Funded

Much to my surprise I received an email that my loan has been funded.  The last time I went through this process, that meant that I was approved.  I took a look at the permit application and filled some of it out.  Turns out that the city wants to inspect the job before you can occupy or live in the space.  Really?  Makes me wonder how we are going to get this job done on the weekend.  I mean they can do the work but legally I can’t live in my home until Monday when an inspector is available.  I am going to see how we work around this or if that is possible.  I’d like to avoid taking time from work but if I have to, I have it.  I have to be here when the work is done, that is my rule.  I don’t know how the cats are going to react and I think they would be more comfortable if I was here.  I will also probably buy some Feilaway diffusers, which place comfort pheromones in the air to help calm kitty.  They are super expensive but they last for 30 days so I think it’s worth it.

Finished up the usual events and tasks of the day.  I got the waitress I can’t stand this morning at Steak N Shake.  She acts so plastic and it gets on my nerves, I don’t know if she is trying to put on a show or if she is naturally that way, but I don’t like her.  I gave her my order and she forgot my bowl of chili which I ordered first.  Thankfully she remembered my burger.  I got the bowl of chili after I said something and it was no charge.  That was nice. 

At the normal grocery store I racked up a bill of $74 and got it for $54 with coupons, not bad!  Then I went to get my oatmeal at the upper class store.  All of the cute bagger boys were not out yet.  I got to see a couple pieces of eye candy.  I wanted to grab one guy by the ass so bad.  Oh it’s pure hell to window shop.  I can’t wait until I can actually touch the merchandise again. 

Very cold here, Gator is back to hiding under the covers to get warm.  I fired up the furnace for a little bit to help get everyone warm.  I think it will be on overnight so it’s not so cold when I wake up.  The cold will cause you to wake up in a hurry but it won’t be enjoyable.  Speaking of which I purchased some spray on moisturizer from Vaseline.  One of my friends said a friend of hers loves it.  If it keeps my back from itching then I am all for it.  However, I haven’t found a product yet that actually works all day long.  This stuff is supposed to go for 24 hours, so we shall see. 

Claws are done!  Ruth ran from me and peed on the carpet.  However I got to take the gloves off and actually hold her paw without her trying to gnaw off my hand.  I am making progress but I don’t think she will ever be a lap cat or like to be held.  It’s not the claw trimming that is the issue it’s the fact that she is held hostage for a brief period of time.  She also got brushed, which I know she enjoys but she acted like she hated it.  I got to smell her dragon breath.  When she gets upset you can smell it in her breath and see her fire red tongue and gums. 

I have been hot all day long and the sinus soup has been busy pouring.  I can sense that something is amiss and rather than wake up and have to call in, I started on some steroids.  Perhaps it’s just allergies but I would rather have all of it under control.  Speaking of work, I ordered my boss some candy and fruit arrangement to be delivered on Tuesday for Bosses Day.  That holiday isn’t until next week but she will be on vacation and rather than have her wait I wanted to get her before she went on vacation.  I have a feeling that no one really does anything for her and last year my gift by mail sat for days before she called me up to thank me.  I know for a fact that I should get a call on Tuesday, unless something goes wrong.  This cost me a small fortune so I really hope it goes off without a hitch and that she enjoys it.  I threw in a Mylar Balloon for good measure, which also hiked up the price. 

I also took the time to cash out on my reward cash on each of my credit cards.  One had $29 and the other had $19 so not a bad day.  It takes a while to accumulate since it’s 1% of total purchases but once it gets into the $20 level I am quick to cash it in, need that money!

Marv and Ruth are in hiding they didn’t come to supper.  Now if they don’t show up for treat time, then I will know something is wrong.  Marv is in my room hiding behind the chair, which he never does.  That is his brothers place.  Ruth is downstairs with me hiding next to the treadmill.  At least it’s getting used for something. 

I took time to clean up my bedroom a little bit.  Emptied out the underwear drawer, threw a few pairs away.  Got a reminder that I own jocks.  I think they are super hot but wearing them all day long, not my thing.  Emptied out the sock drawer and found that there was a ton of socks that I haven’t been wearing.  Fixed that by rearranging them.  Got the iPad out and plugged in, it’s getting IOS 9.2 it was down to 30 minutes when I came downstairs, it should be ready to install when I go back up in a bit. 

Quantico and Last Week Tonight are my TV shows for the evening.  Looking forward to both of them.  There are other things waiting for me on my DVR that I haven’t watched.  I’ve mostly stuck with Drop Dead Diva the entire weekend, lots of interesting content there.  I really like Fred the Guardian Angel, he could come guard me any day of the week.  Just saying. 

Nothing special planned for the week, just another week in the life.  Looking forward to the weekend as usual.  I think we might get a free lunch this week and were in the month where there should be a fire drill.  I really don’t look forward to that, it’s a lot of walking and it’s murder on me, but if it were the real thing I would be thankful that I could actually walk to get out.  That’s all from here for now.  Talk with you all again soon.  I hope that you had an awesome weekend!

Lonely

So I busted my ass to clean this place and whip it in to shape.  Wouldn’t you know it the sales guy for the roof never ever set foot inside the house.  I wasn’t happy about that.  I woke up early and baked Pumpkin Cinnamon Rolls.  I cleaned the table, which I haven’t done since LB passed away and got out a table cloth.  The last time the table cloth was out was when I closed on the house last year.  A lot of work and a very sore back for nothing but at least I can be proud of what I see. 

So turns out that I have hail and wind damage to the roof.  I checked my policy and the deductible would be $3 thousand dollars.  The cost for the roof is $6 thousand dollars.  Either way the policy would go down because of a new roof.  However, I would have a claim on file and that would make the rates go up next year.  So I think it’s better to pay the cost of the roof myself.  There is a pipe that is leaking into the bathroom.  I was told that can cause black mold, which would be a mess to clean up and quite costly.  Yeah if they find that I will file an insurance claim no question about it.  I really hope they don’t find anything.  I asked a lot of questions, which is nothing new for me.  I like to know what I am getting myself into.  Turns out the cost of the permit isn’t figured in to the estimate, which really took me by surprise.  Plus this contractor will meet any other estimate and give me a 5% discount.  I asked what if I don’t call anyone else and the job is yours?  They will knock 5% off which saves me close to $400, which is nice.  I am not going through the bid process, I should to be sure that I am getting a good deal but I have trust and faith in the contractor that I selected.  I have applied for financing and if all goes well I will have my money next week.  I won’t break the news to them that they have the job until I have the money.  I am rolling the cost of the roof and the balance of my consolidation loan into 1 loan, I get a little cheaper interest rate but it’s a 5 year loan and the payment is actually a little bit less than what I am paying for the consolidation loan.  The part that sucks is there is a loan fee that comes off the top.  I have a margin of $200 and I have factored in the permit cost of $100 (which no one knows the cost for the permit, but I am sure it won’t be $100).  Hopefully there won’t be anything extra.  Now the hardest part is picking out a color for the shingles.  The sales guy said to get black, but that holds in heat and I am not so sure that I want that.  They have a white that is energy efficient and it’s a choice between that or Chapel Grey.  This roof will last 25 years – which would make me 69 years old.  I have no idea if I will be walking the earth then much less if I will be living here.  I really have the strong desire to move and start life over again but I am resisting that urge.  Sort of like the whole new car thing. 

While I was waiting this morning I looked on the dating app I am on and the perfect guy who was a 92% match appeared.  He had a beard, which is kind of a turn off but looking through his profile we really clicked.  He was younger (32 or 35) so I wouldn’t be a cradle robber.  I reached out and sent him a message.  Now most guys start out with hi how are you or hey sexy … you know something basic but also something bordering on cheesy.  I have my own approach and tell the guy that I like their profile and would like to get to know them.  Some people I tell my name to and other people I do not.  Ever since I have started this the same thing happens.  The guy reads the message and then either doesn’t respond or blocks me.  Makes me wonder what is wrong with me?  Now the problem may not be with me, but rather with my wording.  I am intelligent and want to carry on a decent conversation but I think lines like hi, what’s up or how are you are just boring.  Maybe I should go back to the basics?  What do you think?

Not having a guy and entering in to the birth month of my late partner as well as it being fall makes me lonely.  I think about how I setup our Civil Union Anniversary to be 2 month from his birthday, so he couldn’t forget it.  Clever I know.  Sad that 3 short months after we were united he passed away.  I found myself earlier this week on the way to work and Charlie Puth’s When I see you again song came up on my phone.  I listened to the song and started out fine but by the time it was 1/2 way over with I was driving with tears in my eyes.  Not exactly the best way to start off the day, especially when your driving to work. 

I am scared to start over with another guy but at the same time I am also excited.  There are risks to everything.  Start slow and build from there.  You don’t need to jump into bed on the first date.  In fact I have no desire to do that.  Now if this is the guy of my dreams I am sure my reaction will be different but I really would like to find that special guy to light up my world and me light up theirs.  It would give a whole new meaning to the holidays as well as life in general.  I have come a long way and still am managing to over come adversity.  It’s a very scary journey and major purchases or major decisions make me wish that I had someone who was along with me for the ride and could help ease the decision making process or at least comfort me.

In other news I ventured out to the BBQ place that the guy recommended last week.  It was a nice trip the food wasn’t the best and I can’t say that I will be back.  I should have pressed on and gone to the buffet.  However, I didn’t.  I did go out for supper for Baked Spaghetti which came with a salad and a slice of garlic bread.  Then I had to have desert and dropped $20 which I think was reasonable for what I had.  I wish there were more meat in the sauce but it was really good.  This is the same place I go for pizza, it was a nice change of pace. 

On the agenda for tomorrow is breakfast, grocery stores, gas up the car.  I need to finish up laundry, clean the bathtub and then trim claws.  Yikes!  I look forward to breakfast but that’s it.  The rest of the day involves physical activity, spending money or both.  Then comes Monday and I have to go back to work, that won’t be any fun, but all good things must come to an end.  It’s easy to spend money it’s hard to make it, at least by honest means.  If I were into crime, drugs or both then money might not be so hard to come by but my life would also be in danger.  Better to stick to the honest living thing and let the cards fall where they may. 

Happy Saturday!  Now on to the relaxing part of the day and eventually bed time.  No ac or heat on, the house is at around 72 degrees.  It’s been in the high 50’s and 60’s all day.  Overcast and a little bit of rain.  It’s jacket weather for sure.  Not happy about the extra layer but I knew it was coming.  Oh I forgot the best part of the roof thing, they work on Saturday’s so I don’t have to take time off from work, even though I would like to.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Working weekend

It’s been a busy few days.  Haven’t talked with you all since last month!  Very hard to believe that were already in October. 

So I am officially off work until Monday.  Tomorrow I am going to have my oil changed and tires rotated on the car.  Free of charge, so you can’t knock that deal.  Then I need to get my hair cut.  Then on to rent a carpet cleaner to try to clean up this messy house.  That is all for Friday.

Saturday I have a meeting with a sales guy about the roof.  I would like to make the house look presentable instead of letting him into the barn.  Nothing else going on the rest of the weekend!

I feel a great amount of stress right now trying to make it all come together.  I also really don’t have the desire to clean the carpet.  Momma just came in and crapped on the floor in my office.  Then I saw another spot that she hit.  I went to clean that up and found yet another spot and didn’t realize I stepped in spot that she had covered up with a pee pad.  I was pissed.  She knew it but she kept going despite my yelling.  Then she ran around here like she was on fire.  I believe this is associated with her Thyroid because #1 son had spastic outburst and he would run like he was on fire.  It’s the only thing that I can attribute it to. 

Everyone else here is doing fine.  Marvin has been sleeping 1/2 nights with me, not sure what that is all about.  Cats are just picky but that’s okay I am kind of the same way.  Depending upon what it is that we are talking about. 

Going up stairs drinking my water and catch up on TV, until I pass out.  Got my massage today and the new chair at work is making a good difference.  Hopefully in two weeks I can get a nice massage instead of the intense workout that I have been getting.  That is at least the therapists hopes.

No word from the blowjob robot people on my refund.  I really hope they will come through so that I don’t have to file a formal dispute with my credit card company.  The window of time that I allowed for them to respond has passed so I am just chilling to see if they will come through but I am not going to give them much time.  I have a deadline that I am working against and there will be a point in time where I can no longer file a dispute.  The product might work great for other guys but does nothing for me and it’s going to collect dust here.  Might as well get my money back.  Better to lose than to have not tried at all.  I mean if I lose it’s not the end of the world.

The final decree in my late partners bankruptcy case was filed yesterday and the case for all intense and purposes is toast.  There is no re-opening it and no way any creditor from his past can come back to haunt me.  This is just the final paperwork in the process and it’s normal for it to take a little bit after the order of discharge has been granted.  Having this weight off my shoulders for a few months now has really helped me.  I see a little bit of a brighter future.  I need to get the roof and paying for it as well as my consolidation loan behind me and then financially I will be in a better place.  I am thinking when I finance the roof take out extra to pay off the original loan so that I get a lower payment in the end because the rate that the roof loan will be at is much lower than the consolidation loan.  I mean I might as well work the system to my advantage, Lord knows they have worked me and will continue to do so for many years to come. 

On that happy peppy note I am calling this post done and headed to seek out Water & TV.  Have an awesome weekend and we shall catch up again soon. 

Trucking to work

Drove the truck as planned, got here safe.  It was nice sitting up a little higher on the road.  I heard the growling noise.  It really sounds bad, like Ruthie was with me the whole way to work.  I am driving it home and will resume using my car for the rest of the week.  No word on Friday (my day off request) yet, my boss has a rule that you submit for the day and if no one else is off then it’s automatically approved.  I like that but would rather have the assurance knowing that it’s been approved. 

My other co-workers in IT are out today, so I am the Lone Ranger here.  That means I could leave early if I so chose but if I did chose then you know as well as I that something would go wrong and I would probably get caught.  Now I am talking like leaving 30 minutes early.  5 minutes well that probably won’t make much of a big deal, but the risk is still there. 

I saw some Chili Pot Pies yesterday at the store.  I picked up a couple and am looking forward to having one of them tonight.  I sure hope they are as good as I think they will be. 

After cleaning the microwave yesterday with boiling hot water it looks amazing.  I feel like it belongs to someone else.  How I let it get that bad is beyond me, just one of those things I guess I didn’t think about too much. 

Got a call from the roof people.  I need to call them back to set something up.  Not really looking forward to getting the estimate but calling them back is the first step in the process.  Really not excited to spend the money but it is going for something good.

That’s it for Monday.  Depending upon how things shake out 3 or 4 more days to go.  Hope your Monday was a great one!

The day before Monday

I’ve done all of the usual chores and tasks that I normally do on a Sunday.  I am actually still working on Laundry and can’t wait until it’s done.  I get to shave and shower.  That is the part I look forward to.  There is nothing like a hot shower with no place to go and nothing to do, you can relax and take your time.  However, all I think about is when I take my next shower it will be Monday, ugh I don’t want to go back to work. 

I replaced the batteries in both of the vehicle remotes, I did it last year and I am thinking of making it an annual habit.  I need to get the garage door opener in my car and my remote for the alarm.  I finally after two years combined keys so that I have both vehicles and their remotes on one key ring.  It sure does make things extra bulky but now I know the keys are with me. 

The auction was slightly noisy they started setting up at 7a and I was in the master bedroom, the walls are paper thin.  Holy cow I wasn’t happy but I understood they had a job to do.  I was able to get back to sleep for a couple hours.  Gator started crying at 4am when I changed beds.  I didn’t think she would ever shutdown but she did. It’s 4p and the auction folks have been tearing down and clearing out for the past couple hours.  They really drew in a crowd.  It looks like someone parked on my lawn, not happy about that but it’s done – so there isn’t anything to do.  

I am now into the series Drop Dead Diva.  One of my former co-workers told me I would like it but at the time I would have had to pay to watch it because it wasn’t on Netflix but Amazon had it for purchase.  I am into the 4th episode.  Damn there were some good looking guys on that show.  I had nap time and started dreaming that I was going out with one of the guys on the show, it was just surreal how that dream came about.  I know that most of the fibers of my being long for companionship, so it is understandable.  This morning at the grocery store there was a really hot guy, he was buying all of the healthy stuff and I was tossing what I wanted into my cart.  Shame I couldn’t have tossed him.  I wonder how much he would have rang up for?

Chatted with a friend about my experiences of yesterday last night and found out that if the wheel bearing does go, the wheel could come flying off, the tire would go flat and generally you would be in one hell of an accident.  Yeah and I want to drive that vehicle to get my money back.  I am questioning if that would be a good idea.  I am thinking I will take it tomorrow but not sure about the rest of the week.  I am going to find out what it will cost to fix it and may go ahead and spend the money for the repair now, instead of risking my life.  It’s got airbags but I really don’t want to test them to see if they work, if you catch my drift. 

I am rather impressed with myself I remembered to get Parmesan Cheese at the store, remembered to clean the microwave and I have been trying to get those two things taken care of for the last two weeks.  It’s s sense of accomplishment.  I didn’t want to go to the other grocery store after I saw my total at the first place this morning.  Cinnamon Oatmeal will have to wait a week.  I will survive with Apple but won’t be happy about it.  I always have Cream of Wheat to spruce things up.  I did pick up Pumpkin Muffins.  Oh they will be great.  I just wish they didn’t coat the tops with sugar.  I am already sweet enough and more sugar isn’t what I need.  It’s money and a man!  What a shame they don’t top muffins with either of those!

Now I am off to search for a new photo for the header of the blog and of course add to my porn collection.  Speaking of which I just unplugged my VCR & DVD player a while ago.  I don’t really use them anymore and I heard they really consume the power, even in an off state.  If that is a true statement then the power bill should go down.  If I need them I will plug them back in.  I primarily used both of them to watch porn, now we have all digital media.  I am stuck with a video case full of VHS Tapes and DVD’s all porn.  I have some normal movies on both forms of media but porn was the primary thing I collected.  Like all hobbies, that was expensive.  Sure would be nice to sell that stuff and make some of the money I sent back.  There has to be a source to sell porn but I just don’t know if it’s worth the aggravation.  Plus you probably wouldn’t ever know if you were selling to an actually adult or a kid who was just discovering sex.  I mean there is a slight risk there and if you sell that to someone who isn’t a legal adult you could be in big trouble.  Like I said aggravation. 

I hope your Sunday was all roses.  Last week tonight with John Oliver is back on Tonight and it’s also the start of Quantico.  Looking forward to both.  If all works out well this should be a 4 day week for me, that is in the hands of my boss.  Once I know for sure I will be making an appointment for the car and possibly the truck again.  Now off to tend to the laundry and find the perfect picture!

Fucked again

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Back 2 IT

I woke up and really didn’t feel that well.  I forged forward.  I honestly didn’t think I would make it all day long, but I did!  I was nauseated and my body kept telling me that something isn’t right.  I get this funny feeling when I am getting ill.  It’s been that way since I was a kid, kind of a strange tingle and warmness in the middle of my chest.  So I know something is up.  All thought I feel pretty okay now.  I was hot most of the day, but that is semi normal at work.

Holy crap my chair came.  It is amazing.  One feature they didn’t include is a tilt lock, so I can’t lock the back in place.  Granted most of the time I wouldn’t want to but when your keyboarding it’s recommended and it forces you to sit up straight.  The blue fabric the office manager picked out is awesome and will match my spare pair of glasses.  I just love blue.  This was the highlight of my day!

I really devoted a lot of time last night to my momma letter.  I can’t tell you how many changes and re-prints I did but it’s finally done and in the mail.  I kept it professional and didn’t argue or challenge.  I simply stated my point of view and explained that I was not in a position to help her or my brother given the circumstances and events surrounding the past two years.  I casually mentioned that no one was there for me when I lost my spouse and that I have been on my own for quite sometime.  I didn’t quite know how to say that I wasn’t saying goodbye forever but just for now.  I still plan on sending her a Birthday Gift and something at the holidays.  For my own well being I just can’t be around them, they are toxic and detrimental to my well being.  My natural logic tells me to jump in and help, but I’ve given advice that no one wants to take.  They both want me to pick up the ball and run with it, make it better because I am the one with all of this free time and logic.  Sorry, it doesn’t work that way.  I did reiterate the advice that I provided so it was clear and documented.  I wanted to explain how neglect is a crime, but I took that part out.  I figured they would think it was a threat and that I was going to file a complaint or take additional action.  Nah, I’m really done.

I have been thinking about the vehicle situation.  I am going to call the place where I got my tires from and see if they will be able to look at the brakes on the truck on Saturday.  If they can awesome, if not well then I am back to taking time off work for it.  I’d like to get that fixed so I can start driving that vehicle a little more and keep the miles off the car.  That is the problem when you have 1 driver and 2 cars.  One vehicle gets a ton of use and the other one sits. 

I am fighting with the blowjob robot people.  Trying to get my money back.  I understand they can’t take the product back but I’ve tried everything I know with the product and it simply does nothing for me.  I think this might be a futile attempt but they don’t say individual results may vary.  No they pour on the hype and tell you how much it feels better than the real thing and how your going to love it and they market to take your money.  I understand marketing but if your product won’t work for some people, then you owe it to put a disclaimer or warning on your page.  They think I will be too embarrassed to file any type of formal complaints, they just don’t know who they are dealing with.  I have the balls and won’t hesitate.  I am giving them every chance and opportunity to try to make this right but if that fails well then we march into the land of formal complaints and disputes.  I don’t see any shame in telling anyone I masturbate, they might laugh but so what.  It’s all I have right now for a sex life.  I am working on changing that but it takes a lot of time.

Ah, there I feel a little better now.  Probably a lot of TMI.  Ah thankfully tomorrow is Friday.  It will be over and done with before you know it and I will be talking about the weekend.  How about TV.  The Fall line up starting to come back The Middle, The Goldbergs, Modern Family, Scandal a new show on Sunday Quantico.  Spoiler alert Quantico has a gay character.  It’s just good stuff and I will take in every morsel they produce.  Anxiously awaiting the return of Shameless in January.  Just found out that there won’t be a 3rd season of Alpha House, that sucks!  Looking forward to House of Cards, Orange is the New Black, Frankie & Grace.  Yes, bring it on!

Happy almost weekend.  Time to go tune in to TGIT on ABC. 

Did you miss me?

In case you didn’t notice I was gone for a day.  I took a blogger break, if you will.  Work was a technology nightmare in the making yesterday.  We had our email issue first.  Now scans aren’t showing up and then our document management system hiccupped that just caused a frenzy of calls.  I was happy when my phone time ended.  If that wasn’t bad enough the guy next to me that has been sick for a couple weeks, well I think he has given it to me.  My sinuses started pouring and I have this tickle in my throat that causes me to cough and I generally feel run down.  I made it through the day yesterday.  I drank 40 ounces of water.  Had a couple cough drops and swallowed are you ready for this?  A Benadryl.  Yeah while I was at work.  I was so tired I fell asleep during lunch while I was watching TV on my phone. 

Once the work day was over with I went to get what was waiting for me at the post office.  A post card from my friend on vacation, a bill and a letter from my mother.  Yeah I didn’t need the last one.  However, I figured something would result from my blocking them.  The letter was enough to mess with my head.  It’s written in large letters and in some cases isn’t legible at all.  Like my brother she tries to use guilt to motivate me, telling me that I only visited her 1 time when she was in the hospital.  Yeah okay, if I was playing on her level I would retort and say well you abused me as a child.  That would surely bring the conversation to a screeching halt.  I did draft a response to her, I am professional and basically telling her that I have tried to work with my brother, who she wants me to contact.  He hears my advice but does nothing.  I am tired of wasting my breath and it’s totally unfair to her because she is caught in the middle.  I explain to her that her fears are not real and that it’s just like a kid who thinks there is a monster hiding under their bed.  The fear is real but the monster is not.  Once you realize that, everything changes.  I go on to explain how my brother has legal power and I do not.  I also explain that I have been through quite the ordeal with losing my spouse, trying to close out his life and stay afloat – during which process I lost my job and things were looking pretty down for a while.  I have survived and done a damn good job.  I had to fight for everything I have and there was no one who was helping me.  Did you catch the subtle bit of guilt I dropped?  I explain that I am not able to assist her due to my loss and still trying to recover from it.  When your closing out another persons life and you are fighting legal and financial battles, it doesn’t provide much time to grieve.  It is now that I am able to deal with all of that.  She told me that she understood he’s gone but she is my mother.  Yeah last time I checked spouse trumped mother.  Plus neither her or my brother have lost a spouse and until you go through that, you will never appreciate the amount of pain that I am in and the horrific loss that I feel.  Sure, we have all experienced loss but the loss of a spouse is far greater than what anyone can fathom.  Especially given the circumstances surrounding his death.  The momma drama has messed with my head but I am doing my best to work around it.  Just when I had recovered and felt comfortable with my decision, presto she reappears.  I do realize that some people might think that I am her son so I have an obligation.  However, with all of the crap I have been through with her in my lifetime I think my debt was paid a long time ago and the books are even.  My brother holds the legal power and it’s not my fault that he is a pansy and is thinking with his dick instead of his brain.  Maybe he will wake up, maybe he won’t – either way I honestly don’t care.  I am divorcing myself from the situation, because that is what I feel is right.  A polish proverb comes to mind …. Not my monkeys … Not my circus!

I say I drafted my response but I have not printed or mailed it.  It will require some fine editing and I will be working on that.  This little ordeal coupled with my sinus issues caused me to have a horrible nights sleep.  Consequently I stayed home today.  Took another Benadryl and went back to bed.  I did sleep away a good portion of the day.  I kept thinking how it would be good to get the vehicles serviced but then I thought I needed my rest.  There would be another day for that.  The children have been all over me, all day long and enjoyed the fact that I stayed home because that entitled them to lunch.  They were not shy about asking for it, either.

My goal is to relax for the rest of the afternoon and evening.  Then return to work tomorrow and finish out the week.  Hopefully I will find my chair waiting for me.  If not Thursday then it should be there by Friday is what we were told.  Here is hoping that I make it through the rest of the week and my body starts to feel better soon. 

In the land of dating, I have found a lot of guys on the app that I have messaged but no one messages me back.  A few really cute guys.  I really want to give up but I know that I won’t find anyone that way.  I need some good to come into my life and in an abundance! 

I hope that all is well in your world!

The Day Email Broke

Ever think that we rely too much on technology?  We use a 3rd party cloud based email system for spam protection.  All of our incoming and outgoing email routes through them.  Today they have a problem and it’s affecting all US based customers.  Email was dead for a while but now is flowing very slowly.  One of our high ups sent an email out saying that the problem was fixed.  I quickly did research and the internet said otherwise.  It wasn’t but an hour later and he had to eat his words.  It’s still broken and sounds like that will be the case for the majority of the day.  Just because email stops business doesn’t.  People need to communicate with their clients and exchange documents, setup meetings, etc.  I guess people are finding out what the telephone was invented for.  It won’t help you get your documents signed but you could fax them in and that would go over the phone line in most cases.

So this has been a very odd day.  I knew something was up when I couldn’t park on my usual level in the garage.  It’s just a strange day and I of course will be more thankful when it’s over with and I am at home with the furry children. 

Outside of that nothing new or exciting.  I did try to schedule some time off but the days I want I really need to be here to troubleshoot some AV issues.  Not looking to do anything fancy but relax and get away from work.  Plus get the truck looked at so I can start driving it a bit more.  As well to get my oil changed in the car.  I have plenty of time to get it done and will schedule something eventually.

Checked on the children and saw Mr. Bear moving about.  No doubt he had to go to the bathroom and his brother was laying in his bed, so I am not sure how it worked out but I will know a lot more when I get home.  Those two have been spending a little more time together, which is nice.  They get along much better than me and my brother ever did. 

Happy Monday!

Sunday no fun day

I woke up early and decided to go back to bed, at least for another hour.  I was up and out of bed by 8a.  The children were fed and I was dressed and out the door.  Breakfast as usual at my local Steak N Shake.  I vary my orders, today was a lunch order with Chili 5 Way, Frisco Melt w/fries, Diet Coke and since the chili was a little spicy, it’s an excuse to get a Small Birthday Cake Milkshake.  Very good and a cook that I have a crush on was working.  I just happened to notice today he is whiter than any white person I have ever seen.  I guess he gets no sun at all.  Still he has a nice body and that is what I am crushing over.

Headed out to the grocery store where I thought I wouldn’t even come close to spending the required $70 and I surpassed it and spent $80, that was with only a moderate effort on my part.  Not bad getting $20 worth of free food.  I have Girl Scout Thin Mint Ice Cream Sandwiches and thought they would be a nice treat.  They are just okay. 

I drove the car until it was down to the last 10 miles before empty.  Hit up the gas station and got a car wash.  They gave me a discount on gas and a discount on the car wash, so I don’t think it was a bad deal.  I just wish the car wash would actually get all of the crap off of your car that it’s supposed to.  I debated about the cheap wash or if I should pay extra and go to the place with the solar hot wax.  Turns out the solar hot wax would have been the better choice. 

Got home, groceries put away.  I figured I would leverage my time by using the energy that I had now before it left my body.  So I cleaned the house and got the trash out.  Then it was time to play with my finances and enter in all of the money I spent today.  Not a cheap Sunday by any means.  Surfed the internet.  I found myself last night and again today on YouTube watching High Speed Pursuits, there is a specific channel devoted to them.  Check it out, if you like that sort of thing you won’t be disappointed.  It has sucked me in like sex, food and rock n roll it’s just one of those things that I can’t get away from.  It’s best to put the video on full screen and then I find that I become immersed in it and it’s almost like I am driving the car.  While I would like the chance to drive a real police car I don’t know that will ever happen.  I can tell you that there is no way on earth that I would want to get into a car chase.  They always end in disaster, the bad guy wrecks and occasionally the good guys do as well.  However, I do understand the thrill of the hunt and the rush that you get from it. 

I took a nap with Insty laying at my feet.  I heard her purr motor on full blast and could feel it as well.  She worships me and honestly I am not worth it.  When I woke up it was time to tend to the laundry.  I played on the computer for a bit.  I figured out that Momma has been the one who is crapping in the basement.  I am quite surprised and mad about it.  She knows better.  I cleaned it up and just barked at her a little bit.  I think there is something medically going on with her, so she might get a trip to the vet out of this – not that I want that.  It’s just uncommon for her to go outside the box.  She seems to be trying to mimic LB.  She lays in spots he used to, one of which is on the coffee table and she would never lay there.  Also she holds one of her rear legs up in the air when she is laying down.  I have struggled to try to figure this out and the mimic behavior has been on going since at least July.

Got my face all shaved, trimmed some body hair as well.  Got a nice shower, feel pretty good.  Laundry is all put away.  Now I am just killing time before I go up and fix supper for all of us.  I am having a frozen California Pizza Kitchen pizza.  Sicilian I believe.  I will put on extra cheese because that makes it better.  Then it will be time to start prep for Monday.  Not looking forward to that, but it’s coming like it or not. 

No phone calls at all this weekend.  I got some sales call on Friday night but it went to voice mail.  Since then no one has bothered to ring me.  I have done my fair share of guy searching on the dating app. It’s not Grindr but I have never had a problem getting guys to respond to me.  Now I sent out messages and no one bothers to answer.  Kind of frustrating since they are all looking just like me.  I know we can all afford to be choosy but I have taken some chances.  You just never know what your Mr. Right is going to look like.  I am very limited now on who I have to chose from because most guys don’t want anyone over 40.  Where have all the guys gone?  This is kind of frustrating but I know with persistence I will get what I want.  Sort of like a certain cat begging for food, two hours before normal dinner time.  I wonder how they make it during the week when there isn’t anyone here to beg?

This should be my week.  New Chair is supposed to be in and I very much look forward to planting my big fat ass in it.  Autumn begins on Wednesday, the weather is supposed to be cooler this week.  Nothing like pushing back the moon roof, rolling down the windows and driving in crisp cool air.  This is the last full week before another pay day.  Outside of that I don’t know of anything else good that is supposed to happen to me this week.  I pray that it’s a calm quiet week filled with simple stuff and quick wins.  Then again I pray for that every week. 

I hope that you have had a very enjoyable weekend and that you took time to relax and unwind.  The week can be so stressful but it’s important to take time out for yourself – nap, sleep in, go out to breakfast do something for you or buy something for you.  Here’s to a great week ahead!

Lazy Saturday

When I came home I remembered that this was the weekend of our neighborhood yard sale.  People flock to that, so that gave me an extra incentive to stay home today.  I pretty well slept the day away until around 2p when I got out of bed and got dressed.  Then headed out to grab the mail and on to Red Lobster for a bite to eat.  Then here I am back home.

My credit card company worked out the bugs with putting a photo on a chipped card, so I have been searching all over the place for the photo I used of Big Boy on one of my cards and can’t find it.  I was able to upload a different photo but really would like to find the photo that I used before.  My pictures are a mess and I need to take time to sort them but it’s one of those things I say I will do when time permits.  Time is permitting now but I am blogging instead. 

The mail didn’t bring me anything good, unless you count a photo of the White House when they switched to rainbow lighting to celebrate Marriage Equality.  It was a mailer from the DNC trying to raise money for the next Democratic Presidential Candidate.   I don’t give money to politicians, they are getting my tax dollars and I feel that is enough.

It’s kind of a blah weekend here.  Wishing I had someone to spend time with.  In other news the Norton Shopping Guarantee that came with my blowjob robot looks like they will cover the cost of the robot since it does nothing for me.  Turns out they put you in touch with the Merchant and then if you can’t resolve the dispute they apparently pay up, but it looks to be a long process.  I filed a claim and am waiting to see how things turn out.  I did verify that I got full credit instead of 30% off for the additional sleeve that I purchased.  I kind of doubt that I will get my money back but it’s at least worth trying.  If the product worked like they claim and felt mind blowing good then I wouldn’t be making a complaint.

I started work on an update to My Book filling in the pieces of the puzzle and how things turned out.  I am taking my time in getting things together and will eventually have it back up on LULU for purchase.  I am proud of my accomplishments, including publishing a book (even if there were some typos). 

Going to head out to Target soon to pick up a few things and probably stop for cat food.  Then tomorrow it will be breakfast and grocery shopping.  I’ve got my $20 coupon and looking forward to using it.  I hope your having a great weekend and enjoying time away from work and the hustle and bustle of what is Monday thru Friday.  One more day!

TGIF again

I got a text message on the way to work, my friend is fine just not talking with anyone while on vacation.  Ok so I know that she is still alive that is good but all of the stress that she put me through, I could wring her neck. 

Despite my aggressive and very painful massage, I am able to walk today.  It’s actually sore around my waist in the rib area.  My body is pretty used to the massage thing, despite the pain.  Hopefully I am not sore all weekend long.

I got the replacement sleeve for the robot.  I took it for a spin last night.  I sense more feeling but it didn’t do the job.  I don’t know what all of the rave reviews are about, I think they paid people off.  So in my opinion I would skip the purchase if I had it to do over again.  Fortunately, they provided a shopping guarantee with the purchase, it’s through a third part.  I am going to file a claim to see if I can get my money back.  I don’t expect it to work but it’s at least worth trying. 

Very bad accident on the way home last night.  They shutdown the freeway – there were cop cars everywhere.  We were reduced to the far left shoulder and it was one car at a time.  I saw a mini van taxi cab facing the wrong way and it was beat to hell.  If anyone came out of that accident without serious injuries it is simply amazing. 

Got me kisses from Big Boy (Bear) last night.  He was crying out for attention and I went over to him to rub his belly.  He saw my leg and grabbed it with his front paws and locked on to it.  The he started licking it.  This happened two times.  So a bear hug and kisses.  He is such a sweet boy and he has really been put through the wringer.  I thought I heard some extra fluid this morning he was having a coughing attack, which is normal.  I will be keeping an extra eye on him.  He will get more attention over the weekend.  Marv slept with me and he is still chewing on my fingers.  I offer him the Banana and since that doesn’t taste like fingers he just looks at me funny and then tries to bite me.

I’ve really been doing more thinking about a new car but in my heart I know that the right move is to see what is wrong with the truck and how much it will cost to fix.  if it’s not terrible then fix it.  If it is then find someone who buys junk cars and call it a day.  Keep my car and keep on trying to save money.  Going from two vehicles down to 1 will be much less expensive due to maintenance as well as insurance, then there is the matter of license plates, etc.  That would really be a huge help.  I mean I am not struggling to make ends meet, I am well taken care of but there are other things that I need and I am always trying to find a way to save money where and when I can. 

Looking forward to grocery shopping this weekend, only because I get to save $20 provided that I buy at least $70 worth of food and that shouldn’t be a huge problem.  You can rack that up easy, especially in the meat department – which I rarely visit.  Most of my stuff is frozen, not healthy but easier to cook and tastes much better than if I made it. 

So there you have it, Friday in a nut shell.  Unsure of my plans for the weekend but I am leaning towards being lazy on Saturday, at least part of the day.  Thought about going to the buffet but I don’t feel it now, maybe that will change come tomorrow.  Otherwise, I will dine at some place local.  I really don’t want to be here at work now, very tired and looking forward to sleeping.  I will make it, this morning was really bad.  Now that I am off the phones I think I will be able to manage or so I hope. 

Have a great weekend and I am sure our paths will cross at some point over the weekend.  Be well!

Ouch that hurt

Today started off fairly well but then I had my massage and wow, I honestly don’t know if I will be able to walk tomorrow.  She went after my lower back and I have serious issues there, I should have stopped her but I breathed through the pain.  Massage doesn’t always feel good like one thinks it should.  Sometimes you have bad knots that need to be worked out, which was the case for me.  I just hope I am okay tomorrow. 

Last night I got word on my chair, it should be here by the end of next week.  There is a ship date of Monday for it.  I know for a fact it was custom made, but it’s just a matter of putting a piece of fabric on.  It’s not like they took a mold of my body and contoured the chair around that.  If they did then I would certainly understand why it took so long. 

I have a friend who is on vacation in FL.  There is proof that she made it there.  However, I haven’t heard from her in days, which is uncommon.  Every time I call no matter when I go straight to Voice Mail, which means the phone is turned off.  I reached out to her husband and he isn’t concerned, he told me she was probably on the beach and to leave a message.  Great, I think she was eaten by a shark or something serious has happened.  It’s a feeling that I can’t shake since this is abnormal behavior from her.  Text messages haven’t been returned either.  Normally if there isn’t time for talk she will at least be able to send me a message.  She isn’t scheduled to be back until late next week, so only time will tell.  Meanwhile I keep on calling and hoping for a ring instead of straight to voice mail.

I have confirmation that my new sleeve for the robot is waiting for pickup at the post office.  Unless something goes wrong tonight I will be giving it a run for it’s money to see if it performs better.  My hope is that it does, otherwise it’s a lot of money down the tubes for not. 

Nothing else really new at the moment.  Looking forward to out of here.  Lots of calls today due to an update that was pushed and forces multiple reboots.  Then the guy next to me is sick and I hope I don’t get his germs.  I usually get something with the change of seasons but thus far I have been okay, because the weather hasn’t been that bad.  However, I notice my allergies have picked up a little bit.

Tomorrows Friday, hopefully that means that it will be a guaranteed good day!