News Flash

2nd Interview scheduled for Thursday afternoon.  This one will be by Video Conference and will be with the Hiring Manager as well as his boss.  Only a half hour.  I think this will be the last step and then they will have to make a decision afterwards.  I am anxious to get to the end regardless if it’s good or bad.  So I am still in the running and I think my counterpart in another office is as well.  I don’t see why we need a second interview unless they really just want to see my face and how I present myself.  Ah well what’s a little more pressure right?  It will keep things interesting. 

In Pain

I don’t know if it’s the activities from the weekend of working on the fridge and lifting Bear but my shoulders and neck are killing me.  The pain started this morning on my left side and now it’s moved to the right.  It is normal for the pain to shift around but it usually takes days for that to happen.  I just want it gone so that I can be my old normal self.  There is not a single person here that wants to rub my back but everyone is pushing pills like crazy.  Nothing other than Tylenol or Ibuprofen.  I’ve already taken that and no luck so far.  I feel the tension of the muscle in my right shoulder.  It’s cramping and that hurts even worse.  Can’t wait to get home so that I can take a muscle relaxer and get out some ice.  Until I get to that point I think I am going to suffer. 

No news on the job just yet.  I was really hoping that they would call today.  I know the day isn’t over yet.  It would help to make this a better day.  So instead of reflecting on a somber situation that happened 3 years ago today I could reflect on something positive. 

Speaking of positive, the guy that I have been chatting with is starting to come on strong.  He is ready to take me to church amongst other things.  He keeps talking when we … Wow that a little fast there.  Then he goes on to say that he needs something to warm him up so he thinks of me.  That is so sweet but a bit much for me.  I don’t want to hurt his feelings but based on his photo there is 0 attraction on my part.  We oddly have a lot in common so I don’t know that dismissing him is quite the right thing to do.  I think sort of like with the job if it’s meant to be it will.

In other news left over pizza for me tonight.  I also have to take the trash out which won’t be fun considering the way I feel but it’s a job that has to get done. 

I upgraded the Firmware on my IP Camera and changed the credentials used to login.  The camera would make clicking noises as if someone was logged in.  If it would have moved then I would have known for sure that someone was logged in.  Kind of wish there was an indicator that I could see to tell me if someone is logged in.  In any case much stronger password now so if someone was playing with me, there fun is done, at least for the time being. 

Drove the death trap aka my late partners truck to work today.  I got the oil changed yesterday.  I felt it was appropriate to drive it today.  Kind of nice sitting up high but when the sun is out and since my back is killing me I can’t see to change lanes for anything.  I just look and start to ease over … no honking or thumps so I presume it’s all clear and continue to keep on moving over.  Unless I suddenly feel much better I will be in my car tomorrow.  I like to keep the miles off my car and drive the truck but if that wheel bearing goes then I am done here on earth.  If not I will be seriously injured and wishing that I was gone, no matter how many drugs they pump me full of.  So, hopefully the commute home is non eventful.  I will get the bearing fixed eventually.  I’d like to get the new job, feel secure enough in it that I can purchase a new vehicle and trade both of these in.  That would be ideal.  I could trade them in now but without an increase in income it would be tight. 

Speaking of income I ventured over to overstock dot com last night and picked up a nice black and blue ring, something that caught my eye.  Then I went to the NBC Store and got a polo of the Suits Firm momagrammed on.  I think it will cause people to look and I am sure I will hear never heard of them, well that is because it’s a TV Show and not an actual Law Firm.  Would be nice if I could get one that said Dewey Cheatham and Howe, but that would probably spark too much controversy.  I spent more than I wanted to in total but I have wanted these items for a while so I just threw caution to the wind.  Then of course it hit me I need to get Bear to the vet, Momma could use a check up and my car needs service.  Ah well, all things in time. 

I will actually have enough time off to take a day but not until after the 15th of the month.  That is when I will schedule in the car.  The vet can be done on Saturday.  My time off bank took a huge hit when I was out for a week, otherwise I would have plenty of time and it wouldn’t be an issue.  With the way I feel I would have stayed home instead of schlepping into to work. 

Everyone else is doing well.  I hope that I get back to that point soon.  Happy Monday everyone.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Friurday

That’s Friday & Saturday mashed together.  So I have had a lot of time to think and talk with people about the job thing.  While it is unchartered territory for me, provided there is no contingency of college placed on the job, if they offer it to me I am likely to accept it provided the money is right.  I am thinking that I should hear something next week.  My other concern is that I won’t be as active as I am now.  I get a lot of walking done during the day and that helps my fat body.  If that stops then I wonder if I will pick up pounds?  Hopefully not. 

The talking part I believe will put me over my limit on my home phone minutes.  I used to have unlimited but for cost reasons down graded.  I honestly don’t use a personal telephone all that much.  I don’t get many calls and I don’t place many calls.  Shame home phone minutes don’t roll over like cell phone minutes.  I am also wondering what my gab session is going to cost me, whatever it is I am sure it won’t be cheap since it’s usage billed by the minute and I at least 1 hour over.  Thankfully incoming calls don’t count against my minutes at home. 

I stayed up very late last night and looks like I am doing that again tonight.  I was very drained today, the work week and all of the emotions that I experienced totally drain me.  Now someone wants me to stack on college, yeah there is no way in hell.

I have successfully taken apart the freezer and I put it back together.  There are no left over parts, which is a very good thing.  That often is not the case with me.  I had to remove the contents of the freezer, take out the shelves and then a bunch of screws and the mounting brackets for the basket at the bottom of the freezer.  It took a little bit of work to get the cover off but when I did I saw a small plastic fan and the freezer coils.  Try as I might I couldn’t get the damn thing to act up while the cover was off.  I figured it was the fan making all of the racket.  So I got out some 3 in 1 oil and lubed it up pretty good.  Power cycled the fan a couple times and presto were ready to clean up the mess and put things back in.  It was quiet for the first few hours.  That wore off and it’s making the damn noise again.  I guess the fan or the bearings on the fan are going out, that is the only thing I can think of.  I am going to put up with the noise until it breaks and who knows how long that will be.  Rest assured it will happen at the worst possible time, things like that always do.  I could call a repair man now but you know as soon as he showed up the damn thing would run like a champ and there would be no noise whatsoever.  Just like taking your car to the shop or calling for computer help, everything seems to know when the repair person is looking and it tends to behave.  Why is that?  So annoying. 

I ventured out for breakfast and got the mail.  Bears pee pads were waiting for me.  Along with a doctor bill.  Then home, to watch TV and eventually fall back asleep.  Then that is when I started on the freezer work.  Then I rested and watched more TV.  Had to take another nap.  Then I got up, fed the children supper and went out for Mexican food.  Then cat food and a quick trip to the office supply store.  There is a new Pilot Gel Pen out called the G7 I saw it on Amazon.  Can’t find it in stores yet.  If you didn’t know I have a serious pen fetish and could easily waste a bunch of money on a writing instrument.  I have more pens than one person should be allowed to have.  It’s just one of the strange quirks I have. 

Cleaned up the house a little bit.  Did the dishes and the bigger clean job I saved for tomorrow.  Started laundry.  Played on the computer a little bit.  Had to generate some correspondence.  I have become so anal lately.  I edit on screen but the errors don’t jump out at me so I have to print it out thinking it’s the final version and then it’s back to editing and re-printing.  I think I am keeping the printer, paper and electric company in business.  Didn’t help matters that I had to fax the letter off, so more damage to the home phone.  

Were back to winter like temps.  It’s chilly outside or it was today.  Not sure what tomorrow is going to bring. 

A guy hit me up on one of the dating apps.  We have been chatting.  He lost his partner 5 years ago.  I don’t have an attraction to him but there is nothing wrong with chatting with someone.  Never know things might work out.  I am not all giddy over it like I would be if it were someone younger and well closer to my area.  He is a few states away, but travels.  Since I told him that I lost my partner I haven’t heard from him.  Perhaps I scared him away, that tends to happen.  I learned the hard way to save the fact that I am a widow for much later in the conversation, unless of course he brings it up.

Got a call earlier in the week from the lawn boy.  He finally has raised his prices.  I am a little peeved over it as he is already making a killing for his 15 minutes of work.  The price jump is only 5 dollars per service, which in the grand scheme of things isn’t that bad.  He does an average job but now I am more on guard and watching for a mistake so I can call him on it.  I have already found a couple but haven’t made a call yet.  Part of me says if you annoy him he will cancel but the other part of me says he’s taking you for a ride that you don’t want to be on.  He is all about the money and not necessarily about quality.  That has changed as he has aged, the money was important to him when he was starting out and so was the quality.  He wanted referrals and well he got them.  Now he has so much business that he struggles to keep up.  He should hire some help but I guess he is too proud.  In any case I am tempted to get quotes from his competition and if I do and I find someone priced lover it will be adios.  I don’t get to see him so there is no eye candy benefit for me and well he’s straight and married so I wouldn’t even try.  This is all about business and the value I am getting for my money.  You should have heard him tout his service when I protested the increase … well I do this and I do that for you, my costs have increased over the years but I haven’t passed them on to you.  Yeah what ever you money grubbing sob, I will pay the $5.  If it wasn’t for my allergies I would do the damn job myself and pocket the cash.  Although in the dead of summer it’s nice to not have to worry about sweating to death in the sun and getting sun burned.  So I guess there is good and bad here.

Well time to climb the steps the children are all upset that I am still up.  I see no reason to hurry and run to bed.  Although in a few hours I will wish I had done just that.  I think I can still accomplish all of my goals for the weekend and be ready to go back on Monday.  Not that I want to go back but it beats the alternative.  Hope your having a great weekend.  Take care and be well. 

How did it go?

Things started off really well.  I felt very good.  Then the time came for my big question, which was is there any reason why you wouldn’t hire me?  Yeah wished I would have NEVER asked that one in this interview.  I was told the only reservation was lack of education and I was questioned about why I haven’t gone to College or even attempted something at a local Community College.  The truthful answer …. I fucking hate school.  I did my time in High School and I am DONE with it.  There is no hope for College in my future.  I can’t imagine doing that and holding a full time job, even taking 1 or 2 classes.  The answer I gave … Never really made time for it.  So then he goes well this is problem that can be remediated, correct?  I said uh sure.  Then he asked me if I was still interested in the job.  I said of course.  So he ended with you will be hearing from HR very soon. 

The best thing that came out of this is that I was recognized for my impeccable Customer Service.  I was also told that he would have never entertained speaking with me unless he trusted me.  It was emphasized that there is some serious confidential work that comes with this job and it’s not something that you can talk about.  I knew that going in, that doesn’t bother me at all.

When we were done, my whole face was red.  I felt my ears on fire and I could sense my pulse beating in my face.  I was disappointed about the whole college thing.  He wants me to go to college.  Well that’s so that I don’t get stagnate.  This all stems from a leading question of where do you see yourself in 5 years.  Yeah well you have to give a bullshit answer.  If I told the truth he would have hung up.  The truth is I’d like to be a millionaire and retire.  I can understand continuing education through seminars or other types of learning but I shouldn’t have to sign up for a college course.  Yes we have a tuition reimbursement program but you have to front all of the money and then show that you passed with a minimum of a grade of B.  Now they added on to that and said that if you leave within 1 or 2 years of taking a course you would have to pay back all of the money that you got as reimbursement.  I am not made of money, that is why I work.  I see this whole reimbursement thing as a trap to get me in debt or create an obligation and I simply won’t fall for that.  I’ve made it this far in life with no college and I can make it the rest of my life with no college.  I am very confident in that statement. 

I got back to my desk and sent a thank you note along with examples of documentation.  Then I get an email back asking how my Excel skills are.  I was honest and said that I know the basics.  I am not an excel guru and that is mostly because it involves math and I am allergic to math, sort of like college.  I figure that he is going to make me an offer.  I know that he really likes me and that we work well together. 

I am trying to sort out in my mind if I am made an offer if I should accept it or reject it.  There were a few things that he said that scared me a little bit.  I mean I don’t want to leap and then wonder if I am going to have a job or get in too deep.  At the same time I think wow this is a huge opportunity.  I really want to get away from taking phone calls all day and hearing about people bitch because word doesn’t work or the computer system sucks, etc.  A person can only take so much of that and then you want to start to scream.  I suppose there is a shelf life to telephone support unless you really enjoy it.  I don’t mind once and a while doing it but every single day, no thanks.  That was something I was aware of when I accepted the job but I needed a job.  I put up with it for almost two years and I think it’s time for a change. 

The other thing that I was asked if I would stay for the long term or if I would hop along to something else.  He said that my resume shows that I don’t stay very long at one place.  Yeah company’s go out of business and reorganize.  I haven’t left every job by choice.  I left the one job that I have 5 years of service at on my resume to show that I am loyal.  I like to stay in one place unless I have to move on, I won’t.  As an employer you have to keep me happy with pay, benefits and a great work atmosphere/culture.  I like a modern upscale building but hey I can work out of a wood shed if I have to just have ac in the summer and heat in the winter. 

I have this innate ability to lack confidence in myself and to talk myself out of situations and opportunities.  I know deep down inside that there is always a risk of failure and that is why I don’t pursue things.  In this case if I get in too deep there is no safety net.  Meaning that if I fail in the job they will kick me to the curb, good customer service skills or not.  Right now since there isn’t another income to fall back on and I am in debt beyond my height I have to be able to hold a job and make a specific amount of money if I am to survive.  Take away my income and I am screwed.  1 paycheck away from being bankrupt.  I also don’t want to live my life in fear like I did when I worked at my last job.  Everyday I was looking over my shoulder.  I am so happy to have gotten away from that environment.  2 months of unemployment was a small price to pay in order to get to where I am now.  I am very thankful of the opportunity that I have and well that is a sure thing and my job is secure.  Take the other thing and it’s a total gamble. 

I need to think about it and to do some research which means talk to people.  I will be able to make a decision hopefully soon.  Then again he may not want to offer me the job because he too thinks it’s too much of a risk.  Either way I look forward to hearing the decision. 

Best thing I read today … I was at McDonald’s and there was this very hot dad there with his son.  The kid threw all of his fries on the floor, the dad spanked his son.  I immediately threw all of my fries on the floor hoping for the same reaction.  Priceless!

Hard to believe tomorrow is the 1st of April.  Had an idea for a joke to pull but don’t think that I am going to follow through.  Now it’s time to pay attention to Bear and get in bed because tomorrow will be knocking before I know it.  Take care and we shall talk again soon.

What day of the week is it?

Woke up this morning knowing that it was Wednesday.  Got to the bathroom and went to take my morning pills and Wednesday was empty.  Oh gosh is today Thursday and I am just a day behind.  Nope, there is still 3 bananas left.  Last night I took my morning pills for Wednesday.  It’s things like this that make me wonder if I am going crazy.  I know perfectly well why this happened.  I was having a conversation with someone at work about the guy from work that set a boundary, you know.  Well that situation still bothers me.  I am hurt and I am angry, plus I still have feelings for him.  It’s just messed up.  I saw him twice today already and we still have yet to speak to each other.  I don’t know if it’s going to happen and I really have other more pressing things to be concerned with but my mind reverts back to the small stuff. 

So cleaning the fridge last night, that was a hoot.  There is ice build up in the small freezer portion.  It’s a mammoth block of ice that keeps growing.  I tried to chip away at it with a screwdriver but that was a futile attempt.  Then I got out the propane torch and we melted some ice.  Problem is I had a huge mess on my hands and the block of ice was still mostly in tact.  Time was also a factor.  I was well past treat time and the children were upset.  So I had to wrap things up.  Turned the fridge back on and lined it with pee pads to catch any lingering water and put in a couple of plastic bowls.  It’s all good now.  I got everything cleaned but I didn’t do anything with the shelves other than remove them.  So tonight I get to clean the shelves and put them back in.  At some point I need to deal with the ice issue which is what helped to contribute to the soda explosion.  For now I am just going back to business as usual because doing otherwise is exhausting!

Were super short staffed today.  One guy quit last week, another one is out on Paternity Leave, Another one called in sick and two more are on vacation.  Yeah it’s a crazy ass day and that means I am stuck on the phone except for lunch.  Not happy about that but it will help pass the time and we can move on to the part where I go home and figure out what is for supper. 

Excited to go home and get my tire caps from Amazon, yeah that will be the thrill of the day for me.  Plus paying bills what a hoot.  Looking forward to watching TV and relaxing.  Thunderstorms for the ride home so I will for sure be later than normal because everyone drives like they have never seen water fall from the sky.  It’s water not dollar bills.  Imagine that dollar bills falling from the sky.  I wouldn’t be on the road I would be on the sidewalk collecting them as fast as I could.  If only that would happen. 

Back to reality now. 

Mess 2 Clean up

I love Diet Mt. Dew Code Red.  I have a can on the way to work every day.  The colder the better.  I like it to be slushy but not frozen.  I have a separate beverage refrigerator for this purpose.  It’s something that I got many years ago.  Someone had to have 5 flavors of soda in the house and it would take up a lot of room in the regular fridge so I got this special unit to accommodate his need.  It’s been used to keep food but only for a day or two, nothing long term.  It’s the size of a dorm fridge so there isn’t a whole lot of room.  In any case I went to grab a can this morning only to find that one of them exploded.  I cleaned up as much of it as I could but I had to get out the door.  Tonight I will have to finish the job, oh fun!

Bear is back to using his bed and the pads, sure hope it stays that way.  I love that he is back to his old ways.  If all goes well I might be able to clean the carpet before the hot weather rolls in so the house doesn’t smell.  Just like the soda mess, not a job that I want to do but one that I need to do. 

Had a piece of cold pizza and heated up some Mac & Cheese for supper last night.  Saved 1/2 of the Mac & Cheese for tonight and will probably incorporate some BBQ Pork along with it.  That is the plan but who knows how it will actually turn out? 

So we made it past Monday and it’s only Tuesday.  I am having a difficult time keeping my emotions in check as I struggle to make it to Thursday afternoon.  I will survive because that is just what I do. 

Looking forward to watching ABC’s The Real O’Neals tonight along with Tosh.O on Comedy Central.  I am sad that Shameless (on Sundays) will air it’s season finale this week.  So far as I know it, the show won’t be back with a new season until January 2017.  That is a long time to wait but I do it every year.  It’s the only reason why I subscribe to Showtime.  They have some other stuff that interests me but the series is the main reason. 

So unless something newsworthy happens I suppose this is Tuesday’s post.  Back to reality for me.  Hope you have an awesome day!

The Interview

Got my notice today and my interview is scheduled for late in the day on Thursday.  I’ll be waiting with anticipation.  It would really be nice if they made a decision and extended an offer on Friday, then I would surely have a great weekend!  I don’t think it will turn out that way but if it does I won’t object. 

It’s going to be a phone interview and as of now there won’t be any video involved, I am fine with that.  I booked my lucky conference room so hopefully that will be to my advantage.  It’s going to be a long week waiting for Thursday afternoon. 

Strike Out

I went back for breakfast yesterday and the guy I am interested in is straight.  I kind of thought so, but you never know until you either ask or have someone ask on your behalf.  There are bad things that can happen after you ask but thankfully I haven’t experienced them and hopefully won’t. 

It was really nice being able to eat and then know that I didn’t have to go to the grocery store.  I may try this again this Saturday but that depends on a lot of things mostly how I feel when I wake up next Saturday. 

I ventured out to get some gas for the truck, $20.00 exactly to fill the tank.  Even numbers like that make me happy.  Shame that everything can’t cost an even amount of money instead of $19.95 why not just say $20, I think it would be easier.  Then again most people these days don’t pay in actual cash, it’s plastic be it credit or debit.  I have $2 in my wallet and it’s been that way for weeks.  Paying in cash is great but something that I seldom do because I don’t bother to carry cash. 

On the way in this morning I created a micro tear in the webbing between my thumb and first finger on my left hand.  I was driving with that hand and went to move it and all of a sudden it was ouch, like a splinter got me.  It’s very sore but there isn’t and wasn’t any blood.  Yesterday while shaving I carved out a small piece of my lip.  I wonder if this is a sign?

Last night Gator insisted on sleeping with me. I hate sleeping with her.  She is small but when she gets in bed she is a lump that stretches out and is not forgiving so you have your part of the bed and she own the rest of it.  Try as you might unless you pick her up you won’t get her to move. Solid as a rock.  My back hurts this morning.  I know she loves her daddy but I really wish she would have slept in the chair.  Hopefully tonight it’s back to Me & Marv.  He’s a good sleeping buddy.  Once he knows I am out he will venture to the bottom of the bed or even the floor.  He likes to stretch out too but he has some manors about him.  What a shame Gator didn’t pick them up when she was younger.  Way too late now. 

I was able to get in a nap yesterday which was nice.  Of course Gator had to lay on top of me.  She is so thirsty for attention it’s like she has been deprived of it her entire life.  Which is totally not the case. 

Time to get to work.  I hope that by the end of the week I have some more knowledge about the internal position and who knows maybe even a decision.  I don’t want to rush things for fear that it will cause bad results but I am ready to get it over with.  Well speaking of work, time for me to switch gears.  Hope you all had a fun weekend.  Talk with you again soon.

Easter Weekend

No news on my quest at work.  I am hoping that HR reaches out next week and schedules an interview.  The longer we go the more I want this opportunity, I think it will be good for me.  Provided all goes well I know that I will miss helping people with their PC problems but I still will have the opportunity to help, it’s just that I will be calling them and it will be because they have a virus or security risk on their machine.  So I won’t exactly be the person that you will want a phone call from but someone has to play that part. 

I realized yesterday that I had to go to the grocery store either Friday night or on Saturday.  I elected to go today.  Good thing because I got $10 off my bill, it was a special coupon that expired today.  Turns out they pass these out all the time but you have to shop Thursday thru Saturday.  Come in on a Sunday and you are out of luck. $10 must be a popular coupon because the pet food store sent me an email and it had a $10 coupon to print out, so I saved a cool $20 this weekend.  Not bad at all!

I had to work on ye old car today.  On my way to work earlier this week some rocks hit the windshield.  I got a crack and a couple of chips out of it.  I wasn’t thrilled about it but this is minor damage, it’s not like I need a new windshield.  Although with the amount of chips in my windshield I will say that I am on my way.  I just hope that I can hold out until it’s time to trade.  I have 2 kits to fix just this sort of thing.  One the resin was all dried up.  The other there wasn’t a lot of resin left.  I opted not to follow the instructions and just dabbed the resin on the windshield.  I had the car in the sunlight and just let it dry.  I came back a couple hours later, scraped off the excess and wiped down the window.  It’s not pretty but I think it got the job done. I figured might as well check the air pressure in the tires while I am out here.  Did that and found out that I lost 2 tire caps.  Evened out the air pressure and borrowed caps from the truck.  Found replacement caps on Amazon.  The same day that the rock damage occurred, I managed to drop my keys as I got out of the car.  I didn’t think anything of it, then I noticed I did some slight damage to one of my key fobs.  It’s for the alarm system and there is a crack in the housing.  I figured Amazon would have a replacement.  I wasted away an hour and a half trying to hunt down a replacement.  I finally found one but the housing is all white and I really would prefer to keep all black.  The remote still works and there is no major hurry to replace it, as it’s still stable.  Just one of those things that I wanted to inquire about so when the day comes to replace it I know where to go. 

Speaking of Amazon, they did manage to get some of my money out of me today.  I had to order more pee pads and since I was doing that I needed a little of this, some of that and you know that one item.  Pretty soon I was kissing $50 good bye.  Funny how that works.  I am also running out of Cologne It’s Gucci by Gucci for Men.  Damn that is some expensive stuff.  I don’t wear it often, I mean it’s taken me at least 2 to 3 years to go through a 3oz spray bottle.  Still I couldn’t justify the cost right now.  I want a replacement bottle but it will have to wait.  I have other cologne to wear.  If you ever get the urge to buy anything with pheromones to attract either the opposite or the same sex, don’t waste your money that shit doesn’t work. 

I think I am winning the war against my blood sugar.  Last night when I came home I was tired.  Checked my sugar and it was 83.  I had some food and that perked me up for a little bit.  Even ate something sweet and checked after an hour and it was still well within the acceptable limit.  The doctors office never has called back to say only take 1 drug or take them both.  Good thing this is working out so well and someone is not coming to scrape me up off of the floor. 

Easter is tomorrow.  All of my errands outside of the house are done.  I can stay home all day if I want to.  Not sure that I will.  There is a cook at Steak N Shake that I have had my eye on.  My regular waitress is supposed to ask him if he likes guys, if I get there early enough I can ask him myself but that means peeling myself out of bed at 6:30a, not exactly sure that I want to do that on a non work day.  He is kind of worth it but since I am batting a thousand my guess is that he will say he’s only in to girls.  Anyway I will probably have breakfast out tomorrow, may take the truck out to get gas and that would be the extent of my running.  Easter has bad juju for me.  It’s close to the time when I lost the love of my life.  In fact the actual date will be approaching next Monday.  This is a very difficult time of year and I find myself on the sea saw rollercoaster when it comes to emotions and depression.  That is why I am hoping so much for the new job at work, if they wrap this up quickly I hopefully will be able to associate something positive with this time of year instead of reflecting on my loss.  I also usually get an invite to my friends house to celebrate Easter but no such invite this year.  Perfectly okay, I mean to me it’s just another day, really. 

So the guy at work that told me I was only his coworker, well were not speaking to each other.  Anyway, I got a chocolate rabbit for Easter from a friend at work.  I ate the damn thing in like 3 bites.  Serving size said 1 rabbit, I thought that was kind of funny.  Anyway, I took special care of open the box.  I sealed it back up with the insert in it, just no bunny.  Then I placed it on his desk upside down, so when he comes in on Monday he will think he got candy and he won’t have shit.  It is the kind of thing that I would do if we were speaking.  However, this is like revenge.  Now he will probably think that I did it but I am fairly certain he won’t say a thing.  If I am asked I will deny it.  I told the person that gave me the bunny what I wanted to do and I was advised against it.  I was told that door is closed and as much as you hope and want him to open it again, he isn’t going to.  He’s not worth your time, walk away.  Did I listen?  Of course not.  Tell me not to do something and it can turn into motivation to do it. 

Everyone here is doing okay.  Bear needs a bath and the house needs to be cleaned but that is what tomorrow is for.  I am still doing battle with the ants.  I found a couple in the children’s water today.  I cleaned it out and got rid of them.  I don’t see any new ones so hopefully we are done.  I really don’t like them especially when they are on the inside of any part of my house.  Ick.

There you have it all of the low and highlights of the past few days.  Not looking forward to Monday because the guy that is supposed to be on call left.  So they will be asking for a volunteer or maybe they won’t.  Not sure if anyone will notice or say anything.  I am keeping my mouth shut.  The extra money would be nice but I really don’t want the aggravation that comes with it.  I think most of my coworkers feel the same way.  We have to have someone on call and that’s fine just as long as it’s not me.  I’d like to fast forward through the week if possible, get to the good parts and skip any and all of the bad.  Then have the weekend again.  Wouldn’t it be nice if it could work that way?  Probably better it doesn’t work that way because I could see me fast forwarding through my life much like a TV show skipping the commercials.  My life would be over before I knew it. 

So 2 quick jokes and then I am going to go.  How do you catch a unique rabbit?  You neak up on it.  How do you catch a tame rabbit?  Tame way.  Those are my Easter jokes.  Take care and be well.  We shall talk again soon.

How did it go?

Actually very well.  It was short and to the point.  A quick review of my resume, asked me a couple behavioral questions (which I hate) and then we talked about money.  Next step will be an interview with the hiring manager.  Should happen next week.  Apparently they are swamped and really want someone.  However, the posting doesn’t close until the end of next month. 

I am totally ready to talk with the hiring manager, it might be a panel of people not sure just yet.  I don’t think there will be any strangers.  This would also be an autonomous position as the manager is way out west.  I’ve chatted with our office manager and he said that he would envision that I would get an office.  If so it’s just an extra perk that comes with the job.  If not it won’t be the end of the world.  I can imagine that I will move just because people will be stopping by looking for me to help them with their computer trouble. 

I know that if this doesn’t pan out I will be disappointed and probably go into a depression over it.  However, the bright side is that I get to keep my present job.  I hope that only good things happen, this would be an awesome victory if I am successful.  Stay tuned to find out. 

Almost time to go fight traffic and then figure out what I am going to have for supper.  Looking forward to time away from technology for the evening. 

First Step

Late yesterday afternoon HR reached out and I have a phone screen setup this afternoon.  They reserved 30 minutes but who knows if we will use all that time.  If I can convince the HR person that I have the basic skill sets that apply to this position then I will get moved on, otherwise they have the power to kill my chances.  Now that I have had plenty of time to think, I’d really like to give this position a shot so hopefully all goes well.

On the home front some kid rang my door bell last night.  I mean the sign I put up a couple weeks ago pretty well says it all, short of don’t bother me and go away.  I didn’t answer the door and eventually he went away, backpack and clipboard in hand.  I’m thinking he had to be selling something.  If I would have had clothes on I would have answered the door out of sheer curiosity. I personally would hate to be the first person that I answer the door on, because as soon as they tell me they are peddling something I am going to ask if they completed high school and can read the English language.  Then I am going to point to the sign and tell them to go away.  I well remember the door to door sales I made as a kid.  I thought just because I was young people would feel sorry and would buy something, not so.  I got more doors slammed in my face that I thought I would.  It’s a tough lesson to learn but rejection is part of life.  I know it hurts because like I said I have had my fair share but if I saw a sign that said were not interested I would not waste my time and would move on.

I wasted a bunch of time last night trying to get two factor authentication setup for my Facebook account.  It was much harder than it needed to be but after yelling and trying to follow the instructions I had some ideas of my own and tried them, sure enough got it working.  Now I’d like to use Duo instead of a text message code, Facebook authenticates with Duo and it adds the account to my list of accounts but when I put in the key it keeps telling me there was an error.  That has me perplexed and I am not sure that I can move past that point.  However, at least I got the whole 2 factor thing working, which makes me feel a little safer. 

Got to watch The Real O’Neals last night and it was good.  I hope that show stays on for a very long time.  I started to make it through Tosh.O but I got drowsy and decided to call it a night.  Then I had the strangest dream but it was interesting.  Woke up realized that I had about an hour, turned on the heat and used the bathroom.  Summoned Marvin to my room and we eventually fell back asleep only in time for a wake up call.  Morning comes around way too fast!

Looking forward to tonight, spending time with the kids and watching Comedy Wednesday.  Looks like all of my favs will be on.  So hopefully I will be laughing a lot.  Outside of that it’s just normal life stuff and emotions that I am dealing with.  We are rapidly approaching the 3 year anniversary and I find that my emotions and mood reflect that.  I can’t believe my worst nightmare came true and it will be 3 years, still very much feels like yesterday.  I don’t know if it will ever truly age in my mind and if I will loose the feeling that it feels like yesterday, I suppose only time will tell. 

Okay time to start this day of fun.  Happy middle of the week.

Advantage

I have been thinking about the position I applied for.  I am thankful that I had the foresight to reach out and make sure that I wouldn’t have to move.  This morning a little bird filled me with wisdom and I feel like I have the advantage now.  I know all the right things to say, the attributes that I bring to the table that will make me shine.  I found out that the on call will be every 3 weeks and that it’s nothing like on call in my present position.  I kind of feel like I set myself up in that if I get passed over I will be pissed off and want to leave.  I know that my present boss thinks the world of me and I am fairly certain that she doesn’t want to lose me.  She holds a lot of power in tipping this in anyone person’s direction.  I think that she will remain neutral and just let this play out.  At least that is my hope.  Getting used to a new boss and their expectations can be difficult.  I would go from working for a Woman to working for a Man.  It would be a whole new world for me and that is both good and bad.  Right now all I can do is wait and see what happens.  I am glad that I have what I feels like is the advantage, I just hope that it plays into my favor.

I did battle with the ants last night.  Damn there were so many of them.  I felt like they were crawling on me.  I keep finding one here and one there.  I sprayed again and hopefully this does the trick, but I am not convinced of this.  I don’t want any of the children eating any of the ants because they could be laced with poison.  I just want them to be able to enjoy clean and fresh drinking water without ants. 

The squeak in the shower came back to life this morning.  I fixed it, turns out it was in the wand and not the shower head it’s self as I had thought.  Hopefully it stays quiet, I like it that way. 

Finally saw the guy that I had issues with last week.  He just gave me this ice stare and kept on moving without saying a word.  I was talking with someone else so I can see why he wouldn’t speak.  I think that he has built anger or resentment against me, just as I have him.  Time has a way of letting that form after the fact.  I just don’t understand why he wouldn’t consider me a friend that would be the best solution to this. 

I got to watch Quantico last night.  Love me some Graham Rodgers, he is so hot.  The overall premise of the show is what keeps me tuning in but it helps to be able to see a good looking guy. 

I am ready for a nap, really don’t want to be here today but I have to pay my bills.  It sure would be nice to be able to retire.  I’d probably be bored out of my mind but I am willing to give it a go, just need an income to be able to exist.  Maybe I should be looking for a sugar daddy instead of a boyfriend.  Honestly would rather have the BF, money brings problems. 

Well time to head back to the salt mine and keep on working.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Jitters

Well I got the go ahead from the hiring manager that if I apply and am chosen for the position, he wouldn’t require that I move.  Very thankful for that.  So I proceeded to get the paperwork filled out.  There is an on-line part where you tell them who you are and how much money you want as well as send a copy of your resume.  Then there is a separate piece that requires you to fill out an Internal Job Application, which has to be signed by your manager.  I am not crazy about getting her signature but I don’t feel it will be a problem.  I mean nothing is changing because of this, it is just me throwing my hat into the ring.  I am sure that the dollar amount I entered is probably super low.  I did a quick Google search, saw what the mid point was and slightly inflated my number. 

Once I hear back from my manager and get the form signed, I need to send it to HR.  That will officially put me in the running.  I know that there are several internal applicants and I am not sure who or how much experience they have. 

I don’t want to get in over my head, so I will be asking questions when interview time rolls around.  It would suck to find out that I got a job that I can’t preform.  There is minimal travel involved and I am certain that for training they would probably have me travel.  We shall see what the future holds.  If it’s meant to be then it will.  If not well good news I still have my job.