More Action

I listened to the police scanner yesterday and the guy I rode with saw much more action on Saturday. It would have been the better day for me to ride along but kind of the story of my life. I honestly felt like I was a bad luck charm for this guy. Perhaps if I get a second chance to ride with him again, I will see more action. I’d really like to change careers and pivot into Law Enforcement but I know the limits of my body and I’m not up to the physical challenge of it, plus going through a boot camp or police academy and being yelled at and treated poorly to be broken down and rebuilt just isn’t my idea of a good time. I am positive that I’d fail at some point and where would I go from there? It’s good that I don’t have a college degree because that is what is keeping me from meeting the requirements. I will look at civilian positions to see if maybe I could do something similar to what I do now but for Law Enforcement, that would be cool. Honestly though I am probably better off staying put unless I get handed walking papers. Getting employed when your over 50 is really tough, your looked at as more of a liability. The good news is that I would not need health insurance but I for sure would be looking for some retirement savings or in the rare case that one is offered a pension. Pensions are very rare and if you can find a job that has one you are pretty lucky. 

Speaking of my scanner I forgot that Rudy likes to chew on the end of the antenna for the portable that I listen to in the living room and when I am upstairs. Last night he chomped away at it and broke the plastic housing exposing part of the antenna. I wasn’t thrilled at all when I discovered that and expressed my displeasure with him verbally. He still thinks it’s a toy. I went on Amazon and found a replacement that should arrive tomorrow. Everything still works but I’d like an intact antenna. I’m particular about the cosmetic appearance of certain things. 

In my funk of depression last night, I jumped back on a dating app just to see if I could conger up any potential friends or guys that I could date. 1 month was $40. Setup went quickly and I honestly don’t have much of a profile. As I started swiping, I thought to myself I’m judging people based on their face value and occasionally some written words. This seems kind of self-absorbed and a horrible way to make a connection. Yet it’s worked for so many people. Honestly it would be nice if my ship came in and I met Mr. Right or a friend but my hopes are not up by any means. Now let me match with someone and start a conversation then I will get giddy like a school girl and my emotions will probably run wild and I will sing a way different tune.

I passed out a little after midnight last night and curled up with one of the cats. I was really gone quickly and it was quite a change of pace. I rarely run out of energy but it’s good to deplete the old battery and get a fresh charge. I woke up way too early this morning and Rudy was on top of me just waiting patiently. It was also cold out this morning, there was a nip in the air and it was 50 degrees. I was able to get back to sleep for a little bit and then opened my eyes.

I am so lucky to get such a warm morning reception from Rudy. He was dancing making his biscuits and then he curled up in my arm and gave me a kiss on the face after taking forever to sniff me. His motor was on low. Eventually Mora came in and once she jumped up on the bed Rudy got up. I followed suit but took time to give her some attention. 

Then it was on to pass out breakfast and I got dressed and headed to breakfast. The chill in the air caused a lot of people to sleep in or at least stay in, I say that because the restaurant was quite empty. 

On the way out of the house my loneliness flared back up and I was not thrilled about that. I saw something on line that said when you feel this way tough it out and don’t look for help, it will make you stronger knowing that you resolved the issue on your own. Yeah, that’s crap advice. If I had a friend that I could be with I would have done it. I actually thought about going to church but talked myself out of that.

I got groceries, washed my car, filled up on fuel. Came home dried the car off, carried in the groceries. Let Mora watch me lower the tailgate and she was a good girl and stayed in the house. Then I got the groceries put away and went to watch TV and relax. I wound up napping curled up with Rudy. That sure felt good.

Knowing that I wanted to accomplish a couple things today I got up and got moving. Got my medicine set out for the week ahead. Cleaned the bathtub/shower. The shower curtain has been through the laundry twice and I’ve got the bathmat in now. Took care of the litter boxes and trash. 

Updated expenses and paid a bill, checked on my backup and it should be done by 6p tonight. Then I can put that drive away and reboot the computer, so I can get it ready for the upcoming week. It’s nice to start off fresh. I did surf for porn but didn’t find anything of interest. 

Had a muffin for lunch and wow it’s past the time I wanted to leave for supper. I want a nice burger and a bowl of chili. The only place to get that is Wendy’s that I can think of off the top of my head. However, I want to be around people so that’s not really something I am leaning towards. Thinking of some BBQ unless something hits me on the way there and side tracks me. Mexican does sound good so I may go for that instead. 

Actually, thought about going into the office tomorrow but I really wouldn’t be around that many people I’d spend most of my time alone in my office pounding away at the keyboard and honestly, I think that there is probably more than enough work that it will occupy my mind so unless I change my mind, I plan on just working from home as per usual. I think getting back into a routine will be good for me, plus work will help occupy my mind and keep me busy. I am not looking forward to playing catchup and wading through a bunch of junk but that’s the price I pay for taking time off. 

Here’s hoping that my mood changes and the rest of the evening is enjoyable. I hope that I can sleep tonight and jump back to my old routine easily. Here’s hoping it’s a great week a head for all of us and that there is some good news that will be forthcoming also for all of us. Take care and thank you so much for stopping by.