy let me sleep in until 7a. That was awfully nice of him. I got up and got the cats and myself breakfast. Then off to the shower. I was partially dressed and sat down to watch TV; I had a little bit of time to kill before my haircut appointment. That time passed by quickly and I finished getting dressed. I was early for my haircut as usual and had to wait on my barber to finish up with their current client. I had some plans for today but feeling tired all I wanted to do was go home, get undressed and crawl back into bed. So that is exactly what I did. The cats didn’t seem to mind.

I rotted in bed and my room for the bulk of the day from sleeping and watching TV. I passed out lunch for the cats, only because Rudy was insistent about it. I grabbed a soda and some chocolate and enjoyed more of the TV show. Eventually I opted to turn the TV off and start on laundry. I had some finance work to catch up on and then veered off into the world of porn. Before I knew it I needed to leave for supper.

Backup stairs threw on my clothes and headed out. I went for BBQ only because I was supposed to have a reward since it’s my birthday month. Turns out that reward wasn’t on my account. Last year the place moved my birthday month to October. I said something to the manager, and he was supposed to have corrected it but apparently that did not happen. I wasn’t pleased about that, and my dippy waitress didn’t offer to get the manager or fix it. I wanted to get going because a charter bus had just pulled up and the people were piling in. It took me forever to work my way past all the people coming in. I held the door and when I got a chance moved to the second door and eventually, I was free and in the parking lot. My next stop was to get the mail. Then came home.

For the longest time I would pass by those speed trailers that our town has and never get alerted by my radar detector. Those days are over, they use photo radar and my radar detector supports it. The town my doctor is in has photo radar setup at each intersection so if you blow a light, they snap your license plate and mail you a ticket. The alert is super loud and obnoxious, but I know the sound. Well, I passed by one of those speed trailers and had an alert way in advance, so when I passed by it thanked me for driving safely. I saw on a YouTube video some cities have mounted Flock cameras in those trailers so they can capture your license plate.

Since I arrived back home, I have been working more on the laundry. Also, the computer. Got it all tuned up and it is working better. All week long I would open a spreadsheet at work and when I would have to type in numbers it would cause Excel to crash. Not exactly sure what the number pad was sending but I didn’t have any issues on my laptop, so I knew my desktop had to be rebooted. Hopefully, when I log in on Monday things are back to normal.

Rudy has been super clingy and sleeping in my lap off and on while I have been browsing sites and playing. As I typed this up, he woke up and looked at me, as if to say come on it’s time for bed. The look he gave me was dirty and I know he was trying to make me feel guilty. Yeah, it sort of worked because I am saving this and heading up.

Not exactly a productive day as I would have hoped but it was enjoyable. Hopefully tomorrow will also be enjoyable once I get my morning errands out of the way.

Sunday … Had some insomnia but managed to get back to sleep without having to watch TV. Both cats helped me with that. So thoughtful of them, just makes the bed crowded. Woke up on time. Fed the cats. I got ready & dressed, headed out for breakfast and then hit up the grocery store. This was Target weekend, but I opted to skip it and just picked up a container of cat treats at the grocery store. Debated on topping off my tank the gas gage said that I can travel 320 miles, and it’s just used a little fuel from the last fill up. I decided on coming home. Got the groceries put away, then unloaded the dish washer and put the cats fountain in. I went and got undressed and watched TV before my food coma kicked in. Eventually I passed out for a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I heard a lawn mower running and Rudy wanted his lunch, so that got me out of bed. I fed Rudy and peeked out the back door. Saw the neighbors’ kid on the lawn mower. He was riding around a little like I used to when I drove one as a kid. I was totally reckless, but this kid was much more controlled. It took me back in time watching him and wishing that it was me instead. Got my medicine put out for the week. Then put the cats’ fountain back together. The motor needed to be cleaned as well and that’s where the bulk of the crud was. I got it flushed out and super clean. Both cats watched with anticipation as I put the fountain back in service. They had a dish of water while it was in for maintenance, and they both drank a little out of it. Once the fountain was back up and running, Mora dove in and drank like I’ve not seen her drink before. Fresh clean purified water from a jug. I drink from the tap. The cats get superior treatment!

I cleaned the house and then decided to run some cleaner through the dishwasher. I grabbed my next load of laundry and headed down. I was alone for a while. Got my inbox cleaned out finally. Nothing like a zero inbox, I like it tidy. Just started surfing for porn and Rudy came back down. He is in my arms sleeping again as I work to type this. I kind of had other plans but there is nothing like cuddle time with him. He doesn’t do this that often, but when he does it’s so cute and I savor it. He beats his tail against me or the desk until he falls asleep then he is perfectly still. Last night he fell asleep twice. Right now, he’s working on it but just not quite there yet.

Thinking about supper I am headed back to my hometown not sure if I am getting Mexican or Pizza, both are in roughly the same location. The pizza place is where they used to have hot younger guys for waiters but that has pretty much dried up and you might find a guy there but it’s mostly girls. The pizza is good and honestly, I haven’t had it in a while, so I am seriously considering it. However, in my mind I really want to stay local either hit up a local Mexican place or go to the pizza place that has not so good pizza and get my favorite pasta dish that comes with a small salad and garlic bread. I always leave there full and happy.

Not like I have anything going on for the day, need to run some cleaner through the washing machine as my laundry dries. There is some outside work that I need to do but just not in the mood. That’s about it. Well looks like Rudy can’t get comfy so he just left me. I am thinking of heading up for a bit anyway. The new neighbors sure have a crowd of cars, not sure if that is going to be the norm but based on the cars it looks like two families living there. The driveway and the street are full.

Hope that it’s a good day for you! Back to my normal routine tomorrow. Take care!

BARE MINIMUM FRIDAY

We made it to Friday, yay!

The morning started off early for me, woke up around 6a thanks to my body. Rudy came in and was resting on top of me. He got settled and spun around so he was facing the door, as if there was any threat that is going to enter. If there was, I’m sure he would run and hide. Anyway, I let him sit for a few minutes before I decided to let him know I was awake. That’s when he commenced with his happy dance, aka biscuit making. He nuzzled my face and gave me a love bite on my chin. We got up and started the day.

I still had nothing big going so I logged in upstairs and got comfy on the couch. Noodled around a little bit at work and then sat and waited to see what the day would bring. After a couple hours nothing had come in. I was growing tired and decided to head off to my bedroom to lay down. Both cats were sleeping.

No sooner than I got comfy in my bed with my trusty phone by my side, both came in. Mora snuggled up next to me and Rudy got in between my legs and laid down. We watched a little TV and as I was enjoying and appreciating the experience, that’s when things started up at work. Go figure. I sit and wait in anticipation for hours with nothing but if I step away for a moment that’s when all hell breaks loose.

I wound up getting into it with a manager from another team. He was being stupid and telling me to do something that I told him I had already done. I put him in his place because I’m tired of BS and just don’t want to deal with outright stupidity. I’m sure that wasn’t a career endearing move, but no one called me on it. I’m worrying about it more than I should be.

I saw something on social media two Fridays in a row that said essentially that Friday is the day of the week to do the least just to get by. I decided to adopt that methodology and thus far it seems to be slightly working for me. It would be nice to have our work week changed to 4 days instead of 5 and while that bill is kicked around, I honestly don’t think there is a chance that it will pass. Too many companies and lobbyists will probably make sure of that. Still, I can hope and dream, there is no charge for that.

Then the afternoon rolls around and I wound up joining a meeting a half hour before it even began. I realized my mistake quickly and left. Joined back up when it was time. Had to listen to my boss and see his fat face. He yammered along with the vendor we were meeting with. The meeting was over and then he had us join him in a meeting afterwards to recap what happened in the meeting, we had to listen to him compose an email (which is normal). He likes to have an audience when he is sending emails but it’s annoying to me and a waste of our time. Maybe no one else minds but I sure do. Not like I can do anything about it though.

Fetched the trash barrel early this morning, it felt nice out at 58 degrees. Compared to the hot and humid weather we had last week. My AC has for sure run a lot less this week.

Finished off the Lasagna Soup last night. Surprisingly the cats left me alone, which was nice. I didn’t go to bed hungry, but I really wanted something sweet before I called it a night.

My next food dilemma is do I want Chili for Supper or Chicken Pot Pie. They both sound appealing to me. I am going to look to see what the expiration date is on the Chili and that will make my decision for me. I know I’m going to enjoy whichever one I decide on.

Not sure if it’s my new neighbor or a helper of theirs but someone rode up on a motorcycle yesterday. It was parked on the street all day long. Once it got dark and everyone was settled in there was a loud crack as it started up. Scared me and the cats at the same time. I hope that is not a regular thing that I have to listen to. It’s a quiet neighborhood for the most part. Once and a while we get someone advertising, they have a stereo or a loud car but otherwise it’s quiet. I enjoy that and know that is one of the big draws to our neighborhood. It’s busy at times but still even with normal pedestrian and automobile traffic folks tend to be silent and that’s not a bad thing in my book.

Thinking a little bit of the hot college guy and really wanting some companionship. I don’t feel nearly as low as I did last weekend. I have a sense that feeling might be coming back especially with the weekend approaching and me having nothing but time on my hands. Hopefully it doesn’t return because it is no fun. I am horned up, at least that is something that I can take care of on my own. It is a great way to end the day and drift off to sleep. Hopefully, I have enough strength to make it happen.

Now bring on the weekend or at least Saturday. I enjoy that day the most, especially knowing that I have the next day off. I hope you have a great weekend!

Sad News

 

I found out that Kevin Williams [real name Ted Currall] a gay porn star (pictured above) from the 80’s and 90’s passed away on Tuesday.  He was a hot blond in his day; he was a bottom. He is one of the first porn stars that I recall getting off to.  He worked with several big (and hung) stars in porn like Tom Chase, Chad Douglas, and Jeff Palmer.  He had several scenes with Falcon Studios which was the first gay studio porn that I quickly became a fan of.  Kevin also did work for other studios. There has not been a cause of death released but from what I have read one of his friends didn’t call 9-1-1 in time.  Some people just freeze up and are unable to think/act when an emergency like this occurs.  I get that it’s overwhelming but getting help quickly and doing CPR (provided they aren’t breathing and there is no pulse) is their only chance.  He was 60 years old, which is still very young!  I know it’s common to speculate that it was drugs since this was a former porn star, but it might be something that we never know.  He left behind an amazing body of work, no pun intended and I really hated hearing this.   

In other news, I had to go downstairs to start my day.  There was some catchup work that I needed to do and that required 2 screens.  Once I was done that is when I went to doing my personal browsing and found out about Kevin Williams.  Once I came up stairs I was permitted to rest and Mora snuggled up with me.  It was a good time that I really didn’t want to end.  However, work eventually called and I had to get back to it. 

Today is wide open other than a meeting with my boss that I had this afternoon.  It was our usual touch point that we have every month.  I hate these because I think they are a waste of time.  No way I am telling him my true feelings because it would radically change things for me and not for the better.  He asked me if there was anything going on at the office.  I told him not that I am aware of.  He told me that they are still working on my so-called promotion, which is what he has been saying for the longest time.  If that position opens it will be closer to the end of the year and won’t be effective until January 1^st at least that is my anticipation because I know how they do business.  He wanted me to have another training session with the team on the firewalls, I tried to talk him out of it, but he insisted, so I scheduled it.  We established an agenda and it’s short and well within my ability to complete. 

When I watched the morning news, I was so happy that I was working from home because traffic was shutdown on the normal route I would take to get to the office.  There was a fatal accident.  There have been several fatal accidents on this route within the past few months.  People speed like they are driving in a Formula 1 race.  You’d think with the rising cost of gas people would slow down to conserve fuel but that’s not the case.  Hopefully, this doesn’t become a continuing growing trend.  The police presence used to be heavy to deter speeders, but they have eased up way too much and given folks a comfort feeling.  No matter where you’re driving at you must be hyper aware of your surroundings that includes what is around you.  Crashes happen in a split second, and they are all over way too quickly. 

My new neighbors are continuing to move in.  I think they have a small child because there was one that tripped my back door camera, he was taking pictures of my deck.  Not sure why he needed to take photos.  That was disturbing to me because apparently there was an adult watching or perhaps coaching him in the background.  Hopefully, this doesn’t become a regular thing.  I’m not big on folks trespassing but I have tolerated a lot.  These folks are new so giving them the benefit of the doubt.  The old neighbor came back to pick up one last item he had in the back yard.  I saw him and the new neighbor talking and he (the former neighbor) was pointing towards my house.  I think they were talking about the tree that is on the shared property line, but I have no idea.  It wouldn’t hurt my feelings if they chopped down the tree because eventually it will come to that.  The tree is dying a very slow death.  As long as it doesn’t fall on my property, I’m good.  I have been the primary person who has taken care of trimming it, but nothing has been done with it in a couple years.  I took the trash out this afternoon and saw that the For Sale sign was still in the front yard.  That’s kind of odd since the house was sold but there never was a sold sign that went up. 

I plan to finish off the Lasagna Soup tonight; there isn’t a whole lot left but I’ve survived on less.  I’m sure one of the cats will be on my heels thinking that I am eating their food again.  It’s kind of funny but more so aggravating.  I don’t want to have any accidents, which is why it upsets me. 

I’ve scoured Peacock.  They really don’t have anything that I am interested in.  I plan to cancel the subscription over the weekend.  I did see that they had a reboot of Queer As Folk but I watched the trailer and it wasn’t appealing to me.  I saw a couple hot guys, but I doubt that they went to the extent the US version did to show simulated realistic sex scenes.  That along with the overall cast and content is why I believe the US version was so popular.  I remember we (me and my late spouse) waited all week long to see what happened.  It was the one show/series that we both enjoyed.  It was such a good time, and I am thankful that I have that memory. 

Thankful that tomorrow is Friday.  The only thing on my calendar is a meeting in the afternoon with a vendor.  I am planning on working upstairs all day, unless the demand is different and I need 2 screens.  I have high hopes that I will be able to pull this off.  It’s my turn to be on-call next week and as per usual I am not looking forward to it.  Might as well bask in the relaxation while it lasts.   

Not sure what is up with Blogger, but I noticed a couple days ago that my other great blogs section is not updating to reflect current posts on other sites.  I looked at other blogs, and the experience seems to be the same for others.  Hopefully, that will be fixed soon. 

Finally, I’m sure you’re probably wondering about the hot college guy.  He’s not accepted my friend request.  I wish that I would have asked him out when I had the chance, but I still strongly feel that he would have declined because he’s straight.  I’d like to skip past all the dating, games and disappointment and just find my guy.  It is a shame that there really isn’t a way to do that.  It is just something that I must go through. 

Hope that all is well in your world.  Talk with you all again soon.

 

 

In Between

Hey, we made it to the in between day of the week. Two more days and the weekend will be here. That’s something that I look forward to. Thus far on my Saturday agenda am getting a haircut, and I’ve already got an appointment for that.

My new neighbors are moving in. They came by last night right at dusk and made a couple quick trips. They were noisy and that got the cats curiosity up. I told them that were getting new neighbors and there is nothing to worry about. They came back this morning and have been making trip after trip. I remember what moving in here was like even though it was many years ago. Moving is never fun. Nothing like moving to help you appreciate how much stuff you have and stuff that you kept that you no longer need. The new neighbors appear to be husband and wife. I figure that eventually we will meet; I’m in no huge hurry.

It’s mid afternoon when I am composing this, watching and listening to an auto auction. They have one auctioneer that I really enjoy listening to. Not exactly sure why I am attracted to this but it’s interesting.

Went browsing for jobs. I found a couple that would be a step backward for me, but I am more than qualified for, they are all in person. Saw a couple jobs that would be a step up and put me in Management but honestly, I really don’t want that. I know that is where the real money is and years ago, I was anxious about management. Now that I am older, I really don’t like managing headaches and dealing with corporate BS. Thus far I’m staying where I am at. I’m positive that if I took a step up and went to a new place and was in management that my stay would be short lived. It’s a classic case of the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t.

Speaking of work, I realized this morning when I woke up that I didn’t have a whole lot going on today so I could just work from upstairs. I got logged in and then signed in to a couple systems and headed for my bedroom. I had a nice time relaxing for a couple hours before things heated up. That’s a benefit I don’t think I’d find anywhere else. I was available if there were any issues or work to be done but since there wasn’t I just took a nice long break. After a couple of hours, the day was in full swing, and emails were flying so I had to get up and work. I kind of hope for more days that start like today did. It is refreshing, not as refreshing as time away though.

I have successfully watched all of Roseanne. I looked around on Peacock and didn’t see anything thus far that seemed interesting enough to dive in. I will give it a second look before I cancel my subscription, I have a little bit of time. Speaking of subscriptions, I got a notification today from Pandora that my annual subscription is going up by $12. Unless my memory is off, they haven’t raised rates in a long time. I use Pandora for instrumental music, it’s great for me to concentrate and buckle down and dive into huge piles of work or projects. I can’t listen to music that has words/lyrics while I am working, it gets me hyper and I am unable to concentrate. However, it’s what I prefer to listen to when I am driving and I’m fine then.

Cats are both doing okay. Rudy has his salesman charm turned on extra today. He got lunch a few minutes early and was so happy about that. He is trying to get me to feed him now and it’s far too early for supper. If I gave in, then I’d have to pass out an extra can at supper time and then one or both would wind up getting sick. I’ve calmed him down, not sure how long that will last for, but I am hoping for the best.

Speaking of food, I had Cheesy Bacon Potato side dish for supper last night. It was good and Mora was after me for some of it but I ignored her long enough so that she went away. She waited for me afterwards and got in her cuddle/snuggle time in my lap.

It’s much cooler here today. We were in the 50’s when I woke up and it’s in the upper 60’s now. The AC has been resting for the bulk of the day.  It just kicked on and that surprised me.

As I was preparing for the morning, last night I had to open the dishwasher as I was out of bowls. That’s when I found that the soap pod didn’t fully dissolve so I had to do an emergency load of dishes. That meant no shower for me. I wasn’t pleased but having clean dishes to eat out of is quite important. The shower will happen tonight and am looking forward to it.

Take care.

Doing better

Hope that you had a great Tuesday! Mine has been just okay; it’s an average day. Best thing about today is that the boss is gone. I got some relaxation time in but as per usual it was short before my phone summoned me back to work.

There has been no movement on my friend request to the hot college guy. Just taking some time to reflect, I had a genuine attraction to him. We had a nice conversation. Of course I am in love with his body. However, I think that it’s likely I am the only one interested. If he does accept my friend request I will be pleased. I think that will probably be as far as it goes. I’d love a chance to chat him up in person because then I would just outright ask but that’s highly unlikely to happen. I feel better about the whole thing today and I imagine as the days go by that will continue to improve. Though it might be a while before I forget him.

In other news I’ve made it past all the early years of Roseanne. Just started when the show came back to life after years of being done. I think if I am lucky that I might get to cancel my Peacock subscription soon, that is unless I manage to find something else there to watch. I will get nosy and explore but I really don’t need another streaming service, but it is nice to have choices. Provided that I have something to watch.

Had Lasagna Soup last night for supper. Even though it didn’t come out of a can, Rudy still thought I was eating his food. He begged and begged me to give it to him, but I resisted, which isn’t easy when you’re dealing with “The Salesman”. He knows how to turn on the charm.

Much later in the evening yesterday, Mora wore me down and I had to open a second can of food for supper. They both pigged out on that. I knew what she wanted and held off as long as I could. I know that feeding them both too much results in them getting sick. Guess what I woke up to this morning? Yeah, I was unhappy but not surprised.

Weather has cooled off here. AC is still running now and then but for sure not all day long. Our sunshine has been limited, and it’s mostly overcast all day long. I much more enjoy a nice sunny day.

Tomorrow won’t be a whole lot of fun because the boss will be back and late morning a series of meetings starts, hopefully something will demand the boss’s attention, and he will have to cut our meetings short. After lunch we have a meeting with a vendor and by then I will be anxious for that meeting to be done. Hopefully it won’t be nearly as bad as I am anticipating, and the day will be just as easy as today was.

Off I go to enjoy the evening. Thanks for stopping by!

Lonely

I’ve been thinking about the college guy yesterday and how I wished that I would have made a move. That’s even though I believe he’s straight. Hell, I might have at least been able to make a friend if nothing else. Every time I look out at the column that he painted I think of him. It’s like a reminder and it’s painful. He did a great job and I’m proud that the project is behind me, it’s going to be a while before I can look at the column and not think of him. I had a thought of trying to reach out to him via social media, but I know that is less likely to have the favorable outcome that I want. I’m not a weird person, just lonely sprinkled with a hint of desperation. While I’m not a fan of his boss I kind of want to call him and plan another job just to get the guy back here so I can ask him out. That’s not going to happen, but the thought crossed my mind.

I made it out for breakfast and I was very hungry. I had a delicious breakfast and then headed off to the grocery store. Then off to the gas pump. The prices per gallon are insane but since I usually don’t go below a ½ tank and that’s right where I was, my bill wasn’t horribly high but still I know that it could have been cheaper.

Came home and unloaded the groceries. I curled up with the cats. I got sleepy but I had problems falling asleep. While it was a pain, I think it will work to my advantage tonight or so I hope, because I need a good night’s sleep.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, it involved my favorite cashier at the grocery store. She’s an older lady and I don’t see her like I used to because she doesn’t work Sunday mornings. I was shaken when I woke up at 6a but was thankful that it was only a dream. I got up to use the restroom, and Rudy joined me when I returned to bed. He was hopeful that I would steer towards the direction of the kitchen instead of the bedroom. We had a nice cuddle session, and I tried to go back to sleep but that was pointless. The light in the living room turned on at 6:30a & that was my cue to get moving. I took my sweet time but made it out of bed and Rudy got his breakfast.

The loneliness pain is the absolute worst. I think that because of the fact I am gay, my age doesn’t help. I want the pain to stop and this problem solved. The negative way comes to mind of just dropping out of life in general. That would solve the problem but then I’d never get to know what the future had in store for me. Conversely the pain would stop. However, the only thing I am sticking around for is the cats. If it wasn’t for them, I think I would have checked out a long time ago. It’s been going on for long enough and yeah, I know that it’s all up to me, not like some hot guy is just going to magically come walking up to my doorstep but sure would be nice if that happened. I kind of feel like I get to see all these hot guys and some I ask out and get turned down; others play games. I’m not up for rejection but I know it comes with the territory and it’s something you must get used to, suck it up and move on there will always be another hot guy. However, the rejection can harden you and eventually you get to the point where you don’t want to take a chance because it’s probably going to wind up being the same no, sorry I’m straight. Humor but what ever happened to trying something new? My end game is sexually motivated but I’m NOT looking to jump in bed, I want to get to know a guy and make sure that were a match and we both want the same thing, then we can go hop in bed. I think that if I do ever actually get to have sex with another guy that I might have feelings of guilt, but I know my spouse is dead and gone, he would want me to move on. Just as if the shoe had landed on the other foot, I would want the same for him.

Still, I decided it was time to look at dating apps again. I got on something new with the intent on subscribing for a month, but they wanted $50. I didn’t really like what I saw and deleted my account. I downloaded another app to look around and try. I had no idea it wasn’t open to everyone that wanted to subscribe. I built my profile and am waiting to get approved. There are no options at this stage to delete my account, which is kind of what I want to do since it’s not open. I don’t have a comfort feeling about it.

I went out for Mexican food at my favorite place. The flavor I was looking for was there. It was nice to be out of the house. I really didn’t want to come home but I’ve had laundry to finish up, and the cats needed their supper so here I am.

Life – it’s full of emotions and experiences. Wish I would have enjoyed and appreciated my youth while I had it. I have lots of memories to reflect on, some good and some bad. I’m proud of the accomplishments that I have made over the last 13 years, and I know my late spouse would be proud of me as well. Never thought I’d make it to this point but here I am. Only thing left is to find a guy to share the rest of my life with. Would be nice to win the lottery and quit my job. If that doesn’t happen then some how either find a new job or find a way to be content where I am. If all these pieces fell into place, I tell myself the same lie repeatedly, I’d be happy. Truth is I’d be happier, but I don’t know for certain that I would truly be happy. I’ve had plenty of time to experience being sad, lonely and depressed. I’d like a chance to flip those emotions and experience years of happiness and positive things. I kind of think I have paid my dues but then again, I am biased.

Hoping for a great week ahead for all of us. Sincerely, thank you for stopping by it makes my day that you are here. Take care!

Friday & Saturday

FRIDAY

Well today isn’t off to a good start. I woke up to a notification that the internet is out. First estimated restore time was 10a. Then as the morning went on, I got a second notice that the outage had grown larger, but they kept the same restoration time. Now that we are close to 10a the latest update says 3p for restoration. This afternoon I got an updated restoration time that it’s now going to be 6p before it’s fixed. Another update came in later in the afternoon that says now it’s going to be 7p. I saw on social media that AT&T is also having problems. Lots of people in the area are without service, you’d think that would create a sense of urgency, but I guess were just the paying customers and we should expect it. I am very thankful for my hotspot on my phone, once again it saved the day. I’ve got my Roku and Laptop connected to it. No sense in sitting here with no TV that would be very boring. I called the cable company and asked for a credit since I have had no service for the bulk of the day. They are reviewing my request and will let me know about it once service has been restored. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but I think I will get something.

Next update was from the contractor. The column isn’t in and is scheduled for afternoon delivery. They might come out this afternoon or perhaps tomorrow morning. I asked them to keep me updated. I am not getting a comfort vibe about this. Too many more excuses and I will tell them the deal is off. As the afternoon wore on, I sent a text to get an update. They haven’t picked up the column but say that it is in and they will get it in the morning. I had to press about what time they would be here tomorrow. Finally got an answer that they expect to be here between 8a and 9a. I just hope they don’t send me a message tomorrow morning with another excuse as that won’t bode well with me.

Cats were a little perplexed by me staying upstairs, I think they thought I was taking the day off. I kind of wish that I was. It would be so easy to say sorry no internet can’t work, taking the day off. However, I’m plugging away, already knocked out my morning to-do list. I don’t have much going on today and am thankful for that. It will however make for a long day.

Grass guys just showed up, saw a hot blond guy working for them that did the trimming and blowing work. He had long hair and was very in shape. Tempting to step out and make a move but I stayed put. Just admired from afar.

Work was quiet all day long up until the day came to an end and then I had requests coming at me faster than I could deal with. I’ve caught up. While I am not on-call I am staying available to help one person. They can’t follow instructions and it’s frustrating. Hopefully I will be done with them in an hour.

I’ve been watching Landlord Tennant cases all day long with my favorite judge (Judge Simpson) in Michigan. It’s 6p here and he is still going strong. It’s later than that in Michigan. I’m just fascinated by housing court, it’s interesting. Plus, the judge is quite entertaining. He loves levity and he’s very fair to make sure no one gets screwed over.

The internet came back up around 10:30p but my connection was back and working around 8p. Cable company says they are giving me credit for the outage. I’m sure that will be a very small amount since we’re only talking 1 day of service, still something is better than nothing for the inconvenience. 

SATURDAY

The contractor showed up around 9:30a. A crew of 3 people father, son and a worker. The worker looks to be in his mid-20’s to early 30’s. I’m a poor judge of age but damn he’s got a hot smoking body! The crew got the column swapped out. Father and son left, the hot worker is still here, and he is painting the column. Giving it two coats. Mora growled at him and she has only growled at one other worker that showed up, oddly I was sexually attracted to that other worker. That tells me something is off about him. It’s a hot day outside and the first coat of paint should dry in no time. The work looks good from where I am sitting in my living room. I know I am getting raped on the price, but I agreed to it. As time went on the lone worker got bored waiting for the paint to dry. He eventually laid down on my front porch and was coughing. I thought a good excuse to go outside was to offer him an ice-cold bottle of water. He thanked me for it and gladly accepted it. We chatted for a while, and I listened closely as he spoke. He’s straight and wants a wife & family. He’s in school to become a doctor. As he painted, I had his ass right in line with my face. It was so difficult to keep my hands to myself, but I managed. When the other two got back from tending to their other jobs, they were just in time to wrap things up.

The owner made a smart-ass comment in regard to a request I made and we quickly had words. I reminded him that I’m the customer and he’s going to do things my way because I’m the asshole that is paying the bill. That settled that quickly. I will never call him again for anything! The guy hit me up shortly after they arrived in the morning with a slightly lower price for cleaning my gutters but I’m not biting. It was tempting to take advantage of his offer because it’s low, but I’d just as soon hire someone else for that task. If his price for this column wasn’t so high, I probably would have bitten. The column work is done, and it looks fantastic. The job that was supposed to take 2 hours wound up not wrapping up until 1:30p. Glad I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be. I’m also thankful that this took place on a Saturday when I could devote my full attention to it.

Once they were gone, I grabbed a soda. Passed out attention to the cats and then got busy on the computer. I found the smoking hot college guy. He’s got quite the profile with lots of shirtless and sexy photos. None of which are terribly recent. He’s smooth and his chest and arms look as good as the rest of his body. He’s a runner so no wonder he’s in such fine shape. His social media profile doesn’t list anything about him. He’s got some photos of girls on his page. I wondered if I shouldn’t have made a move just because but I’m kind of glad that I didn’t especially since Mora growled at him. He seems nice enough, but something tells me there is a darker side and I’m missing something. I’ve got enough problems and don’t need to add any more to the list.

I didn’t sleep well and tried to work on a morning nap but just like on a working day taking a nap, my phone kept waking me up. Eventually there was no going back to sleep because I was jolted awake and stayed that way.

Rudy wasn’t happy with breakfast and was quick to hit me up for lunch when I came back in.

I had chips for supper last night. Breakfast was a refrigerated breakfast sandwich and a Belvita Banana Bread bar. I am looking forward to my next meal which will be had in a restaurant.

I took a shower and then headed out. Hit up Cracker Barrel and had a nice meal. A lady and a guy sat next to me. He looked like he was her son. Her phone kept ringing and each time she would talk a little bit then ask the person, “Did you call me”? I thought she was out of her mind. The phone rang so of course someone called you, it doesn’t take a genius to figure that out. I was happy to get away from her. Headed to grab the mail and pick up cat food. Then back home.

Working on laundry and making up for yesterday and today in my surfing adventures. I’m sure there is a trove of things waiting for me. I’d call it a productive and quite expensive day.

I hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by, take care!

Choking

Greetings!

I hope that you’re doing well on this hump day! I got a couple of unpleasant wake up calls. The first one was a few hours after I fell asleep, I woke up choking and coughing. It was horrible. I of course shot out of bed and that helped a little bit. I got a drink of water. It was what I call sinus soup, more commonly known as postnasal drip. I’ve been fine during the day but in the afternoon for the last couple of days it has increased. In hopes to avoid this experience tonight, I’ve taken some extra medicine to help thin and dry things out, hopefully it works. My second wake up call was from a nightmare. When I woke up, I had all sorts of paranoid thoughts going through my mind and it honestly felt more like a panic attack. I’ve never had one of those but only imagine what it’s like. Hoping for better dreams tonight.

I was into my morning a little bit and got an update from the contractor. They went to pick up the new column, and it shipped cracked. They were told they could put some silicone on it but thankfully they pushed back and said ship a replacement that is brand new in perfect condition. We’re looking at getting the job done on Friday now. That day works much better for me as Friday’s are calmer and there is typically less going on. Crossing my fingers and hoping that Friday the job gets done and I can move on.

Dealing with my job today, I came super close to leaving. My boss was being an ass. We had a problem and turned out not to be a problem at all the users were idiots. He wanted me to tell them that and normally I wouldn’t balk but these were HR folks, so I pushed back. I already have a problem dealing with stupid and that didn’t help this situation. That intolerance to dealing with stupid comes with age plus the repetitiveness’ of seeing and having to deal with stupidity day in and day out. We went round, my blood boiled and we got some additional information that helped support the idiot conclusion and my boss asked me to communicate with them. Thankfully he provided the wording, I added a few things to church up the email, and it landed well. A person from another team helped us. HR responded to the email with questions. I went to gather additional proof and scope out what was what for the last month. Meanwhile the person who helped from another team put in his two cents and instantly got a thank you from my boss. By the time I sent my email with the details it was late and I figured he would thank me for going the extra mile but nope, nothing but crickets here. He passes out compliments like they were tissues. I’m irked that he didn’t thank me but I’m moving on.

More tips from social media say don’t go the extra mile, when it’s time to quit walk out the door or in my case disconnect. That means when you’re done everything else that comes in has to wait until the next day. I’m known for always being available and often going the extra mile. All that shit stopped today. I’ve had a flurry of emails come in since my day was finished, I just filed them away and plan to deal with them in the morning. Part of my problem is that I’ve hung out a sign that says I’ll do it, give it to me through my actions of always responding or taking care of things regardless of the day of the week or the time of the day. It’s become a habit and I have turned myself into a workaholic. Sure, I am up for a promotion but the more I think about it the more I really don’t want it. I’m still waiting to see what that promotion entails. I think it’s going to be more work, more meetings and overall, more headaches for a little bit more money that won’t be worth the stress the job brings. The idea of someone who’s on my team with less seniority getting it doesn’t set well with me; it’s like this is tailor made for me. I want the money but not the bullshit and strings that are attached. This like everything else in life will pass and play out. I kind of wish I knew the future but just like you I must wait and see, that part is the hardest for me. Because it requires patients and there are situations where I have patience, but when it comes to my life, I really don’t want to wait, I’d rather hurry up and see what happens next.

I had Chili and Cornbread for supper; it was good. Then a couple stale cookies from Sam’s for dessert.

The cats are sleeping and I am just getting in some computer time. While it’s fun to play on this, nothing is better than powering the machine off and watching TV. I’m in front of a computer way more than I should be, but there is no avoiding them. If it’s not a laptop or desktop then I’ve got my phone which is a pocket pc when you think about it.

Wanted to publish this 2 hours ago but my home internet went out, and I just got it back. There is construction in the area, and they keep hitting the cable lines, which is why we have had issues. Social media told me that.

It was another hot and humid day. The AC is really working and doing a fabulous job. I hope it keeps on. The word from the weatherman is that Sunday is when this heatwave will end and some rain should move in and we will get relief. It’s been sunny all day long but over the last hour the sky is overcast and looks like rain.

Here’s hoping that my sleep experience is better tonight and that tomorrow will be a better day. Although I kind of have my doubts because there is a project work meeting with my boss and then there is the training session for the new guy in the afternoon. Sounds like he (my boss) might hijack that and do the training for me, which I’d be okay with.

This morning I heard about the news chopper that went down in LA last night. I was horrified. I wondered if the reporter (Stu Mundel) that I listen to (on YouTube there is a morning show called Leveling Out) from time to time was on board, but it was not his news station. Glad to hear that but still sad that 3 people lost their lives. The chopper was up and covering a bus accident, a woman was going interstate speed when she t boned a city bus and there were additional people lost in that incident. Today’s speculation is that the chopper had a mechanical problem or possibly engine failure. It will be a bit before the official findings of the crash are released. Just another reminder of how fragile life is. Here today, gone tomorrow.

At any rate I hope it’s all sunshine and rainbows in your world. Take care!

Monday … Monday

Happy Monday Afternoon,

How’s that for a greeting? I woke up this morning feeling better than I have had in a while. I was up a couple of times last night, but it didn’t seem to affect me. Rudy came to wake me, and I just played like I was asleep because I wanted to stay in bed a bit longer. He went along with it.

It seemed to be one thing after another this morning, and I was late logging on to work but I made it eventually. Things were calm and I was caught up rather quickly on my to-do list. I stuck around for a bit longer as I goofed off on the web, outside of work. Something came in and I was able to jump on it and then after a bit I was able to shift to working upstairs and be with the cats.

I got the vibe last night that Rudy wasn’t feeling well. Perhaps he was just being himself, but it was concerning to me. He appears all normal today, which is a good thing. Cats are the masters of disguise, and you think they are all fine, but they can be hurting or suffering, and we just never know. I think I know my two feline friends rather well, that mixed with my experience of living with 7 cats I think gives me a good edge. I never want to visit the vet but there are times when you simply must.

Today has been dull but there were a couple things that managed to upset me. My boss being in micro manager mode didn’t help but I think I sent a strong back the fuck off vibe. He has left me alone ever since.

Yesterday, shortly after my first post went up my internet came back early. My provider said that the outage was still going on but that my connection was restored. It had the possibility of going down but thankfully, it did not.

I hit up the new Mexican place, and it was a mistake. I was craving that new special sauce they have. It just hits so good, but I forget that there is a spice or fire that is delayed. I kind of over did it a bit. My food was just okay, nothing special. I got charged for another table and had to get that fixed. It’s going to be a while before I go back there. Kind of wish I would have gone with my usual Mexican place the food there is superb.

Had a nice ride and enjoyed getting back out, despite it being hot out. When I got home, I needed to update finances and that caused me to make an eye candy post. I realized it had been a very long time, and I know that more of you like pictures rather than reading my blathering. I like photos too but something about writing is more therapeutic to me.

I did some more job searching today and found a couple of jobs that were semi appealing, but I didn’t have qualifications for the jobs and realized that I would be in over my head. There were some lower paying jobs that I thought about. One of which is working for a new grocery store that is opening in a management position. The more I looked the more I decided that while I am not happy with my present job, it’s better to keep what I have. Kind of a situation the devil you know is better than the devil you don’t. I will keep an eye out, but I don’t have high hopes of finding anything. Of course, if I went up and quit that would give me more motivation to look and I am sure that I would regret quitting. That doesn’t stop me from fantasizing about telling them I am done and leaving. I know initially it would hurt them (the company) more than it would hurt me. However, in the end the job search would drag out, and I would wind up settling for less money and possibly less of a position than I have now. I am well thought of in my present environment and am the go-to person for many things that make me feel good, but it also gets tiresome at times. I just wish that I felt better about my present job. I am surprised that I have made it to the 12-year mark, that’s the longest that I have worked at one place. There are monetary incentives for staying and loyalty is rewarded financially at each 10-year mark. Vacation increases as well with time, but I’ve got around 2 more years before I max out on vacation. I think maybe if my team wasn’t so spread out across the US and we all worked in the same office that might make me feel better. However, there are many times that I am thankful that I am not near any of them as all but 1 guy would have been kicked in the nuts by now.

Well, time to go figure out what is for supper and enjoy the time away from work before morning comes around again and I must do it all over. Tomorrow will be a busier day with plenty of meetings. Thankfully there are rarely meetings on Monday’s. I’ve got at least 1 meeting every day this week until Friday. Right now, Friday looks pretty good to me, but then again, all Friday’s look good to me!

Hope you had an amazing day, feel free to tell me all about it if you wish.

Sunday

I’m not a fan of Sunday’s, only because it means Monday is around the corner. I suppose if you love life and your job then it’s not such a big deal, but at this point in my life I am more a fan of Friday evening and Saturday or throw in any holiday. 

I made it out of the house, yay! Headed to an old place that I used to go for breakfast. Ordered an old favorite. It’s basically a breakfast pizza. It’s nothing more than eggs, cheese, potatoes, and sausage gravy on a slightly thick bread. This dish leaves me satisfied but not full. I always want to order something else and the few times I have I am always sorry because then things catch up and I am stuffed and in pain. So, knowing my limits I opted to pay my bill and leave. 

While I was eating breakfast, I got a notification that my home internet has an internet outage and restoration is expected by 10:30a. I thought that was reasonable considering it was 7a. 10:30am has come and gone, now the eta for restoration is 3:30p and it wouldn’t shock or surprise me if they extended that. Just got the update they are now saying 6:30p. I am not holding my breath; this sounds like something major is wrong and it will take them a while. My security cameras were the next thing to chirp out an alert. Last to alert me when I finally returned home was my burglar alarm, it doesn’t send any notification, it just beeps to make you go to the panel and see what the issue is. That got annoying so I disconnected the system from WIFI temporarily until it’s fixed. 

Next stop was the post office. I was surprised to find something from my homeowners insurance waiting for me. They say that I changed my name or address, but I looked over the documents they sent, and everything is the same and correct, nothing changed. It didn’t affect the policy. I thought it was funny when I saw the list of discounts they are giving me. One of them is a hail resistant roof. You only have that if you get an upgraded architectural shingle or have a metal roof of which I have neither. Guess they will be surprised if I ever file a hail damage claim. I’m banking on being able to file one so that I don’t have to cover the cost of the next roof, but I’ve got a couple more years before it will be necessary. 

Next stop was the grocery store. I was so calm and collected when I walked in the door. It felt good but sadly it was only a temporary feeling. Some new muffin bars caught my eye, and I decided to try them. That’s the only thing that I wouldn’t have normally purchased. 

Final stop was home. Glad to know the internet was out, so I had to turn WIFI off on my phone so I could disarm my alarm before I opened the door. I took the tip from the installer who said to turn off entry delay, no sense in giving a burglar any delay. It’s a good thing but if you forget and open the door you trigger the alarm. Thus far I haven’t set it off, but I know the day is coming when I will. Got my hotspot going on my phone and connected my Roku so I could watch TV before nap time. I started to dose off but the cats had my bed, and I didn’t want to fight them. Rudy must have picked up on my feeling because he got up and walked right over to me. I said Well if you’re giving up the bed I am climbing in. I laid down and couldn’t fall asleep, but I did try. Mora snuggled up with me for a bit. Rudy took the chair and waited for a while before he decided to press his luck and ask for lunch.

Eventually Rudy did his dance, and I got up and passed out lunch. Got my medicine set out. Saw the neighbor’s kid doing trimming work. Kind of lost interest in my normal routine for the day. All though I do still need to take care of the litter and trash. 

Planning on heading back out for supper. Still a toss up between Cracker Barrel and Mexican Food but Mexican Food has the lead now. Thankful for having a hot spot on my phone, otherwise I would be super bored instead of just bored. Then again, it might be a motivator for me to accomplish more instead of sitting around. Looking forward to the internet being restored if not this afternoon, then for sure by the morning. I can connect to work through the hotspot but would much prefer my home internet. 

Hope that you’re having a good day and all is well.

SOME KIND OF LUCK

I wound up going back to work on Thursday. I was up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep despite trying. By 6am I gave up and said I’m feeding the cats and going back to bed. I got connected to work and saw my inbox continuing to overflow it was close to 800 emails just in my inbox alone, that’s not counting what was filtered to folders. Then my gut kicked in and said you need to go back today; something is going to happen. It was one of those eerie kinds of feelings. I knew that if I went against it I’d probably be sorry. So, I wolfed down breakfast, threw on some clothes, grabbed my water bottle and headed downstairs.

The cats missed me and made some noise; I came up for bathroom breaks and to pass out lunch. I took an abbreviated lunch and returned to the basement in the afternoon. I was down there all day long. I don’t exactly know where or how I was able to motivate myself because I was exhausted from not sleeping much. I got caught up and managed to accomplish way more than I thought I would. It felt good to have an empty inbox. Talked with the mistake maker and we caught up a little bit.

I thought exhaustion would help fuel a great night’s sleep but sadly I was wrong. I woke up at 2a this morning and managed to get back to sleep by 4a. I woke up again exhausted and really wanted to take the day off but pressed on.

While the day is almost done, I am not quite off the hook just yet. My boss dogged me a little bit yesterday because I chimed in to help on something and that just resulted in him dumping more work on me. I should just keep quiet instead of being helpful. He’s been after me to train the new guy on our Firewalls and I have just put it off. Today I got a written request, and he asked me to invite him to the meeting. He wanted it to be set early next week, so I purposely made it towards the end of the week. I really don’t want to do it but suppose that I can’t put it off forever. It’s pointless to teach him because he won’t even have an account to login to them and my boss takes his sweet time before he gives access to the Firewalls you can wait as long as 2 years. I got my access after 6 months, but I had to go through a formal training course. He wanted to send the mistake maker to the same training but never did and finally after 2 years he just gave him access.

In other news last night, I saw that there was a firmware update for my home router, so I applied it. I had no idea that it would take away remote access to the router. That’s better from a security standpoint because you must physically be here and/or connected to one of the machines in the house and have the credentials to log in. It’s kind of a pain because I had an app on my phone that ceased to function after the update. I could monitor signal strength of WIFI devices, see what/who was connected and reboot the router without being logged on to a computer. Plus, the app would send me alerts if there was a problem or loss of connectivity and it didn’t matter if I was home or not. I did some research and found that my model of router wasn’t on the list to have this service deprecated but again from a security perspective it is much more secure and better.

Today was the day to set the trash out. With the Labor Day holiday trash pickup is pushed back one day. At least it was supposed to be. I waited until the afternoon and got it ready and got it set out. It wasn’t but 15 minutes later and a trash truck showed up, emptied the container and kept on moving. I’ve never had that kind of luck. Perhaps it was just good timing on my part or perhaps it is a sign that something good is going to happen. Hey I can hold out hope, there is no charge for that.

Still watching Roseanne on Peacock and peppering in some YouTube Videos to spice things up a little bit. Food wise I finished the pizza last night and am glad that it’s gone. I’ve got Spaghetti to heat up for supper and kind of looking forward to it. Then there is the left-over Chocolate Cake. Part of me wants it tonight for desert and the other part of me wants to have it for breakfast.

My calendar is clear and outside of feeding the cats I can sleep in and be lazy tomorrow if I want. I like having flexibility and not having looming tasks or deadlines. I’ve got laundry to do, some porn surfing to catch up on, need to grab the mail and get a bite to eat in the afternoon. Not sure where I am going to go. I had it all worked out on Monday, but I’ve slept since then and my taste changes. Thinking of Mexican food but not exactly sure where I am going to go for it. That pretty much takes care of Saturday. Sunday is the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping, cleaning the house and grabbing a bite to eat in the afternoon. Cracker Barrel sounds pretty good but I will have to travel a little bit since I won’t visit the one that is closest to me. That’s due to the gay waiter there that was interested in me. He led me on for the longest time. Seeing him would just bring back memories and stir up hope again. I know he’s a lost cause and for that reason I avoid seeing him at all costs. However, I am always on the look out for a hot guy to hit on, my only problem is they all seem to be straight just like Spaghetti before it gets all hot and wet.

Hope that all is well in your world. Thanks for stopping by!

Today’s Waxing Adventure

Hi

Today I thought I would see how waxing my nose went.  I bought a kit from Amazon.  It looks simple until you have to heat up the wax.  I got it a little too hot.  It burnt my nose and I didn’t get the job done.  I had to manually peel off what little wax stuck and that just caused me to sneeze uncontrollably for five minutes.  I don’t think I will be waxing my nose anytime soon.  I’ll stick with a trimmer.  I hate nose hair and it only seems to grow faster with age.  Kind of the same thing for ear hair. 

As for down below, that cream I put on my nuts made them feel really smooth and they are more fun to play with and feel.  However, I don’t know that I will do that cream again.  I will stick with a trimmer for that area as well.  I’ve never been able to trim my ass just wanted to see how it felt. 

I suppose there are somethings you shouldn’t explore and waxing appears to be that something for me.  I’m totally fine with that. 

I feel overcome by the heat and was super lazy this morning.  Finished up streaming Night Court for the second time.  Really love that show.  I wound up staying home for breakfast.  Rudy got me all clawed up and he got his breakfast.  My arm and chest both itch like crazy but I am smart enough to know NOT to scratch. 

It was the afternoon before I got up and really got moving.  Put out my medicine.  Made it to Lowes but I only got a couple things and abbreviated my list because it’s simply too hot to work outside.  Hit up the cat food store and there selection wasn’t the best but I found enough food for my little furry monsters to eat for the next 2 weeks. Filled up the tank and yeah $44 later it’s full.  I knew it would hurt but it also feels good to see the needle back on full.   

Came home and much later in the afternoon I had Lasagna soup (I got this at Sam’s) for supper and nibble on some of that chocolate cake I got yesterday.  It was pretty good. 

Did some house cleaning.  Brushed the cats and trimmed their murder mittens.  They both were not happy about the claw trim but loved the brushing.  They have been puking and I felt bad about that because I knew they were overdue for a brushing. 

Subscribed to Peacock so I can stream Roseanne, it’s the only place where the series is available.  I’ve seen it all once before but suddenly I’m craving it again so there went $19.99 and I will likely stay subscribed until I finish the series or until I get tired of paying, whichever comes first.  Who knows though I might find something else of interest and start watching that.  Seriously considering cancelling my Netflix.  I pay a small fortune for entertainment in the way of television and I know I am just throwing money away because you can’t watch everything at once.  It’s impossible. 

Tomorrow for sure is grocery store day and I will hit up the post office.  I haven’t been in a couple days but I don’t expect there will be anything there.  I plan to go for pizza tomorrow.  I don’t expect I will see the straight hunky waiter but want some pizza to eat and to take home to nibble on during the week. 

A little bored and lonely at the moment.  I was hoping that I would have met someone while I was off but it didn’t happen.  I have a strange feeling that soon someone will come along but then again I could be wrong.  I’ve though about hitting up an app.  Having a companion to share life with would put some fun in it and getting laid would be nice as well.  For me though it’s more about companionship than it is sex. 

Still not looking forward to going back to work but I’ve got one extra day thanks to it being Labor Day.  Then the next holiday will be Election Day and that’s not until November which will be here soon.  I see leaves falling already and the grass is dying because of the heat.  The weather was supposed to cool off this coming week but there is no sign of that nor any rain.  The heat and I don’t get along and I can get sick if I am exposed to it for too long.  My stomach hasn’t been the best over the past week but I am hoping that eventually things will settle down and the weather will cool off a bit.  I’m not looking to jump into snow or freezing temperatures. 

Funny thing I think my neighbors house got inspected yesterday.  They left the lights on inside and out.  It is quite bright at night.  He’s due to come cut the grass but who knows if that will happen anytime soon, only time will tell. 

I plan on trying to make the most of this evening and tomorrow because going back to the normal WES (Work Eat Sleep) will suck and not in a good way.  Still looking a little bit for a different job I just really don’t want to take a cut in pay to get away from the nonsense.  I ask myself if that will make me happy and while I think it will short term I don’t know about the long term. 

Stay cool and be well.  Talk with you all again soon!

HOT & WORN OUT

I know it’s been a bit since my last post. I surprised my Thanksgiving Friends on my birthday. I took over fresh bakery from a local place they like. I only planned on staying for a couple hours but wound up spending all day with them. They have a guest staying with them, it’s there would be future daughter-in-law. She was going with one of their sons who died during the Iraq war. Their late son and this gal had plans to marry but obviously that never happened. I met her years ago at Christmas time, it was shortly after I lost my spouse, so around 11 or 12 years ago. Her and I started chatting and it turned into a therapy session for both of us. She has tried to commit suicide twice. She can’t move on since she lost the love of her life. She has had a few boyfriends, but they were all the wrong types of men. She has no money and no job. She doesn’t like computers or technology and will be looking for a job after the Labor Day holiday. I wound up taking her shopping for a few things she needed and filled up her gas tank. This was quite the expensive favor I did but honestly spending the money didn’t phase me one bit. I offered to get her oil changed but she didn’t want to. Turns out her vehicle is overdue. My friends took me out for dinner. We went to a new place for fish, it sucked. I was sick the next day from what I ate, and I won’t be going back to that place.

Wednesday, I had my facial and got free shampoo, which felt awesome. Not spectacular but the gal knew what she was doing. I re-watched Boots on Netflix. Saw 9 to 5 again for the millionth time. I love that movie and have ever since it came out. Shame there wasn’t a sequel.

Had an incident with a pedestrian. I went out for breakfast on Friday and when I was leaving the restaurant this cunt was walking along the sidewalk. She saw my vehicle pulling out and came out of nowhere and called me out for not yielding to her. She saw me and common sense would have told me if I was her to either wait or walk behind the vehicle, but the cunt made an issue out of it. I should have run over her foot. That shook me up and I came back home for a while.

I got out later in the day hit up Sam’s Club. I got everything on my list. It was so difficult to get there this time because of the heat and me just saying I’ll do it tomorrow. Eventually, you run out of tomorrows. I wanted to hit up Lowe’s but never made it. It’s still on my to-do list.

Went out to a new Mexican place in the afternoon. They have this slightly spicy and tangy cheese dip they bring with salsa and chips. It’s awesome stuff and I will for sure go back. It’s in a former chain Mexican place that closed. They dressed the place up and it looks super good inside. The food is average.

After that I hit up the movies and saw Coyte vs Acme. Everyone tells me I don’t look my age. The lady that sold me my ticket gave me the senior discount. It felt good but also, I was appalled at the same time. Movie was awesome and I recommend seeing it, especially if you like cartoons or grew up watching them, you will enjoy it. Lots of surprise characters and a very well-made movie in my opinion.

Today (Saturday) I laid around and napped a bit. Rudy finally had enough of it and told me I needed to get moving. So, I did. I bought some wax strips thinking that I could wax my hole. That was a huge disaster. I had bought some cream made for men wanting to remove hair from their genitals and anal area. I decided to use that. It felt like I put Ben-Gay on my nuts, not pleasant at all. I spent a long time in the shower. There was glue from the wax strip, and I had to use a wipe that was included in the kit to get the glue removed. I returned to the shower and washed again. I’ll never ever repeat this little experiment. Andrew Goes Places says that he uses Nair on his genitals and anal area, it works for him. He looks so smooth. I think all I did was inflict unnecessary pain on myself, not sure that much if any hair came off and I for sure used a hell of a lot of water.

Once I recovered from that, I got dressed and headed to the office. Checked my desk and had no mail, which is a good thing. Walked around making sure there were no obvious problems that would require a return trip next week. Things like misbehaving or break while I am on vacation. I had to check on things for my own peace of mind. Found a couple of large conference rooms where the lights were on, but no one was around. I shut them off. I heard a voice, so I knew I wasn’t alone but never saw anyone.

After that I headed a couple streets over to my favorite Italian place and got to order the dish that I had been wanting to try for a very long time. They told me last time it would be back in September and that was correct. I left with a free piece of chocolate cake for my birthday. Saw a couple of hot guys, so nice eye candy to go with my meal. I was stuffed when I left, the cake was to go no way I could have eaten another bite. Parking was a mess, so I had a little bit of a walk. Full stomach, super-hot outside. I was breathing a little heavy by the time I returned to my vehicle, shame it wasn’t because I had sex.

I opted to return home. I said I would rest up and then head back out hit up the cat food store and Lowe’s but damn I am exhausted. It’s supposed to be cooler tomorrow, so I plan to knock out both of those tasks then. If for some reason I, don’t I still have Monday. After that I will be all out of tomorrows. Because on Tuesday it is back to work and I will be on call. I’ve still not looked at work email and have no plans to do so until Tuesday morning. Whatever is there will be waiting for me, it’s not like it’s going to get up and leave. Fuck I so don’t look forward to going back but glad that I discovered that I will still have 2 weeks accruing to use before the end of the year. I’m thinking perhaps a little bit of cooler weather next month, take another week and get that dumpster and clean this place up like I’ve been wanting to for a while.

In addition to my errands tomorrow I want to travel to the pizza place where the straight guy works that I have a wicked crush on to torture myself and just drool over him while I eat pizza.

Right now, Monday I think will be a stay home day but hey something could change my mind on that and I might get out. Right now, my gas tank is closer to empty than it’s been in a very long time and filling it up tomorrow is going to seriously hurt but I had fun getting it to this point. Vacation is nice but it always involves spending more money than one really wants to, at least in my experience. I didn’t go hog wild and can pay cash for every penny I spent, which makes me feel good.

I almost forgot I hired a contractor finally to replace the column on my front porch. He’s expensive but I have confidence in him. I wanted him to clean my gutters as well but he seems way high on that, despite the detail he quoted me on making sure the downspouts were clean (they are all clean I have strainers in) and he said he would also blow off my roof from any debris, there are a couple sticks up there but a little wind and they will be on the ground in no time.

Time to catch up on porn surfing. I’m working on laundry and will be headed to bed in a while. Need to go to a new place for breakfast because the place I normally go to is closed this month because the owner went on vacation. Wish I could take a month off, gee wonder how long it would take me to catch up on email from that? Things will go back to normal in October so there is something for me to look forward to.

I hope you’re doing well and staying cool. Thanks for stopping by!

Last week before vacation time

Good evening,

I hope that you had an enjoyable and relaxing weekend.  Mine was okay but like all weekends it went by too quickly. 

Sunday I had to wake up early to get some testing done at work.  I found that my company laptop which is sitting in my office wasn’t responding.  It was working on Friday because I used it.  I dismissed it and said well I will go reboot it when I’m back from vacation.  That kept eating at me all day, so my plans for Sunday changed up a bit. 

I decided to head out to the office to take care of rebooting the computer.  On the way there I saw the largest police presence I had ever seen on the opposite side of the freeway.  A semi was blocking all lanes and on it’s side.  That side of the freeway was closed.  I found out later the driver died.  No one else was involved.  From the looks of things, he had to have had a medical emergency or something like that.  I’m interested but not sure if that will be made public. 

I arrived at the office to find a package on my desk.  It was spare parts to keep on hand for our doors.  Not an inexpensive box.  I got that stuff put away and rebooted my computer. 

Then headed to grab a bite to eat and stop for cat food.  I normally stop on Saturdays but my stomach was doing summer saults so I didn’t leave anything to chance and came home.  Things sorted themselves out by Sunday. 

This morning I woke up and felt sick.  It got super cool here over night and I left my fan on.  That is a sure fire way to get me sick.  I didn’t think I would make it but I pressed on and as I did I felt better.  That is until lunch time.  I decided that I would have a bowl of Chicken Noodle Soup.  Well if it comes out of a can here Rudy thinks it’s for him.  I put food out for him but he still begged me for soup. 

In fact Rudy has been bothering me all day long asking for food.  I gave in and gave him an extra can 2 hours after he had lunch.  I passed out supper and by the time I went to eat he was asking me for more food.  I passed out treats early.  I strongly think he is a Thyroid cat.  Gator used to bother me for extra food.  If it’s not that then he has just discovered how much of a push over I can be and he’s milking it.  This just started in the last couple days so I am waiting to see what happens. 

He got his flea medicine on Saturday.  His scratching has decreased a little bit but ever since then that is when his hunger started. 

My stomach is back to doing summer saults and I think it’s the result of mini Jelly Donuts that I got last weekend.  Normally they are all gone in a matter of days but I made them stick around.  They are in the fridge.  I had one last night as a test to see if it’s what caused my stomach issues and well I think I’ve got my answer.  I’m not eating any more of them.  They will go out with the trash come Thursday. 

Work, today has been a busy day.  We were invited to a meeting that is lasting all week long and has nothing to do with our team.  It was nice to be included but I stuck around for as long as I could stomach it and then finally dropped off because regular work was picking up.  Busy time with a bunch of new people starting in a few weeks and there is mounting pressure that comes with that as well.  Not a fun time but being busy makes the time pass faster! 

Found out that the new guy asked if he could take next Wednesday, Thursday & Friday off.  I’m out, the mistake maker is out so that would leave the boss by himself.  Not sure if this guys time off will get approved but it’s also not my worry. 

Speaking of time off I was thinking about what exactly I had planned for next week.  Nothing more than a dental appointment and a facial.  I am kicking around the idea of getting a roll away dumpster delivered for a couple days and doing some serious house cleaning.  It’s something that I’ve said I would do for years but it always gets put off.  Not exactly something exciting to do.  Dumpster rental isn’t cheap but I could at least make a dent in things.  I’ve not committed to the idea yet.  I’m sure if I do the neighbors will think that I am the next one that will be moving out and nothing could be further from the truth. 

I saw a job that sounded interesting but it pays 1/2 of what I am making now and from that 1/2 there would be union dues to pay.  It’s kind of a dream job for me and I would be out of the house 5 days a week.  The thought of starting over and the pay cut are what kept me from jumping at applying.  I want out of my present job so bad though and yeah I am willing to take a pay cut to make it happen but 1/2 pay is a little too steep, dream job or average job. 

Well nightfall is here.  Time to prep for tomorrow.  Shave and shower.  Then off to bed and up to do it all over again tomorrow.  I just tell myself this time next week who knows what I will be doing.  Work won’t be one of those things. 

Take care!