Sick Momma

Poor Momma she had it coming out of both ends this morning.  Funny thing is after it was all done, she went back to the food.  They all worry me, but right now she is more on my mind than the others. 

I left a little later than I wanted to but still managed to make it to work with 1/2 hour to spare.  As we get closer to back to school that will change.  The commute is going to become painful and I do not look forward to that, but like the seasons change around here so does everything else. 

Work has been steady but oddly light.  Figured out last night that I ran out of Sudafed.  I picked some up this morning, were still waiting on the doctor to call in a script.  Since Sudafed is used to make Meth, it’s highly controlled.  You can purchase a package of 20 tablets but it’s like 1 time a month.  So I have to have a prescription in order to get around that.  I am certainly not going to make Meth.  A few bad apples ruin it for the rest of us. 

Right now I’ve got about an hour to go and am bored as hell.  There isn’t anything going on and boss man left.  He’s got a sick kid.  I could easily get up and walk out but I’ll be a good boy and stay. 

I did hear back from the on-line accident report people.  They said to give it more time.  Yeah, they have until Thursday.  At which point I will be going to the police department and picking up my own copy.  It will actually cost less.  Still no communication from an insurance company.  I’m really starting to doubt if this guy actually had insurance.  Normally it doesn’t take this long for a company to reach out.  I really feel bad for the lady in the middle and maybe the insurance company is working with her first since she has the most damage, but typically they touch base with everyone.  I should be contacted.  I think that the police report will be eye opening. 

So that’s all I know, which doesn’t say much.  Looking forward to going home, having left over pizza and spending time with the kids.  I sure hope Momma is feeling better. 

Hope you had a great day for a Monday.  This is my last week of peace and quiet, next week I will be on-call.  Take care. 

The Bimbo Saga

My weekend over all was fairly normal.  The only major thing that happened is around 8p last night my brother called and asked for a ride.  He told me he was on foot and headed to a fast food restaurant, to meet him there.  I did that and of course it’s more Bimbo Drama.  She got drunk and they got into a fight. 

While we were riding together he kept texting her.  I told him he is dumping gas on an open fire.  Stop texting her.  He says yeah your right.  But then like a dumb ass keeps on texting.  I told him that if I could afford it, I would take his phone from him now and throw it out the window.  After that he decided to power it off. 

Driving to his house took forever.  Like 45 minutes to an hour.  Some of it is open “country roads” and it was dark as dark can be.  Unfamiliar roads, roundabouts and of course he couldn’t go home without a trip to the liquor store. 

I came in to see his house, it’s actually pretty nice.  The dog is a hyper mess and he’s got fleas or something.  I itched last night and woke up that way today.  Took a shower and it subsided for a while but then came back.  I don’t know that I want to go back to his house until after the 1st frost.

Anyway, I told him once again that he would be better off alone.  It’s not the end of the world and you can find someone else, probably easier than I can.  I mean considering he’s a straight man – he can approach virtually any woman and his odds I feel are higher than mine of getting a new friend. 

I’m not sure what is going to happen but I told him from the get go that this is going to escalate and before it’s all said and done, someone will wind up in jail.  He’s not listening to me.  I guess he’s thinking about his dick instead of himself over all.  This has gone from a normal stable relationship to an abusive one.  I also told him if he thinks that surgery is going to change her as a person, it won’t.  He said yeah I told her it won’t fix bitch. 

Honestly, I don’t know what he sees in her or her kids that he allows all of them to live there free.  He is the only one who earns a decent living and therefore he gets to pay for everything.  While the others can use their money as they see fit, not once thinking of him and how much he is shelling out each month.  It’s not fair and I told him I would have kicked her to the curb a long time ago if I were straight. 

Our mom didn’t have a good knack for picking men.  I guess that rubbed off on him for picking women.  I on the other hand think I am a pretty decent judge of character for the few dates that I have been on.  Maybe Mr. Right will finally come along. 

3 days to work this week.  1 day at the doctor and the other day is mine.  I think I am going to get my car checked out at a body shop just to get an estimate.  My brother said that the damage probably came from her license plate hitting me and sure enough when you look at the photos it all adds up.  I don’t know that I will make any moves to get it fixed but it’s more for peace of mind to know that everything really is okay and that I am not overlooking something that will come to haunt me.  I really think I am fine but better safe than sorry.  Besides that estimates are free.  Hopefully, some insurance company will be reaching out to me next week. 

Have a great week ahead and I will try to do the same. 

Very scary week

Hi, I know it’s been a while.  Life has gotten away from me and the more I reminded myself to post something the more it didn’t happen.  So I’m taking time out of my lunch to make it happen.

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster.  So if you remember a few posts back I mentioned that I was trying to come off of my anti-depression medicine.  Well that seriously fucked with my mind and my body.  I was doing okay at first taking a pill every other day.  I did that for a couple weeks, then changed it up to 1 pill every 2 days.  I also started the same thing with the evening pill I take. 

Mentally:  My dreams were psychotic at best.  Always very off the wall and abnormal.  I never knew what would happen and some of them were extremely real.  I doubted things that I said or did, I had to double check actions and work to make sure I didn’t mess up. My depression seemed under control at first but the longer this played out the worse things got. 

Physically My bowel habits changed.  To the point where I was stuck at work for an hour after my shift because I was in the bathroom.  It was pain like I haven’t felt before and the time ticked by slowly.  The more I tried to rush the process the further behind I got.  My tremor got a little better but never went away.  That was the whole reason behind this little adventure.So Tuesday morning I woke up from what was a strange dream.

My childhood dog came in the house and took off his fur coat.  He was covered in tattoos.  Then once I got going things got worse for me.  I was actually afraid of myself, it was as if I was looking at myself and I was a stranger.  I had no emotional my face was blank and more than ever all I wanted was to die.  I pushed ahead and made it to work with no issues.  I almost sought out a friend just to have some company because I was still scared.  Instead I chose to immerse myself in my work and by lunch time things were back to normal.  That was the turning point for me.  I don’t want the medicine but I need the medicine in order to be able to live.  I’m back to normal dosing and it will take my body a little time to normalize but I already feel better. 

Thursday on my way to work I was involved in a 3 car chain reaction collision.  I was the last car in the chain and I was dead stopped.  I felt a bump and knew that I was hit.  For some reason unknown to me I had nothing more than a minor scratch, which I have already fixed.  My neck and shoulders are sore but outside of that I walked away from this one very lucky person.  No one was injured.  I tried to turn in a claim to my insurance company but they turned me away not evening taking my name or policy number.  I was told that the person who caused it, their insurance company would be reaching out to me.  Yeah well the thing is the guy claimed to have insurance but he didn’t have a current card.  So the cops made him stay behind and me and the other person were told to leave.

I can certainly tell you that if the accident would have happened on Tuesday I would most probably be seriously injured or dead.  When all I want to do is either die or find happiness, I am spared.  It’s just perplexing to me as to why I am still here.  So I’m going to go forward and try to make the best of things.  Maybe I will actually meet a guy.  I am still thinking of moving and maybe that is just the kick in the ass that I need to turn my life around. 

As for the furry family, momma is full of energy in the morning and she runs through the house as if Blu was chasing after her.  She is that way in the evening a little bit.  Last week she tried to crap in my chair and I yelled at her, she just froze.  I had to physically move her before it was too late.  Little did I know she had already gone on the floor.  Marv is still walking a little funny and he won’t jump up but he will jump down.  The sisters are doing okay.  Something got a hold of Ruth and she has scabs on both of her sides.  She wasn’t letting me touch them but now they itch so I can touch and scratch.  I’d love to give her a bath but we all know that I would wind up in the Emergency Room. 

My primary bank decided to mail me a surprise with my latest statement.  They are going to start charging a monthly maintenance fee and charging to issue statements each month, even if you don’t get a paper statement.  I wrote them a nice fuck you letter and mailed it.  I am having to shift my money around but I will be breaking away from them within the next 2 months.  We have been together for 22 years and this is the thanks I get.  It was a good run but I wish they didn’t fuck it up.  I don’t pay anyone to house my money and never will, it’s total BS.

My lawn guy decided to skip me last week, so I had to deal with that.  2 times in 1 year.  I don’t get how you can’t read a calendar.  I’m interested to see what the bill shows when he sends it for last month.  I’ll bet he tries to screw me and bills for 2 cuts even though he only did 1.  Next year’s headache will be finding a new company.  We only have 3 more months and then the contracts up. 

Work is exactly that work.  My promotion is on the fast track and should hopefully be complete in 1 to 3 months.  I am eager to see my new title and the compensation that comes with it.  I hope I don’t get fucked.  I know what I made last year hourly and I expect that is what they will say is my new compensation.  If so I won’t be upset but if it’s less than that I’ll have a problem with it.  I know the number I want and I know the number they are likely to throw out.  If it’s fair I won’t squawk but otherwise I will be mother goosing them. 

So there you have it.  Lunch is over and it’s back to the grindstone.  Looking forward to the weekend.  The new “blue” frames are in so I will be checking them out at the eye doc tomorrow.  I hope I am not disappointed.  I’d like to get that show on the road.  Maybe a road trip to the buffet or just to a local restaurant.  Nap time will factor in there some place and wow I could sure use that today. 

Happy Friday!  Have a nice weekend.  Thanks for stopping by.   

Pasta Time

This has been a very relaxed week.  Monday was busy and the day flew by.  The rest of the week drug because there wasn’t much to do.  Boss man was on vacation and that helped us all so we didn’t have a million conference calls to join and there weren’t a barrage of interruptions.  There were times that were busier than others but for the most part I just sat around and played. 

The most interesting this that I have done all week long is look at Chiropractic Adjustment videos on-line.  I never exactly knew how they did adjustments.  It’s interesting and the cracking and popping of bones sound can be addictive.  However, I work with a guy who pops his knuckles all the time and I hate the sound.  He’s actually the one who inspired me to look up the videos.  They look like they can provide some relief and I like the fact that they even you out so that everything is where it should be.  However, I’m sure there are cases where things didn’t go quite right.  So as tempting as it is for now I am staying away.  I’ve never been to a Chiropractor but did work for one in one of my many previous jobs.  It was a sales position and while it may sound easy it was difficult.  Personally, I think I got him a decent amount of business but I only actually got credit for referring in 1 person. 

I’ve had a battle with the ants again.  They are persistent.  I am eagerly and patiently awaiting the first full freeze.  I’ve got a while to go but it’s coming just like Christmas and eventually it will happen.  I don’t like being cold or winter but the upside is there are no bugs of any kind and that is appealing to me. 

Went out with my pal tonight and had pasta.  He sprang for the meal which was unexpected but very much appreciated.  I am on the low side of operating cash.  I can make it to the grocery store and fill the tank.  However, it’s a couple weeks until payday and I can already tell you I won’t make it.  Thankfully I have my credit cards to fall back on but that just creates another problem.  I’ve already been using them a little and I am outside of my comfort zone. 

Speaking of money and bills.  I got an email that my cell bill was ready.  I went to look at it and noticed that it went up.  Turns out my data plan that I had was eliminated and I got upgraded to a plan with 3 additional gig of data.  It’s only $4 more but the crazy part is if I want to downgrade it costs more money.  I was warned last month on my bill but didn’t pay attention since this bill is on autopay.  That’s the problem they sucker you into autopay and paperless billing, no one takes time to review their bills on-line and they sneak in changes like this.  I’m not happy about it but at the same time they did provide notice, while it wasn’t much notice it was notice so I don’t have a leg to stand on with a complaint.  It’s also odd that I could start a new account with less data and a better phone and still pay less than what I am paying now.  Somehow customer loyalty has gone out the window and there is no benefit of being true to 1 company for years on end.  Your told your valued as a customer but it’ just lip service.  I really want to upgrade phones and get me an Apple 8 Plus but it’s cost prohibitive right now.  The electric storm hurt me financially and if I need to I can dip into savings to bail out but I’d like to not have to do that. 

I changed up one of my anti-depressants to be every other day instead of every day.  I feel pretty good.  Doing one more week of that.  Then I am going to stretch it out a little longer.  The end goal being coming off the medicine if it feels right.  I think I can function without it and that overall I would be somewhat healthier without it but the real question is would I be happier?  Can I function without it?  It’s been apart of my life for so many years now.  I think I might need it but not to the degree where I need to take a pill every single day.  I’d like my tremor to go away and while that might now happen the only way to find out for certain is to come off the medicine slowly and then give my body time to purge and normalize.  Yeah I will tell the doc about it next month.  He’s going to be changing my diabetic meds anyway because my sugar is just plain out of control.  Yeah my diet plays a large part but at the same time I am trying to be good now and it’s not working, so I need some help.  Just keep me away from the needles. 

I saw the Robin Williams Documentary and it was extraordinary.  I had to wait until it aired live in the evening.  HBO didn’t release it earlier than 7p which was disappointing but at the same time gave me something to look forward to.  I laughed my self silly watching it and that made me miss him all that much more.  It’s sad what he had to go through and that he took his own life but at the same time I understand his reasoning. 

So there you have it my week.  My computer at work is being upgraded to Windows 10 so Monday I expect will be a very busy and stressful day, trying to put things back to the way I like them and getting used to a new environment.  I use Windows 10 at home and like it, I am sure thing will work out fine at work but it’s just the anticipation for what I think is going to happen that has me a little on edge. 

Time to relax and enjoy what is left of Saturday evening.  Breakfast out, grocery shopping and filling up the tank are in store for the morning.  Then I will be home for the rest of the day and finishing up cleaning the house, laundry and trying to relax. 

I hope all is well in your world, that your staying cool and life is treating you fairly.  Talk with you again soon.  Thanks for stopping by. 

Sunday

The week has either come to an end or just started, depending upon how you think of weeks.  So here we go again another Monday eve, ugh!

I told you a couple weeks ago about the eye drop that I tried and it worked.  Well ever since then I have had these psychotic dreams.  I thought stop the eye drop and the strange dreams will stop.  Not so and then I wake up with my eye full of junk.  I don’t know for certain the eye drop is messing with my brain, it’s just a steroid & antibiotic mixed together, so it shouldn’t.  I do enjoy sleeping but I don’t look forward to strange dreams.  I never know what I am in store for.  I’ve done everything from having sex to getting into a fight. 

Speaking of sex lets Segway into the dating scene.  I have a subscription to Match for 3 months.  After which it’s set to automatically cancel.  If I haven’t found someone interesting in that time frame then I’ll just give up on that app.  Lots of people have said great things about it so I figure it was worth another shot.  Fingers crossed I meet a good guy. 

Not sure if you have heard of Shawn Mendes.  He’s a hot young man who much like Charlie Puth knows how to sing.  Apparently, he knows how to have phone sex as well.  A audio clip purporting to be him was released and wow, he’s loud and loves the word baby.  I listened to it a couple times and it does sound like him but no one knows for sure if it’s authentic.  In any case us gay guys lust over him.  Charlie is on tour and has got this great idea to take off his shirt part way through the show.  The fans don’t object because they are mostly teenage girls.  Hell I wouldn’t object either, he or Shawn are both welcome in my bed.  Then again there is no charge for dreaming. 

Thought I would do something different for supper, so I picked up a party pack, which is super family size of Stouffers Chicken Enchiladas.  It was $15 but very good and like pizza it will be more than 1 meal, so when you think of that $15 isn’t terrible.  I found some new Pizza Mac & Cheese so I will be trying that out this week.  Somehow I managed to drop $100 and I didn’t really get that much.  The only poison from a sugar perspective that I got is Butter Pecan Ice Cream.  I know that being lazy and lounging around isn’t good for the blood sugar.  Going to work and drinking water, that helps to lower the sugar.  I think part of it’s the physical and mental activity and the other part of it is the hydration.  I saw a new device, where you attach a sensor to the back of your arm and then you have a meter that you wave in front of it for instant sugar results.  It allows you to track your sugar in real time.  A sensor is good for about 10 days.  They don’t say it doesn’t have needles it’s marketed as you don’t have to prick your finger.  However, if you prick your finger enough you get used to it.  Still there is something about a small prick that bothers me.  Yes, that was my attempt at humor.  Hope your laughing.  Anyway this device is by prescription only.  It’s a novel idea but I’d rather ask my phone what’s my sugar and have it know without me having to have a sensor affixed to my body.  The sensor goes on 1 time and your good to shower and live a normal daily life.  Yeah, I’ll still pass but I am intrigued. 

I had to hustle today and everything came together.  I only had my 1 trip out and am fine with that.  I put off cat liter until next weekend.  However, I didn’t put off dealing with the bitch who needed to have her claws trimmed.  I didn’t say a word I just flipped the couch and there she was all hunkered down and ready.  I touched her and she lost her bladder (very common), then she started screaming and hissing as if I was trying to murder her.  All I was doing was holding her down.  I got 1 paw done and then I went to switch sides.  She again voiced her displeasure but I held on to her and managed to get the other side done.  I then loosened my grip and began to brush her.  Wow she got dramatic and loud again.  I told her she hasn’t been brushed in months and she needed it.  Fur was everywhere.  Finally she had enough and when she tried to get away, I just let her go.  She was still hissing and growling at me.  I cleaned up and put things back to normal.  She got her couch hiding place back so she was happy.  Then it was like 10 minutes later and I heard and felt her throwing up.  She managed to get herself so worked up that she had to barf.  I checked on her and she growled at me and had that look of I dare you to touch me.  I didn’t just backed away once I knew she was okay.  Cleaned the house, took a shower and magically it was dinner time.  She was all about the food.  Which isn’t normal for her.  She normally protests and stays away for at least 1 meal but then comes out at nighttime looking for a snack. 

Of course I managed to work in a nap today for about an hour.  Gator had to make her mother move.  I don’t know why it’s such a power struggle about who sleeps with me.  That little girl just loves to be by myside and she is such a pain in the ass.  I like to divide myself up and give a little bit of time to everyone but that makes her jealous and she has to interject.  At least Momma still has Belly Rub Club during the week to look forward to. 

I found out that my old boss/friend/former co-worker isn’t doing so well.  She still manages to get around but her mind is going and she is easily confused.  Her body is very slowly shutting down.  So it doesn’t sound like it will be terribly a long time.  Her husband is the optimist and I’m told is doing pretty good with taking care of her and dealing with the fact that he is going to lose her.  I just can’t help shake the thought that outwardly he is positive but inside he is falling apart.  I know guys don’t usually send other guys cards but this guy does.  I picked one up for him at the store.  I sent along a note and told him to call me if I can help or if he just needs to talk.  We have never, ever met but I’m sure we could make conversation.  Watching your spouse slip away in front of your eyes is horrible.  I’m thankful for the fact mine was a quick 4 days.  I don’t know how people do it over months at a time.  That sounds worse than what I went through.  At least he will know I am thinking of him and hopefully the card will bring some comfort and joy. 

It’s another week of no John Oliver so there isn’t much on tonight and that is kind of depressing.  However, I am sure I will find something to watch.  Tomorrow I believe is when HBO is releasing the documentary about Robin Williams and I so look forward to watching that.  Depending upon how the day goes I may be able to watch some or all of it (depending on how long it is) during lunch. 

Here’s hoping it’s a great week ahead.  Nothing but sunshine and low temperatures.  Kittens and rainbows.  Braunschweiger is what’s for lunch.  2 slices on white bread, with some miracle whip and a slice of Colby Jack Cheese.  Sometimes I switch the miracle whip out for Mustard, equally as good.  Better on saltines instead of bread.  Cheers!

Ye old Update

So Friday the 13th turned out to be a lucky day for me.  My pay stub indicated that I got a $50 gift card but the card I received is actually $25.  So I inquired how to get my pay stub fixed and I was told that it would actually cost more to fix my pay stub so they are sending me another $25 gift card.  Hey that works.  Outside of that nothing really remarkable happened on Friday, it was just another normal day. 

Saturday, I woke up at 7a to Ms. Gator scratching on my door wanting her breakfast.  Needy bitch!  I got up and gave into her.  I came back to bed but there was no going back to sleep but I did try.  So I got up and started the day with my phone seeing what was going on in the world.  I found a super hot porn scene that I thought about watching but talked myself out of.  I got dressed and had my morning pills.  Then out the door and on to a restaurant for breakfast.  Afterwards I stopped by the eye doctor to see about the new frames they ordered in.  These were blue but not blue enough.  I don’t get why things pop on a website but in reality they aren’t that way.  That is deceptive.  So they found another pair that might be an option for me and they ordered them in.  I’ll likely be going back next weekend to make a decision.  I was sort of prepared to do it today but the lady helping me talked me out of it.  Might as well get what I am after.  The 2 frames I tried on today were both plastic and they felt great, super lightweight and nothing like my metal frames.  After that was done, I just came home.  I had other errands to run but foolishly talked myself out of doing them.  Well then a storm blew in this evening and there was no going back out for me.  I don’t do rain unless it’s a must.  Shopping in the rain is something I am not a huge fan of.  I had a momentary power outage from the storm. 

To help make up for my mistake, I decided to get busy around the house.  I took time to look at my computer power connections and figured out that things were plugged into the surge only protection side of the UPS.  So I moved that around and tested it.  Works like a charm now.  Hopefully this will be the end of me having to reboot because my monitors went south due to a power glitch. 

I had plenty of feline time and they all have soaked it up.  Ruth and I got into it because she thought I was after her.  I was talking sweet to her and she decided to shift into bitch mode, so I shifted in to the same mode.  She ran under the couch growling and hissing.  I keep telling her I need to trim her nails, trying to prepare her but I don’t think there is any preparing her.  I just have to do it and I really am not thrilled about it.  However, for her safety it needs to happen and it shall tomorrow.  If those claws curl under it will be a nightmare for both of us and I’d like to avoid that at all costs.  

Sunday will be breakfast, grocery store and home.  Then I will need to make a 2nd trip out to get cat food which is something I put off today.  I’ll get gas and then come home.  I should be set for the rest of the day. 

A friend called me earlier in the week and I called him back to tell him about my pay raise.  First thing he says is that is great, lets celebrate.  We should go out.  Yeah I get a couple extra dollars and he wants to spend it for me.  So looks like next weekend we will be going out.  At least it’s something to look forward to. 

Speaking of looking forward, I jumped back on Match dot com  I haven’t paid them any $ but am considering it.  There are several nice looking guys and apparently someone is interested in me, but unless you pay you can’t see or communicate with them.  That’s how they get you.  I understand, it’s a business.  If I get what I want out of it then it’s money well spent.  So decisions, decisions. 

I’m considering being a volunteer to help out gay youth deal with their sexuality.  It’s been on my mind ever since I saw the documentary about Love Loud.  So long as there is no minimum time commitment required I will throw my name in the hat.  However, work comes first.  I think I would feel really good about myself and if I wanted to it would be nice to add to my resume or work bio.  Time will tell. 

So it’s 11p on a Saturday night and my eyes are going.  I should get upstairs and work on getting some sleep.  It’s funny how I used to be able to stay up for hours with no problem but as I get older I feel the struggle and if I am up way too late and don’t get enough sleep, I feel it the next day and getting going is a super struggle.  Thankfully it’s the weekend and I can pretty well do what I want.  However, I’m still tied to my phone since I’m on-call. 

I hope your doing okay in this summer heat.  Just hang in there Fall is on the way but we have the rest of this month and next month to get through.  The place I ate at today had Thanksgiving items out.  Wow, that is early as Thanksgiving isn’t until November.  I guess the early bird gets the worm.  Thanks for stopping by.  I will chat with you all again soon. 

Money

I found out this morning that I got a 4% raise which is the best raise I have had in the 4 years that I have worked here.  For the first time ever I’m not getting a bonus, but I was submitted.  However, I will be getting an Amazon gift card.  Gee, I’d rather just have no bonus.  They will tax me on the gift card. 

Saving the best part for last.  A promotion is on the horizon.  It might not happen anytime soon but I know it’s coming.  I would be a senior level and that would make me equal with the rest of my team.  Yes, that includes stupid.  However, it would probably take away my stipend for on-call but I will be getting another raise out of it.  Unless I would move into Management this will likely be the highest level that I will climb to.  There would still be room for future pay raises so it’s not as if I would be capped out.

I am a little bummed about not getting a bonus but back pay retroactive to June 1, that will be a bit of a bonus in and of it’s self.  I am eager to see what my check looks like tomorrow. 

Speaking of money, I got my new pair of jeans yesterday.  There nice but I just can believe they were $50.  It’s denim not cashmere.

Well lunch is about over with and there is plenty of work to do.  I’m still digging out of email and more keeps coming in.  I wish I had an off switch, that way I may actually get caught up.  What a novel idea. 

Hope your Wednesday is progressing well.  Stay cool. 

On my back

Last night I saw Blockers (or as I call it Cock Blockers) it was a decent movie that gave me a couple of laughs.  So I went to bed in a decent mood.  It was humid over night and I woke up a couple times.  When it was finally time to get up I didn’t feel the greatest and decided to call it a day before the day got started.  I fed the cats.  Had to figure out how to set my OOO response and then it was back to bed. 

All I have done all day long is sleep.  From one nap to another.  First was in my own bed and I was up for a couple hours, then back to sleep on the couch for hours.  I got a delivery and didn’t even know anyone had been here. 

The power company was by in the afternoon pounding on the door but I didn’t answer.  I was in the middle of a movie.  When I eventually opened the door I saw a note that my gas meter had been upgraded.  Wow, who cares. 

Cats have been with me all day long and they nap as well.  However, there napping is part of their regular routine.  They don’t have to get up and go to work like I do.  I will take a little extra sleepy time medicine when it’s time for bed.  Hopefully, it does the trick.  I have the AC running cool so hopefully I can avoid taking another day off, although it’s tempting. 

Kind of nice not having to worry about email, phones, meetings, traffic and mostly stress.  However the enjoyment is only short lived.  Eventually this will all turn to boredom, which is why I want to go back tomorrow.  Not to mention the money. 

Nothing really worth while on TV.  I have to scour NetFlix to find anything of interest and that gets old as well.  However, it beats staring at a blank screen.  I’m sure I will find something of interest.  Plus I have to make my sandwich for lunch tomorrow. 

My back feels way better, I guess I just needed a heavy dose of sleep and that seems to have done the trick.  Talk to me tomorrow after I spend 8 hours hunched over the computer.  Ugh. 

Well time to drink some water, make that sandwich and tend to the children.  Momma will be squawking soon and I’d like to avoid that, so I guess I should scram.  Hope you had a good day!

Believer

Ever heard of Imagine Dragon’s the band?  There pretty good in my book.  I had no idea their lead singer Dan Reynolds is Mormon.  He also has some pretty strong believes about being gay.  Apparently there is an alarming rate of young Mormon guys and gals who are committing suicide simply because they are gay and don’t know how to deal with it.  I saw a documentary on HBO called Believer that talks about this. 

Mr. Reynolds is so fired up he worked with Tyler Glenn and together they formed an organization called LOVELOUD they have a music festival in Salt Lake Utah every year until the rate of suicide declines and the Mormon church accepts LGBT people.  It started as a 1 time thing and from there things snowballed and this thing got really large.  If you have HBO I encourage you to watch it, your eyes and your mind will open and it’s more than worth your time. 

The odd thing here is Mr. Reynolds is straight, married and has children.  However, his friend Tyler Glenn is gay.  Mr. Glenn struggled with accepting it.  Apparently if your gay and Mormon, you can tell the church but you just can’t act on your desires, if you do then you will be excommunicated. 

I’m not Mormon and never have been.  The thing I struggle with is in John 13:34 God says … “

A new commandment I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so also you must love one another.” This clearly says to love one another, not to only love straight people or white people but to love one another.  Why is it that many religions discriminate?  Regardless if your Black, White, Brown, Straight, Gay, BI they should love you and welcome you unconditionally.  Modern religion in general is flawed in my humble opinion.  The God that I struggle with believing in wouldn’t be happy with how most religion and people interpret his word.  There are too many politics in religion but yet there is supposed to be separation of Church and State. 

Young people regardless of their religion, young people have been troubled and committing suicide because they simply can’t deal with the fact they are different than their peers.  Realizing that your gay is a lot to take in.  Some people do fine with it, while others struggle.  Hearing things like the catch phrase “it gets better” is comforting but at the end of the day t’s just a catch phrase.  Additionally, that phrase doesn’t exactly specifically imply when it will get better, just that it will.  I suppose everyone has their own interpretation of exactly when it will get better.  For me it means that once you become an adult that things will turn around.  Being gay at least when I was growing up being gay was a big deal.  You would be ostracized, excluded and discriminated against just because you were attracted to the same sex.  It’s not a disease, it’s not contagious and your not interested in every single person who happens to be the same sex as you, and your not a pedophile.  Today the world has changed and is much more accepting but that acceptance has limits.  There are still people in the world who believe it’s wrong and that your sick. 

For a very long time gay people have been trying to educate and inform to seek acceptance, tolerance and understanding.  Personally for me I lived a good portion of my life stuck in the closet because I was afraid.  Of what you might ask?  Well, that I would be ridiculed, ostracized, discriminated against and that people in general would think differently of me once they knew about my sexuality.  That fear was enough to keep me from being free.  I reached a point in my life where I just wanted to shout it out to the world but those that were important in my life discouraged that behavior and told me that it would likely have devastating consequences.  So I took the advice I was given for the most part.  I shared my secret with those that I trusted so some people knew but not the world at large. 

Suicide was an option that I thought of many times, however it’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem.  There are far more devastating consequences for those that you love and care about but at the time your not thinking of them but your thinking of yourself and how you can “fix” everything.  Well sadly suicide while tempting is NOT the answer!  You are perfect just the way you are.  If people can’t see that then they don’t need to be in your life.  No matter how hard you try and no matter how much you ask there is no praying or taking away the gay.  It’s there forever because is apart of who you are.  Being gay is not a choice, it’s just the way you are.  It’s not what makes you happy, again it’s who you are. 

Think about it for a moment.  Let’s suppose that sexuality is a choice.  What percentage of people do you think would honestly pick to be gay?  It’s like if you could pick the color of your skin, what percentage of people do you honestly think would pick Black or Mexican?  When after all if it’s all an option you’d pick to be straight and to be white.  You’d have to be insane to pick gay or another skin color because you know that those other choices are areas where society discriminates.  Hey if it were a choice I would rather be straight because it’s just far easier.  Easier to get a date, easier to get married, easier for the world to accept because it’s the “norm”.  But it’s NOT a choice.   

I’d love nothing more than to help someone deal with accepting themselves for who they are.  Being gay isn’t a bad thing.  Regardless of what your told it’s not the end of the world.  Time does help things get better and life in general becomes easier.  You struggle a lot more with your sexuality when your younger than when you get older and wiser.  I’m glad that organizations like LOVELOUD and people like Mr. Reynolds exist to educate and inform.  I’m glad they got the press they so deserved and that this cause will continue until there is no longer a reason for it to. 

Sunday

Today started off much quicker than I wanted it to.  I got kicked out of my own bed because the cats wanted to sleep in it.  I woke up with a back ache and that could be from a crazy position they got me in or it could be from some work I did yesterday.  Either way it hurts and I’d like it to go away. 

Had my Steak N Shake this morning.  I should have skipped the shake part but you only go around once.  I tested my sugar and saw that things are way out of control.  So I upped my medicine to try to help things out and I’ll be watching what I eat more closely but I will still get in my sugar. 

For the first time in I can’t remember when I decided that I would make my own sandwiches for lunch.  I got Pastrami and Black Forest Ham, picked up some Bread and Butter Pickles and some Colby Jack Cheese.  I hope that they taste as good as I imagine they will.  I know I won’t be a happy camper making them because it’s aggravation but it beats eating the same old thing day after day after day. Which I have been doing for a long time. 

Grocery shopping came after Steak N Shake and I didn’t get much.  I got a nice surprise going down and isle I was greeted by a very good looking guy who was all about me, if only for a second.  That felt good.  I went to check out and a cashier who loves to chat wanted me to get in his line because he was bored but I opted to get in a different line.  He just asks way too many questions and has a tendency to mess things up.  Better to avoid him or so I thought. 

Off to the car wash, it was easy in and out.  Nice looking crew working as usual but not much time to stare at them.  They were all about in and out.  Then off to the gas station to fill up the tank.  When I got back in my vehicle it thought my phone was connected via USB and started playing music.  It’s fine but it was connected by Bluetooth so that was strange.  I’m not about wires and cables, that is messy and I like to avoid it if at all possible. 

Finally home to my castle.  Where laundry and other chores await.  I opted to put away the groceries.  Check out an on-line charge I got an alert about that sounded like fraud but turned out to be legit.  Then plugged in the money I spent to find out that I have a small amount left to last for the rest of the week, which is enough to buy gas again later in the week.  Then I climbed the steps and slowly got into bed with Marvin.  We got to cuddle for a little bit until his mom and sister ruined it.  I was tired but didn’t want to go right to sleep.  So I opted to take in some TV.  Nothing good on, I’m down to watching The Doctors which is like the last thing I ever watch because it’s just not that appealing to me.  I like to look at Dr. Travis but they also do have some interesting content. 

After that I turned the TV off, it was about 30 minutes.  Then tried to go to sleep.  I had Alexa help me sleep.  That did the trick.  Then I got the bright idea to turn over and that hurt like hell.  I got back to sleep and then someone started meowing and I looked at the clock and it was 1:30 so time to get up and get going.  I passed out lunch to the children.  Ruth was shy because she knows I need to trim her claws.  My back hurts so much that I am just giving her a reprieve.  It’s not a task I like to do when I am on-call but I will. 

Currently I’m finishing up laundry.  Excited to wear my new green stripped polo to work tomorrow but once someone sees me in it, I will be ready to call it a day and come home.  There isn’t much on the books for Monday but that doesn’t mean it will be a quiet or a calm day.  All of the unknowns lurking keep things interesting at times.  We will be short staffed until Wednesday or Thursday and then back to full staff.

I’m bargaining with myself about vacuuming, I don’t like upsetting the cats but I also don’t like walking on cat food and there is a decent amount of cat fur that always comes with the vacuum cleaner.  So time will tell on that. 

Anxious to heat up some left over pizza for supper and have a soda or two.  I’m doing my playing on the PC and surfing now.  So all in all things are calm and rather boring right now.  I’m okay with that and could use a little more of it. 

I learned yesterday that there is a free preview of Cinemax this weekend.  I checked on it last night and there really isn’t anything they have that I want to watch.  HBO is included with the preview but I am already a subscriber.  Speaking of which no John Oliver (Last Week Tonight) for the next few weeks to Sunday’s will be boring for TV but I am sure I will be able to make due. 

So there is a recap of my day and how I am doing.  The kids are all fine and chill right now.  No doubt they are thinking of their next meal and how they can aggravate me.  I am off to surf the web and perhaps to finish cleaning house.  Then pizza and relaxation.  It’s humid outside and the AC finally kicked on so things are pretty good so long as I am in the basement.  Upstairs not so cool but hot air rises. 

Here’s to a great week ahead for all of us!  Come back to see how I’m doing and what’s new in my world.  Take care.

Expensive Saturday

If you know me well at all, you should know that I have a lack of patients.  That said, I bought a new all in one printer.  I had to make a choice an Epson or an HP.  The Epson wasn’t an Eco-Tank but it did have a 2nd paper tray.  The HP was lower cost and so was the ink.  However, I followed my heart and got the Epson.  I had some setup difficulty but I really like it.  Seems like it will serve me well.  The only problem is there is ink to replace, which you have on all printers but it’s not inexpensive.  Then there is a ink maintenance tray that you have to replace, it collects the wasted ink.  There are lots of tiny pieces of paper to absorb the ink.  I have a 35 page document feeder that actually works.  There is faxing, duplex printing, 2 paper trays that hold 250 sheets each (a solid ream of paper) and scanning.  It’s a special edition model that I guess was made only for Sam’s Club.  If you’d like to check it out it’s an Epson WF-4740.  Priced much higher on-line that it was in the club.  I also got ink which was $100.  I checked Amazon and saw ink for $60 but this had an XL black so I opted to spend the $100. 

I stopped by the Eye Doctor and found that my frames came in, I tried them on and found the fit I liked but the problem was they were as blue as this font on the web and that is what attracted me to them.  However, when they came in they were labeled ink laminate and they were a blacker blue.  So I had the person helping me order in 2 additional frames that were bright blue.  They offered 2 day shipping for free, so I should be able to stop back by next weekend.  Got my prescription for the eye drop called in so no more conjunctivitis.  $45 with insurance, I got a coupon on-line and changed that to $35.  I have 1 refill, if it’s a temporary thing I’m fine with that but I don’t think my conjunctivitis will just go away after a bottle or two of drops.  I hate eye drops but if they fix a problem like itching or in this case junk in my eye then I’m all for it. 

Got a large pizza with Sausage, Mushroom, Pepperoni and Black Olives.  Had a few slices and brought the rest home.  That will be meals for Sunday and Monday.  I had a Chocolate Creme Torte and it was amazing.  Dropped $37 which is a bit high but then when you consider it’s 3 meals it’s not bad at all. 

Stopped by a store and got me some extra cushion socks, picked up 2 polo shirts and saw a cute twink who had red hair and his ear pierced.  He was really my type and had a rocking body.  I was wearing one of my gay shirts (it’s got the rainbow on it) so I figured with me looking him up and down it would be obvious but he really wasn’t paying attention to me.  Too busy chatting to a coworker.  I didn’t say a word, just took in the view. 

Got me a nap in and saw some good porn just prior to dosing off.  Ms. Gator woke me up in the middle of the night she puked in my bed, on my feet and it was a horrible mess.  I get that cats get sick from fur balls, but why is it always in the middle of the night? 

Went shopping on Amazon.  Decided to get some new jeans.  I can wear them to work on Friday’s and the couple pairs that I have are well worn and almost getting not suitable for the office.  Jeans are not cheap.  I also got a few other items one of which was 2 telephone surge protectors.  I’m going to put one on the line as a whole and then the other one on the new printer.  Better safe than sorry.  I also found out my telephone with the display that went out, it’s actually the wall transformer that blew.  There are 0 volts coming out of it.  So Amazon helped me find a new one and it will be here on Monday.  The phone still works with out AC so I’m hopeful that this adapter will fix the issue. 

Renewed a 3 month subscription to a porn site that I enjoy.  They recently upped their prices so I have to play this game of renew for 3 months, cancel.  Then in 3 months do it all over again.  It’s a pain but it is cheaper. 

Had to get cat food.  This was a super stop because Marv needed his dry food and Ruth needed her special food, plus there was regular food to buy.  $55

All of my money has been spent.  I’ve got enough for groceries, gas and maybe a car wash.  That should last me until later next week when we get paid again.  I should have my raise retro active to June 1 and a bonus which will all be money that helps me pay for a lot of the damage I did this weekend to my credit cards.  I use the cards for points, cash back, etc.  then pay them off each month.  When the time is right I cash in and reap the rewards.  Smart, huh? 

While I didn’t get everything that I wanted to do done today, I am happy.  Buying the printer caused something to click inside of me.  I fulfilled a long term want and I guess that is what it’s all about. 

Last night I got into a fight with Instagram and some software that I had purchased to capture other peoples photos.  There was a cute guy who decided to show off his buns and I just had to have the photo on my camera.  Well the fucking software no longer worked.  They made a new version and rather than pass it on they wanted me to pay.  So I paid and then it didn’t do what the old version used to do.  I was pissed because Apple is involved here and there is no getting your money back.  I wound up trying an app finding out that it did what I wanted and then upgrading to the pay version.  So I got 3 apps but only 1 does what I want it to.  Anyway I got my photo and that’s what is important here.  The cost is mild $3 per app so it’s not like it’s anything major but the point is what was frustrating to me. 

The bed clothes are in the laundry and so are my new clothes purchases from today.  Something about a freshly laundered and made bed that causes me to sleep so much better.  I’m thinking of shaving tonight and getting a shower.  No sense in putting a dirty body in a clean bed. 

Finally, I got my new modem thingy setup for TV and Home Phone.  The old unit went back to the UPS store today and all is well.  I had to make some cabling adjustments to my UPS (Uninterruptable Power Supply) to ensure the equipment was properly protected and that even if the power went out that stuff stays live, at least until the battery gives.  That’s important mostly for my home security system.  Not like anyone is going to break in but if they were it would happen when the power was out with my luck.  I’m supposed to get email alerts when there is an outage but have only received 1 and that was a couple months back.  Whatever it was that took out so much of my electronics I hope that it doesn’t come back for a long time, if ever.  The damage could have been much worse and I could have been forced into filing an insurance claim.  Instead I’m eating the cost of a few hundred dollars and calling it a day.

I’m really worn out and look forward to getting to bed tonight and hopefully taking in some quality sleep as well as a decent quantity of it.  Gator & Company will have me up at the crack of dawn but as long as I can go back to sleep I’m fine with that.  If not then perhaps catching a nap mid day would be good. 

3 to 4 stops tomorrow.  Breakfast, Groceries, Gas and maybe a car wash. Then I am home for the day and that is always a comforting feeling.  Knowing that I don’t have to leave until Monday.  If I could stay home an entire day I’d do that but today it would have just been too much work.  I was running all over the place.  It’s really hot outside and I’ve used the Max AC in the car twice.  It’s so comfortable on an extra hot day. 

Well I’ve got the yawns and Momma is fussing at me.  I guess it’s time to call it a night since it’s 10p.  I’ll be back tomorrow for more gabbing.  Thanks for stopping by.  Stay cool!

Stormy Week

Everything at work is okay.  There were no consequences and for that I am thankful.  Apparently I’m told I had a large line of credit and my mistake reduced that, but there is still money in the bank.  Good to know!

We have had plenty of rain, lighting & thunder.  I came home Tuesday in a heavy storm.  2 fire departments were at the end of the street.  I thought it sucks for those people.  Little did I know what I had in store for myself.  Got in the house, fed the cats and that’s when I discovered the damage.  Apparently there was a lightning strike which caused one hell of an electrical storm in my house. 

Gone …

- Cordless phone system

- Modem on my all in 1 printer, so no more faxing

- Display on one phone

- Power Supply & Battery Backup System for my home phone & tv, which means neither of these services were working.

- Ethernet jack on the back of my cable modem

I had to power cycle the whole house things were way off kilter.  Thankfully I caught it before the sump pump over flowed.  The power cycle caused it to kick in and begin working. 

My home alarm was messed up as well, it thought the back door was broken, which thankfully it wasn’t.  However, since there was no home phone service it couldn’t call anyone to tell them.  I had to power cycle the system, which is not an easy thing to do.

My Tuesday evening was ruined.  I was on the phone with U-verse support forever, then had to call the cable company.  I was beyond frustrated and pissed off.

However, I got curious and found a work around for the TV & Home Phone.  It’s temporary a new modem is on it’s way to me.  So I have an external power supply that I thought might work and it does, so long as the house is cool.  Let some humidity build and it shuts down quickly.  You almost need an oven mitten to unplug it.  I know it’s not idea but it’s worked for a couple days and that is exactly what I needed.

Wednesday I got a replacement cordless phone and a replacement cable modem.  I tried to work on the all in one printer but it was hopeless.  The printer it’s self works and so does the scanner so that’s good news.  Bad news is the document feeder and now the modem are broken.  I’ve started looking at printers.  I can’t afford what I want which is an Epson Ecotank printer, I’m looking for soho quality and that comes with a premium price.  I’ve always wanted an Epson I have heard nothing but good things about them and am eager to try one out.  Perhaps someday but for now I am sticking with what I have and looking for options just in case.  I still have ink for this printer but won’t be buying more.  It’s been 3 or 4 years that I have had it and I’ve really gotten my moneys worth out of it. 

I guess I could start a go fund me page or an Amazon wish list like a porn star.  I am only kidding.  I don’t get it porn stars expecting people to buy them stuff or to help pay for this or that.  Your job should pay for your needs and wants in life.  If it doesn’t then you either need to find a way to supplement your income or get a new job.  I haven’t given one penny and I won’t.  Doesn’t matter how cute, young, big or tight you are … I have to pay for everything I get. 

So the cats are doing okay.  I went to my friends house on Wednesday for Independence Day.  They have a replica of Big Boy and that was tough.  I did spend a lot of time with that cat.  It brought back a lot of memories and of course caused me to start 2nd guessing myself again.  I can’t change my decision but I do have to live with it for the rest of my life.  That isn’t easy but I’ll manage. 

I’m excited to have a free weekend.  I discovered today that I will be on-call next week and am not looking forward to that.  However, I’m focused on the present and right now things look really good.  I am eager to find out about my pay raise and bonus.  If they don’t tell me by the time I go home on Wednesday, I will know first thing on Thursday morning when I wake up and open up an app on my phone to see how much is in the bank.  Friday will be payday but we can look 1 day in advance to see our paystubs online. 

I’ve got about 2 more hours to go and then I’ll be headed home and straight into the weekend.  Here’s hoping it will be as productive as it seems in my mind.  I hope you have a great weekend as well. 

Sunday

I spoke with the boss today, it sounds like my mistake will be glossed over.  However, he hasn’t spoken with his boss yet, so I am still holding my breath a little bit.  He didn’t seem terribly concerned about it.  I got a thank you for my efforts with closing the office. 

I processed all 10 departures last night and it didn’t go fast enough but I got through it.  Tomorrow we will be talking about the card system which won’t exactly be fun.  I’ve got a fairly busy day especially since it’s the start of a new month.  Lots of tasks occur then and it’s just a matter of going through the motions. 

I did get some sleep but it was closer to 3a when I finally was able to fall asleep.  Gator decided to sit on my chest, so that was fun.  She is such a sweet little girl but she is annoying as all get out.  She knows what she is doing but she wants her daddy’s attention.  They all do and they work me for every ounce they can get out of me. 

I had an okay day.  There was some on-call work required that I took care of.  It wasn’t all at once, it was divided over time but all in all I put in close to an hour.

Saw a movie I have been wanting to see called Limelight.  It starts Paul Vandervort.  He’s a sexy good looking model.  Go ahead and give him a google, if you like guys you won’t be wasting your time, I promise.  He’s got a nice body, never seen his package before but his rear end looks great.  There are shots of that in the movie.  He wrote this movie and it’s based on a true story.  You can tell when he character goes to become a “star” that there are gay overtones, he always has to wear swimsuits – his character grows tired of this.  Not sure if the movie reflects his life or the life of someone else.  It’s a dark movie but it reminds you to never loose sight of what is important and that’s your family and friends.  I saw it on Amazon for $4.99 and it was well worth my time. 

In other news, there was a branch down in the front yard from a recent storm.  I trimmed the oak tree that is closest to the house.  Plus chopped up some ivy that was strangling a bush.  Sprayed some Roundup around and hopefully all of the ivy will die.  That stuff is vicious it will choke out anything it gets it’s hands on and the roots are thick.  I’ve lost a lot of shrubbery to it.  Plus I’ve got poison ivy growing.  I don’t have a green thumb but I wish I had enough money to have someone come out and tidy things up the way they should be done.  Not a minor trim but a major trim.  My yard would look so much better.  For now I’m just interested in maintaining status quo, it’s not the greatest but it’s not a junk yard either. 

I found out that one of my neighbors that sold their house, sold it to a Property Management company.  They are renting it out.  Nice!  It’s a great house from the outside, I have never been in.  The only draw back is in order to get into the attached garage you have to go outside, which would be a deal breaker for me.  At any rate I have no idea who’s going to rent it but they will probably be paying close to what I pay for my mortgage but they won’t have the worries of repairs or maintenance.  I think that I eventually would like a town house or condo to take away the maintenance part which would be awesome.  However, that is long down the road.  Not going anywhere with these fuzzy creatures, unless I was buying another home no one would allow 4 pets. 

So I’m winding things down for the day.  A little computer time to play, watch some TV and soon it will be off to bed.  Monday will be here before you know it.  I do look forward to having a holiday but look much more forward to next weekend.  Not being on call will help my stress level, which has been and is way too high.  I wish it was as easy as inserting a venting tube to decompress but like everything else in life it takes time. 

Supposed to celebrate the 4th at my friends place, they are having some type of burnt flesh and were not eating until 4p.  That’s much later in the day than I’d like but it’s free food, I just hope it’s good.  Burnt anything is not appetizing to me at all.  A simple burger and brat will do just fine.  Ideally I’d like to be home by 7p so that I can have time to wind down and get ready to go back on Thursday.  Traffic, parking and life in general should hopefully be a little less stressful this week because lots of people are on vacation.  Unfortunately, I am not one of them!  It would be great to work 2 days and then have the rest of the week off but I’d probably be bored out of my mind. 

I have discovered something annoying about my new ride.  While I am a horny person, I am not a horny driver.  Meaning that I don’t tend to use my horn.  The noise startles people and if you honk at the wrong time they can easily run into you.  I’m a flasher – love to flash my lights  If that doesn’t get your attention then I will honk.  Turns out that it’s difficult to honk the horn.  You have to press really hard in the center of the steering wheel at the bottom.  Past rides you could easily honk by pressing anywhere on the wheel.  I’ve needed to use the horn a couple times and it wasn’t there for me.  Not sure if there is anything that can be done about it, but it’s on my list the next time I go in for service, which will be in a couple months. 

The weather has been HOT but that is nothing new for summer.  Looking forward to Fall but not Winter.  However, I do hope that we get buried and I mean buried with snow at least once.  Enough to close pretty much everything.  We haven’t had a major snow in several years.  Snow right now sounds refreshing, give me a few months and I will be wishing it was summer again.  :-)

I hope that all is well in your world.  Thanks for stopping by to check on me and the fur family.  I’ll chat with you all again soon.