Sunday

I was able to sleep in today and even spent some time in my late partners bed.  It was nice and it’s been a while since I have been in that bed.  I got on Grindr the first thing out of bed and poof a message from the pet food store guy.  We talked back and forth for a bit.  Then I went to breakfast and the grocery store, got gas and hit the pharmacy – then home at last!  I’ve been here ever since and while I wanted to go out for Mexican food tonight, instead I stayed home.  I got a nap with the kids, opened the window and felt the cool breeze.  It was just an all around awesome day.  I could use another day like today.

So got back on Grindr and he asked the dreaded question….how old are you.  I answered that plus several other questions.  He hasn’t been on-line yet to pick up my response.  He’s 36 so not too far behind me.  I hope that my age doesn’t scare him off.  Not that we have exactly had sparks yet.  However, things are on good terms.  When I find a guy that I can converse with it makes being on the app so worth it.  Plus I tend to obsess and am constantly looking for a message.  I really want to hear from him and see what else he has to say.  I pray that this is ‘the one’ but only time will be able to tell me that. 

I am finishing up laundry.  Going to get me a nice shower and shave.  Then to prepare for tomorrow and pass out treats for the kids.  I hope to be able to relax with some TV or a movie.  I watched Robin Williams 2009 performance on Netflix, damn he sure was a funny guy.  It made me realize once again, wow we lost a great person.

I am bored at the moment, feeling the emptiness of the house and how quiet it is.  I moved the scattering urn my late partner is in to the living room so he can be with Blu.  I took the large main urn and moved it to my TV.  It sure is a heavy piece, but it doesn’t look like it.  Cleaned up my dresser a bit, cleaned my jewelry.  I wear my and my late partners wedding rings and a cross on a necklace.  I alternate necklaces between yellow and white gold.  I also make sure that our rings are covered by my shirt, I don’t want to open myself up to questions at work.  I take a break on the weekend and let the jewelry rest.

Next Saturday is payday, time to give more money away.  Speaking of which another weekend and no lawn boy.  He said he would be by in 2 to 3 weeks to trim my bushes.  I think that he forgot about me, if so well there is extra money I can hold on to.  The outside of the house looks like crap, but winter is coming and honestly as long as it’s taken care of by next spring I should be okay.  There is plenty of improvements, cleaning, etc. to do.  A lot of it is on the inside.  There are things that I just can’t or don’t want to part with and most of the cleaning process well it’s something I don’t want to deal with but eventually I know I will have to.  It just sucks!

Okay well the dryer is on it’s count down, so I am going to run.  Tomorrow will be a busy day, as I am sure this entire week will be.  I would like a week of lunch uninterrupted but that is asking for a lot.  Especially because I know we have a department meeting this week and of course it will be on Thursday when the massage lady is in.  I could have really used her services this weekend.  My neck and shoulders are all messed up.

Here’s to a pleasant and fast moving week.  After this one more full week and then it’s Turkey time.  If I said I was counting the days, would that surprise you?