31 May 2016

The Get Together

As per usual I arrived at the designated time.  My friends were still waiting on their neighbor to get home from work.  Finally he pulled up, went into his house and I figured he would be back out in a while.  He was actually pretty quick and came over bearing gifts. Drumsticks (ice cream).  Great now can we eat?  I starved myself to prepare for this meal and I am going to need something before my sugar drops.  The neighbor made a to go plate and left.  His wife fell and broke her hip.  She needs a replacement but the part is too expensive, so they are not doing it.  Uh seriously they are not doing it.  They have health insurance but I guess she is into pain.  Weird but whatever. 

Finally time to eat.  Onion Burgers, wheat buns (yuk, I will skip that), BBQ Beans with Brown Sugar (didn’t need the sugar but it made them so much better), Corn on the Cob, and Potato Salad. For a change everything was delicious and I was quite happy.  We made small talk.  Watched a little tv and then had some Vanilla Gelato … bam time for me to go. 

I left later than I wanted to but the important thing is that I got home.  Thankfully most all of my ducks were in a row because I knew that coming home it would be hellish.  I was fortunate enough to come home with leftovers that I will have to eat tonight.  Those burgers are smelling up the fridge.  Passed out treats to the children and then started my usual evening wind down routine. 

Nothing on TV, that is the only bad thing about summer.  I am sure something will crop up eventually.  It was an enjoyable weekend.  I accomplished everything that I wanted to do, that felt really good.  Now it’s back to the daily grind but only 3 more days and then we will be looking at the weekend again. 

Best thing about today is what I call Double Mail Day.  You get two days worth of mail in one day.  I have packages waiting from Amazon so I am actually looking forward to going to the post office.  The data cable I had to buy and some Rutin for the Bear.  I have no idea what else I will find but I am sure there will be a bill in there somewhere.  If not today then for sure by the end of the week. 

It’s fairly quiet here, boss man is out.  I am working on cleaning up a server, not fun but I put in my earbuds and listen to Pandora so it helps.  Once I get a rhythm going it’s pretty good and before you know it time just flies by.  This afternoon there is one meeting.  That’s it.  I might hear from my co-worker but outside of that I think it will be an uneventful day and that is perfectly okay with me. 

Enter the on-line dating world. I matched up with 2 guys on Tinder, I had very short conversations with them.  I have left the ball in their court to make the burden be on them to respond.  After a couple days you find out exactly how interested they are.  Meaning they are not.  It was interesting because I have matched so few times on Tinder.  I saw a cutie on another app, we checked each others profiles out and I sent him a message.  He never responded.  At first it kind of hurts but once you go through it several times you get used to it.  Sort of like door to door selling.  I asked the kids, do you think I will ever meet anyone on-line?  They looked at me puzzled by the question.  Yeah, I am puzzled to.  The problem with an app is you can tune it out.  You can’t do that in person, well not as easily.  I know there is someone out there for me and when the time is right be it electronically or in person, our paths will cross.  Until then I will just keep on trying, I mean I have nothing to lose I am already at nothing so it can’t get worse than that.

Looking forward to getting the mail, getting home and seeing my furry kids.  I really miss them during the day even though they do tend to drive me crazy.  Back to wet weather here but it’s humid so the AC is on and I can kiss low power bills goodbye.  Welcome to Summer!  Talk with you all again soon.

29 May 2016

The Job & What I did on Sunday

I had a 1 on 1 with my boss last week, things went okay.  He was so tired he momentarily fell asleep while we were talking.  It was odd he started a sentence, finished it and then lights out.  I was kind of concerned but remained silent for a moment and he came back to life. 

I passed the pre-training class for the training I will be getting in two weeks on a security product we have.  I couldn’t believe the company actually required a pre test but they did.  I needed to pass with like a 70% and got a 90%, missed 1 question.  You were allowed to answer each question two times, which helped me.  I got everything right except two .. 1 that I missed totally and 1 that I missed on the first try.  They issue a certificate at the end and I was as giddy as a school girl when I passed.  I printed that cert out and hung it up on my wall as a badge of honor.  I look forward to being able to hang up many more certs but everything in time. 

The boss left us for Mexico until Wednesday.  Apparently he goes there a lot.  Must be nice, he lives close so it’s convenient.  I am eager to travel but don’t really see it in my future.  I’d love to go to FL or CA.

Friday it was me and 1 other person.  I worked on the anti-virus server.  Inside joke here.  It’s called Sophos but I was talking with a co-worker via text and auto correct stepped in and changed it to Sophia.  So now I call it Sophia for humor.  Someone clearly dropped the ball with this program, there are a lot of computers that need updates or to be removed.  I am working that clean up process, it sucks but does make time fly by.  I get to log tickets and send them to my old team, I am sure they hate me for doing that but it’s work that needs to be done.  It’s going to take a long time to get everything cleaned up but I worked like a champ on Friday.  Even managed to switch gears a couple times to take some urgent tickets that came in. 

I am starting to feel a little more confident which is good.  However, my training is no where near done.  I’d say at least two more months and then I will probably get thrown into the on call rotation.  If you call a co-worker and ask for help, they do everything they can to assist you.  It’s nice to work with people that are helpful.  There are some moody days and drama but overall it’s okay. 

There was some concern over mobile devices but it looks like that has all been worked out and I think we have a new approach that were going to explore.  I really didn’t want to buy a phone just for work, so I hope everything works out.  I really like what we have today but I understand why we need to change platforms, it’s more secure and provides greater flexibility.  That comes with a hefty price tag as well. 

Tuesday it will be me and one other person.  My schedule is pretty open at least that is the way I remember it.  I do have some training on Wednesday and again on Friday – both days I have to come in early.  Then the following week will be the kicker 2 days of super early start times.  I have classes that start at 7:30a.  If they don’t break for lunch and I can eat at my desk then were good and I can leave early as well.  If they break for lunch I will have to hang around for a bit.  Interested to see how it goes. 

Confidence comes with knowledge.  I’ve created new accounts in our 2 factor authentication system, worked with the firewalls (these are commercial grade ISP type firewalls) which are made by Palo Alto.  I’m telling you it’s like learning a second language but most everything that I have seen is point and click.  There is a command prompt and you can enter stuff that way but you have to know what your doing.  If it was DOS based I would be okay but it’s not it’s based on Juniper commands.  Then you get into switches that are made by Cisco and there is a 3rd language.  Thankfully no Cisco interaction for me, which is good.  Keep in mind this is all day to day security stuff.  I still have yet to learn that new hire and departure process.  There is a 200 page document for that and you have to jump from system to system.  Once you do it enough you remember the process but learning it takes a huge commitment. 

Overall I am happy thus far.  My bosses goal is to make me love my job and enjoy coming in each day.  I still have yet to figure out how anyone accomplishes anything around there because were always in meetings or on conference calls.  I think this opportunity came along to stretch me so that I can grow and further my knowledge.  It’s comfortable to be complacent but you never grow.  I will admit I don’t like being stretched, it sounds as painful as it is.  However, in the end it makes you a better person.  Also this is giving me invaluable experience that should something go awry, I will have valuable skills and be more attractive to a new potential employer.  I have no plans on leaving I am quite comfortable.  I really want this to be the last place that I work at, in that I can stay for the rest of my working years, however long or short that maybe. 


Now on to Sunday …. slept in, but you probably figured that out already.  Went out to breakfast and grocery shopping.  Then came home and fought to get a serial to usb adapter installed in Windows 10.  I need this to be able to program my police scanners.  There are some new municipalities that I want to listen to but I can’t for the life of me figure out how to manually program the scanner.  The software does a wonderful job but it won’t work without the adapter.  Modern PC’s don’t have serial ports because very few people would use them.  Sort of like media drives on a laptop.  Anyway, I finally gave up and purchased a new adapter, I shouldn’t have to do this but since Belkin stopped supporting their product, I have no other choice.  I tried every hack I could come across and while they worked for others they wouldn’t work for me.  I hope that when the new adapter comes in, it does the job and I can put this behind me. 

I went to Target and got a sewing kit.  It was between a small machine for $19 that would do all of the work for me or a $10 kit and I do all of the work.  I am no seamstress.  My best work is done like a doctor goes to put in stiches.  However this was for Bear’s bed and a simple hack job would suffice.  I used the conventional method that I learned as a young man and it worked out well.  I only hope that he doesn’t rip it apart with his claws. 

In searching for the sewing kit I found a watch that my partner bought.  It’s a cheap thing.  It needed a new battery and since my eyes are already challenged enough I figured I would give it a go.  Got the damn thing apart, changed the battery but had to open it back up two more times and now it appears to be working.  I have no idea how to set the date or even the day of the week.  However, I got the correct time on it, it’s actually a minute fast.  It chose Sunday as the day of the week so I’m like that’s good.  Provided it displays correctly tomorrow I will put it on.  Much prefer my own watch but it’s more of a dress watch and very valuable to me.  I have started wearing it out on a daily basis. 

Went to eat supper out, decided not to have pizza after all.  Opted for a cheesesteak it was salty as hell but other than that it was good.  Came home took some ant acid , had some milk a bit later with some cheesecake.  I hope it doesn’t repeat on me. 

Cleaned the house and still have laundry to take upstairs.  I didn’t do my usual shave and shower routine today, saving that for tomorrow.  Need to go up and medicate the children, and prepare for bed.  It will be nice not to have to go to work tomorrow but that will be over with before you know it.  Kind of dreading the bbq with my friends just because it’s so late.  Tempted to cancel but I won’t.

Cancelled my Dekkoo membership, they only had a couple of gay films that I wanted to watch and enjoyed.  It’s not worth the $12.99 per month to me.  I signed backup with Birchbox to get the Men’s monthly box for $10 so really only saving $2.99 per month but I had to justify the expense.

That’s pretty well it for the day.  Semi productive and I managed to squeeze in a nap which was super enjoyable.  Need to try going all day tomorrow without one not sure how I will hold up to that challenge. 

Talk with you all again soon. 

28 May 2016


As you may be able to tell by the title of this post, I’m going to jabber about several different things.  This post is the result of being time poor and now I am making up for lost time.  Hang on … here we go.

Earlier this week I saw an awesome movie and fell in love with Cole Doman.  The movie was Henry Gambles Birthday Party. I paid around $4 to rent it on Amazon and I was very pleased with my purchase.  I had my eye on this movie for a while.  I’m a sucker for a blond haired guy.  Cole reminds me of a former boss that I had and he is as I imagined my former boss when he was younger.  If you have the chance to see this and your looking for a good gay themed movie, then this is it. 

Keeping with the movie theme, if your looking for some laughter and want to go to the movies, then I would recommend seeing Neighbors 2: Sorority Rising.  I went to see it because of Zac Efron.  Dave Franco is in it and plays a gay role.  He’s hot as well but in the end of the movie Franco’s character nails it when Efron’s character asks why do so many gay guys hit on me?  The response …. because your so hot, they want to fuck the shit out of you.  Yeah, that is the truth!

Today was a decently productive good day.  It started with waking up and eating breakfast at a new place I had found.  It was okay, but nothing to write home about.  Then off to see the eye doctor to look at the frames they ordered.  I was stunned that there were only 2 samples to pick from.  Both were from Guess (no that’s the brand Guess, it’s not a question).  They didn’t resemble the photo I dropped off of Kennedy’s glasses from Corbin Fisher.  I’ve hounded the studio to death trying to get them to reach him and tell me the information on his glasses.  Apparently he hasn’t been receptive to their emails.  I think there are other issues at play as to why he is not responding, but I really wish he would just tell them.  The eye doc is going to order some additional samples and call me when they come in.  I am going to do some searching on my own and if I find anything I will forward it to them to order in so I can see it before I commit.  After the eye doc, I hit up the local pharmacy and got some medicine filled for momma.  Then it was to the post office to pick up my mail and more pee pads for Bear.  Then home to drop everything off quickly and out the door to the movie theater.  After the movie it was back to the pharmacy and then finally home sweet home. 

Ivy has taken over here by storm.  It’s trying to choke everything out and it was growing on the house in the back.  I fixed that today and cut it down.  It was one solid leaf so I know it’s not poison ivy but my chest has been itching ever since.  I never touched it I used a tool to pull it down and cut it off.  Then I cut down a branch from a tree in front that has been driving us all crazy for a year.  We have had a lot of storms and it managed to tear a window screen.  Not happy about that but at least I can see out the front window now.  The outside of my place looks like a jungle.  The house needs to be pressure washed, the deck needs to be cleaned and the bushes and trees need to be trimmed.  In short it looks like I don’t care and I just live here.  Yep, that’s it.  I will have the trees and bushes taken care of but it’s not at the top of my list.  I am trying to dig out of debt or at least come closer to that point.

I took a nap and woke up to feed the children some lunch.  Then my mother called.  Holy shit I knew I was having far too good of a day for something not to go wrong.  She was crying like someone just did something horrible.  I said what’s wrong she said I am going to have to live here for a whole year.  I said well it’s better than being in the middle of the street.  At least you have a roof over your heard, don’t have a mortgage and just have to figure out how to get to the dining hall.  My life is far more complicated.  So that help put things into perspective for her and calm her down.  Then she gave me more details on the program she is trying to get into that is supposed to allegedly give her an apartment.  I know she has applied and they are processing her application but I don’t think she has much of a chance of getting out of the nursing home.  She asked to be placed there, which is how she was able to move in.  Now that she is there she is no longer my brothers problem and while he visits on a regular basis he’s pretty well able to do what he wants.  Since he was working she had no one to talk to so she called me.  Then she started apologizing because I didn’t want to deal with it.  I told her there is nothing for me to deal with, this is your problem. I am just trying to help you see the bigger picture.  We made small talk, she asked about the children and my job.  Then she popped in her question about wanting to spend a weekend over here.  She tried to get me to commit to a timeline but I wouldn’t do that.  I never will because it’s not going to happen.  She isn’t mentally stable and I doubt that she will ever be that way again.  I may take her out to eat but that is about it.  So our conversation was drawing to a close and she started crying again.  I asked what is wrong now?  She said your going to say goodbye.  It’s only a phone call and people usually say some version of bye to indicate the conclusion of a call or conversation.  It’s not like I am moving to Arizona and you’ll never see or hear from me again.  It’s just a bloody phone call.  I worked to calm her down again if only for a brief moment.  So I said okay I will see you later, figured that would be better than bye.  She started crying again and said bye.  That was it I hope she hung up because I did.  Whack A Doodle.

After trying to gather my sanity, I made my way to the basement to pay bills.  Then I left to get a bite to eat for supper, went to the drug store to get a card & some after shave, then to the cat food store and I thought I was done.  Nope the light sensor in the garage had been broken all week.  I thought it was a burnt out bulb but no the whole sensor went bust.  I wasn’t in the mood to spend more money but I went out and got a replacement.  I actually like the replacement better because you can tell it after it detects motion how long you want it to stay on.  The replacement was $15 which is about the same as what I paid for the original last year.  Now I am home.

Bear’s bed busted and I need to sew it up.  I found thread but I can’t find a needle to save my life.  We had some form of a sewing kit but I don’t know where it went to.  Now I have to be on the lookout tomorrow for sewing needles.  Would be nice if they sold them at the grocery store but I suspect that I will have to hit up Target.  Getting me in and out of there without spending more than I need to is very rare.  I love that place!  I am not giving him the bed back until it’s fixed.  He just uses it to pee in.  I line it with pee pads and he climbs in does his business and then leaves.  His version of a litter box.  Right now he’s got two pee pads and he is using them, so were good.  Golly gee he sure does make a lot of urine.  I would rather pay for pads than to pay a vet bill again.  I keep the wet food going and when I am not watching I know he is also drinking water.  So hopefully were good for a while. 

Decided to start laundry and play on the computer.  I have found that I really need my glasses here lately.  The computer does nothing but fatigue your eyes.  I tried glare filters at work but they didn’t do much good.  So thankfully Dell has preset modes, I dropped it down to text and that seems to have done the trick.  Now that I am home I don’t have Dell to fall back on.  My monitors are made by HP and AOC.  I could fiddle with them but really like them as they are, so I just wear the glasses.  Besides that it’s not like I am glued to the screen for 8 hours. 

I will be heading up to pass out meds to the children and brush my teeth.  Then to watch some TV and call it a night.  Tomorrow is another day.  I need to hit up the grocery store and take care of finding that needle.  Outside of that there is cleaning the house.  I think I will be resorting to having pizza for supper.  Glad that I have an extra day off and most of it will be devoted to what I want but I do have to take time to go see my friends, gulp down a meal and then head back home to get ready to go back to work on Tuesday. 

Oh the joy I got in the mail today.  It’s homeowners policy renewal time.  The premium went up by $161 which isn’t bad but it’s still enough that it will increase my mortgage payment each month.  The bank will be sending me a letter later on in the year to let me know that I can make a lump sum payment for the shortage or that I can just pay a higher amount each month.  In any case remember last year all of the trouble I had in getting them to actually pay the insurance company?  Yeah I hope that we don’t go through that again this year.  I am not in the mood.  I am keeping a close eye out and have made a note on my calendar.  I know that if they don’t pay the bill in time a notice of cancellation will be mailed out.  Right now it’s just wait and watch, no need for any action.

I will be back tomorrow to talk more about work and other stuff.  I am jabbered out for tonight.  Need to spend some time with my furry creatures and call it a night.  Hope your having a great weekend.

25 May 2016

Moving quickly

The days and nights are passing faster than it seems I can keep up with.  I woke up this morning completely exhausted.  I kept pushing myself and by the time I left I was finally awake.  It kind of felt like I was up all night and got no sleep but that wasn’t the case.

A few things have happened since I last blogged ….

1.  The provider I wrote about the office visit when I went to urgent care last year, agreed to refund my money.  I got the money last week.  Yesterday they sent me a bill asking for the money back.  I looked on line and sure enough my insurance company paid them the day before the exact amount they were billing me for.  So I fired off an email asking them if they want their money and told them that there business practices reaffirm my belief that they are guilty of fraud and deceptive business practices.  I have a reply from them but can’t read it until I get home but I suspect they will say they don’t want their money back and it was a computer glitch.  Yeah right and I was born yesterday. 

2.  I got a response from a bank I wrote about declining my application for credit.  They are reconsidering my application and told me that I should expect a decision within two weeks.  Moral of the story never accept no for an answer until you have exhausted all possibilities. 

3.  I am giving some thought to writing an autobiography.  I really liked putting together my first book about me and my late partner.  My big stumbling block is if I should use my real name, I mean it’s an autobiography.  Then there is the other little fact, is it a waste of time, I mean would anyone but it and read it? 

I literally just sat down to lunch, finished my meal and now it’s about time to head back to the grind.  There is plenty of things to do but just not enough hours in the day to accomplish them all. 

I did get an invite to my friends for supper on Monday, which is Memorial Day here in the US.  I am not happy that they are catering to their neighbors work schedule and having the meal at 6p.  I mean ideally I would like to be home at that time, winding down and preparing for Tuesday.  I am going or so I told them, I will most likely follow through.  It will be a dine and dash type event, where I eat and then run out the door to get back home.  I need some evening time to myself before I begin the journey of a new work week.

Speaking of work I got word yesterday that they hired my replacement for my old job.  He will start soon.  I just hope they picked the right person and that he will live up to carrying on the quality and quick service that I was known for.  I suppose there will be some training on my part but I am more interested in where he is going to sit, there may be an opportunity for me to move, if so I’d like to move down a floor where it’s quieter.

Well the next meeting is ramping up and I need to run.  Hope all is well in your world.

23 May 2016

Nailed it

I made it to bet at a semi-reasonable hour.  I didn’t get to finish all of the TV that I wanted to but hey it’s waiting for me on the DVR.  Woke up this morning to the sound of the alarm clock.  It didn’t feel odd like I thought it would and I didn’t have the feeling like I wanted to go back to bed.  My morning routine went off without a hitch.  Made it to work with about 30 minutes to spare.  Got in the meeting for the training and while it was semi boring I managed to get some take away material, that will help me in the future.  I have a few more sessions to attend and then we shall see if I can get the access that I need to do my job.  My boss is sick today, he’s got some stomach bug.  I think staying home for him was a smart call.  He is a workaholic and loves his job to the point that he could spend the night at the office and I don’t think it would bother him.  His wife on the other hand would probably be ticked.  Interested to see if he comes back tomorrow.

Traffic should be interesting on the way home, since I will be leaving right in the peak of rush hour.  Not sure if it will afford me the opportunity to get home earlier but I am hoping that will be the case.  I could use extra time in my evening, even if I only sit and watch TV with the children.  It will be time well spent for me. 

Sometimes it’s a good idea to change up routines.  Last night instead of having the normal frozen pizza for supper since it was Sunday, I bought some Stouffer’s Chicken Enchiladas. They only sell this in a family size portion so that translates to two if not three meals for me.  Well worth the $15.  The down side of this was that it took an hour and twenty minutes to bake in the oven.  It was delicious and could have been a little more spicy but still it was good.  I polished off the stale cake to make room for the left overs from supper.  Tonight I am all set have a couple of enchiladas reheated in the microwave, then a slice of cheesecake and I should be in a diabetic’s paradise. 

Yesterday I got out the fishing pole that has a plastic toy ball with a bell in it out.  I remember playing with Blu and decided that it was time to have some fun.  I spent at least 20 minutes with Bear, Marvin and Insty.  Momma came to check it out but didn’t want to play at all.  Bear got tired and let me play with Marvin and once he was rested he came back into the game.  Insty was all claws.  I tried as hard as I could but I couldn’t get Marvin to jump for anything.  It felt good to play with them and see their faces light up, I wore them out and they eventually had to have a nap.  That came in handy to give me some computer time and time to work on the laundry.  It was a good day and I hope that there will be many more of those ahead for all of us.

No word from the eye doc yet on my frames.  I am thinking that I will have to go by this Saturday and ask for an update.  Normally they can get something in within a few days so I find it odd that it’s taking a little bit longer but perhaps they are trying for an exact match and not a like match.  Which I am perfectly fine with.  They may have not had any luck at all.  I looked at several pairs of Harley Davidson eye wear on line and there are some close but not exact matches.  It would make life so much easier if the model would answer the studio and then they would get me the information.  Chances are high the frame is out of production, eyewear is rapidly changing to keep up with fashion.  Still knowing would be better than guessing.

Well time to run, off to another meeting.  Hope your all having a fantastic Monday!

22 May 2016

Catching up

It has been a few days, sorry but there has been a lot going on and little time for blogging.  I have been really worn out lately from work.  Thursday & Friday were bad emotional days.  Thursday a co-worker got bent out of shape and decided to yell at a couple people involved in a situation.  I was of course one of them.  That made me super angry and I just let them spout off and faded into the sunset.  Friday I relayed a message from our boss to a teammate and they got upset.  Then later in the day I tried to help said teammate and got my head bit off.  No good deed goes unpunished.  I have seen some pretty bad behavior and emotions with in my new team and it’s all the more reason that I question if I really made the right call.

The ball is totally in my court here and I am tempted to quit and try to retreat to my old job where there was more organization, policies and procedures and everyone worked together – the team dynamic was much better and so was my boss.  However, my late partner would remind me right about now that life is about moving forward and not going backward.  I chose this and I need to see it through or at least see where it leads, even if that is to the unemployment line.  I have seen some neat technology and so long as I continue I will get to play with some of that technology, which will be awesome.  I never thought I would say I miss the exercise from my old job but I do.  I take every chance I get now to walk around.  I’ve got a fitness tracker and it’s barking at me now that I am slacking.  Today I got on the treadmill, it was fun.  My problem is sticking with it. 

I really wanted to tell the consultant at work that I thought he was hot.  I wouldn’t dare do it in person because well it could easily out me to the entire company.  I found his email address and started to compose an email.  Then I thought about how silly it all was and just gave up on the idea.

Today I went out for breakfast and a waiter that I haven’t seen before came in.  I was totally psyched up to tell him that I thought he was hot.  There was no obvious sign he was gay but hey you never know unless you ask.  Well the opportunity for me to talk to him never presented it’s self.  Being the sleuth and stalker that I am, I did some research and found out that he’s straight and has a girlfriend.  Now I am kind of glad I didn’t make any moves.

I got to the dentist and got a clean bill of health again.  I realized that the dentist is the one place that I can go on a consistent basis and get good news.  Next time I think all I ever get is bad news, I will have to remind myself that I should go to the dentist.  I made my 6 month appointment and don’t go back until November, by then I will probably be in the on-call rotation.  It will also be very close to Turkey Day.  Seems like it’s way off but it will be here in the blink of an eye.

I have spent the bulk of my weekend fighting with AT&T over not being able to get Text Messages from Bank of America.  They have a very old site where you can control text messages, I was told to go there and enter in the short code for BoA that would fix the problem.  My next problem was that I didn’t have that sight in my password manager so I had no idea what I chose for a password.  I quickly locked myself out.  I also didn’t remember the answer to my security question and had to call for help.  Problem is the system is so old no one knew how to reset my password, they had to put in a ticket to advanced tech support and it will be 3 days before they get back to me.  Thankfully I am persistent and finally remembered the password I used.  Then I got logged in and saw the answer to the question I would have never guessed that.  The question was what is the name of your pet.  I typed in the name of every damn pet I had but nothing worked.  The answer was something other than the obvious but I didn’t get that and managed to out smart myself.  I entered in the short codes that BoA uses, but still no messages would come through.  Then I remembered there is a block feature in the iPhone.  I had purchased an app a long time ago and by default the app added a bunch of phone numbers and short codes to the block list.  Turns out BoA was on the list.  I quickly removed them as well as most every other number that was on the block list.  Now all is working well.  I didn’t bother to call AT&T back, but I am interested to see if they will follow up with me. 

Realized that next weekend will be 3 days long, that is so awesome.  I don’t have enough time to accomplish everything I want to get done, so having the extra day might make the weekend extra productive.  I do plan on travel to the buffet at the moment barring any unforeseen problems or circumstances.  A coworker had a relative of his make me a strawberry cheesecake, which he refers to as pie.  So not only have I said pie but I’ve eaten it to.  It is so good and very rich!  Not what I need but what I enjoy.  I got him a gift card to the grocery store and a thank you card.  Whoever made this thing knew what they were doing and should be selling them. 

Momma is after me so I guess I should head up and pass out treats.  Might have a piece of that cheesecake as well.  Then it will be time for an early retirement.  I have to go in early tomorrow so I can attend some hour long training for a system in which I don’t have an account for.  It’s an interactive training course but I don’t understand how I will be able to interact since I don’t have an account.  My boss wants me to get this training as well as several additional courses before he will even entertain the idea of giving me an account.  You’d think this was gold but it’s really only to our spam filter.  I have a domain admin account so if I wanted to do damage to the network it would be done by now.  He is just a little overly paranoid or cautious, take your pick.

Before I run, I did manage to get my recovery key code.  I downloaded a piece of software that had potentially unwanted software in it, but it did the job.  I took a screen shot, archived that in multiple places and deleted the software.  Now I am all set to reinstall if I need to.  Thank goodness.

Okay, momma is really ticked.  I should go.  Funny how food motivates an animal.  Here’s to a great week ahead.  Talk with you all again soon.

Time, a rare commodity

This weekend, I got a reminder once again how precious life really is and how we often (but not on purpose) take it for granted.  NOTHING bad happened, which is a good thing.  You’ve heard me talk about Will & RJ from YouTube.  Well now that they are married they decided to take a break from daily vlogs, which no doubt has saddened many of us.  I never really did understand how they were each able to live their lives and make YouTube videos, but they did it for several years.  I remarked a couple weeks ago that there wedding was awesome but also kind of made me sad, given my situation.  In looking at their video where they broke the news about not doing daily vlogs, I believe Will mentioned about his blog.  I also saw it on his twitter feed.  So I decided to check it out.  I would invite you to do the same, it’s at A LIVING WILL BLOG

Will is a normal guy and I have enjoyed watching him grow up and learning about him, his adventures and his boyfriend, now husband.  He disclosed a long time ago that he had a brain aneurysm.  It was concerning but like many things in life I kind of forgot about it.  That is until I looked at his blog and there was the reminder staring me in the face.  I believe Will is in his 30’s but my point here is he’s way too young to have something like this.  It’s like a ticking time bomb that could explode at anytime, without any warning.  As he remind us in his blog, we all have an expiration date but no one knows when that date is.  It is quite a sobering thought to see that he has faced this head on and has come to terms with it.  Headaches for you and me are no big deal.  Headaches for Will are a major deal because of the aneurysm.  While it’s scary he seems to have a pretty good grip on life and reality.  I don’t know how those that are closest to him deal with this.  As you will read in his blog he got the news at a very young age, he managed to go years with it not growing but now it has grown.  There are photos on his site, but I’m no medical pro from what I see I would think that there has to be a fix for this.  Of course the procedure or remedy to fix this would come with high risks but provided everything went well and doctors could fix this or even better remove it, the payoff would be well worth the risk.  Medicine is science and just like with life there are no guarantees anyone can make.   

It would be a very sad day for a lot of people around the world if Will passed away at such a young age.  He and his partner RJ have touched and made a difference in so many peoples lives.  It sounds to me that he has no regrets and is living life to it’s fullest.  He stays in shape, eats pretty good and does things that everyone does.  I would think that exercise would be very risky but apparently that is not the case.  With the aneurysm not in the picture I can tell you easily hands down he is far more healthier than me and way better looking. I can honestly say that I am slightly jealous of him, he seems to have a perfect life.  I realize that I have only seen a glimmer of it and that in reality he has good and bad days just like everyone else. 

Back when I wrote my book he is one of a select few that I sent a copy to.  Now he has written a book that is a biography about himself.  I can’t wait until it’s published as I plan on snapping up a copy.  Although the audio version would probably be better for me, there is just something about reading from a physical book that is special.  I am not a reader in general but I am no stranger to books it’s just not my passion.

So this for me in many ways served as a wake up call.  I feel as if my life is passing me by and I am just sitting on the couch.  I know that I have made great progress since my partner passed 3 years ago but there is so much more to do.  Will has reminded me that it’s time to get going and get on with it because my expiration date could be later today, later this week or maybe years from now.  It’s an unknown factor and for that very reason it’s vitality important to live like there is no tomorrow, I mean you can plan for it but just don’t expect it. 

Will, if your reading this thanks for stopping by and for being such an inspiration.  I am so happy for you & RJ and hope that you have a long life together.

18 May 2016


Last night I filed away the license key for my recent purchase, in doing so I wondered where the upgrade was that I purchased for my other laptop.  I kept thinking Windows 10 but no it was Windows 8.1 Professional.  I got it from Microsoft so I searched through my emails and of course I can’t find it.  I’m pretty sure it’s archived in a PST file from Outlook that went flaky on me and I can no longer open even after running pstrepair.  I kept looking in all of the same places trying different keywords and no returns for what I was in search of.  So what if I have to rebuild my laptop?  The answer is simply to contact Microsoft according to what I read on line and they will send you an email with the key code but you have to provide them with a lot of information before they will cough up the key.  I paid a pretty penny for it so I don’t want to just throw caution to the wind and just buy another Windows 10 Pro key as tempting as it is.  I still have a few places to search but if I can’t find it I will call.  I am angry at myself because I didn’t follow my own procedure.  Thankfully I am not in a disaster recovery mode and this is all to be prepared.  I like to have all of my ducks in a row and be organized.  I guess I was enamored by the shiny screen and the fact that I can turn it from a laptop to a tablet with a flip of the screen.  I some how think that I probably printed it out and stuck it some place.  Thank God I was able to find the Bit Locker Recovery Key.  I also found the recovery key for my One Drive Account.  So many keys, codes and passwords it’s tough to keep it all straight.  Then again there isn’t anything straight about me. 

Today is going by faster than I thought it would.  I viewed a webcast that was recorded at the direction of my new boss.  Lots of interesting information.  Headed to a webinar on Ransomware in about 10 minutes.  That is scary stuff that no one wants.  It encrypts all of your files and holds them as ransom until you pay money for the decryption code.  The code either will not work or the authorities could have moved in and shut down the server after you submitted payment, in which case you will never get a code.  Best defense for this seems to be back up your data and do it in sets, as well as have security software running.  Usually you get this from a suspicious email or a social engineering phishing attempt.  People will always be venerable to these types of attacks as the cyber criminals are getting more clever as time evolves.

In cat news I woke up to find Momma going to the bathroom in the kitchen, I skipped her morning dose of medicine and gave her something to treat her issue.  Poor girl I bet she feels horrible.  I am trying to help her but doesn’t seem like I am doing so well.  Everyone else is pretty well normal.  Well time to run.  Talk with you peeps later.

17 May 2016

What a bargain

I decided a while back that I really wanted to switch my laptop at work.  This is a machine I own and have for personal use.  You’d be surprised how handy it is to have your own laptop at your disposal, not to mention no restrictions or monitoring on your web surfing. Anyway back around Christmas time I got a steal on an Acer laptop at Target.  The only thing it was lacking is Windows 10 Professional.  I believe in and use Bit Locker for drive encryption.  You don’t need a TPM (Trusted Platform Module) but I will say Bit Locker works much better if your machine has it. 

I remember when I got my HP laptop I needed to upgrade and Microsoft wanted $99 and I paid just because I didn’t know any better.  Well I decided to surf the web and low and behold I came across a site called Bonanza.  What I remember as Bonanza was a steakhouse but I digress.  Anyway, there is a person who is selling OEM license keys for Windows 10 Pro for $30 something dollars.  I figured it was a scam but decided to go along for the ride.  I made the purchase and then got an email that my license key would be available in 1 to 2 business days.  I was kind of depressed as I was ready to do the upgrade at the time I made the purchase.  So I had to wait.  Well the key came to my email yesterday. I couldn’t wait to get home.  I plugged the key in and it’s valid, my system upgraded and activated with no problem.  Holy cow I got something that Microsoft sells for $99 for $30 something dollars, what a bargain!  Then I started the encryption process and the damn thing is still running despite being powered on all night long.  We are currently at 85.7%.  It moves slow but it’s encrypting a 500 GB HD, that is more space than I will ever use but I like to do the whole drive as opposed to just the section that is in use.  You may be asking yourself so how do you use Bit Locker without a TPM.  Simple you have to make some changes in group policy for the machine (give it a google) and then your ready to roll.  You can choose to use a key to authenticate or specify a password.  I go with a password.  So when I boot up I get a Bit Locker screen that asks for a password, enter it and the system boots as normal and then I log into Windows.  If you enter the wrong password or don’t know it you have to use a recovery key, which your given in the encryption process and told to tuck it away in a safe place.  Loose the recovery key and forgot your password, you have to format the drive and start all over.  Your data will be lost forever.  It’s protection designed to help keep you safe, to keep the contents of the drive safe in case it makes it way into the wrong hands. 

Am I paranoid that I think I am being spied on? Nope but the machine is left at work, while I work in a secure environment and only authorized people occupy the office space, we have vendors and cleaning crew in.  I lock up my machine every night, but still if your intent on stealing it I want to make it as difficult as possible for you to get anything off my drive.  I also have anti-theft software on the machine and can track and/or wipe it remotely in case of loss or theft.  Simply put I am being extra cautious.  There is nothing of substantial value kept on any laptop that I own.  Only 1 machine has all of the pieces of the pie and that is my desktop at home.  It’s not encrypted because it’s in a controlled environment, if it had a TPM I would encrypt just because but without a TPM if I am working remote and I issue a reboot command there is no one present at the machine to enter the Bit Locker boot up password so the machine would shutdown.  I do have a USB encrypted external hard drive that I keep sensitive material on, things like legal documents.  If the drive looses power it requires you to decrypt it by using a password, you only get so many tries before it self destructs and you loose everything on the drive.  Kind of cool but kind of bad if your like me and have a million passwords to remember.  Your not supposed to make them all the same thing but it’s sure tempting!

Speaking of passwords my new position affords me access to many systems that don’t integrate with our Active Directory and thus I have to make a standalone password.  I started making a list because I have to change my password soon, change one might as well change all of them.  Anyway I am up to around 20 something systems.  It’s going to take me an hour to change all of my passwords.  Saving that task for either Friday or a day next week when I can get in early to get it done. 

We just changed systems to consolidate a bunch of systems into one.  There is a guy that we brought on site from the company that makes the software.  I ran into him yesterday and he is so hot.  I got an email with his name and started surfing.  Man I found him, turns out he’s only 23.  He looks good for his age.  He is ripped, like muscles everywhere.  I like a little muscle but still if he were gay I would happily make a pass at him.  I found out that he is straight, so I just admire from a far.  Wow talk about can’t wait to get to work, he would be nice to come home to every night. 

I spent time upstairs last night since I was working on this laptop.  The children all laid out in various parts of the kitchen and living room.  Eagerly awaiting treat time, but it didn’t come.  I had opened so many cans of food last night that I just bypassed treat time all together.  No one seemed terribly upset and they didn’t go hungry.  Bear has started to strain to go to the bathroom, he thinks he just peed a gallon but there is nothing there.  Other times he is going to beat the band.  I don’t know if he is preparing to block again or if he just thinks his bladder is full.  I gave him a pill to help with the straining and I woke up to a river of a pee pad.  So long as he is going I am happy but if he stops or starts this dribble business then we are going back to the vet pronto.  I can’t afford to shell out anymore money on hospitalization or intensive care treatment.  Minor things like a catheter to drain his bladder and some fluid yeah that is totally doable.  If I know one of them is in pain or suffering I will get them care regardless of the cost.  Speaking of which I looked at Ruth last night and she got into it with someone.  They clawed her on her nose.  She didn’t seem any worse for the wear and everyone else was acting normal.  Not sure who she tangled with because there are no signs.  She is the one who will rip anyone apart because of her claws.  I guess she showed mercy since it was a family member but you tend to fight harder with family than you do with an outsider. 

Well just got the 5 minute warning, have to publish this then it’s off to another meeting.  So not looking forward to it.  This same meeting happened late last week and it was scheduled for an hour but turned into a much more intense and longer call.  It was a total cluster.  I hope we don’t have the same thing occur again today.  I’ve already spent most of my day on a useless call and don’t want to get tied up with another.  One thing is for sure though, it makes time fly like no ones business.  I couldn’t believe it was time for lunch when I had just gotten here.  Maybe quitting time will come around just as fast. 

Hope all is well, talk with you again soon.

15 May 2016

Weekend Update

Friday night I forgot to take my sleeping pills.  I didn’t realize that until Saturday morning when I woke up at 2a after having gone to bed around 11:30p.  It was horrible and I was wide awake for hours.  I did manage to get back to sleep but had to wake up early so that I could make it to the eye doctor.  Plus sleeping with the children didn’t help, they love to hog my bed and fight for position. 

Things at the eye doctor went okay.  They were behind schedule for opening and my appointment at 8:30a.  They lost internet and everyone was panicking.  I thought why not pretend your back in the old days of say 1980.  Wow!  Just goes to show how dependent we have all become on technology.  So my exam went forth and 1/2 through the process the internet came back up.  Wow what a miracle.  I wanted to tell them I could potentially help you but you will have to wave my co-pay, I thought it was better to keep quiet regardless of how tempting it was.  So I saw a different eye doctor.  She had the bifocal talk with me also trying to get me into computer only glasses in addition to my regular pair.  Yeah I’m not wealthy, who can afford that?  My prescription has changed slightly.  My left eye has a touch of a stigmatism and the one that was present in my right eye has gotten slightly worse.  I am in the downward fall, eventually this means I will need bifocals but for now I am still a single vision guy.  So they asked do you want new glasses?  I said if you can match up a frame that I have had my eye on, sure, otherwise I will pass.  We went out to talk with the frame lady (optician) and she said the frame looked like Harley Davidson she was going to do some checking and would try to match me up as close as she could to the photo I provided.  We didn’t talk about coatings for the lens, if I wanted a normal or lighter weight lens.  She just told me that she would place an order and would be calling me soon.  Okay.  So they took the co pay from me but didn’t charge me anything for glasses, which is right but I hope that the insurance company pays their part if she orders frames.  Typically unless you get them with your exam I’m told they refuse, but I can’t see how that is possible.  It’s like either I have coverage or I don’t, there is no middle or grey area.  It’s an absolute.   Best part of this is there is nothing major going on with my eyes in terms of disease or damage, which I am truly happy about. 

All of the bills are paid but a new round will be rolling in very shortly.  Not happy about that but its the way life goes. 

I went to Cracker Barrel for supper, there was a slight weight but I got in and was well taken care of.  That is the closest that I will come to a home cooked meal, which is kind of a damn shame.  I love their food and have to remind myself to go their more often.

I managed to get Bears pee pads as well as the mail.  My $80 diabetes meds came.  I applied for the rebate and thankfully it took it this time.  There was a ton of information I had to supply, they have to check with your insurance company to make sure there isn’t a provision in the policy that prohibits rebates.  I think that is a bunch of bullshit, I have gotten rebates on drugs before.  I looked up this particular medicine and wow the insurance company gets the worst part of the deal, they have to shell out $900, in comparison $80 doesn’t seem that bad but it is a little more than what I had planned to pay.  Still the medicine is working or so I think.  I should find out if my doc sends me an order for blood work, which I expect shortly.  Another torture for a Saturday.  Do I know how to live or what?

While I haven’t met them I learned yesterday afternoon that I just got new neighbors.  Wow that house sold damn fast.  There are other houses in here that take months to years to sell.  Kind of makes me wonder if I put mine on the market how long it would take.  I really wonder if it’s the two guys that I saw earlier in the week.  I will just have to keep my eyes open and see.  Who ever it was, did some moving yesterday and they were gone by the time the sun went down.  Gay or not, it would be nice to make some friends.

That is pretty much a wrap on Saturday.

Sunday did the usual breakfast out, grocery shopping.  Hit up two stores and spent more than I had planned to.  I got some cold fried chicken, they refer to it as picnic chicken.  8 pieces for $4.  I heat up a couple pieces and have some potato salad with it, that is a meal.  The cats smell it cooking and flock towards me.  They normally don’t beg but that meal it’s impossible for them not to beg me.  I don’t give in and when I’m done I put all of the bones in a plastic bag and place that in the trash.  That way they aren’t tempted from the smell to knock over the trash.  I could put them in the garbage disposal but it’s easier to do the plastic bag method and a lot quieter.  Finished up laundry, squeezed in a nap that I didn’t need.  Talked with a co worker who called me, really didn’t want to have a conversation with her but I did.  Cleaned the house and looking forward to relaxing a bit, emptying out my DVR with some quality TV and then hopefully a peaceful nights rest.  When I wake we start Monday all over again.  Not looking forward to Monday well because it’s Monday but I am excited to see what will learn this week. 

It’s been quiet and uneventful which is the way I like it.  Next Saturday is the dentist which I actually look forward to unlike most people.  Then I am out of Saturday planned events, but I am sure something will come up to occupy my time off, that is the way life goes.

Will & RJ put the rest of their wedding on line, it’s 27 minutes or so.  Got to see the reception, dancing, the guys dancing with their parents and the wedding party being introduced.  As well as the cake cutting.  It was another tear jerker.  Momma being the sensitive cat knew something was wrong and flocked to me.  I got to hold her and listen to her purr.  Words can’t express how happy I am for those two, they are doing something that I wish I had the opportunity to do when I was their age.  It also makes me realize that I am alone.  I miss not having someone.  I’m kind of jealous but I know that eventually my time will come again.  Not so sure about the whole marriage thing, but I won’t rule anything out. 

So off I go to traverse the internet for a bit, then upstairs to pass out treats and watch TV, until it’s time to call it a day.  Weather has been really nice over the weekend, extreme cool had to turn on the furnace each morning and wear a jacket when going outside.  There is more rain the forecast and cooler temps I think will be the norm.  I’m all good with that.  Cool & calm sounds awesome to me.  Have a great week and no doubt we will talk again soon. 

13 May 2016


So I have made it through week #2. My new boss is pretty impressed with me, I heard that from a third party but it still was something nice to hear.  I hope that the compliments continue to flow in.  I was given more training on our anti-virus software today and right now that server is my baby.  I am beating machines into submission so they are compliant and up to date.  It’s kind of fun but it’s also work at the same time.  If I would push a wrong button there isn’t much harm that I could do there.  However, on any server when I go to log off if I click shutdown instead that can create a problem since I am a domain admin I have full rights to go where I want and can do anything, with power comes responsibility.  I kind of think that I sold myself short on money but this is still a good experience.  I wish there was less meetings and more working.  I was stuck on the call from hell yesterday.  It was a meeting with a vendor that didn’t know their product and they were telling us to go one direction while our engineers wanted to go another.  It was scheduled for 1 hour and we went 2 1/2 that pretty much took care of the rest of the day.  All of my training was cancelled and rescheduled, no one wanted to be on the phone so I was off on my own.  Not a bad thing.

The commute home last night was horrible and the jams came in waves.  You wade through one get going a little bit and presto another jam.  I was never so glad to be able to get home.  I got food set out for the hungry fur guys and gals, then I went around the house and emptied the litter boxes, trying to get the most bang for my buck when it comes to trash.  I put everything in the barrel and wheeled it out to the curb.  I thought for sure someone would hit it but not as of this morning when I left.  It’s just odd having something you have done for 15 years just up and change.  I can adjust but I still don’t like change when it comes to my daily routine or habits. 

Tomorrow is the big day for my eyes, I get to see how much they have changed since last year.  I have all of my ducks in a row and am ready to go.  Just wish that I made the appointment for later in the day.  Normally when I am done I like to come home and take a nap to give the dilation drops time to wear off.  I have to hit up the post office for those pee pads so looks like as long as I can see well enough that is where I will be headed after the eye doc.  Then I can come home and nap. 

I have been having some strange dreams, but over all sleeping pretty well.  Just wish that I could make it through a couple nights without waking up and having to go to the bathroom.  The joys of getting old. 

I got a response from the parent company of the urgent care center, but I can’t read it until I get home.  I am dying to know what they had to say, it will either be disclaiming their alleged error or they will admit their mistake and be sending me a check.  I can’t see it going any other way, but I won’t know until I take time to read the email. 

Got most of my bills paid last night.  I have a couple more to take care of tonight and then I am done.  I am going through hoops to get my $12.19 back from Steak N Shake.  Lesson learned there if your going to pay do it with a credit card, disputes are easier and quicker.  Right now I am waiting for a temporary credit to show up, have to wait for paperwork to fill out in the mail and once the investigations is done the temporary credit will be perm if they find in my favor, if not they will debit my account to get the credit back. 

No real special plans for the weekend but I have given thought to going to eat at either the buffet or for pie.  I’ll probably talk myself out of it for now and go closer to Memorial Day.  It’s been a long time and while I don’t always like the drive it can be fun. 

So back to checking on the antivirus server, getting more training and attending more meetings.  Everyone seems to be in a fairly good mood so that helps.  I am eager to depart and head off into the weekend.  There is something so special about a Friday night and it feels like your a million miles away from Monday but blink and it’s staring you in the face.  I hope you have a great weekend and I will talk with you all again soon.

12 May 2016

Rainy Thursday

Today has really taken off, I can’t believe we are approaching 1p.  The rain has been falling all morning long and my back window is now clean.  Traffic was a mess and I was later than normal, but still on time.  I registered yesterday for some training and the company listed all of the training times in GMT, so I had to convert that after the fact.  Turns out all of the classes I signed up for are at 8a and my normal start time is 8:30a, so I will have to get up earlier on a few mornings.  There are 3 sessions one coming up soon and then in the next couple weeks to follow one on a Wednesday and then on a Friday.  I also mistakenly registered for a class on the 30th but that is a holiday and there is no way I will be attending, I submitted a cancellation for that and am waiting to hear back from the company. 

I learned a little bit more about our Antivirus protection here at work, it’s simple stuff but it’s also very important because it’s helping to keep us secure.  Cybersecurity is ever growing and Cybercriminals are just as vigilant as the security pros.  It’s like a war or a contest to see who can beat whom.  It’s a scary world we live in, before you worried about getting mugged after dark outside of that not too much happened.  Now the crimes are different both in person and on-line.  You just have to watch your six at all opportunities.  I will get another session and get to learn more, but for now I have some basic daily tasks which is kind of nice.  My co workers got to learn everything as it came on line when the department was first created, I don’t have that luxury and am having it all force fed to me at once.  Were moving slow but still it’s a lot to take in. 

Tomorrow is payday so that means that I will be paying bills tonight after I stop for the mail.  I got a phone call and an email from the parent company of the urgent care facility that bilked me out of $115.55, they forwarded the letter on to a VP and she called trying to be intimidating and left me a message that she has findings she would like to share.  I’m not calling her back.  I reached back out by email and asked her to disclose her findings.  My guess is they don’t want to give the money back because of their mistake.  I don’t care who I get the money from so long as I get reimbursed.  I do feel as if the parent company of the urgent care center that made the mistake should be the ones who have to pay it back, since they took it because of an error they made.  I’ve got all of the bases covered on this one, just have to sit back and wait until it plays out.  I could easily be out the money but the way I look at it is I was already out the money, so I have nothing to lose.  The risk is pissing people off and well I can tell you that I have quite the knack for that. 

Lawn boy hasn’t been able to cut the grass due to all of the rain so I will be able to save some money there, but I know he’s coming just not sure when.  My lawn looks horrible but it’s only been 2 weeks.  I think he may be able to catch a break tomorrow, but this is the weather we are talking about so it could change at any second. 

Everything else is calm.  I got to spend the evening with the kids and watched TV.  We all had a good time and enjoyed each others company.  Would be nice if we could repeat that tonight but daddy’s got to pay bills first and then we shall see what remains.  My 1p is coming up so I have to run.  Hope all is coming up kittens and rainbows in your world.  Talk with you all again soon!

11 May 2016

Tears at lunch

Things have been going along fairly well.  I have made several contributions in my new role to both my team and to end users, I felt really good leaving yesterday.  We had an issue come up and it was an all hands on deck situation, I wound up staying a half hour extra and the whole time I was thinking traffic is really going to suck.  Nope it actually helped, all of the hustle and bustle was gone.  Smooth sailing on the way home.  I need more times where I feel on top of the world and glad that I was able to be a valuable contributor.  I think they will come but it’s going to take some time.  There really is a lot for me to learn and how I keep it all in my brain will be a miracle in it’s self.  I think once I am engaged and actually doing stuff that will help.  Right now I have my training wheels on and were starting off slow.  I just got my first clerical/administrative assignment to create of all things an Excel spreadsheet.  Yuk.  There isn’t any math involved but still, yuk.

One of the things I do at lunch is watch YouTube videos.  Late yesterday Will & RJ posted a video about the prep for the wedding.  There was a bit of a challenge to get through the video without crying.  I didn’t quite understand that, I mean it starts off like a normal video.  That changes towards the end and things get romantic and I started tearing up.  Wow it really sucks to be single.  I am truly happy for them, they are much younger than I am and you can tell they are just there for each other.  It’s a true match and that is evident when you see them interacting with each other.  Just makes me miss what I had and leaves me wondering if I will ever have anything remotely close to that again?  Who knows only time will tell.  I certainly hope so. 

Things are going pretty good at the cat house.  They are all eating and begging for more.  I didn’t get to relax with them like I normally would on a Tuesday night.  There was a very small movement in my legal issue.  Dealing with that and a distressed friend/co-worker took up my evening.  Lesson I learned don’t try to write a letter while your talking on the phone because your going to make a typo or worse yet the whole things might not even make sense when you re-read it.  Thankfully in my case there was only one grammatical error, but the point was conveyed. 

While I was talking on the phone I went to pass out treats for the furry children and noticed two hot guys and a girl on the deck at the house next to me, which is for sale.  One of them saw me and started to point to the other one.  I was wearing nothing but my underwear.  Wow guess they took it all in.  I hope they are gay and I hope they buy the house.  That would just be cool and who knows maybe they have a single friend.  Things could have been worse I could have been naked, but that only happens in the mornings (usually).  Once the house sells I will have to be cautious or at the very least draw the shades so no one can see my valuable assets. 

Weather wise it’s nothing but storms, rain and fog.  Yes I still have a dirty back window.  I haven’t managed to get my car wet enough to soak the back window.  The windshield however has been a different story.  Funny how that works.  Anyway my phone has been going nuts for the past hour or so telling me there are storm warnings out.  I hope it quiets down soon. 

So there you have it you know as much as I do, except for the fact that I ordered a case of pee pads for Bear.  He is going through them at a rate of 4 plus per day.  I’m happy that he is going but it is starting to become expensive.  It’s kind of funny to watch him pitter patter and slide in hot to his bed, it’s like a plane flying on to a ship.  Once he starts moving look out because he’s not going to stop and it takes everything he’s got.  Poor guy I feel bad that he isn’t more mobile, his siblings can out pace him easily.  However, if he is scared he can actually run! 

Well lunch time is about done, going to publish this and then work on the ever fun Excel spreadsheet.  Looking forward to being able to spend a relaxing evening with the family watching TV and being laid back.

09 May 2016


Well I accomplished most of the tasks on my list.  Bear got his bath and as soon as we got to the sink, he started to pee.  I made sure his claws were trimmed but as per usual he almost got me in the face with his back claws.  The clean didn’t last terribly long soon he was off peeing again.  He goes on a pad most of the time, sometimes he goes on himself and other times he thinks he is on the pad but he is going on the floor.  Antibiotics are done, so were back to basic meds.  He’s still his same old picky self and quite the attention whore.

Momma has been tolerating the increase in her medication well.  I did hear back from the vet, they had some internal communication issues and acknowledged that it was their fault.  I got a voice mail this morning.  I should have answered the phone because now I am playing hell to get the doctor to call me back.  I’ve left two messages hours apart but thus far nothing.  I am not calling again, time to wait it out. 

I found the most amazing wedding card for Will & RJ, it’s in my car and I will be mailing it tonight along with several other items.  I was going out last night but then it suddenly got dark and looked like it was going to storm so I talked myself out of it.  Now I have to take care of it tonight, which isn’t a bad thing. 

I purchased more shampoo and conditioner, like I really needed it.  My obsession with Hair Care products is just as real as my obsession with writing instruments.  However, Hair Care is much more affordable.  I got Shampoo Number Two by Paul Mitchell which is used to deep clean and clarify and then picked up Daily Conditioner by American Crew.  It’s got Menthol in it so it has a cooling effect and it kind of tingles.  I’m not happy that I gave in but at the same time if I don’t treat myself then who will? 

Had a great supper thanks to Stouffer’s.  Bread crumb topped Chicken, Broccoli and Cheese.  It’s got pasta mixed in with it and it’s really good.  It only comes in a Family Size and it takes 25 minutes to cook in the microwave.  I had half last night and am looking forward to having the left overs tonight.  I got an inexpensive cake and damn it tastes horrible.  Looks pretty but the taste just isn’t there.  I got all Chocolate and should have stuck with trusty Marble.  It’s just a simple 1 layer with the usual ton and a half of icing.  I just like to get a taste of the icing, it quickly wears on my taste buds and is too much, then I attack the cake and throw away the left over icing.  It’s always been that way.

So overall it was a good weekend.  Everyone got attention and of course I visited my mom.  Now its’ back to the grind. 

I took a little bit higher dose of sleeping medicine last night and I really struggled to get out of bed this morning.  I was in auto pilot mode for a while but eventually woke up.  I have a decent amount of TV stacked up for me to watch so no worries about what’s on.  That’s mostly because I concentrated on Frankie & Grace and I managed to binge watch the entire 2nd season over the course of 3 days, which I think is pretty good.  The show is still funny and I am ready for the next season.  However, Orange is the New Black will be the next series that is out that I will be binge watching, I think it’s set for sometime next month. 

Spied on the children already today from work and they are all in hiding, which is normal.  Managed to get here early and picked up a 1/2 hour of overtime, which is totally awesome.  I am looking forward to seeing how much more money I will be taking home with my increase.  I’ve got about 15 minutes left and then it’s back.  I checked my schedule and it’s really wide open this week.  I am going to have to reach out and ask if there is something else I can learn.  I’ve had a few tasks handed off to me but they are mostly done.  I don’t like to stock pile work, I am a get it done type person so that I can move on to the next thing.  Employers tend to love that about me. 

So now we start the count down all over again to the weekend.  This weekends big task will be seeing the eye doctor.  I am going to the same place but seeing a different doctor, hopefully she and I get along.  I really want to get some frames like Kennedy has over at Corbin Fisher.  Yes, it’s a porn site and I really am quite fond of Kennedy.  I’ve been asking for months but no response other than were looking into it.  When I made my appointment I asked if I brought in a picture of frames if they could figure out who made them and order me a pair.  They said they would give it their best shot.  So I had to cleverly scroll through a scene where he wore his glasses and do screen captures of his face and the frames, without showing what he was doing or what was being done to him.  I think I did a great job, printed it out last night and its ready to go with me on Saturday.  I think the odds are pretty good that I will need new glasses but if not then that will just provide more time to figure out the mystery.  I’ve done a lot of research and it’s all time consuming and disappointing.  I have had a couple of close matches but they are not exact.  Scrolling through eye glass frames on the internet isn’t exactly my idea of a good time.  However, when I get started trying to find something out I tend not to give up until I have the answer.  It’s the thrill of the hunt and once you sole the mystery it just feels so good. 

I hope you had a great weekend and that everything is coming up roses in your world.  Were in for a week of severe weather.  I need to have my back window washed and the rain always seems to come when my car is in the garage be it at work or at home.  I just hope that if anything happens after I fall asleep that the weather radio doesn’t go off, that scares the crap out of me and will cause me to sit upright in bed instantly.  My brain thinks it’s the house alarm but then I realize it’s the weather radio.  Run for cover, nah I am going back to bed, chances are it will be nothing at all.  I say that and then watch I will wake up and be 3 streets over and wonder how I got there.  Maybe I should duck and run for cover!

07 May 2016

Wedding 689

Today was an emotional day for me.  It started out with a visit to my mom.  I really didn’t want to go see her but I promised her that I would be by soon and figured that today was probably the best day of all.  I have commitments the next two weekends and who knows what will come up after that.  She did a lot of crying, it didn’t take much and as fast as the tears stopped they started up again.  She sounds like she really hates the nursing home, but she elected to go there.  Now she has remorse and wants to go back to the house but there is no house to go back to.  She was worried that they are going to put a rock on her income and I explained to her that I did my research and it’s done, no one can garnish or otherwise have claim to her disability income.  Our state has an anti-deficiency law so that once you surrender your property to the bank, that is full and final payment.  If there is a balance on the loan they can’t come after you for it.  If she remembers and can keep the facts straight when she tells my brother that, he will be overjoyed since he is legally responsible for her.  I thought for sure he had made a huge mistake and was going to regret it but lucky for him the law appears to be written in his favor.  Mom’s still trying to get into a state program and get moved to an apartment.  I honestly don’t think that she will qualify for her own apartment and can live totally on her own.  I think she will always need someone to watch over her.  The mom that I knew and remember is gone and has been gone for quite sometime.  I have to deal with the new mom and her mental state.  It’s really very sad.  Then again I am not all that well attached to her, given our ups and downs as well as the way I have been treated in the past.  It is to my benefit to keep my distance, I know my sanity and life are far better off.  Kind of sad that it has to be that way but it is what it is. 

I knew it was coming today was a very special day for Will & RJ the YouTube couple I have watched for many years.  They live streamed their wedding, they wrote their own vows and it was an awesome ceremony.  It’s all captured on video and it’s available if you’d like to watch over at their channel http://www.youtube.com/shep689  They are both young and in love.  They have been together for six years and 6 months.  That is a very short time but long enough to know if you want to make the long term commitment to get married.  I am profoundly happy for both of them, but it did bring back a flood of memories for me.  I have never cried at a wedding, but I did today.  It was so awesome that they thought of their viewers and decided to share their special moment with the rest of the world.  Twitter was a mess waiting for the livestream to begin.  It started on my phone before I could get it going on my Roku.  Finally everything came together and I was able to watch it on TV which is a much larger screen than my phone.  Wow is all I can say.  Simple but elegant ceremony surrounded by family and friends, how high they both must feel right now.  It was a HUGE step to take and one that I hope will last them both a lifetime.  I’ve written to them before, even sent them a copy of my book.  It’s no secret that I am writing them again, going to pickup a card at the store tomorrow to send to them.  I didn’t want to do it but then I felt compelled to reach out.  I touched on my story and told them to take time to plan for the unforeseen, I know that is probably not appropriate but just knowing what I went through, never thinking that I would have to make a decision to remove life support – it can and often does happen in the blink of an eye.  I encouraged them to take time and talk with each other, to have the necessary legal paperwork drawn up so there are no questions and everything is in order.  I of course congratulated them and wished them all the best.  Watching kind of made me wish I was younger and could experience the same thing.  I can’t say if I will ever get married again, but it’s not something that I am ruling out.  I doubt that I will ever find someone as special as my late partner but I know that there is someone out there for me, finding him is the difficult part.  Kind of wish I could speed that up.

Now we move on to the part where I got mad.  I’ve placed two phone calls to the vet about Momma asking about a Plan “B” since I can’t afford their Plan “A” option.  No one has called me back.  I was determined to go over and throw a fit in the lobby, but instead I chose to put my anger in words.  I have had and still harbor anger because of what happened with Big Boy/Bear.  I think they should give him free medical care for the rest of his life, but convincing them of that is another story.  My late partner encouraged me to keep my mouth shut and not express my feelings.  Well he’s not here and I have had it.  So I let some of it out when I had to take Bear over and I let more out today when I wrote a letter.  Come to find out their website has malicious software, I browsed to their site from Work and it set off all kinds of alarms.  I did it from home today and same thing.  So I was a nice guy and told them about it for free.  Hopefully they do something about it so that their customers who don’t have up to date security software aren’t infected.  There isn’t a privacy or data breach issue at this point, but if the virus that wanted on to my machine actually got through and I logged in then there would be a data breach.  I should have charged the bastards but instead I was kind figuring that might help further my cause.  I faxed the letter to them, so hopefully on Monday someone will reach out to me.  If that is not the case and I don’t have a response by mid-week, then lets just say it won’t be pretty because I will be over there and in someone’s face.  I might be weak on somethings but if it comes to my furry babies then I am very protective, to the point that I would take a bullet or get ran over by a car if I could do it and they wouldn’t be hurt or injured. 

I got through my letters last night, took an awful lot of paper, proofing and coordination but I have filed a last ditch appeal with the union that my partner was a member of that provides the insurance to me.  I also reached out to the local hospital that runs the urgent care facility as well as the conglomerate that contracts with them to supply physicians.  I explained that the insurance claim was submitted incorrectly as an office visit.  It probably was just a typo but the more I thought about it I viewed it as a fraudulent and deceptive way for them to collect revenue that they were not otherwise entitled to.  I asked them to reimburse me for their error.  Plus I looped in the appropriate state agency's so they could start their own investigation.  I don’t give a damn who gives me back my money but I want it from someone.  If the company gives back the money I will tell the union, I’m not looking to commit insurance fraud or to make money on this, I simply want back what is rightfully mine.  I still have a right to sue but we both know that I’m not going there it would be far too time consuming and if I lost I would be out a lot more than what is owed to me.  So let’s just hope my strong words bring some swift action.  Should be interesting!

I wore my pride shirt out today. It takes some guts to put that on and go out in the world.  You just never know what kind of reaction your going to get.  I got a compliment from a waitress on it.  So far it’s been a very positive experience.  I think wearing it might just attract a guy or so I hope. 

I am all wound up and ready to burn the midnight oil, despite yawning.  The kids all want to go to bed.  Momma has already yelled at me that I am up past my bed time.  They have their routines just like I have mine.  If I disturb theirs it’s difficult but they recover.  If mine are disturbed it can throw my whole day off.  I have a love hate relationship with routines but I do like structure!

We had some wicked storms pass through the area.  Thankfully my town has power.  There are surrounding towns that don’t have power, lots of trees and power lines down.  I turned on the scanner and the power company is talking way more than the police or fire departments.  It got kind of annoying so I turned it off. 

Tomorrow I continue my laundry adventure, clean the house, give Bear his bath and prepare for Monday.  I’m not anxious like I was last Monday but I am sure it will all come together.  I still feel like I bit off way more than I can chew, I remain scared but optimistic that it’s going to fall into place.  I am sure there will be areas that I will excel in and other areas where I lack, thankfully no one is expecting me to pick this stuff up overnight.  I want to ask about a subscription to a service for some training and to further my education but I don’t know if they will cover it.  The cost is $400 for 1 year, which considering everything that is available is really cheap.  They help you prep for tests for certifications, talk about most everything under the sun that is IT related and even if your not studying for a cert you can learn something from watching.  Remember the 3 day law firm from 2 years ago?  Yeah when I asked them for the subscription that is when they fired me, after 3 days.  Thankfully my present employer has much more faith in me and I have a stellar reputation for customer service and getting shit done!  Right now I can’t afford the $300 since my recent vet visits.  However, if I get to the point where I can afford it, I will gladly make the investment.  It would do wonders for me in self confidence and help my paycheck to grow if I was able to get a cert or two under my belt.  Plus it would also make me more marketable should I ever find myself looking for a job again. 

Well Momma is throwing a small fit and before she has a canary I think I should obey her and get upstairs to pass out meds and wind down for the night.  Still watching Frankie and Grace, it’s awesome!  Take care and I hope your having a great weekend.  We shall talk again soon!

06 May 2016

Heart Breaker

I suppose I am a heart breaker.  I was talking with this guy on Grindr, he hit me up.  Yeah it’s the guy who is the dishwasher.  Anyway, we chatted back and forth.  He’s really into me, which I think is great but then he had to tell me that he is HIV + and asked if that would be an issue.  Holy crap, that is a curve ball I wasn’t expecting.  I certainly don’t want it but told him that I would have to do my research to find out more.  Honestly I know very little about HIV and being a gay guy I should probably know more, even if I am not sexually active.  So we got past that hurdle then he said he would like to meet.  Okay so no harm no foul there.  I asked about a specific location he responds back that he doesn’t have transportation.  Holy shit your in your 40’s, your a dishwasher, HIV + and don’t have a car.  All of those are serious red flags for me.  I am going to pass on meeting him.  I mean he might be the best guy ever but it doesn’t sound like his life is in order.  As we all know I have been through hell and back several times.  I own a house, have 2 vehicles and a full time job that affords me the ability to make the house payment.  I know it sounds like I am saying I am better than him and that is totally not the case.  I just see that there are serious areas of concern and that he might just be looking for someone to take care of him or be his sugar daddy.  That certainly won’t be me.  I don’t have enough sugar to be my own daddy.  I really hate being in this predicament.  I don’t want to hurt anyone, just looking to find my Mr. Right.  The only thing that he has going for him that is a plus is that he is interested in a Long Term Relationship.  I know that one this is part of the process and two guys who are interested in Long Term Relationships are rare and most of them are not on Grindr because it’s a hookup app. 

In other news the job is moving along.  We made it to Friday and my coworker is back in the office.  Unfortunately, our days got rearranged so we don’t meet up as in the two of us until later in the day.  I have all sorts of questions and I know I could call her but honestly everyone is overwhelmed.  Slowness and Boredom are rare things once you know what your doing.  The good news is that will help keep my focus and the work days and weeks will fly by.  We were talking just the other day that Thanksgiving will be here before you know it.  Yeah by then I will have either made it in this position or they will have shoved me out the door.  Everyone is so positive that I am going to make it, they are going to work with me.  It all is a bunch of confusion right now but it’s supposed to make sense.  There are a lot of technologies and things that are going on that are of interest to me.  So while I am semi scared and I want to run away, I am forging forward to see if I can’t make me proud of myself.  I occasionally lack self confidence but I know that I can do amazing things and I have gotten through a lot of very trying and difficult situations, so just treat this like one of those times and hopefully I will do fine.  I really want to make it and right now I just feel like I am in over my head.  Someone took a huge chance on me by giving me this opportunity and I feel very fortunate to have it.

In cat news, everyone appears to be doing okay.  Bear is making urine so that is a good thing.  He’s getting a bath this weekend and that won’t be fun for either one of us but we will get through it.  Momma is still craving attention.  No more presents at the moment but she doesn’t give one every day, thankfully.  I hope they all stay happy and healthy for a long time to come.  I have my concerns but I try to keep them at bay and enjoy what time I do have with each of them.  They are all special to me and have changed my life forever. 

My next battle is brewing.  I filed an appeal with my health insurance company to reimburse me for an Urgent Care visit that I had to pay for.  As I suspected and told them all along, the claim was improperly submitted as an office visit and that is why a bill was generated.  If the provider would have billed it correctly then I could get my money back.  My insurance company responded and said they have to pay claims based on the way they are submitted and they can’t make an exception for me.  I can sue them and/or file for a voluntary review.  I am not going to sue them because that would cost me more money.  I am going to file for the voluntary review.  I am also writing several other letters like to the top brass of the physicians group that I had to pay.  The administrator of the local hospital that runs the urgent care center as well as my states attorney general since I view this predatory and fraudulent.  Those letters and supporting documentation will take time but hopefully it will get me back my $115, so it’s kind of worth my time.  Nothing ventured nothing gained.  Start a paper war and you just might win.  It’s worked before and hopefully it will work again.

That is really all that is brewing.  Saw a great movie last night on Netflix called 4th Man Out.  It’s about a guy who comes out to his friends as being gay.  They are determined to help find him a man.  Chord Overstreet and Parker Young both of which are HOT! It’s entertaining and funny.  I am looking forward to binging on Frankie & Grace Season 2.  It is out today so going home and writing those letters won’t be something I want to do but I will get it all done some how. 

Today is the first day of the automated trash collection.  No trash picked up by the time I left, which was disappointing.  I also almost hit the damn barrel.  See bags are better but that is just my opinion.  Now the instructions say that the handle should face your house.  Is that the handle on top of the lid or the handle that you push the barrel out with?  Of course I am the only one who did it differently in the neighborhood so it will be interesting to see if I got it right and if all of my neighbors are wrong or if I am the one who is wrong.  Chances are really high that whom ever is wrong won’t have their trash picked up and well mine is filled to the brim so it need to be dumped today.  It will be interesting to see what I find when I get home.

Now it’s about time to join my first meeting so back to boring I go.  Way too many meetings and not enough productivity but hopefully I will be able to change all of that.  Who knows? 

Have a good weekend and I will talk with you all again soon.