Lonely Saturday

Feeling lonely today. I tried to occupy myself today and really wanted to be around friends but with the few that I have, they are all busy.  I do have plans to go out next weekend which will be helpful because next Sunday would have been his (my late partner) 73rd Birthday.  This whole month has been rough because October belonged to him it was his month and this is his favorite time of year. 

So enough sadness what did I do today?  I watched a lot of TV.  The Goldbergs is a really good TV show and since I signed up for Hulu Plus I watched all 4 episodes.  Pretty good stuff.  I saw a movie 21 & Over.  Miles Teller is uber hot and there is some ass shots and he even makes out with another guy.  I put my pizza in the oven for supper and started watching it.  I just got engrossed and well it was a damn good movie. 

I skipped breakfast and went to lunch at Olive Garden.  I wanted desert but didn’t indulge.  I visited Target & Petsmart today as well as the post office.  The postage that was due was on an address I requested.  I mailed a letter and marked it with the phrase Address Service Requested, doing that will cause the letter to be delivered but as the sender you get notified of the forwarding address.  Sneaky but legal.  I was really hoping it was a photo of Mike Ross aka Patrick J. Adams, but it wasn’t.  I also hoped that they would talk with me about the letter I sent to the postmaster but that didn’t happen either.  I got attitude and just made my way back to my car. 

My VOIP phone from Net Talk went south just after they decided to charge me for another year of service.  However, I disputed the charge and right now have a provisional temporary credit.  After the fax I sent today that should turn permanent.  I bought the think in June and got it in July.  I signed up for service in July and 12 months of service come with it.  Why then would they bill me again in September.  I shouldn’t be charged until July of next year.  I can’t get the damn thing to work – I have tried to call but get a recording saying you have to initiate an on line chat with us.  That doesn’t work because they are always off line, even during the hours they say they are open.  I’m wondering if the company didn’t go belly up.  I have a support ticket open but that could take months for them to get to.  At least my Magic Jack still works.  I am not fond of it but if it gets the job done well okay.  I need to make a call to Canada to chat up my friend but haven’t gotten around to it.

I trimmed one of the girls claws she is mad at me.  Still have to get Shy Girl and I partially cleaned out a closet, not real good but I did manage to throw away more than I put back and that is a good thing.  I changed the litter boxes and got the trash ready to go.  So much fun. 

Tomorrow is grocery store day and I might even splurge and get a hair cut.  I really want it but I am telling myself you can go one more week, it won’t kill you.  However, I am vain and want to look good all the time, even though I was born ugly. 

Got a call from a friend who said that her son and a guy started a mortgage business.  I should give him a call because he supposedly can help me.  Yeah I don’t think so but I will tell him my story and see what happens.  If h can help me great but I fully suspect him to tell me sorry you will have to wait until August of next year.  I mean if so many other places turned me down I don’t suspect he will help.  However, nothing ventured nothing gained. 

Friday night well it was a long one.  I stayed at work a little late then managed to talk a co-worker into having dinner with me.  There is more office drama going on but I really don’t want to blog about it right now  It’s complicated and I am sure that in the end I will be the target of some vengeance because I helped someone dig up dirt.  If things go like I think they will the office manager and one other person will be out of a job.  No the other person isn’t my boss because he is an owner.  However, there is a movement started to oust him or at least get him to work from his home instead of coming into the office.  If that happens then I will stay.  All I will say is that public records on the internet are very helpful sometimes. 

To be a little clearer about lunch  - one day I went out for an hour, well 55 minutes.  It was over the summer.  I was scolded when I got back and told that I have to schedule my lunches in advance if I plan to leave the office for an hour.  I can’t just disappear.  Never mind you no one needed me and if they did I have an electronic leash strapped to my hip, it’s called the company cell phone.  See why I want to get a new job or a new boss?  Yeah he is a total dick.  So when I went out on Friday it wasn’t scheduled, it was a spur of the moment thing and as long as no one tattles on me I should be able to get away with it.  There was no management present in the office on Friday so I suspect all will be well. 

Laundry is going, dishes will be going soon as well.  I will be sitting in front of the TV with Big Boy and the others crowded around me watching hopefully something good.  Weekend TV sucks.  I am thinking of saving the claw adventure for tomorrow with Shy Girl.  Time to watch some porn and head up stairs for the evening. 

Sleeping and watching TV is my equivalent to getting drunk.  It helps mask the pain, at least a little.  Hope your enjoying your weekend, talk with you peeps later.

Friday and almost quitting time

I kept busy today, actually my day started off early.  I was here early and planned on my usual routine of watching Shep689 videos on Youtube while sitting in my car.  I haven’t watched any of their videos this week because I’ve been interrupted by co-workers. This morning was a computer problem that was an ID 10 T but I rushed in to take care of the issue.

I went out for lunch with the girls, had a nice BBQ Chicken Salad it was $10.  It was good but I don’t think $10 good.  Appears that I got away with it, no management at work today.  So unless there is a tattle tail I expect I will be fine.  I have to keep it to a minimum or otherwise it will eventually blow up again. 

Found a job on-line last night that didn’t sound bad, so I applied for it.  The hours suck but if the pay is better then it would be a no brainer.  Calls for interviews aren’t exactly burning up my phone line, but I know eventually they will come.

Talked with a  friend last night, trying to make plans to get together with someone but everyone appears to be busy.  I am waiting for a call back from this friend before I count them out.  On the off chance that I do go out, I am going home tonight and having Mexican Frozen Pizza.  It’s pretty good stuff.  Maybe an ice cream drumstick after that to cool down the mouth and relaxation here I come.  I will be lazy, beyond lazy. 

Right now I am tired so the only thing I really want is sleep.  I’m sure that will change by the time I get home. 

Wow 1/2 hour left in the day and this place is still full.  I figured that it would be a ghost town by now.  Since I started early I should leave early but I won’t because someone will eventually say something and then I will have to answer for it.

I tend to not want to rock the boat for any reason.  I will be going to the post office tomororw morning.  Tossing around the idea of a haircut but also tossing around the idea of letting it grow a little.  I have no idea what I want other than to be pampered. I should have booked a massage because I could use one of them, but I am thinking of money.

Well I guess I will goof off a little more before I call it quits.  You have a nice weekend and I will talk with you later. 

Thankful Thursday

Wishing it was Friday already, I am tired.  Came home last night to find that BLU had peed in my bed, soaked everything but the pillows.  I had to sleep on a bare matress with just a comforter.  Today I closed the door.  I told Jumper & his sister to guard my room but I guess they fell asleep on the job.  Normally, they do a good job.  Jumper stays in my bed most of the day when he actually gets in the bed. 

I called the mortgage company first thing this morning, learned that they still have my account in review and don’t need anything from me this week.  Now I have to call back again next week to see if there has been any change.  I have to keep the Congressman’s person updated as well, so maybe things will turn out okay for me.  Fingers crossed and praying hard.  Ready to be done with this.  I wrote the attorney I have waiting to pounce on them and asked her if I can keep her on standby indefinably.  The free legal program provided by the union ends at the end of this year.  If your case is opened prior to them they will work it to the end, otherwise you are just out of luck. 

Came into more drama at work today.  It’s just putting me in the middle again and that is a position I really don’t like.  Keep it simple top or bottom – those are positions I know about.  :)  Anyway it’s done and over with so I am moving on.  Funny thing is I told my boss about it and I thought I would at least get a thank you but nope, not a word.  He’s been really good about leaving me alone this week.  I pray that continues because my life is peachy without him.

I went to grab the mail last night and got a card in the box telling me that I have postage due on something.  Makes me wonder if that is a coy way of saying we’d like to talk with you or if there truly is postage due on something.  I have no idea what it could be but as long as it’s there on Saturday I will find out.  Otherwise, too bad so sad.  Makes me wonder if I should stop tonight for mail.  I guess it will depend a lot on how I feel and when I get to leave.

I am at a stopping point in my day so piddling is what I am doing right now.  It sounds like I am busy but really I am goofing off.  Thinking about the weekend and how I would like to get together with a friend but she is not feeling well so that isn’t going to happen.  I am really thinking about my late partner this month is his month, I plot and plan looking forward to giving him a Birthday gift and shopping for a card. Now I don’t need to do those things and I have all of these odd feelings like this is how October is going to be from now on?  I do have to get my mom a card but I am in no rush.  His birthday came first and then hers a couple days later.  A week later my brothers and then I am done for the year. 

Forgot to tell you I came home to a small mess last night Big Boy needs a bath, that will happen tonight.  Between the carpet and the laundry I was just too busy.  I can’t take that much upheaval in my routine. 

I’ve got my purple on for Spirit Day.  My boss wore a Purple shirt as well but I think that was just an anomaly.  No one else wore purple and I even talked about it to a co-worker/friend.  Plus she hates it when I don’t shave, so I shaved last night just for her and she hasn’t said word one. 

Heard that there will be a partial fire drill next week.  We have to go down a couple floors and wait for an all clear, then we can hike back up, guess that is better than going all the way down to the ground, considering I am in a high rise building.  Not looking forward to it but want to get it over with.

That is all of the news I have right now.  How boring my life is.  Perhaps eventually I will be writing about a boyfriend.  I just look forward to happier times and hope they get here soon before I just throw my hands up.

Have a great evening and remember tomorrow is Friday.  So much for sleeping in on Saturday have to visit the post office.  Talk with you peeps later.

The beat goes on

Heard an update from the Congressman’s Office they said the mortgage company informed them that the account was under review for a modification.  They want me to call in tomorrow to find out if they need any additional documentation.  You and I both know those bastards are going to ask for something.  Here we go on the long journey and I think that it will probably be another 4 month ride.  I am so done with these people.

I am not looking forward to talking with them, but I am interested to see what they have to say. 

My so called friend applied for Unemployment.  The company is fighting it – they even have photos of her sleeping on the job.  I really find that hard to believe.  I was talking about her last night with another friend of mine and I have come to the conclusion that my so called friend is mentally ill.  I am not contacting her and keeping my distance, we shall see how long it takes her to reach out to me.  My guess is this will go on for a while.  Not at the top of my list of worries.

The list of worries goes Mortgage, Big Boy and so on.  No word from the Post Office regarding my application for the additional services.  I am thinking I will probably have to visit them in person.  Not sure if I should push it now or wait.  I really would like the service as it could help save me time and money. 

Yesterday all I got was a couple of catalogs and a notice from Medicare about an adjusted claim they processed for my late partner.  I am wondering with this Medicare thing if we will be in the year 2020 and I will still be getting letter regarding adjusted claims.  This claim was from 2011 which was 2 years ago.  Now they some how figured that the provider may bill him $50.  I say bill away, he won’t pay and neither will I.

Thinking about supper tonight, really want something uber good, over the top because it’s been a stressful week.  However, I think I will probably save that for Friday. It will be something frozen like maybe a Pot Pie or Mexican.  Hey there is a new idea a Mexican Pot Pie.  Beans, Rice, Beef, Cheese, Some mild sauce put it in a pie shape and bake it up.  Sounds good.

Not exactly looking forward to the weekend.  Claw Trimming time.  That little girl and I are bonding and when I have to do things like trim her claws, it put a bump in our relationship.  I hate that. 

I’ve gotten home later than normal the past two nights because I stay to talk with a co-worker who is  chatty kathy.  Tonight I am going to try to get out of here and home on-time.  I’ve been missing the opening of Dirty Pop so I come in mid program and have no idea what is going on. 

Need to find out when candy day is, where I live they move Halloween up to give the kids candy nights and then on Halloween they throw a Halloween Parade.  I just need to know when I should turn the lights off and keep the house dark.  No candy from me. 

I’ve got an hour to go and really don’t want to find anything to do, but I guess I will.  This will probably be the longest hour of the day, since I want it to go by really fast.

My co-worker that talks a lot wants me to join a gym with her.  Its in our office building and we could motivate each other.  Yeah, I would rather buy a burger than spend money on a gym membership.  Don’t take life too seriously no one gets out alive.  I’m over weight and I wil never have the body of Travis Stork, Paul Vandervort or any other good looking guy.  So I am happy with what I have as long as it keeps on working.

Time to go.  Talk with you folks later.  Be well.

Breaking News–Mortgage Issue

So I heard from the Congressman’s office today and from the way it sounds now the mortgage company isn’t willing to work with me because my name isn’t on the loan.  I have asked them for clarification about payment modification but they really prefer that I obtain a loan in my name and pay them off.

Now I’d love nothing more than to do that but problem is I don’t qualify because of my bankruptcy.  I think they have lost sight there is a human being involved here.  If they don’t work with me then my only choice is to stop paying them.  That will cause 1 of 2 things to happen.  1 – They will start to foreclose, in which case I can live here for a year before they kick me out.  But think of all of the money I will have saved.  2 – They will go oh my gosh, why didn’t you say something we can work with you. 

Basically I see it as they are forcing my hand.  I am not going to do anything rash just yet but I am not too far off from it. 

I’m told I will know more tomorrow, will let you know what I hear.  I am not holding my breath.

The one thing that amazes me is you get a different answer each time you call depending upon who you talk to.  You’d think they would at least be consistent in their responses.  I pointed that out to the Congressman’s Office but they chose to over look it. 

From the way it sounds I am screwed and not in a pleasurable way.  I feel like the only way out of this is to jump off a bridge.  What a HUGE nightmare.  I want it to end – I am looking for closure and to be able to exhale, this is just prolonging that. 

Cold and Wet

If you like cold and wet, then you’d love it here.  Rainy and in the 60’s.  Not exactly a good day for a fire drill.  Still waiting to hear when it’s going to happen.  I don’t want to do it today but I wish they would get it over with or someone would tell me when it’s going to happen.

So today is back to work in the US.  My contact in the Congresman’s office is back to work but only for a few days then he will be on furghlogh again.  I hope they figure this out and get the government back to work.  At any rate he promissed to follow up with the mortgage company and said that he would be in touch, I was at the top of his list so that made me feel good.  However that was at 9:30 and it’s about 12:30 now. 

Today is what I refer to as a double mail day.  So I am sure that I will be overloaded with stuff to go through and occupy my time.  It felt kind of strange last night going straight home.  Plus eating and no letters or bills to look at.  That is okay I would like more night like last night. 

The movie I was watching was called The Wise Kids.  It ended on a good note.  I started watching a comedian and fell asleep in the middle because I was just wiped out.  I went to bed at 9 pm, which is very early for me.  However, I needed it.

Got a few people out ill, wonder if they ate something together.  One lady just went home today.  Whatever it is I don’t want it. 

Shy Girl let me pet her in the open, she was close to her mother so that helped.  I even grabbed a paw, she wasn’t too happy about that.  This is claw trimming weekend and I am not too happy about that.  I wish her claws never grew to where they needed trimming but that won’t happen.  I hope that this time is easier than last time and she realizes that I am not there to hurt her but to help her.  She loves me when I have food but not when I have the clippers and brush. 

Well time to get back to beating the drum.  I’ve got some appointments this afternoon so hopefully that will help make the day go by faster.  Things are slowing down and I like that but I worry because if this boss man sees it then he might overload me again.  Lord knows I don’t need that. 

I hope your all having a good day.  Talk with you again soon. 

Happy Thanksgiving–Happy Columbus Day

Dual holidays!  According to my office calendar today is Thanksgiving in Canada.  It’s also Columbus Day here in the US.  Which would explain why there weren’t too many cars out this morning.  I hope everyone that slept in stays home tonight so my commute home will be easy. 

No need to stop for mail since it’s a holiday, I won’t have any.  Salad for supper and maybe some left over Mexican, depending upon how I feel.  Then it’s trash time and finally I can relax for the night, before getting ready to do it all over again on Tuesday. 

What a long day this has been.  I didn’t have nearly the volume of work I had on Friday, but that should hopefully change tomorrow.  I like it when the days go by fast and I am busy, not crazy busy but busy. 

Nothing much new since last night.  Shy Girl is mimmicing her mother.  She grabs a ball and starts crowing like her head is falling off.  She bats the damn thing around and chases after it.  I would have never thought she would do anything like that.  Maybe just maybe someday she will sit in my lap.  She jumped on my bed this morning while I was eating breakfast.  Just curled up by the pillows.  Momma was close by and when she left so did her girls.  I wonder if she gets tired of them following her around?  I know I sure would. 

TAZ has tried to pick a fight with Blu multiple times yesterday and I had to break it up.  Apparently there is something in his craw, because otherwise he wouldn’t bother.  If you make him mad, he doesn’t forget but he doesn’t necessarily act out right away.  I hope I never make him mad.  I did trim both of their claws yesterday.

The weekend provided time to relax which I needed and I will need again after 5 days.  The weather here is changing and it’s cold in the morning.  I am hopeful that my body just adapts to the change w/o causing any problems.  Today would be a day that I would look forward to going home to Chili, homemade not a can.  However, my salad will be just fine.  Plus I have cake to eat – 4 slices one for each day and Friday go out or eat ice cream or maybe both!

I am done with work but the clock isn’t moving it’s a little after 4 here.  I have other things to do but don’t want to get wrapped up in anything right now.  You start, leave and then come back wondering where you left off at. 

I am watching a good movie on Netflix.  It’s about a kid who is growing up and about to graduate High School.  He’s gay and is a Christian.  He has told one friend and they disagree with him and tell him that it’s wrong.  He also kissed another guy in the movie who brought him a video camera for his birthday.  I was getting sleepy so I had to turn it off, looking forward to picking up and seeing it to the end tonight. 

There is nothing quite like a good movie to take you away from everyday life and let you see other people or just entertain you with laughter. 

Okay I’m not sure what else to type so before I get to rambling I will call this post done.  Talk with you peeps later. 

2 quick things

1 – Changed up the blog.  In searching for a photo, I learned NPH got a nipple piercing.  HOT that just makes me wish even more I was David Burtka!

2 – Lyrics to a song I listen to from time to time, there is a lot of truth in here.  I removed the Chorus.

Lazyboy – This is the truth

One life, one shard, one move, one God
You don't win silver, you lose gold
Stop earning the right to be, you won the day you were born
If you don't know what direction you should take
You don't know where you are
Success is a matter of luck, ask any failure
Never let a fool kiss you, or a kiss fool you
We are born naked, wet, and hungry, then things get worse
Your success is measured by your ability to finish things
Skepticism is the beginning of faith
Forgive your enemies but never forget their names
There is no such thing as right or wrong, only consequences
All men are born equal but quite a few of them eventually get over it
We are the people our parents warned us about
Sometimes I think the surest sign of intelligent life exists
Elsewhere in the universe, is that none of them have tried to contact us
Be nice to nerds, chances are you'll end up working for one
Do not get mad with others because
They know more than you, it is not their fault
If you do not change your beliefs, your life will always be like this
Fantasy is as important as wisdom
Do not try to satisfy everyone
The biggest lie you can tell yourself is
"When I get what I want I will be happy"
Don't take life too seriously you won't get out alive
It may be that your sole purpose in life is
Simply to serve as a warning to others
Life is shorter than expected
What you are willing to accept
Is exactly what you will get
You can't control, without being controlled
Creativity is great but plagiarism is faster
You are the very reason for everything that happens to you
Someone said to Voltaire, "Life is hard"
Voltaire replied, "Compared to what?"

Here is the song, in case you’d like to listen to it.

My Cloud

Last night I was goofing around with my iPhone and decided to turn on iCloud backup.  They give you 5GB and well I was almost out of space.  So this morning I decided to signup that it would be a good deal, since every night when my phone is charging it would be backed up as well, why not.  I’ve seen a lot of people bit by the data loss bug and man do they cry the blues.  I’ve been bitten myself, so I think $40 is a decent investment for 1 year of service.  Plus that will cover both my iPhone and iPad not like I am getting any other Apple devices soon.

I got up way too early, but laid in bed for most of the morning.  Finally close to 9:30 I got up.  No shower, just dressed and out the door.  I went to breakfast at Bob Evans.  Not too bad but I wasn’t stuffed by any means.

Then on to the grocery store, but I took my time getting there.  I opened the sun roof and let the wind in, it’s a great day to just go for a drive.  On a day like this we would be out driving around somewhere just looking at what the world has to offer, maybe tracking down where a particular road goes.  I’d probably be bored 1/2 way through and fuss, then we would probably grab a bite to eat and take our time getting home.  We used to do things just like that.  Those are the things that I miss.  Fall was his favorite time of year.  It brought out his Testosterone.  But we also did manage to have plenty of good times going to the winery, driving around, eating out and just being together. 

I’ve got the windows open and the cats are going nuts.  I tried to take a nap but kept getting woke up by cats.  It’s probably for the best, sleep all day and I won’t sleep tonight.  I really don’t have much drive to do anything other than relax. 

I got the dishes done last night.  The laundry is going now and soon it will be trash time.  Then I have to figure out what is for supper tonight.  Frozen something.  I mean I could go out but I will talk myself out of it and just stay home because it’s cheaper.  Although there is a place not too far away that I have in mind to visit.

I’m using my Hulu Plus subscription but me and it don’t exactly get along.  I’ve got to go visit their webpage and see if I can personalize things much like Netflix allows.  You tell it what your interested in and they show you things that may appeal to you.  Granted most of it doesn’t but on occasion they hit the nail on the head. 

Reading medical records and writing the letter to the nurse have drugged up so many memories.  It’s like I am reliving April over again.  I actually thought about driving the letter over and hand delivering it but I changed my mind because well, that would be a little expensive and emotionally I don’t think I could have taken it.  When I left the Neuro ICU in April I said I would never be back and unless something traumatic happens I have no reason to go back.  I learned that they really tried to break up the clot by squirting it with Heparinized Saline and giving him Heparin, which is a blood thinner.  They did everything they could think of to try to right the wrong that was done, but unfortunately their efforts were in vain.  The damage had already been done and nothing they could do would fix it.  They documented that he stopped taking 1/2 of his meds because of cost reasons.  I never said that, but they put words in my mouth.  I honestly have no idea why he stopped taking his medicine.  The best that I can surmise is that he was confused, thought he was out of the medication and was waiting for a new supply to arrive.  I really wish things would have turned out differently.  You know that I we would have been at least able to communicate and say goodbye, but that didn’t happen either.  I went in and talked to a body laying in a bed, but he was comatose.  Everyone says you have to believe he could hear you.  The truth is I will never know, it’s just one of many things that I will go to my grave wondering about. 

I do know that we made our love clear to each other.  Sure we had bad times and we fought.  We had times where our relationship was on the rocks.  However, love sees you through times like that.  There is no doubt in my mind that he knew I loved him because I showed it in my actions.  I know that he loved me because he told me all the time.  He wasn’t a materialistic person like me, but there are a few gifts he gave to me.  Plus many valuable life lessons.  Now it’s just time for me to close that chapter of my life and move on.  Much easier said than done.  He was and will always be my everything. 

I can only hope and pray that God brings some other man into my life and that I can be blessed with a relationship like I had.  Right now I am just trying to breathe and honestly forget about the pain that I am in.  Work and staying busy helps with that.  However, there is always down time and that is usually when memories come alive and I think of what used to be.  I wake up in the morning hoping to see him and then realize oh yeah he’s gone.  I look at the urns and realize this is not a dream it’s reality and I have to keep on going. 

People say I should see someone for my depression.  Really?  I don’t think I am in depression, I think I am grieving a huge loss.  No one knows what I really had but me.  Everyone grieves differently.  It’s not like there is a schedule where you are only allowed 2 months to grieve for the loss of a spouse. You take your time to get it out of your system as much as possible.  Then you simply get used to the fact that they are no longer here.  You dust yourself off and get going again.  I’m going right now but haven’t completing the dusting off.

Well laundry and the children are calling.  So I guess I will answer them and maybe even get a shower.  What a grand idea.  Then figuring out what I am going to eat. 

I do apologize for being a Debbie Downer, I know people aren’t attracted to that but at the same time I have to have an outlet to share my feelings and well this is it!  I hope your having a great weekend and I will talk with you peeps later. 

Overcharged

Today must have been overcharge day.  I went to Lowe’s to get furnace filters, 5 in a pack for $2.50, I grabbed two packs.  The clerk scans each filter and says that will be $25.  I said they are $2.50 a pack – she confirms with head cashier, voids sale and re-rings.  $6 with tax.  Much better!

On to Target for cat litter, allergy pills, deodorant and shaving cream.  I didn’t realize it until hours after I had been home, but the cashier rang up 2 allergy medications, which explains why the price was so high.  I went back and explained my story, I figured that I would have a fight on my hands.  Nope, scanned receipt, scanned item.  Refund issued, no questions asked. 

You really have to watch them at the cash register, everyone makes mistakes but I think some people just try to pull fast ones.

Yesterday leaving the office the elevator was about to close.  I stuck my arm in it and opened it for the hot guy I like.  He was wearing jeans.  Man his butt looked so good!  I wanted to jump him in the elevator but he’s straight, married and there were way too many people.  Ah dreaming is no charge.

I found out that our Fire Drill is Monday.  I am really not looking forward to that, other than the slight interruption in my work day.  It will be organized chaos because no one in our office has been told a meeting place or where we are supposed to go.  Ah well we will figure it out soon enough.

The special food I was getting for Big Boy doesn’t appeal to him anymore, so he wants regular food.  I am so afraid he will stop eating on me.  I bought him different special food, some of which is Fancy Feast.  I know he will gobble that up, it’s small but expensive.  His treats were on sale today a large bag for $0.89 when they are normally $2 for a small bag.  Why not stock up?

I called back and spoke with the Mortgage company yesterday, as I suspected they can’t take information over the phone.  I was told to complete the forms, fax them in and then make weekly status calls like a convicted felon checking in with his probation or parole officer.  I told them in a letter you know how to reach me, so if you need something contact me.  I will try to call you weekly but that might not always happen as I do have to work for a living and my work can be demanding at times.  I sent copies to the congressman's office.  I really hope they will stick by me through this process, I think that will be the HUGE difference here.  Perhaps it may compel them to fast track this because lord knows I have been waiting for a while.  I have also updated my attorney who was going to call and talk with them.  However, I’m not sure what involvement she should have at this point.  So I asked her.  Waiting for a response. 

I found the nurses name that was with my partner in his final hours.  I wrote and sent her a thank you letter.  Wow, that was a tear jerker.  What do you say, not typically a problem for me.  I did chose my words carefully. 

Resubscribed to Hulu Plus so that I can see Glee.  Watched the goodbye episode to Finn (Corey Montieth).  That was emotional and I had some phone interruptions so that saved me from totally breaking down. 

Now it’s on to cleaning the litter boxes, grabbing some ice cream and winding down for the night.  I will be back up early again tomorrow finishing up things and headed to the grocery store.  That trip I love to hate.  Going back to the regular store, just hope I can find everything that I need/want because they just rearranged it. 

Went out to eat tonight, saw a former relative of my partners.  Caught up with her.  Which is something that I have been trying to do for a while.

So average weekend – nothing special.  Just enjoying time at home with the kids and hopefully able to catch some good TV.  I wanted to go see Don Jon but talked myself out of it.  I’ll probably order it when it’s available on Pay Per View through Cable. 

Take care and I will talk with you peeps later!

Busy

The one day I come in early to chat with co-workers and no one is in yet.  See I  knew I should have stayed in my car and watched Youtube videos, like normal. 

I called the mortgage company, they said we have to start the process all over again.  Now they need my gross and net income as well as my monthly expenses.  I have to call them back today and provide this.  I thought they could just go off of all of the paperwork that they made me fill out over the past 4 months but no, we have to start all over because I was denied.  How stupid is that.  It’s not like anything has actually changed, but thankfully it has.  I found a huge mistake that I made so my expenses are actually more than before.  The deficit each month is huge.  Income isn’t that high and well I have to do something to cover the deficit. 

So I guess it will be another merry go round for 4 months.  I plan on completing the paperwork they sent over the weekend because I know they will be asking for it next.  I am sending it to the congressman and letting his office submit it, so they will actually hang on to it and not misplace it.  I was amazed at the number of times I had to resend documents.  The thing is they play this little game with everyone, but it seems like they are just picking on me.  After talking with lots of people I came to the conclusion that they do this to everyone.  Why, is beyond my understanding.  I guess it’s a way to get more money out of people.  There is so much more to life than money!

I got my partners medical records from the hospital that he passed away in.  They had them in reverse order so the first thing I saw is when he died.  Reading that was like he passed all over again.  There are 89 pages and I have to shell out $50 for them.  I scanned them and sent them to the attorney that was looking into the wrongful death case.  While there is no case he said that if I get them to pass them along to him because he would like to review them.  It is very doubtful that there is anything there but one never knows.  I explained that I wasn’t looking to get billed, so if there is a charge he can forget it.  I have thoughts about looking for another attorney for a 2nd opinion but right now the house issue is a little more important.

Talking with a friend last night, he said it best.  You just can’t seem to catch a break.  How accurate he is! 

I am working on the mail upgrade at work and I am really booked today, so I need to run.  Looking forward to the weekend and resting – getting to be lazy is about my only perk these days.  Well that and napping.  I look so forward to my nap on the weekend.

Happy Friday, we made it through another week.  Be well and I will talk with you again soon. 

Mortgage Help–Maybe

I heard from the legislators office today.  Apparently the current lender is willing to work with me.  They want me to complete and send them paperwork that I have previously filled out and sent multiple times.  I sent copies to the legislators office, they will in turn forward them and I was pretty well assured that they won’t loose them.

I have to call the current lender, I may try tomorrow but more likely to try on Friday.  People tend to be in a better mood because it’s Friday.  Now I am not holding my breath but what I have been told makes it sounds like this is all going to work out peachy.

The guy more like kid that is helping me with this is cute.  I did a Google search for him.  I see a Twitter and a Google + but I don’t see a FB.  Just being nosy but I’d like to know his age and if he is gay.  I mean he seems to be well with solving problems.  Lord knows I have a lot of problems!  I will offer to buy him a drink and/or a meal.  I’m sure he will turn it down because it will look like I am bribing him which is totally not the case. I am truly thankful for his help.  I just want to extend a kind gesture.  If he accepts and something comes of it, great.  If not well maybe I can just make a new friend. 

I started WW3 in the office today.  Someone made changes to a system that I administer.  This was done without my consent and/or knowledge.  I knew that if I didn’t know about it chances are that my boss didn’t know about it either.  My phone was just vibrating like crazy on the way in with people screaming for help.  Once things fell into to place, I told my boss and holy crap that unleashed his venom.  Thankfully it wasn’t directed at me.  He was pleased that I told him.  It felt odd like I was running to the teacher but this is exactly what he wants.  Okay, so maybe I scored a point or two today.  I finished up my inventory spreadsheet and got that turned in.  I am just praying he doesn’t pick it apart and have all sorts of issues with it.  Meanwhile I am moving on to the next project. 

Came home to find out that Big Boy finally went to the bathroom.  Today was day #2 and I knew that his system eventually had to cycle.  I only gave him a little bit of a stool softener and it still made a big mess.  I got that cleaned up and got him cleaned up as well.  I told him if you keep pushing your going to blow your asshole out.  I mean I am cleaning up some blood, it’s not a lot but I know it’s all from him straining.  Not sure if Cats get hemorrhoids but if they do, I think I will be finding out soon enough.  He’s still eating and lapping up the attention so all is good.  I am just hypersensitive to him and every little thing with him sets me on edge. 

Well time to prep for Thursday.  What a week!  Talk with you peeps later.

Tuesday

Average day.  Got yelled at because I didn't copy my boss on something.  He is either very paranoid or trying to get rid of me or both.  At this point I've realized there isn't much for me to do but my job and the rest will take care of its self or so I hope.

Talked w my so called friend she told me that everyone in the office knows I'm gay.  I said who cares.  Those people are so shallow and after what I have been through I could care less.

Then she tells me she is suing them for what sounds like wrongful termination.  They fired her for sleeping on the job.  She was a huge disappointment to me but she would never sleep on the job.  I'm sure she will get something out of it.  All I can say is when does my ship come in?

Jumper is whirring at me and now licking my arm like its a spare rib.  We're waiting for Mr Tosh to air.

My phone battery is about shot so it's time to post and watch tv.  Saw Nick Carter on The Doctors.  He ain't that good looking now.  Wonder how his brother Aaron looks?

Long day short night no flight :). A diamond a day keeps the divorce lawyer away.  Ttyl!