Amnesia

Happy Friday. It’s going to be a hectic day for me and it’s going to be a late day. I am not looking forward to it. I’m also going to the office tomorrow, at least that is the plan right now. Parts came in and I have a repair to make. I’d rather work without an audience; things tend to go much better for me. Not sure if I will get up early and go in or do it later in the day. I’ve got a haircut in the afternoon and I’m for sure not missing that. My hair is getting bushy. It’s still short but it needs to see some clippers really soon.

I had my talk with the boss yesterday. He didn’t mention my little mess up and I didn’t bother to bring it up. He said that he’s noticed a positive change in me and he appreciates it. Yeah, whatever I’ve got him bamboozled. Ever since my little mistake I have been a bit more attentive and selective in my words. I’m still pissed about my performance score and shitty pay raise. I am not hanging on to that because it’s only going to pull me down. However, I am not forgetting it either. The change he sees is probably the same thing you see in my posts. I am a bit more alive and upbeat. That’s due to writing, I feel like a different person.

Speaking of which I began to type the forty-page story out. I am presently on page 31. I also wrote a fresh story last night that is only like 13 pages. I brought it to an end in time so that I could carry out my normal evening before bed tasks. I managed to some how forget to take my pills, I was too focused on dick and writing. It consumes me so much and I don’t want any distractions. The phone goes on DND and I just go to a happy place. I do make time for the cats but I’ve kind of neglected them a bit.

Mora has only grown closer to me. She needs to be brushed again and I plan to tackle that tonight. She got a trip to the basement yesterday and she was on cloud 9. She did some exploring but she followed me around for the most part. Then I had to pick her up to get her upstairs.

I was in the bathroom and taking care of paperwork, if you get my drift. I got dizzy and fell towards a wall. I didn’t know what in the world was happening. I paused for a minute, got a little scared but went back to finishing up the paperwork. Everything was fine after that. I had dinner and like I said wrote a story.

Bedtime came, I felt pretty good. I was looking forward to watching porn and taking care of business, I’ve not had the stamina or energy all week long. I was very eager to get that taken care of. I remember I watched Eric Rey & Travis Stevens scene. I wanted to see the ending so I skipped forward. After that I don’t remember a thing. Try as I might the rest of the evening is a complete blank. I don’t even remember getting in bed. It’s scary but I think I am just a bit too absorb and addicted to writing and my brain is working on overload. Things might be starting to short circuit. I am going to try to pace myself and get to doing other things. Although, I have already started dreaming up a couple stories to write.  I wonder if this is what it’s liked to take a ruffie?  It’s just so strange that I can’t recall a thing despite trying.  

I am going to try to finish typing the 40-page story, then take a break and head up to be with the cats. Relax a bit. The hell at work doesn’t start until later in the day so resting up and taking a break is probably a smart approach. As per usual I have knocked out my morning tasks.

Here’s hoping for a relaxing but productive and enjoyable weekend. I will be staying hydrated and cool. The baking of summer is still continuing. We have Heat Warnings and Advisories out for my neck of the woods. Still, it’s nothing compared to Arizona and I am so glad I don’t live there. Even the cactuses are dying, I saw a story on the morning news.

Take care and be well. Talk with you all again soon.