19 April 2016

Still Waiting

It’s probably not a surprise to you that I am still playing the waiting game.  Close of business on Monday, my ass.  I am starting to wonder if they are ever going to tell me anything or if I will just be left in a perpetual state of wondering.  Honestly it’s starting to really annoy me.  We have a team meeting tomorrow and typically they make announcements in the meeting, but usually the people who are getting the promotion and those who didn’t get it have already been informed.  At this point nothing really would surprise me, unless I actually got a phone call that said we want to make you an offer.  In an effort to get even I would be tempted to say let me think about it and get back with you tomorrow by close of business and then not call until mid afternoon on the following day. 

The one good thing that did happen yesterday is my Pearson Specter LItt polo shirt showed up.  It’s the name of the Law Firm on the USA TV Show Suits.  I paid a pretty penny for it and it looks great.  I have to send it through the laundry and then I will be wearing it proudly.  I am interested to see what reactions I get, if any.  Sort of like when I bought my first gay pride shirt – though Suits is not a gay themed TV show.

Over the weekend I had to do some retail therapy and I feel horrible about it.  I bought a new pen, well it’s actually a rollerball.  It was something new on sale and I saw an email and had my eye on it.  I actually wanted one red and one blue but I just bought the red one.  It was only $35 but still I really don’t need another pen.  It would be like buying a new porn movie, I don’t need that either.  I have my vices just like anyone else but they aren’t common.  Still I am looking forward to it’s arrival later this week.  I also bought some other things but none of them are used to write with or to have sex with.  So I guess I did okay there. 

I spend money after holding back and feel guilty knowing that I will have a vet bill to pay soon and that won’t be cheap either.  I am in a horrible state right now.  Feeling alone and wishing I had a man to come home to and feeling frustrated over the job situation.  I know it will all work out soon enough but I am an instant gratification junkie as well.  Shame I can’t make things happen in my time.

Ah well off to work and who knows maybe today will be the day.  I can’t tell you how many times I have said that and at the end of the day I am still left waiting and wondering.  My thoughts go from good in that well maybe it’s the approval process to bad in that I didn’t get it and they are working with the other guy and once he accepts then they will tell me.  At this point it’s anyone’s guess.  If I ever hear I will be sure to post about it. 

Happy Tuesday!

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