Last night was good. I got my 2 ups’ and got them unpacked and setup. Everyone was watching me thinking that it was something for them. My railroad calendars came as well, which was good. They have such amazing photos each and every year, it’s worth paying for that calendar. Trains & Boys… the only two types of calendars I will pay for.
In hooking up the ups in the basement I strained my back because of all of the crap in my way that I was too lazy to take the time to move. I didn’t feel it at first but this morning man, it’s hurting. I also got a huge wake up call by stepping on the scale last night, man I have gotten fat. I suppose that will happen when you eat what you want to, when you want to. I know my diet isn’t healthy but it does keep me from starving. I will try to make a conscious effort to try to cut back and eat less. Of course Thanksgiving will come along and that will blow it out of the water. Maybe I should wait but who knows how big I will get. I can put weight on by just looking at food.
My mom called last night to tell me that surgery went okay. She had her cornea transplant. She was babbling on and I was so happy to hang up the phone. She was trying to get me to say that tomorrow (meaning today) is my brothers birthday. I said everything but that. She said you forgot your brothers birthday. I replied, oh that’s why I sent him a card. Then she told me he really liked the card. His girlfriend is taking the family out to eat tonight in celebration of my brothers big day. Whoopee!
Before I left last night I got a call from our IT Security Department. They told me that a virus made it’s way on to a laptop here in my office. I swapped out machines and have to work to get the new machine configured. It didn’t help that I went to lunch late and it also didn’t help that it took forever to image. However, I will be starting on it in just a bit.
I have managed to comb through the document that is my book. I have done a lot of editing and adding. It was an interesting journey to read and relive. I changed some names, took out mentions of specific organizations for fear of retaliation and viola I think it’s ready for press. I need to make a table of contents and then decide if I really want to move forward with publishing it. No doubt this will make conversation on Saturday when I am at my next therapy session.
Tonight is TV night, flip on ABC and sit back and relax with the kids. I told them all about it so we can all spend time together. Plus it will give them an extra opportunity to beg for food. I will still have all of my nightly chores to take care of but being able to relax and hopefully distance myself from technology will be refreshing and enjoyable. That is if I can keep my mitts off of my phone.
Yesterday I got a message from one of the apps that someone said they wanted to meet me. Okay, so I looked at it and well the guy has some appeal to me. I messaged him to say thanks for the request and wanted to know where exactly his town was at. I did a Google ahead of time and found out but I wanted him to tell me so I was sure that I was speaking of the same place. He never bothered to answer me. He read my message and just moved on. I guess he really doesn’t want to meet me after all.
I got a notification a while ago that someone messaged me and unlocked his private photos. Well I will be you can guess what those private photos were of. Yeah, he was okay but not my type. I didn’t answer him. I mean starting off a conversation is one thing but sending me a dick pic well that just makes it awkward. Speaking of which I was talking with a co-worker a few days ago and showed her a photo of BLU on my phone. Don’t ask me why but I just handed over my phone she started to adjust the photo and my heart literally skipped a beat. The photo behind and after were of shirtless guys, that would be a little awkward to explain but I would do it if I had to. Thankfully nothing changed. I haven’t aired my sexuality here and have no plans to unless I am backed into a corner and compelled to do otherwise.
Back on point, the dating apps still have me questioning if I will ever meet someone off of them. Each time I interact with them I know that there is a chance that someone is out there but getting someone to take a chance is much like trying to find a job. At least with the job thing people call and talk with me, it’s not a rejection based on my photo/profile. Realizing that I have put on some weight doesn’t help the old self esteem. I am who I am and hopefully I can find someone who will accept me at face value.
The audio book adventure is interesting, I learn a little bit each time but the knowledge doesn’t seem to resonate with me. I think it’s the general topic of the book and how they go on at nauseam about the least little things. I mean they make their point and I can tie it all together but don’t exactly know how to apply it to my life. Still it beats listening to music.
Well I am going to do what I do best, put others before myself and go to work. Short lunch but I’ve accomplished what I set out to do. Now it’s on to configuring a new machine, oh joy! Have a good evening and I will talk with you peeps later.
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