In the middle

Last night I spent some time and updated my dating profile, it’s much easier to compose something that will appeal to someone when your not doing it from a mobile device.  Typing is easier on a Desktop or Laptop.  I think I made myself more appealing but thus far no bites.  I did use some words from other profiles that I saw, that should be a given when your reading profiles.  Still the profile is unique in describing me and I think it does me justice.

Supper was Steak Fajita’s by Stouffers Fit Kitchen.  Pretty good for being frozen for 3 weeks.  Not sure what I am having tonight, it always is, has been and probably will be a question that causes too much pondering on my part.  It’s not like I have a buffet of food to chose from but still with limited choices you would think it would be easier but that is so not the case. 

I got to watch Tosh.O and it was pretty good.  I remember going to bed and Marvin was with me.  When I woke up Marvin was gone and I don’t remember letting him out.  Must have been a good night!  Kind of scary. 

I took a selfie of me in my new glasses and brought it to work and I have asked a few people to compare between the glasses I have on and the glasses that are in the selfie – which do they like better.  Everyone has picked what I have on and I was even told that I looked like Drew Carey in my old glasses.  I took that as an insult because he used to be quite overweight.  Why not just call me tubs and get it over with.  I am so glad that I haven’t worn the new glasses to work given the reaction I have gotten, all though I am glad people were able to be honest.  It helps me to know that the decision I made to keep them as a spare pair was the right thing to do. 

We had quite the morning.  One of the Windows Update patches that causes two reboots rolled out prematurely.  Me thinks someone didn’t know what they were doing.  Anyway the reboots happen automatically and there is no way to cancel out of them.  So many people called not happy that there machine spontaneously rebooted.  It was bad that it happened once but to happen twice oh that was bad.  The stop button got pressed pretty quickly but some damage was already done.  The update is scheduled to rollout tonight.  So if your machine isn’t in the office and is with you, guess what happens when you get back?  Your machine picks up the update and presto you get 2 reboots.  That will cause some people to scream. 

I checked on my chair and found out that yes it is being custom made.  However it should be here by now.  Our Office Mgr. is reaching out to the vendor and hopefully will have an update soon.  He told me that they got me a chair, I said yeah well it actually needs to get here in order to provide relief.  My back is really getting desperate.  Not to the point where I will buy my own but hey anything to try to speed up the process.  This guy won’t get aggressive with them, he’s a push over.  It would be much better if I made the call, then I have a feeling a chair would show up within a few days rather than months later.  I am being very patient but that is starting to wear off and if the damn thing isn’t here pretty soon I will go over the Office Manager’s head and that is when it will hit the fan. 

I took some time out last night to go car shopping via the internet.  Looks like I can get a decent deal, even paying full retail prices if I settle for a car and not an SUV I should be okay.  It’s tempting to drive down on Saturday and make this a reality.  It’s like I told momma last night as we were on Litter Box duty (I was emptying and she was filling).  I said well we do need a new roof so car or roof?  Both are equally important but I think this is a case of me wanting to have my cake and eat it too.  I know that affording both would put a serious crimp in my budget and we don’t want that.  I haven’t been too aggressive with the roof because well there isn’t a problem but I know one is pending.  It’s like walking a tight rope without a net – it’s a fine line and one bad move and it’s game over.  I will need to start getting bids and then probably apply for a loan to get it taken care of.  I really wish that we would have done the roof thing when the neighbors did, then this wouldn’t be an issue for me to deal with today.  I am not in a rush but certainly want to act before there is a problem. 

That is pretty well it for the moment.  We have a cute visitor that I have a mad crush on, he’s in from one of our other offices.  First time he has been here and I hope it is not the last.  I haven’t seen much of him and could stand to see more of him … just eye candy and a wondering mind. 

No staff meeting today which is good.  We got big news yesterday that we got more rights so we can do a task that is typically passed on, so it makes the callers happier because the task is done faster.  Nice!  Tomorrow is massage day for me, 1 full hour and I can already tell you I need each and every minute.  I am sure I am tight and it will be painful but let’s get it worked out.  Some lotion, some rocks and some muscle.  Then give me the rest of the afternoon off and I will be able to nap and keep that relaxed feeling.  Ah well a boy can dream, right? 

As always looking forward to Friday and being able to relax on Saturday.  Nothing planned thus far.  Thinking about getting away to the buffet, it’s been a while and I could use the time away to clear my head and get a chance of scenery.  Not to mention Bread Pudding.  It’s also time for another trip to Target.  Then mix in all of the usual weekend stuff and there you have it 2 days gone like that. 

Here’s hoping the week has been good to you and that the rest of the week will be even better.  Were all in this together.  Be well. 

Another day in my life

I spent a long time in traffic this morning.  All I wanted to do was get to work.  As soon as I arrived, I was ready to go back home.  Isn’t that terrible?  Traffic headaches are one thing we can all do without, but unfortunately that is one of the prices you pay when you work in the BIG city. 

I got all of the bills paid last night, Lawn Boy came early and I got my new glasses from Warby Parker.  So it was a decent night.  I like the new glasses but they will take some getting used to.  I got them as a spare pair so I will use them on the weekend and in the evening.  Something's are still better without glasses, like viewing my iPhone or watching TV.  

I’ve settled my battle with the robot people.  They are giving me a discount on a sleeve that should hopefully make the product enjoyable as it is advertised.  I am eager to try it out.  I went looking last night for whatever happened to Real Touch which is the other company that I bought from.  Turns out they are out of business, the cost for making the unit was too much so they just stopped.  They have a client available for download and some straight pron that you can save locally to get use of the product.  It wasn’t a cheap purchase and I wish they had some gay pron I mean not everyone likes vanilla.  The next step will be Virtual Reality Sex so you are immersed in the experience and if you can do that with pron I think that who ever manages to perfect that will make a lot of money.  Sex has always and will always sell, it’s not going out of business until the day the earth comes to an end. 

Speaking of sex, I spent the remainder of my evening on the new dating app I downloaded.  Lots of potential matches.  I have taken the first step and reached out to several guys but no responses yet.  I am getting what I call robot spam.  It looks like a person but it’s the same generic message and once you answer you get the same response back each and every time.  They tell you how great you look and how guys are lusting after you, then they want you to send them more explicit photos and they provide you a cell number to text them to.  Yeah why would I want to do that?  I will say that I am not alone, lots of guys want a relationship and aren’t there for hookups.  I am also out of the age range of a few guys but I still reached out to them, I mean you never know.  I’d like to strike up a meaningful conversation with a cutie and have it blossom from there.  I don’t know if that will ever happen, but I am at least trying!

Yesterday before I left I threw Mr. Banana in the chair next to my bed.  When I got home someone had taken it and placed it back in the bed, where it belonged.  So apparently it is getting use.  Marvin loves to chew at the tags that are attached.  He still goes after my fingers but not as much, we are starting to make a positive transition or so I feel.  I slept with Marv last night, he is such a snuggle monster.  It’s always been that way and I love it.  It’s nice to have something to look forward to and were both sleep hounds but he would win a contest hands down.  Sleeping is like his job. 

Looking forward to a full lunch hour and catching up on YouTube videos as well as maybe some TV.  Mostly just an hour away from work.  With this new schedule I tend to get a little more away time, the afternoons are usually long and boring.  So I have to occupy myself and try not to get into trouble.  It would just be easier to let me leave but as soon as they agreed to that something would go wrong when I was a mile away.  It’s just how it works.  Since I am sitting for the majority of the day, that new chair is very much welcome but who knows when it’s gong to get here.  I think they must have made it overseas and it’s stuck in customs, I mean a chair shouldn’t take this long.  I can go on Amazon and have one in two days I don’t get what gives. 

Sneaky story.  I got a letter addressed to my late partner.  I knew that it was advertisement about some service because his Bankruptcy case is done.  There was no return address but they did a lousy job of sealing the envelope so I opened it up, found the address of the sender.  Made a label and sealed the envelope properly.  Now I am sending it back to them telling them it was refused because he is deceased.  I really don’t like junk mail and don’t get a whole lot of it.  In fact the number of items that are addressed to him have decreased drastically over the past two years.  I imagine with time that it will come to a halt.  However, his mom has been dead for years and once and a while I still get a piece of mail for her. 

Another fun day here in my life.  Hope that you enjoyed my recap and that your week is moving along splendidly.  Temperatures here really cool off at night but it heats up back in the 80’s and 90’s during the day.  Just another sign that Fall is on the way!  Talk with you all again soon.

Therapy

My therapist setup a follow up call with me for lunch time today.  I made the call and told her about the issues with my mom but outside of that life is going okay.  We left things that I would reach out if I needed her.  It was just a reminder of how far I have come.  I remember walking in her door and the weight of the world was on my shoulders.  Now not to much.  The one thing that I can’t get back is my late partner.  However, I have pretty well come to terms with that.  I feel pretty good, just kind of want to hit the fast forward button on life a little bit.  I am interested in getting to another good part and skipping over the BS.

In other news I reached out to the robot people.  Their website says that if your nice and unhappy let them know and they will give you a discount code to use on a future purchase.  Apparently that is just fluff.  They won’t help me for shit.  They encouraged me to get a different sleeve and that should do the trick but they can’t say for sure.  I ask for a discount code and they said no way.  So I wrote them back and told them that I would have a charge back issued and explore my legal rights for false advertisement – I mean they claim they will give you a discount code if your unhappy.  Clearly I have expressed my displeasure but I guess I was too nice about it.  Given that it’s an adult item, I am guessing they don’t think I have the balls to follow through, but oh they don’t know me too well.  It will give the people at the credit card company something to laugh about.  I am waiting them out and not jumping to any conclusions.  The sleeve is around $30 which I would be willing to spend but if I can get it at a discount, why should I pay full price.  I am waiting them out to see if their position changes since I made my threats.  I was really hoping that they would make this process easy.  In another way it’s kind of my own fault for falling for the hype.

Moving on to the children.  Big Boy slept with me last night.  Marv ran off  I woke up in the middle of the night and momma snuck in my room, she is black and the lights were out so she didn’t exactly stand out.  I hit her as I climbed back into bed.  Then Marv wanted in  It was a huge mess but I had the three of them for a couple hours.  Then it was time to get up and face the world. 

Much colder this morning than it was this time last week.  Kind of nice but were getting closer to the mornings where turning on the heat will be required.  I was able to drive to work with the sunroof up.  Once I get into the city I open the hatch up.  When your on the freeway/interstate there is too much of a risk of getting unwanted company by flying objects, at least that is my fear.  The cold air feels good for now. 

Work is just a bag full of problems.  We changed our email domain, it was a rush decision with no forethought or testing put in and it’s caused all kinds of problems.  While the new domain is shorter I would have rather kept the old one in exchange for all of the problems it has brought with it.  Overall, I know most people will be happier, which I suppose is a good thing.  I am really hoping for some news on my chair.  The vendor is waiting to hear a ship date.  It’s like they are custom making this damn thing for me and that is so not the case.  I hope that it’s here before the end of the month, I am eager to sit my large body in it to see if it will give me any better support than the bucket I am sitting in now. 

There you have it your mundane Monday update. 

Candy Bar Discount

It’s Sunday and that means breakfast, which was good.  Grocery store which was a necessary evil.  I got my discount of $20 but had to buy 5 candy bars to send my purchase over the limit.  So Instead of paying $73 I paid $53 which was a good deal.  Then on to home to put everything away and back out for Cat Food.  I saw one of the straight cute guys running the cash register.  Of course that is the register I went to.  We made casual conversation, which was fun.  The pet store was out of Banana Toys.  I was looking forward to coming home with a couple of them.  Perhaps they will be back in stock next week.

My glasses from Warby Parker will be here on Tuesday.  Of course I just got an e-mail from them and the fall line up is out now.  Now I want another pair.  They offer an exchange program and/or they will give you a full refund within 30 days if your not happy.  Plus they will reimburse you up to $50 for adjustments that are made within 30 days or you can drop by one of their retail stores for free adjustments.  For me that would require boarding a plane and it’s not worth it. 

I have been thinking about my pleasure robot and how it was pretty expensive.  I am not in the habit of throwing my money away and decided to reach out to the company to see what can be done, if anything so that I can get better results from it.  The idea of setting up a machine for sex is a bit of a turn off but if it’s going to give me pleasure for sure, then I don’t mind the inconvenience.  I have other toys that require just as much effort, plus don’t forget about the clean up.  I am interested to see what they will have to say.  I know that returning it is not an option and I fully understood that going into the deal.  In reading the website I see that they are pretty strict, they will accept the item for return only if you didn’t open the original shipping container.  So there is a box (shipping container) the item ships in and then there is the item which is in shrink wrap.  I see their line of thinking that someone could have used it, then re-shrink wrapped it and viola return it because it looks new and unused.  Now how many people do you think would go through that trouble? 

Last Week Tonight with John Oliver is back on tonight and I am looking forward to seeing him again.  He is always funny.  I just hope that I make it through the entire thing awake.  I had a rough night last night.  I took a Benadryl and didn’t take my sleeping pills which would explain why I woke up at 4 AM.  I found myself in bed with 3 cats stacked in a row.  At the end of the bed was Marv, then Insty and Momma was up by me.  That little woman (momma) was chewing all over herself.  I felt sorry for her.  When I got home from my shopping trips, I cleaned out her ears.  Wow that wasn’t fun.  I thought about giving her a bath but knew that wouldn’t really resolve anything.  Now I am debating starting her on steroids or giving the antihistamines go again.  We’ve been to the vet way too many times and they can’t seem to do anything for her.  Steroids offer the best help but they also have side effects.  I really feel bad for her and don’t like to see her suffer.  Itching all the time isn’t the worst thing in the world but it sure does seem like it when it happens to me.  I wish that I could take that away from her so she could return to normal life.  Things do tend to settle down once winter comes. 

Speaking of winter, Fall is here.  I turned off the ac, rolled down the windows and opened the sun roof.  While the pollen will no doubt cause me problems the feeling of fresh cool air is nice.  I hope that this is a new trend.  Not too cold but not too warm either.  I know that jacket and coat weather is approaching but I am not ready to jump in with both feet.  Speaking of jumping in, I could sure use a good swim.  I love the water but haven’t been in since I traveled a couple years ago for business.  There is supposed to be a new health club opening in my area, if they have a pool and the dues are cheap enough I would join.  Who knows maybe I could lose some weight and become more attractive to guys and finally get a man. 

Laundry is finishing, then I get to go run the vacuum cleaner and take out the trash.  The children will be ever so pleased.  They all scatter like mice when the vacuum comes out.  Bear is lying in front of the windows right now getting his sun on.  He is on his back and managed to milk a belly rub out of me.  I warned them all that I would be back up in about an hour and we would be cleaning house.  I will start with the basement first and then move upstairs.  That will better prepare them for what is coming. 

There you have it, my Sunday in words.  I hope your weekend was great and that your doing well.  Tell me all about it in the comments.  I shall talk with you folks again soon.  Check out the music video below, it’s one of my many favorites!

This is Saturday

Slept in a little bit, fed the children and made an appointment for a hair cut.  Got dressed and headed out the door after taking my pills.  After the hair cut I hit up the post office and pharmacy for momma.  Then back home.  I said I would go back out later but that hasn’t happened and I don’t think it will. 

I spent the remainder of the day finishing up watching Hung and napping.  I ate here and there.  The girls loved to sleep with me.  I had momma at my feed and gator on my chest.  It sounds uncomfortable but it was oddly relaxing.  Hung was a good series and I enjoyed every episode, shame it’s not on anymore.

I joined back up on another dating app, I have a profile but haven’t paid any money or made any successful connections. I am skeptical given my past experience but hope that maybe this time around something will be different.  A friend of mine said stop looking so hard for love, it will find you.  That to me is like being unemployed and expecting your next job to knock on your door.  It won’t happen, you have to put in an effort in order to get results.  No effort = no results.  At least in the past I managed to go on a date with one guy and talk with another on the phone.  Neither was right for me but if it wasn’t for my effort I wouldn’t have had the chance for either. 

The mail brought me a junk flyer which I almost discarded.  Thankfully I didn’t and now I get $20 off of groceries for the next month, provided I spent at least $70.  That is not a bad deal – who can’t use free food.  I average around $100 so this will sure come in handy.  All of the bills are in and payday is next week.  Then all of the money will be gone but the bills will be to.  Until the next couple of weeks roll around and then we play the game all over again.

Nothing planned for tomorrow, just the usual of breakfast, grocery shopping and well cat food shopping.  Then it will be home for the rest of the day and time to prep for a five day work week.  Kind of lonely and boring here but I am making it.  I enjoyed being able to have the freedom to do nothing today and sleep the day away, it might not be physically healthy but mentally it’s really nice. 

Here’s hoping that you had a fun Saturday.  Now on into the night we move.  I’ve already started laundry and dishes will be next.  Yeah it’s a real party here.  Then it will be back to the TV to see what I can find to watch.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Friday

Wow it’s been a killer week and today was no exception.  As usual I didn’t want to roll out of bed, but I did.  I woke up a few times during the night.  Headed in and there is a local event in town so the normal way I go had all of the streets blocked off.  Thanks to Siri I found a new way to get to work, it’s quicker and easier.  It’s always good to have options.  Going home shouldn’t be a problem.

The BBQ for lunch was outstanding, it’s already talking back to me.  I found myself surrounded in a room by co-workers.  I noticed that everyone was having conversations, I was in a crowd of people and felt all alone.  I talked a little bit but not a whole lot.  Then after sitting for a while I got up and left.  That was a challenge in it’s self because there was cookies for desert and they were so good.  Now were all trying to work and fighting off the food coma.

I got an email from the boss that were going to have an emergency meeting in 5 minutes.  Holy crap that has never happened.  I figured it was something big… like a change in management, a serious problem.  Nope it was just advance notice that our email addresses are changing next week.  Wow, thanks for the heart attack. 

I remembered after lunch that I needed to go grab my medicine, so I made a mad dash to the pharmacy.  It’s cheaper to have medicine filled at work, because they give discounts that aren’t available to the public.  I got 100 Sudafed tablets for $29, which is a good deal.  It’s way cheaper than if I had it filled at a retail pharmacy, since it is not covered by insurance.  Nice to know where to get a break from. 

We have a new person starting on Monday and her last name has been quite the challenge for me.  I have had quite the time of trying to get her machine named correctly.  Finally I have it.  Her equipment is all setup, just waiting for her drive to finish encrypting and then I have to make sure it’s compliant – then I can finally get this thing off of my desk.  In the middle of setting up her office, I heard she won’t be here officially until Thursday.  That takes off some of the pressure but I like to have everything ready to go on the date of hire, just in case.  It’s been my practice since day 1 and I don’t want to stray from it now. 

As for the weekend, no special plans per say.  I need to pick up momma’s medicine and I may do that tonight or I may put it off until tomorrow.  There is the usual shopping and laundry to take care of.  I have thought about taking a trip but going full bore all week has really worn me out.  I may just stay home and take it easy.  Back to five days next week and that will suck but those are the breaks. 

I hope that you have a great weekend and accomplish what needs to be done as well as having some fun.  Cheers to the weekend!

Average

By the title you will see that today was an Average day.  Nothing bad happened, which is a very good thing.  Well I take that back, the cute guy at work left as today was his last day.  We didn’t get to meet up to say goodbye, I was away from my desk when he left.  I really hate to see him go but he’s got to take care of himself.  I hope that his new adventure turns out to be everything he wants in a job.  Happiness is important.

I went out to lunch with a co-worker and it was really good.  Plus it was nice to get away from the office.  Tomorrow lunch is being catered in so you know I will be there.  It’s going to be BBQ, I am picky about my BBQ but so long as they have a decent sauce I think we will be fine.  Looking forward to it already. 

I can’t seem to shake my brother and mother from my head.  I am constantly thinking about the situation and how this really all isn’t fair to my mom.  However, I put a stake in the ground and far be it for me to change my position.  If I do then it will only continue to consume me.  Still they are blood relatives but I would rather not associate with them.  I know that I can’t be the only person in the world who doesn’t want to talk with or see a part of his blood family.  I hope that I can move on and be at peace with my decision.  To me it feels like the right call, I just have to get used to it.  I still plan on sending my mom a birthday gift. 

So I am sitting here in my el homo typing away.  I need to go up and feed the children their evening snack, turn on some TV and try to relax before it’s time to call it a day.  I am very tired and that comes naturally after a day at the office.  It seems the older I get the less stamina I have, but I continue to amaze myself on being able to function on very little sleep for long periods of time.  It’s not on a regular basis but when I was younger, I wouldn’t even try or take the chance – you’d find me at home in bed if I missed so much as 15 minutes of sleep the night before.  Now that there is no comfort zone and I’ve grown up, I know that if I don’t go to work there is a price to pay.

I’ve started telling corny jokes around the office.  Now I have a guy who wants me to stop by everyday to tell him the joke of the day.  Yeah okay.  I have a lot of jokes, the problem is I can’t remember half of them.  Usually the dirtier they are the easier they are to remember.  Imagine that. 

Here’s hoping that today was an awesome day for you.  If it’s your birthday, Happy Birthday!  Now I am moving on with the evening before it hurries up and passes me by.  Take care and we will talk again soon. 

Another crazy day

So were almost at the end of what has been another crazy day.  I picked up a call and the guy was high profile and having a lot of issues.  He was using a MAC from home and I am not a MAC guy so I really couldn’t help him.  Thankfully, he will be calling back after I am gone.  I got to toss this one back to the guy I took it from.  Nice!

Then there is supposed to be a presentation tomorrow and everyone has been running around all day long trying to track information down for this event.  Thankfully that has all calmed down and we are all set. 

The cute guy that is leaving asked me for some help.  I just wanted to look at him and recite the words from a Charlie Puth song.  Those words would be “kiss me before I fucking loose my mind”.  However, I didn’t.  I have it bad for him but I know that I will get over him.  He’s on FB but sending him a friend request could lead to trouble and out me at work, which I don’t want. 

I am so glad that I will be able to go home soon, very much looking forward to that.  On the home front, everyone is doing well.  Big Boy was waiting for me in the kitchen last night and I got to give him a sponge bath again.  My back was bothering me and I didn’t want to stress it any more than I needed to  Perhaps that real bath will happen over the weekend.  I don’t have any plans thus far. 

BBQ last night was great.  Tonight is going to be some refrigerated pre packaged Italian dish.  Made by the same people that make the Mac & Cheese I like so I hope its just as good.  Saw Tosh.O last night and got a laugh in, which was awesome. 

That’s all I know.  Boring I know, but welcome to my life.  It’s not glitz and glamour.  Going out to lunch tomorrow and we are having catered lunch on Friday.  Always nice to have something to look forward to.  That’s all folks!  Talk with you again soon.

Coconut

Have you seen the commercial for the new Axe Dry Antiperspirant?  It goes on dry and it stays dry – no deodorant on your clothes because its clear.  I bought a can of Tropical and now I smell like Coconut.  It does its job pretty well.  Then again I haven’t exactly exerted myself today. 

Bear left a present in the middle of my room and it was in the middle of the night.  Good thing I put down a pad.  Easy clean up.  He however is a mess so he’s getting a real bath tonight.  His ears are warm which could mean he has a fever.  He ate breakfast though.  Normally he comes out of my room but he was there when I left, never moved a muscle.  I don’t take that as a good sign either.  However, I will just take it one day at a time and see where this goes.  Hopefully all is okay. 

Marvin loves his banana.  He found it long before it was bed time.  He was chewing on it.  Then his mother discovered it and she wanted to sleep with it  Looks like I need to go back and buy a few more.  At $7.50 each that will be the most I have ever paid for bananas, unless you count me ordering Bananas Foster.  

Work hasn’t been too bad thus far.  Were late in the afternoon and everyone seems to have settled in just fine.  I keep thinking about the cute guy leaving and how I only have a few more days to see him, kind of sad.  Looking forward to heading home tonight, seeing what is in the mail and having some BBQ Pork.  Not to mention feeding the muffins (aka children). 

I took my robot for another spin last night and I have concluded that it was a huge waste of money.  I may invest a little more in it and get a different sleeve, perhaps that will make a difference.  If not then I am done.  I will just put it in a pile and call it a day.  I’ve got a similar device from Real Touch.  That actually works, it feels fucking amazing.  I purchased it when they first came out and the design for hooking up the serial connector was flawed so it easily comes unplugged and that always happens at the wrong moments.  Plus you have to subscribe to their website.  The idea is that you watch videos that are encoded with haptic movements that are sent to the device and you have the time of your life.  The problem with the toys they cost money and require clean up.  It’s much easier to do the by hand method and the clean up is so much easier.  I suppose there will always be a gadget out there that promises you the world but doesn’t necessarily deliver.  The object of the game is to take your money. 

That is all of the pearls of wisdom I have for today.  Check back tomorrow, you just never know what I will post.  :) 

Labor Monday

While today was suppose to be a rest from labor, there was work to be done here at home so I labored.  I am watching a new series via Amazon Prime.  It was a show that apparently was on HBO sometime ago.  The series is called Hung.  It’s about a guy who is a school teacher/coach and he has a very large penis.  He was married and has 2 kids.  One a boy and the other a girl.  His house is damaged by a fire in the first episode.  He needs extra income because apparently there is/was no insurance on the house.  So he goes into being a male escort (whore).  He makes a woman friend of his that he has screwed a couple times his pimp and the fun begins from there.  I made it through season 1 already.  Just started Season 2.  There is a 3 and I think a 4 but not sure of it.  Anyway, it’s included with my Prime membership so no charge.  You don’t get to see any male parts, other than his butt the sex scenes make it look like he can really plow the woman and they enjoy it a lot.  Not exactly the series you would think a gay guy would be interested in but I am hooked.  There isn’t much else on and it beats trying to decide what movie I am going to watch. 

My friend that I spent time with on Saturday sent me home with some expensive cheese dip that she made.  Her husbands family found out that she can cook and she made this dip one time, now anytime she goes to a function where they are, they demand that she makes it.  They eat it on rye bread but she said that it would pair well with your favorite chip.  I picked up some Tostito's and had a little bit as a snack.  The stuff is awful and I have a nice size tub of the crap to eat.  There just is no flavor there, I can’t see why anyone would like it.  I may try it again but if it’s still horrible I will throw it out.  Yes I will tell her what I really think of it.  I know I could hurt her feelings but hey we don’t all like the same thing in this world.  Each of us has different taste. 

So on to my labor.  Laundry has been a big part of it.  I also had to hit up the pet food store.  I got a toy banana for Jumper (Marvin) so he will have something to chew on at night besides my fingers.  He loves to munch on them, he starts off light and then gets rough and that is when I start yelling and he gets his feelings hurt.  I wind up sleeping alone and he is hurt.  So I am hopeful that he will take to the banana as a substitute for my fingers.  I will enjoy it a lot more and then he can bite as hard as he wants.  Then I went on to Best Buy where I picked up a new cordless phone for my Magic Jack #, I had some issues with the charger and while I only wanted to replace the charger it was more cost effective to replace the whole damn thing.  Plus on the new phone I got I can actually hear much better.  I only use the Magic Jack for dating so it doesn’t get much use, but better to have it an be prepared than to scramble at the last minute when maybe Mr. Right is waiting.  I also got the privilege of seeing a nice bubble butt while I was waiting in the checkout line.  That was worth the cost of the phone.  Then I hit up the local Beauty Supply place for some Tea Tree Conditioner.  I’ve tried so many other things but this stuff works the best, so might as well use it.  Then it was on to Sam’s where I thought I could walk out the door cheap, it was under a hundred dollars but I still spent more than I wanted.  The upside is that I have 36 cans of Diet Pepsi and 24 cans of Diet Dr. Pepper and I got them on the cheap, which is a very good thing.  Dr. Pepper goes for $5 which you will be lucky to pay that for 12 cans in the grocery store.  Markups are a horrible thing.  Then it was home for the rest of the day. 

I had the children harping at me so I fed them lunch and an early supper.  I squeezed in a nap that I really didn’t need.  I got my jewelry all sparkly clean and I have a new water bottle.  I am almost ready for tomorrow.  It will be nice to be able to focus my mind on something else.  As you can well imagine I have been thinking all too much about my mother and the events of Friday.  Still it’s work so I am not that eager to go back.  I really hope that my chair comes in this week, it’s been forever since the order was placed.  The cute guy that I have a crush on will be leaving this week.  I hate to see him go, he’s a nice guy but he is also very nice to look at, even if he is married.  You have to take care of yourself in this world because no one else will do it for you.  There are a few other pieces of eye candy to look at but he was my favorite.

So I have to wrap up the laundry.  Go on litter box duty.  Wrangle the trash so that I can put it out when I come home tomorrow.  I will be thinking the entire day that today is Monday when it will actually be Tuesday.  Then somehow over the weekend my biological clock will reset and things will return to normal.  I am eager to see what the mail brings tomorrow, probably nothing but a bill.  I have an Amazon order placed for Big Boy to get his medicine but that will be a few days before it shows up.  Outside of that I am not expecting anything but my water bill.

I managed to find the videos that I thought I lost.  This whole iPhone photo/video thing has had me pretty upset.  There are memories there that can’t be recreated.  Like when Blu was playing with his mouse on the deck.  I am glad that I have those to look at and think about what life was it’s a nice distraction from what life is.  My next goal is to find me a man, I will be getting back out on the dating apps to give it another try.  I don’t think I will be parting with any money but I have said that before.  I also need to take a leap of faith and visit a gay bar.  That was actually in my plans for this weekend but it didn’t happen and that is okay.  They aren’t all going to close up shop overnight. 

I hope you had a great Monday – holiday or not.  Here’s to this week being fabulous!   

My Wits End

So things hit a boiling point with my mom.  I called to tell her that I couldn’t stay the night on Friday.  She was all chipper at the start of the call but once I dropped that news she was remarkably depressed, started crying and begging me to pick her up and take her to my house.  I kept telling her that I couldn’t.  She told me how scared she was.  I get it but it’s like a child and the boogey man, it’s perceived and not real.  We finally hung up and I went about my evening.  Things took a turn when she called back and left a voice mail that said she was on her way up to my place.  That’s when I reached out to my brother and we exchanged some heated words.  I told him that I can’t have her up here because she is a fall risk and that isn’t a liability that I could accept.  Plus she could hurt or kill one of my cats if she fell on them.  He went on to tell me how he was out of town and that I haven’t spent more than an hour with her.  I was nice but once he started in I let him have it.  I explained that he took on a responsibility and was given a job, it’s time that he get up off his ass and do his job.  As you can well imagine that didn’t go over well.  I’ve got no problem putting him in his place because after all he did request to be her guardian.  I ended my text message with, please get her some help this isn’t fair to her. 

Then I blocked receiving calls from them on my home phone.  I had to sign up for a service that will cost me $5 per month but it allows me to block them from calling or texting me.  When I say them, I mean my brother and mother.  It feels like I am turning my back on them, well because I am but at the same time they are both me oriented people.  If I took on the task of caring for her he would keep all of the authority and let me take care of her, until he saw something that bothered him, then we would get in to it again.  Not to mention they would suck me in to their insanity bubble and it would seriously impair my ability to think.  There is already proof of that, keep on reading.  So I am not estranged from both of them.  I won’t know what happens or how she is doing.  I hated to take such drastic action but I didn’t know of any other way out of this mess.  In my heart I know I did the right thing.  I followed up with the police department via letter and explained the situation to them and how they might want to have an officer reach out to my brother as he isn’t providing proper care for her.  What happens from there, well I will never know.

This occupied all of my Friday evening, so much for leaving early.  It feels like I was robbed of time, because I was. 

Saturday I met a friend for lunch.  I figured this would be a few hours and I would be done.  Nope, I spent all day with her.  I even went back to church.  It was odd being in the Catholic Church and a lot of the responses and phrases have changed but I did pretty good for being away for such a long time.  I didn’t take communion, it just didn’t feel right to me.  After mass we went out for supper.  I managed to leave my debit card at the restaurant.  Then I had to have desert so we headed to Culvers and I eventually headed home.  It was around 10p  I got in here at 11p and the children were pissed.

Sunday I went out for breakfast and when I went to pay I discovered that my debit card was missing.  I was mad.  So I paid my bill with a different debit card, called my friend who called the restaurant and then she went to get the card.  They actually gave it to her, which I was a little peeved about.  However I have it back.  I made the trip out and back – there went 2.5 hours of my life that I won’t ever get back.  It also threw a monkey wrench in my day.  I didn’t get everything accomplished, but I am working toward it. 

I turned on iCloud Photo Library on my iPhone, so that all of my photos are sent to the cloud.  In doing this it warned me that I would be deleting over 1,000 photos from my phone.  I agreed to it like a dumb ass.  Everything that I took with this phone is safe.  All of the backup photos that I loaded from my prior iPhone(s)  was deleted.  There was a picture of my late partner holding momma that I cherished more than anything.  I had to get that photo back.  Thankfully it was saved on my PC, I had to scrounge for a bit.  I have since uploaded some additional photos to the cloud so they are safe.

I feel like I am losing my mind because of the situation with my mom.  It’s not something that I can separate myself from emotionally.  I mean it will happen eventually.  However, little mistakes like leaving my debit card and erasing photos those are just a couple examples of how this has affected me.  I am also not sleeping very well, part of that is because I have cat company and part of it is because of the events of Friday.  I would love to know what happens but since I have elected to shut them out that is the price I have to pay.  I even took another step and blocked my brother and his girlfriend on Facebook.  I can tell you that if he doesn’t get her some help, she will wind up hurting herself or someone else.  That is exactly what I don’t want to happen.  I called to file an elder abuse report – neglect is considered to be abuse.  However the state didn’t want to hear it, they didn’t think my case was strong enough.  Seriously now if she did harm to herself or someone else I think that they would retract their position and suddenly be interested in why she went off the deep end.  If I knew who her doctor(s) were I would reach out to them and then maybe I could get her the help that she needs. 

I still plan on sending a birthday card and gift to my mom.  I thought about sending her a letter explaining why I took that action that I did but the words on the letter wouldn’t register with her.  She would just call bullshit on it and it would upset her even more.  My goal isn’t to upset anyone here but that has obviously happened.  So now it’s best that I leave well enough alone and just move forward with my life.  Both my brother & mother only care about what I can do for them and how I will benefit their needs.  Neither of them have lifted a finger to help me with the loss of my partner and neither of them so much as came to the hospital when he was dying.  We are related by blood but truth be told I have no family.  My family died when my partner passed.  We always told each other we are all we have for each other and it’s true.  Yes I have friends but they will only do so much and no one wants to help me to the level that I feel I need help.  So I have to stand on my own two feet and be a man, I have done it before and I can do it now.  It’s not easy but it’s a part of life.  If you haven’t figured it out by now my brother is too wrapped up in getting laid and he doesn’t want to stray from his piece of ass, so he has made a choice and surprisingly he chose a stranger instead of family.

Okay so a bit of good news I got my final letter from my late partners Bankruptcy Attorney telling me that the case was closed and that he would keep the paper records for 5 years and after that they would be destroyed.  So there is one person I will NEVER have to speak with again and that makes me so happy because I think he is a fucking asshole.  I am glad that we managed to make it through this to a successful conclusion.  I still have one more day off and there is more running I need to do.  Today I just ran out of steam with the unplanned travel in there.  My hope is to get the running I need to do done tomorrow and then take some much needed time to decompress and relax.  So that come Tuesday I am ready to hit the ground running again. 

I hope that your weekend was enjoyable and nothing remotely close to mine.  Take care and we will talk again soon. 

La Grand Update

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New Schedule

Like so many other people I am a creature of habit.  Adjusting to this new schedule at work is a little difficult.  The afternoon part is okay but staying on the phones for an extra hour is like murder.  I got involved in so many things at once.  It’s truly been a whirlwind day. 

Turns out that James Earl Jones is NOT dead.  He was the victim of a death scam.  Wow who would have thought technology would have evolved to this level.  I read it and took it for gospel, I guess I should have been skeptical when I didn’t hear anything about it in the media, just what I saw on FB. 

New kitty problem. One of the girls is going to the bathroom on the carpet in the basement.  I cleaned it up and put down a pee pad.  They went away from the pad.  Now I have two messes that I had to clean up.  Those children are a lot of work, like most kids. 

Ah so were officially in September.  I got to turn the page on every calendar and it’s always nice to see a new man of the month.  That is the only thing I look forward to when time passes so fast.  Tomorrow is my birthday.  I am not doing anything special just another day for me  I was supposed to go out today with co-workers for lunch but that got moved to Friday due to meetings.  So I will be a year older tomorrow.  Kind of wish I would have put in for time off, but what would I really do, just sit around the house.  We have Monday off so that will be nice.  I am anticipating a phone call inviting me to a BBQ but that may or may not happen.

No other news of excitement to report, just a busy day and a tired blogger.  Same Stuff Different Day.  Hope that your having a great Tuesday.