Fighting

So I went in with the intentions of ending his life, but turns out there was progress.  His fever dropped some more.  I got to see him and he is cranky.  They have ice on the line which is probably why the drop in temp.  I took over some food and we offered it to him but he wouldn’t eat.  I did get to scratch and pet him.  He enjoyed that. 

I looked at him and said what do you want me to do?  Do you want me to keep on trying or would you prefer that I stop.  He started grooming himself a little.  I took that as a positive sign.

From now until 7am it’s going to cost me $50 to keep him there.  Beyond that if I look at another 24 hours then were talking $200.  Here’s the thing I can’t tell them at 7 am well no progress let’s end this – I mean how am I supposed to work?  So I would spend the $200 and then go in at night and tell them, then come home and be on-call.  Geez there just isn’t a good time for this at all.

I will check on him a bit later tonight and depending upon how things are going, that will help me make my decision.  I did ask God for a sign and I think I’ve gotten a couple.  I really don’t want to give up, that is not who I am but fighting will take money and it’s money that I don’t have and am promising to pay.  If something happens to my job or me, well then I am really in quite the pickle.  So I am operating on faith and the assumption that I will have the money.

Now Shy Girl didn’t come to lunch, which is normal.  She is missing supper, so that tells me there is something going on.  If she doesn’t respond to treat time then I know I’ve got an issue and well I might loose 2 of them.  How do you pick and chose? 

This is NOT what I wanted and NOT what I need to deal with right now.  I’m certainly ready to get back to normal or some state there of.  I will keep you posted.  Let’s hope this has a good ending, despite the negative thoughts in my head.