Livid

Last night I got a scathing e-mail from the Bankruptcy attorney who is obviously not happy with me.  He said that my partner had committed fraud by placing the house in a trust.  What he fails to realize is that the trust was created years before he knew that one day he would have to file Bankruptcy.  Then he went on to tell me how my behavior and actions were hindering the case and that he has thought long and hard about filing a motion to be removed as the attorney of record. He basically said fuck you, fuck off and leave me alone or else I will file a motion and get removed.  Without actually saying those words. 

That has set me off, I want to write him back and politely tell him to go screw himself that I don’t need him.  However, getting another attorney in place would probably prove difficult since my partner has passed away.  Bankruptcy caters to the living and not the dead.  Meaning that if the Debtor has died it’s difficult to do anything as the executor or personal representative.  However, that said I am making a phone call to find out about hiring another attorney and seeing what it would cost.  Reason being is that the language he used was a threat and he said I haven’t yet.  Which leads me to believe that at some point he will file the motion and then I will be scrambling.  I’d love to see him disbarred but I doubt that will happen. 

I understand that my questions are a bit annoying but then again I’ve not been through a Chapter 13 Bankrupcy and I have not lost the love of my life before.  So this is uncharted territory to me and I might ask the same thing over and over in different ways.  Plus he thinks I am complaining that I can’t afford payments to try to skirt the system.  I am not a wealthy man, I am living paycheck to paycheck.  if a paycheck stops then I am in serious trouble.  I have no qualms about paying for the house, other than the payment is a bit steep and I woud like it lowered.  I do have issues with paying his Bankruptcy because it’s a debt that is NOT mine.

But for the fact that I am making the payments to the Bankruptcy and to the Mortgage company the vulchers would move in and take everything they could.  Is it any wonder why I want to kill myself?  This bastard has not taken into consideration the pain and anguish that I am feeling, much less the loneliness and the void in my life. 

I need to fire him and find a different attorney, just like I need a new job.  It’s all about a fresh start.  I am ready for the Good Times to begin because I have been through the bad. 

I know that into every life a little rain must fall but it’s like a typhoon that never ends in mine.  I honestly can’t take much more before I just throw caution to the wind and resort to trying to end my life.  It seems to be the fastest way to releif from the pain in this world, all though I will be in for a lot more in the after life if I follow through. 

The word for today is FUCKED  without lube, love or care life is just shoving it in deeper and deeper until I scream uncle.  Ask for help, you get none.  Ask for a break and you get it harder.  Why??

As you ponder that I will begin my work day.  The only good news I have is at least it’s Friday!

Thankful Thursday

One more day and then the weekend is here.  That is really good news.  Shame there aren’t more weekends.

Last night on Dirty Pop they were talking with Vin someone who stars in Showtimes TV Series Gigolos.  It’s a reality show about straight male prostitutes – basically free straight porn.  The guys look awesome, I watched an episode last night.  It’s different but if your up for that type of content give it a watch, you won’t be bored.  I found it on demand, not sure when it airs so as they say check your local listings.

Speaking of hot guys I was watching American Restoration the other night and got all excited when they brought the dunking booth out and wanted Tyler to get into it.  I thought I might get to see him shirtless. I’ve got a mad crush on him but am pretty sure he is straight.  Still I can’t help but dream.

It’s been an okay day, busy as usual but not crazy busy.  I’ve got a whole Intranet site to redesign and I am not a web developer so it’s kind of cumbersome.  This will be one of those tasks where I am happy when it’s done. 

I am doing the big count of Windows XP machines and man alive were in the 70’s already.  That will be a lot of hardware to replace and odds are I will be told not to replace it since it’s working fine today.  Or we will replace it but do it at a slow rate.  I get it, that will be one hell of an expense and I keep saying it but I am glad it’s not my bill. 

Got a tax form last night for my late partner, the amount on it was $45, I’m like come on it’s $45 what is the big deal why do we need to get the government involved over $45.  Ah, well he got crazy statements every other year he was alive so now that he is gone why should things be different?  Last year got him a refund so I am hoping for one in the same this year.

That’s all I know other than I need to get back to it.  I had to gobble lunch down today because I got a couple phone calls and they took up my time.  I figure it all evens out with a little break for blogging. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Middle of the week

Last night I watched How I Met Your Mother and that got me thinking.  It may be interesting to write blog entries as if I was writing to my late partner.  It sure would put a different spin on things.  It’s only an idea and probably not one I am going to follow through with. 

Unfortunately I am still suffering from lack of sleep, I fall asleep just fine but wake up in the middle of the night.  I am sure it’s because I miss my late partner.  There hasn’t been a day that has gone by that I haven’t thought of him.  Absence does make the heart grow fonder.  I wish there was a cure for this, but it’s something that time will have to sort it’s self out.  I don’t understand why it hit me all of a sudden and why it didn’t start at the beginning when the events started.  I just want to get a good nights rest and not wake up until it’s time. 

Today was an average quiet day.  I had some activity but was mostly left alone, those are the days I enjoy the most.  Let me do my thing and stay out of everyone’s way.  I have to take a machine to one of the offices tomorrow, so I will be leaving early or so I plan.  It might not happen until Friday but I am going to try for tomorrow.  The sooner I get out of there the better off I feel. 

I don’t talk with anyone all day long unless they e-mail me, send me an IM, call or ask me a direct question.  It’s like I am the bastard child of the office.  Nothing I haven’t been through before. 

I’ve got some additional worries but in life everything is temporary.  Unless your talking about diamonds, those are forever. 

Well time to get my move on for tomorrow and wind down for tonight.  2 more days!  Can’t wait until I come home on Friday and get to relax, drop everything at the door and just veg.  Friday has to be my favorite night out of the entire week.

Talk with you peeps later. 

Contacts

Yesterday I did something to fix a problem with my Outlook at work.  Last night there was a problem and I needed to send an e-mail.  I fixed one problem but created another.  I managed to loose my contacts.  I had plenty of them. 

So now I have them back thanks to a quick search but the bigger problem is on my phone some of them show up as duplicate.  It’s a pain in the ass to try to figure out if I deleted the right or the wrong contact so I put a * next to everyones name on my computer, that syncd to my phone.  Then I deleted everything without the *.  I still have duplicates.  It’s like a gremlin created them.

The worst part is I lost my calendar but I know of only a couple things that were up coming, I don’t exactly have a lot of plans.  So that is no big deal but I just loathe the whole process of loosing and re-keying data.  The upside is that it took away most of my morning. 

Boss man is back and we have made contact, it was pleasant and simple so I am thankful for that.  I just knew today would be filled with all sorts of screwy things when I got here the full sign was on for the garage.  There is no way they are full by 8am.  I went in and sure enough there were plenty of spaces left.  I didn’t get my usual but I got something comparable so that is okay.

The HR department messed up a bunch of tax forms so they have to issue corrected forms and to do that they had to bring in a typewriter.  I am listening to the HR manager fight with the machine trying to get the margins to release and having other problems.  I hear the correction tape running more than the typewriter it’s self.  Ah the good old days when things were simpler.  It’s quite a transition to go from a computer keyboard to a typewriter keyboard.  Computers are much more forgiving. They may be old school but those machines still come in handy today. 

People come to IT with all sorts of goofy problems.  Yesterday I was asked about a cable problem at one of the offices.  I said I don’t do TV and know nothing about it.  That was the easiest I have gotten out of anything in a long time.  It was true though.  I mean it’s like asking me a car questions or how to fly an airplane.  I have no idea.  Would you ask a cook how to fix a computer?  How about a police officer about fixing your printer?  I just don’t understand why if people think a computer is remotely involved it lands in the IT Department.  We are funnels for all of the BS. 

Well back to it.  I spent part of my lunch working so I figure this was make up time.  It all evens out in the end or so they say.  I some how always wind up on the short end of the stick.

Oh speaking of sticks and short ends.  The mortgage company doesn’t need any paperwork from me they needed to assign an underwriter to the request.  They gave it to the person who denied me the last time, saying the home wasn’t owner occupied.  I don’t have high hopes that they will approve me.  Only time will tell.  My attorney and the congressman should be following up with them later this week or early next week. 

More tax paperwork rolled in last night, it’s a small paper storm to file two peoples returns.  I just hope there is money coming back and not money owed.  I sure could use it.

Talk with you peeps later.

Ready 2 Go

This day seems to be lingering.  It’s very cold outside and I just want to get home, eat my supper, take out the trash, surf the net a little bit and then go be with the cats and watch TV counting down what time I have left before I have to retire for bed. 

Boss man is out today but I suspect he will be back tomorrow.  Ugh, not looking forward to that. 

I reached out to the Congressman’s Office to help put pressure on the mortgage company.  They called and left a voice mail and said they would let me know when they hear back from them.  My attorney also sent me a message indicating that she reached out to them and left a voice mail.  So the pressue is on, maybe they will budge or perhaps they will continue to stall, time will tell.  I think they have a trick up their sleeve and I don’t think I will like it but again time will tell.

For a Monday things have been quiet around here.  Our resident loud mouth is out of the office for a week.  Another person will be leaving tomorrow for a week long trip.  So it should be pretty quiet on my side of the office.  That doesn’t mean I won’t be busy.

Yesterday I watched Behind the Candleabbera the story of the Life of Liberace.  Very interesting and even made me tear up towards the end.  The last song he sings about loving you, it was something my partner would say – not word for word but words to that effect.  It was almost like he was talking to me from beyond.  Gosh I miss him. 

Saw Shamless and Looking last night – they were okay episodes nothing too spectacular.  However, I am glued to both shows at the moment.  House of Cards will be picking back up on Valentines Day so I am looking forward to that as well.  I just love to be entertained and try to drift away from my life.  I think that is what everyone does.

Thought about creating a mixed drink with Pineapple Juice, Sprite and Rum.  Then decided against it and it’s probably better that way.  Still have some juice left I didn’t finish the entire bottle but came close. 

Learned that today is Nation Chocolate Cake Day.  Sounds good and oldly enough I have a piece at home.  Not sure if I will have it today but will eat it eventually. 

The static electricity is alive in the air, when I pet the cats you can feel it.  We get shocked sometimes but still press on.  Everyone has to have their pet pets in.  A term my late partner came up with when he was trying to convince Shy Girl to let him touch her.  It worked oddly enough, he was a regular St. Francis of a Sissy.,   He loved cats and they loved him – he wasn’t afraid of any cat regardless of it’s size. 

Well that is all I know.  We are finally getting close to the 4pm hour and that means things should start to fly.  Perhaps I will be able to head home soon.  This is probably the last day everyone will be able to leave early until Friday as the tyrant will be in the office until then.  Lord give me strength. 

Stay warm, be well and I will talk with you peeps later. 

Expensive Lube

Hello Ladies & Gentlemen….

This is the recap post of Friday, Saturday and part of Sunday

Friday

Normal work day, believe it was the last day that boss man will be out.  I’m guessing he will be back on Monday, so not looking forward to that, even if he leaves me alone just knowing he is in the office creates tension.  Kind of sad when you think about it.

The two bitches went to lunch w/o me, didn’t even ask.  I couldn’t have gone at the time they went because I was dealing with an outage but they could have at least asked me.  I sent one of them a text message that said enjoy your lunch.  What I wanted to say was enjoy your lunch, I hope you choke. 

When people show you who they are, you have no choice but to believe them.  I’ve figured out that I am no longer a part of the click and am on my own.  It hurts but I will live with it, I mean I was on my own before either of them showed up and I have been there the longest.  I will be guarding what I say and how I interact with both of them. 

My grandmother told me when I was young that groups of 3 rarely last, the same goes for any odd number of people.  If it’s even you won’t have any problems but odd, look for issues.  So to say that this was unexpected would be a lie.  I was just hoping that I wouldn’t be the one who was shunned.  I get it they are women and they want to be able to chat amongst themselves w/o a guy. 

I managed to accomplish a fair amount of work.  All of management was gone on Friday so the place was a ghost town by 4:30.  I stuck around because I was having PC problems and got a last minute call.  I was able to leave by 4:50 which is a little early but it is no 4:30 which is what I wanted. 

Got cat food, had a hot guy working the register.  He asked me how I was I said I was good.  He said I am too I’m getting off work soon.  I wanted to say so would you like to join me for a bite to eat.  However, I resisted.  Those lines seem cheesy and awkward.  He looked very fine but there is no sure way to tell if he is gay and the risk of offending someone is pretty high and that isn’t where I want to go.  I don’t want people to think oh here comes that creepy guy he is going to hit on me or he did hit on me.  I’d rather just blend in. 

Went home, had frozen pizza for supper.  Seriously burned the roof of my mouth, which is pretty well a given with pizza.  It was good but painful to eat.  Watched a movie called The Bling Ring.  It was about a guy who was gay and 3 or 4 girls who went around breaking into celebrities houses in Hollywood.  It was a true story that was just made into a movie.  Kind of interesting at first but it took some serous balls to go walk into someone’s house like you owned the place.  The sad part was many of these celebs left keys under the mat or the door was unlocked or they left a window open.  You would think they would use their alarm systems, but apparently not.  These kids got away with clothes, shoes, jewelry, lots of cash, a gun, furs and drugs lots of drugs.  They even stole cars.  It all seemed good until the might fell and they got caught.  The hammer fell hard on them and they got serious fines and jail time. 

Saturday

Lazy day.  I got my hair cut, went to the expensive grocery store for my oatmeal and wound up picking up a few others things.  Of which one was a Frozen Uno’s Sausage Pizza.  I just couldn’t walk by it.  Uno’s is my all time favorite and while it’s not coming fresh from a restaurant, frozen is like the next best thing.  I cried when they closed their restaurants in  my area I thought they were ab fab.  My late partner liked them too.  I remember the last trip we made there I decided to look them up on my phone on the way because we thought they might be closing.  Turns out they went out of business weeks prior.  He really didn’t want pizza and he laughed at me.  I was not happy.

I stopped in Sam’s club.  They didn’t have ink for my printer which was disappointing.  They did have the chocolate covered blueberries that I wanted, kleenex in bulk and soda.  Checked out of there and it was spitting rain.  I decided time to come home.

Unloaded all of the junk and told the kids I would be going out later. Wound up taking a nap.  Tried to start out sleeping with big boy but he wasn’t interested.  He lapped up the attention for a few minutes then he bolted away from me.  Fine I didn’t want to sleep on the floor anyway.  Got on the love seat and was trapped.  Momma and Taz were with me.  That was awkward.  Eventually Taz left and momma reposiited herself and I fell asleep.

Woke up, dropped of a prescrption at the pharmacy.  I wanted to go in so I could hopefully see some eye candy at the pharmacy but decided against it and went through the drive up.  Wise choice because the guys were not working.  Headed to the post office where I got a EOB for my late partner.  He was using catheters because of urination problems.  Well this EOB was for lube for the catheters and the provider charged $202 for lube.  I mean seriously the stuff was in small packets and there were like 5 or 10 of them.  They are still in his room with the catheters.  They said he might be billed $7 yeah well send the bill and I will tell you what I told everyone else, he is dead good luck collecting!

I was in the truck and decided it needed a work out so I went out for a bite to eat.  I went to a place that I had only been to once before.  It was new and friends recently told me the crowd died down.  Yeah not the case at all.  I waited 15 minutes for a table.  Got to see some eye candy in the process so it wasn’t a total lost cause but I wasn’t too happy.  Food was good.  Went back to pick up my prescription and damn if one of the cute guys I liked waited on me.  I wished I would have went in.  Ah, well.  Then headed over to the local office supply store got my ink for my printer and picked up Turbo Tax.

I have decided I am going to trust Turbo Tax as we have for years and if there is a problem I will deal with it after the fact.  I think for what I am filing for myself and him that this will be fine.  I just have to wait to get all of the paperwork in hand before I can file.  It has to be in the mail by the 15th of next month but it could be a week or two after before it all comes trickling in.  I want the mortgage interest statement because that will yield him a refund (so I think) and I need the money. 

Came home unloaded, watched some TV and then got to work on the computer.  It was late had my Uno’s pizza it was okay not nearly as good as I had anticipated it would be.  Watched another movie called Keeping Up with the Joneses interesting but sad.  Went to bed.

Sunday

Woke up at 4am the cats wanted to be fed.  I ignored them and went to my late partners room to fall back to sleep.  Woke up around 6, went back to sleep and then got up for good at 9.  Fed the children.  Finished off what was left of the frozen pizza, which tasted a little better cold than it did warm. 

Went catfishing with the children.  That is my way of saying we played.  I tied a ball with a bell on it to the end of a fishing pole and wave it in front of them.  They all go nuts over try to get the ball.  It’s fun but I get tired pretty quickly.  Once I was confident they got a good work out, I got dressed and headed off for the grocery store.  Noticed a hell of a line at the car wash.  Glad I wasn’t in it. 

Got to the store, found a primo parking spot.  In and out fairly quickly.  Didn’t think I would spend that much but I did.  I got a lot of comfort food and gave in to desires I shouldn’t have.  Wound up with an $87 because of that.  Packed up headed to the gas station and then home. 

Unloaded everything, resumed laundry.  Looked up a few things on the internet, surfed for porn and well here I am.  The laundry needs attention and I would rather go back to bed.  I just hate Sunday’s because it means Monday is around the corner.  The thought of going back to the hell hole isn’t much fun but it does keep me going and pays the bills. 

I can only hope and pray that this week goes fast and that I get a lot accomplished.  I will be dropping a bomb on the boss within the next week or two.  Microsoft has issued End Of Life Support for Windows XP and Office 2003.  Which means if you are using them after the end of life date, which is in April and you are regulated by FINRA, HIPPA or some other alphabet soup Act you will be in non compliance and to avoid problems you will need to upgrade or if there is an audit you will be found in violation.  We are non compliant in so many areas what is one more.  However, I am going to tell him about it and recommend that he purchase new machines.  That means I will be going back to machine hell but it also means he is going to have to spend some money.  Most of the equipment is older and there are a fair number of people still using XP and Office 2003.  The end users will be happy to get new machines but he won’t like it because he has to spend money.  The alphabet soup Acts I mentioned require businesses to spend money to be in compliance and it’s far less expensive to comply than to pay for violations. 

Time to tend to the laundry and maybe take a break for TV.  Which will probably lead to a nap.  Been drinking Pineapple Juice I love that stuff.  Think I will polish off the entire bottle today.  That is how much I enjoy it. 

Take care, stay warm, be safe and enjoy the week ahead.  Remember every thing in life is only temporary.  Talk with you peeps later.

Cold Thursday

We are once again in the deep freeze.  When I woke up this morning it was 1 degree and now it’s warmed up to 8 degrees.  This should only last until tomororw and then we are supposed to return to normal temperatures but there appears to be snow in the forecast.  Not exactly sure how much. 

So Justin Bieber is back in the news again.  This time for being arrested.  Sounds like things may have caught up with him.  He is clearly out of control and needs something or someone to take him down a notch.  While he has the looks and money – it’s his actions and reactions that are the problem.  Didn’t he come from “nowhere” like you and I and he made his own dreams come true.  Why then would he act the way he does?  That just doesn’t seem right but I guess fame and money went to his head. 

I talked with my friend last night and she agreed to proof my book.  When ever I decide that it’s done.  I’ve got the basic shell there from start to finish but there needs to have more details filled in, some edited, etc.  It’s a work in progress.  If I publish, it’s just to get my story out there and to show people that we fought for everything we got and in the blink of an eye it can all be gone. 

This morning I received a call from a FL law firm that I had previously reached out to for help with the mortgage.  While they have an A- raiting with the BBB I am not certain that their tactics are completely above board and would fly with my lender.  They told me that I am getting the run around, it takes 3 months to approve a modification and I’ve been going at this for far too long.  Yeah, but what is my choice?  If I go with them the first thing they tell you is to stop making your house payment.  Yeah, that might work under normal circumstances but in my case the borrower is deceased so if I just stop paying they may try to foreclose.  For the moment I am taking my chances with the local attorney and the new point of contact at the lender.  If the bankruptcy attorney gets back to me in a timley fashion (gasp, that won’t happen) I may consider making my own payment modification.  I do agree I am getting the run around and they are trying to take me for as much money as I will give them.  But I’m scared and they have me in a tight spot so they can extort and play on that.  Eventually though push will come to shove.  Something has to give!

Yesterday I left the office early to go install a machine at one of the local offices.  I got lost on the way there.  The hardest part is finding my way on the interstate  There have been some recent changes with on ramps in the area so I wound up way out of my way.  Eventually I got on the right track and made it there.  I so hate GPS systems when they take you in a loop. 

So I left the office at 2:30 and made it there by 3:20.  Then it was dust and cable city.  Transferred some data, installed some last minute additional software and viola I was done.  It was 4:10 by now.  No point in going back, I just went home.  The children were delighted to see me, they tried to con an extra meal out of me but that didn’t work out so well for them. 

Latley I have been having trouble staying asleep.  When there is even the slightest imbalance in my life I will wake up in the middle of the night.  I’ve tried different combonation sleeping pills.  Not eating or drinking after a certain time, etc.  nothing seems to work.  I also have strange dreams, as if I am living my life with my late partner and he is there like nothing ever went wrong.  So I think the imbalance is the loss of him plus the other stress at work and financially.  I can only hope that a good nights sleep is in my future.  Sooner rather than later.  Sometimes I have problems getting back to sleep but most times its just a matter of curling up and I am out. 

So you know how good you feel after you have an orgasm?  Stress, trouble and problems are all gone for but a few minutes.  I need someway to flush out my system with all of the stress and worry.  Orgasms don’t cut it.  Sure it feels good but honestly it’s very temporary.  My sex drive is messed up a little as well.  Sometimes physically I am in the mood but mentally my body says nope, not interested.  Sort of like not tonight I have a headache. 

My struggle to find a release is on going and has been for quite sometime.  I don’t want to pick up a bad habit or get involved with anything illegal.  I just wish I could pull the steam valve and let out all of the bad.

Big Boy seems to be back to normal.  He came in last night and was huffing and puffing but I lulled him to sleep with petting, scratching and a belly rub.  He loves those.  So I sit lopsided in front of the TV taking care of him while trying to enjoy TV and fending off the other cats asking for attention.  If I stop with him, he cries.  It’s like a no win situation but I do try my best.  I stopped with the stool softener to see what kind of effect it is going to have.  I hate seeing blood and the poor thing will give himself a hemroid and then he will have something to cry about. 

I still have yet to receive my calendar with the hunky repair guys on them.  I filled out a form requesting another one today.  I’m thinking maybe they see my first name and go, nope not sending it to a guy.  I mean I can see it being a good joke to pull on a straight male friend but there are some guys who like guys.  I just wish they would send it already!

Bills are paid, have plenty of money left over.  There should be more bills rolling in soon.  One of which will be the credit card I have been using like candy.  That is the only thing that I really sweat about.  I don’t like paying interest so I strive and pride myself on just taking a 30 day loan and paying it off.  That is the best and only way to use a credit card.  The accident really put me in deeper than normal.  Hopefully the bulk of the left over money will be able to go to the credit card and then I should be in good shape or so I hope.

One banana left on the kitchen table means there is only one work day left. That is good because I will be able to rest but bad because Monday will be here soon and that means the hot head will be back.  Not looking forward to his return.  Then again I never look forward to a Monday. 

Lunch time is over with so back to the grind I go.  Stay warm and I will talk with you peeps later.

Tuesday

The one day I plan on leaving early the two people who can write permission slips to get equipment out of the building decide to not show up to work.  There was a little snow and most of the office decided to stay home today.  There are a few of us that are dedicated or crazy (take your pick) that made it in.  I was the first one here and had 15 minutes to spare.  I’m damn proud of that!

I saw a job this morning and applied for it.  Like most jobs it says that a degree with required, that never stops me I apply anyway.  Well this place wrote me and said do you have a degree.  I said no but I have over 10 years experience.  To which they responded sorry no degree = no job.  Ah well, you get what you pay for.  Hopefully the monkey they hire that has a degree has an ounce of smarts.  Totally their loss.  I will have lots of other employers to pick from.  This one was fairly close to home so it would have been nice. 

In talking with a vendor today that does business locally they are all working from home.  They said the roads are horrible out.  Ah, okay I’ve got front wheel drive and know not to drive real fast I can weather it.  It’s 17 degrees here so that is why I think most people just stayed inside because it’s comfy.

Learned something today.  If you have an iPhone and transition to a Android phone or to anything other than an iPhone you have to tell Apple to delete your phone number, otherwise people with iPhones won’t be able to text you.  Reason is that Apple has a closed network for iPhone users and it sends text messages from Apple Devices to Apply Devices at no charge with iMessage.  Now I knew about iMessage and that it was free, meaning that it doesn’t go against your text messaging counter.  However, I didn’t know that they retained your number in their network until you told them otherwise.  I figured the carrier would tell them you got a different device.  No such luck.  So tuck that way for a rainy day, you never know when it will help someone.  The phone number for Apple is 800.275.2273 just in case you need to call.

Anxious to visit the post office and hoping that my calendar with the hot and hunky repair men is waiting for me.  I am sure the bulk of my mail with either be junk or bills – or both. 

Supper tonight is left over pressed chicken with mac & cheese.  I figured that would be the best way to get rid of the chicken and make sure that I didn’t have to throw it away.  It should be a filling meal. 

I watched Looking that new HBO series all about gay men.  Well it’s no Queer As Folk but I will certainly stick with it a bit more.  Not all that interested but who knows it may become appealing.  On the other hand I miss Ian on Shameless – I know he’s away in the military and his family thinks he ran away.  However, the character is gay, young and a ginger – cute too.  What more could you ask for?  Yeah I know an in person meeting. 

Big Boy delivered the present I was waiting for.  Turns out it was all good and the medicine seems to help him.  Less blood so I gave him another dose.  I hope it provides the same results.  I heard him breathing last night, wheezing away.  It is a bad thing when you hear that.  I know he is sliding further down the hill.  However, he still has energy and those eyes that look up at me and make my heart melt.  He’s my big black boy and I love him!

Okay so I am struggling for content.  Time to hand this post up and get back to work or maybe just find something else to do to pass the time.  :) other than work.  Talk with you peeps later.  Stay warm!

Monday

It’s another Monday!  On the way to work I wondered where is all of the traffic at?  I left the house late because I was playing with BLU and being lazy.  Then it hit me, today is a holiday.  Well that is for some people, not me.  Our next holiday is Presidents Day which is the 17th of February and it falls on a Monday.  Nice. 

Today has been a day where I chase my tail and caused most of my own problems.  Not exactly sure why that is but it’s the way things went down.  I acomplished a little bit.  Tomorrow hopefuly will be a more productive day.  I will be heading out early to deliver a machine to one of the local offices, I am in control so I figure later in the afternoon so that I don’t have to drive back here, I can just go home.  If that works out it will be nice.

I heard back from my attorney, the mortgage company needs more information.  She said that they meaning the mortgage company are supposed to be in touch with me.  I wrote her back and said words to the effect of this is not a game and I am no longer interested in the back and forth.  Tell me what they need and  will get it.  Each month my money decreases, I suspect they are just waiting to either see how much they can collect or if they can drain me dry.  I am ready to just make the payment modification on my own and short them by $500 perhaps that will kick things into gear.  Everyone told me before you are paying them on time they have no interest in working with you.  Fall behind and they will work with you.  It’s tempting, very tempting. 

I purposely didn’t say hello to the lady that is always trying to change me and she sought me out later in the morning.  She said you didn’t say hey, I looked up and said hey.  That got her out of my office.  I will make a point of saying hey tomorrow but not sure that I will continue beyond that.  It’s obvious that the two women want a friendship but neither one of the are including me, why stick my head in where I am not wanted. 

15 more minutes then I will be out of this popsicle and on my way home to the children.  Going to feed them, eat supper and then take out the trash.  A little R&R in front of the computer and then upstairs I will be for the remainder of the evening, if it all works out.  I am fairly certain that I will have a mess to clean up because of the stool softener that I gave Big Boy.  He didn’t go at all yesterday so today it will be lookout day.  I figured he would have woke me up last night but it didn’t happen.

That’s it right now for my life.  I am happy to say it’s boring and maybe soon will be able to report that the mortgage issue has finally worked out.  Have a good evening and I will talk with you peeps later.

Sunday

Made it to the weekend!  I did relax and do nothing Friday night when I got home, other than put away cat food, feed the kids and myself.  I watched TV until I was tired and went to bed.  Skipped the kids medicine as well as brushing my teeth.  Put some lotion on my hands because they were dry and that was it.  Lazy as lazy can be.  It felt good!

I never did get the phone call from friends that I was expecting.  I thought I would just go out myself but talked myself out of it.  This is the first weekend in I can’t tell you how long that I have eaten at home for all of my meals.  Not bad and it’s saving me money so that is a good thing. 

Saturday I got out to get the mail, got nothing good and came back home.  Laid around and did some laundry.  Helped my brother with his resume.  Cleaned out the cat boxes and started laundry.  Got the dishes done.  Managed to get a nap in.  Worked on the book some more. 

The shell for what I want to say is there.  There are many more things to include and edit.  It will take me sometime to finish it up.  I’ve only told my brother that I am writing a book.  If I move to publish it I sure hope it makes me some money.  It is my story so I take it personal.  Maybe it will help someone or benefit someone in some way.  That and just airing my thoughts are the two reasons why I want to publish.

On to work.  Friday I went out to lunch with the 2 gals in the office I am friends with.  I can’t help but feeling like the 5th wheel.  They both hardly talked to me but chatted each other up.  Then they started talking about work stuff and said oh we shouldn’t talk about that with him here it’s confidential.  Yeah, like who am I going to tell.  I don’t think I will be asking them to lunch again.  The next move will be theirs.  Both of them really hurt my feelings and I am starting to reevaluate if they are my friends or if they are just users.  Thoughts are leaning towards users. 

By a user I am just using me to get what they want or to get special favors.  The one girl is constantly giving me advice and telling me that I can’t say Oh My God it’s Oh My Gosh.  I can’t sware to God.  You can’t change me – I am who I am.  I will say what I want and be who I want to be that is that.  I am 42 years old and I am human.  I make mistakes, I say things on occasion that I don’t mean.  But I hate someone trying to mold me into their person.  Just another reason why I need to get away from this bat shit crazy office.

I so want a new job, new friends and a new outlook on life.  Face it you spend most of your waking hours at work.  No wonder things look so crappy to me it’s because I am surrounded by mind controlling idiots.  I have very little freedom and it’s an environment that is toxic.  Change that and you will change my world and my view point.  I might as well be happy and broke instead of depressed and broke. 

One of these ladies is a workaholic she will come in at 8 and stay until 6 or 7 at night.  Not me, but she thinks I should show more dedication to my job.  FUCK THAT!  The other lady comes in when she gets there and always leaves before me.  That t-totally pissed me off.  She is HR for God Sake what kind of example does that set? 

So I get the bright idea to leave early one night by 10 minutes.  Turns out that is the night they decided to fire someone and notify me at the 11th hour.  If I would have stayed in the office I could have had her access terminated in minutes.  Instead I scrambled to do it once I got home.  My responses clearly said hey I left early today without me ever uttering those words.  Not a good thing. 

See that is just my luck I break the rules and I get caught.  Someone else breaks the rules and they skate away free and clear.  Makes no sense to me. 

I am still applying for jobs as I see them.  I almost accidentally applied for a job that was based in Dallas.  So glad I read the fine print.  You have to be careful for what you sign up for. 

Today being Sunday it’s laundry finish up day.  I went to the grocery store, got gas for the car and decided to get the car washed.  Saw a fine man at the car wash.  Then came home unloaded the groceries, got the laundry going and here I sit typing away.  I’ve got one of the girls pestering me for lunch so I guess I will give into her as much as I don’t want to.

Talk with you peeps later. 

Painful 2 Days

Preparing for this legal matter has created a lot of stress for me.  Thankfully the big event was today so tomorrow will hopefully be a bit easier on me.  I’ve got computers crashing all over the place and a couple machines to build.  Argh!

Tomorrow is Friday so that is the good news.  Not exactly sure what I will do this weekend but I know tomorrow night won’t involve a computer if I can help it.  I like to make Friday nights my lazy night.  I got cat food shopping and then come home and eat & spend a lot of time on the couch watching TV.

We had some snow this morning so the commute was a little bit longer than normal and lots of delays but all in all not that bad. 

Children are all doing okay for the most part.  Shy Girl I think doesn’t feel well.  I gave her a reprieve last weekend so this weekend it’s claw trimming time.  She isn’t looking forward to it and neither am I.  However, it’s one of those necessary evils.  I got Big Boy last night, Momma tonight.  So slowly I start and cat by cat I will finish.  As fast as I cut them they go sharpen them up, which kind of defeats the purpose. 

Got an e-mail from Target that I my information was compromised in the data breach.  I am not all too worried about it, I already have identify theft monitoring from the breach last year at Adobe.  I think I am safe but who really knows.  You wouldn’t think anyone would want to assume my identity but they will be quick to use my credit card.  I wish I could become someone else that has a more glamorous life and lots more money.  It won’t solve all of my problems but would certainly help.  On that note not a single lottery number this week.  Drats!  I have to keep on working. 

Looking forward to resting and getting back to book writing.  My brother needs some resume help so he will be calling.  No word from my friends on getting together but they could still call.

I am headed up to watch TV with the kids and find something for my dry skin.  My hands get it the worst.  Funny thing is it used to only be my elbows of all places.  Now they are fine but my hands are not.  Itchy and they feel like sandpaper.

Going to lunch tomorrow with the girls from work – hope we have a good time.  Boss man will be out for a while so there should be peace on earth.  Be nice if he never came back, but all good things must come to an end.  Sort of like this post.  Talk with you peeps later!

Just keeps getting better - 2014

Got my baby back, all clean and the whole car looks brand new.  You can’t tell there is a new rear bumper.  Nice!

My ride was waiting for me when I returned the car.  I got a nice hot 25 year old guy who is close to being 26 to drive me back to the body shop.  We chatted it up a while.  I thought about making a move but decided to let it go.

Got the mail and hope your sitting down.  As of next month I no longer have to pay for Health Insurance, it’s totally free!  This benefit should continue for the remainder of my life or until a contract supersedes it.  I was notified that I am a protected member.  Hey I will take it, not having to pay $16 a month is healthier for me.  The coverage isn’t top notch, but it’s not horrible either. 

I went out for Tacos and shoveled down 4 of them.  Paid my bill and was on my way home.  I thought sure fate would have me get into a wreck but I made it no harm, no foul.  I put all of my goodies back in and will be oh too happy to drive it to work tomorrow.  I’ve got an early appointment so I will have to be quick to get out of here tomorrow. 

I am going to enjoy a nice evening with the children, watch some TV and relax.  I’d love to write but I think I will get more benefits out of relaxing.  Plus I need some ice cream. 

Looking forward to the weekend, hope that my friends call to make plans with me.  We hinted at it when we spoke last week.  If so I will be able to use my other gift card for Maggiano’s.  Love that place!

Hope the year is treating you all well thus far.  It’s times like these that make me feel this is going to be my year.  I sure hope I am right. 

Talk with you peeps later.

Baby Back

Just got a call my car is done.  They said 2 days but it was more like a 1 day repair.  I was quite surprised.  I was planning on getting it tomorrow but since they called early enough, I let my boss know and I will be leaving in a bit to go through the process of getting it back. 

I have to drop the rental car off, then wait for them to find a person to give me a ride to the shop.  Then pay up at the shop and I can be on my way in my baby. 

I look forward to seeing the finished product and kind of hope they washed it as well, but that may be asking a bit much. 

The excitement is in the air and I can’t wait to get back in to familiar surroundings.  Driving this boat they gave me really sucks.  I was just starting to get used to it today but why keep it another day if I don’t have to. 

My prayer is that this all comes together better than it started out. 

Sigh.

It’s been a busy day and I was being productive but then that call came in and it’s like throw caution to the wind, time to go.

Depending upon the time, I might even go out for supper.  It’s taco night at the bar and they are $1.50 each – 3 or 4 of them and a soda = a cheap meal and I don’t have to worry about it when I get home. 

Then all I have to do is feed the monsters. 

Oh I was browsing the net today and the repair company I chose to fix the furnace is offering a calendar of their men – some shirtless.  It’s free so I signed up for a copy, sure hope the guy that fixed my furnace is in there shirtless.  Drool.

Talk with you peeps later.