Today feels very much like a Tuesday but it’s really Wednesday. That’s the thing with a Monday holiday it throws the feel of the entire week off for me. Not that I am against holidays, I like all the time off with pay that I can get. Plus, it makes it a bit closer to the weekend again.
I’ve got a massage booked for next week on one of my days off. It’s with that new place I had been seeing an ad for on FB. The system selected the therapist and I got a guy. My hope is that he is more aggressive and works out all of the knots. I don’t look forward to being sore but if it means the knots are gone then well it will be money well spent. It’s not cheap but then again massages generally are not. I do miss the therapist that used to come to the office, she was not only aggressive but she would use rocks and the price never ever changed. She was quite reasonable.
I might schedule my next COVID shot while I am off, that kind of got away from me and honestly, it’s not something I really want to do or look forward to but I see the news saying there is yet another new strain and how cases are on the rise. I don’t want COVID again. Even if I can recover at home the illness it’s self plus the rigmarole paperwork from work to get a leave of absence is the last thing I want to work on.
I was able to leave the office early in the afternoon, I knew that the whole way home my phone would chirp and it did. Thankfully it was nothing of concern that I missed. There was an email that came in later in the afternoon and my colleague had left for the day so I was able to fill in. I like it when things work out like that. I had someone leaving that I had to take care of as well. I did it all from the comfort of my bedroom, never had to come downstairs at all. That laptop I bought is quite a handy thing to have!
I felt the depression and sense of loss building again last night. I made a call to my thanksgiving friend. We chatted about lots of things but mostly nothing it was all idle conversation and it worked to help distract me. I saw that the hour was growing late so I called an end to the conversation so I could get ready for bed. I did some quick social media surfing and then wound down.
I was exhausted and had no problems falling asleep. I woke up around 4a and I heard something but it was probably my imagination. I was convinced I had a burglar but no one or nothing was around. I tried to go back to sleep but that failed so I stayed up and watched a little TV for about a ½ hour and then went back to bed. I woke up a couple more times but was quickly able to fall back to sleep. I really didn’t want to get out of bed but managed to once again beat the alarm clock.
I got moving and didn’t really think about a whole lot. I’ve been through all of my morning tasks, a bullshit meeting and managed to get a report done that normally takes a bit longer to do. Thankfully I had all of the data and it honestly slipped my mind but once I realized I needed to get it done I did it while the meeting was going on.
The only other thing on my schedule for today is lunch, that is kind of how this entire week is moving and I am fine with it other than it does make for a few long days. I am eager to retreat upstairs and get away from work.
On the cat hunt, I looked at the same bonded pair and registered for an account on the site that is showing them. I haven’t officially inquired or started the adoption process but I am seriously pondering it now. Part of me says do it you need the company. Part of me says don’t do it you have freedom. They are both so young that I would still pretty much have freedom but if I was going away for a week, I would need someone to come tend to them and clean up the litter box. I really want them specifically because they are Tuxedo cats and that is what all of Momma’s family was. However, I can’t seem to commit and I know that each day that ticks by put me in danger of not getting them. I do think that even if I don’t get Tuxedo cats that there will be a pair when I can commit and am ready that will be waiting for me. I know that I will have to go through the death process with whatever I get again and that isn’t something I really want to go through again and I know that I swore I wouldn’t get another cat, well still haven’t but the fact that I am considering it is kind of strange especially since it’s not quite been a month yet. I know that if I get young animals that I won’t have to deal with it for a long time, if age is what takes them out. I honestly don’t want to have to bury anything or anyone again.
I am kind of in some control as to when or if I get more cats but I don’t seem to have much control if I meet a guy. I’d very much love for the guy to show up first followed by the cats but if it has to be the other way around well so be it. I’d like both this year and while I still have 11 months left and it seems like a long time, we will be saying Happy New Year all too quickly again.
I am really starting to crave a nap and I know as soon as I give in and laydown all hell will break loose. That is just par for the course. Were at least back to full staff now that the boss man is back, not that any of us actually missed him. That means all of the BS will soon start up again. I hope that he has plenty to do that prevents him from meeting with us for at least this week and if possible next but I know that is asking for a lot.
I know that my being out next week will cause some conflict in that I am on-call and the proactive me would try to work all of that out ahead of time but right now I don’t care, that is no not like me. I can’t motivate myself to get back to my normal caring self. I think that’s because of how my one co-worker treated me during this, I am still very angry at him and I don’t know that I will ever be able to forgive him. It’s kind of to the point where I really don’t want to work with him and would much prefer a new job but that’s not going to happen. If he happened to leave it would make much more work for me. I know that he is trying to have another kid but I hope that doesn’t happen for a while.
Well, I guess I should publish this and try to find something to keep me awake or just give up and go take my nap. Here’s hoping it’s a great day for you and hopefully things will go well for me!
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