On guard

From the time I got back yesterday Mr. Bear has been crying for attention.  I give him food and some petting but that wasn’t enough for him.  No matter what I did it was more, more, please more.  I brushed him and then picked him up and put him in my room.  I picked a neutral spot so that he could make the choice to stay or go.  Turns out he slept with me all night long.  He hasn’t gone #2 that I am aware of since Friday/Saturday.  I realize that was a major event and he probably doesn’t want to encounter it again.  However, it’s a task that we all need to do.  I felt him this morning and his ears were warm, based on past performance this told me that he may have a fever.  However, he is still eating and drinking like nothing is wrong.  So I gave him a stool softener.  The last time I did this I was cleaning for quite sometime, so this time I only gave him half a dose.  It should kick in at some point today and I realize that I might be going home to clean up a mess.  I would rather clean up after him than let him go. 

Now reflection kicks in and maybe he knows he is sick so he wants his dad and to make the most of the time he has left.  I don’t know anything for certain other than he need to go to the bathroom or there will be problems.  I don’t have any issue with taking him to the vet but if he doesn’t go then there has to be a much bigger issue and it’s probably not something that I will be able to correct.  So my hope is that he goes and then I can relax a little bit.  I know that at some point I will have to let go.  With just loosing LB I am not ready for BB (Big Bear) to go.  I was thinking about that last night and Marvin would be the only male cat left in the house.  He loves his brother and they spent time together.  I really am not prepared to deal with any more death right now. 

Everyone seems to be watching for the Raccoons' but they have been absent for days now.  No sight or sound of them.  I think they may have all relocated, which is perfectly okay with me.  However, like the cats I would like to know that they are okay.  I realize that I might not get to know that. 
So the humidity is up and rain is in the forecast.  I got some on the way to work and my car got cleaned off, which was nice.  However, it took a little longer to get to work and the garage was packed, so I had to walk a little bit to get to the building.  I am just looking forward to leaving tonight.  Anxious to see what is in the mail, to eat good BBQ and of course to see Bear and his family. 

I saw a really great movie last night.  It cost $6 to rent on Uverse but was worth it.  It was called Before I Go and starred Seann William Scott.  He was a lonely guy who got dumped and his life amounted to pretty well nothing.  So he wanted to go back to all of the people who tormented him when he was younger and get even, then his plan was to commit suicide.  It was mildly serious but mostly funny.  He went to live with his Brother.  His Nephew came out to him but was still in the closet to the rest of the family.  The message that I got from the movie is don’t give up, we all need love and companionship.  Plus you mean more to someone than they outwardly show.  I don’t want to give away the outcome but it something that is well worth your time.  Running time is 1 hour and 30 minutes. 

What is a movie without interruption?  My mom called to let me know that my brother is backing out of buying the house.  So I guess her fears are quelled for now.  However, that wasn’t the only house for sale in the world, so chances are pretty good that he will be looking for another place again soon.  There is one constraint that it has to be in the same school district that her (my brothers girlfriend) kids are enrolled in.  So that kind of limits the search.  The whole thing is a giant mess and I am trying to stay out of it, things go much better that way.


Well time to wind down the afternoon.  Looking forward to getting out of here, shame that I have to come back tomorrow.  Maybe I should eat a double slice of pie tonight.  Talk again soon.