Woke up several times this morning to use the bathroom. I felt okay except for my head. At one point my throat was normal but that didn’t last long. It’s now as red and raw as fresh meat from the supermarket. The children got me up at 7a. Once I blew my nose I knew that I was sick and this is a Sinus Infection. NOT FUN!! So it’s Sunday how does one get medicine? Simple use technology to your advantage. I powered up my iPhone and opened the Doctor On Demand app. It’s $40 to talk with a doc for 15 minutes and I remember I had a coupon so I got $10 off. Not too shabby. I got an antibiotic called into my local pharmacy. I went to breakfast and kept checking my phone eventually the script showed up as pending to be filled. I felt my stomach grumbling which wasn’t a good sign but I pressed on to the grocery store. I grabbed all of the items I needed and some that were just wants. Then I headed for the bathroom and damn it was in use already. Now it’s time to get through the checkout and get home. Nope, I made it through the checkout but needed to hit up the pharmacy so I did that and then it was a mad dash to the house. I am glad that episode is behind me.
I put away all of the groceries and poured myself a glass of Pineapple Orange Juice. I also loaded up on Steroids in the hopes that I will actually feel like working tomorrow. They are kicking my ass like normal and I am peeing my guts out. I also took 2 pills of the antibiotic in the hopes to get this infection under control. If I wake up and feel like I did this morning I am only going back to bed. I would however rather not miss work if possible. I am not a fan of taking unscheduled time off, even though I am fairly certain that my boss would understand. We shall see what tomorrow brings. Meanwhile I found 50 Shades of Grey on Showtime, so I fired that up. Man that is a hot movie. I didn’t get aroused but it had my full attention and I had planned on taking a nap but that movie kept me awake. I finally hit pause and turned the TV off, I will finish it in a little while. I closed my eyes but Insty wanted me to feed her and the others lunch so I eventually complied.
Down to do laundry and play on the computer. I have been working for three hours on a Word Document about my medical history. It has tables in it and we don’t exactly get along. However, I finally have perfected the document and it’s saved. I actually took the time to look up the brand name for all of the generics I take. The only person that sees that is my dentist twice a year. Otherwise, I have no reason to show it to anyone. I have a copy in my wallet just in case. I also have a free service from a local hosptial that will print a medical card for you to carry. I logged in there to update my information and my password expired. Since hackers are more clever I use password vaults to generate secure passwords. I got the password changed but didn’t realize until after I had logged out that the new password didn’t save. I had to call tech support and they were having problems. It will be tomorow before I am able to get my password reset. UGH! I wasn’t happy about that, especially since part of my job invovles resetting passwords. I knew exactly how the guy on the phone felt.
One of the many items I picked up at the store was a Taco Pizza, it looks good. I am going to have it for supper. But first time for a nice hot shave, shower and then jumping into some sweatpants and a shirt. I am feeling cold so probably time for some Ibuprofen. Then to put away the laundry and feed the children. Then I can do whatever I want for the rest of the evening. I am looking forward to going to bed and getting some sleep. I still have to trim Marvin, Momma and Gators claws that won’t be fun. I just hope that my nose and throat calm down so that I can actually sleep. I will be taking extra sleeping medicine as usual.
When will the fun ever cease? Right now I feel like I should be pushing up daiseys. Ah well another day in the life. Here is hoping that this is an awesome week and I actually feel human again soon. It’s been like Spring here over the weekend, we are slated to go back into the deep freeze tomorow. Ying yang tempratures along with my short hair are a surefire way to get me ill. I get overly confidence and skip wearing a hat. However, I really think this is a result of the massage I got, I proabbly didn’t drink as much water as I should have. Well off to see about that shower and pizza. Talk with you all again soon.
I am thankful that this past week is behind us. I hope that next week will be better and hey it’s a fresh start because not only will it be a new week but also a new month! This month HAS to be better than last month and I say that knowing that I have to go to the doctor next month for a physical and I am on call.
On my way to the post office today I had a moment of reflection. I was just in awe of myself that I am existing and subsisting on my own. I am living a fairly comfortable life. I was and am really proud of myself. I think that I have done a great job in living up to my last promise to my late partner, that was to make him proud of me every day. By no means has life been anything close to a cake walk for me, but no matter the challenge or obstacle in my way I find a way to overcome it and keep on moving.
So with the big issue that I am presently facing, I found out that matters like this do in fact take time to settle. I am NOT going to get a lot if any answers to the questions that I have. The fact that nothing has happened thus far, is very good. There is a lot of truth to the theory that no news is good news. I still am doing a lot of praying!
I am mulling over cutting ties with my family. They have caused me nothing but stress, worry and trouble. More often than not they get my blood pressure up. I know that disagreements happen and are apart of life. I think the last event that took place was my wakeup call and that if I don’t walk away some how, some way, something bad will happen to me. This is not a full time thought for me nor will it be an easy decision to make. It will however be a decision that if I decide to walk away, it will have to be permenant and no matter how much I want to undo it, once it’s done it will be final forever. That is why I am taking my time. A big part of my decision will be made by how things turn out with the last event. Once that is settled then I think it will be much easier to make a final deciison.
Thursday night I wasted away by talking with my mom. She’s on the kick about coming back to my house for a weekend. Yeah that isn’t going to happen. If anything and I do mean anything happened to her I am fairly confident that my brother would take legal action. I don’t want to risk it and besides that my time with her wouldn’t be enjoyable because I would be babysitting instead of hanging out. The cats would get under her feet when she was walking and down she would go. It’s just not a good idea. I understand her desire to get out of the place that she is in, but she knew full well what she was getting into and no one forced her hand. The best thing that happened to me on Thursday was the massage lady gave me 30 minutes for free. It was nice but my back is sore, still today and it’s Saturday.
Friday night I decided to pay bills and then I went on and did my taxes. They are all filed and I am done. I still think I made a mistake on my local state taxes, but if I did I know that it will be called to my attention. I say that because I broke even and that hasn’t happened for a few years. I am getting a nice refund, which I look forward to. However, it’s NOT my money. It’s going to my credit card company to pay for the large expense I had this month. I am happy that I will be able to relax a little bit with regards to credit cards and my debt. However, it would have been nice to be able to bank that money and watch it grow. It could have gone for a lot of different things, one of which could have been a small down payment on a new car. I am rather upset that doing a kind deed has cost me so much. I went to bed late and the girls were after me, they even sent Marvin down. That’s when I knew they were serious about going to bed. So I complied and went to bed.
Saturday started out with me sleeping in, having strange dreams. Getting up around 8, having breakfast and feeding them. Then lounging around and figuring out what I was going to do today. I accomplish everything except for going to the movies. I want to see Dirty Grandpa and only because of Zac Effron, I can’t help it he’s so hot. By the time the afternoon rolled around and it was time to hit up the movie I wasn’t feeling well. I am not sure if it’s allergies or if I am getting sick. I have a lot of drainage in my throat and I have been blowing my noise all afternoon. I have taken medicine for it but thus far nothing has helped. That is not a good sign in my book but I hope that tomorrow is a better day. I did go to Sam’s to get printer ink, soda, Kleenex and I looked for the lasagna a friend told me about but they didn’t have any. I wasn’t happy about that. I also made it to Petco and got cat wipes that deodorize so hopefully they will help. I ordered more online from Amazon because I never knew that cat wipes were a thing, just like cat diapers. We’re not quite to the diaper stage yet but if things don’t get better soon we will be giving them a try. I did get a couple naps and play on the computer. I have started laundry. I will be watching more TV. I have the desire to eat to help my throat. I had 2 cans of chicken noodle soup and a lot of gelato but they only helped temporarily. Not sure what if anything that I will try next. I have been guzzling water. I am wondering if the massage had anything to do with it. Just like last time it’s 2 days later and I don’t feel well. I did drink water but usually if I don’t drink enough I know about it the very next day. I felt fine yesterday. Very odd.
That’s the update on my exciting life. I hope and pray every day for something good to happen, I think that is far better than going at it with the approach wondering what crap is going to hit the fan today.
In other news Charlie Puth’s debut album is out and Yanni released a new album as well. Both you can find on YouTube or if you listen to Spotify Charlie’s album is there. I am not happy that both of them have North American Tours now and neither one is coming to my area. If I want to go to see them I have to travel and I can already tell you that won’t be happening. Ah well so be it. I just hope that someday they both come back to my area. I had a great time last year at Charlie’s concert and it was quite an accomplishment for me to go to an event like that on my own.
Now I am going to finish up laundry and think about what I can fix to eat. Sunday fun day tomorrow…. Going to eat breakfast out and then to the grocery store. Followed by cleaning the house and getting ready for Monday. Hope that your all having a great weekend. Talk with you again soon. Thanks for stopping by.
It’s been a busy couple of days here. Today was far worse than yesterday. I didn’t get to take my full lunch hour. I had to wolf down my lunch and that was at 2p. I got stuck trying to install Dragon Naturally Speaking. I’m not sure why they released it but apparently the install is buggy. What should have taken 15 minutes took an hour and a half. I had to have someone from our Security Team help me and even they were a bit puzzled. Turns out you have to kill one of the installers from task manager before the program will install and even then it takes about 45 minutes. It’s rather odd that a peice of software that is supposed to make you more productive takes away from your productivity when you try to install it. I have it at home, installed it on my pc 2 years ago and had to rebuild the PC. It didn’t work as well as it was advertised, but still there are people that swear by it. I can do things faster with my hands than I can tell a peice of software to do it for me. Voice control is appealing but so long as I have my hands I am good. The person that I was instaling this for broke an arm and is still powering through work. I had to do some rearranging for him and change to an ergo keybaord but he’s all good. So that is the work update.
The home update is that Bear is still having issues with using his pee pads but he is still eating and drinking. His eye looks a little better but I am still keeping my eye on it. He can see so that is a very good thing. Momma has been following me around the house like a helicopter. I take it she just wants to tell me that she loves me and she wants to know what I am up to, sort of like any mother would.
I’ve made 2 connections on Tinder, neither of which has sent me a message. I am being stubborn and letting them break the ice. Speaking of breaking, I got in what I believe is the last form so I can file my taxes. I will probably do that over the weekend. Hopefully I am smiling when all is said and done.
Grabbin the mail tonight ont the way home, I know that Bear’s medicine is in. It’s a supplement called Rutin. I don’t place a lot of faith in supplements but this and predisone along with God seem to keep him ticking so why change anything.
Right now I am ready to take a nap. I did get a free 30 minute massage today. Our massage lady saw me and offered it to me because I hadn’t signed up in a while. Part of that is because I kind of swore off massages since that was also the time I got food poisioning. The other part of it is related to money. I can’t just drop money as freely as I could last year. Hopefully that will change. I do want to go see Dirty Grandpa with Zac Effron. Not only will there be a hottie to look at but the movie is actually funny. I don’t know if/when I will make it but it’s on my list of things to do. The most important thing for me to do is rest. Nothing feels as good as waking up on a Saturday morning and knowing that you have no responsibilities, laying down and strecthing out on the couch, then falling asleep.
Well I need to wrap up and prepare for quitting time that is around the corner. Thankfully tomororw is Friday. We are getting cupcakes tomorrow and that is something to look forward to. Besides the fact that the volume of work should slow down, people tend to relax come Friday. That said, have a good evening and stay warm.
Today has had it’s busy and slow times. Right now I am at a lull and thankful that the day looks like it will end with this lull. Tomorrow will be a busy day, meetings, equipment to setup and my normal day on top of all of that. Some people like and some people hate the unknown. In my job I never know what I am walking into and what is going to break today. That can be both good and bad at times. I don’t like it when there is a major issue that goes company wide because the phones and email get super busy. I would rather deal with one off problems.
Big Boy is trying to pee on the pads but he isn’t making a whole lot of progress. He slept in my room last night which is fine but wow I had to light a candle he didn’t smell good at all. I had already cleaned him up and he got mad at me so I had to stop. His eye looks cloudy and blood shot, still excessive tears so my money and research points to an eye infection. For now I am keeping a close watch on it. I didn’t do drops this morning, wanted to see what happens. Outside of the eye and the pee issue he is back to his normal purring, eating, drinking, soaking up attention self.
Still no news with my other problem. Lots of people say no news is good news, but I like to be kept in the loop and know up to the minute what is going on.
Feeling lonley last night so I reached out to a friend. I thought maybe we could grab a bite to eat on the weekend. That failed they have other plans. We normally chat for an hour or so but it was like 30 minutes tops and we were done. Not a lot of news to talk about.
In the dating realm I made another match yesteday on Tinder. No contact from the match and I haven’t sent anything. I really have my doubts that an app will help me find a guy. I am not exactly certain about a gay bar either but I guess if its meant to be it will happen eventually.
Next stop will be the post office to see what 2 days of mail is waiting for me. Then home to figure out what to eat for supper and to see what messes I have to clean up. It would be a nice surprise if there were no messes. Big Boy tries to wait until I am around to use the bathroom but I have told him go when you have to, no need to wait for me. I don’t want him to hurt himself. He just likes the quick clean up that he gets when I am around. Baby wipes to the rescue. I can see where that would feel good.
Well off I go. Stay warm, safe and we will talk again soon.
I broke my back cleaning the house and Bear is still going pee on the rug. I have to double layer pee pads, so that he has one to play with and wad up and the other one to do his business on. It isn’t working very well and the even sadder part is he is in my bedroom. I hope he is a good boy while I am slaving away to buy him more food, pee pads and treats. His eye is still watering and no response from the vet. If I run out of drops from #1 son or there isn’t progress by mid week then I will be calling. He will need something different. Problem is that will cost money, which I am short on right now. The end of the month is the worst time because most of my bills hit then, not that there is a better time for spending money but I would rather pay cash than have to finance it.
Average day so far. Some traffic to deal with on the commute in. I even saw someone getting their car washed. It’s supposed to rain tomororw so why bother, at least that is my approach.
I got a note in the mail that they are going to start automating our trash collection. So we have to have a special bin that the carrier will supply, if you need an extra one you can rent them for $5 per month. The only thing they will pick up when this starts later this year is the bin. I am not happy about it. I use large gallon size trash bags and fill them up. That way there is no bin/barrel to worry about. If the wind blows with this new system it will be fun tracking down my bin. Yeah I will write my address on it but still if you lose it then you have to rent one – I just think companys are looking for ways to make additional revenue by seeing what they can rent to you. I would rather buy something outright than rent it, with a couple eceptions. Trash barrel/bin is not one of those items. There is no point in protesting, the decision has already been made and you can’t fight city hall, well I mean you can but it will be pointless and a waste of time.
Meanwhile my day is half over and I hope the 2nd half goes as fast as the first half did but without any problems. For a Monday it was pretty brutal and busy. Were out a couple people as well. One of which is in DC and who knows when that office will reopen. Strange enough some people actually made it in to the office there but it’s only like 1 or 2 people. If we had that much snow I would be at home with my children.
Last night Ruth came and jumped up on the couch. I was sitting on the Love Seat which is next to it. She was no where within my grasp, which was by design on her part. She looked so cute. I broke out my phone and took a picture of her and sure enough she started talking to me. She is a ham for the camera but she has to be in the mood. It wasn’t much chatter but there was some. By the time I switched to video she was all quiet like the cat had her tounge. Figures. She still looked cute. She waited for me to leave and then she walked to where I normally sit on the couch. She is pistol and I love her.
My body feels a little bit better today but my back still is reminding me of my activity from the weekend. Hopefully Bear gets his together so I don’t have to repeat the activity of cleaning the carpet this weekend. That’s all from here for a Monday. Back to work for this guy. Hope all is going well for you today. Talk with you again soon.
Friday night – didn’t do much, laid around and watched TV. I honestly don’t remember what I had for supper but I am sure I didn’t go hungry.
Saturday – Woke up, had breakfast and fed the children. Watched TV and eventually went back to bed. Rolled out of bed around 1p and decided to make something of the day. I went out for a bite to eat at a Mexican restaurant that I haven’t been to in a long time. It was really good; shame I didn’t have company to share the experience with. Back home, did some cleanup work and relaxed for a bit. Then out in the cold to the pet food store, no cute guys working (boo hiss). Then on to Target for cat litter. I saved $10 because it was on sale. Nice! Then back to home to stay for the night. I came to the computer, had some issues with the system freezing up and took that as a sign to clean the house. I first carried Bear to the basement. Then I ran the vacuum and then broke out the steam cleaner. Man alive the odor in this place. Hot water is what your told to use but if you’re dealing with urine stains cold water is much better. Why? It doesn’t reactivate the urine smell. The carpet is getting worse but I am trying to salvage it for as long as possible. It took me a few hours to cover the upstairs, it’s a small area but I had to go over some places a couple times and that caused delays. I also got underneath the couch that Bear was laying after he peed. I took a muscle relaxer, medicated the children and called it a night. It was around 1a when the pill kicked in and I was sleepy. Woke up around 3a changed beds and Gator seriated me, for about an hour. She came back a couple hours later and tried it again, she woke me up. Not happy. I went back to sleep.
Sunday – Rolled out of bed at 9a. Fed the children. Got dressed and headed out to breakfast. Hit up two grocery stores and came home. I have been inside ever since and there is no desire to leave the house. In fact, right now I wish I were in bed. I am so sore from cleaning the carpet. Earlier today it was my neck, resolved that by taking a nap and things popped back into place. Now it’s my lower back – which is where I have an issue. I really over did things. I shaved and got a hot shower, which felt really good. Put on some Ben Gay and I hope that I feel much better tomorrow. At least I will have my comfy chair at work, which is the only thing to look forward to on a Monday. I finished up here as best as I could. Supper was a Screaming Sicilian Pizza. It was supposed to assault my taste buds, but it failed. I thought it was a deep dish and it was just a regular pizza. I can’t say that I will buy it again but I do have 2 pieces left for supper tomorrow night.
Bear Update – He is pretty well back to normal. Stopping the antibiotic returned him to making normal stool and it’s much easier to clean up after. He is peeing yellow which is what I want to see. I am limiting his dry food intake and giving him wet food and plenty of water. His eye is still infected. There is discharge coming out of it and I have him on antibiotic drops. I hope that it is better soon. I don’t want to have to pick him up right now for any reason, he wouldn’t help my back. So we have crossed the major hurdle or so I feel. The last problem is the eye and then hopefully no more issues for Bear. He has already had his quota for 2016.
Other issues – Well my other issue is still lingering. I have managed to lose and keep off 5lbs. There are times when I simply don’t want to eat be it nerves or depression or both. My losing weight is great but it is how I am doing it and this is not the right way. Friday at work my sugar dropped and I had to have lunch and then a snack on top of lunch in order to get things back up. I hate sugar drops it feels like hell. You’re sick but you know that if you eat you will feel better. The problem is it takes a while for the body to digest the food and for you to actually feel better. I am like a limp noodle when I get that way. It doesn’t happen that often. I was busy doing a bunch of office moves and I tried to power through them by skipping lunch and having it later. My body however wouldn’t allow that. I am ready for the storm to pass so that I can truly get back to normal. I just try not to think about it which isn’t easy. It doesn’t take much and my mind starts wondering. There are so many unanswered questions that I have.
So my plans for the remainder of the night are to complete laundry, empty the litter boxes, pass out a snack for the children and then make my way to bed but before sleeping watching the latest episode of Shameless. I saw a great movie last night called Metro with Eddie Murphy in it, it was on Encore On Demand. Very entertaining. That’s all I got for now. Here is hoping that this will be a great week and that I will be given lots of good news and have many positive experiences. Hey I can dream, right! I know tomorrow is the dreaded Monday.
I hope that you all stay warm and are safe. Talk with you all again soon.
I picked up Bear’s medicine last night. $40 for something that he doesn’t need now, but it was 12 pills. I got the same thing from the vet and they gave me 2 pills but it was $20. That is some mark up they have.
I found Bear in the kitchen last night which is very unusual, he was close to the water fountain. I was happy to see him. He’s got something going on with his left eye, it’s watering like crazy. Might be an eye infection not sure. Anyway he is eating and drinking still. He showed me some yellow urine but it still has a tinge of red/orange to it. I think he is well out of the woods and hopefully within a few days things should go back to normal. The antibiotic is tearing up his system and I am actually thinking of not giving him the last two pills, just because.
I have cleaned him up last night and again this morning. He slept with me all night long and was a good boy not making a sound. Wish I could say the same thing for Marvin. However, he threw a fit just before I went to bed which I attribute to him telling me that it was time for bed. He likes darkness and I suppose with his eye issue the TV light was a bother.
I put some eye drops in his eye this morning, hopefully it will clear up. So I feel pretty good that we are making positive progress and that all will be okay. I hope this is the first and only time we have to go through this because it’s rough on everyone – the whole house is disturbed and that is not a good thing. Plus I’d like to bust out the steam cleaner but if the mess maker isn’t done making messes then there is no point to that.
Life otherwise is just okay. I would like more positive news to come my way and that’s what I have been praying for. It’s a busy day here and I got bothered a few times during lunch. I am going to post this and then get back to it. Just wanted you all to know something good happened!
The weather made the commute home really rough. Accidents were everywhere and people were afraid to move and no one wanted to let anyone in. It took me 1 ½ hour to get home. Needless to say I didn’t make it to the Pharmacy. I will be trying that again tonight, hopefully I will actually make it.
While the commute was bad enough things were worse when I got home. I took an unexpected trip to Diahreaville. It’s a place that no one should ever go to. Bear had gone all over the house and it needed to be cleaned up. So I elected to get out of my clothes, which is normal. Then I fed them like normal and instead of fixing my supper I went on a cleaning mission. It was successful but there are stains left behind that hopefully will come out later with the steam cleaner. Then I checked out Mr. Bear and he was indeed in need of another bath. So to the sink we went and he wasn’t happy about it, but at least he had eaten. I got him 90% clean he was thrashing all around and moving it was really difficult to get anything clean. I did my best to dry him off and let him be.
Finally, time to sit down to eat. It was 8p. So I had a TV Dinner and then some cake. Now it’s time to prep for Wednesday. Did that and passed out treats. Bear turned his nose up at them, which is odd. So I gave him a can of food in their place he was happy as he could be.
Now we move further into the ending of the day. I brushed my teeth, took my medicine and then passed out cat medicine. My back by this point was killing me. I wound up passing out in front of the TV and was done by 9:30p. I kicked out the girls from my room and off to bed I went. I woke up in the middle of the night a couple times but I really just needed sleep. I didn’t get the good sleep I was talking about yesterday but what I did get apparently did the trick because here I am and it’s Wednesday at lunch time.
The commute in this morning was bad but nothing like the traffic I encountered last night. I hope that tonight things are back to normal or very close to normal. I need to get home at my normal time in order to be able to make it to the pharmacy and shell out even more money that I don’t have.
I purposefully left Bear with only wet food today. There is some dry in my room but I don’t think he will go for it or so I hope. I’d love to see him pee normally again. There is still some blood in his urine but at least he is not peeing all blood. He is still acting like his normal self and doesn’t appear to be in pain, which helps to put me at ease. I may have lulled myself into a false sense of security but I can tell you that it feels really good. I think we are in a good place and he will make it past this, I just hope that I am right.
Now I need the other major matter in my life to have some positive news so that I can put that behind me and move forward worry free. I am ready to get to whatever the good part of the year is. Good news, positive thoughts and good luck – sign me up for that I need a double dose. Well that and some heat because it’s really cold outside. I hope all is well and warm in your world. Talk with you all again soon!
It took more than 2 hours but I did get a call back. The sight of pure blood coming out of a cat caused me some concern. Turns out it’s pretty common with Bears condition and it will be hanging around for 5 to 7 days. I can understand some blood but pure blood, yeah that just didn’t seem right to me.
Bear is acting normal, like everything is fine. He does his nervous purr thinking that he is going to throw me off. However, I know him pretty well and can usually tell how he is. He is eating and drinking normally. He made a mess last night shortly after I decided to go to bed. I had to get up and clean him up to keep the smell out of my room. Turns out he wanted out anyway. I was up for a little bit and then called it a night around 10:30. Marv joined me in bed.
My fear is that this little episode of crystals will be the end of Bear. He is such a trooper and has fought through a lot. I am very proud of him and the fact that he has made it despite the fact tht the odds were against him and everyone ws saying it couldn’t be done or he wouldn’t live very long. He proved them all wrong.
The plan now is to have me monitor him, give him his medicine and see how things go. The vet wants to know when he is out of Antibiotics and then we can make a decision if a second course is needed. If he is still bleeding after 7 days then it will be time to take him back to see what is going on.
This morning like every morning he meowed at me when I talked to him. He got excited when he saw me coming with food in my hand. He went to gobbling and I made sure he had water. He ate and drank. I had to do a couple plate rotates for him but he managed pretty well. I purposly kept the dry food away from him. It’ out and if he gets it that is okay. The vet said that he can eat whatever he wants so long as he is drinking. When cats eat dry food they tend not to have much water in take and that causes problems. I kind of think that is how we got to this point because I would put out a cereal bowl of fresh dry food so he would have something to munch on all day. There also was water but my guess is he ate the dry food and just didn’t drink the water.
I know this will sound like a broken record but I know that we are going to part ways eventually. I am just not ready for that now. I don’t have unlimited funds to pour into him but I will do everything within my power to keep him going for as long as I can. So long as he is eating, drinking, going to the bathroom and not in any pain I am happy to keep him around. He’s a big boy and I need him as much if not more than he needs me.
Tonight is not going to be any fun. I have to drive home in Winter Weather so the commute will be slow. I need to make it to the pharmacy to get Bear’s medicine and then hit up the post office. Then home to feed the children. I have to clean my coat I got something on it. I need to eat supper and take care of my usual evening activites and then finally get ready for bed. I think by the time I get home and start to feed the children it will probably be time to go to bed. I hope that it doesn’t play out like that but that is what I am preparing for which kind of puts me in overdrive. There is no winter weather out there yet but it’s on the way. I am hoping that management will let us go early to ensure a safe commute home but I honestly don’t expect it to happen unless it gets really, really bad fast. Even then it’s still questionable.
The best 3 hours sleep I got last night was at 3am when I became cat free. It was awesome and I wish I could go back to it. I love all of them but sleeping with them is more than difficult, especially when it’s a twin bed and they all have their spot that they don’t want you in. Nevermind that it’s my bed.
Here’s hoping that by Friday I can tell you that all and I do mean all of my troubles are behind me. That is something I am hoping for but of course all of my troubles are well outside my control. I mena I can give Bear the medicine and clean up after him but it’s up to his body to make him better. Kind of scary when you start to think of all of the things in your life that you aren’t in control of.
On that happy note I need to wrap up my lunch time and get back to work. Today is a busy day here. Feels like today is actually the start of the new year. Lots of calls and emails. There are a few people off but the majority of people are in the office today. Stay warm, I will try to do the same. Talk with you all again soon.
Bear is passing blood now. I thought I saw it mixed in with his urine but I was standing next to him and he just let go and he was peeing straight blood. It’s scary but I figure common given his condition. I put a call into the vet. The secretary told me to come over so they could draw blood and get a urine sample. I told her money is tight and while I want to keep him alive, right now I need to know if he is in immediate danger and if it’s common to pass blood with his condition. She said the vet would call me back within 2 hours. Yeah it’s been 2 1/2 and no phone call. I don’t think she will be calling me, at least not tonight.
I am going upstairs to check on him, pass out treats and depending upon what I see I may call again or I may let it go. He seems normal to me. Although I did find him and Marv together and they were holding paws. I don’t know if he was telling Marv he is on his way out or if it was just hey I feel like crap, help me.
Bottom line is I know he is going to die someday, we all are. I don’t want to hasten his death and I don’t want him to suffer. My reaction depends upon what I observe. Right now I am concerned. I pray that he makes it through this and that we never have to experience it again. This is hell not only for me but I am sure for him.
Bears had an expolsion last night of diahrea. Thankfully he used the pee pads and he didn’t make too big of a mess on himself. I got him cleaned up and noticed that he was also wet, which made me think that perhaps he is back to urinating.
This morning he was wet again, so yep back to going pee. The flow isn’t what it’s supposed to be and he is still going on himself. However, at least he is pushing the stuff out. He acts more normal today. I think the pain medicine was making him loopy so we stopped that.
I went out today to get his medicine filled. They have to compound it and it won’t be ready until Tuesday. Yeah I am not terribly happy about that but that is the way it goes. Cost should be around $40 or less is what I was told. I hope that is true. I also hope that his body hangs on until the medicine arrives. He is on an antibiotic and has been eating a lot.
I picked up some special dry food formulated for cats with urinary issues and he loves it, so hopefully it helps. Him and Marv have been chomping on it all day long. I got a small bag and it was super expesnive but if it works, I will get a larger bag next time, it costs more but is the better buy. I didn’t want to invest a bunch of money into a product that I would have to throw in the trash.
Bear was in my room and laying on the floor, he would go from sleeping to eating and drinking and back to sleeping. When the time was right I laid down next to him and we had some cuddle time. He is scared and I understand that. I did my best to tell him that it will be okay, it was important to keep drinking the water. That will help him flush all of the junk out and then he should feel better. I realize that I probably should have called the vet today and made arrangements to hosptialize him to get this fixed but since he is calm and is eating and there is some pee coming out I don’t see the need to make a mountain out of a molehill.
In other news last night my electric stapler bit the dust. Today it costs $127 for a new one but I got it for $20, it was on sale at a local office place years ago and I knew the sale price was a fraction of what it was worth. It’s served me for several years but like everything else in this world it appears to be disposable. While I don’t need one desperatly it is a nice convenience that i have grown a custom to. So I got a new one on Amazon for $40 it’s on sale and actually after my gift card and a coupon only cost me $13 which I don’t think is terribly bad. I have always been a Swingline guy but I switched to Bostich. It’s got some of the same features that I am used to so I figured why not.
Today I completed watching Making A Murderer. Wow is about all I can say. I hate to spoil it but they are both still in jail to this day. Very sad. I have my doubts about the uncle (Steven) but the kid (Brendan) he was sold down the river and confessed to a crime he didn’t comit. He thought that if he told them what they wanted him to say that they would stop bothering him and let him go, so he complied. Now because of that false confession he sits in jail. I really think this was a miscarriage of justice and don’t understand how the jury could have possibly convicted him on all charges, one of which includes rape. This kid was 16 and not to sound bad or disrepectful but he was lucky to be able to tie his shoes. He wasn’t very smart and I believe at that point he was a virgin. There is no DNA, Fingerprints or other evidence to suggest that he was involved, they simply used his own words against him. Which goes back to Anything you say can and wil be used against you. So not fair.
I felt compelled to reach out to Brendan and am sending him a letter. Who knows maybe we will become pen pals or maybe my letter will just brighten his day and that will be the end of it. I just wanted to let him know that someone believes that he is innocent and that the jury got this wrong. He is much younger than me, but trust me when I say there is no physical attraction there. This has nothing to do with my sexuality. I am being a nice guy, lets hope this doesn’t bite me in the ass.
Speaking of which I need to check to see what is cookin in the Weather Department. I got an alert that we have a Winter Storm Warning and I also need to see if trash pickup will occur tomororw. So with that I bid you adue and will talk with you all again soon. Take care, stay warm and be well.
Bear is still going, but he is driving me nuts. I had to stay up with him last night, he wanted attention. He was actually fine until I decided to go to bed and then he just threw a fit. I had to get up and pet him and try to get him to calm down. I think I got a couple hours sleep. He is trying to go to the bathroom but nothing happens, he thinks he has gone but I touch him and he is bone dry. It’s like they put a plug in him.
I started wondering why we didn’t just put in a cathether and drain his bladder. Turns out I called the vet to find out and they said that was the typical treatment but it required hosptialization. I guess my telling them I don’t have money, they thought I wouldn’t go for it. Cost is around $650 and that requires hospitalization for 1 to 2 days. It would have been convenient if they mentioned that yesterday and then we could be done with this.
He threw another fit after I got home from the grocery store. I did wind up taking him back this afternoon, they did a lazer treatment on him to break up the crystals, in the hopes they would pass. They asked me to wait 24 hours before I consider doing anything else. I gave Bear an appetite stimulant to help and ensure that he didn’t give up eating. He had a decent amount of wet food for supper. Very happy about that now if he would just pee. The vet said that his bladder had very little in it. I think that is rather odd because nothing has come out of it and I have been watching him extra close.
While he is not out of the woods he is still a big baby and wants attention. A lady that I saw at the vets office told me not to put him down, she said if anything get a second opinion. I may do that.
Tonight I can deal with him throwing another fit but after that Monday night it will be back to work on Tuesday. He will have to chill out. I just hope this all has a happy ending! I really don’t need this right now. It’s also affecting everyone else because they know Bear is ill and that I am off my game.
I have spent the bulk of the day upstairs with the children. Watching Making A Murderer on Netflix. Holy Shit I got so mad at one point where the detectives were feeding the kid the words to say in his confession. This whole thing is messed up. If your watching it, then you understand where I am coming from. If your not watching it, give it a look. Starts out boring at least to me but it picks up from there. I hope the whole thing has a happy ending but from the way things are going I don’t think so. This just re-enforces what I now know if your ever questioned, it’s just best to have counsel present.
Chatted with my friend that had a cat with a similiar issue as Bear. They wound up putting him down. They said that they were told once this starts it will come back again and you will be going through the motions over and over. It’s just best to part ways. Well I simply can’t do that with my Bear. I don’t have the money but I do have a nice line of credit that will afford me the luxury of not giving up but at some point you have to pay it all back. So I think very hard before I make a major move. Right now I’ve got around $250 tied up in this little issue. If I have to spend $650 more to get a positive outcome well then I am all for it. Problem is no one can say for certain what will be, medicine is a science. Science involves a lot of speculation, which doesn’t play well for me or for my boy. Should he go I think his brother will take it the hardest, the girls won’t really notice but then again I could be wrong. I just don’t want to be in that position or in the similiar position I was with Blu having shelled out a ton of money and still going home with a dead cat.
Here’s hoping that the week ahead is much better for me and that all of my problems can be wrapped up and solved this week. Kind of hard to keep ones chin up and live life when your worried 24/7 about this or that. Looking forward to much betters days ahead!