Hi everyone, I hope that your all doing well and that the weather is nice in your neighborhood. Here we are at the tail end of the weekend. Saturday’s are so wonderful it feels like time will never end, followed by Sunday and then you know Monday is coming.
Saturday for me was pretty good. I got the documents for the house. I am still waiting on the refund check but I am fairly hopeful that it will arrive next week. If not I will be calling. I took time out to write letters to the Mortgage company which I worked with, to the parent company of the Title Company, to the State Regulatory Agency and finally a thank you letter to the gentleman who helped me out. I was thinking about it, his first name turns me on. I was wondering if perhaps this might be my future partner, I mean stranger things have happened. I extended a lunch invitation to him if he is in my neck of the woods. We work a few blocks from each other. I honestly don’t expect him to take me up on the offer but you never know. I have no idea what he looks like and I have scoured the internet to try to find a photo a face book page, something that will show me. No dice.
I met up with a friend for lunch and we sat and talked for a few hours. It was a nice time. I got invited to her sons graduation in June. He is going to be a State Trooper and the ceremony would be of interest to me. It will mean 1 or 2 nights away from home but I think I might just be able to swing it. Not positive yet.
After lunch was done and I headed home hours had passed since I had eaten so I decided to stop in at Pizza Hut and get what else a Pizza. It was way too greasy and it was starting to affect my stomach. I had to quit and thought for sure I was going to barf, but thankfully that didn’t happen. I made it to the pet food store and got what I needed. The guy who played me wasn’t there. I saw another guy who I think likes me. He always asks me if I need help to the car. I wanted to say oh do you want to help me to the car? I know he wouldn’t because his job is a cashier and perhaps he is just being friendly. He didn’t ask any of the others guys that were in line in front of me. Maybe I look like an old man to him.
Sunday I rolled out of bed hit up Steak N Shake for breakfast. Blueberry Pancakes with Eggs, Sausage and a messed up order of hash browns. Washed it all down with a Diet Coke. Then pushed on to the grocery store. Came home put it all away, realized what I forgot. Then started on house cleaning. I got this new urine remover and it does the trick with the urine but not so much with the stain. I didn’t use it as the instructions said to, I made up my own method. Which was pouring a good amount into the steam cleaner and mixing it with cold water. It foamed up like soap. Then I ran that over the carpet and presto the odor is gone. I broke out a fan and dried the area really good. The fan scared the children. Insty was trapped in the basement and she was screaming but eventually she made it upstairs and past the old wind blower. I took a nap (big shocker) and then got up and fed them lunch. I had some left over pizza and then put away the fan. I put down a pee pad, swapped litter boxes. I had the bigger box in the living room for Bear but since he doesn’t use it, I moved it back in the hall and put the smaller box in the living room on top of the pee pad. Then set up his usual pads around it. Thus far it’s all working and smelling just fine. The windows are open and air is flowing through the house. The true test will be when the windows are closed. I am working on laundry and getting ready for tomorrow. BBQ Shredded Pork or Beef, don’t remember what I got along with Mac & Cheese for supper. That is a different meal for me. Then it will be a dose of Shameless and the season finale of Looking. Then moving on to bed!
I did catch the finale of Glee. It was rather interesting. I am going back and watching it from the start. I tuned in and got hooked a couple years after it had been on the air. So I am sure it will be interesting to see the back story. I also got hooked on a new show called Secrets & Lies starring Ryan Philippe. I’m telling you he is really buff. I know he is straight but looking at him hasn’t hurt my eyes one bit. The show is rather interesting but I’m wondering once the big mystery is solved what the plot of the show will be then or maybe the mystery will never be solved, who knows.
In the world of on line dating I have discovered that there are chat bots on Grindr. I have had exactly the same conversation with three different guys. The big clue is none of them show there complete face. They all tell me that they have been working out and that my response to them is quick. They want me to text them so we can exchange photos. I’ve blocked all three of them. Now I get random group text messages. I’m telling you it’s all related and not an odd coincidence. I pray things don’t get out of hand where I have to change my number. That will cost me money and I will of course have to notify a bunch of people and I really don’t want to go there. Not my idea of a good time. Modern technology though it can be a sneaky thing. I have taken a chance and reached out to a couple guys. One guy would barley carry on a conversation which told me he wasn’t really interested. The others well I am waiting on responses that I am fairly certain will never come. So the search goes on. I still think my chances are better in real life than on an app.
Speaking of which I reached out to a guy that I used to work with. He just married his husband last year. I said that I wanted to talk. We were never really close and I don’t know if he knows I am gay or what happened to me. He hasn’t responded so I am guessing that I have freaked him out and he thinks that I want to sell him something or that I want to tell him about Jesus. Both of which are not the case. My purpose in contacting him was to ask him how to find a guy. Plus I know he has other guy friends that are gay so who knows maybe something could come of this and maybe not. It’s a road that I have thought about traveling but have resisted up to this point. So now I am trying it just to see what happens. Every day that goes by is a day that I won’t get back and it’s a day that brings the ride of life closer to the end. Being all alone is nice on some days but overall I need a constant guy in my life and I think it’s more than time to move forward. I am sure there maybe more heartache in my future and potential breakups, but I will never know if I don’t try. I am not looking to get married overnight, but I want to start to build something that eventually will work into a marriage. Knowing the pain of loss I think will make the second relationship/marriage work so much better because I will live it a little different. Before I knew loss would happen but I didn’t know when and how I would deal with it. Now I have experienced it I know not to take a second for granted. I just hope that when I find my prince he can cook because this frozen food is crap and I am ready for some real food every night of the week.
That’s all I have for now. Moving to put away laundry and prep for supper. I’ve got some Vanilla Coke Zero for this week. I am hoping it is really good! The bills are starting to stack up so that means we are close to the end of the month and another pay cycle, in which my money will vaporize right before my very eyes. It’s a vicious cycle but I am glad that things are moving in what appears to be an upward direction. That is the only way I want to go is up, higher & higher each and every day. Until I reach total and complete happiness.
Here’s hoping that the roses are blooming in your world and life is treating you well. I shall talk with you peeps later. Have a great week!
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