All Clear Tuesday

We had some flurries and some drizzle this morning, but it was above freezing so all liquid and no ice.  Temperatures are set to plummet much like my bank account after payday.  Thankful for warm clothing, heat and cold weather options on my car.  All of this comes in handy at some point.  Got my portable heater at my desk, it’s on but hasn’t quite gotten cold enough to kick on today.  Oddly thinking about it makes my feet cold. 

Just got a decent amount of names for end of the year departures.  There could be more coming, waiting and seeing.  I will be a busy boy gathering information.  I saw that most people are leaving on the 31st which is Saturday.  It’s still up in the air as to when access should be cut off but I can do it on Friday or Saturday, makes me no difference.  Just as long as I am allowed to do it all from home I am fine with that.  I really don’t want to travel anywhere on the 31st after dark.  It’s tricky enough getting around in the daytime. 

Today is Patch Tuesday, time to download updates from Microsoft.  I’ve got my laptop & desktop updating now.  Still have one laptop at home that is powered off that will need to be updated.  I’ll get to it but it’s not at the top of my list. 

I felt kind of strange last night.  I couldn’t make a decision, my balance was off and this all hit me around the end of the day and only got worse once I got home.  I planned for Mac & Cheese but I had a Chicken Pot Pie.  Ate it sitting next to Bear who was beside me at the table.  He had to have attention while I ate.  I found him in the kitchen when I got home, so I knew that he had been in Marvin’s dry food, which if that is all he eats is toxic for him.  I made sure to push his normal dry food, which is what is keeping him from developing stones and blocking again.  He really did a bladder dump last night and then again this morning.  I think he holds it until it’s just too painful and then lets it out.  He tries to buy time to see if daddy will be around to clean him up.  If so great, if not well then once he can’t take it anymore he goes.  Maybe I am wrong but it’s what I observe.  Speaking of the bathroom, his next order of pee pads came yesterday.  One day ahead of schedule.  I always keep 1 box in reserve.  They come in handy around the litter boxes for everyone else to catch the litter that is on their feet once they get out of the box.  Plus if there is a miss it saves me from having to clean up a mess, smart thinking on my part. 

Pulled the trigger yesterday and I am officially changing the locks on the house.  I wanted a high ANSI grade lock.  There are 3 stages.  1 and 2 are primarily for commercial use and 3 is used for homes and is the weakest.  I got a good deal but the locks are all ANSI 3.  That’s not to say they won’t keep people out, because they will.  They are bump key resistant which was one of the things I was looking for.  I wanted to do this years ago when I moved in but someone was against it.  I understand why now.  Locks are not cheap.  My requirements outside of being immune to the bump key was that I had to have keyed alike locks and they had to come with the exact or greater number of keys that I needed.  I didn’t want to have to make a trip out to have keys copied. Amazon had me covered so I went with them.  I hope that it’s just as easy as switching hardware and that I don’t have to make any additional modifications.  If I do then I may need to engage someone because I am not handy when it comes to hardware and tools.  I can fix a computer but you give me tools and I turn into a non functional person, who is almost guaranteed to mess something up. 

In the middle of composing this I had to break away because of issues at work.  Thankfully everything is resolved and the crisis is over, at least for now.

I got 2 gifts yesterday.  One a water bottle and the other a daily cat calendar.  I almost bought the daily cat calendar on my own, but thankfully I didn’t.  Payday is tomorrow and I have to remember to get some cash in the next few days so I can give it as a holiday gift to my friends.  Oh the best thing that happened yesterday was a small gathering of people that I used to support are going to take me to Maggiano’s for lunch.  The date is still up the air but just the thought of it made my face light up from ear to ear.  I am so looking forward to that and know that it will be a good time. 

Time to start Wednesday without the cat shaver aka the cunt.  Yesterday I got a couple notes from her one of which she apologized but messed up some of my account settings.  She claims it was an accident and it’s plausible but she is such a perfectionist that I think it was done on purpose.  If I would have done that to her she would have raised the roof and not only would I be called on the carpet but I would be made to fix it.  She just said I effed up sorry buddy.  Now I have to go fix her mistake.  Totally not fair.  I’m mentioning it to my boss but I have to be careful in how I approach this.  He has a fondness for her because they have worked together for years.  However, he has to know what a royal bitch she can be at times.  I don’t want anyone to say anything to her, I can do that myself but am choosing not to.  I just want him to know that she effed up. 

Onward ho to begin Wednesday, it’s going to be busy today I can just feel it in the air.  That is fine all the more quicker it will be time to go home.  Then I get to sit down and give away my money, aka paying bills.  Hope that you have a great day and are staying warm.  It seems to be getting colder as the days go by.  Would be nice to see a White Christmas. 

Ice–Ice Baby

Remember that song by Vanilla Ice?  Just got a notice on my phone that a Winter Storm is coming and were in for Ice.  Not a huge fan of that, snow is no problem.  Unless it’s super treacherous it won’t stop me and I can’t pretty well grantee we will be open, because we don’t close for weather unless it’s extreme.  Might be interesting to see who shows up for work tomorrow.

Today has truly been a Monday.  I didn’t want to get out of bed.  Found drool on my pillow.  I could blame it on a cat but no one was sleeping with me.  Marvin boycotted me last night, he acted like he was going to join me and then just about the time I was wrapping things up he hightailed it out of the room and wouldn’t come back.  He’ll be in there tonight. 

I got on a call with the Cunt and she wouldn’t shut up and was going in 100 different directions.  We weren’t able to accomplish the task we were on the call for, so I get to talk with her again right after lunch.  She is really being dramatic and doing everything she can to pull the rug out from under me, she acts like she is so helpful and that she is doing things for my benefit but I am smarter than her and know that she has her own agenda.  She has managed to make me angry on more than time this morning.  Eventually I tuned her out and started falling asleep while she rambled on.  Good God I wish she would go on vacation already, a day without her is far better than a day with her.  I’m stuck with her and she is stuck with me, so we have to try to make it work – even though she already did irreparable damage.  Still waiting on that apology that will never come.  I just want to stay as far away from her as possible. 

Got my heater installed this morning and it’s nice.  I put it on an outlet strip that controls my cube lights, I turn that off without fail every night when I leave.  I don’t want to forget to turn off the heater, so that is my fail safe.

Figured out by last nights episode of Shameless that Ian appears to be staying in the cast or so it seems.  Interesting episode last night.  Ready to see what next week brings.  It’s never a dull moment with the Gallagher Clan around. 

So this is the start of the last full work week of the year.  I pointed that out to someone this morning and they took me to task but quickly realized that I was right.  Yep, time is passing before our very eyes.  Very difficult for me to comprehend that this year is about over but I am ready to get on with 2017 and let the good times roll.

Have a great day and stay warm!

Sunday no fun day

As with most Sunday’s the realization that Monday is around the corner becomes a sobering reality.  This Sunday is no different and the fact that I have to go back and work with the Cat Shaver aka Cunty McCunterson is not a welcome thought.  There is little I can do about it but go and do the very best that I can, which is pretty much how I address each day of work.  I may be happy, I may be sad or I may be feeling some other emotion but work is just that, work. 

Today I woke up early long before any rain or snow had a chance to fall.  Looks like the weather man made yet another blunder because we didn’t get anything in the way of precipitation.  I went to IHOP and had more Stuffed French Toast.  I thought I’d be cute and back my car in, well that was a bad idea.  I went to reposition the car and I scraped against something.  Got a minor scratch on the back bumper, but being a black car you have to be on top of it to see it.  I have ordered some touch up paint which should fix this.  It is my belief that I am keeping Amazon in business. They have to just love me for all of the money I spend on that site.  I’ve got deliveries coming this week starting Tuesday and they don’t finish up until Thursday.  Pee Pads for Bear, Allegra for me, Touch Up Paint, High Shine Car Wipes and Glass Clean Wipes.  Nothing terribly exciting just package after package.  I should have went to visit Cracker Barrel Boy and this wouldn’t have happened but if grandma had balls she would be grandpa.  In other words there isn’t much I can do about it  It’s done and over – there is no going back. 

At the grocery store I got what I needed, picked up the last 3 jugs of drinking water that they had.  That is a hot commodity which is a huge surprise to me.  I am in the dairy section I went to get my phone and put it back, also pull up my pants and not sure what did it but I severed a nail.  It didn’t hurt but looked horrible.  I had to wait until I was home to even things up and file it down.  So there is strike two for the day. 

Later in the day I am going to label my heater for work and wasn’t paying attention.  I stepped on Insty’s tail.  She was pissed and there you have strike number three for today.  Holy cow, I hope I don’t make anymore strikes there are still a few hours left between now and bed time.  I apologized to her but she wasn’t having it.  I know she has forgotten all about it now but I still feel bad. 

I wanted the Stouffers bake I had last weekend for supper, but they didn’t have it at the store.  I had to settle for the Marie Calendar’s version which was smaller and not as tasty but it was good.  I also forgot to mention to the dope that was checking me out that I had a coupon.  The authorization hit my card and then he backed out and took the coupon and then authorized it again.  Now it looks like I have 2 transactions that are going to post to the card.  I saved the receipt just in case.  Normally I am quick to record and shred them, unless it’s for a large purchase.  In a couple days this should all be settled and then I can hopefully shred it.  I am not happy that I have some credit tied up for a charge that probably isn’t going to materialize (with any luck). 

So another episode of Shameless is on tonight.  I heard that Ian was going to die this season and be written out.  Looks like that wasn’t accurate, he is going across country with Mickey and I think his character will be gone from the show.  If that is true I won’t be happy.  Ian (Cameron Monaghan) is the main reason why I watch the show.  I’m waiting with baited breath but from what I can surmise it appears a good portion of this episode will be devote to Ian and Mickey.  I really hope Ian isn’t gone for good. 

Been checking on my offender all day and it’s been quiet.  Had a few emails pop in but nothing that I had to run to the computer for.  I snagged some overtime which will make my last paycheck of the year look pretty good.

I hope it’s an uneventful week and that things go smoothly.  Maybe we will warm up a bit.  The furnace has been running non stop.  I’ve never been this sensitive to cold but I guess everything changes with time. 

I only shave once a week because my skin will break out with shaving bumps and they are not good to look at nor are they fun to have, they hurt.  I like some scruff so I thought I would do some trimming with a beard trimmer.  Yeah wound up shaving it all off as per usual.  Maybe I will grow a beard if I can get past the itchy stage.  I just don’t like the fact that there is white in my facial hair, but I guess better there than on top of my head.  At least on my face I can chop it off and no one is the wiser. 

That’s all I got folks.  Looking forward to a fast moving week.  Last full week before Christmas, which is really hard to comprehend.  First Day of Winter is on the 21st.  Time to go grab and ice cream cone, a bear and a bottle of water.  Shameless is on!  Have a great week, stay warm and you know we will be talking.   

2 Cold for anything

Shiver me timbers, it is cold outside!  I have really been feeling the cold and been cold as well.  Cranked up the heat at home, everyone is comfy.  Since I am on-call and the weather is crappy it was hard to motivate myself to do anything today, except loaf.  I did that quite well. 

For some reason I woke up at 5 and couldn’t go back to sleep so I got up.  Fed the kids and had breakfast myself.  Then looked at my phone, nothing urgent.  Checked out social media, entered some comments to flirt with a couple guys and watched TV.  Bam out like a light after about an hour. 

Woke up, had lunch and fed the kids lunch.  Funny how they know the word lunch means food time.  They all perk up when they hear it.  Watched a little more TV.  Then decided to go lay down in bed, I turned on the electric blanket and turned it up high.  Started watching TV and then I was dozing.  I woke up and shut the TV off.  Then after about 30 minutes the phone went off.  Had to get out of my nice warm bed.  Came down to the computer and worked on an issue, it took a couple hours.  Then it was back to bed and man did I sack out again.  I had a task to preform for work and I overslept, but still managed to get everything done, I was a couple minutes late.  Since someone is misbehaving at work I have someone to monitor.  It sounds like fun and for the first few minutes it is fun.  When it requires you to check on them every two hours, it gets very old very fast and the fun has long gone.  I don’t understand why adults can’t simply be adults instead of behaving like a 2 year old. 

So after my task, I decided to get dressed and go out.  Grabbed the mail, picked up some food for the kids, then on to Target for cat litter and a space heater for me.  I’m taking the heater to work, it did get hotter on Friday but only by 1 degree and my feet were still freezing.  I spent $25 on the heater and know that it could be confiscated since it is contraband.  I just hope no one finds it, that I don’t blow a breaker and that I manage to get warm.  All I want is to be comfortable.  I am not the only one who has one of these gizmos.  There were a two people that used to work in my office that both had toasters at their desk.  Those are not allowed in the building at all.  They are energy wasters and a fire hazard.  In fact I unplug mine at home and only plug it in when I’m using it.  I’d urge you to do the same.

After dropping $100 I came back home.  Time to feed the children again.  I put a pizza in the oven for me.  45 minutes to cook, which is fine.  It was time to check on my offender.  Then I went back upstairs and prepared to dive in to my delicious pizza when all of a sudden the damn phone goes off again.  Why is it when I am on call I actually get bothered and the work seems to pick up?  My counter parts don’t experience this, it’s like shit takes a break until I am on duty and then it comes to life.  I would gladly trade these busy on-calls for some quiet time.  Not that I don’t want the overtime but I’d actually like to not be chained to my phone and spend my day off working. 

Friday I had a great time at the office holiday party.  Some great laughs but it was nothing like last year or the year before.  There was good food and the drinks were flowing like water regardless of what you were drinking.  That’s because we pay by the drink, so I would take a sip of soda and presto a waiter was there to switch it out.  Wow, service but it got annoying after a couple times.  Said good bye to a contractor who got a promotion.  I had alone time with him and felt the urge to come out but I didn’t do it.  He’s very religious but he likes to fuck, I only say that because he has 4 kids and he’s only 30.  When you fuck and make kids that costs money.  I’m glad men can’t get pregnant, one less worry for me.  Anyway, I really liked him and he was super cute, there was a mild crush there.  However, I really think he already knew.  He said he would friend me on FB and we are friends now but only because I unblocked him and sent the friend request myself.  He’s on a special list so he doesn’t get to see everything I post on FB for obvious reasons. 

I won a door prize and got 30 minutes of massage, which will come in handy.  My back is really jacked up.  Miss one week of massage and everything goes to hell.  So anyway, I came home and really had to let out those drinks.  Was never so happy to see a bathroom in all my life.  Checked my phone and sure enough there was work waiting for me.  We had an immediate departure that I had to take care of, good thing I was home when it came out.  In the middle of that I got a call back asking me to lock the doors for that location, there was a threat of physical violence.  Translation the person who got fired wanted to fuck up a few people.  She was dumb enough to actually come back but security guards caught her and told her to leave.  I still got the doors locked.  Amazing what you can control with a computer.  So a departure that should have taken 15 minutes was more like an hour long because of frequent interruptions.  I hate to hear of anyone losing their job at anytime but right now is a pure crappy time to be in the job market, since Christmas is around the corner. 

On a different note I got an offer to come back to Dekkoo, which is a gay movie service.  They don’t show hardcore porn, there is some softcore stuff but that does nothing for me.  I am more interested in gay themed movies, some are great and others really need work and I am surprised they were released.  This service is neat but I think they are struggling to keep a subscriber base.  I got a good deal for a few months, riding that out and then will have to make a decision to keep it or chuck it.  I have been watching this series called Hustling.  It’s about a male escort who wants to become a chef and get out of porn & escorting.  When the series first starts, you really get a sobering look or it was a sobering look for me into that world.  A guy calls you.  You go meet him and he opens the door.  Turns out he is like 500 pounds.  Wow, I almost swallowed my tongue.  The escort serviced him, meanwhile I was throwing up in my mouth.  I guess when your in that business you have to be accommodating in various different ways in order to earn your money.  The trick to the whole escorting thing is that you can have sex but you have to make sure that your client knows they are only paying for your time, that boys and girls is how you avoid going to jail for prostitution.  I’ve watched way too much TV to know that.  It’s an interesting series and I am about to wrap up on Season 3 and then I will have to wait and see if there is more content created. 

I have thought a time or two about calling an escort but when I see how much they want, that easily makes me change my mind.  Sure I could have a good time but I really don’t want to pay for sex, companionship or for that matter someone’s time.  That all should be something that is mutual.  I’d feel cheap for engaging an escort.  We all have needs.  Right now I am all about the companionship and just being able to talk with someone, enjoy their company and maybe grab a movie and a bite to eat.  Nothing too serious but I don’t want to deal with rejection.  I’ve been watching guys on Grindr and I’ve been hit on a few times despite having a blank profile and no photo.  I just like to see what is out there.  Sadly, there are a lot of familiar faces.  Even one of the jerks who I had a date with is back on there.  There are some new faces and a lot of younger guys which is what I am attracted to.  Most of them wouldn’t want an old geezer like me, despite the fact that I am not that old, in the gay world I am already in a nursing home drooling in my cream of wheat.  I’ve thought about it and decided that after the 1st of the year I will jump back into the on-line dating world again.  Not certain how long I will stay.  Still mustering up the courage to walk into a gay bar to see what happens.  However, I am not a drinker or a smoker and chances are high that whomever I meet will be into one or both of those things.  Shame there isn’t a gay soda fountain, that would just be swell.  Yes there is sarcasm in there.  Enough crying in my beer.  It’s time to go check on my offender at work. 

Tomorrow is breakfast and the grocery store.  Not leaving for anything else, really don’t even want to go out but I need food, otherwise I would just try to subsist on what I have here.  Thought about going back to see Cracker Barrel Boy I am sure that he’s been missing me.  However, not so sure that I will be making it there.  Thinking about IHOP again and Strawberry Stuffed French Toast with some eggs and sausage.  Sounds really, really good.  Better pack an extra diabetes pill to keep my sugar in check. 

Hope your well & warm.  Talk again soon.

Party Time

It’s been a crazy busy week.  Each day I had plans to post but the day got started, time got away from me and before you knew it I was back in traffic on my way home. 

Nothing really noteworthy happened, just your average week.  The weather here has turned blustery cold, so I have been taking full advantage of my heated options in my car.  They really do come in handy!

The kids are all doing well.  Aggravating me, making there usual messes and then looking all sweet and innocent.  Gator was really getting on my nerves last night, chirping every few minutes.  I warned her that if she didn’t knock it off, I was going to hurt her feelings.  She didn’t listen to me and I hurt her feelings.  I looked at her and let out a great big meow, which alarmed her and scared her away.  Then she sat pouting looking at me as if to say, you hurt my feelings.  I told her I said Dear I warned you but you didn’t listen.  Daddy can’t take that constant chirping, it’s annoying.  Daddy still loves you.  She waited about five minutes and then came back over like nothing ever happened.  Ah, the beauty of the cat mind – it forgets so quickly. 

Really wish they would pump up the heat here at work.  Normally I am sweating and have my fan going.  Yesterday the fan was turned off.  It’s normally 75 and it was 73.  The humidity is low and my feet were cold.  Once that happens, I can pretty well right the day off.  I made it through the day, shivering the whole way.  If things repeat themselves today I will likely bring in contraband.  That is a heater.  I am not going to freeze through the winter, that is nonsence.  Doesn’t matter how much trouble I get in.  I am first going to politely ask to have the heat turned up a degree or two and when that fails, as I know it will then I will bring in ye old heater. 

Saw a customized sweater yesterday, I want it but I don’t think I’d ever wear it.  It said I’ll be homo for the holidays.  Wouldn’t that just make people talk.  I know for sure I’d never wear it to work.  Speaking of which my day is about to start so I need to run. 

We get an early day today, 2:30 and then it’s holiday party time.  Stay for a little while, eat, drink, be myself and then quietly slip out the door and go home early.  Best Friday ever!

Have a great weekend and I will talk with you all again soon. 

Chili Tonight

In checking my cabinet I found a can of Steak N Shake Chili that I am going to have tonight.  It doesn’t expire until late next year and I am glad I found it.  I also have some Queso so I’ll be having that as well with chips.  I’ve been thinking about this all day long and can’t wait to dive in.  It’s cold outside and after a long day at work I like an easy meal, this will be perfect. 

I have been tormented with Psychotic dreams.  Like last night I was with a foreign family, there was some war and then we got into a transporter machine.  So one minute I am in the USA and then I walk through this maze and find myself in another country.  Everything was fine until I got separated from the family and I kept going from place to place.  I couldn’t find anyone that spoke English.  Time went by quickly.  I remember managing to get to a phone and call my brother of all people.  So much time had passed that I was presumed dead. I remember calling and talking with him, I kept trying to think of a way to authenticate who I was.  He didn’t believe that it was me, he thought it was some kind of a joke.  I described in detail a funny situation that happened when we were growing up, he believed me then but I woke up with a Charlie Horse.  I went back to sleep and had an even more bizarre dream that I don’t remember.  I wonder if I should find a Psychiatrist and schedule an appointment?  Not sure what all of this means but these are terrifying dreams, once I am awake everything is fine and I am glad it was only a dream.  Something freaky is going on upstairs in the old noodle but I have no idea what it is. 

So the witch I work with is out for 2 days and will be out for 2 days next week.  The danger for me is that something urgent will crop up and I will have to take care of it.  Depending upon what that is I may or may not have enough training to complete the task.  She wants me to text her if there is a problem.  No way in hell that is going to happen.  Funny thing is she is all buddy, buddy now and acts like nothing ever happened between us.  I am professional and I am putting on an act as well but I keep my distance and try to keep all of our communications in written form.  I don’t trust her even a little bit.  I did some digging and found out from several other people that she has flipped out on them as well.  Seems like she gets really close to you and then she wigs and freaks out.  Very strange person and I am glad I am not her.  She is super smart.  I think that she needs to be on medicine and that she is bipolar.  Its either that or the lack of getting laid that has toasted her brain.  She could use a good romp and that might put a smile on her face.  I really wish that things wouldn’t have gone awry with us but they did, twice.  I can’t and won’t forget it, unless my memory is wiped.  I would like to soak up all of the knowledge she has to offer and then cut ties, but that won’t happen.  Were stuck in working together at least for the foreseeable future so I have to play along, otherwise I won’t be a team player and that will have a negative impact.  I just hate being so fake when I’d really like to be real but that would easily get me fired.  I know that I made my point and that she has offended me.  There has been no apology at all.  She hinted today that she will be sending Christmas cookies out.  Great the trash can at my desk is waiting for them.  I’m not putting them in my mouth for all I know she mixed up the skinny and sweat and put in rat poison because the boxes look the same except for the skeleton and cross bones on the rat poison. 

On my way to work this morning I noticed the navigation system somehow had North set incorrectly so it looked like I was traveling backwards and sideways at times.  Found the fix when I got to work.  I did exactly what I said and used the system to find a new way home last night.  In my mess of pressing buttons I probably touched something that I wasn’t supposed to.  Going to use the system again tonight and go the same way.  It shaved about 30 minutes of sitting and waiting so I got home at 6:30 instead of 7p, which is much better.  Being on call the quicker I can get home the better prepared I am.  Even though nothing usually comes in, when your tied up it’s like someone somewhere senses it and that is when a catastrophe occurs.  I try to avoid those as much as possible.  Had one last night.  I put in a request for a person to get a new access card.  It was delivered to him before I had the number.  I had to jump in the system and get the number added otherwise the new card would have been useless to him.  He actually damaged his old card and I think he should be charged but were kind and as long as you have the old card there is no charge.  Loose it or get it stolen and then your out some money.  Fees vary depending upon the type of badge and that is governed by location.  In my office the replacement is $25 and it comes directly out of your check, unless you can recover the old badge before the end of the month.  Funny thing is someone had their purse stolen over the weekend and their card was in there.  I feel bad for them because I feel like it wasn’t their fault.  Theft I think should be no charge but if you think about it everyone would say they were robbed in order to avoid paying a fee.  Those few are the ones who spoil it for the rest of us. 

Had some Bear time last night, he demanded it.  He is one heavy cat.  I think I could use him in place of weights and get quite the workout, not sure if he or his stomach would be up for that.  Sunday night he fell asleep with his head resting on my leg.  His sister came over for a back scratch and wouldn’t take no for an answer so I woke him up by moving.  I hated to do that.  I remember when I was nursing him back to health he would sleep on me and would just be so relaxed, you can very clearly tell there is total and complete trust on his part.  I am humbled and honored that I can bring that kind of comfort and ease to my big boy.  His mom acts similarly and she knows that I am her savior.  She is so thankful for that.  I am sure that she wishes those children of hers would leave but I think truth be told she gave up on that idea years ago.  Animals they sure are something!

Well about time to wrap up and head out for the day.  Time to get my chili.  I’ll have to set a reminder to change my voice mail in the morning.  Hi thanks for calling, I had chili last night I’ll be in and out all day, please leave a message.  That would be certain to get a reaction but I know better even though it would be funny, business has no room for any type of emotion because it’s just business, I can’t help that I have a personality. 

Stay warm, be safe and you know it, we will talk again soon.

Made it to Monday

So here we are again off at the races.  Had a good night with the kids watching Shameless and then wrapping the place up for the night.  Morning came around too quickly as per usual.  It didn’t help that my sleeping medicine didn’t kick in until 11p but all things considered I am doing okay. 

Got going this morning with not too much effort and managed to leave early.  I knew that I would have to sit in traffic and even though I have a cushion in my commute I like to arrive at work early.  It all worked out just fine.  Much like the parking garage at work, traffic was a mess.  Giving some thought tonight or one night this week, to pointing my car in a different direction tonight and then asking the navigation system for direction to home.  Not sure if it will save me in commute time but it will make for an interesting ride home.  There are several different ways I can get home but the problem is that I only know a couple of them.  It pays to know your options, especially when traveling.  I think the best method for getting to and from work would be to fly by helicopter, but not sure that I will ever experience that in my lifetime. 

Speaking of work, one of my co-workers mentioned that she thought she was going to die today.  She got in one of the elevators and it started to go up and then abruptly fell, like there was no cable and no brakes.  It stopped for a moment and then fell all the way back down to the first floor.  Those things are supposed to have brakes on them so that if the cable snaps the brakes engage and your safe.  Apparently something went awry.  Now I know what elevator not to get on.  I suspect they will have it looked at or so I hope.  While you can’t necessarily pick your fate, I would like to not die in an elevator. 

Outside of the elevator issue, it’s a calm but busy day here.  As for me personally I am bored but I know that my boredom is only short lived.  Usually something crops up and there goes the day.  I am really shocked that it’s lunch time already.

Looking forward to going home and having the rest of the Chicken & Broccoli Pasta Bake.  It’s so good.  Right now I know I have a minor mess to clean up in the hallway, noticed it just as it was time to walk out the door.  Why do I bother to clean if it’s only going to get dirty again?  Cats I love them but they sure are a lot of work.  Unless there is something else that comes up, I plan on parking on the couch and finding something to occupy my time until it’s time to call it a night. 

20 more days until Christmas.  My psycho co-worker is trying to see if she can get a jump on who’s leaving so we can prepare instead of having to scramble at the last minute.  There is a huge opportunity for me to work overtime and why not make some additional money, it can’t hurt me. 

Now it’s time to work my way back to the fun and try to stay awake once the food coma tries to kick in.  I hope your having a decent Monday and that your staying warm.  Loving my seat warmers on a cold morning, they are truly a great convenience feature.  Take care and we will talk again soon.

Holiday Themed

So I took time to change the theme to a Holiday or as I like to call it a Holigay!  It was an average Sunday for me.  Got to sleep in, woke up to rain.  Fed the children, got dressed and went to breakfast at IHOP.  Had French Toast.  I messed up my order so the first one was Strawberry French Toast.  Then I had to get what I actually came for which was Strawberry Stuffed French Toast.  That had Vanilla Crème with Cinnamon in it, very good.  Had a couple eggs and 2 sausage links, a drink and wound up with a bill that looked more like lunch instead of Breakfast.

Hit up the grocery store which I hate to start with it’s even worse when it’s raining.  I was determined not to spend $100 and well I made it but only by $2.  I was really shocked at the total as I am each time that it comes to pay for groceries.  I didn’t get anything special and it feels like I got robbed.  Missing my favorite cashers who have retired, they made it fun to shop and I always had someone to look forward to seeing.

Came home, put away the groceries and forged forward with Laundry.  Entered in my expenses in my records to keep the checkbooks straighter than I am and then played around looking for my favorite thing, porn. 

Went upstairs and relaxed with the children, got in a short nap.  Used an Armor All Leather Wipe on the drivers seat of my car and on the steering wheel, wow it did a super nice job.  I got a small package as an add on purchase from Amazon.  Not bad for $3 and they are guaranteed to stay moist in the container for up to 1 year.  I liked them so much I decided to tidy up my late guys leather jacket that I am wearing.  When it gets colder I will break mine out, it’s much heavier and each time I put it on it feels like he is hugging me, he bought it so it’s extra special for me.  Had it for years and plan to keep it forever. 

Had Stouffer’s Chicken & Broccoli Pasta Bake for supper.  There is 1/2 left for tomorrow night.  I also have a pizza in the freezer if I get hungry for that.  Otherwise there is plenty of soup, chili and chicken pot pies.  You know warm weather comfort food.  I almost forgot 5 cheese Mac & Cheese as well.  Yum!

Really wanted to upgrade my iPhone this weekend and got for the 7 however Mophie hasn’t yet come out with battery cases yet, so I am waiting for that.  Shouldn’t be much longer from their website it looks like they are in the end stages.  I really don’t want the increase in my bill but it’s doable considering my bill has been reduced and I still get a stipend from work so that will more than cover it.  Patience it’s just one thing I don’t have, which is exactly why I am not a doctor – well that and money for school.

Decided to get creative and just slobbered all over myself while looking at Mont Blanc Pens on the internet.  There are a couple new ones that I want, not sure if I will ever own them.  Some of those are a car and/or a house payment for a writing instrument.  If I had money just dripping off of me like sweat then I wouldn’t bat an eye but considering I am your average poor person, I just admire them from afar.  I have a small collection and use them on occasion, mostly I just sit and stare at them while they collect dust.  What I own cost me a pretty penny and while I’d love to take them out of the house it’s better that they stay at home, safe & sound.  If I lost one I would be sick.  They are not scheduled, meaning they are not covered under my homeowners policy.  I love fancy pens.  They rank right up there with good looking guys, porn and food, which includes pie and many other food items.  I know my vices and I suppose that is important information.

Time to climb the stairs and eat an ice cream cone while I take in the latest episode of Shameless.  I was supposed to be up there 20 minutes ago but you know one thing led to another and with all of the slobbering over pens, time just got away from me. 

Hope you had a great Sunday.  Back to the grind tomorrow and so starts another week and a week of on-call for me.  I hope that it’s a productive and fast moving week.  I am always anxious to get off call and of course you know I enjoy my weekends.  Going to our office holiday party on Friday, which means that I will be going home early that day after the party.  Also saying goodbye to a co-worker this week.  Can’t believe that 12 months has flown by so very fast.  Take care, stay warm and of course we will talk again soon.

Gr8 Saturday

Friday night on my way home, my wonderful car decided to be temperamental and not connect my iPhone.  I had to check to make sure it didn’t fall off my hip.  Sure enough it was there.  I tried turning Bluetooth off on my phone and then back on, that old trick used to work on my last car.  No luck.  Tried forcing the car connection to ‘connect’ but that didn’t work either.  So I listened to Satellite Radio, I asked for traffic reports because I was stuck in traffic.  I got to hear all about LA Traffic and San Francisco Traffic but that didn’t help me as I am no where near either of those locations, they are West and I am in the Mid-West.  It’s a patience thing so I flipped over to AM and listened to a local talk show and then got to catch the local news, which was nice.  Normally on Friday there is no traffic but due to construction and the fact that people don’t know how to merge and they freak out, some waiting until the last possible second they not only impeded my commute home but they negatively affected my gas mileage, probably not by much.  However all of that inch worm start and stop isn’t good for the car and it’s sure not good for my patience. 

On my way home I decided and committed to treating myself.  I hit up Wendy’s, got to sit in line.  What better to do than do a master reset of the entire Bluetooth System.  Magically that brought my phone to life.  It’s suppose to forget your phone but not in my case.  I am starting to think that there is something wrong with Sync 3 in my car.  However, that little trick seemed to do it.  Someone had connected their phone and it was in the system, perhaps that caused issues.  As long as it works for me, when I need it and I can count on it as being reliable then I will be pleased.  Right now I am just taking the wait and see approach. Back on point, I made it to the speaker to order and got me a Baconater with no mayo and a Large Chili.  Damn that was tasty!  From the first to the last bite.  When I was done I wanted to go back out and get another burger but I figured that would probably kill me, so instead I sat down and had some Banana Split Ice Cream.  Yum a great but not healthy meal.

Afterwards, I spent time with Bear, he demanded to be in my lap.  Great now I have started something that will probably never end.  It’s okay I like spending time with him, he’s a good cat and even though he kills my back I don’t mind picking him up, so long as he lets me love on him and do my raspberry on his belly – it’s our thing.  I try to do something special with each one of them.  Ruth gets her scratches.  Marvin gets to sleep with me.  Insty loves to curl up around my feet or sit with me and watch TV.  They truly are the life of this house, I just sleep & eat here as well as pay the bills.  They are the benefactors and if you ask them the owners of this structure that we all call home.  How nice they allow me to live here, I am so fortunate. 

You probably started reading this because you were interested in Saturday and well here we go.  I woke up to the melody of Gator singing her finest sad song opera, entitled Wake Up You Bastard.  Fed them breakfast and fiddled with my phone.  Didn’t miss anything overnight and no urgent issues to deal with.  So I had breakfast at home, which is a change for me on the weekend.  Then went to the Hair Cut store.  Used a gift card I had and still had to pay $13, but I got a lot.  Thought once again about getting some color put in this head but talked myself out of it.  My hair is super short and it would be hell to maintain and probably a huge waste of money.  I just want my color of Red back instead the one that nature has chosen to give me.  It’s dull and when I was younger it was bright, I want that firecracker red that says don’t fuck with me, I’ve got a bad temper.  Maybe someday.  From there I went to the post office.  Got a strange envelope in the mail opened it and saw a check for a large amount of money.  It was my pension rollover, it was supposed to be sent to the financial institution where I opened a special account, so now I have to send it on my own.  It’s a large amount of money to trust to just a simple stamp but I am doing that.  I would just have a little bit more peace of mind if I paid for Certified Mail but I really don’t want to go through the hassle.  Besides that it’s a check and it’s not made payable to me, so it would be hard or so I would think for anyone else to cash it.  It goes in the mail on Monday, wish me luck.  I’ll know soon enough if it gets there or not.  I also got a rebate check that I was waiting for, so that’s mad money that I can spend as I see fit.  It will go to food at whatever restaurant I chose. 

After the post office it was cold out so I came home.  I forgot that I needed to hit up the vet’s office to grab medicine for the children.  I did that later in the day.  When I got home and got settled on the couch, I watched a movie and then took my usual nap.  Woke up, had some chips, passed out lunch for the children and finished the movie.  Then it was downstairs to commence laundry.  Officially time to break out the long sleeves in full force.  I’ll miss you until next year my short sleeve shirts. 

Decided to go out to treat myself further.  I love Monique and her latest movie Almost Christmas was on the top of my must see list.  So I found it and saw it.  The movie drew a lot of people.  There was a lot of laughs.  Some people cried but I was not one of them.  It’s a heart strings type comedy movie that has a sobering message that you should enjoy yourself while on this earth because you will be gone too quickly.  I was happy that I was able to see it, if you need a laugh and enjoy holiday comedy movies, then put this one on your list.  Afterwards, it was time to take in some supper.  I went to a favorite place that I used to frequent with a friend.  Had a super salad and got onion rings with it.  I drifted from my usual Chicken Quesada, don’t know if I will ever make that mistake again.  The onion rings were good but not as satisfying at the Quesada would have been.  My waiter was short, slightly hot and gave me crappy service.  He was slow to bring me a refill and slow to bring me the check.  Only asked me how things were shortly after the food arrived and otherwise didn’t bother me.  Finally paid the check, used the restroom and got out of there. 

Back on the road, knew that I would need gas and for the 1st time the low fuel light came on.  That scared me a little bit but I still had 50 miles to go.  My last car warned me at 20 miles and you blew through those pretty quick.  I hit up what was the bargain gas station but their bargain was no more.  Still I filled up, I could have waited and gotten a better price tomorrow but it’s one less thing that I have to do now.  Then off to Walgreens to buy my friends a card, the ones dealing with Stomach Cancer.  I went for a card for her but I saw a card about The Oak Tree and it just spoke to me and said this is the one and send it to both of them not just her.  Then finally home to get yelled at by the children because their supper was hours late. 

Resumed laundry, scheduled my first car payment, dealt with some other business and viola here we are.  It’s about to strike midnight in 15 minutes or so.  I know the kids want me upstairs and my body has informed me that I pushed it a little too far.  So while I don’t want to I am going to heed the warning and call it a night. 

Tomorrow just have to grab breakfast and hit up the grocery store.  Thankfully I have enough food for the children.  I am sure they think I forgot them but I haven’t and they will never go hungry as long as I am here.  I hope that my body is okay come tomorrow because we have a full week ahead of us and like it or not I have to go to work.  Plus it’s my turn at on-call again, looked up at the sky on Friday night and there was no full moon which is a good thing.  That seems to follow all of my on-calls maybe it’s just coincidence. 

Nothing spectacular but it was a great day for me and I am so blessed to be able to do what I want to and that I have made it this far.  I continue to be in awe of myself and my accomplishments.  Now if Santa can just drop off a list of naughty boys for Christmas, I will be more in the holiday spirit.  Seriously if I can just speed up my search for my Prince Charming that will go a long way to help me, or so I hope.  Being alone has it’s advantages but it really sucks when the holidays roll around. 

Have a good night and we will talk again soon.  Stay Warm!

Back in the saddle

So I made my return to work today.  It was not easy nor was it fun.  Traffic was a bit of a mess and there was more than one occasion where I could have wrecked.  One of my co-workers wasn’t so lucky and got plowed rear-ended.  There was and is plenty of stuff to keep me busy.  I’ve been at it since I walked in the door, so I thought I’d take a little break.

Had a great time with Bear last night.  He fell asleep with his head on my leg.  He tried to fall off the couch but I wouldn’t let him.  He’s such a ball of joy.

Speaking of good news a lady I used to work with here, she was one of the people let go with the RIF event.  Well she messaged me today and told me she found a job.  I gave her all of the advice I knew to give.  She had 2 interviews, they re-wrote the job to tailor it to her needs and she will be in charge of 6 people.  She thought she blew it because they didn’t jump right away and make an offer  I told her that people travel and companies love to drag things out, they don’t move fast unless it’s to their benefit.  Sure enough the person who made the final decision was out on a weeks vacation.  They offered her the job earlier today and she of course accepted.  Very happy for her and to hear that information I passed along actually helped someone.  I made a phone call on her behalf and that got the ball rolling.  Why something like that couldn’t have happened for me when I was out of work, well I guess it just wasn’t my time.  Unemployment is near and dear to my heart, so if your out of work and you need advice ask away. 

I woke up with an itching stomach, kind of odd.  I took another shower and put some lotion on by the time I was ready to leave I had to go back and put on some hydrocortisone cream.  It settled down for a while but started back up after lunch.  I of course thought right away that I was allergic to yet another antibiotic, but I’ve kept a watch and while I have itches in other places there are no welts or hives.  My face is a little red but outside of that I’m okay.  So I am just monitoring it.  My boss called this morning to tell me that if I needed to take more time, let him know he was okay with it.  I told him that I didn’t want to abuse the system and he said well if your sick then your not abusing the system.  Just plan on leaving early if you feel bad, give me a call first though.  That was a nice gesture.  Honestly, unless I am next to death I’d rather be here, it’s boring to be at home sick. 

I blamed this on the swing in temperatures and think that has some play here, but the real culprit I think is the carpet cleaning.  Not the physical activity but breathing in the aroma of the after effects.  I think it’s enough to make me ill if it’s wet.  Leave it dry and vacuum, all is well.  When the next time comes I will look to do some ventilation to see if that helps.  Hopefully I can make it until Spring but that all depends on the animals I live with.  I love the cleaner looking carpet, it will never ever be 100% clean but cleaner is good for me.  I’d love to be able to replace it but that would take some serious money and I am not a home improvement kind of guy, so I could easily get taken advantage of.

The witch I work with has been so concerned about my health and how I am doing.  I guess because she thought she would get dumped on with people leaving.  I don’t mind doing the departures it’s intense but fun.  The new hire process is what t-totally sucks ass, your on a scavenger hunt trying to track down information on rights, type of computer, type of phone, where they are going to sit it’s just something I would rather not deal with.  I know it’s apart of my job but that doesn’t mean I have to like it right.  It just means I have to do it.

Looking so forward to the weekend.  I know I need to get all of my hair cut and not sure what is on the agenda after that.  Sort of depends upon how I feel.  Plenty of good TV on tonight, so I should have a great time with the kids.  All of the activity of the day is starting to catch up with me and I am yawning.  I know I can make it, at least until I walk in the door and then I may just collapse. 

What’s for dinner?  Not exactly sure Might be Meatloaf, Might be BBQ.  I haven’t exactly made up my mind.  I know that I have a Wendy’s craving and have yet to go through a drive up for food in my new car.  I wouldn’t eat in the car but I would grab the food and go home.  That might be an idea for tomorrow night. 

Be well & we shall talk again. 

Sick Wednesday

Much to my surprise I got a decent nights sleep.  I woke up at 5a and couldn’t go back to bed.  I had an hour and ten minutes to myself.  Marv figured out that I was awake and that is when he asked to be let out.  I obliged him and then returned to bed with a failed attempt to return to sleep.  I took time to analyze my body and then finally gave in and got up.  Breakfast was served and I was dizzy as a goose (not sure where that saying comes from but I’ve heard it before).  I opted to spend another day at home and seek medical care, if you can call what I did medical care. 

I found something to amuse me on the TV and eventually wound up back asleep.  I took a Benadryl,  just one because I didn’t want to sleep the entire day away.  Around 11:30a I decided to use a tele-medicine service that my employer has been promoting.  If my insurance was tied to my employer the visit would have cost less, still I put in my insurance information and found that there was no coverage, not a total surprise.  So it cost me $50 to see a doctor when I could have done the same thing with a different service for cheaper.  I could have gotten free care if I went to the ER but I didn’t feel like waiting for hours on end and calling my doctor is not an option, he’s always booked and you have to see the NP.  So this was a fresh start, I chose a doctor and went through a bunch of screens on my phone giving information about me and my condition as well as my medical history.  Then I found out that the doctor went off line so I had to start over.  Thankfully they kept most of the information I gave them.  I picked a new doc, he asked me questions that he already had answers to but I played along instead of being an ass.  I told him all of the antibiotics that I am allergic to, which wipes out most of the common courses of treatment and makes the doctors job that much harder.  Not my fault but I understand why it’s no fun having me as a patient.  So I told him what I typically get, I go with the stuff that powered through all of the crud from February and of course he tells me that antibiotic is not recommended for this type of infection.  Great so he gave me some baby antibiotic that I have had before but didn’t do anything for me.  Who knows maybe it will work this time.  I am stuck with it. 

I got this survey when I was done to rate the service and then rate the doctor.  I gave a crappy review because he failed to listen to me.  I know what works I’ve been trapped in this body for 45 long years and I might not have a medical degree and the drug I asked for might not be indicated for this type of infection but if he just took time to listen to me instead of dismissing me, this would have gone over much better.  Then the sob called me on the phone to ask why the low rating.  Seriously like he’s paid by what I said.  He gets paid if I leave a great review or a horrible review.  I told him he didn’t listen to me, which didn’t set well with him but if your going to ask a question you should be prepared for the answer. 

Not having taken a shower in a couple days I opted to get my lazy ass up and hop into the shower.  Warm water, soap, shampoo, conditioner it was nice.  I knew it would help making me feel better.  Then I grabbed dirty clothes because I needed to go fetch this drug along with 3 days worth of mail.  It’s like an hour later and the pharmacy still didn’t have the drug ready and waiting for me.  I had to wait a little bit in the drive thru line but got it and then came home.  I wanted to go grab a bite to eat, but I purposefully dressed crappy so reason would prevail and I returned home. 

Had a nice Chicken Pot Pie for lunch.  Passed out some food for the children.  Nothing good in the mail.  Got a package from SiriusXM talking about my free 6 month trial of the radio service they offer.  Then they told me what it would cost to join, they have an all inclusive package now so you can stream on the mobile app or on a computer.  I looked over their line up and they have it pretty well nailed down.  They took away their gay talk content which was my only reason for ever subscribing to them in the past.  I’m happy with my Pandora One, even if I run out of skips it’s way cheaper than anything they can offer me.  They also made sure that I knew the traffic service was a separate subscription and I have 5 years complimentary.  Yeah the whole deal here is to snag you as a subscriber because as soon as you subscribe those free trial offers vanish and there is no way to get them back.  I’ve been down that road.  I miss my Lance Bass, Larry Flick, and Frank DeCaro, which were all radio hosts on the gay channel. 

So another day at home, more work piling up for me.  I got the cunt to cover the departure for today.  However, another one came in for next month.  They are starting to wrack up and December will be a very busy season.  Which if I had to get sick now is the perfect time.  As we get closer to the end of the month more and more people will be leaving, it’s just how it goes. 

Also found out that work played with the holiday schedule again for next year.  So now we get Jan 2 off after I had scheduled it off.  Plus I am on call for New Years and get stuck with it for an extra day because of the new schedule.  It’s okay it’s all money.  Never had the luxury of working on a holiday but it’s some serious cash.  You have your holiday pay plus by law you should get triple overtime, most places do double overtime and a half.  I’m glad I am hourly in situations like these. 

Most of all I am thankful that I have a decent job and can support myself and my furry family.  I might not be living the dream life but I am making it and that is all that counts in my book. 

I am feeling more effects of this damn illness coming on.  Plus time has spun out of control so I need to run to have time to spend with the children and take in yet even more TV.  Unless I am next to death I will be going back tomorrow.  I know I have exhausted my time and don’t want to abuse the system.

Temperatures are much more normal now for this time of year and it’s cold out.  Got that heated seat button, the heat and the heated steering wheel on for most every drive.  I start out that way until I am comfortable and then tone it down.  There are 3 settings for the seat high, med and low.  It will stay on in the mode you choose until the car turns off and I must say it’s really nice.  I’ll try to remember that when I start making payments next month, just in time for Christmas.  How convenient.  Wish I could drive for a couple more months with no payment.  I know that next year I will likely be given an opportunity to skip a payment but interest keeps accruing so unless I am totally strapped I won’t fall for that either.  Best to stay consistent.

Now onward and upward to get my Bears and give him some loving before I have to take more pills and force my body to sleep.  I am running out of things to watch.  Time off from work for a holiday or scheduled vacation day is great but when I am sick I feel like I am a prisoner in my own home. 

Here’s hoping the rest of the week goes by fast and that I start feeling better really soon.  I hope all is well in your world.  Hard to believe tomorrow will be 01-December, 24 more days until Christmas!

Da Bad News Bears

Nothing wrong my my Bear.  Thank goodness!

Yesterday I was just over whelmed with bad news.  The day it’s self was okay, hard to get out of bed and go back to work but I did it.  It was leaving and coming home that is when things went to hell in a handbasket.  It started with my car.  The display in the car was black and didn’t come to life.  As a result of this I had to ride home in silence because no matter what command I issued the system was stuck.  Hey it’s a computer, it’s going to have issues.  It shouldn’t but it will.  So I made it home.  Turned the car off, opened the door and then started it back up, presto the screen came to life.  That is exactly what I figured would happen.  One time not a problem.  Two times, need to get it looked at.  Three times well that’s when I say there is something seriously wrong.  The brains of this thing are located in the dash and I don’t care who does it once they rip out the dash, the car is never the same.  Sort of like wrecking the thing, bending the frame and then getting it back to drive.  It will never drive the same.  Let’s hope this was a one time thing.  I know I have coverage for it but that would involve me taking time off from work and I really don’t want to do that.  Bear left me a nice mess to clean up and he needed a bath, not what I wanted to do but hey that’s life.

I brought in my packages that the UPS person delivered from my Amazon order.  Everything was intact and correct, so something to be thankful for.  I tried to clean up Bear which is when I discovered it was too much and time for a bath.  Passed out supper for the kids, opened the packages – threw away the trash and finally made my self supper which was frozen mac n cheese.  Not the best thing in the world but I made up for it with dessert after Bears bath it was Banana Split Ice Cream from Blue Bunny.  That stuff is awesome, not good for me but my taste buds sure do love it.

It was 7:30p when I sat down and was going to turn on TV but didn’t.  I needed to check my phone because I had been away from it for a while.  That’s when I got a message from an old boss of mine, who I also consider to be a friend.  I have a crush on him but he doesn’t know that, he might suspect but I have never addressed it.  He told me that he was getting a divorce and I thought I was going to pass out.  His wife had mental issues and cheated on him, she went for treatment but decided not to come home.  Prior to leaving she got physically abusive with him and he’s put up with this for 3 years.  It’s time to cut the cord and get his life back.  From photos you’d think he had a perfect home life but apparently that is not the case.  I feel badly for him and for his 2 boys.  He finds himself a full time single working dad and he is very busy.  I had sent him something in the mail and was very surprised he got it so quickly.  Anyway, I composed a reply to him and sent it.  By now it’s 8p. 

I knew that my friend who’s wife is sick was going to get some news yesterday.  So I called to check in and see how he was.  He was and is a wreck.  This is the first conversation where he cried and he is not one to show that type of emotion.  He will show anger and happiness but I haven’t seen him cry ever.  So she has stomach cancer.  It is not curable, not her strain but anyone who gets it there is no cure for it.  That is a lot to swallow.  However, she is on chemo and they hope that her body responds so the tumors shrink.  It’s possible that she could go into remission but she will never be cured.  If her body doesn’t respond to the chemo then there is one other alternative treatment available.  He didn’t get into that.  If that fails then you just make her comfortable until she passes.  My gut told me when all of this started that this was not going to have a good outcome, but I held out some hope that I was wrong.  Things just don’t look good right now, but you take them one day at a time, which is all you can do.

Now as if that isn’t bad enough.  His sister has Breast Cancer and opted to have a double mastectomy earlier in the year.  She has undergone a combo of chemo and radiation.  Things don’t exactly sound peachy there and he seems to think she is going to pass away.  His sister is a Doctor.  She had to closer her practice because of her diagnosis.  She is also in the process of getting a divorce and the woman is loaded.  Her husband is a Doctor as well and he simply couldn’t deal with all of this so he decided to move and see other people.  It’s a complicated mess.

Then add on that he has a sick cat.  She has a Thyroid problem and is allergic to the medicine.  He of course thinks that she is going to pass away as well.  So he will lose his wife, his sister and his cat.  To be left all alone with a dog that they just got.  I of all people know that in the blink of an eye your world as you know it can be changed forever.  There isn’t anything anyone can do to make things go back to normal.  Right now I think that he is still in a state of shock and depression.  I believe that he will likely loose his wife but as for the cat and his sister I have no idea.  I just told him if you need something call, if you want to talk, call and don’t hesitate, don’t question yourself just do it.  I’m here and happy to do anything that I can to support you in this difficult time.  I’d love nothing more than to go out to eat with them again but sadly I think that is off the table for a long time.  He and I may get together as we have in the past couple months but she won’t be there and she helps keep things interesting.

It’s now around 8:30p and when I hung up with him I checked my phone and my old boss had replied to my email.  I could have kept a dialog going with him but opted not to reply.  I expressed my feelings and told him that I’m here for him.  I doubt that he will reach out to me but I offered. 

Wow I was t-totally shocked by all of that bad news that I had just taken in.  It affected me in ways that I didn’t even know.  I woke up early this morning and was having problems hearing out of one ear.  Nothing major, just sinus issues.  I went back to bed and when it was time to get up I could hear just fine.  I felt horrible but my hearing was intact.  I was hot and just felt like a day in bed couldn’t hurt things.  So I opted to take a day off.  I had breakfast, my usual meds and 2 Benadryl.  I was out until about 3p.  I was awake for an hour to eat lunch but quickly passed out again.  I slept the bulk of the day away.  I figured that I would leave the house to get the mail but have since cancelled that idea.  I am staying put.  I paid bills and feel a little bit better but my body is still telling me that were getting sick.  Not what I wanted but it has been expected since we have had yin-yang weather.  Warm one day, cold the next – back and forth.  Change of seasons always gets me.  If I stay home tomorrow I will reach out for medical care.  If I go to work and feel ill there is always the doc in the box at work.  If I make it in and feel that bad I know that I can always come home.  Not how I want to spend my time but I know that I am covered for close to 2 days. 

I’d like to make it back tomorrow.  There is someone leaving and I really want to take care of that.  However, I listen to my body and do what it tells me.  If I don’t then I won’t be any good to anyone.  I feel the sinus stuff flowing but it’s no where even close to what February was like.  My goal is to prevent anything that I am hit with from ever getting that bad, it was no fun. 

Now I am going upstairs and having the obligatory Chicken Noodle Soup and feed the children.  I want to come back down here and play for a while but not sure if that will happen.  I feel really bad for my friends but hope that everything works out for the best.  I am kind of at a loss for words, which if you know me is something that is rare.  I mean just look at this post I am chatty as all get out.  Part of that I think comes from being alone and the other part well it’s just part of who I am as a person.  I like to gab amongst other things. 

Take care and I hope that tomorrow is a better day.  The best news is that all of my bills are paid for the moment.  More are on the way, call it the cycle of life. 

After Thanksgiving Post

Good Day Everyone!  I have really enjoyed my time off and am sad that today is the last day and then it’s back to a five (5) day work week reality.  Ah, you have to have some way to pay bills and since I didn’t win the lottery back to the daily grind. 

I took a couple days to relax and enjoy myself.  I had Thanksgiving with my friends, they picked up the tab and that means they divided up the food.  I got a decent amount but I didn’t get any Pumpkin Cheesecake and wasn’t terribly happy about that.  However, it was a free meal.  They were the very first passengers in my new car.  I had to do some arm twisting to get them to ride with me.  They are larger and older folks so their legs don’t work as well as mine.  However, they loved the new car.  There won’t be too many passengers, most of my rides are alone which is totally fine.  It’s was nice to switch it up and show off a little bit.  I drove carefully so as to not scare the crap out of them as I have in times past.  The female half of this couple has a birthday this week, so I looked for a card and came up with this …

The inside of the card says … You deserve a BIRTHDAY filled with one good thing on top of another!  I think that should get a laugh. 

So I mentioned at dinner about the whole cream vegetable thing and how as a kid you are told try it, you might like it.  You don’t know if you don’t like it until you try it.  I said so why can’t daddy try dick, he might like it and he won’t know until he tries it.  That got a laugh.  Then I came out with my tattoo joke.  I said I got a tattoo on my penis.  It says ok but if I get excited it says Oklahoma city!  That got a good laugh as well.  I saw some hot guys that I would have loved to take home and give thanks for, but just eyed them and moved on. 

Watched a couple movies Dirty Grandpa, the unrated version.  What Happens Next.  I am sure there was another one in there but I can’t for the life of me remember it.  Caught up on some stuff on DVR, which was nice.  Had plenty of naps and sleeping in, as much as Insty would allow.  She is my alarm clock and when she says it’s time to get up, you better get up or she will sing you a song that you really don’t want to hear.  I of course spent a lot of time with the kids. 

Yesterday I went to a burger place that I have been wanting to go for a long time.  Had a Cheddar & BBQ Burger with fries which was awesome.  I wanted Onion Rings as well but opted to not be greedy.  There was a table of people who were talking very loudly about gay people and how this guy is gay and that guy is gay.  I wanted to go over and introduce myself and say in case you’ve never seen a real live gay person, here I am 100% queer, now get over it.  However, I resisted and then was forced to listen how this lady got knocked up and was going to have a baby and how pressing on her stomach almost made her miscarry.  Yeah, totally not appropriate conversation but the place was pretty quiet and didn’t have many customers.  I ate and left. 

On the way home I got a call from my friend who’s wife has cancer.  He was calling me to let me know that she was back in the hospital again.  She got dehydrated and they needed to fill her with fluids to keep her going.  Her potassium was really out of whack.  Too high or too low and it can kill you.  Sounded like she would be getting out today but I haven’t heard anything.  They have more doctor visits scheduled and she will be going back for another Chemo treatment.  She has really lost the weight.  Down to 98 pounds.  She was around 150 and that is a total guess on my part, but I saw a  photo and damn she is all skin and bones.  I don’t have a good feeling about this.  I listen and keep my opinion to myself.  The last thing you want to do is tell someone that you think their loved one is going to die.  The writing is pretty well on the wall but I know that modern medicine can fix a lot these days.  I hope for the best and prepare for the worst. 

Yesterday when I got home I started cleaning the house.  By that I mean the carpets.  Holy cow my back is really killing me today.  I’m in need of some serious lumbar support.  All of that back and forth motion, plus all of the trips up and down stairs to and from the faucet.  I was worn out but didn’t realize that I really over did it, that is not until after I woke up today. 

Had breakfast at Steak N Shake, got 2 Chicago Hot Dogs and a bowl of Chili.  That is different for breakfast but it was damn good.  Going up soon to polish off what is left of my turkey day left overs.  I killed the stuffing yesterday so now I have the long wait until next year before I get more of that.  No Cracker Barrel Boy today, kind of wondering what he is thinking and then on the other hand I don’t care.  I told my story about how that all plaid out to more than one person and everyone agrees with me when he asked for my name he was hitting on me.  Not sure if I moved too fast for him or if he just wanted to be in control.  Whatever. 

No contact from the family over this holiday.  It kind of hurts to be alone but at the same time I remind myself that time away from my family is probably better off.  I had time to think about being alone and how much I miss my late partner.  However, I also thought how much life will change when I find the next one.  I put Grindr on my phone only to look.  I have no profile and yet I am getting hit on like crazy.  I just want to see who’s out there.  Some fresh faces but a lot of the people that were there last year are there now.  That is kind of sad.  I have also seen a couple guys who want to play and are married.  Uh, hello your married go play with your spouse.  I don’t get open relationships and/or cheating.  As soon as you find someone who’s tighter, does it better or makes you feel special – you’ll leave your spouse and be on to them.  Just not right in my book but different strokes for different folks.

I had plenty of time alone with Amazon and that is both good and bad.  I placed orders for things that I need as well as things that I want.  Before I knew it I was $200 in.  Doesn’t take long to rack up a bill.  Looking forward to getting packages on the porch.  Everything is scheduled to be here this week, which is good.  The UPS man will love me because he will be here on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.  Delivering everything from Pet Food to Ink for my printer.  I got a locking gas cap for the car, not sure if I will use it but I will at least try it out. 

Oh speaking of gas, got the car filled up yesterday for $1.85 per Gallon.  I went back to the same station I was at last week that wouldn’t take my cards.  I used a different card this time and didn’t have any problems.  They are by far the lowest on gas in the area.  I’ll probably be frequenting that place more, it’s all about getting the most bang for my buck.

I hope that it’s a quiet week.  Hard to believe that Thursday we will be kicking off December already.  The weather here has turned and it’s super cold.  However, now that we are going back to work Monday & Tuesday are supposed to be much warmer than normal.  Yeah, okay.  I know eventually the bottom is going to fall out so I’ve got my long sleeves, coat, hat and of course all of the cold weather features of my car like heated seats and heated steering wheel to help keep me toasty warm and comfortable. 

Hope that all of you are doing well and that you had a great weekend.  Be safe and take care.  We shall talk again soon.