A Good Time

This afternoon I took a break and went upstairs, I had plans of coming right back down just wanted to check on the kids.  I found most of the family camped out in my room.  I came back downstairs and turned off my monitors and desk lights.  Then went back upstairs and picked up Bear and put him in my bed.  I sat in my chair and fired up the TV.  Thank God for Epix free trial on Roku.  I have exhausted everything that I am interested in, so I have to search for new things.  Being trapped in the house for a day will cause that. 

It wasn’t too much later, Marv joined us and then Momma.  The nut cracker Gator came in and sat in my lap.  I call her the nut cracker because she is forever stepping on my balls.  Good thing I don’t plan on reproducing.  Anyway the boys got situated in bed.  Momma joined them and the TV played some movie that was semi interesting.  Had some cute guys in it all about a college experience and baseball.  I really enjoyed being together as a family and seeing the boys passed out.  Bear was snoring at one point, I paused the movie just to listen to him.  I should have recorded it but I didn’t.  This by far was the very best thing to happen all weekend thus far. 

I took a nap this afternoon with Marv, he stayed for a little bit and then retreated to the floor.  When I woke up my room smelled like cat crap.  I figured Marv or Momma did something they shouldn’t have in my room.  Nope, nothing there.  I passed out lunch and the problem revealed its self, Marv he had an accident and it was in his fur.  He is very fastidious and doesn’t like any help with grooming or bathing.  He was embarrassed and mad at the same time.  I had to get it out, I couldn’t just let him stay that way.  Fixed him up the best I could.  Dried him off and let him work out the rest.

This morning when I woke up it was way too soon.  I fed the children and looked outside.  It was all wet but didn’t appear to be icy.  Temperature was right at freezing.  I elected to get dressed and head out.  Stopped for breakfast, then went on to get my haircut.  The place I normally go was closed because of the weather.  Bunch of woosies.  I went a few doors down and another place I used to go was open.  I paid considerably more but got my neck shaved, which is a nice extra touch.  They didn’t have the new size guard I use so I had to go shorter.  Not what I wanted to do but it will last a bit longer.  Got a great shampoo and conditioner.  The lady that took care of me knew what she was doing.  I told her the reason why I left is no one could give good head a good shampoo.  I like it rough not like your pulling my hair out but I like to feel like your doing something instead of just lightly playing with my hair.  It drives me insane when I pay for a shampoo and get someone who doesn’t know what they are doing.  Anyway grabbed the mail after the haircut and I have been home ever since.  I was right it was all wet outside and no ice on the road. 

Round #2 is coming in tonight and will be here for the bulk of the day tomorrow.  So getting to the grocery store and having breakfast in the morning should be interesting.  I can wait until the afternoon if need be.  I am way ahead of schedule as in the laundry is done.  I still have to clean the house but that won’t take but a half hour.  I could wait until Monday for everything if I have to.  I will just have to eye ball it and see how bad things are.

Did some searching on line and got funeral arrangements.  Visitation is Wednesday and the funeral is Thursday.  I have been in touch with my boss and plan on leaving work early on Wednesday and taking Thursday off.  I said I would be there and I am doing everything in my power to live up to that.  They don’t want flowers but I looked anyway.  Damn those fuckers sure are expensive.  I’ve kept a close eye on my phone all day thinking that my friend would call but haven’t heard a word from him.  My guess is he is exhausted and overwhelmed.  I wanted to stop by his house today but elected not to.  If things are half way decent tomorrow I may make the journey to his place and suggest we grab a bite to eat.  I know what he is gong through and know that this is the time you need your friends and family.  The funeral service I suspect will be short and not sure if they will have food afterwards.  The funeral home he chose is close by his house but it’s like going to the other side of the earth for me, it’s about an hour and a half away from my house.  45 minutes from work but that is with no traffic.  My plan is to get to the visitation early and hopefully leave early so that I can feed the children dinner w/o having them crab at me. 

I’ve spent a good portion of the day just listening to music, kind of relaxing and bringing back some memories with it.  It’s amazing how many Rock N Roll songs talk about living w/o someone, loosing someone, a break up, etc.  I thought all of that was mostly Country but it’s like buying a poke a dot car, you never see one and once you make your purchase there are suddenly 2,000 of them around you. 

Kind of nice to have a 4 day weekend.  Not looking forward to going back on Tuesday mostly because I will be on-call.  I hate asking for help with coverage and announcing that I will be taking time off, but shit happens and people just have to understand that.  I am loyal as fuck to my friends because they are all I have left in this world. 

Speaking of friends I have been thinking of writing to a friend/former boss the one I talked about back in late November who is getting a divorce.  I really want to ask him for dating tips, I have a wicked crush on him but he’s straight.  It’s kind of a turn on for me to ask but I am also being serious considering how new I am to the dating game.  I found that he is on one of the apps I am, I can’t look at his profile because we are outside of each others geographical limits and unless you pay you can’t change your location unless you physically go to another city/state.  I state clearly in my profiles that I don’t want a long distance relationship but I still have people hitting me up from across the country wanting to chat.  I don’t respond – either they didn’t read my profile or are hoping I make an exception.  Unless they look like a porn star or a Greek god there are no exceptions.  I see no point in talking with a guy who is no where close to me in proximity, it is just a waste of time.  I’ve been down that road and you can develop feelings easily.  I don’t want to get sucked into something that I am not looking for in the first place.  I want a guy who is within an hour or two hours drive at most.  Someone I can reach out and physically touch and don’t have to FaceTime or Skype with.  Who ever he is I just wish we could hurry up and meet to get this relationship thing started.  I am thinking right now that I am going to be single forever.  Not that is a bad thing but having someone in my life is something I’d like to try before I dismiss the idea forever.  I think I owe that to myself. 

Hope your staying warm and having a good weekend.

Wake Up Call

It’s a little after 5a and like most people in my time zone, I was asleep.  Actually had just entered into a dream when the damn phone started ringing.  It took me a minute to get my bearings and answer the phone.  I saw it was work calling.  Sure enough they opted to close the office.  Thank the lord!

When I went to bed last night the forecast said that the rain would arrive in the afternoon but it would be cold in the morning so icing was going to occur.  There was a state of emergency declared by the Governor who ordered that everyone stay in doors and not drive unless absolutely necessary.   Glad we complied with his order.

Now there is something about being a prisoner in your own home that drives me crazy.  I am actually doing okay with it now, but tomorrow I will be ready to climb the walls.  I may venture out then depending upon how things are.  There is more rain and ice on the way tonight and tomorrow.  Sunday things will begin to clear out and Monday were in for a major warm up.  What freaky weather. 

So I spent Friday the 13th at home with my black cat.  I napped a good portion of the day.  Had an idea to move in to my late partners bedroom but when I went to see what I would need to do, it was really easy to talk myself out of the idea.  Leaving things as they are.  I was in the bathroom and looking around I said it’s been 3 years and I can’t move on.  I mean I have moved on but throwing stuff away is really difficult for two reasons.  One considering who it belonged to.  Two because there is a limit imposed on how much trash I can have.  Everything has to fit inside the large plastic trash bin I have or else they won’t take it.  My hillbilly neighbors will be learning that lesson when they come home tonight.  They have preached and preached if it’s not in the bin there are no exceptions we won’t take it.  Most weeks I am full up on trash with me and the kids.  Eventually I will get around to throwing stuff away but I don’t know about moving in his old room.  I like to go in there to sleep on the weekends once the kids decide they are taking over my bed and there is no room left for me.  It’s comfy and feels nice.  I still sleep on my side, his side is weighted down with crap.

On a different note I saw Barbershop 2 today.  Pretty good movie, lots of laughs but a serious message.  I highly recommend the movie if you get a chance to watch it.  I am looking to watch Bleed For This with Miles Teller.  It was in theaters for a very short time and now it’s vanished.  I wonder if it will ever come to the streaming market.  He’s oddly hot in my book and I never pass up a chance to see one of his movies.  I wouldn’t pass up the chance to spend a night alone with him either, if you know what I mean. 

Did some research on my car and the lemon law.  Turns out there are lawyers that practice in the lemon law area.  I took an assessment without revealing any information and I have a good possibility of having a case.  I was encouraged to give them my information so they could talk with me to learn more about what I am going through.  Right now I am opting not to talk with an attorney.  I will give the dealer a second chance and hopefully the processor replacement does the trick.  I looked up the processor called an APIM, the damn thing is super expensive and is the brains of the system so if they in fact replace it then I am pretty confident that will fix the problems.  If that doesn’t fix the problem then I will talk with an attorney to see if I in fact have a case.  I am going to put together a timeline this weekend and gather up all of the emails that have been exchanged.  Better to prepare now and not need it, then to need it and not be prepared.  I heard that dealers and manufactures will often promise you they are looking into it, when they in fact are doing nothing.  They want to wear you out mentally and physically so that you cave in the hopes that you will sell the vehicle as is to be done with it.  Well we all know I am not that kind of person.  If you picked me to fuck with, you picked the wrong motherfucker.  I am relentless and will zealously pursue any and all claims that I have.  This car is suppose to be a reward a present to myself for all of the shit I have been through and then to have it not work right, that is just messed up. 

Just got a call from my friend, his wife passed away about 10 minutes ago.  I am honored that he thought to call me first instead of family but he’s waiting for a hospice nurse to come and pronounce her and then the funeral home to come get the body.  He said that he would call me back over the weekend and we would talk some more.  I learned that she has been in a coma since Wednesday and they really thought she was going last night, the nurse was around until midnight.  I really hope the funeral can wait until Tuesday, I don’t mind cashing in a day of my time for this but really don’t want my Monday fucked up. I feel really bad for him that she is gone, but at the same time take some comfort in knowing that she isn’t suffering anymore.  He can now move on with his life, slow and painful as it will be, he will get better but it’s going to take time. 

Take care and we shall talk again soon.  Stay warm & be safe out there! 

Ice, Ice Baby

Yes it’s once again time to gear up for a major winter storm.  Nothing has happened yet but the forecast was updated yesterday and the warnings went out.  People are being asked to not travel for any reason starting later tonight thru Sunday.  Unless you absolutely have to be out stay home.  Well my employer only earns money if the office is open, so they are up in the air about what will happen here.  I have pretty well resolved myself that I am staying home.  I will look and assess the situation in the morning.  Initially they said that morning rush would be impacted, now they are waffling and saying that it will be fine but the afternoon is when all of the crap is coming.  I don’t want to get stuck at work and then have to fight my way home on ice.  Did that a few weeks ago and don’t want to repeat it.  So it’s very likely that even if the office is open, this white boy will be at home … safe not so sure about the sound part. 

How about a chuckle?  Last night I am watching porn, Ruth loves to watch TV really doesn’t matter what is on.  She jumped up on my bed, just us two in my room (that doesn’t happen often) and her eyes opened up, then her head started moving I said Ruth stop watching that your going to get daddy arrested for kitty porn.  It was like a couple minutes, she lost interest quickly.  When she was younger she used to love home improvement and decorating shows.  Her sister Gator would love the cooking shows.  They both would watch intently with my late partner and I got to hear all of the details. 

Ah some good news.  A secured credit card that I have is now a normal card.  I didn’t need it but opted to get it.  I asked about making it a regular card and the bank was like sure no problem.  I applied for an Amazon card, got turned down.  Appealed the decision, got turned down and then asked why they put me through the ringer if they were just going to deny me.  Today they called and I was approved.  There is $70 worth of free Amazon stuff in my future, yes!

That is about it for news.  It’s been busy here at the office and time over the last couple days has gotten away from me.  No word or update on my friend.  I am thinking she is going to be surprised and it’s just not her time but unless there is a miracle that happens, I don’t know of anyone who can survive without water and/or food.  I expect the call any day but each day passes and no call.  I’d like to call but at the same time I don’t want to be a pest.  You get tired eventually of having to provide a progress report to everyone.  The part that is even worse after they pass everyone keeps asking you how are you doing?  That gets old really fast. 

So just about time to gather things up go out in the cold and meander my way home.  I stopped for gas this morning.  Have to grab the mail, then home to gather and put out the trash.  Feed the monsters, feed myself and then put my feet up and relax for a bit before turning in for the night.  Even though I will probably stay home tomorrow, I am going through the normal motions just in case some how this whole mess passes us by and I have to come in.  It would really suck but if I stay up all night that is bound to happen and I don’t function so well with no sleep. 

Speaking of sleep, my buddy Marvin hasn’t been with me for a while now when it comes to bed time.  Last night he joined me but it was short lived.  He got me to relax and doze off then he wanted out which woke me up.  I am really worried about him but otherwise he is normal.  We have even played soccer.  I bat a ball to him and he bats it back.  Occasionally I will manage to make it go past his paws and I scream goal.  He rebounds quickly and bats the damn thing so I have to chase it in order to get it back to him.  Kind of fun but it gets my blood pressure up from the activity and that makes me hot then I have to quit.  I think he could easily go for a couple hours. 

So that is the way it is on this Thursday.  Stay warm and be well.  Talk again soon. 

Powered Sugar not Cocaine

Ugh!  Here we go again Tuesday.  I couldn’t believe it when I woke up this morning, back to work already.  Yeah and the weather took a turn for the better.  There is a bit of a wind storm but it’s 50 degrees outside.  I put on 3 different shirts before I found the one that I would likely be most comfortable in.  Turns out I am not comfortable at all, I am burning up.  I’ll make it though. 

Last night I arrived home and the best package in the whole world was waiting for me.  My Archway Wedding Cookies.  I had Chicken Noodle Soup for supper.  Then tore into the cookies and ate way too many of them.  I felt the sugar getting to me, so I opened a bottle of water to help wash it away.  My kitchen table looked like cocaine from all of the powdered sugar.  Don’t worry I didn’t eat the whole box but I couldn’t just stop at one.  There was a tip on the side of the box to heat up the oven and warm them, it would make the house smell good.  I’ve got a candle for that.  The cookies were cold from being outside and I still didn’t care, they were awesome.  I look forward to enjoying more of them. 

Went downstairs to tend to a couple of quick things and then it was back upstairs to finish litter duty and sit to watch TV.  I found Ruth sitting in an old chair downstairs.  I walked right up to her, she stood up and I started scratching her and she started up her motor.  She was really into it.  I told her she needs to let me brush her, she looked at me like are you crazy this feels so good.  Your doing a wonderful job, keep it up and don’t stop.  Stop I had to because I knew eventually she would sour and turn on me.  I didn’t want to over do it.  I was thankful that she was so trusting of me. 

The next miracle of the night was I saw Bear use the litter box.  He hasn’t done that in months.  When he got out I heard him let out a yelp.  I think he moved too fast, he practically fell out of the box.  I told him if he wanted to go back to the box let me know I’d bring out the larger one and it would be easier for him to get in and out.  Of course the cat had his tongue on that one.  If he uses the litter box then there is no need for daddy to come clean him up.  I did just to keep in the spirit of things and then once he caught his breath he went to his pad and made an even larger mess for me to clean up.  I told him how proud I was of him for using the box.  Poor guy has really been through the mill.  He has gone a while without coughing on a regular basis but I am starting to see that pickup a little bit.  When I am at work I see him lapping up the water and chowing down on his food. 

I woke up this morning to find that someone on one of the apps I am on sent me a message.  His name had baby in the title and I knew it probably wasn’t going to be good.  Turns out I was right.  He was like 70 – sorry not even starting a conversation with him.  I buried one husband and dealt with way too many health problems.  I am not looking for a repeat experience.  I am particular in who I talk with as I have learned from past experience.  I’m sure he was probably a nice enough guy but not what I was looking for.  I suspect people see my picture and then my age and probably have a similar reaction.  It’s all going to come together eventually, hopefully before the end of the year and better if it happens before Spring starts. 

Getting ready to go to a meeting, then another meeting after that.  Then I have the rest of the day free for any chaos that occurs, which is unlikely.  Stopping to get the mail, hopefully nothing bad is waiting for me.  Then on to home to be with the fur balls.  I am having chicken strips and mac & cheese.  TV is starting to come back with the shows I enjoy so I am working to finish the Netflix/CNN series on the 80’s and stay current on TV.  Shouldn’t be too hard to accomplish.  I can watch Netflix at lunch, which is quite entertaining. 

Happy Tuesday!

Ah, Monday

The morning came much faster than I wanted it to.  I found a new obsession on NetFlix.  It’s a series that CNN put together about the 80's.  It starts off with TV and then goes into politics.  It’s really interesting and you get to see some clips from old shows, brings back some memories for me.  I am interested in seeing where this goes. Speaking of the 80’s I saw Netflix has a show called One Day at a Time.  I watched the first few minutes of it and it’s nothing like the original.  I passed on it. 
Spent a couple hours with Bear last night, he of course enjoyed himself falling in and out of sleep resting on my leg.  He’d wake up and find that I wasn’t paying attention to him and he would whimper or paw at me to get my attention.  Had to keep a hand on him or he was unhappy. 
It was still bitterly cold out this morning but our warming trend is here.  It’s in the 30’s now which is nice but that is still cold.  The commute was a little slow, there is a construction zone that we have to pass through.  The work is done so hopefully tomorrow it won’t be an issue.
The guy I work with that had all of his teeth pulled is back to work.  Looks pretty good and things went rather well for him.  He still has to get some fitting issues taken care of but the worst part for him is over.  Ouch is all I can say.  I can’t imagine life w/o teeth.
Found that my Raccoon is back.  It was shuffling around next to the window in the basement.  The window is covered with dirt so I can’t see out that well.  Looks like it’s a female because it sure was fat.  My guess is there will be babies soon.  They are cute but I only admire from afar.  I haven’t put out any food and there weren’t any foot prints in the snow. 
It’s been a semi-busy morning.  I am so looking forward to lunch and my Ranch Chicken Salad.  I dropped off a bag of Flamin’ Hot Cheetos to a co-worker.  She loves them I on the other hand can’t stand them they are far too Flamin’ for me.  Regular Cheetos for me, they will go good with my sandwich. 
Ruth came and jumped in my bed last night while I was watching TV.  She even let me pet her just a little.  She rolled over as if she wanted me to rub her belly but I knew that was a trap.  I still played into it and she got upset.  Thankfully she didn’t leave.  Momma was right next to her.  The second momma leaves, Ruth is gone.  She is very much her mothers shadow.  Always has been and always will be.  I realized that I haven’t heard Ruth playing lately.  I will have to look when I am downstairs tonight and see if all of her toys have made their way under the couch.  I love to hear her and her momma crowing knowing that they are having fun.  Just not at 3am when I am trying to sleep. 
That’s all I got at the moment.  Looking forward to going home and eating my wedding ball cookies that should be waiting for me on the front porch.  Not sure what is for supper but I know what is for desert. 
Hope your having a good Monday and staying warm.  Back to the salt mine for me. 

Saying Goodbye

Today I did something that I really didn’t want to do, but figured that it would help in the long run.  I called my friend who is dying and said goodbye to her.  I kept it all together until we got close to the end of the call and that is when I began to loose it.  I let go after we hung up.  She seems at peace with things and kept telling me that it wouldn’t be long and this would all be over with.  I expressed the fact that I was not happy about her decision but that I understood.  I acknowledged that she has been through quite an ordeal since September.  I told her that while her suffering would be over with, it would be hard for those of us she is leaving behind.  She said that she would be around.  She asked me to take care of her husband and make sure that he gets out. 

I didn’t want to make the call in the first place because I knew that it would have an adverse affect on me.  Secondly I didn’t know what I was going to say.  However, like most awkward situations in life it worked it’s self out and I just kept walking … left, right, left.  Just like the Charlie Puth song. 

Now the harder part is waiting to get the phone call to hear that she has passed.  I heard all of the details of the funeral last night.  She told me that everything she needs to do is done.  I guess when she said it wouldn’t be long I think she feels that she is slipping away.  I think this is going to be a gruesome death and that she will suffer some, but hopefully she can get enough Morphine in her system that it will make her numb.  She is clearly of sound mind so this is her decision and I think that she is well past the point of no return, so even if she didn’t want to go there isn’t anything that medical science could offer her in the way of treatment or meaningful recovery.  I understand her decision I just don’t fully agree with it.  I guess I am selfish and want to keep her around.  No one wants to lose anyone but it’s a part of life that we all have to experience at one point or another. 

In other news, I woke up to hear Gator puking next to me in bed.  There are better wake up calls than to hear your cat yacking but I didn’t get one of them this morning.  I changed beds and she of course was more than ready to get up.  She was crowing like a Rooster but I ignored her and eventually she went away.  I got a couple more hours sleep and then got up.  Took care of the kids and then once I was dressed I shuffled off to Steak N Shake. 

Breakfast this morning was a burger, fries and a bowl of chili.  It was extra good.  Service sucked but one of their cute waiters was working.  He didn’t wait on me but I got to check him out which was nice.  He looks like a male model, kind of reminds me of Paul Vandervort in some respects.  Once I was done I hit up the grocery store, picked up a couple lottery tickets (just in case it’s my time to win) and then came home. 

It’s cold outside but warmer weather is one the way in a couple days this will be a distant memory but there is more cold to come and I think even some snow on Friday.  Might be an interesting commute to and/or from work depending upon what Mother Nature has in store for us. 

Groceries were all put away.  I decided to finish a movie that I started earlier this morning.  Did that and took in an episode of Queer As Folk.  Then decided it was time to rest.  Rather than disturb anyone I retreated back to my room where I was falling asleep in my chair.  Gator of course decided she had to help me.  She came in with her long claws and began kneading my chest.  It’s all marked up.  I got her to calm down and she settled down by my leg.  We both eventually fell asleep.  Me with my hand on her and her laying close by my body.  What a girl.  She is a huge pain in the ass at times and other times she is the sweetest thing on the earth. 

Put some air in my tires, they were a few pounds off.  Better safe than sorry.  Not sure why but these tires seem to lose air much more frequently than any I have owned before.  I know that speed has an effect on them and I have a led foot so it’s kind of a bad match.  So long as I keep my eye on them I think we will be okay at least for a while.  Replacing them when the time comes won’t be cheap.  Finished up laundry, burned a candle and my allergies have started up.  Got my shower and shave.  Had supper.  Managed my iPhone by adding and removing some music.  I even have my lunch packed. 

I got something new at the store.  It was a large sandwich of Ranch Chicken Salad.  It’s Chicken Salad mixed with Ranch Dressing.  I had a small nibble and it’s a little spicy but good.  I cut the sandwich in 1/2 so 2 days for $5 which isn’t that bad.  Then I got a larger sub sandwich and cut it down for the other 3 days in the week.  I’ll be eating good this week. 

Nothing on TV really, but I am going to surf to see what I can find and spend some time with the kids before I have to wind down and get ready for bed.  Then we get started with a 5 day work week that I haven’t done for 2 weeks and it will be hard but the reward at the end of the rainbow is that next Monday I will be off.  I have to get the car worked on and see my doctor, both not fun but I’ll manage to make it enjoyable somehow.  Then when I go back on Tuesday the 17th I’ll be on call, gee just what I wanted.  It will also be server patching week and that means early to rise on Sunday.  Seems that I am going to be stuck with this, all because of one minor change I made last year.  I’d love to get rid of the server patching. 

Hope you had an enjoyable and warm Sunday.  Hope that the week ahead is great for all of us and that we will all experience some form of goodness this week.  Hang on the ride is about to start up again. 

Difficult but done

I’ve been thinking about my friends and decided to place a call.  I had to leave a message but got a return call within 2 hours.  Of course it came when I wasn’t prepared for it, but I took it anyway.  So I found out that it sounds like she isn’t blocked any longer, she has had to go to the bathroom several times over the past week.  Her husband asked her what now?  She said I’m done, I want this over with – let’s keep going down the road were on.  Wow that was so not what I was hoping for.  I get it though cancer drains you and there are some people that are just not strong enough to fight it.  I’m not saying she is weak or wimpy because it takes an even stronger person to resign themselves that they are going to die.  She hasn’t been in a lot of pain so they have plenty of Morphine left.  She is on Adavant to help with restlessness and to induce sleep.  I was hopeful that she was eating but he said no food.  I didn’t ask about water but suspect that she isn’t on that either.  He said that her need to go to the bathroom has decreased.  She has lost a considerable amount of weight and he said when you see her at the funeral home your going to be shocked. 

I got to hear all about the funeral, the songs and what is going to take place.  She is having a service but is then going to be cremated and she will become a tree.  There is a winery that they both love and she talked with the wine maker there that is a close friend.  They will dig a hole, put her ashes in and then plant a tree.  Interesting plan.

Her husband is doing as good as can be expected.  He has his moments.  I told him not to hold it in to let it all out because it’s healthy.  He said that her son in law is having a Birthday on Monday and after that he thinks she will go pretty quick.  She is holding on so that she doesn’t die before or on his Birthday.  She also has a book to record to read to her grandchildren, so they will know their grandmas voice.  She is putting that off as well.  Not sure if it will get done before she passes or not. 

I told him that I have wanted to call but was afraid.  I want to come over but also am afraid.  I told him that I probably wouldn’t be able to keep my composure but who knows I may surprise myself.  He said why not give her a call, she would like that and you wouldn’t have to look at her so you wouldn’t know what is going on.  I said yeah, not sure how well I will keep up over the phone.  I may text him tomorrow to get her number, I don’t have it – we usually catch up when we all get together for dinner. 

That was the conversation.  I am thinking to myself, please whatever she doesn’t don’t let her pass until after MLK day.  I don’t want to rearrange my day off to be able to go to her funeral.  I would absolutely do it but it is not what I want to do.  The doctor wouldn’t be so easy to reschedule but the car thing, I could put that off for a day if need be.  My plan is to take 2 days but it really sounds like all I will need to take is 1.  Going to wait and see what happens and how I feel. 

So I slept in until around 9 today.  Gator wouldn’t shut up until I got up.  Then after they were fed, I decided it was too cold so I went back to bed, fired up the blanket and watched TV until I got really drowsy and turned it off.  Fell back asleep and got up around noon.  They had to have lunch.  I had some cookies and a soda, hello breakfast.  Then took my pills, got dressed and headed for Red Lobster.  Got in and out, went to fetch the mail didn’t get so great news there but life could be worse.  Then on to the cat food store where I was able to get Tuna & Egg cat food.  I just grabbed a few cans and didn’t spend all that much money.  Had to stop for a car wash before coming home.  A Black car is hard as hell to keep clean.  It was around 3ish when I got home.  I put everything away, had a soda and fetched Bear.  We sat on the couch for a while.  Then I decided it was time to lay down, so I moved him and he stayed with me for a bit longer.  Eventually he started crying so I put him on the floor.  I think he wanted food more than anything.  I wanted to take a nap and so I did.  Everyone was passed out.  Gator came to wake me up around 5.  I got them food and started in on cleaning litter boxes and laundry.  Had to get on the computer as well.  Took care of my porn backlog that I have been not dealing with.  Found a free and neat file renaming utility.  You tell it what you want to call each file, if you want them numbered or not and then tell the thing where the files are at.  Click a button and bam it’s all done.  Sure beats having to do all of that by hand, talk about a time saver.  I got the idea from work but the program we use is free but far too complicated so I went with a different solution.  I love porn photos which is what I was renaming.  I get a scene and then the photography from it, take out what I don’t want and bam.  There I have my wallpaper.  It’s on a slide show.

So I called my friend and then once I left a message I popped in a pizza.  Had a couple slices of that.  While it was cooking I had installed another dating app on my phone.  Started browsing through guys.  There are some strange people in this world.  I don’t get people who don’t want to show their face or make their profile picture a group photo so you have no idea who they are.  Not sure if anything will come of it but I have seen several guys that I wouldn’t mind getting to know better. 

In case your wondering, the pimple well I worked and worked at it.  Tried pliers short and long handled.  A kitchen tool, tongs that you use to pick up hot stuff with.  Nothing worked.  Finally I gave up and got a needle that is used to prick your finger for a blood sample and used that.  I stabbed it a few times and made it bleed.  It felt oddly good but painful as well.  Then I cleaned it off with two alcohol wipes.  It stings but the alcohol acts as a drying agent and that tends to speed things up.  It’s sore today but looks more like a bad mosquito bite.  There is some redness around it but that should diminish as the days move forward.  If it gets worse instead of better I am smart enough to get medical care.  I’ve been dealing with acne for years and this is no different than what I would do to a pimple that wouldn’t pop on any other part of my body.  I used a pair of pliers when I was a kid on my face.  I had one that wouldn’t pop for anything.  Once I gave it a nice squeeze it popped, I saw stars but the problem was over.  No scaring for me.  My brother can’t say the same thing.  He had to see several dermatologists and his face is nothing but scars.  He used I can’t tell you how many face washes, prescriptions, creams, etc.  None of it really did any good for him.  Glad I look better because gay people are vain and if I had scars on my face that would make this dating thing that much more difficult. 

I am wiped out.  Momma is trying to get me to call it a night.  Got my breakfast all planned out at Steak N Shake tomorrow.  A trip to the grocery store afterwards and then home for the day or so I hope.  I need to check my tires but like to give them time to cool down.  Pressure is different on a hot tire than a cold one.  Better to adjust the air pressure when they are cold or so I have been told. 

Last night I tried to hook up an old fax machine.  The thing still works it was used my late partner.  Cost me $500 and I bought it many moons ago.  It’s really nice for a fax machine.  However, since I have converted to VOIP the damn thing won’t work.  It tries to dial but isn’t getting a dial tone.  I did some research and faxing over a VOIP line can prove to be impossible.  However, my all in 1 HP printer does it.  The issue I have with it is that the documents jam in the feeder or so it thinks and that causes me to have to send multiple transmissions.  The easy fix for this is to sign up for a service that is on-line but will fax your documents out for you.  I don’t want the expense.  I don’t send faxes every day but on occasion it’s necessary.  I found out that I can fax from my PC and don’t need to print the document out.  Kind of miss my old copper phone line and the simpler life. but VOIP offers so many more features and costs so much less that old copper just isn’t cost effective today. 

That’s it.  In 15 minutes it will be Sunday.  I should really go and get my beauty sleep, Lord knows I need it because I am ugly.  JK – but seriously my body is fueled by food and sleep, I like both a lot, more than one should.  That explains why I am overweight and passed out most of the time when I have nothing going. 

Happy weekend.  Hope your warm!

First Friday 2017

We finally made it to the first Friday of the year.  Whoopee!  This morning I discovered a new problem that someone living alone might have.  It’s actually the subject of a song written by Adam Sandler.  It’s called Zittly VanZittles.  It’s about a guy who has a girlfriend that leaves him, he gets a pimple on his back and just wants her to squeeze it.  This morning just before I got the shower I saw there was something on my back.  I looked closer and yep it’s a large pimple.  Well it’s in an odd spot just below my wing.  I can reach it with my left hand but it’s on the left side and my right arm won’t go there.  As soon as I was in this odd position I thought of the song.  It was funny to listen to but it’s a real problem if you live alone.  No one to help you squeeze.  I did my best and got it 1/2 way popped, which felt good.  Now I just need that squeeze and I know I’ll be as good as new.  However, who do I ask.  A co-worker/friend yeah the thought is there but I figure it would repulse most people.  I’ve tried using pliers and a spoon while at my desk, but that proved unsuccessful.  I was even on the phone – sort of like a circus act but no one could see me.  It does hurt and I really want the squeeze but I think I will have to wait until I get home and see if I can’t find some clever way to not cause injury to myself but to accomplish my goal.  It’s times like these that I get creative and wind up hurting myself.  I thought about breaking out my large knife that I keep at work, which BTW is still in new shape and sharper than I am.  However, I figured I would do more harm than good.  Not a great way to leave the office and people would laugh.  I don’t mind people laughing but don’t want them to laugh at me.  I sure hope when I wake up tomorrow it feels better regardless of what I try.  I don’t typically get acne on my back, so this came as quite the surprise.

Got an emotional phone call from the boss yesterday.  He went on a ski trip with his daughter.  She broke her leg and of course he feels responsible.  He was pretty emotional in telling the recap of the story.  The best medicine for him was to come back to work  I think he was driven crazy being around that much estrogen.  The poor thing is only like 10 or 11 and she has to use a wheelchair now for 4 weeks.  No weight on the leg at all.  It’s a spiral fracture.  When he said that the only thing I could think of was a spiral sliced ham.  I didn’t say anything just kept to myself.  I understand how he feels I kind of felt similar to that on Monday with Ruth when she hurt herself.  I wasn’t crying but I was concerned and then the bill came and now I had something to cry about. 

Speaking of Ruth, she is doing just fine.  Back to her old hiss monster self.  She is hissing at all of us, which is what she does.  She does meow at me for attention.  Last night I know she needs to be brushed so I tried to use a brush on her and she freaked out.  She only lets me pet her or scratch her with my hand, nothing else is allowed no matter how sneaky you might be.  Of course being sneaky is what got me into the mess on Monday in the first place.  Thankfully other than the day of the incident this didn’t harm our relationship, which I am thankful for.  I am also glad she is okay.

Wow it’s super cold outside.  Mother Nature is playing games with us.  Right now were in the deep freeze and by this time next week it’s suppose to be 50.  Lots of people are sick around here.  I just hope that I won’t be one of them.  Like with anything I enjoy consistency but you can’t always get that out of the weather. 

Had an amazing night with Bear, I watched TV while he napped on my leg.  Not sure why he doesn’t let his hair down and relax all the time, but I am glad that he feels comfortable enough to do it with me.  Marvin has been not wanting to sleep with me.  He comes in and hangs out but when it’s time for bed, he is quick to run out the door.  I understand on a night that I gave him a pill but every single night, nope something isn’t right with my Marvin.  I suspect it’s his IBS and I really don’t want to go back to the vet.  I’ve got my eye on him, if it’s obvious that he needs medical care then I won’t hesitate.  It will be interesting to see how things play out over the weekend since that is a free for all when I allow everyone in and don’t just restrict it to him.  The last thing I want is to be looking at another vet bill. 

Got my Cinnamon Pecans from Amazon yesterday, that was the highlight of my day, outside of Bear falling asleep on my leg.  Monday will be enjoyable as well because my Wedding Cake cookies will arrive.  I’m just nuts about pecans.  When I think of nuts I can’t help but remember last year when I grabbed a friend from work, she had a can of nuts at her desk.  I said you want a laugh?  She said sure.  I said grab your can and follow me.  We walked to where the guy I like sits downstairs.  This is the same guy I don’t really have much dealings with because he thinks of me as a co-worker and not a friend.  Anyway I grabbed the can just before we got in his vicinity and said okay watch this.  We both walked in and wouldn’t you know it his cube mates were there to see it all.  I walked straight up to him and said hey I heard you want to eat my nuts and I held out the can.  Everyone cracked up, I had the most fun because I have the maddest crush on him.  Plus he and the friend I walked down with both know that I am gay.  She never in a million years thought I would do something like that, she was in hysterics with her laughter.  That took some time to calm her down and then we all went back to work.  I really wish he would eat my nuts and I am talking about the nuts that are physically attached to my body. 

Now on to the dating scene.  No change.  I did have two guys I was interested in but one of them is a fan of open relationships, that is a big no in my book so he is gone.  The other one smoked marijuana on occasion, another big no in my book.  No smokers, No drinkers (socially is fine but not every damn day), No druggies, you have to be faithful and not screw around.  These are qualities that I don’t feel are asking too much but I know are rare.  My standards are a big portion of what is keeping me single.  However, I want what I want and I am not going to settle.  I deserve nothing but the best and when it comes to a mate – no one and I mean no one should settle.  Settling will lead to issues down the road.  Be happy from the start.  A relationship takes work and if your both in it for the right reasons then you’ll be fine. 

Now it’s off to a meeting.  Plenty to do but I don’t want to do any of it, would rather pack up and go home.  Where I know it’s warm and I have my walking fur coat family to keep me company.  Have a great weekend and I will talk with you all again soon.

:( No Massage

My sole reason for coming to work today was to get a massage.  Turns out the therapist isn’t coming.  Not sure why but now I want to go home.  Shame it doesn’t work like that. 

We did have some powder fall from the sky, looks nice but there isn’t enough of it.  I’d say there was maybe 2 inches if that.  There was enough to cause problems, prompt closings and encourage people to delay there morning commute.  I heard the traffic report and the route that I take had no issues.  Every other route had something going on.  I was able to arrive with no major issues, some pokey drivers and some inch worm time but nothing that I am not used to.  Made it here with a half hour to spare.  Let’s hope the commute home is just as nice.  I’ve got to stop to get the mail and see what fun awaits me.

Last night I resolved to write a letter to the vet.  I didn’t ask for a refund or even intimate that.  I just provided some feedback to say you need to communicate with your clients better.  If your going to charge for something don’t make it a surprise, tell them up front.  I faxed the 2 page document last night and thus far no response.  I anticipate they will provide some good will adjustment and if that is the case you can just put that right back on my credit card.  If they don’t acknowledge the letter I sent by fax, then I will mail a copy and send it directly to the owners – that should prompt a response.  I am thankful for the care that Ruth got but I didn’t think I’d have to take out a loan to pay for it.  While it would be nice to get money back, I am more looking for an acknowledgement and apology.  That will help soften the blow and calm me a little bit.  This whole thing proves to me it’s all about money to them.  I get it money is important to all of us but you don’t have to capitalize on my misfortune.  It’s like kicking someone when they are already down.

I’ve been hearing commercials about this grammar checker – it purports to do a way better job than what is built into word.  If you have Chrome they offer a browser extension.  There is a free service that is basic.  If you want to up your game you can pay and they will provide you with extra features.  I am cheap so I opted for the free account.  I used it when I made my post yesterday and I also used it when writing to the vet last night.  It’s called Grammarly, type that into a search engine and you should be directed to their page.  It’s neat but the think I dislike about it is when your using it in Word the auto save feature is turned off.  So unless you save frequently if your machine crashes or Word locks up, you will loose your document.  That is not cool.  I would like to try the paid account but don’t want to fork over the cash for a subscription.  It would be nice if they would give you a sample on something you wrote, rather than an example that was pre-written.  I am all for something that makes me communicate better, lets face it we all do some form of written communication every single day.  Be it a tweet, post on FB, sending an email or Text.  The written word I think is used just as much if not more than the spoken word.  Oh, one more draw back this is designed to be used on a computer not on a mobile device.  So your SOL when it comes to your phone.  Who makes post from a PC on social media, I would suspect very few people.  I’ve done it but it’s rare, most of the time I use my phone.  

Chili was supper last night.  A packet of Wendy’s hot chili mix and a packet of some Taco Bell Hot Sauce.  Then mix in cheese, crackers and sour cream.  For canned chili it sure was good.  Nothing like Wendy’s which I think is the best in terms of fast food.  Steak N Shake is great as well but Wendy’s has more ingredients than just beans and meat, which is why I like it so well. 

I have no idea tonight what I will eat.  Thinking about Spaghetti or Chicken Pot Pie.  It’s a toss up and will greatly depend upon my mood when I walk in the door.  I have to get the trash out tonight so it will be a rushed night.  Trash, Grocery Shopping, Laundry and a few other things are just the Bain of my existence.  Necessary evils like work, I do them because I have to not because I enjoy them or want to. 

Boss man had to take one of his kiddos to the doc and he’s going to be in late.  Fine by me, I’ve got a meeting with him this afternoon and outside of that my schedule is wide open.  There have been some additional after the 1st of the year departures.  I worked with a lady yesterday who wasn’t smart and didn’t back up her phone.  I told her that I was going to wipe the device and then she just kept stalling each time we approached the deadline.  Finally I had to involve a manager and was given a hard and fast deadline of 5p.  The lady tried to guilt me into extending the time by saying she was prepared to loose everything in order to make the deadline.  Glad to hear it.  I sent the wipe at 5p and then I had to wait for it to complete.  Sorry she didn’t backup and if she lost everything but I have a job to do.  It’s not personal it’s business and the guilt thing yeah that didn’t work and I didn’t respond.  I also whacked her account and access card at the same time.  She was done at 5p regardless if she wanted to be or not.  Once she walked out the door there was no way for her to get back in.

So I mentioned the other day I had a nibble in the dating game.  Yeah it was a hi how are you message.  I responded and bam just like that no response back.  Not sure why people play games, I mean I only message people I am interested in.  If they write back great and if not well there are more fish in the sea.  I want to up my game and join one more app but right now I am doing okay with 2.  I figure the more apps the better the odds.  Sort of like applying for a job.  The more jobs you apply for the better your odds and eventually with the law of averages something has to come your way.  I’d like to think the same thing applies when trying to find a guy but it’s not necessarily true.  I am picky and holding out until it feels right.  We have to go on a few dates before sex is even on the table and thus far I have never, ever been on a second date.  Can’t wait for that to happen.  Being accepted and having someone like you for you, is incredible and awesome.  I want and need that very much. 

Much closer to lunch time and there is also one more day left in the week.  Next week will suck for most people because it’s back to five days.  That’s when you know the holidays are done.  Then for giggles we sneak in MLK day on the 16th, then after that there is a very long haul until May.  Thank goodness for PTO because I don’t know how people would make it otherwise. 

Back to the grind, hope your staying warm and that life is treating you well.  Here is to one more day and may it move fast because I am ready for a nap and to do nothing but veg out – I have proven to myself that I can accomplish that task with ease.  Take care.

Turning Around

Ah just got some refreshing news.  Last night I sent a very strongly worded email to the car dealer and now magically they are going to have the part that is needed to complete the repair work on the computer in the car.  Takes about an hour and a half to install.  Not looking forward to being held hostage for that long but hey if it fixes the problem then it will be time well spent.  If I have to use my time to come back I made it clear that all hell will break loose.  I think they get the point.  Glad things have turned around and I hope this is the last visit for a repair and the next time I am at the damn place will be for an oil change.  The damn thing locked up on me when I went to leave work.  Bluetooth was hard powered off and the only way to fix that was to do a Master Reset.  I drove w/o a phone connected until I got to the post office.  In the hopes that when I powered off the car to grab the mail and came back that things would be different, but they were not.  So I reset everything.  I have given up on personalizing the system until the repairs have been made, I am tired of setting things up the way I like them only to have to repeat the process over and over.  This should be a set it and forget it type thing.  Technology is great but only when it works.  Of course, if it didn’t fail then I probably wouldn’t have the nice paying job I do. 

Ruth is back to her normal self.  Eating like a pig.  She was drinking water last night and I guess it hit that sore spot on her tongue.  She was kind of dazed for a brief moment but that never stopped her from lapping up that water.  Bears decided to be a bit of a brat this morning and didn’t really care for anything that I put down.  We went through 3 cans of food, he did some nibbling.  When I was ready to walk out the door I had put down his dry food and he was crunching on it, slowly but he was eating.  Not sure if this is just him being a brat or if something is wrong.  My best guess says it’s just him being picky because he knows that I will cater to him.  We had our couch time last night and eventually I got him comfortable and he passed out.  Very enjoyable.

I was late getting home last night because I found an issue at work.  Someone didn’t do their job and this was pretty serious.  I had to involve management and was happy to see that my efforts and concerns were supported.  Not looking for anyone to lose their job but you can’t keep to yourself in the technology world when it comes to issues, concerns and problems.  If you do then you won’t be that helpful.  This was an obvious no brainer situation where Security needed to be notified and wasn’t.  So I wound up doing someone’s job for them.  Picked up some overtime from it, but I was pissed when I left. 

The weather turned bitterly cold overnight and there is a Winter Weather Advisory in effect for later tonight.  It’s going to start snowing but probably not until closer to the morning commute.  Getting to work will probably be difficult but if things look to be too much of a mess then I will just call it and stay home.  I am not risking life and limb to get to work.  This would be a handy situation where I should be allowed to work from home but that isn’t allowed.  Yes, I am a little bitter over that more so the fact that I was lied to than the fact that it’s not allowed.  I’m telling you one snowflake and people around here freak out as if the sky is falling.  We're used to bad weather in the winter but you wouldn’t guess that by the way people react and drive.  If things somehow change and it’s all ice out, that is a mandatory no go in my book.  After what I went through last year coming home, I am not driving on ice until there has been time for treatment and plowing to occur.  I have every plan on making it in tomorrow, I don’t back down just because of a little snow, but it’s more of a use common sense and assess the situation and proceed based off of how I feel.

Speaking of cars the piece of shit as I so affectionately refer to it is back.  My neighbors park this old car on the street, it’s in my blind spot and they are daring me to hit it.  If it was parked in front of their house it wouldn’t be a problem.  I just hate looking out my front window and seeing the damn car.  It was gone for a few days and I got excited as if it was going to be gone forever, guess I couldn’t get that lucky.  I just want it to go away and not come back or to have them park the damn piece of shit in front of their house.  We don’t talk but based on previous actions I suspect they know how I feel about it and they are doing it out of spite more than anything

This is the last day of vacation for our team as our boss returns tomorrow.  There always seems to be more work when he is around.  Everyone is taking an opportunity to catch up and relax or coast a bit.  Kind of nice.  We have a meeting later this afternoon but it shouldn’t take up a lot of time.

I am already looking forward to the weekend and it’s only Wednesday.  Need to get to the pet food store to see if they have Tuna and Egg in stock for the kids.  It’s a favorite for Bear and the Girls like it once and a while as well.  Need to grab the mail if there is any and outside of that I am free, as in nothing planned.  I’ll probably sack out on the couch.  Sunday will be the usual breakfast and grocery store trip.  Then home to work on Laundry and cleaning the house.  Then back to work for five long days.  Didn’t realize it but next Friday is the 13th, that snuck in there. 

That is all I have for now.  Looking forward to spending the evening in my nice warm house with my nice warm cats.  The best thing about a cat is when it’s cold outside they have built in heaters that run all year long.  Shiver no more.  Take care. 

First day of work

Traffic was back to normal, slow to get to work but thanks to the cushion I have allowed, I made it in early.  Hopefully the commute home won’t be that bad, but I’ll know soon enough. 

This morning work was just crazy busy, like everything was happening at once.  I made it through all of that and now that things have quieted down I am ready for a nap.  It was a struggle to get out of bed this morning but I made it.  The days to come will no doubt be equally as difficult but it’s one of those necessary evils that I have to contend with. 

Ruth is pretty well back to her normal self.  Acting fine, being bossy to her siblings and trying to hog the food.  She has let me pet her and I think things are no worse for the wear.  She is more aware of her surroundings and a little afraid to let her guard down.  I suspect the fact that I am not home right now helps and she is probably relaxing having a great old time. 

Lunch time is about to happen.  I was scheduled for a meeting but it was cancelled so I can take my lunch leisurely.  Helps that my boss is off, but I still have Ms. Prissy to contend with.  There is a meeting that she will be on and running a bit later this afternoon.  Outside of that unless something breaks, it should all be really quiet for me. 

Spent last night listening to some old tunes from my younger days.  Jefferson Starship or Starship as they are known as well as April Wine and Firefall.  Nice to hear those tunes and to just relax.  I have wanted to catch up on porn but I just keep putting it off.  Not sure why, I mean everyone collects something.  For me it’s porn so you’d think I would be all into it, but nah listening to music sounded much better to me. 

Before it got to be too late, I went upstairs and put Bear on the couch with me.  I had some ice cream and we watched TV for about an hour.  An ambulance came to one of my neighbors houses.  Not sure what all of the fuss was about, I stayed put with Bear on my lap.  I really enjoy flashing lights but don’t like to see them behind me or in my neighborhood. 

Thought a lot about my friend that is passing away, said some prayers and before you know it I was in dreamland.  Marvin stayed with me for a short time and then he had to leave.  Not sure what that was all about but sleeping by myself is enjoyable.

Got a nibble on one of the dating apps.  Were just exchanging the basic hello part now.  Not sure that it’s going to go anywhere but one never knows. 

Time to wash my paws, break out my food and devour.  I saved some BBQ and Mac & Cheese from last night so I will be able to eat good again tonight.  Weather will be turning colder so I’m thinking Chicken Pot Pie for supper on Wednesday.  Never hurts to plan ahead.  Have to stop and see what is in the mail tonight.  Plans for relaxation on the couch again with Bear. 

Still waiting to get a call from the dealer.  I don’t think that will happen today and I get it they are probably busy.  If I don’t hear from them, I will likely check in tomorrow.  Bring on the food now! 

Take care, happy Monday on a Tuesday.  Be Safe & Stay Warm!  Talk with you again soon.

Bleeding Ruth

Well this year is off to a hell of a start.  I got up early, much earlier than I wanted to.  Took care of the kids and then headed out.  Ate my breakfast at Cracker Barrel.  No CB boy to be found, which is fine by me.  On to the Grocery Store.  Home to put everything away and I said I was done with going out for the day.  Just relaxing and taking it easy.  Boy was I wrong. 

I decided to knock the chore of trimming Ruth’s claws out of the way.  She was resting on the couch.  I snuck up on her and she really didn’t like that, I think that is what set her off.  She was mad and yelling, growling, biting, scratching and doing her very best protest.  I was able to trim 4 claws and then she got away from me.  She retreated to the basement.  I got her and told her we needed to finish trimming her claws.  All hell broke loose and she protested again.  She bit the trimmers and I think she bit her tongue in the process, that is the only thing I could think of, other than she got cut by the trimmers.  I saw blood and backed off quickly.  I had to figure out if it was her or me.  Once I saw it was her, I told her that were going to the vet.  I didn’t blink an eye and got her in a crate and off we went.  $230 later were home.  The bleeding stopped, it looked to be a slight puncture wound to her tongue.  They wanted to send me home with pills, I said I have to put welding gloves on to trim her claws every 6 to 7 weeks, how the fuck do you think me trying to give her a pill will go over?  I think I will wind up in the emergency room and she will be pissed at me.  So no to the pills, put it in a needle and give it to her that way.  So she got a shot of antibiotic that is long acting.  Then they talked me into vaccinating her for Rabies.  They said if she bites you and you go for treatment her life would likely be over.   I protested about the Rabies, I mean we have gotten by for so long.  I said what is the risk, they said it’s low.  But if a bat gets into your house and bites her, then she will get it for sure.  They said that it has happened before.  Yeah, but a bat in my house, what are the odds.  I think they would be greater for me to get in a car wreck than for a bat to come in my house.  So if that happens, I’ll have Ruth and everyone else will die.  I am not taking the rest of them over for shots.  They were so kind as to help me finish the nail trim.  I was pleased as punch until I saw they charged me $17 for it.  Fuck I pour nothing but money into their practice and this is how they reward me.  The most expensive thing was the exam, because they had to tack on an emergency fee.  I fucking hate them.  She’s not been seen in 7 years, which is pretty good.  I haven’t sunk a lot of money in her like Bear but still you’d think they would give me a break, but no why not fuck me out of as much money as they can.  Yes I am angry but then again wouldn’t you be?  The only way I get to get away from them is when all of the kids die.  Then I’ll never, ever go back.  I may get a cat or two but they will see a different vet for sure.  Blood sucking bastards!  I wanted to write a letter to express my displeasure but after talking with a friend it’s probably better to just let it go. 

The county gets a $1.75 fee because I used a credit card to pay the bill.  That is BS.  I don’t pay for the privilege of using my credit card.  They collected the fee but I will file a dispute once the charge actually posts and I know the bank will give me the money back, since were talking about a small amount.  It’s criminal to charge some one extra because they want to use a card be it credit or debit.  I don’t carry cash but oddly enough I just got $5 back at the grocery store.  If I had gotten $20 then I could have paid the fee in cash and avoided the charge. 

I have apologized as much as possible to Ruth.  She is still quite mad at me.  She is eating or should I say she ate lunch.  I think she will eat supper as well but time will tell.  As long as she keeps eating then I think were home free.  I feel really bad because the majority of fault with this is on me.  Sure she shouldn’t have gotten so upset but she is an animal and you can’t reason with her.  I don’t blame her and hope that she forgives me, which I think she will.  I worry about causing damage to our relationship as it has blossomed over the past couple years.  Heck last night she sat far away from me but we were both on the couch and watched TV for a short while until she did finally leave.  That would have never happened in years past.  So she is a little bit more trusting and I don’t want to damage or inhibit that.  I keep telling her that if I was going to hurt her I would have done it years ago and not wait until now.  She is precious to me and I love her.  I don’t want to think about life without her. 

Now for the best part, she bit me.  Through the welding gloves she caused a puncture wound.  It’s happened before.  Nothing to worry about.  Wash it off, put on some antibiotic ointment and presto all is well.  I am not in any danger of getting a hand infection and that is because of the gloves.  Had it not been for the gloves then I would be singing a different song and it would be expensive, painful and I would have lost my girl. 

All things considered, while this is a bump in the road – it doesn’t compare to how last year started off and for that I am thankful.  I don’t want to go back to work tomorrow but I think it’s probably for the best.  Let everyone here rest up and resume their normal routines until the weekend arrives once again in 4 days from now. 

The really sad part is I just made a major dent in paying my credit card down and this just runs it back up again.  Feels like I am so close but will never actually get out of debt.  I know for a fact that isn’t true because of my master plan to use my tax refund to make it happen, but waiting to file and then planning on using the money – who knows how much I will actually owe by that point?  All I can do is put one foot in front of the other and try my very best to be financially responsible. 

In other news, I am officially back in the dating world.  Put profiles on 2 apps today, waiting to see what happens.  Still thinking about going back on Grindr but since it’s not really LTR oriented I have reservations if it’s worth my time. 

The dryer should be going off soon, hopefully.  I need my fresh towel so that I can go shave the bush that I have let grow on my face.  That won’t be a fun task but I think I will feel better once it’s done.  Plus I could use a shower after all of the days activities. 

Here’s to being able to stay far, far away from the vet and not spending much money.  Hope today’s events aren’t an omen of things to come this year.  It’s not the way I wanted to start the year off but in retrospect it could have been much worse. 

Hope your year is going better than mine, that your warm and safe.  Back to ye old grind tomorrow.  Gearing up for BBQ Pork with Mac & Cheese for supper.  Welcome to Delicious!

Lazy Damn Day

Happy New Year again!  I spent the first day of the year loafing.  I went to bed late and slept in.  Fed the kids their breakfast and then watched TV.  Eventually I wound up falling back asleep.  Thought to myself that I’d get moving towards the afternoon but that didn’t happen.  I didn’t have breakfast until 1p.  Then watched some more TV and yes again lulled myself back to sleep. 

I didn’t really wake up and get moving until my friend called at 5p.  He was telling me about his wife and that she is resting.  It was quite the day for them.  Lots of family stopping by and throwing in their input for how best to plan her funeral.  Yeah, they didn’t need that.  It’s a tough time and he has a very difficult task of watching her die.  She told him not to be afraid to move on and that it was okay to remarry.  He already knew that he had her blessing but he is all about the single life.  I mean she isn’t even gone yet.  He told me that he is a fan of one-night stands given his age and then move on.  He doesn’t want to marry again or have any type of serious relationship.  I told him being by yourself is no picnic but I can understand how you want to take time and get used to what will soon be a new normal.  This whole situation just sucks.  He is ready for it to be over, he doesn’t enjoy seeing her suffer and honestly like I said before her death will be the only way he gets off of this merry go round ride from hell.  It’s rough but once it stops you can pick up and slowly move on.  It will be lonely and painful afterwards.  I didn’t think I would make it this far or this long w/o my late partner but life does go on and you cope & get used to the situation.  Why?  Because your not left with any other options and when you have no options, it sucks but it also tends to bring out the best in you.  You prove to yourself that you can make it and that is something no one can take away from you.  It’s a bitter sweet feeling. 

I spent my day watching movies from Amazon.  I finished a Netflix series called Chasing Cameron all about Cameron Dallas.  He’s a 22 year old kid who rose to fame through social media.  Crazy how that happened.  I didn’t know who he was or what he looked like, that is until I think Logo mentioned it on FaceBook and said that he shows his butt.  I had to click to find out more and man, he’s fucking smoking hot.  Now I see what all of the fuss is about.  It’s presumed that he is straight but there is no mention of sexuality.  One of the episodes called Losing a Friend I had to turn away from.  His family put down their dog and I just couldn’t and didn’t want to watch that.  There is a short flash back in the next episode that they could have skipped.  Outside of that I enjoyed looking at his shirtless body and seeing the couple of booty shots that were included.  Oh the things I’d like to do to him!

Speaking of boys.  I let my facial hair grow out and took a couple photos at work.  When I jump back in the dating game I am using at least one of them for my profile pic.  I think they scream daddy.  Although I don’t think of myself as a daddy I wouldn’t mind having a twink for a boyfriend.  My hope is by taking time away and changing my appearance that it will yield better or more positive results.  Only time will tell.  I haven’t shaved for a while now and well frankly my face itches like mad.  So I am very eager to get all of this fur off of my face before I scratch myself raw.  I typically only shave once a week and I get lots of compliments on my facial hair, when it is present.  So that gave me the idea to try this.  Crossing my fingers.  I mean I am already at no so what do I have to lose? 

The Amazonaholic in my came out last night and I dropped $100.  Got some Cinnamon Pecans, some soap, some wedding cake cookies and some more of Bears supplement (Rutin) on the way.  Given the bonus we got from work that helped.  Of course this afternoon watching TV I thought of something else I needed but now I can’t tell you what that is or was. 

Hung up all of my 2017 calendars last night.  Had my annual shredding party and carried out 2 bags of paper.  I could have easily tossed it in the air and said Happy New Year but then there is no maid so I’d have to clean it up.  Better to leave it in the bag and just mutter HNY. 

Monday soon will be here.  Going to breakfast and to do grocery shopping.  If I get an alert I will venture to the post office.  Otherwise I don’t plan for any other travels.  I wanted to go check out some Christmas lights.  I don’t believe they are up but it would require at least one trip to check it out and honestly the longer I waited the less meaningful it was.  We (me and my late partner) used to drive around during the holidays and look at the lights.  Since he has been gone I haven’t done that but said that this year would be different.  Nah, it’s just not the same w/o him.  Maybe if and when I find someone I will change my tune but as for now I’d rather spend time with my cats, listening to them purr, meow and snore.  Smelling a candle burning while watching TV and relaxing, maybe even squeeze in a nap.  That is my idea of a good time, lame as it might be. 

I still need to trap Ruth to trim her claws and as per usual not looking forward to it.  I also have to clean the house so Monday will be quite the busy day for me.  Let’s just hope that I have the energy and drive to make it all happen before I throw my feet up and call it a day.  Plenty of laundry to go with all of that as well. 

Tuesday it will be back to work and back to the routine.  Boss man is out until Thursday.  Hoping for lots of quiet even though everyone for the most part will be back from the holidays and ready to work.  I am ready to go on vacation.  If I had the time and money to go with it, then I would get away probably to some place warmer, even if only for a few days. 

Be safe, stay warm and come back again soon.  There will be plenty more for me to talk about.  Take care.