Weekends are by far the worst time for me. Lots of alone time and time to think and reflect. Not good and I usually wind up in a depression. Keeping busy does help but I don’t want to deny or mask what has happened, it’s something that I have to deal with. With this being only the first month it’s obviously still difficult. Things are still fresh and new and I know that I will have my moments.
My iPad didn’t ship until Friday which means it won’t show up until Monday. I spoke with the vendor on Friday and tried everything I could think of to get it rerouted OR to get at least a credit for shipping. Both were denied. Seriously! Then to add fuel to the fire I was told “I don’t care if you buy from me or not”. That fucking pissed me off. Here I was trying to save money and help a friend now I am so angry that out of spite I went to a retail store and paid full price. So I got my iPad, I got a better warranty protection and it’s renewable unlike Apple’s and a case w/ a keyboard for $135 more than what I would have been paying. The retail price of the iPad & warranty are what raised the difference. I got the case from AT&T and I get a sweet discount there so it was totally worth it. Come Monday I will be calling and returning the order that I placed from work, I mean if he doesn’t care then why should I. That is just piss poor customer service.
I got to leave early on Friday so the kids were not the wiser as to why daddy was late. I walked in about same time as normal. I set up the iPad and getting that accomplished was a bit of a challenge. Now that it’s done and over with, the iPad has lost it’s luster to me. I will still use it and have played with it a bit. I see many uses but there is just no way I could leave on a plane and use it for work. I mean everyone else swears by it but I have to have my laptop. There is so much you can’t do on an iPad that would cause me problems. It’s great for personal stuff and for e-mail but outside of that I that is where I draw the line.
I renewed my guys license plates, got his oil changed and filled up the tank. Went for a little drive around town all went well. I will probably start driving it a little on weekends so it doesn’t get old and rusty. It’s great to have a 2nd vehicle option but cost wise it will be a killer. Long term I will sell it for as much as I can get out of it, but it will be a while before that happens.
I went to a different grocery store today, for a little variety. It cost more but it was so worth it. I got my Mexican on! I also saw this blue eyed, slight muscle, nice ass hunk. He was trying to decide what meat to buy. I would have been happy to sell him my tube steak. Yeah, I really went gaga over him and had to seriously make an effort to keep my composure. I couldn’t stop staring at his ass, it is what I think is the best part about a guy. I mean we all have our favorite body parts and that is one of my top ones!
I got confusing news from the bank, one day they sent a letter saying because he was in bankruptcy they couldn’t change the name. The next day they sent a letter saying they are processing my request. Color me confused. I wrote and asked what is going on. Can’t wait for that explanation, I hope it’s all good but I am prepared for the worse. I am making arrangements to try to get my own financing if that can happen, then I will talk with the lawyer about transferring the house in my name. There are about 11 years to pay and then it will be free and clear. I should hopefully be able to refinance that for 15 years and get a lower rate. The only thing is I am not sure what I will qualify for since I filed Bankruptcy last year.
I also am confused by one of his unions. They are supposed to pay the surviving spouse a death benefit. Now they are telling me that it will go to his children. So I have to get clarification if they consider me a surviving spouse or the person who gets the money or if they in fact know about his son. If the money is going to anyone else but me, then I will simply walk away. I am not helping anyone profit from his death, especially his son. Who wasn’t there for him. I mean he could have left his son something but he totally excluded him and that was done for a reason. Now all I want is what is legally and rightfully mine, I sure hope they don’t try to keep this last bit of money from me. I am counting on it to help with the mortgage.
The silly fire department since a bill for the ambulance and it was all in red. I know this bill was for past service and not the last run they made with him. I’ve told them once he is dead. Now I am simply not opening the letter, and returning it marked Deceased Return To Sender. Hopefully that will get the message across. I mean how does one collect from a dead person?
The local hospital also sent their final bill for recent service. I sent them another copy of the death certificate and explained that I was told they would write it off. I suspect they will.
I got the kitchen all cleaned up last night and talked with an old co-worker/friend. She wouldn’t shutup we went on for 3 hours and it was close to 1am before I simply told her that I had to get to bed I was ready to pass out and I was. I hung up the phone and sat in front of the TV for a little bit and then it was lights out.
Got all of the dishes washed, dish washer cleaned, laundry done, lunch packed and I am ready for the final load to dry and then I will be on relaxation boulevard for the rest of the evening. I’m going to take it easy and hopefully watch some TV with the kids. They are very clingy when I am home plus they compel me with guilt to feed them extra food.
It should be a good week. No boss all week long, religious holiday. He can work on Monday and Friday, outside of that no work. So he isn’t bothering to come in. I am only work a 1/2 day on Friday and then I have the power outage to deal with on Saturday and Sunday. Then back to normal the following Monday with boss man back in. Then we have a 3 day weekend celebrating Memorial Day. I will be busy on the weekend trying to price out some of my guys stuff that I am going to try to sell. The weekend after that there is a Memorial Dinner in his name with some friends and that will be fun and difficult at the same time. I honestly don’t know what to expect but a lot of I am sorries. That is kind of why I didn’t have a funeral, because it would have cost extra and it would have added to my grief. There are some people that I want to talk with and others that I don’t care if I ever see again.
Well the last load in the washer just finished and I am headed to change it over to the dryer. Going to play a little bit on the PC then it will be time to get ready for that R&R and I do so need it. It’s the perfect ending to the weekend. I just hope I can pull it off without any changes to my plan.
Here’s to what I hope is a great and fast moving week, with no complications, additional problems or stress. Now I am really dreaming! You have a great week and I will talk with you peeps again soon.