Monday again

Yeppers its that day of the week everyone loves to hate.  It's been kind of a busy day here, which is a good thing because it means that I will be going home before I know it.  That is provided busy keeps up this afternoon.

I have been writing down all of the tasks that I have preformed today so that I can submit my precious report tonight.  Not  really looking forward to it and very tempted to "forget" to do it, but I know it will catch up with me sooner rather than later - - so I will just comply.

On the dating front not sure if I mentioned about the older guy that noticed I looked at his profile.  He was very polite upon first contact.  I told him my situation and that I didn't want to sign up to bury another partner.  His response was who knows you could die before me.  Yeah, unlikley.  So then he shoots me his phone number and says how about we talk on the phone.  Yeah, how about we not talk on the phone Grandpa.  I blocked him.  Felt a little bad in doing it but I honestly don't want another 25 year + difference in age where my partner is way older than me.  If he is younger well then I don't mind that at all. :)  I have another guy who kept calling me bud, which I hate.  He didn't have a face picture and when I asked he sent one, but he was ugly and had a sour puss on his face.  Sorrry not intersted in that.  Another one blocked!  

This whole experience of interacting with other guys is kind of a crap shoot.  You see someone you like and well they turn out to be an ass or worse they don't like you.  Then you get someone who likes you but they are older, don't look good, etc.  I am wondering if this is actually going to work out.  Maybe I am pushing things a little too hard.  Speaking of which I have yet to reply to Mr. I want to get together again.  I am just not up for it - at least not now. 

So there is a host turned server at Cracker Barrel that I really have been crushing on for a while.  I was determined to find out his last name and it's taken me well over a year but I finally cracked the case last night.  I learned that he is a Frreshman in College, loves and plays the Sax.  I found him on FB and thought about friending him but he doesn't know me so chances of him accepting are probably nill.  then I thought about emailing him but I'm afraid that I would be laughed at or that some how that would backfire.  I am eager to get into his pants, in case that is not obvious.  However, like with anyone else I want to take it slow.  Plus I can't find any evidence that says he is gay, so this could all turn out to be a huge waste of my time.  I really want to at least make contact with him but I am also scared at the same time.  Ugh, what to do??

Friday one of the guys I have a crush on here at work was in the kitchen when I was and he had to bend over to pick up something he dropped.  He caught me kind of checking out his ass and he didn't look too happy afterwards.  I just kept it moving like nothing ever happened.  Maybe he didn't notice but I honestly think that he did.

So it's anyones guess as to what will happen tomorrow with Jury Duty.  I think they will say go to work, I wont know until later this afternoon.  My boss is out today, sounds like something serious is going on because normally she will tell us.  Another manager sent an e-mail out telling us that she was out and might be for the entire day but the morning was for sure.  

After eating breakfast this morning, I felt the jitters kicking in as if my body was saying need more food.  i didn't need more food.  I didn't think I would make it to lunch time but here I am.  Tonight I am thinking of Chili it will be canned but hey it's a quick meal.  If I don't do that then Chicken Pot Pie.  Got to put the trash out tonight, don't really care for that job either but it's not like anyone will do it for me.  Sure wish today was Sunday espcially now because I am ready for a nap.

Oh I noticed this morning the outside temprature gadget stopped working.  Not sure if it got too cold or what.  If it's not working tonight then I will check on it again.  So a couple more hours to go, then back to the phones and the day will be done.  I am on the phones at 3 and don't logoff until 5.  Then there is a 1/2 hour to wrap everything up and call it a day.  

That is all I have for now.  Signing off....talk with you peeps later.

3 Grocery Stores–1 Weekend!

JURY DUTY

So I checked in on Friday afternoon, turns out that they don’t want to see me on Monday.  I have to check back Monday afternoon to see what is in store for Tuesday.  I suspect that this will draw on like this all week until Thursday afternoon, when I can breathe a sigh of relief in that I didn’t have to go at all.  Now that is totally a supposition on my part, stay tuned to find out what actually happens!

MEMORIES

This weekend one of my big things on my list of to do’s was to clean up my late partners office a little bit.  I managed to accomplish that.  Then while I was cleaning a flood of memories came back to me.  I really miss that guy.  Big Boy came in the room and he wouldn’t leave for hours.  He misses him too.  Big Boy was his favorite because all you have to do is say his name and he looks at you with those pretty eyes and that just stole his heart.  Plus all that he had been through, its no wonder he was his favorite. 

He (my late partner) had this self setting clock on the wall.  He built a special bracket so that he could look up and see it.  It had to be titled at an angle because it’s digital and there is an attachment that goes outside and communicates with the clock to tell you the temperature outside.  We both often looked at it before heading out – winter or summer.  The batteries lasted 2 years and had to be replaced.  It’s a little bit of a hassle to get it to set, until it updates.  I managed.  Then realized there was no outside temperature.  I ran to get the outside gadget and noticed there was corrosion inside of it.  I filed that away with an Emory board because I couldn’t find a pencil eraser (who uses pencils today).  Put the batteries back in and set it on the counter.  Within a few minutes presto it’s reading again.  I took it back outside and all is well.  Then instead of sticking it back in his office where I’d never see it, I mounted it just outside the kitchen.  It looks awesome and now I will get some use out of it. 

The door to his office is open today and I will close it tonight.  There is still stuff in there that I don’t want destroyed so I will close the door tonight.  I am far from having the office clean but I am slowly working on it.  It’s in much better shape today than when he left it, but it’s still quite the shambles.  I am also unclear on what I am going to do with the room once it’s cleaned up.  It’s not like I have a time table to make a decision on, so we shall just wait and see what happens.

THE MOTHER LOAD

Saturday I had to take my mother to get her blood drawn.  We went to the place where she thought it was and I told her they were closed.  Turns out the lab actually moved.  She got directions and was told oh it’s down the street behind Target.  Yeah, it was 2 towns away and about 10 miles later, then I found it.  Thanks to my iPhone & my GPS.  We finished up there and got a bite to eat.  Then I had to take her to the grocery store to get her medicine.  It was just a comedy of errors but it was an okay time.  She never asked me about the truck.  She told me that she is getting $6k for her old car and wants to buy something for 2k.  I honestly don’t think she will find a used car for 2k and if she does it will no doubt be something that is full of problems.  I think she should have kept the car, taken the money and not gotten it fixed, she would have been better off.  Then in the next breath she tells me that she wishes my brother wasn’t her guardian.  I said why is that?  She replied I want to take him to court.  I said is he spending your money wrong?  Is he hurting you?  No he just wouldn’t take me to get my medicine the other day, we got into a huge fight.  Oh so in other words your pissed at him, yeah that is what I am saying.  Oh okay.  Wow, here I thought something was seriously wrong.  You just never know with her.  We parted ways and I came home to take a nap from all of the sugar I ingested during breakfast, plus the lack of sleep didn’t do me any favors. 

THE HEAT IS ON

I had to turn on the furnace, we had a cold front move through and this place has been down right chilly.  Saturday morning it was 69 degrees.  My favorite number, but that is too cold.  I didn’t have a stich of clothing on and I was freezing.  I can only imagine how the children felt.  Ah, that fresh furnace smell after you run it the first time – that was awesome.  I think the days of AC are pretty well done, but I could be wrong.

MOPHIE CLAIMS MY CASH

So I have been so fixated on getting a Mophie for my iPhone.  I just had to have it.  Never mind that I have already invested in a Lifeproof case and a dock to charge the iPhone.  Mophie just seemed like something I couldn’t live without and the portable Mophie is well and good but I want the extra battery on my phone.  I drove myself batty.  Yesterday I finally gave in I got 2 Mophies plus Tempered Glass put on my phone.  I got a huge discount so this didn’t cost me all that much.  Then I had to hit up Best Buy because I needed a Mophie holster and AT&T didn’t carry those.  I also wanted a dock, I just love a dock for every phone that I have, I hate having to actually plug in a cable, it drives me nutz.  So anyway, I got the holster.  Saw a handsome guy while I was waiting in line to pay.  Then I came home and got on Amazon and paid for 1 day shipping for the dock.  It will be here on Tuesday.  Yes, friends I am in credit card debt and I seem to keep getting myself in deeper.  At least I have been able to stave off the need for a laptop. 

At work we run VMWare.  It allows you to deploy Virtual Machines via a Thin Client/dumb terminal.  That is my computer.  There is a super awesome client that you can install on your iPad and iPhone that will allow you to connect from anywhere.  With my iPad since I have a Bluetooth Keyboard it is just as good as having a laptop.  Completely and totally functional just as if I were sitting at my desk, minus 1 monitor.  I am thinking of using the iPad when I am on call instead of traipsing down to the basement.  I still have to ask the question about on-call since we were 2 groups and now we are 1.  I am not exactly sure how on-call is working and no one seems to be voluntarily forthcoming with information. 

THE BIG GAME

So Friday morning I was watching the news and learned that the big football game was happening that night.  Note to self don’t go home by the high school.  What did I do?  Yup forgot all about it.  I actually was able to turn around.  Then today I read the paper.  It was a combination of the football game and a fatal accident involving a high school student that backed traffic up for miles and miles in all different directions.  So sad.

3 GROCERY STORES 1 WEEKEND

I went to the store with my mom, so that is #1.  Then I went to the grocery store today as I normally would, that is #2.  Then I had to go to the super expensive store because they carry the oatmeal I like and when the weather turns cold, I start eating hot cereal, that is #3.  All in the same weekend.  It’s a wonder that I am still able to function as much disdain that I have for grocery stores.  :)

THE DATING FRONT

So I am still out there looking for a guy to call my own.  I got a message from the guy that I saw a few weeks back.  He wants to know when we are getting back together. I am actually not eager to do that at all.  I think he is still super pushy and I am ready to block him, but haven’t yet.  I just ignored his message, which isn’t normal for me.  I reached out to another guy and we have chatted a little bit, but nothing serious.  I was doing all of the question asking and now turned the tables and asked him if he had questions for me.  I mean I want to know that he is interested and not just responding to my questions like a robot.  I also saw a 68 yo guy who had a cute dog.  I just had to look at the profile.  Damn if the guy didn’t reach out to me.  I wrote him back and told him basically that I just buried my long time partner and I wanted someone more age appropriate because I didn’t want to sign up to bury/lose another partner.  I haven’t heard back from him, but I realized that I kind of implied that he was in ill health.  That is it at all he is 25 years older than I am and just by the numbers it’s obvious that he would go before me.  I have had enough battle with death and am not looking to go around that way again. 

Tinder has been kind to me and I have made a couple matches there.  Younger guys, which I am not sure why they are interested in me when I am clearly older but hey.  I’ve reached out to them and am waiting on a response.

Grindr well that is like the least useful service of them all.  Just a hook up site.  I can take care of getting off by myself, I don’t need another guy for that.  The desire is certainly there to touch hot flesh, but sex is only 1 part of a relationship.  There is so much more that goes into it.  If we can’t hit it off w/o sex then what makes you think it’s going to be better w/sex?  Lots of fake people and people who don’t have profile photos.  I learned by the 1st 2 guys that I have made contact with, never chat with a guy unless he has a headshot and it’s of him and not some super star.  I understand anonymity but if your so afraid to show your face on a dating site then your not ready to find someone, just my 2 cents. 

So another week of work, waiting and seeing what happens.  Plus we start the reporting thingy tomorrow and that won’t be any fun, at least not for me.  So that is it in my world.  Off to finish up laundry, clean the house, feed the children and prep for Monday.  Ugh, I can’t believe the weekend is coming to an end.  I so hate Sunday afternoons, they are so depressing.  I wish every day was Friday at 5pm, at least for a week.  Plus I wish that Friday’s would hurry up and rebuild in my area because I am so hungry for their food!  Meanwhile a piece of German Chocolate Cake and a tall glass of Milk is in my future.  Yup I said cake, not PIE. 

Have an awesome week….talk with you peeps later.

Back to Micro Management

One of the many things that I enjoy about my job is the fact that I am NOT micro managed.  That is all going to change starting on Monday.  Now at the end of our day, each and every day we have to submit a report listing what we are doing during our non-phone time.  I guess this is to make sure that were not sleeping on the job.  It was touted as a way to help find process improvements.  I don't see anything positive about it.  It is a vehicle for spying and if you don't put down enough work, you may be showing them that they don't need you.  There are a few avenues this could be used for.  When our boss sent it, it was sent with a read receipt and she copied in her boss.  In case it's not painfully obvious I am not happy about this at all.  I want to be able to do my job w/o having to account for every waking moment.  My only hope is that enough people will complain and we can be done with this in a short amount of time.  I would like to voice my displeasure but I am sure I will be told this is the way it is.  Since I am dependant upon the money I comply with the rules, even if I don't like them.

We got a memo yesterday from our office manager that is telling us not to use the company phones for personal phone calls, use our cell phones on our break or at lunch and for God sake go into a conference room or an empty office.  Don't air your business where everyone can hear it.  I make personal calls at work on occasion and I use the company phone, because cell reception in here is margianal at best.  I don't make a personal call every day so, I really don't consider it a problem.

I called the place that is helping me with the house and the payment went up $62 the figure I saw on the form was correct.  So I am close to $1,000.00 per month.  Still it will save me about $400 per month.  I explained that I didn't want to back myself into a corner where I am back at a $1,500 payment per month that would just be unacceptable.  If the payment would be that high, I could just as easily leave things as they are and keep paying.  Then if something happened I would have to find a new place to live but my credit would be in tact.  So we are on track to close.  They are waiting for a couple more peices of information to come in and then I suspect a date will be set.  The property taxes are what kicked things up.  I explained that he had all sorts of exemptions and due to his age there was even a tax freeze at one point.  However, as soon as we change the name on the title then that will all go away.  I expect that taxes will go up even more, which means that my payment will be affected.  I can swing $1k per month but really would prefer to pay less.  The whole idea is to be able to save money and get ahead.  I anticipate that this will not be the last loan I take out on the property.  The sad part is that there is some of his credit card debt baked into the mortgage already so I am still paying for his debt, the only difference is once it's in my name it will become my debt.  He wouldn't be too happy about that but that is the way the dice rolled.

Call me crazy but I think that what I pereseve as negative things that happened.  My boss and the house payment wouldn't have happened if I left that darn pen behind.  Then  again maybe they would have.  It's just my Catholic Guilty Consence bugging me.

The house still smells and I have treated everything that showed up with a black light.  I am not sure exactly where else the odor could be coming from but my house will look like CSI tonight because I will be searching all over with the black light.  I have plans to clean part of the carpet over the weekend.  Hopefully the smell goes away.  It appears as if Big Boy is back to using the box, but I am no 100% on that yet.

The massage lady worked me over but good yesterday.  She found all kinds of knots and was working them pretty hard.  I am sore but not as bad as I thought I would be.  My waist/back is still bothering me.  I am hoping with some extra rest and muscle relaxers that I can make it feel better.

I get to make a personal call later today to check in with the Jury Commission to find out if I am supposed to report in person on Monday.  I'm doing that one from the company phone because well it's kind of related to company business.  :)  I have worked out some alternate people to help cover some of the simple things that I deal with on a daily basis.  So I am actually all set to get this going, so long as there is no rain.  Pick me for a jury it won't bother me, just as long as you don' bore me to death because if you do I will fall asleep and I am sure that will cause problems for me as well as for the case I am on.  

Still picking away at on-line dating.  No nibbles yet but I am out there and trying.  That I think has surprised more people than anything.  I miss having companionship and talking with a human.  Plus everyone wants to be loved and needed.  Maybe I will be single for a long time, when I find the right guy it will all have been worth it.  Of course if I could have old faithful back I'd take him.  I was really missing him this morning.  I looked at photos of him on my phone while I was sitting at my desk.  I almost started to cry and figured that I should put the darn phone away, before I did start up.  That would be difficult to explain and I honestly don't want to have to explain or tell anyone here about it.  The less they know of my personal business, the better off I am.  I would be great to make a true friend here but I don't forsee that happening.  Well it's about time to head back.

I've got 4 machines to deploy, so I have to read up on how they do that here.  Every place is different and they have a procedure to follow.  This will be the first time I have actually replaced someones machine so its super important that I get everything right the first time so they don't come yelling afterwards.  I will hold the old machine for a bit until I know for sure they are happy and have everything.  Then it's wipe time and once I do that there is no turning back.  Oops I forgot, oh well sorry the data is gone and it's not coming back.  They have a whole process where I have to sit down with the end user and interview them, from the documention it looks like the interview could be an hour long with all of the questions I have to ask plus places to check for settings & data on their machines.  I hope I do it right.  I'm starting with someone that I have worked with a bit.  She will be my gineau pig and once I make her happy then I can move on to the others.  This all has to be done by the 1st of next month so I have to get cracking because with being out for a week, that puts me behind the gun already.

Have a good weekend and I will try to do the same.  Talk with you peeps later.  

Throat Punch Thursday

You've heard of TBT - Throw Back Thursday, well this is my version.  I call it Throat Punch Thursday anything you say or do that is stupid you get punched in the throat.  Sounds like some people will be busy all day long!

Today we had rain, well actually it started last night.  A good night to have a wet t-shirt contest.  Anyway, that meant that traffic would be all effed up and sure enough it was.  I didn't count on it affecting our network at work, but it did.  No one on my team could login to take phone calls.  Sweet it worked out to my advantage because I got to my desk with a minute to spare.  Once I learned of the trouble I relaxed went to the bathroom and got water.  Then tried.  My boss called me with the fix and I tested it and it worked, so I sent out a note to everyone telling them what to do.  All sorts of strange things are happening today.  Apparently we are short staffed so no meeting today and we are supposed to keep an extra close eye on the phones.  I don't ofically log back on until this afternoon, which I am happy about.  I may jump on early to help out.  Meanwhile its just watching my 6 and staying busy.

Last night I made my stops and everything worked out.  Had Lasagna and finished an entire pint of Cherrys Garcia while watching The Middle, The Goldbergs and Modern Famiily.  Luke is really looking good.  So I am wrapping up to go to bed, I hear a noise by the liter box.  Its big boy and there he is laying on the floor just peeing away.  I yelled at him a couple times but that didn't do anything other than make him hold his head down.  He knew I wasn't happy at all.  Good thing I stocked up on Urine Remover.  Here's the thing about that I put it down it does the trick and the carpet turns brown.  I can run the steam cleaner and fix that but I am afraid if I do he will start peeing again.  I allso added more litter to the box, it was lower than it normally is and I thought that might be the cause.  Nope not yet.  So we shall see how today goes.  He is really taking after his brother in drinking from the water bowl in the morning.  I told him the same thing please when you have to pee use the litter box.  You can do anything else you want on the carpet but no pee, it's the worst to clean up.

I got some closing paperwork to lock in the rate, apparently the present lender complyed with my release form becuase I used one of my favorite legal terms forthwith.  That means move your ass, do it now!  Problem is the payment they are quoting me now is $62 high than what I was quoted and I was told it would be fixed before we closed.  Well I didn't sign anything instead I kicked it back and said you need to resubmit the paperwork with the correct payment amount, then I will be happy to sign and we can move forward.  If they are quick with the turn around after I sign I believe the next step is to schedule the closing, which means someone is coming to my house.  Maybe I should put lawn chairs out and not let them inside, it's a thought!  I just want to sign and move on with it.  No need to make a big deal out of it.  I am excited about it from the savings perspective, so if I would lose my job I could afford to take a cut in pay and still be able to make my bills.  Of course I don't want that to happen but I also want the opportunity to save up my money so that I have a nest egg in case more rain falls in my life.

My back is not getting any better.  Holy crap.  I feel like I am 100 years old when I go to stand up.  That is when it really hurts.  I am getting a massage today but I only do upper back and shoulders.  I've got a kink there from popping my neck earlier today.  Hopefully she will be able to work it all out.  Then once the upper half is relaxed the lower 1/2 will follow suite.  I took some ibuprofen today and it really hasn't done much.  Next step is to resort to a muscle relaxer, which I am sure will do the trick.  However, I may try some Ben Gay before I resort to another pill.

Tonight one of my favorite Detectives (retired) returns to TV on A&E.  I am talking about Joe Schallaci who used to be on The First 48 back when the series was starting up.  I really like him.  I've made contact with him via phone and he is a great guy.  He takes every case personally and looks to figure out the mystery and bring those to justice that comit the horrible crime of murder/homicide.  The compassion and empathy he shows it's just remarkable.  You can feel and see that he really does care and he isn't bumping his gums.  I wish all dectives were like him, the world would be a better place.

I'm all excited like today is Friday but I have one more day.  Really wish I had the day off tomorrow, I could make that happen but I won't.  I am saving my time for when I need it.  Like the closing and around the holidays, when I want to take off.  The weather here is changing a cold front is moving in and it's going to feel like fall.  That's good but I still wouldn't mind seeing guys with their shirts off.  It's also going to mean that people are going to get sick.  I really hope that I don't get it.  I kind of feel it a little bit in the morning.  This morning I was coughing but it went away as fast as it came on.  

Mr. Pee Pot and his brother slept with me.  I had a silly nightmare that my late partner was arrested, but I don't remember what for.  My brother was driving his truck and I was the passenger.  We came across this police checkpoint and my brother got flagged to stop.  He did but the truck kept inching forward.  The officer went to run his information and the next thing you know we were like a block away.  I said drive it back and wait for him.  He did that and was charged for fleeing and aluding.  I took  over the truck and went to McDonalds for breakfeast plus I had to pee.  Finding a restroom proved to be the real challenge.  Then I woke up and I really had to pee.  Good Morning!  Gang way daddy is coming through.  BLU loves to greet me and tell me to hurry up while I am in the bathroom.  TAZ tries to follow suit but BLU pushes him out of the way.  It's a comedy affection show to see those two.  They really do love each other and me too.  I just wished BLU didn't aggravate everyone so much.  

Well time to publish this and go get massaged.  Oh I kept the pen and no one has said anything.  I suspect it will be a non issue.  Talked with Mr. Date last night, all is well.  Can't get anyone else to talk with me.  Hey maybe it's for the best right now.  Doesn't mean I won't keep trying.  Talk with you peeps later!

Wacky Wednesday

I was a little late in getting home last night, thanks to traffic.  However, I managed to get everything done that I needed to.  The house actually smells worse now that I have run the carpet cleaner.  If you go into my bathroom, that is where it is at it's worst.  Kind of odd because Big Boy never goes in my bathroom for any reason.  Him and his brother (Jumper) have started me on a new routine where instead of dumping the water from the dish in the tub, I give it to them to drink.  Then I take my shower.  When I am done, I can dump, rinse and re-fill the bowl and put it back in the tub.  Big Boy isnt a drinker but he was this morning.  I told him to make sure that it all gets into the litter box when it comes out the other end.  

I remembered that I had some instant odor killing product, so I got out the black light and put it down.  I have to pick up some more of that plus get some litter.  So that will be tonights project, in addition to going to the bank for money to pay for my massage tomorrow. 

I found a guy who openly says he is HIV Positive, which I think is awesome that he is up front.  There are a few guys that will tell you this up front  In any case he is younger than I am, very cute and he explained how he acquired HIV.  He's on disability but wants to go back to work.  I would be interested in him but for the disease I would just as soon be a friend and not be a sexual partner.  Anyway, I passed on some job tips.  He isn't the first guy that I have hit up with job tips on a dating/hook up site. He probably won't be the last.  It feels good to give back and help.  While I didn't like being unemployed I can use that experience to hopefully help others find a job and stay motivated. 

On the way home last night I called up a my friend who suffered a stroke last year.  She told me that things are getting worse for her (medically speaking) and that the doctors are about to the point where they are going to give up.  She told me that she won't give up, which is a good thing.  Then she tellsnig me that she is going to try to drive in a couple weeks.  Her vision is bad.  I mean between her and my mom I wouldn't let either one drive and if I was dumb enough to get into a car with one of them as the driver I would make sure my life insurance was paid, plus take out some AFLAC.  I don't mean to sound negative but there is a reason why blind people don't drive, it's because they can see.  I really feel bad for her.  Plus she is stuck at home with her husband -- they get into verbal arguments all the time and someone is always yelling.  They both talk so loud.  They are only in their 60s and to me that isnt old but I guess parts start failing depending upon wear.

Last night Jumper and I called it a night a 1/2 hour early than we normally would.  The girls were not happy about that but I sure was.  The extra sleep helped me, but I also woke up a couple times in the middle of the night.  My back is a little better but I still feel it.  I think tonight I will just sit and watch ABC all of my favorite shows are on.  We caught Tosh.O last night, funny as usual.  I think staying away from technology will be a good thing, but I still have my phone.  So I will be checking in on the dating sites.  Nothing from Mr. Date.  He hasn't been on line since Sunday.  He told me that this would be a busy week for him.  I suspect I will hear from him over the weekend.

Thinking of doing some work in my late partners office and getting it straighted up.  Then I could leave the door open.  Maybe if I am lucky I will be able to tackle his bedroom as well, but I think that is asking a lot.  Plus it all depends upon how I feel on Saturday.  I have to take my mom to get her blood drawn and I am not looking forward to that.  She will no doubt bring up the truck again.  I would be happy if she just gave up driving all together.  I understand that is a big step to take but given her vision and the recent accident I kind of think that it's for the best.  Better to quit while your ahead than to do serious injury or kill someone.  I don't think she would be able to live with that but she doesn't see that part of the picture right now.  She just sees that it is time to get back on the horse and ride again.  Not always the best plan.

So I was in an office yesterday talking with a guy who was leaving.  He ran me ragged.  I noticed a siliver pen on his desk, it was very nice.  We all know that I have a pen fetish and just can't get enough of them.  I was thinking boy I wish I could have that, it looks nice.  Heck even picking it up and writing with it would have told me if I really wanted it or not.  In any case I went back to pickup his computer stuff today and I opened one of his desk drawers.  He left the pen.  He isn't coming back and no one will know that it was there.  So I took it.  I feel guilty because there was no one to ask.  At the same time if someone does ask did you take it or did you see it and if I say yes, here it is then that could cause problems for me.  I feel the risk is low, so that is why I did what I did.  I never expressed any interest in the pen to anyone and no one here really knows me that well yet.  Curious, what do you think?

Oh boy it's Wednesday.  I signed up for a massage tomorrow.  I hope that she doesn't go digging and that it's something enjoyable and not something that I say oh why did I do this.  It's been 3 weeks so I am long over due.  Thankfully my new schedule allows me some flexability, so I am able to do things like this.  I actually rather like it.  Start off on the phones for 2 hours in the morning.  Do 2 hours in the afternoon then kill a 1/2 hour with prepping for the next day and it's time to go home.  I can pass the time pretty quickly.  In fact when I am on the phones that is all my boss wants us to do is answer the phone, so I surf for guys on my iPhone and have found a couple to reach out to.  It helps pass the time  quickly.  I just hate it when I get interupted by work but the interuption is to be expected.  

Wow I am sleepy all of a sudden.  I guess it's because I had lunch.  I read an articlel this morning that said it's productive to take a 15 minute nap everyday.  That could be true but my employer doesnt pay people for sleeping.  I suppose I could get away with it now because I am at lunch but it just doesn't look good if I were to get caught.  Well I guess back to work before I lull myself into a coma.  I am bulding a machine for a new hire that starts next week.  Should be done with it today, deploy it tomorrow and then presto were done.  

Okay I will talk with you peeps later.

Tuesday

Oh my gurd I have no idea what I have done, but my left side and back are killing me.  I thoughht it would wear off once I woke up but nope, like a bad penny its still with me.  I hope it's gone by tomorrow.

Last night I got a call from the place I am working with on the mortgage.  They got approval from their Title company to convert it from the trust into my name.  Okay great.  Now they still need pay off information from the present lender.  They actually wanted me to reach out to the lender and say can you give me x,y,and z.  I turned the tables and said how about if I prepare a release that gives you authorization to obtain the information you need.  Hey what a novel idea.  Hello mortgage companies do this all the time.  So I whipped something up and also provided a couple of contacts.  That took up the bulk of my evening.  I paid bills and took out the trash.  Ah ha a clue taking out the trash.  There was some heavy stuff perhaps something yinged when it should have yanged.  

Today I thought about it and realized they will also need permission from the Trustee in my late partners bankruptcy case.  The house is really the only asset and the only reason why he is on a repayment plan.  Makee no mistake regardless of what the Trustee says I still have to make the payments until we reach the magic number, otherwise they can take it back.  I am going for the hardship discharge in the hopes that the judge will see and understand that I shouldn't have to continue to repay his debt, but that won't be until next year.  Who knows I may be stuck with higher house payments until then but I certainly hope not.  It would be awesome if I could start banking money.  The goal for the house now is to close by the 15th, which means if we do then I could skip November and December payments and wouldn't have to make a payment until January.  That would be awesome!

Big boy is having his way with the carpet.  He isn't using the litter box he is peeing on the carpet.  That is a huge no.  I have to break out the steam cleaner tonight because the smell is just horrible.  I woke up and before I could even smell it my allergies kicked in.  I sprayed some stuff to help with the odor but I am highly allergic to that so I had to hightail it out of the house.  I put a chair over where he went so that he won't be able to go there anymore.  I don't know what it is but anytime I mess with the litterbox by physically moving it we have this problem.  It's usually a couple days then his memory kicks back in and life returns to normal.  I really wish he would just use the litter box.  Cat urine is the worst!

So the dating scene has calmed down.  I didn't get any messages last night from anyone.  I have continued to put out feelers with other guys but no nibbles yet.  I really enjoy talking with other guys via the chat thing but would rather meet up in person so we can stop the back and forth with delays.  I mean I know what I want to say I just have to get my fingers to type it out and it just seems so redundant.  I still say straight people have it the easiest you just approach a person of the opposite sex that you are attracted to and ask them if they want to go out for a bite to eat or to get a drink.  If they have a brain they realize your asking them out and then things go from there.  Gay people on the other hand don't know if another guy is gay or not hence the bars, clubs and dating apps.  Gay or straight dating does take up a lot of time.  It also messes with your emotions.  Like when I am talking with someone and there is potential there, I am very happy.  When I am talking with no one or have been rejected I feel sad or depressed.  I suppose it's all apart of the cycle.  

I wish there were more gay guys that were relationship oriented and not just concerned with who they are going to sleep with tonight.  I mean I understand the hookup process and the need to get off, but that is kind of counter productive for me.  I can't see sleeping with someone and then never seeing them again or hearing from them.  I can do that with a porn clip or movie but not with an actual person.  I guess I am just too old fashioned.  :)

The new schedule here at work seems to be going rather well.  In fact I will be headed back here in a bit and I have to go setup an office for someone and move equipment in.  That should be tons of fun with my back feeling the way it does but it's all part of the job.  It's kind of like I was telling someone earlier today working for a living sucks.  I mean I like it here but the idea that I have to come to work everyday in order to make it in life has gotten very old very fast.  Come on lotto, I sure could use a break.

Next week maybe fun and who knows I might actually get a little rest.  Even though it is Jury Duty.  Oh, I sent off for an absentee ballot for voting in the general election in November.  I figure I am on the list now for Jury Duty so might as well vote in every election.  Voting via absentee ballot just means that I won't have to stand in a long line.  I just fill out my form and mail it back, presto done.  I kind of like that.  Shame many more things in life aren't that simple.  

Well back to the races.  Talk with you peeps later.  

Monday

Working a new schedule, my hours are the same but tasks are controlled by the schedule.  I like it because it gets me off the phone at 5 and I have a 1/2 hour to wrap everything up and then go home.  No more risk of being stuck on a late call.  I don't mind working overtime but really when it's time to go I would much rather go.

So all in all it was a decent day.  I had a new hire sprung on me.  He will be here Wednesday I believe.  I have his equipment configured today, should be able to get it all installed tomorrow.  Then he will be all set for Wednesday.

I am working on another new hire that starts on Monday.  That is when I may or may not be on Jury Duty.  I have to call late Friday and find out what they want me to do.  Reporting is perfectly fine by me, it means I don't have to fight traffic to work.  Plus my new employer trusts everyone so you can say your at the courthouse and if they gave you the day off, you can just relax at home.  I would feel guilty and probably get caught.  It would be nice if we got out early one day so that I could have my car taken care of.  It's about 1,000 miles until an oil change and if I can squeeze it in w/o having to take PTO then I am all for that.

Got to see how much money is coming my way tomorrow on pay day.  I am very pleased.  Overtime really helps out a lot.  I have enough to pay the 2 bills that are due, plus the ability to give some money to a credit card.  Rightt now I am in credit card debt and it all started with this job and the travel.  I can't wait until I dig myself out.  Already have the house payment scheduled so there is no worry there.  Nothing from the new mortgage company.

I've updated my iPhone & iPad both to IOS 8.02 and they are working fine.  Glad I missed out on 8.01 update which stopped people from making/receiving calls.  Last week was a very bad week for Apple.

So tonights agenda.  Go home, take out the trash, eat supper, feed the children, pay bills, get ready for tuesday and then time for bed.  Sound exciting?  Yeah I know but I do look forward to getting home and seeing all of the creatures.  I've been thinking about them today.

This morning I was day dreaming and passed up my exit again.  I thought I could find my way to work but that proved to be a disaster.  I engaged GPS and eventually got back on the dusty trail.  I made it with 10 minutes to spare, so I was happy about that.  

I hope your Monday was uneventful.  Talk with you peeps later. 

Weekend Update

Well Mr. Date messaged me on Friday night and again on Saturday both times I ignored him.  I just replied today to both of his messages.  I’m guessing he is starting to get the point of what I mean by I want to take it slow.

I’ve reached out to lots of other guys but only a couple have bothered to respond.  It’s awkward to carry on a conversation, I would much rather move to a different platform but that comes with risk.  Risk isn’t something I want to take right now.

I got a message from my brother on Saturday telling me he has had a bad week.  I figured maybe one of the dogs died.  Nope, mom got into a car accident and totaled her car.  She is okay.  The other person is a female who is actually younger than me.  They carried her off in an ambulance because she passed out.  My mom’s car fell apart, it was all over the street.  The other lady she was driving a truck and it’s got a small dent.  The car was foreign and the truck was American.  Need I say more?

The accident was my mom’s fault because she pulled out in front of the other lady, who she said came out of no where and was going too fast.  Truth be told mom had no reason to be driving.  I think it’s time to take away her drivers license.  My bother doesn’t agree with me.  Plus he is the one who is legally responsible for her.  Her vision is very poor and her mental state well that is compromised as well.

Now my mom wants to buy my late partners vehicle.  She think I will just let her have it for $1k.  I looked it up on KBB and it’s worth $4k but I’d sell it for $3k.  I first told her no but she got really upset and said well would you at least think it over. Okay, I will think it over.  The answer still is no but I’ve thought it over.  I figure if I quote her the price that will be enough to discourage her.  However it may also cause her to come up with the money.

If I parted with it and sold it to her, then she wrecked it I wouldn’t exactly be happy.  I mean there is a sentimental value there plus there is that old adage that says never do business with friends or relatives.  I’ve been down that path before and I don’t want to hear about every little thing that is wrong with it or that this doesn’t work or that broke.  I could easily sell it to a car dealer and if they sent it to the crusher it wouldn’t bother me.  But if my mom wrecked it that would.  Sound odd?

Now I have become a taxi cab.  I get to go pick her up next Saturday morning at o dark thirty and take her to get her blood drawn.  Then afterwards we will go out to breakfast, she said she would buy.  Uh, okay free food - - sign me up.  That & money are the quickest way to my heart.

Saturday I was amazed at the number of printers we had here that I wound up taking to the recycle drive.  There were about 10 of them.  2 of which were old dot matrix printers.  They both worked but what is the point of keeping them.  There is a ton more of computer equipment I could have taken but there are things that I just don’t want to part with quite yet.  Still it felt good to get rid of the old stuff.  Now there is room to get some new stuff, all I need is a little money.

I got the carpets done yesterday as well, they didn’t turn out quite as good as I expected but they are at least in better shape than when I started.  The carpet is shot and honestly needs to be replaced but I just can’t see doing that right now especially with the number of cats I have.  So we just make do as best as we can. 

Last night I went out to visit some old friends and have a dish that I enjoy.  It’s called Pepperoni Spaghetti.  It’s Spaghetti with Pepperoni in it and then baked with cheese on top.  The sauce always gets to me because it’s super tomato rich, but I still enjoy it.  It was a huge meal and I even had desert.  Now I didn’t tell that to Mr. Date because he would have wanted to know why I didn’t ask him to go.  I do enjoy doing something by myself.

Today I had breakfast out, went shopping and came home.  Put everything away and worked on laundry.  Got some new pron from the internet, watched it.  Fed the children and settled in for a nap.  Only to be disturbed by ill timed phone calls, not one but three plus I had cats jumping on me as well.  I think I got about 30 minutes of rest.  Not bad so long as I don’t have any problems tonight in sleeping. 

I will be headed up to make me a pizza in a bit.  That is my usual weekend meal that I look forward to.  I switch it up sometimes it’s Friday night other times it’s Saturday and well today it just so happens to be on Sunday.  Slowly getting ready for Monday.  Ugh.

In looking at the calendar I freaked out at the grocery store because I thought bosses day was this week.  Nope it’s not until the middle of October. However, I did pick up what I consider to be the perfect card.  It says exactly what I want to say and it’s not too sappy.  So it doesn’t look like I am brown nosing.  Then I got a $20 gift card to The Olive Garden to go with it.  I am sure it will catch my boss off guard.  I will mail it in plenty of time for her to get it.  I could send it interoffice mail but would rather it come as a complete surprise.  She did me an awesome favor in hiring me and I just want to let her know that I won’t forget her kind gesture.

So speaking of work this is the week where everyone is rolled into one big old phone bank.  We are all taking calls for the entire firm and it’s going to be foreign to all of us.  However, a lot of people are freaking out.  I say just take it call by call, day by day.  We will get there.  Plus starting the first of the year we will all be on the same desktop so it won’t be quite as bad.  It’s just a couple months of inconvenience.  Before this we were separated into 2 teams and there were 2 people on-call.  Now were shifting to just 1 on-call which is going to add some calls I think.  It will be more money but it will also be more of an inconvenience.  If you just took the on-call away from my job I would say it’s okay.  Take away the on-call and the phones then I would say my job is perfect.  However, I am just happy to have a job right now.

Speaking of which the mortgage guy was supposed to call me on Friday and we were going to “lock in” the rate so that I could skip the October & November payments.  Well that didn’t happen and unless he could supply me something in writing that had approval of the present lender there is no way I would risk falling behind.  So I have scheduled the payment and if it’s something I could have skipped, well then they can just refund it to me.  Once things change hands I know that there will be money coming back the question is will they issue it to me, to the estate or to my late partner OR will they just give it all to the Bankruptcy court?  Hard to tell.  I do hope that by the end of October this loan has closed and the house is in my name.  It will make things so much easier going forward.  I believe that I will need to file 1 more tax return for my late partner because of the house and interest, in order to get that refunded.  That will of course be subject to partial take over by the bankruptcy court but my hope is that a discharge is granted prior to the refund being issued.  Then all of the money should be mine or so I hope.  It’s not like were talking thousands of dollars here.  However, I always say every penny counts.

I went out a couple hours ago for ice cream again.  I over indulged and well I am not terribly hungry right now.  I figure that once the pizza is done I will have a slice or two – then refrigerate the rest and it can be supper tomorrow night. 

Ugh, got to balance bank accounts and do filing.  I hate both of those tasks but filing is the worst.  Never ever did like it and never ever will. 

I hope that you had a super awesome weekend and that it was relaxing and you were able to accomplish all that you wanted to and more.  Now it’s time to enjoy the last few hours before we start yet another work week of fun.  I won’t be looking forward to this weekend.  Next week is Jury Duty – I have to call Friday afternoon to figure out what I need to do on Monday.  They don’t always have you report. In fact the recording says expect 1 to 2 days of actual service but if your picked for a trial expect a minimum of 1 week or at the longest 2 weeks.  Hell I could do a month it would be fine by me.  I am looking forward to it and being away from technology all day long, well that will be different but hopefully enjoyable.  I know I will have withdrawals.

Talk with you peeps later.  Be well.

Anxious for quitting time

To think a week ago, I was so anxious to get out of here so I could make my phone call and meet one of the guys that I talked to on-line.  This week I am just anxious to leave.  Jumper clawed me last night and it's itching, plus I've been thinking about the ants and my skin is crawling. 

I have checked back to see if my 18 y/o friend decided to chat any more but no response.  I'm guessing it was just a bold move for him to tell me that he liked me or maybe it was a joke.  Not sure either way.  However, I did make a report that he is misrepresenting his age.  I won't block him but I did screen shot all of our conversation, so there won't be any misconception as to what was said by who. It's very innoculus but it's the paranoid part of me coming out.

Had our meeting at the office.  As usual I was early, everyone was late.  Way too much chattering, jokes, etc. before the meeting started.  Our boss actually got through this meeting and we wrapped it up on time.  I hope that ending on time continues.  I think that she should build in like 10 minutes ahead of when she actually wants the meeting to start, that way everyone would be on-time.  :) 

I'm playing ring around the rosie with an issue here.  Trying to track down who is responsible for administering a program.  No one wants to take ownership.  I can't really do anything from a permissions stand point.  This all started early this morning I have been telling my story ever since to at least 4 people.  Right now I think I've got it figured out, but that person only works specific days of the week.  Oh Joy!  So this is another one that will have to be in a pending state.  I just hate service tickets hanging out there.  I like to get them in, fix the problem and close the ticket.  It just doesn't always work like that.  

20 more minutes and I will be back on the phones.  New schedule starts Monday so it's the same shift.  Just what I am designated to do is changing.  I will be spending more time on the phones.  That will be good, I suppose.  More eduucation, which should hopefully help me feel more confident and comfortable.

That is all of the new news I have.  No idea what is for supper, but I am sure I won't starve.  Talk with you peeps later.

Creepy Old Man

So my messaage was well received, which is quite a shock to me.  However, he is still pouring on the pressure despite the fact that I said I want to go slow.  Now his plan is for me to take a vacation day next month and get together with him to do something.  I explained that won't happen.  Depending upon how things go over the weekend, I am starting to think it's time to hit the BLOCK button again.  I really don't want to but if your going to be a pushy bastard then your leaving me no choice.  You smother a pork chop, not a person.  

In other news the first person to answer me back on Tindr is 23 and really cute.  He told me that he thinks I am HOT, which I am totally flattered by.  So were chatting last night and he tells me I am not sure why it shows I am 23 I am actually a Senior in HS and 18.  WTF!  Um okay so while I am anxious about this, I can see it leading to heart break.  He goes away to college and poof its over.  Not to mention his parents reaction when he tells them I'm chatting with a guy who is 40 something.  Uh I think it would be like in that episode of Queer As Folk where Justin's dad went after Brian in a car accident and tried to kill him.  He says his parents are okay with his sexuality and coming out was very easy.  Which is good.  I don't mind talking to him and keeping the converstion above board, but I think anything other than that would be trouble.  However, despite that I still wouldn't mind seeing him in person.  He is 18 which is perfectly legal age for sexual consent, not that were going to go there. My point being in the eyes of the law he is old enough to make his own decisions.  I kind of feel like I am on NBC To Catch A Predator.  

Who knew that trying to find a guy could lead to so much drama.  My life is nothing but a drama.  So I guess maybe I should settle for having a good job.  I suppose everything else will fall in place soon enough.

We made it to another Friday.  So much work for me to do, not sure if I want to start tonight or put it off until tomorrow.  I am anxious to be lazy and relax.  The kids were all in a decent mood this morning.  Big  Boy was in need of some extra attention and if you pay extra attention to one, you have to do it to all of them because they get super jealous.  To the point where they are standing in line crying for you to touch them instead of their brother or sister.  Momma gets in on the action as well..  

I am battling ants in the kitchen.  Just when you think they are gone, they come back.  I've cleaned, sprayed ant spray and yet the little things just keep coming.  I kind of wish they made a bleach bomb, I'd throw that at them.  Then when your cleaning, it feels like they are on you and you itch even though nothing is or was there to start with.  The fly that is in the house is still alive, at least he was as of last night.  I haven't seen him this morning so maybe someone got him.  Anyway, it will be time to saddle up here for another day of work here on the ranch.  

I've got to call a guy this morning that needs some help.  Then this afternoon a department meeting about changes that take place on Monday.  Who knows what else the day will throw at me, but I am here and ready to get on with it, so that I can start the weekend.  Stay tuned for another edition of as the drama continues!  :)  Have a great weekend, talk with you peeps later.  

Had to go there

I really didn't want to do this but kind of had to.  So I sent a messsage to the guy that is interested in me and that I went on a date with.  That I didn't think that Saturday would happen because I had some house cleaning issues to take care of.  His response was well if your too tired to drive I can come over to your place, meet your cats and then we can go some place.  Wow so its obvious that being suttle doesn't work.  What to do?

I got a message last night asking me how I was, which has been normal conversation since we started this chatting thing.  I told him that I was going to watch the premiers on ABC.  I got a response back that told me he wasn't too happy that I wasn't paying attention to him.  Uh I've got a life and a good portion of it involves technology.  I wanted to take a break and have a night off, which is usually reserved for Fridays.

 I was on the phone late with a friend and was told ... you have got to set the record straight.  You owe it to him and to yourself.  This is starting out small but will turn into something bigger if you don't fix it.  Besides that you have been talking for about 2 weeks now, if you can't be honest with him now, then how do you think you will feel in 6 months from now. Okay point taken.

I thought about what to say last night until I fell asleep, it was on my mind as soon as I woke up.  I didn't think about it much on the drive because my mind was on traffic.  You have to watch your 6 or someone will hit you.

I got to work and began composing what really sounded like a dear john letter to me.  What I said was I think of you as a friend and I am not romatically interested in you.  This is forigen teerritory for me and I am not wanting to hurt your feelings.  Saturday is not going to happen.  I apologized if I offended him and said that I think we have a good friendship going, lets stick with that.  I told him that I would understand if he didn't want to talk anymore and wanted to move on.  I expressed that I wasnt shoving him aside but in round about terms, I need my space.  I need freedom to see other people, I can't be smothered because I'm not a pork chop.  Just given how much I know about him this far, I suspect my note will not be well received.  He knows nothing about me other than the general area in which I live, that I have cats and that I work in a different state.  He's got an alias e-mail address of mine, which I can easily turn off if needed.  He doesnt know anything else.  I have the option to block him online but really prefer that it not come to that.  If he gets hateful or comes back with something that offends me, that is probably what I will wind up doing.  I have been walking on egg shells about this and I really think that I should have told him sooner.  I was kind of hoping things would calm down.  I understand he is afraid of being alone, wants someone to call his, etc.  I am in the same boat but I can't just pick the first guy that comes along.  I mean if he was everything I was looking for well then that might be a different story.  I can't help it that there is no spark there. 

My last relationship didn't blossom overnight it took time. We started out as friends and he made advances towards me.  Once I told him that I thought I was gay well that is kind of what set things in motion.  That was then, this is now!

I don't expect that scenario to repeat its self.  In fact I think I would be shocked if it did.  I am not exactly sure how my next relationship will start and/or when but I think if I am patient enough it will happen.

In other news I got someone on Tinder that likes me and is actually chatting with me.  Nothing serious but he is only in his 20's.  Super young and super attractive!  I'd really like to be his friend and see where things go.  I've matched up with a few guys but no one has bothered to answer my initial contact, which is why this caught me off guard.  

So today I was reading something and all of a sudden it was like all of the text was backwards.  It happened and I shook myself free of it.  Then I kept reading and it happened again.  I took off my glasses and everything was okay.  Been fine ever since, I sure hope it stays that way.  That was freaky, I mean I knew the words but they just looked strange.  Amazing how the brain works.  

I have been bothered so much at work.  My lunch being interuppted on a regular basis, this morning I wasnt even here and someone was calling for me.  A vendor made a visit, it was scheduled with the Corporate Office but no one bothered to tell me.  I think I need to know these things.  This is the 2nd time this week that this has happened.  A 3rd and I will voice concern to my boss.  It screws with my ability to provide service and that is held against me at review time.  So even if its not my fault it could mean the difference between a pay raise and no raise at all.  I take a lot more than I used to but once you push me past my breaking point then it's on.  I'm hopeful that things settle down and this will just be a week that I chalk up to 'one of those weeks'.  

Tomorrow is Friday.  I am pleased by that because it has been a long week.  I'm looking forward to the weekend and seeing how much I can acomplish and if I can have a sleeping contest with the cats.  

I had ants yesterday morning and evening.  Getting rid of them was not fun.  Then a fly got in the house.  Everyone has been on edge trying to catch it.  Even me and I've got the fly swatter, the best chance of everyone and I have missed so many times.  At least it's a play toy for the cats.  I was setting the alarm the other night and turned it on instant and left the motion detectors turned on, instant alarm.  Everyone was on edge, I told the children it was a test.  They were all plotting on what to do.  The worst part is I woke Big Boy up and he was sound asleep on his back.  He doesn't roll over so much any more but he used to all the time when he was younger and thinner.  I know he's really comfy when I see him like that.  It makes me happy.

Well I have to get back to it.  Then sit through an hour long meeting this afternoon, hope I don't fall asleep again.  Then there will be an hour left and well after that it's off to home to figure out what it is that I will call dinner tonight.  Talk with you peeps later.  Be well. 

Another Date ?

Well now the guy I went out with on Saturday is pouring on the pressure to get together again, like this Saturday.  I honestly don't want to.  I've got plenty to do around the house and the electronics recycling drive only adds to my work list.  I will be bushed and would like to just have a lazy day at home.  That willl allow me to move at my own pace and not have to hurry - rush and not to mention it will make time for me to nap, which I am fond of.  

I am still looking for other guys to date, I don't want to settle for the first person that comes my way.  A guy who is a million miles away likes me but fat chance we are ever going to meet in real life.  I have messaages out to several guys but no responses thus far.  Tinder really gives me false hope.  I see all of these good looking studs and we match up.  I send them messages and never hear from them again.  I dunno this whole dating thing is an emotional rollercoaster in its self.

I was petting and scratching Shy Girl this morning.  I found bumps around her neck, which means something is biting her.  If I let this go she will get welts in her ears be really misserable and I will have to take her to the vet for a shot.  So I tried my best to hit her with flea medicine this morning.  She wasn't too receptive to it but I know I got some on her, just not down deep.  I hope it works!  Poor girl. The last thing I need is a waiting line to take cats to the vet.  It's  bad enough that I have 2 that need to go over and I am putting that off.

The home loan people started out really agressive but have gone silent for some reason.  I figure there is no way we are going to close this week or early next week.  So I just plan on making the October house payment as normal.  I have written and called asking them what is up but no response.  I know I am not the only customer but gee you'd think that you would want to maintain the lines of communication to let me know what is going on in the background.

I've found a couple places on-line that I think will take some of the old medical equipment my late partner left behind.  I have to take photos of it over the weekend, fill out forms and submit the pictures in order to get an offer.  I don't want to take a bath on it but I would like it gone and to be able to pocket the cash.

Tonight is premier night so I will be going home and turning on ABC, should be a fun night.  Enjoyed Tosh.O last night.  Well back to the phone and work.  I hope today goes by fast becuse I am tired and anxious to get back home to the children.  Talk with you peeps later.  

Tuesday

Monday I got an unexpected visit from a vendor.  It was for troubleshooting and repairing some issues. It shouldn't have taken long but it took up the bulk of my afternoon.  So much so that I only had to spend a 1/2 hour on the phone last night and of course got no calls.  I'm happy about that but my boss probably won't be.  Nevertheless I was doing my job by sticking with the vendor because according to policy they have to be escorted at all times.

The evening went pretty smooth.  I managed to have some time to watch TV and I was playing with my phone.  On like guy surfing.  I have messaged a few new guys but thus far no responses.  My date from Saturday has messaged me and we exchanged a few kind words about Monday and what we were both doing.  I was on quite a bit yesterday and he only showed up in the evening, which was kind of a surprise for me. 

I really want to tell him that I don't have a romantic interest at this point but I am afraid that would crush him.  He wants to get together again on Satuday and the more I think about it the more I really don't want to.  I haven't made any firm commitment to getting together but told him that if we did meet up again Saturday would be the best day to do so.  He iss thinking about another dinner meet up.  That is all well and good but the bigger question is will he have money to pay, not for me but for himself.  I certainly can't always be the buyer.  I don't mind him as a friend, in fact that is how I think of him at this point.  Based upon looks & his health issues I think we are better sticking to a friendship.  Again, whenever I break it to him it will probably crush him.  There  is desperation written in his profile, spoken though messages exchanged and also in person.  He also made me stop and think do I really want a new guy?  The answer to that is yes but I would prefer it be a slow process.  Moviing a little bit faster than what it's moving now.  However, I believe in the end it will all work out.

One of the girls that always wants attention from me, is all over me in the evening.  Normally in the morning she climbs into my bed after I am out of the shower.  Yesterday and today she eats and then hides under the couch.  I wonder if she isn't feeling well?  I know someone hacked up a hairball in the hallway, I suspect that was her.  

I got a notification to go pick up hardware from a person that is no longer with us.  He had a stroke prior to my arrival and has been left with brain damage to the point where he is severly imparied.  I saw the notice yesterday.  They have left his office the same for months, this all happened long before I started.  Still I feel very bad for him, his family and for us because were losing someone.  I will pick up his stuff this afternoon, I just hope that I can keep my emotions in check because just talking about it I am sad and want to cry.  I think mostly because of what I have been through.

Today is kind of a boring day but that is okay.  I really didn't want to work hard :).  It started off as one of those cool fall mornings where you just want to stay in bed.  I kept telling the children that I didn't want to get up and then it was I don't want to go back to work.  I told them I have to go because people are depending upon me.  That in it's self is kind of the whole reason why I feel good on the inside about coming in.  W/o a job that feeling isn't there and in its absense depression sets in.  It's good to be needed and wanted.  It's a basic human need that I think we all require in order to function.

So all of the TV shows are starting their Fall Season.  I am happy about that, now there will be more to watch.  I hope that my DVR can keep up and that it choses the correct channel.  I went to watch the 2nd half of the Big Bang Theroy last night and it chose the wrong channel.  Fear not I will get it through on demand.

I heard some rumbling on the news this morning that there are bugs in IOS 8.  Everyone experiences something different from huge drains on batteries, wifi problems.  They say that there is no word if Apple will release a patch.  Since it made the news I suspect that they will, but it will be something that comes in due time.  They probably aren't in a rush.  I have had no problems on my old iPad or my new iPhone.  In fact the batteries seem to last way longer than I think they will.  The iPad has been belting out music since I arrived this morning, we started at 100% and its only down to 98%, which I would say is pretty good.  

Well I should run and find something work related to occupy my time.  I still am sleepy and hungry.  Looking so forward to lunch time.  Sounds tempting to take a chair into the equipment closet, turn out the lights and turn on my alarm.  Then take a nap.  Good idea not sure that I will do it.  

I hope that life is treating you all fair and that you are doing good.  Talk with you peeps later.