Seriously, Bored

Day 1 of training was horrible.  First, they told me the class started at 7a and it didn’t start until 7:30a.  Then the instructions they distributed were new so there were/are kinks to work out.  It just didn’t make a whole lot of sense to me.  Started out okay but things got progressively worse.  I was climbing the walls because I wanted to do nothing but leave.  A regular work day isn’t this bad.  I stopped trying to do the exercises and just sat back and watched them when we did a review.  There were also some technical issues and the whole damn thing just made for a super long day.  I made sure the AC was pumped up in the office so it was like a freezer.  I did that on purpose.  We ended at 4p and I literally ran out of the office.  I was never so happy in my life to see my car.  Almost got into an accident leaving the garage but outside of that my commute home was fine.  Nice to be able to have an evening, I am thinking of possibly asking my boss for different hours.  What a concept time to kill. 

Got the mail and came home.  Looked forward to seeing the family.  I was reviewing baby (kitten) photos last night.  Gosh they were so small, never thought they would ever get so big.  Especially Bear.  I found him in the smaller bed, all curled up.  He sprung to life once he heard a can crack.  He spun around and was ready for food.  I fed him, went to take care of myself and came back he had eaten a little bit and turned his nose up at the rest.  So I had to crack a smaller can for him, something more expensive but much more to his liking.  What can I say he has expensive taste as they all do, but daddy has only so much money to go around.  He ate some of that. 

I had Chicken & Mushroom Ravioli from Bertolli, for a frozen dinner it was damn good.  They could give you more but it’s really delicious.  Then retired for a while to the couch.  Watched Momma’s Family the TV show not the children.  Then Bear started crying because he wanted attention.  I found it really easy to get down on the floor but it was hell to try to get back up again. 

Came downstairs to surf the net to hopefully find something of interest, be it something to read or some porn.  Nothing doing, the internet is like TV there is just nothing on. 

I am lonely and thinking way too much about my ‘co-worker’ who I am not friends with anymore.  I’ve got it bad for him but know that not only will we never ‘hookup’ but we won’t ever have what we had before.  That is kind of sad and depressing to me.  I think I need a guy or at least something new that is of interest to me.  I don’t mean a new problem or something new to be concerned about.  We all know far to well that life has dealt me quite the hand.  I am looking to change that and make my life better.  It’s a slow task but I am confident that I will get there in the end.

Going to go on litter box duty and then back upstairs to pass out treats, prepare for another day and probably surf my phone.  Checking into Social Media and Dating apps.  Hopefully then it will be time to call it a night.  I was super groggy this morning but I did stay up to watch John Oliver last night, it was a really good show!

Looking forward to Wednesday, not only will I be back to a normal schedule but Young & Hungry and Baby Daddy will be back on, I enjoy both of those shows.  Well there you have it my Monday.  Let’s hope that Tuesday goes a little bit better and maybe that class will let out a little early so that I can get my taco on! 

Diamonds not forever

Last night I went to empty the dryer and found one of my rings sitting on the inside next to the lint filter.  I picked it up and it was the ring my grandfather left to me.  We shared the same initials and this ring has our initials in it all in diamonds.  Looks like 2 of them fell out.  I was upset but I can only blame myself.  Many nights when I come home from work I have to pee and probably was in a hurry to either get out of my clothes or I put the ring in my pocket and had planned on taking it out after I was done using the bathroom.  I have looked for the diamonds but can’t find them.  I suspect they probably fell out in the wash and are long gone.  This is the one reason why I would rather leave the valuable / mementos in a safe deposit box.  You can’t damage them if they are not being worn.  I will be more careful in the future.  I thought about taking the ring in for repair but chances are it will cost way more than I want to spend to replace two small diamonds.  For now I am leaving it alone.

Went out to breakfast this morning, ordered 2 biscuits for biscuits and gravy, they gave me 1.  I placed an order for 2 more and got 4.  Wow no one knows what they are doing.  The food was really good but I wound up paying way more than I wanted to.  I won’t be going back there because of this.  There were warnings all over FB how they screw up your order but the food whatever you get does taste good.  That’s nice but I want what I ordered if I didn’t I would let a stranger place my order and eat as if it were a grab bag. 

Headed to the grocery store.  Had problems at the checkout with my chip card.  I put it in the reader and it asked me Debit or Debit MasterCard.  I chose Debit MasterCard and then it went dark.  So the checker had to get a supervisor to clear it up.  Then I was able to run my card back through, all was well.  I left not realizing that I left behind my milk and yogurt, until I got home.  Then I had to make a second trip back.  I was not pleased about that but happy that they had the bag waiting to see if I would come back.  It didn’t help things that there was a local group of kids out front asking for donations to some baseball team or something like that.  I call it pan handling and think that it should be prohibited in front of the grocery store and also at a certain intersection in town.  Seems no matter where you look these days everyone wants or needs money.  I’m no different but I work hard for everything and I do mean everything that I have.  This particular group of kids was asking for donations but didn’t have anything to give away, why do I want to just give my money away for nothing in return?  Yeah I get it might give me a warm fuzzy but thanks anyways.

Trimmed the cat claws.  I got the gloves but never had to put them on.  Ruth was just laying under the couch and I moved it.  She was still and everything was fine until I knelt down next to her and then she started in with her wailing, crying and general protesting.  She hissed at me but I kept talking to her and got to trim those sharp little needles of hers.  I got her sister as well but she managed to get me in the neck, thankfully I think my scruff deflected her claw enough that there isn’t any damage but it hurt like hell.  Everyone but Marv got there claws trimmed.  I will take a look at his tonight. 

Got connected to my work pc and found out that the company that is doing the training tomorrow told me it started at 7:30a but it actually starts at 7a.  I was not happy about that but glad I caught it now versus tomorrow morning.  I have already figured out that I need to be up by 5a and out the door by 6a which should allow me to arrive at work just before 7a, give me time to grab some water, a note pad & pen and then off to the office I reserved.  I think I will enjoy being in an office but not 100%, kind of depends on the ventilation.  The good news is that I will be able to leave at 4p.  Just figured out that on Tuesday it will afford me the privilege of hitting up the local bar for Taco Tuesday.  Kind of looking forward to that, last time I did that it was either earlier this year or late last year.  Either way it’s been far too long. 

The knot in my back has gotten smaller but is still lingering.  I am still working it to make it go away but don’t know that I will be successful in making it go away on my time schedule.  So long as it goes away and doesn’t cause me any problems.

Saw 2 good movies on HBO On Demand.  #1 was The Intern and #2 was Trainwreck.  I wasn’t so sure about either of them but once I started watching I knew I was in for a treat.  Looking to find something like that for this evenings entertainment before I head back to the grind tomorrow for five long days. 

I need to grab laundry and put it away, then feed the children.  Insty is down here pandering.  Funny about an hour ago she was mad as hell because I was trimming her claws.  My how her emotions change!  She is quite the ham and knows it, she has no shame in her game. 

I will also take time to shave, shower and then fix the left over pizza for myself. Need to make my lunch as well.  Time does have a way of passing by rather quickly.  I will be a much happier person I think once Monday & Tuesday are behind me.  I like my normal and no interruptions outside of that.  Getting up early is going to suck but I am sure I will be just fine. 

Hope you all have a great week and that the sun is shining in your neck of the woods.  Decent weather and sunshine affects our moods and nice weather means nice mood, at least for me.  We have sun for the bulk of the week as of now but there is some rain that will be moving in later this week.  Of course it’s the weather so it’s subject to change. 

Be well and we will talk again soon.  Maybe not on Monday or Tuesday but again soon. 

Pride 2016

Wow were already in June!  It’s time for Pride Month!  I’ve never been to a pride event and right now I don’t expect that to change this year.  I am sure that eventually I will make it to one but it’s just not top on my list.  Lots of people like to go and I hear it’s a good time.  Going alone to an event like that doesn’t sound like fun to me.  It sounds like temptation and torture.  I don’t need either.

I keep seeing my late partner in my dreams.  It’s like were both alive and things are back to the way they used to be.  It’s enjoyable and fun until I wake up and get a fresh dose of reality.  It doesn’t hurt as bad as it used to but I can’t say that it’s pain free.  I was feeling kind of lonely today.

I have a couple knots in my back left over from my massage on Thursday.  I’ve been using ice and a massager that I have to try to get them out.  They are shrinking but not fast enough for me.  I would just as soon they go away.  I did some quick reading on my iPhone and it appears that knots in the upper back are common.  There are a variety of ways to treat them everything from exercise, stretching, massage and hot & cold therapy.  It could always be worse.  Hopefully I will get them worked out before Monday is here. 

Today I got to sleep in, woke up to fetch the mail.  I stopped last night hoping that my order for blood work would be there, but it wasn’t.  It arrived today but I had already eaten breakfast.  Looks like I have a task for next Saturday.  I have a date that will involve a small prick.  Bad I know but hey I had to say it.  Anyways back on track.  I came home and laid down with my ice pack and watched a movie on Netflix called The Do Over.  It’s got Adam Sandler in it.  Not bad, not drop dead funny but not bad.  Then I took a nap.  Woke up by 3p fed the children.  Got dressed and ventured out for some pizza.  I tried to recreate one of my favorite pizzas from a place that is now out of business.  I ordered the same toppings but it just didn’t taste the same.  The sauce was off, they didn’t have any cheddar cheese and it was a tad on the salty side.  I consumed a good majority of it but managed to save some to take home. 

Came back home and started to play with the computer, get finances in order and deposit a check I got in the mail.  Then reprogrammed my scanner, still not getting what I want but I am working on it.  At least I still am able to receive the local channels that interest me.  Just missing one municipality.  Started laundry.  Plaid with the children.  I got the fishing pole out with the ball on the end of it.  Bear had a great time.  I managed to entertain Marv and Insty as well.  Then I got tired so I tempted them with the word treats.  Man they were eager to shift gears and so was I.  They did work up an appetite.  I still have yet to muster up the courage to trim Ruth’s claws.  Then I ventured out for cat food, nice sale this weekend 15% off, plus they lowered the price of the food by a few pennies and I had another coupon that gave me $1 off.  I’ve got enough food for 2 weeks but that is normal, I still go every week.  If there is a financial or physical problem that prevents me from going 1 week I at least have enough to get through the next week.  Plus they are all so picky I have to keep a wide variety of food in stock.

Been sitting down here at the old computer and my head itches like crazy.  I normally skip a shower on Saturday and get one on Sunday.  I think this weekend I am making an exception and going to break out the Tea Tree Shampoo and jump in the shower.  Oh, I used the mask on Thursday night and I saw a minor difference on Friday morning.  I thought by mask they meant facial but no it’s a cream you put on before bed, it absorbs in your face to moisturize and rejuvenate your face.  I’ll try most anything once, I will keep using the small jar until it’s empty.  Undecided if I will order more.

There is NOTHING and I mean NOTHING on television.  Nextflix, Amazon and Dekkoo are all a bust for me.  I am so bored and really want to watch something good.  Thankfully John Oliver will be back on tomorrow night.  I will need to turn in early but will probably watch his show as it is always entertaining.  Monday will be a rise and shine early day.  Same for Tuesday.  Looking forward to putting this training class behind me.  It’s a complicated product/service and my co-workers don’t like it nor do I think they fully understand it.  I know I don’t but then again that is why I am going to training. 

Within the last week or so I posted about how a particular bank reached out to me to verify my identify to reconsider a credit application.  Well I got another call from them and they wanted to do the same damn thing all over again.  This time they asked for my cell phone number and sent me a text message.  They asked me to read the code back to them over the phone.  Now how does that prove my identity?  It proves that I gave you a valid cell phone number and that’s it.  It could belong to King Kong but you won’t know that.  I found the whole thing as odd.  I did my research before I returned the call and based on my research before reaching out.  The reference number I was asked to provide from the voice mail matched up to the letter I got, so I believe it’s all legit.  I got the same response that my identity was verified and that I would either receive the card or a letter within 1 to 2 weeks.  Yeah well I’ll believe it when I see it.  I just know that I’m not verifying my identity a third time without asking questions.  It can’t be that hard to make a decision either your going to send me a card or your not, lets get it over with.  We all know how I feel about waiting. 

Tomorrow will be grocery store day.  Going back to the new place that I was at last week.  Going to order Biscuits and Gravy with 3 scrambled eggs on top and a diet soda.  That will be my power breakfast to hopefully get me through the grocery store.  Not sure about lunch/supper but hopefully I find something appealing at the grocery store.  Really don’t want to go out but I will if I don’t have any options.  I’m hungry right now so that left over pizza might just be wiped out. 

Lastly an eye glass update.  I got a call this week from the eye doc that the frames I inquired about didn’t come in a more blue color.  They asked me to stop by and take a look or let them know if there was something else that I wanted them to order.  I had sent an email last weekend with 2 pairs of Nike frames that I wanted them to order in.  They are blue but outside of that no where near the match of Kennedy from CF.  I really want a pair like his but we can’t always have what we want.  I’d like an Audi or a BMW as well and I know that those are both out of my reach and the realm of possibilities.  This is a simple pair of eye glasses which should be within reach but because I can’t get the information on the specific make and model of the frame I am out of luck. What a shame.  I called the doc back and left a voice mail letting them know to check their email and let me know when they get them in.  I would be happy to stop by.  I realized there is a larger eye glass provider in the area, if my eye doc fails and I don’t hear from them within the next couple weeks I will go to the larger provider with the same photo and see if they can match up the frame.  They can get my Rx from my present doc to get the glasses ordered.  This isn’t rocket science it’s eye glasses.

I did something that I deeply regret.  I trimmed my eye lashes on my right eye.  They are facing the wrong way and were starting to get junk clogged in them.  My vision was blurry and I got tired of it.  Well the trim part went well.  I regret it because when I put in eye drops they sting like a SOB.  I am thinking of investing in an eye lash curler but that looks dangerous, almost like you need someone to help you.  My other alternative is to have plastic surgery but that doesn’t sound like something I want to do.  It would be a simple in and out procedure but I would have to go see another doctor, have the procedure done at a hospital and go under general anesthesia.  It would involve a few days off work and I really don’t want to do that right now, not to mention what it would cost.  Who knows if insurance would even cover it?  I mean it’s elective surgery but it’s to fix a problem that I was born with. 

Well my towel is dry so I am headed up stairs to get that shower and probably wipe out the left over pizza.  Let’s hope that I can find something of entertainment on TV and that I can also get to sleep before 2am. 

Life overall is going well.  It’s lonely and painful but I am still doing well.  Need to find a boyfriend so that I can start a new chapter of my life.  I am pleased with my accomplishments thus far and hope that with time I will continue to make great strides.  Hope all is well in your world and that the sun is shining bright.  You’ve read this far, might as well leave a comment.  Feel free to ask questions, comments are moderated, meaning that I have to approve them so they are not instantly published.  In other words, you’ve got some privacy here I won’t publish anything that I am asked to keep private. Okay to the showers!

Quick Evening Post

Today was another wild and crazy day.  I got my massage and true to form, I went in feeling fine and came out feeling sore.  Lots of knots in my back, perhaps there is dough under my skin that is trapped.  I just wish they would ease up because it hurts to have them worked out.

Had a spam issue come up at work this afternoon.  Got my boss involved and we brought in our vendor on the call.  The rep we got at the vendor didn’t know my bosses position within the company and he treated him like complete shit, he was rude and talked down to him.  My boss got frustrated pretty quick and wound up hanging up on the guy.  That ended the call.  I got an apology email from my boss but I told him no worries you were treated bad and that would have gotten under my skin as well.  We all have a breaking point regardless if we want to admit it. 

Eager to get home because I got a notification that UPS had delivered a package.  I knew it was my Amazon order.  The Spice Bomb was a bomb with me.  I never smelled it before and thought it would be a different fragrance than it was.  I talked with Amazon they deem cologne a hazardous material and thus they don’t accept returns.  They agreed to give me my money back and told me to do as I wish with the item.  I was extra careful in opening the box because I didn’t know if I would like it.  I love the design of the bottle and they even put in a plastic pin to pull before you can spray.  Very clever but the stuff doesn’t smell that good to me.  Not sure what I am going to do with it. 

The Kiehl’s mask I ordered came in I was a little miffed by how small the jar is, it looked larger on line but it’s super small in person.  I looked at their website and this is an evening mask, so you put it on before you go to bed.  I am contemplating if I want to do that, there is a risk that I could wake up uglier than I am or worse yet I could be allergic to the stuff.  Might be better to try tomorrow night since I will have the weekend off. 

My imitation Gucci cologne came today and it actually smells pretty good.  Cologne is something that is best purchased in person but it is so expensive.  There is a service called Scentbird they sell Cologne and Perfume.  You sign up for a monthly subscription $14.95 USD and they will send you a spray vial good for 1 month of whatever brand name fragrance you want.  I have several that I would like to try so I am giving it a shot, hopefully it works well.  If you find something that you like you can purchase a bottle at a discounted price, which is very nice. 

One more purchase for me, I renewed Dekkoo they dropped their monthly price from $12.95 to $9.99 and they promise that new content is coming along with a redesigned Roku app.  So I am giving them another chance.  If the content I want isn’t there I won’t hang on forever.  Gay films appeal to me but I like American based movies.  The list of gay films that I like is growing, it used to be very limited but thanks to the modernization of the world and more acceptance these films are on the rise.

So that’s it for Thursday.  I am getting ready to start the evening routine and wind up in bed.  Going in early to finish up training on Spam, should hopefully have an account to administer the system shortly there after.  Looking forward to that.  Things are clicking for me but slowly and I’ve said it before there is so much to absorb.  I am still a little apprehensive about the future, but I feel more confident considering that somethings have fallen into place. 

Cheers to the weekend.  More to come from me again soon.  Hope all is well in your world.  Take care and come back, I know I will.  :)

Retail Therapy is expensive

This morning I didn’t want to get out of bed.  That is mostly because I stayed up a little too late.  Marvin was all snuggled up next to me and I had flipped over facing away from him.  He was the big spoon and I was the little spoon.  It felt amazing and was the best surprise a cat daddy could wake up to.  I really had to fight and push myself to get going.  I made it but still it would have been nice to stay home. 

Bear is still amazing me, he now seems to hold all of his bathroom tasks until I am by him or in close proximity.  He wants the bath, he just loves the cleanup.  When I came home last night and saw a dry bed I was panicked.  I always think the worst but part of that is my upbringing and who I am as a person.  The other part of it is just being human.  I started passing out food and he leaped in his bed and started.  Got him cleaned up and a fresh bed made for him.  He ate and I went downstairs, I came back up and passed out treats.  He started going again.  This morning woke up to a dry bed.  Passed out breakfast and he took maybe 1 bite.  As soon as my back was turned he leaped in the bed.  I don’t care if he goes when I am not home just as long as he keeps going and he is putting out a normal amount.  What a baby he’s got me wrapped around his finger and I swear he is always trying to make that wrap tighter. 

Got the mail last night and presto no bills.  The cable came, I plugged it in and it worked.  Then I had to sign up to a website to be able to download all of the frequencies I wanted.  It’s $30 for 360 days which isn’t terrible. Frequencies don’t change that often so once you have everything set you really don’t need to keep up your subscription unless your truly serious about programming your scanner for every place you might travel to or through.  I just threw something together and still really don’t have what I want.  I am going to make a more organized attempt at it this weekend.

I had this nagging eating at me.  When I want something and my mind is made up, I am going to get it regardless if I can afford it or not.  I have heard of a cologne called Spicebomb.  It’s expensive but I think that mostly what your paying for is the package.  It comes in a custom designed hand grenade.  Kind of neat but it’s the fragrance I am after.  I haven’t even smelled it yet and broke down and bought some last night.  I hope to hell I love it and that it doesn’t make me sneeze.  Otherwise I may have gotten someone a gift that they don’t know about yet.  I have also heard of Kiehl’s products so I picked up some of their face mask.  One of the vloggers I watch uses it and well I guess I figured if it makes him look amazing maybe it will do the same thing for me.  I don’t expect a real transformation but hey it would be nice provided I looked really hot.  Those items will be arriving on Thursday and Friday.  Looking forward to it.

After spending the money I felt so guilty but then I said you have to treat yourself.  I am worthy of a reward for everything I have done and everything that I do.  However, it would be far wiser to save my money and pay off my bills.  Plus I will probably be getting new glasses and they won’t be cheap.  Part of this is the human factor and well I have a sense of entitlement in that it’s my money and I would like to spend it my way, doesn’t mean it’s the right way.  The upside here is that I should smell really good and my pores should be cleaner, or so I hope. 

We had more rain today, you would think I live in Texas but I don’t honest.  I have a classmate that lives there.  While I complain about rain what we have is nothing compared to what they have.  It was just enough to mess with the commute to work.  I was supposed to be early for training.  I made it but not by much.  Got another class on Friday.  Then 2 more classes, different subject Monday & Tuesday.  Those will require me to wake up super early and they are all day events so it’s like I will be on the phone all day long listening and they have tests so you almost have to pay attention.  I am kind of intimidated and scared of the subject matter but I passed the pre-test so I think everything will turn out fine. 

Long story short is that I am happy I have a job and wished that I made even more money than I already make now.  It would be even better if I could work from home a few days a week, but I am not pressing my luck.  All things considered I would say that life thus far has turned out pretty well and I’ve got the world by the tail with the exception of 2 things.  1 my legal matter and 2 the fact I have no partner/boyfriend.  However item 1 will eventually go away and item 2 well I am trying to make it happen.

Lunch is winding down so back to the monitors.  Got a short meeting this afternoon, I get to leave early since I started early and right now going home is top on my list.  My foot is killing me, you’d think I would have less problems since I am not on it as much but it appears to be just the opposite.  Looking forward to a date with ICE.  The massage lady will be here tomorrow so I have to go see what time slots are open.  It would be nice to get in, my tomorrow is pretty well open and it just sounds like another treat I don’t want to pass up. 

Happy Hump Day, made it to the middle.  2 more days to go, we can do this!!

The Get Together

As per usual I arrived at the designated time.  My friends were still waiting on their neighbor to get home from work.  Finally he pulled up, went into his house and I figured he would be back out in a while.  He was actually pretty quick and came over bearing gifts. Drumsticks (ice cream).  Great now can we eat?  I starved myself to prepare for this meal and I am going to need something before my sugar drops.  The neighbor made a to go plate and left.  His wife fell and broke her hip.  She needs a replacement but the part is too expensive, so they are not doing it.  Uh seriously they are not doing it.  They have health insurance but I guess she is into pain.  Weird but whatever. 

Finally time to eat.  Onion Burgers, wheat buns (yuk, I will skip that), BBQ Beans with Brown Sugar (didn’t need the sugar but it made them so much better), Corn on the Cob, and Potato Salad. For a change everything was delicious and I was quite happy.  We made small talk.  Watched a little tv and then had some Vanilla Gelato … bam time for me to go. 

I left later than I wanted to but the important thing is that I got home.  Thankfully most all of my ducks were in a row because I knew that coming home it would be hellish.  I was fortunate enough to come home with leftovers that I will have to eat tonight.  Those burgers are smelling up the fridge.  Passed out treats to the children and then started my usual evening wind down routine. 

Nothing on TV, that is the only bad thing about summer.  I am sure something will crop up eventually.  It was an enjoyable weekend.  I accomplished everything that I wanted to do, that felt really good.  Now it’s back to the daily grind but only 3 more days and then we will be looking at the weekend again. 

Best thing about today is what I call Double Mail Day.  You get two days worth of mail in one day.  I have packages waiting from Amazon so I am actually looking forward to going to the post office.  The data cable I had to buy and some Rutin for the Bear.  I have no idea what else I will find but I am sure there will be a bill in there somewhere.  If not today then for sure by the end of the week. 

It’s fairly quiet here, boss man is out.  I am working on cleaning up a server, not fun but I put in my earbuds and listen to Pandora so it helps.  Once I get a rhythm going it’s pretty good and before you know it time just flies by.  This afternoon there is one meeting.  That’s it.  I might hear from my co-worker but outside of that I think it will be an uneventful day and that is perfectly okay with me. 

Enter the on-line dating world. I matched up with 2 guys on Tinder, I had very short conversations with them.  I have left the ball in their court to make the burden be on them to respond.  After a couple days you find out exactly how interested they are.  Meaning they are not.  It was interesting because I have matched so few times on Tinder.  I saw a cutie on another app, we checked each others profiles out and I sent him a message.  He never responded.  At first it kind of hurts but once you go through it several times you get used to it.  Sort of like door to door selling.  I asked the kids, do you think I will ever meet anyone on-line?  They looked at me puzzled by the question.  Yeah, I am puzzled to.  The problem with an app is you can tune it out.  You can’t do that in person, well not as easily.  I know there is someone out there for me and when the time is right be it electronically or in person, our paths will cross.  Until then I will just keep on trying, I mean I have nothing to lose I am already at nothing so it can’t get worse than that.

Looking forward to getting the mail, getting home and seeing my furry kids.  I really miss them during the day even though they do tend to drive me crazy.  Back to wet weather here but it’s humid so the AC is on and I can kiss low power bills goodbye.  Welcome to Summer!  Talk with you all again soon.

The Job & What I did on Sunday

I had a 1 on 1 with my boss last week, things went okay.  He was so tired he momentarily fell asleep while we were talking.  It was odd he started a sentence, finished it and then lights out.  I was kind of concerned but remained silent for a moment and he came back to life. 

I passed the pre-training class for the training I will be getting in two weeks on a security product we have.  I couldn’t believe the company actually required a pre test but they did.  I needed to pass with like a 70% and got a 90%, missed 1 question.  You were allowed to answer each question two times, which helped me.  I got everything right except two .. 1 that I missed totally and 1 that I missed on the first try.  They issue a certificate at the end and I was as giddy as a school girl when I passed.  I printed that cert out and hung it up on my wall as a badge of honor.  I look forward to being able to hang up many more certs but everything in time. 

The boss left us for Mexico until Wednesday.  Apparently he goes there a lot.  Must be nice, he lives close so it’s convenient.  I am eager to travel but don’t really see it in my future.  I’d love to go to FL or CA.

Friday it was me and 1 other person.  I worked on the anti-virus server.  Inside joke here.  It’s called Sophos but I was talking with a co-worker via text and auto correct stepped in and changed it to Sophia.  So now I call it Sophia for humor.  Someone clearly dropped the ball with this program, there are a lot of computers that need updates or to be removed.  I am working that clean up process, it sucks but does make time fly by.  I get to log tickets and send them to my old team, I am sure they hate me for doing that but it’s work that needs to be done.  It’s going to take a long time to get everything cleaned up but I worked like a champ on Friday.  Even managed to switch gears a couple times to take some urgent tickets that came in. 

I am starting to feel a little more confident which is good.  However, my training is no where near done.  I’d say at least two more months and then I will probably get thrown into the on call rotation.  If you call a co-worker and ask for help, they do everything they can to assist you.  It’s nice to work with people that are helpful.  There are some moody days and drama but overall it’s okay. 

There was some concern over mobile devices but it looks like that has all been worked out and I think we have a new approach that were going to explore.  I really didn’t want to buy a phone just for work, so I hope everything works out.  I really like what we have today but I understand why we need to change platforms, it’s more secure and provides greater flexibility.  That comes with a hefty price tag as well. 

Tuesday it will be me and one other person.  My schedule is pretty open at least that is the way I remember it.  I do have some training on Wednesday and again on Friday – both days I have to come in early.  Then the following week will be the kicker 2 days of super early start times.  I have classes that start at 7:30a.  If they don’t break for lunch and I can eat at my desk then were good and I can leave early as well.  If they break for lunch I will have to hang around for a bit.  Interested to see how it goes. 

Confidence comes with knowledge.  I’ve created new accounts in our 2 factor authentication system, worked with the firewalls (these are commercial grade ISP type firewalls) which are made by Palo Alto.  I’m telling you it’s like learning a second language but most everything that I have seen is point and click.  There is a command prompt and you can enter stuff that way but you have to know what your doing.  If it was DOS based I would be okay but it’s not it’s based on Juniper commands.  Then you get into switches that are made by Cisco and there is a 3rd language.  Thankfully no Cisco interaction for me, which is good.  Keep in mind this is all day to day security stuff.  I still have yet to learn that new hire and departure process.  There is a 200 page document for that and you have to jump from system to system.  Once you do it enough you remember the process but learning it takes a huge commitment. 

Overall I am happy thus far.  My bosses goal is to make me love my job and enjoy coming in each day.  I still have yet to figure out how anyone accomplishes anything around there because were always in meetings or on conference calls.  I think this opportunity came along to stretch me so that I can grow and further my knowledge.  It’s comfortable to be complacent but you never grow.  I will admit I don’t like being stretched, it sounds as painful as it is.  However, in the end it makes you a better person.  Also this is giving me invaluable experience that should something go awry, I will have valuable skills and be more attractive to a new potential employer.  I have no plans on leaving I am quite comfortable.  I really want this to be the last place that I work at, in that I can stay for the rest of my working years, however long or short that maybe. 

 

Now on to Sunday …. slept in, but you probably figured that out already.  Went out to breakfast and grocery shopping.  Then came home and fought to get a serial to usb adapter installed in Windows 10.  I need this to be able to program my police scanners.  There are some new municipalities that I want to listen to but I can’t for the life of me figure out how to manually program the scanner.  The software does a wonderful job but it won’t work without the adapter.  Modern PC’s don’t have serial ports because very few people would use them.  Sort of like media drives on a laptop.  Anyway, I finally gave up and purchased a new adapter, I shouldn’t have to do this but since Belkin stopped supporting their product, I have no other choice.  I tried every hack I could come across and while they worked for others they wouldn’t work for me.  I hope that when the new adapter comes in, it does the job and I can put this behind me. 

I went to Target and got a sewing kit.  It was between a small machine for $19 that would do all of the work for me or a $10 kit and I do all of the work.  I am no seamstress.  My best work is done like a doctor goes to put in stiches.  However this was for Bear’s bed and a simple hack job would suffice.  I used the conventional method that I learned as a young man and it worked out well.  I only hope that he doesn’t rip it apart with his claws. 

In searching for the sewing kit I found a watch that my partner bought.  It’s a cheap thing.  It needed a new battery and since my eyes are already challenged enough I figured I would give it a go.  Got the damn thing apart, changed the battery but had to open it back up two more times and now it appears to be working.  I have no idea how to set the date or even the day of the week.  However, I got the correct time on it, it’s actually a minute fast.  It chose Sunday as the day of the week so I’m like that’s good.  Provided it displays correctly tomorrow I will put it on.  Much prefer my own watch but it’s more of a dress watch and very valuable to me.  I have started wearing it out on a daily basis. 

Went to eat supper out, decided not to have pizza after all.  Opted for a cheesesteak it was salty as hell but other than that it was good.  Came home took some ant acid , had some milk a bit later with some cheesecake.  I hope it doesn’t repeat on me. 

Cleaned the house and still have laundry to take upstairs.  I didn’t do my usual shave and shower routine today, saving that for tomorrow.  Need to go up and medicate the children, and prepare for bed.  It will be nice not to have to go to work tomorrow but that will be over with before you know it.  Kind of dreading the bbq with my friends just because it’s so late.  Tempted to cancel but I won’t.

Cancelled my Dekkoo membership, they only had a couple of gay films that I wanted to watch and enjoyed.  It’s not worth the $12.99 per month to me.  I signed backup with Birchbox to get the Men’s monthly box for $10 so really only saving $2.99 per month but I had to justify the expense.

That’s pretty well it for the day.  Semi productive and I managed to squeeze in a nap which was super enjoyable.  Need to try going all day tomorrow without one not sure how I will hold up to that challenge. 

Talk with you all again soon. 

Jabber

As you may be able to tell by the title of this post, I’m going to jabber about several different things.  This post is the result of being time poor and now I am making up for lost time.  Hang on … here we go.

Earlier this week I saw an awesome movie and fell in love with Cole Doman.  The movie was Henry Gambles Birthday Party. I paid around $4 to rent it on Amazon and I was very pleased with my purchase.  I had my eye on this movie for a while.  I’m a sucker for a blond haired guy.  Cole reminds me of a former boss that I had and he is as I imagined my former boss when he was younger.  If you have the chance to see this and your looking for a good gay themed movie, then this is it. 

Keeping with the movie theme, if your looking for some laughter and want to go to the movies, then I would recommend seeing Neighbors 2: Sorority Rising.  I went to see it because of Zac Efron.  Dave Franco is in it and plays a gay role.  He’s hot as well but in the end of the movie Franco’s character nails it when Efron’s character asks why do so many gay guys hit on me?  The response …. because your so hot, they want to fuck the shit out of you.  Yeah, that is the truth!

Today was a decently productive good day.  It started with waking up and eating breakfast at a new place I had found.  It was okay, but nothing to write home about.  Then off to see the eye doctor to look at the frames they ordered.  I was stunned that there were only 2 samples to pick from.  Both were from Guess (no that’s the brand Guess, it’s not a question).  They didn’t resemble the photo I dropped off of Kennedy’s glasses from Corbin Fisher.  I’ve hounded the studio to death trying to get them to reach him and tell me the information on his glasses.  Apparently he hasn’t been receptive to their emails.  I think there are other issues at play as to why he is not responding, but I really wish he would just tell them.  The eye doc is going to order some additional samples and call me when they come in.  I am going to do some searching on my own and if I find anything I will forward it to them to order in so I can see it before I commit.  After the eye doc, I hit up the local pharmacy and got some medicine filled for momma.  Then it was to the post office to pick up my mail and more pee pads for Bear.  Then home to drop everything off quickly and out the door to the movie theater.  After the movie it was back to the pharmacy and then finally home sweet home. 

Ivy has taken over here by storm.  It’s trying to choke everything out and it was growing on the house in the back.  I fixed that today and cut it down.  It was one solid leaf so I know it’s not poison ivy but my chest has been itching ever since.  I never touched it I used a tool to pull it down and cut it off.  Then I cut down a branch from a tree in front that has been driving us all crazy for a year.  We have had a lot of storms and it managed to tear a window screen.  Not happy about that but at least I can see out the front window now.  The outside of my place looks like a jungle.  The house needs to be pressure washed, the deck needs to be cleaned and the bushes and trees need to be trimmed.  In short it looks like I don’t care and I just live here.  Yep, that’s it.  I will have the trees and bushes taken care of but it’s not at the top of my list.  I am trying to dig out of debt or at least come closer to that point.

I took a nap and woke up to feed the children some lunch.  Then my mother called.  Holy shit I knew I was having far too good of a day for something not to go wrong.  She was crying like someone just did something horrible.  I said what’s wrong she said I am going to have to live here for a whole year.  I said well it’s better than being in the middle of the street.  At least you have a roof over your heard, don’t have a mortgage and just have to figure out how to get to the dining hall.  My life is far more complicated.  So that help put things into perspective for her and calm her down.  Then she gave me more details on the program she is trying to get into that is supposed to allegedly give her an apartment.  I know she has applied and they are processing her application but I don’t think she has much of a chance of getting out of the nursing home.  She asked to be placed there, which is how she was able to move in.  Now that she is there she is no longer my brothers problem and while he visits on a regular basis he’s pretty well able to do what he wants.  Since he was working she had no one to talk to so she called me.  Then she started apologizing because I didn’t want to deal with it.  I told her there is nothing for me to deal with, this is your problem. I am just trying to help you see the bigger picture.  We made small talk, she asked about the children and my job.  Then she popped in her question about wanting to spend a weekend over here.  She tried to get me to commit to a timeline but I wouldn’t do that.  I never will because it’s not going to happen.  She isn’t mentally stable and I doubt that she will ever be that way again.  I may take her out to eat but that is about it.  So our conversation was drawing to a close and she started crying again.  I asked what is wrong now?  She said your going to say goodbye.  It’s only a phone call and people usually say some version of bye to indicate the conclusion of a call or conversation.  It’s not like I am moving to Arizona and you’ll never see or hear from me again.  It’s just a bloody phone call.  I worked to calm her down again if only for a brief moment.  So I said okay I will see you later, figured that would be better than bye.  She started crying again and said bye.  That was it I hope she hung up because I did.  Whack A Doodle.

After trying to gather my sanity, I made my way to the basement to pay bills.  Then I left to get a bite to eat for supper, went to the drug store to get a card & some after shave, then to the cat food store and I thought I was done.  Nope the light sensor in the garage had been broken all week.  I thought it was a burnt out bulb but no the whole sensor went bust.  I wasn’t in the mood to spend more money but I went out and got a replacement.  I actually like the replacement better because you can tell it after it detects motion how long you want it to stay on.  The replacement was $15 which is about the same as what I paid for the original last year.  Now I am home.

Bear’s bed busted and I need to sew it up.  I found thread but I can’t find a needle to save my life.  We had some form of a sewing kit but I don’t know where it went to.  Now I have to be on the lookout tomorrow for sewing needles.  Would be nice if they sold them at the grocery store but I suspect that I will have to hit up Target.  Getting me in and out of there without spending more than I need to is very rare.  I love that place!  I am not giving him the bed back until it’s fixed.  He just uses it to pee in.  I line it with pee pads and he climbs in does his business and then leaves.  His version of a litter box.  Right now he’s got two pee pads and he is using them, so were good.  Golly gee he sure does make a lot of urine.  I would rather pay for pads than to pay a vet bill again.  I keep the wet food going and when I am not watching I know he is also drinking water.  So hopefully were good for a while. 

Decided to start laundry and play on the computer.  I have found that I really need my glasses here lately.  The computer does nothing but fatigue your eyes.  I tried glare filters at work but they didn’t do much good.  So thankfully Dell has preset modes, I dropped it down to text and that seems to have done the trick.  Now that I am home I don’t have Dell to fall back on.  My monitors are made by HP and AOC.  I could fiddle with them but really like them as they are, so I just wear the glasses.  Besides that it’s not like I am glued to the screen for 8 hours. 

I will be heading up to pass out meds to the children and brush my teeth.  Then to watch some TV and call it a night.  Tomorrow is another day.  I need to hit up the grocery store and take care of finding that needle.  Outside of that there is cleaning the house.  I think I will be resorting to having pizza for supper.  Glad that I have an extra day off and most of it will be devoted to what I want but I do have to take time to go see my friends, gulp down a meal and then head back home to get ready to go back to work on Tuesday. 

Oh the joy I got in the mail today.  It’s homeowners policy renewal time.  The premium went up by $161 which isn’t bad but it’s still enough that it will increase my mortgage payment each month.  The bank will be sending me a letter later on in the year to let me know that I can make a lump sum payment for the shortage or that I can just pay a higher amount each month.  In any case remember last year all of the trouble I had in getting them to actually pay the insurance company?  Yeah I hope that we don’t go through that again this year.  I am not in the mood.  I am keeping a close eye out and have made a note on my calendar.  I know that if they don’t pay the bill in time a notice of cancellation will be mailed out.  Right now it’s just wait and watch, no need for any action.

I will be back tomorrow to talk more about work and other stuff.  I am jabbered out for tonight.  Need to spend some time with my furry creatures and call it a night.  Hope your having a great weekend.

Moving quickly

The days and nights are passing faster than it seems I can keep up with.  I woke up this morning completely exhausted.  I kept pushing myself and by the time I left I was finally awake.  It kind of felt like I was up all night and got no sleep but that wasn’t the case.

A few things have happened since I last blogged ….

1.  The provider I wrote about the office visit when I went to urgent care last year, agreed to refund my money.  I got the money last week.  Yesterday they sent me a bill asking for the money back.  I looked on line and sure enough my insurance company paid them the day before the exact amount they were billing me for.  So I fired off an email asking them if they want their money and told them that there business practices reaffirm my belief that they are guilty of fraud and deceptive business practices.  I have a reply from them but can’t read it until I get home but I suspect they will say they don’t want their money back and it was a computer glitch.  Yeah right and I was born yesterday. 

2.  I got a response from a bank I wrote about declining my application for credit.  They are reconsidering my application and told me that I should expect a decision within two weeks.  Moral of the story never accept no for an answer until you have exhausted all possibilities. 

3.  I am giving some thought to writing an autobiography.  I really liked putting together my first book about me and my late partner.  My big stumbling block is if I should use my real name, I mean it’s an autobiography.  Then there is the other little fact, is it a waste of time, I mean would anyone but it and read it? 

I literally just sat down to lunch, finished my meal and now it’s about time to head back to the grind.  There is plenty of things to do but just not enough hours in the day to accomplish them all. 

I did get an invite to my friends for supper on Monday, which is Memorial Day here in the US.  I am not happy that they are catering to their neighbors work schedule and having the meal at 6p.  I mean ideally I would like to be home at that time, winding down and preparing for Tuesday.  I am going or so I told them, I will most likely follow through.  It will be a dine and dash type event, where I eat and then run out the door to get back home.  I need some evening time to myself before I begin the journey of a new work week.

Speaking of work I got word yesterday that they hired my replacement for my old job.  He will start soon.  I just hope they picked the right person and that he will live up to carrying on the quality and quick service that I was known for.  I suppose there will be some training on my part but I am more interested in where he is going to sit, there may be an opportunity for me to move, if so I’d like to move down a floor where it’s quieter.

Well the next meeting is ramping up and I need to run.  Hope all is well in your world.

Nailed it

I made it to bet at a semi-reasonable hour.  I didn’t get to finish all of the TV that I wanted to but hey it’s waiting for me on the DVR.  Woke up this morning to the sound of the alarm clock.  It didn’t feel odd like I thought it would and I didn’t have the feeling like I wanted to go back to bed.  My morning routine went off without a hitch.  Made it to work with about 30 minutes to spare.  Got in the meeting for the training and while it was semi boring I managed to get some take away material, that will help me in the future.  I have a few more sessions to attend and then we shall see if I can get the access that I need to do my job.  My boss is sick today, he’s got some stomach bug.  I think staying home for him was a smart call.  He is a workaholic and loves his job to the point that he could spend the night at the office and I don’t think it would bother him.  His wife on the other hand would probably be ticked.  Interested to see if he comes back tomorrow.

Traffic should be interesting on the way home, since I will be leaving right in the peak of rush hour.  Not sure if it will afford me the opportunity to get home earlier but I am hoping that will be the case.  I could use extra time in my evening, even if I only sit and watch TV with the children.  It will be time well spent for me. 

Sometimes it’s a good idea to change up routines.  Last night instead of having the normal frozen pizza for supper since it was Sunday, I bought some Stouffer’s Chicken Enchiladas. They only sell this in a family size portion so that translates to two if not three meals for me.  Well worth the $15.  The down side of this was that it took an hour and twenty minutes to bake in the oven.  It was delicious and could have been a little more spicy but still it was good.  I polished off the stale cake to make room for the left overs from supper.  Tonight I am all set have a couple of enchiladas reheated in the microwave, then a slice of cheesecake and I should be in a diabetic’s paradise. 

Yesterday I got out the fishing pole that has a plastic toy ball with a bell in it out.  I remember playing with Blu and decided that it was time to have some fun.  I spent at least 20 minutes with Bear, Marvin and Insty.  Momma came to check it out but didn’t want to play at all.  Bear got tired and let me play with Marvin and once he was rested he came back into the game.  Insty was all claws.  I tried as hard as I could but I couldn’t get Marvin to jump for anything.  It felt good to play with them and see their faces light up, I wore them out and they eventually had to have a nap.  That came in handy to give me some computer time and time to work on the laundry.  It was a good day and I hope that there will be many more of those ahead for all of us.

No word from the eye doc yet on my frames.  I am thinking that I will have to go by this Saturday and ask for an update.  Normally they can get something in within a few days so I find it odd that it’s taking a little bit longer but perhaps they are trying for an exact match and not a like match.  Which I am perfectly fine with.  They may have not had any luck at all.  I looked at several pairs of Harley Davidson eye wear on line and there are some close but not exact matches.  It would make life so much easier if the model would answer the studio and then they would get me the information.  Chances are high the frame is out of production, eyewear is rapidly changing to keep up with fashion.  Still knowing would be better than guessing.

Well time to run, off to another meeting.  Hope your all having a fantastic Monday!

Catching up

It has been a few days, sorry but there has been a lot going on and little time for blogging.  I have been really worn out lately from work.  Thursday & Friday were bad emotional days.  Thursday a co-worker got bent out of shape and decided to yell at a couple people involved in a situation.  I was of course one of them.  That made me super angry and I just let them spout off and faded into the sunset.  Friday I relayed a message from our boss to a teammate and they got upset.  Then later in the day I tried to help said teammate and got my head bit off.  No good deed goes unpunished.  I have seen some pretty bad behavior and emotions with in my new team and it’s all the more reason that I question if I really made the right call.

The ball is totally in my court here and I am tempted to quit and try to retreat to my old job where there was more organization, policies and procedures and everyone worked together – the team dynamic was much better and so was my boss.  However, my late partner would remind me right about now that life is about moving forward and not going backward.  I chose this and I need to see it through or at least see where it leads, even if that is to the unemployment line.  I have seen some neat technology and so long as I continue I will get to play with some of that technology, which will be awesome.  I never thought I would say I miss the exercise from my old job but I do.  I take every chance I get now to walk around.  I’ve got a fitness tracker and it’s barking at me now that I am slacking.  Today I got on the treadmill, it was fun.  My problem is sticking with it. 

I really wanted to tell the consultant at work that I thought he was hot.  I wouldn’t dare do it in person because well it could easily out me to the entire company.  I found his email address and started to compose an email.  Then I thought about how silly it all was and just gave up on the idea.

Today I went out for breakfast and a waiter that I haven’t seen before came in.  I was totally psyched up to tell him that I thought he was hot.  There was no obvious sign he was gay but hey you never know unless you ask.  Well the opportunity for me to talk to him never presented it’s self.  Being the sleuth and stalker that I am, I did some research and found out that he’s straight and has a girlfriend.  Now I am kind of glad I didn’t make any moves.

I got to the dentist and got a clean bill of health again.  I realized that the dentist is the one place that I can go on a consistent basis and get good news.  Next time I think all I ever get is bad news, I will have to remind myself that I should go to the dentist.  I made my 6 month appointment and don’t go back until November, by then I will probably be in the on-call rotation.  It will also be very close to Turkey Day.  Seems like it’s way off but it will be here in the blink of an eye.

I have spent the bulk of my weekend fighting with AT&T over not being able to get Text Messages from Bank of America.  They have a very old site where you can control text messages, I was told to go there and enter in the short code for BoA that would fix the problem.  My next problem was that I didn’t have that sight in my password manager so I had no idea what I chose for a password.  I quickly locked myself out.  I also didn’t remember the answer to my security question and had to call for help.  Problem is the system is so old no one knew how to reset my password, they had to put in a ticket to advanced tech support and it will be 3 days before they get back to me.  Thankfully I am persistent and finally remembered the password I used.  Then I got logged in and saw the answer to the question I would have never guessed that.  The question was what is the name of your pet.  I typed in the name of every damn pet I had but nothing worked.  The answer was something other than the obvious but I didn’t get that and managed to out smart myself.  I entered in the short codes that BoA uses, but still no messages would come through.  Then I remembered there is a block feature in the iPhone.  I had purchased an app a long time ago and by default the app added a bunch of phone numbers and short codes to the block list.  Turns out BoA was on the list.  I quickly removed them as well as most every other number that was on the block list.  Now all is working well.  I didn’t bother to call AT&T back, but I am interested to see if they will follow up with me. 

Realized that next weekend will be 3 days long, that is so awesome.  I don’t have enough time to accomplish everything I want to get done, so having the extra day might make the weekend extra productive.  I do plan on travel to the buffet at the moment barring any unforeseen problems or circumstances.  A coworker had a relative of his make me a strawberry cheesecake, which he refers to as pie.  So not only have I said pie but I’ve eaten it to.  It is so good and very rich!  Not what I need but what I enjoy.  I got him a gift card to the grocery store and a thank you card.  Whoever made this thing knew what they were doing and should be selling them. 

Momma is after me so I guess I should head up and pass out treats.  Might have a piece of that cheesecake as well.  Then it will be time for an early retirement.  I have to go in early tomorrow so I can attend some hour long training for a system in which I don’t have an account for.  It’s an interactive training course but I don’t understand how I will be able to interact since I don’t have an account.  My boss wants me to get this training as well as several additional courses before he will even entertain the idea of giving me an account.  You’d think this was gold but it’s really only to our spam filter.  I have a domain admin account so if I wanted to do damage to the network it would be done by now.  He is just a little overly paranoid or cautious, take your pick.

Before I run, I did manage to get my recovery key code.  I downloaded a piece of software that had potentially unwanted software in it, but it did the job.  I took a screen shot, archived that in multiple places and deleted the software.  Now I am all set to reinstall if I need to.  Thank goodness.

Okay, momma is really ticked.  I should go.  Funny how food motivates an animal.  Here’s to a great week ahead.  Talk with you all again soon.

Time, a rare commodity

This weekend, I got a reminder once again how precious life really is and how we often (but not on purpose) take it for granted.  NOTHING bad happened, which is a good thing.  You’ve heard me talk about Will & RJ from YouTube.  Well now that they are married they decided to take a break from daily vlogs, which no doubt has saddened many of us.  I never really did understand how they were each able to live their lives and make YouTube videos, but they did it for several years.  I remarked a couple weeks ago that there wedding was awesome but also kind of made me sad, given my situation.  In looking at their video where they broke the news about not doing daily vlogs, I believe Will mentioned about his blog.  I also saw it on his twitter feed.  So I decided to check it out.  I would invite you to do the same, it’s at A LIVING WILL BLOG. 

Will is a normal guy and I have enjoyed watching him grow up and learning about him, his adventures and his boyfriend, now husband.  He disclosed a long time ago that he had a brain aneurysm.  It was concerning but like many things in life I kind of forgot about it.  That is until I looked at his blog and there was the reminder staring me in the face.  I believe Will is in his 30’s but my point here is he’s way too young to have something like this.  It’s like a ticking time bomb that could explode at anytime, without any warning.  As he remind us in his blog, we all have an expiration date but no one knows when that date is.  It is quite a sobering thought to see that he has faced this head on and has come to terms with it.  Headaches for you and me are no big deal.  Headaches for Will are a major deal because of the aneurysm.  While it’s scary he seems to have a pretty good grip on life and reality.  I don’t know how those that are closest to him deal with this.  As you will read in his blog he got the news at a very young age, he managed to go years with it not growing but now it has grown.  There are photos on his site, but I’m no medical pro from what I see I would think that there has to be a fix for this.  Of course the procedure or remedy to fix this would come with high risks but provided everything went well and doctors could fix this or even better remove it, the payoff would be well worth the risk.  Medicine is science and just like with life there are no guarantees anyone can make.   

It would be a very sad day for a lot of people around the world if Will passed away at such a young age.  He and his partner RJ have touched and made a difference in so many peoples lives.  It sounds to me that he has no regrets and is living life to it’s fullest.  He stays in shape, eats pretty good and does things that everyone does.  I would think that exercise would be very risky but apparently that is not the case.  With the aneurysm not in the picture I can tell you easily hands down he is far more healthier than me and way better looking. I can honestly say that I am slightly jealous of him, he seems to have a perfect life.  I realize that I have only seen a glimmer of it and that in reality he has good and bad days just like everyone else. 

Back when I wrote my book he is one of a select few that I sent a copy to.  Now he has written a book that is a biography about himself.  I can’t wait until it’s published as I plan on snapping up a copy.  Although the audio version would probably be better for me, there is just something about reading from a physical book that is special.  I am not a reader in general but I am no stranger to books it’s just not my passion.

So this for me in many ways served as a wake up call.  I feel as if my life is passing me by and I am just sitting on the couch.  I know that I have made great progress since my partner passed 3 years ago but there is so much more to do.  Will has reminded me that it’s time to get going and get on with it because my expiration date could be later today, later this week or maybe years from now.  It’s an unknown factor and for that very reason it’s vitality important to live like there is no tomorrow, I mean you can plan for it but just don’t expect it. 

Will, if your reading this thanks for stopping by and for being such an inspiration.  I am so happy for you & RJ and hope that you have a long life together.

Angry

Last night I filed away the license key for my recent purchase, in doing so I wondered where the upgrade was that I purchased for my other laptop.  I kept thinking Windows 10 but no it was Windows 8.1 Professional.  I got it from Microsoft so I searched through my emails and of course I can’t find it.  I’m pretty sure it’s archived in a PST file from Outlook that went flaky on me and I can no longer open even after running pstrepair.  I kept looking in all of the same places trying different keywords and no returns for what I was in search of.  So what if I have to rebuild my laptop?  The answer is simply to contact Microsoft according to what I read on line and they will send you an email with the key code but you have to provide them with a lot of information before they will cough up the key.  I paid a pretty penny for it so I don’t want to just throw caution to the wind and just buy another Windows 10 Pro key as tempting as it is.  I still have a few places to search but if I can’t find it I will call.  I am angry at myself because I didn’t follow my own procedure.  Thankfully I am not in a disaster recovery mode and this is all to be prepared.  I like to have all of my ducks in a row and be organized.  I guess I was enamored by the shiny screen and the fact that I can turn it from a laptop to a tablet with a flip of the screen.  I some how think that I probably printed it out and stuck it some place.  Thank God I was able to find the Bit Locker Recovery Key.  I also found the recovery key for my One Drive Account.  So many keys, codes and passwords it’s tough to keep it all straight.  Then again there isn’t anything straight about me. 

Today is going by faster than I thought it would.  I viewed a webcast that was recorded at the direction of my new boss.  Lots of interesting information.  Headed to a webinar on Ransomware in about 10 minutes.  That is scary stuff that no one wants.  It encrypts all of your files and holds them as ransom until you pay money for the decryption code.  The code either will not work or the authorities could have moved in and shut down the server after you submitted payment, in which case you will never get a code.  Best defense for this seems to be back up your data and do it in sets, as well as have security software running.  Usually you get this from a suspicious email or a social engineering phishing attempt.  People will always be venerable to these types of attacks as the cyber criminals are getting more clever as time evolves.

In cat news I woke up to find Momma going to the bathroom in the kitchen, I skipped her morning dose of medicine and gave her something to treat her issue.  Poor girl I bet she feels horrible.  I am trying to help her but doesn’t seem like I am doing so well.  Everyone else is pretty well normal.  Well time to run.  Talk with you peeps later.