Sunday

Made it to the weekend!  I did relax and do nothing Friday night when I got home, other than put away cat food, feed the kids and myself.  I watched TV until I was tired and went to bed.  Skipped the kids medicine as well as brushing my teeth.  Put some lotion on my hands because they were dry and that was it.  Lazy as lazy can be.  It felt good!

I never did get the phone call from friends that I was expecting.  I thought I would just go out myself but talked myself out of it.  This is the first weekend in I can’t tell you how long that I have eaten at home for all of my meals.  Not bad and it’s saving me money so that is a good thing. 

Saturday I got out to get the mail, got nothing good and came back home.  Laid around and did some laundry.  Helped my brother with his resume.  Cleaned out the cat boxes and started laundry.  Got the dishes done.  Managed to get a nap in.  Worked on the book some more. 

The shell for what I want to say is there.  There are many more things to include and edit.  It will take me sometime to finish it up.  I’ve only told my brother that I am writing a book.  If I move to publish it I sure hope it makes me some money.  It is my story so I take it personal.  Maybe it will help someone or benefit someone in some way.  That and just airing my thoughts are the two reasons why I want to publish.

On to work.  Friday I went out to lunch with the 2 gals in the office I am friends with.  I can’t help but feeling like the 5th wheel.  They both hardly talked to me but chatted each other up.  Then they started talking about work stuff and said oh we shouldn’t talk about that with him here it’s confidential.  Yeah, like who am I going to tell.  I don’t think I will be asking them to lunch again.  The next move will be theirs.  Both of them really hurt my feelings and I am starting to reevaluate if they are my friends or if they are just users.  Thoughts are leaning towards users. 

By a user I am just using me to get what they want or to get special favors.  The one girl is constantly giving me advice and telling me that I can’t say Oh My God it’s Oh My Gosh.  I can’t sware to God.  You can’t change me – I am who I am.  I will say what I want and be who I want to be that is that.  I am 42 years old and I am human.  I make mistakes, I say things on occasion that I don’t mean.  But I hate someone trying to mold me into their person.  Just another reason why I need to get away from this bat shit crazy office.

I so want a new job, new friends and a new outlook on life.  Face it you spend most of your waking hours at work.  No wonder things look so crappy to me it’s because I am surrounded by mind controlling idiots.  I have very little freedom and it’s an environment that is toxic.  Change that and you will change my world and my view point.  I might as well be happy and broke instead of depressed and broke. 

One of these ladies is a workaholic she will come in at 8 and stay until 6 or 7 at night.  Not me, but she thinks I should show more dedication to my job.  FUCK THAT!  The other lady comes in when she gets there and always leaves before me.  That t-totally pissed me off.  She is HR for God Sake what kind of example does that set? 

So I get the bright idea to leave early one night by 10 minutes.  Turns out that is the night they decided to fire someone and notify me at the 11th hour.  If I would have stayed in the office I could have had her access terminated in minutes.  Instead I scrambled to do it once I got home.  My responses clearly said hey I left early today without me ever uttering those words.  Not a good thing. 

See that is just my luck I break the rules and I get caught.  Someone else breaks the rules and they skate away free and clear.  Makes no sense to me. 

I am still applying for jobs as I see them.  I almost accidentally applied for a job that was based in Dallas.  So glad I read the fine print.  You have to be careful for what you sign up for. 

Today being Sunday it’s laundry finish up day.  I went to the grocery store, got gas for the car and decided to get the car washed.  Saw a fine man at the car wash.  Then came home unloaded the groceries, got the laundry going and here I sit typing away.  I’ve got one of the girls pestering me for lunch so I guess I will give into her as much as I don’t want to.

Talk with you peeps later.