One More Day

So the good news is only one day more and then it will be the weekend!  On the car front I was encouraged pretty strongly to go back to the same dealer.  Reluctantly I called this morning and scheduled an appointment for next Friday.  Even over the phone I was treated like a red headed step child.  I can imagine this is going to be an awkward interaction.  I take great pleasure in forcing their hand, it’s just another demonstration that you can’t fuck with me, if you do there will be consequences.  I really wish I would have never bought this bucket of bolts, it’s just been one damn thing after another.  So much for rewarding myself.  I scheduled next Friday off so hopefully they can wrap things up in one day and I am not stuck driving a loaner any longer than is necessary.  I am hesitant to go back because I feel like they are going to sabotage the car but that will just bring me back for yet another repair and add even more fuel to the fire. 

I had to rush to get to work this morning.  The cunt I work with needed to come in late and the boss wanted early coverage.  I didn’t volunteer but I am usually a 1/2 hour early not exactly what he was looking for but I at least made that happen.  I could leave early but I would rather collect the overtime.  There are so many little things that are being taken away from us because they are trying to reduce cost, I need all of the $$ that I can get. 

Found out with a little discovery that I can pay off my phone in one lump sum through the ATT app.  I was happy to see that.  I am thinking that if the car issue settles and I get a decent sum of money, pay it off early so that will reduce my overall bill.  Not only can I rest easier but if I wanted to upgrade I would be eligible, plus ATT will unlock the phone once I pay it off – so it will be worth more to sell or if I wanted to change carriers all I would need is a new SIM.  It just feels like the right move to make. 

Had fun last night playing cat soccer with Marv.  He would bat the ball to me, I would send it back his way and he would do his best to keep up.  Eventually he overwhelmed me.  I love playing with him.  Sort of like when I taught him fetch, now he’s older and smarter so no need to do all that running when you can just bat the ball back to daddy.  He slept with me for a little while last night.  I had to let him out in the middle of the night.  I am not partial to waking up once I am asleep unless of course it’s time.  However, I do most anything for the kids. 

Were in a picky eating mode right now and all of the food daddy has they want to turn their nose up.  I will have to freshen things up over the weekend.  Last weekend not only was I rushed but the cat food isle had people in it, which is odd.  I am used to having the isle to myself.  Perhaps this weekends experience will be different and can buy something that will pacify their pallets. 

That’s about all I have.  Getting ready to go in for my massage and hoping that I feel better when I come out.  Hope your Thursday is rocking and that life is treating you well. 

19th Nervous Breakdown

I really feel like I am headed to having a nervous breakdown or that I am going to crack.  Perhaps I am just feeling sorry for myself but it’s like the problem treadmill keeps on coming and there is no way off. 

So I got a call from my attorney about my car, I was told that I should be able to return to the dealer.  I would need to call first to make sure that is the case but they have heard that this issue has been smoothed out.  There is something called the Moss Magnum Warranty Act or words to that effect.  Basically it means you can’t refuse to make warranty repairs.  I found it last night on line and if you have a dealer that is refusing to repair your car then you have a case for Auto Fraud.  Of course there are attorneys that specialize in that field as well.  Right now I want to get as far away from attorneys that are working for me, regardless of the reason so that I can preserve what little sanity I have left.  I am hesitant to return to the same dealer, considering the circumstances.  It just makes me wonder what are they going to do.  I may have brakes when I leave but the next day when I am doing 70mph on the highway no brakes and then it’s goodbye to me.  I also am hesitant to start fresh with a new dealer, but I think at some point that is inevitable.  This whole experience has tainted the good relationship I had with the dealer and I have also lost trust and respect for them.  Just think about it for a second this whole thing was avoidable, they just needed to move quickly to make it right and if they did that before I engaged an attorney we wouldn’t be where we are today.  I warned them I was going to seek legal counsel but I suppose they hear that often and thought it was a bluff.  One thing about me is my word is my bond and if I tell you I am going to do something then it’s going to happen.  I’ll bet they don’t doubt me again!

I talked things over with a few people at work.  The best advise I got was come up with a number, communicate that to your attorney and they will likely be willing to make further adjustments to their fees to bring this to a quick end.  That could easily be true, I am mulling over numbers but I still want to get the repairs done that are needed and see what kind of offer I get back.  I think it’s pretty apparent that I will get to keep this car.  The value has significantly depreciated from what I paid, which is normal.  I just didn’t realize how much value on cars sinks like a rock.

Work was okay today, I kept myself busy and took a few breaks.  I am so loyal that I watch my phone during lunch.  Considering I am eating at my desk, might as well.  I picked up a Phishing Email today and that cut my lunch short.  Thankfully I had already consumed my sandwich and a few pretzels.  It took about 45 minutes to settle down and then I gulped down my yogurt and lunch was done.  I have a lot of OT that will be on my next check, that will be really nice!  When I pick stuff up during lunch I charge for that and it’s what my boss wants.  I mean I should be able to enjoy my lunch but if I so chose to monitor my mail and jump on something hot that comes in then it’s only right that I get paid for it.  I am empowered to a degree.  I hesitated in taking it but the guy who is on call doesn’t jump for anything, he’s older and set in his ways.  I figured he was likely at lunch so I’d do him a favor.  He is salaried so truly it all pays the same, whereas I get overtime so most things pay the same but not all of them. 

I can’t tell you how incredibly stupid people are.  The email went to 3 people, thankfully no one took the bait but they all did things that we have said not to do.  Like corresponding with the sender, you think it’s your buddy but it’s really a malicious actor.  That’s because your buddy uses the same password for everything, so taking over his or her accounts is very easy.  The other thing is 2 of the 3 clicked on the link to see what happened.  That could have been a costly move, it may look like it’s going to a file sharing service, but you get tricked and the next thing you know there is Cryptoware on your machine – not a good situation.  If you have any doubts calls for help, don’t try to go it on your own, unless of course you actually know what your doing.  We say it time and time again but no one listens.  I think it’s going to take something horrific to happen before the law is laid down or further restrictions are put in place.  Cybersecurity is no joke, each day malicious actors are getting more clever.  I mean it keeps me employed but it also puts a lot of pressure on me and my co-workers that are working to keep our environment safe. 

Lots of good TV on tonight and my all time fav show Suits is on.  I really wish that Harvey Specter existed in real life, I know he could solve all of my legal issues.  Okay momma is squalling because I have gone over my time.  Need to get upstairs and get my quality time started with the furry family.  Getting my back rubbed tomorrow and it really hurts today.  Hopefully, I feel better.  Who knows maybe I will be able to buy a new bed with whatever settlement I get from this car fiasco. 

I hope you had a great day and that tomorrow is even better for all of us.  2 more days until the weekend and I always look forward to time off and a break from work.  Take care and thanks for your visit. 

Oh Crappy Day

I am so tired but my body will not allow me to fall asleep.  I was actually on my way to dreamland when I got a call back from the car dealer, I was informed that they are no longer doing business with me.  That just amped up my blood pressure, it got me out of bed and I started making calls to my attorney.  Turns out dealerships do this all the time.  So now the attorney has reached out to the manufacturer and they are trying to make my appointment happen this week.  I am not sure if that will materialize, given the short notice I would rather schedule something for next week and schedule a day off, rather than take more time from this week. 

Today is a wasted day.  I watched as much TV as I could.  Saw Central Intelligence with Kevin Hart (it’s on HBO) it was funny and entertaining, I got sleepy and tried to nod off but once again my body said nope, no dice.  I have had plenty of cuddle time with the children and they got their lunch, which makes them happy. 

I received an alert that there is mail waiting for me at the post office so I am going to go fetch it and hope that there is something good waiting for me, like my check for my iPhone.  Lord knows that today I could use something good to happen to me.  I had thoughts about going out to eat but I remembered the casserole in the freezer, it’s two meals and it only cost $8.  I would spend at least that if I went out.  I really want Mexican so I am debating my options. 

I haven’t heard anything from ATT so I reached out to them by phone and am waiting for a call back, should happen in 48 hours.  Time is of the essence here Saturday is my 14th day and that is when I am locked in and won’t be able to return the phone.  I honestly don’t want to return it, I have grown quite fond of it but I know that iPhones on other networks will function basically the same way.  I have high confidence that ATT will do their best to keep me as a customer. 

My bills are paid and instead of sending some money to savings that usually pays for the roof loan, I opted to send the money to credit cards.  There is enough in savings to make the next payment for the roof loan and I feel much better about things.  I need breathing room and doing this gives me that room. 

I’m guessing I will sleep pretty good tonight or so I hope.  As I mentioned in my previous post I plan on taking extra medicine to induce sleep, I may be a little groggy when I first get up but my body really needs some serious down time. 

Just checked one of my bank accounts and my refund from Best Buy finally posted so now I am thinking, treat yo self and go have that Mexican food you want.  I mean the frozen dish will stay frozen and life will go on.  Might as well make something good come from what has been a wasted day for me. 

I did get a text from my friend that just lost his wife, he wished me a happy valentines day.  I sent one back to him wishing him the same.  I had thought about sending him a card but I changed my mind.  It wouldn’t surprise me if he called me tonight but then again he may not.  I don’t really want to do a lot of jabbering on the phone.  The one person I’d love to talk to and hear from isn’t here.  It would also be nice to find someone on-line.  I think that I can make some good happen to help salvage the day but I don’t think I will be over the moon or ecstatic. 

Tomorrow will be a better day, I just keep telling myself that and no matter what happens tomorrow will be better than today.  Just like the song … Left, Right, Left. 

Hope your having a great V Day.  I’m off to fetch the mail and get Mexican food.  Ole!

Sleepless Night

Last night just before it was about time to call it a day, I got a call from my attorneys office that is dealing with the car issue.  They told me that I was made an offer.  It sounded well and good, then they told me how much they are charging and that sucked the life right out of the offer.  Since I am still having issues with the car I am going to try to go back to the dealer.  I’ve never had a legal issue like this before and I am unsure if the dealer will still allow me to do business with them, but I don’t see why they shouldn’t.  I mean no matter how you look at it, they are making money. 

This had me pretty upset and I dealt with this last night in a hurried manner.  I went to bed mad which probably explains why I was awake off and on last night.  I got a lousy nights sleep.  Right now I can feel the morning boost of energy slowly fading away.  I called into work so I have the day off. 

My plan was to contact the dealer and make arrangements to take a day off later in the week.  Well now that I have the day off, I am calling first thing which is in about a 1/2 hour and letting them know I am still having problems.  I’d like to get the oil changed if I can to help minimize the time I will need to take off work.  I know the car tells you when to change the oil but if I can change it early and avoid that warning all the better.

Sitting at the table eating breakfast, it hit me that today is Valentines Day.  In the back of my mind I wondered if that played a roll in my sleep last night.  I still miss my guy but I really feel it’s all due to the car issue.  I just can’t deal all that well with things when I get angry.  In hindsight I used to have little flair ups while my guy was alive but since he has gone there have only been a couple times when I was angry, I mean like Ruth fire breathing, red faced, dragon angry.  It really messes with the blood pressure and alters how I feel.  I do feel bad for taking the day off, but I would rather fall asleep at home than fall asleep while driving to or from work.

I checked on Bro last night and got a message from one of the guys that I sent a fist bump to.  He wrote only to tell me that he was allergic to cats.  Well here I got all excited and it was for nothing.  Maybe I will have better luck in the coming days.  The guys all tend to blend together and you see the same people on multiple apps.  The one guy who I dated that walked out on me, yeah him he’s all over the place.  On most every app I have and I have to block him.  While I don’t think I’d ever hear from him again in case he suffers from amnesia I wouldn’t want to try to start a conversation with me.  Besides that I really don’t want him to know I am still looking.  I’d love nothing more than to close down all of my accounts but I have to find that someone or give up for that to happen.  I may take breaks but I don’t see myself giving up.

I’ve got 10 more minutes to wait and I am already longing for my bed.  Momma and Marvin slept with me.  She cuddled with me and then she jumped ship to the chair.  Once she was gone I pulled Marv in.  He was wet, as if he was bathing.  We got our cuddle on and then I remember him leaving me to go to the foot of the bed.  Momma started up about 1 or 2 am asking to be let out.  Marvin took off after her and there I was all alone.  You’d think that I could have gotten some decent rest but it was nothing more than tossing and turning.  Tonight that won’t happen because I will take some extra medicine to ensure that I sleep and don’t toss and turn.

I was very surprised to see that Last Week Tonight is back on the air.  I’ve missed John Oliver and his humor.  Lord knows we can all use a good laugh.  I watched and his show didn’t disappoint.  I also finished up my movie The Trial.  It was an interesting movie with some twists and turns.  I got to hear all about a Red Herring defense and learned something about the Red Herring Fish and how smart it is.  Who knew. 

Well I am going to get psyched up to make my phone call and then I will either be getting dressed and headed to the dealer or going back to bed.  They may push me off until tomorrow, I really don’t want to take two days off.  I am just wasting my time and that is not how I want to spend it, by flushing it down the toilet.  I am greatful that I am afforded time off as well as my employer understanding but I want to work and use my time for something more pleasant or for when I am sick and I need to take a day or my furry family needs me to take a day.  They no doubt will be upset with me that I will be disturbing their routine today but they will get lunch out of the deal, so it’s not so bad after all. 

Hope you have a great Tuesday and a great Valentines Day.  Talk with you all again soon.

The Trial

Last night I gave in and started watching a movie on Amazon called The Trial.  It’s about a guy who is arrested for the murder of his girlfriend. He says he didn’t do it but the evidence thus far points in a different direction.  The accused is played by Randy Wayne.  Go look him up on Google nice blue eyed blond haired guy who is just smoking hot.  The movie came up when I was browsing Amazon for something to watch just after I finished up with the OJ thing.  I avoided it because well I wanted to step away from the legal perspective.  However, I find that my old flame of being an attorney just drew me in like a candy to a kid.  I am very glad that I started watching not only for the plot but because of Randy.  I mean a great movie is fine but if you can add in eye candy well then why not. 

Speaking of eye candy I see where Magic Mike is now available on Netflix.  It came out in 2012 and I remember buying tickets to go with my partner. He wasn’t terribly impressed but boy I sure was.  Channing Tatum wow he’s on fire.  I may watch it again eventually but it’s not on my top 10 must see now list.  Then again there isn’t anything on my top 10 must see now list. 

Daniel Tosh is coming to town on his college comedy tour.  I’d really like to see him in person he has to be funny.  However, I may have a seizure and start drooling because I have a mad crush on him.  Never could tell if he was or is gay or if he is straight.  He plays up both sides of the isle so well that it’s tough to discern. 

I got in my quality time with Momma last night and even had a minute with Ruth.  Bear of course was clamoring for attention so I had to tend to him as well.  Most importantly I had my ice cream and it was okay, not as spectacular as I was expecting. 

Much to my surprise I wound up sleeping with Momma last night.  She was a good girl and let me sleep in until around 2 am when she had to be let out.  I was reluctant to sleep with her because she is known for doing crazy ass things to wake me up, like walking on my head.  However, she was very well behaved last night and we got our snuggle on.  Really wish I could have some alone time with Ruth I imagine if she would relax we too could have a good snuggle but I am afraid she wouldn’t do that of her own power and it would take lots of medicine to make it happen.  She is warming up though so maybe she won’t be such an evil little monster.  Saturday night Bear was in his litter box and she didn’t like it because it was blocking her path so she started hissing and growling t him.  He just looked at her like so what exactly do you want me to do.  I tossed an empty medicine bottle towards her and that made her move.

Ah here we are at yet another Monday.  We had a mandatory meeting to attend this morning and it was so boring it wasted an entire hour but it was an hour that we didn’t have to work and it brought us closer to lunch time.  It’s just now that I have had lunch I’d like nothing more than a nap.  It’s been a fairly chill day which is good.  There is another meeting this afternoon that I have to go to by phone, it’s only a 1/2 hour which isn’t bad.  Were on the down hill slide of things and sooner rather than later I will be walking in the door greeting my furry family and warming up my left over pizza.  Yeah I know I got to come back tomorrow.  Right now my focus is on leaving tonight, small victories. 

I’ve been back on the dating apps, no response to the messages that I have sent out.  I know I am not the most good looking person to ever walk the earth but I am not stone ugly either.  If we only had labels that were unalterable that told the truth for dating purposes there is some guy out there who would see me as a real catch and snap me up.  I know that eventually we will meet but I’d really like a fast forward button, waiting is clearly not my strong suite. 

Now back to the salt mine for around 4 more hours and then it will be time to boogie down the road.  I hope your Monday is going well.  Take care and come back soon.  Talk with you all later.

Sunday Fun day

I was able to sleep in my own bed last night until 6a this morning, at which time Gator decided to start waking me up.  I changed beds but that didn’t stop her she sang even louder but eventually gave up and then I was able to go back to sleep.  Oddly enough I am had a dream about the grocery store.  I wanted this case of soda and it was on sale for $100.  I opted to pass.  It had to be a dream but it was so real. 

I woke up and checked ye old iPhone and thankfully nothing to deal with.  Fed the pussy cats and then got dressed and ventured off to the restaurant where the one legged waitress’ work.  Yep, IHOP you got it.  I had a full order of Blueberry Stuffed French Toast with a side of 3 scrambled eggs and 2 pork sausage links.  Washed it all down with Diet Pepsi.  It was good but then I got the bill and knew I should have gone some place else.  It was something different.  The Blueberry was a little too sweet for me but I ate it any way.  I took an extra pill in the hopes of keeping my sugar in check.

With breakfast all done, I shuffled off to the gas station top off my tank and get my car washed.  It wasn’t until I arrived at ye old grocery store that I discovered the automated wash did a lousy job on the back of the car, every place else is clean but the back.  Looks like I had a blind man wash my car.  I won’t be using that wash again unless I am desperate $10 for nothing. 

Came home, serenaded Bears while I put the groceries away and then he got a belly rub which made him happy.  He craves his daddy’s attention like daddy craves sweets.  Yeah he has it bad. 

I started the dishes going and resumed laundry.  Updated my finances and did some web surfing. 

I put on my elbow brace and have been wearing it for a good portion of the day.  Feels awkward as hell but it helps a little bit.  I am worried that the doctor has it wrong and there is something else going on with my arm.  I’ve a couple months before I go back but if it’s still bothering me I will say something.  I really want the pain to stop.  I’ve tried different keyboards, keeping the arm straight as much as possible and even backed off of picking Bear up unless it was necessary.  A couple days into the course of steroids I was doing much better but now that they are gone and have been for a few weeks the pain is back.  As for keyboards I haven’t come across one that I am t-totally in love with.  A trip to Micro Center would probably change that but I am also afraid that it would get me in debt.  I have said I am going to get to that store eventually and everyone I talk to says make sure you bring your wallet, you’ll need it.  There are lots of gadgets and gizmos that I will find as must haves and that will cause me to part with my money or perhaps spend money that I have yet to earn. 

Speaking of money, I took the time to check about amending my return since I got a corrected W-2 from work.  Turns out it’s just like I was told there is no impact on my taxes whatsoever.  So no need to file an amended return.  All of this is because they screwed up and thought the office was in a city that it is not in so taxes were inadvertently paid to that city.  They got it fixed, got their money back and fixed our paychecks.  I just knew that come tax time it would be a mess and that it was. 

Presently I am backing up ye old iPhone to my PC.  I elected to encrypt the backup so that all of my passwords that are cached will be saved.  I need to get a text message off of the phone and having an extra backup never hurt anyone.  I will be adding some music to it as well.  I really went all out with 128mb of space and the damn thing is no where near 1/2 full.  Might as well treat yourself, who knows what I will find in the next few years that I want.  I can say that the performance of the iPhone 7 at home is way better than my 5S was.  The screen is larger and the speed is remarkable, it’s a true pleasure to use.  I feel more complete now that I have my Official Mophie case, used it last night and again today.  Looking forward to wearing it during the week as well. 

Opted not to shower, Friday was the last time I washed.  Normally I take a shower on Sunday but last weekend I opted out and well it is kind of nice.  I will be shaving before I go to bed.  My next shower will be tomorrow morning and I can tell you even after I wash my hair with two shampoos it will still itch.  Nothing a little Tea Tree Oil can’t fix.  Weekends for me are a time that I am truly as lazy as possible.  I only do what is necessary and spend a good amount of time watching TV, Movies, playing on the PC and of course sleeping.  It’s my down time and I really enjoy as much of it as I possibly can. 

Made a pizza and left it in a little too long.  Some of the crust is burnt on top, but the bottom is just fine.  I cut it a little differently so I have some left overs for tomorrow night.  That will be something to look forward to after a Monday at work.  I have no idea what is in store for tomorrow let alone next week but I hope that things are a little calmer than they have been.  1/2 of our team will be tied up with some audit, that means me and the other guy I work with will be primarily holding down the fort.  Plus there will be arrivals and departures to deal with.  I really enjoy departures, thought I’d never learn it because there were like a million steps to it, but now it’s like 10 to 15 minutes and I can have someone totally out of the system.  Arrivals well I am still learning them and there is a thousand parts to it, you have to depend upon other people to get you information and I hate depending upon other people, they always let me down and never move fast enough for me.  Ah well I’ll get it down pat as well, just takes time.  Eventually the long term plan is that I will be dealing with both arrivals and departures by myself, which is a full time job in and of it’s self. 

Speaking of work, considering how much praise I continually get from my boss and the wonderful reviews, I am very interested to see what kind of a raise I get this year.  I would also love to see what extra tools we are going to get to help us do our job.  Putting new tools in place and learning them could make for an easier job and I am all for that.  I like the fact that when I have to leave a voice mail for someone I can tell them I am with Network Security or Information Security – that usually gets me an instant call back, kind of like the police calling you.  It’s nice.

Moving along I signed on to Bro and a couple of the guys that I fist bumped I sent messages to.  Thus far no responses but they are some good lookers.  Lets hope at least one of them responds and that they are as beautiful on the inside as they appear on the outside. 

My ice cream flavor this week is Chocolate Peanut Butter Cup and I am looking to dive right in.  Plus spend a little bit more time with the kids before I have to wrap things up and call it a night.  I hope that you had a great Sunday and accomplished all that you wanted to.  We have some unseasonably warm weather and it’s messing with everyone.  It’s suppose to be cold outside but it’s warm.  Hell last night I had my AC on in my car I was just that hot.  I’ll be glad when or if temperatures even out. 

Thanks for stopping by and reading this.  I hope for a great week ahead for all of us.  Take care and come back again really soon. 

Crazy Ass Week

As the tile implies it’s been a messed up week.  I hope that next week is much better.  It’s all been work related, I got back logged and was overwhelmed.  It’s not pretty when I get that way, it’s like I am drowning and the more I try to stay afloat the deeper I sink.  Thankfully the week is over and were into the weekend.  I am still on-call but thus far it’s quiet.  I hope tomorrow is very much like today, one interruption and it was very minor.  

The cat kids are all doing okay.  They are a little upset with me because I went out to dinner tonight and just got home a short time ago.  They were fed long before I left so it’s not like they missed a meal.  However, now that I have come home they think that I should feed them again.  It don’t work like that. 

Dinner was with my friend, he called this afternoon early enough and we tried to get to our usual spot but they were booked.  We wound up eating at a Denny’s in the ghetto.  I was a little concerned but got over that pretty quickly.  The meal was okay for a double burger and fries.  Denny’s isn’t one of those places I tend to flock to, mostly because they don’t offer much that I want.  Anyway we sat there and he jaw jacked the night away until I finally said I think it’s time to head out.  Wow, if I wouldn’t have said anything he would probably still be talking my ear off.  I don’t mind listening because I know he doesn’t have anyone else to talk to and he is lonely.  Some of it was stimulating conversation but he went on for at least an hour an a half about on-line games and that was boring as all shit.  I acted interested which I am kind of sorry that I did because that just caused him to continue to spew.  I am sure I have talked about stuff and bored him just as he was boring me, I guess that is all just a part of friendship.  He picked up the check which was nice, it doesn’t compare to the meal I sprung for at PF Chang’s but I’ll take what I can get. 

Yesterday when I had a little bit of down time I found a new dating app called Bro.  Kind of a strange name but I played along.  There are some pretty good looking guys on there.  Not sure if there personalities match their looks but I am certainly trying to find out.  When you like someone but your unsure what to say you give them a fist bump.  You can message back and forth if you want to.  I find that making the first move is awkward as hell but someone has to do it or you’ll never break the ice and that’s an easy way to stay single.  I am jealous of my friend who found a friend shortly after losing his wife.  Now that time has passed for me and it’s been a few years I am ready to make a new friend and see where things go.  Everyone keeps telling me this is going to be a better year.  Well the only way to go is up. 

I heard back from the folks at Gazelle and my money for my old iPhone is on it’s way to me.  Everything checked out and the equipment was exactly as I purported it to be.  I am looking forward to getting my money.  My Mophie case arrived and I am much happier with it.  It’s built to accommodate my phone with the Mophie battery on it and it has their clip which secures it to my belt.  It won’t come undone unless I want it to.  So much more confidence there.  I took the other case back to Best Buy and got my money back.  It’s close to being a wash on cost. 

Got the cat food shopping done.  I got a coupon that gave me $10 off but you had to spend $30.  That helped me out a lot.  I got Marv’s dry food which by it’s self is $16.  I love to save money, even though chances are I’ll spend it somewhere else.  Plus I was able to pay cash so that helped out as well. 

The new lawn guy sent me an email this afternoon letting me know that my account according to his records was past due.  Thankfully I had plenty of documentation along with a copy of the cancelled check to prove that I paid the bill.  Funny thing is he tried to collect three times from the same invoice.  We talked about this early last month and he said he would delete the invoice from his system.  Apparently that didn’t happen.  I let him know that he is skating on thin ice with me and he’s very close to losing my business.  Hopefully he will shape up, if not there are plenty of others who will gladly take his place.  I asked myself today if I went from the frying pan to the fire.  I mean Lawn Boy kept great accounting records but he gave lousy customer service.  The new guy can’t keep his books straight and has to be reminded to show up, but he offers apologies where as Lawn Boy wouldn’t.  Don’t get me wrong there both bad situations I just wonder if the devil I knew was better than the devil I didn’t know. 

I finished up the OJ Trial on Netflix.  The thing that sunk this case was Mark Furhman.  When Johnny Cochran asked him did you plant or fabricate evidence in this case.  Furhman’s response was I wish to assert my 5th amendment privilege.  The gloves were a perfect fit, but OJ made it look like they didn’t fit.  Part of me believes he had some culpability but from what I saw he was framed by the LAPD and they did a sloppy job of preserving the crime scene.  If I were on the jury as I saw it, I would have voted as not guilty.  The thing that most people will lose sight of is that this is a persons life that is hanging in the balance.  You have to pay close attention and evaluate all of the evidence and arguments from both sides, in order to come up with an opinion.  Being a juror for a murder trial I am sure is hell in and of it’s self, but when it’s a high profile case that has media scrutiny behind it that makes it much worse.  The prisons in the US are full of people who were wrongly accused and convicted of crimes they didn’t commit.  I think our Justice System gets it right about 1/2 of the time and the other 1/2 of the time it’s just dead wrong.  That is my opinion and I realize just because of what I think, doesn’t make it so. 

Now I struggle with what I will watch next.  I love a series but it has to be something that interests me.  I am going to do some surfing and then I will call it a night and we shall see what I can find on the tele. 

My hope for next week is that my check arrives quickly, that ATT reaches out to me so we can put this phone issue to bed.  Time is running out, I have 14 days in which I can return the phone and pay the $45 restocking fee.  7 of those days are gone.  Next Saturday will be the 14th day and if we don’t communicate then I plan on making good on my promise to wash my hands of ATT.  I really want to keep what I have but it’s the principal of the matter.  I am not someone you can fuck with and expect to get away with it.  When I asked for the total cost of the upgrade the sales person shouldn’t have been deceptive and should have been forthright and told me.  If I went through with it then I would have no complaint but odds are I would have said thanks but no thanks, I’ll keep what I have.  Why is it that they told me what they thought I wanted to hear instead of being forthright and answering the question? 

Sunday will be finishing cleaning up the house, doing laundry the dreaded grocery shopping and of course the battle of where do I want to do for breakfast and what do I want to eat.  Not sure.  Payday is this week also so I have that to look forward to as well.  So I will have some money for a day or two but then it will be all gone.

Finally, I don’t know what came over me I think it was hormones.  The guy at work that I have it bad for but know is straight, we used to be friends but I found out that I am just a coworker to him.  Yeah that guy.  Well he has a thing for Oliva Pope (Kerry Washington).  Apparently he likes a little rough sex from where our conversation went.  Anyway I said to him, if you had a chance to sleep with her but in order to do so you had to sleep with another man first would you do it?  He hesitated and then said nah I’d have to ask my wife first so I’d pass.  That answer to me says I was right all along he has feelings for other guys but they are repressed.  Fuck I want him so bad.  As a person he isn’t my kind of guy but based on his physical looks yeah he totally fits the bill.  So it would be a meaningless encounter.  I was talking with another friend and she said are you sure that he won’t turn on you and file a sexual harassment claim?  That never crossed my mind, I mean we have talked about some pretty explicit stuff.  Besides that I did attach a disclaimer to my question and told him he didn’t have to answer if it made him uncomfortable.  I just don’t think I have anything to be concerned with, if he makes that move then I will have no choice but to deal with it.  Since I got that wake up call I’ll think twice before speaking.  We used to be pretty close but he fucked that all up when he told me that he just though of me as a co-worker.  It was a rush to actually have the balls to articulate the question.  I know that my crush is just that a crush and nothing will ever come of it.  That doesn’t squash my feelings. 

Okay well Momma’s upset that I am down here so late, even though it’s Saturday night.  I am looking forward to seeing SNL tonight, no doubt there will be plenty of political humor.  Hope your all doing well and that life is being kind to you.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Wild & Crazy 2 days

It’s been an interesting 2 days.  Monday is just a blur, the day went by incredibly fast.  Tuesday (today) started with the guy that has my old job calling in, saying he has a bad cold and can’t come to work.  Aw I feel so sorry for him (not).  He’s called in so much that I am still shocked, stunned and surprised that he is still employed here.  I mean you don’t look a gift horse in the mouth and you certainly don’t spit in it’s face.  I think of my job (employment) as a gift and I treasure it because without it I wouldn’t have money to pay bills or subsist. 

Moving right along, covering for the sick guy plus doing my job.  I’ve been all over the place.  Plus my project of upgrading the anti-virus clients began today.  That didn’t start on time or go like it was supposed to.  I found the snags and fixed them on my own, without ever saying a word to anyone.  That felt good.  Then someone comes along and finds that I forgot to mention their office in the list of upgrades, rats.  Here I was thinking everything was perfect.  Not sure how I missed them but they have been added to the list. 

Last night Ruth saw me sit down on the couch.  I no more than said Hi to her and she was all up in my grill.  I never thought she cared that much.  This is highly unusual behavior for her.  It was like someone catnapped my cat, I wanted to say who are you and where is the real Ruth?  She meowed at me, knowing full well she wanted her back scratched I said back scratch?  She meowed again and I started.  Oh that just made her whole day.  Kind of made mine as well.  Then I got her to leave, jump off the couch and eventually come back and jump up on the couch. She was purring and kneading with her claws.  Very rare to spot her doing this so I decided to record it.  I got my new phone a little too close and she took a playful swipe at my hand, no claws.  She was just eating it up.  Then I stopped the recording and played it back, showing her.    Her eyes got as big as a half dollar and she was a little confused.  She almost started to hiss at herself but realized oh, it’s TV.  I played it a couple times and she was just as confused but it was fun to see her reaction.  Maybe she is softening up after all.  I’d like to be able to hold her and at least give her a kiss w/o her turning into a dragon and trying to kill me. 

I’m watching American Crime Story – The OJ Trial on Netflix.  That series has brought a ton of clarity to the case and I have learned things thus far that I never knew before.  It’s interesting to see how it all plays out, even though I know in the end he is innocent.  Right now I am buying that but let’s see how I feel once I have watched the whole show.  The crime it’s self is very sad and shouldn’t have happened. 

Well about time to go play in traffic so I am going to wrap up here.  Hope you had a great two days.  Talk with you all again soon. 

The Pens

This is the crown jewel of my recent purchase.  It is by far the smoothest Fountain Pen that I have ever written with.  The blue color is a bit more shiny in this photo, in reality my pen is more Navy that this bright blue.  Making the shade of blue match the photo is the only change I would make to this pen.  It’s expensive as pens go but well worth every penny, so long as you use it and it’s not sitting around collecting dust.  I went the extra mile and had this engraved with my name.  I have many pens I value and this is among them.

This is a nice pen, nothing terribly fancy.  I like the fact that you can’t put it in your pocket unless it’s retracted.  When you push down on the plunger to expose the ball point the pocket clip becomes flush with the pen.  No more messy shirts or ink stains with this pen around.  The color like the pen above is more navy than bright blue.  That is the only thing I would change about this pen.  Lamy makes quality pens.  I own this, one like this in silver.  I have a Lamy Fountain Pen and Two additional rollerballs that are fairly inexpensive.  This particular pen goes for around $60.

A picture is worth a thousand words and seeing these pens, writing with them I am sure that you too would and could easily fall in love.  It’s far better to visit a pen store and have the experience in person, so that you don’t purchase something that you wind up returning.  I mail order a good portion of my pens and have yet to return one.  I am not quite sure why I am such a pen fanatic or a writing instrument enthusiast, but I have the bug and once it bites you always have a desire for something new.

If your just getting into pen collecting, I would suggest starting with a decent rollerball.  I like them because they are smoother than your typical ball point pen.  Think of it as Gel ink.  If money is an issue check out the Pilot G2, it’s a disposable and refillable pen.  Most people throw them away and grab a new one.  These are the choice pen of many, many people.  I remember when they were first on the market, I thought they were better than sliced bread.  You can get them most anywhere from your local drugstore, office supply company, Target, Wal-Mart and probably even find them at your local grocery store.  I am a huge fan of Medium Point.  However, these only come in Fine which is as close as your going to get to Medium. These are a couple dollars for 2 and come in many different colors.

 

If you want to get something nice, with a bright lacquer finish then I suggest going with a Retro 1951 Tornado Pen.  You can get ink in many colors, these pens will use Parker Gel Refills, which write amazing.  If you want to go the extra step you can get your pen engraved.  They come in a round tube and the pen is in a velvet like sleeve.  The pen that is pictured below is one that I purchased for my late partner.  I had it engraved it’s said Jeremy loves and his name.  He loved it and it was his favorite pen, until I introduced him to a Tombow Zoom, that he really liked and couldn’t put it down.  The color on the Tornado is just as bright as you see it in a photo.  I own one in Blue, one with a padded grip in a light blue and of course the Red one, which is tucked away and only used on occasion. 

So there you have it.  No matter what your hobby, they all cost money.  Pens are interesting and it helps to change up your day by switching from day to day.  A different ink, a different point or just a different color pen can change your whole mood and outlook on the day.  If your stuck writing a good portion of the day, it helps to have a pen that you enjoy and are comfortable with.  I hope I helped bring some clarity to this hobby of mine and that you enjoyed this post.  Feel free to ask questions.

Thanks for stopping by.  I hope your having a great day!

Super Sunday

Happy Superbowl Sunday, it’s just another Sunday for me.  I know a lot of people watch the game, place bets and have parties.  Sports is just not my thing.  I can say that some of the guys look really good in their uniforms.  Baseball players by far show off their assets really well. 

Yesterday I went through with the upgrade of my phone.  Wow I got there later than I wanted but walked in and got helped right away.  I explained that I was apprehensive about the upgrade due to cost and that I needed to know what it would cost me before I went through with moving to a new phone.  The sales person I got took this as a green light that I was going to upgrade.  She said $25 per month on top of what your paying.  Great I knew I could afford that.  Now wait for it, there are hidden fees and surprise charges that I wasn’t told about until the deal was done.  First, there is a $25.00 upgrade fee, it’s a one-time charge and I’ll never be charged it again when upgrading.  Second, AT&T forces insurance coverage on the device at the cost of $8.99 per month.  You can cancel the insurance but you can never put it back on once cancelled.  I always get Apple Care.  However, the salesperson really sold the insurance in that anything and everything is covered, no matter what you bring it back to an AT&T store and they will take care of it.  There is a sliding deductible it starts out at around $250 and over time goes down as you begin to pay off the phone.  I can’t go without mentioning that I was pressured pretty hard to purchase 3 accessories because that would build a bundle and give me a discount.  Once all of the dust settled with this I learned that I no longer got a discount on accessories.  Glad I only got what I absolutely needed.  I would have purchased my Mophie from them but dumb dumb told me that it wasn’t available in bright colors.  When I showed her the Mophie web page she didn’t know what to say, other than oh we don’t carry that.  No fucking shit. 

I asked about getting the upgrade fee waived, which has been done for me in times past.  She told me it wouldn’t happen.  The store manager couldn’t do it and I would have to phone into customer care and they may do it but it was very doubtful.  Yeah, well you don’t know me very well.  I was all worked up and really ready to call it quits but then the real kicker, even though the new phone hadn’t been taken out of the store if I wanted to return it, I would have to pay a restocking fee of $45.00.  So they got you no matter what.  This is deceptive at best.  Moving right along being frazzled as I was I forgot to mention before the deal was done that my voice mail is special and upgrading caused problems in the past.  So the sales person insisted on holding me hostage until the phone was done restoring from iCloud.  The estimated time was 2 hours.  Fuck I was mad and I was hot – I just wanted out of that store so bad.  She changed to different WIFI Networks in the hopes of bringing the time down, eventually we got it to around 1 hour.  I asked about checking my voice mail and she said nope not until the restore was done.  I had to watch her yawn, which was aggravating.  She left me alone for a short period of time and went into the back.  Then I happened to start looking at who was in the store and saw a cute guy salesperson.  What a nice ass and a pretty face.  I wanted him to be my boyfriend but never approached him.  The cock blocker returned to tell me that she went to blow her nose.  Like that was information that I needed to know.  Then she yammered on and on about how she gets no sleep, has to constantly work and when she does try to sleep she has to have a fan going.  All useless information to me.  She was buying time.  I would have rather taken off my jacket and went into the back with the cute guy salesperson, I mean I am sure my idea of passing time would have been better and much more fun provided that he was up for it.  Finally I posed the question about my voice mail differently and she called my number, which stopped the restore process.  As soon as I heard the greeting I knew that everything was fine.  Then thankfully I was allowed to leave.   The whole process seemed to take 2 hours in it’s self but really I was in there for 45 minutes to an hour tops. 

Remember when I said that she didn’t know me?  I was really pissed about the way I was treated and how I was deceived.  So I wrote a letter to the president of AT&T and told them to fix this or else I am leaving, I’ll take my TV and Home Phone along with my wireless to another provider and wash my hands of them if they don’t.  Bet you I get the upgrade fee waived at a minimum.  I’m asking for a lot more than that.  Start high work low – always your best option when negotiating.  All of the carriers have you sign an agreement that you can’t sue them and can’t participate in a class action lawsuit.  Your only remedy for settling disputes is binding arbitration.  That’s crap but legal fees can get out of hand quickly, don’t I know that.  The cost to file a complaint for arbitration is around $200 and in my case AT&T will pay that fee, regardless of the outcome.  That sounds a little more fair to me. 

Funny thing is when we talked about a Mophie and also the color of the phone, she pressed me to get black.  I told her to look at the parking lot at the black car, it’s a piece of shit and it’s brand new.  Then there is Bear, an all black cat.  I have had nothing but problems with both of them.  Black is clearly not my color and I will never, ever buy something in black if I have the choice of another color, even if that other color is bright neon pink.  She couldn’t believe my reaction but I told her if you went through what I have been through, you’d avoid black as well.  Bear is a sweet boy and none of his health problems are his fault.  I would easily own an all black cat again as long as it was as sweet as Bear is, I wouldn’t go out of my way to get an all black cat but if one wondered into my life I wouldn’t object.  Taz was all black as well and he too was sweet once he got his nuts chopped off.  Then again I think any man would be sweeter without nuts. 

Spent most of the day on Saturday with the phone thing.  It was frustrating, I got my 2 factor authentication app all set up and working.  I even found a way to move accounts that I had in Google Authenticator all to my preferred app which is Duo.  So I got to delete an app from my phone, happy about that.  Tested everything and it’s all working fine.  This was my biggest fear and what kept me from moving forward.  Now that I know it’s easy I wouldn’t hesitate to switch phones again if the need was there.  I had to hook the phone up to my computer in order to get all of my music to download on it and that went quickly. 

Wiped the old phone this morning, multiple times.  Got a great offer from Gazelle to sell it, so I am mailing it off tomorrow and within a few weeks should have my check.  I could have gotten faster payment and $3 more if I opted for an electronic Amazon gift card but decided that $3 wasn’t worth it and having the cash in hand is far better.  That way I can spend or save it as I see fit.  It was also good to be able to pay cash for all of the accessories that I ordered, dropped around $400 but that is normal for me when switching devices.  Got a case from Best Buy for $40 and it looks great the only problem is it easily slips off my belt while I am wearing my coat.  That won’t work.  So I ordered a case directly from Mophie for around the same cost.  If the new case arrives in time, I will take the old case back to Best Buy and get my money back, no sense in keeping something that I won’t use.  Finding a decent belt clip is hard, but I know Mophie products and love their belt clip so it should be a great fit. I look forward to getting it.

Last night (Saturday)I got a call from my pal that just lost his wife.  He told me that he met a woman and went on a date last night (Friday).  I was flabbergasted and happy for him.  They went back to his place after enjoying a nice meal and some wine.  He could have easily put the moves on her but they watched TV and talked a bit more.  He made it clear that he wasn’t interested in having sex off the bat, if the chemistry develops and the time is right then he would not be against it, but right now he is just interested in a companion.  Turns out she is recently widowed within the past year.  Her late husband had a stroke, was in a nursing home for years and finally passed away.  I told him after I got done setting up my phone I would be driving to his house and maybe he could find me a man.  We talked about how difficult it was to actually hold a conversation with anyone on-line and to actually get meaningful replies.  Dating in general seems to be a lot of people that want to get off and then move on.  That’s all well and good but not what either of us is looking for.  Not sure if things will progress with his lady friend but I do wish him the very best.  It would be awesome if things worked out for him.  He was on the site our-time when they met.  He’s on many sites but this one seems to be the best.  I know they also cater to the gay community but it’s typically older people in their 50’s and 60’s.  I really want someone closer to my age or younger. 

This morning I woke up very early from a horrible dream.  It was 5:45a and I couldn’t go back to sleep, even switched beds – it was a no go.  So I got up, fed the children and then came to the basement to write the complaint letter I spoke of earlier.  By the time I was done, dressed and out of the house it was 7:30.  I went to Cracker Barrel it was so early I walked in and was seated right away.  I also knew that the guy that allegedly liked me wouldn’t be there because it was so early.  Had their famous Blueberry Pancakes.  The kitchen messed up and gave me bacon (not my fav) so I got that and sausage.  It was really a great meal.  Then I moved on to the grocery store where I glided through the store, no worries everything I needed was in stock and I got out for under $100 so I was happy about that. 

Came home, unloaded the groceries rented a movie started watching it and got sleepy.  Took a much needed nap and Gator made sure I was up in time to feed her lunch so I didn’t sleep the day away, which I could have easily done.  My back is killing me from my massage, it’s getting worse instead of better or so it feels.  Not sure if I will be getting a another massage on Thursday but if I do I will tell her to ease up.  If I wanted to be in pain I could easily find someone to beat the shit out of me, I pay her to feel good not to feel like shit. 

Supper will be the Chicken, Broccoli and Pasta casserole with breadcrumb topping from Stouffers that I like.  It takes forever to cook which is why I always have it on weekends when time isn’t of the essence.  Plus I will cut myself off after eating half of it so that I can have some left for tomorrow night.  I know I’ll look forward to coming home to that.  I’ll be finishing my movie while it cooks but first I have to put away the laundry.  Shave and shower and then I’ll be ready to make me some delicious dinner and feed the needy and greedy furry children. 

I will be on call starting tomorrow.  Last week was hellish and I was very glad it wasn’t my week.  Not sure what this week will be like but I am sure I will be busy, which is fine so long as it’s during working hours and doesn’t take up too much of my night.  I am not against overtime but would rather not work it unless I have to.  Oh and I found out that were getting corrected W-2’s because they screwed up so I may have to file an amended return after all.  My employer says not but I’ll take Turbo Taxes word over theirs when it comes to taxes.  The best part about my new phone is that I can’t get company email on it until tomorrow when someone releases it, after that then it will be buzzing and humming.  So for now I am enjoying the silence.  I am going to under take my first big project and upgrade our Anti-Virus client.  Working with my boss tomorrow to put together a plan and Tuesday afternoon or Wednesday I will be starting.  There shouldn’t be any problems it’s pretty straight forward.  I hope it goes as well as everyone says it will.  I am a little nervous but you have to start somewhere and I realize this is giving me a chance to learn in the process, which I am truly grateful for.  I have been so happy that my boss took a chance on me – I know he’s pleased and I am as well.  This job has it’s difficult aspects but most things are pretty easy.

Well on to my chores, dinner and my movie.  Stay warm, be safe and if your watching the big game, I hope that your team wins.  Take care and I will talk with you again soon. 

Executive Order

In checking out my social media I see that there is a Trump Executive Order generator.  It was created because of all of the wacky orders that our President is issuing.  The creator wants people to generate wacky stuff as well and then take a photo and then spread it via social media.  I had some fun with my co-workers and my boss today.  Perfect timing on a Friday and people are typically in a good mood.

I was set to make my post at lunch time but I no sooner got finished with my lunch and a crisis erupted.  Nothing like a crisis to make your afternoon fly by.  Here we are some three hours later and now I can finish up lunch.

Last night I had a dream and Taz was in it.  Sure do miss him and I still feel guilty that he died at home while I was sleeping.  What a good boy he was. 

The massage therapist really beat me up yesterday.  Last week I got the same treatment but I was on steroids so the swelling and soreness wasn’t bad at all.  This morning no steroids and I felt pain.  I am also sore.  At least I can take a shower without pain, I’ve had massages in the past where it hurt for the water to hit my back.  Really don’t want to experience that type of pain again because showering is necessary. 

Last night I spent time with the kids.  We watched Big Bang Theory and Superstore.  Both are good for a laugh or two.  As I was watching I happened to glance out the window and I noticed that my neighbors still have their Christmas decorations up – lights and all.  But they just put out their Valentines Day decorations.  If this continues it should be interesting come the 4th of July (Independence Day).  I suspect they will clean things up soon.  I just couldn’t believe the lights were still on, I mean lots of people leave their lights up until the weather is nice but they don’t turn them on after the holidays are done, usually by the 2nd week in January.  These are the neighbors I don’t like – they are odd and this just adds more fuel to solidify that my opinion is valid. 

Bear made his way to my room last night so Marv was with me for a couple hours.  Then he took off.  Bear kept clawing at the box springs when he sensed I was awake, he wanted food and/or attention or both.  Such a ham.  He’s been in my room most of the day and I suspect that is where I will find him when I get home.  I haven’t seen him on camera and it’s not like I could miss a large black cat.  I have seen most everyone else.  Momma is doing well and still eating like a horse.  She came in for her belly rub this morning and when she rolled over she was face to face with Bear and she hissed at him.  She just hates her children, one day the switch went on and it’s never gone off.  She wasn’t like that when they were younger but now she is mean to them most of the time.  She still does her motherly manners and lets all of the kids eat first before she digs in, most of the time.  Really wish that I could bring the sweetness out in her where her kids are concerned but hey she still likes me so I guess it’s not that bad. 

Paid my post office box rent last night.  It wasn’t due until the end of the month but I wanted to get it out of the way.  Turns out that when postage rates go up in the US, a lot of things are impacted and PO Boxes usually follow that.  I was surprised as this time rent actually went down from 6 months ago.  So I am good for a while.  Next major planned expense is car insurance. 

There are a few movies available to watch, so I will be relaxing at home with the kids renting movies for part of the weekend.  I want to upgrade my iPhone to get a 7.  Mophie has batteries and carrying cases out.  I wanted to pay cash for the phone but I can’t do that.  I will have to chose to pay the monthly amount, which is not something I am a fan of but it appears to be the way that American Cell Phone Providers have gone.  Funny thing is if you switch to a different carrier, the carrier will give you the phone for free but they require that you stick with them for 2 years.  I am going to try to talk AT&T into giving me the phone but I don’t think that I will fair so well in that endeavor.  It’s in my plans to visit a store and talk about upgrading, pulling the trigger is another story.  So far as I know as long as your credit checks out it’s a 0 percent loan and there is no deposit required.  However, if you purchase any accessories you have to pay for those in full like you always have had to.  A Mophie battery goes for $100 and a case I figure no more than $40.  I do get a 25% discount on accessories but still I always walk out feeling like I was just robbed, sort of like a vet visit.  I am on call next week so if I don’t upgrade this weekend I will have to wait until I am not on-call.  I am trying to talk myself out of it saying things like well what you have works, think of all of the work in customizing the settings and syncing you will have to do.  It will take hours.  Is that really the way you want to spend your time?  The answer is no.  However, it’s not like I have a better plan than watching movies, shopping, eating out and napping.  So it’s like might as well.  Right now we’ll see how I feel tomorrow when I am up.  I know that it’s better to get to the store early because the later you go the longer the damn line and I hate those. 

I did check and found Bleed for this on Vudu but it’s only available for purchase.  $15 which isn’t bad but I don’t want to own a movie I just want to see it once and then I can move on.  Buying it would be a waste of money for me, regardless of how fine Miles Teller is.  I am hoping that when I look again there will be a rental option.  If not then I guess I will have to hold out longer before seeing it.  So far as I know nothing good in theaters that interest me now.  I will have to take a look at Fandango. 

Plan on eating canned chili tonight and loafing.  Catching up on The First 48 and finishing watching Night Watch.  I do need to have my haircut this weekend but outside of that nothing else going, just trying to get to the grocery store before the super bowl fans rob it of everything that I need in a normal week to get by.  You know things like lunch meat, bread, soda – I gave up on chips and bought them last week so I am good in at least one area.  We always used to wait until late in the afternoon on Super bowl Sunday to grocery shop but now I am all about early morning for grocery shopping – get in, get what I want/need and get out.  Hooray!

Here’s hoping you have an awesome weekend.  Stay warm and be well.  I’ll catch up with you again soon.   

Momma back to normal

I am pleased to report that my momma (aka Lucky) is back to normal.  I came home last night and she couldn’t get enough food.  The same thing applied this morning.  So her appetite is back and stronger than before.  She is keeping it all down and taking her medicine, so I think were good.  Not sure what went wrong but with cats sometimes you never know.  They get sick, need a bit of rest and then it’s like nothing ever happened.  I tend to panic and worry because well that is what I do best.  I am so happy that she is back to normal!!

I stopped to pick up my pen last night, then grabbed the packages off the porch.  All I wanted to do was get inside and see my girl.  Once that fell into place then I was able to think about my supper and getting packages open. 

One of the many things I got from Amazon was something called a Clik Belt, it claims to be the strongest belt in the world.  The problem is that you have to attach the buckle each and every time you threat the belt into a new pair of pants.  I can’t get the belt to stay tight so I gave up and have sent it back this morning.  I am not keen on returning anything but this was like $50 so well worth my effort.  I also got some Pecan Melt away cookies by David.  They are okay but Archway does a much better job and they are much less expensive.  I don’t see what all of the fuss was about.  Kind of wish I would have ordered the brownies instead, they look much better.  I’ll eat the cookies but it won’t change my opinion. 

Placed an order for more Bear food this morning.  He’ll be so happy.  I feel like I should dump part of the bag in the trash because that is where it’s going to land.  He loves to make a mess and I am forever stepping on pellets of dry cat food.  Not bad when you have shoes on but when you don’t it fucking hurts.  Both of the boys are mess makers, I know they didn’t get that trait from their momma. 

So I came to realize that I am in love with a guy at work.  Yeah it’s a physical attraction thing.  I can’t stop myself from thinking about him and it didn’t help that I saw him yesterday.  That ass wow it’s luscious.  We used to be friends but he only wanted to be co-workers.  I think that my feelings for him is why that hurt me so much, not to mention I made an investment in telling him my life story.  I don’t just open up to everyone, it takes a bit.  He is the type of person that will talk to you during the work day but if it’s after hours or on the weekend, all bets are off.  He is also married and has kids.  I think that he has some feelings for guys but that it’s suppressed.  Man I just think about all of the things I want to do to him and how good it would feel.  I know that my body could make his body feel oh so good if he gave me a chance.  However, I am big on monogamy and it’s not right to steal another persons mate, despite the fact that I want to.  I could settle for some naked photos but there is no way in hell that I have the courage to ask for them and I don’t think he would offer them up even if I did ask.  Since he is a co-worker I really have to keep myself in check because if even the slightest action on my part is offensive to him I can find myself in hot water.  He’s not worth my job because my job is everything.  Love, lust whatever you want to call it, I wish it came with a switch that you could toggle off.  I know that would have saved a lot of people from a lot of foolish things.  Just keeping my hands to myself when I am around him is a small chore.  I’ve been dealing with these feelings for a while.  I remember when I told him that I liked him and he was flattered, then I joked but wasn’t joking about getting it on at work.  He made it clear that wouldn’t happen joke or not.  Dealing with this is not the easiest thing in the world.  I know that he is looking for another job and if he is successful in finding something and leaves well then he too will just be a memory.  I guess I should hope for that and the fact that I can keep myself in check.

Ah now on to my pen.  I watched a YouTube video on it and got some pointers ahead of time.  The person doing the review said that it was his favorite pen.  He went to a party and decided to pass his pens around so that others could write with them.  When he got his Vanishing Point back it wouldn’t work at all.  The thought of letting someone else use my pens is offensive and makes me shudder.  I’ve done it before but only supervised and for a short period of time.  I can’t say that I have ever let one of my fountain pens in a strangers hand before.  Surprisingly fountain pens adapt to the writer and they get used to your style of writing from your grip, to the motion of your hand and the force or weight you put in.  This pen required a little effort to get it primed but once it was working and the ink was flowing it was like writing with butter.  I am pleased with my purchase so much so that I wanted to bring it to work and use it here but decided against it due to the cost.  I’ve brought my Mont Blanc Rollerball to work but it comes home with me at night and doesn’t stay unattended at all.  Lots of folks here have the pen fever or fetish but they are much more trusting than I am.  A fine writing instrument is like gold to me and I guard mine closely. 

Sent out some money to pay off one credit card and to pay off this months balance with another.  I could have gone hog wild but decided to be more conservative and hold on to some of my refund.  Got the bill today for the post office box, it’s actually not terrible for 6 months, so I will be paying that.  I am comfortable based on my earnings, but just can’t go hog wild like I want to.  I’ve got 1 card that has 0 percent on it and I am paying a high amount each month to get it paid off as soon as the 0 percent offer expires later this year.  I don’t use that card for anything.  Once it’s paid off that will free up some serious cash for me and I will be able to breathe a little better.  For now I just operate being conservative as possible, life is not cheap and having enough money to pay all my bills gives me is a great sense of satisfaction and pride.  I don’t want to lose that.  Being overloaded with credit card debt is not fun and can really beat you down.  I learned from my past mistakes and hope not to repeat them.

Finally it’s time for rub a dub on my back today.  Looking forward to that in a bit and hope that we can do face down like last time.  It’s great and gives my back the attention it needs and deserves.  Last time I was coming off of steroids so the swelling afterwards wasn’t horrible.  This time I will probably have some serious swelling afterwards.  Most of what she does is deep tissue, which is nice but I would like a nice relaxing massage once and a while.  I might not get any physical benefit from it but the feeling at the moment would be good enough for me.  I am getting sleepy so that could prove to be a problem and who knows I might just dose off. 

One more day until Friday.  No departures so I should be able to leave on time.  As always I have the debate about what I should do for supper.  I’ve got plenty of frozen food but really am tired of eating it.  I have gotten fast food over the past few weeks on Fridays as a reward.  Not it’s as if it’s a requirement.  Does make it easier to eat but I know it’s not any better for my body.  It does taste better though.  I’m sure it will all work out one way or another. 

Stay safe, be well and stay warm!  Talk with you all again soon.

Sick Momma

I finished up The Boss movie and it was really good.  By the time it was done I had time to kill before I had to take care of my last departure at work.  I went to the computer around 8p and Momma followed me as she usually does.  She was fussing at me that it was getting late and time for bed.  I told her that I had to take care of some stuff for work and we would go up in a little bit.  In a little bit are my famous last words, they ring hollow because that could be anywhere from 5 minutes to 2 hours.  Still it’s become my go to phrase so I say it a lot with the cats. 

Finally the time came I got my work done and told momma lets go to bed.  We made our way upstairs and I went through my routine to prep for the next day.  Everything was normal, she even came in and hung around me in my room clamoring for attention which I gave to her.  Bedtime came and out she went and Marvin came in. 

I woke up this morning to find no momma and bile on the carpet.  Then I looked at the couch a little closer and saw her tail sticking out.  It’s highly unusual for any of the cats to hide when it’s meal time, especially in the morning.  They all have to hear me speak to them and then put down their can of food.  It’s like what they live for outside of belly rubs, playtime and attention in general. 

Momma did come out and got some water, which is better than nothing.  I was worried and felt bad that my momma was sick.  My morning routine was not the same.  She wasn’t waiting for me when I got out of the shower, she had gone back into hiding.  I skipped her pill just because if she isn’t going to eat why aggravate things with  pill.  I left the house very worried about what the future holds for me and momma.

Once I got to work I took a peek with the camera and she had come out to curl up in her favorite spot on a piece of cat furniture.  I looked a couple hours later and she was gone.  Not sure where she is in the house but I can tell you that she is safe.  My plan of attack is to see how things are tonight, if need be I will give her an appetite stimulant and if she isn’t eating tomorrow then it’s time to engage the money sucking vet for help.  You can’t let a cat go for longer than a day or two at most w/o eating.  They develop fatty liver disease, turn jaundice and get gravely ill.  Bear had that happen to him and pulling him back to normal life cost a small fortune.  There is a risk involved that they won’t return to normal but thankfully he did.  She is 13 years old and has started to enter the geriatric stage of life, but I don’t think of her as an old woman.  She is my baby and she is a tough old bird. 

I was eating ice cream last night and she desperately wanted some.  I almost gave in but now I am glad that I didn’t.  Because the last time she had ice cream she stopped eating and had to be taken to the vet.  I would have felt so guilty and now I can spare myself that.  However, I do wonder what is wrong with her.  So long as it passes and we don’t have to engage the vet I am happy.  If I have to engage the vet they could potentially speed up her recovery but it would mean parting with money that I don’t have. 

All of my cat kids are special to me and they all know how much I love and care for them.  However, there is something special about momma and we have bonded to be stronger than glue.  God forbid when I lose her not only will I be a mess but I worry about how Ruth will get along.  The girls are all pretty tight but Ruth is her shadow.  I’ve already alerted my boss that I may need to take time to get momma to the vet.  I really don’t want to unless it’s absolutely necessary.  I’ve got plenty of time but I like to hold on to it as much as possible, you never know when you’ll need it. 

Here is hoping that momma is back to her normal crabby self.  I did trim her claws last night and she bit me, it was a love bite but I still yelled at her.  If I am feeding you then you can’t bite my hand.  Sort of like looking  gift horse in the mouth. 

My Amazon order (most of it) will be delivered today, my pen is waiting for me at the post office but I could care less about all of that, I just want my momma.  I did also get my federal refund, which I am very happy about.  I hope that I make the right financial choices when spending it. 

Got to hit up the pharmacy here at work for my allergy medicine, not looking forward to going outside.  There is a protest under way all because of the fucktard that is running our country.  I should be safe but really don’t want to be anywhere close to the demonstration because it only takes a second for something to go wrong.  I am all about someone expressing their rights and freedom of speech, but I am not the type of person who you will find in a crowd of protester.  There is a right and a wrong way to do everything, that includes protesting.  Violence won’t solve anything but it will get you attention.  See I wonder what is going on in the background.  Everyone is focused on immigration and the ban, but what is the sneaky fuck doing in the background while everyone focuses on immigration?  Yeah there is a curve ball there and I am sure there is something in the works but don’t know what exactly.  That is part of how the political game is played. 

Ah well off to the pharmacy and then back to the salt mine.  Boss man worked from home this morning and is out the rest of the day.  That means no meetings and busy work, so we can all relax and try to catch up on other things.  Wow!  Come back and I’ll be sure to give you a progress report on my momma.  Be well and stay warm.