Long time no chat

Sorry for the delay in communications, I have been a busy guy and there just hasn’t been enough time in the day to make a post.  However, here I am now.

The kids …. they are all doing okay.  I trimmed Shy Girls nails yesterday and she isn’t due again until next year.  That should make her very happy.  Big Boy has continued to pee on the carpet, so much so that I don’t think there is any hope of removing the damage that was done.  I have gone at it with a steam cleaner, you put down fresh hot water and pull up cat pee.  Repeat the process and eventually you are tired, worn out and there appears to be no end in site.  I have retreated the area with urine remover but don’t think that it will do much good.  I’d like to put a diaper on him.  I have also managed to trim all of the other cats claws.  Momma was really upset.  She cries out each nail I trim and fights with me.  She is almost as bad as her daughter but I don’t have to use welding gloves for Momma, plus she is very easy to capture.

Saturday I was sitting in the hair cut place and my phone rang, it was the dentist.  They asked me if I would be interested in coming in today for a cleaning.  I said what time do you have, and then I was able to determine it would fit.  So I said yes.  I got my hair cut and my teeth cleaned all in one day.  Only good news from the dentist, all looks fine.  I am so thankful of that!  I visited the pet food store as well  The guy I had been chatting with was working, it took him forever to notice me.  I had my phone number written down and was planning on giving it to him but he never got in close proximity of me and I didn’t want to make a scene.  I am not sure if he is out at work.  Plus I was thinking maybe he really isn't all that interested after all.  I mean if he was you would have think he would have provided a way for me to reach him, besides heading over to the pet food store.  It’s a gamble as to when I will find him there because his schedule is always changing.  I still have my number written down and next week when I go in, I hope that he is working the register, if so i will happily pass him my number.  Otherwise it will be business as usual.

The dilemma that I face now is what to do with Grindr.  I mean there are some hot guys on there, I am getting hesitant to reach out because of al of the rejection I have encountered.  I don’t have to pay but by paying if someone becomes a pain the ass you can block them and you have unlimited blocking.  Plus you have additional search features you can use, to help narrow down the potential of finding mr. right or mr. right now.  I have other sites that are expiring and don’t plan on renewing them.  The app that I got my first date out of is one of them.  That guy hasn’t talked to me for a month and I think he finally has seen the light.  I did want to be friends but we don’t need to talk every day or even every week.  I saw that he signed on yesterday which I thought good for him, he is still looking.  You certainly won’t find someone if you just sit back and wait for them to appear in your life.  I wish it worked that way but it doesn’t.  You have to make it happen. 

Friday night I received a letter asking me to call in about my health insurance.  I logged into the on-line portal to see what was going on and there is a past due balance of $32  If my cost is nothing then how can I owe anything?  Turns out they didn’t properly bill me in July & September of 2013, so I need to pay them.  Actually they are just taking back part of the refund they issued me.  If I don’t pay by the 1st of the month, they will cancel my coverage.  That won’t be a problem, I will have them paid tonight when I get home. 

Yesterday was grocery shopping day and I really wanted Cinnamon rolls.  Mind you that I don’t need them, but I thought well stopping for breakfast I could order one.  Nope not on that restaurants menu any longer.  So I bought a package at the store.  I made them last night and they were in the oven a little too long.  Nothing is worse than a burnt Cinnamon roll.  I ate one and had plenty of milk, it wasn’t the best but it cured my desire.  I had another one this morning with breakfast.  I have 2 more to eat and then they will be all gone. 

I went out for Pizza on Saturday afternoon and had left over pizza all day yesterday.  Tonight I think will be a soup night.  It’s cold outside, we have had our first snow.  It was very minor. The driveway cleared it’s self, that is the kind of snow that I like.  Speaking of which Lawn Boy was supposed to show up last week.  I mailed his check and then came home only to find that he never stopped by.  There was no evidence at all that he had been there.  I can normally tell.  So I thought I would write and get a refund but it’s only $30 so I may use it as an ethical test to see if he will keep it, give me credit or just pocket it and say nothing.  Although rather than set myself up for disappointment, I may just ask for the money back.  

No word from my family at all, it’s been quiet.  Last night at 8:30 the phone rang and I thought for sure it would most likely be my mom, but it wasn’t.  It was a toll free call, so I went back to what I was doing and let voice mail take the call.  They hung up.  I guess it wasn’t that important after all.  Besides that I can’t fathom what business would have called me at such an odd late hour on a Sunday night. 

The extra time that I used last week in coming to work twice, well instead of getting time off, my boss is paying me for it.  I marked it down on my time card today because she asked me to.  I didn’t really want that, it would be better for me to have time away.  Well, money in the bank is a much better solution.  I know my creditors will like that.  I am already saving for the 1st house payment that I will have to make on the 1st of December.  Still no word if the loan was sold or not and of course no refund of money yet.  Perhaps that will happen this week.  By law they have 30 days to send me any refund that is due.

I am happy that I got all of the lease computers swapped out.  Now I have the chore of sending back all of the old equipment and packing that is turning out to be quite the challenge but I will get it done.  The sooner it leaves the better off I will be.  It has to be at our headquarters by Friday.  The asset gut doesn’t think I will be able to pull it off, but I don’t see anything standing in my way.  I’d like to get it out today but I still have 1 laptop left to wipe.  2 of the swaps went well with little incident.  The other 2 well there were some problems.  At least the 2nd lady is nicer than the 1st lady was. 

I almost didn’t make it in, I was up too late, had a Charlie Horse about an hour before it was time to get up and then the alarm went off  I so didn’t want to go and didn’t think that I would make it but here I am and were on the downhill slide, in that it’s closer to 530p than it was when I walked in the door this morning.  Ah, putting a Monday behind me, that sounds rather good.  This is the last full week before Thanksgiving and I am so looking forward to it.  As for now it’s back to work.  I hope all is well in your world and that its warmer where you are than where I am at.  Talk with you peeps again soon!

Grindr No More

So I received a message back from the Pet Food Store Guy.  He told me that he is deleting Grindr because it’s just a bunch of Horny Alcoholics'.  He says that he goes through this every 3 months or so and once he reconfirms his reasons he deletes the app.  He said the he will see me at the store.  Yeah, but how are we gonna connect to have a bite to eat?  I guess maybe we will exchange numbers, I dunno  That was a little crushing because I’ve been living to chat with him, it’s been something nice and that I looked forward to doing.  Well, I suppose that is over with.  Kind of glad I didn’t rush into renew my subscription, so in a small way he did me a favor by telling me up front and I am thankful for that.

The afternoon is rapidly winding down.  I am looking forward to see what came in the mail, mail a check and letter to Lawn Boy telling him that lawn season is done.  He had to anticipate that since our temps just took a rapid drop and will be at or below freezing for the next few days.  That will kill the grass among other things.  Welcome to Winter, even though it’s still fall.  I am having a bowl of canned chili, putting in some crackers, cheese and some sour cream.  Then it is TV night … Modern Family, The Middle, and some other show that I can’t think of the name of right now.  Time to sit with the kids and let them beg me for attention. 

2 more days, then were done – back to the weekend.  I have to get a watch battery, a hairs cut, shop for cat food and the rest of the usual weekend stuff.  This brings us a week closer to Thanksgiving.  Next week I have an off site event that I have to go to in order to provide Audio Visual support.  Really they don’t need me, the people at the facility run everything but they want me there just in case.  I suspect that I will be able to leave early and call it a day, which will be nice.  Time off or time away from this place is a very good thing, despite the fact that I am really happy here. 

Ah, just feel a little empty now.  Back to work and soon back to traffic.  Have a pleasant evening! 

Yesterday & Today

Yesterday was a very unique day.  I arrived at work and there was a mass exodus in the parking garage.  I rolled down my window and asked the folks going home, what was up.  They said the buildng is closed, no water.  There was a water main break.  I got to a safe place in the garage and checked my phone.  Just because someone else said the building is closed, doesn’t mean my employer is closed.  I looked on my phone and sure enough, we were closed.  So I came home.  I figured wow, I got the day off.  Not so fast!

I did squeeze in a nap and I put my phone on DND.  Lucky for me I woke up minutes after my boss sent me an email and said please call me.  I called and she asked me to come in, the server room was overheating.  Who knew that Commercial AC ran on water?  Not me.  In any case I drove over at 90mph because I didn’t know what I was getting into an knowing that if equipment overheats it could either 1 break or 2 shutdown because it’s too hot.  I made it in plenty of time and got some fans going.  The temp wasn’t the killer it was the humidity.  So 3 fans and the door propped open did the trick.  I used 3 hours of my time and my boss is going to tell me later on today what to do with those 3 hours.  Yesterday she said something about me leaving early.  Matters not to me, money or time off – either way it’s a WIN!  I got such accolades yesterday and a lot of the higher ups were copied in.  I was just doing my job, but the praise is helpful.  I was sitting in the lobby telling a friend on the phone that this place really does take care of it’s people.  Unless something goes horribly wrong I really don’t see leaving this place, despite the fact that I hate dealing with the traffic.  It’s an inconvenience but well worth it. 

All is back to normal today.  The best part about yesterday was that I got in on Taco Tuesday at a bar that is close to my house.  Me and my late partner would go there specifically for that.  I was wearing what was his leather coat yesterday and I sat at ‘our table’.  It kind of felt like he was there in spirit.  I don’t get to stop in there very often, the last time I was at the start of the year when I had my car fixed.  So it’s been a while.  Food was so good and it was very cheap, with the exception of soda.  They charge $2 for a glass.  Comes with refills but $2 … that is a little high, I think.

Today as I said we are back to business as usual.  I got here early thinking I would have cleanup to take care of.  I was right but the door to the server room was closed, so at least someone was looking out for me.  They also took down my sign.  I got a phone call from a co-worker in another office.  He asked me if I had room for another body I said sure.  When are you coming to visit  He said oh I am not coming to visit, I am coming to stay.  Looks like it will be around Christmas.  We have the same boss but work on different teams, he is actually someone I got to know when I was in training.  We have a decent relationship, I just wish he didn’t smoke so much  Who knows maybe he quit, I mean people do change. 

So I am all discombobulated today in trying to put my desk back in order, we had a cleaning company come in to clean everyones desk.  The events of yesterday, I wasn’t properly scheduled for today but slowly it’s coming together.  So is the day for that matter, it’s going to be over with in the blink of an eye.  Still there is plenty to do here. 

Things at home are good.  I have been doing the Grindr thing and the pet food store guy appears to either be losing interest or tied up with other people.  We are messaging less and less, that freaks me out in that maybe we won’t make a go of things.  I know he isn’t the only ‘fish’ in the sea but I am all about finding someone and starting over.  I guess perhaps I am too desperate.  His whole stay focused on school thing has me concerned as well, I mean all I litterally want to do is share a meal or get a drink, that’s it.  It’s not like I am looking to go have sex, I just want to talk and interact.  We may click and we may not.  I will tell you buying cat food won’t ever be the same after this experience.  Plus I checked and my Grindr subscrption expires next week.  I really don’t wan to renew for another 3 months but I suppose I will, just because of him.  However, all of the other subscriptions well they are just going to drop, the day that happens will probably be the day that the next love of my life comes along to message me and I won’t be around to get the message.  I mean that is kind of how my luck works. 

Well I got interuppted at lunch and now am finishing this, then I have to go work on a PC for someone, she has been waiting days.  It seems to be one thing after another.  I am so thankful that this person is patient but I know I can only take that so far before she gets upset.  At least she is aware I am working on it, so that helps. 

Off I go because, I owe, I owe, I owe.  Did you know that they give an award for the best dentist?  Yeah it’s a little plaque.  I liked it, hope you did too.  :)  Be good to each other and I will talk with you peeps later.

Scared away

I checked Grindr from work off and on all day today.  I just logged on and then my work phone rang.  He was on-line but I had to tend to work.  Well he hasn’t messaged me since I asked about getting a bite to eat.  Maybe he thinks I have an ulterior motive but that is not the case.  I messaged one more time and said I hope I didn’t freak you out.  That is as much as I am going to do.

The rest will be up to him.  I kind of fell for him already but I have only an emotional investment at this point and while it will suck, I can get over it.  Been there, done that and got the shirt.  I did get a message from someone who is a year older than me, works very close by … he just said hi.  I know I know him from some place but can’t put my finger on it. I didn’t answer him back because he is looking for fwb, which means friends with benefits.  So he wants to be friends and have sex, but no commitment.  Yeah, I am not all about sleeping around.  I am sure that if I was I could probably reel them in a lot quicker.  What I am looking for is a very rare and thus it’s going to take a while, probably longer than I want to wait.

Well now to top off my day by adding some weight to my hips, Ben & Jerry’s here I come.  Talk more soon. 

Crazy Monday

So I am obsessed with Grindr and doing the chat thing with the guy from the pet food store. He is still chatting with me knowing my age, that is a shocker.  This morning he asked why I was single at my age.  I told him, I’m sure inside he feels embarrassed for asking, but I told him not to worry about it, he didn’t know and it was a fair question.  At this point I am wondering if this is going to work out or if he will just run away like everyone else has so far  I mean the age thing between us really isn’t a big deal, 6 years.

He is way opposite from me in that he has a college degree, he works out, is in shape and loves meat & potatoes.  He is into politics and activism.  In the way that my late partner and I were opposite, but we attracted each other and eventually melded into one.  I made the bold move a few minutes ago and asked him if he wanted to grab a bite to eat sometime or get a drink.  I’m very interested in his response, and perhaps I am moving way too fast.  However, I think if we cut out the back and forth of chatting and meet in person we can get to know each other faster and then I think we will have a better idea if this is going to click.  If nothing else perhaps he could be a really good friend. 

A lot of my subscriptions to these on-line dating sites are expiring and I have no plans for renewal, because they haven’t done much for me.  Grindr I suppose being the exception to the list because I have unlimited blocking ability and there are some strange people out there.

Work today is like a whirlwind, I have been pulled in many different directions and now I am savoring in the few minutes that I have to myself.  I have to go setup for a meeting in a few minutes.  I am going to be late, because these things are always delayed and they never start the testing on time.  Besides that it’s my lunch time and I am tired. 

I did manage to find myself with a bit of extra energy this morning and songs from my phone just played like they were the best ever.  Maybe it’s because of the pet food store guy maybe its just because today is the last nice day we are going to have for a while.  Cold tomorrow and snow by the end of the week, winter!

The kids are all doing okay.  Taz threw up on the table cloth so I had to wash it.  The table looks funny bear with just a couple items on it.  Taz and the others love to sleep up there and I will no doubt in days have litter pellets to show me proof that they have in fact been up there.  I don’t know why but Taz loves to lay on wood or wood like surfaces.  He lays by the front door which is a small wooden entry way, he lays on the coffee table and well it’s some form of wood.  He is so cute.  Momma is chewing on herself, need to get her to the vet.  That will cost me another small fortune, because they need to run blood work to check on her thyroid.  Jumper needs to go because he is long overdue for a check up.  I am sure they will want to take blood from him but I am no certain that I will allow it.  He has IBD and well you give him medicine and everything is okay, you withhold medicine and he pukes his guts out, pretty simple. 

Well I suppose I should publish this and get moving, even if it’s still lunch time.  There is more than plenty to do here and that is a good thing in that it makes the day move by really fast.  Talk with you peeps later.

Sunday

I was able to sleep in today and even spent some time in my late partners bed.  It was nice and it’s been a while since I have been in that bed.  I got on Grindr the first thing out of bed and poof a message from the pet food store guy.  We talked back and forth for a bit.  Then I went to breakfast and the grocery store, got gas and hit the pharmacy – then home at last!  I’ve been here ever since and while I wanted to go out for Mexican food tonight, instead I stayed home.  I got a nap with the kids, opened the window and felt the cool breeze.  It was just an all around awesome day.  I could use another day like today.

So got back on Grindr and he asked the dreaded question….how old are you.  I answered that plus several other questions.  He hasn’t been on-line yet to pick up my response.  He’s 36 so not too far behind me.  I hope that my age doesn’t scare him off.  Not that we have exactly had sparks yet.  However, things are on good terms.  When I find a guy that I can converse with it makes being on the app so worth it.  Plus I tend to obsess and am constantly looking for a message.  I really want to hear from him and see what else he has to say.  I pray that this is ‘the one’ but only time will be able to tell me that. 

I am finishing up laundry.  Going to get me a nice shower and shave.  Then to prepare for tomorrow and pass out treats for the kids.  I hope to be able to relax with some TV or a movie.  I watched Robin Williams 2009 performance on Netflix, damn he sure was a funny guy.  It made me realize once again, wow we lost a great person.

I am bored at the moment, feeling the emptiness of the house and how quiet it is.  I moved the scattering urn my late partner is in to the living room so he can be with Blu.  I took the large main urn and moved it to my TV.  It sure is a heavy piece, but it doesn’t look like it.  Cleaned up my dresser a bit, cleaned my jewelry.  I wear my and my late partners wedding rings and a cross on a necklace.  I alternate necklaces between yellow and white gold.  I also make sure that our rings are covered by my shirt, I don’t want to open myself up to questions at work.  I take a break on the weekend and let the jewelry rest.

Next Saturday is payday, time to give more money away.  Speaking of which another weekend and no lawn boy.  He said he would be by in 2 to 3 weeks to trim my bushes.  I think that he forgot about me, if so well there is extra money I can hold on to.  The outside of the house looks like crap, but winter is coming and honestly as long as it’s taken care of by next spring I should be okay.  There is plenty of improvements, cleaning, etc. to do.  A lot of it is on the inside.  There are things that I just can’t or don’t want to part with and most of the cleaning process well it’s something I don’t want to deal with but eventually I know I will have to.  It just sucks!

Okay well the dryer is on it’s count down, so I am going to run.  Tomorrow will be a busy day, as I am sure this entire week will be.  I would like a week of lunch uninterrupted but that is asking for a lot.  Especially because I know we have a department meeting this week and of course it will be on Thursday when the massage lady is in.  I could have really used her services this weekend.  My neck and shoulders are all messed up.

Here’s to a pleasant and fast moving week.  After this one more full week and then it’s Turkey time.  If I said I was counting the days, would that surprise you? 

Saturday

Wow, it’s been a truly amazing day!  I got up and did the usual feed the children and eat breakfast.  Then I got on Grindr and couldn’t pull myself away in time, so I had to drive like a mad man to make it to my therapy appointment.  I was a couple minutes late but my therapist said I was on time.  It was good being able to bring her up to speed.  She is worried that since the holidays are coming that I might need more sessions and offered to refer me to someone locally who could take care of me.  I told her that I really didn’t want to start at square one and tell my story all over again.  So were sticking with 1 time per month.  There is a strong possibility that I won’t be able to see her in December, but we shall see.

After therapy I was tired and really thought long and hard about a nap.  I ventured to the post office where I got a check for $13 for overpayment to the title company.  Nice surprise but it’s not the larger check that I am looking for.  I also learned that if I deposit that check into my virtual checking account vs. my virtual savings account the hold time is only 2 days, whereas in savings it’s 5 days.  Lesson learned!  Then I went on to the pet food store and managed to spend $93 in cat food, treats, litter and urine remover.  Jesus Christ, I nearly shit my pants when she told me the total.  After that I just came home.  I wanted to go out to eat but needed to review my finances.

I played with Grindr a little more.  A cute guy chatted me up and I am all crazy like a school girl about it.  I wanted him to carry the conversation since he started things, but he is slow on the uptake.  I put away the cat food, and then drank a soda.  I got my nap in and it was spectacular, so much so that I wanted another.  However, the house chores were calling. 

I got out the steam cleaner only to learn that the bladder apparently has a small leak in it.  Not too happy.  I cleaned up the urine as best as I could.  The house smelled so I opened the windows.  Momma didn’t like that because she is chewing off her fur and a cool breeze blew in, man she took off like she was on fire.  I had to close the back door to appease her.  I fed them lunch and made a pizza for myself.  It was very good.

Then I yeah fired up Grindr again and holy crap a cashier from the pet food store appeared.  I knew it was him, so I hit him up.  He just responded a little bit ago.  Not sure if we are going to hit it off, but there is only like 7 years difference between us.  He’s not the guy that I have been hot for at the pet food store, but he is a guy and well I mean I wouldn’t kick him out of bed, not that I am actually ready for sex.  He like me is looking for a relationship and he doesn’t want sex at the moment.  So there is a possibility there.

I am breaking out my long sleeve shirts, that means extra laundry for the winter wardrobe change over but it’s time.  I heard from my friends about turkey day and we are all set for a party of 4.  It should be a good time and I am looking forward to it, very much.  Even though I really don’t need the food.  I suppose we will be talking about Christmas and getting together.  It would be nice if I eventually had someone to bring with me or even started a tradition on my own with someone. 

The place where my car is financed through sent me a letter, telling me that because I have been such a good customer and made on-time payments they are offering me the opportunity to skip my December payment.  There will be a charge of $25 and interest accrues as well.  Now since December will be my very last payment to them, why in the world would I want to skip it?  They have made me the same offer for the past 4 years and each time I decline because it will only make the life of the loan longer and cost me more money in the end.  I am eager to pay it off and say that it’s mine!  That will of course make it easier for me to sell, which is a good thing as well as giving me money that I can just pocket.  I will be doing my very best to save, save, save as much and as often as I can.  If things go like I am hoping they will my financial future looks pretty bright – who would have ever thought I would say something so positive?  I realized today in therapy that the world is changing and things are in fact getting better.  There are bumps in the road like with Mr.. Blu but you can and will bounce back from them.  It’s all about moving forward as best as you can and never giving up.

Well off to surf the internet and see what I can learn that has transpired in the adult entertainment world.  The weekend rolls on with 1 more day of fun and hopefully sun too.  Enjoy and I will talk with you peeps later.

Data Loss

Yesterday was a very busy day.  It started off slow and then a flurry of activity happened that was equivalent  to a small tornado. One of the things I got involved with was testing a new mobile device.  In order to get it moved on to our approved list of devices.  It’s pretty rigorous testing and it was my first time going through the process.  I explained to the devices owner that the device would need to be wiped multiple times and that anything that was on the device would be lost.  So I gave him ample time to back up the data.  I am surmising that he didn’t use the cloud that is based on a conversation we had yesterday.  In any case my goal was to provide him outstanding customer service as well as getting him his device back as quickly as possible, but the expectation was set that I would have the device for up to 48 hours.  He really wanted it back in time for use over the weekend.  I totally get that, in fact I am not exactly certain how he managed to part ways with it for the short time I had it. 

In any case I worked feverishly to complete the testing and of course with that came multiple side tracks and distractions.  In any case I was successful and by 5pm I received official word the device passed and was going to be added to our approved list.  This mean that I could wipe the phone and then add the owners work e-mail account.  He said to me this won’t happen until tomorrow, right? I said no I know how to make it happen tonight.  So we proceeded.

I engaged my friend that I started with here, as it’s his first time on-call and he has the power to release devices once they are quarinteened by the system.  Which is what happens when you add a mobile device here.  It goes into a quarinteen so that no unauthorized data leaks out.  Makes perfect sense.  So he said give him 15 minutes and he would take care of it.  I sent him the ticket and noted not to wipe the old device in big capital letters, below that I put you can send this ticket back to me when your done.  He saw the 2nd line but not the first.  I honestly don’t think he read the ticket, he just reacted from the hip/gut and followed protocol which is to wipe the old device and add the new device.  The problem is all of the owners data was on the old device and he was going to re-transfer it to the new device.  Needless to say when the owner figured out that his old device was wiped he was quick to let me know.  I wasn’t quick to respond because when I left late last night, I got tangled up in a traffic mess, I wasn’t home until 7p, which is pretty late considering I left here around 5:45p.  In any case I was quick to get my buddy on the phone and talk with him.  He thought that by issuing the device wipe that it would take out his work data and leave the personal data in tact.  I told him nope, it wipes the whole phone.  I said remember when we first started and I was expressing my concerns about this to you?  Yeah, of course he didn’t.

In any case I wrote the owner back and apologized.  I had to clue my boss in, just in case a complaint surfaced up the pipeline.  I really felt and still feel very bad for all involved.  Data Loss is like losing a person, you actually grieve over those lost photos, contacts, text messages.  I was very nervous about testing because I figured that the device wipe when I was in the testing could have been sent to my phone instead of the test device.  However, my data is backed up every night automatically thanks to iCloud and the storage space I purchased.  So this will no doubt cause him to back up his data and hopefully will cause my buddy to read and proceed slowly when it comes to working with new mobile devices.  Wipe the wrong persons data, even on accident and you could be out of a job, just like that.  I don’t want that to happen to him or anyone.  I am kind of thankful that it wasn’t my mistake.  I did everything that was within my power, short of mentioning it to my friend on the phone, but we struck our verbal agreement about the device after I got him on the phone.  I did get nervous and quickly update the ticket, before I had a regular note in that the old device shouldn’t be wiped, but I erased it and replaced it with the bigger, bolder message – thinking of course that it would stand out and prevent the catastrophe that occurred.

I arrived to the office early this morning, I saw the guys appeared to be in his office and I went over to apologize again, but he wasn’t there.  So I will be checking throughout the day and will eventually catch up to him.  I am honestly not sure what I will say, other than I am so sorry.  I have no idea what he will say but I am pretty certain he will not be pleased.  My boss asked me to keep her posted and I will.  I don’t want this to spiral out of control, as it has the potential to. 

Last nights mail brought me the final determination in my wrongful termination case and I was told that I didn’t have a case at all.  I failed to supply enough evidence to support my claim.  I do have the right to have the EEOC review the case and part of me says let it go and the other part of me says let them have a 2nd look, the worst they can say is sorry you really don’t have a case.  So I will make that decision.  I provided them the name and cell phone number of the co-worker who’s sexuality was in question and who was also terminated due to the same reason I was given.  You would think they would want to vet my complaint by calling her to see if she felt the same way.  I am not certain what she would say and yes I was grasping at straws when I filed this, but I did find it odd that the two people who’s sexuality was not heterosexual were the only ones who were let go.  The company kept on going despite us being told that they were going out of business.  I feel that was a rouse just to get rid of us.  Now of course I could be all wrong but it’s just rather odd how things went down.  Nevertheless, I did cause my old employer to engage an attorney and spend money to fight this, that in its’ self is helpful in knowing that I cost them money.  They purported to say that they would be out of business by November 1st, but I called the old office number and my voice is still on the recording.  You would think they would want to disconnect the phone line if they were in fact out of business.  Just saying!

My room smelled like a cat urine factory last night.  I was not at all pleased but couldn’t find any damage.  I lit a Yankee Candle – Pumpkin Spice and went about my business.  I think the room just picked up the smell from the living room.  I will no doubt be pulling out the steam cleaner and working on the rugs again this weekend.  That is so not what I wanted to do, but I guess it beats being bored.  I am looking forward to the weekend, being able to maybe open the windows get a cool breeze in, relax a little, nap and spend time with the furry family.  Not to mention catch up on TV.  I am hoping for an enjoyable but productive weekend and will try to make the best use of my time.  I do have a therapy appointment tomorrow morning and looking forward to that, it’s like a huge release, plus I am interested in the reaction that I get.  I honestly think that my therapy time is winding down, despite the fact that I still have multiple visits left.  I am using it as a cushion at this point but realize that eventually it will need to come to an end.  That will suck because its’ contact with a human who will listen to me, and since I have few friends it will be a change that I will have to adjust to. 

In other exciting news, it’s Friday!  I am so looking forward to going home tonight and making a pizza.  I will get to use the commercial grade oven mitts that I purchased for the first time.  They are much more of an arm shield, sort of like something I see the staff of a local Mexican restaurant using.  It’s also chilly outside and they are talking ice and flurries early next week but the weekend is supposed to be nice.  I did manage to look at the grass this morning and yeah, we are done for the season.  We had our 2nd frost and it’s starting to turn brown.  I will let Lawn Boy go over it one more time and then I am cutting him off for the year.  We will go back at it next year, until then I can start saving more money, which is always a good thing. 

On the way in I finished my audio book How to Win Friends & Influence People.  This was just a basic lesson in customer service, telling me things that I already knew.  Plus how to manage people, which well I am not an expert on but have done before.  So now I wait until I get my 2 additional credits next month before I make my next selection.  I am eager to browse the library and see what I can find to add to my wish list.  I think a little biography, humor and self help will be the primary targets of the types of books I look towards.  I don’t know how long I will keep the subscription going but I do know that the books I pick are mine forever and I will always have access to my library regardless if I am a current subscriber or not, that is a very good thing!

So what are your weekend plans?  Are you cooking anything special or going out?  Anything to celebrate?  Are you ready for winter and the snow and cold weather that will be rushing in?  I know I ask a lot of questions.  I was quick to end my evening last night but had to check out the dating apps first.  I had a guy send me a message and tell me that he is looking for an LTR as well, he unlocked his private photos which was a nice gesture on his part but we are 100 + miles from each other.  I don’t exactly know how we would ever meet since distance seems to be an issue.  He’s also my age which is kind of nice.  Perhaps things are starting to swing in the right direction, I certainly hope so. 

Well off to work on this laptop and see what else I can accomplish today.  I hope you all have a great weekend!

The Rainbow

The building I work in has a rainbow covered walk way, it looks nice when the sun is out.  At night it’s much better because it’s lighted and all of the colors reflect on to the side walk.  We also have a firepit, that is controlled electronically as well as a wall where water flows down and the lights change colors.  Last night it was beautiful because it was a rainbow of colors.  I’m not sure that the place is trying to display diversity or that they are gay friendly or for gay rights.  However, it’s nice to see the rainbow of color instead of the usual drab colors that fill my daily life.  It was rather uplifting.  Plus it was a crisp night out and just the right amount of wind and chill in the air, perfect night for sitting outside – all though I didn’t do that.

I raced home anxious to see what my bow tie looked like and shoot it’s perfect.  I put it on my polo shirt, like Darin Criss (from Glee) would.  I took a selfie and sent it to a friend.  She said the only thing missing was a smile from my face.  I told her it’s not in my make up to naturally smile.  Plus I was in pain, my back was killing me and the kids didn’t help chirping because they wanted more food.  I didn’t even have my supper yet.  I’ve been told by many people that I should make a conscious effort to smile more.  I find that when I fake it, you can tell 100% that it is fake and not real.  Some people can fake smile their hearts out and you’d never know.  However, I am not one of those people. 

So I am all set for Turkey day.  Got my blue shirt, my red bow tie and probably tan pants that I will wear with my daily shoes and socks.  Hopefully I can get a photo of me smiling.  I’d love to use that for a profile photo – thinking that it just might be the thing to reel in the guys. 

Big Boy came into sleep with me last night and I noticed that he smelled.  He did it again.  Peed on the floor then he sought refuge in my room because he knew once I figured it out I would clean him up.  Which is exactly what happened.  I will be breaking out the steam cleaner this weekend and I am going to look to see if there are bargain pee pads at the store.  I just can’t keep this up, it’s killing me.  I wonder if he is suffering or if this truly is him being lazy?  I mean he moves around the house and seems okay, I don’t hear him crying.  While I know that chances are pretty high that I will have to make the call on when to end his life, that really isn’t a call that I am in any hurry to make.  Losing one just last month is still very fresh.

I wasn’t too happy with TV last night, the Country Music Awards (CMA) were on and that derailed all of the regular programming.  I went through on-demand and found Fluffy the movie.  Now that was worth my time, it was just a little longer than I anticipated and there were 3 minutes at the end that are extra footage that I didn’t get to see.  Still I got a couple of good chuckles out of it and was able to spend time with the furry family.  I did have a little bit of an obsession with my phone but quickly caught it and put it down. 

As I was nearing my house last night I saw flashing lights and it was the police, they stopped someone.  Those lights are so bright that you need to wear sunglasses in order to drive past them.  I try not to focus on them and keep looking straight but it’s not easy.  I get mesmerized by them. 

Today started off really boring and turned really fast paced and interesting.  I am doing some testing with a Samsung Galaxy Note 4.  Oh my gosh that thing is huge.  I really like it for an Android phone.  I went to watch my you tube videos at lunch and man my iPhone screen is small compared to the Note.  I am rushing through the testing in the hopes of returning it to it’s owner so he can get his work email added.  It has to pass out security inspection and I honestly don’t think he will have a problem.  I haven’t been able to strong arm my way through anything, all of the protective measures we put in place work flawlessly.  Now I don’t know how anyone carries around a phone of that size.  I mean it’s like an iPhone 6+.  I understand the need for larger displays but making them easy to carry seems to be left out of the equation.  This device comes with its very own stylus, which is pretty cool.  The screen senses where the device is at and you see a little bubble for a cursor that moves wherever you move the stylus.  Kind of takes me back to the days of a Palm Pilot.  Yeah, that is dating myself – seems as if it was only yesterday.

Very excited that we are once again approaching the weekend.  I have my therapy session, the date with the steam cleaner and hopefully a nap can be squeezed in some where, along with all of my other normal running to do.  I kind of hope that lawn boy shows up this weekend to trim the bushes, he told me it would be 2 to 3 weeks and we are going on a month.  It’s like dude, c’mon.  He is set to mow the grass next week and I honestly don’t see that much growth.  I will take another look at it over the weekend, but I think that this will be his last time mowing for the year, I see no reason to mow, but he would disagree with me.  In that the leaves need to be taken care of.  I tell him the same thing when he brings that up, that is God invented wind and it will take care of the leaves.  It hasn’t failed us yet, year after year this is my approach and it allows me to save money, albeit $60 but it’s better than nothing.  Right now I need to make all of my balances go down as much as possible. 

Tonight is a mail night, perhaps something good will be waiting for me but I suspect it will be junk mail along with bills.  The only real thing I am waiting on is Big Boy’s OTC medicine, outside of that all of my goodies have come in and I have the bills to prove it.  The debt thing is kind of a double edge sword.  I mean I needed the desktop machine and could have done fine with my iPad but since I purchased the laptop I figure I might as well use it.  It’s what I wanted and there were many months worth of scrimping and saving.  I guess if I am back in debt, I did it in style.  Speaking of which on the way in this morning I saw this black Audi sitting on a dealers lot just calling my name out.  My late partner would not be pleased with me because it’s not an American purchase.  I am not buying it just remarking how nice it looked.  I’m sure it’s way out of my price range, even if it is used. 

I’ve got another laptop to configure here at work and I was going to do that today but this phone thing got in the way.  I have a vendor coming to look at a printer and well that pretty well sucks up my time for today.  I will have to try again tomorrow to be able to get this laptop done.  The lease is up soon and I need the old one back.  Thankfully I have a very small number going back, but I am sure as time moves forward the number will increase.  I would like more than a months heads up, 2 months I think is good enough but then again I am not in charge of asset management, I am the worker bee.

Someone asked me yesterday how much I like the phones and I said I could lose them and it wouldn’t bother me.  I do get to talk to a wide variety of people with various issues but I have done my time in customer service and phone queues sitting on a help desk.  I am much more of a Desktop Support Person.  My job has a nice mix in that it’s 1/2 of help desk and 1/2 of desktop support.  You take the good with the bad and there you have the fact of life.  Overall I am very pleased with my decision to become apart of this firm.  The benefits are outstanding and my pay is really good as well.  Now I just pray that it keeps getting better.  Oh speaking of which I did get confirmation that I am approved for PTO the day after Christmas.  No word on the day after New Years but I am hoping for it.  I figure this place will be a ghost town and there really won’t be much going on.  In many companies not much gets done between Thanksgiving and the start of the New Year.  I suspect that will be true here but time will tell.

Okay so time to get ready to hit the bricks and get back to my fun times with computers and cell phones.  Talk with you peeps later. 

TV Night :-)

Last night was good.  I got my 2 ups’ and got them unpacked and setup.  Everyone was watching me thinking that it was something for them.  My railroad calendars came as well, which was good.  They have such amazing photos each and every year, it’s worth paying for that calendar.  Trains & Boys… the only two types of calendars I will pay for. 

In hooking up the ups in the basement I strained my back because of all of the crap in my way that I was too lazy to take the time to move.  I didn’t feel it at first but this morning man, it’s hurting.  I also got a huge wake up call by stepping on the scale last night, man I have gotten fat.  I suppose that will happen when you eat what you want to, when you want to.  I know my diet isn’t healthy but it does keep me from starving.  I will try to make a conscious effort to try to cut back and eat less.  Of course Thanksgiving will come along and that will blow it out of the water. Maybe I should wait but who knows how big I will get.  I can put weight on by just looking at food.

My mom called last night to tell me that surgery went okay.  She had her cornea transplant.  She was babbling on and I was so happy to hang up the phone.  She was trying to get me to say that tomorrow (meaning today) is my brothers birthday.  I said everything but that.  She said you forgot your brothers birthday.  I replied, oh that’s why I sent him a card.  Then she told me he really liked the card.  His girlfriend is taking the family out to eat tonight in celebration of my brothers big day.  Whoopee!

Before I left last night I got a call from our IT Security Department.  They told me that a virus made it’s way on to a laptop here in my office.  I swapped out machines and have to work to get the new machine configured.  It didn’t help that I went to lunch late and it also didn’t help that it took forever to image.  However, I will be starting on it in just a bit.

I have managed to comb through the document that is my book.  I have done a lot of editing and adding.  It was an interesting journey to read and relive.  I changed some names, took out mentions of specific organizations for fear of retaliation and viola I think it’s ready for press.  I need to make a table of contents and then decide if I really want to move forward with publishing it.  No doubt this will make conversation on Saturday when I am at my next therapy session. 

Tonight is TV night, flip on ABC and sit back and relax with the kids.  I told them all about it so we can all spend time together.  Plus it will give them an extra opportunity to beg for food.  I will still have all of my nightly chores to take care of but being able to relax and hopefully distance myself from technology will be refreshing and enjoyable.  That is if I can keep my mitts off of my phone. 

Yesterday I got a message from one of the apps that someone said they wanted to meet me.  Okay, so I looked at it and well the guy has some appeal to me.  I messaged him to say thanks for the request and wanted to know where exactly his town was at.  I did a Google ahead of time and found out but I wanted him to tell me so I was sure that I was speaking of the same place.  He never bothered to answer me.  He read my message and just moved on.  I guess he really doesn’t want to meet me after all.

I got a notification a while ago that someone messaged me and unlocked his private photos.  Well I will be you can guess what those private photos were of.  Yeah, he was okay but not my type.  I didn’t answer him.  I mean starting off a conversation is one thing but sending me a dick pic well that just makes it awkward.  Speaking of which I was talking with a co-worker a few days ago and showed her a photo of BLU on my phone.  Don’t ask me why but I just handed over my phone she started to adjust the photo and my heart literally skipped a beat.  The photo behind and after were of shirtless guys, that would be a little awkward to explain but I would do it if I had to.  Thankfully nothing changed.  I haven’t aired my sexuality here and have no plans to unless I am backed into a corner and compelled to do otherwise. 

Back on point, the dating apps still have me questioning if I will ever meet someone off of them.  Each time I interact with them I know that there is a chance that someone is out there but getting someone to take a chance is much like trying to find a job.  At least with the job thing people call and talk with me, it’s not a rejection based on my photo/profile.  Realizing that I have put on some weight doesn’t help the old self esteem.  I am who I am and hopefully I can find someone who will accept me at face value.

The audio book adventure is interesting, I learn a little bit each time but the knowledge doesn’t seem to resonate with me.  I think it’s the general topic of the book and how they go on at nauseam about the least little things.  I mean they make their point and I can tie it all together but don’t exactly know how to apply it to my life.  Still it beats listening to music. 

Well I am going to do what I do best, put others before myself and go to work.  Short lunch but I’ve accomplished what I set out to do.  Now it’s on to configuring a new machine, oh joy!  Have a good evening and I will talk with you peeps later.

German Chocolate

One of my co-workers has a tradition that he sends everyone a German Chocolate Bar, I got mine today and it’s pretty good.  It’s got Hazel nuts in it they could have stayed in Germany.  It’s a nice rainy day here, sort of like German weather.  Kind of chilly but not to the point where you have to wear a jacket, but most people are just because.  Last night I came home to a surprise left for me by Big Boy, thankfully I saw it before I almost stepped in it  I took care of the clean up and taking out the trash.  Then I thought I spotted something on the front porch.  Yep, it’s a small package.  UPS usually sends me notifications when I am going to get something but this one slipped by them.  It was my hat that I ordered from the DEA.  I got it because it’s a one size fits all and it’s got spandex in it so it’s comfy.  I will be sporting it this weekend.  I did wear it around the house and it felt pretty good.

For supper I had a Bertolli Torta.  It’s basically a pot pie filled with cheese and sausage.  It was very good but also very small.  Two or three of them would be a meal for me.  I will be stocking up on them come Sunday.  I have not seem them before and suspect they are new.  Mighty fine. 

I felt kind of crummy last night, my sinuses were on overdrive.  I wasn’t sure if it was something brewing or if it was allergies.  I popped a couple pills one of which was a Benadryl on top of my regular sleeping medicine.  It solved the problem and I slept like a log.  I remember dreaming I was at the doctor and he was going to have to check my prostate and then I woke up.  Oh thank goodness.  Big Boy had me up in the middle of the night but he was just being obstinate.  I woke up feeling much better which was quite the surprise to me and I had all of this energy.  Then I got out of the house and got in traffic and holy cow it was madding to try to stay awake.  The rain and traffic didn’t help at all.  Once I got to work and had to walk in and get the blood flowing that helped a whole bunch.  Then I just sprang into my day.  Although I will tell you a nap does sound pretty good right about now.

Last night we got a scathing e-mail from the boss about people not updating the schedule when they take time off.  She said she wasn’t approving anymore time off until people got their act together.  I wasn’t one of the offenders but I did submit a request today for 2 days off.  1 being the day after Christmas and the 2nd being the day off after New Years.  She just approved the Christmas one.  Waiting to hear about New Years.  They will both be here before you know it.  But first comes Thanksgiving and I am psyched for it. 

Remember the book I was thinking about writing?  Well I have it in the cloud and am fine tuning it, publishing it for the world well I am still giving it some thought.  Not so much as a revenue generator, because well I have no idea what price to place on my story.  More so to show that love is love and if your committed to each other you can make it against the odds. 

Today is voting day here in the US.  I am so thankful that this day is here because I am tired of robo calls and other political solicitations.  They all will stop and we can talk about the results probably as early as tomorrow.  Wonderful, I think everyone will be happy about the calls.  Probably not about who is elected but if you didn’t vote then you can’t complain. 

So a full hour for lunch today, what will I do with all of this time?  Actually I only have like 15 minutes left.  Looking forward to getting home tonight.  Getting the mail and hopefully there will be money in it.  Getting my 2 UPS’ unboxed, hooked up and installed and finally having some soup and quality time with the children.  Daniel Tosh is on tonight so that will be a good thing, I love him.

Oh I saw Sex Tape over the weekend and paid 4.99 for it.  Don’t waste your money it’s not that funny and I found myself playing with my phone instead of paying attention.  I wish that Amazon and other pay per view sources had a return button for when you didn’t like the movie, you could stop hit the button and get a refund instead of enduring the torture of sitting there watching something that you don’t like.  Maybe someday but that day isn’t today.  Shucks!

Well I am going to get back to it, have to deal with that same ass woman from last week who didn’t want a new monitor.  I so don’t look forward to that.  I would rather do most anything than talk with her or help her with a computer problems.  Fix one thing and then she will bitch about something else.  I hope you have a great rest of the day and I will talk with you peeps again soon.

Yeah it’s Monday again

Nothing really major to report, other than it’s Monday again.  I had some off site support to perform tomorrow night, but thankfully it’s been cancelled.  Later this month I will have to go off site for an event.  I am not a big fan of that part of my job but it comes with the territory.  It’s easy work, as long as you know what your doing.  It’s all audio/visual setting up projectors, presentations and microphones.  Things I used to have to do in a prior job on a bi-weekly basis.  Making sure everything works is as about as difficult as it gets.  Typically everything flows smoothly, except for that one time when you don’t test or run out of time for testing. 

TAZ has been following me all over the house like a lost puppy.  He even tried to talk to me this morning.  I saw his mouth open but didn’t hear anything come out.  He is very soft spoken, but he can make himself heard if necessary.  I remember the days when he was calling for a mate.  Man that was like the most beautiful sound ever, his voice was awesome.  Today he is more about a can of food, some water and a good nap.  He had some of my Ben & Jerrys last night.  That kind of made him stick around for a bit longer.  I love him so much and pray he doesn’t konk out on me.  I don’t want to lose any of them ever but I’ve gone through enough loss for now. 

I am looking forward to going home, seeing the children and eating supper.  I hope for a nice quiet uneventful evening.  Plus it will be the first night of driving in the dark, which I am sure will not be fun but I know I can do it.  My lunch time is rarley my own always setting up for some meeting in the middle of it, or having people walk up and ask for help.  I took it for a while, now I charge for it, meaning that I alter my time card accordingly.  I mean that is why I work so I can make money. 

Well it’s about time that lunch is over and that means time to setup for yet another meeting.  It’s just a crazy circle but it makes the day go by and well I am all for that.  So without further delay I am returning to work.  I hope your Monday was enjoyable and uneventful.  4 more days until the weekend!  Talk with you peeps later.

Weekend Update

Friday night… I came home rested a bit on the couch, remember eating something just not sure what it was.  I got my late partners monitor and hooked it up to my new desktop.  Now I have 2 monitors, just like I am at work.  The only problem is the color temperature is not as bright, but it does serve it’s purpose quite well.  I am amazed at the fact that I made it fit, with some reorganization.  It’s taking some getting used to but I think I will keep it.  I found the receipt for it and I only paid $197, so not bad at all – plus it’s a 2nd screen that was just sitting idle. 

Saturday… I got roped into picking my mom up and taking her to the lab.  I did that and then headed for the buffet.  I had a good meal but the drive to get away just didn’t feel as freeing.  Mostly because I was tired already.  I came back home and had an e-mail, earlier in the day I signed my mom up so she could get her lab results electronically.  Only thing is she didn’t know her e-mail address, so I used mine.  Wouldn’t you know it about the time I wanted to lay down and nap, I had to print out lab results and take them to her.  Well she didn’t know that I was coming, so I got my nap in first and then went to see her.  She was really surprised.  I figured that I would take them to her since she has been chomping at the bit to get them for almost a month.  Her surgery for a cornea transplant is supposed to happen next week.  Hopefully, all goes well.  She told me and my brother that she hopes Santa brings her a car for Christmas.  That isn’t going to happen – besides that I think we both feel the same thing, she need not be driving. 

While I was there I had some pizza and got to meet my brothers girlfriend.  Her name is Barbie but she looks more like a cow.  No really she is a chunky money, which kind of surprises me.  She had her hands all over my brother at times and we were able to talk for a little bit.  I kind of wish I had a guy I could introduce them to.  My mom asked me so have you started dating yet?  I said yeah I did that and she said so how did it go?  I said not well.  So now she tells me well it was too soon anyway.  That’s nice glad you think that.  Last time I checked it was my life and I was in charge.  It may in fact be too soon and I may be rushing things and I may be anxious but it’s still my life.  I didn’t say all that – those are just thoughts.  I broke the news that I am a homeowner now and it’s all mine!  Then mom starts up how we should all live together.  Okay I think it’s time for me to go on that note.  I have no desire to live with her or my brother and well you all aren’t moving into my place, that is for damn sure. 

Sunday… Ah the extra hour of sleep.  The cats are so confused and don’t know up from down.  All they know is we need food.  I got to sleep in but had to fight for that right.  I had IHOP for breakfast, made it to 2 grocery stores and then home.  I didn’t really single anything out for supper and I spent my money lightly at both stores.  So I treated myself to Steak & Shake for supper.  I wanted a milk shake but instead will have Ben & Jerry’s as I watch a movie.  Thinking of watching Sex Tape, simply because it sounds funny and who doesn’t need a laugh. 

I put BLU’s paw prints on top of his urn and well that was a little emotional and conjured up some feelings.  I still have regrets when I think about him but it’s done and I don’t and won’t get a “do over”.  He will always be alive in my heart.  I wish that he and my late partner were coming back from a long vacation but I know that isn’t going to happen.  Sitting looking through dating apps at different guys and thinking of who will be his replacement well that just makes me think I will never find said replacement.  I am actually starting over, not looking for a replacement – but there are some qualities that are a must and I have to know who ever I decide to hitch my wagon to has my back at all times, at all costs, no matter what that no one or nothing will come between us. 

The truck sure got a workout this weekend.  It never goes anywhere and well it’s got it’s get up and go back.  My mom still wants to buy it but we know that isn’t going to happen.

I did finish up Neil Patrick Harris’ book it was very entertaining and I learned a lot about him.  He has done so many things that I wasn’t aware of as I suspect most of the world wasn’t aware of.  David Burtka is one lucky guy, I say that all the time.  So now I have moved on to How To Win Friends & Influence People in the Digital Age.  I figured that might help me with dating.  I rather enjoy audio books and listening during a commute well it’s better than music to me.  I think Audible might just have there hooks into me. 

Speaking of hooks well I should get upstairs and start on Ben & Jerry’s the night will be over after a movie.  Plus the children await and there are still some wrap up chores that I need to do.  So I will talk with you peeps again soon.  Ugh, back to Monday tomorrow.  Good news is that 2 weeks after this week it will be Turkey day here in the US and that means a very short work week, which I am so looking forward to.  I hope you enjoyed your weekend!