I was on Facebook looking up an old friend who has apparently taken down his page. I also looked for a classmate that I have been trying to find for a long time. Then I saw a friend of the first guy I had sex with, I thought I might find him so I jumped on the trail and it dead ended quickly. Then I saw a group that was formed that had people who had passed away that I went to high school with. I was surprised at some of the names listed, most were people that I knew of but they didn’t really know me. Then it became personal. The first girl to ever ask me out was listed. We were friends, she called it boyfriend and girlfriend but it didn’t last too terribly long. Mostly because I was gay and not interested in her. She was a chunky monkey as was I. I remember those days as if they were yesterday. She had our live all planned out and we were going to have the nice house, with the white picket fence and 2.5 kids. Yeah, it was a nice dream. It didn’t work out and I never told her that I was gay. Hearing that she passed away within the last year was very sad. It made me kind of regret that I never told her. She eventually found a guy, got married and had 2 daughters. The thing that was upsetting to me is that we were within a year of each other age wise and she died from complications to Diabetes, which is something that I have. I don’t know if she had type 1 or 2 – I have type 2 which is controlled by medication. Her death was like a slap in the face about my own mortality and how my eat what I want attitude could easily bring an end to my life, if I am not careful. I’d love to reach out to her husband and see their daughters but unless she spoke of me, I seriously doubt that he would even know who I was. I do feel sorry for him and it’s not fair that he has to be a single parent now. I’m not sure how old their kids are. The sadder thing is that her parents are still alive and no parent should have to bury their child. This is very depressing news. I hope she is resting in peace.
In other news, we did get dumped on with the snow. Depending upon where you are between 5 and 8 inches. My neighbor was shoveling his driveway while I just hopped in my car and left without a care in the world. Unless we get a foot there is no reason for me to shovel, so long as I can get in and out of the driveway. It’s unnecessary work and I have plenty of other things to occupy my time with. I saw kids this afternoon carrying shovels and going from house to house. They of course skipped me, my guess is they saw the sign about solicitors not being welcome. I went to breakfast at Steak N Shake and ordered lunch … nice hot bowl of chili and a Frisco Melt with Fries. Too bad part of the burger was raw. I managed to spend exactly $11, which I find to be rather odd. It was really good. The only thing missing was dessert which I will be consuming in a couple hours. Time for ice cream, which I have been depriving myself of. Then I went on to the grocery store which was practically deserted. It was around 9a and normally they are bustling. I grabbed the few things I needed, managed to spend $60 and left. Home I went, slip sliding all the way. Put everything away, shaved, got a shower and changed into relaxing clothes. Started laundry, surfed the web and then went upstairs to watch TV. I saw a couple of shows and then paused for nap. I saw Bear in his bed, so I decided to lay down next to him and rub his belly. I talked with him a little bit and eventually we settled down and dosed off. I think we both enjoyed our time together and that is something that I need to do more often. He’s a great big boy and he will be gone all too soon. I am trying hard to appreciate him while he is here.
Fast forward a bit and laundry is done. It’s time to feed the beggars their supper and get the trash tamed. I still can’t shake the thoughts from the first paragraph, it’s so hard to believe that she is gone. I kept moving and got my pizza in the oven. I figured the Irish Stew leftovers would be a good thing to have on Monday night. Presto here I am, were all caught up.
One of the shows I watched was Glee. I like the show but more so the people that are in it. One of them being a new cast member Marshall Williams who plays Spencer a gay football player. He is the guy at the top of the blog this month, in case you were wondering. Something about a boy with blond hair and a nice body that just rocks my world. Plus he even had an on screen kiss with another guy. Nice! I liked how the cast pulled off their rendition of Up Town Funk but there is nothing like hearing Bruno Mars sing it.
So the remainder of the night has Shameless and Looking on Tap as well as some ice cream for me, treats for the kids and then there is the matter of getting ready to go back to work tomorrow, which of course after having 3 days off I really don’t want to do. I will have to take another Friday off to have a nice extended weekend again soon. Meanwhile keep in mind that the first day of Spring is on the 20th, which is 3 short weeks away. That doesn’t mean that we are out of the woods with Winter weather but there can’t be too terribly much more.
Here is to hoping for a quick moving, drama and anger free week so that we can once again have the weekend! I am long overdue for a trip to get pie or to visit the smorgasbord, some slightly warmer weather and sunshine on a Saturday would certainly move me in that direction. I am more than ready! Stay warm & safe. Talk with you peeps again soon.
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