Happy New Year Everyone!
I managed to stay up to ring in the new year but this was the first year that I didn’t watch and/or record any of the network TV New Year’s celebrations. I was also in bed and had my white noise machine on. I was watching YouTube videos when I eventually managed to finally fall asleep, woke up and powered off the TV.
You’d think with Gator gone that I would have gotten a great nights sleep by now but unfortunately that isn’t the case. My body/bladder (one or the other) manage to wake me up. Like this morning I woke up at 4a and sat until close to 6a before I got sleepy to go back to bed.
My day started at around 8a when I woke up and got dressed and headed for breakfast. My timing was just right I beat a huge crowd in and the place was packed. It was cold and foggy this morning, not the best weather to drive in but not the worst either.
The grocery store opened at 9a and by the time I was done with breakfast and on my way they had already opened. I did my weekly shopping but it kind of feels like I forgot something. Probably because I didn’t buy any frozen dinners, I’ve got plenty from last week. Plus if push comes to shove I can always go out (not that I will but it’s still an option).
Made it back home and I was hot. I cooled off a bit and had to wait for 11a when OfficeMax opened. I got a new UPS and with my AAA discount they shaved off $21 which is more than I expected. I brought that home, unpacked it, connected the battery and plugged it in to charge. Then headed out to my friends “open house”.
It was super warm out to the point where a long sleeve shirt was a bit much. We were in the 60s which is a lot warmer than it was here this time last week. So I rode down with the outside air on, the winter coat in the back seat and I was still sweating.
Their house was packed and food was everywhere. I was kind of overwhelmed and everyone kept telling me to eat but I sat for hours before that ever happened. I waited for most of the crowd to dissipate which happened by 2p. I got a soda, a fresh made waffle and covered it with sausage gravy. Added in a couple of link sausages and when I was done with that, I went back for more gravy. Then I nibbled a little on some summer sausage and chatted a bit. I saw some old faces but lots of new faces and can’t tell you what 1/2 of the peoples names were that I met. I kind of felt out of place because I got to talk when I arrived to tell a short story and then everyone else managed to monopolize the conversation so I just sat and observed. I said something now and then but for the most part I was quiet. I actually contemplated leaving because even though I was surrounded by people I felt like I was all alone – lost in the crowd if you will. I’m glad that I waited and just let this play out.
They closed up shop at 4p but I was there until a bit after 5p with their neighbor and we were all chatting but everyone was starting to get sleepy, including me and I left with their neighbor. I figured that was a nice time to bow out. It was dark out and despite not liking to drive at night things went okay for the ride home. Lots of people were passing me but I drove only a mile or two above the posted speed limit. Saw zero police but my radar detector had a few hits.
Made it home, took my medicine and then put out my pills for next week. How exciting. I had a soda and nibbled on a few cookies. I just don’t have the desire to eat right now. This is how I should have felt weeks ago when I lost Gator but it’s almost like a delayed reaction. I did have the thought that after this, I get tomorrow off and then it’s kind of all over and life goes back to full normal.
Anyway, after my meds were out I started the dishes and gathered up all of the paperwork I had accumulated from purchases and that junk mail I got, grabbed the UPS and headed downstairs. Got it hooked up and it’s working like a champ. I think it’s a little larger capacity than what I previously had. I searched on-line for replacement batteries for the old unit and I can get a pair for $45. I am probably going to do that at some point and then move my old unit to my bedroom. It’s got a LED readout and I think it would look nice and take away one of my concerns about having to replace the unit in my room, which should be going out at any point now. I’ve bought so many batteries between all of the UPS’s recently and my car battery I am done with batteries.
Speaking of which I learned a tip, if you have a bunch of batteries in your home (like AA, AAA and 9V) put them in the fridge they will last longer. I had no idea. I kept mine in a cabinet and when I needed them I found them all ruined and then had to go buy new ones. I’ll be loading what I just bought last month into the fridge to help preserve them.
I caught up on email, surfed for porn and found a couple things of interest. Logged into my new mail order pharmacy provider’s site, played a little bit. Then logged into my doctors internet portal to try to update my pharmacy, well I looked and looked but you only get that option when you do an e-check in just prior to a visit so later this week I should have that as an option. I see the doc oddly 1 month to the day that I lost Gator, which will be next week. Really doesn’t seem like that much time has lapsed but it moves fast (regardless if your having fun or not).
There is plenty to do around here but I am running out of steam and since I would normally be winding down and relaxing by now my body is naturally starting that process. I need to help it along with some meds and might as well brush my teeth & call it a night.
I’d like to go out for breakfast tomorrow but a big part of me says stay home, eat here and take care of yourself and the house. The other part of me says to hell with it, enjoy your last day off get out. I will see how I feel in the morning and make my decision then.
I am really hung up on this waiter guy. I’m really horny and want him – but – I have to get to know him first. He says he is going to call/text but then I don’t hear from him. I really get the vibe that he said yes just because I caught him off guard but he’s got no genuine interest in me or plans to follow up. He does however know my name and loves to incorporate that into as many sentences as he can if he happens to wait on me. I know he’s working and hey I’m not one to beg or chase but I think it’s hormonal because that is all I want to do with him. I feel like a puppy longing for attention. He started all of this by giving me detailed directions to where he lives, which is why I asked him out in the first place. I just thought it was very odd to tell a stranger where you live for no good reason, unless you want someone to come jump your bones. I really thought there was genuine interest and I got my hopes up, I was so bubbly even Gator could tell. I told myself I wouldn’t but I believe I read too much into the situation. Now maybe he will call/text but I think I have a better chance of winning the lottery and hey I didn’t even buy a ticket. It would be great if he did reach out but as much as I don’t want to I think it’s time to stop hoping and move on. I don’t want to go back on the apps because that seems like a waste of money and time. I’m not into the bar. Now that I am truly all alone I want this to be the year when I meet a man. It’s a goal and I’m just not quite sure how to make it happen. I don’t want to get my heart broken, go through rejection or play games. I’m very serious but it seems like since I am into younger guys that is part of the deal. Everyone tells me I am not old but in the gay community my age for sure is working against me. However I had two different people today tell me that I looked between 35 and 41 so maybe it’s not as much of a factor as I think it is. My weight isn’t doing me any favors either but I think with clothes on I kind of hide/mask it pretty well. Take the clothes off and even I don’t like what I see in the mirror and know that there is some serious work that needs to be done. Pass me the cheesecake!
It seems like 2 impossible tasks are finding a man and adopting a couple cats. I feel like my life had been in a holding pattern and now there is nothing holding me back, I’m free and want to get out there. Yeah I could have met someone years ago when I had one or even more of the cats but between work and them that was my priority. I tried but didn’t have much success. I’m pretty picky and hey if your looking for someone to spend the rest of your life with, you have the right to be picky and if your not well then maybe something is wrong.
Okay I think that’s enough of my woes for now. Once again here’s to hoping that this is a better year for me and also for you. Everyone can use some joy and I’m in search of mine in the form of a man.
Once again, Happy New Year! Cheers.
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