Jibber Jabber on Friday

  Charlie Puth

Morning and happy Friday.  I saw the photo above of Charlie Puth (American Pop Singer) on social media yesterday.  He’s wearing leather shorts, although the version above doesn’t depict that well, the photo on social media shows his legs.  I noticed that in his most recent album cover he was wearing leather pants.  I started off liking his voice but as the years have progressed I have developed quite the sexual attraction to him.  He’s straight but damn I’ll bet if he spent a night with me, I could probably flip him or at least get him to question his sexuality.  He’s so hot!  Yeah, I know your saying, dream on.  That I am dreaming and when he posts photos like this it doesn’t help.  There are a couple of him showing off his bare ass on line as well and those are really nice!  Nothing frontal though, at least that is real.  There are always plenty of fakes.  Charlie just makes my mouth water.  I still can’t tell though if the tattoo he showed off the other day is real or temporary, it didn’t look like wet fresh ink in the photo, so I am hopeful that it’s all part of a PR campaign to release his latest single that is due out later this month called Lipstick. 

Now back to reality.  I tried some new shampoo yesterday called Tingle by Beast.  It didn’t do a lot for me but I didn’t leave it on a super long time.  The tingle feeling is nice and I’ve gotten it from Paul Mitchell’s Tea Tree.  The trick is to just lather, lather, lather and then leave it on.  Graham Webb had something similar out called Ice Cap and it felt pretty nice as well, but I don’t think that is available anymore.  Nioxin’s conditioner for normal to thinning hair also produces that icy tingle – that is the most intense tingle I have ever felt.  There is a conditioner by American Crew that does a similar job of tingling.  I’ve been a Paul Mitchell fan for years.  I found that if you skip for a few months and use regular shampoo, when you switch back to Tea Tree the intense tingle happens quicker, at least for me.  There is a Tea Tree Bar Soap from Paul Mitchell that produces quite a tingle when you get into your nether regions, it’s nice and cool water pairs well to rinse it off.  Just saying in case that is of interest.  I’m not being paid here for my opinion, just putting it out there for what it’s worth. 

Had a nice Krispy Kreme Jelly Donut and a glass of milk last night for a snack.  I love a good Jelly Donut, don’t ruin it by putting icing on top like some bakery's do just serve it plain or with a light glaze.  I had this one cold but I like them warm as well.  Amazon has a bakery in NY that will send you 12 authentic NY Jelly Donuts for $32.  I’ve never had true NY bakery or a bagel but I hear the magic is all in the water.  I’ve got the donuts on my shopping list and I am going to buy them one day but probably once the weather turns.  Shipping food or candy in the summer just doesn’t appeal to me.  Years ago a co-worker send me a bunch of candy via FedEx in the middle of July and it all melted.  I had to put it in the fridge and it just wasn’t quite the same when I consumed it but it was good. 

The sunshine came out for a brief peek in the afternoon about an hour before sunset and it was gone before I really had time to appreciate it.  Rudy however took it all in.  Morea just wanted daddy time, she seems to not be able to get enough of that.  The more she craves the more I wonder if she doesn’t feel good.  I learned something yesterday from a YouTube video a cats tail has over 20 muscle that can be independently controlled by the animal.  I never knew that.  I also learned how to do the slow eye blink to communicate to your cat that you love them.  I did it to Morea yesterday and she returned it right back, which the video says means that they understand and they love you as well.  It was fun.  I kept trying to get her to do it again but once was all I got. 

Insomnia kicked in last night.  I turned on the TV and watched a video about the Penis with a urologist and his kids.  One of his kids was named Zach Spits.  That gave me quite the chuckle.  If I had that last name I’d change it to something else.  I’m not sure on the spelling but his dad wrote a book all about the penis.  I just watched it to kill time and learned a few things.  It primarily talked about size, increasing length and how there are so many gimmicks.  I didn’t know but apparently you measure your true size when your flaccid, at least that his how a Urologist measures it.  Kind of interesting, never would have thought that.  There is apparently a whole series from this guy but I just got a bunch of random videos in my feed now about the penis.  Just what I didn’t want.

Not much on tap for today.  1 stupid meeting in a few hours.  Then the rest of my day is wide open.  I did a little bit of work after lunch yesterday it got busy.  Then I got a lull.  Just before quitting time all hell broke loose and I jumped in and took the small nightmare the seemed to rise from no where.  After that I was able to get the trash out and walk away from work. 

I woke up this morning to another gloomy day and rain is in the forecast.  I went out while it was still dry and grabbed the empty trash can and lugged it back in.  I didn’t want to be doing that in the rain.  I am ready to sneak in a nap and just lounge for the rest of the day with the cats.  They were both worked up this morning wanting to play.  I got play bitten by both of them and they always want to gnaw on my fingers like they are teething.  Were still doing the cat nip thing before bed but it’s a smaller amount for each of them.  They still seem to enjoy it and they beg for it every single night. 

I’ve got no real plans for the weekend.  I’d like to get out and destroy this vine that is growing on the side of my house, I kind of hope that it’s dry so that I can tackle that.  Otherwise nothing special in the works.  Hoping to enjoy time away since I will be on-call next week.  I hope you have a great weekend and are able to relax.  Stay cool, hydrated and safe.  Take care!

Gloomy Thursday

  Alex Ink tops Oliver Marks – Randy Blue

Morning everyone!  I hope all is well.  It’s a gloomy overcast Thursday here but the temps are back to normal and the rain has stopped, at least for a bit.  My AC I think is enjoying the rest.  I have woken up in the middle of the night a couple times this week and it’s freezing cold in here.  It feels good but I just get under the covers and it’s back to sleep.  The house isn’t that cold during the day but it’s comfortable.  The lawn looks green again for the most part there are still sections that have fried in the sun that aren’t coming back until next year. 

I got to spend the afternoon upstairs and used my laptop for any issues that came up.  There were a few but mostly I was able to write.  Had a different lunch.  A soft warm pretzel, a little mustard and light salt.  Grabbed a soda to wash it down with and it was good.  That got my brain to thinking and I came up with an idea that I tried later in the evening.  I used the Super Pretzel that you get in the freezer section.  You have to get them wet so the salt will stick.  I did that but instead of coating it with salt, I used Cinnamon & Sugar.  Then microwaved it and it wasn’t the best but it wasn’t bad either.  I enjoyed it. 

I had some time on social media yesterday and that was enjoyable.  Spent time with Rudy & Mora.  They slept most of the time I was writing and working.  However, their bodies know when it’s time for food and they magically spring to life.  I thought for sure since I ate so little for lunch my sugar would have dropped but it didn’t.  I got up and fed them.  I had some Fettuccini which was pretty good.  Then back to the paper and pen. 

AT&T and Nexstar Media who owns a lot of local channels across the county and is the largest broadcaster have had their contract expire.  They are working on negotiating but from what I see on line this looks to be a fight that is going to go on for the long haul.  It’s speculated that it will be settled either at the start of Fall TV or shortly there after.  Each side is blaming the other and it’s kind of a huge mess.  For me this means I don’t get to see the local news when I want to.  I have to record from a different local channel and then watch it when I wake up to find out what was going on.  I don’t get breaking news or traffic in the morning and when I am going in to the office that kind of sucks but thankfully I use GPS so it’s all worked out so far.  It’s just a huge pain and I wish they would sign a new agreement.  I know I am going to pay for it in the end, the question is how much?  I looked at YouTube TV and that sounds really appealing especially with unlimited DVR space and the addons they offer.  I don’t see a contract is required but the price isn’t cheap, then again what TV provider do you know that is comparable to cable that offers reasonable prices after their promotional period ends?  This might just make me sound old but damn, I remember when TV used to be free, you didn’t have a gazillion channels to watch but you never had any outages, maybe a little snow but you adjust the rabbit ears and that went away.  My how times have changed.  I like the variety but not necessarily the cost. 

My plate is empty for the rest of the day.  I am going to try to repeat yesterday by working upstairs.  Starting with a little nap, then lunch and writing.  I keep looking at my work email and something else manages to keep coming in as I am composing this.  Might have to hang down here for a bit longer. 

Anyway, have a good day.  Stay cool & hydrated.  Be Safe and I will talk with you again.   

 

Mid-Week Man Candy

 

 

Evening Drama

  Nothing like a little drama to end the day.  I was sitting in the living room writing away.  I saw an Ambulance with it’s lights on head down the street.  That always makes me with I listened full time to the scanner to be in the know.  This is one call I for sure wanted to know about because about 30 minutes it got much more exciting.  4 Police Units paraded down the street, no lights but they weren’t driving slow.  About 10 minutes later 2 EMS SUV’s showed up.  I had the scanner on to know the additional EMS people were coming but had no idea what the nature of the call was or why the additional EMS was needed.  Then 10 minutes later the show was over and everyone left.  The call was a ways down the street out of my line of sight.  After everyone left I listened a little while longer nothing.  Then 5 minutes after this all ended both of those EMS SUV’s came back, no lights but it was as if they forgot something.  It was a quick in and out.  My neighborhood was about due for an EMS call.  We average at least 1 to 2 calls per year.  There have been years where it’s been heavier.  It’s nice to know what is going on around me.  I listen all day long when I work at home and am at the computer.  Once I leave I may turn the scanner upstairs on and listen for a bit while I eat but more often than not I just walk away.  I’ve got company upstairs in the way of the cats to keep me company.  That’s kind of what the scanner does for me when I am in the basement. 

I was able to finish out my day as I had planned yesterday, upstairs.  The cats were a bit of a challenge but they mostly didn’t bother me until I put the computer away and started writing.  That is when they seem to need and want their attention.  How convenient.  We have all damn day long and they pick the one time when I want to zone out and go to a fantasy world to just forget about reality for a while.

I felt guilty not giving them much attention.  Morea as you might guess by her name is quite the attention hog.  She can’t get enough.  If she isn’t feeling well she has to have even more.  I still don’t know her well enough to pick up on when she isn’t feeling well but yesterday was one of those times.  She threw up twice.  I paid attention to her then.  She was fine after that.  She wanted to play and she knew cat nip time was around the corner.  That’s when her and Rudy start getting excited and dancing around here.  There is for sure pep in their step.  I wrapped things up and started to wind down.  I went to brush my teeth and that’s when they know it’s coming.  As soon as I am done cat nip time  I passed out a very small amount.  The night prior I put out a little too much.  They just eat it up like it’s candy.  Then they sit there dazed for a bit.  Then they want to play a little bit.  They keep themselves occupied while I have a chance to not only finish up with my teeth but watch some porn.  When they wind down they wander in and we just wait for my sleeping medicine to kick in.  Morea is usually at the end of the bed, sleeping.  Rudy is at my feet in between my legs resting.  I watch TV and it doesn’t seem to bother them at all.  30 minutes to 2 hours later and I am ready for bed.  Rudy gets on the floor and waits until I am in bed.  Then he joins us and that’s usually when they start fighting.  Morea moves to the pillow on the cedar chest and Rudy takes the bed.  Sometimes they both wind up leaving. 

My good deed to reward them one night with a little cat nip has turned out to bite me in the ass and it’s now a habit they expect each and every night.  I have only skipped once, they weren’t happy about it but I want to have more skip nights so they don’t become expectant that this will be an every night thing.  A little cat nip now and then is fine but it’s not something that I really want to give them everyday.  I also dislike the fact that when I go to buy it they market it like its weed for cats.  I’ve heard that for years and that alone is enough to make me not want to buy it.  Weed and catnip are two different things.  I just have a real hang up about illegal (I know weed is legal in some places) drugs.

A wet and much cooler morning here.  We have rain pretty much hanging around all day long and I hate the gloomy days.  I also hear the Cicada’s at night and I know winter is around the corner.  The news mentioned that by the end of August the sunsets will all start to happen by 7:30p.  Now it stays light until 8 to 8:30p.  I like days filled with light.  However, that’s the beauty of living in a place where you get to see all 4 seasons no matter how brief or long they might be.  Winter and Summer are very easy to distinguish.  Spring and Fall they seem to last a very short time and then it’s either full on Summer or Full on Winter.  It’s been getting worse like that for the past 10 or so years.  I remember growing up I got the true experience of all 4 seasons.  It was really great. 

With the weather being gloomy I am really not much in a working mood today.  I just want to be lazy, go back to bed and call the day done.  I could use this time to my advantage to get started on my dreaded report at work but that’s never a fun task.  Plus I don’t have all of the pieces I need yet to complete it, still waiting for some data to come my way.  I like to assemble it and then publish to get it off my plate.  However, I’m in no hurry and if I can get away with being lazy today then I’m going to.  One meeting today that is all that is on the books, just before lunch.  Then I am home free.  The rest of the week looks very similar today.  It’s one of those times where you might as well enjoy the lull while it lasts.  I will be on-call again next week and not looking forward to that.  It’s nice to be able to see something come in and know that you don’t have to worry about it, the on-call person will take care of it.  That is until you are the on-call person!  There is also another project looming and pretty soon I will be super busy.  Then a couple months of a lull and some average work days.  Then the end of the year and bam I’m busy again. 

Here’s hoping that the sun is shining in your neck of the woods but that it’s not dreadfully hot.  Stay hydrated, cool and I will talk with you all again soon.  Be well. 

Cat Head Wash

Morning!  It’s been a hell of a morning.  I’ve been going since a little after 7:30a and had a break about 15 minutes ago, it was fast, I had to come back to get into a meeting.  Has 2 Little Debbie Turtle Brownies and a soda as a pick me up.  Damn those things are really good, if you see them in the store and like Carmel, Brownies & Nuts grab them and enjoy!

I did sit on the couch for a couple minutes and Rudy sensed I was stressed or something like that.  He came over and climbed on top of the couch and then started to wash my hair with his tongue.  It felt so good all of those little barbs on his tongue were out and raking across my scalp.  He wasn’t as vigorous as Momma used to be but damn I haven’t had that done in forever.  It gives me goose bumps and feels really good.  I just had a shower last night and there’s nothing on my scalp or in what little hair I decided to keep.  Otherwise I would have stopped him. 

Amazon dropped the ball on part of my order and said it was running late and it would be here today.  I am still waiting and expect that this afternoon it will appear.  They also decided to send me an additional order of dental floss from my subscribe & save list.  I got some last week and they are sending more today.  It takes 4 months to go through the spool so I’ll be good for a while. 

The best news is that the 3 pack of Zebra Green Disposable Fountain Pens all write, I was surprised.  Apparently something about ordering the sample pack of multiple colors is the issue.  Both greens for me didn’t work.  I used one of them last night, turns out it wasn’t bright enough green for me, but the ink won’t go to waste.  I just might not use it as fast. 

For kicks yesterday after lunch I went and reset the GFCI in my bathroom, the replacement outlet arrived with my Amazon delivery.  The original outlet is still going strong and the GFCI has yet to trip.  Very strange to me.  I know those things are a pain.  The one in the garage I had to replace because all of the power was cut off and the old GFCI outlet was shot to the point where it wouldn’t take a reset.  I hope the original outlet holds.  Kind of made me wonder if I got a mouse that got zapped but I have been mouse free for a long time.  Made me think back to the days of when the lights in the dining room would randomly turn on and off, they are on a touch dimmer switch.  I’ll bet there were some mice cooked over that one.  I’m just lucky those little bastards didn’t start a fire.  I still wonder on occasion if there is any damage that they did that will come back to haunt me later but I suppose time will tell. 

I didn’t get a whole lot of time to write yesterday, what time I had went by really fast.  I gave the cats some attention and skimmed social media then got my shower.  Speaking of social media, I saw a couple photos from Charlie Puth, looks like he got a tattoo on his neck.  Looks like a bunch of small birds.  I pray it’s just a PR stunt and not true.  However, it’s his body.  My brain wanted to keep going but my body said no way.  Started watching something on YouTube and climbed in bed.  Before long I turned it off and called it a night.  Slept pretty good, some crazy dream.  Rudy got on top of me for a few hours and slept.  I’d wake up and turn, I make sure that he turns with me and readjusts.  It’s kind of interesting but also a bit of a pain.  Turns out he wanted to sleep in this morning and for a change I woke him up.  That’s a change. 

Time to grab some lunch.  I’ve got a meeting after that and then the rest of the day is wide open.  I plan to spend the remainder of the day upstairs and work on my writing, while keeping an eye out for any work that may need attention.  I like to coast when I can, no one knows and it can be peaceful but more often than not work interrupts and I have to readjust.  Might try to squeeze in a nap but that sugar from the brownies and the caffeine from the soda have kicked in. 

Hope you have a great day.  I’ll talk with you all again soon. 

Munday Again

Another Monday and tomorrow is the start of August.  This year is gaining some traction as we enter into the 8th month.  Only 4 more to go before the year is done.  Seems like just yesterday it was February.  Time really does go faster the older you get. 

I’ve been waiting all weekend for a response to the note I sent on Saturday to find out if I should be making a call for a service person to repair the broken item.  If so I’d like to coordinate it with my trip on Tuesday or delay it for another day this week so I only wind up making one trip to the office.  Turns out the person I sent the email to is out today and won’t be back until tomorrow.  I know for a fact they saw my message.  Now I am on the fence about tomorrow if I should just stay home or plan on going in.  I like the idea of getting an extra hour of sleep and honestly Wednesday would be a better day for me to go in, so I think I might have just solved my own problem.  Thanks!

After getting out in the rain over the weekend, I expected my vehicle to be dirty and need a wash again.  Turns out it looks like nothing ever happened to it.  That’s the ceramic glaze and the $23 car wash I paid for.  It keeps the vehicle looking fresher longer.  I will go back but I don’t know that it will be that often.  $23 is a bunch of money to spend.  They have a car wash club and it’s a little cheaper.  You can get a wash as many times as you want in a month but honestly.  They pack them in and Sunday morning at 7:30a there isn’t anyone there.  It’s the perfect time for a wash. 

The grass guys got the jump on things and showed up at 7a just after I rolled out of bed.  That’s too early to start being noisy.  I’m sure the neighbors really appreciated that.  I’ve got no control over when they show up and this is the first time they have been that early in a very long time.  I see they added a 3rd person to the crew.  Not one of the guys is appealing to me and that’s just as well. 

I did a bunch of Amazon shopping yesterday morning.  It was early enough in the day that I got some of my order delivered yesterday.  The rest of it is coming today.  Never fails after I order something I always either forget something or have a need for something new.  Keeping in that fashion, my GFCI outlet in my bathroom went out yesterday.  I would turn it back on and it would trip.  I gave it time to cool off but still no luck, it still tripped.  Damn things are great but when they go south they turn into quite the pain.  I ordered two so I have a spare.  I swapped out one in the garage last year.  It’s not that hard but it’s not something I look forward to doing. 

Part of my order yesterday was more of those disposable Zebra Fountain Pens.  I wanted to write in green ink so bad.  Turns out every pen works fine but the damn green one.  I tried and tried but I can’t make it write at all.  I ordered 3 green ones to be delivered today, I hope at least 1 of them works.  It’s odd that every other pen works but not green.  It’s the principal of the matter. 

Yes, I am still writing and it’s still fun.  I have taken a few breaks but last night I couldn’t go to bed until I finished the story I was writing.  I have no earthly idea when I will ever have enough time to type them all up.  I might just try scanning software that can help me out to make the job easier.  I enjoy typing but writing by hand seems to allow me to put more thought in and it just feels better.  Not to mention my penman ship keeps improving as I continue to move forward.  It’s all fantasy.  The guys that I really have it bad for I manage to write more about.  There are some truths in every single story but the bulk of them are made up and things that I have kept bottled inside for years. 

I’ve got another great sandwich for the day I go into the office, if I can hold out that long.  The rest of the week will be sandwiches I make myself, unless I decide to eat something else.  I can’t skip lunch or my sugar will drop.  I have been not eating sweets at night and just jumping into writing.  I’ve got a freezer full of Bomb Pops in different variety's that I need to get busy on.  Nothing like thinking about a hot dude and eating a popsicle.  LOL 

Tomorrow is going to be a hellish day for me since it’s the 1st of the month.  There is more work always lurking and waiting for me.  I never ever look forward to the majority of it.  Regardless of difficulty but I do loath the more complex tasks.  I’d rather do quick and easy all day long than complex any day of the week.  I’d be a much happier person, no doubt. 

Take care, stay hydrated and cool.  This whole heat wave will blow over eventually.  Until then AC and H2O are my best friends.  Back to the fun!

Eventful Saturday

Howdy, I hope all is well and that your staying, cool, hydrated and are safe.  I rolled out of bed this morning at 5a.  Had breakfast, fed the cats, got showered and dressed.  Then drove to work.  I replaced the part that I needed to, but that didn’t fix the problem.  I tried a few more things which took up hours.  Finally I realized we need to call a tech, I’ve done all I can do and it’s not working.  I dropped that news via email to a Manager and am waiting to hear back.  The last thing I wanted to do was drive to work on a Saturday but I don’t like to work with an audience around.  The lobby of the building felt really cool and nice.  I walked over to the thermostat and it was set on 73.  Damn that’s really nice.  I was back home by 10a. 

I grabbed a donut, had a soda and took a short nap.  The cats were all over me.  Got my haircut shorter and it’s going to itch growing back but it will take a bit longer to grow back so that’s the nice part.  Came back home because my sugar was dropping.  I ate a sleeve of Oreo’s and had another soda.  That helped. 

I managed to crank out two stories today and it’s almost 9p.  I want to start on another.  My purple disposable fountain pen went dry on me.  I grabbed a comfy rollerball and damn if that didn’t go dry on me as well. 

We had some wicked storms here, thankfully no damage that I know of.  The house smells funny again.  I’ve noticed the odor was faint over the last few days but it seems stronger since the rain moved in.  I went to a few spots in the house, everything upstairs is dry.  I am eager to get to the basement tomorrow and check to see if I can feel anything wet in the ceiling.  I hope to not find a problem but the gutters need to be cleaned again. 

Once the storm passed, it was still raining and I went out to grab cat food, the mail and a bite to eat.  I stayed local as much as I didn’t want to.  I didn’t want to leave the cats alone in a storm.  They appreciated that I was home.  Both of them were all over me.  I’ve passed out my fair share of attention.  They are both fast asleep right now but I expect they will be waking up soon as were nearing our normal nighttime routine. 

Last night I started and finished a story.  I am not terribly happy about the way it turned out so I will probably do a rewrite or maybe just serious editing when I type it up.  I watched some porn, and this morning I remember what happened last night. 

I was a little upset this morning when I got the Apple update for Twitter.  It’s now a Black X and the name has changed to X.  I heard Apple had some app store problems because they require a minimum number of characters for their apps.  However, I didn’t encounter any problems.  I’ve opened the app.  That’s where I get a lot of porn news and see some hot videos and photos.  Just saying, if your into gay porn that’s a great resource.  Most of the porn stars have accounts and they post clips to promote their OF accounts. 

While I was at it I made my rounds on social media and am all caught up.  Turns out even thought I skipped most of the week, I didn’t miss much of anything.  Kind of funny how that worked out. 

Yesterday I pulled the trigger and put in for a full week of vacation, I am waiting for approval but I don’t expect any problems.  I haven’t made any plans yet.  Once I get the green light I am going to call to check into dumpster rentals, see what exactly you can throw in and the cost, how long I can have it, how many times they will empty, etc.  If the stars align I plan to do some serious house cleaning.  Kind of chip away at it each day.  It won’t be that much fun but if it happens I imagine a lot of things that I have wondered where they went I will find.  I fully expect to find some dead mice and/or nesting material, the exterminator already told me that months ago.  If this happens then I expect to be better suited to move if I so desire.  I am conflicted about keeping this place but it’s a lot of house for one person and the maintenance it needs along with repairs, I know I will sell it at a loss but I expect for an even break if I would sell, maybe walk away with a little bit.  A friend encouraged me to fix the place up and then sell, I’d get maximum value, I could list it instead of taking a low ball offer from a company that flips houses.  The difference is that I could walk away with probably 200k versus breaking even.  The place is worth about 300k and I think that is crazy.  Nothing in this neighborhood is really worth that amount of money but it’s what the market value is right now. 

I expect that I will probably just sit on my lazy fat ass during my time off.  Eat out, get work on the car done.  I am considering buying a new one.  Just paying the rest of the loan off early and then jumping right back into debt.  I think that the payment will be less because of the equity I have in my present vehicle, my credit score is better now than when I bought my current vehicle and I am certain I would qualify for top of the line lowest interest rate.  However, I think about how uncertain the future is and the fact that what I am driving now still has very low miles and is in really good shape.  I should just hold off longer.  I think that is the way I can get maximum value out of the investment.  Sure I’d get less in trade in when I when I got to that point but think of all of the cash I would be able to horde and tuck away, that will all earn interest and I would be in even better shape.  Then again I think hell you could drop dead tomorrow why not live life in the fast lane and hope that you don’t crash.  My worry is either my job would go south, the house would fall apart, the cats would get sick or I would get sick.  All of those things are possible, not that anyone of them is going to happen but I really do a great job of looking at the dark side of things just before I am considering making another financial commitment. 

Kind of in a talkative mood tonight.  Don’t really want to go to bed and I sure don’t want to get up early tomorrow to get breakfast before the crowd hits.  I’ve got laundry to take care of , house cleaning as well and the dreaded trip to the grocery store.  I am doing the dishes tonight before bed, as usual.  I just want to keep going.  That nap I had kind of gave me an extra boost.  I might skip breakfast out, get out in the afternoon.  It all depends on what time I wake up and how I feel.  It’s going to be another hot damn day and there are more storms on the way.  The majority of my lawn is dead but I’ve seen it bounce back with a good soaking.  The grass guys still come cut it all dead or alive until they either hit their end of season period of I think it’s time to stop.  We still have several months to go but it will be here before you know it. 

Enough babbling, you take care I’ll talk with you again soon. 

 

Amnesia

Happy Friday. It’s going to be a hectic day for me and it’s going to be a late day. I am not looking forward to it. I’m also going to the office tomorrow, at least that is the plan right now. Parts came in and I have a repair to make. I’d rather work without an audience; things tend to go much better for me. Not sure if I will get up early and go in or do it later in the day. I’ve got a haircut in the afternoon and I’m for sure not missing that. My hair is getting bushy. It’s still short but it needs to see some clippers really soon.

I had my talk with the boss yesterday. He didn’t mention my little mess up and I didn’t bother to bring it up. He said that he’s noticed a positive change in me and he appreciates it. Yeah, whatever I’ve got him bamboozled. Ever since my little mistake I have been a bit more attentive and selective in my words. I’m still pissed about my performance score and shitty pay raise. I am not hanging on to that because it’s only going to pull me down. However, I am not forgetting it either. The change he sees is probably the same thing you see in my posts. I am a bit more alive and upbeat. That’s due to writing, I feel like a different person.

Speaking of which I began to type the forty-page story out. I am presently on page 31. I also wrote a fresh story last night that is only like 13 pages. I brought it to an end in time so that I could carry out my normal evening before bed tasks. I managed to some how forget to take my pills, I was too focused on dick and writing. It consumes me so much and I don’t want any distractions. The phone goes on DND and I just go to a happy place. I do make time for the cats but I’ve kind of neglected them a bit.

Mora has only grown closer to me. She needs to be brushed again and I plan to tackle that tonight. She got a trip to the basement yesterday and she was on cloud 9. She did some exploring but she followed me around for the most part. Then I had to pick her up to get her upstairs.

I was in the bathroom and taking care of paperwork, if you get my drift. I got dizzy and fell towards a wall. I didn’t know what in the world was happening. I paused for a minute, got a little scared but went back to finishing up the paperwork. Everything was fine after that. I had dinner and like I said wrote a story.

Bedtime came, I felt pretty good. I was looking forward to watching porn and taking care of business, I’ve not had the stamina or energy all week long. I was very eager to get that taken care of. I remember I watched Eric Rey & Travis Stevens scene. I wanted to see the ending so I skipped forward. After that I don’t remember a thing. Try as I might the rest of the evening is a complete blank. I don’t even remember getting in bed. It’s scary but I think I am just a bit too absorb and addicted to writing and my brain is working on overload. Things might be starting to short circuit. I am going to try to pace myself and get to doing other things. Although, I have already started dreaming up a couple stories to write.  I wonder if this is what it’s liked to take a ruffie?  It’s just so strange that I can’t recall a thing despite trying.  

I am going to try to finish typing the 40-page story, then take a break and head up to be with the cats. Relax a bit. The hell at work doesn’t start until later in the day so resting up and taking a break is probably a smart approach. As per usual I have knocked out my morning tasks.

Here’s hoping for a relaxing but productive and enjoyable weekend. I will be staying hydrated and cool. The baking of summer is still continuing. We have Heat Warnings and Advisories out for my neck of the woods. Still, it’s nothing compared to Arizona and I am so glad I don’t live there. Even the cactuses are dying, I saw a story on the morning news.

Take care and be well. Talk with you all again soon.

The record so far.

Last night I brought a close to a story that was a whopping 40 handwritten pages long. I took forever telling it to help draw it out and add character to it. There was drama and sex. I don’t know what it’s going to translate to typewritten and I tend to make some minor changes when I type it out. Having the computer read it back to me is hot. The entire story was a huge turn on for me and it’s about a guy that I have a massive crush on. It’s all just my version of a dream but it’s a hot dream. It’s so hot that I wore myself out writing it. I was exhausted when I got in front of the TV. I started watching porn and fell asleep.

I had mixed feelings about falling asleep. It’s good that I can turn my brain off, but I had other plans that I really wanted to accomplish. I got another good night’s sleep. More bad dreams but this was about work and it was strange. It’s like I was trapped in the Matrix and couldn’t get out.

Rudy and Mora were so good yesterday. I gave them each some attention. Mora being Mora wanted more than what I offered. I got her to settle down and I passed out some cat nip as a reward before I went to bed.

In usual form Rudy had me up early. I couldn’t go back to sleep but I tried. He came and laid on top of my chest. He looked so cute once he settled down and lowered his head. He was sleeping. After 30 minutes of trying to go back to sleep myself I gave up. My brain was on. Now I am fumbling on who to write about next. I’ve got a list but just having a hard time picking from the list. I kind of want to start on typing up what I finished last night. Ah paralyzed by choice the story of my life. I’ll figure it out.

Today is my last day of free time. Tomorrow is going to be a full work day, a busy day at that and one that I do not look forward to at all. Today I celebrate my work anniversary, 9 long years at the same place. I made it. I’m quite proud, my longest record is 5 years at one place. I’m shooting to make 10 here. Not sure if that will happen but it probably will. I’ve got my first meeting with my boss since my little fuck up on the call last week. I hope he didn’t hear me and doesn’t bring that up. I’m nervous but going to play it cool. If it comes up then I will worry about it. Otherwise, I am going to let it go. I did some looking last night and thinking of taking a week after my birthday. I won’t want to come back I know but the boss is after me to use my time. I will still have 4 days that I need to use before the years is up. 2 of those could be for my next, next Dr. appointment in November. I always want to take time in the winter as well. I try to roll over 2 weeks if I can because you never know what the future holds. I am sure that if I have my way, I will wind up just under 80 hours of carry over but only time will tell.

I dread going outside today, it’s really hot. I just need to push the trash bin out to the curb. That is an afternoon task for sure. Hoping that I won’t be so incredibly tired tonight when it’s time for bed. I’d like to enjoy some porn and then I’m happy to fall asleep. Since I am not looking forward to tomorrow my insomnia might act up, depending on how I feel I may or may not take some extra medicine to help ensure a good night’s sleep.

Peeking out the window I’ve got a vine that is trying to take over the side of my house and deck. I will need to tame that this weekend. The neighbor has weeds in his back yard and lots of grass that should be mowed. I’d love to see him shirtless pushing that mower, sweating up a storm and showing me his body. I don’t think that will happen but hey a guy can dream, there’s no charge for that.

Here’s hoping that the rest of the day is great and doesn’t go by terribly fast but fast enough. I am not as thirsty today and my sugar was for sure elevated yesterday. Pizza is gone. Not sure what is for dinner tonight. I also polished off that sandwich, the secret ingredient I found was pimento spread, aw that worked so well on the sandwich and paired well with the bread and roast beef. I will be looking for another one of those on Sunday when I am back to do grocery shopping. Right now, a nap sounds really tempting.

Stay cool, hydrated and don’t do anything that I wouldn’t do. Talk with you all again soon.

Today’s model’s Eric Rey & Travis Stevens.  Photo credit CockyBoys!

Sick but better, so I think

 

  Morning everyone! Yesterday on the way into the office I kept my usual routine and drank a Mountain Dew. It’s something I do year-round. Nothing like a cold soda on the way to work. I enjoy it but it’s really the best in the winter when it’s freezing outside, I’m inside a nice warm vehicle. The cool liquid in my mouth and then flowing down my throat, it just feels good. I’m weird I know it but hey it’s what I like. Normally I drink diet or sugar free but having just bought sugar Code Red Mountain Dew I had that instead. It was nice. I was about at work and the can was still full, I had to chug it and made decent progress. Got in the garage and then swallowed the last bit. Yeah, it sounds filthy dirty and sexual but it’s what I did, I took it all. Got out and headed into the office.

I’ve got this nervous habit that I like to shake my leg. At this point I had been sitting at my desk for an hour. I began to shake and thought nothing of it. After about a ½ hour my stomach got queasy. I figured it was from shaking my leg, like I was getting sea sick or something. It got bad and I thought for sure I was going to hurl but that never happened. I kept working away but at a very slow pace.

Finally, I had to get up and walk around. That seemed to help me feel a little bit better and I wasn’t shaking my leg. I was on my feet and away from my desk for about an hour. Stopped to chat with a friend. Then my phone started going crazy (as per usual – it knows when I take a break). I had to head back. Got to my desk and that sick feeling washed over me again. I felt it the entire time I was putting yesterdays post together.

Then it was lunch time, maybe some food would make me feel a bit better. I had a Diet Soda for lunch – Strawberry Dr. Pepper. That made it worse, I think. I ate slowly consuming a hard-boiled egg and ½ of the sandwich I brought. The sandwich was fantastic – Roast Beef, Lettuce, Pizza Cheese on some multi grain bread with some special seasoning I had no idea what it was. I was a bit better but didn’t want to push my luck. Well, I should have because, just before I was leaving the office my sugar dropped. I hadn’t eaten enough. I downed some potato chips (salt & vinegar) they were really good and it helped. I drank all of the water I had and used the rest room. Packed up and left. Just as I got on the elevator, I felt like I was about to pass out. I didn’t. I slowly walked to my car and the humidity smacked me in the face, as expected it was way worse than the morning. That helped to shake the sick feeling.

I got in the car, set the GPS’s and navigated home. I felt so sick but what I failed to mention is I took an anti-acid pill just before I left. That was starting to take effect and I felt better. I kept the AC on full blast and it was a bit much so I turned the fan down. Then I had some moron riding my ass (not in a good way) he gave me the impression he wasn’t above playing bumper cars. I can’t go faster than the car in front of me, any moron knows that. I had limits and I was respecting them for my safety. Finally, traffic in front of me opened up and I was well over the posted limit doing 75 in a 55. The fool passed me on the right, just missing a car as he changed lanes. That was almost a deadly move for all of us. Then he jumped on another car’s ass, they slowed down a bit, knowing full well what they were doing. He just got closer to the point where if the car in front would have braked checked him, he would have wrecked for sure. Dangerous. I had a chance and I took it, passing him up. I got up to 85 to put some distance between us and I finally got away from him.

Driving to and from the office is always an adventure and it really depends on the pulse of traffic how eventful it’s going to be as well as the mood of the other drivers. I was glad to be home, safe from crazy fools on the road.

Mora & Rudy were waiting for me and I had to get some food for Rudy he was hungry. Got him calmed down and then Mora and I went to the bedroom where I got more comfortable. Then returned to the kitchen to put away the left overs from lunch. I sat on the couch, wanting to go back to writing but still not feeling the best. I watched some TV. The more I watched the more an exhausted feeling came over me. I couldn’t stop yawning. I was watching some Family Feud Clip and boom I was out like a light. Rudy was on my lap and Mora was next to him. They were both passed out long before me. I woke up to Rudy licking my hand. Damn I was tired but that felt kind of good. I saw the time and opted to try to eat.

I skipped the left-over pizza and went for some frozen pasta a Chicken Bacon Ranch bowl. I felt way better but was cautious. The first time I had this I really liked it. Every time since it’s tasted like crap. It had been at least 6 months since I had it last and gave it another try. I bought it fresh when I was at the store on Sunday. Nope still tasted horrible. I ate ½ and pitched the other ½. Then I opted to go back to writing. I camped out at the table so the cats wouldn’t be climbing all over me. Rudy was behind me looking out the door and Mora curled up next to my chair. They just love being around me and I really like that. They love me and it shows. I think it’s just because I’m the guy who passes out the food.

Anyway, a couple hours went by and I opted to move back to the couch. Both cats followed me. Mora wanted attention and I gave her some. Then she went to her cat tree, Rudy was in the bed next to me. Back to writing. Before I knew it the time to stop and get ready for bed had passed. Mora knew this and she started getting in my face. I said a few more minutes, please. I wrapped up my story to a stopping point. Then concentrated on my normal before bed tasks. Without fail when I got to brushing my teeth, they both started begging for cat nip. What a sucker I am. I gave in because they had accommodated me and been through being alone all day and were good – so I think.

I started to watch a little TV and it wasn’t long before I was exhausted. My brain turned off. I still had the desire to write but I focused on the TV and then got up and climbed in bed. My room was cat free until I did that and then like magic, they both appeared and joined me. I said goodnight to them as I turned the TV off. That’s the last thing I remember until I woke up at 2a from a bad dream. Used the bathroom and then back to bed. Rudy started in early and I had a ½ hour to go. I rolled over and he stayed on top of me. He fell asleep on me and I passed right back out too. I woke up to the alarm clock and I was really out of it but I felt oddly refreshed. That was the best sleep I had in a while. Horrible dreams but a great night’s rest.

Got started with the morning, started work. I can’t get enough water this morning. Very thirsty. My sugar is probably out of whack. If it continues to lunch, I will do a spot check. I’m also tired. I am done with my morning tasks. Done with my normal web surfing. Tested out a couple pens. Ready to go back to the paper.

This isn’t sponsored but if you’re really looking for a smooth writing experience and you’d like to try or like fountain pens. I highly recommend the Zebra Disposable Fountain Pens. A photo is below and you can pick them up on Amazon. I bought them as a test and 1 out of my pack was defective (the green one) but all of the others appear to be working. It’s the pen that I write with the most when I am crafting a story. They are super comfortable, the pen glides across the paper effortless, no skipping and I feel like I am writing with velvet. No writing instrument I’ve used to date compares to this.  It’s truly a unique experience that is most enjoyable for me.

I’m kind of proud of myself that I was able to get to and stick with a stopping point last night. My brain disengaged and I had plans to watch porn but honestly, I was too tired so nothing happened. Sleep was the most important thing. That’s how I know I am getting older when sleep sounds more appealing than sex. I am itching to get back to writing. Last night was unique I took extra time to set up my story, drawing out the plot longer and longer. I am to the point where the story is getting sexual and that is the part that I love to write the most. I also managed to think of a couple of additional guys to write about so my list of subjects increased and it will be a little longer until I run out of guys. Here’s hoping that I can continue to control my brain, switching it off to allow for sleep. Evening is the best writing time, I put my phone in do not disturb, avoid all contact with it but still keep it close in case someone should call. It’s great to just escape from reality and get into my own world.

I’ve got a meeting in about an hour. Then an organization I am a member of is having a meeting this afternoon and I’m really interested in what that is about so I plan to join. Unless something else comes up my day is wide open. It truly is the calm before the storm. Friday is going to be absolute bedlam; we have a mass exit and I am going to be running with my hair on fire.

Booked a haircut for Saturday and pondering my options for dining out. I am also considering jumping back on a dating app again. That thought has been rolling around in my brain for a couple weeks now and I like everything else, I just keep putting it off. I think maybe since I am a bit more upbeat my profile will reflect that and maybe I will be more appealing. I am not jumping on this today but maybe by the weekend.

Stay cool, hydrated and be well. I’ll talk with you all again soon.

Man Candy Photos in this post from Falcon Studios – Model :Dean Young – Scene : Dean Young rides Mr. Deep Voice.  Movie: Endless Summer

My obsession

Hey there, hope that your day is going well. I had a bit of a rough night. It started with me writing (of course) and I set an alarm on my phone, so I knew when to take a pill. I accomplished that task. Then I set a 2^nd alarm so that I would know when quitting time was. I had a bunch of things to do before bed. Mora knew and she tried to help me, but I wouldn’t have it. She kept up, finally I looked at the clock and panic set in. Then I ran around scrambling, do this, do that, go do this. Forgot I needed to shave, it was just a huge race. Then the trash was full, take that bag out, put in a new bag. Then Mora & Rudy wanted their cat nip.

I was exhausted. I watched some porn and had some good fun, figuring that would for sure wipe me out and I would sleep. Nope wide awake. I watched some TV; I passed out without warning and woke up. That’s my clue, I got in bed and then my brain just started. I couldn’t turn it off. I kept thinking about writing, I wanted to change this, change that. I denied myself from doing anything. I got up took one more sleeping pill, waited a bit and that finally did the trick but my mind was still racing. I tried to sleep and magically I passed out. I don’t remember it.

I knew this morning would really suck because it was midnight when I got to bed. Getting up in 6 hours yeah who wants to do that. I forced myself, it was a bit of a struggle but my buddy Rudy made his famous morning biscuits and that did the trick.

My brain was back in the on mode, thinking of writing stuff as I tried to get ready. I managed to leave at a decent time. Then driving I think I hear the strange sound again. Finally, I said to hell with it. I turned up the music and just thought about my drive. Both GPS systems took me the same route – they don’t ever agree in the morning with which way to go. Coming home it’s always the same. Very strange.

I parked and got out, then the humidity smacked me in the face. Holy cow, now I see why it’s great to work from home. It sucks out there and that was 7:20am. It’s going to be much worse when I leave. Today is one of those days where I will for sure miss remote start. Sitting on hot leather is not fun, even with clothes on. I’m glad the seats are ventilated so I get cool air in the summer and warm air in the winter. The heat works much better than the cooling but when I first got this, they were equal. I think I need some refrigerant and then things will be back to normal. The AC works it’s just not as robust in the seat as what it was when it was new.

I’m proud of the accomplishments I have made today. I look forward, as always to going home and seeing Rudy & Mora. Spending what I hope is a nice evening together. We seem to have a routine and they try their very best to keep me on track. I don’t want to pass out cat nip every night. Mora cries and carries on until I give it to her. Rudy is right by her side cheering her on. When I drop the first bit, who ever gets to it is in heaven. The other one is trying to pry their way in and steal what they can, meanwhile I am getting ready to make a second drop, then they both are happy. If I sat Cat Nip that’s enough to get them excited, then grab the jar and open the lid, that’s when the real fun starts. They can smell it and if I’d let them, they would empty the whole jar. I just grab a pinch for each of them. I know too much and Rudy will start coughing and Morea can get sick.

Nothing makes me happier than to know that I have pleased both of them. I often wonder if they think about when I am going to give them up, since they have been bounced around so much. That’s kind of what helped to compel me to step in. I knew that I could make that cycle stop. I do have thoughts of wanting to give them back but I know it would cause serious psychological damage to me and I know it would hurt them too. They are my reason to live, they know how to evoke every emotion possible from me. While they can’t talk, I’m learning their body language and signs, so in effect they are talking sort of. I really wish that cats, dogs and other animals spoke English or a native spoken language where we could carry on an intelligent conversation.

Not to dangle a carrot at you but I am also pleased with myself that I found this whole writing thing and dreaming up fantasies and desires to play out on paper, I am quite frustrated with the fact that it doesn’t seem to have an off switch. Like other interest I have. I can only watch so much TV, see so much porn, drive for so long, eat so much and sleep for so long. I get bored or desire a change. Writing however isn’t that way. I’m thinking about it in some form or fashion throughout the day. It’s become like a drug.

The good news is that my handwriting is getting better. The disposable fountain pens just glide like a rollerball across the paper, it’s like velvet of sorts. Quite an enjoyable experience. There is also no mess and they don’t skip like a traditional fountain pen.

I digress, back on point. I know that my personality has an addictive side. That’s why I don’t gamble. I could sit in front of a slot machine and feed it money until I was bankrupt, then borrow money and spend that as well. I don’t like liquor and I am quite thankful for that because I am positive, I’d be an alcoholic. I’ve had some minor and brief thoughts about trying drugs or smoking but the whole idea just turns my stomach. I lived through first hand experience and saw how drugs can literally change a person and tear them apart, it destroys people they are around as well as relationships, that’s the main foundation for my aversion to them. Sex has always been a huge turn on ever since I figured out what it was, what to do, how to do it and who I want to do it with.

I think my new found obsession is fun. It makes me happy; I don’t care about much of anything. I can easily skip TV and social media. I get pop ups on my phone from the apps, come take a look – I’ve only seen them when I was sick with COVID and didn’t browse for days. Social media is a drug, but I can take it and then leave it. I can’t skip the cats because they get in my fact and make me pay attention to them. While I am pleased, I just want to find a way to write and then turn it off. Not think about it, not want to do it and resume life as normal. I’ve written some stories in the past and it was fun but now I am incorporating guys I’ve had crushes on, guys that I know are straight and guys I know that I will ever have a remote chance with. That is where the thrill comes from. These aren’t just made-up characters, that’s what gives me my passion and drive. I feel like Marvin (one of my many late cats) must have, when we figured out, he was allergic to a particular medication. After the first dose kicked in, he just had to keep going, and going, can’t sit still, must move, have to move, moving is life. Until eventually he’s collapsed from exhaustion. It was like speed and the vet said he’s allergic, throw it away and never ever give it to him again. Oddly enough it was supposed to calm and sedate him. We did that and the drug wore off, he came back to normal and life went on.

My fear or what causes me some concern is, well I only have so many guys I can write about. What happens when I run out of them and all of the stories are written? Will I fall completely apart? Will I be lost? I won’t know for certain until I get to that point in time. Last night the idea hit me, write about porn stars that you like, that sounds like fun but normal average guys that I know or know of seems more my speed. Being addicted to writing, even if it’s sexual fantasy or erotica isn’t a bad thing. Not being able to turn it off and only wanting to do just that is a bad thing. Especially when it interferes with work or life. It’s fun turning myself on thinking up the ideas and it’s also super-hot! I hope that I can find a way to flip a switch and turn it off. I need to sleep, I need to concentrate when I am at work, that’s why coming in today was so critical. Changing my environment helps. I knocked out work that I put off yesterday this morning. I am at a huge lull in my day and its lunch time. Blogging is enjoyable to me as well but it’s got an off switch.

Speaking of which that is a great segway to wrap up this post. Time for lunch and I am eager to get to eating. Got some pre-made sandwich from the store with “pizza cheeses” on it and it just sounds good, despite the fact that I will probably finish off the left-over pizza tonight for supper. I’m a cheese lover for sure. Take care, stay cool, hydrate and try to keep out of trouble. I will try to do the same thing, but no promises. Talk with you all again soon. Thanks for stopping by!

A real turn on

This is a quickie.  What a huge turn on it was to type out the story I wrote last night.  Then have the computer read it back to me.  It just made me want to take the afternoon off.  I was so turned on.  Jeez and I’m planning to write another story tonight.  This is fun but it’s starting to get to me, trying to hold myself back.  I guess it’s a good thing I am going into the office tomorrow.  At least I can try to concentrate on work, that is if my hands not sore!

Lunch was oddly delicious.  2 hard boiled eggs, a Code Red Mt. Dew (regular with sugar) and a chocolate donut.  Mora tried to steal my donut and some of my soda but thankfully I was able to push her away. 

I’ve wanted code red Mt. Dew Zero or Sugar Free for 3 years.  I got tired of waiting and the regular version with sugar isn’t bad at all.  I was kind of surprised for a guy who drinks nothing but diet.  Regular cola soda tastes horrible to me. 

Time to go see the cats, think about my next story and relax a bit.  It’s been a busy day at the office and flipping between typing my story and work was a little bit of a challenge and difficult at best to concentrate but thankfully I didn’t make any mistakes.  It would have been horrible to type my story in a work document, that would play well for me. 

Hope you enjoyed the photos.  Talk with you all again soon!

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