Tuesday

I couldn’t believe it but lunch time came really fast today.  I was engrossed in working on a machine and for a while the machine was winning.  However, eventually I turned that around. 

Hopefully quitting time will come around just as fast.  I will be building a laptop this afternoon or at least those are my plans. 

Yesterdays mail brought me a check for $117, which was nice.  It’s for the old homeowner’s policy.  I am still waiting on my policy to come out on the house, perhaps that will be in today’s mail.  Who knows? 

Sleeping last night wasn’t easy.  Jumper didn’t want to join me until I almost drug him in the room.  It was an okay night but I did wake up a few times. 

Suits is on tonight and given my crush on Patrick J. Adams I want to watch the whole thing.  So I will be taking my sleeping medicine a little later, perhaps that will prove to be a smart move.  I am horned up and looking forward to season 3 of the show. 

Blu hasn’t sneezed that I have heard in a couple days.  He looks a little depressed, like he isn’t feeling good but he is bouncing all over the house so maybe I am reading him wrong or maybe he is just being the master of disguise that cats are known to be. 

I am still feeling down, not as bad as it was last night.  However, I just hate the reminders that he is gone.  I am adjusting but every once and a while it feels like a dream and I think he is going to call, come around the corner or some how communicate with me.  Doesn’t happen.  I’m not going to look for a way to communicate with the dead but it would be nice to hear from him again and know that he is okay.  Right now all I can do is believe and have faith that is true. 

My lip has developed a pulse in it and I feel it twitching now and then.  Kind of aggravating, just started a couple days ago.  This morning when I was putting on my socks, I brushed my foot and all of this skin came off, so I did it again and more skin.  I guess I need to scrub my feet.  I honestly don’t pay that much attention to them, which might be why they have been bothering me.  So I am going to try to get to them tonight, in the hopes that I can make them feel oh so good. 

I have been eyeing the George Forman Grill, I think next week that it will come down and I will try my luck at making a cheeseburger.  I would like to go visit a place we used to eat burgers at.  Was supposed to do that this past weekend until I got invited over for dinner.  This weekend I have the vet on my list, outside of that nothing else.  Maybe I will make it and maybe I won’t. 

I feel so much pressure at work and a little at home – I’d really like to get away from it all.  I really can’t afford to finance a vacation considering everything is upside down and I have no idea if or when the next shoe will drop.  I have a Cat & AC System that could both die and it will cost little for that Cat but the AC System would be a major expense.  It’s time for a replacement but that of course takes, you guessed it, money.  I want my money to work for me as hard and long as possible.  So I get the most out of it.  If I can get more, well that would be a good thing. 

Lunch is at the 1/2 way mark.  I wish I was talking to you know who about supper because I have no idea what I am going to eat tonight.  It will be frozen for sure and involve the microwave.  This death diet is horrible but I honestly think I am doing pretty good for a single guy taking care of himself.  I know my guy would be proud of me and what I have accomplished in the short amount of time that he has been gone.  I told him I would make him proud, I plan on living up to that as best as I can.

Well off to check in on the dating site, I’ve gotten a couple of emails from them.  I have no hope of meeting anyone and I think I will be happier when my subscription runs out next month.  I was face to face with the cute guy here at work last night.  I noticed he is wearing a wedding ring now.  I could have struck up a conversation with him but chose to let things go.  I don’t know if he got my friend request and I don’t think pushing it is the right thing to do.  I just get around him and I clam up, too embarrassed to say much of anything. 

You peeps take care and I will talk with you later.