Jedi Mind Trick

I asked our Office Manager about my review.  I was asked when my anniversary is and I told her back in May.  She said oh, no problem I will get it done for you today.  I said did you want me to ask boss man, she said no it’s taken care of.  Okay, let it be sounds like it’s under control.

The next thing I know I get an e-mail from boss man and it’s a proposal from the outside IT firm we use, dated from last year.  It is the reason why my position was created in the first place.  They wanted to do an audit of all of the equipment and I got hired and flown around the US to take care of it along with putting in WIFI.  He asked me to review the document and said that we would talk about it within the next week. 

Now I am totally confused.  There are things in the document that I haven’t done because I wasn’t asked.  I have always done everything I have been asked to do, regardless if I want to do it or not.  Short of the trip with the payroll checks.  Outside of that I’ve been a secretary, receptionist and an IT Person.  I don’t trust these people that much and I am overly paranoid that I am on my way out the door.  It’s only because of how I have been treated and how I have seen them treat others.  They use, get what they can and then dispose of you like you’re a used tissue. 

I have remained silent and just done what I have been asked to do.  Which is my usual method of operation.  Just sit in my office, nose to the grindstone and do my own thing until someone calls or stops in asking for help. 

I of course don’t want to loose my job.  I know that I haven’t done anything wrong, so it’s probably paranoia but I suppose better to be on guard.  Working here is like a Jedi Mind Trick.

 

So last nights mail consisted of proof that the lawsuit was served.  Instead of returning the documents to the court as they were instructed, they returned them to me.  I mailed them to the court but didn’t want them to get lost in the shuffle of things so I shelled out more money and sent them certified mail.  Hopefully, this is the last certified letter I have to send for a long time.  I’ve given the post office so much money.

Yesterday morning I went to deposit the refund check from the old Homeowner’s policy and the darn ATM fought with me.  It kept spitting the check back telling me that I would have to deposit it in person at a local branch.  I just kept feeding it back in like 4 times before it finally took it and the deposit was done.

Still waiting on the new HO policy.  Had Turkey Pot Pie (yep pie) for supper last night along with a slice of Custard Pie (pie again).  Got one more slice and will finish it tonight before the pie (3 times in one post) goes bad.  I hate to throw away my money like that.  I bet you thought I was going to say pie (oh no he didn’t), fooled you. 

Tonight’s exciting menu is Stouffer’s Lasagna, I like it but I am really starting to grow tired of frozen things for supper.  Friday I am going out for Chinese for sure.  I’ve been craving it since last Friday and they order it in the office all the time.  Makes me want to take someone’s lunch away. 

Not sure if any of you have kept up with Will & RJ (shep689, you tube) but they moved from FL to CA.  They are still enroute.  Today’s video was saying goodbye to Kasey.  Wow I knew that would be difficult to watch.  I almost started crying.  I will miss seeing Kasey, he is so cute.  I am interested in seeing Will & RJ’s adventures in CA and how their lives unfold.  Moving away and saying goodbye is difficult.  I remember leaving home but I’m still in the same state, home is like 30 minutes away.  Both of them can go back to FL anytime, I know their friends & family will love seeing them.

Funny how you never realize how much stuff you have until you move. 

Speaking of which last night I did get to soak my feet, felt good.  Nails all trimmed and feet look good.  I went to hang up the towel I used to dry my feet off, so the towel would dry.  Logical place was my guys bathroom, since mine is full.  I walked back there and hung it up, looked up and saw a wash cloth that he put there.  I opened the door to the shower and found another one inside.  Oh God that just tore me up.  I wanted to ball.  I got the heck out of there before emotion got the best of me. 

I saw the Season Premier of Suits, loved the Uniball line and Donna & Lewis with the ink and Hitler mustache.  That was too funny.  Mike (Patrick J Adams) got to mount his girl again, love seeing him shirtless.  This is going to be an interesting season.  I hope that am right and that there is lots more shirtless Mike!  Woof, Woof!

Not much else is new.  I made a long list of things to do at work and it’s staring at me all day.  Will so enjoy checking items off that list.  There are only 8 things but it will involve volumes and hours of work. 

I really want to start getting rid of clothes and personal effects that I know I won’t use or need.  However, the whole thing with the wash cloth tore me up – I can’t imagine how I would hold up in going through his clothes.  Maybe I will feel better afterwards but I doubt it.  I stay out of his 2 rooms (office & bedroom) as much as possible.  It’s better for me emotionally.  I am such a neat nick though and the house is a shambles.  My intentions are there but doing the actual work is a whole different story.

Some people have told me it takes 1 or 2 years, other people say you will know when the time is right.  I just can’t fathom keeping his rooms like they are today for another whole year.  Then again, what’s the rush it’s not like I am going anywhere.  No one has a gun to my head and there is no looming deadline.  So I guess I will get to it when I get ready.

If you have followed the news over the past few days you certainly are aware of the death of Cory Montieth, who was an actor on Glee.  I was shocked & saddened to hear of his passing.  I was more shocked when the corner released the cause of death.  In the US it takes a month or more to get a Tox screen back.  In Canada I guess they have a fast track system.  Maybe we will eventually get that in the US.  Having that could help bring closure to families and/or work in solving crimes.  It is always sad when a young person dies, especially when it’s a sudden thing.  Just hammers home tomorrow isn’t promised to us.  Hard to do but live each day like it’s your last because eventually it will be. 

TV tonight is Franklin & Bash, got a hottie to watch there, good ol’ Mark Paul.  Hopefully, I can stay awake to watch the entire show. 

I slept so so but not better than normal last night.  So taking my pills later isn’t necessarily the key.  I think the best key is getting the pressure off of me at work and just letting go, then I think I will sleep well. 

Lunch time is about done so back to my long list of things to do.  Configuring machines!  Talk with you peeps later.